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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:07,398 --> 00:00:09,183 >> Look at all the people. 2 00:00:13,361 --> 00:00:15,711 [music playing] 3 00:00:15,841 --> 00:00:17,887 >> [non-english speech] 4 00:02:42,640 --> 00:02:48,516 >> Part of me thought that I'ddo it and everything will be 5 00:02:48,646 --> 00:02:51,954 magically fixed for me. 6 00:02:52,084 --> 00:02:58,003 >> It's really hard to definehow these experiences impact 7 00:02:58,134 --> 00:03:01,616 your life because they do in so many ways. 8 00:03:05,402 --> 00:03:09,754 >> There was a before, and therewas an after and a very clear 9 00:03:09,885 --> 00:03:12,061 line. 10 00:03:12,192 --> 00:03:14,106 And a line was ayahuasca. 11 00:03:14,237 --> 00:03:17,109 [non-english singing] 12 00:03:35,737 --> 00:03:38,218 >> [non-english speech] 13 00:03:58,150 --> 00:04:01,023 >> It's interesting because in medical school, 14 00:04:01,153 --> 00:04:04,853 we're not taught about energies or about spirits. 15 00:04:04,983 --> 00:04:07,769 So doctors can't fix what they can't see. 16 00:04:07,899 --> 00:04:10,424 So it's almost like there's a different lens 17 00:04:10,554 --> 00:04:13,688 that the shaman is bringing in, one that we're not necessarily 18 00:04:13,818 --> 00:04:15,124 seeing. 19 00:04:15,255 --> 00:04:18,258 >> Science is very good, but is very limited. 20 00:04:18,388 --> 00:04:20,999 So the implications of this is there 21 00:04:21,130 --> 00:04:22,914 are many other ways to know. 22 00:04:23,045 --> 00:04:28,920 There are other forms of knowing that are not scientific. 23 00:04:29,051 --> 00:04:30,226 Yet they are valid. 24 00:04:30,357 --> 00:04:32,837 >> [non-english speech] 25 00:04:53,380 --> 00:04:58,994 >> I have sat with probably about 65 shamans or so, maybe 26 00:04:59,124 --> 00:05:02,476 a few more, but I've never experienced the craft 27 00:05:02,606 --> 00:05:05,957 at the level of talent that I've experienced with the really 28 00:05:06,088 --> 00:05:07,307 good Shipibo shamans. 29 00:05:07,437 --> 00:05:09,091 >> [non-english speech] 30 00:05:21,103 --> 00:05:24,802 >> The Shipibo, they are already connected. 31 00:05:24,933 --> 00:05:29,807 They have been raised in the knowledge 32 00:05:29,938 --> 00:05:32,157 of the spiritual world. 33 00:05:32,288 --> 00:05:34,116 This is a reality for them. 34 00:05:34,246 --> 00:05:36,945 They know that they can learn from plant. 35 00:05:37,075 --> 00:05:40,601 So they're going to go directly on this level of how to learn 36 00:05:40,731 --> 00:05:42,385 and how to heal. 37 00:05:42,516 --> 00:05:44,866 >> [non-english speech] 38 00:05:51,699 --> 00:05:54,963 >> These teaching plants are the channels from which Gaia 39 00:05:55,093 --> 00:05:59,489 or the spirit of nature conveys what you need to know, 40 00:05:59,620 --> 00:06:04,407 and somehow or other, these plants, particularly ayahuasca, 41 00:06:04,538 --> 00:06:09,586 has an uncanny sense of exactly what it is you need to be-- 42 00:06:09,717 --> 00:06:11,153 what needs to be revealed to you. 43 00:06:17,028 --> 00:06:24,732 >> When I turned 40, I hita place in my life that I 44 00:06:24,862 --> 00:06:28,736 immediately defined as a midlife crisis. 45 00:06:28,866 --> 00:06:32,827 And so for my birthday, I decided 46 00:06:32,957 --> 00:06:36,744 to give myself a special gift. 47 00:06:36,874 --> 00:06:42,619 And a good friend of mine was mentioning 48 00:06:42,750 --> 00:06:48,364 magic mushrooms in Mexico and Oaxaca with a shaman. 49 00:06:48,495 --> 00:06:51,149 I was like, wow, how cool is that. 50 00:06:51,280 --> 00:06:55,632 When I decided to go to Oaxaca to do the magic mushrooms, 51 00:06:55,763 --> 00:06:59,462 I mentioned this to my mom, and she did not like this idea. 52 00:06:59,593 --> 00:07:01,725 >> [non-english speech] 53 00:07:06,077 --> 00:07:08,906 >> She thought it was the worst idea. 54 00:07:09,037 --> 00:07:11,779 She actually said to me, aye, mijo, why don't you 55 00:07:11,909 --> 00:07:16,000 just go to a beach and get drunk all day and chase women. 56 00:07:16,131 --> 00:07:18,046 And I'm like no, no. 57 00:07:18,176 --> 00:07:21,832 That's actually-- I'm trying to get away from that. 58 00:07:21,963 --> 00:07:29,710 I can't say that that particular ceremony shifted much 59 00:07:29,840 --> 00:07:31,451 in my life. 60 00:07:31,581 --> 00:07:36,107 But one thing that where I am now seems just magical to me 61 00:07:36,238 --> 00:07:41,765 is that the next day after doing this ceremony with the shaman 62 00:07:41,896 --> 00:07:45,769 in Oaxaca, he said now that you've met the children, 63 00:07:45,900 --> 00:07:47,423 you've got to meet the mother. 64 00:07:47,554 --> 00:07:51,079 And I'm like who is the mother, and he said ayahuasca. 65 00:07:51,209 --> 00:07:53,124 I'm like I don't know-- 66 00:07:53,255 --> 00:07:54,735 I don't know what that is. 67 00:07:54,865 --> 00:07:57,346 And he said don't worry. 68 00:07:57,477 --> 00:08:00,871 When the time is right, she will call you. 69 00:08:01,002 --> 00:08:04,179 Nine, 10 months later, I felt the call. 70 00:08:04,309 --> 00:08:08,575 >> I was in my 20s whenI first met the medicine. 71 00:08:08,705 --> 00:08:11,969 I was-- I just graduated college. 72 00:08:12,100 --> 00:08:14,232 I was a student athlete at USC, and I 73 00:08:14,363 --> 00:08:15,973 was a professional swimmer. 74 00:08:16,104 --> 00:08:18,498 I was PAC 10 champion, national champion. 75 00:08:18,628 --> 00:08:23,328 I was coming from a few years of successful-- 76 00:08:23,459 --> 00:08:26,418 of being a successful sports man. 77 00:08:26,549 --> 00:08:29,857 And so I had this thing with success 78 00:08:29,987 --> 00:08:33,600 that was a bit in conflict with another side of me, 79 00:08:33,730 --> 00:08:36,994 which was the artistic side of me that had been cultivated 80 00:08:37,125 --> 00:08:39,693 also since I was a little kid. 81 00:08:39,823 --> 00:08:43,566 And so I went to the medicine a little bit looking 82 00:08:43,697 --> 00:08:47,048 for clarity, struggling a little bit with direction 83 00:08:47,178 --> 00:08:49,529 because a part of me, the competitive part of me 84 00:08:49,659 --> 00:08:53,663 wanted a career, wanted to make money. 85 00:08:53,794 --> 00:08:55,447 But there was also the other side of me 86 00:08:55,578 --> 00:09:00,627 that was the creative one, the kid in me that just enjoyed 87 00:09:00,757 --> 00:09:03,281 painting and being creative. 88 00:09:03,412 --> 00:09:06,894 And so I went to the medicine looking for clarity and help. 89 00:09:09,984 --> 00:09:14,292 >> I had a friend and she told me about ayahuasca and she was 90 00:09:14,423 --> 00:09:15,772 actually going to Peru. 91 00:09:15,903 --> 00:09:20,560 She also told me that it produces hallucinations, 92 00:09:20,690 --> 00:09:25,652 and part of it is vomitingand having diarrhea. 93 00:09:25,782 --> 00:09:34,835 And I didn't think much of it aside from a little bit 94 00:09:34,965 --> 00:09:37,141 of judgment like why do it. 95 00:09:37,272 --> 00:09:43,017 After she came back, I remember we took a walk through Central 96 00:09:43,147 --> 00:09:49,284 Park, and as she was telling me what she had experienced, 97 00:09:49,414 --> 00:09:53,723 I wasn't so much interested in the context of the experience. 98 00:09:53,854 --> 00:09:58,380 But there was energy around her that-- 99 00:09:58,510 --> 00:10:03,733 sense of purpose and joy and just overall content that 100 00:10:03,864 --> 00:10:07,563 was so new, and I thought to myself maybe 101 00:10:07,694 --> 00:10:11,306 that's the thing I've been looking for. 102 00:10:11,436 --> 00:10:16,398 >> I got an email with all ofthe preparation that one has 103 00:10:16,528 --> 00:10:21,185 to undertake-- no red meat, no oils, no-- 104 00:10:21,316 --> 00:10:22,578 it's very limited. 105 00:10:22,709 --> 00:10:26,190 I followed the diet very, very closely. 106 00:10:26,321 --> 00:10:29,237 Some things I couldn't really explain, but I was like, well, 107 00:10:29,367 --> 00:10:31,892 let me just go with it. 108 00:10:32,022 --> 00:10:35,243 But the one I found interesting was that no masturbation 109 00:10:35,373 --> 00:10:37,332 and no sex. 110 00:10:37,462 --> 00:10:41,553 And I was like, OK, purity. 111 00:10:41,684 --> 00:10:43,164 I see the whole purity thing. 112 00:10:43,294 --> 00:10:44,339 I can go with that. 113 00:10:44,469 --> 00:10:55,045 >> [non-english speech] 114 00:10:55,176 --> 00:11:00,181 >> So there is a practicein the Shipibo lineage when 115 00:11:00,311 --> 00:11:04,098 you're coming to drink ayahuascathat takes place now as taking 116 00:11:04,228 --> 00:11:08,406 a vomitivo in advance of drinking ayahuasca. 117 00:11:08,537 --> 00:11:12,106 >> And this is one spoon of and we'll just the second one now. 118 00:11:12,236 --> 00:11:13,150 >> OK. 119 00:11:13,281 --> 00:11:13,847 No. 120 00:11:13,977 --> 00:11:14,717 >> Only one? 121 00:11:14,848 --> 00:11:15,718 >> Sorry, we don't know. 122 00:11:15,849 --> 00:11:16,806 It's still gonna work right? 123 00:11:16,937 --> 00:11:18,199 >> Yeah, it's going to work. 124 00:11:18,329 --> 00:11:19,679 It does normally. 125 00:11:19,809 --> 00:11:24,161 So just your tummy's gonna be a bit sensitive. 126 00:11:24,292 --> 00:11:26,033 But then you would just add one. 127 00:11:26,163 --> 00:11:27,382 >> Just add one. 128 00:11:27,512 --> 00:11:29,079 >> All right. 129 00:11:29,210 --> 00:11:31,821 >> I was a little shocked to hear that one of the first 130 00:11:31,952 --> 00:11:34,955 things that they give you is this thing called the vomitivo, 131 00:11:35,085 --> 00:11:39,829 and it's this milky white substance that they make from 132 00:11:39,960 --> 00:11:42,310 two plants called azucena and oje. 133 00:11:42,440 --> 00:11:46,706 And it's-- you just chug it, and you drink it as fast as you 134 00:11:46,836 --> 00:11:48,098 can. 135 00:11:48,229 --> 00:11:50,971 And what happens is once you get it all down, 136 00:11:51,101 --> 00:11:54,017 it will come right back up. 137 00:11:54,148 --> 00:11:56,716 [retching] 138 00:11:58,587 --> 00:12:03,548 >> Vomitivo is taken in part because people may not have 139 00:12:03,679 --> 00:12:06,464 dieted, and maybe they have things in their system that 140 00:12:06,595 --> 00:12:08,336 they shouldn't coming to ayahuasca. 141 00:12:08,466 --> 00:12:09,598 So it's a safeguard. 142 00:12:09,729 --> 00:12:11,382 It's a safety measure. 143 00:12:11,513 --> 00:12:18,825 But also it's a purging of this stringy, mucus-y, sticky stuff 144 00:12:18,955 --> 00:12:20,217 that we have in us. 145 00:12:20,348 --> 00:12:25,788 So when we clean, we have a clear container 146 00:12:25,919 --> 00:12:27,529 to receive the ayahuasca. 147 00:12:27,659 --> 00:12:29,618 We have a clear container to receive the master 148 00:12:29,749 --> 00:12:30,967 plant that we're dieting with. 149 00:12:43,371 --> 00:12:45,025 >> [non-english speech] 150 00:12:56,079 --> 00:12:58,603 >> [non-english speech] 151 00:13:08,875 --> 00:13:12,922 >> The idea is to remove anyinterferences that are around 152 00:13:13,053 --> 00:13:15,707 us so that we can connectdeeper to the master plants. 153 00:13:15,838 --> 00:13:19,363 >> Certain plants they do refer to as master plants, 154 00:13:19,494 --> 00:13:22,584 those plants that are whether they're trees, 155 00:13:22,714 --> 00:13:25,239 whether they're flowers, or whatever-- they're vines-- 156 00:13:25,369 --> 00:13:28,068 they regard certain ones of these plants 157 00:13:28,198 --> 00:13:34,074 as the big plants that deliver a particularly powerful healing 158 00:13:34,204 --> 00:13:36,598 force and assistance once you have 159 00:13:36,728 --> 00:13:38,295 a good relationship with them. 160 00:13:38,426 --> 00:13:41,298 [music playing] 161 00:13:44,954 --> 00:13:51,265 >> I was seeking help in terms of connecting on a deeper way 162 00:13:51,395 --> 00:13:56,139 with my artistic side in order to be able to bring forth 163 00:13:56,270 --> 00:14:00,622 a project or a body of work that was going to be meaningful not 164 00:14:00,752 --> 00:14:03,625 just for myself but for the community. 165 00:14:03,755 --> 00:14:07,672 They still have prescribed me a diet with pina colada, which 166 00:14:07,803 --> 00:14:10,501 is this little plant that grows everywhere in the village. 167 00:14:10,632 --> 00:14:13,765 And she told me to pick the leaves of this plant 168 00:14:13,896 --> 00:14:16,203 and in the meantime to talk to the plant 169 00:14:16,333 --> 00:14:19,467 to ask for assistance, to ask what I was looking for. 170 00:14:19,597 --> 00:14:25,212 Because one thing is ayahuasca and the visionary psychotropic 171 00:14:25,342 --> 00:14:27,910 world of ayahuasca but to do it during the day, 172 00:14:28,041 --> 00:14:31,914 to talk to a plant that you're picking its leaves 173 00:14:32,045 --> 00:14:34,003 was a different kind of suggestion. 174 00:14:34,134 --> 00:14:35,352 But I did it. 175 00:14:35,483 --> 00:14:36,745 >> For me as a doctor, I would say, yeah, 176 00:14:36,876 --> 00:14:38,355 that sounds pretty strange. 177 00:14:38,486 --> 00:14:41,141 I didn't believe that or understand that. 178 00:14:41,271 --> 00:14:44,535 But then in doing that, I learned a lot. 179 00:14:44,666 --> 00:14:46,015 I went through the experience. 180 00:14:46,146 --> 00:14:48,844 I decided to enter this mystical school 181 00:14:48,975 --> 00:14:53,327 and try to see what I can learn based on what I had seen 182 00:14:53,457 --> 00:14:55,372 these shamans and these healers doing, how they 183 00:14:55,503 --> 00:14:57,940 were performing, and the kind of results they had with people. 184 00:14:58,071 --> 00:15:01,161 >> First of all, passing that block of how do I talk 185 00:15:01,291 --> 00:15:03,467 to a plant, for me, it was that. 186 00:15:03,598 --> 00:15:04,425 A plant's teaching me? 187 00:15:04,555 --> 00:15:05,556 I'm used to opening a book. 188 00:15:05,687 --> 00:15:07,471 >> [non-english speech] 189 00:15:19,266 --> 00:15:21,659 >> The first night that I was doing the diet, 190 00:15:21,790 --> 00:15:25,359 I woke up from a dream, and in this dream there was this giant 191 00:15:25,489 --> 00:15:29,319 red snake coming down from the sky, the same color-- 192 00:15:29,450 --> 00:15:31,539 the red-- the same red as the pina colada. 193 00:15:31,669 --> 00:15:34,672 This snake was coming down from the sky singing a song, 194 00:15:34,803 --> 00:15:36,544 and I woke up. 195 00:15:36,674 --> 00:15:37,849 It wasn't intimidating. 196 00:15:37,980 --> 00:15:39,634 I wasn't afraid of the snake. 197 00:15:39,764 --> 00:15:42,680 It was a friendly presence, but he was such a peculiar dream, 198 00:15:42,811 --> 00:15:43,943 that I woke up. 199 00:15:44,073 --> 00:15:46,467 So in the morning, Estella, the first 200 00:15:46,597 --> 00:15:49,600 question that she asked me is how did I-- how I slept. 201 00:15:49,731 --> 00:15:50,862 How did I sleep? 202 00:15:50,993 --> 00:15:52,864 And I told her that I slept good, 203 00:15:52,995 --> 00:15:55,606 but I did wake up through this dream. 204 00:15:55,737 --> 00:16:01,177 And she told me that this is how plants very often show up 205 00:16:01,308 --> 00:16:03,875 to establish the connection with the people, 206 00:16:04,006 --> 00:16:05,225 the diet, this plant. 207 00:16:05,355 --> 00:16:10,273 >> The plants are always connected to us. 208 00:16:10,404 --> 00:16:15,104 I believe that it is more about our awareness 209 00:16:15,235 --> 00:16:19,456 of that connection, and what helps 210 00:16:19,587 --> 00:16:25,158 to bring that awareness online is when the food is removed. 211 00:16:25,288 --> 00:16:29,075 The social activities are removed either completely 212 00:16:29,205 --> 00:16:35,342 or significantly where you retrieve from your life 213 00:16:35,472 --> 00:16:38,519 and make the relationship with the plant 214 00:16:38,649 --> 00:16:40,260 your primary relationship. 215 00:16:40,390 --> 00:16:43,263 >> And what happened a month later is that I had filled up 216 00:16:43,393 --> 00:16:49,182 a notebook this big of ideas for art projects, for scripts, 217 00:16:49,312 --> 00:16:53,534 for all sorts of different projects that were inspired 218 00:16:53,664 --> 00:16:56,189 by the dreams that I would have throughout the night, 219 00:16:56,319 --> 00:16:58,408 and I would wake up in the middle of the night and take 220 00:16:58,539 --> 00:16:59,192 notes. 221 00:17:01,498 --> 00:17:06,416 These people, the Shipibos are pharmacists of the jungle. 222 00:17:06,547 --> 00:17:09,028 They have so much knowledge and not only 223 00:17:09,158 --> 00:17:12,683 about the plant to give you if you cut yourself. 224 00:17:12,814 --> 00:17:15,164 They have a plant for your depression. 225 00:17:15,295 --> 00:17:19,081 They have a plant they can diet for your creativity, 226 00:17:19,212 --> 00:17:21,257 for your reproductive system. 227 00:17:21,388 --> 00:17:24,043 [non-english singing] 228 00:17:27,568 --> 00:17:29,135 >> [non-english speech] 229 00:18:24,581 --> 00:18:30,544 >> When you invite plant energy, they teach you attitudes, 230 00:18:30,674 --> 00:18:32,067 and they give you intelligence. 231 00:18:32,198 --> 00:18:33,416 You understand. 232 00:18:33,547 --> 00:18:34,722 You understand. 233 00:18:34,852 --> 00:18:37,507 And there is concept, spiritual concept. 234 00:18:37,638 --> 00:18:40,423 Then your visions open bigger when 235 00:18:40,554 --> 00:18:44,210 you know what is the meaning this type of healing including 236 00:18:44,340 --> 00:18:45,907 the spiritual part. 237 00:18:46,037 --> 00:18:49,389 Open you up to something new. 238 00:18:49,519 --> 00:18:51,956 So you start to facilitate. 239 00:18:52,087 --> 00:18:55,656 Then you do one diet and another diet. 240 00:18:55,786 --> 00:18:58,659 And then your knowledge, understanding open up. 241 00:18:58,789 --> 00:19:03,272 And then you get to the point to become Onaya, which is means 242 00:19:03,403 --> 00:19:07,146 literally the person who knows. 243 00:19:07,276 --> 00:19:10,061 >> [non-english speech] 244 00:19:28,689 --> 00:19:35,696 >> I kept working with the medicine for a year after I 245 00:19:35,826 --> 00:19:38,220 went to Peru. 246 00:19:38,351 --> 00:19:41,049 Second time, a year later, I went back 247 00:19:41,180 --> 00:19:45,575 to the same center, and again my last ceremony there, 248 00:19:45,706 --> 00:19:51,668 I had this vision with the medicine. 249 00:19:51,799 --> 00:19:55,411 And it felt like-- so much like a yes, like absolutely yes. 250 00:19:55,542 --> 00:19:57,413 There is like an invitation of some sort. 251 00:19:57,544 --> 00:19:59,502 >> [non-english speech] 252 00:20:51,162 --> 00:20:53,817 >> [non-english speech] 253 00:21:12,009 --> 00:21:13,794 >> [non-english speech] 254 00:21:29,418 --> 00:21:34,945 >> Ayahuasca is the only combinatory psychedelic 255 00:21:35,076 --> 00:21:36,033 in the world. 256 00:21:36,164 --> 00:21:37,470 That is it takes two plants it. 257 00:21:37,600 --> 00:21:39,559 Takes the vine, and it takes a leaf to make. 258 00:21:39,689 --> 00:21:42,518 >> Ayahuasca vine and typically chacaruna, 259 00:21:42,649 --> 00:21:47,871 and that is the monoamine oxidase inhibitor and then N,N 260 00:21:48,002 --> 00:21:48,698 DMT -- 261 00:21:48,829 --> 00:21:51,092 dimethyltryptamine. 262 00:21:51,222 --> 00:21:53,573 Dimethyltryptamine has also been shown 263 00:21:53,703 --> 00:21:58,447 to increase BDNF brain-derived neurotrophic factor, which is 264 00:21:58,578 --> 00:22:00,623 like Miracle Gro for the brain. 265 00:22:00,754 --> 00:22:03,713 And so that will also allow for increased 266 00:22:03,844 --> 00:22:06,368 neurosynaptic connections and neurogenesis. 267 00:22:06,499 --> 00:22:10,546 >> Ayahuasca is a plant that contains many mysteries 268 00:22:10,677 --> 00:22:14,594 including what is its mechanism of action both biologically 269 00:22:14,724 --> 00:22:16,378 and psychologically. 270 00:22:16,509 --> 00:22:19,250 >> Now we have this portal that through our hearts and through 271 00:22:19,381 --> 00:22:23,559 our-- in our emotional being, we can feel into this energetic, 272 00:22:23,690 --> 00:22:25,169 into the mystery. 273 00:22:25,300 --> 00:22:27,041 People have mystical experiences. 274 00:22:27,171 --> 00:22:28,085 They feel it. 275 00:22:28,216 --> 00:22:29,826 They feel it in their body. 276 00:22:29,957 --> 00:22:33,177 >> It is something that will utterly change your entire way 277 00:22:33,308 --> 00:22:36,224 of thinking about healing, what's possible for the body 278 00:22:36,355 --> 00:22:40,141 and mind, and it has the real potential to shake up medicine 279 00:22:40,271 --> 00:22:41,795 like no other agent on Earth. 280 00:22:48,018 --> 00:22:51,848 >> The first time that I heard about ayahuasca was when I was 281 00:22:51,979 --> 00:22:53,633 in my early 20s. 282 00:22:53,763 --> 00:22:57,201 This was in the early 1970s, and we started hearing reports 283 00:22:57,332 --> 00:23:00,857 from Brazil about this strange drug 284 00:23:00,988 --> 00:23:05,906 from the Amazon, which was having very interesting effects 285 00:23:06,036 --> 00:23:07,473 in the culture. 286 00:23:07,603 --> 00:23:08,865 So a bunch of the psychologists went down there 287 00:23:08,996 --> 00:23:11,302 and started doing studies, and they came back 288 00:23:11,433 --> 00:23:14,480 blowing everybody's minds because they were showing 289 00:23:14,610 --> 00:23:18,614 that this was perhaps the healthiest psychological 290 00:23:18,745 --> 00:23:21,051 cultures that they had ever come across. 291 00:23:27,667 --> 00:23:31,410 >> In 1993, along with my colleagues Dennis McKenna 292 00:23:31,540 --> 00:23:35,718 and Jace Callaway, we went to Manaus in the Brazilian Amazon 293 00:23:35,849 --> 00:23:41,594 and conducted a fairly substantial phase 1 biomedical 294 00:23:41,724 --> 00:23:46,207 psychiatric evaluation of the health of long-term members 295 00:23:46,337 --> 00:23:51,125 of the UDV who utilize ayahuasca in religious ceremony. 296 00:23:51,255 --> 00:23:53,780 Twice monthly, we had a match control group 297 00:23:53,910 --> 00:23:57,784 that was matched on socioeconomic lines, education, 298 00:23:57,914 --> 00:23:59,568 all parameters except for the fact 299 00:23:59,699 --> 00:24:03,572 that they had never been exposed to ayahuasca. 300 00:24:03,703 --> 00:24:07,271 >> Their first ayahuasca sessions were usually quite 301 00:24:07,402 --> 00:24:12,407 terrifying and quite unsettling, but they were also revelatory 302 00:24:12,538 --> 00:24:18,108 in the sense that they became quite afraid but then there was 303 00:24:18,239 --> 00:24:19,893 a redemptive moment. 304 00:24:20,023 --> 00:24:24,854 There was a period during these difficult early experiences 305 00:24:24,985 --> 00:24:28,771 where they saw a way to change their life 306 00:24:28,902 --> 00:24:30,599 and have a better outcome. 307 00:24:30,730 --> 00:24:35,038 >> When we did structured psychiatric diagnostic 308 00:24:35,169 --> 00:24:40,696 interviews, we found that quite a number of these ayahuasca 309 00:24:40,827 --> 00:24:44,787 church members had had histories of some significant 310 00:24:44,918 --> 00:24:47,747 psychopathology prior to the time they entered the ayahuasca 311 00:24:47,877 --> 00:24:48,965 church. 312 00:24:49,096 --> 00:24:50,358 After their entry into the church, 313 00:24:50,489 --> 00:24:53,274 they actually rather radically transformed. 314 00:24:53,404 --> 00:24:56,930 >> On the biochemical side, we were doing various 315 00:24:57,060 --> 00:24:58,148 measurements. 316 00:24:58,279 --> 00:25:01,195 We found a surprising thing, which 317 00:25:01,325 --> 00:25:07,201 is that the levels of the serotonin transporters, 318 00:25:07,331 --> 00:25:10,073 not receptors but the transporters, 319 00:25:10,204 --> 00:25:13,337 were significantly elevated in the drinkers 320 00:25:13,468 --> 00:25:18,473 compared to in the age matched control of nondrinkers, 321 00:25:18,604 --> 00:25:21,737 and we thought, well, that's interesting. 322 00:25:21,868 --> 00:25:24,566 There is a clear difference between the drinkers 323 00:25:24,697 --> 00:25:26,089 and the non-drinkers. 324 00:25:26,220 --> 00:25:29,092 They have these elevated levels of the transporter. 325 00:25:29,223 --> 00:25:31,051 What does this mean? 326 00:25:31,181 --> 00:25:33,662 We didn't know what it meant, but then, of course, 327 00:25:33,793 --> 00:25:37,144 when you don't know, first thing you do is go to the literature. 328 00:25:37,274 --> 00:25:40,626 And we went to the literature, and we found a whole spectrum 329 00:25:40,756 --> 00:25:45,631 of publications having to do with deficits 330 00:25:45,761 --> 00:25:50,897 in the transporter being associated with alcoholism 331 00:25:51,027 --> 00:25:55,205 and homicidal tendencies, of suicidal tendencies, 332 00:25:55,336 --> 00:25:59,427 depression, exactly the kind of thing 333 00:25:59,558 --> 00:26:01,777 that the UDV people were facing. 334 00:26:01,908 --> 00:26:19,099 >> [non-english speech] 335 00:26:19,229 --> 00:26:20,883 >> Everything changed. 336 00:26:21,014 --> 00:26:26,802 I felt so much love for not only myself as a sentient being 337 00:26:26,933 --> 00:26:28,891 but for all other beings. 338 00:26:29,022 --> 00:26:32,155 The awareness of my own body and my own body's needs 339 00:26:32,286 --> 00:26:34,636 was so much more clear. 340 00:26:34,767 --> 00:26:35,898 I seem to be-- 341 00:26:36,029 --> 00:26:39,510 to have more regulated sleep cycles. 342 00:26:39,641 --> 00:26:40,816 I got up early. 343 00:26:40,947 --> 00:26:42,949 I had much more energy. 344 00:26:43,079 --> 00:26:45,647 I couldn't hold a grudge. 345 00:26:45,778 --> 00:26:47,127 I got mad. 346 00:26:47,257 --> 00:26:48,563 Stuff would happen. 347 00:26:48,694 --> 00:26:52,175 But I couldn't let go of this because somehow I 348 00:26:52,306 --> 00:26:54,700 understood that if I started giving 349 00:26:54,830 --> 00:26:56,745 in to the grudge and the anger and things 350 00:26:56,876 --> 00:26:59,879 like that this open connection that I had to the heart 351 00:27:00,009 --> 00:27:01,445 would just close. 352 00:27:01,576 --> 00:27:04,535 But I lived that way for an extended period of time, 353 00:27:04,666 --> 00:27:08,061 and drinking and smoking was part of that. 354 00:27:08,191 --> 00:27:10,150 These things just fell away. 355 00:27:10,280 --> 00:27:12,587 It was beautiful, and everybody around me saw it. 356 00:27:12,718 --> 00:27:15,329 My sister, Vivian, decided to go to Peru, 357 00:27:15,459 --> 00:27:17,853 and she's had her own experiences with ayahuasca. 358 00:27:17,984 --> 00:27:19,725 And my good friend Geoffrey, who's 359 00:27:19,855 --> 00:27:22,945 been my friend of 30 years, one day 360 00:27:23,076 --> 00:27:29,735 he said, brother, I think I want to go meet the mother. 361 00:27:29,865 --> 00:27:35,828 >> I really am aware of my own depression in the last couple 362 00:27:35,958 --> 00:27:38,874 of years of my mother's being sick and passing. 363 00:27:39,005 --> 00:27:43,662 I even went on medication for a little bit 364 00:27:43,792 --> 00:27:45,925 that had me walking around like a zombie. 365 00:27:46,055 --> 00:27:47,709 But to see these people that have actually 366 00:27:47,840 --> 00:27:51,757 come back from this experience, and it's in their eyes. 367 00:27:51,887 --> 00:27:53,497 It's in the way they carry themselves. 368 00:27:53,628 --> 00:27:56,370 It's in their attitude about life now. 369 00:27:56,500 --> 00:28:01,462 It's really something to see, and I want some of that, baby. 370 00:28:01,592 --> 00:28:04,683 Give me some of that juice. 371 00:28:04,813 --> 00:28:08,817 >> For some things, Western medicine is not good at. 372 00:28:08,948 --> 00:28:10,776 So there's things we're great at, 373 00:28:10,906 --> 00:28:13,430 and then there's things that we're not very good at. 374 00:28:13,561 --> 00:28:18,435 And in particular, chronic pain, fibromyalgia, depression, 375 00:28:18,566 --> 00:28:21,874 anxiety, PTSD, there are not a lot of good treatments for it. 376 00:28:22,004 --> 00:28:27,270 >> These problems are quite often rooted in some kind 377 00:28:27,401 --> 00:28:29,098 of emotional disturbance. 378 00:28:29,229 --> 00:28:31,448 And when somebody has been through some serious emotional 379 00:28:31,579 --> 00:28:33,363 trauma, they do end up having physical symptoms 380 00:28:33,494 --> 00:28:35,017 and associated problems. 381 00:28:35,148 --> 00:28:36,889 And when they go through a spiritual healing 382 00:28:37,019 --> 00:28:39,282 and you see a resolution of physical symptoms, 383 00:28:39,413 --> 00:28:41,154 well, now we can say that something happened. 384 00:28:41,284 --> 00:28:45,854 >> I grew up with a tremendous level of abuse. 385 00:28:45,985 --> 00:28:48,248 It was emotional abuse, the physical abuse, 386 00:28:48,378 --> 00:28:50,206 and sexual abuse. 387 00:28:50,337 --> 00:28:52,382 These experiences were something that were just 388 00:28:52,513 --> 00:28:55,777 like blocking me from the world, and I couldn't you 389 00:28:55,908 --> 00:28:57,518 could physically feel that. 390 00:28:57,648 --> 00:29:01,478 >> A lot of the therapeutic potential of these psychedelics 391 00:29:01,609 --> 00:29:05,308 is you hear a lot of talk these days about the default mode 392 00:29:05,439 --> 00:29:08,877 network, and that's a model. 393 00:29:09,008 --> 00:29:14,187 Your brain synthesizes and takes all the sensory data 394 00:29:14,317 --> 00:29:16,450 that we're getting through eyes, ears, 395 00:29:16,580 --> 00:29:21,934 all our sensory channels takes that, integrates it internally 396 00:29:22,064 --> 00:29:24,066 with many other things-- 397 00:29:24,197 --> 00:29:29,245 memories, associations, and creates this model world 398 00:29:29,376 --> 00:29:30,769 that we inhabit. 399 00:29:36,209 --> 00:29:39,473 Psychedelics temporarily disrupt that. 400 00:29:39,603 --> 00:29:41,518 They blow it apart. 401 00:29:41,649 --> 00:29:43,825 That gives you the chance to look at yourself 402 00:29:43,956 --> 00:29:46,785 from a different perspective, almost as though you're not 403 00:29:46,915 --> 00:29:49,091 the same person and you can-- 404 00:29:49,222 --> 00:29:56,185 their identify may be habits or presumptions or various things 405 00:29:56,316 --> 00:30:00,711 that are contributing to this destructive, non-helpful 406 00:30:00,842 --> 00:30:02,148 behavior. 407 00:30:02,278 --> 00:30:04,585 >> I'd heard it was kind of like miracle drug, 408 00:30:04,715 --> 00:30:07,414 like that it could heal any sort of mental problem you might 409 00:30:07,544 --> 00:30:08,719 have. 410 00:30:08,850 --> 00:30:10,112 So I had some problems with anxiety, 411 00:30:10,243 --> 00:30:12,549 and I kind of have an addictive personality. 412 00:30:12,680 --> 00:30:14,987 So I thought maybe it would cure me. 413 00:30:15,117 --> 00:30:18,120 >> Most of the people that doesn't really want to go 414 00:30:18,251 --> 00:30:19,513 in the spiritual world. 415 00:30:19,643 --> 00:30:22,864 They're not enough, very enough many stories 416 00:30:22,995 --> 00:30:25,475 that it's fine for us just to get the healing. 417 00:30:25,606 --> 00:30:27,564 You have to be brave to drink ayahuasca. 418 00:30:27,695 --> 00:30:32,352 >> There are individuals who just do not have the-- 419 00:30:32,482 --> 00:30:34,702 that inner strength and fortitude 420 00:30:34,833 --> 00:30:36,443 to be able to handle this experience. 421 00:30:36,573 --> 00:30:40,882 >> Not everybody is suitable for psychedelics in general, 422 00:30:41,013 --> 00:30:45,234 no matter whether it's mushrooms, peyote, San Pedro, 423 00:30:45,365 --> 00:30:48,150 LSD, or ayahuasca. 424 00:30:48,281 --> 00:30:51,023 Fragile people, people who are manic, 425 00:30:51,153 --> 00:30:52,676 people who are schizophrenic, people 426 00:30:52,807 --> 00:30:55,288 who have profound mental and emotional problems 427 00:30:55,418 --> 00:30:57,029 should not be drinking this stuff. 428 00:30:57,159 --> 00:30:58,857 >> [non-english speech] 429 00:31:18,789 --> 00:31:20,574 >> It's good to have two options. 430 00:31:20,704 --> 00:31:21,923 You don't to. 431 00:31:22,054 --> 00:31:24,186 We have good experiences here with people 432 00:31:24,317 --> 00:31:27,363 who had a master plan dietand never drink ayahuasca 433 00:31:27,494 --> 00:31:30,410 and felt great, and they had awesome dreams. 434 00:31:30,540 --> 00:31:35,023 And so they're both options. 435 00:31:35,154 --> 00:31:37,678 Then everything I said is true. 436 00:31:37,808 --> 00:31:40,289 If you are also looking into your own darkness, 437 00:31:40,420 --> 00:31:44,903 it can be very scary. 438 00:31:45,033 --> 00:31:48,994 And not everybody is ready for that that way. 439 00:31:49,124 --> 00:31:53,912 >> Never in my life would I have ever thought that my mother 440 00:31:54,042 --> 00:31:55,304 would drink ayahuasca. 441 00:31:55,435 --> 00:31:58,568 But one day, I was on the phone with her, 442 00:31:58,699 --> 00:32:03,747 and I was planning a trip to Costa Rica 443 00:32:03,878 --> 00:32:06,272 to drink some ayahuasca. 444 00:32:06,402 --> 00:32:09,405 And she said to me I wish you'd invite me. 445 00:32:09,536 --> 00:32:13,148 I'm like what are you saying, mom. 446 00:32:13,279 --> 00:32:16,804 Are you saying that you want to drink the medicine? 447 00:32:16,935 --> 00:32:21,156 And she says yeah. 448 00:32:21,287 --> 00:32:25,595 And all I could think of was why. 449 00:32:25,726 --> 00:32:31,036 And she said because I've seen what it's 450 00:32:31,166 --> 00:32:32,863 done for you and your sister. 451 00:32:32,994 --> 00:32:34,561 >> [non-english speech] 452 00:33:03,894 --> 00:33:06,680 [drumming] 453 00:33:15,906 --> 00:33:19,084 >> The tradition is very important, 454 00:33:19,214 --> 00:33:22,348 and the intention behind this plant. 455 00:33:22,478 --> 00:33:27,483 And I think about it hadto be grown and harvested 456 00:33:27,614 --> 00:33:32,836 and brewed and prayed over andtransported and then delivered, 457 00:33:32,967 --> 00:33:36,666 and the intention every stepof the way really matters. 458 00:33:36,797 --> 00:33:40,453 And that intention matches the intention that whoever's taking 459 00:33:40,583 --> 00:33:42,977 it is bringing to it. 460 00:33:47,329 --> 00:33:52,378 >> I find a very, very important component of doing work with 461 00:33:52,508 --> 00:33:55,207 ayahuasca is formulating an intention, 462 00:33:55,337 --> 00:33:59,689 to really focus it ahead of time why are you doing this. 463 00:33:59,820 --> 00:34:01,735 Because for it to have any lasting value, 464 00:34:01,865 --> 00:34:03,345 it's got to be more than just kicks. 465 00:34:03,476 --> 00:34:05,826 It's got to be more than a recreational experience. 466 00:34:05,956 --> 00:34:07,784 And it really-- the experience in and of itself 467 00:34:07,915 --> 00:34:10,048 goes to the core of that individual. 468 00:34:37,205 --> 00:34:39,773 [non-english singing] 469 00:34:54,004 --> 00:34:58,270 >> Very commonly experienced by the people that come here, 470 00:34:58,400 --> 00:35:00,359 they realize oh my God, I thought it was going to be 471 00:35:00,489 --> 00:35:01,708 about the ayahuasca. 472 00:35:01,838 --> 00:35:02,796 I thought it was going to be about this. 473 00:35:02,926 --> 00:35:04,189 It's about the songs. 474 00:35:04,319 --> 00:35:05,712 >> I had a terrible, terrible experience. 475 00:35:05,842 --> 00:35:06,626 I thought I was dying. 476 00:35:06,756 --> 00:35:08,584 I thought I was dead. 477 00:35:08,715 --> 00:35:10,891 And one of the helpers came up to me. 478 00:35:11,021 --> 00:35:14,024 I asked for help, and she said I will take it to the shaman 479 00:35:14,155 --> 00:35:16,201 and they will help you. 480 00:35:16,331 --> 00:35:19,291 And to myself to be honest, I thought what a bunch of BS 481 00:35:19,421 --> 00:35:21,075 like who's going to help me now. 482 00:35:21,206 --> 00:35:24,426 And I don't-- can't even explain to you what's happening to me. 483 00:35:24,557 --> 00:35:26,515 By the time she broughtme in front of the shaman, 484 00:35:26,646 --> 00:35:28,430 I couldn't even sit up. 485 00:35:28,561 --> 00:35:32,260 I just collapsed on thecushion that she put me on. 486 00:35:32,391 --> 00:35:35,394 And as he started singing, there was 487 00:35:35,524 --> 00:35:40,964 something so incomprehensible happening, 488 00:35:41,095 --> 00:35:42,749 like I was understanding what the song was 489 00:35:42,879 --> 00:35:44,664 about beyond the words. 490 00:35:44,794 --> 00:35:51,018 It was doing something that I couldn't even imagine possible. 491 00:35:51,149 --> 00:35:58,286 And by the time he was done singing to me, I got my bucket, 492 00:35:58,417 --> 00:36:01,985 and I was able to walk back to my mat in complete peace. 493 00:36:02,116 --> 00:36:04,031 [non-english singing] 494 00:36:06,773 --> 00:36:08,470 >> When I was working with the Shipibo, 495 00:36:08,601 --> 00:36:12,213 they said really clearly thateven though we recognize that 496 00:36:12,344 --> 00:36:16,652 ayahuasca is the real curandero,or the medicine, the healer, 497 00:36:16,783 --> 00:36:19,220 it's icaros that tell itwhat to do and where to go. 498 00:36:19,351 --> 00:36:42,591 >> [non-english speech] 499 00:36:42,722 --> 00:36:47,683 >> For Shipibo shamans saying that in a dieta, 500 00:36:47,814 --> 00:36:50,860 the icaro out of the plant. 501 00:36:50,991 --> 00:36:54,821 The plant talked to me and taught me the icaro. 502 00:36:54,951 --> 00:36:59,434 Someone else may say being on ayahuasca, 503 00:36:59,565 --> 00:37:05,005 I was inspired to feel and hear this melody, 504 00:37:05,135 --> 00:37:07,964 compose this melody. 505 00:37:08,095 --> 00:37:09,618 I think they're one and the same, 506 00:37:09,749 --> 00:37:11,751 and it's very, very complex. 507 00:37:11,881 --> 00:37:14,580 But there are different narratives 508 00:37:14,710 --> 00:37:17,670 and different ways of talking about what's going on. 509 00:37:17,800 --> 00:37:20,760 It's far more complex than we can conceive 510 00:37:20,890 --> 00:37:23,502 that it can accommodate aninfinite in different ways 511 00:37:23,632 --> 00:37:25,243 of talking about the processes. 512 00:37:25,373 --> 00:37:27,941 >> Where we're receiving from is a mystery, 513 00:37:28,071 --> 00:37:31,510 but I've definitely had the experience of something just 514 00:37:31,640 --> 00:37:34,339 feeling like it's coming through another dimension or some 515 00:37:34,469 --> 00:37:36,036 people say being channeled. 516 00:37:36,166 --> 00:37:38,212 >> The medicine brings us a lot of different metaphors. 517 00:37:38,343 --> 00:37:40,867 So if they saw a bear in somebody, 518 00:37:40,997 --> 00:37:43,086 they would see their anger or a lion in someone, 519 00:37:43,217 --> 00:37:44,436 they would see their anger. 520 00:37:44,566 --> 00:37:46,525 So if they're working on a big dragon, 521 00:37:46,655 --> 00:37:49,832 they wouldn't necessarily sing really strong to that dragon. 522 00:37:49,963 --> 00:37:54,315 They would go really quietly and move into that energy 523 00:37:54,446 --> 00:37:57,362 almost to trick it to get in there to do the cleaning. 524 00:37:57,492 --> 00:37:59,451 >> One time I-- 525 00:37:59,581 --> 00:38:03,411 where I was just beginning into shamanism, I looked over 526 00:38:03,542 --> 00:38:05,674 and I saw a shaman singing to somebody. 527 00:38:05,805 --> 00:38:11,027 And I saw this energy vortex come out of there 528 00:38:11,158 --> 00:38:13,029 with the song, the icaro. 529 00:38:13,160 --> 00:38:16,337 It was this tunnel of energy that had this vibration moving 530 00:38:16,468 --> 00:38:17,860 through it. 531 00:38:17,991 --> 00:38:20,428 And then it came to the person's body. 532 00:38:20,559 --> 00:38:25,085 And in that moment, when they merged and were interacting, 533 00:38:25,215 --> 00:38:26,391 it opened a little window. 534 00:38:26,521 --> 00:38:28,218 I could see over the shaman's shoulder. 535 00:38:28,349 --> 00:38:30,438 I saw a little like a television. 536 00:38:30,569 --> 00:38:33,136 I could see inside the person's body 537 00:38:33,267 --> 00:38:37,576 like the way you can with the surgery, 538 00:38:37,706 --> 00:38:40,361 open and look and look around. 539 00:38:40,492 --> 00:38:42,929 [non-english singing] 540 00:38:44,974 --> 00:38:48,326 >> The song is affecting us on the emotional level. 541 00:38:48,456 --> 00:38:51,067 It's impacting the autonomic nervous system 542 00:38:51,198 --> 00:38:53,940 helping it shift from sympathetic to parasympathetic. 543 00:38:54,070 --> 00:38:57,813 It's allowing us to establish contemplative, meditative, 544 00:38:57,944 --> 00:39:03,123 transcendental, mindful state, requires the mind. 545 00:39:03,253 --> 00:39:05,473 >> [non-english speech] 546 00:39:20,401 --> 00:39:24,405 >> Experience with ayahuasca with the icaros is 547 00:39:24,536 --> 00:39:28,888 a correction, is a realization to how we got lost 548 00:39:29,018 --> 00:39:34,110 in the misguided perception into going into the inception of how 549 00:39:34,241 --> 00:39:39,812 this sense of loss was caused by a traumatic experience, 550 00:39:39,942 --> 00:39:47,646 by conditioning or PTSD, and the correction comes from within. 551 00:39:52,041 --> 00:39:54,870 [non-english singing] 552 00:44:24,270 --> 00:44:30,798 >> My duty as a professional athlete was to win the races. 553 00:44:30,929 --> 00:44:35,194 I was very unconsciously attached to success. 554 00:44:35,324 --> 00:44:39,894 If I didn't win, that was a failure. 555 00:44:40,025 --> 00:44:43,071 [non-english speech] 556 00:44:44,116 --> 00:44:46,640 [non-english singing] 557 00:44:46,771 --> 00:44:50,557 There was this ceremony which the magazine showed me 558 00:44:50,688 --> 00:44:54,256 a particular episode of when I was a junior swimmer. 559 00:44:54,387 --> 00:44:57,129 And I went to the European junior championships 560 00:44:57,259 --> 00:45:00,088 and I took prelims as a joke and I ended up 561 00:45:00,219 --> 00:45:02,438 missing the final for one cent of a second. 562 00:45:02,569 --> 00:45:05,180 I went to this championship so ready to win, 563 00:45:05,311 --> 00:45:07,922 so I can't tell you how disappointed I was. 564 00:45:08,053 --> 00:45:11,665 You know, I felt like I let down my world at the moment. 565 00:45:15,060 --> 00:45:20,674 The ayahuasca showed me how I was still carrying the sadness 566 00:45:20,805 --> 00:45:25,461 at being the disappointment in my father's eyes, in my coach, 567 00:45:25,592 --> 00:45:31,337 in all the people that were there had an impact on me. 568 00:45:31,467 --> 00:45:34,819 At that particular moment in my life, 569 00:45:34,949 --> 00:45:37,386 that had so much hype and expectations 570 00:45:37,517 --> 00:45:42,522 and me not being able to live up to those expectations, that 571 00:45:42,652 --> 00:45:45,307 influenced me later on also. 572 00:45:45,438 --> 00:45:49,137 That shock was preventing me also 573 00:45:49,268 --> 00:45:54,273 from being more daring in life, for example, 574 00:45:54,403 --> 00:45:56,362 because of my fear of failing. 575 00:46:02,455 --> 00:46:08,330 >> I was born with a condition called congenital amputation. 576 00:46:08,461 --> 00:46:12,421 And there was not a lot of education 577 00:46:12,552 --> 00:46:17,252 around that, so I've experienced a lot of shame 578 00:46:17,383 --> 00:46:24,346 and a lot of a treatment like I was not 579 00:46:24,477 --> 00:46:28,524 human enough or capable enough. 580 00:46:28,655 --> 00:46:34,879 And unfortunately a tremendous part of that thinking 581 00:46:35,009 --> 00:46:42,016 came actually from my family, from people who raised me. 582 00:46:42,147 --> 00:46:47,805 And so my coping mechanism was built 583 00:46:47,935 --> 00:46:56,596 around the identity of provingpeople wrong about myself. 584 00:46:56,726 --> 00:47:02,820 I realized that no matter what I could achieve, no matter 585 00:47:02,950 --> 00:47:07,520 how well-educated I was or informed, 586 00:47:07,650 --> 00:47:09,783 the feeling was still there. 587 00:47:09,914 --> 00:47:17,835 And the realization that even though I spent so much 588 00:47:17,965 --> 00:47:23,014 time and energy proving other people wrong, 589 00:47:23,144 --> 00:47:27,453 deep inside I took on those beliefs. 590 00:47:27,583 --> 00:47:35,200 And I knowingly lived my life out of that place. 591 00:47:35,330 --> 00:47:37,680 [non-english singing] 592 00:47:42,294 --> 00:47:52,217 >> In one ceremony, I found myself sitting with five other 593 00:47:52,347 --> 00:47:56,351 guys, and they were all me. 594 00:47:56,482 --> 00:48:03,315 And they were all parts of me that I either ignored 595 00:48:03,445 --> 00:48:09,538 or rejected or suppressed. 596 00:48:09,669 --> 00:48:12,977 And it was a very difficult thing 597 00:48:13,107 --> 00:48:18,199 to do to be sitting with apart of me that is vengeful, 598 00:48:18,330 --> 00:48:24,423 the part of me that's lustful, the part of me that is envious, 599 00:48:24,553 --> 00:48:28,688 the part of me that is destructive, 600 00:48:28,818 --> 00:48:31,212 the part of me that wants to steal. 601 00:48:38,654 --> 00:48:40,047 I couldn't even look at these guy-- 602 00:48:40,178 --> 00:48:41,788 I couldn't look. 603 00:48:41,919 --> 00:48:45,835 I could just sit there, and I knew that I couldn't leave. 604 00:48:45,966 --> 00:48:47,837 But it was my choice. 605 00:48:47,968 --> 00:48:49,622 I stayed. 606 00:48:49,752 --> 00:48:54,888 And it was incredibly difficult to even look at these guys 607 00:48:55,019 --> 00:49:01,155 because they were all me, and they were all pretty awful. 608 00:49:06,247 --> 00:49:08,510 >> I started the bawl. 609 00:49:08,641 --> 00:49:11,383 All I could hear was my sorrow. 610 00:49:11,513 --> 00:49:15,517 I realized during the song that my anger was my weakness. 611 00:49:15,648 --> 00:49:17,563 It was like kryptonite. 612 00:49:17,693 --> 00:49:19,130 It stole my power. 613 00:49:19,260 --> 00:49:22,133 It took away from me everything that was strong. 614 00:49:22,263 --> 00:49:23,656 >> [non-english speech] 615 00:49:47,593 --> 00:49:52,685 >> That happened to me a couple of times when I got scared 616 00:49:52,815 --> 00:49:56,863 about the power of this medicine. 617 00:49:56,994 --> 00:50:00,910 And then it just brings me down very quickly, and I feel bad. 618 00:50:01,041 --> 00:50:02,173 I feel nauseous. 619 00:50:02,303 --> 00:50:04,697 >> As soon as I drink it, I felt hot, 620 00:50:04,827 --> 00:50:08,440 and then pretty soon after, I puked it up. 621 00:50:08,570 --> 00:50:10,485 So I haven't gotten the full effect. 622 00:50:13,271 --> 00:50:15,229 [non-english singing] 623 00:50:28,808 --> 00:50:32,594 >> There was the spirit of the medicine caressing me, 624 00:50:32,725 --> 00:50:36,207 telling me there wasn't a big deal to lose a race. 625 00:50:36,337 --> 00:50:37,469 You know what I mean? 626 00:50:37,599 --> 00:50:39,906 That kind of consoling, loving energy, 627 00:50:40,037 --> 00:50:42,865 I didn't experience that time. 628 00:50:42,996 --> 00:50:47,261 And so the healing arrived in which 629 00:50:47,392 --> 00:50:50,612 she helped me understand thatthen my sense of worthiness 630 00:50:50,743 --> 00:50:55,182 had nothing to do with winninga race or winning anything 631 00:50:55,313 --> 00:50:56,618 or losing anything. 632 00:50:56,749 --> 00:50:58,533 It's something that goes beyond. 633 00:50:58,664 --> 00:51:01,536 But also at the same time in that release, 634 00:51:01,667 --> 00:51:06,933 I felt like space was created, and that gave birth basically 635 00:51:07,064 --> 00:51:11,459 to a feeling that was a lot more fearless. 636 00:51:11,590 --> 00:51:16,943 So I defined the massive plants opened the gate for me 637 00:51:17,074 --> 00:51:24,298 to reclaim my creative love, creative force. 638 00:51:34,003 --> 00:51:39,618 >> The unfolding of that journey was actually getting in touch 639 00:51:39,748 --> 00:51:44,710 with vulnerability and receiving something rather than giving 640 00:51:44,840 --> 00:51:49,889 something and receiving something when I didn't have 641 00:51:50,019 --> 00:52:00,247 that wall because I was so deep in my fact and I did not have 642 00:52:00,378 --> 00:52:06,340 the coping mechanism that I could grab on to to go back 643 00:52:06,471 --> 00:52:11,911 to my original safe zone. 644 00:52:12,041 --> 00:52:24,576 And that was one of the very challenging and very healing 645 00:52:24,706 --> 00:52:29,407 things that happened during the ceremony. 646 00:52:37,763 --> 00:52:46,163 >> I started to feel more OK with these other people. 647 00:52:46,293 --> 00:52:48,252 It felt a little somehow safer. 648 00:52:51,951 --> 00:52:56,869 After some time, the most magical thing happened. 649 00:53:00,742 --> 00:53:03,528 They were all little boys, and they were me. 650 00:53:06,879 --> 00:53:11,666 And for the first time, I felt love and compassion 651 00:53:11,797 --> 00:53:17,542 for those parts of me that I had just rejected for so long. 652 00:53:17,672 --> 00:53:24,679 And to just be able to embracethem as little children, 653 00:53:24,810 --> 00:53:31,556 I cannot describe to you whatthe wholeness that has resulted 654 00:53:31,686 --> 00:53:36,517 from being able to choose to do that. 655 00:53:41,696 --> 00:53:47,093 If I cannot love and accept my own dark parts, 656 00:53:47,224 --> 00:53:52,751 I will never be able to accept the dark parts of another, 657 00:53:52,881 --> 00:54:01,368 which means I cannot love them because love is exactly that. 658 00:54:01,499 --> 00:54:03,675 >> [non-english speech] 659 00:56:32,171 --> 00:56:34,869 [vocalizing] 660 00:56:35,957 --> 00:56:37,394 [non-english singing] 661 00:56:54,541 --> 00:56:56,978 >> They can be very difficult sometimes. 662 00:56:57,109 --> 00:56:58,763 That's part of it. 663 00:56:58,893 --> 00:57:02,070 I can say I witnessed that many, many, many times when people 664 00:57:02,201 --> 00:57:04,769 are very terrified and frightened and stuck 665 00:57:04,899 --> 00:57:07,206 or they're in pain or all the different things that 666 00:57:07,336 --> 00:57:08,468 can happen. 667 00:57:08,599 --> 00:57:10,470 And then through support in the ceremony 668 00:57:10,601 --> 00:57:13,299 by advanced practitioners, more often than not, 669 00:57:13,430 --> 00:57:16,389 we could get people to progress and evolve past 670 00:57:16,520 --> 00:57:18,086 where they were stuck at. 671 00:57:18,217 --> 00:57:23,831 >> I felt [exhaling] the sense that God was watching me-- 672 00:57:23,962 --> 00:57:26,791 [sniffling] 673 00:57:26,921 --> 00:57:32,144 And loved me no matter what, that I should love myself 674 00:57:32,274 --> 00:57:33,972 first. 675 00:57:34,102 --> 00:57:37,410 >> Well, my experience has mainly been puking, 676 00:57:37,541 --> 00:57:38,672 puking a lot. 677 00:57:38,803 --> 00:57:42,850 >> Ayahuasca shatters our defenses. 678 00:57:42,981 --> 00:57:45,679 It's like the only choice is surrender, 679 00:57:45,810 --> 00:57:48,290 and it's in that moment that all the things we've 680 00:57:48,421 --> 00:57:50,728 been holding on to, all the things that we've been taught, 681 00:57:50,858 --> 00:57:53,731 and all the ways in which we have been instructed-- 682 00:57:53,861 --> 00:57:57,909 you have to be this way-- fall away, oh my God. 683 00:57:58,039 --> 00:58:01,347 Because in surrender is when the liberation comes. 684 00:58:04,698 --> 00:58:09,790 >> It creates an opportunity to renegotiate the experience 685 00:58:09,921 --> 00:58:13,490 so as to be able to gain something different from it. 686 00:58:13,620 --> 00:58:15,753 The experience itself doesn't change, 687 00:58:15,883 --> 00:58:19,931 but my relation to the experience changes. 688 00:58:20,061 --> 00:58:24,065 >> I was preparing to thinkthat dangerous highway, 689 00:58:24,196 --> 00:58:26,633 and I was getting-- 690 00:58:26,764 --> 00:58:28,243 I was ready. 691 00:58:28,374 --> 00:58:33,205 My body was ready to manifestto suffer from that fear 692 00:58:33,335 --> 00:58:35,555 that I had about the highway. 693 00:58:35,686 --> 00:58:38,645 And so I'm a holding onto my wheel, 694 00:58:38,776 --> 00:58:40,604 and I realize that I'm not afraid. 695 00:58:40,734 --> 00:58:43,476 >> There is a potential of very powerful healing that happens, 696 00:58:43,607 --> 00:58:45,522 and there's many, many stories of that. 697 00:58:45,652 --> 00:58:49,787 But we cannot downplay the reality that in most cases, 698 00:58:49,917 --> 00:58:53,312 the integration process is extremely crucial 699 00:58:53,442 --> 00:58:55,096 to the success of the healing. 700 00:58:55,227 --> 00:58:58,926 >> You can drink ayahuasca 100 times and still be in the same 701 00:58:59,057 --> 00:59:00,145 place. 702 00:59:00,275 --> 00:59:04,410 >> I got homework from the mother. 703 00:59:04,541 --> 00:59:06,978 She told me in a ceremony that I had 704 00:59:07,108 --> 00:59:10,982 to do a celibacy diet in order to get 705 00:59:11,112 --> 00:59:14,551 to where I needed to get to. 706 00:59:14,681 --> 00:59:15,595 That's the long story. 707 00:59:15,726 --> 00:59:17,075 We won't get into that. 708 00:59:17,205 --> 00:59:19,512 But that's what I needed to do. 709 00:59:19,643 --> 00:59:21,558 And she said a year. 710 00:59:21,688 --> 00:59:24,561 And that night I was like a year. 711 00:59:24,691 --> 00:59:25,474 No. 712 00:59:25,605 --> 00:59:27,781 This is crazy, a year. 713 00:59:27,912 --> 00:59:29,174 How about six months? 714 00:59:29,304 --> 00:59:30,567 And then she said nine. 715 00:59:30,697 --> 00:59:32,264 I was like OK. 716 00:59:32,394 --> 00:59:33,744 So we settled on nine. 717 00:59:33,874 --> 00:59:36,094 >> You blow apart this default mode network. 718 00:59:36,224 --> 00:59:40,794 You disrupt these bad behavioral patterns. 719 00:59:40,925 --> 00:59:43,841 But the default mode network is very resistant. 720 00:59:43,971 --> 00:59:47,584 So if you blow it apart, but it will fall back together. 721 00:59:47,714 --> 00:59:49,455 It will collapse back together. 722 00:59:49,586 --> 00:59:58,029 >> The experience of that celibacy dieta was to integrate 723 00:59:58,159 --> 01:00:01,946 all of those parts of myself that have been exposed and had 724 01:00:02,076 --> 01:00:04,688 risen to the surface through ceremonies. 725 01:00:04,818 --> 01:00:08,648 >> Emotional intelligence and understanding our emotions 726 01:00:08,779 --> 01:00:12,391 and navigating our emotions, that's not the realm 727 01:00:12,521 --> 01:00:14,349 of the mind. 728 01:00:14,480 --> 01:00:19,137 And so the common thread that I see is disengaging from what we 729 01:00:19,267 --> 01:00:22,880 know and willing to step into something that cannot be 730 01:00:23,010 --> 01:00:25,665 explained but can only be experienced. 731 01:00:25,796 --> 01:00:30,322 >> I spent a lot of time alone. 732 01:00:30,452 --> 01:00:38,156 But for the first time, it wasn't intolerable 733 01:00:38,286 --> 01:00:41,159 and even enjoyable at times. 734 01:00:41,289 --> 01:00:48,775 >> The healing I believe is in bringing the heart into a state 735 01:00:48,906 --> 01:00:53,475 and vibrancy and taking off the flakes of everyday life that 736 01:00:53,606 --> 01:01:00,526 puts limitations on how deep one can feel love or forgiveness 737 01:01:00,657 --> 01:01:02,310 or gratitude. 738 01:01:02,441 --> 01:01:06,053 >> Ultimately, it's only about that that we have all of that 739 01:01:06,184 --> 01:01:07,794 life quality. 740 01:01:07,925 --> 01:01:10,405 >> The measure is not how much you can drink and how often 741 01:01:10,536 --> 01:01:13,147 and who you saw and what you experienced. 742 01:01:13,278 --> 01:01:16,107 The measure is how healthy are you. 743 01:01:16,237 --> 01:01:17,935 How healthy are your relationships, 744 01:01:18,065 --> 01:01:21,416 your intimate relationships, your family relationships, 745 01:01:21,547 --> 01:01:26,204 your friends, your community, your society, your ecosystem? 746 01:01:26,334 --> 01:01:27,466 That is the measure of health. 747 01:01:31,470 --> 01:01:34,255 [music playing] 748 01:01:45,223 --> 01:01:51,055 >> My relationship with success if before success for me was 749 01:01:51,185 --> 01:01:58,149 to meet the expectations of people and my own expectation, 750 01:01:58,279 --> 01:02:02,936 now success has nothing to do with the thrill of a victory. 751 01:02:03,067 --> 01:02:04,590 We are helping the community. 752 01:02:04,721 --> 01:02:06,113 Family is healthy. 753 01:02:06,244 --> 01:02:07,375 Your body's healthy. 754 01:02:07,506 --> 01:02:09,595 Your relationships are healthy. 755 01:02:09,726 --> 01:02:12,816 That's where my happiness is. 756 01:02:19,083 --> 01:02:22,260 Just like ayahuasca uses a symbolic language, 757 01:02:22,390 --> 01:02:26,307 which is the visionary world of your psych 758 01:02:26,438 --> 01:02:29,397 to convey certain messages to you 759 01:02:29,528 --> 01:02:33,184 and use a symbolic language which usually is inspired 760 01:02:33,314 --> 01:02:37,797 by the natural world, to convey a vision 761 01:02:37,928 --> 01:02:42,846 and messages that perhaps can facilitate 762 01:02:42,976 --> 01:02:46,632 an inner dialogue in the viewer that may help arise 763 01:02:46,763 --> 01:02:50,157 a personal revelation about interconnectedness, 764 01:02:50,288 --> 01:02:53,813 about being one with nature, about the nature 765 01:02:53,944 --> 01:02:57,643 of consciousness, about what it means to be human. 766 01:02:57,774 --> 01:03:15,226 >> [non-english speech] 767 01:03:15,356 --> 01:03:17,924 >> In terms of the difference that it can make 768 01:03:18,055 --> 01:03:21,493 in the culture, when you look at the corruption, 769 01:03:21,623 --> 01:03:25,584 the banking schemes, all the propaganda in education, 770 01:03:25,714 --> 01:03:29,936 the fake media, and the toxic food and the toxic 771 01:03:30,067 --> 01:03:32,025 pharmaceuticals, it's everywhere you look. 772 01:03:32,156 --> 01:03:34,811 It just isn't human beings being true to life. 773 01:03:39,076 --> 01:03:41,600 >> The Shipibo started to see the world was-- 774 01:03:41,730 --> 01:03:42,862 it really in need of healing. 775 01:03:42,993 --> 01:03:44,211 And their local villages. 776 01:03:44,342 --> 01:03:46,431 They're not really moving around globally, 777 01:03:46,561 --> 01:03:49,303 but the information they were getting within their ceremonies 778 01:03:49,434 --> 01:03:52,176 was that the Westerners are going to come. 779 01:03:52,306 --> 01:03:54,526 Start sharing the medicine so they can bring it forth. 780 01:03:54,656 --> 01:03:59,879 >> Ayahuasca is a powerful tool for assisting the individual 781 01:04:00,010 --> 01:04:03,709 in actually finding that inner truth and then living that 782 01:04:03,840 --> 01:04:05,058 truth. 783 01:04:05,189 --> 01:04:06,843 And as each of us do that as individuals, 784 01:04:06,973 --> 01:04:09,715 it builds a culture where not only can we support each other, 785 01:04:09,846 --> 01:04:11,760 but it becomes harder and harder for those 786 01:04:11,891 --> 01:04:14,241 who aren't being true to themselves to actually get away 787 01:04:14,372 --> 01:04:16,026 with it. 788 01:04:16,156 --> 01:04:18,942 >> I know for a fact couple of years ago I would not be-- 789 01:04:19,072 --> 01:04:21,596 I would not be able to sit in front of a camera 790 01:04:21,727 --> 01:04:23,294 without a prosthetic arm. 791 01:04:23,424 --> 01:04:28,690 Today, I feel so much more free. 792 01:04:28,821 --> 01:04:30,257 And it doesn't mean that I still don't 793 01:04:30,388 --> 01:04:33,695 get the looks or awkward questions, 794 01:04:33,826 --> 01:04:41,616 but I feel like if I can do it and I can be the stand, then 795 01:04:41,747 --> 01:04:46,621 I hope that it serves other people as an encouragement 796 01:04:46,752 --> 01:04:49,842 in believing in themselves. 797 01:04:49,973 --> 01:04:52,062 >> [non-english speech] 798 01:04:58,720 --> 01:05:00,679 >> [non-english speech] 799 01:05:08,252 --> 01:05:11,995 >> These Indigenous people are the bearers of the great 800 01:05:12,125 --> 01:05:15,346 mysteries of the past, and I think we need to respect that 801 01:05:15,476 --> 01:05:18,784 there may be something to their medical models that we can 802 01:05:18,915 --> 01:05:20,568 learn from. 803 01:05:20,699 --> 01:05:25,138 >> Ayahuasca, it's been used by shamans for thousands of years. 804 01:05:25,269 --> 01:05:28,141 So they have their own paradigm, and their own model about it. 805 01:05:28,272 --> 01:05:31,536 >> A spiritual practice of ayahuasca ceremony, 806 01:05:31,666 --> 01:05:34,060 it is a form of spiritual healing. 807 01:05:34,191 --> 01:05:36,410 And in that sense, it is a form of spiritual practice. 808 01:05:36,541 --> 01:05:39,936 >> I like working with people because I love being 809 01:05:40,066 --> 01:05:41,894 the witness of the transformation, 810 01:05:42,025 --> 01:05:46,507 and there's no greater reward than seeing somebody coming 811 01:05:46,638 --> 01:05:47,552 back to themselves. 812 01:05:51,034 --> 01:05:57,344 >> If my first time to Peru was a vision at the top 813 01:05:57,475 --> 01:06:01,392 of the mountain, the second time in Peru, 814 01:06:01,522 --> 01:06:04,699 she knocked me off the mountain all the way down. 815 01:06:04,830 --> 01:06:08,486 It's been very difficult at times, 816 01:06:08,616 --> 01:06:15,058 but the difference is I'm back at the top of the mountain 817 01:06:15,188 --> 01:06:20,802 but with the experience of climbing it. 818 01:06:20,933 --> 01:06:24,197 >> Ayahuasca is making her way around the world, 819 01:06:24,328 --> 01:06:28,462 making her way to people so this is happening. 820 01:06:28,593 --> 01:06:32,249 >> I think the spreading of ayahuasca in the world has 821 01:06:32,379 --> 01:06:36,383 to do with a shifting consciousness that is happening 822 01:06:36,514 --> 01:06:38,733 all throughout. 823 01:06:38,864 --> 01:06:44,217 I am very hopeful, and I believe that ayahuasca and these master 824 01:06:44,348 --> 01:06:49,483 plants, they're going to assist us in the shift. 825 01:06:49,614 --> 01:06:55,359 >> In one ceremony, the mother showed me the Earth. 826 01:06:55,489 --> 01:06:59,102 And then from a little spot in Peru, 827 01:06:59,232 --> 01:07:02,496 a tiny little light emanated and then started 828 01:07:02,627 --> 01:07:05,630 shooting up towards North America and then 829 01:07:05,760 --> 01:07:09,590 another and then another, and it started covering the world. 830 01:07:09,721 --> 01:07:12,115 But then from those other places, 831 01:07:12,245 --> 01:07:13,638 lights started emanating. 832 01:07:13,768 --> 01:07:16,771 And before you knew it, there was this Earth 833 01:07:16,902 --> 01:07:22,516 that was covered in a completely beautiful grid of light. 834 01:07:22,647 --> 01:07:24,953 And as I'm seeing this beautiful thing, 835 01:07:25,084 --> 01:07:29,132 she whispers to me this is how I'm going to change the world. 836 01:08:04,993 --> 01:08:07,909 [drumming] 64375

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