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We are having a baby.

Morning, Shaun.

Were you
watching me sleep?

Yes.

Hmm.

We are having a baby.

Mm.

And that baby
is making me feel

like I ate
three-month-old sushi.

Good morning, berry.

Why are you making Mommy
feel this way?

Are we naming it Berry?

For now,
because he's the size
of a blueberry.

I can just picture
your face

on a little
blueberry-sized baby.

At week seven,
the fetus has developed
webbed hands and feet,

and you have started
to form a mucus plug.

Ooh, your breath
is killing me, Shaun.

I brushed my teeth twice
because I thought
we might have sex.

The mint from the...
The toothpaste is, um...

It's... Mm-mm.

****

Stop smirking like
you're picturing me naked.

Don't have to picture it.
Saw it already.

You're running a little late.
Did I keep you up
too long last night?

Don't flatter yourself.

I'm not late,
and it wasn't that long.

What are you doing?

Shielding us
from the rain.

What do you think this is,
The Notebook?

It's raining,
and I shared my umbrella.

Having sex
doesn't make us a thing.

We need to make
clear boundaries.

I don't need
romantic gestures
from you.

I shared my umbrella.
I didn't propose.

But I hear your message
loud and clear.

You hate me,
I hate you.

See you tonight?

Can I help you?

Hello, Claire.

My name's Miles Browne.

I'm...

Your father.

What are you
doing here?

I've owed you a lot of answers
for a long time, and...

Go home.

Um, whoa.
I just, uh...

Well... Well, I wish
I... I was a... A better...

Um, uh...

I don't want you to...

Can you lift your arms?

Uh...
Keep them up.

Okay. Repeat after me.

"Don't cry
over spilled milk."

D-Don't...

F-fry...

Oh.

We need to get you
to the hospital.

I think
you're having a stroke.

The quickstep
is my nemesis.

I lost my footing and landed
on a 90-year-old judge

with very sharp elbows.

And he insisted I come in
even though I'm fine.

Just a little sore.

Yeah, but Maya's
"a little sore"

is a normal person's
excruciating.

Take the compliment, babe.

You're shivering.

The abdomen is tense
and distended.

She's hypotensive.

We need to do
an ultrasound

to check for
acute abdominal injury.

I'm fine.

When did you start
feeling lightheaded?

About an hour ago.

There is significant pressure
in the abdominal contents.

What does that mean?

She has
a retroperitoneal bleed.

We need to get you
into surgery right away.

****

Hi, Mr. Browne.

I'm Dr. Allen.

This is Dr. Park.

How are you feeling?

Much better.

I see where Claire
gets her good looks.

BP looks good.
124 over 83.

Have you had
these symptoms before?

Happens sometimes
when I get migraines.

Migraines come
when I'm stressed.

Don't cry
over spilled milk.

Look, I don't want to take up
too much of your time,

but is it possible we can
go somewhere quiet and talk?

Maybe we could
grab a coffee
or dessert.

You know, you used to love
rocky road ice cream.

Is that still
your favorite flavor?

You just had a major
neurological event.

We need to run some CT scans
to identify the cause.

- Found the bleeder.
- Clamp.

Need to open up the
retroperitoneal space
and pack.

BP's still dropping.

She's not clotting.

She have any history
of hemophilia
or bleeding disorder?

No.
Push FFP, TXA
and fibrinogen.

Pack more lap pads
and evacuate the hematoma.

Pressure's rising.

This young lady almost died

from a collision
with an elbow.

There must be something else
going on here.

Find out what it is.

We'll start by scanning
your abdomen.

I'll help you up
on the bed.

You were right.

It wasn't a migraine.

I have terminal cancer.

****

His oncologist
started him on chemo.

It shrunk the tumor,
but Miles didn't finish it.

The location
of the metastases

still likely leaves it
inoperable.

I don't know.

If we use transcatheter

hepatic artery
chemoembolization,

we might be able to attack
the tumor and spare his liver.

Claire? What do you think?

It's the patient's
decision.

You should
take it to him.

Let him decide.

You have abnormally
large platelets.

It's a rare condition called
Bernard-Soulier syndrome,

which makes it very difficult
for your blood to clot.

It's why you almost bled out
during surgery.

Is it treatable?
Will she be okay?

There's no cure,
but it is manageable.

Keep an eye out
for pain or bruising

or any other symptoms
that don't go away.

That can be a sign
of a larger problem.

It's just
a pulled muscle.

You don't know that.

My left leg has been
bothering me for a few weeks.

Months.

I'm not overreacting.

****

We'll need to run CTs
of your hip and femur

to rule out osteoarthritis
or an occult fracture.

****

How does that feel?
Weird.

Oh.
Better?

Sure.

Why do I need this?

Back pain is
a common symptom
of pregnancy.

It's preventative.

You should take these twice
a day with food or milk,

preferably food.

I already have
prenatal vitamins.

You have the chewable
gummy kind.

Tablets are better
for the fetus.

Will you please stop
calling it a fetus?

It is a fetus.

It's our baby.

I don't need you
to do any of this, Shaun.

What do you
need me to do?

Just be the dad,
not the doctor.

Do you think
I'm gonna drink this?

What's in it?

Urine? Saliva?
Tropical fish?

Coffee.

Dr. Park, need to talk to you
about our implant patient.

Let's do an additional
split-thickness skin graft.

That's a pretty long
and complicated procedure.
Mm-hmm.

If you're gonna scrub in,
you'll probably need the
caffeine more than I do.

I hear you've been keeping
some pretty late nights.

Too much caffeine
before surgery
leads to unsteady hands.

I can assure you,
I'm well-rested.

I don't need the coffee.

****

Your father
refused surgery.

His slurred speech
was a side effect of chemo.

Treatment
almost took him out.

He doesn't want
to try again.

Thanks for
letting me know.

****

I know a lot of girls
who didn't have their fathers,

but yours did something
theirs didn't.

He came back.

He came back
to absolve himself of guilt.

It's a gift
I'm not giving him.

That's his burden to carry.

Forgiveness isn't for
the one you're forgiving.

It's for you.

It's Miles.

His liver's bleeding.

Go.

****

They seem like
a very nice couple.

Very... Connected.

I wish I knew
how to be like that.

They're not a couple.

Leo's gay.

Can gay people really
detect other gay people?

You can if you check out
their Instagram.

Dr. Murphy...

I don't think
she has arthritis,

but I don't know
what this is.

Her disorder
caused blood-filled
pseudotumors in her leg.

The blood
ate away her bone.

Your liver
was bleeding

because your tumor
exceeded its blood supply.

It puts you at risk
for serious complications,

even a fatal one.

Please reconsider
the surgery.

I'm not afraid
of dying.

Where's my daughter?
Why isn't she here
telling me any of this?

****

I think it's time
for me to go home.

What about
3-D-printed scaffolding?

We could re-create
the shape of the bone,
graft new stem cells,

and allograft onto it
to generate new growth.

Her underlying disorder
would eat away the new bone.

Everything I do upsets Lea
and makes her mad at me.

Oh. That's what
I'm doing here,
I'm guessing?

Mm-hmm. Yes.

You're both here
because I have
two questions.

When I tell my patient
her femur bone is destroyed,

she is going to ask
if I can save her leg,

and I don't have
an answer to that.

Lea and I are in love.
We're going to have a baby.

We should feel
very happy right now,

but I feel like I'm living
with a stranger

who doesn't want me
to breathe on them.

We could do
an expandable

osseointegrated
limb replacement.

Too risky.
Too many surgeries, yeah.

Well, you're gonna
have a kid, Shaun.

You... You can't
expect everything
to be the same.

Lea's going through
a whole lot of changes.

You both are.

N-No, I'm the same.

Well, maybe that's
the problem, Shaun.

You're in a relationship
with three people now.

You're gonna have to
make some adjustments.

Both of you.

Okay.

We could use
high-density polyethylene

on the distal femoral segment
to anchor it to the tendons.

I don't like adjusting.

****

You wanted to see me?

If we discharge him,
he's going to die.

I don't expect you would
feel anything but contempt
for Miles.

He was supposed to
take care of you,
and he didn't.

And now I'm asking you
to do for him what
he never did for you.

No, he did
take care of me.

He just quit.

He used to pick me up
every day after school.

And then, one day,
he just stopped showing up.

And for years after,
I would come home,

I'd make sure the curtains
were open, and I'd wait.

If a car slowed down
in front of the house,

I'd imagine it was him
coming to grab me up
and rescue me,

and I thought
if I wanted it enough,
he'd come back.

So I just... I just had to
want it more, you know?

And finally, I gave up.
I stopped looking
out the window.

I grieved and buried
my father a long time ago,
and I'm just...

I'm not interested
in getting to know him

just to grieve him
all over again.

But he's still your father,
and you're still you.

Some day you'll hate yourself
if you turn your back on him.

****

We would secure
the titanium prosthetic

to the hip socket and tibia

using cement augmentation
for stability and support.

You would have
full flexibility
and range of motion,

and with physical therapy,
you should be able
to dance again.

If you survive the surgery.

I could die?
Yes.

There is
a 10% to 15% chance,
approximately.

Femur replacement is
a very complicated procedure,

made even riskier by
your underlying condition.

The safest route
is to amputate.

Very little chance
of major complication
during surgery,

and there have been great
advancements in prosthetics.

My dance career
would be over.

Most likely, but you would
still have your life.

My life is dance.

I...

Do whatever it takes
to save the leg.

Oh, My.

It's too big a risk.

You know
what this means to me.

Hey.

But if there's a chance
I could die tomorrow,

there's something
I have to do first.

** Maybe I played
My cards wrong

** Oh, just a little bit wrong

** Oh, baby, I-I-I

** Apologize for it

** I could fall, or I could fly

** Here in your aeroplane

** And I could live

** I could die hanging
On the words you say

** And I've been known
To give my all

** Sitting back

** Looking at every mess
That I've made

** So don't call me baby

** Unless you mean it...

It is very hard to believe
these two are not having sex.

** If you don't believe it

** Let me know the truth

** Before I dive
Right into you

** Before I dive
Right into you

** Before I dive
Right into you **

****

You should
come over tonight.

Unless you need to
rest up for your
Franken-penis surgery.

You embarrassed me
in front of a superior.

Did you get fired?

Did you get pulled
off the surgery?

I was just getting you back
for giving me
that rancid coffee.

It was coffee.

Plain coffee
with one cream
and one sugar,

the exact coffee
I've seen you have

every day
for the last three years.

I was being nice.

Same reason
I put an umbrella
over your gigantic head.

I was being
a decent human being.

When did we start
doing that?

How was I supposed to know
you didn't dose my coffee?

Because I'm not an emotionally
stunted person. You are.

Anything that
resembles intimacy
freaks you out,

and you start
throwing blows...
Low ones.

And if hooking up causes you
to cross boundaries like that,

it's better to go back
to the way things were.

Barely friends, no benefits.

****

You're in love with him.

Aren't you?

Is that why you're
having the surgery?

You're afraid that if you
lose dance, you lose him?

You are risking your life
to save something that...

Isn't real.

Leo and I
share a life together.

We're partners
in every sense
of the word...

Except one.

My best friend growing up
was a girl named Rachel.

She and I lived in
a very religious community,

so it was kind of assumed
we'd get married.

Which was fine with me,
because Rachel was...

Beautiful...

And smart and funny.

And I loved her.

But then I fell in love
with the boy down the street.

He never knew.
Nothing ever happened
between us.

But it's like
all of a sudden,

the world...

Lit up.

And I realized
Rachel and I wasn't enough.

I had been lying to myself
and to her.

She deserved to be loved
and wanted in a way that...

Lit up someone's world.

And she spent years
loving someone

who could never
give her that.

You need to tell Leo
how you feel.

****

We share our secrets,
our pain.

He listens to me
when I've had a bad day.

He holds me
when I'm scared.

****

I don't want anything
to change between us.

** I swear to God
When I come home

** I'm gonna hold you so close

** I swear to God
When I come home

** I'll never let go...

Would you like me
to spin you?

Okay.

** Like a river, I flow...

Okay.

** To the ocean I know...

Ow.

** Guiding me home...

Okay, the s-swaying
is making me feel
really pukey right now.

Can we maybe try this
at another time?

Ooh.

** We're fallin' like the stars

** Falling in love **

I feel...

Disconnected from you
and the baby, which...

Yes, you are very
connected to already,

but I don't
feel anything.

Because it is
not a baby yet.

It is a fetus, and...

It is making
my girlfriend sick
and mad at me.

And I feel very...

Alone.

****

You are being so...

Selfish.

I'm growing your baby,
Shaun,

and reading books
and making appointments

and taking vitamins
the size of my face

and working
a full-time job.

And on top of that,
you just dropped on me

that you don't feel
anything for our baby

and expect me
to make you feel love
and connected and...

Mm. No. You know...

Dr. Lim suggested
I come talk to you.

I know you deserve
better than me.

You deserved a father,
and I failed you,

and I can't
make up for that.

Breeze and I were
high school sweethearts.

We thought we were
gonna take over
the world together.

We were young
and naive and stupid.

And we got pregnant
before graduation.

I had a scholarship
to Howard,

but it didn't cover
family housing.

So I gave it up,
because I wanted
to be there.

And yet, you left the family
you gave it up for.

You should have taken
the scholarship.

We got married,
and we gave it
a go for a while.

But I could not handle
Breeze's mental illness.

When we broke up,
she made it hard
to see you.

Don't blame her
for what you didn't do.

I am not blaming her.

I was immature.

At least she was there.

At least
she stuck around...

Drunk and sick
and out of her mind.

I... I waited for you,
and I loved you,
and you left.

Claire,
I've always loved you.

Nothing
could change that.

I thought about you
every single day.

You know, I don't care.

Thinking about me
wasn't enough.

It didn't do anything
for me at all.

You...

You could have
fought for me.

You could have come back
before now.

I ran away.

I was a coward.

And I stayed away
because I was running
from my own guilt.

****

Whether I'm in your life
or not, you should
get the surgery.

Because if you don't...

Then you're still
a coward.

****

I feel scared, too.

What are you
scared of?

Everything.

And I don't want
to go through this alone.

I don't want
to go through nine months

knowing you
view this baby

as a medical condition
you don't feel anything for.

I'll resent you.

And that scares me
more than anything.

And I want to help you
feel connected.

Oh, no, sorry.
We're not having
sex right now.

I realize
that was misleading.

I want you to put your head
on my belly and talk to Berry.

About what?

Anything.

****

Hello...

Berry.

My patient is a 26-year-old

ballroom dancer

with Bernard-Soulier syndrome.

She presented with
a retroperitoneal bleed

but now needs

a total femur replacement.

It is a very risky surgery.

I am your father,

and I am a surgeon.

Did that
make you feel better
to talk to him?

No.

A fetus
can't hear any sounds
until 18 weeks,

and we don't know
if it's a him yet

because it doesn't have
fully formed genitals.

I will see you at
your appointment later.

I don't think
you should come.

There's a chance
it's too early
to hear a heartbeat,

which will make me
feel sad and scared.

And if I can hear it,
I will feel happy.

And either way, you will
probably feel nothing.

And that'll make me feel
more alone than I already do,

so you should
just not come.

Okay.

****

****

Isn't it possible
Leo loves Maya
as much as she loves him?

Does it matter that he doesn't
want to have sex with her?

Sex isn't just
about sex.

It's about intimacy
and desire

and a deep mutual
physical connection.

And she thinks
she has that.

That's the last
of the proximal femur.

Let's get
the distal end out.

Maybe Maya and Leo have
such a strong relationship

because it's based entirely
on an emotional connection.

She's hypotensive.

There are secretions
around her breathing tube,

and her oxygen levels
are dropping.

She's rejecting
the platelets.

Stop the transfusion.

Increase her oxygen
and respiratory support.

Start dopamine
and epinephrine.

BP's 87 over 52.
She's stabilizing.

But without
the transfusions,

her risk of bleeding out
goes way up.

Are we going
to move forward
or amputate?

Her partner's
her proxy, right?

He's got a decision
to make.

My God.

She trusted me
to protect her wishes.

And she wants to dance.

Y-You should try
to save her leg.

****

Maya's in love with you.

That's why she's having
the surgery.

She thinks if she loses dance,
your relationship will end.

And only you know
if she's right.

If she is...

If losing her leg means
losing the two things
she loves most,

then maybe you should
honor her wishes.

But if she's wrong...

If you do love her
and will stay with her
no matter what,

then you should do whatever
it takes to save her life.

Of course I love her.

There's no question
that I love her.

So,
the only question is...

How much?

Miles is stable.

But we found significant
polyp burden not detected
on his CT,

and we sent to biopsies.

His cancer was caused
by familial adenomatous
polyposis.

That's genetic.

50% chance
of carrying the gene

if you have
an affected parent.

You need to get
a genetic test.

Even if you have the gene,

with regular colonoscopies,
we'll be able to catch it...

Thank you.

What's this?

Male, late 20s.

Needs bilateral
carpal tunnel
release surgery

that he got playing
in the United States
Chess Federation.

You like to play chess
with Kellan.

Your game sucks.
Figured you might
learn something.

****

This is you
being a decent human.

Maybe sometimes
it's not terrible.

This is delightful.

I can give it
to someone else.

Thanks.

****

Are you glad you went to see
your father before he died?

No.

My father hurt me.

He was a bad man
who did bad things.

I already knew that.

My father hurt me, too...
By leaving me.

He didn't even try
to be a good dad.

How can you be sure
he didn't?

Maybe he did try
and he couldn't.

Well, if something
is important to you,
you make it happen.

But what if you can't?

What if you're trying
to connect with your child

and it just doesn't work?

It is difficult
to feel something

for someone
you don't know yet.

Do you want to know what kind
of man your father is?

****

Why... Why would you
do this to me?

I told you I was
willing to take the risk.

I wasn't.

I love you.
I couldn't risk your life.

I'm so sorry.

But I'm here.

I'm not going anywhere.

You're not
gonna lose me.

We're gonna
get through this, My.

We'll be okay.

I sleep all the time
and I'm still tired.

When was your last
bowel movement?

I don't know.
A couple days.

Shaun, what are you
doing here?

Smile.
Uh, what?

There is something
in your teeth.

Shaun.

Do you eat a lot
of black licorice?

Uh, yes.
You should stop.

Eating too much black licorice
can lower potassium,

which causes fatigue
and constipation.

Stop eating it.

That's it?

Yes.

****

Lea doesn't want me
at her OB-GYN appointment.

There's a woman
in the waiting room

with a very
interesting mole.

The year Maddie was born,

I took on
twice as many surgeries.

I...
I hid at the hospital.

I was afraid that I was
gonna piss off my wife.

Sound familiar?

Upset my daughter.

I thought you liked
being a dad.

I did. I...

I just didn't think
I was very good at it. I...

It didn't come
naturally to me.
Not like...

Not like brain surgery.

I missed a lot.

Sometimes I think
if I had been there
for the swaddling

and for the changing
of the diapers and...

See her first steps,
you know?

Shaun,
do yourself a favor

and be there
for as many moments
as you can.

****

****

Taking the scenic route?

Car needs brakes
and Uber's taking forever.

Chess guy's super cool.

He's gonna teach me
Petrov's Defense
while he heals.

I didn't mean to take things
so far in front of Andrews.

I guess I had
a tiny overreaction.

It's okay for us to be nice
to each other... Sometimes.

Headed home?

I wouldn't
mind some company,
if you're up for it.

See?

Nice is good.

Sometimes.

I'll see you
at your place.

****

Where's Leo?

I don't know.

I asked him if this
could be enough.

If I could be...

He loves me.

I knew that.

But not enough.

I suppose
I knew that too.

As long as he was here,
I would never make room
for anyone else.

So I asked him to go.

****

I'm sorry.

It's okay.

I'm sure there are a ton
of great guys

who'd want to be
with a one-legged,

unemployed former dancer
with chronic nosebleeds.

****

****

I've been mad at you
for so long.

I...

That I couldn't feel
any other emotion.

Just anger.

Angry at you.

Angry at myself
for secretly wishing

you would turn up
on my doorstep
my entire life.

I thought
I'd outgrown it.

But when you went
into surgery today...

I didn't feel anger.

I felt...

Fear.

****

****

Get some rest.

When you feel better, you...

You can take me
for rocky road.

That is still
my favorite.

****

I love you.

****

Are you ready?

Mm-hmm.

You came.

Hello.

I'm Dr. Shaun Murphy.

I'm the dad.

Nice to meet you, Dad.

We just got started.

Where did you go
to medical school?
Shaun.

Her diploma
is not on the wall.

I would like to know.

Just be the dad.

Sit there, be quiet,
do nothing.

Is that the...

That's the heartbeat.

Right there.

We're having a baby.

****

We're having a baby.

****