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[moody music]

[Young] Age, 17 years.

Born in New York City.
Residence, Long Island.

Father James, mother Angela.

Both artists.

My parents...

do they know about Nora?

[Young]
Just the broad strokes.

Which is basically
all we know at this point.

You care to help us
with the specifics?

I'm older than her, you know.

Born...18 minutes before.

Older but never wiser.

You're gonna hear
a lot of shit

about how I acted,
who I was trying to be,

and...how I was with her.

But...

that sister thing...

that twin thing...

...it's like a foreign country.

You can only really understand
if you're in it.

[somber music]

So, no.

I don't wanna talk about
what happened to her.

But...

I do wanna tell you our story.

[both] One, two, three, four,

I declare a thumb war.

- Pinned you!
- You're too good.

Come on,
let's go again.

One, two, three, four,

I declare a thumb war.

Might wanna declare
a ceasefire, girls.

- Dessert's comin'.
- Tiramisu per la mamma.

E per le bambinas.

[Nella]
Per le bambine.

[chuckles] Your Italian's
getting rusty, signore.

[Bennett]
Dio mio.

Your mama...she always-a
give-a me the grief!

How's it taste?

Pretty good?

Mmm.
Real good.

Bene, Papa.

[Nella] Gosh, she's a sponge
for languages, isn't she?

[Bennett] Completely.
Hey, speaking of which,

you know what we haven't
played in a while?

Words in Words?

[Bennett] Words in Words.

- Are you ready?
- Mm-hmm.

Okay, all right.
Uh, first word is, um...

tiramisu.

T-i-r-a

m-i-s-u.

- All right, and go!
[Nella] Mm...

- [Bennett drumming on table]
- S-t-a-r.

- Star.
- Yeah! Nora, all you.

S-m-a-r-t.
Smart!

[Bennett] And so she is,
ladies and gentlemen.

And so she is!
[drumming on table]

[Nella laughs]
How 'bout...okay, wait for it.

Atriums.

- A-t-r-i-u-m-s.
- [Bennett drumming]

Okay, now you're just
showing off, all right?

Rachel, give it a whirl!

[continues drumming]

[jazzy music plays
in background]

[whispers]

R-a-t-s, rats.

[Nella] Ah!
[Bennett] Yeah!

- Beautiful, Rach.
[Bennett] Bravo!

All right, I got one.
Iris.

I-r-i-s.

Stir!
S-t-i-r.

[Nella] Trims, t-r-i-m-s.

[Bennett] Uh, arms, a-r-m-s.

[Rachel] Alone.
[Nora] Trams...

[Rachel] Surrounded by people,
but still alone.

That's how I felt
waking up in that place.

♪ ♪

Realizing
it wasn't just a bad dream.

We were truly
and actually fucked.

Some were lucky.

They had someone
to hold on to.

I should have too,

but I couldn't let go
of the blame.

She'd gotten us involved.

She'd thrown my whole life
off course.

She didn't feel like
my sister anymore.

She felt like the roadblock
to everything I wanted to be.

Hey, dude.

Rise and shine.
We're in hell.

[scoffs]

Fatin.

What the...

what the fuck?

I was sleeping.

Yeah, well, I thought
you were dead, dick.

Six, seven...

[Shelby]
People, we're missing a person.

Leah.

[Leah]
It's Jeanette's.

[uneasy music]

♪ ♪

[exhales]

[dog panting]

♪ ♪

Audrey.

I've made a decision.

I know it will be
controversial.

[large steel door
screeching closed]

[Audrey]
Word came down from HQ.

No extraction.
We move forward as planned.

A girl is dead.

Don't. Not our job
to moralize.

This needs to get to
the field ASAP.

What's in it?

Not our job to ask questions.

[edgy music]

♪ ♪

Land it
at the drop point.

The other operative
will know to retrieve it.

And remember to cut the motor
within 500 feet.

It was in her pocket.

I heard it ringing,
but it didn't seem real.

Not that anything does anymore.

So I followed the sound
and I, um...

- I...
- You frisked a dead body.

But then when I finally
dug it out of her pocket,

it died in my hands.

The weirdest part is,
this is her second phone.

The other one,
we lost out in the water,

but this...

this is an entirely
different one.

One that worked

and one that she chose
not to tell us about.

Isn't there something, like,
vaguely messed up about that?

Like, not even vaguely.
Deeply.

Let me see it.

It is kind of
a sketchy phone.

So what exactly are we
trying to say here?

- I don't know.
- I don't know.

I'm just wondering
if the simplest explanation

might be the right one.

So she had two phones.
It's not that crazy.

And she'd been
knocked around so bad,

she just...
she probably just forgot.

Jeannette wasn't just
in shock, you know.

She was dying.

[whispers]
Fuck.

Sorry.

But, like, fuck her
if she forgot!

That could have been
our only way out!

Okay.

But why didn't you
wake us up?

[Leah]
I don't know.

You...you don't know?

You hear a phone,

and instead of waking us up,
you sit there

and you contemplate what's
fucking real and what's not

so that by the time
you get to the phone...

- Rachel, it was confusing.
- I'm not confused at all!

You could have found it
before it died,

but you didn't, did you?

No.

Cool.

[Nora]
She's just afraid.

You did everything
you could.

No, she's right.

[exhales]
I fucked up.

[Faber] That's a tall order,
tracking down a ringing phone

in the middle of the night.

It seems likely that she did
do everything in her power.

I know.

But...at the time,

all I saw was someone
who hadn't fought for it.

A no-hustle, no-grit
kinda girl.

I take it
that's not your style.

[laughs lightly]

I was all hustle.

[energetic music]

[Rachel]
Hustle and hard work.

That's how you make
your dreams come true.

We grow up hearing that,
don't we?

That you don't have to be
gifted

or some kind of natural.

If you just

put in the time,

the effort, and the sweat,

anything is possible.

I believed that
because I had to.

Only to find out...

...it was a stone-cold lie.

With some dreams,

you can work yourself
to the fucking bone...

...and they're still
gonna be there...

...just out of reach.

Wait...what do you mean?

Are you cutting me
from the team?

No, no. Let me clear.
I am not cutting you.

I am not taking you off
the nationals roster,

but...
[inhales]

...when I am dead sure
that one of my divers

can no longer make progress,
I make it a point to tell her,

and I tell her as soon
as I can because

this is a brutal, draining,
dead-end pursuit,

and I don't want her

devoting any more of her life
to it than she has to.

Uh, I can...I know...

I know that I've been in some
kind of slump lately, but...

No, no, no, no, stop.

Look at them.

Kills me to admit it, but that
is the kind of physique

that succeeds in this sport,
and they are short,

compact bodies with itty-bitty
pancake chests

and some kind of freakish
genetic ability to...

pack on muscle and zero fat.

And that is...

that is just not you
anymore.

Oh, God, how do I...
[clicks tongue]

How do I put this better?
You...

You got beautiful, kid.

Tall and real.

I can work harder.

I can spend more time

- on the board, I can...
- No, Rachel, Rachel.

- Please!
- Rachel.

I know this doesn't
feel like it,

but this is an opportunity.

Most people
age out of the sport

with no idea of who they are,

but you get to start
figuring that out now.

Right now.

[Rachel] You can ask
the other girls.

They'll say I was stubborn,
crazy.

Didn't know when to quit.

But when you find that thing...

...that one thing
that's all yours

that finally
makes you feel special...

[melancholy piano music]

...that finally lets you
catch some of that shine...

There she is,

my little Athena.

[Rachel] ...that light
that used to fall on others,

it...it now lands on you.

[Nella] Smell like
chlorine and excellence.

[Bennett]
Hey, Raquel.

Hey.

[Rachel] Hey.

So good news.

I backed outta that design
expo in Paris.

So I'll be here
for your big nationals moment,

cheering from the stands,
fully embarrassing you.

But I thought that trip

was like a big
you and Nora thing.

I know you were
looking forward to it.

[Nora]
Paris isn't going anywhere.

I wanna be there too.

All right, then.

Cool.

Very cool.

[Nella]
You good, honey?

Yeah, I'm just worn out.

[uneasy music]

Gonna go wash up.

Trust me
when I say this.

When you've finally
found that thing

that makes you
feel worth something...

...you don't give it up
without a fight.

[coughs, gags]

Oh, fuck.

Hey, so I definitely
feel like a piece of shit,

and I'm sorry.

Whatever.
I'm over it.

I don't hold grudges.
I mean...

I hold one,
and one is enough.

Best apology
is a change in behavior.

Wait, so what do you
want me to do with this?

See if you can
get it to inflate.

I haven't had any luck.

You're swimming out
to the wreckage.

Yeah. There's shit we need
out there if we can find it.

Radio, flares.

You're still in, right?

Fuckin' typical.

Okay, I feel like
you can't say "typical"

about someone that
you've known for a day

in like a really
atypical situation.

Rachel, the water's insane.

You see those waves over there,
how they're breaking sideways?

That's a fucking riptide.

I surf.

You surf.

I took two lessons.

Have you ever lied
to someone,

like to a guy, maybe,
and you tell them

that you're into The Smiths
or that you surf,

and then you try to
legitimize the lie

by listening to The Smiths
all weekend

and signing up
for a fucking surf lesson?

No.

The water's a death wish.

Did my sister ask you
to talk me down?

No. Why?

For the record, I don't want to
sit around either.

Watching the sky,
feeling like a fuck-up.

Like a helpless,
stupid fuck-up.

Then what do you wanna do?

[soft music]

♪ ♪

[rustling]

[uneasy music]

♪ ♪

[exhales]

Jesus fucking Christ!

You've gotta stop
scaring me.

You need to not throw shit
at unarmed brown people.

- Sorry.
- You know, for someone

who gives off major
softball player vibes,

that was a super lame throw.

What's that?

Uh...what's left of
the emergency slide, I think.

[grunts]

What are you doing with it?

I don't know yet.

Maybe use it for shelter
or warmth.

Whatever.

Someone's definitely
coming to pick us up.

You get that, right?

Did you just take a shit
up there?

I took a piss.
That's it.

And just so we're clear,

I will not be doing that
in the wild.

Hand to fucking God, I need
indoor plumbing for that.

You got any more tissues
in your bag?

You don't want to
drip-dry either?

It's just good
to have 'em on hand, you know?

They make good tinder.
They can staunch a cut.

I gotta take a look
at what we've salvaged so far,

your suitcase included.

You know, step one
in a scenario like this

is know what the hell
you're working with.

Are you from one of those
creepy doomsday prep families

and have a basement
full of canned soup?

I just watch a bunch of
survival TV.

Survivor, obviously,

uh, Man Versus Wild.

Wild Alaska is solid.

Alone,
Naked and Afraid.

How many of these are there?

[Martha] I don't get it.

I thought it was getting
better.

[Toni] It's a sprain; they're
always worse the next day.

Ah, fuck, not this worse.

Toni, your...your face
isn't helping.

What do you mean
my face isn't helping?

I mean you...
you look scared.

She doin' okay?

[Shelby sighs]
You're...

you're gonna be just fine.

Swelling just means your body's
on the job, all right?

I got this, by the way.

She doesn't need like a ton of
people crowding around her.

- Ow, Toni!
- I was elevating it

like you're fucking
supposed to!

Um, I think at this point
it's better to immobilize

than to elevate,
so that's my bad, Martha.

I really should have
splinted it yesterday.

I was just thinking
you probably should have

- splinted it yesterday.
- Just an FYI.

I was a candy striper
at Amarillo General last year

where I learned
that the biggest obstacle

to patient recovery...

Is infection.

And...negative energy.

I'll let you think about that

while I go get this one
a drink, okay?

[Dot]
All right, so you brought...

...what, like 37 condoms?

And your birth control
pills.

Planned Parenthood
poster child over here.

I do my best.

Day 15.

We better be outta here
by day 21.

I do not wanna be
on my period in this hellhole.

Think anyone's got theirs now?

[Fatin] Your sister
was acting like it.

Fuck you.

Jesus, I was joking.

Hey! Look...

I am conducting
an inventory.

Can you just not
touch the stuff

until everything's
accounted for?

I wanna know where we're at.

[Shelby] Relax,
it's for Martha.

[Leah]
We're taking a walk.

[Rachel] And you're
coming with us, Texas.

You've already been
out there,

- so you can lead the way.
- Lead the way to what now?

That.

[Leah] We gotta know
what this place is.

Like the full view of it.

There's no way
we're alone out here.

You know I'd be all in,
but Martha...

It's fine.
You should go.

Well...looks like I'm a yes,

so I'll ju...

Hey, um...

take this.

Tilt it up some.
Get it all the way up there.

It'll make for
a pretty good signal.

Probably even better
than a big-ass "help" sign.

That could really work?

Yeah.

Well, it did on Face the Wild
with Bear Grylls.

[Nora]
Okay.

Hey, Rach...

[Rachel]
It can't be easy...

...watching someone
drift away.

Especially if they're drifting
into darkness.

[uneasy music]

♪ ♪

[intense percussive music]

[coughs]

[panting]

[gasping]

Yesterday, we went left.

You know, we...
we hit some real nasty terrain,

so I'm guessing this way's
gonna be our best bet.

Ooh, stop that.

[chuckles]
This thing's no joke.

All right, let's do this.

[Nora]
Let me come with you!

- Not happening.
- But I...

- I can help you.
- You've helped enough.

No, Rach!

Rach.

You know how bad
I feel?

I-I, uh...

I wanna tear my skin off.

[scoffs] Real nice
and dramatic, Nora.

Oh, wait, what's it called
when someone is so dramatic

that it makes you
wanna fucking cringe?

Melodramatic?

Exactly.
Now get outta my face.

[laughs] Oh...
look at you.

Always standing
in my fucking way.

God,
your memory's, like...

lethally selective.

[♪ Elliott Smith: "Angeles"]

[singers] ♪ Someone's
always coming around here ♪

♪ Trailing some new kill ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Says "I've seen
your picture on a ♪

♪ Hundred dollar bill" ♪

♪ What's a game of chance ♪

♪ To you, to him is one... ♪

[Nora]
You, um...

you didn't flush.

O-oh, um,

staff has to check it

to make sure
I didn't relapse.

[Rachel]
Good times, right?

Yeah, so we did vision boards.

[Nora] Do you envision

a golden retriever
in your life?

[Rachel]
No.

Uh...

Yeah.

They made me
put that up there.

The counselor said it was
too sport-centric

or some shit.

I'm not sick, though.

I'm just an athlete who knows
what it fucking takes.

Rachel.

You ended up
in the ER.

I was just dehydrated, okay?

Nora, I don't belong here.

Help me.

Will you help me,
please?

[singers] ♪ No one's gonna
fool around with us... ♪

I'll talk to Mom
and Dad.

♪ ♪

[Dot] She could use a Vicodin
or three right about now.

Hey, um, any chance

this is some kind of
Icy Hot knock-off?

- Yeah, no, that's lube.
- Jesus.

What?
I'm not one for essentials.

I'm more into
recreationals.

Uh, hey, what's...what are
those pink things

in the bottom of your...
junk pile?

[laughs]

Oh, my God,
are those swag bags?

What is swag?

- Why would it be in a bag?
- Swag.

It's like rah-rah
promotional junk.

- Stupid and thirsty.
- This one has my name on it.

Sunscreen.

Cheap pink goggles.

Oh, and just when you thought
it couldn't get any cringier,

it's Grandma's
fucking golf hat.

You know,
I actually kind of love it.

Oh, shit, it's my itinerary
for the weekend.

Depending on what
time of day it is,

I'm either supposed to be
at a pottery class

- or swimming with dolphins.
- Honestly, I wouldn't be

too torn up about
that last one.

I've been swimming
with dolphins like four times,

and their tiny teeth
are horrifying.

You seem a lot better
than yesterday.

I mean, you were kinda like
sliding into the abyss.

Yeah, well, I guess
it fucked me up, you know?

- The almost dying thing?
- What...

did your life go flashing
before your eyes?

Shit, it did.

And it bummed you out.

Let's just say I've had
a shitty few years.

Hard fucking same.

[soft, uneasy music]

♪ ♪

All right,
let's keep it moving.

I wanna get to the top
before the sun goes down,

see if we can flash
a good signal.

[Leah] If the context
were different, like...

if we were on a field trip and
somewhere in some parking lot

a chain-smoking bus driver
was waiting to take us home,

I'd think this place
was beautiful.

I'm telling you,

God does not do ugly.

[Shelby] You thought much
about college, Leah?

[Leah] Not really.

I've been...busy
with other things.

What about you?
Big college plans?

I already committed
to Stanford.

Their diving program is
basically an Olympic pipeline.

Cool. Will your sister
go with you?

No! Why does everyone
ask me that?

Sheesh!
It was just a question.

[singer] ♪ I'm like my mama ♪

♪ Sometimes it's drama ♪

♪ Forget the karma ♪

♪ Might hear me holla ♪

♪ Reverse Madonna ♪

♪ That's me, my bike's a...

[Nora] Hey.
- Hey.

I just came
to bring you this.

You left it in the car.

And to wish you luck.
Not that you need it.

Since I did place a Wiccan hex
on all the other divers.

[laughs]

Just a joke.

[chuckles]

Are you...

are you feeling...
okay?

Yeah.
Yeah, just nerves.

Good nerves.

You're all right,
right?

You're feeling like...
healthy?

Because you swore to me
you'd...

Nora, yes, yes, I'm fine.

[laughs] You seriously
don't need to hover, okay?

I just gotta get
in the pocket,

get the blood flowing,
you know.

Give me my beats.

[laughs] I'm good, Nora.
Come on!

I'm gonna kill it.

I'm gonna smash it,
I'm gonna kill it.

[both] Gonna smash it,
gonna kill it.

- I'm gonna smash it! Okay?
- Yeah.

Just go out there
and get Mom and Dad

some good seats, all right?

[Nora] I love you, Rach.
- I love you too.

All right, go.

Hurry up!

Go, please.

[gasps]

[moans]

[breathing harshly]

[toilet seat taps]

[gagging]

This doesn't really
seem worth it, Toni,

like for either of us.

It will be, I swear.

♪ Super Nintendo,
Sega Genesis ♪

♪ When I was dead broke,
man, I couldn't picture this ♪

♪ Fifty-inch screen,
money-green leather sofa ♪

♪ Got two rides,
a limousine ♪

♪ With a chauffeur ♪

Does that feel good?

I don't know.
It's cold.

Yeah, that's the point.

Someone's coming
for us, right?

Yeah, duh!

You see how many rich white
girls there are on this island?

Society will never
let them perish.

You know, Shelby said
her dad's

probably in the White House
by now

just yelling at the president
to come and find us.

Do you think we'll be
famous after?

Because Shelby said
they'll give us a nickname

like...The Unsinkable Eight,
and we'll go on talk shows...

You can't go
two fucking seconds

without bringing her up,
can you?

What?

You know, she's dead-ass
gonna drop you

after this.

Like, don't expect her
to invite you

down to fucking Dallas.

Oh, shit, Marty, I'm s...

I'm so sorry.

You know I'm just so scared
out of my fucking mind, I...

I know, I know.

Okay? Me too.

♪ Birthdays
was the worst days ♪

♪ Now we sip
champagne when we thirst-ay ♪

♪ Ay...ay ♪♪

[Shelby]
I might...

I might need
a little breather.

We're almost there.

I don't mean
a full-on siesta,

just a water break.

I don't want to make
excuses for myself,

but I did come out
yesterday,

and it wasn't
the easiest.

- We're almost there.
- Yeah, well,

almost there doesn't mean
the same for you

as it does for us, okay?

We are...working with very
different thresholds here.

Wow.
That's racist.

What? No!

No, I-I only meant because...

because you're like
a world-class athlete.

I...

Chill.
I'm kidding.

[uneasy music]

♪ ♪

Watch out.

What do you think we'll see
once we get up there?

[Leah]
Uh...I'm hoping for, like,

a Sandals Resort maybe.

I'm takin' a break.
Sorry.

I said...
we're almost there!

- Shit, the mirror!
- Leah!

[Shelby] Leah, no, no, no.
Stop! We don't need it.

I see it!

- I can get it.
[Rachel] Can you get it?

- Yeah, I can see it...
- Leah, stop! Let it go!

- It's right there...
[Rachel] Can you get it?

[overlapping shouting]

[Leah] Aah!
Get me up!

Get me up, get me up!

Get me up!

- Get me up!
- [overlapping shouting]

- I'm trying! Pull her up!
- Get me up!

[Faber]
So...

your sister came
after all.

Yeah.

Guess by then...

she realized that
I don't always know

what's best for myself.

Fuck!
Fuck, we needed that!

The mirror?

Who the hell
cares about a mirror?

- Leah almost died.
- Rachel, I am so...

so sorry.

Don't feel like you need
to apologize to her.

Don't look at me like that.

Don't look at me like
you think I've lost my mind,

like I'm some angry-ass girl
losing her shit for no reason!

I have every reason!

My life is out there
a million miles away, okay?

Real life is out there,
and I have no fucking clue

why I'm the only one
fighting to get it back!

Is there nothing
waiting for you?

Do you not have a world
that wants you back?

What the fuck?
Hello?!

I guess fucking not!

[unsettling music]

♪ ♪

[announcer]
Diving next, Rachel Reid.

[cheers and applause]

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

[exhales deeply]

[exhales]

There's...

there's nothing.

[voice breaks]
There's nothing.

[breathing harshly]

[softly] There's nothing,
there's nothing,

there's nothing.

There's...

nothing.

Nothing. Nothing, nothing.
[whimpers]

[stammers]

[intense musical pulsing]

♪ ♪

[lenses snapping]

[loud thud]

[crowd commotion]

[dialogue not audible]

[soft tense notes]

♪ ♪

[rustling]

Stay away from me, Nora.

I'm serious. Stay the fuck
away from me, Nora.

Stop, just don't...
don't touch me!

Don't...stay the fuck away
from me, Nora!

Oh, my God!

[whimpering]

Oh, my God!

Aah!

[Young]
Just for context,

what did you hope
to see from the summit?

Something, anything.

A dock, a house.

Some kinda sign
that we weren't...alone.

But that didn't
materialize.

Sorry, what?

Well,
you didn't find anything

to suggest
that you weren't alone.

I...did and I didn't.

I did and I didn't.

[heavy music]

♪ ♪

[Gretchen] We don't have eyes
on the other four?

[Thom] They, um,
they should pass by

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Do you see how they've arranged
themselves differently?

It often means a shift

in the geography
of the relationship.

Did you note that, Susan?

Of course.

Hm.

Oh, God.

The dogs must have slept
in the laundry last night.

Have I just been walking
around like this all day?

- Do you want the lint roller?
- Yes!

Oh, hell, I may as well
just steer into the skid.

[whistles, clicks tongue]

Oh, yes!

Oh!

The number of times just
staring at these two faces

has brought me back
from the edge...

Muah.
How do they do it?

Is it just that
they're so simple

when absolutely
nothing else is?

[kissing]

[dark music]

♪ ♪

We're not just...

thoughtlessly putting
her death behind us.

We're moving forward
so that what she gave

amounts to something.

- Is that clear?
- Hundred percent.

- Susan?
- Yes, all clear.

Good.

Uh...could you get on
to base camp?

I wanna check that the
operative found the package.

- Of course.
- [whistles]

Come on!
[clicking tongue]

[Dot] Gotta figure
this was our pilot.

Now, sir, I don't have
a great feeling

about where you're at
right now,

but the shit you left behind
will not be wasted.

[Shelby] Dottie,
don't be morbid.

Uh, well, sorry,
but this is a haul.

Pain pills, disinfectants...

basically
a whole medicine cabinet.

[Shelby] All right,
down the hatch.

You, ma'am, are gonna be
ship-shape in no time.

[Martha] I've only ever had
the store brand kind before.

She didn't buy them for you.
She had some dumb fucking luck.

[Dot] Hey, um,
give her one of these,

maybe one and a half,
but make sure

- she takes it with food.
- What is it?

Oxycodone.

Shelby, thank you so much.

How do you say "You're welcome"
in Native American?

In Ojibwe, it's miigwech.

Okay.

Yeah.

That.
[giggles]

[mellow music]

♪ ♪

[Rachel] That riptide's
looking real good

right about now.

[chuckles]

Thanks...by the way.

For trying to get the mirror.

I'm not like...

a Stanford-bound-
Wheaties-box-

Olympic-level diver,
but I do go after things.

If they're risky,
impossible, stupid,

or like an absolute recipe
for disaster,

I'll...I'll go after it
for sure.

[chuckles]

[Nora]
Hey.

So...Stanford.

You were cut, Rachel.

It's not your real life
anymore.

I don't know why
you won't let it go.

But you do, Nora.

You do know why.

Q-A-T...triple letter.

[Nella]
Is that a legal word?

[Bennett] Yeah, look it up.
It's an Arabian shrub.

You okay, baby?

We can play something
different.

No, it's cool.

[Nella]
It's still tender?

[Rachel]
Kinda.

Every scar
is a lesson, you know?

What's that, um,
Rumi quote?

"The wound is the place
light enters you."

That's the one.

[soft piano music]

♪ ♪

Petrichor.

It means the smell in the air
after it rains.

[Nella]
That's quite beautiful.

[Bennett]
That's...85 points

worth of beautiful.
Okay.

Where you going?
You're almost up.

Just gonna lie down.

♪ ♪

Rachel?

[Rachel] You remember
my first invitational

down in Jersey?

We were 11.

I did the perfect
inward pike.

I blew everyone
out of the water.

Mom and Dad...
they fucking lost it.

Dad went on,
kissing strangers,

and Mom screamed so hard,
her nose bled.

She bled on my hair
and didn't even realize.

Look, I know it wasn't
easy for you

always being in the bleachers

and basically having your life
hijacked by my thing, but...

But that day...
[laughs]

...that was the first time
they...

they've ever looked at me
like that.

Like the way that
they've always looked at...

Me.

The way they look at me.

[softly] Yeah.

You know,
they're basically

the only ones who...

noticed me.

Yeah, well,

I wanted that.

I still do.

So I'm gonna
get back there, Nora.

I'm gonna be
fucking great again.

And I need you
to let me believe that.

[Rachel] The story
of me and my sister

is that I had her all wrong.

How do you mean?

She was always up ahead,

standing in front of me
somehow.

And there I was thinking

that she was just casting
some kind of shadow

that I had to get out
from under.

But that wasn't
the case.

It was protection.

She was throwing herself

in front of the world for me.

This story,
the two of you,

you mind if I ask
how it ends?

I don't know.

Guess that's in your hands
now.

It's true what they say,
you know,

that you can still feel things.

[soft music]

♪ ♪

Messages from...

old nerve endings,

sensations from the past.

You know what I feel?

[emotional music]

It's her hand

holding mine.

♪ ♪

Forever.