All language subtitles for Skin.Deep.2015.1080p.WEBRip.x264-RARBG2_English

(atmospheric orchestral music)

(waves crashing)

(atmospheric orchestral music)

(phone ringing)

- Hey.
- Hey, babe,

sorry about last night.

I got caught up, did you end up going?

- [Leah] No, I just had a quiet one.

- [Luke] Leah look, I can't take you

into Newtown this morning.

- [Leah] Oh, that's cool,
I'm sure my mum can take me.

- Is that alright?
- Yes.

I can put up with mum for one trip,

but do you think you
can come and pick me up?

- Yeah, yeah, yeah, of course.
- Thank you.

♪ Baby, you're always
trying to bring us down ♪

♪ Baby, you're always trying
but never succeeding ♪

- [Radio Host] Now we're
going to Sam Weiss.

Sam, thanks for waiting.

- [Sam] Thanks for having me.

- [Radio Host] Now Sam,
you're one of the organizers

of this Sydney leg of this protest.

What, what is it, help us out?

- [Sam] It's an International
Climate Change Rally

that's gonna be happening in over

100 cities across 26 nations.

- [Anna] Do you remember
those rallies I used

to take you to when
you were a little girl?

- [Leah] Mm-mm.

- Oh, yes you do.

Do you remember that one in Coffs Harbour?

So is Luke definitely picking you up?

- [Leah] Uh-Huh.

- [Anna] Well, if he's
not, I am perfectly happy

to wait for you.

Actually, I'd prefer it.

- He's picking me up Mum, it's fine.

- [Sam] Well, we're estimating over

a half million people
will be gathered today.

- [Radio Announcer] This is
just the cause for them to work.

Alright, um, now just quickly wrap it up,

Where, when, and how?

- [Sam] 6 p.m., Belmore Park.

6:30 we'll start speeches and
at 8:30 we'll head on off.

(atmospheric electronic music)

- [Nina] And how's the rest
of the routine going for you?

- Good.

Actually, really good.

- Well, it's good to hear.

What about side effects?

Any extra headaches?

- [Leah] No.

- Trouble sleeping?

- [Leah] No.

- Too much sleeping?

- Just the normal amount.

- Okay, what about depression?

Okay, cool.

That's it for today.

- [Leah] Thanks.

- [Nina] Is Luke picking you up?

- Yeah.

Sorry, shit, I must have
left my wallet at home,

but I can come back and get them tomorrow.

- Don't worry about it.

We'll see you next week.

Just bring it then, okay?

- Okay.

- [Nina] Did I give you instructions

on what order to take those in?

- Yes, it's in my bag.

Thank you.

- Mm, you're welcome, sweetheart.

Take care of yourself.

(dial tone ringing)

(phone ringing)

(atmospheric pop music)

- No, not this time.

- [Voicemail Operator] Is
not available right now.

Please leave a detailed message.

- Hey, don't think you can smoke here.

- Am I smoking?

- Did you call your mum?

- No.

- [Ben] Caitlin, how many
more times is it gonna happen?

- [Anne] Hey, Caitlin.

You forgot your bag.

- Oh, thank you.

- (laughs) You got rocks in there?

- Just the books I need for tonight.

- What are you studying?

- Don't forget to put
that oil on your stitches.

- You know, we can't hold you here,

but we can strongly advise that you stay.

- She knows.

- I've already filled out my paperwork.

I'm studying psychology, by the way.

- Hey, that's great, Caitlin.

- [Caitlin] Ironic is what it is.

- [Luke] Hey, it's me, leave a message.

(answering machine beeps)

- [Leah] Hey, it's me,

I'm

out, um, yeah,

call me.

(answering machine beeps)

Hey, um,

I can't see you.

Did I, did I get the place wrong?

- [Caitlin] Awesome.

(answering machine beeps)

- [Leah] Sorry, you're,
you're probably driving.

I'll text you.

Hey.
- Um, sorry,

but this is mine.

- [Leah] Well, you didn't
have to grab it like that.

- Panicked.

- [Leah] I fucking hate, Newtown.

- Haven't seen you in awhile.

- Yes, I've been trying
to be good and studying.

Trying.

- [Bella] Big night?

- Something like that.

You?

- I actually went to go
see Isabel's band play.

Sorry.

What have you found?

- Ah, The Sweet Little Army.

- Wow, even I haven't heard of them.

- So, how were they?

- [Bella] Who?

- Isabel's band?

- Oh, amazing.

As usual.

- Of course.

- Cool, well that's $20 dollars.

- Perfect.

See ya, Bella.

- [Leah] Are you alright?

- [Caitlin] Hey, I, uh, just wanted

to say sorry about before.

- [Leah] Don't worry about it.

- Just, I, saw them like ages
ago and I didn't buy it then,

and I really regretted it, so.

- [Leah] Yeah, no, it's really fine.

- You know them?

- No.

- That's a shame.

Thought maybe I found the one other person

in the world who did.

- Nope, so you really weren't
gonna have to fight me for it.

- [Caitlin] Anyway, um,
sorry if I ruined your day.

- [Leah] Don't worry about it.

- See ya.

- [Leah] Yeah, bye.

(acoustic pop music)

(Caitlin sighs)

(Leah sighs)

(Leah moaning)

(Leah sighing)

(atmospheric electronic music)

(Leah moaning)

(phone ringing)

- [Luke] Hey, it's me.

Leave a message.
(answering machine beeps)

- [Leah] Hey, it's me.

Just wondering where you are

or if maybe we got the time wrong?

I don't have my wallet so I'm kinda stuck.

I'm sure you're on your way,

but if you could just give me a call

or message or something.

Love you, bye.

- Do you need some help?

- No, my boyfriend's coming to pick me up.

He's just running late.

- How late?

- Coming up to two hours now.

- Shit.

- Yeah, well, he's always late.

We live in Avalon, so it's far.

- Where the fuck's Avalon?

- Um, that way, but
about two hours that way.

- Well, I've got a bus ticket if you want?

- Thanks, but I wouldn't even know

how to catch a bus from here.

- Seriously?

I can look it up on my phone.

- No, really, it's, I'm fine.

- Okay.

(phone beeps)

Wasn't that him?

- Just Mum.

- Hey, I'm gonna get something to eat.

Do you want something?

- No, thanks, but I'm really fine.

- C'mon, you must be starving

if you haven't had your wallet all day.

- Yeah, well that's my
fault for being an idiot.

- We won't go far, it's just up there.

I feel like a dick about before.

The least I can do is get
you a coffee or something,

or if you really want,

I can get you something and bring it back,

but you shouldn't have
to wait in the street.

It's dirty and there are so many weirdos.

- Yeah, there is.

- Oh-ho, ouch

- No, sorry, I didn't mean it like that.

I've just been pissed off all morning.

- Don't worry about it.

I'm sorry I keep hassling you.

I'm sure you don't need looking after.

- What's that supposed to mean?

What makes you think I need looking after?

- Ah, actually, I said you
didn't to be looked after.

- Oh.

Man, I must be coming
across as the biggest bitch.

- You are.

But, it's okay, because you're pretty.

It was nice to meet you, bitch.

- Well, actually I am really hungry.

- So how long have you been
with your boyfriend for?

- [Leah] Coming up on three years.

- Wow.

Is he a good guy?

- Of course, he's just not
very good at being punctual.

- Maybe he's just really
good at being late.

It takes talent to be two hours behind.

Not just anyone can do that.

- So, that CD you bought, you said

that you saw the band live?

- Yeah.

It was like

two

years ago.

And they were so good.

They have this one song

that I couldn't get out
of my head for months.

You know when you like so
badly wanna hear a song again?

It was like that but I'd forgotten it now.

I tried to find them online,

but I think they haven't put stuff up.

It's literally like they just vanished

straight after that gig.

I even went back to the
place where I saw them

and tried to ask but no one knew,

so I was pretty stoked when I saw that CD.

- Well, it definitely went
to the right person, then.

- What kind of music do you like?

- Different stuff.

I mean, I like a lot of acoustic bands.

Ah, I usually think the
more instruments the better

but even a lot of percussion is good,

but you know, if the voice is strong,

I'll pretty much love it.

- Well, you'll definitely
like these guys, then.

- Yeah, well, I'm intrigued now

you've talked them up so much.

- I'll burn it for you.

- [Leah] Now?

- After we finish eating.

I just live around the corner.

- Thanks, but he'll be
here any minute, so.

(atmospheric acoustic music)

- [Caitlin] This is the one.

- [Leah] Have you read all these books?

- Yep.

- [Leah] Have you seen all these bands?

- Yeah.

- [Leah] Wow.

I've never even heard of most of them.

- I used to date this
chick who was a drummer,

so I used to go to a lot of gigs.

- Are you still studying?

- Yeah, psychology at Sydney Uni.

Are you?

- No.

- [Caitlin] Where are you
working at the moment?

- Ah, I'm not, anymore.

- That must be nice.

- [Leah] "Well, now it's
just me and my pain.

"For on my face is the
bravest mask you'll ever see."

Who's poems?

- Oh,

mine.

- [Leah] There's so many.

- I steal a lot from other poets.

I like to mix their
stuff in with my stuff.

Kind of like a poetry mash-up.

I promise I'm not as much
of a wanker as I seem.

I'm just, I just do it to make up

for the fact that I'm not musical at all.

(Leah chuckles)

Drink?

- No, thanks.

Actually, maybe just a little one.

- I'll get another bottle.

Or not.

Crap.
- Who's that?

- My parents.

- (chuckles) You didn't
strike me as the kind

of person who lives with their parents.

- I'm not, I just,
until I finish studying,

I'm not going anywhere.

We might have to go somewhere
else for that drink, though.

- What, you're not allowed to drink?

- I'm 24, they just

don't like it when I steal
their expensive wine.

- Oh really, you do that a lot?

- I try not to but it's so delicious.

(Leah chuckles)
(phone beeps)

(atmospheric acoustic pop music)

Anything?

- [Leah] No, just my mum again.

- [Caitlin] Maybe he's lost?

- Maybe.

Let's go get that drink.

- [Hazel] Hello, there.

- Guys, this is Leah.

- Hello, Leah.
- Hi.

- Nice to meet you.
- Ah, don't

don't, don't touch them.

They're for the ladies
tomorrow at the book club.

- [Caitlin] Relax, Hazel, you don't even

like the ladies of book club.

- [Hazel] Sweetheart,
what's happened to your arm?

- Cat scratched me.

- [Hazel] Again?

God, she's a cranky old thing.

- [Caitlin] I haven't fed
her today, by the way.

- I don't blame you, I wouldn't either.

She always goes after Caitlin.

So you two girls going out?

- Ah, yeah, just for a bit.

- How's the essay going?

- Good.

I've done the structure.

I know where's it gonna go.

I just need to fill it all in.

- Would you like me to have a look at it?

- [Caitlin] In the morning.

- [Hazel] What do you do, Leah?

- Nothing, apparently.

- Actually, I was studying photography.

- You were?

- Yeah.

- I didn't know that.

- That sounds like fun.

Maybe she can help you work the camera

we gave you which you never use?

- I could probably do that.

- Maybe, okay.

Bye.

- Ah, excuse me, wait.

Come back here.

(atmospheric jazz music)

Mm-Wa, have fun sweetheart.

- You want one, too?

- I won't embarrass ya like your mother.

- [Caitlin] Thanks.

See ya.

- [Radio Announcer] In
the park in Sydney CBD

for tonight's International
Rally Against Climate Change.

(upbeat electronic music)

♪ This is the call, call, call ♪

♪ Let it be known, known, known ♪

♪ That I say no way, today ♪

- What kind of photography
did you used to do?

- [Leah] Different
stuff, landscapes mostly.

- Why'd you quit?

- A few reasons.

Mainly cause I needed
money so I sold my camera.

- [Caitlin] That sucks.

It must have been a good
camera to be worth it.

- [Leah] Yeah, it really was.

- Well, you can have mine.

Apparently it's a good one.

- [Leah] You're pretty quick
to give your stuff away.

- It's just stuff.

- No way, you're parents
bought it for you.

And they seem really--

- [Caitlin] Old?

They are.

- And they're okay with
the whole gay thing?

- I'm pretty sure they don't even know.

- Really?

- [Caitlin] I, I don't even
try and hide it or anything.

I just, I don't think
it's the kind of thing

that would ever cross their minds.

- [Leah] Oh, that's weird cause I kind of.

- What?
- Well, I don't know,

your mum was so nice to me,

I thought maybe she thought
that I was your new girl.

(Caitlin gurgles and laughs)

- I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

Is that what you thought this was?

Me hitting on you?

- No, no, I mean,

well not at first,

but then I thought, maybe.
(Caitlin laughs)

- No.
- What,

what's so funny?

- You.

- [Leah] Why, what's wrong with me?

- Oh, don't get me wrong,
you're very pretty.

Just not my type.

- Why not?

- Uh, how can I put this?

You're very straight.

- That's a bit of a generalization.

- But you are straight.

- Yeah, well, it's, I don't really think

it's very nice to label people.

- So you're not straight?

- No, I am, I just don't think

that you should put
people into categories.

You gays hate when we do it to you.

Why is it different when you do it to me?

- Wow.

Here I was thinking I
had it tough being part

of a minority when
really you straight girls

are the ones doing it tough.

- [Leah] It doesn't seem
like a minority these days.

It seems like everyone's gay.

- [Caitlin] Well, they're not.

- I wish I was gay.

It would be so much easier. (chuckles)

- Oh, it is so much worse.

So what about you?

Family?

- It's just me and mum. (phone beeping)

Speaking of which.

- You can answer.

- No, she'll just be wondering where I am.

- So, she can't pick you up?

- No, she can, it's just,

she already hates Luke and if she knows

that he hasn't picked me up
she'll just hate him even more.

- Well, don't you wanna
let her know where you are?

She's probably worried about you.

- She'll be fine.

- Are you sure you don't
wanna try him again?

- Yes.

(phone beep)

(atmospheric electronic music)

- So this is a little awkward, but

I need to ask you something

- What?

- It's a little, heh, I
don't even know how to ask.

Um,

fuck it.

Do you know where I can get some H?

- What?

- [Caitlin] Heroin.

- Heroin?
- Shh.

- Do I know?

- Yes.
- No, yuck.

Why would I know that?

- Ah, your arm.

- Oh, God, seriously?

No, just.
- Oh.

- No.
- Really, sorry.

Shit, I'm, I'm not judging you, I promise.

- I'm not a junkie.

Are you a junkie?

- No, I've just always wanted to try it

and didn't wanna ask the wrong person.

- Oh, well, I'm the wrong person.

And why, that shit will ruin your life?

- You seem pretty defensive
for someone who doesn't use it.

- (sighs) I'm not a user.

I just get a lot of blood tests.

- Blood tests?

Your arm looks like a pin cushion.

No offense.

- I think we've passed
the point of offense,

but yes, a lot of blood tests.

- Why?

- Because I have cancer.

- Cancer?

- [Leah] Yes.

- [Caitlin] Real cancer?

- No, fake cancer.

- Well, what type?

- Melanoma.

- Oh-ho. (laughs)

Like skin cancer.

- It actually sounds nice to
have it belittled like that,

but yes, it's skin cancer.

- I'm sorry, I'm, I'm sure it's still bad.

I just meant, it's not like a brain tumor.

- No, I guess not.

- So, how long does it take to get better?

- Well, they gave me three months to live

about one month ago so in
two months I should be fine.

- What?

- Yeah.

- You're dying?

- [Leah] Yes.

- Of skin cancer?

- Apparently. (chuckles)

- You don't look you're dying.

- That's because I'm not
taking any treatment.

The treatment's what makes you feel sick.

- Why aren't you having any treatment?

- Because by the time they found it,

the only treatment options
available where palliative.

Screw that.

- (chuckles) I'm sorry,
a mole is killing you?

- Well, it starts as a
mole and then it spreads.

- [Caitlin] That's bullshit.

- Huh, yeah.

- [Caitlin] What a shit way to die.

- [Leah] I'm pretty pissed about it, too.

- Ah, you don't seem pissed,
you seem totally fine.

- Because I've had a lotta
time to think about it.

And also because, and I don't tell people

this cause they think I'm
crazy but I know they're wrong.

I'm not dying.

- Wait a minute.

Is this like one of those
doing it for attention things?

Like, those girls who get pregnant

and then just happen
to have a miscarriage?

- Fuck off.

- Well then, how do you
know you're not dying?

- Well, you said it yourself.

Look at me, I'm not sick.

Doctors get these things
wrong all the time

which is why I'm not
gonna go see them anymore.

- I think you should
still see your doctor.

I mean, I'm not crazy about them either

but they know their shit.

- Do you know how many people have managed

to heal themselves
through natural medicine?

It happens all the time.

I'm seeing this lady here in Newtown

and she's the best in the country.

That's why I come so far to see her.

She's got me doing this routine

of Chinese herbs and acupuncture
and meditation and stuff.

She's amazing.

- And she thinks she can cure you?

- Well, it doesn't matter what she thinks.

It matters what I believe.

- Well, is it working?

- Well, it's too early to tell yet.

It takes about six months
for it to show on the X-ray.

- But you'll be dead by then.

Mm?

- Seriously?

- Mm.

Yes, of course, shit.

Sorry, I'm just, I'm in shock.

So do you have like a bucket list?

- [Leah] What?

- You know, like, like
a list of all the things

you want to do before.

- Uh, no.

No, that was one of the things

that the hospital shrink told me to do,

but personally, I couldn't think

of anything more depressing.

- If I had three months to
live, I would be out of here.

(phone beeps)

- "Hey, I got caught up.

"Do you think you could get
your mum to pick you up?"

- So this guy is your actual
boyfriend of three years?

And he knows all about this?

- Yeah.

- What a dick.

- Hey.

- You're going through this

and he can't be stopped to pick you up?

- It's not his fault.

I mean, it would have been
something real important.

- Oh, sounds heaps important.

And why didn't he send it earlier?

- My phone doesn't get
messages until late.

- (laughs) Alright.

First you're dying because of a mole,

then you're letting some witch doctor

charge you God knows
how much for medicine,

which is probably just made of grass,

and now you're making excuses
for you dip shit boyfriend

who can't be fucked to pick you up.

- Why are you so upset about this?

- Come on, finish your drink.

- Why?

- I don't care if you
don't wanna do crazy shit

before you die, I'm making you.

- Can you sit down?

People are looking at us.

- No, you get up.

- Why, what are we doing?

- I don't know yet but it's
gonna be fucking stupid.

- Pff, not thanks.

- Hey.

Crikey.

(upbeat hard rock music)

Stop.

What are you doing?

- Push me.
- No.

- Push me.
- This isn't crazy.

It's just annoying.

- [Caitlin] Do it.

(laughs) Woo.

- Shit, run, run, run.
- Whoa.

- [Employee] Girls.

Bring the beer back.

(Caitlin laughs)

(upbeat electronic music)

- Can I please have me
phone back, Cailtin?

This is ridiculous.

- No, you can't, Leah.

Dance, Leah.

Woo.

C'mon.

Woo.

Woo.
- Just stop.

That's enough, please.

Just.

- Ho, ho, okay, we can go.

(upbeat rock music)

- [Caitlin] Do they look like this?

Cause my mum's always telling
me to get that one checked.

- [Leah] I can't see anything

but if your mum's worried about
it, just get it looked at.

Particularly because you're fair like me.

- [Caitlin] Now I'm really freaked out.

What did yours look like?

- [Leah] A mole.

- [Caitlin] A mole like this?

- [Leah] You know, you're really lucky

that you live so close to the Uni.

- [Caitlin] Yeah, that's where I do

all of my last minute class work.

- [Leah] Well, you shouldn't
leave it until the last minute.

- [Caitlin] Oh, I bet you
are just the perfect student.

- [Leah] I was.

- [Caitlin] I also bet you were boring

as batshit back then, too.

- Hey.
- Ah, uh-huh.

Don't, I feel kind of ill.

- Sorry.

And in turn, Sydney Uni is
a bucket list item because?

- [Caitlin] Oh, because
it's so fucking prestigious

and important, of course.

- [Leah] It is pretty beautiful.

- [Caitlin] Yeah, just ask it.

So, is this what your Uni looked like?

- [Leah] Ah, no and it
wasn't Uni it was TAFE.

What made you wanna study psychology?

- [Caitlin] Oh, you know, save
the kids, change the world.

- [Leah] Sounds inspiring.

- [Caitlin] Plus, my
father was a psychologist.

- [Leah] Ah, yes.

Daddy issues.

- [Caitlin] Not at all, you?

- [Leah] So many daddy issues.

- Girls with daddy issues are hot.

- Well, in that case.

My dad left when I was five,

and he didn't come to one

of my birthday parties
even though he promised.

- That's nothing.

I had to go into psychology

just to get my father to talk to me.

Even then I can't get him to
look up from his newspaper.

- Hey, can I have my phone back?

- [Caitlin] Don't call him.

- No, I won't, I just wanna get a picture

of the moon next to that building.

(camera phone clicks)

- Are you done being a pretentious artist?

- Yep.

Wanna write a poem about it?

(laughs) How is this adventurous?

- [Caitlin] I told you, this is for me.

I need you to impart some music knowledge

on me before you leave this world.

(Leah laughs)

- Hmm.

(upbeat jazz music)

Oh.

This guy's great.

- (chuckles) Got it.

- That's like five in a
row, this is ridiculous.

- I listen to a lot of music.

One.

- Oh, my dad used to listen
to these guys before he left.

No way will you know them.

- Got it.
- Se, seriously?

That's bullshit.

I don't believe you.
- I do.

Boom.

Ba-da-ba-da-ba-da.

Boom, ba-da-ba-da.
- Okay, I can't believe you.

- Cymbal, cymbal, bass, bass.
- Okay, okay, I believe

- Ting, ting.
- you, shh.

- [Caitlin] So like, if
Emma Stone came on to you,

would you turn her down?

- [Leah] (laughs) Oh,
shit, where are we going?

And of course not, I wouldn't.

- [Caitlin] No, you wouldn't.

(Leah laughs)
I'm hungry, that way.

(crickets chirping)

- What are you doing?

- Yeah, this used to be a fountain.

- Oh.

- Get in.

- N, No. (laughs)

- Why not?

- Because there's no
difference me standing here

than there is me standing in there.

- Yeah, I guess it was more
fun when it had water in it.

- [Leah] Mm.

- [Caitlin] Mm.

- Welcome back.

- Mm.
(Leah chuckles)

Yeah, sorry.

I'm kind of sucking at this.

- It's okay, I should
probably try and find--

- Oh.

(needle motor whirs)

(upbeat punk music)

- [Leah] This is fucking stupid.

- [Caitlin] Told you.

- [Leah] I can't believe you're
gonna go through with this.

- [Caitlin] Yep.

Which one do you like?

- [Leah] I can't let you do this.

- [Caitlin] I've wanted to
get another tat for ages.

Just pick one.

- But we've only just met each other.

I mean, we might not ever
see each other again.

- Do you know how much random
crap I have tattooed on me?

I'm getting one for you.

So, just pick the picture
you want next to your name.

- Huh, I can't believe you're getting

my name tattooed on you.

- If you don't pick one,
I'm going to get a dolphin.

Don't make me get a dolphin.

(upbeat punk music)

- That one.

It suits you.

- It does suit me.

Alright.

Which one are you gonna get?

- I'm not getting one.

- Well, come on.

- That wasn't part of the deal.

- What, what deal?

There's no deal, we're
just doing shit, pick one.

- [Leah] It won't suit me.

- [Caitlin] Exactly.

Think how shocked everyone will be.

Think of how shocked
your boyfriend will be.

(Leah groans)
(needle motor whirring)

- [Artist] Less.

- Huh.

(Leah groans)

- [Artist] Stop.

Relax.
- How's it going in here?

- I hate you.

- [Artist] Sit down and relax.

(Leah groans)

Fuck, that's better.

- [Caitlin] What did you end up getting?

- Ah, a quote from my favorite book.

- Choose life?

- It's from Trainspotting.

- [Caitlin] Yeah, I,
I know what it's from,

but you're seriously getting choose life?

- Obviously I'm serious.

(Caitlin laughs)

What?

- (laughs) I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

(Leah laughs)

- [Artist] Okay, hey, keep still.

- (laughs) Oh, it should
by like fuck life.

(Leah laughs)

- [Artist] Can you just
take a seat here, love?

- Yeah, I'm sorry.
- Good girl.

Now you gotta keep
still, love or otherwise

it's gonna be a mess.
- Oh, yeah.

Oh, can you distract me?'

- Um.

Ah.

Ah, who's your favorite
character in Trainspotting?

- Um.

The one with the ah,
the guy, the blond guy.

- [Caitlin] Which one?

- The,

the blond.

- Have you even?

- Okay, I've never read it.

- [Caitlin] (laughs) I knew it.

I knew it.

- I watched half the movie once

in high school because I had to.

(Caitlin and Leah laugh)

Oh, this is so stupid.

- C'mon.

Half an hour.

- I think I need the
biggest shot in the world.

- Um, shots are shots, man.

They're all like this big.

- [Isabel] Caitlin.

- [Caitlin] Hey, Isabel.

I, I didn't know you still came here.

- Oh, yeah, we hardly ever do.

Just sort of a random winner.

I thought you might still come here.

- Yeah, yeah, I'm, ah,
pretty much still the same.

- Hey, you've met Annie, right?

- No, um, just heard of you.

I'm, I'm Caitlin.

- I know who you are, we've
spoken on the phone before.

- We have?

- What, you mean you don't remember?

Wow, you sounded so sober.

- [Caitlin] Oh, yeah, that sounds like me.

- So what's new?

- Sorry, um, this is Leah.

- Hey, Leah.

(Annie laughs)

Hey.

Wow, Leah indeed.

Um, still impulsive, I see.

- No, no, no, no, we aren't.

We just met today.

- Uh, this is so awkward.

I think we should go.

- Ah, yeah, sure, um.

I think we're gonna go but

there's a really great
band coming up next.

I think you'd really like them.

- Must be good, then.

- [Isabel] It was good to see you.

- [Annie] Yeah, it was really nice

to put a face to the slurring.

- You too.

- [Leah] Oh, that was tense.

Was that your ex?

(bottles smashes against wall)

(glass scraping against skin)

- Caitlin, Caitlin.

What's going on?

- She's fucking nuts.

- [Isabel] Caitie, hey.

Just take some slow breaths, okay?

- What are you doing?
She'll probably hit you.

- Shh, hey.

(fist thuds against head)
(Annie grunts)

- Ah, fuck.
- Annie, Annie, don't.

She's not well.

- Hey.

No more.

Okay, no more calls, no more text messages

at four in the morning
about how you need help.

I'm sorry you're a total mess

but it's not her problem anymore.

- Okay.
- Fuck.

Son of a bitch.
- I know.

She's right, though.

This has to stop.

It's getting ridiculous.

And it's really not fair, okay?

(atmospheric electronic music)

- [Leah] Are you okay?

- [Caitlin] Yeah.

- Are you sure, because that was really--

- Positive.

Um,

what were we doing again?

Ah, going for a drink.

- Right.

Right.

Let's do that.

(men laughing)

- [Caitlin] For fucks sake.

- What?
- Hey, whatever happened

to those little white tables

they used to put in the middle of the PC?

You know those little things?
- Hey.

- The student man, they didn't
- And then--

have the students.
- Little boys.

- [Man] Please.

Bit rude.
(man chuckles)

- [Caitlin] You're on my swing.

- [Man] Well, way to ask nicely.

- I just wanna sit on my fucking swing

and drink my wine.

- What happened to manors?

- Come on guys.

My friend's just had a rough night.

Just let us sit on the swings.

- Just go be a dicks somewhere else.

- [Man] Whoa, I thought
all the angry lesbians

were at the rally tonight
so it was safe to come out.

- Hey, what's up with the sandals

and the hoodie there?

You get dressed in the dark? (laughs)

- Oh, yeah, there's that big,
gay march thing on tonight.

- Yeah, yeah, the big gay march, yeah.

Why, Why aren't you there?

- [Man] Maybe cause his wind
dress is still at the wash.

- It's a climate rally.
- No, it's a climate rally.

- [Man] Okay.

- Same shit.

- Huh, why because only gay people care?

- Yeah, pretty much.
- Pretty much. (laughs)

- Well, I'm not gay and
I like the environment.

I like trees and I like gay people

and I'd go to a rally for either.

- Why aren't you there then?

- Because I didn't know that it was on.

- I'm pretty sure you
just told us it was on.

- I mean, I forgot, okay?

- Guys--

- No, it's just frustrates
the shit out of me.

I mean, why choose to be ignorant?

Choose to be better.

- Oh, I chose to be better.

Boom. (laughs)

- There are facts, okay?

There are scientific facts

and if you just look at
the facts, you'll see.

- Oh.
- Okay.

- Alright, please, please, educate us.

- [Man] Yeah, tell us some facts.

Better start with fact one.

- Yeah.
- Maybe.

- Go on.
- Guys.

- Go on.
- Anytime, anytime.

- In the last century, the
average global temperature

has risen at a rate 20 times
faster than ever before.

Water levels rising is a direct result

of melting polar ice caps and glaciers

caused by unprecedented amounts

of greenhouse gases in
the Earth's atmosphere.

Your shaving cream contains CFCs

which causes climate change.

The sweatshop in Bangladesh

which made those shoes
causes climate change.

Climate change is real.

- And it causes skin cancer.

- Look, I don't know about you guys,

but I didn't sign up
for this shit tonight.

I'm outta here.

- [Man] Yeah, have your swing, sweetheart.

- [Man] I'm sorry.

Fags.

- Come on.
- Come on.

- [Man] Don't leave me
with the crazy lesbians.

- Yes.

That was awesome.

We got your swing.

- [Caitlin] I don't want it.

- [Leah] How good's this air smell?

- [Caitlin] Excellent when you're smashed.

(Leah laughs)

- [Leah] I'm so drunk.

I can't even remember the
last time I was drunk.

- I can't remember the
last time I didn't drink.

- That's because your life is fun.

- That's one way of looking at.

Calm down.

- Can I have one?

- No.

You have cancer.

- (chuckles) I got a fucking tattoo.

- Yes, you did.

- The last thing I thought
when I woke up this morning

was that I'd be sitting in a park,

drinking with a total stranger
with a tattoo. (laughs)

- Pretty crazy.

- And that girl?

You just walked up and smacked her.

- It wasn't that simple.

- This is fun.

This is so much fun.

- I'm glad you're having fun.

- I'm glad my boyfriend is such a wanker,

that he can't even pick me
up from my cancer treatment.

He's such a wanker.

You're so right.

- You know what dude?

What do I know?

It could have been something
like really important.

- (chuckles) It wasn't anything important.

- Seriously, I'm usually wrong
about this kind of stuff.

- No, he's cheating on me.

- You don't know that.

- No, I do.

I know her.

- Seriously?

- It's been going on for
about a year and half now.

- Does he know you know?

- He still denies it.

Even though everyone knows.

Even though I've caught
them multiple times.

He still denies it til
he's blue in the face.

- Shit.

- This is gonna sound really awful, but

when I first found out I was sick,

I was happy cause I thought

at least now he'll give me some attention.

Feel guilty enough that he'd
have to stop seeing her.

At least for the three
months I had left to live.

And he did for about a week.

I mean, is it too much to think
that maybe he'd be better?

I mean, that maybe he'd wanna
treat me a little better?

Maybe take me away somewhere?

Maybe

call me back?

Come to my appointments with me?

Spend what little time
we have left together?

God, I even thought he might say,

I wish I could trade places with you.

But nothing's changed.

- Well, you could change it.

Why are you still with this guy?

- Haven't you ever been in
that kind of relationship?

Where you love someone so
much more than they love you?

And even though you
know you deserve better,

you end up dropping your standards

just to be more like them.

And they just keep you at
a distance, constantly.

Giving you little bits here and there.

Just keeping you desperate for more.

And so when you find out
that he's cheating on you,

after the initial heartbreak,

your biggest fear is that
he's not gonna choose you.

And so instead of confronting him

and demanding that he stop seeing her,

you just play dumb

and turn a blind eye

because at least then he'll be happy.

I know it sounds pathetic.

- It does sound pathetic.

- I think I'm all crazied out, Caitlin.

(atmospheric electronic music)

What are we doing here?

- [Caitlin] You ever
played chicken before?

- [Leah] No.

- [Caitlin] You want to?

- [Leah] Definitely not.

- [Caitlin] That's a shame.

- [Leah] What, so you're just gonna stand

in the middle of the road
and wait until you see a car?

- [Caitlin] Well, no, I'm
gonna have my eyes closed,

so I'm actually not gonna see anything.

- [Leah] What is wrong with you?

- [Caitlin] Huh, it feels amazing.

Like a rush you've never experienced.

You can have a go after me.

- [Leah] Caitlin, please don't do this.

- [Caitlin] Now, no
warnings, you'll ruin it.

- [Leah] Caitlin.

- [Caitlin] Shh.

Do you hear that?

(car engine whirs)

(sighs) Here we go.

(car horn blares)

- [Man] Get out of the road,
you stupid bitch, fuck.

- You break the rules.

- [Leah] You weren't gonna move.

- My hero.

- Fuck you.

- [Caitlin] Leah, oh, c'mon.

I'm sorry, but your
life can't be that great

if you spent the day with me

and you're actually enjoying yourself.

Life is shit, life is hard and it hurts.

You've been given a gold ticket out.

You'll probably be met in the afterlife

with a parade and fucking
baby animals with wings.

My only way is to do it myself.

And if I do, then I'm selfish and horrible

and everyone will hate me,

and I'll definitely be going to hell,

which I'm not even sure I believe,

but still that shit plays on your mind.

- [Leah] You did do that yourself?

- Yesterday.
- Yester,

what the fuck?

Why aren't you still in a psych ward?

What about your parents?

- Why would I tell them?

- [Leah] How do they not know?

Oh my God, is this about that girl?

- [Caitlin] No.

- Well then why the fuck
would you wanna kill yourself?

What is so bad about your life?

- Nothing.

Nothing is bad about my life.

Nothing.

Nothing happened to me, no one hurt me.

I wasn't left, I wasn't raped as a kid.

Fuck, I wish something had happened to me

cause then at least I would
know what is wrong with me.

But there is a reason why
when someone kills themselves

that people say, hey, what a surprise,

I never knew that was coming,

and that's because it's
not always that obvious.

I was just born like this.

Same way serial killers
are born like that.

- That's bullshit.

You didn't wanna die otherwise

you wouldn't have admitted
yourself to hospital.

You're just an attention seeker.

- Fuck off.

- [Leah] And what about your poor parents?

- What about yours?

Your mum has two months
left with her only daughter

and you won't even call her back?

Bet she would love to go to
your appointments with you.

Bet she would love to
take you away somewhere,

and I bet you she wishes
she could trade places

with you in a second.

(atmospheric electronic music)

(Leah sighing)

- Who are you?

You're like this fucked
up, alcoholic wise owl.

- Alcoholics drink alone.

I'm drinking with you.

Just for tonight, anyway.

- Just for tonight.

(atmospheric orchestral music)

- What are you doing?

- Bucket list.

- You know what?

Let's not do this.

I mean, thank you.

I know that can't have
been easy for you, I just.

This whole side of things,
it just ruins everything.

- Sorry.

- Don't be.

I'm very flattered.

- [Leah] I wish I could say the same.

- I mean it.

This

means more than that.

- Mm, sounds like a blow off line.

- It's not.
- Whatever.

- It's not.

Seriously, after everything
that's just happened,

you're upset because I
won't make out with you?

(Leah moans)
- Are you okay?

- (sighs) It's just a headache. (sighs)

- [Caitlin] Yeah, I
have one of those, too.

- It's not the same.

It'll pass.

- [Caitlin] Can I do anything?

- Distract me.

- It's kind of like a wheelchair.

- No.

- C'mon, I know somewhere we
can go but we need transport.

- Caitlin, I'm really tired.

- Well, get in.

- Aye?

- Yeah.

I'll push you there.

- Well, I should think so.

You did just reject me.

- Ooh.

Yay, let's go.

- Wait.

- [Caitlin] You're taking photos again?

- Dear

Luke.

- [Caitlin] Oh.

- You

are the worst

human being in the world.

I have cancer, asshole.

- [Caitlin] Hmm, nice.

- I'm done.

- [Caitlin] P.S. I just
hooked up with a girl.

- [Leah] P.S.I just made out with a girl.

- [Caitlin] It was amazing.

- [Leah] I already sent it.

- [Caitlin] Like total,
out of body experience.

- [Leah] (laughs) Okay.

- Walter Marsh,

born 1823,

died 1899.

- He was really old.

Lucky bastard.

- Hmm, yeah.

That's not gonna work.

We need to find you some young stud.

- This guy was in his 50's.

Getting closer.

- Eh.

I may have found someone since now we know

you're not opposed to a lesbian lover.

She was 33.

Ah, no, she had three kids.

You don't wanna mess with that.

- I think I found him.

James Walsh,

age 27.

- Gone to soon.

Your active bravery was not in vain.

There you go.

He was a hero.

- Hm, that's the exact
opposite of what I have now.

- What do you think he did?

Do you think he was like a soldier?

- Wouldn't he be in an Army graveyard?

- Oh, yeah.

- I reckon he died from
trying to save a kid

from a rushing river and just

as he pulled him out, he drowned.

- Yeah.

Like his foot got caught on
an underwater tree branch

or something, but he managed

to push the kid out just in time.

- I bet that's what happened.

Well, he sounds perfect then.

Hey, James, I look forward to meeting you.

- Now, James, I haven't met you,

but I have to give you this lecture.

You treat her good man, alright?

She's been hurt before and if you don't,

bam, you'll meet my fist.

(Leah cries)

- Shit. (cries)

(cries) Shit.

I don't wanna die.

(somber piano music)

I don't wanna die, please. (sobs)

Please, I don't wanna
go, I don't wanna die.

Please, don't let me die.

I don't wanna die. (cries)

- You don't know.

The, the treatment.

- (cries) It's not gonna work.

I know it's not gonna work.

I'm so stupid. (sobs)

- You're not stupid.

(Leah cries)

- I don't wanna die.

(Leah sobs)

(Leah cries)

(atmospheric orchestral music)

(Leah sobs)

(atmospheric orchestral music)

(atmospheric orchestral music)

(birds chirping)

(atmospheric orchestral music)

(atmospheric orchestral music)

(birds chirping)

(atmospheric orchestral music)

(camera shutter clicking)

(phone rings)

Hi, Mum.

No, no, no, I'm, I'm fine.

I'm sorry.

Yes, please.

No, I just, I met a
friend and I stayed over.

(atmospheric orchestral music)

(Caitlin sighs)

(Caitlin sighs)

- [Radio Announcer] Enesco
on the United Nations

Heritage Body have issued a statement

warning the Australian Government.

- [Caitlin] Hey.

- [Robert] Caitlin?

- [Caitlin] Yeah?

- Are you gonna give me your essay?

- [Caitlin] Yeah, when I get back.

- [Robert] Psychology's a
really hard career to get into

Because you know too much.

- [Caitlin] I know, Dad.

- Sometimes you can see the problems

so clearly right in front of you,

but you can't say anything
because you haven't been asked.

It's a helpless position to be in.

So all you can do is to sit back,

and hope desperately

that they do ask.

So let's make a deal.

The next time the cat scratches you,

please call so at least I can
pick you up from the hospital.

(atmospheric orchestral music)

And I shall continue to sit here

with my newspaper,

in this spot,

every day,

until you ask.

Deal?

Leah, seems like a nice girl.

- [Leah] (laughs) Yeah, she's cool.

- [Robert] Is she your new girlfriend?

- [Caitlin] (laughs) What? Dad, no.

(Robert laughs)

- [Robert] That's a shame.

I thought you guys looked good together.

- [Caitlin] (laughs) Thanks.

- [Robert] She's a pretty one.

- [Caitlin] (laughs)
Alright, good talk, Dad.

- Your mum was a real
looker at her age, too.

- Bye.
- (Robert laughs)

- They'll break your heart. (laughs)

(upbeat acoustic music)

- [Leah] Dear Caitlin,

I just wanted to leave you a little note

to say thanks for last night.

It was one of the craziest,
most random nights of my life.

You definitely pulled me
out of my comfort zone.

I had fun.

I had so much fun.

Even if I currently have
the world's worst hangover

and my arms are gonna hurt for weeks

from pushing you around
in that damn wheelchair.

It was still the best.

I guess maybe I was wrong
about bucket lists after all.

So, thanks.

Thanks for a big dose of reality.

Now, I think it's your turn.

You are insane.

You're into weird things.

You have a terrible
relationship with alcohol

and you need to stop smoking, you idiot.

And you need to give
your parents more credit.

They love you, Caitlin.

You're lucky.

Shut up, I'm pouring my heart out here.

I thought when I started writing this note

that I was saying goodbye,

but I realized you never know
what tomorrow could bring.

So no goodbyes.

Not yet.

And I guess if even Caitlin
Davies visits the doctors,

than I should probably
go back to mine, too.

Oh, and I took that poem.

I really liked it.

It was sweet but sad.

Just like you.

And that made me smile.

Oh, okay, I'm gonna go now.

Love, Leah.

P.S. I still hate Newtown.

(upbeat orchestral music)

(atmospheric orchestral music)