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I was a hard young man,
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due partly to my sport. But I was
ice-cold and denied all feelings.
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Brutal toughness defined me
and led me to hurt many people.
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There's no way for me
to make that right.
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I was icy cold, like a block of stone,
and I didn't give a damn.
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Punch!
That's right, very good!
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Left, right! Left, right!
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I started with judo when I was 6.
Later came karate,
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which I found better. I could
hit my partner and kick him away.
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I'd sworn no one would ever
hurt me again the way my father did.
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I told myself I'd be the best in the world
in martial arts, and I succeeded.
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My titles include multiple championships
in Europe, two in Asia,
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and world champion: I've held
practically ever y title there is.
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From 1974 until 12/12/1989,
when I stepped down,
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I remained undefeated
in my karate style.
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When I was 15, I walked down the stairs
in the house behind me on my fists.
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27 floors without stopping.
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A sport comrade said,
"Andy, you're the greatest!"
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"If you manage that, you can
achieve anything you want in life!"
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Almost ever y day I train
between 80 and 100 children.
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They're between 4 and 15 years old.
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They give me strength.
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Do you know about Andreas' past?
He wrote a book about it,
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and it was pretty rough.
Doesn't that worry you?
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Not really. In the last years
I've heard only positive things.
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Ever yone should have more
than one chance.
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My son has learned a lot here.
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Now, my boy, Grandma and Grandpa
are going to teach you a new card game.
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Grandma will deal.
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We each get six cards.
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It's Grandpa's turn.
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I'll play this one.
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Whoever gets rid of
all his cards is the winner.
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So, little man,
it's bathtub time.
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You can finish the game tomorrow.
- Go on,
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do what Mama says.
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Now, little man,
you'll get a good rubbing.
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We have to get your bottom
especially dr y.
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And here, between your legs.
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This little guy
isn't just for making pee-pee.
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You have a wee-wee and a sack
because you're a real man.
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If you take hold of it and
play with it a while, it will get big.
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Shall I show you
how it works?
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So, Andy,
is Mama good at that?
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My treasure...
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My big, big man!
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My father only liked girls,
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and when I was about 9 months old
- my grandpa told me this-
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he put me out on the
balcony, naked in December.
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He drenched me with water
so I would die.
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In the hospital with pneumonia,
I fought my way back to life.
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Because of what he did,
my parents separated.
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Where's my super athlete?
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After the separation,
I saw my father 5 or 6 times at most.
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Shake my hand. Are you a man?
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Or are you a pussy?
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Are you a little girl?
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That's good.
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Show me what you've got. Squeeze!
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That's good...
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My turn.
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Are you crazy?
Let him go!
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Get out!
And don't come back!
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Darling,
what did Papa do to you?
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That vile bastard!
What he did to me...
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He tried to cripple his own son!
He broke several bones.
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His twisted face and mocking laughter
are burned into my memory.
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I can never forget them,
no matter what.
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That doesn't look good.
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Mama will take you
to the hospital.
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Just tell them...
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...you got your hand
caught in a drawer.
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So, Andy...
Do you find Mama pretty?
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Do you want more milk?
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What would you call
Mama's breasts?
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Titties? Footballs?
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Bells?
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Give me your hand...
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What's in the paper?
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More of the same.
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Andy, what we do here
is just between us.
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No one can know,
not even Grandpa and Grandma.
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This is our big secret.
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Otherwise the fun is over,
and they'll take you away.
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My mother started groping me
when I was 6 or 7.
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She caressed me,
hugged and kissed me,
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at first my throat, later my chest,
and on down to my genitals.
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She would massage my balls
and fondle my cock.
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It was pleasant. I really enjoyed
what she did with me.
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You can stick your finger
in my pussy.
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Yeah, that's right!
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Now move it back and forth.
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You're so good
at it, Andy!
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In puberty, around 12,
I really slept with my mother.
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She wanted me to
have sex with her.
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It was regular sex.
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I'd come to orgasm, and not only once,
but it just didn't seem normal.
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Notice how wet it is.
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When it's so wet,
you know you're doing it right.
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I had to do it all. My little hand
had to go into every opening.
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I had to come
on her breasts, on her face...
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Not ever yone has
such a darling son.
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It disgusted me.
It made me vomit.
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I washed myself raw afterwards.
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You make it really wet
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so it slides right in.
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Then you stick it into me,
as deep as it goes.
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Don't hold back.
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I won't break.
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If you don't cooperate,
it's the end of sport after school!
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Be glad I teach you these things
so you won't be a loser like your father.
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During the last years it revolted me,
but she found it satisfying and fun.
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She would have never quit.
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Where the hell are you going?
Come back here!
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Your cock belongs to me!
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Grandpa, what's wrong?
- This can't go on, Andy.
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The constant fighting with your mother,
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it has to stop!
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Grandma gave me
a good idea.
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You have to move out.
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Go back to sleep.
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I have to go to work.
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Grandpa got me an apartment
upstairs in their building.
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Grandpa, this is...
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My own kingdom at last!
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Thank you.
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Men don't hug.
It's just not done.
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We're not softies!
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This is a house for working men,
not a high-class mansion.
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If you want to get ahead around here,
you can't be squeamish.
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You've got to earn what you get.
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But you're practically a real man
already, with your own apartment,
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earning your own money
as an apprentice in a department store.
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You're free to do as you like.
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But when the family needs you,
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you'll be there, understand?
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This is my place.
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Nice!
- You like it?
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I do.
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Come on, that didn't hurt!
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Oh, it hurt all right.
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Do you want to try again?
- Really?-Sure.
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Is everything okay?
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This is my first time.
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Can you be careful?
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Yes. It's my first time, too.
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It's okay. I'm his mother.
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There are other girls
who visit him up there.
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Beautiful girls...
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Each one is prettier than the last,
and most stay all night.
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Andy's a real rascal.
He uses the girls,
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then tosses them away
like chewed gum.
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Petra!
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Are you nuts?
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What have I done?
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You know damn well, you ass!
Your mother told me everything!
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What did she say?-You're with girls
when you say you're at karate!
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She lied! It's bullshit!
I don't see other girls!
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I was sad because of you
and even cried!
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Now you talk against your mother!
You're dead to me!
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When Petra left me, I fell into
a deep hole. I didn't get it.
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Later I found out
my mother was behind it.
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It was her scheme. The same thing
happened with Sylvia and Judith.
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What did you say to my girlfriend?
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What are you up to?
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Why do you butt in?
- I didn't say anything.
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Keep your girl problems to yourself.
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I don't know anything about it.
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All those young things are bird-brains.
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There's dessert!
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I hate, hate, hate you!
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My regard for women died.
They were all as filthy as my mother.
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The program "I Hate Women" began.
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If they didn't want the normal Andy,
then they could have the whip.
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Beyond that, I had
another score to settle.
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I'll smash your skull, you rat.
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You had a lot of fun back then.
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Breaking my hand...
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I was six.
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It was this hand. Look.
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It's a bit bigger, a bit stronger.
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Who's the pussy now?
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You or me?
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Have you pissed yourself?
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You're the pussy.
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You're the dirty little
spineless pussy.
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You're nothing.
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All you've done with your
worthless life is disappoint ever yone.
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Mama. Grandfather. Grandmother.
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And a tormented little boy.
Look at me!
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I'll tell you something.
If I ever see you again,
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I'll put you down.
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Now you can change
your panties, you shit stain.
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I'm Joe. -Andy. Hello.
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You were great in there. I bet on you.
- That was a good choice. Thanks.
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We could use a guy like you
if you're into things besides sports.
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Things like money.
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Stand up.
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You know what I want.
You know who wants his money.
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But I don't have it.
- Shut your mouth!
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I know your kids' school, where your wife works.
Do anything cute, and it's over for you.
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I'll kill your kids,
I'll kill your wife,
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and I'll find you.
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Do you understand?
- Yes.
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Say it!
- I understand!
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Open your eyes. Look here.
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Feel that?
- Yes!
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I won't hesitate. First the nose,
then the ears, then the fingers.
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Do you understand me?
- Yes!
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For little Andy from
a Berlin workers' district,
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the pimps who used me were great men.
I thought, "You can be like that."
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Their jewelry, the Rolexes, the big cars,
how they treated their women:
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I found it all good.
I respected them.
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That's how I wanted to be.
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You have something for me?
- Sure, all of it.
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Nice and fat!
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As agreed.
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Come, sit down with us.
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This is a party, not a funeral!
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To us!
- I don't drink alcohol. Thanks.
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Just one.
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No, really. Maybe water?
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Good work!
We're proud of you.
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And we have
a little surprise for you.
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This is Beate.
Well built, isn't she!
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Stand up. Show your ass.
- A splendid ass!
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As of now,
you're working for Andy.
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My program "I Hate Women"
kept developing,
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and I saw that the pimps
were already experts.
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Listen, I decide if and when
you sit on me.
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There's nothing happening today, Andy.
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You think that's enough?
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What can I finance with this?
- I'm sorry, Andy.
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If you think it's enough,
then keep it.
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Open your mouth!
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Eat the shit!
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The women had to give me everything
they earned. I taught them all my rules.
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My method was
the carrot and the stick,
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and it worked.
They did exactly what I wanted.
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Do you like that?
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It's a giant house, Andy!
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It's no castle,
but it's not a shack either.
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For me, it's a castle.
I've never seen anything like it.
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So you think it's nice.
- It's beautiful!
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I know the owner.
He wants to get rid of it in 2 or 3 years.
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We could have it.
247
00:23:36,680 --> 00:23:39,240
You and me?
- Sure. What do you think?
248
00:23:39,800 --> 00:23:42,156
Just us two?
- Would you like that?
249
00:23:42,840 --> 00:23:45,992
I want to have kids!
- Really? How many?
250
00:23:46,960 --> 00:23:47,916
Five!
251
00:23:49,400 --> 00:23:51,357
Okay, we'll make five kids.
252
00:23:52,000 --> 00:23:55,755
But you have to pull your weight.
You'll have to work the street.
253
00:23:56,000 --> 00:23:57,354
I'll do it for you, Andy.
254
00:23:58,800 --> 00:24:02,555
Okay, sweetie,
move your butt over there.
255
00:24:09,520 --> 00:24:14,276
Greetings, my angel.
- Hello, darling! Good to see you again.
256
00:24:14,960 --> 00:24:16,713
How are you?
- I'm always good.
257
00:24:16,960 --> 00:24:19,520
It's been a while.
- I've been around.
258
00:24:20,080 --> 00:24:23,630
Look what came today.
- You don't waste time. -Of course not.
259
00:24:26,000 --> 00:24:29,152
Chic!
- You like them? -I do indeed.
260
00:24:30,800 --> 00:24:33,360
Do you have them in red?
- Of course.
261
00:24:34,360 --> 00:24:36,716
I'll take 6 pairs of each.
262
00:24:37,760 --> 00:24:39,319
Sizes as usual?
- As always.
263
00:24:42,200 --> 00:24:45,557
Sometimes I had
6 or 7 women at once.
264
00:24:45,800 --> 00:24:49,555
Keeping track of my timing
was really a lot of work.
265
00:24:49,840 --> 00:24:53,197
I'd have to pick them up,
and they had to do exactly what I said:
266
00:24:53,440 --> 00:24:56,592
"Be there at 7:00.
Call this number at 7:30..."
267
00:24:56,840 --> 00:24:59,594
It was a lot of work,
a lot of stress.
268
00:25:35,320 --> 00:25:38,870
I first saw Marion
at my neighborhood swimming pool.
269
00:25:39,120 --> 00:25:41,271
She looked fantastic.
270
00:25:45,080 --> 00:25:50,838
I thought: "What a woman! If you had her, she'd bring a thousand a day."
271
00:26:08,720 --> 00:26:11,872
At the time I was 15 or 16...
- 16.
272
00:26:12,360 --> 00:26:16,912
I was much too shy and could only
admire and adore from a distance.
273
00:26:17,160 --> 00:26:19,675
He was more nearly perfect
than the others.
274
00:26:19,920 --> 00:26:23,880
No matter what the situation,
he was always 100% there.
275
00:26:28,720 --> 00:26:31,076
You're a real beauty.
276
00:26:34,840 --> 00:26:37,799
You come here often.
I've noticed.
277
00:26:40,560 --> 00:26:41,914
I'm Andy.
278
00:26:42,680 --> 00:26:43,830
Marion.
279
00:26:44,320 --> 00:26:46,073
It's a pleasure.
280
00:26:47,080 --> 00:26:50,630
This evening I'll be at City Casino.
If you feel like it, drop by.
281
00:26:56,520 --> 00:26:57,670
Take it easy.
282
00:27:18,800 --> 00:27:22,953
Excuse me. Do you know Andy?
- Yes, he'll come after his training.
283
00:27:23,400 --> 00:27:25,153
What training?
- Karate.
284
00:27:30,880 --> 00:27:34,237
Andy is the best!
Here's to the champion of Germany!
285
00:27:36,960 --> 00:27:39,998
Congratulations!
You really deserved to win.
286
00:27:45,560 --> 00:27:46,516
Hi there.
287
00:27:53,880 --> 00:27:56,440
No need to fall off your stool.
288
00:27:56,680 --> 00:27:59,036
Did you hurt yourself?
- No.
289
00:28:00,880 --> 00:28:02,234
You're really pretty.
290
00:28:03,080 --> 00:28:05,834
Do you want something to drink?
- Yes, water.
291
00:28:26,080 --> 00:28:28,515
You live with your parents?
292
00:28:29,120 --> 00:28:30,076
So what?
293
00:28:34,760 --> 00:28:36,911
You have beautiful eyes.
- Thanks.
294
00:28:37,480 --> 00:28:38,630
And a lovely mouth.
295
00:29:37,000 --> 00:29:38,753
Go to the post office.
296
00:29:40,120 --> 00:29:41,873
And I mean now!
297
00:30:34,000 --> 00:30:37,152
We've been waiting
for 2 hours in this damn bar!
298
00:30:37,840 --> 00:30:38,796
Let's go.
299
00:30:40,080 --> 00:30:42,231
Be glad he didn't show up.
300
00:30:43,040 --> 00:30:48,195
I didn't want to mention it, but I heard
your Andy is a real nasty pimp.
301
00:30:50,600 --> 00:30:52,956
Better a pimp
than a bookkeeper!
302
00:31:01,640 --> 00:31:04,200
For me,
pimps were nothing bad.
303
00:31:05,520 --> 00:31:08,479
Maybe my world view
was upside-down
304
00:31:08,720 --> 00:31:12,475
because I'd had so little support
from normal people.
305
00:31:12,720 --> 00:31:15,076
I think it is
a kind of naivety,
306
00:31:15,440 --> 00:31:18,000
but it's also trust in God.
307
00:31:18,240 --> 00:31:22,200
When I found out Marion
was only 16, I was shocked.
308
00:31:23,080 --> 00:31:26,835
It would be at least a year and a half
before I could really use her.
309
00:31:27,080 --> 00:31:31,438
But somehow I managed. I'd get near
to her, then push her away.
310
00:31:32,400 --> 00:31:35,552
We'd get together once in a while.
We telephoned often.
311
00:31:35,800 --> 00:31:38,474
I had to keep her interested.
312
00:31:41,000 --> 00:31:41,956
Bunny,
313
00:31:42,640 --> 00:31:45,792
what would you do for me
if I needed help?
314
00:32:01,760 --> 00:32:02,716
Anything.
315
00:32:05,280 --> 00:32:07,431
Anything?
- Yes. -That's good.
316
00:32:38,280 --> 00:32:39,031
What?
317
00:32:40,000 --> 00:32:41,992
Will I see you again?
318
00:32:43,880 --> 00:32:45,633
You'll see me when you see me.
319
00:32:46,440 --> 00:32:47,590
Is that clear?
320
00:32:53,800 --> 00:32:56,554
I have something to do.
Don't look so grim.
321
00:33:07,560 --> 00:33:11,520
She was always ready
to follow me. Of course, I used that.
322
00:33:11,920 --> 00:33:15,880
It worked until she was 18,
when I took her to the next level.
323
00:33:16,120 --> 00:33:18,271
Then things got serious.
324
00:33:19,040 --> 00:33:20,190
Marion!
325
00:33:22,080 --> 00:33:25,437
Still asleep? Wake up.
I have something for you.
326
00:33:28,680 --> 00:33:30,239
Come here.
327
00:33:33,360 --> 00:33:34,510
Take a look.
328
00:33:43,560 --> 00:33:45,711
Really red, aren't they.
- Yeah.
329
00:33:48,480 --> 00:33:50,233
Do you like them?
330
00:34:03,040 --> 00:34:04,599
You're so sweet.
331
00:34:05,200 --> 00:34:07,556
You don't think so,
but you are.
332
00:34:11,560 --> 00:34:12,710
The two of us...
333
00:34:13,960 --> 00:34:16,316
We could really
work together.
334
00:34:17,800 --> 00:34:20,759
You could make good money.
Are you listening to me?
335
00:34:24,480 --> 00:34:26,437
If you'd hustle for me...
336
00:34:28,320 --> 00:34:32,678
I tell you, you'd make 10 times
as much as the others. We could...
337
00:34:33,040 --> 00:34:34,190
I'll do it.
338
00:34:47,040 --> 00:34:48,793
I have more presents.
339
00:35:01,000 --> 00:35:04,755
I didn't hesitate.
When Andreas wanted something from me,
340
00:35:05,040 --> 00:35:10,195
also concerning prostitution,
I'd do it. I felt it must be right.
341
00:35:10,800 --> 00:35:12,951
He wouldn't
wish me anything bad.
342
00:35:20,160 --> 00:35:24,120
Super!-Yeah?
- You look terrific, believe me.
343
00:35:24,520 --> 00:35:26,477
My behind?
- Perfect!
344
00:35:27,400 --> 00:35:29,551
First class, honest.
345
00:35:30,280 --> 00:35:35,230
Here are the ground rules.
High heels: at least 3 inches, but no limit.
346
00:35:36,360 --> 00:35:39,910
Or you wear extra-long boots,
vinyl or leather.
347
00:35:54,160 --> 00:35:56,311
Does it pinch? Fine.
348
00:35:57,560 --> 00:36:00,314
Nylons, garter-straps, and...
349
00:36:03,560 --> 00:36:04,914
A garter.
350
00:36:14,000 --> 00:36:16,560
Men love the way you look.
351
00:36:17,760 --> 00:36:21,310
You're the winning number
in the lotto, sweetheart.
352
00:36:24,480 --> 00:36:27,439
The first time in a brothel
was for me...
353
00:36:27,680 --> 00:36:31,640
I can barely remember.
After sparkling wine and brandy,
354
00:36:31,840 --> 00:36:34,196
it's like looking through a pink cloud.
355
00:36:45,680 --> 00:36:47,831
Let's go! I'm ready.
356
00:37:00,800 --> 00:37:04,555
I gave Andy everything I earned
and never thought
357
00:37:04,800 --> 00:37:09,352
to question that because
that wasn't so important to me.
358
00:37:10,600 --> 00:37:14,150
Important was
living up to Andy's expectations.
359
00:37:14,560 --> 00:37:16,711
Then everything was all right.
360
00:37:59,640 --> 00:38:04,192
For years I did both jobs: the office
by day and hustling at night.
361
00:38:04,520 --> 00:38:08,070
In between were 2 or 3 hours
to sleep, but it was okay.
362
00:38:09,520 --> 00:38:14,675
I started working the street and
found it much better than the brothel.
363
00:38:14,920 --> 00:38:18,072
There was no alcohol,
there was fresh air,
364
00:38:18,360 --> 00:38:20,716
and the customers were nicer.
365
00:38:21,120 --> 00:38:25,478
In the 70s and 80s, the johns
weren't allowed to touch the women.
366
00:38:25,720 --> 00:38:28,792
They'd wear
several pairs of pantyhose
367
00:38:29,040 --> 00:38:33,000
in which they'd cut a slit
in the crotch of about 8 inches.
368
00:38:34,440 --> 00:38:39,310
They weren't allowed
to let johns touch their breasts or to kiss.
369
00:38:39,720 --> 00:38:43,680
The whole number took
20 minutes at the ver y most.
370
00:38:46,640 --> 00:38:48,393
Good evening, handsome.
371
00:38:49,000 --> 00:38:53,153
Good to see you. The usual?
- Yes, you know what I want.
372
00:38:58,680 --> 00:39:00,433
So, my darlings...
373
00:39:01,880 --> 00:39:04,236
Lots of little guys today.
374
00:39:08,720 --> 00:39:12,680
You've seen better days, my dear.
You come over here.
375
00:39:13,360 --> 00:39:14,714
Sorry about that.
376
00:39:49,800 --> 00:39:51,951
Hi, my little treasures.
377
00:39:53,760 --> 00:39:56,320
Did you miss
your daddy a little bit?
378
00:39:57,160 --> 00:39:58,913
So, my little Rolex...
379
00:40:00,240 --> 00:40:02,197
Are you feeling all right?
380
00:40:03,120 --> 00:40:06,670
If business keeps up,
you'll have a little brother next month.
381
00:40:08,160 --> 00:40:09,913
Sleep well.
382
00:40:17,000 --> 00:40:21,358
With my new flat, I thought
I'd get away from my mother. Not true.
383
00:40:21,600 --> 00:40:26,152
When she called, I'd start to shiver.
I felt terrible. My heart would race.
384
00:40:26,720 --> 00:40:28,473
Yes, Mama. I...
385
00:40:28,920 --> 00:40:32,880
It was a weird feeling, like a fever,
and I had to go to her.
386
00:40:43,560 --> 00:40:46,314
How are you?
- Sit down, my boy.
387
00:40:54,840 --> 00:40:57,594
Grandma made lentil soup.
388
00:40:58,080 --> 00:41:00,037
You like it so much.
389
00:41:02,200 --> 00:41:03,350
The way you look...
390
00:41:04,680 --> 00:41:08,640
Where did you get the money
for gold and those fancy clothes?
391
00:41:09,800 --> 00:41:12,156
Business is good. So what?
392
00:41:13,080 --> 00:41:15,037
What business is that?
393
00:41:15,560 --> 00:41:17,711
That's not our affair!
394
00:41:21,520 --> 00:41:24,479
Whatever the boy touches
just turns to gold!
395
00:41:24,840 --> 00:41:26,194
Is the soup good?
396
00:41:28,480 --> 00:41:30,836
We see you so seldom...
397
00:41:32,800 --> 00:41:35,156
Tell us about what you do.
398
00:41:36,000 --> 00:41:39,960
Don't get on his nerves!
He knows what he's doing.
399
00:41:40,880 --> 00:41:42,234
I've got to go.
400
00:41:44,000 --> 00:41:47,755
It's okay, my boy. -Will you
come back soon? -I will.
401
00:41:48,960 --> 00:41:52,112
Don't do anything stupid, Grandpa.
- Take care, Andy.
402
00:41:52,360 --> 00:41:53,714
Thank you, Grandma.
403
00:41:56,680 --> 00:41:58,637
You have to come more often.
404
00:41:59,160 --> 00:42:02,710
Grandpa hasn't been well,
and he loves to see you.
405
00:42:05,560 --> 00:42:07,119
Okay, I will.
406
00:42:22,920 --> 00:42:25,480
The tax office is after you.
407
00:42:27,080 --> 00:42:30,039
You really have to
get a legal job. Pronto!
408
00:42:32,640 --> 00:42:36,190
How do you know?
- Because I work there.
409
00:42:37,560 --> 00:42:38,516
Thanks.
410
00:42:42,240 --> 00:42:47,599
A friend said, "Drive a hearse or be
a mortuary helper or something like that."
411
00:42:48,000 --> 00:42:51,152
This was the 70s,
and those jobs paid really well.
412
00:42:51,800 --> 00:42:56,556
I landed at a firm that rents wedding
coaches and organizes funerals,
413
00:42:57,040 --> 00:43:02,399
Gustav Schöne. It exists since
the 19th century. I worked there for years.
414
00:43:08,040 --> 00:43:11,590
No one knew what I really did.
They just knew me as Andy,
415
00:43:11,840 --> 00:43:15,800
a guy who comes at 7:00
and does his job. He's funny,
416
00:43:16,040 --> 00:43:19,192
does careful work,
and isn't afraid to touch the corpses.
417
00:43:27,240 --> 00:43:29,391
What's this?-Merry Christmas!
418
00:43:30,800 --> 00:43:32,154
You look chic.
419
00:43:38,960 --> 00:43:40,713
Pretty dress.
- Thanks.
420
00:43:41,960 --> 00:43:44,316
Sit down. I have presents.
421
00:43:47,280 --> 00:43:49,237
Look, a Christmas tree.
422
00:43:57,080 --> 00:43:57,831
Unwrap it.
423
00:44:15,680 --> 00:44:17,831
Nice material.
- You like it?-Sure.
424
00:44:22,360 --> 00:44:23,111
Another one!
425
00:44:24,400 --> 00:44:26,153
A small one. What is it?
426
00:44:26,520 --> 00:44:29,274
I saw it and had to think of you.
- Do I get a kiss?
427
00:44:41,000 --> 00:44:43,560
A nice bracelet.
- You like it?-I do.
428
00:44:45,760 --> 00:44:47,513
Expensive, wasn't it.
429
00:44:49,160 --> 00:44:51,914
Put it on.
- Later. Come here.
430
00:44:53,760 --> 00:44:55,319
On my lap.
431
00:44:57,880 --> 00:45:01,032
Do you have another present?
What's going on down there?
432
00:45:01,320 --> 00:45:02,879
Is ever ything okay here?
433
00:45:06,440 --> 00:45:10,195
Do you want a present?
- Yes. -My sweet little mouse!
434
00:45:12,160 --> 00:45:13,514
You like that.
435
00:45:19,720 --> 00:45:21,677
Sit up. I won't hurt you.
436
00:45:24,200 --> 00:45:25,953
Are you nuts?
437
00:45:27,280 --> 00:45:29,590
Am I here
for a Christmas party?
438
00:45:30,280 --> 00:45:32,431
What's wrong with you?
439
00:45:32,800 --> 00:45:35,554
It's a normal working day!
440
00:45:35,800 --> 00:45:38,952
In 10 minutes you'll be dressed
and downstairs at the car!
441
00:45:39,960 --> 00:45:41,110
Is that clear?
442
00:46:04,000 --> 00:46:06,356
Of course,
sometimes I was afraid,
443
00:46:06,680 --> 00:46:09,639
but at the time
I interpreted it as respect.
444
00:46:10,000 --> 00:46:12,560
I only know
I endured everything.
445
00:46:12,920 --> 00:46:14,877
I am convinced...
446
00:46:15,760 --> 00:46:18,912
...that it all had meaning
and happened as it should.
447
00:46:36,680 --> 00:46:41,038
As far as I can tell, two panties
and a pair of boots are missing.
448
00:46:43,160 --> 00:46:47,313
That's not much, but this is
the third time. I'm scared.
449
00:46:48,520 --> 00:46:50,830
Do you have an idea
of who did this?
450
00:46:51,640 --> 00:46:54,997
I had trouble with a psychopath.
I thought I got rid of him.
451
00:46:55,400 --> 00:46:57,551
Did you have
a relationship with him?
452
00:46:58,080 --> 00:47:00,436
I don't know.
He's a friend of the family.
453
00:47:05,760 --> 00:47:07,513
It began when I was 12.
454
00:47:10,240 --> 00:47:13,995
I don't know if that was
a relationship. -What began then?
455
00:47:18,080 --> 00:47:20,231
He wanted to sleep with me.
456
00:47:22,560 --> 00:47:25,120
You mean
he molested you sexually.
457
00:47:29,760 --> 00:47:32,116
I strongly advise you
to press charges.
458
00:47:34,080 --> 00:47:39,030
I took her advice and
filed a charge of sexual assault.
459
00:47:39,960 --> 00:47:42,316
Later I withdrew it,
460
00:47:43,000 --> 00:47:46,550
but the district attorney
wanted to prosecute anyway.
461
00:47:46,920 --> 00:47:49,480
I knew I'd be called
as a witness.
462
00:47:58,240 --> 00:48:00,994
Andy,
please be there in court.
463
00:48:01,440 --> 00:48:03,591
I can't do it alone.
464
00:48:04,440 --> 00:48:07,399
I need you.
- Don't worry your head.
465
00:48:09,360 --> 00:48:13,912
For the State of Berlin versus
Peter Hausch for child abuse, we call
466
00:48:14,160 --> 00:48:15,913
Marion Erdmann.
467
00:48:17,080 --> 00:48:19,390
I was 12 at the time.
468
00:48:19,680 --> 00:48:23,435
Because our father was gone,
he took care of us.
469
00:48:28,760 --> 00:48:30,319
He kissed me and...
470
00:48:30,960 --> 00:48:32,519
...fondled me.
471
00:48:35,840 --> 00:48:37,399
And I had to...
472
00:48:39,840 --> 00:48:41,399
...touch him.
473
00:48:43,800 --> 00:48:45,359
And I had to...
474
00:48:46,280 --> 00:48:48,431
...stroke him and kiss him.
475
00:48:57,880 --> 00:49:00,839
Then for years he forced me...
476
00:49:02,720 --> 00:49:05,679
...to have sexual intercourse with him.
477
00:49:05,960 --> 00:49:07,519
She's lying!
478
00:49:07,760 --> 00:49:09,513
Fabrication and lies!
479
00:49:09,880 --> 00:49:13,430
This woman is a prostitute
who regularly works the Kurfürstenstraße!
480
00:49:13,760 --> 00:49:16,514
There's constant trouble with her pimps.
481
00:49:17,240 --> 00:49:21,996
Because she's lost control of her life,
she attacks me with this nonsense.
482
00:49:23,720 --> 00:49:26,679
Your Honor, I'm happily married.
I swear...
483
00:49:30,360 --> 00:49:34,513
I swear, she herself gave me her key.
484
00:49:35,760 --> 00:49:39,117
And I never touched her underwear.
485
00:49:50,440 --> 00:49:54,992
We call the mother of Marion Erdmann,
Rita Erdmann, to the stand.
486
00:49:56,200 --> 00:50:00,956
He gave her a little kiss.
I saw that myself. But nothing more!
487
00:50:07,840 --> 00:50:11,800
After all, I'm her mother. I would have noticed!
488
00:50:13,680 --> 00:50:17,435
The guy who did that to her
had to pay a little fine.
489
00:50:17,680 --> 00:50:19,592
I found that abnormal.
490
00:50:19,960 --> 00:50:25,638
A man who does that to a little girl...
She's damaged for life, no matter what.
491
00:50:26,040 --> 00:50:27,793
She's psychologically branded.
492
00:50:30,720 --> 00:50:34,680
At the time I couldn't tell her
that our stories were similar.
493
00:50:35,040 --> 00:50:37,999
I debated telling her, but I couldn't.
494
00:50:38,240 --> 00:50:42,553
My throat clenched up,
and I suffered with her as she told it.
495
00:50:53,800 --> 00:50:58,158
Suddenly he was gone.
I've forgiven him almost ever ything,
496
00:50:58,400 --> 00:51:00,153
but that was hard for me.
497
00:51:08,520 --> 00:51:10,671
After enduring the trial,
498
00:51:10,920 --> 00:51:13,480
I had a serious breakdown.
499
00:51:14,560 --> 00:51:17,712
My doctor suggested
psychiatric help.
500
00:51:18,000 --> 00:51:22,358
I committed myself to months
of therapy in a clinic.
501
00:51:23,200 --> 00:51:25,351
I had no help from Andy.
502
00:51:25,720 --> 00:51:29,873
I had to learn how
to get a grip on my life on my own.
503
00:51:31,160 --> 00:51:33,914
Frau Erdmann, please look at me.
504
00:51:36,640 --> 00:51:38,996
You haven't said a word
for over a week.
505
00:51:41,160 --> 00:51:43,720
We can only help you
if you talk to us.
506
00:51:44,200 --> 00:51:47,955
Is there anyone at all
with whom you'd like to speak?
507
00:51:48,200 --> 00:51:50,954
At first I tried,
as far as it was possible,
508
00:51:51,360 --> 00:51:56,116
to involve Andy in my therapy;
but I realized it didn't work.
509
00:51:56,440 --> 00:52:01,993
On the day before my release,
I had to admit to myself that I missed him.
510
00:52:02,240 --> 00:52:06,996
After about six months I couldn't take it.
I wanted to hear her voice, so I called her.
511
00:52:10,320 --> 00:52:13,279
Hi, my sweet.
Here's Andy.
512
00:52:14,160 --> 00:52:18,120
I hope you're doing fine.
Do you think of me, miss me a bit?
513
00:52:18,400 --> 00:52:20,756
If you feel like it,
just get in touch.
514
00:52:26,840 --> 00:52:30,072
I made it clear
that if we get back together,
515
00:52:30,320 --> 00:52:33,279
she'd have to work the street
for me. Strangely enough,
516
00:52:33,520 --> 00:52:36,797
she said right away,
"Yes. I'd be glad to do it, Andy."
517
00:52:58,960 --> 00:53:00,314
Morning, Andy.
518
00:53:11,520 --> 00:53:12,476
Get up.
519
00:53:13,320 --> 00:53:14,674
What's wrong with you?
520
00:53:15,160 --> 00:53:18,710
I'm tired. I've been working
for hours. Can we go home?
521
00:53:19,040 --> 00:53:20,599
Give me the cash.
522
00:53:32,480 --> 00:53:36,838
Is that all of it?
- Things were slow. -Oh, really?
523
00:53:37,920 --> 00:53:40,674
It's a good take, considering.
- What?
524
00:53:41,040 --> 00:53:43,396
It's a good take.
Can we please go home?
525
00:53:43,640 --> 00:53:45,791
Do you have
shit for brains? Get up!
526
00:53:46,320 --> 00:53:49,870
I was watching you.
What happened with the third john?
527
00:53:50,200 --> 00:53:53,955
That was hours ago.
- What was with the third john?
528
00:53:54,240 --> 00:53:56,550
You look like shit!
Come on!
529
00:53:59,320 --> 00:54:03,473
The john's at the wheel. You're on the right.
With your right hand you open his pants.
530
00:54:03,720 --> 00:54:05,871
With your left you grab his thing.
531
00:54:06,120 --> 00:54:09,477
And you block his view.
What went wrong with john 3?
532
00:54:09,760 --> 00:54:12,116
I'm talking to you.
What went wrong?
533
00:54:12,880 --> 00:54:17,636
I don't know. -What about blocking his
view? Are you really so dense?
534
00:54:18,600 --> 00:54:22,560
It's bad business! Should he see
you do more with the hand than the mouth?
535
00:54:22,800 --> 00:54:25,554
Are you listening?
Then what do you do?
536
00:54:26,560 --> 00:54:31,510
You look at him with big eyes and say,
"What a luscious lance!"
537
00:54:31,800 --> 00:54:35,350
Then you go back to...
Hey! Are you listening?
538
00:54:35,960 --> 00:54:37,314
Look at me!
539
00:54:40,640 --> 00:54:44,395
If you want to work with me,
you'll listen! It can take all night.
540
00:54:44,640 --> 00:54:47,394
Okay, now show me
what you learned.
541
00:54:53,720 --> 00:54:54,870
Careful...
542
00:55:01,440 --> 00:55:02,999
Unpack that thing.
543
00:55:30,160 --> 00:55:31,913
Don't worry your head.
544
00:55:42,320 --> 00:55:44,073
Sleep well, Grandpa.
545
00:55:54,360 --> 00:55:55,510
Take care.
546
00:56:03,960 --> 00:56:05,917
Breakfast...
547
00:56:06,640 --> 00:56:10,190
I'm out of raspberry jam.
I hope you like apricot.
548
00:56:13,280 --> 00:56:16,432
My feet and calves really hurt.
549
00:56:16,680 --> 00:56:20,833
Of all the possibilities,
guess who my last john was last night.
550
00:56:21,200 --> 00:56:24,159
The vinyl boot fetishist!
551
00:56:24,880 --> 00:56:29,238
For two whole hours
I had to go up and down the street.
552
00:56:29,480 --> 00:56:32,040
Posing, little steps, big steps,
553
00:56:32,320 --> 00:56:35,472
and only on the toes!
Never the heels.
554
00:56:35,960 --> 00:56:39,749
Then - imagine this -
he licked the whole long boot!
555
00:56:41,240 --> 00:56:44,790
It stinks of spit,
but it's like a mirror.
556
00:56:46,120 --> 00:56:48,271
He took the toe in his mouth...
557
00:56:49,200 --> 00:56:52,750
Then he blasted
such a wad... Oh my God!
558
00:56:53,720 --> 00:56:55,279
Then for 100 marks...
559
00:57:00,680 --> 00:57:04,037
What's up? Why are you smearing me with jam?
560
00:57:07,040 --> 00:57:08,190
What's up?
561
00:57:10,120 --> 00:57:11,873
What's wrong with him?
562
00:57:12,680 --> 00:57:14,433
What's wrong with him?
563
00:57:14,840 --> 00:57:17,799
What's the matter?
Did I do something wrong?
564
00:57:20,280 --> 00:57:24,240
What did I do wrong?
Why are you smearing jam on me?
565
00:57:29,760 --> 00:57:32,116
Oh my, what did I do?
566
00:57:34,000 --> 00:57:35,593
What's with you?
567
00:58:01,440 --> 00:58:02,476
Apologize.
568
00:58:04,280 --> 00:58:06,636
Andy, please, what did I do?-Apologize.
569
00:58:10,760 --> 00:58:11,910
Apologize!
570
00:58:13,600 --> 00:58:15,751
But I don't know
what I did!
571
00:58:18,680 --> 00:58:19,636
Apologize!
572
00:58:23,160 --> 00:58:24,310
I'm sorr y.
573
00:58:27,760 --> 00:58:28,910
I'm sorry!
574
00:58:43,800 --> 00:58:49,751
Sex with my girls stopped working;
my mother was always there in my head.
575
00:58:50,000 --> 00:58:55,155
When I wanted my girlfriend, my pecker
just hung there like a little cocktail sausage.
576
00:58:55,480 --> 00:58:58,837
Year for year
I grew more brutal.
577
00:58:59,080 --> 00:59:04,235
I'd stick bottles up there or make them
push in cucumbers. I was inventive.
578
00:59:04,680 --> 00:59:08,230
Something happened
that astounds me to this day:
579
00:59:08,480 --> 00:59:12,235
the more brutal I was to them,
the more the women ran after me.
580
00:59:13,080 --> 00:59:14,230
Do you like it?
581
00:59:20,000 --> 00:59:21,150
Open your mouth.
582
00:59:22,240 --> 00:59:24,197
Open your fucking mouth, slut!
583
00:59:29,040 --> 00:59:31,191
Stuff it in, bitch!
584
00:59:37,680 --> 00:59:41,037
Hi, sweetie.
Shall we brighten up the evening?
585
00:59:43,520 --> 00:59:46,479
Cat got your tongue,
or are you just shy?
586
00:59:48,400 --> 00:59:51,518
French for 50,
a screw for 70, both for 90.
587
00:59:54,800 --> 00:59:55,756
Get in.
588
01:00:03,000 --> 01:00:05,754
A customer
pulled up in his car.
589
01:00:06,040 --> 01:00:09,590
He didn't want to talk,
and I had a funny feeling.
590
01:00:09,880 --> 01:00:13,237
But I thought
it would probably be all right.
591
01:00:26,880 --> 01:00:30,032
Hey, what are you doing?
Stop that!
592
01:00:33,760 --> 01:00:35,513
Piss off, you cunt!
593
01:00:58,280 --> 01:00:59,839
I'm so sorry, darling!
594
01:01:00,160 --> 01:01:02,720
If I'd been 2 minutes earlier...
595
01:01:03,000 --> 01:01:04,150
Who did this?
596
01:01:04,560 --> 01:01:05,710
I'm sorr y.
597
01:01:10,360 --> 01:01:14,513
I believe
he probably wanted to kill me.
598
01:01:14,840 --> 01:01:18,993
I'd never before seen Andreas
chalk white under his tan.
599
01:01:20,000 --> 01:01:21,753
Stick your tits out.
600
01:01:22,440 --> 01:01:23,999
Pout your lips.
601
01:01:28,480 --> 01:01:29,834
Very nice.
602
01:01:31,560 --> 01:01:33,313
And how about you?
603
01:01:34,240 --> 01:01:36,800
Shouldn't we
take care of your cock?
604
01:01:38,600 --> 01:01:41,559
Let me worry
about my cock, understand?
605
01:01:44,040 --> 01:01:47,590
You have other girls.
I'm not your Number 1.
606
01:01:51,120 --> 01:01:52,270
Get dressed.
607
01:01:53,240 --> 01:01:54,196
I've gotta go.
608
01:01:57,640 --> 01:02:00,394
I'd do anything for you.
Anything!
609
01:02:00,680 --> 01:02:05,630
You can have everything from me,
but I insist that you screw only me!
610
01:02:07,040 --> 01:02:09,191
You don't need the others.
611
01:02:10,920 --> 01:02:12,479
I demand it!
612
01:02:12,840 --> 01:02:14,194
So, you demand it.
613
01:02:14,880 --> 01:02:17,839
You don't demand
anything from me. Be careful.
614
01:02:34,080 --> 01:02:35,230
I'm warning you.
615
01:02:35,560 --> 01:02:40,351
Your cock belongs to me.
Stick it anywhere else, and I'll cut it off!
616
01:02:40,800 --> 01:02:43,554
You know what?
I'll put you behind bars!
617
01:02:45,560 --> 01:02:49,110
"Your cock belongs to me!"
My mother said that.
618
01:02:49,360 --> 01:02:53,115
Something popped in my head.
"What did that cow say?"
619
01:02:53,440 --> 01:02:57,400
I whipped my car around,
drove back, and kicked the door down.
620
01:02:57,640 --> 01:03:00,951
There was Hannah,
but I saw my mother.
621
01:03:01,200 --> 01:03:05,160
Blindly I started punching her,
and I didn't give a damn if she died.
622
01:03:11,840 --> 01:03:16,392
It was a calming feeling,
as if I were punching my mother.
623
01:03:16,720 --> 01:03:19,872
It was like venting
all my aggression. It was bad.
624
01:03:30,280 --> 01:03:33,239
Hannah went to the police,
which really made their day:
625
01:03:33,480 --> 01:03:38,350
a witness against the brutal power man.
I was at the peak of my career.
626
01:03:38,680 --> 01:03:44,631
I had it all. I had millions,
mounds of jewelr y, the power to spread fear.
627
01:03:46,120 --> 01:03:49,477
It was October 3, 1994,
8:00 a.m.
628
01:03:49,760 --> 01:03:52,912
I'd been in the high-rise there
and always came back this way.
629
01:03:53,200 --> 01:03:56,159
I was carr ying about
46,000 marks.
630
01:03:56,440 --> 01:04:02,391
I crossed the street and moved toward
that streetlamp where my Mercedes was parked.
631
01:04:02,880 --> 01:04:06,032
I was about to get in
when suddenly
632
01:04:06,280 --> 01:04:11,230
from 10 to 15 people came out of
those bushes and another 10 to 15 from there.
633
01:04:11,600 --> 01:04:17,153
I dropped my bag and took up
a fighting stance. I thought they were robbers.
634
01:04:17,640 --> 01:04:20,792
It didn't register that they
were police. They wore hoods.
635
01:04:21,040 --> 01:04:27,460
They came at me, and I started to fight.
Elbows, fist, knees. It was quite brutal.
636
01:04:27,480 --> 01:04:32,430
I put 7 or 8 of them
out of commission.
637
01:04:33,600 --> 01:04:37,560
They were lying there,
and I realized they were police,
638
01:04:37,800 --> 01:04:39,075
so I quit fighting.
639
01:04:39,440 --> 01:04:43,400
Afterwards I was
paralyzed for a week or two.
640
01:04:43,680 --> 01:04:47,037
They broke a vertebra
as they were stomping me.
641
01:04:51,920 --> 01:04:57,473
Of course they found my money.
Mostly it was in safety deposit boxes here.
642
01:04:57,760 --> 01:05:01,515
Some was in Switzerland,
some in Austria.
643
01:05:02,200 --> 01:05:05,955
Here 300,000, there a million,
there 400,000, there 200,000...
644
01:05:06,440 --> 01:05:09,000
They confiscated it all.
645
01:05:09,400 --> 01:05:13,360
Altogether I had about
3 million marks in cash.
646
01:05:13,600 --> 01:05:14,750
It was all gone.
647
01:05:15,800 --> 01:05:19,157
I got sentenced to 4 years.
648
01:05:20,160 --> 01:05:21,514
I was in prison.
649
01:05:26,560 --> 01:05:31,715
I'm Andreas Marquardt's life partner...
- So, you're also a life partner of Mr. Marquardt?
650
01:05:31,960 --> 01:05:33,110
"Also?"
651
01:05:35,440 --> 01:05:36,794
Look here.
652
01:05:37,240 --> 01:05:41,917
You're the 8th.
7 others claim to be life partners.
653
01:05:43,880 --> 01:05:45,439
Name. Address.
654
01:05:49,640 --> 01:05:51,199
At the end of the list?
655
01:05:53,560 --> 01:05:55,119
What do you have there?
656
01:05:55,960 --> 01:05:58,111
A TV and some clothes.
657
01:06:00,040 --> 01:06:02,999
He couldn't wear
all the clothes you women bring.
658
01:06:04,320 --> 01:06:06,277
Then he doesn't need these!
659
01:06:09,920 --> 01:06:14,073
I guess I suspected it,
maybe feared it; but I blended it out.
660
01:06:17,520 --> 01:06:23,676
I knew the men usually had more than
one woman. He always claimed he didn't.
661
01:06:24,440 --> 01:06:29,799
I thought about what to do. Should I put
the question of trust on the table,
662
01:06:30,040 --> 01:06:33,192
or should I put it
on a back burner?
663
01:06:33,440 --> 01:06:37,400
In the end I started writing letters
about normal life
664
01:06:37,720 --> 01:06:40,280
in hope of raising his spirits.
665
01:06:40,560 --> 01:06:43,519
We're here at the Moabit prison.
666
01:06:43,760 --> 01:06:47,117
The first time Andreas was here,
I couldn't visit him.
667
01:06:47,400 --> 01:06:53,158
I was to be a witness at his trial
and couldn't get permission to see him.
668
01:06:53,440 --> 01:06:59,198
So we agreed on a time when I'd come
here ever y Saturday and Sunday,
669
01:06:59,560 --> 01:07:01,313
and I'd do a little show.
670
01:07:01,680 --> 01:07:05,037
It was important for us both
to see each other.
671
01:07:12,440 --> 01:07:16,798
I could see him.
I'd have recognized him at any distance.
672
01:07:20,280 --> 01:07:23,239
I always dressed up
for those appointments:
673
01:07:23,520 --> 01:07:27,275
a chic little dress
or underthings and a trench coat...
674
01:07:27,640 --> 01:07:31,793
Something of a diversion
and a little ray of light.
675
01:07:43,840 --> 01:07:47,800
One day... I had no idea
when I left the bus,
676
01:07:48,120 --> 01:07:53,878
but I saw a long banner, a big sheet.
With felt tips he'd gotten from the guards,
677
01:07:54,240 --> 01:07:59,190
and with the help of other inmates,
they'd managed to fasten it to the wall.
678
01:07:59,600 --> 01:08:05,949
He'd written "I love you!" on it,
and that was the most beautiful moment.
679
01:08:06,960 --> 01:08:10,158
That's my man:
always good for a surprise.
680
01:08:13,800 --> 01:08:16,520
During his pre-trial custody
I couldn't visit Andy,
681
01:08:16,760 --> 01:08:21,710
but he could telephone with his mama.
I decided to move in with her.
682
01:08:25,800 --> 01:08:30,158
You could start by vacuuming.
Get the place nice and clean.
683
01:08:34,080 --> 01:08:35,434
Marquardt.
684
01:08:36,720 --> 01:08:38,473
Yes, the mother.
685
01:08:42,440 --> 01:08:45,990
Andy, my dear.
How are you doing?
686
01:08:48,400 --> 01:08:51,950
Ah, the arm...
It still hurts a bit,
687
01:08:52,280 --> 01:08:55,239
but I have help.
She'll take good care of me.
688
01:09:02,160 --> 01:09:03,913
We really miss you.
689
01:09:04,320 --> 01:09:08,280
On Saturday I'll come with the bus...
- Give me that. -Bye, Andy!
690
01:09:10,480 --> 01:09:12,631
You have to call more often.
691
01:09:13,000 --> 01:09:15,356
Don't forget your old mother.
692
01:09:23,640 --> 01:09:24,790
Tell me...
693
01:09:27,720 --> 01:09:29,871
Does he
fuck you in the ass as well?
694
01:09:33,080 --> 01:09:36,039
You can tell me. After all,
I'm his mother.
695
01:09:39,600 --> 01:09:41,956
Shall I start vacuuming?
696
01:09:42,640 --> 01:09:45,200
After 6 weeks in a cell,
697
01:09:45,520 --> 01:09:50,072
I was allowed to leave
the prison during the day.
698
01:09:50,440 --> 01:09:53,638
I started working
at Gym 80.
699
01:09:54,120 --> 01:09:56,476
I'd say we could
work on the shoulders,
700
01:09:56,720 --> 01:09:59,474
although there's
good development there.
701
01:09:59,720 --> 01:10:01,871
We'll train
the stomach a bit...
702
01:10:02,120 --> 01:10:06,672
I took up where I'd left off
with brutal criminal energy.
703
01:10:07,400 --> 01:10:10,996
It didn't take long
before it happened...
704
01:10:11,800 --> 01:10:13,757
I got arrested again.
705
01:10:20,480 --> 01:10:24,030
You are charged with
incitement of aggrevated assault.
706
01:10:24,320 --> 01:10:29,873
The gravity of the charge is increased
by the fact that you are already serving time.
707
01:10:31,120 --> 01:10:33,680
Do you have
anything to say in your defense?
708
01:10:35,960 --> 01:10:39,510
I had hired a lawyer,
an older lady
709
01:10:39,800 --> 01:10:42,952
who somehow
inspired me to trust her.
710
01:10:43,280 --> 01:10:47,638
I just looked at her, and suddenly
there were tears in my eyes. She said:
711
01:10:47,880 --> 01:10:51,840
"What happened to you?
What made you so bad?"
712
01:10:52,600 --> 01:10:56,560
"Try to open up and talk about it.
Just tr y, Herr Marquardt."
713
01:10:59,680 --> 01:11:02,240
I do have something
I'd like to say.
714
01:11:03,640 --> 01:11:07,600
As a child, I was
molested for years by my mother.
715
01:11:07,960 --> 01:11:10,520
I mean sexually abused.
716
01:11:11,440 --> 01:11:14,194
Could you explain that
more explicitly?
717
01:11:15,920 --> 01:11:20,676
She forced me to have intercourse
with her 4 or 5 times a week.
718
01:11:21,520 --> 01:11:22,670
Just a minute...
719
01:11:23,320 --> 01:11:26,472
Forced to have intercourse?
Your mother?
720
01:11:27,760 --> 01:11:31,117
It started when I was six,
about six and a half.
721
01:11:31,520 --> 01:11:33,876
Intercourse at six?
722
01:11:34,240 --> 01:11:36,709
Of course it started slowly.
723
01:11:37,320 --> 01:11:39,277
First there were
caresses and kisses.
724
01:11:40,720 --> 01:11:44,680
Then I had to satisfy her
with my hand, my mouth, a dildo.
725
01:11:45,920 --> 01:11:47,877
Then, at 10 or 11,
726
01:11:48,200 --> 01:11:52,956
it came to intercourse:
real, hard sex with all it involves.
727
01:11:56,200 --> 01:11:59,159
I have nothing more to say.
Thank you.
728
01:12:07,880 --> 01:12:10,839
After my second arrest
I got another 4 1/2 years.
729
01:12:11,080 --> 01:12:14,835
The total was
8 years, 4 months, and 15 days.
730
01:12:15,160 --> 01:12:17,311
I served every day of it.
731
01:12:17,600 --> 01:12:19,557
First I was put in the PN.
732
01:12:21,280 --> 01:12:25,638
That's the psychological division,
the mental defect block.
733
01:12:27,040 --> 01:12:28,793
Undress, please.
734
01:12:30,960 --> 01:12:32,917
I have to do a checkup.
735
01:12:35,800 --> 01:12:37,917
I need someone to talk to.
736
01:12:38,200 --> 01:12:41,238
What's that?
- I'd like to talk.
737
01:12:41,600 --> 01:12:43,557
I want to talk!
Can you hear?
738
01:12:44,760 --> 01:12:48,720
There are patients who require
my time more urgently than you.
739
01:12:50,360 --> 01:12:53,512
I can give you something
to calm your nerves.
740
01:12:57,000 --> 01:12:59,959
Here. I can't do
more than that for you.
741
01:13:00,400 --> 01:13:02,756
I don't need
the damn pills.
742
01:13:03,080 --> 01:13:07,040
And I don't need a fucking checkup,
I want to talk with someone!
743
01:13:07,680 --> 01:13:10,036
What kind of clown are you?!
744
01:13:11,280 --> 01:13:13,840
I need someone
who will listen to me!
745
01:13:14,680 --> 01:13:17,639
I need someone
who will talk with me!
746
01:13:23,800 --> 01:13:25,757
No one would talk with me.
747
01:13:26,000 --> 01:13:30,153
Even the social workers said,
"You have so many years. Just wait."
748
01:13:30,400 --> 01:13:33,552
I didn't want to wait. I wanted
to learn about myself, to speak,
749
01:13:33,800 --> 01:13:37,760
to release the pressure inside me,
to open up. I wanted all that.
750
01:13:39,200 --> 01:13:42,159
Quiet, Andy. Stay calm.
751
01:13:45,800 --> 01:13:48,156
Damned psyche!
752
01:13:50,520 --> 01:13:52,273
Just stay calm.
753
01:13:53,920 --> 01:13:56,674
I am calm.
I'm ver y damn calm.
754
01:13:57,120 --> 01:14:00,272
After struggling
for several months,
755
01:14:01,000 --> 01:14:05,358
I told the social worker,
"If I don't get serious therapy,
756
01:14:05,640 --> 01:14:10,795
"I'll take this place apart. I don't care
if male or female, inmate or social worker:
757
01:14:11,040 --> 01:14:16,798
"I'll take you all. I'll be in solitary for 4 weeks.
Then I'll come out and do it again."
758
01:14:17,120 --> 01:14:20,875
I wanted therapy
and got it through extortion.
759
01:14:33,320 --> 01:14:34,674
Hi, sweetie.
760
01:14:38,520 --> 01:14:40,079
Is everything okay?
761
01:14:51,360 --> 01:14:53,511
Don't dare start crying.
762
01:15:04,800 --> 01:15:06,154
Fresh laundry.
763
01:15:07,280 --> 01:15:09,237
Are you nuts, you clown?
764
01:15:10,240 --> 01:15:11,993
Why did you do that?
765
01:15:12,640 --> 01:15:14,791
I'll do anything I feel like!
766
01:15:15,800 --> 01:15:19,350
You won't do anything
once I smash your face. -Try it!
767
01:15:24,040 --> 01:15:28,000
Stop right now!
Frau Erdmann, leave the room at once.
768
01:15:29,280 --> 01:15:32,239
Herr Marquardt,
calm down! Back off!
769
01:15:40,000 --> 01:15:40,956
Shit!
770
01:15:50,480 --> 01:15:53,439
Then the supervisor
of House 5 appeared.
771
01:15:53,680 --> 01:15:57,833
He said, "I've heard of you.
You have a reputation here,
772
01:15:58,240 --> 01:16:01,790
"but I'll give it a try with you
if you promise to stay calm."
773
01:16:02,040 --> 01:16:06,398
I said, "I promise. I just want
to serve my time and get therapy."
774
01:16:10,600 --> 01:16:12,353
The worst of it is...
775
01:16:13,440 --> 01:16:14,794
...I wanted it.
776
01:16:18,840 --> 01:16:20,194
I found it good.
777
01:16:21,640 --> 01:16:24,200
I got excited
when she took off her nightgown.
778
01:16:26,240 --> 01:16:27,799
I found that lovely.
779
01:16:29,400 --> 01:16:31,551
Why are you ashamed?
780
01:16:33,360 --> 01:16:35,113
Don't forget,
you were a child.
781
01:16:36,240 --> 01:16:39,199
There was no reason
for a little boy to say no.
782
01:16:39,440 --> 01:16:42,000
I didn't just not say no, I...
783
01:16:44,760 --> 01:16:46,717
I said yes. Do you see that?
784
01:16:48,800 --> 01:16:50,154
I wanted it.
785
01:16:50,480 --> 01:16:52,836
You wanted to be close
to your mother, yes.
786
01:16:53,080 --> 01:16:55,595
She didn't crush your hand
787
01:16:55,840 --> 01:16:58,799
or put you on
a sub-zero balcony.
788
01:16:59,880 --> 01:17:02,031
The sex with your mother
was pleasant. So what?
789
01:17:02,280 --> 01:17:05,193
Did it cause you pain?
No, it didn't.
790
01:17:07,080 --> 01:17:09,231
Your mother began
with tenderness.
791
01:17:10,680 --> 01:17:14,037
She provoked your desire.
- But that's not right!
792
01:17:14,640 --> 01:17:17,200
That's just shit, understand?
793
01:17:17,560 --> 01:17:20,314
How should a child know
what the mother is up to?
794
01:17:20,560 --> 01:17:24,110
Your self-blame lacks a foundation!
795
01:17:28,200 --> 01:17:30,760
But I feel so ashamed!
796
01:17:38,560 --> 01:17:43,112
In prison only one woman stood by me:
Marion. It meant a lot to me.
797
01:17:43,360 --> 01:17:46,080
The others all dumped me.
798
01:17:46,400 --> 01:17:50,360
I finally recognized
her personality, how strong she is.
799
01:17:50,760 --> 01:17:56,119
She ran my sport studio in those years
and coped with the criminals there.
800
01:17:56,480 --> 01:17:58,836
She prevailed.
801
01:17:59,120 --> 01:18:02,477
I realized I loved her.
802
01:18:04,400 --> 01:18:09,759
But at the time I couldn't show it.
I couldn't tell her, but I knew she was the one.
803
01:19:00,160 --> 01:19:01,719
You look really good.
804
01:19:02,760 --> 01:19:03,511
Thanks.
805
01:19:04,600 --> 01:19:06,159
How are you?
806
01:19:10,600 --> 01:19:12,557
How's the therapy going?
807
01:19:13,560 --> 01:19:14,311
Good.
808
01:19:15,960 --> 01:19:18,111
My therapist says that I...
809
01:19:19,640 --> 01:19:21,996
I'm like a puppet, he says.
810
01:19:24,800 --> 01:19:26,757
He thinks that...
811
01:19:29,240 --> 01:19:31,197
...whatever I do...
812
01:19:32,080 --> 01:19:37,030
That all the things I've done
were reactions to the abuse.
813
01:19:38,920 --> 01:19:41,879
He says
it's like I'm remote-controlled
814
01:19:42,120 --> 01:19:45,272
by the things that
my mother and father did to me.
815
01:19:49,840 --> 01:19:52,799
My guy also abused and beat me.
816
01:19:54,520 --> 01:19:57,080
Of course he left his mark,
817
01:19:58,240 --> 01:20:01,597
but he didn't pull my strings
for all these years.
818
01:20:03,200 --> 01:20:06,557
That's different.
There's no comparison.
819
01:20:07,520 --> 01:20:11,480
What's no comparison?
- You were much older than me.
820
01:20:12,560 --> 01:20:17,919
I was 6 or 7 when it started. -Are you saying
I'm responsible for what happened?
821
01:20:18,600 --> 01:20:20,751
If I'd been 12,
it would've been different.
822
01:20:21,000 --> 01:20:22,434
You think so?
- Yes!
823
01:20:22,680 --> 01:20:25,036
Do you mean
it was my own fault?
824
01:20:26,600 --> 01:20:29,035
People are responsible
once they're 18!
825
01:20:29,280 --> 01:20:32,637
I see that differently.
- I believe your therapist thinks so too!
826
01:20:36,480 --> 01:20:41,032
Maybe I pulled a couple
of your strings. -You'll laugh.
827
01:20:41,640 --> 01:20:44,200
I've thought about exactly that.
828
01:20:45,720 --> 01:20:49,270
But let me tell you something...
Look at me!
829
01:20:50,400 --> 01:20:54,155
What do you want? -Do you know
why I always came back to you?
830
01:20:54,400 --> 01:20:56,153
Because I love you!
831
01:20:57,360 --> 01:21:02,116
And in my life no one pulled strings,
neither you nor that filthy pig!
832
01:21:08,400 --> 01:21:11,552
If your mother is deathly ill,
don't wait any longer.
833
01:21:12,000 --> 01:21:13,354
Go to her.
834
01:21:13,840 --> 01:21:16,196
Say what must be said.
835
01:21:16,760 --> 01:21:19,400
Herr Marquardt,
you'll be doing it for yourself.
836
01:21:20,240 --> 01:21:22,596
And the day arrived.
837
01:21:22,880 --> 01:21:26,237
I went there, and at the door
before I rang I thought:
838
01:21:26,480 --> 01:21:30,030
"Shall I? Do I want to? Do I have to?"
Then: "Andy, do it!"
839
01:21:30,480 --> 01:21:32,233
She buzzed me in.
840
01:22:14,480 --> 01:22:16,233
Although you're sick...
841
01:22:17,320 --> 01:22:19,880
...and even though you're weak
and you stink...
842
01:22:23,200 --> 01:22:25,351
...I have no pity for you.
843
01:22:28,160 --> 01:22:30,720
I didn't fail. Not me.
844
01:22:31,440 --> 01:22:34,194
Grandma and Grandpa didn't fail.
845
01:22:34,680 --> 01:22:36,831
You're the one who failed.
846
01:22:37,560 --> 01:22:39,313
You failed.
847
01:22:43,560 --> 01:22:45,119
Remember...
848
01:22:46,800 --> 01:22:48,757
...how I begged you:
849
01:22:50,080 --> 01:22:52,231
"Please, Mama, stop it!"
850
01:22:53,200 --> 01:22:54,953
And what did you do?
851
01:22:57,640 --> 01:23:03,591
You threatened me, your own child.
You said you'd give me away.
852
01:23:03,840 --> 01:23:06,196
A little child, your own boy!
853
01:23:06,560 --> 01:23:10,315
For me you are not a mother.
A mother wouldn't do that.
854
01:23:11,560 --> 01:23:14,712
A mother would never do that to a child.
855
01:23:16,240 --> 01:23:18,197
I have no mother.
856
01:23:23,640 --> 01:23:24,596
Maybe...
857
01:23:27,320 --> 01:23:31,280
Maybe someday you can forgive me.
858
01:23:35,440 --> 01:23:36,590
Never.
859
01:23:38,040 --> 01:23:41,590
I slammed the door in a rage,
turned around and thought:
860
01:23:41,880 --> 01:23:44,839
"Behind this door
all the bad shit happened to me!"
861
01:23:45,240 --> 01:23:50,395
I balled my fist and smashed it
into the door as a sign of ending the matter.
862
01:23:50,760 --> 01:23:53,116
The door split
it's whole length.
863
01:23:53,480 --> 01:23:56,837
I turned, checked my fist:
it was okay.
864
01:23:57,280 --> 01:24:01,832
I went slowly down the stairs,
then took the subway back to prison.
865
01:24:05,480 --> 01:24:07,039
Three weeks later...
866
01:24:08,240 --> 01:24:11,597
...the police called
to say my mother had died.
867
01:24:16,600 --> 01:24:22,358
I had her cremated and, without a ceremony,
had her buried in an anonymous grave.
868
01:24:23,000 --> 01:24:25,959
I just thought:
"The bugger is finally dead."
869
01:24:31,960 --> 01:24:34,919
End of April, 2003,
I was released from prison.
870
01:24:36,120 --> 01:24:40,876
It was clear that
I wouldn't return to the old business.
871
01:24:41,200 --> 01:24:46,559
It would have been possible.
People approached me with offers.
872
01:24:54,160 --> 01:24:56,914
I haven't seen you for ages!
How are you?
873
01:24:57,240 --> 01:25:00,597
Physically fine. Mentally fine.
Let's go up front.
874
01:25:00,840 --> 01:25:03,753
It looks like
things have changed in the scene.
875
01:25:04,000 --> 01:25:08,950
Ver y difficult. All this cheap
sex tourism and so on. It's very hard.
876
01:25:09,320 --> 01:25:11,880
30 euros...
- Hard to believe.
877
01:25:12,480 --> 01:25:13,834
It's the times.
878
01:25:14,080 --> 01:25:18,233
I'm out of it completely.
I just have my sport studios,
879
01:25:18,600 --> 01:25:21,354
and I've worked with children
for the last 10 years.
880
01:25:23,920 --> 01:25:26,480
I have fun
doing sport with children.
881
01:25:26,720 --> 01:25:29,679
I also do charity events
in support of two organizations:
882
01:25:29,920 --> 01:25:32,480
Child in the Center
and New Land.
883
01:25:32,720 --> 01:25:36,396
For 30 years they've supported
sexually abused children.
884
01:25:36,880 --> 01:25:38,030
In my opinion,
885
01:25:38,320 --> 01:25:43,759
as long as a single child is suffering,
our damn world is not in order.
886
01:26:06,480 --> 01:26:09,439
I'm ver y proud of you!
Fantastic! Perfect!
887
01:26:10,000 --> 01:26:11,354
Beautiful!
888
01:26:14,280 --> 01:26:18,832
To this day I hate my parents
and what they did to me.
889
01:26:19,480 --> 01:26:23,633
I believe they made me
what I was:
890
01:26:23,960 --> 01:26:26,316
that brutal criminal.
891
01:26:28,800 --> 01:26:31,713
The psychologists say
you must make peace with the past.
892
01:26:31,960 --> 01:26:34,714
I say,
to this moment on this day...
893
01:26:36,240 --> 01:26:38,800
...you don't have to make peace.
894
01:26:39,880 --> 01:26:43,032
To my last moment, I won't forgive:
I can't.
895
01:26:52,360 --> 01:26:53,714
I'd say...
896
01:26:54,640 --> 01:26:59,192
I've been lucky. I've led
an adventurous and interesting life.
897
01:26:59,880 --> 01:27:04,636
I feel I've come out a winner
because I backed the right man.
898
01:27:04,880 --> 01:27:08,635
It could ver y well be
that the lady Erdmann will become
899
01:27:08,880 --> 01:27:10,439
Mrs. Marquardt.
900
01:27:10,800 --> 01:27:15,556
I'd say the probability is
99.999999999 %.
901
01:27:18,240 --> 01:27:21,597
That's the news,
and she earned it.
902
01:27:25,080 --> 01:27:26,230
We'll manage.
903
01:27:26,480 --> 01:27:29,439
Don't worry your head,
all will be well.
904
01:27:33,160 --> 01:27:34,913
Absolutely.
- That's what I say.
70887
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