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Previously on The Good Doctor..."
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The aneurysm caused his
back pain. Dr. Wolke missed it.
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I screwed up.
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- (ALARM BLARING)
- Compressions.
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(BREATHING HEAVILY)
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- (EKG FLATLINING)
- Dr. Wolke.
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He's dead.
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DR. LIM: Take as much time as you need.
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DR. LIM: The virus has
damaged your mother's lungs.
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We're doing everything
we can to help her.
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(FLATLINING)
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- (PADDLES WHINE)
- 120 joules.
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I've got hydroxychloroquine,
ribavirin...
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I'm twice the size of SJ General.
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I should have twice the amount of tests.
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(FLATLINING)
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(SIREN WAILING IN DISTANCE)
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(MOTORCYCLE REVVING)
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♪ I'm over the rainbow ♪
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♪ No yellow brick road ♪
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♪ Can't seem to find home ♪
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♪ Over the rainbow ♪
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♪ Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah ♪
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♪ Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah ♪
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♪ Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah ♪
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(TIRES SQUEAL)
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WOMAN: Oh, my God, what happened?
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(SIREN WAILING IN DISTANCE)
MAN: Is he okay?
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I'm a doctor. What happened?
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I don't know. He was running. I honked.
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All of a sudden,
he was in front of my car.
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Pedestrian versus car,
GCS five at scene.
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Rigid abdomen with active bleeding.
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Flail chest with pneumo.
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He needs an ex lap. Now.
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(MONITOR BEEPING)
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We've got a massive hemoperitoneum.
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I need two large suctions and
lap pads in all four quadrants.
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There's a grade-three liver laceration
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in right lateral segments.
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CLAIRE: Liver stitch, number 1 chromic
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on a blunt needle and a combat gauze.
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What were you doing
on your bike at that hour?
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Heading into work.
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Trying to prep for my budget
meeting with Glassman.
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Mobilize the liver to check for
any associated diaphragm injury.
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It's the other side of town.
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I was taking the scenic route.
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- (ALARM BEEPING)
- ASHER: BP's dropping.
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He's got another bleed. Add
more lap pads and run the bowel.
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There's a perforation
near the terminal ileum.
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Ah. Something tore
through the intestinal wall.
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(BEEPING SLOWS)
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It's shrapnel.
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ASHER: From the accident?
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The coat's eroded.
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It looks like it's
been in there a while.
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It must have gotten dislodged
in the accident.
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(METAL CLATTERS)
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Synced & corrected by -robtor-
www.addic7ed.com
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How does Asher seem to you?
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He seems fine.
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Too fine for someone who's
just lost their first patient.
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I don't have time to worry
about people being too fine.
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- He's faking it.
- Good.
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The brain releases serotonin
when you smile,
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even if you're miserable.
I feel better already.
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Denial is not a proven strategy
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for psychological health.
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Dwelling on things you can't
change doesn't help either.
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(CELLPHONE CHIMES)
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(SIGHS)
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(SHOE SQUEAKS)
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24-year-old woman came into the ER
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complaining of abdominal
pain and headaches,
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and, surprise, she's pregnant.
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Apparently not a happy surprise.
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She wants an abortion.
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Well, what's wrong with her?
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I assume you haven't recently
learned the value of sharing,
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which makes me think
there's another reason
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you're unloading this
onto the surgical department.
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She has a congenital IgA deficiency
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and a history of severe infections.
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She'll need IV antibiotics
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and close post-surgical observation.
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I figured one of your newbies
may as well learn something.
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TOY FROGS: (IN RASPY VOICE)
♪ ...You'd say ♪
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♪ What can make me feel this way ♪
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♪ My girl ♪
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♪ My girl, my girl ♪
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(MUSIC STOPS)
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Lea's birthday is tomorrow.
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There are many cute frogs
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and many romantic songs.
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I can't decide.
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It is my first gift as her boyfriend.
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It needs to be... awesome.
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Well, then, maybe singing frogs,
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however cute, might be a mistake.
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Try something more personal or romantic.
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And find a resident who
hasn't done a suction D&C
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and teach them.
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Oh. No, n... no.
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I'll do it myself.
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I'm not going to teach anymore.
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I'm a good surgeon. I'll do surgery.
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Dr. Murphy, part of your
job as a surgeon is to teach.
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You can't opt out
because it's difficult.
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I am opting out because I'm bad at it.
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Well, you can't opt out for any reason.
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But I may have given you too
much responsibility too soon,
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so I will supervise your supervision
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until you get the hang of it.
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Pick someone.
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Did you two lose something?
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(SIGHS)
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Our patient.
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Rose Babcock.
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She's post-op from repair
of a distal radius fracture.
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ENRIQUE: 60s. White hair.
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Looks at you like she's
staring into your soul.
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Does she have a limp?
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ENRIQUE AND OLIVIA: No.
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Well, I think she does now.
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Uh, Ms. Babcock,
did you fall down again?
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Oh, no, I'm fine.
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But... But there's a
poor man in room 318
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who's in a lot of pain.
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DR. LIM: Let's get you back in bed.
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Ah.
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Yep.
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Apply a new Tegaderm,
not antibiotic ointment.
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(MONITOR BEEPING)
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They breathe.
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Don't make us handcuff you to the bed,
Rose.
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We charge extra for that.
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Dry the skin more so it'll stick.
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You're doing just fine, dear.
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(MONITOR BEEPING RAPIDLY)
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DR. PARK: Heart rate's
spiking in the 130s.
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BP 162 over 95.
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Are you feeling any
pressure in your chest?
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No, it's just anxiety.
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Not mine. It's one of yours.
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We're gonna pretend,
since it's happening in your chest,
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that it's yours.
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20 milligrams IV labetalol.
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I'm fine.
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I'm an empath.
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I can feel what other
people are feeling,
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and one of you is very stressed out.
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Olivia, stay where you are.
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And one milligram of Ativan.
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(BEEPING SLOWS)
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(CELLPHONE CHIMES)
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RUNNER: Keep away from me!
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No! Step back!
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DR. LIM: Sir, you were in an accident.
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We're taking care of you.
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Stop. Stop it! Now!
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Get away from me!
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(WHISPERS) I need you to hold
him down while I administer Haldol.
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Sir, please just...
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I'm warning you. This
room is being cleared.
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WOMAN: No one is gonna hurt you.
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Ben.
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Huh?
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You're having a flashback.
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You're not in Afghanistan.
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You're in the hospital.
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Look around.
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What do you see?
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Zoe?
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Yeah. Yeah, baby, it's me.
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Zoe, I... I couldn't sleep.
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I... I went for a run, and I...
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I heard an explosion.
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(BREATH TREMBLING)
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(STUTTERS) And I don't... I don't
know what happened after that.
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You were hit by a car.
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We had to do surgery,
but you're gonna be okay.
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- (SIGHS)
- It's okay.
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Take him back to his room,
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make sure he didn't open his wound.
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I'm sorry.
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Dr. Murphy?
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Rose is not your patient.
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She was teaching me about her gift.
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She says the basis
of empathy is curiosity,
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which I find curious because...
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I'm curious about the job
you're supposed to be doing.
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Who are you leading through the D&C?
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None of them.
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The only one who hasn't
done one does not want to,
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so I will.
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Which resident?
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Wanting to is
irrelevant. It's their job.
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Wanting to is irrelevant. It's your job.
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I'm a Christian.
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Performing an abortion
goes against my beliefs.
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Okay.
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You may encounter a situation one day
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where this procedure
could save a woman's life.
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Then I hope someone else can...
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And it's my job to make sure
you can perform all surgeries,
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including abortions.
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So where does that leave us?
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I'll do the surgery.
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I've only done one.
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I'm sure there's a
lot I still can learn.
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Dr. Murphy, you have a new student.
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Get her started running
pre-surgery assessments.
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Thank you, Olivia.
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That's the kind of
ambition I like to see.
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He did three tours.
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He came home after he was injured
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in some kind of explosion.
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I don't really know what happened.
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Some... He's tried to tell
me about it several times,
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but he just... He breaks down.
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When was he diagnosed with PTSD?
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Two years ago.
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But he hasn't been the
same since he got back.
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At first, he was moody, irritable.
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Little things would set him off.
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Then the insomnia started.
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(HIGH-PITCHED RINGING)
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His mind is just... It's never at rest.
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Nights are the worst, you know?
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He, um...
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He gets these terrible nightmares.
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(RINGING STOPS)
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Flashbacks.
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Just... We can't sleep in
the same room anymore.
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Make sure he stays off his feet.
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Would you like us to
arrange a psych consult?
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ZOE: We've been down that road.
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Talk therapy, group therapy,
exposure therapy...
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(VOICE BREAKING) endless medications.
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Let us know if you change your mind.
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(HIGH-PITCHED RINGING)
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(DISTORTED VOICES)
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(RINGING INTENSIFIES)
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(DRAWER OPENS)
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(DISTORTED VOICES CONTINUE)
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(FUTURE ROYALTY'S "KEEP DIGGIN'
UP DIRT" PLAYS ON HEADPHONES)
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(RINGING CONTINUES)
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(MUSIC VOLUME INCREASES)
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♪ Keep diggin' up dirt ♪
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♪ Keep diggin' up dirt ♪
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Jillian, I need those stats
on elective surgeries
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for my budget meeting.
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And a coffee.
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(SIGHS)
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Jillian?
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She's not there. I
need approval for this.
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And this.
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You said I couldn't give her the frogs.
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Oh, you can't give her this either.
261
00:12:19,884 --> 00:12:21,194
You don't know what it is.
262
00:12:21,218 --> 00:12:22,429
I know it would mean more
263
00:12:22,453 --> 00:12:24,123
if you had to leave
the building to get it.
264
00:12:27,291 --> 00:12:30,671
I would like to do the
suction D&C surgery.
265
00:12:31,134 --> 00:12:32,822
I assume your religious convictions
266
00:12:32,846 --> 00:12:34,775
haven't changed in the last few hours.
267
00:12:34,799 --> 00:12:36,276
No.
268
00:12:36,300 --> 00:12:38,645
But I believe I was put in
this program for a reason.
269
00:12:38,669 --> 00:12:39,913
So, if you think it's important for me
270
00:12:39,937 --> 00:12:42,149
to learn how to do an abortion,
271
00:12:42,173 --> 00:12:43,434
then I should learn.
272
00:12:46,811 --> 00:12:49,322
Take Jordan to the skills
lab. Run the surgery steps.
273
00:12:49,346 --> 00:12:51,291
You two will handle the D&C yourselves.
274
00:12:51,315 --> 00:12:53,110
With you.
275
00:12:54,084 --> 00:12:56,730
How are you going to
supervise my supervision
276
00:12:56,754 --> 00:12:57,998
if you're not there?
277
00:12:58,022 --> 00:13:00,333
I will help you prep
and debrief afterwards.
278
00:13:00,357 --> 00:13:02,903
But this patient doesn't
need a gallery of strangers
279
00:13:02,927 --> 00:13:05,138
standing around,
gawking at her most private experience.
280
00:13:05,162 --> 00:13:06,606
Sorry to interrupt.
281
00:13:06,630 --> 00:13:08,108
Ben woke up complaining of pain.
282
00:13:08,132 --> 00:13:09,676
Did you check the incision?
283
00:13:09,700 --> 00:13:11,128
The pain is in his arm.
284
00:13:12,911 --> 00:13:15,216
Now test external
rotation of the shoulder.
285
00:13:15,506 --> 00:13:16,817
(WINCES)
286
00:13:16,841 --> 00:13:17,951
- We're almost done.
- (EXHALES SHARPLY)
287
00:13:17,975 --> 00:13:19,595
Can you describe the pain?
288
00:13:19,810 --> 00:13:21,013
Aah! (WINCES)
289
00:13:22,880 --> 00:13:24,357
We'll call it a 10.
290
00:13:24,381 --> 00:13:26,827
It's been hurting for years,
but, aah, this is...
291
00:13:26,851 --> 00:13:28,161
This is something else.
292
00:13:28,185 --> 00:13:30,314
How did you injure your shoulder before?
293
00:13:33,357 --> 00:13:34,610
I was in a... (SIGHS)
294
00:13:36,660 --> 00:13:39,657
I was in a convoy in Kandahar,
295
00:13:40,164 --> 00:13:41,283
and there was a...
296
00:13:41,832 --> 00:13:43,202
(BREATH TREMBLING)
297
00:13:44,802 --> 00:13:47,848
(STAMMERS) I dislocated my...
298
00:13:47,872 --> 00:13:50,167
You don't need to discuss it with us.
299
00:13:51,175 --> 00:13:52,452
What did you find?
300
00:13:52,476 --> 00:13:55,021
Swelling, sensitivity to touch,
discoloration.
301
00:13:55,045 --> 00:13:57,157
- Could be CRPS.
- What is that?
302
00:13:57,181 --> 00:13:58,859
Well, it appears the car accident
303
00:13:58,883 --> 00:14:01,228
aggravated a prior injury.
304
00:14:01,252 --> 00:14:03,563
You've developed complex
regional pain syndrome.
305
00:14:03,587 --> 00:14:05,999
We'll start you on
Gabapentin and Dilaudid.
306
00:14:06,023 --> 00:14:09,202
Opioids make me a little insane.
307
00:14:09,226 --> 00:14:11,471
We could do a stellate ganglion block.
308
00:14:11,495 --> 00:14:14,207
It's an injection of
anesthetic near the spine
309
00:14:14,231 --> 00:14:16,009
that blocks the pain signals,
310
00:14:16,033 --> 00:14:18,320
and could also help the PTSD.
311
00:14:19,770 --> 00:14:22,482
I've been treated for PTSD for years.
312
00:14:22,506 --> 00:14:23,683
Why haven't I heard about this?
313
00:14:23,707 --> 00:14:26,052
It's experimental, but promising.
314
00:14:26,076 --> 00:14:27,721
The procedure comes with risks:
315
00:14:27,745 --> 00:14:30,323
Vascular injury, infection,
major hematoma.
316
00:14:30,347 --> 00:14:33,210
Dr. Lim, I've been taking a
risk every time I go to sleep.
317
00:14:36,353 --> 00:14:37,998
I want to do it.
318
00:14:38,022 --> 00:14:40,700
Stellate block is an accepted
procedure for treatment of pain.
319
00:14:40,724 --> 00:14:42,269
Which you wouldn't have suggested
320
00:14:42,293 --> 00:14:43,937
if the patient didn't also
have a mental health condition.
321
00:14:43,961 --> 00:14:45,338
(SHOES SQUEAK)
322
00:14:45,362 --> 00:14:46,773
(BIRDS CHIRPING) I hear
Jordan's back on the D&C,
323
00:14:46,797 --> 00:14:48,608
in spite of her righteous indignation.
324
00:14:48,632 --> 00:14:50,010
Is something chirping?
325
00:14:50,034 --> 00:14:51,578
I think you're being unfair.
326
00:14:51,602 --> 00:14:53,046
Well, if anyone's being unfair, it's me.
327
00:14:53,070 --> 00:14:54,832
I told Jordan to do it.
328
00:14:54,939 --> 00:14:56,276
I told her.
329
00:14:56,316 --> 00:14:58,700
We make decisions that are
hard to live with all the time.
330
00:14:58,724 --> 00:14:59,786
We make them anyway.
331
00:14:59,810 --> 00:15:01,721
And I told her pissing off the Chief
332
00:15:01,745 --> 00:15:03,924
was a very bad way
to start your residency.
333
00:15:03,948 --> 00:15:05,258
Glad to hear you're still moonlighting
334
00:15:05,282 --> 00:15:07,394
as surgical department camp counselor,
335
00:15:07,418 --> 00:15:09,529
but I don't mean you
were being unfair to Jordan.
336
00:15:09,553 --> 00:15:10,897
You're being unfair to the patient.
337
00:15:10,921 --> 00:15:13,633
She's facing an emotionally
fraught procedure.
338
00:15:13,657 --> 00:15:15,568
She needs the support of her doctors.
339
00:15:15,592 --> 00:15:18,339
And who she's getting is a rookie
who thinks she's committing murder.
340
00:15:18,896 --> 00:15:20,174
And Shaun.
341
00:15:24,001 --> 00:15:25,179
I have a point.
342
00:15:27,404 --> 00:15:29,382
I'll lead Jordan through the D&C myself.
343
00:15:29,406 --> 00:15:30,583
You're happy.
344
00:15:30,607 --> 00:15:32,385
Dr. Murphy will be happy.
345
00:15:32,409 --> 00:15:34,120
My cup runneth over.
346
00:15:34,144 --> 00:15:36,690
Now get whatever's in that
box out of my department.
347
00:15:41,318 --> 00:15:42,318
(SIGHS)
348
00:15:43,821 --> 00:15:44,821
(RETCHING)
349
00:15:46,523 --> 00:15:47,910
Morning sickness.
350
00:15:48,592 --> 00:15:50,136
Nurse Ella's.
351
00:15:50,160 --> 00:15:52,605
Rose claims she can feel her pregnancy.
352
00:15:52,629 --> 00:15:54,507
She was right about the guy in Room 318.
353
00:15:54,531 --> 00:15:56,203
He had a clot in his ankle.
354
00:15:56,227 --> 00:15:58,244
I'm sure she picked up
on some subtle clues,
355
00:15:58,268 --> 00:16:00,714
like the guy moaning
and grasping his ankle.
356
00:16:01,538 --> 00:16:04,843
Get a CT to rule out
abdominal injury from her fall.
357
00:16:06,810 --> 00:16:09,122
DR. LIM: We're going to insert
a thin needle into your neck
358
00:16:09,146 --> 00:16:10,924
so we can inject the anesthetic.
359
00:16:10,948 --> 00:16:12,351
It may sting a bit.
360
00:16:18,055 --> 00:16:20,433
Use an in-plane approach
to place the needle
361
00:16:20,457 --> 00:16:22,861
between the C6 tubercle
and carotid artery.
362
00:16:46,417 --> 00:16:48,429
CLAIRE: You might feel some discomfort.
363
00:16:53,090 --> 00:16:54,393
(LIQUID POURING)
364
00:16:57,327 --> 00:16:59,523
- (HIGH-PITCHED RINGING)
- (DISTORTED VOICES)
365
00:17:04,034 --> 00:17:05,034
(CELLPHONE CHIMES)
366
00:17:06,661 --> 00:17:09,208
_
367
00:17:18,515 --> 00:17:19,626
DR. LIM: What's wrong?
368
00:17:19,917 --> 00:17:20,994
Zoe's hurt.
369
00:17:21,018 --> 00:17:22,095
I'm okay.
370
00:17:22,119 --> 00:17:23,496
Get some ice.
371
00:17:23,520 --> 00:17:24,531
Let me take a look.
372
00:17:24,555 --> 00:17:25,732
What happened?
373
00:17:25,756 --> 00:17:26,900
I hit her.
374
00:17:26,924 --> 00:17:28,034
ZOE: I was laying next to him.
375
00:17:28,058 --> 00:17:29,702
I know I shouldn't,
376
00:17:29,726 --> 00:17:32,072
but the shot just made
his pain feel so much better.
377
00:17:32,096 --> 00:17:33,265
- I thought...
- Zo.
378
00:17:34,598 --> 00:17:36,101
You didn't do anything wrong.
379
00:17:37,701 --> 00:17:38,912
There was a noise in the hall.
380
00:17:38,936 --> 00:17:40,330
- I lashed out.
- I know.
381
00:17:41,071 --> 00:17:42,191
I didn't mean to.
382
00:17:42,539 --> 00:17:43,734
I'm sorry.
383
00:17:50,247 --> 00:17:51,958
Nothing's broken.
384
00:17:51,982 --> 00:17:53,626
I can get you something
for the swelling.
385
00:17:53,650 --> 00:17:56,079
No. I'm okay. I'm gonna go home,
get cleaned up.
386
00:17:58,489 --> 00:17:59,833
I just need some time.
387
00:18:02,626 --> 00:18:03,962
I love you.
388
00:18:15,697 --> 00:18:17,741
I think we can help Ben.
389
00:18:17,765 --> 00:18:19,476
There have been some promising results
390
00:18:19,500 --> 00:18:22,246
using Vagal Nerve
Stimulation to treat PTSD.
391
00:18:22,270 --> 00:18:23,581
DR. LIM: His scarring
would make it impossible
392
00:18:23,605 --> 00:18:26,250
to expose and find the
nerve without damaging it.
393
00:18:26,274 --> 00:18:29,520
Those scars are the
reason that we need to try.
394
00:18:29,544 --> 00:18:32,823
Imagine reliving your worst
nightmare over and over again.
395
00:18:32,847 --> 00:18:34,158
(SCOFFS) Why doesn't anyone around here
396
00:18:34,182 --> 00:18:35,593
want to do the job they were hired for?
397
00:18:35,617 --> 00:18:37,127
What Ben needs is psychological help.
398
00:18:37,151 --> 00:18:38,362
I've ordered a consult.
399
00:18:38,386 --> 00:18:40,457
Leave it to the people
who are trained to do it.
400
00:18:42,156 --> 00:18:43,534
It sets a bad precedent
to force a resident
401
00:18:43,558 --> 00:18:45,269
to do a procedure they're
not comfortable with.
402
00:18:45,293 --> 00:18:47,504
Wow. Does anyone around
here not have an opinion
403
00:18:47,528 --> 00:18:49,545
about who should do that damn abortion?
404
00:18:49,569 --> 00:18:52,171
Jordan had a choice, and in my opinion,
she made the right one.
405
00:18:52,195 --> 00:18:54,278
It's not a true choice if
you're coerced by your boss.
406
00:18:54,303 --> 00:18:56,598
I asked her to do her job.
407
00:18:56,880 --> 00:18:59,283
You took an opportunity from
a resident who wants to learn
408
00:18:59,307 --> 00:19:01,018
in favor of one who doesn't.
409
00:19:01,042 --> 00:19:03,287
Is this song and dance about
Jordan doing the procedure
410
00:19:03,311 --> 00:19:05,232
or your niece not doing it?
411
00:19:05,980 --> 00:19:07,091
Neither.
412
00:19:07,115 --> 00:19:09,992
There's a misconception that
Olivia came to St. Bonaventure
413
00:19:10,016 --> 00:19:11,362
because of me.
414
00:19:11,386 --> 00:19:13,782
She's here because of your reputation.
415
00:19:14,088 --> 00:19:15,499
The great Dr. Lim,
416
00:19:15,523 --> 00:19:18,954
a master class in technique,
professionalism, empathy.
417
00:19:20,094 --> 00:19:22,124
Lately, it doesn't seem like
that reputation holds up.
418
00:19:27,548 --> 00:19:31,015
JORDAN: I'm giving you an
antibiotic to prevent infection.
419
00:19:31,039 --> 00:19:33,417
The vacuum aspiration
will take about 15 minutes,
420
00:19:33,441 --> 00:19:35,554
and you'll be numbed
with a local anesthetic.
421
00:19:36,244 --> 00:19:38,656
Conscious sedation is also an option,
422
00:19:38,680 --> 00:19:41,435
but you will need someone
to drive you home afterwards.
423
00:19:45,119 --> 00:19:46,857
Do you have any questions for me?
424
00:19:52,126 --> 00:19:53,126
I'm scared.
425
00:20:01,970 --> 00:20:04,248
(SIGHS SOFTLY)
426
00:20:04,272 --> 00:20:07,169
Are you certain you wanna
go ahead with the abortion?
427
00:20:14,983 --> 00:20:15,983
Yes.
428
00:20:19,253 --> 00:20:21,016
Then you don't have to be scared.
429
00:20:22,323 --> 00:20:24,394
You're the making the
right decision for you.
430
00:20:31,399 --> 00:20:33,904
Give her another 400
micrograms of misoprostol.
431
00:20:34,168 --> 00:20:35,656
I'll be back for the procedure.
432
00:20:37,438 --> 00:20:38,782
This doesn't work.
433
00:20:38,806 --> 00:20:40,651
I need these numbers
in spreadsheet format.
434
00:20:40,675 --> 00:20:42,162
- Thank you.
- DR. PARK: Oh, excuse me.
435
00:20:46,247 --> 00:20:47,624
Dr. Park?
436
00:20:47,648 --> 00:20:49,211
Rose's CT was normal.
437
00:20:49,484 --> 00:20:51,546
Get an upper GI barium study.
438
00:20:52,687 --> 00:20:54,740
First quarter supply
costs you requested.
439
00:20:54,776 --> 00:20:56,885
Also,
one of your first-years seems upset.
440
00:20:57,358 --> 00:20:59,429
He's been in the stairwell for a while.
441
00:21:02,797 --> 00:21:04,267
DR. LIM: Everything okay in here?
442
00:21:06,300 --> 00:21:08,522
I just needed some quiet.
443
00:21:11,205 --> 00:21:14,318
Surgeons come into the
stairwell for two reasons,
444
00:21:14,342 --> 00:21:16,321
fire drills or doctor trauma.
445
00:21:17,111 --> 00:21:18,448
You having a fire drill?
446
00:21:20,808 --> 00:21:23,120
I just wish we had a more
effective treatment for Ben.
447
00:21:24,218 --> 00:21:27,457
His head's so messed up,
and we can't help him.
448
00:21:31,618 --> 00:21:33,672
I don't think this is about Ben.
449
00:21:45,073 --> 00:21:46,852
Have you ever lost a patient
450
00:21:47,642 --> 00:21:49,396
you knew you could have saved?
451
00:21:55,016 --> 00:21:57,028
When COVID was at its worst,
452
00:21:57,718 --> 00:22:00,449
we had to cancel all
non-urgent procedures.
453
00:22:01,355 --> 00:22:04,035
A young mom with a heart condition was
454
00:22:05,359 --> 00:22:06,872
more urgent than I thought.
455
00:22:08,496 --> 00:22:11,293
And she died waiting for
me to put her on the schedule.
456
00:22:18,206 --> 00:22:19,801
How do you get past that?
457
00:22:22,276 --> 00:22:24,389
You get past it because that's the job.
458
00:22:27,048 --> 00:22:29,311
You will always remember it.
459
00:22:30,451 --> 00:22:33,356
And you will eventually
stop reliving it.
460
00:22:35,423 --> 00:22:37,027
How can you be so sure?
461
00:22:39,861 --> 00:22:42,365
Because if you don't,
you can't be a surgeon.
462
00:22:45,399 --> 00:22:47,370
And I'm pretty sure you're a surgeon.
463
00:22:54,208 --> 00:22:55,587
I should get back to work.
464
00:23:08,723 --> 00:23:10,185
Insert the speculum.
465
00:23:19,267 --> 00:23:21,071
Now dilate the cervix.
466
00:23:27,947 --> 00:23:29,412
Begin suction.
467
00:23:43,824 --> 00:23:46,555
Begin gentle suction in the uterus.
468
00:23:53,100 --> 00:23:54,312
Is anything wrong?
469
00:23:55,203 --> 00:23:56,613
You're okay.
470
00:23:56,637 --> 00:23:58,733
Dr. Allen, I can take it from here.
471
00:24:04,345 --> 00:24:05,489
(DOOR CLOSES)
472
00:24:05,513 --> 00:24:07,324
Don't worry. We're almost done.
473
00:24:07,348 --> 00:24:08,702
You're gonna be just fine.
474
00:24:12,720 --> 00:24:14,838
You have no idea what that
woman was going through,
475
00:24:14,876 --> 00:24:15,999
and you made it worse for her.
476
00:24:16,023 --> 00:24:17,155
I know. I didn't...
477
00:24:17,190 --> 00:24:19,823
You had an opportunity to opt out
before you walked into that room,
478
00:24:19,853 --> 00:24:21,240
but you agreed to do the procedure,
479
00:24:21,276 --> 00:24:23,006
you took on an
obligation to that patient,
480
00:24:23,030 --> 00:24:24,274
and you failed her.
481
00:24:24,298 --> 00:24:25,709
If you ever do anything like that again,
482
00:24:25,733 --> 00:24:27,596
I will have you removed from my program.
483
00:24:27,822 --> 00:24:29,780
Maybe you should be
cleaning bedpans for a while.
484
00:24:29,804 --> 00:24:32,225
Hopefully there's no
moral objection to that.
485
00:24:41,749 --> 00:24:43,320
Why are there adult toys on my desk?
486
00:24:43,855 --> 00:24:45,896
I've heard good things about the Llama,
487
00:24:45,920 --> 00:24:48,198
but online reviews
aren't always accurate.
488
00:24:48,222 --> 00:24:49,743
Do you have a favorite?
489
00:24:52,093 --> 00:24:53,804
They're for Lea.
490
00:24:53,828 --> 00:24:56,073
Which one do you like the most, Claire?
491
00:24:56,783 --> 00:24:57,783
Uh...
492
00:24:59,567 --> 00:25:00,962
Uh...
493
00:25:01,369 --> 00:25:04,256
Evidence suggests that trauma
changes the way the brain works.
494
00:25:04,292 --> 00:25:07,017
An over active amygdala can
heighten someone's response
495
00:25:07,041 --> 00:25:10,020
to emotional stimuli, including fear.
496
00:25:10,044 --> 00:25:13,257
I think we should consider
amygdala ablation for Ben.
497
00:25:13,281 --> 00:25:15,392
That's crazy.
498
00:25:15,416 --> 00:25:17,728
And completely outside
the scope of our care.
499
00:25:17,752 --> 00:25:19,019
- We're s...
- (ADULT TOY VIBRATING)
500
00:25:20,087 --> 00:25:21,265
Oh.
501
00:25:21,289 --> 00:25:22,289
(VIBRATING STOPS)
502
00:25:23,791 --> 00:25:25,102
We're surgeons.
503
00:25:25,126 --> 00:25:27,070
We fix physiological problems,
not mental ones.
504
00:25:27,094 --> 00:25:29,039
It is a physiological problem.
505
00:25:29,063 --> 00:25:30,901
His brain isn't functioning properly.
506
00:25:30,932 --> 00:25:32,909
If it was a tumor that was
causing these reactions,
507
00:25:32,933 --> 00:25:34,578
you wouldn't hesitate to remove it.
508
00:25:34,602 --> 00:25:36,113
But there is no tumor.
509
00:25:36,137 --> 00:25:38,682
You're talking about
inflicting damage on his brain.
510
00:25:38,706 --> 00:25:41,184
He could suffer a stroke
or come out in a coma
511
00:25:41,208 --> 00:25:42,886
or not come out at all.
512
00:25:42,910 --> 00:25:45,255
SHAUN: If you use a
stereotactic laser approach
513
00:25:45,279 --> 00:25:47,024
rather than an open craniotomy,
514
00:25:47,048 --> 00:25:48,225
you would greatly reduce the risks.
515
00:25:48,249 --> 00:25:49,893
This is not your case!
516
00:25:49,917 --> 00:25:51,197
You cannot jump into this one
517
00:25:51,221 --> 00:25:53,297
because you don't want to
do the one assigned to you,
518
00:25:53,321 --> 00:25:55,827
which is to teach,
which you've made my problem
519
00:25:55,851 --> 00:25:58,468
just like you made Lea's
birthday gifts my problem.
520
00:25:58,492 --> 00:26:01,106
You need to grow up and
accept some responsibility.
521
00:26:26,487 --> 00:26:28,800
I was diagnosed with PTSD last year.
522
00:26:31,158 --> 00:26:33,763
I kept it mainly private.
523
00:26:35,363 --> 00:26:37,225
Melendez really helped me through it.
524
00:26:38,933 --> 00:26:42,731
It was nice to have a friend to lean on.
525
00:26:44,138 --> 00:26:45,734
So if you need one...
526
00:26:56,450 --> 00:26:57,450
(INHALES DEEPLY)
527
00:27:00,454 --> 00:27:02,167
I feel
528
00:27:03,357 --> 00:27:04,627
off.
529
00:27:06,894 --> 00:27:08,131
Disconnected.
530
00:27:09,830 --> 00:27:11,634
Like I can't catch my breath.
531
00:27:14,402 --> 00:27:15,402
But
532
00:27:17,037 --> 00:27:18,183
it comes with the job.
533
00:27:19,073 --> 00:27:20,351
I'll get over it.
534
00:27:25,379 --> 00:27:26,379
(CELLPHONES CHIME, VIBRATE)
535
00:27:28,728 --> 00:27:29,991
It's Ben.
536
00:27:32,219 --> 00:27:33,363
Ben.
537
00:27:33,387 --> 00:27:34,783
No one is gonna hurt you.
538
00:27:37,358 --> 00:27:38,870
You're having a flashback.
539
00:27:44,865 --> 00:27:46,169
I know where I am.
540
00:27:48,702 --> 00:27:50,080
Every day since I came home,
541
00:27:50,104 --> 00:27:52,383
I've felt like there's
a monster chasing me.
542
00:27:52,840 --> 00:27:54,344
I try to outrun it
543
00:27:56,510 --> 00:28:00,141
but I end up hurting
the one I love the most.
544
00:28:02,249 --> 00:28:03,927
I'm a threat to everyone around me.
545
00:28:03,951 --> 00:28:06,189
No, Ben, you just need help.
546
00:28:07,688 --> 00:28:08,983
Nothing helps.
547
00:28:10,424 --> 00:28:12,436
I can't smile. I can't laugh.
548
00:28:12,460 --> 00:28:14,489
I can't feel anything but pain.
549
00:28:18,265 --> 00:28:20,245
I make everyone around me
550
00:28:21,869 --> 00:28:22,869
suffer.
551
00:28:29,556 --> 00:28:30,556
Ben.
552
00:28:31,745 --> 00:28:33,246
There's a surgery that may help.
553
00:28:53,606 --> 00:28:57,686
I would like to scrub in on
the amygdala ablation surgery.
554
00:28:57,710 --> 00:29:00,088
Rose said you're feeling
overwhelmed and need...
555
00:29:00,112 --> 00:29:02,691
I don't wanna hear any more
things that woman has said.
556
00:29:02,715 --> 00:29:04,659
Your job is to supervise your residents.
557
00:29:04,683 --> 00:29:06,995
Why are you here instead of doing that?
558
00:29:07,019 --> 00:29:09,831
You said you were going
to supervise my supervision,
559
00:29:09,855 --> 00:29:12,400
but you didn't. You took over my case.
560
00:29:12,424 --> 00:29:15,508
I don't know what I was
supposed to learn or how.
561
00:29:18,377 --> 00:29:19,512
Scrub in.
562
00:29:21,274 --> 00:29:22,274
(WHIRRING)
563
00:29:24,069 --> 00:29:27,215
Dr. Murphy,
walk Asher through the probe placement
564
00:29:27,239 --> 00:29:29,522
and trajectory to the amygdala.
565
00:29:31,744 --> 00:29:34,402
I will supervise your supervision.
566
00:29:36,248 --> 00:29:37,959
Okay, insert the probe
567
00:29:37,983 --> 00:29:40,533
perpendicular to the cortical surface.
568
00:29:54,300 --> 00:29:56,278
Stop! You're off course.
569
00:29:56,302 --> 00:29:57,879
On the current trajectory,
570
00:29:57,903 --> 00:29:59,960
you will penetrate a
branch of the choroidal artery
571
00:30:00,005 --> 00:30:01,716
and cause a hemorrhage.
Step away from the probe.
572
00:30:01,740 --> 00:30:04,390
Your job is to teach,
573
00:30:04,643 --> 00:30:06,075
not take over.
574
00:30:09,181 --> 00:30:10,181
(SIGHS)
575
00:30:14,353 --> 00:30:18,433
Adjust the probe one
millimeter inferiorly.
576
00:30:18,457 --> 00:30:21,115
Avoid the temporal horn on your right.
577
00:30:22,294 --> 00:30:25,078
I can't see it on the image guidance.
578
00:30:28,133 --> 00:30:30,250
Tell Asher what you see.
579
00:30:36,775 --> 00:30:42,290
It should point toward your
six o'clock on the Y axis.
580
00:30:42,314 --> 00:30:44,264
You have to feel it.
581
00:30:47,138 --> 00:30:48,268
The...
582
00:30:49,722 --> 00:30:53,942
The tissue plane along
the parenchyma is smooth.
583
00:30:53,982 --> 00:30:56,526
It should feel like gliding.
584
00:31:05,904 --> 00:31:07,996
You've reached the amygdala.
585
00:31:10,542 --> 00:31:13,501
CLAIRE: Ready to begin
thermal laser ablation.
586
00:31:18,217 --> 00:31:20,829
DR. PARK: (MUMBLING) Rose's
upper GI and labs were normal.
587
00:31:20,853 --> 00:31:22,497
Should we keep her
another day to observe?
588
00:31:22,521 --> 00:31:24,299
No. If she's stable,
let's send her home.
589
00:31:24,323 --> 00:31:26,572
- Okay, I'll have Olivia...
- Open your mouth.
590
00:31:27,191 --> 00:31:28,491
Pardon me?
591
00:31:29,254 --> 00:31:31,060
Open your mouth.
592
00:31:35,434 --> 00:31:37,191
- I can, uh...
- Shut your mouth.
593
00:31:39,738 --> 00:31:41,583
- DR. PARK: There's this rat.
- A mouse.
594
00:31:41,607 --> 00:31:43,329
A little dead mouse in the garage,
595
00:31:43,353 --> 00:31:45,456
and the big, strong man
is afraid to get it out.
596
00:31:45,480 --> 00:31:47,022
Not afraid, disgusted.
597
00:31:47,046 --> 00:31:48,723
Neither of us wanna deal with it,
598
00:31:48,747 --> 00:31:51,639
so we are settling it in the
only responsible way, a bet.
599
00:31:51,667 --> 00:31:53,728
A dare. A series of dares, actually.
600
00:31:53,752 --> 00:31:55,263
Whoever wusses out first has to...
601
00:31:55,287 --> 00:31:57,670
Take those things out of your mouth.
602
00:31:58,223 --> 00:31:59,501
I will discharge Rose.
603
00:31:59,525 --> 00:32:00,902
You two, go home.
604
00:32:00,926 --> 00:32:02,704
- We were just...
- Being idiots at work,
605
00:32:02,728 --> 00:32:04,519
while people are sick and dying.
606
00:32:04,543 --> 00:32:05,970
Go home.
607
00:32:12,705 --> 00:32:15,688
All your tests are normal.
We're discharging you.
608
00:32:17,609 --> 00:32:19,421
Right, because you're psychic.
609
00:32:19,445 --> 00:32:22,223
I'm an empath, not a psychic.
610
00:32:22,247 --> 00:32:24,793
Whatever the case,
I would suggest you take it easy.
611
00:32:24,817 --> 00:32:26,261
No drinking, no heavy lifting...
612
00:32:26,285 --> 00:32:27,700
You have to let it out, dear.
613
00:32:28,451 --> 00:32:29,964
It was you.
614
00:32:29,988 --> 00:32:32,580
You made my heart rate spike.
615
00:32:33,718 --> 00:32:35,625
You're about to implode.
616
00:32:38,964 --> 00:32:41,276
There's nothing wrong with you... or me.
617
00:32:41,300 --> 00:32:44,379
- (EKG FLATLINING)
- (ALARM BEEPING)
618
00:32:44,403 --> 00:32:45,843
Code blue!
619
00:33:03,108 --> 00:33:04,108
(DRAWER OPENS)
620
00:33:07,479 --> 00:33:08,479
(POWERS ON)
621
00:33:19,625 --> 00:33:20,625
(KNOCK ON DOOR)
622
00:33:22,027 --> 00:33:23,171
Yeah?
623
00:33:23,195 --> 00:33:24,632
(DOOR OPENS, CLOSES)
624
00:33:26,599 --> 00:33:29,611
Dr. Lim,
my behavior yesterday was inexcusable
625
00:33:29,635 --> 00:33:31,472
and unprofessional.
626
00:33:32,504 --> 00:33:35,183
I let you down. I let the patient down.
627
00:33:35,207 --> 00:33:38,587
I am deeply sorry.
628
00:33:38,611 --> 00:33:40,523
And I promise it will not happen again.
629
00:33:42,348 --> 00:33:45,361
You let your personal judgment
get in the way of doing your job.
630
00:33:46,986 --> 00:33:48,990
You're right. That is inexcusable.
631
00:33:51,223 --> 00:33:52,634
(SIGHS)
632
00:33:52,658 --> 00:33:56,247
You said I had no idea what
the patient was going through.
633
00:33:57,196 --> 00:34:00,001
The truth is I kinda do.
634
00:34:03,369 --> 00:34:07,175
Scared, alone,
afraid of anyone finding out.
635
00:34:10,409 --> 00:34:13,154
I chose my career over motherhood,
636
00:34:13,178 --> 00:34:14,849
over my faith.
637
00:34:16,515 --> 00:34:17,977
But I don't regret it.
638
00:34:21,654 --> 00:34:25,400
And I know God forgave me
because I get to be here,
639
00:34:25,424 --> 00:34:28,738
living my dream of being a doctor.
640
00:34:34,266 --> 00:34:36,871
But I purposely try
not to think about it.
641
00:34:45,177 --> 00:34:46,464
You're off scut duty.
642
00:34:46,679 --> 00:34:47,656
That's not why I...
643
00:34:47,680 --> 00:34:48,746
Take it.
644
00:34:53,218 --> 00:34:55,181
(DOOR OPENS, CLOSES)
645
00:34:56,475 --> 00:34:58,434
My name is Benjamin Alan Harris.
646
00:34:59,358 --> 00:35:03,397
I'm in St. Bonaventure
Hospital in San Jose.
647
00:35:04,263 --> 00:35:06,841
Language and memory appear to be intact,
648
00:35:06,865 --> 00:35:09,010
and your motor function is normal.
649
00:35:09,034 --> 00:35:10,863
But that doesn't mean
it worked, does it?
650
00:35:10,896 --> 00:35:11,913
No.
651
00:35:11,937 --> 00:35:14,349
We'll have to do an fMRI
to see how you respond
652
00:35:14,373 --> 00:35:16,284
to fear-inducing stimuli.
653
00:35:16,308 --> 00:35:18,120
But we'll let you rest for now.
654
00:35:19,003 --> 00:35:21,123
I'm not gonna rest
until I know I'm better.
655
00:35:23,882 --> 00:35:25,794
I want you to know
how I got these scars.
656
00:35:25,818 --> 00:35:27,228
No. Not now.
657
00:35:27,252 --> 00:35:28,797
Just give yourself time.
658
00:35:28,821 --> 00:35:31,842
I was in a convoy in Kandahar.
659
00:35:33,325 --> 00:35:36,705
I was in a Husky,
the big vehicle at the front.
660
00:35:36,729 --> 00:35:38,773
Ben, you don't have to do this.
661
00:35:38,797 --> 00:35:40,184
Ronnie was driving.
662
00:35:40,632 --> 00:35:42,270
He was telling me a story,
663
00:35:42,735 --> 00:35:45,046
something about a goat at the base,
664
00:35:45,070 --> 00:35:47,358
or maybe it was a
chicken. I don't know. But...
665
00:35:49,508 --> 00:35:50,736
We were laughing.
666
00:35:57,416 --> 00:35:59,120
Then the world was on fire.
667
00:36:08,360 --> 00:36:10,006
It's the Husky's job
668
00:36:12,031 --> 00:36:14,010
to spot IEDs.
669
00:36:19,872 --> 00:36:21,267
(VOICE BREAKING) And I missed one.
670
00:36:26,478 --> 00:36:28,149
I can't see their faces.
671
00:36:30,849 --> 00:36:31,849
Just
672
00:36:33,285 --> 00:36:36,490
bodies everywhere.
673
00:36:41,860 --> 00:36:43,331
Dying alone,
674
00:36:44,463 --> 00:36:46,000
without their families.
675
00:36:47,733 --> 00:36:49,712
All I could do was hold their hand.
676
00:36:51,904 --> 00:36:52,904
(CRYING)
677
00:37:01,413 --> 00:37:02,725
Are you okay, Ben?
678
00:37:10,155 --> 00:37:11,923
- (HIGH-PITCHED RINGING)
- (MUFFLED VOICES)
679
00:37:22,668 --> 00:37:23,871
(BREATHING DEEPLY)
680
00:37:25,104 --> 00:37:26,457
(VOICES AND RINGING CONTINUE)
681
00:37:38,617 --> 00:37:42,030
STAFF: ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
682
00:37:42,054 --> 00:37:46,568
♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
683
00:37:46,592 --> 00:37:51,573
♪ Happy birthday, dear Lea ♪
684
00:37:51,597 --> 00:37:52,607
♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
685
00:37:52,631 --> 00:37:53,908
OLIVIA: Fun day.
686
00:37:53,932 --> 00:37:55,399
(PEOPLE LAUGHING, CHEERING)
687
00:37:56,902 --> 00:37:57,902
What do you need?
688
00:37:58,637 --> 00:38:00,157
We have a diagnosis.
689
00:38:09,715 --> 00:38:11,001
(MONITOR BEEPING)
690
00:38:13,252 --> 00:38:14,252
(SIGHS SOFTLY)
691
00:38:15,154 --> 00:38:17,049
ROSE: I thought I felt someone here.
692
00:38:19,491 --> 00:38:21,387
You've had a long day.
693
00:38:24,263 --> 00:38:26,875
You have Prinzmetal's Angina, Rose.
694
00:38:26,899 --> 00:38:29,186
A heart condition.
But it's very treatable.
695
00:38:29,968 --> 00:38:32,213
It explains all your symptoms,
696
00:38:32,237 --> 00:38:34,149
and it's exacerbated by stress,
697
00:38:34,173 --> 00:38:36,235
which is likely what
caused your heart attack.
698
00:38:37,276 --> 00:38:40,889
You need to stop seeking
out other people's pain.
699
00:38:40,913 --> 00:38:42,950
It's literally killing you.
700
00:38:46,318 --> 00:38:47,929
You're the Chief of Surgery.
701
00:38:47,953 --> 00:38:50,332
You could have sent
somebody else to tell me this.
702
00:38:51,190 --> 00:38:52,467
Sure.
703
00:38:52,491 --> 00:38:54,462
But then I'd miss my chance to gloat.
704
00:38:55,527 --> 00:38:57,381
You're here because you're hurting
705
00:38:58,297 --> 00:39:00,134
and you don't know where else to go.
706
00:39:03,001 --> 00:39:05,139
Go ahead. Use your magic.
707
00:39:05,837 --> 00:39:07,933
Tell me what's wrong with me.
708
00:39:09,341 --> 00:39:12,229
How do I stop feeling like this?
709
00:39:13,178 --> 00:39:15,123
It doesn't work that way.
710
00:39:15,147 --> 00:39:16,942
I don't have a magic wand.
711
00:39:18,817 --> 00:39:20,905
I can only hold up a mirror,
712
00:39:21,954 --> 00:39:23,532
make you slow down,
713
00:39:24,189 --> 00:39:25,600
look at the parts of yourself
714
00:39:25,624 --> 00:39:27,953
that you've been trying to ignore
715
00:39:28,393 --> 00:39:31,415
because you're afraid if you
look too closely, you'll break.
716
00:39:35,901 --> 00:39:37,838
Maybe you will. I don't know.
717
00:39:38,403 --> 00:39:40,508
Maybe breaking is the point.
718
00:39:45,377 --> 00:39:47,355
You can't outrun your pain, Dr. Lim.
719
00:39:47,379 --> 00:39:49,891
If you keep trying, it's gonna kill you.
720
00:39:49,915 --> 00:39:53,884
♪ Oh, oh, oh-oh-oh, oh, oh-oh-oh ♪
721
00:39:55,921 --> 00:39:58,422
♪ Oh, oh, oh-oh-oh, oh, oh-oh-oh ♪
722
00:39:59,191 --> 00:40:01,970
♪ Where do my hands go? ♪
723
00:40:01,994 --> 00:40:03,805
♪ Oh, oh, oh-oh-oh, oh, oh-oh-oh ♪
724
00:40:03,829 --> 00:40:05,006
(TIRES SQUEALING)
725
00:40:05,030 --> 00:40:11,836
♪ Have time to play with my mind ♪
726
00:40:14,106 --> 00:40:16,574
♪ Where does my tongue go? ♪
727
00:40:18,777 --> 00:40:20,047
(TIRES SCREECH)
728
00:40:28,520 --> 00:40:29,520
(ENGINE HISSING)
729
00:40:47,105 --> 00:40:48,973
(HIGH-PITCHED RINGING)
730
00:40:54,946 --> 00:40:55,946
(HISSING CONTINUES)
731
00:41:04,589 --> 00:41:05,843
(DISTORTED VOICES)
732
00:41:07,125 --> 00:41:09,604
MAN 1: Time of death, 12:34.
733
00:41:09,628 --> 00:41:12,106
WOMAN 1: Time of death, 7:13.
734
00:41:12,130 --> 00:41:14,776
WOMAN 2: Time of death, 2:25.
735
00:41:14,800 --> 00:41:18,046
WOMAN 3: Time of death, 2100 hours.
736
00:41:18,070 --> 00:41:20,415
- WOMAN 4: Time of death...
- MAN 2: Time of death, 4:26.
737
00:41:20,439 --> 00:41:23,318
- WOMAN 5: Time of death...
- WOMAN 6: Time of death, 7:13.
738
00:41:23,342 --> 00:41:24,652
- WOMAN 7: Time of death...
- WOMAN 8: ...4:26.
739
00:41:24,676 --> 00:41:26,906
- WOMAN 9: ...8:55.
- DR. LIM: Time of death...
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