All language subtitles for Station 19 4x15 - Say Her Name (English)

That traffic was unreal.

I mean, I guess it's a good thing.

Protests are getting so big,
they're starting

to shut down the whole city.

If this ice cream melted,
I am for sure gonna drink

this pint like it's a milkshake.

What time are we doing
street medic stuff tomorrow?

Uh, not sure.

P.S., I cannot believe
someone picked you up

with some drivel about liking
a man in uniform.

- No one picked me up.
- Mm-hmm.

Because it's not 1989,

and nobody picks up anyone anymore.

And also, because that would mean

I would have to call...

Oh, my God.

...Sebastian back

and allow him to take me out on a date.

Well, you kept it.

Rest in peace, Chief.

You good?

Yeah, I'm great.

You're a liar.

You "look good in that uniform."

- I still got it.
- Yeah, you do.

Warren, your kids
aren't there, are they?

Should be on their way home.

Yeah, we have a strict "home before dark

if you're protesting" rule,
and Auntie Roz don't play.

Yeah, they must pretty shook up
after you and Miller,

you know, went for your long night swim

and then your surgery.

Yeah, well, I got waited on like a king

for about 48 hours.

Yeah, yeah, kids forget things
remarkably quickly.

Further emboldening
the millions demanding justice

has been the recent media attention

of the death of Breonna Taylor,

a 26-year-old paramedic
who was killed in her home.

From Seattle City Hall,
Deputy Chief Michael Dixon.

Oh.

I know everyone is hurting,

I know everyone wants
their voices to be heard,

and I know taking
to the streets seems like

the easiest way to voice
your frustrations and concerns,

but I'm calling for peace, Seattle.

What we all need to do
for the city we love

is to come together as one for change.

He expects people to believe his crap.

It's actually kind of scary
how he's convinced himself

he's one of the good guys.

Did you know one
of the first forms of policing

in this country grew
from local slave patrols?

Yeah, like, angry white guys
using violence and intimidation

to prevent enslaved people
from escaping.

Yeah. I-I actually did know that.

Yeah, but it is good
that you know that now, too.

Um, you know, Gibson,

why don't you help me with these?

Yeah.

This one's ready, too.

And that still needs to...

Hey, did you hear from your surgeon

about your results yet?

Yeah, Miranda just did.

All clear.

They called Miranda first?

Oh. Of course they called Miranda first.

So, uh, all clear?

All clear.

That's amazing, Warren.

You know, I would have been
personally offended

if you survived
literally being lost at sea

just for this to take you out.

Yeah. How you doing?

Uh... you know, like we all are.

Yeah.

I'm gonna make this call.

Looting and rioting...

You know, I've been out there
these past couple days,

and the protests are usually peaceful,

till the police arrive,
and then they escalate.

Emmett says the medical tents
start filling up

later in the day.

Yeah, I've seen people get tear-gassed,

get scraped up from falls,

and even some rubber bullet wounds.

Runs the gamut.

Yeah, that tracks.

I mean, given the history of the PD.

I mean, it's like
if the police department

put salt and pepper on a steak

and said it became... not steak.

Yeah, that's... That's true.

Did you know the 13th Amendment
abolished slavery

except as punishment for a crime?

Like, Black people
would get arrested, right,

on, like, trumped up charges
so they could get convicted

and then used for free labor.

Also, yes. Nice.

Something feels
a little different, though,

don't you think?

People are finally starting
to talk about it.

I just hope it's not temporary,

that it's not, you know,
people just studying

for, like, a test,
that they're actually, like,

internalizing these concepts

and t-they're really trying to push...

Ben, can you turn
the volume down, please?

Thank you.

Nice shirts.

Yep. Got one for you, too, Captain.

Thanks.

But we will have to wear them

underneath our SFD shirts tomorrow.

We are running this medic tent
in an official capacity.

Providing medical care
isn't sanctioned by SFD?

We just have to figure out how
to navigate this with the PD.

I've been listening to the scanner.

Things are escalating.

But that doesn't mean
that we should back down.

I do think we should make
our position known.

I'm just trying to figure out
how to do that

in a way that they will hear it.

Hey, can I ask you a question?

- Yeah.
- Are we just not gonna talk

about the fact that you're engaged?

- Yep!
- Whoo!

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah!

Thanks. Thanks.

Nothing like getting engaged
and then sending your fianc�e

into the COVID hot spot two days later.

Wait, she still has to go?

Yeah, but only for, uh, a month now,

just until the marriage visa
comes through.

Congrats, Cap.

- Sorry we missed it.
- Thanks. Thank you.

Hey, firehouse wedding, right?

Please say... Please. Come on.

Please say we're doing
a lesbian firehouse wedding?

- We can't not.
- I could barely get Carina

to agree to marriage.

I doubt there will be a wedding,

but there will definitely be a registry.

Of course there will be.

- Hey, Captain.
- Hey.

Just checking in. How you holding up?

If by "holding up,"
you mean stuffing my face

with cookies every chance I get

to avoid thinking about the fact
that Carina

is heading into the belly
of the COVID beast

and that the immigration system

is as broken as the justice system,

then I am holding up incredibly well.

Mm.

What kind of cookies?

Get outta here.

Ben, stop lifting things.

Oh, come on.
These weigh basically nothing.

You can start lifting things

whenever Cap takes you off of desk duty.

This is ridiculous.

No, it's not.

Do you think they're all gonna be mad

because we got mussels
instead of stuff for lasagne?

How could you be mad
about moules-frites?

International trav.

- Oh.
- Yeah.

How long you think we soak these for?

- Wait, what?
- Huh?

I thought... You said that
you've made these before.

No, I said I always wanted
to make these before.

No, that's not... Yeah, I did.

Vic! These aren't chicken nuggets!

Okay, come on.

How hard can it be?

Huh?

What's going on with you?

Nothing. I'm learning
how to make new things.

I'm mussel-making in this case, right?

You practically ran out of the lounge

when you saw them making
the protest packs.

You turned the radio off

when they started talking
about the marches.

And now you've decided
to learn French cuisine.

Okay, Belgian, but I guess...

What's up?

Nothing. I've spent all weekend
thinking about what's up.

I just want two seconds
to not think about that.

I just want to think about...

shellfish.

This is our thing, right?
This is what we do.

We take turns forcing
the other person to talk.

So, rip the scab. Just do it.

Remember when we used
to go out at night,

like back when the world was open,

and before you'd head out,

you'd say to your friends,
"Text me when you get home"?

You know, just so you'd know
all your people were good

and, you know,
you'd know they made it home

safe and sound, right?

That's like sacred friend stuff.

That's like humans evolving
beyond beast stuff.

That is consideration and buddy love

even when you're too drunk
to walk straight.

Oh, my God.
Remember how hammered you were

at Miller's birthday last year...

She was home, Travis.
Breonna Taylor was home,

and she could have texted
her best friend "Home XO,"

and then that friend
would have gone to bed thinking,

"Great. Everyone's home safe and sound."

And then she was killed
in the middle of the night.

In her home. In her pajamas.

Vic, I'm sorry.

And I-I just don't want to think
about any of it, you know?

For just one day, Travis.

Tomorrow, I will pick it all
back up again. I promise.

But today, I just want to put
my feelings in the freezer

because I'm spent,

and I just need one day.

I will fight all future battles

and I will care as much as I do now,

but I just... I'm... I'm exhausted.

And I just... I need a day.

What? What are you thinking right now?

I'm thinking...

we better figure out
how to make these mussels

so our team doesn't find out
there's no lasagne.

"Mussels chapter one."

"Butter is your friend."

Ladder 19, Engine 19,

- and Aid car 19 requested
- And saved by the bell.

To 1869 Pike View Road.

At least it won't be our fault
now when no one gets dinner.

Protest was a block over.

Fire was actually started
by a couple of rioters.

Ladder 19, Engine 19, and Aid car 19

requested to 1869 Pike View Road.

- 1869 Pike View?
- Isn't that...

My parents' restaurant.

I just wanted one day.

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Why aren't they answering?
Why is this taking so long?

It's the other fires
and crowds everywhere.

We're having to go the long way
to get around them.

Fire is spreading north

- to Olympia Avenue.
- Not ours.

Pike View Road fire is
spreading north to Stanley.

That one is. That one is. Come on.

Okay, we're gonna be there any minute.

Travis, this restaurant
is their whole life.

This restaurant is like
my crappy older sister

who they loved more than me
for my entire growing up.

They'd be lost with...
They'd be lost without it.

- I don't know...
- It's gonna be okay.

It's gonna be okay. We're gonna save
your crappy older sister.

What?

Nothing.

What?

No, I just... I...

I like it when we get
to... fight fires together.

Hughes! Stand down!

Hughes!

Vic thinks her parents are still inside.

Herrera, Gibson, recon the building.

The gas line is in the back.

Montgomery, go help Hughes.

Wiggins, Sullivan,
cut all the other utilities.

Miller, you're Med Group.

Come on. Come on. Let's get you
to the aid car, okay?

No, no, Mom.

- Mom. Mom.
- Wait, wait.

Thank you.

I'm right behind you, Dad.

Okay?

Okay.

Thank you.

She wasn't gonna leave without it.

I know.

Hughes must be freaking out.

Yeah, Hughes doesn't freak out.

Yeah, about fire stuff.

This is family stuff and fire stuff,

and everything that's going on
right now stuff.

People lose it.

Hughes, want one?

No, no, no, I'm good.
I'm good. I got this.

I'm just... I'm glad you guys are...

Honey.

No, no, no, Mom, Mom, Mom, I'm fine.

Keep that on, okay?

Dean is gonna take care of you guys.

I've gotta help my team, alright?

Hey, my parents are secure
in the aid car.

- Where do you want me?
- Nowhere.

Seriously?

You ran into a burning building

after I told you to stand down.

- I get it, it's your parents.
- Cap...

That's why I want you to focus on them.

Let us focus on the fire, okay?

Just what we need.

Oh, my God! Oh, my God! Do something!

Wiggins, Sullivan,
you are on fire attack.

Get a line in that restaurant

and get some water up on that attic.

Herrera, Gibson,
how's it looking in the back?

There are no exposures on the D side.

Heading toward the rear now.

Do we need access from the rear?

Yes. Make access,
but we are attacking the fire

from the A side.

- Hughes, we've got this.
- C...

Hold up.

Must have been the stove.

That's not good.

- Oh, hey, sir.
- Hey!

Hey, wait! We're just here to help!

Okay, there's a bunch of people
in there.

Yeah. Bishop, we're behind the building.

Additional civilians inside.

We're beginning evac now.

Copy, Gibson.

- Whoa!
- What the hell?

Whose side are you guys on?!

Whose side are we on?

Okay.

- Hey!
- Okay!

- Whoa!
- Enough!

Do not throw that!

Okay, stop it! We're just here
to help you guys!

- Do not throw that.
- Wait for me, Ricky!

You're on your own, bud.

- Seriously?!
- Okay.

- Wow.
- You take him. I got it.

- Yeah.
- No, just leave me.

Awesome. Nope. Come on.

Any more of your pals in there
looting the place?

- You good?
- I'm going in.

Okay, come on.

The linens! The linens!

- No, Mom! Mama. Mom. No.
- My mother's table...

You cannot go back in there yet, okay?

I need you to hear me. You can't
go back in there, alright?

Victoria, please, we have
to try to save something, honey.

- Our whole life is in that building.
- Dad, I know.

19's Roof Division, we have heavy fire

in the ceiling space south side
of the structure.

Let's cut a trench
so we can stop the spread.

- What?
- "Cut a trench"? What does that mean?

- No, no.
- What does that mean?

- It's, um...
- Everything's fine, Dad.

Victoria, just tell us the truth.

- God, it's the wind.
- It's...

It's the wind. The wind is
blowing south right now,

which is a good sign for your spot.

Sir, we can't... Can't hear you.

Yes. Yes, yes.

Co... Oh.

Right now, the wind is blowing south.

That is a good sign for your place.

- Alright.
- Station 19... we're the best.

You see those two men
right to the left of the window?

Those are two of the most
strategic firefighters I know.

Right now, they're making sure
that all the hose lines

have proper water flow and pressure,

and those guys on the roof...

They're performing
a vertical ventilation.

That means they're cutting holes
in the roof right now

to release all the hot smoke,

all the hot gas to save your building.

That's something that, um... Victoria

is particularly good at.

Okay. Hey, Mom. Mom. You see
that guy running back inside?

- Yeah.
- Okay, he's doing what's called

a primary search.

It means he's doing a sweep
of the restaurant

to see if there's anybody left inside

and how to best save them.

And you see that woman right there?

She's our captain,
and she's calling all the shots

and making sure everything
and anything is handled.

Yeah, okay, everything that can be done

will be done by this team, alright?

Hold on. Where's that...
Those files I was just holding?

- What are you talking about, Dad?
- The folders.

Which one? What folders?

The ones I got out.

It's got the insurance paperwork.

- Oh.
- It's got the bank information.

- Here. Here. Here.
- We can't do anything

- without the insurance...
- Dad, Dad, Dad, it's fine.

It's here, okay? Okay.

- Okay.
- Oh, my God. My recipes.

- My God. Mom. Mom.
- My recipes!

Mom, I know. You've got to stop, though.

- Everything...
- Okay, you have to stop.

- Lenni, Lenni, Lenni.
- What?!

Baby, stop. Shh.

You got the recipes memorized.

- No, I didn't.
- If you have to,

you'll remember.

We can replace our things, honey.

We cannot replace you.

Okay?

Over there... In the kitchen.

Sullivan, I'm pushing in!

Hey, Cap, we're gonna need
more hands in here!

Herrera and Gibson, what's
the status on the civilians?

Civilians made it out safely,

but one ran away
before we could assess them

and Gibson got the other one out.

You gotta be kidding me.

I need you both in front of the
restaurant with another hose line.

Montgomery, Wiggins, Cutler,

and Sullivan need support inside.

Herrera, you are now interior division.

Copy, Captain.

This is a closed scene.

I just have some questions.

- Fire.
- What?

Whatever your question is,
the answer is fire,

and we are working to put it out.

Buh-bye.

Oh.

So, what happened?

How did it start?

I don't know.

Things just turned so quick.

I mean, all day long, we were
watching people stream by,

going to protests.

- It was almost happy, you know?
- Uh-huh.

I mean, not happy, but it was

- beautiful.
- It was...

There were signs and solidarity.

- Yeah.
- It felt like. And then...

we heard screaming down the block.

I went outside to take a look,

and I saw people throwing things

through the window
of the, um, shoe store.

- Yeah.
- What? Over there?

Yeah. And then there was this...

All this smoke.

Excuse me, did... Did you just say

you saw how the fire started?

- What?
- Could we get a comment?

No. No comment. Please leave.

- Just a quick comment...
- Please leave.

She said no comment.

No comment.

Come on, come on.

There he is, right there.

Shouldn't you be on crowd
control or something, man?

Thought SFD could handle that
on their own now,

'cause you apparently
don't need us anymore.

You really... You really
doing that right now?

When people's lives are on fire?

Yeah? Well, why aren't you
putting it out, then?

Did you start it?

What you say to me, man?

Miller, I need you over here.

Captain?

We need more bodies on the fire.

I'll deal with PD.

Anderson, get your ass to the car now.

Go.

- Come on, 19.
- This one's for Hughes.

Put your backs into it.

Come on! We're on the move!
We're on the move!

Here we go.

Aah!

Whew!

Good job, buddy!

Good job.

Cutler, make sure
all the SCBA tanks are full.

- Hey, you okay?
- Stupid question.

Yeah. No, I'm fine.

You can take them home.
Just go with them.

No, no, no. They're insisting
on staying here.

You know they're gonna try
to get back in there

after we move out, right?

Wait, get back inside?
They can't. It's not secure.

No, I told them that.

You try arguing with a...

crazy Polish lady
who happens to be your mother.

Okay, I'm leaving Engine 19
on scene for the overhaul.

23 is staying to overhaul
the fire on the corner.

I asked them for a couple
additional firefighters to assist.

- Okay?
- Montgomery, stay with Hughes.

Okay. Thanks.

Alright, let's... head in.

You good?

Yeah. Yeah.

Let's get back. I'm exhausted.

Okay, you guys, it's really not safe

to go back in there tonight.

Yeah, but... Okay?

You two are firefighters, right?

You can make sure we're safe?

Victoria, you know your mom's
not gonna go home

and get her beauty rest.
Okay, I just think

that maybe we should try to just talk...

They just...
They just don't... talk about it,

and... I mean, that's where
I learned it,

and I've tried so hard
to fight against it

and to, you know,
rip the scab and all that.

It's just...

Oh, my God.

H-Hang on. Hang on.

Hang on. Here.

Literally everywhere you step
is dangerous.

Here. Put this on.

- Dad...
- Oh, thank you.

Dad, just let us move
some of this debris

and check for water damage
and make sure it's safe

to move around in here, alright?

- Yeah.
- We're fine.

Yeah, I know you want
to pretend nothing happened,

but we actually do have
to make sure it's safe.

This isn't an argument, okay?

Yeah. We hardly pretending
nothing happened.

Mom.

Thank you.

I'm gonna go check
for hot spots, I think.

Okay.

Just be careful.

Oh! Hey! Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.

No, I got it, I got it,
I got it, I got it.

"I got it"?

Victoria, you don't have
to lift this all on your own.

Dad, I said I got it, okay?

That would have been a lot easier

if you just let me give you a hand.

Anthony, would you
help me with this one?

Yes. Just lift it up.

Thanks.

Thank you.

Can we just take a second?

That's it.

A second for what?

To... talk about this.

To talk about what?

This.

How absurd this is.

We should be talking about this.

Why do we not talk about anything?

Why do we not talk about anything ever?

How are we just freaking
cleaning up our restaurant

that was burned down by rioters
who hijacked a protest?

Because it has to be done, Victoria.

Because it's our life.

Yeah, I know, I know,
I know it's your life.

You keep saying that.

Dad, your mom died
and you went back to work.

My fianc� died and I went back to work,

because that's what we do.

But is it working?

I'm really asking.

I know you've worked
your asses off my entire life

and you didn't have time
for all that touchy-feely stuff,

but really, just once, for one second,

can we acknowledge that
something awful has happened?

No? You know, and all of this
was precipitated

by the repeated murder of
Black people by law enforcement,

but we're not gonna talk
about that, either, are we?

God, that's ridiculous.

You know, Breonna Taylor was killed.

She was a Black female first responder.

I'm a Black female first responder.

In another world,
that could have been me.

Tiny, circumstantial differences,

and that could have been me.
Do you get that?

And news of her death didn't even break

until two months after the fact,

because clearly, no one cared about it.

And I've spent the last three weeks

trying not to feel my feelings,

trying not to center myself
so that Miller and Sullivan

and Warren and... and...
And maybe even you, Dad,

maybe even you could feel your feelings.

But, you know,
I haven't been able to sleep

through the night since I heard
what happened to her.

I go to bed with a kitchen knife
in my nightstand,

which I know is outrageous
'cause a kitchen knife

is no match for a bullet,
but I need something,

just anything,
to help me feel safe at night.

But of course, you wouldn't know that,

because you haven't...

You'd have to have checked in on me

even once in the last I...

God, I don't even know how long.

But you know what? Even if you
had checked in on me,

I probably would have pretended
everything's fine

because bizarrely... Bizarrely,

that's what we do in this family.

And I just... I honestly...
I just don't...

I don't think
it's working for me anymore.

I am sick and I am sad...

and, Dad, I'm... I'm scared.

And I don't know how you're not.

We are.

I am.

Where's the engine?

It was Hughes' family restaurant.

They stayed back for overhaul.

Oh, hell. W-Were you able to save it?

Some. Not much.

Ugh. I'm starving.

As soon as we're done cleaning up,

I'm gonna make a massive pot
of chicken tikka masala.

You know it's 3:30
in the morning, right?

And since when do you cook Indian food?

And is curry really what anyone
wants at 3:30 in the morning?

Okay, A... it was Hughes' and
Montgomery's night for dinner.

B... it's a jarred sauce
you just pour over the chicken,

like pasta sauce.

And C... who cares what time it is

when you're so hungry
your stomach growls

are drowning out the sirens?

She isn't lying. I could hear it.

Okay, you were sitting so far away.

Your stomach growls louder
than Carina's,

which I didn't think was possible.

Well, I need a shower and some sleep.

Cool. I want that for you.

I want chicken tikka masala,

and then maybe a shower and then sleep.

- Ooh, I could eat.
- Yeah.

- Yep.
- Oh, here you go.

You found a buddy
for your food adventure.

I'm going to bed.

Get out of here.

No.

No.

What? What's up?

The city e-mailed me earlier.

They are pulling our permit
for the medical tent.

- They can do that?
- They just did.

Apparently, tensions are too high

and the city wants
to present a united front.

They don't want SFD to appear to
be on a different side than PD.

The side of helping people?

That's bull.

We should go anyway.

- We can't.
- Can't or won't?

Can't.

I'll be in the kitchen.

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_

_

Okay, all clear.

Hey.

Thought you could use some help,

or, you know, someone
that can break more things.

Oh. Um, I can go.

No, don't. You can help me
board up some windows.

Thank you.

What?

Nothing.

I just remember how you used
to sit in that exact spot

when you were a little girl.

You were so tiny

your chin would touch the table.

I just can't believe
our little girl grew up

to become so strong and self-sufficient.

Well, necessity is the mother
of invention, right?

It was a compliment, Victoria.

- Hey. Hey, hey.
- Slow down.

- No, no, no.
- Whoa, whoa, whoa!

We're putting together a story

about last night's
violent protests turned riot.

- Hey.
- Okay, hey, guys, now is not the time.

Just a quick comment for local news.

We're trying to keep the city
informed of what's...

My friend already told you.

Sir, are you the owner
of this establishment?

The smoke hasn't even cleared yet, dude.

- Hey. Hey!
- You can't... Excuse me, excuse me!

You all must be horrified
that a neighborhood mainstay

and small family business
was destroyed by protesters.

- Rioters.
- Exactly.

Rioters terrorizing our city,

costing our taxpayer dollars,

all in the name of a movement
that cares nothing about them.

- What?
- Care to comment?

Bro, you need to go.

Yeah. Our comment is let it burn.

'Cause justice needs to be served,

and if this is what it takes
to make people care

and make those officers
to held accountable

and any officer who did it in any city

who allow it to do to make accountable,

then let it burn.

What about the property

- that's been damaged...
- Okay. Okay.

Nah, property does not equal life.

I mean, you can rebuild a restaurant,

but you can't bring back
somebody who's been killed.

So, if you're asking, if you're...

If you're positing that society
should be more upset

by the value of property
than... than murder,

I think you need to reevaluate

how you're walking through this world.

Being scandalized by property damage,

but not the taking of a human life?

That's a problem. That's a problem, sir.

You're simply fine with your business

being burned to the ground?

You know what? Okay. As my parents said,

this isn't actually
about our restaurant,

this is...

This is about the people
whose lives were taken.

They were taken from
their families who loved them

and cared about them
and who they cared about.

This is about justice for Breonna Taylor

and George Floyd
and Charleena Lyles and...

And Manny Ellis and Michael Brown,

India Kager, and Atatiana Jefferson.

And Sandra Bland.

And Tamir Rice and Rekia Boyd.

And Alton Sterling and Freddie Grey

and Tarika Wilson and Eric Garner

and Janisha Fonville
and Philando Castile

and Korryn Gaines and Tony McDade

and Tanisha Anderson and Elijah McClain

and Bettie Jones, Quintonio LeGrier,

and Kathryn Johnston and Javier Ambler

and Yvette Smith and Jamar Clark...

Well, it looks like curry.
Smells like low tide.

Okay, well, Hughes and Montgomery

left a bowl of clams
or something in the sink

when we got the call.

Ew.

I...

Mm.

That is the worst thing
you've ever made,

and you've made some doozies.

- Oh. Oh.
- Some bad ones.

- Yeah.
- Okay, well, I guess

I was rolling the dice

with bottled "Bombay Blend."

That's probably a problematic name, too.

No, you know, just
because of, like, colonization

and... I don't know.

Ah, Gibson's getting woke, huh?

I'm trying to understand all this stuff.

Like, how can law enforcement
become trustworthy,

become a force for good

if it's not willing to acknowledge

its, you know, history?

And with that history,
why is, like, reform

or, like, unconscious bias training,

you know, such
a controversial conversation?

It just doesn't make any sense.
That's all I'm saying.

Well, yeah.

And then that kid asked
what side we were on.

Yeah, well, that kid was an idiot.

Yeah, true. Okay, fine.

But... not wrong.

And then he said,
"Why not just leave him there?"

Well, that's not what we do.
We're firefighters.

Yeah, I just feel like...

Maybe I'm most comfortable
in, like, crisis mode,

and if there's not a crisis, then...

I don't know. I feel like
I'm not good for anything.

Oh. Oh, got it.

This has nothing to do with the kid.

Are we talking about Inara?

No.

No, it's nothing. I'm fine.

- Come on. Spit it out.
- No, I'm fine. It's good.

Alright, when Inara and I met,

it was all about getting her
away from the abusive ex, right?

And then we'd become a thing,

and Marsha, you know,
ends up in the hospital,

and then there was
always something, you know?

I was protecting her,
taking care of her.

Yeah.

And then Marsha gets well
and everything is calm,

and then...

It's fine.

Um... a girl needs more than fine.

What is all this?

Your accomplishments.

Your professional accomplishments.

The other stuff is over there.

It's like my whole life's in here.

I've never even seen some of these.

Well, how would you?

You're hardly even here anymore,

and when you are, you just grab
your pierogies and go.

And since your dad and I spend
all this time without you,

we brought as much of you
as we could here.

I watched an interview
with Breonna Taylor's mother.

Couldn't sleep for a week.

I know I could never truly understand

what it's like for you
to navigate this world

as a Black woman,

and I wouldn't even pretend
that I could.

I've experienced even nothing
remotely similar to this,

but what I do understand

is being the mother of a Black daughter.

You don't think I know you
could've been Breonna Taylor?

I'm your mother.

This is what I've always known.

I've known since you were five,

and a cashier accused you
of stealing the candy,

the one I just bought you.

I've known since you were 11,
coming home from school,

crying because the girls at school

wouldn't stop touching your hair.

I've known
since before you were even born,

when my parents kicked me
out of the family

for marrying a Black man

and refused to meet
my perfect little girl.

Lenya, would you come help me please?

- Just a second!
- Just a second.

It's gonna fall!

Looks like you kicked some ass tonight.

Getting Vic's parents
out of the restaurant.

You saved them.

Just doing my job.

Yeah.

Hey, I'm sorry.

I know I don't have a right
to apologize to you,

but I'm sorry.

And I'll never not be sorry.

So... you just need to know that.

I'm gonna go start on the other window.

Hey, Ruiz?

Thank you.

Hey, you good?

Oh, just... Just tired.

Well, we've been up all night
and now you're on a treadmill,

so that makes sense.

Look, it's terrible.

You get no argument from me.

See, even just that sucks.

Not what you're saying. Just...

I know we're on the same page.

It's just getting shut down
over and over again

when you're just trying
to do right by people.

It's... It's a lot, it's heavy,
and it hurts.

And it feels like
there's just no winning.

First there was the lawsuit.

Everybody says it was just
to get eyeballs on the issue,

an issue that we can't win,

and now, it's the medical tent.

So, somebody suddenly says
we're not FD sanctioned,

so we just...

I guess it's just okay
that we just intended to go.

Right. Totally.

Why don't we still go tomorrow?

So we're not sanctioned.

Our paramedic training
doesn't get taken away.

We go as civilians.

Civilians who have medical training?

- Mm-hmm.
- Civilians who have medical training

who... who also stopped
by the drugstore first,

pick up first aid supplies,
pallets of water.

Who set up a table
where other civilians can come

if they need medical assistance.

Who also borrow some stuff from here?

Just... Just stuff that we can't get

from the drugstore, you know?

Like oxygen tanks.

Maybe stuff like that?

As your captain, I didn't hear
a word of that.

But civilian Maya likes
people being resourceful.

Captain.

Yeah?

I don't mean to come off
as disrespectful

or out of line or... Or anything,

but...

we need some joy.

We need some fun around here,

and I, for one, need to dance.

This body is too good not to dance.

So, have a wedding.

Have a wedding for 19.

Mom, why didn't you tell me
about your family?

Wasn't your burden to bear.

I knew so many were going to be
already thrust upon you

no matter what we did.

No matter what kind of life
we were trying to give you,

we just didn't want to add to the pile.

Listen.

I know I was not always there for you

when you were growing up,

but it was in service of the
life we were trying to give you.

The life we needed to give you.

I didn't know you didn't know, Vic...

Mom.

...but we were always
thinking about you.

I am always thinking about you.

Mom!

Ah. That's a Greek tradition.

When you have a good meal,

a good connection in a restaurant,

you smash the plates.

A Greek regular who used
to come here many years ago

told me that it actually started
as a death ritual.

The voluntary breaking of the plates,

a type of controlled loss,

it helps people deal with
the deaths of their loved ones.

- Hmm.
- The loss they couldn't control,

to celebrate the dead

and to honor the pain of the living.

Hmm?

Yes.

Yes!

Alright, come on, Dad. Let's do this.

- Come on, honey.
- Let's do it.

Okay. Alright, ready?

Three, two...

Whoo!

Is everything okay?

Yeah. Yeah.

I guess so. Or it will be.

Here. Smash.

- Do it.
- Do it.

Welcome.

Go for it.

Do it. Do it.

Whoo!

Oh. Okay.

Now help us clean it up.

Yeah, right.

No, I'm totally serious.
You have to help us now.

- Yeah.
- That felt good.

Good.