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Previously, on
"New Amsterdam"...
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Somebody reported
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that you have a problem
with Adderall.
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You're asking me if I've
ever risked a patient's life
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because I'm stoned.
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Yeah, and you haven't
answered the question.
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What do you think
would happen
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if you stopped helping people?
Who would they see?
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They would see a corny, nerdy,
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fat, worthless nothing.
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All right, since you all
prescribe 79% of our opioids,
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I am giving you
one year
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to prescribe 79% less,
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and anyone who doesn't
will be fired.
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I think they're clean.
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The damage to his heart
was extensive.
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The virus also ravaged
the surrounding heart muscle.
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How bad?
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Even if you found the best
heart surgeon in the world,
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I'm not sure it'd be enough.
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Andrew Bird's
"Three White Horses" plays...
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♪ There'll be
three white horses ♪
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♪ All in a line ♪
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♪ There'll be
three white horses ♪
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♪ In a line ♪
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♪ Three white horses ♪
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♪ When you go that way ♪
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♪ You will need somebody ♪
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♪ When you come to die ♪
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♪ Don't dismiss it ♪
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♪ Like it's easy ♪
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♪ Tell me what's so easy ♪
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♪ About coming
to say goodbye? ♪
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♪ You're gonna miss her ♪
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♪ In the evening ♪
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- Hey.
- Yeah?
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Dr. Reynolds.
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I used to work here.
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Hospital ID?
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No, but I should be
in the system.
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♪ There'll be
three white horses ♪
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Oh, thank you.
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♪ When you go that way ♪
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♪ You will need somebody ♪
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♪ When you come to die ♪
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♪ It's not desperation ♪
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♪ That we're breeding ♪
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♪ It's just
a need we're feeding ♪
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♪ Before you say goodbye ♪
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♪ You're gonna miss me ♪
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♪ In the evening ♪
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♪ Somebody when you
come to die ♪
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♪ You know all you need is ♪
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♪ Somebody when you ♪
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♪ Come to die ♪
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So?
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I can't operate.
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*NEW AMSTERDAM (2018)*
Season 03 Episode 02
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Episode Title: "Essential Workers"
Aired on: March 09, 2021
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Here's Vijay's cardiac echo.
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- What do you mean "can't operate"?
- His mitral valve, it's
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greater
than 60% regurgitation.
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- That's secondary to a ruptured
- I didn't fly you out here
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- papillary muscle.
- To not operate.
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Listen, his EF is under 20%.
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These numbers aren't even
compatible with life.
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Right, which is exactly why
you need to fix the valve.
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I can't fix it
because the virus has damaged
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the heart muscle
around the valve.
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There's nothing to sew
a new valve into.
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Doing nothing
sn't an option.
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I didn't say
I was doing nothing.
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- Look, I'm gonna use a catheter.
- TAVR?
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All right,
I'm gonna place
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- a clip...
- A clip?
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Into the mitral's weakened
area... that should fix it.
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- He's dying, Floyd.
- He needs surgery.
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Okay, look, you brought me
here because of my expertise,
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and because you trust me.
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Right now my expertise
is saying this.
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I gotta go.
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What happened to
"How can I help?"
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- The virus hit us hard.
- Nothing's the same.
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My hospital had three.
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Three what?
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Only three deaths.
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I feel guilty just saying it.
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- Don't.
- You were spared.
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I wish we were.
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Especially Lauren.
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It hit her the worst.
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- Candelario's on!
- Dr. Bloom, it's Gladys.
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- Get Candelario!
- It's about Iggy.
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I'm on my way out.
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He's sweaty,
wobbly on his feet.
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Did he take
a COVID test?
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PCR came back negative,
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but he can hardly stand.
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Ig?
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- Hey.
- Hey.
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What brings you down to the...
Ooh.
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- Aw, God, Gladys was right.
- You gotta go home.
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No, I just...
I stood up too fast.
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- I got a head rush.
- You're valor is noted,
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but if you've got the flu,
you gotta go.
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I don't have the flu,
I'm just... I'm tired.
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You're color's not great.
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Lauren, if I feel
anything flu‐y, I'll, uh...
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Hey.
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- I'll page you.
- Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
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Hey, come on, come on.
Sit down.
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- Sit down.
- No, no, I'm fine.
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I just... I haven't eaten.
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Since when?
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- Hey.
- How many meals?
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How many days?
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Two.
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Maybe three.
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Hi.
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I thought you might enjoy
a full‐bodied Ethiopian roast,
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carefully wrapped
for contactless delivery,
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- as an apology.
- None needed.
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I'll take the coffee,
but keep the apology.
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Um, look, all of this, um,
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being close bodies
and trusting, normal,
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it's kinda like
I don't remember
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how to do
any of it anymore.
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I get it,
if that's what it is.
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What do you mean?
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I mean, there's no reason
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to force something
that's not there anymore.
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No, it's not‐that's not it.
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Are you sure?
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It's okay, Helen.
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COVID took away
a lot of things.
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We focus here
on the lives lost,
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but there were other casualties.
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See you around.
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- It's all I know right now.
- I'm sorry.
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I know, but Dr. Kapoor
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was supposed to be
in the OR hours ago.
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So that can't be good,
right?
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I know it's hard
to wait.
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As soon as I have an update,
I will let you know.
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Hi, Ella, I'm Dr. Sharpe,
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one of Vijay's colleagues.
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Of course, Double French
Roast with a splash of agave.
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Yep.
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I'm sorry
I'm not standing.
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I just... I'm worried that
if I get out of this chair,
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Vijay's gonna die
during surgery.
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I have OCD,
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and my irrational thoughts
won this round.
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It happens.
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Ah, I wish it hadn't
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because sitting is making
my leg cramps worse.
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I stretch, but they just
keep coming back.
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How long has that
been going on?
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Um, an hour or two?
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I woke up breathing better
for the first time in months,
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but my back gets hot
and now this.
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Although my pregnancy podcast
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said I was going to start
feeling confident and sexy.
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Ella, it sounds like
you're in labor.
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I got your page.
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We caught the guy
who's been pinching Oxy
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- from the dispensary.
- An orderly?
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- My name is Paul.
- Paul Argento.
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Been working here
for 13 months
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and stealing from you
just as long.
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You mind telling me why?
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Look, if we're using,
we can get you tre...
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They're not for me.
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Well, if you're
selling them...
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The... they're for my mom.
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She got diagnosed
with osteosarcoma a year ago.
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She used to be happy,
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but now the pain's killing her.
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She can't even walk her dog.
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The Oxy was helping,
but that idiot doctor of hers...
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He's been giving me
less and less for my pain.
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Told me
I had to be weaned off.
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And what is he giving you
as an alternative?
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Nothing.
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That's awful.
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Whoever was treating you
stops today.
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You're a patient
at New Amsterdam now.
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But my doctor
is at New Amsterdam.
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Brenna Argento.
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- I know her well.
- Stage three bone cancer.
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She can barely walk, and
yet you pulled her Oxy. Why?
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Because received a letter
from a Dr. Max Goodwin
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saying that if I didn't,
I'd be fired.
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No, for overprescribing,
needlessly, recklessly,
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but Brenna...
Who wasn't the type
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of patient you pictured
when you wrote it.
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This is what happens when
you needlessly and recklessly
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make a blanket policy without a
regard to individual patients.
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She is suffering.
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Of course she's suffering,
but not because of me.
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Because of you.
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Don't hang up!
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Because I want
whoever that is to know
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that I'm person
who killed you
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for reversing
this hospital's policy
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on limiting
opiate prescriptions.
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I am unmoved.
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Wow, okay, I gotta go.
Yeah, Daddy's in trouble.
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Love you.
Bye.
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Opioid prescriptions
at New Amsterdam are down 38%.
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We've won awards.
We're a national model.
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The Nyler family's
rightfully drowning
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in class‐action lawsuits.
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And yet,
deaths from narcotic overdoses
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are skyrocketing.
Know by how much?
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240%.
So mission accomplished?
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You instituted that policy.
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Yeah, to save lives, but that
policy was a blunt instrument
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that put paper over people.
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So you're denouncing your own
hugely successful policy?
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- Well, that's just it.
- It wasn't successful.
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Our books were clean, but
at the cost of hurting people
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who needed our help.
We have to do better.
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By returning
to the halcyon days
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when doled out highly addictive
drugs like Halloween candy?
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Karen, do you know what
it feels like to have bone cancer?
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- Oh, Max.
- It's like being stabbed
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over and over again
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all day long
with a serrated knife,
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and the only, the only thing,
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that is gonna ease
that excruciating pain
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is opioids.
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Those aren't my words.
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They're Brenna Argento's,
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a patient that we...
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that I let down.
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You don't convince me
opioids work.
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That was never the issue.
This was always about abuse.
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About ensuring the drugs
we send into the world
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aren't getting our patients
hooked or being sold
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or ending up in the wrong hands.
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You're absolutely right.
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I don't like it
when we're fighting,
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- and you agree with me.
- No, you're right.
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We can get opioids
to the people who need them
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and in quantities
that are in safe...
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Karen, yes!
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Sorry, forgot this
was my office.
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Uh, would you excuse me?
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Contractions are organized
and four minutes apart.
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It's official.
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What's official?
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Ella, you're gonna have
a baby today.
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Oh, no, that's impossible
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'cause my due date's
in three weeks.
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On a Friday.
And today's Tuesday.
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00:11:13,671 --> 00:11:16,596
And Dr. Richardson was gonna
delivery my baby.
258
00:11:16,700 --> 00:11:17,742
Well, looks like someone
259
00:11:17,827 --> 00:11:19,482
wants to crash this party early.
260
00:11:19,567 --> 00:11:21,307
I'll be covering for
Dr. Richardson all day,
261
00:11:21,392 --> 00:11:23,393
so I think we'll be seeing
a lot of each other.
262
00:11:23,941 --> 00:11:25,948
I'll be back in a bit
to check on your progress.
263
00:11:26,311 --> 00:11:28,271
Thank you.
264
00:11:30,531 --> 00:11:33,534
- This is not OCD.
- This is a relaxation exercise.
265
00:11:33,665 --> 00:11:35,624
- Good, you know, good.
- Relaxing is good.
266
00:11:35,708 --> 00:11:36,995
How is this happening?
267
00:11:37,132 --> 00:11:38,862
I am not ready for this.
268
00:11:39,597 --> 00:11:41,597
Is there someone that you
would like me to call?
269
00:11:41,682 --> 00:11:44,026
- Family, friends?
- No, there's only Vijay,
270
00:11:44,111 --> 00:11:45,967
and he promised
he'd be here for this.
271
00:11:46,052 --> 00:11:47,995
Um, okay, uh...
272
00:11:48,087 --> 00:11:50,760
Who... uh.
You could try my doula,
273
00:11:50,924 --> 00:11:52,745
but I think she's in Portland
this weekend
274
00:11:52,830 --> 00:11:55,332
for her great‐aunt's birthday,
so that feels like a dead end.
275
00:11:55,417 --> 00:11:57,502
I know a great doula here
at New Amsterdam.
276
00:11:57,587 --> 00:11:59,339
Has she been working with me
for the last 26 weeks
277
00:11:59,423 --> 00:12:02,285
on ways to manage my OCD
for this specific moment?
278
00:12:02,370 --> 00:12:04,307
Uh, no.
279
00:12:05,120 --> 00:12:08,370
- I had a plan.
- I had such a perfect plan.
280
00:12:09,034 --> 00:12:10,117
Oh.
281
00:12:10,260 --> 00:12:12,536
Surgical suite prep
to OR seven.
282
00:12:16,853 --> 00:12:18,021
Uh, Leela, hi.
283
00:12:18,106 --> 00:12:19,316
Can you clear
my afternoon please?
284
00:12:19,400 --> 00:12:21,026
No pagers, no patients.
Nothing.
285
00:12:21,111 --> 00:12:22,409
What are you doing?
286
00:12:23,729 --> 00:12:25,354
I'm kicking off a new plan.
287
00:12:28,854 --> 00:12:29,937
Okay.
288
00:12:30,567 --> 00:12:32,346
Well, your concern
is duly noted,
289
00:12:32,431 --> 00:12:35,801
but I don't need your help.
But thank you.
290
00:12:35,886 --> 00:12:37,304
You know your staff's noticed?
291
00:12:37,560 --> 00:12:39,761
I mean, even I can tell
you're weak on your feet,
292
00:12:39,846 --> 00:12:42,135
and you just admitted
to caloric restrictions
293
00:12:42,220 --> 00:12:43,804
spanning over 72 hours.
294
00:12:44,005 --> 00:12:45,651
It's a cleanse, Lauren.
295
00:12:45,987 --> 00:12:47,448
Really, I'm fine.
296
00:12:48,273 --> 00:12:49,982
You know you sound like
every first‐timer
297
00:12:50,074 --> 00:12:51,534
who's just been
dragged to rehab.
298
00:12:51,618 --> 00:12:53,702
Whatever it is
that you think this is,
299
00:12:53,909 --> 00:12:56,038
it isn't, and I don't
appreciate the accusation.
300
00:12:56,130 --> 00:12:57,893
Do you hide food?
301
00:12:58,948 --> 00:13:00,456
- Lauren...
- Sometimes people
302
00:13:00,541 --> 00:13:02,010
starve themselves
after a binge,
303
00:13:02,095 --> 00:13:04,230
and not for health reasons,
but because they feel ashamed.
304
00:13:04,314 --> 00:13:05,424
Well, it's not like that.
305
00:13:05,509 --> 00:13:07,594
Must be hard to hide
your stash at home
306
00:13:07,679 --> 00:13:09,926
what with Martin and the kids,
so where do you keep it?
307
00:13:10,011 --> 00:13:12,012
- Nowhere, I don't have a...
- Here in this office?
308
00:13:12,440 --> 00:13:13,893
No.
309
00:13:14,073 --> 00:13:15,783
Lauren, don't.
Don't.
310
00:13:20,104 --> 00:13:22,338
Oh, Iggy.
311
00:13:26,911 --> 00:13:28,496
- Hey.
- It's...
312
00:13:32,354 --> 00:13:34,565
The left atrium's
barely moving.
313
00:13:34,783 --> 00:13:36,868
COVID really did
a number on his heart.
314
00:13:37,038 --> 00:13:39,416
Vijay said he got it
here at New Amsterdam?
315
00:13:39,684 --> 00:13:42,352
- He's not the only one.
- Approaching the left atrium.
316
00:13:42,632 --> 00:13:43,823
You too?
317
00:13:43,961 --> 00:13:45,545
It was in the early days.
318
00:13:45,770 --> 00:13:49,106
I wore the same mask day and
night for two weeks straight.
319
00:13:49,191 --> 00:13:51,234
Then I was intubating a patient,
320
00:13:51,333 --> 00:13:53,041
got a focused blast
of exhaled air
321
00:13:53,126 --> 00:13:54,104
right in my face.
322
00:13:54,189 --> 00:13:56,556
I just felt the virus
coming through the mask.
323
00:13:56,948 --> 00:13:59,310
Sure enough, three days later,
cough, fever, headaches.
324
00:13:59,394 --> 00:14:01,901
- Yeah.
- Vijay.
325
00:14:02,009 --> 00:14:03,885
Why was he even here,
you know?
326
00:14:03,970 --> 00:14:07,306
I mean, his age, knowing
the risk, why even come in?
327
00:14:07,522 --> 00:14:09,652
- How could he not?
- Vitals are stable.
328
00:14:09,737 --> 00:14:12,143
We all felt a sense of duty,
329
00:14:12,407 --> 00:14:13,956
of pride even.
330
00:14:22,775 --> 00:14:23,956
- What's that?
- You can't...
331
00:14:24,041 --> 00:14:26,112
Ah, sorry about that.
332
00:14:26,948 --> 00:14:28,341
Hi, again.
333
00:14:28,426 --> 00:14:31,887
There are quite a few of you
on this call,
334
00:14:32,129 --> 00:14:33,901
and, well, you all have
something in common,
335
00:14:33,986 --> 00:14:35,666
and that's that
you are all victims
336
00:14:35,751 --> 00:14:36,877
of New Amsterdam's
337
00:14:36,964 --> 00:14:39,237
opioid policy
that kept pain meds
338
00:14:39,534 --> 00:14:41,352
from the people
who need them the most.
339
00:14:41,436 --> 00:14:42,752
We failed you
340
00:14:42,837 --> 00:14:45,174
in the most fundamental way
341
00:14:45,272 --> 00:14:46,856
a hospital can.
342
00:14:46,941 --> 00:14:48,784
You came to us in pain,
343
00:14:49,126 --> 00:14:52,362
you asked for our help,
and we said no.
344
00:14:52,549 --> 00:14:54,112
And what's worse,
345
00:14:54,483 --> 00:14:56,135
is we shamed you for asking.
346
00:14:57,428 --> 00:14:59,393
So I'm here to apologize
347
00:14:59,841 --> 00:15:03,049
and to tell you
that that cruel policy
348
00:15:03,190 --> 00:15:04,899
ends now.
349
00:15:06,128 --> 00:15:07,045
Yes!
350
00:15:07,129 --> 00:15:07,854
Finally.
351
00:15:07,939 --> 00:15:09,021
It's about damn time.
352
00:15:09,106 --> 00:15:10,690
Yeah, all patients will get
353
00:15:10,775 --> 00:15:12,443
the prescribed opioids they need
354
00:15:12,528 --> 00:15:13,946
based on their pain levels,
355
00:15:14,031 --> 00:15:15,719
and all have you to do
is swing by New Amsterdam
356
00:15:15,803 --> 00:15:18,316
once a week
to pick up your pills.
357
00:15:18,401 --> 00:15:19,643
Easy as pie.
358
00:15:19,735 --> 00:15:21,557
- Wait, what?
- Speaking Spanish...
359
00:15:21,642 --> 00:15:22,977
- I can't do that.
- No, no.
360
00:15:23,061 --> 00:15:25,026
We're gonna make it
very, very simple.
361
00:15:25,111 --> 00:15:27,127
We're gonna establish
a special clinic.
362
00:15:27,212 --> 00:15:28,541
What the hell's
a special clinic?
363
00:15:28,626 --> 00:15:29,941
I live in Long Island.
364
00:15:30,026 --> 00:15:31,838
It's a three‐hour trip
if I'm lucky.
365
00:15:31,923 --> 00:15:33,971
Excuse me,
I have four kids and a job,
366
00:15:34,113 --> 00:15:35,572
and you expect me
to spend my one day off
367
00:15:35,656 --> 00:15:36,690
with you every week?
368
00:15:36,775 --> 00:15:38,985
Okay, I'm hearing
some concerns
369
00:15:39,070 --> 00:15:40,565
about the policy that we were
370
00:15:40,650 --> 00:15:42,995
all just very excited about.
371
00:15:43,164 --> 00:15:44,748
But I'll just be honest.
372
00:15:44,832 --> 00:15:46,526
The hospital has some concerns
373
00:15:46,611 --> 00:15:49,307
about portion control.
374
00:15:49,527 --> 00:15:51,987
- Portion control?
- Like I'm five?
375
00:15:52,072 --> 00:15:53,323
No, no, no.
376
00:15:53,408 --> 00:15:55,713
It's just that these pills
are highly addictive,
377
00:15:55,798 --> 00:15:56,963
and we do need to make sure
378
00:15:57,048 --> 00:15:58,346
that nobody is using
379
00:15:58,431 --> 00:16:00,987
or distributing these pills
inappropriately.
380
00:16:01,099 --> 00:16:02,725
So now you think I'm dealing?
381
00:16:02,809 --> 00:16:04,018
- No.
- You just said
382
00:16:04,103 --> 00:16:05,939
the shaming of chronic pain
treatment was over.
383
00:16:06,023 --> 00:16:07,607
And it is, but...
384
00:16:07,855 --> 00:16:09,857
- Are you serious, Max?
- Come on.
385
00:16:09,941 --> 00:16:11,608
- That's not gonna work.
- No way.
386
00:16:11,692 --> 00:16:12,776
Um...
387
00:16:12,860 --> 00:16:14,778
- What a joke.
- I'm outta here.
388
00:16:14,862 --> 00:16:16,238
- Come on, Max.
- This is ridiculous.
389
00:16:16,322 --> 00:16:18,615
- Thanks for nothing.
- I'm closing this window.
390
00:16:25,675 --> 00:16:29,253
Thank you all for responding
to my multiple app requests.
391
00:16:29,338 --> 00:16:31,488
I have some deliveries for you.
392
00:16:31,573 --> 00:16:34,948
Addresses are grouped together
for maximum efficiency.
393
00:16:35,104 --> 00:16:37,285
- Those burritos?
- They are not.
394
00:16:37,370 --> 00:16:39,050
Are your items heat sensitive?
395
00:16:39,135 --> 00:16:41,566
- No, we're good.
- So if you wanna grab your bag...
396
00:16:41,651 --> 00:16:44,042
Are dealing with breakable
items like figurines?
397
00:16:44,127 --> 00:16:46,503
- Are they insured?
- Are we liable here?
398
00:16:46,588 --> 00:16:48,823
I... no, it's very simple.
399
00:16:49,159 --> 00:16:51,496
Some of our patients
are having a hard time
400
00:16:51,581 --> 00:16:53,824
getting to the hospital
to pick up their prescriptions,
401
00:16:53,909 --> 00:16:56,469
so I am hiring all of you
402
00:16:56,554 --> 00:16:58,011
to solve that problem.
403
00:16:58,096 --> 00:16:59,834
So we're delivering drugs.
404
00:17:01,481 --> 00:17:03,596
Technically, yes?
405
00:17:04,578 --> 00:17:06,662
But uh...
406
00:17:07,815 --> 00:17:10,471
did I mention there's a 25% tip?
407
00:17:11,291 --> 00:17:12,597
All right.
408
00:17:14,974 --> 00:17:17,893
Yo, how many
are we allowed to take?
409
00:17:18,143 --> 00:17:20,021
Okay, okay.
410
00:17:20,339 --> 00:17:21,464
That was smooth.
411
00:17:21,549 --> 00:17:22,910
That was the alcohol swipe.
412
00:17:22,995 --> 00:17:25,234
Getting started now.
413
00:17:25,502 --> 00:17:27,613
- Oh, my God.
- Distract me.
414
00:17:27,698 --> 00:17:28,654
Uh, distract you?
415
00:17:28,738 --> 00:17:29,906
- Say something.
- Anything.
416
00:17:29,990 --> 00:17:31,683
Um, okay.
417
00:17:31,768 --> 00:17:34,730
Did you know that women blink
nearly twice as much as men?
418
00:17:34,815 --> 00:17:36,519
Nope, something interesting.
419
00:17:36,604 --> 00:17:38,414
- Fine, fine.
- Okay.
420
00:17:38,498 --> 00:17:40,863
Aah, it feels like a sword!
421
00:17:40,948 --> 00:17:43,222
Like I'm literally
being stabbed by a sword!
422
00:17:43,307 --> 00:17:45,026
- All right, okay.
- Um...
423
00:17:45,408 --> 00:17:47,547
there's this gorgeous man,
424
00:17:47,764 --> 00:17:49,464
this doctor that I was seeing.
425
00:17:49,549 --> 00:17:51,081
- Yes, good.
- Am seeing.
426
00:17:51,166 --> 00:17:53,804
- Well, mmm, was seeing.
- I don't know.
427
00:17:53,888 --> 00:17:55,264
I don't know.
428
00:17:55,348 --> 00:17:58,511
But we started dating
just when the pandemic hit,
429
00:17:58,596 --> 00:18:00,863
and I thought about him
for months during the lockdown.
430
00:18:00,948 --> 00:18:03,127
I fantasized about him.
431
00:18:03,229 --> 00:18:04,732
But then, the other day,
432
00:18:04,816 --> 00:18:08,018
when he reached out
to touch me, I pulled away.
433
00:18:09,026 --> 00:18:12,940
I recoiled like I was
physically repelled by him...
434
00:18:14,367 --> 00:18:16,097
And I don't know.
I don't know.
435
00:18:16,182 --> 00:18:16,702
Is it me?
436
00:18:16,786 --> 00:18:18,751
Am I that scared
to be touched by someone,
437
00:18:18,836 --> 00:18:21,151
or is it him?
438
00:18:22,645 --> 00:18:23,938
Did what we have,
439
00:18:24,053 --> 00:18:26,514
did it just sort of...
440
00:18:27,338 --> 00:18:28,589
No, keep going.
441
00:18:28,674 --> 00:18:30,464
But fast forward
to the interesting part.
442
00:18:30,549 --> 00:18:32,846
Did he dump you?
Are you sad?
443
00:18:33,798 --> 00:18:35,762
Aah!
444
00:18:36,206 --> 00:18:37,682
Was that a contraction?
445
00:18:37,766 --> 00:18:39,425
Mm‐hmm.
Mmm!
446
00:18:39,510 --> 00:18:40,731
- What?
- The epidural seems to be
447
00:18:40,815 --> 00:18:42,114
- taking its sweet time.
- Yeah, it should've
448
00:18:42,198 --> 00:18:44,166
kicked in by now.
Unfortunately,
449
00:18:44,362 --> 00:18:47,244
I think the catheter's tip
is in the sub‐dural space.
450
00:18:47,329 --> 00:18:48,746
It didn't work?
451
00:18:48,831 --> 00:18:51,042
It didn't work?
452
00:18:51,127 --> 00:18:54,011
Uh, can we try again
the epidural?
453
00:18:56,151 --> 00:18:59,581
- It's too late, sweetheart.
- You're too far along.
454
00:18:59,823 --> 00:19:01,831
Ella, you're gonna
have to do this
455
00:19:01,916 --> 00:19:03,165
on your own.
456
00:19:03,271 --> 00:19:05,773
- No.
- No.
457
00:19:05,858 --> 00:19:07,401
No, no, no, no, no, no.
458
00:19:07,921 --> 00:19:10,631
All right,
I know how this looks.
459
00:19:11,291 --> 00:19:13,346
I do.
Believe me.
460
00:19:14,823 --> 00:19:17,291
But these are my dad's words.
461
00:19:17,971 --> 00:19:19,056
They're his words,
462
00:19:19,140 --> 00:19:19,975
and growing up,
463
00:19:20,059 --> 00:19:23,102
I had to hear them
practically every day.
464
00:19:23,728 --> 00:19:27,127
My father struggled with
his weight his entire life,
465
00:19:27,260 --> 00:19:29,674
and he didn't want me
to suffer the same fate.
466
00:19:29,759 --> 00:19:31,189
So at an early age,
467
00:19:31,274 --> 00:19:33,446
he took an interest
in my weight.
468
00:19:33,795 --> 00:19:34,962
An interest?
469
00:19:35,212 --> 00:19:36,924
Mm‐hmm, yeah.
470
00:19:37,009 --> 00:19:39,142
It started around
the third grade.
471
00:19:39,243 --> 00:19:41,646
I filled out a little bit,
and, uh,
472
00:19:42,126 --> 00:19:44,650
he would make me go
on crash diets
473
00:19:44,735 --> 00:19:46,626
out of the blue,
474
00:19:46,852 --> 00:19:49,213
skip meals, take meal
replacement bars to school.
475
00:19:49,298 --> 00:19:50,471
As a nine‐year‐old?
476
00:19:50,556 --> 00:19:52,339
Mm‐hmm.
477
00:19:52,876 --> 00:19:54,548
Yeah, and...
478
00:19:55,353 --> 00:19:58,634
he would make me
take my shirt off
479
00:19:59,009 --> 00:20:01,071
so he could take pictures
of my body
480
00:20:01,376 --> 00:20:04,681
to, um, put up on the wall
in the basement
481
00:20:04,767 --> 00:20:07,525
next to the makeshift gym
that he'd built for me
482
00:20:07,617 --> 00:20:09,274
to track my process.
483
00:20:09,375 --> 00:20:12,067
There was
a body progress chart.
484
00:20:12,688 --> 00:20:14,165
And if I would ever walk by him,
485
00:20:14,290 --> 00:20:16,166
he would smack my gut and say,
486
00:20:16,251 --> 00:20:17,744
"Jesus, look at that thing."
487
00:20:19,469 --> 00:20:21,410
"Got a lot of work left to do,
don't we, buddy?"
488
00:20:22,173 --> 00:20:23,913
And what's worse is,
489
00:20:24,181 --> 00:20:27,212
if I ever had a good weigh‐in,
which was not very often,
490
00:20:27,649 --> 00:20:30,635
I, uh, I would be over the moon
491
00:20:30,720 --> 00:20:32,430
because it would make me
feel loved.
492
00:20:39,282 --> 00:20:42,431
Then... this one time,
493
00:20:42,921 --> 00:20:44,823
I guess I would've been
in middle school by this point,
494
00:20:44,907 --> 00:20:46,560
I just... I...
495
00:20:46,914 --> 00:20:49,188
I hated everything
about myself.
496
00:20:50,782 --> 00:20:52,441
So I tried to hang myself.
497
00:20:52,985 --> 00:20:54,276
What?
498
00:20:54,797 --> 00:20:56,453
Jesus, Iggy.
499
00:20:56,633 --> 00:20:58,360
No, it's okay.
500
00:20:58,758 --> 00:21:00,891
It didn't work, obviously.
501
00:21:02,046 --> 00:21:03,931
Ironically, I was too fat
502
00:21:04,016 --> 00:21:05,595
for the rod
in the basement closet
503
00:21:05,680 --> 00:21:08,603
to hold me up,
and it crashed down on my head,
504
00:21:08,688 --> 00:21:11,337
and my mom heard the sound
and came to help me.
505
00:21:11,422 --> 00:21:14,228
- What?
- What did your dad say?
506
00:21:14,313 --> 00:21:15,422
Oh.
507
00:21:15,977 --> 00:21:18,861
My dad, um, well,
508
00:21:18,946 --> 00:21:20,189
that night at my weigh‐in,
509
00:21:20,274 --> 00:21:22,688
he just snapped
another polaroid for the wall
510
00:21:22,914 --> 00:21:24,731
and acted like nothing
ever happened.
511
00:21:27,758 --> 00:21:29,352
That's my dad for you.
512
00:21:37,930 --> 00:21:39,779
These are his words,
513
00:21:40,136 --> 00:21:42,134
but they don't control me
anymore.
514
00:21:42,219 --> 00:21:43,267
They do not.
515
00:21:43,352 --> 00:21:45,073
They serve as a reminder
of all of the things
516
00:21:45,157 --> 00:21:46,996
that I have conquered,
which is a lot,
517
00:21:47,516 --> 00:21:49,290
and sometimes
I look at these words,
518
00:21:49,375 --> 00:21:52,431
and they remind that
I'm not that kid anymore
519
00:21:52,516 --> 00:21:53,901
and that I'm making
better decisions.
520
00:21:53,985 --> 00:21:56,214
I'm making healthy decisions
in my life.
521
00:21:59,133 --> 00:22:02,511
And that I no longer need to
stand around with my shirt off
522
00:22:03,016 --> 00:22:05,610
- and let others judge me.
- What?
523
00:22:07,555 --> 00:22:09,501
You know that's not
what I was doing, right?
524
00:22:09,586 --> 00:22:10,769
I'm fine.
525
00:22:11,547 --> 00:22:13,126
I am more than fine.
526
00:22:13,218 --> 00:22:14,999
You can rest easy.
527
00:22:15,227 --> 00:22:18,313
Now if you'll excuse me,
I have patients to see.
528
00:22:20,382 --> 00:22:23,126
No, I'm... I'm being careful.
529
00:22:23,211 --> 00:22:24,783
Yeah.
530
00:22:25,110 --> 00:22:27,516
Ma, I'm gonna see you soon.
531
00:22:27,961 --> 00:22:30,399
Okay, yeah.
I love you too.
532
00:22:30,586 --> 00:22:31,874
All right.
533
00:22:32,313 --> 00:22:34,672
Heard you pulled off
one hell of a TAVR.
534
00:22:34,821 --> 00:22:36,743
Just this side of genius.
535
00:22:36,828 --> 00:22:38,423
I accept your apology, Max.
536
00:22:38,508 --> 00:22:39,737
You need anything else
while you're here?
537
00:22:39,821 --> 00:22:41,595
Aw, no, just catching up
with some folks.
538
00:22:41,680 --> 00:22:44,220
You know, I missed my favorite
scrub nurse in OR today, JJ.
539
00:22:44,305 --> 00:22:45,102
- Devlin.
- Yeah.
540
00:22:45,187 --> 00:22:46,941
He passed away
a few months ago.
541
00:22:47,026 --> 00:22:48,403
COVID.
542
00:22:49,436 --> 00:22:51,103
That's too bad.
543
00:22:51,188 --> 00:22:52,618
Everything's changed.
544
00:22:52,703 --> 00:22:54,462
- Dr. Max Goodwin.
- That's me.
545
00:22:54,547 --> 00:22:56,649
- You're under arrest.
- Whoa, what's going on?
546
00:22:56,733 --> 00:22:57,633
For what?
547
00:22:57,718 --> 00:22:59,618
For writing
700 Oxycodone prescriptions,
548
00:22:59,703 --> 00:23:01,306
each one over 100 milligrams,
549
00:23:01,391 --> 00:23:03,227
and distributing them
with bike messengers.
550
00:23:03,367 --> 00:23:04,531
Oh, that.
551
00:23:04,615 --> 00:23:06,575
It's nice to see some things
haven't changed.
552
00:23:12,985 --> 00:23:14,540
BP's 80/40 and falling.
553
00:23:14,625 --> 00:23:15,743
Push epi, I'm coming in.
554
00:23:15,828 --> 00:23:17,253
I need an echo over here.
555
00:23:17,337 --> 00:23:18,641
What happened?
556
00:23:18,758 --> 00:23:21,422
- The clip didn't hold.
- His heart is failing.
557
00:23:32,955 --> 00:23:34,205
The DA only agreed
558
00:23:34,290 --> 00:23:36,250
to not press charges
for narcotics trafficking
559
00:23:36,334 --> 00:23:38,040
because
you're an essential worker.
560
00:23:38,125 --> 00:23:39,754
- Huh.
- Congratulations.
561
00:23:39,838 --> 00:23:41,756
You're one of the select few
to benefit from COVID‐19.
562
00:23:41,840 --> 00:23:42,946
Thanks for getting me out.
563
00:23:43,031 --> 00:23:44,454
I have half a mind
to leave you in there.
564
00:23:44,538 --> 00:23:46,469
You know, pharmacies
mail opioids all the time.
565
00:23:46,554 --> 00:23:49,014
Bike messengers
are almost the same.
566
00:23:49,159 --> 00:23:51,203
I wonder if you've ever
considered how exhausting it is
567
00:23:51,287 --> 00:23:52,735
to be your boss.
568
00:23:53,141 --> 00:23:54,570
All your wonderful ideas
569
00:23:54,686 --> 00:23:55,915
that come with such chaos,
570
00:23:56,000 --> 00:23:57,396
every single one.
571
00:23:57,480 --> 00:23:58,731
It's funny.
572
00:23:58,815 --> 00:24:01,609
The thing you're best at is the
part of my job I hate the most.
573
00:24:01,693 --> 00:24:03,569
- You ignore reality.
- That's not fair.
574
00:24:03,653 --> 00:24:06,656
Says the man who just
sent 70,000 milligrams of Oxy
575
00:24:06,740 --> 00:24:08,157
out into the street
via bike messenger.
576
00:24:08,241 --> 00:24:10,076
I know it seems
like a good idea.
577
00:24:10,160 --> 00:24:11,899
Hell, it might even be
a good idea,
578
00:24:12,116 --> 00:24:14,535
but it's my job to deal
with the reality of your ideas,
579
00:24:14,682 --> 00:24:17,142
in this case criminal reality.
Optics matter.
580
00:24:17,375 --> 00:24:18,867
Patients matter.
581
00:24:19,297 --> 00:24:22,024
I'm glad you're
helping people, Max, truly.
582
00:24:22,213 --> 00:24:24,633
But your plan
has no accountability.
583
00:24:24,821 --> 00:24:26,300
You don't know where
these drugs are going.
584
00:24:26,384 --> 00:24:27,492
You just don't.
585
00:24:27,577 --> 00:24:30,538
And opioids,
the potential for abuse,
586
00:24:30,847 --> 00:24:32,774
it's a very emotional issue.
587
00:24:33,475 --> 00:24:36,016
To many people,
opioids aren't pain medicine.
588
00:24:36,101 --> 00:24:38,019
They're what killed
someone they loved.
589
00:24:45,643 --> 00:24:47,438
- Wait.
- Iggy.
590
00:24:47,758 --> 00:24:49,313
Iggy, I wasn't judging you.
591
00:24:49,398 --> 00:24:50,648
You could've fooled me.
592
00:24:50,733 --> 00:24:53,402
It was just... people die
from what you're doing.
593
00:24:53,703 --> 00:24:54,954
What did she say?
594
00:25:01,002 --> 00:25:04,089
In here.
In here.
595
00:25:09,419 --> 00:25:11,087
Ig.
596
00:25:11,179 --> 00:25:13,133
Ig, look, I'm sorry
for making a scene.
597
00:25:13,279 --> 00:25:14,739
You should be.
598
00:25:15,281 --> 00:25:16,570
It's just
599
00:25:16,655 --> 00:25:19,853
I've seen people in my ED
with eating disorders.
600
00:25:19,938 --> 00:25:21,814
I mean, I've known people
with eating disorders.
601
00:25:21,898 --> 00:25:23,352
Some of them...
602
00:25:23,437 --> 00:25:24,691
they're not here anymore.
603
00:25:24,776 --> 00:25:27,307
- Mm‐hmm.
- Look.
604
00:25:27,711 --> 00:25:30,129
I know as well anyone
605
00:25:30,214 --> 00:25:32,758
that the truth
is really difficult.
606
00:25:32,912 --> 00:25:35,998
I'm sorry.
What are you doing?
607
00:25:36,238 --> 00:25:38,698
Are you comparing your issues
to mine right now?
608
00:25:38,963 --> 00:25:40,374
Let me just mirror
that back for you
609
00:25:40,458 --> 00:25:41,834
so you can hear it out loud.
610
00:25:41,918 --> 00:25:43,870
I'm on the Jimmy Kimmel diet,
611
00:25:44,276 --> 00:25:47,237
and you almost killed a patient
because you are a drug addict.
612
00:25:48,994 --> 00:25:51,838
- Not the same.
- That was way out of line.
613
00:25:51,928 --> 00:25:53,784
- I'm outta line?
- It's not hard, Lauren.
614
00:25:53,869 --> 00:25:55,034
This is a hospital.
615
00:25:55,119 --> 00:25:56,704
There's only one line
that matters.
616
00:25:56,842 --> 00:25:59,432
You were hurting patients.
I am not.
617
00:25:59,541 --> 00:26:00,917
Plain and simple!
618
00:26:01,056 --> 00:26:02,849
Patients aren't
the only people you can hurt.
619
00:26:02,934 --> 00:26:04,518
- Oh, yeah?
- Well, I think the janitors
620
00:26:04,603 --> 00:26:05,904
- are safe from my eating too.
- Yeah?
621
00:26:05,988 --> 00:26:07,260
What about your kids?
622
00:26:09,237 --> 00:26:11,332
- Excuse me?
- You're starving yourself.
623
00:26:11,417 --> 00:26:12,782
You think
they don't notice that?
624
00:26:12,867 --> 00:26:13,993
- You stop talking.
- How many meals have you
625
00:26:14,077 --> 00:26:15,325
had with them
where you haven't eaten anything?
626
00:26:15,409 --> 00:26:16,707
- Stop.
- How many have you skipped altogether?
627
00:26:16,791 --> 00:26:18,042
I mean, what kind
of screwed up issues
628
00:26:18,126 --> 00:26:19,942
are your kids gonna have
with food because of you?
629
00:26:20,026 --> 00:26:21,595
Occupied!
630
00:26:24,218 --> 00:26:26,094
It's a bad time, Gladys.
631
00:26:26,179 --> 00:26:28,264
It's Dr. Kapoor.
632
00:26:28,526 --> 00:26:29,819
The clip failed,
633
00:26:29,904 --> 00:26:31,822
tore right through
the valve leaflets.
634
00:26:31,907 --> 00:26:32,992
I'm gonna have to crack open
his chest
635
00:26:33,076 --> 00:26:34,451
and put in an artificial valve.
636
00:26:34,536 --> 00:26:36,287
That's a big surgery.
637
00:26:36,437 --> 00:26:38,026
I thought you said you
couldn't sew into the muscle.
638
00:26:38,110 --> 00:26:41,009
- What changed?
- Nothing. Not a damn thing.
639
00:26:41,263 --> 00:26:43,283
But he'll make it through
the surgery, right?
640
00:26:49,836 --> 00:26:51,112
That's why I thought
you should see him now,
641
00:26:51,196 --> 00:26:52,970
and have one more moment
with him
642
00:26:54,284 --> 00:26:55,556
in case...
643
00:26:56,184 --> 00:26:57,644
I'm gonna go prep.
644
00:27:09,294 --> 00:27:11,377
You're fully effaced
and dilated,
645
00:27:11,462 --> 00:27:13,244
but the baby's still
at minus three position.
646
00:27:13,329 --> 00:27:15,455
Ella, the delivery isn't
progressing as I had hoped.
647
00:27:15,540 --> 00:27:16,517
What does that mean?
648
00:27:16,602 --> 00:27:19,580
When your contraction comes,
you need to push real hard.
649
00:27:19,665 --> 00:27:21,541
Oh, my God,
this is a disaster.
650
00:27:21,626 --> 00:27:22,978
Maybe you could
hold her hand.
651
00:27:24,606 --> 00:27:26,953
E-Ella.
652
00:27:27,038 --> 00:27:28,047
Look.
Look.
653
00:27:28,132 --> 00:27:29,781
Count them out with me, okay?
654
00:27:29,866 --> 00:27:31,492
Here we go.
655
00:27:31,688 --> 00:27:33,531
Give me
the biggest push you got.
656
00:27:33,616 --> 00:27:35,304
- You can do this.
- Come on, come on.
657
00:27:35,389 --> 00:27:38,328
- No, I can't!
- Stop, I don't want to!
658
00:27:38,413 --> 00:27:41,547
What if the baby's not okay?
What if I hurt it?
659
00:27:42,123 --> 00:27:44,398
What I ate undercooked meat
and didn't know it?
660
00:27:44,483 --> 00:27:46,054
And seven weeks ago
I took a bath
661
00:27:46,139 --> 00:27:47,305
right after the tub was cleaned,
662
00:27:47,389 --> 00:27:48,515
and the water
probably had bleach in it.
663
00:27:48,599 --> 00:27:50,023
What kind of mom
is that careless?
664
00:27:50,108 --> 00:27:51,275
You are not careless.
665
00:27:51,360 --> 00:27:53,828
You have disorder that sends
your pregnancy into overdrive,
666
00:27:53,913 --> 00:27:56,165
but you fought it,
and you've made it this far.
667
00:27:56,250 --> 00:27:58,501
I cheated.
I got scans all the time.
668
00:27:58,586 --> 00:27:59,703
Sometimes two days in a row
669
00:27:59,788 --> 00:28:01,621
in case something happened
while I was sleeping.
670
00:28:01,705 --> 00:28:03,070
But then everything shut down,
671
00:28:03,155 --> 00:28:04,735
and Vijay got sick,
and I don't know why,
672
00:28:04,819 --> 00:28:06,570
but I just convinced myself
673
00:28:06,655 --> 00:28:09,496
that the baby was going to be
okay as long as he was okay.
674
00:28:09,581 --> 00:28:10,832
What if Vijay's not okay?
675
00:28:10,917 --> 00:28:13,002
Ella!
Everything on that monitor
676
00:28:13,087 --> 00:28:14,630
says that your baby
is going to be okay,
677
00:28:14,714 --> 00:28:15,774
but you have to deliver it...
678
00:28:15,858 --> 00:28:17,492
- No!
- Oh.
679
00:28:17,577 --> 00:28:19,000
- Contractions peaking.
- Aah!
680
00:28:19,085 --> 00:28:21,523
You can do it.
Your baby needs you to push now.
681
00:28:21,608 --> 00:28:24,403
Aah.
682
00:28:40,741 --> 00:28:42,203
Eh?
683
00:28:42,846 --> 00:28:45,181
- Yeah, yeah, buddy?
- What is it?
684
00:28:46,567 --> 00:28:48,152
Hit me.
685
00:28:48,831 --> 00:28:50,789
You're such a good dad.
686
00:28:51,574 --> 00:28:53,117
- Aw, I don't know.
- I...
687
00:28:59,871 --> 00:29:02,343
If this doesn't work out...
688
00:29:04,987 --> 00:29:06,726
Will you look after
689
00:29:07,550 --> 00:29:09,461
Ella and the baby?
690
00:29:44,706 --> 00:29:46,304
You've got this.
691
00:29:46,693 --> 00:29:48,203
You can do it.
692
00:29:50,155 --> 00:29:51,367
Hey.
693
00:29:51,615 --> 00:29:52,866
And I am dying...
694
00:29:53,137 --> 00:29:54,513
- What are you talking about?
- Don't be silly.
695
00:29:54,597 --> 00:29:55,890
You are going to be annoying her
696
00:29:55,975 --> 00:29:57,601
for the rest of your life, okay?
697
00:29:59,304 --> 00:30:00,726
Please.
698
00:30:04,107 --> 00:30:06,390
If something happens, I...
699
00:30:07,980 --> 00:30:09,929
Yes.
700
00:30:10,014 --> 00:30:11,257
Obviously.
701
00:30:13,482 --> 00:30:14,482
Good.
702
00:30:30,820 --> 00:30:32,437
Listen, Iggy.
703
00:30:32,828 --> 00:30:34,795
- Lauren, I'm fine.
- No.
704
00:30:34,880 --> 00:30:37,258
I never should've dragged
your kids into this.
705
00:30:38,904 --> 00:30:40,429
I'm really sorry.
706
00:30:43,025 --> 00:30:45,359
A couple nights ago,
I was, uh,
707
00:30:46,242 --> 00:30:47,804
I was wearing
this nice new sweater
708
00:30:47,889 --> 00:30:49,968
that Martin gave me, and, um...
709
00:30:53,012 --> 00:30:55,578
Harper told me that
I looked handsome in it.
710
00:30:57,788 --> 00:31:00,415
Then I immediately grabbed
my stomach,
711
00:31:00,522 --> 00:31:02,482
and I told her
that she was wrong.
712
00:31:04,798 --> 00:31:06,429
It just popped out of mouth.
713
00:31:12,009 --> 00:31:14,289
I say things like that
all the time.
714
00:31:17,145 --> 00:31:18,922
And Vijay thinks
that I'm a great father?
715
00:31:20,355 --> 00:31:21,914
I'm teaching my kids
716
00:31:22,099 --> 00:31:25,268
that someone who looks like me
doesn't deserve to be loved.
717
00:31:28,232 --> 00:31:31,429
That is the same lesson
that my dad taught me.
718
00:31:31,712 --> 00:31:33,140
Aw, man.
719
00:31:34,994 --> 00:31:37,086
He just used different words.
720
00:31:42,110 --> 00:31:43,403
Iggy.
721
00:31:45,084 --> 00:31:47,281
These aren't your dad's words.
722
00:31:47,848 --> 00:31:49,750
- You wrote this.
- I know.
723
00:31:49,835 --> 00:31:53,463
- These are your words.
- You're calling yourself this,
724
00:31:54,164 --> 00:31:57,343
and you're keep suffering
until you stop.
725
00:31:59,100 --> 00:32:00,687
If I can't stop,
726
00:32:00,850 --> 00:32:04,353
this note, that voice...
727
00:32:06,311 --> 00:32:09,272
It's the thing about myself
that feels the most true.
728
00:32:10,433 --> 00:32:12,750
How do you stop believing that?
729
00:32:14,632 --> 00:32:17,885
Well, you could try
talking to a therapist.
730
00:32:21,879 --> 00:32:23,367
Hey, I did.
731
00:32:24,859 --> 00:32:26,569
He saved my life.
732
00:32:35,640 --> 00:32:37,176
Come here.
733
00:32:39,355 --> 00:32:41,882
- Thank you.
- Yeah.
734
00:32:41,967 --> 00:32:46,262
♪ Even if we try ♪
735
00:32:46,894 --> 00:32:51,648
♪ Even if we try ♪
736
00:32:51,732 --> 00:32:54,484
♪ To make ourselves ♪
737
00:32:54,568 --> 00:32:57,446
♪ All right ♪
738
00:32:57,530 --> 00:33:01,950
♪ To mend our severed lives ♪
739
00:33:04,303 --> 00:33:07,428
♪ While all the rivers rage ♪
740
00:33:07,513 --> 00:33:11,975
♪ Descend upon the sage ♪
741
00:33:12,327 --> 00:33:16,748
♪ Alone on willowed eves ♪
742
00:33:17,091 --> 00:33:21,740
♪ I lift my voice to sing ♪
743
00:33:22,512 --> 00:33:26,432
♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪
744
00:33:26,767 --> 00:33:29,186
♪ Ooh, ooh ♪
745
00:33:29,270 --> 00:33:33,273
♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪
746
00:33:33,357 --> 00:33:35,561
♪ Ooh ♪
747
00:33:35,646 --> 00:33:38,858
♪ Ooh, ooh ♪
748
00:33:41,917 --> 00:33:44,962
♪ Down long, hollow grove ♪
749
00:33:46,263 --> 00:33:50,517
♪ Its wilting,
winding bones ♪
750
00:33:50,953 --> 00:33:55,290
♪ Come on, Johnny, please ♪
751
00:33:55,375 --> 00:34:01,213
♪ Won't you speak to me? ♪
752
00:34:01,468 --> 00:34:03,720
♪ Ooh, ooh ♪
753
00:34:03,804 --> 00:34:05,615
♪ Ooh ♪
754
00:34:05,806 --> 00:34:08,029
Ready to restart the heart.
755
00:34:08,267 --> 00:34:09,351
Everything's solid.
756
00:34:09,435 --> 00:34:11,092
- Charging.
- Clear.
757
00:34:11,478 --> 00:34:12,855
Suctioning.
758
00:34:16,897 --> 00:34:18,593
Quarter's ready.
759
00:34:25,549 --> 00:34:26,679
We did it.
760
00:34:28,432 --> 00:34:29,671
Good job, everyone.
761
00:34:35,627 --> 00:34:36,752
Ooh.
762
00:34:36,837 --> 00:34:39,047
All right,
let's close him up.
763
00:34:45,638 --> 00:34:47,048
BP is dropping.
764
00:34:47,181 --> 00:34:48,265
What?
765
00:34:48,349 --> 00:34:49,875
- Heart valve's not holding.
- It's slipping.
766
00:34:49,959 --> 00:34:51,583
Give me a 3‐0 proline
on the needle driver.
767
00:34:51,667 --> 00:34:53,126
Times two.
768
00:34:53,312 --> 00:34:55,859
You work the septum,
I'll work the free wall.
769
00:34:56,423 --> 00:34:58,023
I'm gonna have to get him
back on bypass.
770
00:34:58,186 --> 00:34:59,770
We can't reestablish
aortic cannulation.
771
00:34:59,909 --> 00:35:02,203
As a backup, yes.
772
00:35:03,538 --> 00:35:05,086
- My stitches aren't holding.
- Neither are mine.
773
00:35:05,170 --> 00:35:06,797
- Trying 5‐0.
- Suction needs to be higher.
774
00:35:06,881 --> 00:35:08,465
I'm not getting any purchase.
775
00:35:08,701 --> 00:35:09,882
Another bag.
776
00:35:10,123 --> 00:35:11,874
- Come on.
- Hold, damn it.
777
00:35:12,014 --> 00:35:13,545
Flash sterilized.
778
00:35:15,359 --> 00:35:16,495
...changed.
779
00:35:30,927 --> 00:35:33,164
Ansuya.
780
00:35:36,970 --> 00:35:39,097
Ansuya.
781
00:35:43,862 --> 00:35:51,036
♪ Oh ♪
782
00:35:51,954 --> 00:35:55,624
♪ Oh ♪
783
00:35:55,708 --> 00:36:00,337
♪ Oh, oh ♪
784
00:36:00,421 --> 00:36:03,023
Ansuya.
785
00:36:04,425 --> 00:36:06,124
Vijay.
786
00:36:06,422 --> 00:36:13,554
♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪
787
00:36:23,806 --> 00:36:25,557
Eat this.
788
00:36:27,624 --> 00:36:29,577
I don't need it.
789
00:36:31,934 --> 00:36:33,952
All I need is you.
790
00:36:35,062 --> 00:36:36,881
It will give you strength
791
00:36:37,337 --> 00:36:39,217
for our granddaughter.
792
00:36:40,507 --> 00:36:42,116
Granddaughter?
793
00:36:42,202 --> 00:36:44,548
She needs her Dadaji.
794
00:36:44,764 --> 00:36:51,847
♪ Oh ♪
795
00:36:52,598 --> 00:36:58,979
♪ Oh ♪
796
00:37:00,439 --> 00:37:07,363
♪ Oh ♪
797
00:37:08,523 --> 00:37:10,733
Vijay?
798
00:37:12,794 --> 00:37:15,964
♪ Ah ♪
799
00:37:21,076 --> 00:37:22,869
He's waking up.
800
00:37:23,376 --> 00:37:24,835
Oh, thank God.
Vijay.
801
00:37:26,590 --> 00:37:28,508
Welcome back, Dr. Kapoor.
802
00:37:58,359 --> 00:38:01,175
Happy birthday, little one.
803
00:38:09,646 --> 00:38:11,496
Uh, K‐Karen!
804
00:38:11,700 --> 00:38:14,119
- Are the cops chasing you now?
- Uh, I don't know,
805
00:38:14,204 --> 00:38:16,656
but I did come up with a solve
for our opioid issue,
806
00:38:16,741 --> 00:38:18,326
and I think you're really
gonna like it.
807
00:38:18,411 --> 00:38:19,829
And here I thought
we knew each other better.
808
00:38:19,913 --> 00:38:21,498
Watermarking.
809
00:38:21,918 --> 00:38:25,315
So every single opioid
that New Amsterdam sends out
810
00:38:25,399 --> 00:38:26,598
into the world
will be watermarked
811
00:38:26,682 --> 00:38:29,518
with invisible,
fluorescent fibers.
812
00:38:29,603 --> 00:38:31,771
Every patient will have access
813
00:38:31,856 --> 00:38:34,525
to the medicine they need
and without shame.
814
00:38:34,723 --> 00:38:36,988
And they'll be able
to manage their pain,
815
00:38:37,644 --> 00:38:40,332
and they'll be able to live
functional lives.
816
00:38:40,528 --> 00:38:43,097
But if those pills ever do
end up in the street,
817
00:38:43,241 --> 00:38:44,761
or in the wrong hands,
we'll know.
818
00:38:44,846 --> 00:38:47,035
There will be
no drug trafficking,
819
00:38:47,780 --> 00:38:50,722
and there will
be accountability.
820
00:38:52,913 --> 00:38:54,664
Oh, and I almost forgot
the best part.
821
00:38:54,928 --> 00:38:56,863
The Nylers are gonna pay for it.
822
00:38:57,836 --> 00:38:59,144
Why would they do that?
823
00:38:59,229 --> 00:39:00,896
They kinda have to.
824
00:39:01,077 --> 00:39:02,114
Part of their settlement
includes
825
00:39:02,198 --> 00:39:04,644
donating millions of dollars
to public hospitals,
826
00:39:05,039 --> 00:39:06,290
just like ours.
827
00:39:08,227 --> 00:39:09,933
I don't know what to say.
828
00:39:10,222 --> 00:39:12,265
It sounds like
a well‐thought‐out
829
00:39:12,350 --> 00:39:13,684
and realistic plan.
830
00:39:13,769 --> 00:39:15,437
- I know.
- Weird, right?
831
00:39:17,233 --> 00:39:18,597
Karen.
832
00:39:19,689 --> 00:39:22,847
Thank you
for keeping me accountable.
833
00:39:23,735 --> 00:39:25,404
That's my job.
834
00:39:26,642 --> 00:39:30,019
And every once and a while,
it's worth it.
835
00:39:54,527 --> 00:39:55,879
I'm not ready.
836
00:39:57,988 --> 00:39:59,656
Okay.
837
00:40:02,611 --> 00:40:06,550
I mean,
I'm not ready to call it.
838
00:41:47,457 --> 00:41:48,894
I should've been here.
839
00:41:51,063 --> 00:41:53,565
Well, you're here now.
840
00:42:07,218 --> 00:42:09,952
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