All language subtitles for Zoeys.Extraordinary.Playlist.S02E03.WEBRip.x264-ION10-eng

What the...

- What's going on? You okay?

- Yeah, yeah, just waking upstrong, like you do.

- Well, did you have
a bad dream?

'Cause we could stop
watching documentaries

on serial killers before bed.

- That might help.

I'm happy to try anything
at this point.

- What's that mean?
Has this been going on long?

- Um...a few weeks, I guess?

It's...hard to keep track

when you're not sleepingvery much.

- Well, what level bad dreams
are we talking here?

Falling out of the sky?
Chased by wolves?

Forgetting all the lines
to your one-act play?

That one might be mine.

- It's not quite like that.

Basically, it's just...

me, alone, stuck in this house,

and no matter what I do,
I can't make it out the door.

And then I wake up.

Sometimes
multiple times a night.

The end.

- Look...

I'm no dream interpreteror anything, but...

do you think maybeyou feel trapped living here?

I mean, I know you lovebeing here for your mom,

but it's been two months now.

I mean...maybe you just needyour own space again.

- I can't do that.

I mean, she's all alone here,
and...

We work on this
really fun puzzle at night.

- No, no, no.I get it. I get it.

Puzzles are fun.
- No.

- But it's--

It might be nice to regain someof your independence, you know?

Regain your privacy.

Regain your adult-size bed.

- I mean...

Yeah, it would be...

really great to have
a good night's sleep again.

And maybe if moving back home
would help that...

- Yeah, yeah, well,maybe just...

feel it out with your mom,see how it goes.

- It feels wrong
to be mad at a baby,

but who waits until daylight
to finally fall asleep?

- He doesn't respect us.
He's clearly a sadist.

He must get that from your side
of the family.

- Good morning, family!
- Shh!

- Okay, if you wake up
my baby right now,

I will literally kill you.

Oh, I--I meant that
in the nicest way possible.

- Hello, Miles.

Are you still asleep
'cause your room is so boring?

- What do you mean? It's cute.

- There is nothing
on the walls.

It's like a prison for babies.

- Yeah, I guess
we've been too busy

keeping another
human being alive

to worry about home decor.

- Yeah, and the weird thing is,

we do have a baby registry

that definitely
has some art on it, so...

- The only reason
I haven't gotten you a gift yet

is because it is
more thoughtful

to wait and see
what someone needs.

And now I know.

What if we do a photo shoot
of the whole family,

and I make a gallery wall
right here

with all the pictures?

- What if you stop screaming
in my sleeping baby's room?

- That is a great idea.

I forgot you're
into photography now.

- "Into photography"?
I have a website.

Okay, I'm going
to get some coffee.

I only got, like, a light
nine hours of sleep last night,

but then
we'll schedule this thing.

- Will you throw me a Pop Tart?

- I ate the last one.

- Of course you did.

- Does she know that
she's talking that loud?

- She may be more exhausting
than the baby.

- Latest puzzle, huh?

Ooh, I think I found
the cat's top hat.

- Put that back.

This is strictly
a Mom and Zoey project.

- Okay, totally understand.

Then I won't tell you
I also found the cat's bow tie.

- Ooh, so it's a public puzzle,
I see.

- Told you.

Hey, Mom, you look
really nice today.

- Thank you.
It's a big day today.

- She seems like
she's in a good mood.

- She does, right?

Okay.

Right now might be
a good time to talk to her.

- Maybe.

- Hey. How you feeling?

Are you ready
for your big landscaping pitch?

- Um...

I'm a little nervous.

Um, a little rusty.

This architect is kind of
a big deal.

It's my...first presentation
without Mitch.

I just really want it
to go well.

- It is going to go well.
You know why?

'Cause you're
Maggie frickin' Clarke.

- Yes, I am.

- Anyway, since we're both
feeling so pumped,

I was wondering
how you would feel if--

How I would feel about what?

- If I gave you a chest bump
on the way out?

No, that's weird.
- Oh, that would be weird.

- Anyhoo, uh, good luck.

I think it's gonna go great.

There's no way I can go back
to my place yet.

My mom is not okay.

- Not okay? Like how?

- Like...

she just sang a heartbreaking
song to me about it.

- Okay, um...
but what about you, Zoey?

You're barely
getting any sleep.

You're having these
horrible dreams.

I mean, how much longer
can you go on like this?

- I don't know.

We're gonna find out,
'cause until she feels better,

there is no way I'm leaving.

- Hey...you...
how's everything going?

- I'm getting more requests
for comment

on the Sprqpoint Watch fiasco.

How about you? That's a lot
of caffeine, friend.

- Just tired and weary and
other drowsy words like that.

Maybe it's 'cause Sprqpoint
is falling apart,

or maybe it's
because I'm not sleeping.

Question...

is sleep important?

- I hear it is.
How much sleep are we talking?

- Uh...last night,
I would say a whopping...

two to three hours
before waking up

to another horrible dream.

- Oh, man. Been there.

Um...I had a lot of bad dreams
after my dad died.

- How do I get them to stop?

Because I feel like
I'm losing it.

- It didn't stop,
not for a while.

But I talked to my therapist,
and he gave me some books,

and they all said that
reducing stress

can help with sleep,
so it could be

a good place to start.

- Okay, well, reducing stress

is a little tricky since I've
taken over the fourth floor

and have ten times
the responsibility now.

- Have you not discovered...

the absolute joy
of being in charge yet?

Just give half
of your responsibilities

to other people.

Take the important stuff
for yourself,

give away the rest.

- Hey, everybody?
Can I talk to you?

- Is this bad news?

- "Hey, everybody"
is always bad news.

- Especially when it comes
from the Boy Scout leader.

- Everything is fine.

I just realized with all
the work I'm doing around here,

I'm still taking on
way too many projects

that I know this group
would be amazing at.

So I'm asking all of you

to take on some more
responsibilities around here.

- What kind of
responsibilities?

- Does it come
with extra compensation?

'Cause I need that cash money.

- Leif, I'd like you
to research options

for our community service days.

Mackenzie, you're on the
suggestion box email account.

George...

take over
the rotating food bar,

remembering
that our budget is super small.

And Tobin is going to start
a company softball team.

- Boom.

I know a dude that can get us

farm-league-quality
jerseys ASAP.

Gentlemen, give me your sizes.

I'ma hit up Joey Bats.

It's his nickname.

- Women's sizes, too, Tobin.
This is a co-ed league.

- Of course, course, course.

So, like, one girl?

Maybe two girls?

- Before you start
knocking the women,

uh, should everyone
raise their hands

who played softball in college?

Mmm, mmm.

Also, Yasmeen, was it
the javelin you threw

in the Junior Olympics?

- Shot put.

- Shot put. Mm...

- Okay, okay. Fine, fine, fine.

You're all in, happy?

- Thank you.

Ooh. Now if you'll excuse me,

I'm going to go get the
accounting department

on holiday decorations.

- He's right there.
- Thank you.

Roger.

- Maggie Clarke.

Well, well.

Welcome to the sad backyard
of our stunning estate.

- Well, it, uh...

It does look a bit unfinished.

- It's a disaster.

And as you can see,
our last landscape designer

didn't exactly work out.

I'm very excited
you're joining us, though.

- Thank you.

- I've heard a lot about
the Mitch and Maggie projects

over the years.

And I should say
I'm terribly sorry

to hear of his passing.
- Thank you.

So, um...

shall I just show you
what I'm thinking?

- Yes, please.
- Okay.

I focused on clean,
simple greenery

along here and here.

It's very classic so that

nothing overshadows
your beautiful house.

- Huh.

Okay.

- Is it?
- Well, I--

I mean, overall, it's fine.

I'm not in love with it,
though.

Yeah, it's--honestly,
it's a lot safer

than I was expecting.

- Oh. Safer. Okay.

- Well, I was just hoping
for more of that Clarke magic

that you guys are known for,
you know?

- Right.
- Just...

look, I don't mean
to offend you.

- No, no.
- I'd love you to take

another crack at it.

Come on, Maggie,
why don't you go

for something...
I don't know, special?

- Are you kidding?

I would...love to try
something different.

- Okay, good.
- Roger, can you come here?

- Uh, I'll be right back.

- Hey.

- Hey, guys.
What's going on?

- We brought Mom dinner,

but she said she was
too busy to eat.

Her meeting was bad.

- How's it going, superstar?

- My meeting was bad.

- That cannot be true.

- He hated everything
I said and did.

Maybe he even hated my shoes.
We'll never know.

- That makes no sense.

You are incredible.

- Yeah, well, incredibly safe,

I believe,
is the word Roger used,

and, um...you know what?
He's right.

I was second-guessing myself,
and I did play it safe.

It's just that for 40 years,
Mitch has been the person

I've bounced all
my ideas off of.

- I'm not a substitute for Dad,

but I'm a good problem solver.

You want to bounce
some ideas off of me?

- Because this is a spec house,

we can technically do
whatever we want,

which is actually tough
because we're just guessing

what a buyer will respond to.

- Got it. Spec...house.

- Oh, what are you writing?

- Everything you're saying.

Once I understand
the parameters,

I can generate a solution.

- Okay, well, um...

one of the first parameters

is focusing
on the overall concept.

- Concept.

Like...what bushes you want.

- Yeah, sure,
bushes are a part of it,

but it's more like,
"What is the overall design?"

Should we do country cottage

or organic garden,
European formal?

- You know what?
I'm going to brush up on, um...

European formal
in one of these books here.

- Well, honey, it's not really
a thing you can just study.

Like...

- What about this?

This is pretty.

Can we do this?

- It's Versailles.

- Right. So...

no.
- No.

- Okay.
No...on...Versailles.

- Sorry to interrupt.

I found, like, a bunch
of random paints in the closet,

and I just, like,
started experimenting.

- Mom, I feel like I'm not much
of a help with this.

- Oh, honey, it's okay.

I know you're trying hard.
It's just--

- Not in my wheelhouse.
What if I call Mo?

Maybe he can help, and if not,
I can find someone else to--

- Enough!

- Enough...what?

- E-enough..

Beating around the bush.

Jenna should...
clearly help you.

- Wait, help you with what?

A really fun
and creative project?

'Cause if so, you are
totally reading my mind.

And my answer is...

a thousand times yes.

- Uh-oh.

Are your coffee
drinks getting bigger,

or are you
just getting smaller?

- Oh. Uh...

who knows? Both?

Neither.

Who's to say?

Can I...tell you something
that's been on my mind,

and maybe adding one percent
of stress to my life?

So maybe if I tell you,

at least that stress
will be gone?

Max and I
have been hanging out a lot.

Like...

A lot, a lot.
You catch my drift?

- You're together?

- Uh, I'm not sure
we've discussed the labels

in those terms, per se, but--

- Max told me
you guys are together.

- Oh, okay. He did.
Why didn't you say something?

- I thought you knew.

- Solid point.

So, does that mean you're...
okay with it?

- I'm okay with anything
that makes you happy.

- Wow.

You really are good at this

whole question
and answer thing.

I knew Danny Michael Davis
picked you for a reason.

- So, remember,

don't focus
on the space itself,

focus on the potential.

- Eddie!
Eddie, can you hear me?

- Sorry, uh,
his boyfriend's on a cruise.

- Oh, wonderful.
I love a cruise.

- This cruise
is ruining my life!

- You know what? Uh...

Let's just go ahead
and get started without him.

- Fantastic.
- Yeah.

- So, this space
is a little rougher

than some of the ones
we saw yesterday,

and the area
is on the downswing, but--

- This place is huge.
How can we afford this?

- The last tenants
left in a hurry.

The new owners are desperate

for some new cash flow,
so it's--

- Is that the kitchen
back there?

- Uh, why do we need a kitchen?

We're not even cooking food.

- Your restaurant
doesn't have food?

- Well, it's actually
quite innovative...

- Forget it, Eddie.
Oh, oh, why?

Because I refuse
to have this conversation

over the sounds
of howler monkeys. Goodbye.

- Everything okay?
- This place is soulless.

Our restaurant is supposed
to be an experience, right?

And all I'm experiencing
is "crack house."

I mean, where's the life?
The character?

- Um, just one second.
Hey, uh, Mo?

- Did I mention there is
a current liquor license?

- Great!

What's that mean again?

- Well, some liquor licenses
are specific to location

rather than
the business itself,

so you'd be well-served...

Some liquor license
humor there.

To find
a recently failed restaurant

and take over that license.

Otherwise, it can take months
before you get one.

- Um...

Just one second.

Do we really want
to wait that long

to get a liquor license?

I mean, that's where
we're going to make

most of our money, Mo.

- Fine. Rent it.

But know that I'm going
to have to tear down walls,

build up walls,
chopper in a water fountain,

ooh, rethink these roofs,
tear up the floor,

and put in a shark tank.

Or do we want to do octopus?

- So we're doing this?

- Um, hey, before we jump in,
Jenna,

are you sure you're okay
to help me with this?

Because I don't want
to take too much of your time

when you've got
the photo wall prep, and--

- No, I don't need prep time

at all.
- Oh.

- Most of my art
is improvisational, so...

it's making me wonder why
you're sitting down.

- Because this is where I do--

- Yeah, yeah, let's get up.
Up, up.

You don't need this.

All right.

Let's just shake it out.

We're shaking 'em out.

- Really?
- Yeah, shake.

Shake out your left leg.

Good, good, good.

All right, let's get centered.
- All right.

- Let's just bend down,
fingers to the ground,

and we're gonna roll
back and forth.

- Kay.

- Yeah, feel the waves
in your body.

- Yeah, okay.
- Yeah.

You don't need a chair.
This is nice.

Back and forth.

- Back and forth.

- Now let's touch
our diaphragms.

- Jenna, you are so cute,

but I am a landscape architect,

and I don't know how any
of this is going to help me.

- No, it all helps.

We're trying to get you
into the right headspace,

the right body space,

to be the right you.

- Okay.
- Okay, let's free associate.

Say the first word
that comes to mind

when I say..."plants."

- Friends.

- Okay. Work.

- Passion.

- Inspiration.
- Everywhere.

- Pad!
- Pencil.

- No, get your pad. Go.

- Oh, now?
- Yes!

- Oh, oh.

Okay, what do you want me to--

Less talking, more drawing.

- Okay.

- Zoey?

Zoey!

Hi!

I just want to let you know
that the snack bar

is now officially--
drum roll please--

Pah!

the egg bar.

Because I love
hard-boiled eggs,

and they're cost efficient.

- That's great, George.
- Well, here you go.

Like an apple for teacher.

Except it's an egg. Okay.

Let me know if you need any,
like,

you know, salt,
pepper, Cholula.

- Are you sure your mom
wants to miss this?

'Cause I'm kind of
famous for my tajines.

- She apologizes.

Her and Jenna, so in the zone

that they wanted to keep it
going over drinks somewhere.

- Well, that's good news then,
right?

- Yeah.

Yeah, yeah. I...

you know, I'm hoping
to bring up moving out

after she shows the architect
her new designs.

- Good call.

Um, by the way,

you haven't talked
to Mo recently, have you?

Because all he does these days
is hate on the restaurant

and make
these crazy suggestions

that we can never do, and...

you know, I don't
have the heart to tell him "no"

because he's clearly
five seconds from a meltdown.

Zoey?

- Oh. Um...

Well, I feel like...
you should talk to him?

- Uh, I mean,
I was kind of hoping

to talk to you about it first,
but sure, I will.

By the way, um...

how was your night last night?

You still having the dream?

- Yeah.

Though Simon says
it's pretty normal

after a parent dies,
so I'm, like...

trying not to obsess about it.

- Simon, huh?

Talk about that kind of stuff
at work?

That's...cool.

- Is that okay? I mean, I know
you guys also talk about stuff.

- What, you mean because
I told him that we're together?

I mean, we're friends.
I thought he should know.

No worries, all good.

What was that?
Did I just sing to you?

You had that look in your face.

- You might have sung to me.
- What did I sing?

- Um...

yeah, I don't know
the name of it.

And...it was clear, though,
that you definitely have...

- What?
- Feelings.

- About what?
About--about Simon?

Just sing me the song.
- I don't know the song.

I can't sing the song.
- But that's not fair.

I mean, you know, people
can have a lot of thoughts

in their head
without meaning them.

And by the way,
I worked overtime

to not be weird about Simon,
even though you work

in the same office with him,

so you can't read into it
if the song just happens.

- I'm not reading into it!
It's fine!

- No! It's not fine, okay?

You always have a secret window
into my brain,

and, you know, I would love
to know what you're feeling.

- I'm not feeling anything.

- No kidding.

You know what?
I am going to go out

for some fresh air right now.

You are more than welcome
to finish this if you want.

But just so you know, it is
a very complicated recipe.

- Did you see these yet?

- I cannot see anything

until I've poured coffee
into my eyes.

- The softball jerseys,

they all say Brogrammers.

And check out the logo.

- That's...bad.
- You think?

- Whoa, whoa, whoa,
whoa, whoa, whoa.

Is she complaining
about the jerseys?

Because we call
everyone here bro.

It's a compliment...bro.

- I'm sorry, Tobin,
but the name is not inclusive.

And the logo is...

problematic.
- What?

What are you talking about?
It's--

you guys are seeing things
that are not there.

It's just a baseball bat
that's...pointing up.

- Pretty sure I know a prick
when I see one.

- Oh, okay, let's everybody
just calm down.

- We have a problem, people.

The egg bar's starting
to smell like sulfur.

Maybe I didn't think about

the long-term ramifications.
- George, buddy,

we're in the middle of a very
serious meeting right now.

- Can you smell the eggs?
- I'm not gonna smell the eggs.

- No one wants to
smell the eggs, bro!

- Okay, listen to me!

George, get rid of the eggs.

Tobin, get rid of the jerseys.

And everybody, leave me alone.

I have 79 things
to do before lunch.

- You were right.

- My favorite words.

Remind me,
what was I right about?

- My first design was fine...
- Mm.

- But this one is much better.

Thematically,
it's a modern enchanted forest.

Very full, very lush,
and a little bit wild.

And there's overgrown flowers
that are sloping here

to topiaries
that run along there.

It's the kind of magical place

that you might want
to get lost in forever.

- It's like a secret garden.

- Yes, exactly.

And I know it's not a typical
Mitch and Maggie design,

but it is a 100% me design,

and if this were my garden,

I would want to sit out there
all day long.

- It's totally perfect.

Well done.

- Thank you.

- Yo! Foul ball!

- Ah!

- Sorry...

I should've never
been the batter.

I'm terrible around glass.

- What's going on out here?

- Uh...nothing.

The guys just wanted
to try out the jerseys

'cause, you know, won't get
to wear them for real.

- Why are you letting them
screw around like this?

I thought you hated when
they play games in the office.

- I-I do, but--

they wanted to try them on,
and I thought it was healthy

to play for five minutes,
and...

then they called me "coach."

- Oh, did they? I don't care.

I don't care if they called you
softball champion of the world.

I told Tobin to send them back.

So...why can't you
just do that?!

Why can't I just say,
"Send them back,"

and then you go,
and you send them back?

Because now, here I am, yelling

that the one thing
I want in my life

is for you to send back

the sexist penis jerseys!

- We'll take care of it.

all:

all:

all:

all:

all:

- You're welcome.

- Appreciate it.

- Hey, Mom?

I am...so groggy that I am...
going to pass...

on doing the puzzle tonight.
- Oh.

- But I give you my blessing

to navigate the cat
tea party section on your own.

- Oh. Thank you.

But, um...

it's okay because I've got
a lot of work to do.

Roger loved my new design,

but somehow I'm already,
like, five days behind.

It's like, yay,
but also like, ah!

- Yes, Mom!

- So I'm guessing
Jenna helped, then.

- You know, she did.
She did, in her own way.

She helped me realize
that I can do this.

Like, um, I can find a path
without your dad.

- So...so, so, so good.

- Wow.

You look so tired.

Is there anything I can do?

- I'm starting
to feel like maybe

I should go back to my place,
but I love being with you,

and I never want you
to feel abandoned.

- Baby, I don't feel abandoned.

It probably is time, maybe.

We let it go on...

a little longer
than we should've

because it felt so good.

- It did feel good.
It does feel good.

- Mm.

- But...

I'm not a kid anymore.

- You will always be my kid.

And even though
the last couple of months

have been really hard,
it's...been really special

to spend time
with my busy girl.

I'll let you work.
- Okay.

- Can I take Dad's ship
with me?

I really like this ship.

- Sure.

Yeah. Whatever you want, honey.

- Hey, so, uh,
don't take this the wrong way,

but I...

don't know if I can handle
your sister for much longer.

- Hmm. I'm right there
with you, babe.

- I mean, she was a lot
before she came up

with this whole, like,
photo wall idea.

But--but now it's like
a whole other level.

I mean, she's snapping pictures
of me eating,

when--when I'm sleeping.

She took a photo of me
coming out of the shower, Em.

Okay, yes,
I was wearing a towel, but...

I'm pretty sure she might have
caught a glimpse of some stuff.

- Okay, well, she will be
leaving at some point.

I just have to start
dropping hints that it's time.

"Our place is so small.

You must be wanting
to get back to your own life."

- "Thank you, but your presence
is no longer welcome here."

That--that's a good one.

- Yeah. Subtle clues like that.

She'll get it.

- Guys.

Guess what.

Maggie asked me to work
on that house with her.

- What?
- Why?

- She's been so helpful
with me,

and I think
she has a great eye.

- But only if you guys
are cool with it.

I do not want
to overstay my welcome,

but also,
I really want to do this.

- Yeah, no, I think
that that's a--

I think that's a great idea.

Uh, Emily? What do you, um...

- Yeah.
- Yeah?

Yeah.
- Yeah, so great.

For both of you.

- Hey, so I made a cake
for you

as a peace offering,
but I cribbed it

off "The Great British
Baking Show,"

so don't be surprised
if there's too much cardamom.

Even though I don't exactly
know what that means.

- Hmm?

Oh, thank you.
- You good?

I'm pretty excited we have
a place to ourselves.

- Me too.

Moving back here was such
the right move.

Hopefully, I'll get
some good sleep tonight.

- Yes.

Okay, so here's
what you need to know

about professional wrestling.

Most people think it's fake,
but these men are athletes.

If you actually think
about it...

- Zoey?

Zoey.

You okay? Zoey!

Hey.

Where are you go--
are you all right?

- Not really.

I'm still having
the bad dreams, Max.

- Okay, all right, do you want

to talk about it?
I'm right here.

- No, I want them
to magically go away!

I'm gonna go...

Get ready for bed.

Even though that feels like
wishful thinking at this point.

- Yes...

Please tell me you didn't
sleep here last night.

- Nope.

I lay awake at home.

Until I gave up
and started making

apology friendship bracelets
for all the programmers.

- Huh.

You still having those...

Those bad dreams, huh?

- Yeah.

But I'm not sure
which is worse.

Feeling bad
'cause of the dreams,

or feeling...

Guilty 'cause...

I can't open up
to Max about it.

He just hasn't lived
through this, you know?

- I do, indeed.

- I just thought
I'd feel better by now.

I've tried...reducing stress.

I moved back to my place.

But no matter what I do,
I can't stop...

having these awful dreams

where I'm trying
to get out of the house.

And then last night,
I finally made it out the door,

but I still couldn't escape
because there was another me...

blocking my exit.

- So you literally could not
get out of your own way.

- Sounds so obvious
when you say it.

- Hey. Here's the thing.

Your dad just died.

And looking
for any other reason

why these dreams
are happening...

or thinking that you can
just make them stop is crazy.

- You're very comforting.

- Is it comforting to know...

That at least you're not alone,
though?

We...we are part
of the same sad club now.

Five more nightmares,
and you get a jacket.

- So I'm just supposed
to do nothing?

- Talking to me isn't nothing.

And, uh...

I do think moving back
to your place

is a good step forward.

Honestly, the more you can do
for yourself right now...

The better.

- Hey, did you know
Mo and Eddie broke up?

I mean, I guess it makes sense.

Long distance sounds hard.

- Uh-huh.

- And hey, I'm--
I'm not gonna say

I'm glad they broke up, but...

Zoey?

Zoey.

Zoey, I've been talking
to myself for ten minutes.

Are you even listening?
- I am.

- Then can you tell me why
every conversation lately

seems like me struggling
for your attention?

Is it me?

Is it--is it work?
Is it your dad?

Because whatever it is
doesn't make me feel very good,

and I want to be there for you,
I really do, but--

- I'm sorry it's making you
feel bad.

I just...
- What?

- You just...what?

- I got a lot of work
I have to go finish.

- Can I say something?

- Sure.

- I know that you want to know
what's going on with me.

But...

I'm feeling a hundred things
at once,

and most of 'em
are about how...messed up I am.

You and I both thought
that moving back here

was gonna make my bad dreams
go away.

But it didn't.

So...I started to wonder
if it was maybe something else.

- Something like me?
- No.

Me.

Nothing in my life
feels right right now.

I don't feel right...
right now.

And I don't know.

There's no one to blame for it,
but...

I don't know
how to fix it, either.

- Well--

I mean...

Do you think
we rushed into this?

I mean maybe--
maybe I pushed you

when deep down,
I knew it was probably too soon

after your dad.

Maybe I just wanted
to be with you so badly that...

I was willing to go for it.

- I wanted to go for it too.

But I'm barely ever
present with you

because I'm sad
or tired or just...

in my head all the time.

And I hate it, and it's--

- I--I know.

- It's not fair to you.

Maybe I do need more time.

- We should...put things
on pause for a bit.

Yeah, yeah, it's okay.

Hey--hey, look.

If we both force this thing

to happen before you're ready,
then...

We'll destroy it
before it's even begun.

- What now?