All language subtitles for The Republic Of Sarah 107

Previously on
The Republic of Sarah...

We have an opportunity
to build something great.

In order to do that, we do need

more voices in the room
than just mine.

Greylock's new legislators are

Amy Johnson,
Daniel Cooper,

Maya Jiménez
and Elizabeth Fernsby.

[whoops]

Why didn't you tell Sarah
you're getting married?Well, I thought you would.

You're her best friend.Yeah, you're her brother.

And it's your engagement, which,
you know, congratulations,

by the way.
Maybe this time

you'll actually
go through with it.

I know why you had
to leave Greylock.

Why did you leave me?

I wish I could explain.

But I can't.You mean you won't.

♪

How long is Weston
in South Carolina?

A week.
He's covering an election there.

Oh, is he coming back
or can I return

my noise-cancelling headphones?

No. We aren't that loud, are we?

It was a couple times
I thought God

was gonna actually answer you.

I'm so sorry.
[laughs]

But yes, he's coming back.

Lucky me.

SARAH:
Today's a big day.

Today we start writing
our constitution.

Together,
me as Greylock's leader,

you as its congress,
we will establish the blueprint

of our new country's government.

A constitution is forever.

But I know if we work
together, we can create

something that all of
Greylock will be proud of.

and we can show the world

that real democracy
is alive and well.

♪

There should be no term limits

for any part of our government.What?

LIZ: Experienced leadership
is valuable.

AJ: No term limits
is how you get

a country ran by dinosaurs.

Yeah, just like America is now.

Guys, please, can we...Greylock should have

four branches of government and
dedicate one to the economy.AJ: Oh, here we go.

Are you insane?The economy's important.

Relax....who can protect Greylock's
economic interests.

Okay, look, if we can just...AJ: If he gets that, I want an

independent branch
for law enforcement.

Police should be separate
from politics.

Otherwise, you get a system...Cops need oversight.

...where autocrat wannabes
can install kiss-ass judges

to neuter the rule of law.That feels...

Calm down. Please.
Can we just take a moment...

...that teenagers are allowed to
vote and work in the government.

No way.We're gonna inherit this
country when you all croak.

Shouldn't we have some say
in how it's run?

You need to let it go.She has a point.

I won't let it go. If
we're gonna get this right,

we have to get it right.We have to compromise.

[overlapping chatter][knocking on door]

Guys, guys... What?

SARAH: Hi, Vince.Sorry to interrupt,

It's okay.There's a Caravan
of immigrants outside.

A caravan of immigrants?

Yeah.How many are there?

Uh, I don't know.

A Caravan seats, what,
like, seven?

Oh.

I thought...

Yeah, we all did.Yeah.

Greylock PD said you all
came up from Pennsylvania?

Whoa, you're Sarah Cooper.

I feel like I'm
meeting a celebrity.

Oh, no, the only celebrity
around here

is Pixie the dancing pit bull.

Kayleigh. Yeah.Hi, nice to meet you.

This is, uh, this is
Greylock's new congress.

We wanted to come say hello.

Hi, there. So, uh,
you're all from the same place?

Radford, southwest corner
of the state.

There's about 30 of us.

Everyone's at that diner.

But my little one forgot
his hoodie, of course.

You're a long way from home.

Well, it's not home anymore.

Not after Diotyne
showed up a year ago.

What was supposed
to happen to Greylock

actually did happen in Radford.

Except it was fracking
and not coltan.

I remember reading about that.
They flattened the town.

Yeah, and a few months ago,
a couple of us saw your story

and we thought,

"Why not move
to Greylock?"

When we showed up
at the border this morning,

we asked them
if we could immigrate.

They looked a little confused

and said
that they would call you.

Greylock was always a welcoming
place when we were just a town.

No reason we should
be any different

now that we're a country.

Thank you, Sarah.

It doesn't matter
if they're nice.

We can't have open
borders, Sarah.

Because you don't
like immigrants?

My mother was an
immigrant, Maya.

I like immigrants just fine.

But we don't have the space.

Right now, it's
a few families,

but what happens if a hundred
show up, or a thousand?

Our constitution has
to set a precedent

for Greylock
for the next 500 years.

We can't let

some incident from today
affect how we write it.

DANNY:We don't know who
these people are.

Businesses run background
checks before they hire you.

Shouldn't our country
at least do the same?

New people means new energy
and new ideas for a community.

Also means new problems.Okay. I'm gonna

pull our zoning maps
and show you

that we have plenty of space
for new families.

AJ can run background checks

on our friends
from Pennsylvania,

as well as anybody
else who shows up.

Greylock was nearly wiped
off the map five months ago,

and then it would've been us
who were the immigrants.

We should be just as eager
to give out a second chance

as we were to get one.

[birds squawking]

[children shouting in distance]

Hi, Princess.

What are you doing here?

Can't a father come visit
his daughter?

Where the hell have you been?

I've been around.Around?

Do they have phones in around?
What about Wi-Fi?

I should've called, I know.
I-I just...

I haven't seen or heard
from you in 18 years.

Why come back now?

I saw Greylock on TV
with the drilling and Lydon.

And then, there
you were--

my little girl, all grown up.

I'm not...
I'm not your little girl.

Seeing you

made me realize
I needed to make things right

with you and your brother.

That's why I'm here.

I-I just thought
maybe we could talk.

I don't want
to talk to you.

Not now.

Not ever.

Sarah?

[door opens, closes]

[bell dings]

Do you have a
phone charger?

My phone died during
the meeting this morning.

Yeah. Counter, my backpack.

All right, thanks.

[overlapping chatter]

Are these your photos?

I, um...Yeah.

I didn't know
you were into photography.

I'm not.Dude, these are really good, Ty.

I've never see Greylock look
like this before.

I should honestly put these up.Could you put those back?

Please?

Yeah.Thanks.

[indistinct chatter]

It's two-for-one
donuts tonight.

You want my extra?

It's blueberry.

It's my favorite. [sighs]

Yeah, I know.

Um, so, uh, how's-how's the...

constitution thing?

Turns out democracy is
a little harder than it looks.

Since when
do you teach accounting?I got this

delinquency notice from a bank
that I don't even recognize

that I guess has to do
with my student loans.

Want me to take a look?No, no, no. No.

I've got plenty of time
to wade through the fine print,

'cause Adam and Josh are
in Boston

for a Cub Scout retreat,
so I...

Corinne, I'm a lawyer.

I eat fine print
for breakfast. I insist.

Yeah?
Yeah.

Thank you, Danny.

DANNY:
You're welcome.

CORINNE:
This isn't too much?

DANNY:
No.

[laughter]

Sorry I'm late, Ty.
The battery died.

No problem.
It's been pretty light.

Dead battery, huh?

Yeah.

You know
I know where you really were.

And I know you know
I don't want to talk about it.

You don't have to lie about
going to therapy, Grover.

It's nothing to be ashamed of.

You know, it's-it's been
three sessions,

and I've barely said a word.

But I open my mouth,
and nothing...

nothing comes out.

Have you thought about
maybe finding somebody else?

No way.
Edna's the only Black therapist

for a hundred miles.

Besides, she's not the problem.

I am.

Maybe therapy just isn't for me.

It's hard, but
it's worth it.

And you're worth it.

SARAH:
And as far as I can tell,

Greylock has more
than enough space

for whatever or whoever
comes our way, so Liz can relax.

I don't know

what you're getting
so worked up about.

Between me, you and Maya,
we have all the votes we need

to outvote her
and your brother on immigration.

No. We're trying
to build a real democracy.

We can't just steamroll people
who disagree with us.

We have to change their minds.

These maps should help
answer Liz's concerns.

Um, how is it going
on the background checks

for Kayleigh and the rest
of our new arrivals?

Mm. In progress.

Okay, can you do me a favor

and add Paul Preston Cooper
to your list?

Why would I do that?

Because he's here.

Your father's in Greylock?

Since this morning.

Is he here for good?

I don't know, and I don't care,
but, um, we told Liz and Danny

we would look into anyone
who had the intention

of staying in Greylock for
longer than a vacation, so...

Okay. I'll
check into him.

Yeah. Um, make it thorough.

If you can find any reason

to justify kicking him out
of Greylock, I'm all ears.

You got it.

[birds singing]

[wind whistling]

I missed you, Danny.

You know, Danny, I...
I don't need all this.

I can stay in a hotel
until I find a place.

The hotel's full of immigrants
from Pennsylvania. Don't ask.

This place is empty. Seems
like a waste not to use it.

Just gonna turn the heat on.

Oh.

I remember buying that couch.

Your old trunks are probably
still in the basement.

Well, would have thought

she'd gotten rid
of every trace of me.

Please.
Never saw her do anything

that required
putting down her drink.

Yeah, caught her interview
on the news a few months back.

Three DUIs?

I had no idea her
drinking got so bad.

"Bad" is an understatement.

Hey, Dad?

All this time,
where'd you go?

Well... [exhales]
Wherever work sent me, you know?

You didn't think to maybe...

stop by once or twice?

I-I... I-I wanted to, Danny.

I just...
It was better that I didn't.

Because of Mom.

Because of me.

I would've done
more harm than good.

I-I just really wasn't
father material back then.

But you are now?

I'd like to be.

♪ It's a cold day in...

Oh. Thank you, Groves.

♪ And I'm wishing that...

What the hell is going on
with you and Danny?

What?

♪ It's a cold...

What do you mean?I mean the smiles,

the long stares,
the wistful eye contact.[chuckles]

It's like I'm watching
a-a teenage rom-com,

the way you two are
looking at each other.No. We're not...

You're playing with fire.

Grover...Look,

I understand
the power of first love.

Okay? There's a connection
that doesn't fade

no matter how
many years go by,

and it's obvious you and Danny
still have that connection.

And that's okay.

You can't control how you feel.

But you can control how you act.

And right now,
you're acting

like someone who's
looking for trouble.

I'm not saying
this to be a dick.

I'm saying this because
I am your friend.

Stay away from Danny.

That road only leads
to bad places.

You know that.

♪ It's a cold day in hell.

Danny! You let him
stay in Mom's house?

It's his house, too.

Oh, is it?

Does he... Does he
pay the mortgage?

What about the
property taxes?What do you want me to do,

send him a bill?
He needs a place to stay.

How can you...
how can you treat him

like dear old Dad

after what he did?
Don't you want to know

where he was?

Don't you think it's weird
that he's suddenly back

after all this time?Of course I do.

But, unlike you, I'm willing

to actually let him answer
those questions

instead of giving him
the silent treatment.

You know what happens if
you ignore him, Sarah?

Nothing. Just more silence.

Look,

he was our dad once. I'd like to
see if maybe he could be again.

It took me years

to climb out of the crater
that he left behind.

He hurt me, too.

Have dinner with him.

What's the worst
that could happen?

["Hang Up the Spurs"
by Cinemechanica playing]

Hey.

Somebody submitted two of my
photos to the Greylock art show.

Tyler...I told you

I didn't want
anything to do with this.

Hey, I know. I-It's just
with Bella being gone

and me being so busy,
you've been

kind of down lately.
Thought it might, I don't know,

get you more hyped if people
actually saw your work.

"Mr. Easterbrook, your work is
both trivial and pretentious.

"The photos you captured
were amateurish

and poorly composed.
We, the Greylock Arts Council,"

on our highty,
hoity-toity horses,

think that your work
is not good enough.

Screw you.
Go back to where you came from.

Hey, I was
just trying to help.

I thought
you needed a boost.

What I need
are friends I can trust.

♪ What went wrong, here we go,
time to fight ♪

♪ Now this dark horse
is riding. ♪

You don't got to walk me home
from work, Grover.

If a bear comes,
I'll just fight his ass.

It's all good.

My hotel is the
same direction.

Besides, if you're
gonna fight a bear,

I definitely want to watch.

I guess your sour
mood has to do

with your little throwdown
with Maya earlier.

She had no right
to go behind my back like that.

You're right.

And if that were the only
reason why you were upset,

I'd be on your side.

That's not why you were mad,
right? Not entirely, anyway.

You were mad at the results.Yeah. Those judges

tore me apart.Look,

the Greylock Council
for the Arts

is old and white
and stuck in their ways.

They look at Basquiat
and think that it's graffiti.

Screw their art show.

If you want to show your
photos, do it yourself.

Don't worry what other people
think about your work.

Focus on what you
think about it.

Cool?

So, I've been sending my
cash to the wrong place?

For three months now.

Which is why the new bank tried
to nail you with late fees.

[sighs]

Wait, "tried?"

Yeah, I spouted
a bunch of legalese at them

about failing to notify you

of the loan transfer
and they backed off.

Thank you so much, Danny.
This is so...

This is so helpful.You're welcome.

You know, I assume
that you've been

living out of a
vending machine,

so I made you some cookies.

[clears throat]

Yeah.Oh, my God. Please tell me

this is the same recipe
from high school.

Brown butter chocolate chip,
a little burnt?

They're not burnt.
They're well-done.

Mmm.

You should bribe Sarah

with these. I mean...
[chuckles]

Might get her
to relax a little bit.Um,

her father left and
never looked back.

She was six years old
when he left.

And now he's trying
to worm his way

back into her life.She was too young

to really know him or understand

the whole story.No, if anyone should
relax, it's him.

Okay.

And what's the whole story?

My dad met my mom
almost 30 years ago

when he was
on a State Department assignment

in New Hampshire.

When she got pregnant
with me,

he settled down
because that's what people do,

but having kids is different
from being a parent.

My... My father wasn't built

for fatherhood.

Looking back, I realize

he was miserable in Greylock.

Guess I shouldn't have been
so surprised when he left.

But now that
he is here,

you're really just
gonna welcome him back,

no questions asked?

I have plenty of questions.

But I know my dad. He loves us.
And you don't walk away

from people you love
without a good reason.

I should go.

Thank you again so
much for the help.

♪ On the nights
we're on the sky ♪

♪ And I couldn't tell you
what... ♪

This might go better

if we could actually talk.

You can talk all you want.

I'm here because Danny asked me
to be here.

Yeah.

You know, I-I thought tonight,

we could...

[sighs] I-I would like to hear
about your life.

Uh, you left, I grew up,

I started a country,
now I'm here.

Your turn.

So far, the only
information I have

about the last 18 years
is that you were...

around.

It wasn't supposed to be
for that long.

At first, it was just a week.

Get my head on straight.

And then...

week became a month

became a year.Yeah, I know
how time works.

We covered that in first grade.

Not that you were here
to see it.

I wish I had been.Mm.

♪ 'Cause you are...

But my absence certainly hasn't
prevented you from becoming

a remarkable young woman.

♪ I still let you...

I needed a father,
not a college admissions essay.

And don't even
get me started

on what you leaving did to Mom.

You mother was strong. She...

She could roll with the punches.Yeah.

She could dole 'em out, too.

What's that supposed to mean?

You should ask Danny.

You know, Sarah,
you-you think

my leaving made me a bad father.

But truth is
I was a bad father before that.

Being a parent means
being selfless.

I wasn't.

I couldn't stop thinking

about the opportunities
I was missing,

the life I wasn't living.

You're saying we were a burden?

We were getting in the way?

I'm saying I was an idiot.So you've come back here

to prove
that you aren't anymore?

Come back to say
I'm sorry.

Down to my bones, I'm sorry.

[inhales shakily]

I'm sorry I left.

I'm sorry I didn't
stay in contact.

I-I'm sorry for me.

Made more mistakes in my
life than I can count.

I guess I just thought
it was about time

I started to try
and make some amends.

♪ You know I feel.

["Free Throw" by Rituals of Mine
feat. KRIS playing]

♪ I stay in my lane

♪ I stay
in my lane ♪

♪ So easy to say

♪ I got you undone

♪ Not turning away

♪ You hate that I've won

♪ But I always win.

[door opens]

Hey.

[door closes]Hey.

How'd it go
with your dad?

Oh.

I don't know.
I want to hate him.

I do hate him, but...

I don't know,
talking to him made him seem...

human.

Hi. Hi.

Hi, Fenway.

What's up with you?
You look like someone just died.I was running

background checks
on our new immigrants,

and I found two things.

First,

Kayleigh's mother--
she's traveling with them--

she was arrested
for civil disobedience

at a Vietnam protest
in 1968.

Okay, that's a...
that's a feature, not a bug.

And second...

It's your dad, Sarah.

Paul Cooper is wanted

by the U.S. government.

You lied to me. You
only came to Greylock

because you're wanted
by the U.S. government.

And since we don't have
any official diplomatic ties

to the U.S., that makes us
a non-extradition country,

which means
they can't arrest you

as long as you're here.Princess,

don't jump to conclusions.

I'm not your princess

or your safe haven

or your way out.

I didn't think
you could sink

any lower than you already were,

but congratulations.
You found a basement.

You don't want to hear
what I did?

Was it a hit-and-run?

You were always really great
at fleeing from responsibility.

I stole classified documents
from the State Department.

Published them
online.

The story was all over the news
a few months back.

The Capeero-326 Leaks.

I'm Capeero-326.

If you think...

[laughing]:
that I'm gonna believe...

That is so ridiculous!Ca-

Pee-Ro.

Castle. Peak. Rock.

3/26.

It's your birthday, Sarah.

My work with the Feds took me
all over the world.

During that time,
I saw a lot of bad behavior

at the State Department.

Kickbacks, payoffs,
that kind of thing.

But then one day last year,
the embassy in Kinshasa

that was built
by U.S. contractors collapses.

No earthquake, no bomb--
just poof, collapses.

Kills 16 people,

injures
another five dozen.

So I started digging around,
and I find out

there's this group
of officials at State

that have been accepting bribes

to look the other way

while contractors use
shoddy construction materials.

Third-world countries,
third-world casualties.

Nobody bats an eye.

I didn't even...

say anything.

Until I saw you on the news,

my little princess changing
the world, and I thought,

"Man, I got to do
the right thing,"

and-and so I published

the proof that I had,
and I disappeared.

There's, like,
a half a dozen people on Earth

that know that I'm Capeero-326,
and now you're one of them.

I'm putting my life
in your hands.

You decide
what you want to do.

Heck, I just wanted you
to believe for a minute

that maybe my life wasn't
a total waste.

♪ If we choose to...

[siren squawks]

I thought you had this time
blocked off for your sessions.

I'm not feeling it today.Well, they say
therapy is like

the gym-- the days
you don't feel like going

are probably the days
you need it most.

Yeah, maybe what's wrong with me
can't be fixed, okay?

Okay, get in the car.

Look, I'm not...
I'm not in the mood, okay?

Look, I'm not feeling
the pep talk today.

[over speaker]:
I said get in the car, Grover.

Don't make me use the siren.

[siren chirps, blares]

AJ, where are we?

What are we doing here?

Hey, Marcia.

Hey!How is he today?

Oh, you know him--
he's getting by.

All right. Well,
I got his peppermints.
Ooh.

And... I brought
his favorite flowers.

Oh, he loves those candies,
but you need to stop pretending

like those flowers
aren't just for you.

Okay, look, nobody else
is buying them for me--

I might as well
spoil myself, okay?[laughs]

AJ.

Come on.
I want you to meet someone.

Hi, Dad.

♪

He has what they
call primary

CNS vasculitis.

Uh, CNS?

Central Nervous System.

It's a bunch of strokes
all at one time.

He lost most of his
cognitive function...

his speech,

you know, fine
motor stuff, but...

...my dad's still
in there somewhere.

♪ Face me entirely

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh...

All right, come on.

Hey, AJ, why didn't you
tell any of us?

Because of the look on your
face when you saw him.

Hey, I'm-I'm sorry,
I didn't...Oh, it's okay, it's okay.

It's always a shock
the first time.

But I just want to
protect his dignity,

you know, not turn him
into a circus act.

[sighs] You know, every time
I come here, I just...

I think about all the things
my dad won't get to do.

All the life he
isn't living.

But you still have
choices, Grover.

Yeah, I'm choosing
not to go to therapy.

No, you're choosing to
not address your grief.

You're choosing to give up.

I brought you
here because

I was hoping that
by seeing him

and the life that he has
would kickstart you

into living the life
that you have left.

♪

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh...

[sighs]

DANNY:
If we don'’t start making
some decisions,

we're never gonna ratify
a constitution.

We can't rush the process.

It took 116 days to write
the American Constitution.

Yeah, in an era when
it took two weeks

to get a loaf of bread--
the world moves faster now.

We have to move faster
with it.

Yeah, this document
is forever, Danny.

Doesn't mean it should take
that long to write it.

I think we need
a new strategy.

Looking at this thing
all at once is too overwhelming.

Let's break it
into smaller pieces

and ratify them
one by one.MAYA: I say we start

with citizenship
and immigration.

Well, the latest draft
of that section allows

for citizenship
after a basic background check

and a week-long
waiting period.

All in favor?

I knew you'd
come around.

Well, it's obviously no for me,
but it doesn't matter.

You seem to have the votes.

Rizzoli over here is
on your side.

[sighs]

I'm not so sure.

MAYA:Wait. What
do you mean?

AJ:
The basic background
checks are good.

But in some cases,

it really only leads
to more questions.

We need more time to
properly vet people.

LIZ:
That's two votes

for open borders,
two votes against.

Which means, Madam President,
you're the tiebreaker.

What's it
gonna be, sis?

SARAH:
The right decision is
so obvious.

Why can't I make it?

I vote yes on immigration,

the people from Pennsylvania
get to stay.

More importantly,
we set a precedent

for generations to come
that Greylock is a...

a welcoming place, that...

that new faces and new ideas
will always have a home here.

I vote no, none of that happens.

We close our border,
and a bunch of people

who deserve a second chance
don't get one.

I'm a terrible person.

You're not
a terrible person.

But your dad is.

That's what makes this
so hard.

If you vote no,
you can send him away

and never have
to see him again.

I didn't need, like...

homemade pancakes
and camping trips and...

You know.

Whatever dads do.
I don't even know.

[whispers]:
I just wanted him around.

Now he's here,

I just wish he would leave.

I wish he would leave.

I have to vote yes
on immigration.

Yep.

And that means this
guy who calls himself

my father can stay
in Greylock as long as he wants.

Yeah.

[sighs]

Can we stay down here
a little bit longer?

Oh, yeah.

Thank you.

♪

[sighs]

Hey, Danny.Hey, uh, let me
just grab my coat,

and then we can head over
for lunch.

I was, uh, talking to Sarah.

She mentioned something
about your mother,

about something bad
having happened

when you guys were kids.

What was she
talking about?

It's nothing.

Why don't you tell me?

What do you want to know?

She'd get drunk
and then she'd get mean,

and then she'd...

get...

You?

Should've been there
to protect you.

You're not the one who needs
to apologize for that, Dad.

Yeah, I am, and...

I will, even if
she never does.

When you were
a teenager,

was it all darkness?

Was there any light in there?Yeah,

there were...
there were happy times,

and, you know what, even...

even on the worst days,

I was never totally alone, so...

♪

SARAH:
Good morning, everyone.

I'm really proud to announce

that Greylock has ratified
its first constitution.

The council and I are really...

we're really proud
of the foundation we have laid

for our country's future.

But if the... if the process
of writing this document

has taught me anything,
it's this:

it's an imperfect process.

People make mistakes.

I know,
because I've made plenty,

and I'm sure I will make
plenty more. We all will.

So, before the council took
its final vote,

we added one last clause
to our constitution

to account for those mistakes,

to account for the fact
that we're human.

Every five years,

our constitution...

must be rewritten from scratch,

so that we aren't chained
to the mistakes of our past

or crushed
by the burden of perfection.

As Greylock's people grow
and evolve...

so will Greylock.

How are you
feeling today?

I know you're having
a hard time

opening up, Grover.

And that's okay.

Why don't I do
a little bit of talking,

and we'll see if that
inspires you to do the same?

So...

I'm Edna.

I was born and raised
in Roxbury, Massachusetts.

My mother was a seamstress,
my father was...

an ass.

[soft chuckle]

And I've been a therapist
for 40 years.

You're Grover Sims.

You're 25 years old.

You were raised
in Greylock, New Hampshire,

and you're here
because...

Uh...

Because your wife died.

It feels like there's an anvil
on your chest, doesn't it?

When my Henry passed,

I didn't leave the house
for a month.

You're a widow?[laughs]

Twice. [sighs]

Steven died in '97.

Heart attack in his sleep.

We should all be so lucky.

And Henry went just last year.

Pancreatic cancer.

Here one day,
gone the next.

When you lose...

someone you love...

...how... how do you, uh...?

Get up in
the morning?Yeah.

It's not easy.

You just have to remind yourself
that you're still breathing.

And then you have to
give yourself permission

to keep breathing.

That last one's
the tricky part.

I-I don't know how
it's been for you,

but for me,

it was never the grief
that got to me.

It was always, uh...The guilt.

You, uh... you feel guilty
for still being here after...

after they've gone.

And guilty for...
for moving on.

[sniffles]

Even thinking about moving on.

How long have you
felt that guilt?

Right from the start.

Right when
Patience first got sick.

Patience.

That's a lovely name.

Oh.

I remember when, um...
[sniffles]

...when the oncologist came

to give us the bad news...

...just pleading for the
universe to give us, uh...

more time.

Or just give me the cancer
instead.

Just make me sick, you know?

[sniffles]

[loud, overlapping chatter,
music playing]

SARAH:
Can't believe
Tyler did all this.

They're good, right?I'm so proud.

Oh, I know.

MAYA:It's your rejections
letter, huh?

This whole thing
is so dope.

Thanks.How did you find
all of these people?

Social media, mostly.

Uh, I just invited anyone

who got their art rejected
from the art show.

Told them
they could show it here.

[whooshing on TV]

So, uh, what do you think?

[growling]

I think it's accurate.

That we all become zombies?

[growling]

We all become
victims of our past.

You made the right choice
voting "yes" on immigration,

letting Dad stay.

I didn't do it for him.

You can't stay mad
at him forever, Sarah.

You should give him some time
to earn your trust back.

I will.

Really?

Yeah. He wants time,
he can have it.

18 years.

That's how long
I had to wait.

Why shouldn't he?

But until then, he can
stay the hell away from me.

MAYA:
Listen, dude,

I'm really sorry
about what I did.

I should have never submitted
your work without asking.

I'm sorry I blew up at you.

Why were you so nervous about
showing people your photos?

I mean, you ran my campaign, you
organized our border protest.

You're a total badass.

I don't get what's so scary

about showing a couple
of pictures.

With the campaign
and with those... protests,

you know,
I'm-I'm in the shadows.

I'm, like, the guy
behind the guy.

And with this, I just...

You're the guy.Mm-hmm.

I feel like
everyone's just always...

looking at me and judging me.

And with the photos,
at least until now,

I always had one thing
that I kept sacred.

[wind whistling,
crowd chatter]

Can I get some more?Yeah.

Thanks.

GROVER:Yeah, storm's getting
bad out there.

Yeah? Weather reports say
it's gonna be a real doozy.

They're comparing it
to the blizzard of '78.

This place
looks great, Ty.

Thanks.Mm-hmm.

Oh, sorry I'm late.
I had therapy,

and that snow slowed
me down on the way back.

It's not a problem.

Um, as long as you can
keep everybody drinking.

Got some cookies in the oven.
They might be burning.

Right.I saw that.

You saw what?

You being honest
about going to therapy.

[scoffs]

It's nothing to be
ashamed of, right?

Right.

You know, I, uh... I
never got to thank you

for letting me
meet your dad.
Mm.

And I'd like to come with you
next time you go and see him.

I mean, somebody's got to help
him eat all those peppermints.

[laughs]
Thanks, Grover.

Yeah. Yeah, I'd like that.

GROVER:All right, what else
you want to know?

♪ But you keep pulling me
back to the start ♪

[indistinct chatter]

♪ You led me on

♪ To think things were real...

♪

♪ I wonder if I know you

♪ At all

♪ Or if I really came
to talk ♪

♪ Nothing is as it seems Huh.

♪ In your mind...

Oh.

Danny.

What are... uh, what
are you doing here?

♪ That's the only way
to get inside... ♪

Cookies.

What?Brown butter

chocolate chip, slightly burnt.

Okay. Um...I went

to Sweetie Pie to find you,
and, um,

I overheard Grover say
that you came here

to return some decorations

from the art show.

Couch cushion forts
in the basement,

um, making out between innings
of Red Sox games.

Hooking up behind

the hay bales
at Stone Orchard.

Sneaking into movies
at the Foothill Four.

You-you helping me
with-with English.

You-you helping me

rehab my knee
after I tore my MCL.

You helping me...
pull glass out of my arm.

You...

holding frozen peas on my eye.

You... holding me.

You deserve to know

why I left.

The night I left Greylock,
I got into a fight with my mom.

The...

worst... we'd ever had.

She was, um...

She was slapping me
and-and calling me names.

And...

♪ To throw a fit...

And for the first time
in my life,

I raised my fist
to hit her back.

♪ And that's the end of it...

But before I could

take a swing,
I-I caught myself.

I-I saw...

my reflection in the window
over her shoulder.

I-I saw myself ready to hit her.

Ready to punch and kick and...

That's when I realized

that the violence that was
in my mom was also in me.

So, I-I...

I-I packed my bag
and left that night. I...

I never called
because I knew that if I did,

you'd convince me to let you
come with me, and I...

I couldn't let that happen.

I-I-I... I had to...
I had to protect you from me.

I'm sorry that I hurt you.

Just know
I only did it

to keep you safe, just like
you had always kept me safe.

♪ Oh, it's mine

♪ Oh, oh, oh

♪ Oh

♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh

♪ Oh, it's mine

♪ Oh, oh, oh

♪ Oh...

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