All language subtitles for PSYCHOLOGIST EPISODE 36 [VIKI]

♫ With no specter to cut off the waves ♫

♫ With no halo bestowed by heaven ♫

♫ I should admit I was born ordinary ♫

♫ But I'm not resigned to the silence on stage ♫

♫ Break it down ♫

♫ I'm taking over now ♫

♫ Tough it out. That's what I'm all about ♫

♫ We are destined to break through a mental wall ♫

♫ To unlock a ray of light ♫

♫ We know there will be infinite waves ♫

♫ Getting in my way ♫

♫ They will build up into roads that enable me to climb high and see far ♫

♫ To test me, inspire me, make me and give me courage ♫

♫ I am the master ♫

♫ Of my own destiny ♫

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Episode 36

So pretty.

Why are you in such a leisurely mood today?

I happened to pass by a florist.

The girls gave this to me.

It tastes very good.

Try it.

Tell me more about your new book.

How's it going?

The sweethearts in the book

have become man and wife.

However,

when two people's conjugal relations

are endowed with family responsibilities,

time and trivialities

wear away the love between them.

But at the same time, they've also found

a brand-new side in each other.

A less-known side.

When they show their less-known side,

do they love each other more?

To me,

it's like a man flying a kite

and the kite in his hand.

And that kite string is a bond between them.

You can take it up or put it down.

But that string

will never break off.

Nobody is a kite.

It's quite tasty.

You have a good apprentice.

He Dun.

She's smart and kind-hearted.

Yes.

She's quite talented.

So I've left all your
remaining therapy sessions

to her.

Does the kite want to be free?

Now I've finally got to know

why you hated Professor Ji so much

and why you hated me so much.

What do you mean?

Nothing.

Anyway, I understand everything you did.

Even if we can't be friends later on, I hope

we can both move on

and start a new life.

He Dun,

if I could have met you

and you guys earlier,

maybe I'd be able to have a new life.

But it's too late now.

He Dun, I'm sorry.

I am a sinner.

Because love is a topic of everyone's concern.

It has a much bigger

probability of occurrence to the ordinary people

than those uncanny events.

What's more, the previous generation,

due to restraints of the times,

had little chance to tell their stories.

But things are different now.

Times have changed

and society has also progressed.

I'm sure they'll have many good stories

and good experience to share.

What's more, stories of the 1990s

are not so long ago from young people nowadays.

They are stories of people

of their parent's generation.

I'm sure they'll show an interest.

What do you think, Director Fei?

You have a point.

We've developed a group of

new and young audience.

But our radio station also has a base of

middle-aged and elderly audience, right?

So this is definitely going to be

a perfect bridge which can connect

the young audience

with the middle-aged audience.

What you said sounds quite attractive to me.

But if you listen carefully,

can you hear the sound of cash pouring down?

Director Fei, I absolutely hear the sound

of cash pouring down.

Please support me once.

What's your account t number?

Hold your horses, Director Fei.

Let's go through

the normal procedure of budget approval.

Stop daydreaming.

Do you think the radio station will approve it?

I'm gonna pay out of my own pocket

and it's a loan to you.

You pay out of your own pocket?

You support me with your pension money?

Enough, enough, enough.

Cut the crap.

Stop dissing me.

I'm making an investment

with the money to top up my account

of The Marvelous Snail.

All right?

Thank you, Director Fei.

Do a good job.

Don't worry.

I'll never let you down, Director Fei.

OK.

Come back, come back.

You must be responsible for my old-age care.

Don't worry.

I'll definitely give you a clear

and proper breakdown of costs.

I'll buy virtual game equipment for you when I make money.

I'm off.

OK.

I'm off, Director Fei.

Brat.

The marvelous Snail

I'm back.

I've seen you, my little baby.

Whose golf paraphernalia is this?

Do you play golf?

How can I play golf?

Yesterday, your Uncle Xu

came to give me a live fish as big as this.

He left this thing here.

Go wash your hands. Wash your hands.

I'll cook fish for you when you are done washing your hands.

Shall I return this to Uncle Xu for you

when I go later?

No, no, no.

He'll get it himself when he comes to think of it.

And I can also bring it to him

when I go for a walk.

Hurry up, hurry up. Go wash your hands.

Go wash your hands.

Mom, why do we have men's clothes at home?

Whose clothes are they?

They are…

Are you dizzy?

Yes, I feel dizzy again.

What are we gonna do then?

Shall I take you to the hospital again?

There's no need to go to the hospital.

We've been there.

It also costs a lot.

I'm not going.

Mom, look at me.

Look at me.

I see.

Are you dating Uncle Xu?

Li, keep an eye on the hotline for me.

I'll be right back.

OK.

But I can't do you this favor for nothing.

Qian.

How are you getting on with it?

Have you figured it out? What's the problem?

OK, I see.

I'm on it.

Go on with your other work.

OK.

Qian, what were you carrying?

Some daily necessities given by our radio station.

Divvy them up among yourselves later.

OK.

Auntie Zhao, this is lily rose tea.

You haven't been sleeping well these days, have you?

You are right.

Over the past few days, I almost

couldn't sleep a wink all night.

What were you thinking

when you couldn't fall asleep?

More often than not, I thought about

arranging my daughter to meet her father.

I'm worried that if it's still not the time to meet,

their meet will only put a strain on their relationship.

I care about my daughter.

After that,
things will probably be even harder.

You think

keeping your daughter from seeing her father

is better for her, don't you?

My daughter

probably has too deep resentment towards her father.

But what her father did at that time was indeed

too intolerable.

I surely understand his
agony of losing our son.

He's your younger brother.

But

Dun and I were in agony too.

I was Jun's mother

and Dun was Jun's older sister.

Both of us saw Jun drowning with our own eyes.

Were we not distressed?

Our distress was indeed greater than his.

I also have another agony,

which is that I even dare not show my agony

to my daughter.

I'm afraid if I grieve too much,

the child will wonder if mom has regretted it,

regretted that her younger brother should be saved first

instead of her.

Mom, what are you doing standing over there?

Could it be that you shouldn't have saved me?

Could it be that if you saved my younger brother,

dad wouldn't leave us

and leave this house?

As you know, since I've lost Jun,

I don't want to lose my daughter again.

I'm afraid of hurting her.

I especially don't want her father

to hurt her again.

Sometimes I ask myself:

Was I not being brave enough?

Had I been braver

by holding tightly onto my husband and Dun,

would our family have
been able to pull through?

Auntie Zhao, you were being brave enough

and strong enough.

Thank you.

You are the first one to tell me this.

Thank you.

I know.

In psychology, there is a concept and ritual

called Loss and Mourning.

It refers to a process of dealing with loss,

separation and grief.

During such a process, people can easily have

negative emotions, such as altercation, blame,

guilt, grief and so on.

Once these emotions cannot be expressed

or dealt with properly,

they are likely to affect people for the rest of their lives.

Does that mean I shouldn't have stopped

their altercations and anger?

How to part with close family members

is a subject most of people

are reluctant to face.

But once such kind of emotion

cannot be expressed, it's very likely

to turn into a kind of morbidity.

Therefore, as I see it,

when Jun was gone, each of your family members

should be allowed to express your grief

and your negative emotions.

Flowers, plants

and vegetables.

You are living a comfortable life.

It's good.

But it just seems something is missing.

I also often think

something seems to be missing.

It is the fragrance of my tea that is missing.

Are we gonna drink yours or mine?

Now that I'm here, of course we'll drink yours.

You've really picked a good place.

Come rain or shine,

you hunker down here

to drink tea and look at the sky.

I spend more time looking at the earth.

Watching these things being planted

and slowly growing out again.

That's interesting.

One crop after another.

Just like people.

Over and over again.

You seemed to be taking things easy like this

when you were a young man.

What's the point of being hasty?

Being too hasty

or too radical

can easily make one trip and fall.

Later on, I often wondered

if life would be any easier

had I slowed down my pace

and been less adventurous.

Then I figured it out.

Throughout a man's life,

from the moment he was born,

how much rice to eat, how many miles to walk

and how much ease and comfort to enjoy,

these are all predestined.

What will come will always come.

Not one thing less.

You are the one who knows this best.

I do.

I'm even staying hidden here.

I can't stay away from disputes though.

Speaking of disputes,

how are you getting on with that thing?

Do you need help?

I can't lend a helping hand

for things of the Psychological Society.

But I can get one or two media outlets

to stick up for you.

It's not that I didn't want help.

That thing came so suddenly and seamlessly that

I didn't know how to work it out.

Forget it.

I'm getting old.

I want no more drama.

Let's just say

I'm willing to take it lying down.

You seldom come to visit.

You are not just here to drink tea, are you?

Of course not.

Actually, I have a favor to ask.

Go ahead.

Help me find someone.

Let me hear the name

of the man even you can't find in this world.

My wife.

Fu Tang.

Lili,

although this restaurant is in a remote location,

it is the seafood restaurant

with the best reputation in our City H.

I know.

It's quite a famous restaurant.

Eat more later.

Don't restrain yourself.

Mom, this is Lili.

Lili.

Hello, auntie and uncle.

What a pretty girl she is!

Hello, uncle, auntie.

Take a seat, take a seat.

Hello, hello, hello.

Auntie, uncle, I bought

two pieces of clothes for you.

I don't know whether you'll like them or not.

Thanks a lot. Thanks.

There's even one piece for me.

It's very considerate of you.

Jin told me your sizes.

If they are wrong,

people can come to your doorstep for an exchange.

Yes.

vip.com offers convenient product exchange services.

OK. OK.

By the way, Lili, I've also

prepared a gift for you.

Be quick to open it and see if you like it.

Thank you, auntie.

Be quick.

Auntie, no, this is too costly.

I can't take it.

It's not, it's not.

It's a little something for you.

It's the first time Jin has shown his girlfriend

to us.

Early this morning,

I was so happy that I became nervous.

Now I have an affinity with you.

Get along well with Jin.

If he makes you upset, just tell me

and I'll teach him a lesson.

Mom, I won't.

Auntie… Take it, take it.

But I really can't take this.

Its' not costly, not costly.

Take it easy.

It's OK.

Take it.

Be quick. Be quick to put it away. Be quick to put it away.

Thank you, auntie.

Excuse me, one more coconut
chicken soup please.

This is a seafood restaurant.

Why do you order chicken soup?

You know nothing.

Don't bother.

It is good

to have some chicken soup in this season.

It's good for your health.

Thank you, auntie.

Lili, are you parents both in City H?

Well, my mother is running

a small grocery store here.

We don't live together,

but I often go to see her.

There are only me and my mother in my family.

Really not easy for her.

Your mother must have endured a lot of hardships.

Jin, go and see her often in the coming days.

Take more care of her.

Here's the chicken soup.

Here's the chicken soup.

Be quick.

Here, Lili, help yourself while it's hot.

Thank you, auntie.

Thank you, auntie.

Professor.

You are out of breath.

Go in to have a glass of water first.

I have something to ask you.

You are in such a rush.

What's the big deal?

It's about your personal affairs.

Is it because you are in a relationship

that you begin to love gossips?

Fu Tang is Jiahui's mother.

Do you know that?

The look on your face shows you know.

Then why did you keep it a secret from us

that you are Jiahui's adoptive father?

And pretend you didn't know him?

Who told you

I'm Jiahui's adoptive father?

I'm not Jiahui's adoptive father,

and I'm even less likely to have sent Fu Tang

to a psychiatric hospital.

What are you looking at?

Ye Jiahui

Why is it him again?

Why do you bring him up?

He Dun.

I've been looking for you for a long time.

I'm Ye Jiahui.

Same as you thought.

Hope you'll trust me.

I study psychiatry to heal myself.

When I was seven,

my mother abandoned me and left.

Mom… And she's never shown up again.

Why do I always feel I was already dead

when I was seven?

His mother abandoned him when he was seven.

Mom!

Don't go!

Mom! Mom!

Mom!

Was that little boy Ye Jiahui?

Mental hospital

F's client file 99-00 Did this F use to be

Li Yun's visitor before?

You are sending the file so early.

Is it about a special case?

Ji Mingcong On the sampling registration form

I saw Professor Ji's name.

What happened to Jiahui is not that simple.

I will never provide any information

about my visitor again.

Behind this there must be

a bigger plot that lies hidden.

Everything you want to know is in here.

Who gave it to you?

Shut up!

Fu Tang is the patient F

Professor Ji has been secretly protecting

and studying.

Who's this?

You often go to the sanatorium these days

to see her, right?

Coincidentally, she also told me a story.

Do you have a child of your own?

Mom… A son.

-He was only seven. -Mom…

His adoptive father

sent me to a psychiatric hospital.

Mom…

Mom…

The two of us

have never met again.

My goodness. I'm completely dumbfounded.

They are not the same thing at all.

And are you sure they were telling

the same story?

I'm sure.

Because they mentioned the same person.

My grandma

has been in ill health these couple of years.

Now I'm working as a health consultant

at the nursing home where she's staying,

so it's easier to take care of her.

I brought Jiahui up since he was a child.

Actually, Grandma Yun and I

are not blood relations.

Grandma Yun?

The one we've seen before?

From that day on,

Grandma Yun began to raise Jiahui

as her own child.

What about that man?

Who is that man?

In Ye Jiahui's narrative,

he doesn't seem to have mentioned that man.

This is also the thing that puzzles me a lot.

If we piece the two stories together,

I think the truth would be…

Mom! Mom! Mom!

Mom! Mom! Mom!

Mom! Mom! Mom!

His adoptive father

sent me to a psychiatric hospital.

The adoptive father.

The adoptive father?

Exactly.

Jiahui's adoptive father was an eccentric man.

That's to say his mother

did not abandon little Ye Jiahui

and was forcibly taken to a psychiatric hospital

by his adoptive father?

But why does Ye Jiahui hate him so much?

Who is this man?

Is it Professor Ji?

No way.

I believe in the professor.

So Jiahui's adoptive
father as Fu Tang mentioned

is definitely not the professor.

It should be someone else.

So mysterious.

No wonder I found nothing about his family background

no matter how hard I tried back then.

Who exactly is he?

Why does Jiahui conceal his identity?

Professor Ji is not your
adoptive father, is he?

I've never said he is.

It's just that you think he is.

You didn't ask me to come today

just for this, did you?

To keep defending Ji Mingcong?

You are thinking too much.

I asked you to come today

out of care of a friend.

Do you think everybody in this world

is an angel?

And all the problems can be solved

with psychological counseling?

I got close to you

to take revenge on Ji Mingcong.

I was just taking advantage of you.

Be it out of sincerity or exploitation,

I believe you must have a reason

for doing what you did.

If you really

only wanted to take revenge on him,

why didn't you just go to see him

instead of getting close to me

and Li Yun with much ado?

Have you heard a saying that

"In order to hurt someone

you must attack his soft underbelly?"

Are you doing it for the File on F?

If this is what you asked me

to come here for today,

you are likely to be disappointed.

Everybody has a secret

that one doesn't want others to know.

Aren't you the same?

I'll see you later.

You are looking for someone, aren't you?

Would you like to go and see her with me?

When did you begin to like candies?

Auntie Fu gave them to me last time.

Don't be angry anymore.

Since you've already come,

don't pull a long face, OK?

Smile.

I'm worried about you seeing him alone.

What's there to be worried about?

I'm a living person, in broad daylight,

what can he do to me?

I'm worried about you.

You like fussing over others' problems.

If in an unguarded moment

I don't keep an eye on you, you'll

drag yourself into it.

The thing is, since I've got to know

Auntie Fu is his mother,

I can't just brush it aside, right?

I think you are just being soft on that brat.

No matter how tragic his past is, it can't be

a reason for the mistakes he's made, right?

I didn't say I'll forgive him.

Just that I don't think anybody can stop him

from seeing his mother.

But given Auntie Fu's current condition,

can she recognize him?

I'm not sure about that.

I don't know

whether she can recognize him or not.

Humanity is so strange.

If he does anything extreme,

I can only protect you.

I won't be able to take care of Auntie Fu.

What extreme things can he do?

Don't worry.

I've told him

as long as Auntie Fu doesn't recognize him,

he won't expose himself.

Did he agree?

To be frank, if I were him,

I'd certainly have lots of questions.

But now I had to bottle them up.

He's having a hard time too.

He can't help it.

Given Auntie Fu's current health condition,

she can't stand any shocks.

There's no better way.

What's more, to be frank, I'm not sure

whether he'll come or not.

Let me have a look.

We are five minutes away from the agreed time.

I'm gonna wait another five minutes with you.

If he doesn't show up,

just go home with me obediently.

I'll do what you say.

Is this what she usually does?

Based on observations from the record,

she has improved a lot

in controlling her emotions

since she moved to the sanatorium.

At least on the last two occasions of my visit,

she looked quite happy.

She's been in therapy,

but she still forgot a lot of things.

So she doesn't remember me now?

To say nothing of what she can remember,

as to her current situation, shouldn't we

do something first to stop her?

There's nothing you can do now

as long as she's not harming herself.

The only thing we can do now is to observe.

According to my observation,

she must be looking for something.

Everybody can see that, OK?

What's she looking for?

I don't know.

If she knows what she's looking for,

maybe some of her memories have come back.

I found it.

I found it!

Auntie Fu.

What have you found?

A drawing.

What drawing?

Could you bring it over

for us to have a look together?

I know who you are.

You know who I am?

Do they

both like you?

Aunt…Auntie Fu, aren't you going to show us

the drawing?

The drawing you are holding…

I've thought of a game.

Let's play it together.

OK.

Let's play it together too,

OK?

What do you need me to do?

Acting.

Acting out what I say.

OK.

Don't move.

I told you not to move.

I can't agree to this relationship.

The two of them fell for each other

when they met for the first time.

Is that love at first sight?

What's wrong with love at first sight?

I think it's quite good.

Do you have a different opinion on this setting?

I have no objection to this setting.

But I think I… can better inhabit the role.

You see, he keeps getting stuck.

If I were him,

I could inhabit the role in a second.

Do you also want to swap your role?

What exactly is the man I'm playing like?

Like a mountain.

Like a mountain?

Why do you say that?

Like a mountain, he's steady,

stubborn

and unshakeable.

Like a mountain, he rejects no dirt or dust.

I will not move.

Go on drawing.

Why don't you talk?

Didn't you ask me not to move?

You can move your lips.

Tell me what was going on?

The Psychological Society

approved my application

and I went there on short notice for a meeting.

Was that nuisance society

more important than me?

I called the housekeeper in advance

to say I'd be late.

Did you tell me that?

Did I say OK?

So didn't I rush here

as soon as the meeting was over?

Come down.

You've finished it so soon?

It's not hard.

Aren't you playing favorites?

Haven't you arranged

a childhood sweetheart role for me?

When will it be my turn?

I can't wait.

What's the rush?

It's your turn now.

He's an ambitious man.

He has undivided attention

and is never distracted.

We grew up together.

I don't think there would be someone else

who knows him better than I do.

This is supposed to be their first encounter.

Back then I didn't expect

there'd be so many stories

that had yet to happen.

No, no.

You guys don't know each other yet.

Then have we met before?

As you know, he's a psychological counselor

brought in by the girl's family.

What about him?

What's his attitude to me?

He…

has heard nothing about you.

I'm his love rival anyway.

He doesn't even know who I am.

Maybe the man I'm playing has been

thinking nothing of you from start to finish.

Didn't you just say you are a good actor?

Don't bring in your personal feelings.

Keep it up.

I can't do that.

I said long before now that you are gonna make it.

Why do you always have so much faith in me?

Do I have a good eye?

Yes.

You have a very good eye.

Will I be cured if I take this?

This is the thing the man has been doing

with the greatest sense of urgency

for his beloved woman
over the past eight years.

But now…

There's only one step away from curing her.

Maybe

he's just afraid there'll be something wrong with the medicine.

When he's doing anything, if he thinks too much

and only cares about loss and gain,

he'll only have more to lose.

You are not him after all.

For a man like him, no matter how eager he is,

he's used to waiting.

So guess what he'll say next?

Not now.

Why?

Now the medicine

is still in Phase 2 of clinical trials.

It hasn't got the official approval document yet.

Then I'll

try it first.

Let's wait a bit more, OK?

I'm not yet 100% sure.

I promise you it'll be a success soon.

OK?

It'll be a success soon.

I'll keep it with me.

No.

We've agreed

that the first pill you make

will be given to me as a gift.

All right then.

I promise you.

But can I keep it for you for the moment?

When I get the official approval document,

I'll give it to you as soon as I can.

OK?

I don't want it.

Look at you.

Why are you angry again?

Let's do it this way.

I don't want your gift.

Let's make a deal.

Don't you always want me

to draw a painting for you?

Now I'll draw it for you.

But this little pill

must be kept with me.

Jiahui, you are here.

Come on in.

I have something for you.

This… This is hers.

Do you have anything else to say?

I'm going if you don't.

Jiahui.

I…I've cooked some food.

If you are not busy…

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