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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:01:07,634 --> 00:01:09,636 Mark! 2 00:01:09,636 --> 00:01:11,137 Are you up? 3 00:01:11,137 --> 00:01:13,639 Yep. 4 00:01:13,640 --> 00:01:16,142 Thanks, mate. 5 00:01:28,655 --> 00:01:31,157 Okay, we're off now. 6 00:01:33,159 --> 00:01:35,661 You are up, aren't you? 7 00:01:35,662 --> 00:01:37,163 Yes! 8 00:02:32,218 --> 00:02:34,220 Are you gonna be late? 9 00:02:34,220 --> 00:02:36,222 No, I'm, uh... 10 00:02:36,222 --> 00:02:40,226 I'm at the... well, I'm at the tube station. 11 00:02:40,226 --> 00:02:42,728 I told you, Mark, I've got a meeting this morning. 12 00:02:42,729 --> 00:02:46,733 Uh, well, yeah, yeah, no problem. 13 00:02:46,733 --> 00:02:48,234 No... no problem. 14 00:02:48,234 --> 00:02:49,735 Uh, what? What? 15 00:02:49,736 --> 00:02:51,237 No, I haven't got any change. 16 00:02:51,237 --> 00:02:53,239 Well, hang on. Let me have a look. 17 00:02:55,742 --> 00:03:00,246 Okay, so I'm getting on the train now, 18 00:03:00,246 --> 00:03:05,251 and, uh, I'll be with you in... in half an hour. 19 00:03:07,253 --> 00:03:09,755 Stevie? 20 00:03:41,788 --> 00:03:45,792 Mind the gap. 21 00:03:46,292 --> 00:03:50,296 Mind the gap. 22 00:04:37,677 --> 00:04:39,178 What are you doing?! 23 00:04:48,187 --> 00:04:50,189 What is the matter with you? 24 00:04:50,189 --> 00:04:51,190 Sorry. 25 00:04:51,691 --> 00:04:55,695 Why do you have to take so long... longer and longer? 26 00:04:55,695 --> 00:04:58,197 It's in here. 27 00:05:01,200 --> 00:05:03,202 All this? 28 00:05:03,202 --> 00:05:05,204 Well, yeah. 29 00:05:05,204 --> 00:05:06,705 I thought it was just a few things. 30 00:05:07,206 --> 00:05:08,707 We did say "trial separation," Mark. 31 00:05:10,209 --> 00:05:11,710 Uh, yeah, but what... 32 00:05:11,711 --> 00:05:15,715 well, what do you mean by "trial separation"? 33 00:05:15,715 --> 00:05:19,218 We try separating. What do you think it means? 34 00:05:19,218 --> 00:05:20,219 Well, that maybe being apart 35 00:05:20,219 --> 00:05:22,721 might help us to be together again. 36 00:05:23,222 --> 00:05:24,223 Um, I mean... 37 00:05:24,724 --> 00:05:26,726 I mean, why don't we just divorce then? 38 00:05:27,226 --> 00:05:29,228 Why don't we never see each other again? 39 00:05:29,228 --> 00:05:31,230 You're making this all so... so final. 40 00:05:31,230 --> 00:05:32,731 Oh, look, I cannot deal with this right now. 41 00:05:32,732 --> 00:05:34,233 If you wanted to talk about it, 42 00:05:34,233 --> 00:05:36,735 you should have got here at 8:00 like you were supposed to. 43 00:05:36,736 --> 00:05:38,738 I'm sorry if you're shocked, Mark. 44 00:05:40,239 --> 00:05:42,741 What is that noise you keep making? 45 00:05:42,742 --> 00:05:44,744 Well, I've just got a bit of a sore throat. 46 00:05:47,747 --> 00:05:49,248 You've got to be realistic, Mark. 47 00:05:49,248 --> 00:05:50,749 I am being realistic, 48 00:05:51,250 --> 00:05:53,252 and what I'm seeing is my marriage boxed up 49 00:05:53,252 --> 00:05:54,753 and ready to go. 50 00:06:27,286 --> 00:06:29,788 I'll call you. 51 00:06:46,305 --> 00:06:47,306 Mark? 52 00:06:47,306 --> 00:06:48,807 All right, mate. 53 00:06:49,308 --> 00:06:50,309 What are you doing? 54 00:06:50,309 --> 00:06:52,811 Nothing. I just trod in some heron shit. 55 00:06:52,812 --> 00:06:55,314 Or maybe some otter shit or something. 56 00:06:55,314 --> 00:06:56,815 Definitely shit. 57 00:06:56,816 --> 00:07:00,319 Right. Well, you've got me for an hour. 58 00:07:00,319 --> 00:07:02,321 Mobile's turned off. How did it go? 59 00:07:02,321 --> 00:07:03,822 I don't want to talk about it. 60 00:07:03,823 --> 00:07:05,324 What do you mean you don't want to talk about it? 61 00:07:05,324 --> 00:07:06,825 You said you needed to talk about it. 62 00:07:06,826 --> 00:07:08,327 Yeah, I don't want to talk about it. 63 00:07:08,327 --> 00:07:09,828 She wouldn't even talk about it. 64 00:07:09,829 --> 00:07:11,831 I thought that was the whole point of me going round there. 65 00:07:11,831 --> 00:07:13,332 What is going on?! 66 00:07:13,332 --> 00:07:14,833 What have I done wrong? 67 00:07:14,834 --> 00:07:16,836 Well, you turned up an hour and a half late for starters. 68 00:07:16,836 --> 00:07:18,838 I don't mean the little stuff. I mean the bigger picture. 69 00:07:19,338 --> 00:07:20,339 Remember when we went to Turkey? 70 00:07:22,842 --> 00:07:24,844 I dropped a bottle of aftershave in the bathroom. 71 00:07:24,844 --> 00:07:26,846 In the bathroom. Aftershave in the bathroom. 72 00:07:26,846 --> 00:07:28,347 I've never mentioned this before, 73 00:07:28,347 --> 00:07:29,848 and yeah, I did sort of go overboard... 74 00:07:29,849 --> 00:07:31,851 Making sure that all the pieces of glass were picked up, 75 00:07:31,851 --> 00:07:33,352 but it's dangerous, isn't it? 76 00:07:33,352 --> 00:07:35,354 It only takes one tiny, tiny shard of glass 77 00:07:35,855 --> 00:07:36,856 to rip your foot apart. 78 00:07:36,856 --> 00:07:39,358 Sometimes you can't even see them they're so fine. 79 00:07:39,358 --> 00:07:41,560 If you swallowed one, it'd kill you. 80 00:07:45,064 --> 00:07:47,066 Aftershave? 81 00:07:49,569 --> 00:07:53,072 Yeah, and my point is, Nathan... 82 00:07:54,574 --> 00:07:56,576 Uh... 83 00:07:56,576 --> 00:07:57,577 She flipped. 84 00:07:57,577 --> 00:07:59,078 Way over the top. 85 00:07:59,078 --> 00:08:00,579 She said I'd ruined the holiday. 86 00:08:00,580 --> 00:08:01,581 Now where did that come from? 87 00:08:01,581 --> 00:08:04,083 What had I done? 88 00:08:04,083 --> 00:08:05,584 And yet the next day... 89 00:08:05,585 --> 00:08:09,088 When we go to that palace to look at the mosaics, it was... 90 00:08:09,088 --> 00:08:11,090 I just didn't see the cracks. 91 00:08:11,090 --> 00:08:13,092 They must have been there obviously. 92 00:08:13,092 --> 00:08:15,094 She must have been unhappy, but why? 93 00:08:15,094 --> 00:08:18,097 I mean, I know... I know I'm a nightmare at the moment. 94 00:08:18,097 --> 00:08:20,099 I know that me... me being off work 95 00:08:20,099 --> 00:08:21,600 was driving her mad, but... 96 00:08:21,601 --> 00:08:23,102 If you love someone, 97 00:08:23,102 --> 00:08:24,603 you're supposed to be there for them, aren't you? 98 00:08:24,604 --> 00:08:26,105 Aren't you? 99 00:08:26,606 --> 00:08:29,108 If you love them when they're down. 100 00:08:29,108 --> 00:08:31,110 You're still there for me, aren't you? 101 00:08:31,110 --> 00:08:33,612 Well, actually, I've got to go now, but, yes, I am. 102 00:08:33,613 --> 00:08:36,616 Yeah, still there. 103 00:08:36,616 --> 00:08:40,119 Let's talk about it tonight. 104 00:08:40,119 --> 00:08:42,621 Try not to dwell on it, okay? 105 00:08:55,635 --> 00:08:58,638 What have I done wrong? 106 00:08:58,638 --> 00:09:02,141 You know, everything was fine, 107 00:09:02,642 --> 00:09:05,144 but it just keeps going round and round in my head. 108 00:09:05,144 --> 00:09:08,647 Be strong. 109 00:09:08,648 --> 00:09:10,149 You don't go anywhere near her. 110 00:09:10,650 --> 00:09:13,653 You keep at least a two-mile radius from her, 111 00:09:13,653 --> 00:09:15,655 and you wait for her to contact you. 112 00:09:15,655 --> 00:09:17,657 Yeah, yeah, you're right. I know I am. 113 00:09:17,657 --> 00:09:20,159 You've got to be strong, Mark. 114 00:09:23,162 --> 00:09:24,663 Now, come on. Stop that. 115 00:09:28,668 --> 00:09:31,170 What's going on in your mind now? 116 00:09:31,170 --> 00:09:32,671 Talk about it. 117 00:09:34,674 --> 00:09:36,175 Turkey. 118 00:09:37,677 --> 00:09:40,179 Not Turkey again. 119 00:09:40,179 --> 00:09:41,680 Come on, we've been there. 120 00:09:41,681 --> 00:09:43,683 I'd just like to ask her what I did that was so wrong. 121 00:09:43,683 --> 00:09:47,186 Mark, she's not doing this because of one row in Turkey. 122 00:09:47,186 --> 00:09:49,188 If she didn't mind getting her feet cut to shreds, then fine. 123 00:09:49,188 --> 00:09:50,689 Sorry for caring. 124 00:09:50,690 --> 00:09:53,192 But I'm telling you there were shards of razor-sharp glass. 125 00:09:53,192 --> 00:09:54,693 Uh, Nathan! 126 00:09:54,694 --> 00:09:56,195 Hi. 127 00:09:56,195 --> 00:09:57,696 Hi, mate. How's it going? 128 00:09:57,697 --> 00:10:00,199 Oh, really well. 129 00:10:00,199 --> 00:10:02,201 Kathy's been brilliant. 130 00:10:02,201 --> 00:10:04,203 Oh. No, no, you have. 131 00:10:04,203 --> 00:10:06,205 You've listened. 132 00:10:06,205 --> 00:10:08,707 That's a great quality. 133 00:10:08,708 --> 00:10:10,710 I wish Stevie would listen more. 134 00:10:10,710 --> 00:10:12,712 Mark's got some news. 135 00:10:12,712 --> 00:10:14,213 Haven't you? 136 00:10:14,213 --> 00:10:17,216 Well... 137 00:10:17,216 --> 00:10:19,218 Yes. 138 00:10:21,220 --> 00:10:24,223 Um I'm going to see Charles tomorrow. 139 00:10:24,223 --> 00:10:26,225 Tell him I'm ready to go back to work. 140 00:10:27,727 --> 00:10:29,729 Well, that's great. That's fantastic. 141 00:10:29,729 --> 00:10:31,230 If I'm gonna get her back, 142 00:10:31,230 --> 00:10:32,731 I've got to find some way 143 00:10:33,232 --> 00:10:35,234 of breaking out of this cycle I'm in... 144 00:10:35,234 --> 00:10:40,239 stress, depression, can't work, Stevie, more depression. 145 00:10:40,239 --> 00:10:43,242 I've got to get a grip on things again. 146 00:10:43,743 --> 00:10:44,744 This is great, Mark. 147 00:10:44,744 --> 00:10:46,245 It's exactly what you need. 148 00:10:46,746 --> 00:10:48,247 And if you get back to work, 149 00:10:48,247 --> 00:10:50,249 that will be a positive sign to Stevie 150 00:10:50,249 --> 00:10:52,751 that you are trying to turn things around. 151 00:10:52,752 --> 00:10:55,755 Yes, yes! Shall I ring her and tell her? 152 00:10:55,755 --> 00:10:56,756 No. No. 153 00:12:46,966 --> 00:12:48,467 Hello, Mr. Furness. Hi, Allison. 154 00:12:48,467 --> 00:12:50,469 I'm a little bit late. I'll go straight in, shall I? 155 00:12:50,970 --> 00:12:53,973 Uh, perhaps I should just call them first. 156 00:12:54,473 --> 00:12:56,975 Okay, I'll, uh... 157 00:12:57,476 --> 00:12:58,977 I'll take a seat. 158 00:12:58,978 --> 00:13:01,480 Good morning, Emmiett. 159 00:13:04,984 --> 00:13:07,486 Good morning, Emmiett. 160 00:13:13,993 --> 00:13:15,494 This chair? 161 00:13:15,494 --> 00:13:16,495 That's fine. 162 00:13:16,495 --> 00:13:17,996 Sorry. 163 00:13:18,497 --> 00:13:20,499 Oh, okay. 164 00:13:33,512 --> 00:13:35,514 Right. 165 00:13:35,514 --> 00:13:38,517 I just think everything was getting on top of me. 166 00:13:39,018 --> 00:13:43,022 I had some problems in my marriage, as you know. 167 00:13:43,022 --> 00:13:45,024 I was under a lot of stress here. 168 00:13:45,024 --> 00:13:47,526 Three projects on the go simultaneously. 169 00:13:47,526 --> 00:13:53,532 It was the pressure I was under that triggered off the, um... 170 00:13:53,532 --> 00:13:55,033 the erratic behavior. 171 00:13:55,034 --> 00:13:59,538 But the good news is I've had time to regroup. 172 00:13:59,538 --> 00:14:01,540 I'm feeling totally refreshed, 173 00:14:01,540 --> 00:14:03,041 fighting fit, 174 00:14:03,042 --> 00:14:06,545 and, uh... and I'm ready to go back to... 175 00:14:06,545 --> 00:14:11,049 well, we're delighted, Mark, to hear you're feeling better. 176 00:14:11,050 --> 00:14:13,052 Truly. 177 00:14:13,552 --> 00:14:15,053 But we have to be honest here. 178 00:14:15,054 --> 00:14:18,557 Over the past six months, we've moved on as a practice. 179 00:14:18,557 --> 00:14:21,059 We've appointed a new junior partner, 180 00:14:21,060 --> 00:14:23,062 and he's performing extremely well. 181 00:14:23,062 --> 00:14:24,563 Who? I really don't think that's... 182 00:14:25,064 --> 00:14:27,066 Gareth. Gareth. 183 00:14:27,066 --> 00:14:29,068 Oh, I see, I see. 184 00:14:29,068 --> 00:14:31,570 So get me to train him up so he can take my job. 185 00:14:31,570 --> 00:14:34,072 You're an extremely talented architect, Mark. 186 00:14:34,073 --> 00:14:35,574 There's no doubt about that. 187 00:14:36,075 --> 00:14:37,576 But I'm not sure you're ready yet. 188 00:14:37,576 --> 00:14:40,579 And we can't risk a recurrence of what happened before. 189 00:14:40,579 --> 00:14:42,080 You know what we're talking about, 190 00:14:42,081 --> 00:14:44,583 missing deadlines and so on. 191 00:14:44,583 --> 00:14:46,084 The loss of the Seven Arches contract. 192 00:14:46,085 --> 00:14:47,586 Cunt! 193 00:14:47,586 --> 00:14:49,087 That's not fair. 194 00:14:49,088 --> 00:14:52,591 You know how much I've helped to build this practice up... fuck! 195 00:14:52,591 --> 00:14:54,593 Um... 196 00:14:54,593 --> 00:14:57,596 Sorry. 197 00:14:57,596 --> 00:14:59,598 Um... 198 00:15:00,099 --> 00:15:02,101 Okay, I've made some mistakes, 199 00:15:02,101 --> 00:15:04,603 but I think I deserve another chance. 200 00:15:04,603 --> 00:15:06,605 You know, I need to get back to work. 201 00:15:06,605 --> 00:15:08,106 I need to... cunt! 202 00:15:09,608 --> 00:15:11,109 You... cunt! 203 00:15:11,110 --> 00:15:13,612 We've prepared a severance package for you. 204 00:15:13,612 --> 00:15:16,114 I think you'll find the terms are very generous. 205 00:15:16,115 --> 00:15:17,616 Fuck you! 206 00:15:50,649 --> 00:15:52,150 Hi, mate. 207 00:15:52,151 --> 00:15:53,152 Gareth. 208 00:15:53,152 --> 00:15:55,154 How did it go? 209 00:15:55,154 --> 00:15:57,156 You're in my office, Gareth, doing my job. 210 00:15:57,156 --> 00:15:58,657 I think you know how it went. 211 00:15:59,158 --> 00:16:00,159 Yeah. 212 00:16:00,159 --> 00:16:02,661 I'm sorry. Um, look, I just wanted... 213 00:16:03,162 --> 00:16:05,164 Don't, all right? It's not your fault. 214 00:16:05,164 --> 00:16:07,666 I'll see you around. 215 00:16:07,666 --> 00:16:09,668 Oh, Mark. 216 00:16:11,670 --> 00:16:14,172 The rest of your stuff. 217 00:16:14,173 --> 00:16:15,674 My stuff. 218 00:16:17,676 --> 00:16:20,178 Thanks. 219 00:17:07,226 --> 00:17:08,727 Mmm. 220 00:17:09,228 --> 00:17:11,730 Hey, look, another one's escaped. 221 00:17:14,233 --> 00:17:17,736 Um, could you just get me another coffee? 222 00:17:17,736 --> 00:17:19,738 I'm gonna go make a quick phone call. 223 00:17:19,738 --> 00:17:21,740 Sure. 224 00:17:26,245 --> 00:17:27,246 Stevie! 225 00:17:27,246 --> 00:17:29,248 What do you think you're doing? 226 00:17:29,248 --> 00:17:30,749 What, me? I was just walking. 227 00:17:31,250 --> 00:17:32,751 I'm not stalking you. 228 00:17:32,751 --> 00:17:34,252 I just wanted to see you. 229 00:17:34,253 --> 00:17:36,755 You were barking at that dog! 230 00:17:36,755 --> 00:17:39,257 You're really starting to scare me, Mark. 231 00:17:39,258 --> 00:17:41,760 Oh, yeah? Well, I'm sorry about that. 232 00:17:41,760 --> 00:17:43,261 Who's he? 233 00:17:43,262 --> 00:17:47,266 He is Josh, a work colleague. 234 00:17:47,266 --> 00:17:49,268 A lovely guy who's just started. 235 00:17:49,268 --> 00:17:51,270 I'm just helping to train him up. 236 00:17:51,270 --> 00:17:53,272 Why were you touching him? What? 237 00:17:53,272 --> 00:17:55,774 You were holding his hands and laughing at his jokes. 238 00:17:55,774 --> 00:17:57,776 I was not laughing at his jokes. 239 00:17:57,776 --> 00:18:00,278 Yes, you were, and it wasn't just polite laughter. 240 00:18:00,279 --> 00:18:03,282 It was full-on, throwing... 241 00:18:03,282 --> 00:18:06,785 It's fine. 242 00:18:06,785 --> 00:18:09,788 Throwing your head back and guffawing. 243 00:18:09,788 --> 00:18:11,289 Well, maybe he said something funny. 244 00:18:11,290 --> 00:18:14,293 Well, like what? 245 00:18:14,293 --> 00:18:16,295 You don't seem to keen to laugh at things when I'm around. 246 00:18:16,295 --> 00:18:18,797 Because you're just not funny anymore! 247 00:18:23,802 --> 00:18:25,804 You're seeing him. 248 00:18:25,804 --> 00:18:29,307 All right, I'm going back in there, 249 00:18:29,308 --> 00:18:31,810 and you're going home, okay? 250 00:18:31,810 --> 00:18:35,814 Goodbye. 251 00:18:35,814 --> 00:18:38,316 I'm not. 252 00:18:38,317 --> 00:18:41,320 And even if I were, it has got nothing to do with you. 253 00:18:41,320 --> 00:18:42,821 We are both free to see other people. 254 00:18:43,322 --> 00:18:44,823 That is what being separated means. 255 00:18:44,823 --> 00:18:46,324 Get used to it. 256 00:18:46,325 --> 00:18:47,326 Bitch, bitch! 257 00:18:47,826 --> 00:18:49,327 Get help. 258 00:19:02,341 --> 00:19:04,843 Everything all right? 259 00:19:04,843 --> 00:19:06,845 Yeah. 260 00:19:06,845 --> 00:19:08,847 So, who was he? 261 00:19:08,847 --> 00:19:12,851 He was, uh... 262 00:19:12,851 --> 00:19:14,352 My husband. 263 00:19:46,385 --> 00:19:47,886 I know what you're gonna say. 264 00:19:47,886 --> 00:19:49,387 You're gonna say, "it's the depression." 265 00:19:49,388 --> 00:19:53,892 But I feel so bewildered by things. 266 00:19:53,892 --> 00:19:55,393 There has to be something more to it than that. 267 00:19:55,894 --> 00:19:56,895 Why? 268 00:19:56,895 --> 00:19:59,898 Because depression can't explain everything away. 269 00:19:59,898 --> 00:20:02,901 Well, out of interest, what else do you think it might be? 270 00:20:03,402 --> 00:20:05,404 Okay, well, I've got it down to three possibles... 271 00:20:05,404 --> 00:20:08,907 meningitis, early senile dementia, 272 00:20:09,408 --> 00:20:12,411 or maybe a brain tumor? 273 00:20:12,411 --> 00:20:13,912 What do you think? 274 00:20:13,912 --> 00:20:14,913 You know what I think. 275 00:20:15,414 --> 00:20:16,915 You're clinically depressed. 276 00:20:16,915 --> 00:20:20,418 But I told my boss to... to "f" off the other day. 277 00:20:20,419 --> 00:20:22,421 I just couldn't... I couldn't stop myself. 278 00:20:22,421 --> 00:20:23,422 Okay. 279 00:20:23,422 --> 00:20:25,924 Well, no, it's not. He sacked me. 280 00:20:25,924 --> 00:20:29,427 Now I'm having difficulty concentrating. 281 00:20:29,428 --> 00:20:32,431 I, um... 282 00:20:32,431 --> 00:20:34,933 I get headaches sometimes, 283 00:20:34,933 --> 00:20:36,935 um, confusion. 284 00:20:36,935 --> 00:20:39,938 I get very down about things, black moods. 285 00:20:41,440 --> 00:20:43,442 I can't stop thinking about... 286 00:20:43,442 --> 00:20:45,343 What? 287 00:20:45,344 --> 00:20:47,846 Sex. 288 00:20:47,846 --> 00:20:49,347 Sex. Fuck! 289 00:20:49,348 --> 00:20:50,849 Sorry. 290 00:20:50,849 --> 00:20:54,352 Um, sex with my wife. 291 00:20:54,353 --> 00:20:55,354 Well, that's good. 292 00:20:55,354 --> 00:20:57,356 No, no, it's not good. 293 00:20:57,356 --> 00:20:59,358 We're having a trial separation. 294 00:20:59,358 --> 00:21:01,860 Ah. 295 00:21:01,860 --> 00:21:05,864 I keep doing these peculiar... Things. 296 00:21:05,864 --> 00:21:07,365 I can't really describe it. 297 00:21:07,366 --> 00:21:10,869 We discussed this in great detail when I last saw you. 298 00:21:10,869 --> 00:21:12,871 I'm pushing her away. 299 00:21:12,871 --> 00:21:14,372 And I love her so much. 300 00:21:14,373 --> 00:21:16,375 I'm getting desperate. 301 00:21:16,375 --> 00:21:17,876 Calm down now. 302 00:21:17,876 --> 00:21:22,380 We've had you on 20 milligrams a day. 303 00:21:22,381 --> 00:21:24,383 Let's try you on a stronger dosage. 304 00:21:24,383 --> 00:21:28,887 See if we can break the vicious circle, hmm? 305 00:21:28,887 --> 00:21:30,889 Thanks. 306 00:21:54,913 --> 00:21:56,915 How did it go? 307 00:21:56,915 --> 00:21:57,916 Sorry. 308 00:21:57,916 --> 00:22:00,418 Oh, let me guess. Keroxotine, 20 milligrams a day. 309 00:22:00,419 --> 00:22:02,421 Maybe 40. Did he up your dosage? 310 00:22:02,421 --> 00:22:05,424 "Come back and see me in a month"? 311 00:22:05,424 --> 00:22:07,426 Excuse me? Where to, governor? 312 00:22:07,426 --> 00:22:09,428 Uh, Kent... Kentish Town. 313 00:22:09,428 --> 00:22:11,430 Do I know you? 314 00:22:11,430 --> 00:22:13,932 Sorry, but I noticed you in the waiting room. 315 00:22:13,932 --> 00:22:16,434 I'm very good at spotting it. Takes one to know one. 316 00:22:16,435 --> 00:22:17,936 Right. 317 00:22:17,936 --> 00:22:19,938 Uh, good at spotting what? 318 00:22:19,938 --> 00:22:21,439 Do you want this cab or not? 319 00:22:21,440 --> 00:22:23,442 Yeah, yeah, I do. 320 00:22:23,442 --> 00:22:25,944 I'm with this self-help group. 321 00:22:25,944 --> 00:22:26,945 We meet every Tuesday, 322 00:22:26,945 --> 00:22:28,947 and there's six of us in the group, 323 00:22:28,947 --> 00:22:30,448 so we could do with an extra person. 324 00:22:30,949 --> 00:22:31,950 Six? Yeah. 325 00:22:31,950 --> 00:22:33,952 And if you come along, that will be seven, 326 00:22:33,952 --> 00:22:34,953 which would be good for me 327 00:22:34,953 --> 00:22:36,454 because I have a problem with odd numbers, 328 00:22:36,455 --> 00:22:38,957 and it's good therapy for me to have to fight it, 329 00:22:38,957 --> 00:22:40,458 not that I really want to, but... 330 00:22:40,459 --> 00:22:42,461 so, anyway, my phone number's on the back of the card 331 00:22:42,461 --> 00:22:44,963 if you fancy coming along. 332 00:22:44,963 --> 00:22:45,964 Thanks. Yeah. 333 00:23:06,985 --> 00:23:09,487 All right, mate? 334 00:23:09,488 --> 00:23:10,489 Nightingale room? 335 00:23:10,489 --> 00:23:12,991 Um, yeah. 336 00:23:12,991 --> 00:23:13,992 First time? 337 00:23:14,493 --> 00:23:15,494 Yeah. 338 00:23:15,494 --> 00:23:16,995 Yeah, it's ridiculous, isn't it? 339 00:23:16,995 --> 00:23:18,496 I've been on them for bloody ages 340 00:23:18,497 --> 00:23:20,999 to get a room on the ground floor. 341 00:23:29,508 --> 00:23:33,011 Anyway, it's up here on the left. 342 00:23:48,026 --> 00:23:51,529 Okay, I'll tell you exactly why I failed. 343 00:23:51,530 --> 00:23:54,533 I was just sitting in the exam hall, 344 00:23:54,533 --> 00:23:57,536 ready to begin, paper in front of me, 345 00:23:58,036 --> 00:24:00,038 confident, yep. 346 00:24:00,038 --> 00:24:02,040 All my revision in place... 347 00:24:05,043 --> 00:24:07,045 'Cause... 348 00:24:10,048 --> 00:24:13,551 'Cause Anthony "shitty" Shippham was off with the flu, 349 00:24:13,552 --> 00:24:17,055 I ended up in a row of nine students instead of ten. 350 00:24:17,055 --> 00:24:19,057 Yeah, and that was it. Gone. 351 00:24:19,558 --> 00:24:21,560 I couldn't cope with the odd number. 352 00:24:21,560 --> 00:24:25,564 I could barely even write my name at the top of the paper. 353 00:24:25,564 --> 00:24:26,565 Hi. 354 00:24:29,568 --> 00:24:31,570 What was your name again? 355 00:24:31,570 --> 00:24:33,572 Um, Mark. 356 00:24:33,572 --> 00:24:35,574 Well, you've sort of missed the beginning this week, Mark. 357 00:24:36,074 --> 00:24:38,076 Do you want to leave it and come back next week? 358 00:24:38,076 --> 00:24:40,578 It's his first time. Oh, uh, yeah. 359 00:24:40,579 --> 00:24:43,381 No, Mark's here now. 360 00:24:43,381 --> 00:24:46,217 Let him take a seat and join in. 361 00:24:48,720 --> 00:24:51,723 If you must. 362 00:25:01,733 --> 00:25:07,238 Um, yeah, okay, there's seven of us. 363 00:25:07,239 --> 00:25:10,242 Seven. 364 00:25:10,242 --> 00:25:14,246 Come on, your exam. 365 00:25:14,246 --> 00:25:16,248 What was your point? 366 00:25:16,248 --> 00:25:18,250 Yeah, um... 367 00:25:18,250 --> 00:25:21,253 Um, um... 368 00:25:21,253 --> 00:25:24,256 Gemma thinks we should celebrate our illness. 369 00:25:24,256 --> 00:25:26,258 Personally, I can't see anything to celebrate 370 00:25:26,258 --> 00:25:27,759 about me failing my exam 371 00:25:27,759 --> 00:25:29,260 because Anthony "shitty" Shippham had the flu. 372 00:25:29,761 --> 00:25:31,763 Obsessive-compulsive disorder. 373 00:25:32,264 --> 00:25:33,765 It makes you who you are. 374 00:25:33,765 --> 00:25:36,267 Would you even have been sitting in that exam without it? 375 00:25:36,268 --> 00:25:38,770 That is dangerous talk, and you know it. 376 00:25:38,770 --> 00:25:40,271 We sit here, week in, week out, 377 00:25:40,272 --> 00:25:41,773 because we have an illness, Gemma. 378 00:25:41,773 --> 00:25:44,776 You try telling cancer patients their tumors are part of them. 379 00:25:44,776 --> 00:25:47,779 So, why are you here then? Hmm, Gemma? 380 00:25:47,779 --> 00:25:49,781 To celebrate making your boyfriend strip off all his clothes 381 00:25:49,781 --> 00:25:51,783 before you'll let him in the house, eh? 382 00:25:51,783 --> 00:25:52,784 To celebrate the fact 383 00:25:52,784 --> 00:25:54,786 that you spend all day sniffing your fingers? 384 00:25:57,289 --> 00:25:59,791 You're ashamed of what you do, just like the rest of us, Gemma. 385 00:25:59,791 --> 00:26:00,792 Fuck off, Charlie. 386 00:26:00,792 --> 00:26:02,794 Ooooh. 387 00:26:02,794 --> 00:26:06,297 And one more thing, Miss Charlotte. 388 00:26:06,298 --> 00:26:09,801 Is the trip to the farm still happening? 389 00:26:09,801 --> 00:26:10,802 Yes, Hasim. 390 00:26:10,802 --> 00:26:13,805 We meet on Saturday morning, 10:00. 391 00:26:13,805 --> 00:26:15,306 10:00. 392 00:26:15,307 --> 00:26:16,308 Right, right. 393 00:26:16,808 --> 00:26:17,809 In that case, 394 00:26:17,809 --> 00:26:20,812 will we be expected to wear Wellington boots? 395 00:26:20,812 --> 00:26:23,815 You see, the rubber does not allow the feet to breathe. 396 00:26:24,316 --> 00:26:27,819 They become very smelly and sweaty. 397 00:26:27,819 --> 00:26:32,323 Wellington's are entirely optional, Hasim. 398 00:26:32,324 --> 00:26:36,328 Oh, thank you. Thank you very much. 399 00:26:36,328 --> 00:26:39,331 So, what do you think? 400 00:26:39,331 --> 00:26:43,335 Well... I'm amazed. 401 00:26:43,335 --> 00:26:44,836 I thought, uh... 402 00:26:44,836 --> 00:26:47,839 You thought it was only you. 403 00:26:47,839 --> 00:26:50,842 Yeah, that's what I used to think. 404 00:26:50,842 --> 00:26:54,345 Yeah, you'd be surprised how many of us there are out there. 405 00:26:56,848 --> 00:26:59,851 It's rude to stare. 406 00:27:01,853 --> 00:27:06,357 So I started to obsess about not wanting him to see me 407 00:27:06,358 --> 00:27:08,360 at the point of climax. 408 00:27:08,360 --> 00:27:09,861 Why not? 409 00:27:09,861 --> 00:27:12,864 You know, worried about how ugly I'd look. 410 00:27:12,864 --> 00:27:15,366 That face we all pull. 411 00:27:23,875 --> 00:27:25,376 And at my age. 412 00:27:25,377 --> 00:27:28,380 Hasim, turn it back on, please. 413 00:27:30,382 --> 00:27:32,384 So many apologies. 414 00:27:38,890 --> 00:27:40,892 Apologies. 415 00:27:41,393 --> 00:27:44,396 So, there we were. 416 00:27:44,396 --> 00:27:46,898 Me trying to look away from him, 417 00:27:46,898 --> 00:27:52,403 him on top of me, trying to pull my face back towards him. 418 00:27:58,910 --> 00:28:01,913 Pulling and straining and... 419 00:28:04,416 --> 00:28:05,917 I farted and fell off the bed. 420 00:28:07,419 --> 00:28:08,420 Hasim! 421 00:28:08,420 --> 00:28:10,922 Freak you out in there, did it? 422 00:28:12,424 --> 00:28:14,426 Uh, yeah. Yeah, a bit. 423 00:28:14,426 --> 00:28:15,927 It can be a bit full on. 424 00:28:15,927 --> 00:28:18,429 The whole point is to be honest with each other. 425 00:28:18,430 --> 00:28:19,931 No cover ups, no disguise, 426 00:28:19,931 --> 00:28:21,933 just the freedom of sitting there with a bunch of nutters 427 00:28:21,933 --> 00:28:23,434 just as loony as you are. 428 00:28:23,435 --> 00:28:26,438 Yeah. 429 00:28:26,438 --> 00:28:27,939 Nice tits. 430 00:28:27,939 --> 00:28:28,940 Thank you. 431 00:28:28,940 --> 00:28:30,942 Yeah, she just winds me up sometimes, Gemma, 432 00:28:30,942 --> 00:28:33,945 with all this "live with it, it's part of you" shit. 433 00:28:35,947 --> 00:28:38,950 By the way, that can be connected. 434 00:28:38,950 --> 00:28:39,951 What can? 435 00:28:39,951 --> 00:28:41,953 "Nice tits." Blurting stuff out. 436 00:28:42,454 --> 00:28:43,455 That's Tourette's Syndrome 437 00:28:43,455 --> 00:28:45,457 or maybe some kind of vocal tic disorder. 438 00:28:45,457 --> 00:28:46,958 They can both be linked to OCD. 439 00:28:47,459 --> 00:28:48,960 I've got something else, as well? 440 00:28:49,461 --> 00:28:52,464 Because you're special Mark. 441 00:28:52,464 --> 00:28:54,466 Actually I don't know too much about it, 442 00:28:54,466 --> 00:28:56,968 except it's all to do with fucked up neurotransmitters. 443 00:28:56,968 --> 00:28:59,470 Neurotransmitters? 444 00:28:59,971 --> 00:29:02,473 Mm-hmm, yeah, yeah. Whatever they are, yeah. 445 00:29:06,344 --> 00:29:08,846 Does she really make her boyfriend strip off? 446 00:29:08,847 --> 00:29:10,849 Every stitch. I've seen it. 447 00:29:10,849 --> 00:29:11,850 He was standing on the porch, 448 00:29:11,850 --> 00:29:13,852 and she was holding out a bin liner for him. 449 00:29:13,852 --> 00:29:15,353 No way! I swear. 450 00:29:15,353 --> 00:29:16,354 Bullocks! 451 00:29:16,354 --> 00:29:18,356 S-sorry. 452 00:29:18,356 --> 00:29:20,358 Don't be. 453 00:29:20,358 --> 00:29:22,360 It's not your fault. 454 00:29:22,360 --> 00:29:23,861 None of this is. 455 00:29:23,862 --> 00:29:25,864 But we can still laugh about it, can't we? 456 00:29:27,365 --> 00:29:29,867 So, what other stuff do you get up to? 457 00:29:30,368 --> 00:29:31,369 Well, uh... 458 00:29:31,369 --> 00:29:33,871 What's the matter? Do you not like talking about it? 459 00:29:33,872 --> 00:29:35,874 It just seems so weird, that's all. 460 00:29:35,874 --> 00:29:37,876 I've spent so long trying to keep it a secret, 461 00:29:38,376 --> 00:29:39,377 even... even from myself, 462 00:29:39,377 --> 00:29:42,380 and here I am confessing it all to someone I've just met. 463 00:29:42,380 --> 00:29:43,881 Tit! Arse fuck! 464 00:29:46,885 --> 00:29:48,386 I mean, you seem so normal. 465 00:29:48,386 --> 00:29:50,388 Two years of therapy, five years of medication, 466 00:29:50,388 --> 00:29:52,890 and I still can't take a sip without looking like a tit. 467 00:29:52,891 --> 00:29:54,392 Tit! Tit fuck! 468 00:29:54,392 --> 00:29:56,894 Um, what sort of therapy? 469 00:29:56,895 --> 00:29:58,396 Cognitive behavioral therapy. 470 00:29:58,396 --> 00:30:00,398 What's that? 471 00:30:00,398 --> 00:30:03,401 Retraining the brain to think differently. 472 00:30:05,904 --> 00:30:08,406 Okay. 473 00:30:08,406 --> 00:30:09,907 Right, this is a brain. 474 00:30:09,908 --> 00:30:11,910 Now let's say this half gets a thought. 475 00:30:11,910 --> 00:30:13,912 "Will something terrible happen to my family 476 00:30:14,412 --> 00:30:15,913 if I don't walk into a room backwards?" 477 00:30:18,416 --> 00:30:20,918 No, no, no, I'm serious. I'm serious. 478 00:30:20,919 --> 00:30:23,421 "Have I switched off the gas?" "Are my hands dirty?" 479 00:30:23,421 --> 00:30:24,922 Now, normal people have these thoughts, too, 480 00:30:24,923 --> 00:30:27,425 but the part of the brain that deals with this stuff kicks in, 481 00:30:27,425 --> 00:30:29,427 and they immediately rationalize and get rid of them. 482 00:30:29,427 --> 00:30:30,928 But with us, that part doesn't work properly. 483 00:30:30,929 --> 00:30:32,931 The neurotransmitters. Exactly! 484 00:30:32,931 --> 00:30:34,432 They're chewing gum thoughts. 485 00:30:34,432 --> 00:30:36,934 They just go round and round, but they never get digested. 486 00:30:36,935 --> 00:30:37,936 So what does the therapy do? 487 00:30:38,436 --> 00:30:39,937 Trains you to recognize unwanted thoughts for what they are, 488 00:30:40,438 --> 00:30:41,439 and instead of giving in to them... 489 00:30:41,439 --> 00:30:43,441 washing your hands 57 times, going up and down stairs... 490 00:30:43,441 --> 00:30:45,443 you turn them into what's called "white noise." 491 00:30:45,443 --> 00:30:47,445 You learn to try and ignore it, no matter how loud it gets. 492 00:30:47,445 --> 00:30:49,447 Believe me, it can get bloody noisy in there. 493 00:30:49,447 --> 00:30:50,448 It can be agony. 494 00:30:50,448 --> 00:30:52,950 But if you're determined enough, the noise will go away. 495 00:30:52,951 --> 00:30:54,953 It has to, because it really is the most ridiculous illness. 496 00:30:54,953 --> 00:30:57,455 I mean, at least with autism or something they have no idea. 497 00:30:57,455 --> 00:30:59,457 We're completely aware of how stupid and pathetic we're being, 498 00:30:59,457 --> 00:31:00,458 but we can't stop ourselves. 499 00:31:00,959 --> 00:31:02,460 Actually, um... 500 00:31:02,460 --> 00:31:06,964 My wife once caught me soaking my balls in white spirit. 501 00:31:12,971 --> 00:31:14,472 Really? 502 00:31:17,475 --> 00:31:20,478 You've got to tell me all about it. 503 00:31:23,481 --> 00:31:27,985 "Air-Tex"... very clever material. 504 00:31:27,986 --> 00:31:29,988 Allows the feet to breathe. 505 00:31:30,488 --> 00:31:32,990 No sweating, no smelling. 506 00:31:32,991 --> 00:31:35,493 That's a bloody time bomb, that is. 507 00:31:35,493 --> 00:31:37,495 Very, very dangerous things, thermos flasks. 508 00:31:37,495 --> 00:31:38,996 Them and McDonald's hot apple pies. 509 00:31:38,997 --> 00:31:40,498 Yeah, okay, guys. 510 00:31:40,498 --> 00:31:43,000 Remember we agreed today was gonna be a wet-wipe-free zone. 511 00:31:43,501 --> 00:31:45,503 So could you please all surrender your wet wipes, 512 00:31:45,503 --> 00:31:48,506 which will be returned at the end of the day? 513 00:31:48,506 --> 00:31:50,508 Come on, hurry up! 514 00:31:52,010 --> 00:31:53,511 Thank you. 515 00:31:53,511 --> 00:31:55,513 Unh-unh. Come on, Geraldine. 516 00:32:01,519 --> 00:32:02,520 Thank you. 517 00:32:02,520 --> 00:32:05,022 Come on. 518 00:32:05,023 --> 00:32:06,524 Come on. 519 00:32:24,042 --> 00:32:25,543 Good news! 520 00:32:25,543 --> 00:32:28,045 Gwyn the farmer says we can collect eggs 521 00:32:28,046 --> 00:32:29,547 and feed the calves later. 522 00:32:29,547 --> 00:32:31,549 Isn't that great? 523 00:32:31,549 --> 00:32:33,050 Right, come on. 524 00:32:33,051 --> 00:32:37,055 Let's start as we mean to go on. Everyone down on their knees. 525 00:32:39,057 --> 00:32:42,060 Come on, knees. 526 00:32:42,060 --> 00:32:44,562 It's gonna ruin the fabric of my trousers... kneel! 527 00:32:53,071 --> 00:32:56,574 Let's start as we mean to go on. 528 00:32:58,576 --> 00:33:01,078 Now, this is what I want you to do. 529 00:33:01,079 --> 00:33:03,081 Take a good handful of dirt, 530 00:33:03,081 --> 00:33:07,385 and work it in thoroughly. 531 00:33:07,385 --> 00:33:08,719 What if there's you know what in it? 532 00:33:09,220 --> 00:33:10,221 Oh, for God's sake, just do it. 533 00:33:10,221 --> 00:33:11,722 Don't think about it, all of you. 534 00:33:13,224 --> 00:33:15,226 Mark! 535 00:33:17,729 --> 00:33:19,230 I can't! I can't! 536 00:33:19,230 --> 00:33:20,731 Get on with it, Gemma. 537 00:33:20,732 --> 00:33:23,234 The time doesn't start until we have all done it. 538 00:33:23,234 --> 00:33:24,735 For Christ's sake, get on with it, gem. 539 00:33:25,236 --> 00:33:26,737 Just do it. 540 00:33:26,738 --> 00:33:29,741 Please, Gemma, please. Would you hurry up? 541 00:33:30,241 --> 00:33:31,742 All right! 542 00:33:31,743 --> 00:33:33,244 Ugh! 543 00:33:35,246 --> 00:33:36,247 Okay. 544 00:33:36,247 --> 00:33:40,251 Five minutes. 545 00:33:54,766 --> 00:33:59,771 Just kneeling there with muck all over their hands. 546 00:34:00,271 --> 00:34:05,776 No, Gwyn reckons they're some sort of cult. 547 00:34:05,777 --> 00:34:07,779 Definitely. 548 00:34:09,781 --> 00:34:13,284 Steady, Kenneth. 549 00:34:13,284 --> 00:34:15,786 Come on, 30 seconds. 550 00:34:16,287 --> 00:34:17,288 Bloody torture, this is. 551 00:34:20,291 --> 00:34:21,292 Not long. 552 00:34:21,292 --> 00:34:22,293 Come on, come on. 553 00:34:25,797 --> 00:34:27,799 Ten seconds. 554 00:34:29,801 --> 00:34:32,804 Come on, fight it, Kenneth. 555 00:34:32,804 --> 00:34:35,306 Fight it, mate. 556 00:34:35,306 --> 00:34:36,307 You can do it. 557 00:34:36,808 --> 00:34:38,309 Five... 558 00:34:38,309 --> 00:34:39,810 Four... 559 00:34:39,811 --> 00:34:41,312 Three... 560 00:34:41,312 --> 00:34:43,314 Two, one! 561 00:34:56,828 --> 00:34:59,831 We did it, we did it! 562 00:34:59,831 --> 00:35:00,832 How do you feel? 563 00:35:01,332 --> 00:35:03,334 Fantastic! 564 00:35:10,842 --> 00:35:13,845 Christ's sake, Hasim. Leave the bloody things alone. 565 00:35:14,345 --> 00:35:16,847 So sorry. 566 00:35:16,848 --> 00:35:19,350 Oh, look! Oh, it's so lovely. 567 00:35:19,350 --> 00:35:20,851 Here, it's still warm. 568 00:35:20,852 --> 00:35:22,353 Quick, feel it. 569 00:35:23,354 --> 00:35:26,357 Oh, bless you, Mrs. chicken. 570 00:35:26,357 --> 00:35:28,359 You're so clever. 571 00:35:28,359 --> 00:35:29,860 Don't worry. They won't hurt you. 572 00:35:29,861 --> 00:35:32,363 It's the other end you'll need to worry about. 573 00:35:32,363 --> 00:35:34,365 Why? Why is that? 574 00:35:34,365 --> 00:35:35,866 They're scouring. 575 00:35:37,869 --> 00:35:39,871 They've got the shits. 576 00:35:39,871 --> 00:35:41,372 Oh. 577 00:35:47,879 --> 00:35:49,881 Mr. Rhodri! 578 00:35:50,381 --> 00:35:51,882 Feel the miracle. 579 00:35:51,883 --> 00:35:53,885 I'm going nowhere near that bloody egg. 580 00:35:53,885 --> 00:35:54,886 Why not? 581 00:35:54,886 --> 00:35:57,388 One word... salmonella. 582 00:36:03,895 --> 00:36:05,396 Try it, Kenneth. 583 00:36:05,396 --> 00:36:09,400 It's disgusting and wonderful at the same time. 584 00:36:12,904 --> 00:36:14,906 Thanks for today. 585 00:36:14,906 --> 00:36:16,908 It's been good. 586 00:36:16,908 --> 00:36:19,911 A long time since I felt like this. 587 00:36:23,915 --> 00:36:26,417 Nice arse. 588 00:36:27,418 --> 00:36:29,420 No, I haven't got Tourette's. 589 00:36:29,420 --> 00:36:32,423 I'm saying, "nice arse." 590 00:36:37,428 --> 00:36:39,930 So, you married then? 591 00:36:39,931 --> 00:36:44,936 Um, well, separated, really... 592 00:36:44,936 --> 00:36:45,937 For now. 593 00:36:45,937 --> 00:36:47,438 What does that mean? 594 00:36:47,438 --> 00:36:49,940 Well, if I can get myself well again, 595 00:36:49,941 --> 00:36:52,443 maybe there's hope for us. 596 00:36:52,944 --> 00:36:54,445 What about you? 597 00:36:54,445 --> 00:36:55,946 Single... 598 00:36:55,947 --> 00:36:58,449 Since 1998, December 12. 599 00:36:58,449 --> 00:37:00,951 The night he came home and found me crying hysterically 600 00:37:01,452 --> 00:37:03,954 'cause I thought I caught cancer from the TV remote control. 601 00:37:03,955 --> 00:37:06,958 What, from the rays it sends out? 602 00:37:06,958 --> 00:37:07,959 Yeah. 603 00:37:07,959 --> 00:37:09,460 And, no, Mark, they're harmless. 604 00:37:09,460 --> 00:37:11,462 Right. 605 00:37:11,462 --> 00:37:13,464 Yeah, that was the last straw for him. 606 00:37:13,464 --> 00:37:14,798 Bastard. 607 00:37:14,799 --> 00:37:16,801 All I wanted was a cuddle. 608 00:37:16,801 --> 00:37:18,803 Not much to ask, is it, from someone who says they love you? 609 00:37:18,803 --> 00:37:21,806 No. No, it's not. 610 00:37:21,806 --> 00:37:24,809 And ever since, I've been an odd number, a one, 611 00:37:24,809 --> 00:37:26,310 never to be a two. 612 00:37:26,310 --> 00:37:29,313 I think that's God's little joke on me, 613 00:37:29,313 --> 00:37:30,814 but I'm going to win. 614 00:37:30,815 --> 00:37:34,318 I refuse to go to my grave holding a packet of wet wipes. 615 00:37:34,318 --> 00:37:35,319 Oh! 616 00:37:35,319 --> 00:37:37,821 Aah! Aaaaah! 617 00:37:37,822 --> 00:37:39,824 Ohh! Ohh! 618 00:37:45,830 --> 00:37:47,832 Oh, God. 619 00:38:13,858 --> 00:38:16,861 So, are you coming out for a drink tonight? 620 00:38:16,861 --> 00:38:19,864 Uh, no, mate. I've got to get this done. 621 00:38:20,364 --> 00:38:21,365 What is all that? 622 00:38:21,866 --> 00:38:22,867 Homework. 623 00:38:22,867 --> 00:38:24,368 Homework? 624 00:38:24,368 --> 00:38:25,369 Yeah, from the group. 625 00:38:25,369 --> 00:38:27,371 Is that Charlotte gonna tell you off 626 00:38:27,371 --> 00:38:29,373 if you don't get it in on time? 627 00:38:29,874 --> 00:38:32,877 You like her, don't you? Charlotte. 628 00:38:32,877 --> 00:38:35,379 Yeah, she's great. 629 00:38:37,381 --> 00:38:39,383 What sort of homework is it? 630 00:38:39,884 --> 00:38:42,386 Uh, I've got to describe all my OCDs... 631 00:38:42,386 --> 00:38:44,388 what they're like, when they happen, 632 00:38:44,388 --> 00:38:47,891 how often, how severe. 633 00:38:47,892 --> 00:38:49,894 Can you tell us about them? 634 00:38:49,894 --> 00:38:52,396 Oh, yes, go on. Are you allowed? 635 00:38:52,396 --> 00:38:55,899 I don't see why not. 636 00:38:55,900 --> 00:38:58,402 Go on then, pick one... 637 00:38:58,402 --> 00:39:02,406 clothes, eyes, talking, cleaning teeth, 638 00:39:02,406 --> 00:39:05,409 getting out of bed, blowing my nose, 639 00:39:05,409 --> 00:39:08,412 nails, sitting, bathing, eating. 640 00:39:08,412 --> 00:39:10,914 Sitting. Sitting. 641 00:39:11,916 --> 00:39:13,918 Okeydokey. 642 00:39:13,918 --> 00:39:16,921 "Sitting." 643 00:39:16,921 --> 00:39:18,923 Why sitting? 644 00:39:18,923 --> 00:39:22,927 Well, because you always do that thing. 645 00:39:22,927 --> 00:39:25,429 What thing? 646 00:39:30,434 --> 00:39:34,438 Up and down, checking the seat. 647 00:39:34,438 --> 00:39:37,441 Yeah, you do. 648 00:39:37,441 --> 00:39:40,444 Oh. 649 00:39:43,447 --> 00:39:45,949 Okay. 650 00:39:45,950 --> 00:39:47,952 Uh, sitting. 651 00:39:54,959 --> 00:39:58,462 "As I sit on this chair, 652 00:39:58,462 --> 00:40:03,467 "I'm damaging my coccyx and spine... 653 00:40:03,467 --> 00:40:05,469 "With the impact. 654 00:40:05,469 --> 00:40:08,472 "This, in turn... 655 00:40:08,472 --> 00:40:13,977 "Causes a ripple effect up through my body, 656 00:40:13,978 --> 00:40:17,982 "neck jerking, sending head forward, 657 00:40:17,982 --> 00:40:20,985 "causing teeth to gnash together and chip. 658 00:40:20,985 --> 00:40:22,987 "At the same time, 659 00:40:22,987 --> 00:40:26,490 "I am also damaging the structure of the chair. 660 00:40:26,490 --> 00:40:28,992 "The frame is splintering, buckling under my weight. 661 00:40:28,993 --> 00:40:30,995 "The carpet below is damaged, 662 00:40:30,995 --> 00:40:32,997 "and underneath that, the foundations, 663 00:40:32,997 --> 00:40:36,000 "the concrete, is cracking." 664 00:40:40,004 --> 00:40:42,006 So that's sitting. 665 00:40:46,510 --> 00:40:55,519 "I don't wash/soap enough the genital area or my anus. 666 00:40:55,519 --> 00:41:00,524 "Afraid of scratching my anus with sharp nails. 667 00:41:00,524 --> 00:41:02,526 "I don't rinse my armpits enough, 668 00:41:02,526 --> 00:41:07,531 "also I don't rinse my genitals or anus enough. 669 00:41:07,531 --> 00:41:09,032 "Standing up, 670 00:41:09,033 --> 00:41:13,537 "I'm very close to catching my head on the shower rail. 671 00:41:13,537 --> 00:41:21,044 "I don't rinse/swill the soapy water enough for my, uh, feet. 672 00:41:22,046 --> 00:41:26,550 "Fear of soap drying and causing a rash. 673 00:41:27,051 --> 00:41:30,554 "Also soaking and staining the rug. 674 00:41:30,554 --> 00:41:32,556 "Also fear of damaging genitals 675 00:41:32,556 --> 00:41:37,060 "by drying them too hard with... a towel." 676 00:41:40,064 --> 00:41:45,869 And finally blowing my nose. 677 00:41:45,870 --> 00:41:50,708 "I blow too hard, causing my eardrums to burst, 678 00:41:51,208 --> 00:41:57,714 "and worse, a blood clot/tumor to happen in the brain." 679 00:42:04,722 --> 00:42:06,724 That's it. 680 00:42:12,730 --> 00:42:14,732 How do you feel? 681 00:42:15,232 --> 00:42:17,734 Uh... 682 00:42:18,235 --> 00:42:20,737 Purged. 683 00:42:21,238 --> 00:42:22,739 Not particularly thrilled 684 00:42:22,740 --> 00:42:25,242 about discussing soaping my anus/genitals 685 00:42:25,743 --> 00:42:27,244 with a roomful of people I hardly know. 686 00:42:27,745 --> 00:42:30,748 But, uh, no. 687 00:42:30,748 --> 00:42:32,750 It's good to get them out in the open. 688 00:42:34,251 --> 00:42:36,753 I mean my OCDs. 689 00:42:36,754 --> 00:42:38,756 Bloody good that was. 690 00:42:39,256 --> 00:42:40,757 Yeah, some new ones there for me, 691 00:42:40,758 --> 00:42:42,760 especially that one about sitting on the toilet. 692 00:42:42,760 --> 00:42:44,261 It's funny that because you know you said 693 00:42:44,261 --> 00:42:46,263 about lining your feet up with the wall, 694 00:42:46,263 --> 00:42:49,266 I always have to have mine at an angle, pointing in. 695 00:42:49,266 --> 00:42:52,269 Yeah, thank you for that, Rhod. 696 00:42:52,269 --> 00:42:54,271 Yeah. 697 00:42:59,276 --> 00:43:02,279 You did really well. 698 00:43:02,279 --> 00:43:03,780 You were very brave. 699 00:43:19,296 --> 00:43:20,297 Bye. 700 00:43:20,798 --> 00:43:21,799 Thanks. 701 00:43:24,802 --> 00:43:26,303 Thanks. 702 00:44:36,373 --> 00:44:37,874 Yes! 703 00:44:37,875 --> 00:44:39,376 Yes! 704 00:44:39,376 --> 00:44:40,877 Oh, yes! 705 00:44:40,878 --> 00:44:42,880 Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes. 706 00:44:42,880 --> 00:44:44,882 Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes. 707 00:44:44,882 --> 00:44:46,884 Yes, yes, oh, yes, oh, yes. 708 00:44:46,884 --> 00:44:51,388 Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes. 709 00:44:51,388 --> 00:44:53,390 Ooh, hi, Kathy. Sorry, sorry. 710 00:44:53,390 --> 00:44:55,392 Sorry. Had a few drinks. 711 00:44:55,392 --> 00:44:56,893 Sleep well. 712 00:44:56,894 --> 00:44:59,396 Goodnight. 713 00:44:59,396 --> 00:45:01,398 Yes. 714 00:45:03,400 --> 00:45:07,404 But it doesn't make any sense. 715 00:45:07,404 --> 00:45:08,905 I'm getting myself well. 716 00:45:09,406 --> 00:45:11,408 I need to speak to her. 717 00:45:11,408 --> 00:45:12,909 Not a good idea. 718 00:45:12,910 --> 00:45:14,912 She's expressly requested all communication 719 00:45:14,912 --> 00:45:16,413 to be through solicitors from now on. 720 00:45:16,413 --> 00:45:17,914 But I'm doing this for her. 721 00:45:17,915 --> 00:45:18,916 She wants a divorce. 722 00:45:18,916 --> 00:45:21,418 Sorry. 723 00:45:21,418 --> 00:45:24,921 Yes, well, it all seems pretty straightforward. 724 00:45:24,922 --> 00:45:26,423 "My client understands 725 00:45:26,423 --> 00:45:28,925 "that Mr. Furness will need to set himself up somewhere new. 726 00:45:28,926 --> 00:45:31,929 She will take on the mortgage on the marital home until"... 727 00:45:34,932 --> 00:45:36,934 "such time as the property is sold. 728 00:45:36,934 --> 00:45:39,937 50-50 split of the proceeds." All seems very reasonable. 729 00:45:39,937 --> 00:45:41,438 Oh, I'm sure it is very reasonable, 730 00:45:41,939 --> 00:45:42,940 very bloody reasonable. 731 00:45:42,940 --> 00:45:45,442 I'm sorry. 732 00:45:45,943 --> 00:45:48,445 I know this can't be easy, but, honestly, take it from me. 733 00:45:48,445 --> 00:45:49,946 If you can keep... Beardy! 734 00:45:50,948 --> 00:45:52,449 Sorry. 735 00:45:52,449 --> 00:45:54,951 Beardy! Sorry. 736 00:45:55,953 --> 00:45:57,454 Twat! 737 00:45:57,454 --> 00:46:00,457 I'm sorry, Richard. I'm sorry. 738 00:46:00,457 --> 00:46:03,460 I'm just a little worked up. I'm... Just... 739 00:46:03,460 --> 00:46:05,962 that's okay. 740 00:46:06,463 --> 00:46:07,464 Take your time. 741 00:46:08,966 --> 00:46:09,967 Fat bastard! 742 00:46:09,967 --> 00:46:11,468 Calm down. Calm down, Mark. 743 00:46:11,468 --> 00:46:13,470 Try and focus on why she wants a divorce. 744 00:46:13,971 --> 00:46:15,472 Well, it's obvious, isn't it? 745 00:46:15,472 --> 00:46:16,973 Oh, put them there, there. 746 00:46:16,974 --> 00:46:17,975 Ohh! I'm sorry. 747 00:46:18,475 --> 00:46:19,976 It's because of this. 748 00:46:19,977 --> 00:46:24,982 I've driven her away by being a total fucking fruitcake. 749 00:46:24,982 --> 00:46:25,983 Tits! 750 00:46:25,983 --> 00:46:26,984 Tits! Pussy! 751 00:46:26,984 --> 00:46:28,485 Fucking pussy! Tits! 752 00:46:28,485 --> 00:46:29,986 Calm down, Mark! 753 00:46:29,987 --> 00:46:32,990 I'm fighting it, Charlotte, I really am. 754 00:46:32,990 --> 00:46:34,992 But it's so powerful. 755 00:46:34,992 --> 00:46:36,994 Help me, please. 756 00:46:36,994 --> 00:46:38,996 You've got to consider professional help, Mark, 757 00:46:38,996 --> 00:46:40,497 a proper course of therapy. 758 00:46:40,497 --> 00:46:42,499 I haven't got time! 759 00:46:44,501 --> 00:46:46,002 Ohh! Oh, what are you doing? 760 00:46:46,003 --> 00:46:48,505 I want you to be a witness here. 761 00:46:48,505 --> 00:46:52,008 I am declaring war on this disease. 762 00:46:52,009 --> 00:46:54,511 ♪ Sprinkle, sprinkle, little star ♪ 763 00:46:54,511 --> 00:46:56,513 ♪ how I wonder what you are ♪ 764 00:46:58,015 --> 00:47:00,017 Oh, stop it! Mark, stop! 765 00:47:00,017 --> 00:47:02,019 No, I'm all right, really. 766 00:47:02,019 --> 00:47:04,021 I know what I'm doing. Please. 767 00:47:12,029 --> 00:47:15,032 There. What do you think? 768 00:47:15,032 --> 00:47:16,533 Ridiculous. 769 00:47:16,533 --> 00:47:18,535 This lot's gonna stay on for an hour and a half minimum. 770 00:47:19,036 --> 00:47:20,037 No trouble. 771 00:47:20,537 --> 00:47:24,040 I'm telling you, I'm going to beat it. 772 00:47:26,043 --> 00:47:28,045 You're suffering now, aren't you? 773 00:47:28,045 --> 00:47:30,047 Me? No, no. 774 00:47:32,549 --> 00:47:35,552 I should have let you go home on the bus. 775 00:47:39,990 --> 00:47:41,992 Come on, there's some wet wipes in the dash. 776 00:47:41,992 --> 00:47:42,993 I'm fine. 777 00:47:42,993 --> 00:47:44,995 Mark. 778 00:47:44,995 --> 00:47:46,496 How far down this road? 779 00:47:46,496 --> 00:47:47,497 Just a bit further. 780 00:47:47,998 --> 00:47:48,999 How far? 781 00:47:48,999 --> 00:47:50,000 Just... where? 782 00:47:50,000 --> 00:47:52,502 Just coming up here. Here. 783 00:47:54,004 --> 00:47:55,505 Stevie! 784 00:47:55,505 --> 00:47:57,006 That's my... that's my wife. 785 00:47:57,507 --> 00:47:59,509 Thanks for the lift. 786 00:48:08,518 --> 00:48:12,021 There's no one in. 787 00:48:12,022 --> 00:48:15,525 Uh, no, they're at work. 788 00:48:15,525 --> 00:48:19,028 What is that stuff on your face? 789 00:48:19,029 --> 00:48:22,532 Oh, it's, uh... it's chocolate powder. 790 00:48:22,532 --> 00:48:24,534 It's like a hot-chocolate drink, 791 00:48:25,035 --> 00:48:26,536 an energy drink. 792 00:48:26,536 --> 00:48:30,540 I had, uh, a bit of an accident. 793 00:48:32,542 --> 00:48:36,045 W-why are you here? 794 00:48:36,046 --> 00:48:41,051 I-I thought you might have heard from your solicitor by now. 795 00:49:01,571 --> 00:49:04,574 I'll, uh... I'll wipe this off. 796 00:50:01,131 --> 00:50:03,633 Who was she outside? 797 00:50:03,633 --> 00:50:06,135 Uh, Charlotte. 798 00:50:06,136 --> 00:50:08,138 She's, uh... she's just a mate. 799 00:50:13,143 --> 00:50:15,145 Have you got any condoms? 800 00:50:15,145 --> 00:50:18,648 Um... 801 00:50:18,648 --> 00:50:20,149 No. 802 00:50:20,150 --> 00:50:22,152 No. 803 00:50:22,152 --> 00:50:25,155 That's okay. 804 00:50:32,162 --> 00:50:33,663 Concentrate. 805 00:50:51,181 --> 00:50:53,683 Concentrate. 806 00:50:57,187 --> 00:50:58,688 Oh, this is good. 807 00:50:58,688 --> 00:51:01,691 Oh, this is so good. 808 00:51:01,691 --> 00:51:04,193 I think I'm... I'm coming. 809 00:51:04,194 --> 00:51:06,196 Oh, yeah, yeah. 810 00:51:06,196 --> 00:51:07,697 What? No, no, not yet! 811 00:51:07,697 --> 00:51:08,698 I'm there, I'm there. 812 00:51:09,199 --> 00:51:10,200 No, just a minute! 813 00:51:10,200 --> 00:51:11,201 I'm there. 814 00:51:11,201 --> 00:51:13,203 No. Yes! 815 00:51:13,203 --> 00:51:14,704 Please! Please, not yet! 816 00:51:14,704 --> 00:51:16,205 Oh! 817 00:51:16,206 --> 00:51:19,709 Hang on. I think I'm coming, too! 818 00:51:19,709 --> 00:51:21,210 Ah. 819 00:51:21,211 --> 00:51:23,713 I'm coming! 820 00:51:23,713 --> 00:51:26,215 Oh! 821 00:51:28,718 --> 00:51:30,219 Oh! 822 00:51:54,578 --> 00:51:58,582 Oh, it was perfect, Charlie. 823 00:51:58,582 --> 00:52:02,085 Just perfect. 824 00:52:02,085 --> 00:52:04,087 Beautiful. 825 00:52:04,087 --> 00:52:06,089 I wish you'd been there. 826 00:52:06,089 --> 00:52:07,590 Well, I don't think so. 827 00:52:07,591 --> 00:52:10,093 No, sorry. I didn't mean it like that. 828 00:52:10,093 --> 00:52:11,594 I just meant... 829 00:52:11,595 --> 00:52:13,597 so, um... 830 00:52:13,597 --> 00:52:16,600 so, what are you gonna do now? 831 00:52:16,600 --> 00:52:18,602 Woo her. 832 00:52:18,602 --> 00:52:20,103 What? 833 00:52:20,103 --> 00:52:22,105 Woo her. I'm gonna woo her. 834 00:52:22,105 --> 00:52:24,607 She thinks that we should go ahead with the divorce 835 00:52:24,608 --> 00:52:25,609 and then start all over again. 836 00:52:26,109 --> 00:52:27,610 Draw a line under the past. 837 00:52:28,111 --> 00:52:29,112 Okay. 838 00:52:29,112 --> 00:52:31,614 Well, if you think that's the right thing to do. 839 00:52:31,615 --> 00:52:32,616 Yeah, yeah, I think it is. 840 00:52:33,116 --> 00:52:35,118 Thanks, Charlie, for helping me through this. 841 00:52:35,118 --> 00:52:37,120 Yeah. 842 00:52:37,120 --> 00:52:39,622 So, is that it? 843 00:52:41,124 --> 00:52:43,126 That's it. 844 00:52:43,126 --> 00:52:45,128 Good, old Bertie. 845 00:52:45,128 --> 00:52:46,129 Bertie? 846 00:52:46,129 --> 00:52:48,131 Berthold Lubetkin, he designed them. 847 00:52:48,131 --> 00:52:50,633 One of my heroes. Aren't they fantastic? 848 00:52:50,634 --> 00:52:53,637 Uh, I suppose so... 849 00:52:53,637 --> 00:52:55,639 If your name's Lenin. 850 00:52:55,639 --> 00:52:58,141 You're not seeing them at their best. Follow me. 851 00:52:58,141 --> 00:52:59,142 Wow! 852 00:52:59,142 --> 00:53:01,144 No, wait. Just keep going. 853 00:53:01,144 --> 00:53:03,646 God, it's amazing. It really is. 854 00:53:03,647 --> 00:53:05,148 I can't believe what's-his-name... 855 00:53:05,148 --> 00:53:06,649 Lubetkin, Bertie. 856 00:53:06,650 --> 00:53:10,654 I can't believe he went to all this trouble for a stairwell. 857 00:53:10,654 --> 00:53:12,656 Yeah, well, he wanted everyone who lived here 858 00:53:12,656 --> 00:53:14,157 to have something beautiful. 859 00:53:14,157 --> 00:53:16,159 So he chose the one part of the building 860 00:53:16,159 --> 00:53:17,160 that they all had to use. 861 00:53:17,661 --> 00:53:19,162 The stairs. 862 00:53:19,162 --> 00:53:21,664 That's nice. 863 00:53:21,665 --> 00:53:23,667 That's a sweet thought. Yeah. 864 00:53:24,668 --> 00:53:26,670 Thank you, Bertie. 865 00:53:26,670 --> 00:53:30,173 God, I just feel so frustrated. 866 00:53:32,175 --> 00:53:33,676 I want to work again. 867 00:53:33,677 --> 00:53:35,679 You will. 868 00:53:35,679 --> 00:53:39,182 Have faith in yourself. 869 00:53:39,182 --> 00:53:42,685 We've all got our struggles, each of us. 870 00:53:44,187 --> 00:53:47,690 But to be allowed to take my little girl out to the park 871 00:53:47,691 --> 00:53:49,693 for the first time in seven months, 872 00:53:49,693 --> 00:53:52,195 me and her... 873 00:53:52,195 --> 00:53:55,198 I tell you, it was bloody brilliant. 874 00:53:55,198 --> 00:53:57,700 So, what happens is, she leans over me, 875 00:53:58,201 --> 00:54:00,703 and a bit of her bloody ice cream falls 876 00:54:00,704 --> 00:54:03,206 on my bloody trouser, doesn't it? 877 00:54:04,708 --> 00:54:06,209 For God's sake, Hasim! 878 00:54:06,209 --> 00:54:08,711 I am so sorry. 879 00:54:10,714 --> 00:54:12,716 Well, that was it, wasn't it? Disaster. 880 00:54:12,716 --> 00:54:14,217 I started obsessing that the chemicals in it 881 00:54:14,217 --> 00:54:16,219 would eat through the fabric into my skin, 882 00:54:16,219 --> 00:54:20,723 and anyway, long story short, I look up... 883 00:54:20,724 --> 00:54:22,225 And she's gone. 884 00:54:23,727 --> 00:54:25,729 Next thing I hear... 885 00:54:26,229 --> 00:54:30,233 Is an almighty screech of brakes. 886 00:54:30,233 --> 00:54:32,735 I run out to the road. 887 00:54:32,736 --> 00:54:35,238 People had already started to gather round, 888 00:54:35,238 --> 00:54:39,742 and there she was, hysterical. 889 00:54:39,743 --> 00:54:43,246 She was all right, thank God. 890 00:54:43,246 --> 00:54:45,248 But when I got her home, 891 00:54:45,248 --> 00:54:47,250 and her mother saw the distress she was in, 892 00:54:47,250 --> 00:54:49,752 she said, "you've blown it now. 893 00:54:49,753 --> 00:54:52,756 You know that, don't you?" 894 00:55:11,775 --> 00:55:13,777 Poor Rhodri. 895 00:55:13,777 --> 00:55:16,780 That is the definition of madness, isn't it? 896 00:55:16,780 --> 00:55:18,782 For that moment, his OCD was more important to him 897 00:55:18,782 --> 00:55:20,283 even than his child. 898 00:55:20,784 --> 00:55:21,785 His child? Madness. 899 00:55:21,785 --> 00:55:24,287 Madness, yeah, yeah. 900 00:55:26,289 --> 00:55:27,790 She had a condom, Charlie, in a bag. 901 00:55:27,791 --> 00:55:29,292 Who? 902 00:55:29,793 --> 00:55:31,294 Stevie... it didn't hit me at the time, 903 00:55:31,294 --> 00:55:33,796 but, thinking about it now, why, why? 904 00:55:33,797 --> 00:55:35,799 What was she doing with a condom in a bag? 905 00:55:36,299 --> 00:55:37,800 Mark, have you listened to anything today? 906 00:55:37,801 --> 00:55:40,303 The purpose of these sessions is to share experiences. 907 00:55:40,303 --> 00:55:41,804 What is the point of coming if you don't even listen? 908 00:55:41,805 --> 00:55:44,808 I was just wondering, that's all. 909 00:55:44,941 --> 00:55:48,511 You don't think she's seeing someone, do you? 910 00:55:48,511 --> 00:55:51,013 No, but then she wouldn't have had sex with me, would she? 911 00:55:51,014 --> 00:55:53,016 Why don't you try and spend a few moments 912 00:55:53,016 --> 00:55:54,517 wondering about someone else? 913 00:55:54,517 --> 00:55:56,519 What about Rhodri and his problems? 914 00:55:56,519 --> 00:55:58,020 Did I hear my name? 915 00:55:58,021 --> 00:56:00,023 Well, I'll tell you what, Charlie. 916 00:56:00,023 --> 00:56:01,524 I feel better today 917 00:56:01,524 --> 00:56:03,526 just for having talked about it, you know? 918 00:56:04,027 --> 00:56:05,028 Everyone's been so lovely. 919 00:56:05,528 --> 00:56:08,030 As Gemma was saying over there, it's not what happened... 920 00:56:08,031 --> 00:56:10,033 Rhod? Yes, love? 921 00:56:10,033 --> 00:56:12,035 Can you go, please? 922 00:56:12,035 --> 00:56:14,037 What? 923 00:56:14,037 --> 00:56:15,538 It's just... 924 00:56:15,538 --> 00:56:19,041 You know... Three? 925 00:56:19,542 --> 00:56:21,544 Odd number? 926 00:56:21,544 --> 00:56:23,546 What? 927 00:56:23,546 --> 00:56:25,047 Oh, for Christ's sake! 928 00:56:25,048 --> 00:56:26,049 Sorry for breathing. 929 00:56:26,049 --> 00:56:28,551 I'm sorry, Rhod. Yeah, forget it. 930 00:56:28,551 --> 00:56:30,553 I'm just having a bad night. 931 00:56:30,553 --> 00:56:33,055 Fuck! 932 00:56:35,558 --> 00:56:38,561 "Try thinking about someone else's problems." 933 00:56:38,561 --> 00:56:41,063 Do you really want to know what I think? 934 00:56:41,064 --> 00:56:44,567 I think you've been separated from your wife for a year, 935 00:56:44,567 --> 00:56:46,569 and she's entitled to sleep with whoever she wants. 936 00:56:46,569 --> 00:56:50,072 It's just one big wallow with you, isn't it, Mark? 937 00:56:50,073 --> 00:56:51,574 Stevie, Stevie this, Stevie that... 938 00:56:51,574 --> 00:56:53,576 what are you coming to these meetings for, 939 00:56:53,576 --> 00:56:55,077 marriage guidance on the cheap? 940 00:56:59,582 --> 00:57:02,585 You know what? You're right. What am I doing here? 941 00:57:02,585 --> 00:57:05,087 I'm back with my wife again. I'm back in control again. 942 00:57:05,088 --> 00:57:06,589 Oh, so you're back with her, are you? 943 00:57:06,589 --> 00:57:09,091 Oh, for God's sake, it was a sympathy fuck, that's all. 944 00:57:09,092 --> 00:57:10,593 She felt sorry for you. 945 00:57:15,098 --> 00:57:17,600 Oh, it's an ugly thing, jealousy. Jealousy? 946 00:57:17,600 --> 00:57:19,101 You might not like being on your own, 947 00:57:19,102 --> 00:57:21,104 but there's no reason to take it out on me, okay? 948 00:57:21,604 --> 00:57:23,105 How dare you? How fucking dare you?! 949 00:57:23,106 --> 00:57:24,607 Okay, bye. Bye. 950 00:57:24,607 --> 00:57:27,610 Yes, yes. Don't you dare come back! 951 00:57:32,615 --> 00:57:34,617 Bastard. 952 00:57:34,617 --> 00:57:36,619 Bastard. 953 00:57:44,127 --> 00:57:45,128 Hello? 954 00:57:45,628 --> 00:57:46,629 Hi, Stevie, it's me. 955 00:57:46,629 --> 00:57:48,130 Hello? Who is it? 956 00:57:48,131 --> 00:57:50,133 It's me, Mark. 957 00:57:50,133 --> 00:57:52,135 It's Mark, Stevie. 958 00:57:52,135 --> 00:57:55,138 What do you want, Mark? It's late. 959 00:57:55,138 --> 00:57:56,639 It's only about half past 10:00. 960 00:57:56,639 --> 00:57:59,141 Sorry, did I wake you up? 961 00:57:59,642 --> 00:58:01,143 Well, yeah. You did. 962 00:58:01,644 --> 00:58:05,147 Well, I was passing, and I saw the light was on. 963 00:58:05,148 --> 00:58:07,150 What do you want? 964 00:58:07,150 --> 00:58:13,156 Well, I was, uh... I was missing you, and... 965 00:58:13,156 --> 00:58:14,657 I've come to woo you. 966 00:58:14,657 --> 00:58:16,659 What? 967 00:58:16,659 --> 00:58:20,162 You know... Woo. 968 00:58:20,663 --> 00:58:22,164 Woo? 969 00:58:22,165 --> 00:58:23,666 Look, can I come in? 970 00:58:23,666 --> 00:58:26,669 It's late, Mark. I'm in bed. 971 00:58:27,170 --> 00:58:29,172 I just wanted to see you. 972 00:58:29,172 --> 00:58:30,173 Well, you can't. 973 00:58:30,173 --> 00:58:33,676 I'm... not tonight. 974 00:58:33,676 --> 00:58:35,177 I'm tired. I'm sorry. 975 00:58:35,178 --> 00:58:37,180 I've got some chocolate sprinkle. 976 00:58:39,182 --> 00:58:41,184 Good night, Mark. 977 00:58:57,700 --> 00:59:00,202 Oh! Oh! 978 00:59:00,203 --> 00:59:01,704 Ohh! 979 00:59:01,704 --> 00:59:04,707 Ugh. 980 00:59:07,710 --> 00:59:09,211 Mark? 981 00:59:11,714 --> 00:59:13,716 Mark! 982 00:59:15,218 --> 00:59:16,719 Mark! 983 00:59:26,729 --> 00:59:30,733 What are you doing, mate? 984 00:59:30,733 --> 00:59:33,736 I trod in shit again. 985 00:59:33,736 --> 00:59:36,238 I was looking up at her window 986 00:59:36,239 --> 00:59:38,241 and I think I saw someone in there. 987 00:59:38,241 --> 00:59:41,744 And I stepped back. 988 00:59:41,744 --> 00:59:43,746 I think it was shit. 989 00:59:46,950 --> 00:59:50,954 You've burnt all your skin. 990 00:59:50,954 --> 00:59:53,957 What is that, neat bleach? 991 00:59:53,957 --> 00:59:56,459 For God's sake, Mark! 992 01:00:06,469 --> 01:00:09,472 You'd better do something about yourself, Mark, now. 993 01:00:09,472 --> 01:00:11,974 It's gone too far. 994 01:00:11,975 --> 01:00:14,477 I mean it. 995 01:00:14,978 --> 01:00:19,983 People who do this to themselves aren't well. 996 01:00:42,505 --> 01:00:45,007 Mark, come on, I'm not leaving you here. 997 01:00:45,008 --> 01:00:46,009 No, I'm fine. 998 01:00:47,510 --> 01:00:50,012 What happened to him, eh? 999 01:00:50,013 --> 01:00:54,017 It's just a suit and a haircut. 1000 01:00:54,017 --> 01:00:56,519 She won't see me, you know. 1001 01:00:56,519 --> 01:00:58,521 Won't even talk to me. 1002 01:01:01,524 --> 01:01:04,527 She's seeing someone else, isn't she? 1003 01:01:04,527 --> 01:01:07,530 Who's she seeing, mate? You know, don't you? 1004 01:01:07,530 --> 01:01:09,532 It's been going on for ages. 1005 01:01:09,532 --> 01:01:11,033 Just put this away. You're coming with me. 1006 01:01:11,034 --> 01:01:12,535 No. Come on. 1007 01:01:12,535 --> 01:01:15,037 No, no! I've lost my wife and my job! 1008 01:01:15,038 --> 01:01:18,041 I'm not gonna lose my best mate as well! 1009 01:01:51,274 --> 01:01:53,075 There we go. There's Alison. 1010 01:01:53,076 --> 01:01:54,577 Hello, Alison, how are you? 1011 01:01:54,577 --> 01:01:56,078 Who's this you're with? 1012 01:01:56,579 --> 01:01:59,582 Oh, shit. Don't want to know about that, then. 1013 01:01:59,582 --> 01:02:01,584 There's Gareth. How's Gareth? 1014 01:02:01,584 --> 01:02:02,585 Not bad, mate. 1015 01:02:02,585 --> 01:02:04,587 There's dad, a very proud dad. 1016 01:02:04,587 --> 01:02:07,590 Ah, mum and the lovely bride. 1017 01:02:07,590 --> 01:02:09,592 Moving on through... who have we got here? 1018 01:02:09,592 --> 01:02:11,594 I don't know who that is. 1019 01:02:11,594 --> 01:02:13,095 Hello, how are you? 1020 01:02:13,096 --> 01:02:16,599 I don't know where we're going now. 1021 01:02:16,599 --> 01:02:20,102 The cake! The cake! Look at the cake. 1022 01:02:20,103 --> 01:02:22,105 And who's that? 1023 01:02:22,605 --> 01:02:24,607 A niece, one of the nieces. 1024 01:02:24,607 --> 01:02:27,610 Auntie and Uncle. Hello, how are you? 1025 01:02:27,610 --> 01:02:29,612 Say a few words. 1026 01:02:29,612 --> 01:02:32,114 Hello, how are you? You all right? 1027 01:02:32,115 --> 01:02:33,616 Good, good. 1028 01:02:34,117 --> 01:02:37,620 Okay. Say cheese! Say cheese! 1029 01:02:38,121 --> 01:02:41,624 A toast! Toast, ladies and gentlemen. 1030 01:02:41,624 --> 01:02:46,629 To the... to the best architect in London, 1031 01:02:46,629 --> 01:02:50,132 and the most beautiful woman. 1032 01:02:50,133 --> 01:02:53,136 Cheers. Cheers. Cheers. 1033 01:02:53,136 --> 01:02:55,138 Toast, ladies and gentlemen. 1034 01:02:55,638 --> 01:03:00,142 To the... to the best architect in London, 1035 01:03:00,143 --> 01:03:03,146 and... 1036 01:03:03,146 --> 01:03:08,151 to the... to the best architect in London, 1037 01:03:08,151 --> 01:03:09,652 and... 1038 01:03:09,652 --> 01:03:11,153 ...in London, 1039 01:03:11,154 --> 01:03:15,158 and the most beautiful woman. 1040 01:03:15,158 --> 01:03:18,161 Cheers. Cheers. Cheers. 1041 01:05:44,373 --> 01:05:45,874 Whoa! 1042 01:06:04,393 --> 01:06:05,894 Aah! 1043 01:06:05,895 --> 01:06:07,897 Bastard! Bastard! 1044 01:06:08,397 --> 01:06:11,400 Get off! Get off me! 1045 01:06:11,400 --> 01:06:12,401 Aah! 1046 01:06:12,401 --> 01:06:14,903 Mark? 1047 01:06:15,404 --> 01:06:17,406 What are you doing, man? 1048 01:06:17,406 --> 01:06:18,407 Put the cabbage down! 1049 01:06:18,407 --> 01:06:20,409 It's you, isn't it? 1050 01:06:20,409 --> 01:06:23,412 I know, mate! I know all about it. 1051 01:06:23,412 --> 01:06:24,913 What are you talking about? 1052 01:06:24,914 --> 01:06:26,916 Stevie! You're shagging her, aren't you?! 1053 01:06:26,916 --> 01:06:28,417 I saw you! 1054 01:06:28,417 --> 01:06:30,419 You said she was beautiful! I saw you! 1055 01:06:30,920 --> 01:06:31,921 When? On the wedding video! 1056 01:06:31,921 --> 01:06:34,423 And then today I saw you with your arm round her! 1057 01:06:36,926 --> 01:06:38,928 Now stop it! 1058 01:06:41,430 --> 01:06:44,933 I know it's you. It all fits. 1059 01:06:44,934 --> 01:06:48,437 Mark, she asked me to come and meet her today. Of course she did. 1060 01:06:48,437 --> 01:06:50,439 She wants me to tell you to stop! 1061 01:06:50,439 --> 01:06:52,441 Stop what? 1062 01:06:52,441 --> 01:06:56,445 Phoning her night and day, all the time! 1063 01:06:56,445 --> 01:06:58,447 And she thinks you're following her... 1064 01:06:58,948 --> 01:07:01,450 and you are, aren't you? 1065 01:07:01,450 --> 01:07:05,454 She's at her wits' end. 1066 01:07:05,454 --> 01:07:07,456 You've got to leave her alone, 1067 01:07:07,456 --> 01:07:09,958 otherwise she's gonna call the police in. 1068 01:07:13,963 --> 01:07:16,966 I'm sorry. 1069 01:07:21,971 --> 01:07:23,973 Get off me. 1070 01:07:23,973 --> 01:07:25,975 You won't go for the cabbages again? 1071 01:07:25,975 --> 01:07:27,977 Just get off me. 1072 01:07:45,995 --> 01:07:47,496 I'm sick of it. 1073 01:07:47,496 --> 01:07:49,998 Mark? 1074 01:07:49,999 --> 01:07:53,002 Mark! 1075 01:08:31,040 --> 01:08:33,542 Hello? 1076 01:08:33,542 --> 01:08:36,545 Yes, speaking. 1077 01:08:42,551 --> 01:08:45,554 Nathan? 1078 01:08:45,554 --> 01:08:46,555 Charlotte? 1079 01:08:46,555 --> 01:08:49,057 Hi. Hi, nice to meet you. 1080 01:08:49,058 --> 01:08:52,061 Thanks for, you know, seeing me. 1081 01:08:52,061 --> 01:08:55,564 How are you? 1082 01:08:55,564 --> 01:08:57,566 Curious. 1083 01:10:55,017 --> 01:10:57,019 Mark? 1084 01:10:58,520 --> 01:11:01,022 Mark? 1085 01:11:13,535 --> 01:11:15,537 Thank you. 1086 01:11:19,541 --> 01:11:22,544 If I'd known you were coming... 1087 01:11:24,046 --> 01:11:25,547 How are you? 1088 01:11:25,547 --> 01:11:29,551 You. Me? Fine, yeah. Yeah, fine. 1089 01:11:29,551 --> 01:11:31,553 You know that 1090 01:11:31,553 --> 01:11:34,055 you can come back to the group any time, Mark. 1091 01:11:34,556 --> 01:11:37,058 I'm sorry I lost my temper, 1092 01:11:37,059 --> 01:11:40,562 but... Well, you said some hurtful things. 1093 01:11:40,562 --> 01:11:43,064 Hurtful things, yeah, I did, yeah. 1094 01:11:43,065 --> 01:11:45,567 I'm sorry. 1095 01:11:45,567 --> 01:11:49,070 I'm really... I'm really sorry. 1096 01:11:53,575 --> 01:11:55,577 Do you remember I was talking to you 1097 01:11:55,577 --> 01:11:58,079 about getting therapy... 1098 01:11:58,080 --> 01:12:01,583 not just the group, but, you know, proper therapy. 1099 01:12:01,583 --> 01:12:04,085 Well, I've been going to this new guy, 1100 01:12:04,086 --> 01:12:05,587 and he's really good, Mark. 1101 01:12:06,088 --> 01:12:08,090 Let me book you an appointment. 1102 01:12:08,090 --> 01:12:10,592 Appointment, yeah, that's a good idea. 1103 01:12:10,592 --> 01:12:12,594 I've just... 1104 01:12:12,594 --> 01:12:17,098 I've just got to get my head straight first. 1105 01:12:17,099 --> 01:12:20,602 You've been skipping your medication, haven't you? 1106 01:12:20,602 --> 01:12:24,606 Oh, I meant to get more tablets. 1107 01:12:24,606 --> 01:12:28,109 I'm sorry about the, uh... 1108 01:12:28,110 --> 01:12:31,613 Clutter. 1109 01:12:31,613 --> 01:12:34,616 But... 1110 01:12:34,616 --> 01:12:37,118 I find it sort of, uh... 1111 01:12:44,126 --> 01:12:46,128 Comforting. 1112 01:13:36,678 --> 01:13:39,180 I might, uh... 1113 01:13:40,682 --> 01:13:42,183 I might need them. 1114 01:14:13,215 --> 01:14:16,218 Right. Now you. 1115 01:14:20,222 --> 01:14:22,724 Can I come in? 1116 01:14:22,724 --> 01:14:25,226 Yeah. 1117 01:14:34,736 --> 01:14:38,239 Have you properly soaped your anus/genitals? 1118 01:14:40,242 --> 01:14:41,243 Very funny. 1119 01:14:46,849 --> 01:14:48,851 I thought you were going to wash your hair? 1120 01:14:48,851 --> 01:14:51,353 Hair? No. It's fine. It doesn't need washing. 1121 01:14:51,353 --> 01:14:54,356 It's filthy, it's matted, and it smells. 1122 01:14:54,356 --> 01:14:55,857 Smells? Mm-hmm. 1123 01:14:55,858 --> 01:14:57,359 Where's the shampoo? 1124 01:14:57,359 --> 01:15:00,362 Uh... Shampoo? 1125 01:15:00,362 --> 01:15:02,864 No, you see, the thing is... put your head back. 1126 01:15:02,865 --> 01:15:05,868 Back, yes. I'm just a bit worried... 1127 01:15:06,368 --> 01:15:08,870 put your head back. I won't get any in your eyes. 1128 01:15:30,893 --> 01:15:32,895 Shut up, you girl. 1129 01:15:32,895 --> 01:15:34,396 It's nowhere near your eyes. 1130 01:15:39,401 --> 01:15:42,904 Shhh. 1131 01:15:46,408 --> 01:15:47,409 Shh. 1132 01:15:47,409 --> 01:15:48,910 Let's do something today. 1133 01:15:48,911 --> 01:15:51,914 What? 1134 01:15:51,914 --> 01:15:53,415 It's Saturday. 1135 01:15:53,415 --> 01:15:56,418 Let's go somewhere... go for a drive. 1136 01:15:56,418 --> 01:15:57,919 Get you out of this place. 1137 01:15:57,920 --> 01:15:59,922 God knows you could do with some fresh air. 1138 01:15:59,922 --> 01:16:02,424 Well, I-I don't think I'm really up to that yet. 1139 01:16:08,430 --> 01:16:09,931 Let's go to the seaside. 1140 01:16:10,432 --> 01:16:12,434 I'm not really big on... 1141 01:16:12,434 --> 01:16:13,435 Come on. 1142 01:16:14,937 --> 01:16:16,939 Just say somewhere. 1143 01:16:20,943 --> 01:16:22,444 Anywhere? 1144 01:16:22,444 --> 01:16:23,945 Anywhere. Bexhill. 1145 01:16:24,947 --> 01:16:27,449 Where? Bexhill-on-Sea. I like Bexhill. 1146 01:16:27,449 --> 01:16:28,950 Why there? 1147 01:16:29,952 --> 01:16:32,454 De la warr pavilion. Erich Mendelsohn. 1148 01:16:32,454 --> 01:16:34,956 First reinforced concrete structure in Britain. 1149 01:16:36,959 --> 01:16:37,960 Okay. 1150 01:16:37,960 --> 01:16:39,461 A piece of architecture. 1151 01:16:39,461 --> 01:16:41,963 That's good. Something positive. 1152 01:16:43,966 --> 01:16:45,467 Have you finished now? 1153 01:16:45,467 --> 01:16:47,969 No. I think we'll give it another going over. 1154 01:16:47,970 --> 01:16:48,971 It's not squeaking yet. 1155 01:16:48,971 --> 01:16:50,973 Oh, I hate you. 1156 01:16:52,474 --> 01:16:53,975 I love you, too. 1157 01:17:16,498 --> 01:17:17,499 Next right. 1158 01:17:17,499 --> 01:17:20,001 It's straight on, isn't it? No. No. Next right. 1159 01:17:33,015 --> 01:17:35,017 Right here. 1160 01:17:40,022 --> 01:17:41,523 Right. 1161 01:17:51,033 --> 01:17:53,035 Right here. It's straight on, isn't it? 1162 01:17:53,035 --> 01:17:55,037 No, no. Definitely right here. 1163 01:18:09,051 --> 01:18:11,553 Hold on. This is a dead end. 1164 01:18:11,553 --> 01:18:13,054 Back into there. 1165 01:18:16,558 --> 01:18:18,560 I don't understand this. 1166 01:18:42,584 --> 01:18:45,086 I'm no architect, but that is not a pavilion. 1167 01:18:45,087 --> 01:18:46,088 What's going on, Mark? 1168 01:18:49,591 --> 01:18:52,093 It's her parents' place. We... 1169 01:18:52,094 --> 01:18:56,598 We... we used to come here most weekends. 1170 01:18:56,598 --> 01:18:58,600 She's there now. I'm sure of it. 1171 01:18:58,600 --> 01:19:00,101 With him. Who? 1172 01:19:00,102 --> 01:19:03,105 The bloke she's seeing. Whoever he is. 1173 01:19:03,105 --> 01:19:05,607 You've brought me here under false pretenses, haven't you? Yes. 1174 01:19:06,108 --> 01:19:08,610 What are you going to do, go in there and make a fool of yourself? 1175 01:19:08,610 --> 01:19:10,111 Beat this bloke up... if he even exists? 1176 01:19:10,112 --> 01:19:11,613 I saw him at the window! 1177 01:19:11,613 --> 01:19:12,614 You've got to let go of her. 1178 01:19:12,614 --> 01:19:15,383 That's the only way she'll ever come back to you, Mark! 1179 01:19:15,383 --> 01:19:17,385 Back to me... 1180 01:19:18,887 --> 01:19:20,388 Dirty bitch! Oh... 1181 01:19:20,388 --> 01:19:21,389 Dirty... fuck! 1182 01:19:21,890 --> 01:19:23,391 Dirty, filthy... Mark... 1183 01:19:23,391 --> 01:19:24,892 Fucking bitch! Fuck! 1184 01:19:24,893 --> 01:19:26,895 Dirty fucking... Mark! Mark! 1185 01:19:32,901 --> 01:19:34,903 Oh... 1186 01:19:34,903 --> 01:19:37,405 Mark. Come on. Mark! 1187 01:19:37,405 --> 01:19:39,907 Stop it! Stop it! Stop it! Stop it! 1188 01:19:45,914 --> 01:19:48,416 I just wish it would go away. 1189 01:19:48,416 --> 01:19:49,417 It will. 1190 01:19:49,417 --> 01:19:53,421 It will... If you look at it for what it is! 1191 01:19:53,421 --> 01:19:55,423 She's not your wife anymore. 1192 01:19:55,423 --> 01:19:57,425 She's an obsession. 1193 01:20:11,940 --> 01:20:13,441 Okay. 1194 01:20:13,441 --> 01:20:15,943 It was worth the drive. 1195 01:20:17,946 --> 01:20:20,448 Erich Mendelsohn. 1196 01:20:21,449 --> 01:20:22,950 Thank you. 1197 01:20:24,452 --> 01:20:26,954 A symphony. 1198 01:20:26,955 --> 01:20:28,957 Mendelsohn? 1199 01:20:28,957 --> 01:20:30,458 Yeah. 1200 01:20:31,960 --> 01:20:35,463 He was a Jew in Germany just before the war. 1201 01:20:44,472 --> 01:20:46,474 Imagine the life he had. 1202 01:20:49,978 --> 01:20:51,980 And yet it's so calm. 1203 01:20:54,482 --> 01:20:55,983 Peaceful. 1204 01:21:02,991 --> 01:21:06,995 He'd just stand on the site for ages. 1205 01:21:06,995 --> 01:21:08,496 Get a feel of it. 1206 01:21:10,999 --> 01:21:12,500 And then he'd do sketches 1207 01:21:12,500 --> 01:21:15,503 and just work his ideas up from them. 1208 01:21:17,005 --> 01:21:20,008 He wanted to take his inspiration from... 1209 01:21:20,008 --> 01:21:23,011 Everything around him. 1210 01:21:27,515 --> 01:21:29,016 Look. 1211 01:21:29,017 --> 01:21:31,519 It's... it's the sea... 1212 01:21:31,519 --> 01:21:34,522 Where the ocean meets the coastline. 1213 01:21:38,526 --> 01:21:41,529 See the waves rolling in. 1214 01:21:42,030 --> 01:21:44,532 The curves. 1215 01:21:44,532 --> 01:21:48,035 The ebb and f-flow of the tide. 1216 01:21:52,540 --> 01:21:54,542 Thanks, Erich, old mate. 1217 01:21:55,543 --> 01:21:57,545 Gesundheit. Bottoms up. 1218 01:22:29,577 --> 01:22:32,079 Mendelssohn. 1219 01:22:32,080 --> 01:22:34,082 Felix Mendelssohn. 1220 01:22:36,084 --> 01:22:38,086 I used to play. 1221 01:22:38,086 --> 01:22:41,589 But it all got messed up with... You know what. 1222 01:22:45,093 --> 01:22:47,595 That was amazing. 1223 01:23:12,620 --> 01:23:14,121 Habits. What? 1224 01:23:14,122 --> 01:23:16,124 I've just realized... habits. 1225 01:23:16,624 --> 01:23:20,127 I've, uh... I've always had this daily checklist. 1226 01:23:20,128 --> 01:23:21,629 Uh... Look. 1227 01:23:21,629 --> 01:23:24,632 Sleep. Eat. Shit. Piss. 1228 01:23:25,133 --> 01:23:26,134 Had a wank... wank? 1229 01:23:26,134 --> 01:23:29,137 Well, that was optional. Had a bath. Deodorant. 1230 01:23:29,137 --> 01:23:30,638 Uh, wash my face. Wash my hands. 1231 01:23:30,638 --> 01:23:32,139 Clean my teeth. Rinse. 1232 01:23:32,140 --> 01:23:34,142 Check my face for spots. Aftershave. 1233 01:23:34,642 --> 01:23:37,645 Hair. Check my shoes for dog shit. 1234 01:23:37,645 --> 01:23:40,648 And habits. All my OCDs. 1235 01:23:40,648 --> 01:23:43,150 That's... That's what I used to call them. 1236 01:23:43,151 --> 01:23:45,153 That's what I thought they were... just habits. 1237 01:23:47,155 --> 01:23:50,658 Habits. 1238 01:23:50,658 --> 01:23:52,660 I'm seven years old, 1239 01:23:52,660 --> 01:23:55,162 playing football with my mates. 1240 01:23:55,663 --> 01:23:57,164 Every time I get the ball, 1241 01:23:57,165 --> 01:23:59,667 I have to check that my flies aren't undone. 1242 01:23:59,667 --> 01:24:02,169 They all take the piss out of me but... 1243 01:24:02,170 --> 01:24:04,172 I get the ball. 1244 01:24:04,172 --> 01:24:07,175 Everyone's looking at me. 1245 01:24:07,175 --> 01:24:09,677 I start ticking and twitching away. 1246 01:24:09,677 --> 01:24:11,679 They're all laughing. Pressure. 1247 01:24:11,679 --> 01:24:14,181 Are they undone? Are they? 1248 01:24:14,182 --> 01:24:17,185 And I can't stop checking them. 1249 01:24:17,185 --> 01:24:20,188 Seven years old, that's all I was. 1250 01:24:20,188 --> 01:24:22,190 I've always had it! Of course you have. 1251 01:24:22,190 --> 01:24:24,692 No, don't you see? I've always had it! 1252 01:24:25,193 --> 01:24:26,694 Mark! Mark! 1253 01:24:26,694 --> 01:24:28,696 Where are you going? 1254 01:24:28,696 --> 01:24:30,964 I'm sorry. I've got to go and see Stevie. 1255 01:24:30,965 --> 01:24:31,966 But... 1256 01:24:31,966 --> 01:24:34,468 But why?! Why?! 1257 01:24:35,970 --> 01:24:37,972 Hasn't today meant anything? 1258 01:24:37,972 --> 01:24:39,974 Sorry. 1259 01:24:40,475 --> 01:24:42,977 You play the violin beautifully! 1260 01:25:00,995 --> 01:25:01,996 Yes, mate? 1261 01:25:03,998 --> 01:25:05,499 Mark? Hello, Bob. 1262 01:25:06,000 --> 01:25:08,002 Haven't seen you for... for ages. 1263 01:25:08,002 --> 01:25:09,003 You're looking well. 1264 01:25:09,003 --> 01:25:11,505 Uh, I was just passing, actually, and... 1265 01:25:11,506 --> 01:25:13,508 And... 1266 01:25:13,508 --> 01:25:16,511 Well, I've really come to see Stevie. 1267 01:25:16,511 --> 01:25:18,012 I see. 1268 01:25:18,012 --> 01:25:20,014 Sorry, me old mate, she's not here. 1269 01:25:20,014 --> 01:25:23,017 What's happened to your face? You been in a fight? 1270 01:25:23,017 --> 01:25:25,019 Uh, no... uh, no. No. 1271 01:25:25,019 --> 01:25:28,522 I just had a bit of a run-in with, um... 1272 01:25:28,523 --> 01:25:31,025 With a van. 1273 01:25:31,025 --> 01:25:34,028 Please, Bob, I need to see her. It's... it's important. 1274 01:25:34,028 --> 01:25:37,031 Mark, I know this isn't an easy time for you, 1275 01:25:37,031 --> 01:25:38,532 but I'm asking you to go home. 1276 01:25:39,033 --> 01:25:41,035 We've got a barbie on, we've got some friends round. 1277 01:25:41,035 --> 01:25:44,038 This is not the right time. Trust me. 1278 01:25:46,541 --> 01:25:48,042 Okay, Bob. 1279 01:25:48,042 --> 01:25:50,544 Uh... I understand. 1280 01:25:50,545 --> 01:25:52,547 Sorry to have d-disturbed you. 1281 01:25:53,047 --> 01:25:54,048 That's the spirit. 1282 01:25:54,048 --> 01:25:55,549 I'll tell her you called. 1283 01:25:55,550 --> 01:25:57,051 No doubt she'll give you a tinkle. 1284 01:25:57,051 --> 01:25:58,552 Okay? Fine. 1285 01:26:00,555 --> 01:26:02,557 Cheerio, then. 1286 01:26:02,557 --> 01:26:04,559 Ch-cheerio, Bob. 1287 01:26:37,592 --> 01:26:38,593 Who was that, daddy? 1288 01:26:39,093 --> 01:26:41,095 Ah, no one. Jehovah's witness. 1289 01:26:41,095 --> 01:26:42,096 Oh, really? 1290 01:26:42,096 --> 01:26:43,597 Jehovah's who? 1291 01:26:47,101 --> 01:26:48,102 Oh, God. 1292 01:26:50,605 --> 01:26:52,607 No worries. Don't worry. 1293 01:26:54,108 --> 01:26:56,110 G-Gareth! I knew it! 1294 01:26:56,110 --> 01:26:57,611 I knew you were seeing someone! 1295 01:26:57,612 --> 01:26:58,613 Why didn't you just tell me?! 1296 01:26:58,613 --> 01:27:00,615 Can somebody please get him away from me? 1297 01:27:00,615 --> 01:27:02,116 'Cause he's really freaking me out! 1298 01:27:02,116 --> 01:27:03,117 I'll deal with it. Come on, now. 1299 01:27:03,618 --> 01:27:04,619 This is not the time or the place. 1300 01:27:05,119 --> 01:27:06,120 Why didn't you just tell me?! 1301 01:27:06,120 --> 01:27:07,621 Why didn't you just tell me?! 1302 01:27:07,622 --> 01:27:09,624 Getting violent isn't going to help now, is it? 1303 01:27:09,624 --> 01:27:11,626 I'm not getting violent. Good. Come on. 1304 01:27:12,627 --> 01:27:15,129 Call the police! 1305 01:27:15,129 --> 01:27:17,131 This is it, Mark! This is really it now! 1306 01:27:17,131 --> 01:27:18,632 Help him, Bob. Do something. 1307 01:27:18,633 --> 01:27:19,634 Are you happy now? 1308 01:27:19,634 --> 01:27:21,636 Or do you want to attack me as well? 1309 01:27:21,636 --> 01:27:23,137 God, I wish I'd never met you! 1310 01:27:26,140 --> 01:27:28,642 Mark! Mark! Come on. 1311 01:27:28,643 --> 01:27:30,645 Come on. Let's go home. 1312 01:27:31,646 --> 01:27:34,148 She pushed right past me, Judith. 1313 01:27:34,148 --> 01:27:36,650 He only came here today because he loved you, Stevie. 1314 01:27:36,651 --> 01:27:38,152 That's all he's ever done. 1315 01:27:38,152 --> 01:27:39,153 I'm sorry. Do I know you? 1316 01:27:39,153 --> 01:27:42,156 Mark, this is a really bad place for you to be. 1317 01:27:42,156 --> 01:27:45,159 Hang on! He bursts in here uninvited and attacks someone, 1318 01:27:45,159 --> 01:27:46,660 and we're the bad ones? 1319 01:27:46,661 --> 01:27:49,163 You have no idea of the agony he's been through... 1320 01:27:49,163 --> 01:27:50,664 That he's going through. 1321 01:27:50,665 --> 01:27:52,166 The agony he's going through? 1322 01:27:52,166 --> 01:27:54,168 What do you know about it, for fuck's sake?! 1323 01:27:54,168 --> 01:27:55,669 Don't swear, dear. Shut up, mum! 1324 01:27:55,670 --> 01:27:57,171 He's been stalking me! 1325 01:27:57,171 --> 01:27:58,672 He wanted to talk to you. 1326 01:27:58,673 --> 01:28:00,675 Why couldn't you just talk to him?! 1327 01:28:00,675 --> 01:28:01,676 You married him, didn't you? 1328 01:28:02,176 --> 01:28:03,177 I don't even know who you are. 1329 01:28:03,177 --> 01:28:05,679 Why don't you just crawl back under the rock you came from 1330 01:28:05,680 --> 01:28:06,681 and leave me alone? 1331 01:28:06,681 --> 01:28:09,183 Come on. Come on, Mark. 1332 01:28:11,185 --> 01:28:12,686 It's okay. 1333 01:28:14,188 --> 01:28:16,190 It's okay. Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. 1334 01:28:16,190 --> 01:28:18,192 Just one thing. Just one thing. 1335 01:28:18,192 --> 01:28:21,695 Mark can't do this, so I'll do it for him. 1336 01:28:21,696 --> 01:28:23,698 Oh! Hey! Oh, no! 1337 01:28:23,698 --> 01:28:25,199 Oh, you! 1338 01:28:25,199 --> 01:28:26,200 Aah! 1339 01:28:26,701 --> 01:28:27,702 Oh! 1340 01:28:50,224 --> 01:28:51,725 Give it to me. Mark, I'm sorry. 1341 01:28:51,726 --> 01:28:52,727 Give it to me. 1342 01:28:55,730 --> 01:28:57,231 Come on, you don't have to go. 1343 01:28:57,231 --> 01:28:59,233 Come on, you wanted to talk, why don't we... 1344 01:28:59,233 --> 01:29:00,234 that afternoon... 1345 01:29:01,235 --> 01:29:03,237 When you... 1346 01:29:03,237 --> 01:29:05,739 When you licked the chocolate off me. 1347 01:29:05,740 --> 01:29:07,742 What did she lick? 1348 01:29:07,742 --> 01:29:09,243 Chocolate, granny. 1349 01:29:11,245 --> 01:29:13,247 I was confused. 1350 01:29:13,247 --> 01:29:15,249 I just wanted it to be like it was 1351 01:29:15,249 --> 01:29:17,251 before you became like this. 1352 01:29:17,251 --> 01:29:19,753 I just wanted Mark back. 1353 01:29:28,262 --> 01:29:29,763 I am Mark. 1354 01:29:32,266 --> 01:29:34,268 I've always been like this. 1355 01:29:37,271 --> 01:29:39,273 And I probably always will be. 1356 01:29:49,283 --> 01:29:50,284 Goodbye, Stevie. 1357 01:29:50,284 --> 01:29:51,285 Wait. 1358 01:29:53,788 --> 01:29:55,790 Mark! Wait! 1359 01:31:07,862 --> 01:31:10,865 Nice tits. 1360 01:31:10,865 --> 01:31:12,366 Nice arse. 1361 01:31:26,380 --> 01:31:28,382 Fancy a walk? 1362 01:31:28,382 --> 01:31:30,384 Bit of a bad hair day. 1363 01:31:39,393 --> 01:31:41,395 You look lovely. 1364 01:31:44,899 --> 01:31:46,400 Come on. 92210