All language subtitles for 1SuccesAngela Black s01e04n s02e03.Hunting

- I would really
like to call my children.

- It's not up to me.

I'm sorry.

You could speak to the doctors,
when you're all checked in.

- What must they be thinking?

Just five minutes.

Please. If I could, If I could

just have five minutes to call them.

- I'm sorry.

Come on.

- I'm Dr Priya Gurinda.

I'm the Consultant Psychiatrist here.

I'll be your Responsible Clinician.

That means any problems
or questions or issues,

you come straight to
me. I can also find you

an independent mental health-

- I'd just like to sleep.

- Of course, would you like
Trisha to show you around first,

let you get acquainted with the facility?

- Come on.

I'm gonna ask you again,
have you got anything

on you that could harm you or anyone else?

- No

- Okay, I'll take you to your room.

It does get a bit noisy
here, you'll get used to it.

Your husband packed this suitcase
with your belongings for you.

Bathroom's through there.
I'm gonna leave this form

on the side here, for when you're ready,

and there will be a doctor coming by

to give you a check
over, about eight, 8:30,

in the meantime, you're free

to walk about the ward, all right?

I know it doesn't seem like it right now,

but we are here to help you, Angela.

- My name's Ed Harrison.

I help people out with things.

- You have to push
the 'filter' button first,

give it a second to warm up.

- Thank you, it's my first day.

- I could tell.

- Everything's gonna be okay.

Angela?

- There is no Ed.

How do you explain the book.?

I don't know it's a book.

- Did you
manage to get some rest?

- Some.

- And have you had a
chance to look around now?

Get used to the place?

- Bit like being in a crap hotel.

Guess that's the idea, isn't it?

Try and make you forget
you've just been committed

to 28 days on a psychiatric ward?

- You're only gonna be here
as long as you have to be.

- So, who decides when
I can leave, is it you?

Just tell me what I need to do.

- It's not a test, we just wanna help you.

- You can help by letting
me speak to my children.

- We've talked with your husband,

and when he feels they're ready.

- So, it's up to him?

- The
support of your family's

gonna be crucial for your recovery.

- Support, right, yeah,
like handing over that book.

I started reading it.

- And?

- And it's what it looks like,
a badly written thriller.

If I was gonna steal
a story from anywhere,

I would've chosen better source material.

- It unsettled you?

- It didn't unsettle me, it made me angry.

Okay, fine.

When I read, when I mark
my place, I don't fold

over the top corner, I
fold over the bottom.

This book even though I've never read it,

there were marks on the bottom corners.

My husband did it.

That's why he gave the police the book.

Because he wants to mess with me.

- And why would he do that?

- Because he wants the children!

He wants them and he wants me gone.

- But if that's what he wants,
doesn't he already have it?

Why go to the bother of
turning pages in a book?

I want to help you, Angela
and there are things

we can do medication you can take.

It's called quetiapine,
it's very well tolerated.

- I don't need it.

- Angela, what you're going
through is very serious.

We believe you're
experiencing a breakdown,

an agitated psychosis
and given your history

and the struggles with your mental health,

I think it could really help you.

- What are you doing?

- We're all downstairs.

We're waiting.

We're waiting for you.

Answer me.

Angela?

- I can't.

- You mean you don't want to.

I'll get him, get dressed, now.

You're wasting everyone's time.

- This doesn't fit
properly, it's too tight.

- That's the one I chose.

- But I'd just feel more comfortable

wearing something else.

- Keep it on, let's go.

Come on.

- That's beautiful,
can an we see little Max?

- No, no.

- I thought the whole
point was, that you wanted

a picture with the three of us together.

- When I look at this picture on our wall,

I want to remember a happy family moment.

- So, face him the other way,
'cause if we can't see it

then he's not crying all the time?

- Smile.

- Is this Max, you're a good boy.

- Let's
talk about Edgewater.

- Why?

- You must see the similarities.

- I don't talk about that.

- Well perhaps it's time you did.

Angela, it's happened before.

- Hey, that was lovely.

I hope they're paying you well for that.

- What do you want, Mum?

- I shouldn't have to find
you online like some stalker.

I shouldn't have to come
down here to your work,

but I've called and called,
and you just ignore me.

I haven't even met the baby yet.

I'd like to have him
christened in my church.

- When did you call?

- Look, I know I made a lot
of mistakes, I do know that

and I know you're angry with
me and I don't blame you,

and at the end of the day, you know,

there's just you and me, isn't there?

I mean we're the only family we've got.

- I've got my own family.

- I know, but it
wasn't all bad was it?

- I have an appointment
in fifteen minutes, Mum.

I'm gonna have to go, so-

- Look. I've not been well

and there's nothing more
they can do for me now.

So, I just wanted you to know, is all.

And I thought maybe we could-

- I have to go.

- Oh love, don't, please don't.

- It's early, no?

- My mum came to the hotel today.

- I see.

- How many times has she called for me?

- A few.

- Did she say why?

- She did.

- And you didn't think to pass

on the message that my mother's dying?

- Of course, I did.

How could you think that?

I thought about it a lot,
about you. about your mother,

about everything that
happened between you.

But we agreed, did we not?

All those years ago,
that you were better off

and every time she came
back to you demanding,

not asking but demanding your forgiveness.

- I know, but-

- You sound just like her, now,
just coming up with excuses.

- She's got no one.

- And whose fault is that?

She forfeited her right to
call herself your mother.

She left you when you
were a child, Angela.

Then when she finds
herself at rock bottom time

and time again, she comes
to you seeking absolution.

- This is different.

- No, my love, it's not.

It is not at all.

- She's still my mother.

- You owe her nothing.

You're tired, stressed.

It's time to leave that job at the hotel.

You have new responsibilities now.

- Sorry, you don't
have a lighter do you?

I made a life you could never
have imagined living, normal.

Do you ever just look
across at yourself at night

and wonder, who are you
really when I am not there?

- I finished the book.

- And?

- And it's a story and it's not real

and I know that because I'm
reading it in a book.

That's obvious.

The difference in my life, I know, right?

I know what I'm seeing is real,

except you're saying that I don't.

- Well when we're under a lot
of stress, when we're pushed

in ways we aren't used to,
sometimes it's too much.

- So, I just woke up and
imagined I was talking

to some guy called Ed
because I read a book.

That's what you're saying?

- Look, psychosis is
just an umbrella term,

it describes all kinds of conditions,

but essentially, during
a breakdown like this,

it's like your brain is
experiencing stress overload

and while it seems to
come out of the blue,

there are early warning signs,

Loss of appetite. Inability to sleep-

- If what you are saying is right, then,

I just don't know...

then how am I supposed
to trust what I see?

I mean like you?

Are you here?

Or is just nothing?

- It seems the focus of
your issues is your husband.

You've said before he's controlling.

We can talk about that.

- So, we talk and talk
but I'm still not allowed

to see my own children
until a judge says I can.

- Angela, you will get better.

But even when you leave
here, we're looking to find

a new normal for you,
with Edgewater and this-

- You said there is medication.

- You're ready?

- Whatever you think I need, I'll take it.

I need to be better.

- Okay, but
this isn't a quick fix,

we still need to talk about Edgewater.

- Ssh, ssh, ssh, ssh.

Hello?

- Love, it's me, I got your number

from the bar at the
hotel, I hope that's okay,

I just wondered if you had time-

- No, Mum now's not a good time.

- When is?

Please-

- I don't know, not now, okay, I am sorry.

- Angela.

- Shh, it's okay, it's okay.

Stop, fucking stop.

Please, please, please stop,
God just make him stop.

I just want some peace, please.

Please, just fucking stop!

Hello?

- Hello, is that Angela Black?

- Angela Meyer, Black's my maiden name.

- I'm a registrar at St Mary's.

Your mother is Sally Black?

- Yeah.

- - I'm sorry, your mother

was admitted to hospital last night.

We did all we could but at
two o'clock this morning

her heart stopped and
we couldn't revive her.

I'm sorry.

Angela?

- Angela?

Angela?

- Let's
talk about Edgewater.

- It's him or you, Angela.

It has to be tonight.

This is about doing what
you have to to survive.

- Angela,
it's happened before.

- You have to push the filter button first

and give it a second to wake up.

First day?

- Yeah.

- You'll get used to it.

- Thank you.

- And are you

experiencing any other side-effects?

- No, just the dry mouth and the headache.

- Any dizziness, drowsiness?

- No.

- Excellent and do you feel

the medication is making a difference?

- I do. I really do, I I
feel I'm clearer I suppose.

- I'm pleased to hear that.

- I've been thinking
a lot about Edgewater.

- That's good.

- It's not, it's hard.

When I think about it, about me,

it's like I'm watching someone else.

and I watch her, and I
want to stop her, stop me-

- The woman in Edgewater, the woman

holding the rifle when
the police found her,

that wasn't you, not
who you are right now.

- I told myself it was
because of the baby.

I could've lost him.

- But you didn't.

- And now I've done it again.

- She threw herself into
the life of the church

even towards the end of
her journey here on Earth.

She taught us to remain
strong in the face of death,

which of course is part of
every human being's journey

in order that we may be
reunited with Christ in Heaven.

And I know that it would bring
her great comfort knowing

her daughter and grandson
were here with us today.

- Hi.

- So, this is her grandson?

Beautiful, he has your eyes.

You should ask for them back.

How are you coping?

Are you okay?

I am, it's just it's just this baby

you see, something happened.

- What happened?

- He hasn't stopped crying
since the day he was born.

It hasn't been easy.

But the thing is, Father, when
Mum died,

and I mean the exact time she went,

this silence just washed over him.

Even his face changed.

His expression it was like someone else's

breath was filling up his lungs.

All the tension went out
of his hands and his feet,

and it was like, it was
like this light went

on inside his bones and I,
I could see it in his skin.

It was a miracle.

Really, in that moment it was like,

God was speaking through Max.

Does that make sense, father?

- Well, he shows himself in
the most extraordinary ways.

- Yeah.

Yes, he does, doesn't he?

Thank you.

- He shows himself in
the most extraordinary ways.

- And there's nothing
more they can do for me now.

- When my mum died, it was

like this light went over him.

- We are united with Christ.

- It was a miracle.

- When you
look back at that time

what does it look like?

- It looks like what it is.

Pretty bloody obvious to everyone but me.

- Just around the corner, yeah, perfect.

- Sorry, I didn't know
you were gonna be home.

- I came back early, I missed you.

Where have you been?

- Just for a walk.

- A walk?

- Yeah.

- I called, you didn't pick up.

- Oh, my phone must be on silent.

- Why is it on silent?

- He's asleep, I didn't wanna disturb him.

- Just a walk?

- Just a walk.

- It rained, didn't it?

- A bit, around three, but not for long.

We stopped under a bus shelter.

- Are you're okay?

- I'm okay.

Can you believe it?

- Believe what?

- He's been like this all night.

- Then you
should have come to bed.

You haven't slept for days.

- Does he seem different to you?

- Yeah, sure.

- Are you listening?

- Mm-hmm.

- He's changed, Olivier.

- Well, they go through phases.

I'm late.

- He can't see it, can he?

He can't see at all.

- But it felt
real, to you, at the time?

- It did.

It felt like this chair, like you

and me sitting, here talking right now.

It felt, felt like the most
real thing in the world.

This is your moment.

This is your big day.

I am the luckiest mummy in the world, aren't I?

Do you want to show them,
so that everyone can see?

Are you ready?

Come on then.

Let's show them what you can
do, walk on the water, Max.

Show them what you can do.

- Lady, what are doing?

- Oh wow. It's really coming along.

- I don't know, I haven't quite-

- I can tell you went to art school.

Who is it?

- I don't know, someone I met once, maybe.

- What did you feel, drawing him?

- Nothing.

- She is doing really well...

- Good, she's good, oh,
hi Angela, how are you?

- Good.

- Hi

- Hi.

- This is Nasrin, she's going

to be your care coordinator.

- Good to meet you.

- We've been so pleased with
all the work you've been

doing since you've been
with us, and Nasrin's

gonna be across how that
continues going forward.

- I'd like to meet with you
once a week, if that was okay,

and we can drop that down
to fortnightly in time.

Now, do you know where you'll be staying?

We'll need to make sure you have

the details of your
community psychiatrist.

- Okay.

- You're getting out.

- Well, she Air BnBs to disappointed travellers,

but I think you've got awhile

before anyone else is booked in so-

- Thank you.

- Oh that's all right, love.

Yeah. Like I said, it's
not exactly the Ritz,

not that I've ever been to
the Ritz, might be shit.

- Honestly, this is great, thanks.

- I'll make you a cuppa.

- Oh, I'm fine.

- Milk, no sugar.

- Yeah.

I'm really grateful for this.

Everyone seems very busy all of a sudden.

People think I'm Joan of Arc.

- Well people Talk, whatever.

You had a moment.

- A moment.

- You don't have to talk about it.

- I don't mind, it
helped a lot being there.

- What about the charges, are they?

- Dropped, they gave me a caution.

Thanks.

- They miss you at work, you know.

- Do they?

- What, you look surprised.

- Well, I'm hardly the life and soul.

I never go to the drinks
after work, or parties-

- No one judges you, love.

- Yeah, well maybe I'll
come to the next one.

- That'd be nice.

- Honestly, I can't thank
you enough for all of this.

- You needed help and you deserve help.

Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

- Does your sister know you've

let a crazy person live in her flat?

- Don't talk
about yourself like that.

- It's true.

- No, you've got your struggles
just like the rest of us.

- It won't be
long until we go in...

and remember what I was saying earlier.

- Mr. and Mrs Meyer.

- Here we go, so as I was saying,

the judge will take into account.

- It's just for now.

- Four hours a week?

How can they say I'm a
danger to my own children?

- They'll review it.

This isn't permanent,
it, it's just baby-steps

until we can find a-

- Hey, wait.

- Angela, don't, Angela this won't help.

Give these to the boys for me.