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(glass breaking)

(gentle music)

(gentle music)

- [James] I'm better now.

I think it helped.

- [Richard] That's good.

- [James] Have
thing's been busy?

- [Richard] Things are
always busy, James.

- I was thinkin', I
could just rent a U-Haul

and drive myself to Boston.

That way you don't
have to leave the farm.

What do you think?

- We need to talk about
you going to college.

(dramatic music)

James.

- That was my money.

You had no right to use it.

- Sometimes life isn't fair.

We both know that.

There were hospital bills

and a funeral had
to be paid for.

Not to mention your treatment.

Look, I've been puttin' some
money away while you were gone.

So, if you can just help me
with the harvest next Fall,

then maybe you can go
to college in a year.

- I already deferred
my enrollment once

to give my spot
to somebody else.

- I'm doin' my best, James.

Jesus.

(dramatic music)

- [Therapist] When
was the last time

you fantasized
sexually about men?

- About four months
ago, I guess.

- Nothing since then?

No dreams?

Daydreams?

- No.

- What about women?

- I think about women often.

- And what do you think
about while you masturbate?

- I don't masturbate.

- You looking forward
to going home?

- [James] No, I've had
a very nice time here.

- I'm not trying to trick you.

- I'm sure it'll be very nice.

- Have you spoken to
your father lately?

- He called on my birthday.

- Oh, how's he doin'?

- Seems fine.

- James, did your father
ever seek counseling

after your mother passed away?

He might not have
dealt with his grief.

- My father's a very strong man.

I don't think he'll need
therapy for anything.

- Sometimes even strong people
need someone to talk to.

I'm sure he'll be glad
to have you around

before you head off to...

Berklee College of Music

You must be looking
forward to that.

- Yeah, yes, very much.

- When you came here, you
said your greatest desire

is to become a concert pianist.

Is that still the case?

- Well, I'd still like to,

but it's not the most important
thing in my life anymore.

- [Therapist] What is now?

- God.

I'd like to settle down,
meet a girl, have a family.

- Well, I'm sure you can still
fit music in there somewhere.

Being away from
home, you're going to

find yourself in a
lot of new situations.

There's gonna be a lot of
temptations out there for you.

- I know.

I'll be good.

- I'm sure you will.

Well, I think that
about does it.

Once more for the road then.

Our Father who art in heaven,

we ask you to bless James as
he goes forth from here today,

to watch over him as he
walks through temptation,

guide him, help him,
deliver him from evil,

lead him on Your
path to salvation.

Help him to avoid
the sins of the flesh

and to embrace the
glory of Your light.

We ask these things in Your
name, O Lord, and pray.

Amen.

- [James] Amen.

(gentle music)

(music drowns out
dialogue on television)

(gentle music)

(gentle piano music)

(gentle piano music)

(birds chirping)

(dramatic music)

- God damn it!

- [James] You okay?

- Yeah, just stupid.

Watch that handle,
it's really hot.

- All right.

- You know, I've been thinking,

maybe taking a course
at the community college

wouldn't be a bad idea.

Give you a leg up.

- I don't know what
courses they have.

I don't know if Berklee
will accept them.

- Well, if I were you,
I wouldn't go to Boston.

I'd stay closer to home.

Vermont Tech's a good school.

- Yeah, Dad, I'm studying music.

- To what?

Be a teacher?

- Maybe, or play.

- Okay.

- [James] It's what I wanna do.

- Well, minor in it then.

Look, if I'm paying for this,

I want you to major in either
agriculture or business

or something like that.

- Well, then maybe
I oughta pay for it.

(chuckling)

- [Richard] How
you gonna do that?

- Find a job.

- [Richard] Doing what?

- Whatever I have to.

- Minimum wage is not gonna
pay your bills and school both.

- Damn it.

I'll figure it out.

- Why do you have to
make things so difficult?

I'm trying to do
what's best for you.

You know, one day you're
gonna inherit this place.

You're gonna have this
place all to yourself.

- Yeah, not anytime soon.

- Well, we can hope not.

But when you do, I want
you to be able to run it.

- When it's mine, I
intend to sell it.

- No, you will not
sell this farm.

This farm was your
grandfather's,

this farm was my grandfather's.

This place is home.

This place is a
roof over your head,

it's money in the
bank when you need it.

You don't understand that now.

You have no idea, but one
day you'll appreciate it.

Why can't you see I'm just trying
to do what's best for you?

(dramatic music)

- I'll take a look
at those classes

at the community college, Dad.

- I'd appreciate it.

- Yeah.

(gentle music)

- [Richard] You can
just drive around back

to the loading dock,
and beep the horn,

and somebody will
come give you a hand.

Make sure you get a receipt.

Can you handle that?

- [James] Yeah.

(engine starting)

(horn beeping)

(horn beeping)

- James?

When did you get back?

- A few days ago.

- [Charlie] How are you?

- I'm fine.

- They got to you.

Didn't they?

- I need to drop these
off and get goin'.

We can't be friends
anymore, okay?

- Friends.

- Yeah, I can't be around you.

- I see.

- Things are different now.

I'm different.

- Sure you are.

- I gotta go.

(engine starting)

(dramatic music)

- [Therapist] How are
you feeling right now?

- [James] Sad.

- [Therapist] Can
you expand on that?

Sad.

How?

Describe it.

- Alone.

I feel alone.

Lonely.

- [Therapist] Do you
miss your mother?

- Yes.

- Your father?

What about your friends?

Were you close to them?

Did you have any
special friends?

- You mean like best friends?

- [Therapist] More
special than that.

You have a girlfriend?

- No.

- What about a boyfriend?

It's okay, you can tell me.

- Yes.

- [Therapist] How many?

- One.

- [Therapist] What was his name?

- Charlie.

- Were you intimate?

It's okay, you can tell me.

- Sometimes.

- [Therapist] How'd
that make you feel?

- I, I, I don't know.

Good, I guess.

- Sin makes us feel good while
we're committing it, James,

but that doesn't mean
it's good for us.

It can really mess us up inside.

And then when we're
done, feel bad about it.

Does that make sense?

- Yes.

- [Therapist] Charlie
is like a drug.

It's hard being away
from him right now.

I know, but, being with
him would be worse.

Once he's out of your
system I promise you,

you're going to
feel so much better,

and then you're gonna wonder

why you ever had
him in your life.

(dramatic music)

- Did you get that receipt?

Well?

- Hey, Dad, can you take care of

those deliveries from now on?

- [Richard] Why?

I give you one simple job,
you can't even do that?

- Forget it.

(horn blaring)

I need the receipts.

- What?

- I need the receipts
for the apples.

Damn it.

All right, let's
hurry it up, please.

- What did they do to you?

- Don't worry about it.

- Are you happier?

Well, you seem happier.

(dramatic music)

Maybe I should sign
up for a round.

It did wonders for you.

(grunts)

(dramatic music)

- I wanna go to church.

- What now?

- No, Sunday.

That all right?

- Yeah, I guess.

- When you were slaves of sin,

you are free in regard
to righteousness.

So what fruit did you then get

from the things of
which are now ashamed?

The end of those
things is death.

But now that you have
been freed from sin,

and enslaved to God,

the fruit that you
get is eternal life.

For the wages of sin is death,

and the gift of God
is eternal life.

In Jesus Christ our Lord.

(church music)

Thank you.

Thank you.

All right, thank you.

- [Boy] Nice sermon, Pastor.

- [Pastor] Thank you, Lucy.

Richard, James, so great
to have you back with us.

How have you been holding up?

- Ah, we're doing all right.

- Well, that's good to hear.

How old are you now?

- 19.

19, well my Suzy just turned 19.

She's going to UVM in the Fall.

- That's a good school.

James is thinking
about Vermont Tech.

Maybe Suzy could
give him some advice.

- I'm sure she would love that.

Hang on.

Suzy, could you
come here, honey.

Suzy, you remember James?

- Yeah, not well, we were
a year apart in school.

- Well, he's going to
college in the Fall,

and maybe you can help
him with his application.

- Yeah, I would love to.

Let me give you my number.

- Yeah.

Yeah, sure.

(gentle music)

♪ I sent away

♪ For a treasured life

(knocking)

Hey.

- That looks good.

- How many can I take?

- One should be enough for now.

- Okay.

- [Richard] Did
you call Suzy yet?

- No.

- [Richard] She seems
like a nice girl.

Pretty too.

- Yeah.

♪ In the morning air

- Yeah.

♪ The trees were ripe

♪ And you were there

♪ You're not here

- [Pastor] James.

- [James] Hi.

- Come on in.

How are you?

- Good.

- Great.

Suzy.

She'll be right down.

- Okay.

- Hi.

- Hi.

- So, do you wanna
come to my room?

- [James] Okay.

(gentle music)

- Here's my application letter

if you wanna take a look at it.

- Yeah, thank you.

- I get the feeling you're not

really looking for
help with this.

- No, no, I'm sorry.

I don't mean to be rude.

- Why the lack of interest?

- My Dad wants me to
apply to state schools,

but I was...

Well, I'd like to
go somewhere else.

- Well, where do you wanna go?

- Well, I was accepted into

Berklee College of
Music in Boston.

- Wow.

Congratulations.

- Thank you.

My Dad says it's not
practical though.

- Oh, I see.

- [James] Yeah.

- And he's probably
just tryin' to do

what he thinks is best for ya.

- [James] You're engaged?

- No.

It's a promise ring.

- What is that?

- [Suzy] It means I've
promised to stay a virgin

until I'm married.

(chuckles)

It's silly, it's okay.

- No, no.

I don't think so.

- Oh.

(gentle music)

- Well, you know, I should,

I should keep going.

I have a lot of deliveries
and stuff to do, so...

- Okay.

Well, I'm sorry I
wasn't very much help.

- No, no.

No, don't worry about it.

I'll figure it out.

- And if you have anymore
questions, you have my number.

- Yeah, yeah.

- Of if you just wanna hang out.

I mean, that would be fun too.

- Hang out?

- Yeah.

We could grab some dinner or
see a movie or something fun.

- Sure.

- I mean we don't have to if you don't want to.
- No, no no. We, we.

Yeah, yeah.

I need to to check my
schedule, you know,

but I'll give you a call.

- Okay.

- Yeah, all right.

- Okay.

- Bye.

(gentle music)

(horn blaring)

- Be right back
with your receipts.

- Hey.

Sorry for how I
acted the other day.

- You should be.

I don't agree with this.

But if you're gonna be
coming by here a lot,

we can at least be civil.

- Yeah.

(dramatic music)

- [Therapist] Did your
father ever hit you?

- No.

Why are we doing this?

- I'm trying to establish

if there's been any emotional
trauma in your life.

Something that happened
a long time ago

that you may have
forgotten about.

- I don't think so.

I think I'd remember it.

- No, not necessarily.

We often repress difficult
or painful memories.

If something like
that did happen,

if you were abused or
mistreated, for instance,

that could help explain
your situation now.

And if that's the case,

working on that might help you

to transition back to
healthy, heterosexual desires.

- Like I'd be
interested in girls?

- I believe you
already are deep down.

That's what nature
intended you to be.

Something just knocked you
off course along the way.

- I mean, I wasn't abused or
molested or anything like that.

- Okay, that's great.

We'll look for another
explanation then.

You and I can work on
finding that together.

I wanna help you, James,

but you have to want it too.

- I do.

- Good.

Won't be easy.

You have to work at it.

You're gonna have to push
yourself toward healthy behavior,

try to avoid temptation.

Everyone is different.

You have have tremendous success

and walk out of here a totally
heterosexual young man,

or you may always struggle
with your feelings.

(dramatic music)

(gentle music)

- Hello.

Hi, it's James.

How are you?

Good, good good, I'm good.

Yeah, listen, I was thinking
about what you said,

and I was wondering if maybe

you wanted to grab
dinner tonight.

Yeah, yeah sure.

All right, sure.

Sure, so six o'clock.

Yeah, all right, great.

Great, I'll see you then.

Okay.

All right, bye.

(gentle music)

(knocking)

Yeah?

- I was headin' into town.

I just wondered if you
needed some supplies.

- No, no no, I'm fine.

- You gotta buy books, don't ya?

- Yeah, I won't know
until class starts.

- Well here.

If you need more, let me know.

- [James] Okay.

- Are you goin' somewhere?

- Yeah, I was going to
grab dinner with Suzy.

- Ah, where you goin'?

- Oh...

I don't know.

- Just take her to Ruby's.

Oh, I know it doesn't
look like much,

but the food's
really good, honest.

Here, my treat.

Have a big time.

- Thanks.

(dramatic music)

(country music)

We can go somewhere else.

- No.

No, this is fine, and
there's lots of personality.

- You sure?

- [Suzy] Absolutely.

- You kids want an appetizer?

- What do you have?

- Chips, pretzels, peanuts.

- I think we're okay for now.

- [Waitress] All right.

Let me know when
you're ready to order.

- Thank you.

I'm sorry.

- Don't be.

My Dad was always saying
this place is a pit of sins,

so I've been dying to see why.

(laughs)

I'm kidding.

It's fine, it's fine.

In fact, I wish we would
have done this sooner.

- Oh yeah?

- Yeah.

I wish we would have known
each other in high school.

- Yeah.

- Just running in
different crowds I guess.

You were always with Brad
Miller and Charlie Green.

Is it true what they
said about Charlie?

- What did they say?

- He's gay.

- I don't think I should
reveal the details

of other people's...

(gasping)

- That's crazy.

Wow.

- Does it bother you?

- I think people
ought to be free

to live their lives
however they like.

Well, thanks again.

- Yeah.

It was a really good time.

- I guess I'll see you around.

- Yeah.

- Um...

- Oh.

- I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

- No, I'm sorry.

- No no, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

I...

- I should get inside.

- No, no, no, no.

Listen, listen.

I um...

I like to take things
slower, you know.

I think slow is better for me.

- [Suzy] Okay.

- Yeah.

But look, I'd like
for this to be a...

You know, if you want.

- Yeah, sure, if you do.

- Yeah, yeah, I do.

- Okay, well, I
should get inside.

Bye.

- Yeah.

(dramatic music)

- You're still dreaming
about girls sexually?

Does anyone know
why we have dreams?

Dreams are our brain's way
of making sense of the things

that we experience
during the day.

So, if, for instance, we
see a dog when we're awake,

and we think about that dog,

we might dream about it at night

when our brain is sorting
out those memories.

Does that make sense?

So, if you're having sexual
dreams about women at night,

it's probably because

you're thinking about them
sexually during the day.

- But I wasn't.

- It's okay, it's okay.

Everyone slips up
from time to time.

You just have to focus
and try your best

to stay away from
thoughts and situations

that will lead you
down the wrong path.

Remember, your body wants you

to be attracted to
the opposite sex.

- Why is that?

- Because that's
what God intended.

- I'm not sure I believe in God.

- Well, that's okay, James.

He believes in you.

God made Adam and Eve.

One man and one woman,

because that's what's
required to have a baby.

Not two men, not two women,

not three people
of various genders.

One and one.

And that's not just
true with people.

It's also true in
the animal kingdom.

One male lion and
one female lion

can make a baby lion.

One male zebra and
one female zebra

can make a baby zebra.

One male shark...

- All right.

I get it.

- It's in your genes.

Your body wants you
to be with a woman

so that you can make babies
and carry on the species.

- [Woman] I don't
think I want babies.

- Well, maybe not right now,

but one day you will,
when you're ready.

And you won't be
able to have them

with another woman.

(gentle music)

(music drowns out dialogue)

- [Richard] You know,
it's just not for sale.

It's been in the
family for generations.

- [Customer] Okay,
we were, you know

interested in kind of
taking your orchard

in a different direction.

- [Woman] A lot of
people in our area

are starting to
buy more organic.

- [Male Customer] Yeah. - [Woman] That's
the direction they seem to be goin'.

- That's true. A lot of the
grocery stores, you know,

they really got a lot
of interest in it,

and I think they're
paying a premium

for organic apples and...

- [Richard] Well,
good luck with that,

but the place ain't for sale.

- Okay.

Well, it's a shame, you've
got a beautiful property here.

- There's nothing we can
do to change your mind?

- [Richard] No,
I don't think so.

- Okay then.

Let me give you my card,

and if you change your
mind give us a call.

- [Richard] You don't need
to waste one of your cards.

- No, please.

Keep it.

- [Woman] Thank
you for your time.

- [Richard] All right,
well, good luck.

- [Woman] Thank you.

- [Male Customer] Thank you.

- Hey.

- [Richard] Hey.

- Who were those people?

- [Richard] Couple of weirdos.

- Oh yeah?

- [Richard] Yeah.

- What'd they want?

- [Richard] They
wanted to buy the farm.

- Great, well, what
did you tell them?

- [Richard] What do
you think I told them?

- Say what they
wanted to do with it?

- They wanna modernize
it, go organic.

I told them the apples
are already organic.

They come right
out of the ground.

- I think they meant they
wanna use less pesticides, Dad.

- [Richard] Well, they're
not very good farmers then,

are they?

- A lot of people are
startin' to think like them.

- It's a fad, it'll pass.

- I'm just sayin' we
oughta look into it.

That's all.

- James, I appreciate
you wanting to help,

but trust me when I say I know

what the hell I'm doin', okay?

Now, when you're
runnin' the show,

you can grow apples
anyway you want.

Maybe then you'll
find out your old man

knew what he was talkin' about.

You still in your pajamas?

(dramatic music)

(horn beeping)

- Sorry, I'm running
behind today.

- [James] What happened to you?

- I ran into a door.

- Charlie.

- A couple of guys
jumped me after work.

- Here?

- No.

Down the road.

I've been walking home
since my car died.

- No, you can't walk all the way

back to your place form here.

- Look, it won't
happen again, okay.

I got my guard up this time.

- You're not walking anymore.

Let me drive you.

- James, I don't need an escort.

- I don't care.

What time is your shift over?

- James.

- What time is your shift over?

- Nine.

- Okay.

I'll see you at nine.

(laughing)

- [Richard] Here he comes.

- Hi.

- Hey.

What's goin' on?

- Just wanted to drop
by and surprise ya.

Hope that's okay.

- Ah yeah.

Sure.

- Well, it was
nice talkin' to ya.

- Yeah, you too.

So, my parents wanted me to
invite you to dinner tonight.

- Oh.

You know, my Dad,
actually, is gonna be

be cooking dinner tonight.

- [Suzy] Oh.

Well, I just told
him I was gonna

invite you to dinner with us,

and he said he didn't
mind eating alone.

- Oh.

- If you don't wanna
come, that's...

- No, no, no.

I do, I do.

- Okay.

- What time?

- 7:30.

- Okay.

- Great.

- Yeah.

- [Suzie] I'll see you then.

- [James] All right.

- [Suzie] Bye.

- Steak.

You're gettin' pretty
handy with the oven.

- Actually, it's not bad.

- Yeah?

- Hey, you look nice.

- Thanks.

- You can tell your girlfriend

come on over for dinner
over here next time.

- You can keep practicing.

I don't wanna poison her.

- Hey.

Your mom would be proud of ya.

(dramatic music)

Have a good time.

(door creaking)

(dramatic music)

- How are things
are the farm, James?

We drive by there almost
everyday, don't we?

- [Mother] All time time.

- Yeah, it's gorgeous.

- [Mother] It is.

- So nice.

So what is it like
working at an apple farm?

- It's fine I guess.

A lot of work.

- I'll bet.

How long's it been
in your family now?

- Long time.

- Isn't that something.

- That's incredible.

- All right.

It's only Fair Haven
apples for us from now on.

(laughing)

- And Suzy tells us that
you play music as well.

- Yes, yes, I do piano.

- Oh that's lovely.

You'll have to play
something for us sometime.

- Oh, gladly.

Do you have a piano?

- No, we don't.

- Oh.

- James is gonna take
over the farm someday.

- Oh.

- Well, that's great.

That's very admirable.

Keeping the family
business going.

A lot of kids these days,

they want nothing to
do with tradition,

and soon as they graduate
school, pow, they're gone.

- [Mother] It's so true.

- [Father] But it's
good to hear you'll be

staying in area long term.

I mean, you know, we wouldn't want you
whisking our daughter off to God knows where.

- [Suzy] Dad!
- (laughing)

- [Mother] Oh, stop it.
You're gonna scare him.

- [Father] Oh, come on,
I'm kidding.

He knows I'm joking,
right, James?

- Yes, sir.

- [Father] I mean, come on.

It's not like I
mention their children.

(laughing)

What do ya feel
about children, huh?

Do you want some someday?

- Is that clock right?

- Yes.

- Sorry, I have to run.

Dinner was wonderful.

Thank you so much
for everything.

- James.

James.

Is everything okay?

- Yeah, everything's fine.

- Are you sure?

- Yeah, I just forgot I have
something to do at nine.

- My Dad was just joking around.

- Oh, no, it's fine.

I gotta run.

- Hey.

- [James] How bad is it?

- [Charlie] Not bad.

- Maybe you should
start carrying mace.

- I just need to get
out of this town.

- You still thinking
of joining the circus?

- That was a good idea.

- [James] No, it wasn't.

- I could have been the
most famous sword swallower

in all of America at this point.

- Oh yeah?

Why don't you then?

- Because you
wouldn't come with me.

- [James] Here, here.

I got it.

- Thanks.

- Sure.

- [Charlie] See you tomorrow?

(dramatic music)

- [Therapist] What you felt
for your boyfriend wasn't love.

It was lust.

- You don't know that.

- Love is different.

Think about your
parents, right now.

Your mothers and your fathers.

Think about how
they make you feel.

That's love.

Now, think about
someone of the same sex

that you're attracted to.

- It feels similar.

- Sometimes we remember things
the way we prefer them to be,

not the way they actually were.

The way you described
your relationship,

when you and your
boyfriend were together,

you can hardly keep
your clothes on.

That's not true love.

There's nothing pure or
beautiful about that.

It's lust.

It's pleasures of the flesh.

If you were to run into your
boyfriend again right now,

you'd probably yearn
to be with him.

You'd want him to touch you,
to hug you, to kiss you,

but that's the
devil's influence.

Sin is very attractive.

You have to fight against it.

- It's different with girls?

- Sometimes.

Sure, you can lust after girls,

but you can also fall
in love with one.

And believe me, that's
worth waiting for.

You can't fall in
love with a man.

It's impossible.

- How do you know?

- My Father told me.

Right here.

You follow this, and
you'll know the difference.

(dramatic music)

- Oh fuck!

God damn it.

- Havin' trouble?

- What the hell's it look like?

- [James] What's goin' on?

You all right over there?

- Those yuppies came
back again this morning.

- [James] Who?

- The ones trying
to buy the place.

- I thought you told them no.

- I did.

They thought maybe
I'd change my mind,

they gave me a better offer.

- How much?

- [Richard] Doesn't matter.

- Just curious.

- Not enough.

Place is worth more than money.

- Yeah, but how much money?

- 750.

- 750,000 dollars?

- [Richard] Uh-huh.

- Dad, why'd you say no?

- I told you.

- No, no no.

With that kind of money, we
could do whatever we wanted.

You could retire.

- [Richard] I told you
I'm not selling the place!

- I could go to
school for God's sake,

with that kind of cash.

- James, I'm not gonna
discuss anymore, all right.

You got chores to do, go do 'em.

Now.

Jesus.

Come on, you son of a bitch.

(piano music)

Play that one your
mom used to play.

You know the one I like, that...

(humming)

(sobbing)

I would like to
hear that one again.

(somber music)

Please.

- [James] He won't even
consider what I want.

All he cares about is
his stupid family legacy.

- [Charlie] It's
your family too.

- [James] I don't care about it.

I want my own life.

With that kind of money,
I could do anything.

- I guess there's only
one thing left to do.

We'll have to kill him.

- That's not funny.

- It was a little funny.

- No, it wasn't.

- Seriously though.

I don't think you
should let your Dad

choose what you wanna
do with your life.

- What other choice do I have?

- Tons.

You have nothing but choices.

What, so he won't
make it easy for you?

Big deal.

Move out and do it on your own.

- It's too hard.

- Oh, boo hoo, it's too hard.

So life's rough for a few years.

Then you'll be great.

Or you could just sit
here, do what you're told,

stay here and be miserable.

(lively music)

Thanks for the ride.

- Yeah, no problem.

- Can I make it up to you?

- No, no, don't worry about it.

- Why don't we get a
bite to eat sometime?

As friends.

Nothing weird, I promise.

(dramatic music)

- When?

- I'm free Saturday night.

(dramatic music)

- All right.

- Okay.

Pick me up at six?

- [James] Yeah.

- Okay.

See you.

(dramatic music)

(engine starting)

(phone ringing)

(door creaking)

- [James] Good?

- [Charlie] Yeah.

- Yeah, my Dad's been
teaching himself how to cook,

so not bad now actually.

- See, he doesn't need you.

- Naw, he needs my
help on the farm.

My mom would want me to stay.

- Your mom would want
you to live your life.

Hey.

What was it like there?

(dramatic music)

- My Dad found the place online.

I don't know if he even knew
what he was looking for, but,

I think he knew that they were
Christian therapists, and,

it was always a big
part of my mom's life.

Felt so bad at first.

Had a lot of grief and anger.

Was mad at God and my mom and...

They helped me get past that.

And they said if I
wanted someone to blame,

I really oughta blame myself.

They said that sometimes
we don't live our lives

according to God's
plan, He sends us a sign

to get us back on track.

- I hope you don't believe that.

- I started to.

(gentle music)

- [Charlie] Are you okay?

- [James] Yeah, yeah.

- [Charlie] You still as
fast as you used to me?

- What?

(laughing)

(gentle music)

What the hell?

(laughing)

♪ The moon

♪ Seems like a romantic spot

♪ To build a staircase to

♪ The moon

♪ Seems like a romantic spot

- [Charlie] Hey, hey.

This way.

- [James] All right.

♪ Just for me and you

♪ Why can't we

♪ Say goodbye

♪ When we

♪ Need to

♪ Why can't we say goodbye

♪ Why can't

♪ We say goodbye

♪ When we need to

♪ Why can't we

♪ Say goodbye

(laughing)

- James, you gonna
sleep all day?

(phone ringing)

(dramatic music)

James.

(phone ringing)

(laughing)

(gentle music)

- Not yet.

- I'm sorry.

- What time is it?

- I don't know.

Someone just threw my phone.

(laughing)

We should get up.

Yes.

- No.

- Before my Dad wakes up.

- No.

- And kills us.

- No.

(laughing)

No.

(phone ringing)

Hi.

- [James] Hi.

- I really missed you.

- I missed you too.

- What the hell is that?

- Suzy.

Suzy.

Suzy.

Suzy, wait.

Suzy.

Suzy, Suzy, wait.

Listen, I'm sorry.

- You bastard.

You're a bastard!

Don't touch me!

- Wait a second.

Will you listen to me?

- You know what you are?

You're disgusting.

You're pathetic.

Rot in hell.

- Hey.

(engine starting)

You okay?

- Yeah.

Yeah, I'm fine.

- James.

- Go wait in the truck.

- Yeah.

- Hi.

Listen, that probably
looked pretty bad.

I had to break up
with Suzy just now,

and Charlie's a friend from...

- Just stop.

I honestly have no
idea what to do.

I mean, maybe if your mother
was here she would know,

but I have no idea.

- About what?

- About you.

About how to help ya.

- Help me with what?

- To help ya grow
up, help ya be a man.

- I am a man.

- Yeah, you're
one hell of a man.

- Go ahead.

Say it.

Go ahead, say it.

No, no no.

Come on, I want you to.

Oh, that's okay.

You were never the kind of man
I wanted for a father either.

If Mom saw you now, she'd
be ashamed, you know that?

- That makes two of us I guess.

- [James] I guess.

(dramatic music)

(country music)

- Well, look what the
pole cat dragged in.

Haven't seen you
in a while, Ricky.

Awfully early to be piss drunk.

- You want my money or not?

- [Bartender] Saw
your boy in here

a while back with a pretty girl.

- Not my boy.

I don't even know him.

- [Bartender] Well,
I'm sure every father

said that about their boy
at some point or another.

- Bullshit.

I minded my old man.

- Didn't you tell me one
time about when you were 17,

you wanted to run away

'cause your old man wouldn't
let you join the army?

- You don't remember as
well as you think you do.

- [Bartender] Oh no?

- No.

I was 18, it was the marines.

And I would have made
a damn fine one too.

- Oh, of course you would.

You ever think about that?

- What, marines?

- You could have seen the world,

never know where you
would have ended up.

- You don't always get
what you want in this life.

- So, I hear there's this

really nice couple pokin'
around town lately,

looking to buy up some land.

They been out to see you?

- They have.

- And how was their offer?

- Insufficient.

- That is a shame.

If it were more,
you might be able

to get out of the
apple business.

Live a little.

- I'm not a young man anymore.

- Well, you're not
worn out either.

- See you around.

- Take care, Ricky.

Don't be a stranger.

(dramatic music)

- What about your Dad?

- I don't know.

I don't think I can go home.

- You think he'll hurt you?

- No.

No.

I just don't think he
wants me there anymore.

- Then stay with me.

- That's not a
permanent solution.

- Then we'll leave.

- Oh yeah?

Where would we go?

- I don't know.

Enter the circus.

- I'll just go, and,

pack my clothes,
whatever else I need.

Then leave.

And then the circus.

Okay.

(gentle music)

- [Cashier] All
right, here you go.

- [Customer] Thank you.

- [Cashier] You're welcome.

Have a great day.

Hey Rich.

- [Richard] Hey.

- How's the apple business?

- [Richard] Oh, it's
fine, just fine.

Listen, I'm sorry
they're so late.

- Oh, don't worry about it.

I'll grab your receipt.

- [Richard] Thanks.

- Excuse me.

- [Richard] Oh sure.

- Here you go.

- So, a lot of folks
go for the organic?

- Yeah, actually,
they're very popular.

Let's see, Winston Clark
switched to organic.

You know Winston?

- [Richard] Yeah.

- Yeah.

And the Shelleys.

The Shelleys were
here on Monday.

They said they're
thinking about it.

I'll see you later.

- All right.

- Hi, how can I help you?

That's it.

All right.

Okay, that will be 11 dollars.

(dramatic music)

(gentle piano music)

- [Richard] Play it
better than she did.

- [James] I was...

- [Richard] James.

- [James] I was just leaving.

I really don't wanna talk
about this right now.

- Just wait.

Sit down.

Please.

For a minute.

Where you goin'?

- I was thinking
of going to Boston.

- [Richard] Alone?

- No.

- Is he...

What's his name again?

- Charlie.

- Charlie.

Is he the one from before?

- Yeah.

- Your mother and I were
pretty concerned about that.

That's how you ended
up at that place.

I'm sorry about that.

Ah...

You care about each other?

- Yeah.

Yeah, we do, very much.

(gentle music)

- That's good.

I wanna apologize for
what I said yesterday.

That wasn't right.

I don't know if I'll
ever understand it, but,

I think I can do a better
job of accepting it.

- Thank you.

(gentle music)

- I've decided to sell the farm.

- What?

- [Richard] I took their offer.

- Why, why did you?

- You know, I've been
running this place

for the last 20
years for my Dad,

when I should have been
running it for you.

I'll give you some of the money.

You can go to school, move
away, do whatever you want.

I guess I'll retire.

Anyway.

The farm isn't family, we are.

- Dad, I'm sorry that things
didn't really work out.

- Don't.

That's life.

We'll just do the
best we can, okay?

- Okay.

(gentle music)

- [Richard] You didn't miss it.

- [James] No, no.

I still got about 10 minutes.

- [Richard] Okay, then.

- [James] Well, I
should, we should...

- Yeah.

I...

Call if you need anything.

- I will.

- Your mother would
have been proud of you.

I am too.

(gentle music)

Well, you better get goin'.

- Yeah.

(gentle music)

(engine starting)

(dramatic music)

("Flying" by Tom Wopat)

♪ Ever have the dream
where you could fly

♪ In the camera and film

♪ People fly and fill the sky

♪ I wept and wonderin',
wonderin' why

♪ Why can't I

♪ He's like his mother,
he's oh so bright

♪ My guiding hand could
have gripped a little tight

♪ Love isn't always
black and white

♪ Wrong or right

♪ So I, I seize the day

♪ Now is the right
time to ease his way

♪ No more fight time

♪ To lay me down for
a chance to by flying

♪ Here we are despite
age with grace

♪ Maintaining dignity
as time gives chase

♪ Earning more than
lines upon the face

♪ Our proper place

♪ A state of grace

♪ So I open my eyes

♪ See it all so clearly

♪ The fear that lies

♪ That I felt so dearly

♪ But now I'm free

♪ Finally I'm flying

♪ Flying