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MALE NEWSCASTER:
Britain enters lockdown.

Now people
can only leave their homes

for very limited reasons.

FEMALE NEWSCASTER:
The UK wakes up

to the toughest restrictions
on daily life

in living memory
to tackle coronavirus.

MALE NEWSCASTER 2: This has
been the sort of scene

imagined by
science fiction writers

after an apocalyptic disaster.

(UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING)

(DOG BARKING)

(BIRDS CHIRPING)

(PEOPLE CHATTERING)

(UPBEAT MUSIC CONTINUES)

(SIRENS WAILING)

MAN: Don't you carry anything,
wee man, okay?

WOMAN: Here, carry this.

- Ugh.
- MAN: Not in the living room!

MAN: I mean, my God.

The only thing keeping us
together is our child.

- Arthur.
- Little Artie.

His name is Arthur.

Yeah, and if it wasn't
for little Artie,

we would have split up
years ago.

The truth is, we just
can't stand each other.

MAN: Don't like each other.

So, this lockdown,

being in the same house
together, me and him...

The only thing
that makes living with her

even remotely bearable

is knowing that I get to leave
this house every day.

I feel exactly the same.

Oh, my God,
saying goodbye to you,

it is without doubt
the best part of my day.

Just being
in the same room as him...

Coming back and having to
see her again, I mean, fuck...

...it's like a sadness
and a soul-stink

both mixed together.

I hate your face.

- My face?
- I hate your face.

Oh, you hate my face?

It's just your face.
I hate it.

Oh. What, so you're saying
I'm unattractive then or...

No, no, you're attrac...
I mean, she's very attractive.

It's just your face,
I totally hate it.

I actually think of him
as a cancer.

I hate looking at it. It's
maybe your eyes or something.

And... not skin or testicle,

but one of
the really bad ones,

you know,
like liver, pancreatic.

Is it your cheeks?
I mean, I can't even

- put my finger on it.
- It's colorectal...

When I think about you,
I get exactly the same feeling

as when I think about
my dead dad's cancer.

- Exactly the same.
- It's your lips.

- It's her lips.
- I've got great lips.

Aye, no, you do,
you've got great lips.

They're fantastic.
I just totally hate them.

We should never
have got together

- in the first place.
- Madness.

I mean, we're just
so different, poles apart.

But at the time, you think,
"Oh, opposites attract."

(LAUGHS)
You're caught up in all the...

Do you know
what else attracts?

...hormones
and pheromones and...

Serial killers to victims.

...intoxication
and the heart-racing sex.

Oh, Jesus. Oh, God,

- just the thought of... (GAGS)
- (LAUGHING)

...actually having sex
with you is...

I know. I know.

And politically as well,
we're totally different.

Aye. I believe in hard work.

Everyone believes
in hard work!

Aye, whereas she, right,

is a good old-fashioned,
unreconstructed socialist.

That's my mother
you're describing.

You're actually
talking about my mother.

You've never
understood my politics.

I'm actually quite moderate.

I just happen to believe

in not exploiting the workers
of this country.

The workers. (LAUGHS)
Listen to this.

What do you know
about the workers?

I'm actually
from the workers, right?

I was brought up
by the workers

and the workers
aren't what you think.

It's not all fish suppers
and roll-ups

and sing songs
round the old Joanna.

The workers
are fucking horrible.

(SCOFFS) You just hate people.

I just hate lazy.

Meanwhile, those of us

who were brought up
in the chattering classes.

- Oh, my God, listen to this.
- The literati elite.

My dad was a dentist!

MAN: (CHUCKLES) You pull yourself
up by the bootstraps, right?

That's what I did.

Got myself on top,
worked hard and I got out.

Jesus Christ, dial it back.

Yeah, you're from fucking
Kilmarnock, not Compton.

We were poor!

I got on top, I got out.

At the time
I thought, you know,

"Oh, that's cute,
he's a Tory."

I am not a Tory.

You've voted Conservative in
every election since we met.

- I voted for Tony Blair.
- (LAUGHING)

Oh, fuck, can we just not talk
about politics, please?

(MAN SIGHS)

We're worried about my mum.

We should've
just brought her here.

Well, there's no point
in rehashing it, is there?

I mean, we made a decision...

I'm not "rehashing,"
all right?

It's not what I'm doing.

I know we made a decision,
I know that.

It's just,
she's on her own, right?

- And little Artie...
- Arthur.

...he's only got
one grandparent

and I'd love him to be able
to keep her. And besides,

it's not like
there's that many people

that, you know, get him.

She's got carers that come in.

(SCOFFS) They're awful.

They are not awful,
they're overworked.

They come in, right,

for 45 minutes,
three times a day.

They chuck on
some microwave pasta,

change her colostomy bag

and then they're
straight on to their phones.

That was one,
that... that was one girl.

And some of them are amazing,
you know.

And they... they're paid shit,
by the way.

They work from
7:00 in the morning

until 10:00 at night.

And they travel
from client to client.

And if there's waiting
in between clients,

they don't get paid for that,
you know.

It works out less
than minimum wage.

I'm not having a go at them,
all right?

I know some of them
are amazing.

But some of them
are not amazing,

and they're not even family.

And that is another thing,
they're traveling.

Is that... Is that okay?

I don't know.

I mean, are they wearing masks

when they're on the bus
or whatever?

I've seen people out there,
people out there

- are wearing masks.
- Yeah. Yeah.

Well, they're advising
against wearing masks.

What happens when
they're on public transport,

do they become
a vehicle or a vector?

And other countries
are wearing masks.

Should we be wearing masks?

- I don't know!
- That's what I'm saying!

Nobody seems to know anything!

(SIGHS)

Anything at all.

(SIGHS LOUDLY) Fuck's sake.

We've been trying to get her
into a home, me and my sister.

It's a beautiful place.
Beautiful.

I mean, it's got all the gear.

We're not trying
to get rid of her.

You know,
line dancing in the morning,

kidney dialysis
in the evening.

And she knows
you're not trying

to get rid of her, by the way.

Well, when we went there last,
she said,

"You bitches are trying
to get rid of me."

She's a colorful character.

We just want her looked after.

Yeah. And both my parents
are dead so, you know...

(INHALES SHARPLY) thank God.

Look, I'm...

I'm really sorry.

Okay, we need to get on,
I totally know that.

And God knows how long
this thing is gonna last.

It's just, this whole thing,
it is so confusing.

It's just, nobody seems
to know what is going on.

The ship is steering itself

and all the grown-ups
have been fucking beamed up.

And the people out there,
unbelievable. Unbelievable.

What about
the people out there?

- (KIDS PLAYING OUTSIDE)
- Well, go on.

Don't worry about it,
you'll get all...

- No, come on. Look...
- No, it's all right.

If we're gonna get through
this, then we're gonna

- have to, you know...
- What?

- Well, talk.
- Us?

Yeah. I think so. Don't you?

(SIGHS) You want me to talk?

Well, I suppose so.
I mean, don't we have to?

- All right.
- Like, a bit?

Yeah, all right, all right.

Well, look,
this was yesterday, right,

just before they announced
the lockdown,

and I'm down
at the Tesco local.

You know,
the one on the corner?

Yeah, the one on the corner...

Yeah, I'm at the Tesco local,
the one in the corner,

and I'm in there, right,
and it has been picked clean.

I mean, locusts, right?

And I'm in there
'cause I wanna get aubergines,

- I'm gonna do this katsu...
- Katsu curry aubergine. Yeah.

I'm gonna do
my katsu curry aubergine.

I mean, it's the only
fucking thing Artie will eat

(WOMAN GRUNTS)

And so, there's not a sign
of an aubergine, right,

not a courgette,
not a tomato, not a carrot.

And so I see this woman
that works there,

I recognized her,
I've seen her before.

She's, erm, like 50s
and quite short, and...

and like I don't mean this to
be rude or anything like that,

but she's quite recognizable

'cause she's got
quite a big nose.

- Yeah, I know her.
- You know the one?

Yeah, she's lovely.

She comes out from behind

one of those plastic flappy
curtains that they've got,

and when she does,
I can see in there

and I can see a whole crate,

whole stack of aubergines,
right, masses of them.

So I'm like, "Brilliant."
I go up to her and I'm like,

"Excuse me. Excuse me,
have you got any aubergines?"

And she's like, "No."
And I'm like, "What?"

She's like, "No, we're out,"

just like that,
not even particularly polite.

Which is unusual for her
because she is lovely.

(SCOFFS) Anyway.
So I go back up and I'm like,

"Erm, excuse me. Excuse me.

"I happened to glance behind
the plastic flappy curtains

"and I noticed
a whole crate of aubergines."

And she's like, "Oh, fuck,
oh, no," like, flustered

because suddenly
she thinks there's gonna be

a "situation" or something
like that, right.

And she goes, "I can't
give you those aubergines."

And I'm like, "Why not?"

And she goes,
"'Cause my manager says

"we're not to put
those aubergines out yet."

And I'm like, "Ah, right,

"no, I get it, I get it,"
you know.

I say, "Listen,
here's the thing,

"my little boy,
he's a lovely little boy,

"but he's a bit weird
about things.

"And right now, aubergines
are the only thing he'll eat.

"So I'm not asking you
to go in there

"and put
all the aubergines out,

"I'm just asking you to go
in there and get me three

"so that I can do katsu curry
tonight." And she goes...

(GULPS) like, voice all
wobbling, she's like, "Sir...

"I can't give you
those aubergines

"because we now believe

"that one of our drivers has
fallen prey to the coronavirus

"and we're trying
to figure out

"if he's the one that touched
that produce."

And she thinks
that's the end of it, right.

But I'm like,
"I'll give you a tenner."

And she goes, "No."

So I goes,
"I'll give you 20 quid."

And she's like,
"Sir, I can't."

I'm like, "50 quid
for three aubergines."

She's like,
"Please, sir, don't."

"£200, right here, right now."

She's like, "Really, sir,
I can't." "A grand."

"What?"

"I'll give you a grand,
£1,000,

"right here, right now.
I'm good for it.

"I've got my own business

"and I've done
really well for myself.

"I'll head to the cashpoint,
use three credit cards.

"I'll come back here,

"I'll put a grand in your hand
if you go in there

"and you get me
three aubergines."

And she's thinking, right,

'cause, I mean,
she needs this.

What is she on? Minimum wage,
a little bit above?

She needs this.
She's living hand to mouth,

so she's thinking, right.

She goes like this...

all around her to see
if anybody's listening.

Then she goes, "Sir..."

voice all wobbling,
God love her...

"I would love £1,000,
I really would.

"It would make
such a difference

"to me and my family, but...

"I can't,
in all good conscience,

"give you those aubergines

"because if you, or your son,
or anybody else died,

"then what kind of person
would I be?"

And I look at her,
standing there,

and I say,

"You big-nosed prick.

"You fucking loser.

"Do you not understand, you
fucking big-nosed prick loser?

"This is the reason why you're
stuck in this shitty job

"and I've got an E-Class Benz
waiting for me outside!"

And I just dropped my shopping

all over the floor
and I walked out.

- Oh, my God.
- Mm.

- Oh, God.
- What?

Oh, God. Oh, God!

It's the only fucking thing
he'll eat right now!

You are awful.

I wanted to do
the katsu curry...

You are the worst human alive!

You said talk.

It's the only thing
he'll eat right now!

- What kind of awful person...
- You said talk!

Yeah, I didn't know
what was gonna come out

- of your fucking mouth!
- Thank you.

I feel awful now.
Thank you very much!

- You feel awful now?
- Aye, I do.

Do you know
what blows my mind?

Do you know
what actually wakes me up

in the middle of the night,
in a cold sweat,

is the fact that
I used to love him.

- (SIGHS)
- I did. I really did.

I mean, how is that
even possible?

Believe me, our former
feelings for each other

are as inexplicable to me
as they are to you.

But she's right,
we were in love.

I thought she was incredible.

- I thought he was charming.
- Now I think you're repugnant.

Now I think you've got
the same level of charm

as diarrhea in a pint glass.

Right.

Lockdown is gonna
be hard then.

It's gonna be really,
really hard.

Really hard.

- (SOMBER MUSIC PLAYING)
- (SIGHING)

- (DOG BARKING)
- (PEOPLE CHATTERING)

FEMALE NEWSCASTER:
Breaking news coming in to us

within the past few seconds.

The Prime Minister has been
admitted into intensive care

with those persistent symptoms
of coronavirus.

FEMALE NEWSCASTER 2:
Now as cities

in lockdown
fall almost silent,

the largest,
brightest super moon of 2020

has risen in the night sky.

FEMALE NEWSCASTER 3:
The spread of this virus

is not accelerating
and that is good news.

Don't give me any more.

- Oh, you've given me some.
- (BOTH CHUCKLE)

You're a rotter. (LAUGHS)

- Mushrooms?
- Huh? Oh!

Oh, Christ, yes. Tell them
about the mushrooms. Go on.

Basically, mushrooms
are to blame for everything.

(CHUCKLES)
She tells it better than I do.

Everything is the fault
of the mushrooms!

If it wasn't for
the mushrooms, right,

we wouldn't still be together.

You tell it so much better
than I do. Go on, tell them.

So, this is year three.

We've had the warm,
cuddly first year.

Bliss, love, harmony.

And made it through the
slightly spiky second year.

That gentle descent
into snarkiness and bickering.

And now we're
well into year three.

The terrifying plunge
into the icy, Arctic tundra.

Am I actually telling it?

And by this point, right,
we hate each other.

And we don't wanna admit it,
but we both know,

and we're both independently

making plans
to get the hell out of dodge.

I vividly remember
being at dinner with him

and watching him eat
and just thinking

it's the worst thing
I've ever experienced.

What? I'm not a...
I'm not a bad eater.

No, it's not that
you're a bad eater,

it's just, like,
the fact of you eating.

Like, watching you eat

makes all the various
different processes involved

more apparent.

You know, like, mastication
and rending of flesh,

grinding of matter,

just mixing with saliva
and sucking it down

into your big old meat-bowl
of acid, to break it down

until it's no more than
a brown sausage of turd

to be squeezed out
via your anus.

Wow, you get all that
from eating?

Er, no, just you eating.

So, safe to say we're not...
we're not gonna carry on.

And we had
this massive blow-up

just before my birthday.

Like, massive. Final straw.

But I'd stupidly booked
a surprise birthday weekend.

Mushroom picking,
of all things,

in the New Forest.

The New fucking Forest.

And it was a non-refundable
deposit, so, you know...

So they take you out
to the New fucking Forest

at some godawful time
of the morning

and they force you
to pick mushrooms.

They show you
which ones are good,

how they should be picked,
how they should be cooked.

It was really interesting
actually.

It was so boring.

Come on, had we been
in a living relationship,

we could've actually
made some friends.

The people were awful.

I thought one or two of them
were okay.

What about your man
who was like... (PANTING)

Oh, yeah.
He should've been executed.

So, they teach you
how to pick mushrooms

and they also teach you
which mushrooms not to pick.

And there's this one
particular mushroom

and the guy's like,

"If you eat that,
it's not gonna kill you,

"but it will be really bad.

"If you eat that mushroom,
there will be stomach cramps,

"there will be
projectile vomiting,

"there will be
extraordinary diarrhea

- "and you'll piss yourself."
- (CHUCKLES)

And we were both thinking
the same thing,

"I would love to shove that
into the other one's fricassee

- "and watch them squirm."
- Wild, right?

Like, I would love
to pick that mushroom

and watch that stupid bastard
lying on the floor,

shitting his pants, thinking
he's gonna die. (CHUCKLING)

I mean, not really, you know.

You don't really
want that to happen.

You're just enjoying the fact
that it could happen.

Yeah. And then...

- It did happen.
- Yeah.

- I got poisoned.
- He did. He did get poisoned.

Oh, my God. One of us picked
the wrong mushrooms.

I mean, they look
stupidly like the good ones.

They ended up in this
fricassee, which I alone ate.

Yeah, because
you went on ahead.

Because you were
too busy dawdling

buying New
fucking Forest fudge.

Yeah, for your weird friend,
Nathan,

who specifically
asked you to buy it

and yet you get angry at me
for trying to

and then you just, like,
sulk on ahead

and cook them up yourself
to make a point.

Aye. Look...

I thought I was gonna die,
okay?

Yeah. He did.
He really thought that.

The pain was extraordinary.

He did think he was gonna die.

That feeling that
something in your body

that wants you dead...

- He was fine, though.
- (SCOFFS)

I was at death's door!

You were...
Yeah, you were at the door.

You weren't on the premises.

The guy specifically said
they're not fatal.

It took the ambulance 1 hour
and 30 minutes to get there.

No, it did.
It did take that long.

- That was a bit scary.
- Mm-hmm.

I held his hand
the whole time.

Yeah, you did. (CHUCKLES)
She held my hand.

See, thing is,

that when you go through
something like that,

you feel
this terrifying panic, right,

this absolute certainty that
you're going to die today.

Just to reiterate...

And that the person
you're with

is the last person you're ever
gonna see, it bonds you.

Yeah, I mean,
when you go through

something like that,
it does bond you.

So we decided to try again.

Which was the biggest
fucking mistake

- in the history of mistakes!
- (BOTH LAUGH)

Because in that brief respite,
right,

on the sunny uplands
of stupidity,

we decided that what we really
needed was a child, huh?

Never make decisions
after a near-death experience.

Or even a death-adjacent
experience.

That fetus, right,
was no bigger

than a fucking bullet to the
head before we remembered

that we could not stand
the sight of each other.

And the rest, as they say,
is shit-story.

And that's the mushroom story.

Artie, here.

It's not been that bad,
though, lockdown.

MAN: No!

We're two weeks done

and, you know,
we're getting through it.

Yeah, we are.

Don't get me wrong.
It's not been pleasant though.

God, no.

We still have
to see each other,

pass each other
on the stairs, ugh...

Just with everyone being so
happy-clappy fucking cheerful.

Oh, which is inappropriate,
by the way.

Have you seen WhatsApp?
It's intolerable.

Twitter, Instagram.
You can't even, you know...

"We're all in this together,
guys." "We'll get through it."

Oh, my God. "I'm learning
how to play the banjo."

"Look at me,
I made a macrame scarf

"out of fucking pasta twirls."
Just pack it in.

So there's been a lot going on

and it's helped us
not to have to,

you know, focus on,
or talk to,

or even notice each other.

Yeah, I mean, we could pretend
that the other one...

- Didn't exist.
- ...was in a coma or...

(CHUCKLES) Look, my business
for one thing, right,

it's taking
a lot of sorting out.

- Tell them what you do.
- Don't start.

- No, no. Go on.
- Don't start with that.

No one understands
what he does.

MAN: Yes, they do.

I don't understand
what you do.

That is absolutely not true.

People do understand
what I do.

- Go on. Tell them.
- Okay.

I've got
a boutique consultancy.

We specialize
in data analytics

and finding technological
multimedia solutions...

I mean, what?

...for linear online broadcast
marketing providers,

who specialize
in cost-efficiency savings.

What's complicated about that?

Mm-hmm. When we were
first going out together

and people would ask him what
he did and he'd say all that,

I would just
lean forward and go,

- "He means computers."
- (CACKLING FORCEFULLY)

Which was really funny,
a million years ago.

But there's been
a lot of wrapping-up.

So thank God for Rishi.

- Comrade Rishi.
- Eh?

I'm just saying,
the state stepped in.

- Oh, it's a pandemic.
- Borrowing to invest in jobs.

- It's a pandemic.
- I mean...

I mean, isn't this
exactly the manifesto

that Jeremy Corbyn
fought the last election on?

Yes, it is. Yes, you were
fighting the last election

in order
to introduce measures,

which have been
absolutely perfect

for shutting the economy down.

It wasn't a pandemic in 2008
when the banks...

Don't. I never agreed
with 2008. Fuck 2008.

There is no such thing
as too big to fail.

That would be socialism.
Nah, let the weak perish.

Yeah, don't mind handout now,
though, do you?

They're loans! They're loans,
woman! They're loans!

Look, my company's not weak,
okay? Never been weak.

Yeah, no,
just incomprehensible.

Anyway, there was
so much to sort out.

There was all the loans,

there was the refund
in statutory sick pay,

the VAT deferral,
then furlough.

I mean, that was actually
really important to me

because I've got 12 employees.

- Yeah, who you sacked.
- Who I did not sack.

You already sent out
the emails firing them.

Which I immediately rescinded
when the furlough came in.

Yeah, when the government
was paying their wages.

They're really good people.
I took them all back.

Yeah, at 80% of their salary.

Which is what the furlough is.

- You can top it up, though.
- If you're a mug!

(MAN SIGHS)

Look, meanwhile...
she's still getting to work.

Yeah. I work
for a charity called PFN.

We're like the Taliban version
of Medecins Sans Frontieres.

- (CHUCKLES)
- Oh, aye,

- saving the world, this one.
- Mm.

I work with refugees.

It's good what she does,
actually.

I am actually proud of that.

- I'm a bit proud of that.
- I'm just a coordinator, so...

Aye, for Europe.
For the whole of Europe.

Working her fingers
to the bone, so she is.

I mean, I don't agree with
most refugees on principle,

but some of the ones
she helps... Phew.

The ones I help
are no different.

Some of the stories
of these ones...

These ones are no different.

I mean, your heart
goes out to them.

It's heart-rending,
the stories of these ones.

(SHOUTS) Which ones?
Which ones?

Which ones are these ones?
These ones are no different!

You know, I'm not even
gonna get into it.

There's been a lot going on.

And, you know,
with homeschooling,

which, in fairness, he has
taken the lion's share of

and he's good at it.

Aye, the Portuguese
colonization of Macau

and the melting point of lead

were just two little
memory nuggets

I was particularly proud of.

He has been good at it,
I'll give him that.

It actually suits little Artie
better, as well.

I mean, he's not very good
with other kids.

Yeah, but he's lovely.

(QUIETLY) Is he there?
(LOUDLY) Aye, no, he's lovely.

Yes, he is. He's a lovely
wee boy. He is indeed.

He's a lovely,
lovely wee fella.

Now, fair's fair,
you gave me a great son.

I didn't give him to you,
you fuck!

And then there's Mum.
Obviously I was worried.

We both were.

You know, whatever's going on
between her and I,

- I like the old girl.
- Ha!

She hates you.

- She loves me.
- She hates your politics.

She loves my politics.

It gives her something
to argue against.

My mum's a flat-out,
dyed-in-the-wool communist.

Yeah, proper old-school,
CCCP-loving commie.

Never got over the fall
of the Berlin Wall.

See, back in the '70s, right,

she had links
to the Angry Brigade.

She didn't have links.

Remember the people who tried
to blow up the Telecom Tower?

She's the reason the revolving
restaurant no longer revolves.

She may have hid two people

who may or may not
have been involved

for a number of hours, yeah.

See, I once caught her, right,
trying to read Das Kapital

to little Artie in his crib.

- I mean, I love her.
- (BOTH LAUGH)

- She is fiercely independent.
- Mm.

It took us ages to get her to
accept the carers coming in.

She's just scared, ain't she?

Her legs, they're not
what they once were.

They get scared
when their legs start to go.

Mind you,
it's all started to go now.

I'm forcing her to Zoom
every day.

Her kidneys and her eyes.
Her neck went this one time.

I don't mean, like,
her throat.

I mean, like, her neck muscles
holding up her head.

She was like that.

I'm like,
"You all right, darling?"

She went... (GRUNTING)

Giving her her lunch,
she's like... (GRUNTS)

I'm like, "Fuck me, man.
It's terrifying."

Anyway, so the afternoon,
the carer comes in.

- This is with Miriam, right?
- Maryama.

Somali girl. I call her
Miriam. She loves it.

- Uh, she really doesn't!
- Anyway, she's the good one.

She's one of the good ones.

Anyway, you're on Zoom
and you see her.

Yeah, I see her. And she's
wearing this home-made visor,

made out of plastic,
like, see-through...

You know, like
a plastic pocket kind of thing

held on with rubber bands.

(CHUCKLES) I mean, she's
fucking Miriam, the good one.

Yeah, and I ask her about PPE
and she's like,

they haven't given her
any extra at all.

No, nothing.

They're making their own gowns
out of bin bags.

I mean,
what the fuck is going on?

Yeah, so Maryama's not happy
about this at all.

You know, 'cause she's scared.

She's scared for herself,
she's scared for her family,

- she's scared for her clients.
- Tell them how many buses

- she has to get.
- Three.

- How many clients that day?
- Eight.

What the fucking what?

Yeah, so I go into a tailspin.

I'm calling, like,
the council, the doctor.

You know,
I'm calling helplines,

but can't get any answer

'cause of everything
that's fucking going on.

So I'm just gonna go and
get her and bring her here.

But then am I exposing her?

Yeah, I mean,
does one of us go and stay?

- But who's looking after him?
- Yeah.

So, I mean, we're just, like,
beside ourselves.

And, you know, there's
this killer virus out there

and you're sitting pretty
while your mother, your mum...

And I'm thinking,
"Is this it?" you know.

"Is my mum gonna die?"

"Is my mother gonna die now?"
We're fucking terrified.

But then her sister
just swoops in,

sorts it all out,
out of the blue.

- She was amazing.
- Out of the blue.

Yeah, which is... you know,
'cause she's not normally...

I mean, normally
she's a bit...

- Selfish?
- Not selfish.

- Trying to be a comedian.
- Yeah. It's not a comedian.

It's more performative
than that.

Try telling a fucking joke.
That might raise a laugh.

Look, fair's fair,
she saved the day.

Yeah. She got her to go
to that home.

That care home, you remember?

Yeah. She persuaded her
to go to that care home.

Lovely place.
I mean, absolutely amazing.

God knows how she managed it,
but somehow...

Yeah, she persuaded her to go
to the lovely, lovely home

and they took her in.

- What a relief.
- Yeah, it was amazing.

MAN: I know. Overnight.

No messing.
Right in, overnight.

Yeah. I mean,
she'll be safe there, right?

In there? Aye, aye.
She'll be safe in there.

- (PEOPLE CHATTERING)
- (GENTLE MUSIC PLAYING)

(SIREN APPROACHING)

(SIREN FADES OFF)

(SIRENS WAILING IN DISTANCE)

This evening,
I harvested asparagus.

(CHUCKLES)

I've never done that before.

Actually, I shouldn't
have done it now

because I only planted them
a few months ago.

And with asparagus, right,

you're supposed to leave them
for three years

to let the crown bed in,
otherwise it dies.

Apparently
that's what Google says.

But, er,
I just could not resist it.

You know, I've grown it
with my own hands and soil.

Look, I'm not saying

I'm some green fingered
vegetable person.

That is not what this is,
you know,

it's just this year with
everything that's going on.

I ordered them...
(EXHALES HEAVILY)

back in early February.

Dunno why.

Just did, you know.

This was just when
we were getting

the first sniff of this thing

happening off
in far-flung China,

this little place
that nobody had ever heard of.

And these health things,

they do happen every now
and again, don't they?

I mean, like bird flu,
Ebola, SARS.

And, don't get me wrong,

I am not saying that I knew
this was all gonna happen.

I'm not saying that I was
thinking I had to be some

"Grizzly Adams nuclear
fallout shelter" kind of guy.

I'm just talking about
planting a few veggies.

I actually think
about doing it every year,

just never get round to it.

I suppose it's like learning
the names of trees,

or reading Charles Dickens.

You know it's gonna make you
a better person.

Just nobody fucking does it.

But this year, with everything
that's happening...

I actually find myself
doing it.

And I'm planting vegetables,
you know.

I've got everything in there.

I've got carrots, courgettes,
tomatoes, cucumbers.

I've got radishes,

got this wee thing
that I got from Venezuela,

I'm not quite sure what it is.

And, er, asparagus, right.

So, tonight...

we get a call

just probably after
they've announced

the official end of lockdown

from Jonathan, right.

Jonathan's the ICU nurse,
over there at the hospital.

Amazing guy, Jonathan,
like, he's lovely.

I cannot speak highly enough
about Jonathan.

And he's the main nurse,
over there in intensive care

looking after the old girl,

because Covid,
you know, it just...

just swept through that place.

It just rampaged
right through the care home.

Loads dead, loads in hospital.

Like the old girl,
you know, taken in,

intubated, on a ventilator,
stuck in a coma.

And Jonathan, he's...

(CHUCKLING) he's on the phone
to us every day,

telling us everything.
Everything.

Temperature, heart rate,

fucking which consultant
is seeing her,

when they're flipping her
on to her front

so that she can get
her breathing going.

And, when he's got
a minute, right,

which isn't very often,
I can tell you that,

he talks to her,

or he'll stick the phone up
to her ear so that we can.

He's fucking just
an amazing guy, Jonathan.

Lovely, you know.

I just cannot fault him.
Cannot fault Jonathan.

Anyway, when we get the call
from him tonight,

it's the one

that we've been dreading,
right.

"One of you...

"can come in for 15 minutes
to say goodbye."

She's the one
that takes the call.

This is about 6:30.

And I'm watching her
and she's on the phone,

"Mm, mm," she's nodding away.

Jonathan's on the other end,
being smashing.

And she hangs up
and she tells me,

just real matter of fact,

"It's happening."

Jonathan says
one of you can come in

for 15 minutes to say goodbye

(CHUCKLING DRYLY) and that
we're lucky because...

most other places aren't
even letting you do that.

(INHALES DEEPLY)

She's gotta be there at 8:45.

She just says it like that,
you know, just cold as ice.

But inside I can see

her heart's just, like...

gone...

you know, like that.

(GRUNTS SOFTLY)

Like that.

So, at 8:45, right,
I'm thinking,

phew, "That's a bit of time...

"I'm gonna harvest
that asparagus."

So I did.
I clipped it and steamed it,

bit of salt and pepper,
made fresh hollandaise.

It's not easy to do that but
it's really tasty when you do.

And we sat down together

and we ate the asparagus.

And she said it was lovely.

I think it helped...

take her mind off...

Anyway,
here's the thing, right,

the thing that's been going
over and over in my mind

as I'm sitting here waiting...

(LIGHTER CLICKING)

if there was
enough of an inkling,

back in early February,

for me to get myself online
and order asparagus crowns,

and, I mean,
who the fuck am I?

But if there was
enough of a sniff

at this thing happening
back then,

then how come the people
that run this country...

Like, how come the people

who actually
run this country...

How is it possible
that the people

who actually
run this country...

- (KEYS RATTLE)
- (DOOR CREAKS)

(KEYBOARD CLACKING)

What you doing?

I'm just... I'm just putting

her temperature
in the spreadsheet.

Why? I mean, is that...

Does that matter anymore?

Er, no, I suppose not.

What are you doing?
Don't. Don't.

Well, I thought,
like, a hug, or...

No, no,
'cause I have to self-isolate.

- What, in here?
- Yeah.

- Yeah, don't you think?
- Uh...

I don't know.

So how was it?

Er...

Well, she was unconscious.

And the hospital was weird.
It was just really empty

in the places that are
normally busy and...

But, you know, you could tell,

behind the scenes,
everyone's just...

um...

- Jonathan was amazing.
- Yeah, Jonathan is amazing.

Yeah.

He just told me everything
that was gonna happen.

And he said the consultant
had been in

and she reckoned it was gonna
happen in the early hours.

But he said, "Don't worry"

because he was doing
an all-nighter

and, you know, he'd make sure

he was there
when the time came.

He said that's what the nurses
try and do, they...

they just try and make sure
that people don't die alone.

Yeah.

Erm...

(SMACKS LIPS)

And then he showed me

how to put on
all the protective gear and...

And for it to still be
comfortable, you know.

And, er, then he took me in.

And I had 15 minutes.

I spent the first 10

just talking
about the traffic.

Why?

Because the roads
were so clear.

Yeah. And then, er,

after 10 minutes, he leaned in
and he said, you know,

"Tell her you love her,
and..."

And I did, I did,
I just, er...

All this stuff just, er...

just poured out of me,
all this stuff.

What stuff?

Just that I loved her,
you know,

and that
I was proud of her and...

(VOICE CRACKING)
that I was really grateful

for the person she was

and everything she'd done
for me. And I was...

I was just so, so sorry that
I'd never said any of that

when she could hear me,
you know.

And that I loved her
so much that...

my life was already hurting
without her in it

and I was worried that
the hurt would never go away.

(WOMAN CRIES)

No, no, no.

(SIGHS)
Do you not think, like...

Right.

(WOMAN SNIFFLES)

And then I told her

that, er, Jonathan had told me
not to worry.

I told her that
I'd spoken to him

and he promised me that when
the time came, he'd be there.

I told her that, erm,

he promised me
he'd hold her hand...

when she went.
That's what I told her.

(WOMAN SHUDDERING SOFTLY)

I feel like I do wanna
put her temperature in this...

Go for it. Yeah.

Just...

But, erm, there isn't really
a point, is there?

No.

(MAN SIGHS)

Look, there was never a point,

so if it makes you
feel better...

Well, if there's no point,
it's just...

(CLOSES LAPTOP)

You said
amazing things to her.

- Did I?
- Aye.

- Because I don't think I did.
- You totally did.

Okay.

Good.

Because then, um,
I was driving home

and Jonathan called and
he said it was happening now.

No... Wait. No.

- Yeah.
- No.

But I thought it was
the early hours?

Yeah, but she'd taken
a turn for the worse,

so it was happening
right then.

- Jesus.
- I know.

And she was alone.

Yeah. Well, no,
she had Jonathan, right?

- She didn't.
- I thought he was gonna...

She didn't have Jonathan.

Because he had another patient
who was dying at the same time

and that person
had no one, so...

He said at least my mum had me
to FaceTime with her.

Oh, my God.

And I really begged him not...
(SHUDDERS)

Really begged him
not to leave.

I said, "Please don't let
my mum die on her own."

And he said, "Sorry."

(SOBS) And I said...

I said, "Please."

And he said he's sorry
that he had to choose.

And he did.
He did have to choose.

He did.

So he just, he put his phone
on the arm of the bed.

And I sat in a lay-by
on the ring road

FaceTiming in.

I just sat there
and I watched my mum die,

listening to Jonathan on
the other side of the curtain

telling a man
he didn't even know

that he was there
and he wasn't gonna leave him.

(CONTINUES SOBBING)

So, yeah, Mum died on her own.

(FOOTSTEPS RECEDE)

(GASPS FOR AIR)

(WOMAN CLIMBS UP STAIRS)

(MOURNFUL MUSIC PLAYING)

(SNIFFLING)

(SIGHS)

(THUNDER RUMBLING)

ARTHUR: (SINGING)
♪ In the bleak midwinter

♪ Frosty wind made moan

♪ Earth stood hard as iron

♪ Water like a stone

CHOIR ON SPEAKER AND ARTHUR:
♪ Snow had fallen

♪ Snow on snow

♪ Snow on snow

♪ In the bleak midwinter

♪ Long ago

♪ Our God,
Heaven cannot hold Him

♪ Nor Earth sustain

- Okay. So...
- (SPEAKER VOLUME REDUCES)

...we have been having sex.

- Yeah, we have.
- Which is...

Yeah. I mean,
it's as big a surprise

to us as it is to you,
to be honest.

I mean,
we did not see that coming.

- Not at all.
- Not in a million.

No, I never thought
I'd go there again.

Jesus, last man on Earth?
Give me celibacy now.

- Yeah, but...
- WOMAN: We have...

Yeah, we have been
having sex, and...

- Yeah, it's been quite...
- Yeah, it has been...

- What's it been? (CHUCKLES)
- Uh...

It's been good.

Yeah, it has been good.

Been really good, in fact,
if totally unexpected.

Yeah, but it was always good,
like, historically speaking.

- Historically, yeah.
- Not that we were ever all...

No, no, no, not some, like,
super special fucking...

No, we're not that kind of
super special showy,

like, Olympic types...

No, who's got time for that?

No, but, I mean.
we had our quirks...

Yes. Yes, I'm not saying
that we were...

...back in the day.

Yes, there was fun,
there was "ooh la la."

I mean, we were both of us
just fairly compatible.

You know, I mean,
we're both very...

we're very... I suppose

- we're both very solid.
- Quick.

- Yeah, quick. Yeah, yeah.
- Aye?

Both parties
pretty quick at sex.

- Not bad quick.
- No, I wasn't say... No.

No, no, no, just, like,
we know where we're going,

we don't hang about.

Yeah, we're not into
the whole bump and grind.

(BOTH LAUGH)

Aye, none of
that fucking tantric,

Paul Weller, fucking...

- Do you know what I mean?
- Yeah.

But at the same time,
it's not all "wham bam."

No. No, no, no.

No. Premature,
that's not the...

- Is it?
- No. No, no, no.

Both of us happen to be able

to get where
we're going with...

- Time to spare.
- ...alacrity. Yeah.

Needless to say, right,
it's totally side-swiped

the pair of us. I mean,
a bolt from the blue.

Yeah. I mean,
we think we've figured out

why it's happening,

but it still doesn't
make sense, does it?

- No.
- Not really. But,

you know, we tell you,

you're not gonna understand it
either, but here goes.

All right, so,
it all started right back

at the end
of the first lockdown.

Well, it was
the night of Mum's funeral.

It was a weird day,
to be fair, wasn't it?

I mean, funerals, right,

I've buried both my parents,

and there's this whole
bunch of stuff

that you have to organize,
you know.

The strangers coming to your
door to pay their respects,

flowers, hymns, catering,

picking a coffin,
picking coffin ornaments.

And, look, all this stuff,
it can seem really irritating,

but it's actually
kind of amazing

because what's it doing
is it's distracting you

from what you've lost.

And, oh, God, I remember at
my dad's funeral, (CHUCKLES)

there was this big, six foot,
tobaccoey lead smelter, right.

And he comes up to me
and he goes...

He grabs my hand
in his big fists and he goes,

(DEEP VOICE)
"He was the last of the great

"characters, that man," right.

"When he left, the fun
went out of that place.

"I loved that man."

(NORMAL VOICE) And I guess

it's stuff like that,
it just...

It teaches you things you
never knew about the person

you thought
you knew everything about,

and it distracts you.

Anyway, you don't get any
of that at a Covid funeral.

It's five people
at our Covid funeral. Five.

Don't organize catering
for five people.

You gotta choose
your coffin online,

so you're like,
"Oh, that one, those handles."

Yeah, no strangers coming to
your door at a Covid funeral.

Nobody sending flowers.
I mean, what you gonna do,

you gonna wash them
before they come in?

There's no singing at
a Covid funeral, no hymns...

No strangers grabbing you
by the fist,

looking you in the eye
and telling you

that your father's actually...

Hold on, hold on, listen...

- Can I say something?
- Aye.

Just... And you're not gonna
look at me all weird or...

(SCOFFS) I don't know.

I mean, I don't know
what you're gonna say, do I?

I loved that funeral.

And I know I shouldn't
say that because,

other people, you know,

Jesus, it's so painful
for them...

So agonizing not to be able

to have the funeral you need,
but, like...

I mean, for me...

Like, for me, it was...

just the best.

Like, there's no...
there's no...

there's no catering
to worry about,

there's no flowers,

you know, no one's knocking
at your door,

poking their nose in,

you're not obsessing about
what the coffin is saying

about your love
for the person you're burying,

there's no fucking hymns.

It's just you

and the person you're putting
in the ground. And...

You know, there's nothing
to distract you from the pain

of what you're losing
and I loved that.

I fucking loved that funeral.

I...

I fucking loved
that funeral, too.

- You did?
- I did.

Well, then why were you all...

Well, 'cause you were like...
(GROANS)

Yeah, but... (SCOFFS)

I was loving it.

I mean, not loving it.

You know,
my mum is dead, but...

Yeah. Obviously. I mean...

Let me tell you,

that big six foot,
chain-smoking lead smelter

that came up to me and told me
all that shite about my dad,

that ruined my year.

I mean,
do not need to find out

that the guy that's been
an arsehole to me for decades

is actually Michael
bloody McIntyre, you know.

(SNICKERS)

Well, I couldn't say anything
because...

Well, you know, it's...

- No, you can't, can you?
- No.

You're not supposed
to be happy

about a Covid funeral,
are you?

No. And I suppose
when we got home,

we just got caught up
talking about Artie, and...

Fuck, Artie was... He was...

Oh, he was upset.

Yeah, 'cause he wanted
to see the body.

Yeah, 'cause
he loved his gran.

And he wanted to touch it.

So what? I wanted to touch it,
that's normal.

He wanted to taste it.

Not like... Don't say it like
he's a cannibal or...

He didn't wanna saute it.

He wanted to see
if a dead body...

- What?
- ...tastes like a live body.

Which is normal, right?

Absolutely normal.

Fucking curious,
curious child.

Anyway, we...

So we had the funeral,
we came home,

we talked about Arthur,
we made some tea,

we had a bit of cheese

and then the next thing
you know, we had a...

sexual contact.

Should we tell them
what it was?

- No, we don't need to...
- No, no, no. All right.

Look, suffice it to say,
okay, one of us had an orgasm.

- We don't need to. Why?
- I just thought they needed...

Why do you need to say that?

I thought it's important
for them to know the details.

That was it, a one off.

You know, we put it down
to the day, to the situation.

We're not doing that again.

Oh, God, no. Done, bang, over.
What's on telly?

Yeah, and then
post-lockdown life settles in

and we just completely
forget about it.

Things start to change,

you know, you can see people,
you can go to restaurants...

They encouraged you to go
to restaurants, bizarrely.

Yeah. Through all of that,
we did not have sex.

- No. No.
- Even once.

And little Artie, right,
he's back at school.

Then he was
out of school again

'cause some kid got Covid.

And then he was in,
then he was out,

and then he was in again,

it was like a bloody yo-yo,
to be honest with you.

But, point is,
that there was space

to ourselves to do it in,
had we so desired.

And we didn't at all, did we?

No. I mean, I was working,
I was busy.

Yeah, and summer comes,
then autumn.

And then it was like
people seemed to forget that

we were living in a country
that was being held together

by shoestring and Sellotape,

and people that don't have
the option to work from home,

people that have got
shit jobs and shit pay,

but have to look after
shits like us...

Ah. Careful, comrade!

Fuck off. The world

is still dog-eat-dog,
I'm not saying that.

Have an idea,
for Christ's sake,

don't just eat
chicken fucking nuggets.

Oh, there he is.

The point is,
at no point during any of this

do we even consider
having sex.

Not even just there,

when the lockdown
to save Christmas starts.

We're still not doing it,
are we?

No. God, no. I mean,
not in a million years.

No. And then, right,

they announce
a vaccine's been discovered.

And we just start fucking
ploughing like teenagers.

Honestly, no idea why.
Like... (CHUCKLES)

Did the announcement
trigger it? You know.

Is it a lockdown phenomenon?

Are other people
experiencing this?

Maybe because the vaccine's
gonna make things better?

- Yeah, for you, maybe.
- How do you mean?

(CHUCKLES) Well,
I mean, they're not gonna be

vaccinating people in refugee
camps any time soon.

Here we go, let
the virtue signaling begin.

No, rich countries
will be snapping it up.

Hey, look, everybody,
a good person is here!

Fuck off! Life and death
shouldn't be about profit.

Everything is about profit.

And don't say "profit"
like it's a bad thing, okay.

How do you think they made
the vaccine? They used money.

Oh. Well, all I know

is that you are gonna
be getting the vaccine

long before any front-line
worker in Sierra Leone,

and what the fuck do you do?

I would run out there tomorrow
and get it if I could.

Yeah. No, I know you would.

You'd run out there with your
big fat fucking purse, like...

100%, I'd get it like a shot.

I'd get it twice, three times,
once for the weekend.

Why am I having sex with you?

I don't know,
that's the point.

We did it in the kitchen
this morning.

Over the dishwasher.
I mean, that is unfathomable.

- Why would you go into...
- What are you talking about?

We're over-sharing.

Oh, shit. Er... We are.
I'm really sorry about that.

You don't need to go
into all the info.

No. Yeah,
all the ins and outs.

(CHUCKLING)

- Oh, come on.
- Sorry.

How old are you?

- How old are you?
- Fucking...

It doesn't mean we're
all suddenly, you know...

- No! No.
- ...suddenly all lovey...

- No! Absolutely not.
- ...dovey and all that.

Fuck, no. No, no, no, no.

It's like, it's physical,
isn't it?

Physical.
Just purely contractual, eh?

- Yeah. Isn't it? Yeah.
- Aye. Yes! Yes!

It's not like
we're not suddenly in...

- Fuck, no! Jesus.
- ...love or... (LAUGHS)

- ...like through the tulips...
- Don't.

...fucking holding hands,

braiding each other's bits,
and fucking...

Still makes me sick.

Yeah, and the sight of her

still makes me wanna
stab my own feet.

I mean, I definitely do not...

Do I?

I think maybe the...
the truth is, is that...

I'm still struggling
with my mum's death, you know,

and... and...
and maybe the vaccine,

like, triggered something,
you know.

I mean, just the thought

that if she'd had it,
you know, she'd...

And just the unfairness
of that,

like the nonsense of it,
and...

This physical thing that's
been happening between us,

I think maybe it's helped.

Yeah.

Yeah, for me, too.

- You too?
- (CHUCKLES) Yeah. I think so.

I think the sex has helped.

Well, yeah, the sex, but...

You know, it's not just
the sex, it's the contact...

Yeah, no, it is.

It's the contact.
It's the contact.

And it's the sex as well,
if I'm being honest,

you know, for me, personally.

And it's not just the vaccine

that's been messing
with my head. I...

(SIGHS) I find this
really hard to admit,

but I've got
complicated feelings

towards my sister now.

I think it's chilled me out
somewhat.

And she feels...
she feels terrible, you know,

just awful, terrible. And I...

I should be feeling
sympathetic towards her,

but I just feel really angry,

like I just have
so much anger.

I think it's relaxed me a bit.

And I hate myself
for feeling like this.

- But if I'm really honest...
- Just emptying my bags.

- What?
- What?

- What did you just say?
- No, I was just...

- For God's sake!
- ...joking.

- I was joking.
- "Emptying your bags"?

Don't joke!

- I'm really sorry.
- Jesus... I mean,

- what is wrong with you?
- I said I'm sorry.

- You always do this!
- Honest to God,

- I'm really sorry.
- No. Just when I begin

- to think, you always...
- I don't always do anything.

Just when I begin to think...

Just when you begin
to think what?

Just...

Don't walk away.

Don't walk away!

She's been hit by it.

(DOOR SLAMS)

I know she doesn't
look it, but...

inside, you know...

grief.

- (BIRDS CHIRPING)
- (DOG BARKING IN DISTANCE)

(POWER TOOL WHIRRING)

- (MUFFLED BABY CRYING)
- (ANIMAL CHITTERING)

(INDISTINCT CHATTER
AND LAUGHTER ON TV)

(SIREN WAILING IN DISTANCE)

I can't escape the feeling

that my mother didn't die,
she was killed.

The problem is that
people don't understand

the word "exponential."

They think it means "a lot"
or "quite fastly."

You see it on TV, you know,
or in bad sci-fi movies.

(GULPS)

"Good God, this alien mass
is growing exponentially,"

and you think,
"Oh, that's a lot."

But, erm,

it's worth taking the time
to understand the...

the mathematics
of exponential growth.

Right, so you, er...

So you start with one
and you double it,

say, every three days.

So you're doubling it
every three days.

So, by the end of a week,
you've got four.

One has become four in a week.

And by the end of the second
week, you have 16.

By the end of the third week,
you have 128.

And as the month draws
to a close, you have 512.

That's after just four weeks.

Okay. So, that's a lot more
than one, but, you know,

not so much.

But if you carry on,

the fifth week
gives you 2,048.

The sixth gives you 8,192.

The seventh...

The seventh gives you 65,536.

The eighth gives you 262,144.

And if you go one week more,

pretty much near
as dammit to the...

to the... to the...
to the two calendar months

from when
this whole thing started,

you get 1,048,576.

So the difference between
the start of the first week

and the end
of the first week is four.

And the difference between
the start of the ninth week

and the end of the ninth week

is 786,432.

So, same amount of days,

hugely different numbers.

This isn't an illustration
of coronavirus, by the way.

This isn't what
actually happened.

You know, we didn't quite
go to nine weeks

before the first lockdown.
There wasn't just one person

who brought it
into the country.

It's probably as many as
1,300 patient zeros.

And this doesn't
take into account,

you know, pre-lockdown efforts
to battle the virus,

track and trace,
people changing behavior.

What actually happened is,

it's far more complex
than what I've just done.

What I've just done is...

illustrate
the word "exponential."

And it doesn't mean
"quite fastly." (CHUCKLES)

What it means is...

What it means
is that timing matters.

It's said that if we'd
locked down one week earlier,

just one week, that we could
have saved 20,000 lives.

So it seems to me
that the word "exponential"

was not understood.

But I've just
explained it to you in...

I've just explained it
to you in...

1 minute, 34 seconds. And...

you get it, right?

It's not that hard, is it?

In January, 2020,

the Care Provider Alliance

contacted the Department
of Health and Social Care

and said,

"What should we be doing
about this new coronavirus?"

And they were told,

"Nothing.
Don't do anything different."

And they contacted them
a week later

and they said,
"What should we be doing now?

"I mean, should we be,

"you know,
should we be self-isolating?

"Should we be
restricting visits

"from family and friends?

"Should we...

"Should we be, like...
Should we wear masks?"

And this time,
they weren't told,

"Nothing." This time,
they were told...

Well, this time,
they weren't told anything.

This time, they weren't told
anything at all.

And it wasn't
until a month later

that they were given guidance.

This is the end
of February now

and the guidance
was that they,

"You do not need to wear masks

"and it remains very unlikely
that people receiving care

"in care homes
will become infected."

And I'm gonna repeat that.

I'm gonna repeat the advice

from the Department
of Health and Social Care,

"It remains very unlikely
that people receiving care

"in care homes
will become infected."

You can...
You can look that up. It's...

There will still
be links for it.

And this is one week

before our Prime Minister
is walking around

just boasting
about shaking hands

with coronavirus patients.

And then the Imperial College

points out
that if left unchecked,

the virus could kill
half a million people,

and the government are like,

"Oh... Oh, fuck, really?

"Oh, shit. Fuck."

And then...
then the panic kicks in.

The NHS
is gonna be overwhelmed,

we're gonna be like Italy...

"Oh, please, God,
don't let us be Italy."

And ministers order 15,000
hospital beds to be vacated,

and the guidance
given to hospitals

is that it shouldn't take
more than three hours.

So patients
are taken out of hospitals

and they're dumped
into care homes,

and they're not
being tested because...

And again,
I'm gonna quote here,

"that Covid sufferers can be

"safely cared for
in care homes."

(SIGHS)

So, while the...

While the NHS...

the burden on the NHS
was being so hotly debated

and... and while, you know,
the fact that there was no...

not enough PPE gear
to go around,

while all that
was being discussed,

the care homes
were given next to nothing.

I mean, they were given
dribs and drabs

while the prices shot up.

And some local authorities
threatened to withhold money

from care homes
if they didn't take in

confirmed
coronavirus patients.

So they were
sent in to these places

like biological warfare.

They were like... like
blankets laced in smallpox.

In the first lockdown, it's
said that 40% of the people

who died from coronavirus
were from care homes. 40%.

So you see,
I can't escape the feeling

that my mother was killed.

And not by a car,
or a gun, or a knife,

or a cricket bat,
or even by the virus.

She was...
She was killed by stupidity.

She was killed by dumbfuckery.
She was killed by...

by someone looking
at something coming at them

at the speed
of a freight train

and just being like,
"Oh, let's just...

"let's just carry on,
shall we? Let's just...

"you know, it's a bit...

"it's a bit fucking
Dunkirk spirit, you know,

"a bit stiff upper lip.
Let's just carry on, old man."

And my mother...

My mum...

I think, erm...

I think that's it.

(SNIFFLES) Do you... Do you...

Isn't it?
Have you got that off...

Do you remember the... the...

when we were
supposed to lockdown?

We were supposed to lockdown
and... and then we didn't.

And they came out
and they said,

you know,
"Don't go to clubs or bars,

"or... or restaurants,
you know,

"unless you just bloody well
want to or something."

That was when, like,
Spain and France

and Lithuania and Malaysia,
they were all locking down.

Yeah.

Is that...

Is that it?

"Is that it"?

I don't mean,
"Is that all you can muster?"

I mean it genuinely.

If you've got more,
you've got the right to say.

Oh, yeah. Sorry, no.

No, that... Yeah, that's it.

Are you all right?

No, I don't think so, really.

Well...

WOMAN: I... I just feel like
something's changing in me,

you know, I just feel like
I'm going into a dark...

Just a bit of a dark place.

MAN: Oh, right. Fuck. Erm...

Why don't we think
of something positive?

- Positive?
- Yeah, like, why don't we

try and leave the room
on a positive thing?

- What positive thing?
- I don't know. Erm...

- Arthur. What about Arthur?
- Okay. What about Arthur?

Actually, he said

this really interesting thing
the other day.

He's really clever,
he really is.

It's this whole evolutionary
theory. Humans as prey.

Which I know sounds
a bit whatever,

but bear with me, okay?

It's this whole evolutionary
theory that states that,

far from this picture
we've got of early hominids

being, like, the great hunter,

it's actually fact
that we were prey

that helped propel
our development.

And Arthur was saying
that it still happens today.

He was saying that 50 people
a year in Tanzania

get eaten by lions.

And that, in this one village,
there's, like,

a leopard that stands up out
of the tall grass, like that,

and then when the villagers
come to chase it away,

it'll circle round the back

and it'll eat
a couple of the babies

that have been left behind.

That's really grim.

I was thinking that as I was
saying it. It's a bit grim.

- Maybe something else, then.
- Yeah.

- Can you think of anything?
- Me?

- Aye.
- Oh. Uh...

Oh, Brexit,
that happened, so...

Let's just... (WHISTLES)
to the side of that, shall we?

Oh, I just...

Erm...

- Your company. Yeah.
- My company collapsed.

Well, I mean,
you were happy about it.

Don't say that in front of...
I had to fire people.

Oh, no, I don't mean...
I didn't mean...

I'm not happy about it.
I've had to fire people,

and I've lost my job, and
I've got no money coming in.

- I'm not happy about it.
- Yeah.

I'm being sanguine.
I'm sanguine about it.

Yeah, I meant...
I meant sanguine.

I meant sanguine.

Maybe this is
a bollocks idea...

No, it's not a bollocks idea!

- It might be.
- No, it's good.

I like it.

- You do?
- Yeah. Erm...

Yeah.

Uh...

Oh, Maryama.

Maryama, Mum's carer,
she's still hanging in there.

- How is that positive?
- Well, she hasn't...

The coronavirus
hasn't killed her yet.

Don't think we even told them
that she'd got coronavirus.

Oh, shit! Oh, yeah,
she got it really bad.

Really bad, actually.

And yet,
she hasn't died of it yet,

so that's the positive.
What the fuck!

I'm trying to...

We're gonna need
to try a lot harder than that.

It's your idea.
Why don't you think of...

MAN: Why don't
we get married, then?

- What?
- You know, let's fucking...

fucking...

Let's fucking...

get married, then.

Are you proposing to me?

Yep.

- Yeah, actually I am.
- Right.

And your proposal is,

"Let's fucking get...
fucking...

"Let's fucking get married,
then"?

It's not Keats,
I'll give you that.

Are you asking me that
to say something positive?

- Is that...
- No.

No.

- Oh...
- MAN: No.

Absolutely not. No.

(WOMAN SIGHS)

Maybe a wee bit.
I don't really know.

Look, here's the thing,

we've been through
all this stuff, right.

And we are, you and I,

still here.

Wow.

- (SIGHS)
- That is... I mean,

that's the most romantic thing
anyone's ever said to me.

Did you hear that in a song
or something?

Look, I've been thinking
about it a lot. A lot.

And I think that...

I don't know how, right,
but somehow,

- I probably love you.
- You probably love me?

I love you.
I fucking love you.

And I know that doesn't
make much sense 'cause...

I kind of hate you as well...

or I've spent
a lot of time hating you,

but I don't think I do
anymore.

I think there's this chance
that we've somehow ended up

in this place that is the love
that exists beyond hate.

And the love
that exists beyond hate,

not a lot of people
get to go there.

It's a fucking peculiar place.

It's unique.

It's utterly rarefied

and it's extremely beautiful.

So, yeah,
I think we should probably...

fucking marry.

(SIGHS)

I'm just thinking that...

Well, I'm just thinking
about my mental state

right now, you know,

because I've got
a lot of anger,

just a lot of hate and...

No, because it's a timing...

No, absolutely,
I totally understand.

- But if we were to...
- Don't worry about it.

If we were to forget that...

If we were to do it...

we would have to do it

under the banners
of the auspices of...

of rigorous honesty.

Absolutely.

What does that mean?

Okay.

Right.

It was me.

The mushrooms.

I picked those mushrooms
and I think...

I think I know
I picked them. And...

I knew what I was doing,
and I did it to hurt you.

And then I stayed with you
because you were poisoned.

And then
Arthur came along, and...

You know,
then we were just stuck...

together.

I know.

What?

I know.

You know I picked
the mushrooms?

No.

I know you think
you picked the mushrooms,

but you didn't pick
the mushrooms

because I picked
the mushrooms.

(CHUCKLES DRYLY)

You were being such a dick,

and I saw the mushrooms
and I thought,

"Oh, I wonder
what that would be like

"to stick that
in her fricassee

"and watch her fucking..."

You know the rest,
you've said it before.

But you ate them.

Yeah, I forgot
that I picked them.

- Okay.
- (BOTH LAUGH)

- You were gonna poison me?
- Yeah.

You were gonna poison me.

No, I was just fantasizing
about poisoning you.

What's the difference?

The difference
is the fucking poisoning!

It was me that got poisoned.

And let's stop calling it
poisoning, okay?

I mean, it doesn't kill you,

it just hurts you badly,
a bit.

So you wanted to hurt me?
You wanted to hurt me badly?

Yeah.

Why?

Why do you think?

You walk around, giving it,
"I'm such a good person.

"Look what a good person I am,

"look what I do
for my fellow human being."

But you are horrible to me
every day.

You are exactly
the same to me.

But I never despise you.

I fucking hate you sometimes,
but I never despise you.

That's not fair.

What's fair?

You said "honesty,"
you said that.

You look down your nose at me,
you always have.

You are not a good person.

You just need to read
as a good person.

See, the reason
that you thought

that you had poisoned me
for all those years

is because
you are actually capable

of doing that to me and more.

At least I know when I'm being
a piece of shit, but you,

you're just
a fucking shitty person

that can't smell
their own fucking stink!

- (OBJECT CLATTERS)
- (BREATHES SHAKILY)

(MAN SIGHS HEAVILY)

(GROANS) Look, right...

I think I went
a bit far there,

but the thing
to hold on to is that...

that was actually
a proposal of marriage.

Right? (SIGHS)

- (DOOR SLAMS)
- (SIGHS)

(BIRDS CHIRPING)

(WIND CHIMES TINKLING)

(WIND HOWLING)

(DOG BARKS)

Do you remember Nathan?

New Forest
fudge weirdo Nathan?

Well, Nathan is really good
at getting other people

to do things for him,
hence the fudge.

And what he's doing now

is he's getting
people vaccinated, right,

when it's not yet their turn.

What he'll do
is he'll take you down there,

just before close,

and he'll ask that

when they've got
a couple of vaccines left,

instead of throwing them
in the bin,

would they give them
to you instead, please.

He's invariably told "no"
in very strong terms.

And, by the way,

he is not the only guy
down there doing this, right,

there's a whole bunch
of those guys down there

usually trying to get
vaccinated before their go.

But, Nathan, right,
Nathan's got a secret weapon.

See, he knows that
like a minute before close

and they've got
a couple of vaccines left...

I mean,
what healthcare professional

wants to bin those.

They're gonna come out and
they're gonna give them away,

but when they see,
like, I don't know,

10 of you sitting there
waiting for two vaccines,

they're probably
gonna ask something

along the lines of,

"Do any of you work
with the vulnerable?"

(EXHALES SHARPLY)
A second will go by

and nobody will say anything

because none
of these arseholes

actually do, do they?

I mean, the real carers
are all getting it elsewhere.

And another second goes by,
and 10 minds start to race.

Then a third second goes by,

and the smarter
and, admittedly,

more venally shitty
amongst the group

start to realize that they're
only one dastardly lie away

from getting vaccinated.

See, by the time the fourth
second comes and goes,

there's all these hands
jumping up in the air going,

"I'm shite-icus,"
"No, I'm shite-icus,"

"No, I'm shite-icus."

Anyway, that's what
Nathan does, right.

He tells you this.

He says, "Second they ask
that question,

"you shoot your hand
in the air,

"you tell your dastardly lie,

"you walk in the building

"and you get
what you came for."

It is not illegal,

but it's murky as fuck. And...

See, when I find out
that she...

is talking to Nathan...
(SCOFFING)

(GROANS)

Things between us have been

not good since
the mushroom admission.

Fuck me,
this whole month she's...

So her job, right, her job...

She's always giving it
the extra hours.

And I'm always saying to her,

"Oh, you need to get paid
for that, it's not a charity.

Which is funny,
because it is a charity.

And she's usually
in there till like

seven, eight, nine o'clock
at night, whenever.

But see now,
five o'clock comes,

boom, she'll end the Zoom.

It could be
middle of a meeting,

boom, ends the Zoom.

Middle of a sentence, boom,
ends the Zoom, right.

She won't return
her sister's calls.

See, when I asked her why,
she goes,

"I have got no intention
of wasting

"any more of my life
on other people."

She won't even fight with me.

She just fucking walks
out the room.

I mean, the only person

she's got any time for
is little Artie.

And even then,

I sometimes catch her
looking at him

when she's playing with him,
and I know she's thinking...

"All those years..." you know.

You going up the stairs, pal?

Doing funny things to me,
all this, you know.

That and the collapse
of my company.

I used to think, you know,
you lose your job,

you bounce back.

You fall down, you get back
up again, you know.

But I can't seem to get up,
you know what I mean?

(SIGHS)
I'm biting my fingernails.

I can't stop
ordering fruit online.

I cried in the bath yesterday.

The bath.

I mean, I never cry,
but the bath?

It's fucking pathetic. So...

it's safe to say, that I am...

bit of a mess over here
right now, you know.

She's off getting the old,
you know what, with Nathan

and I thought,

"I'll take my mind off it,
I'll keep myself busy."

So I'm doing the katsu curry
aubergine tonight.

I got all the ingredients.

Got them down the same
Tesco local as before.

You know, I don't think
I've been in there

since before
the first lockdown.

It's so different
in there now, though.

You know, all the
hand sanitizer, face masks.

The last time I was in there,
it was picked clean.

It was like a 7-Eleven
in a disaster movie.

But now, it's just brimming
with produce and...

Just like everything
is just dandy.

And the punters
are walking about

like they don't give a shit.

And there's
this one guy, right,

my God, this fucking guy.

Late 20s, right,

jogging gear, earphones in,

shopping in a basket,
no mask, like, at all.

And I'm looking around
and nobody's stopping him.

I'm, like...
This guy, he just,

he does not give a fuck,
right.

So, anyway,
he's in baked goods,

right, and he's standing

with all the bread
in front of him,

and there's a woman below him,

she's got the uniform on

and she's stacking pita bread,

and he's over her like this,
right, like, like that.

And I'm looking at him,
I'm going,

"You are too close
to her, pal.

"What the fuck
is wrong with you?

"Do you not get this?"

Because she's not got
any choice,

but to be there, does she?

And this guy, he goes...

Like, he decides, "I am gonna
have a walnut loaf bloomer."

I mean, he needs to get it,
doesn't he?

He's probably gonna fucking
die if he doesn't get it.

So he does this. He leans in.
Like, he leans in, like...

Like that, like...

Fuck's sake.
Like that, like, close to her

and she's, like, here,
right, going,

"Oh, my God, what is this?
What is this?"

She can feel it

because this is close
for normal times, right,

I mean, like,
borderline inappropriate,

but these days, with no mask,
I mean...

Fuck me. So this guy, right,

he goes, "Hmm." He goes...

Reaches in...
Face, like, there, right.

Pulls out
his walnut loaf bloomer,

gives it a squeeze, actually.
"No, not that one."

He puts it back,
reaches in for another.

She's there, breathing.
Brings it out...

"Oh, yes, lovely."

And he jogs on.
And I am fucking, like...

I'm fucking fuming, right,
I mean, I'm raging, boiling.

I'm so full of this stuff

that I find myself in front
of this woman, right...

'Cause I've gotta say
something to this woman.

And it's her.

The woman I shouted at.
It's the woman I humiliated.

She's got her mask on,
but I can tell it's her.

(CHUCKLES)
And she knows it's me, right.

And she just goes,
"Can I help you, sir?"

And I've got nothing...

(SIGHS)

until finally...

"I'm sorry.

"I'm so sorry."

She goes,
"What are you sorry for, sir?"

And I can't say 'cause...

'cause I just fucking can't,
can I?

So instead I go,
"Thank you for this.

"For everything.

"For all you do,
for keeping us all going.

"For the risks you take,
and for what you are."

She goes, "What am I, sir?"

And I go,

"You're a hero.
You are a hero."

And she goes,
"I'm just somebody

"that needs a job, sir."

And by this point,
I'm kind of crying, right,

I mean, not actually,
but inside.

And I wanna give this woman
something, so I say...

"It's gonna be different."

She goes,
"What will be different?"

And I say, "The world.

"People like you,
you're gonna be valued.

"We won't go back
to the way it was,

"valuing the wrong things,

"like CEOs, or magazines,
or brand influencers,

"people whose jobs
aren't important."

She goes,
"People like you, you mean?"

"Yeah. Yeah, people like me.

"It's gonna change.

"We'll remember."

She goes,
"No, you won't. You'll forget.

"And the world
isn't gonna change."

And I don't say anything
because

I think she might be right.

I know she's right.

She goes, "Can I help you
with anything else, sir?"

And I want to say
something that matters.

I wanna say the one thing
in my life that matters

and I wanna say it to her,
right now,

but the only thing in my life
that matters has gone.

(BREATHES SHAKILY)

So I just shake my head,
you know what I mean.

And she goes back
to stocking pita bread

and quietly
saving all our lives

for just above minimum wage.

- And...
- (KEYS RATTLING)

I'm not a shitty person.

I know. I was just reacting

- when I said that.
- All the time.

I'm not a shitty person
all the time.

But I am sometimes.

And you are not a good person.

Well, most of the time,

very much, really, at all.

But you are sometimes.

Thank you, I suppose.

(SIGHS)

I... I need to make, erm...

I've been thinking
about this a lot

and I need to make a...

People are... are like,
"When we get back to normal,"

"'When it all gets back
to normal,"

"It'll soon be normal."

I don't wanna go back
to normal. I really don't.

I mean, what is so great
about the way things were?

Just at each other's throats.
We were just...

Everyone just
at each other's throats

over the slightest thing,
all the time.

And I need to make

a really drastic change.

Do you understand?

Yeah.

(CHUCKLES) Yeah, I think I do.

I just want a new life.

You know, I can't go back to
the old one, I really can't.

And to do that,
I need to make a drastic...

No, no, no. Look, it's fine.
It's absolutely fine.

I completely understand. 100%.

- Are you crying?
- I'm not crying.

I'm not fucking crying, okay!

- That's crying. Why are you...
- No, I'm not...

Why do you think?
Right, I'm broken up!

'Course I'm gonna fucking cry.

This, what we're doing,

doesn't mean nothing
to me, okay?

And I get it, I really do.
I get it.

Maybe this is the smartest
thing we've ever done

and we should have done it
years ago, but I'm not some

frozen-hearted ice queen

with a heart
of rotten granite, am I?

Why have you got
Arthur's jacket on?

Fuck's sake!

Look, let's...

Let's split up.
Okay, let's do it,

(CRYING)
but it really hurts me.

And I'm gonna fucking cry

and you're gonna
fucking watch.

(CONTINUES CRYING)

We're not splitting up.

What?

We're not splitting up.

Why do you think
we're splitting up?

You just said that we were...

I did not say
we're splitting up.

What did you say, then?

I said,
"Let's not get married." I...

- No, you didn't.
- That's all I said.

I did say,
"Let's not get married."

- I...
- No, you didn't.

You never said
the word "marriage."

The word "marriage"
never came out of your mouth.

Didn't I?

- That's what I meant.
- That's what you meant?

I meant let's not get...

I meant "let's not
get married, let's not..."

I didn't mean, not,
"let's not be together."

I meant
"let's not get married."

I mean, what the fuck
were you thinking anyway?

What's going through your
head? Were you watching...

watching fucking Bridgerton
or something? I just...

I'm saying... I am saying,
"let's be together."

Okay? But just in a nice way!

If we possibly can.

Everyone's really angry
at each other all the time,

but we're all the same.

We're all wearing
the same clothes,

we're eating the same food,

we're listening
to the same music,

we're drinking
the same stupid drinks,

we're watching
the same programs.

Just the entire human race

is, like,
running towards each other

at the speed of light,
shouting,

"Get the fuck away from me."
And I...

I can't do that anymore.

I'm not, not after all this.

MAN: Hey, pal.
How you doing? You all right?

Good wee boy. You gonna
go play? You go play.

I'll get dinner ready.
Ten minutes, all right?

Katsu curry aubergine,
just the way you like it.

I actually found
a wee marinade online.

ARTHUR:
I don't like aubergine.

- What?
- What?

I don't like aubergine.

Fantastic. Fantastic.

I will just chuck that
in the bin.

Aah!

Fuck's sake.

- (PAN CLATTERS)
- Goodbye, aubergine.

Hello, fish and chips.

There's a dead parakeet
in the garden.

- There's a dead parakeet?
- Yeah.

- In our garden?
- Yeah.

Are you sure it's a parakeet?

I don't think you get
parakeets round here.

- Can I bring it in?
- MAN: No. No. No, pal.

Maybe just best
to leave it outside, eh?

- I'll just watch it decompose.
- Yes.

Or you can chuck it
in the bushes,

let the foxes eat it.

- That's good, too.
- WOMAN: Mm.

- Are you two all right?
- Yes.

Yeah. Yeah, we're great.

- MAN: Yeah.
- We're really great.

Hey. (CHUCKLING SOFTLY)

Here, why don't you go
and play outside, pal?

Only be two secs, okay?

I don't despise you.

That's a terrible thing
to say.

I didn't get the vaccine.

- Wait, what?
- No.

Well, how... Okay. Okay.

And it was because
of your stupid, moping face.

You've been moping for weeks
since you found out. I mean...

Who the fuck
are you to judge me?

You!

I was there with Nathan,
and I was ready and...

A bloke comes out and says,

"Is anyone here a carer
for the vulnerable?" And...

your stupid, mopey face

just came into my head,
and I walked away.

I walked away
because I was worrying

about what you would
think of me.

Because of me?

What I feel for you, it's...

It's so weird.

And it's infuriating
and irritating

and really depressing
sometimes,

but it is a sort of love.

Are you trying to say
you love me?

No, I'm trying to say
I sort of love you.

And I'm just asking you,
is that enough?

Do you wanna go and see
a dead parakeet with me?

Yeah.

Yeah, I think I do, actually.

(SEA SHANTY PLAYING)

(SEA SHANTY CONTINUES PLAYING)

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