All language subtitles for The First Time - Bedingungslose Liebe (2011) [eng] [Cinegayorg]

Oh, shit.

Good morning. Going up.

I forgot something.

I'm going to get it right away, alright?

Sure, but hurry up.

You know that the next lesson

will be with Mrs. Kalashnikov.

Yeah, yeah...

Hey. Good morning.

Good morning, kid. Everything ok again?

Well, I'm not so sure.

You know that after this
fight last night...

Nick sure tried to call me,

but I didn�t fancy to take that call.

It'll all be fine.

Do you already know the latest news?

Nope, what is it?

Well, apart from the fact that today

it will be the first time that the lesson

with Mrs. Keller is cancelled.

Really? That is cool.

Yeah, but wait, there is still more.

Why are you so excited?
Hack I think I know.

No, you don't.

Yes, I do. Well, go ahead.

He called me.

No.

He wants a date.

Are you kidding? After that last one...

Hey, it's not my fault that I mixed him up.

They all looked the same.

Right, but the great one was your phrase:

"Oh, Danny, your eyes are sweet and shiny."

Really inventive.

Not a bit.

What a rubbish.

Gee. Besides, look who's talking!

I do well remember when you recently said:

"Nick's coming and I don't
have a clue what to wear."

Come on, stop it.

You know we need to hurry up.

She's going nuts again.

Then come.

Alright, let's go.

Daniel.

Have a seat.

Morning.

Just sit down and be quiet.

I've corrected your papers.

And the results are disastrous!

I have no idea

what you were thinking about.

Anything but math.

That's correct. Hmm.

Basti, the only thing you
did right is your name.

I don't think, that's not funny at all.

We'll talk about you later.

Back row, no comment.

I actually could have
corrected just one paper.

Oh, again an E.

Mrs. Winter?

Yes!

Is it possible to go over it again?

This was actually meant to be repetition.

We've been going through it over

and over again for the last two months.

Yes, I agree. We need to
discuss all issues again.

Well, to be honest:

I'm no longer keen to do it.

You should take the time and study.

Why don't you form study groups?

Get together and review the subject.

You'll get the correct answers next week.

But we did study at home.

Apparently not enough.

Billy?

Hey, what happened?

So, what exactly did you write him?

"Great fight yesterday.

We should have better get to know each

other before entering a relationship.

Then we had noticed right at the beginning

that we don't match. Bye, Nick."

Oh well, I was really pissed off.

I'm really sorry now for all this.

I've been trying to call him all the time,

but he wouldn't answer it.

Then why don't you go to him.

We will not repeat this.

And if you don't get it,

this school is not the right place for you.

What's up?

I don't know.

Billy went home. He's not feeling well.

Hun.

Be quiet there in the back row.

Otherwise you'll get some extra work.

Well, we finished with
functional equations.

Today, we'll start with something new.

Don't start writing down yet, just watch.

Come on, talk to me.

Is there anything left I could say?

I'm sorry.

I wanted to know if you were

really serious about me.

Yeah right, you cannot be sure about

this after a three weeks period.

Can you? I mean,

you know for sure that I do love you.

I'm saying that I'm sorry.

I messed it up.

I wanted to know,

to test if you would stand up to me.

A test? Are you nuts?

Have you completely lost your mind now?

You damn know that I love you.

I would never let you down. I mean,

the fight resulted from non-issues.

Right, and that's exactly the point.

Fucking non-issues. Billy,

we had never fought like that before.

Yes, but that doesn't mean
that I would let you down.

Now I do know. I was unsure then.

Billy, I don't wanna loose you.

Yes,

but your way of showing
this to people sucks.

May I take a sip?

And? Am I looking good?

Sure, you are.

You are the absolutely most handsome,

the sweetest and greatest...

Come on, stop it. They're coming.

But wait. Is everything back to

normal again between the two of you?

Yes.

Everything is fine?

We settled everything.

So, everything is really sweet and cool?

Yes.

Alright.

Hi Billy.

Hey.

I've got something for you.

Watch out, it has prickles.

I've already felt them several times.

Thank you.

So, are you ready now?

Shall we go?

Let's get outside.

Would you stand still! Hey!

Fuck.

Have you always been this bitchy,

even when we met?

I mean, it makes me sick.

Gee, shut up, will you?

All the time, you're hanging out with Nora,

you spend more time with her than with me.

Gosh. Nora is a woman.

She's my best friend.

You hang up with your friends, too.

So, I hang up with her...

But that's bullshit!

Why? You did see that he was gay.

But he was sweet, wasn't he?

If you say so.

Oh, what I wanted to tell you:

Patricia broke up with Basti last night.

Really? Well, it's not
that surprising, is it?

Why is that?

Since Basti is always playing the macho,

and at a certain point, that sucks.

She knew that well before, didn't she?

Well, she was in love.

Yeah, and now she isn't?

Well, she said she needed
some time for herself.

Time to deal with projects and stuff.

I then asked her if she wanted to do

something together with us,

but she said that she really needs time

for her own. Hmm, I don't know.

And, how's Basti doing now?

I assume he's not doing so well.

But he wouldn't show.

He is a macho man.

Well, lucky me that I don't have

this kind of relationship trouble.

I really think it sucks!

But I doubt that all your one-night stands

are not so cool either in the long run.

Hey, why not?

We get to meet each other beforehand.

You go out for a cup of coffee.

Awesome.

That's what getting to know
each other is all about.

Well, I see it differently.

By the way:

how about this guy over there?

You are kidding, are you?

Well, I think he's sweet!

Your eyes are almost popping out!

Come on. Let's go!

Would you stop making such a fuss!

Don't you always make such a fuss!

Hey Billy, I was thinking about last night.

What you said about us and
what an asshole I would be.

All night long, I was reflecting.

When you were lying next to me,

by the way, you're a snorer.

Anyway, at a certain point of time,

it was completely clear to me...

You don't have a damn clue

about what you are talking about.

Thank you!

You don't know how much Nora means to me,

what she did for me, how she helped me.

You bust into my life and
try to change everything.

You believe, that you know my feelings,

but you don't know

how it is to loose someone,

that you are really in to.

And you can't tell me how it is when

you see no point of life anymore and

just feels dead.

At this very moment you hold your friend

tight in your arms and the next moment,

you may... You may try to grab him as

many times as you wish,

but he's no longer there. He's gone.

And when I'm talking to you about love,

you're quoting Shakespeare.

"What is love?

That which we call a rose by any

other name would smell as sweet?"

You don't know what it's like!

You don't know the pain to be abandoned.

You haven't gone through this,

you feel love for the very first time.

Soon I can't stick it any longer.

Billy, I'm always there for you.

You just don't see this.

I can do whatever I want.

You should try having a
three months relationship

with someone who well and
truly fucks you over.

Who lies to you and cheats on you.

And your friends can tell from your eyes

that the word 'release'

does no longer mean hardly anything to you.

You don't know a real loss.

But you can only learn this

when you love someone more than yourself.

You just want to change everything.

That's the reason for so many fights.

I wanted to kill myself
for my ex-boyfriend,

because he first cheated
and then dumped me.

You believe you know anything about me

just because you think I don't love you.

Just because I'm not that
openly living as gay

and because I'm afraid, you're
slashing my fucking life.

You're insulting me and my friends.

Do you think I have any
clue about your life?

What it was like so far?
How you feel inside?

Who you are?

Just because I read a book
on relationships once?

Billy, now it's up to you.

What do they exactly have to do?

They're just for decoration, don't worry.

Hey, star players!

Hey.

Good fouls, Basti.

Thanks.

You've been quite gentle with each other...

I know.

Here, kid.

Thanks.

Well, Billy, if you play like this Sunday,

we will lose for sure.

Hey.

It's true.

What was wrong?

You're being mean, stop it!

Well, I dunno know.

I'm just not feeling so good today.

Take a rest then!

Abysmally awful!

Nope, I don't have time. I
need to go and hurry up.

What are you up to?

Gee, I talked to Nick and he
absolutely wants us to meet again.

And... Well, have been
talking on the phone quite

often during the last few days and...

He really misses me a lot
and wants to see me today

and that we'll spend a
great weekend together.

But I really need to hurry now.

I need to take a shower first.

What about you? What are your plans?

Maybe swimming?

Yeah, I think we'll go swimming.

In this weather?

Well.

Alright.

I'll be thinking of you.

Have fun and say hello to him.

I will.

Yes, and good luck.

Thanks.

And you'll call me when you're back home.

I will. Like always. Alright,
have fun, too! Well...

Bye.

See you.

Ciao.

Swimming?

Yeah, right now. Or not?

Do you have your bathing suits with you?

We could skinny-dip.

I was going to say... Sure, right.

Any objections?

I don't have a clue about how to eat that.

I will do it somehow...

Hey, Billy?

Yes?

I need to tell you something.

What is it?

I won't be able to spend Whitsun with you.

Why is that?

I'm gonna meet an old buddy.

You know, you and me we
spent much time lately

and I haven't had any time for my friends.

I promised him that I would come visit him.

What a pity.

I thought that we would use
the time at Whitsun for us.

But be glad, family dinner
would have been horrible.

Actually I would have loved to join.

But we're gonna have the weekend for us.

Right, after which I will be in need

of a treatment at a health resort.

Oh, thank you.

I am already missing you right now.

I am missing you, too. I love you, Nick.

Here, I've got something for you.

But don't read it before you come home.

Okay.

Well, then enjoy the time with your buddy!

Yeah, and you have fun with your parents!

Beach party tomorrow. Thank God...

Oh no. Tomorrow means family dinner first.

Stop moaning.

It will all be cool. And
I'll be there, too.

And Denise will be there
and Jan will be there...

Great.

How great?

Nope... With my parents. Oh Jesus...

They will pull themselves together.

It'll turn out ok.

Flo? Please come over here.

Hey.

Hey.

I hope I'm not gonna regret this.

I'm missing Billy already now.

Well, it's only a couple of days.

You will endure it.

Well, I maybe it's even not that bad.

This little distance.

We did have a wonderful weekend though.

But let's talk about Billy again.

What does he actually say
that you are leaving now?

Well, he thinks I am gonna meet a buddy.

What? You didn't tell him?

Flo, he would kill me,
if he knew where I am.

Yeah, I would definitely do the same.

I mean. I really don't
understand why you prefer

meeting Felix instead of
spending Whitsun with Billy.

Hey there.

I put him off the whole time and

in the beginning I didn't want to.

But now I'd like to get to know him.

We've been chatting for five months now

and we get along pretty well.

Last time after this heavy fight

with Billy, I promised him to come.

Gee, Nick.

Sometimes I really don't understand you.

Don't worry, me neither. Really!

Nora, this was your idea!

I know. So what?

If you want to get to know Felix,

then go to him. Billy should relax himself.

Yes, Nora. I can understand,

that Billy doesn't like Felix.

Michelle and I don't like Felix, too.

He is obviously flirting at the phone

and in the chat with Nick,

although he knows perfectly well,

that Billy and Nick are in a relationship.

Every idiot can see, that
he is flirting with Nick.

He isn't flirting.

No? What else are you doing when chatting?

Even Billy noticed it.

Have you already forgotten your last fight

when Felix was putting
about all these rumors?

He almost make you break up.

Come on. Maybe these rumors are even true.

Nora, I think this is my business.

Guys, I'm quite hungry. Well...

Does anyone want to join me for a snack?

I'll follow you later.

Alright. See you later.

Ciao.

By the way, I need to talk to you.

After this school term, I'll go to England.

I received a letter from Mom this morning,

and she signed the applications.

I'm happy for you. I'll go inside then.

So, what was this?

Well, I'll see him in a week.

Only then? Will you survive this?

Where is our awesome footballer?

Here, here, here, it's me.

May I come in?

Well, I don't understand this.

Why now and that sudden?

Why does she send you the
applications now? Why?

Nick, it's my decision in the end.

I mean, I simply need to get out of here.

I'm looking for experiences.

I need to find my own way.

Yeah, but why not somewhere closer?

Why do you have to go so far?

I somewhat like to go return home.

I'd like to go where we were born.
Back to Dad.

How long haven't you seen him?

By all means, not as long as you.

I do care for my family.

Not like, who doesn't care at all.

Then ask our parents.

They didn't care a bit when they send

me to the residential school.

Have you still not understand?

Mum has put you off to boarding school,

because you only have made nonsense.

You have rebelled against everything,

you have only fought
with Dad and as he left,

you provoked further. She didn't

know what to do, you understand?

She was worrying about you.

She was afraid that you
would end up in the gutter.

And she wasn't doing well at that time

and actually I would have
needed to stay with her.

But at one point, she let me leave.

But Nora, that's exactly
why I don't understand.

Why do you return to this
guy who did all that?

Stop it.

You do know quite well what
had happened and why he left.

Moreover, that's not our business.

It's the problem of Mom and Dad.

You should be able to
forgive at some point.

Mom did so a long time ago, and me too.

Why don't you?

Because I hate this family.

Gee, Nick.

You are such a stubborn person.

I am part of this family, which
means that you hate me, too.

Nora? I'm sorry.

Nick, please just get it!

It's my wish! It's my decision!

Yeah, I understand.

But I'm also afraid of losing you.

You know that during the last few years,

you've always been there for me and

I just don't know how I
should go on without you.

I simply overreacted.

But you can come visit me.

I mean I'm still here...
for you... you know that.

Come here.

I need to go. I don't wanna miss my train.

Then have a good time.

And think of yourself now, kid.

Alright.

You've been knowing for a long time,

haven't you? Why didn't you tell me?

On the one hand, because I promised Billy

not to tell, and on the other hand...

That's the last straw!
What's wrong with you?

I thought we would sit together

and enjoy a nice meal. In a relaxed manner.

I come here from Heidelberg.

From Heidelberg, imagine this.

I'm right in the middle of my

exams and you act like this. Really...

Will you accompany me?

Thank you! Thanks, R�diger. Well done!

So, it's my fault again.

No way, Sandra.

I'm not willing to be blamed for this!

No, you're not willing
to be blamed for this.

You don't have to, you know?

You don't have to any longer, R�diger.

Come on. Let's talk calmly.

You may still love me.

But too much has broken for me.

I don't love you anymore.

And that's why I decided to file a divorce.

Right now, when Billy needs his father?

Now?! Billy needs his father now?

You know, he needed a
father when he was little.

During his first soccer match or

when he was in the hospital
having scarlet fever.

And you think this would have changed

the fact that your son is gay?

You should rather catch up on this!

And what about Denise and Claudia?

You have two more children!

Have you forgotten about them?

Sandra,

don't you agree that this
is all a bit overhasty?

No, it's not. That's my decision.

I want the divorce.

Great.

That's what I call a
harmonic family dinner.

The only question is who is eaten by whom!

What does he think who he is?

Well Sandra, don't be upset...

I am.

You raised three children!

Alone.

Three great kids. So what?

Yeah, alone. That's the point.

Do you want to do the dishes now?

Leave it! We've got wonderful weather.

Let's enjoy the sun a bit.

Your opulent dinner also needs

to cool down before you can freeze it.

You're right.

Well, look who's coming.

Mr. Severin graces us with his presence!

Hello Flo.

So? How was it?

Well, it was actually alright.

We did a lot of things together.

The return trip, however, was exhausting.

By the way,

Billy tried to call you at your cell phone.

You probably left it here
by accident, didn't you?

No, I forgot about it in all
this hectic rush with Nora.

What did you tell him?

Well... I told him that you
spent the time with Felix.

Are you nuts?

Just kidding. Of course I didn't.

I told him that you left it here.

Oh gee.

Yes, hello?

Yeah, hello. Hey Billy.

Yeah, sorry, I've just returned.

Seems I had left the cell phone here.

It's all been quite stressful.

Sure, we can do that.

No, there's nothing wrong.

No, really. But I'm a bit exhausted.

Yes, I see.

Yes, it would be better if we
could talk later. Alright?

Yes, I love you, too. Bye!

"I know, there's a lot
that you see differently."

"But it was great that you were here."

It needs to be on first.

You're crazy.

Oh, it's damned cold.

Don't be such a baby.

And, what are we doing now?

I've been here before with Nora.

When we had problems we came here

and talked about everything.

And when I need time alone, I come here.

I think it's gorgeous.

You really suck.

It's damned cold.

Blame yourself.

She was so boring today.

I will not bear this any longer, Patty.

I need vacations.

Yeah, me too. Well, did
you notice Billy today?

That was really stupid.

Well, sometimes I think that

he doesn't have a clue at all anymore.

He's not really there somehow.

But right now, he's totally tingly.

I think he's doing quite
well, it goes well I guess.

Hun... Well, whatever.

So, wanna go out today? Shopping?

Again? I don't have any bucks!

That's not a problem.

I mean we could simply eat ice cream.

And we need to watch some men.

Say, did you notice the issue with Sibylle?

What was it?

She really went to Mrs. Winter,
totally upset and said:

"Why do I get such a bad note?

You know that I am constantly
distracted by the others.

I am totally annoyed that
You don't considerate it."

Mrs. Winter:

"Please stop talking like
this, this is an impudence."

Sibylle was really upset.

You're kidding.

No, I'm not.

And did you see her fatty ass?

She puts her bombastic bottom into the most

horrible clothes so that you
can really see everything.

Well, you know her. She won't ever change.

Anyway, she was only embarrassing
and made a fool of herself.

Tomorrow, we'll go... I don't know when...

But not too early. I wanna go out tonight.

Well, 2pm...

See you tomorrow?

Will you come?

Yes, I'll come.

Meeting as usual.

Alright.

Alright. See you.

Bye.

Well.

Wanna talk on the phone later?

Maybe we could do something later?

Shall we go?

Hey, we'll leave now. See you tomorrow.

Bye.

See you.

Bye.

No, I'm not sure.

My mom's friend is visiting.

I probably need to baby-sit Charly.

Ciao.

Ciao.

Alright. We'll see. Alright, I have to go.

Alright. Until later.

Bye.

Bye.

Let's go, too.

I don't know. I'm not sure.

I'd like to go to Nick and talk to him.

Because, I don't know.

I don't want to wait for the weekend.

But look, Billy.

It's the first time you two are in love.

The big one. You want
to do everything right.

And your expectations might be too high,

your demands may be too high.

You should probably take
things more slowly.

Hun? Or what do you think?

I think you're right.

Take care that you leave
before your mom comes

and makes you do the dishes.
I'll talk to her.

Alright, Eva. Thank you.

Bye. Take care.

Bye, Eva.

Ciao.

What's this? Has he gone now?

And he didn't finish the meal, like always.

Don't be angry, Sandra.

I totally forgot that I had to
get something from city center

so I asked Billy if he could do it for me.

Alright, but Eva,

if you're supporting him all the time,

he won't ever find his feet.

Sandra, you know this.

We were young once, too.

Leave them on their own.

You know that teenagers are the most

difficult people that exist.

Yeah, you're right.

You know this.

Yes, alright.

And someone needs to be on his side.

You're always the person who tells him off.

Well, we will bring him
up together, won't we?

Sure, we'll make it somehow.

Alright.

Alright.

Well.

Shall we go now?

We wanted to... And we need to get changed.

Well, then let's do it.

Alright.

Let's go.

You're gonna make it.

I'm not gone for always.

And maybe I won't like it.

Plus, I will come visit you soon.

Yes, it's okay.

So, you really don't want to come

to the airport and say "hi" to Mom?

Well, I'm not sure.

Well.

You should leave now.

Yes.

You shouldn't miss your flight.

See you soon.

Alright, let's go.

We really need to go now... Come on.

Bye.

Bye.

Bye.

Come on. Let's go home.

Nora, hurry up.

Your flight has already been called.

I'm right here.

I want to say bye to you.

Take care, kid. I'll miss you.

Have a lot of fun and

call me when you have arrived.

I'll do. Promised.

Gee.

I'm gonna miss you,

you know that, don't you?

I'll miss you too.

Bye.

Give me a hug. Bye.

Bye.

Come on.

"Hello, Bro. Well, time has come now."

"I'll go to England and you stay here."

"But don't be sad! I'll
be always there for you."

Nick? Nick? You have a visitor.

Yeah, I'll be right there.

Alright.

"Best wishes, yours Felix."

"Alright... your big sister, Nora."

Rock, paper, scissors!

Hun, I don't wanna play anymore.

What's the matter?

Shall I play alone or what?

I need to go home now anyway.

What, already now?

Yes.

Hey you two. I need to go.

My mom's already waiting for me.

Now?

Yes. Take care.

Bye.

So, you're leaving, too?

Ain't love beautiful?

What's up?

Nothing. I'm having a headache.

And it might be better
for me to stop playing.

Yeah right, a headache?

Yes, it's not a sore throat.

Say, who gave you this pendant by the way?

Well, that's an old story.

I haven't worn him for a while.

I just found it the other day.

I'm nevertheless interested

in knowing who gave it to you.

That doesn't matter at all.

It was back in the past.

But I am interested in your past.

Do I need to tell you every single bit?

These are non-issues.

So, you think your past is a non-issue?

Come on, Billy. I'll tell
you another time, alright?

Anyway, I have to go.

My mom is waiting for me.

Eh, and regarding the weekend...

I don't know if I will have time.

What a pity.

Well, I'd be happy if we could meet!

Yes, alright. Let's talk on the phone then.

Alright.

Yes?

Yes.

Take care.

Alright.

Hello Billy. Hey?

Hello. What are you doing here?

Well. I wanted to surprise you.

First I was at your mother's and

she told me you were here.

I just came here.

And, it seems as if it
was really a surprise.

Yes, but you know that
I don't have any time.

Yes. But I simply wanted to see you

and spend the night with you?

Well, then come in.

Have a seat there.

Hey Billy, are you okay?

I feel like something's wrong?

I see the fight with Nick
right in front of my eyes.

It feels as if it was happening right now.

It was the first time in my life

that it felt as if my heart

was being ripped out of my body.

As if a part of me would die. Forevermore.

What hurts the most were
these maddening lies.

Although I already know
that he was at Whitsun

not with his buddy but with Felix

and that he made out with him.

Nick denies it to the last end.

That hurts more than the
fact he cheated on me.

I felt lost. Left alone.

How can a human being be like this?

It was only when Nick knew that I had read.

Felix' letter that he finally realized

that no lie would be of any help.

But even then, he didn't want to admit.

For a single second, I felt pity for him,

as I had the feeling that he only

wanted to repress it for himself.

That he was embarrassed and

was actually hoping that it never happened.

But it happened.

And it's nothing that you could change now.

Billy. I can't bear it.

I didn't do all this on purpose.

Hallo, this is Kathrin Scherer.

Hey Billy. Finally! Gee,

I tried to reach you all the time,

where are you?

We wanted to go to the Love Parade?

Yes, sure. Where shall we meet?

Your favorite place, right?

Alright. See you.

Billy, after all this bullshit
recently and yesterday,

the Love Parade would be perfect.

Don't you agree?

Many happy, funny people.

All crazy. Jan, Melle and me.

Gosh, Kathrin, I dunno.

And I even don't have a dress.

You're always looking great.

You're always sweet,

no matter what you're wearing.

Oh no.

Come on. Please, please, please, please.

I'm gonna call Jan now,

change clothes quickly and then we'll go.

Okay? Please. Say yes, will you?

Alright.

Yes?

Alright, as an exception.

Thank you.

But please don't tell me that

you want to change your clothes?

Sure, I do.

But that will take hours.

Yes.

And? What did she say?

Well, she said that she's with Billy.

And that she'll change her clothes

and they will come then.

Billy, you were doing better.

Let's go. Alright?

I mean you're right.

But I have the feeling that
he's doing it on purpose.

I mean each time when I want to do

something at the weekend,

like the Love Parade today.

Billy, I know, that it sucks now.

But it'll be better! Hey, look.

I've been waiting for,

I don't know how many years for my

super, super dream beau.

You just need to really believe in it

and it will become true. Alright?

Yes, but it makes me sick, you know.

Every time when I feel bad I have

the impression everyone else is doing fine

and having nice relationships. And then

when I feel better it's
just the other way round.

Billy, I feel the same way.

I get the impression that
everybody around me is in love

and always they come to me to
tell me: "Aw, he is so cute!"

And when I am in love,

these are the first one
who are mean to you.

But better than the other way round.

You know what,

maybe we should go to the monastery.

I am totally annoyed by this blabla:

"Oh, Honey, kiss here, kiss there!"

That sucks.

I don't want to be mean,

but since you were with Nick,

we didn't meet often and I love you

and I would like to see you more often.

I am afraid of losing you as a friend

and that we don't see us anymore.

Well, I'm sorry for that.

But I mean, all of this is toast now.

Billy, please stop drooping.

We'll go there now, and Jan and the others

are waiting for us to really party.

And now silence!

By the way, I've got a surprise for you.

What is it?

His name is Manuel and

he's kind of a friend of my family.

Is he gay?

Yes,

I got to know only at my
aunt's party last week.

He confessed to me.

I think he's never been in a relationship

but he's really nice and sweet.

It is time for you to go out again.

There are a lot of cute
guys, not only Nick.

You two fought a lot the last months.

That was totally annoying.

It is time for something new.

You know what,

we go out and party all night long,

that would be great.

Ok? Come on now, and no discussion!

Gee, Kathrin, hurry up a bit.

Oh, look. Hello, Billy?

Gee, I want to go to the CD area. Hurry up.

How are you?

No, stop it. Kathrin,
we don't have any time.

Or maybe a zebra? Hello, I'm a zebra.

Oh. Look. Moo. Hello Billy.
Don't look so angry.

Kathrin, we need to go!

Or may a tiger? Meow.

Yeah, right. Meow.

Wait. What?

She wants to know where you've
been at the Love Parade,

once you had disappeared. I'm
kind of interested, too.

Not at all.

So? Will you tell her? Where've you been?

Why?

I tried to reach you on
the phone for five hours.

You had disappeared.

You had disappeared.

No, you.

Where have you been?

I tried to find you.

Tell me know where you've been!

I took care of Manuel.

Took care? I see. And?

Err, yes. We really need to hurry up,

I want to listen to some CDs.

Are you kidding. Stop walking.

You will tell me now what happened.

No, I won't. I want to
take a look at some CDs.

What happened?

Nothing.

You're lying. What happened?

Gee, nothing happened.

I want to watch some CDs.

No watching CDs now.

It's a CD shop, so we
will have a look at CDs.

Damned, you will tell me now what happened!

Gee.

You got along well?

Yeah, well, we had...

Yes?

We had sex.

It's your fault.

You introduced us to each other.

You had sex with Manuel?

Could you please stop shouting?

You had sex with Manuel!
I don't believe it!

You're stupid. I'm gonna
look at the CDs now.

So, what was it like?

Gee. What stupid question is that, Kathrin?

I'm completely confused.
I don't know what to do.

Having in mind this fucking issue with Nick

at the weekend--
But I'm sure that I love him.

Nick?

And we've already talked on the phone. Yes.

We'll meet each other today.

And what about Manuel?

Will you meet him again?

I don't think so. I don't
really feel like it.

I know that sucks. But it wasn't planned.

Oh gee, I don't wanna talk about it.

I'm gonna listen to some CDs.

Wait, I'm not done yet.

Hello?

You're stupid. Really.

Hey, guys.

Yes, sure, we'll do it right now.
If only I liked it myself.

Awesome.

Hey, you winners.

Hey.

You've played quite well for a change.

We won.

You know what? Not only you are great.

We are even more great.
Guess what we planned.

We're gonna have a party tonight at my home

and she'll prepare a mousse
au chocolat ala Mello.

Party. Awesome.

I don't have time.

Hahaha.

What, "hahaha"? I have a date.

With whom?

Well, guess who.

Would you please stop now?

Yes, I have a date with Nick.

Did he call?

No, I called him.

Don't be silly.

We can do something together tomorrow.

Tomorrow, we won't feel like it.

Maybe he can join us?

No, the date will be at his home;

Flo and Michelle will be there, too.

It's not my fault that
he didn't invite you.

Alright, let's go.

You are bad. Again and again, really!

Yeah, really mean.

Come one, girls, let's go...

Do you want to eat something?

You're such a bitch today.

What was that?

Billy, stay here.

Leave me alone please.

Stop pretending in front of your friends

that everything's fine, God damn it.

Are you kidding? I'm just fed up with you.

Yes? Then piss off.

Alright, then I'll leave.

No, you won't.

Out of my very own room.

You won't leave now. Piss off.

Open that door.

You cannot always leave
when you feel like.

That's not right.

Are you nuts, or what?

Where do you go?

I'm leaving.

Nick, please don't go.

Isn't it sad enough that

I'm run off from my very own room?

It all, it doesn't make sense anymore.

How do you know?

Well, I dunno know. I just know it.

No, you don't. You cannot know.

Don't tell me anything about my world.

You don't have a clue. Look at me.

Can't you see how you're destroying me?

You're destroying everything!

Why are you saying this?

Nick, why are you saying this?

Because it's true.

The one who should open the eyes is you.

And how about Felix?

Oh, alright.

Nick. Nick, please don't leave.

What do you want me to say? Damn.

You don't want me to leave my own room?

Do you want me to tell you
that I had sex with him?

Gee, Nick, I wanna know everything.

I feel like I don't know anything.

You wanna know everything?

Really everything?

Yes.

You can't want to know all this shit.

Yes, I fucking do. I wanna know it!

Because I want to help
and because I love you.

Gee, do I have a fucking sign

at my back that says "Rescue me"?

No.

Do you think I want this?

Stop playing me for a sucker.

I won't let you. Alright?!

If you don't love me anymore,

please, then tell me right into my face

that you don't love me anymore.

I don't love you!

Nick.

Do you think it might be a good idea

if the two of you talked to each other?

How long do you want to continue like this?

Weeks without meetings?

Just because you don't
want to get on his nerves?

If he doesn't want to, I
won't be able to change it.

But then you'll never know where you stand.

It's like that.

Yes, you have to accept. What a crap.

I don't think he doesn't care.

Hey, can we please talk
about something else?

What are we going to do tonight?

I just don't wanna talk about it. Alright?

Hun, well. We wanted to go the Matrix.

You wanted to.

Yes, with you. And some hours ago,

I called Flo and he said
that he'll be there,

too, and he'll bring along
all of his friends.

Oh, come one, Kathrin.

You very well know what that means.

So what, then he'll be there, too.

But somehow, first I thought well...

maybe I won't tell you.

But then I thought that
this would suck either.

And that you probably won't
feel like going there...

I don't.

On the other hand,

I thought that this might
be a good opportunity.

What can we lose? He is either
really stupid and then we can think:

"Hey, now we see again how
stupid he is and we'll party."

Or he's nice to you and you can talk.

I don't know.

Please.

Please.

But if it sucks, I'll just leave, alright?

And you will accompany me?

Sure. Promised.

But I also promise you that it won't suck.

Party!

Alright.

To the fact that we will
finally be dancing again.

Will you stop now?

Are you mad?

Are you off your head?

Stop being like that and don't diss me.

As said before, from now
on I will defend myself.

Defend? Fuck, are we at war?

Yes, we are.

Billy, I don't love you anymore!

And you can say this that easily?

Yes, I can! After all that happened, I can.

Congratulations, Nick.

Me? You are such a world champion when

it comes to reproaches and hurting me.

Gee, for you it feels like hell to be gay.

I mean, you cannot cope with taking

responsibility for yourself
and for your life.

I don't need to listen to this.

Who always had a whinge?

All the time. During the last few months,

nothing looked bright.

Yeah, because you had given
up on us long before.

But at least I was there for you.

Stop!

What?

And what about the other night?

When you fucked me?

You said you loved me.

Yes, because you desperately
wanted to hear that.

I asked you three times.

I asked you if you really wanted it

and if you loved me.

Exactly, don't you get it?

Three time, you had to ask three times...

Gosh, Billy, you wouldn't have stopped.

It was just sex!

Just sex?

Have you seen Billy anywhere?

No. No.

Not at all?

No.

Flo, have you seen Billy?

No. He went outside together with Nick...

Where, fuck?

I've been looking for him for any hour now

and I start getting worried.

To the car.

Kathi!

Stay here.

No!

I can't just forget, I can't let go.

I don't recognize myself.

I've changed so much.

Sometimes, sometimes,

I'm even afraid of myself.

More than three months have passed

since the last time we saw each other.

Three fucking long months.

I don't know if I should hate or love you.

Maybe both.

I miss you so much.

"It's too late. I simply ask you..."

"Understand it."

"And please, please, leave me alone."

"Your life will continue without me!"

Nick, would you open the door?

Niiiiick!

Hello Flo, is Nick at home?

Nope, I think he's not here.

Flo, please.

I really need to talk to him. It's urgent.

Billy, I think, even if he was at home,

he wouldn't want to talk to you.

Flo, please, let me in. Please.

No, Billy, I can't. Really, I can't.

Could you then please let him know

that he needs to call me?

Yeah, I'll do.

Alright.

Take care.

Nick?

Cheers.

To all of us.

Melle.

To all of you.

Look, who's there.

Hello.

Look.

Hey, so how is it going?

Great.

Yes, awesome.

See you.

Hopefully not.

They all suck.

Look at them.

How can you spend time
with such sick people?

Who cares. Who needs them?

We have us.

To the fact that we don't need them.

Yes.

Right.

What happened?

Where's he going?

So, what what's the matter?

Oh no, it's because of Nick.

- Gee, can't he forget about him?
- Look at him.

Well, I thought you don't
go out anymore gay?

Well, that's what I thought about you, too!

I told you to leave me along.

Are you nuts now?

You do very well know what I mean!

Stop sending me text messages and letters,

I throw them away anyway.

Are you trying to threaten me?

Are you crazy?

Asshole!

Leave me alone. Lost your mind, or what?

Hey, hey.

Lost my mind?

Shall I smash you?

Come one, let's go outside, I'll smash you.

No, you won't. You won't touch him, got it?

Yeah, right. Get out of my way, will ya?

You definitely won't tell me where to go.

Get out of my way.

Don't touch Kathrin.

What! I do whatever I want, alright?

She's my friend. Did you
get this, God damn?

Piss off Nick.

Leave my friend alone. Fuck.

I'll smash this bitch.

You won't smash me. Leave me alone.

Gee, are you nuts now, or what?

Leave him go, Billy.

Gee, stop it.

I try to forget.

You and those bad moments that

in the end predominated. But I can't.

Those good memories keep returning

again and again. At any moment.

I want to get out of here.

Don't want to see anything anymore.

It's still painful. Even today.

I see us arm in arm.

And see us merging again and again.

I try to turn off the light.

Not to think anymore. To just sleep.

But mind and feelings don't need any light.

You can still hurt me. That has to stop.

Billy!

[Four months later.]

Hey. Have you actually listened to me?

Sure, I'm always listening to you, Kathrin.

Yes, sure.

What did you think of?

Well, nothing in particular.

You thought of Nick, didn't you?

Nope.

Well, maybe a little bit.

Not again!

Listen.

I know that the last months
have not been too easy for you.

But I also know that you
have almost made it.

And do you actually know how good it is

to see you finally laughing
again after all this time?

Yes, I know, you're right. But...

I still have to think of
him from time to time.

You know that... It's not that easy.

But yes, it's true what you're saying.

I'm so glad that I have you, Kathrin.

And I'm so glad that I have you.

And remember my words.

You only are together with someone

to be happy with him.

If you are unhappy with
him, it really sucks.

Are you nuts.

Wait.

Watch out. I'll catch you. Come on.

Thanks.

Alright, it's okay.

Maybe it's a bit of your own fault?

My name is Hendrik, by the way.

If anyone wanted to know.

Billy.

Hello.

Kathrin.

Hey.

Hey.