All language subtitles for Euphoria.US.S01E05.WEBRip.x264-ION10

RUE BENNETT:
I've never met anyone
in my entire life like Jules.

WOMAN: Rue is in love
with Jules, I think.

-ETHAN LEWIS: Hey, I'm Ethan.
-I'm Kat.

You look different.

I changed.

'Sup, Cass.

You wanna ride the carousel?

That's the guy from the motel.

-CAL JACOBS: You're beautiful.
-Thank you.

-That's Nate's dad?!
-Yes. That's Nate's dad.

Hey. Tyler?

NATE JACOBS:
God, are you broken inside.

I went through Nate's phone,
and it was weird.

I need you to promise me that
you're not gonna tell a soul.

I'm sorry I got so angry at you
before.

Rue:
Maddy knew who she was
from a very early age.

♪ ♪

Rue:
For as long as Maddy could
remember, everybody loved her.

♪ You must be my lucky star ♪

♪ 'Cause you shine on me
wherever you are ♪

Rue:
She never knew exactly
what it was.

She just knew that she had
something special,

something intangible,

something immeasurable.

♪ Star light, star bright,
first star I see tonight ♪

♪ Star light, star bright ♪

Rue:
And it gave her confidence.

♪ Star light, star bright ♪

(crowd applauding)

Rue:
That's why she loved pageantry,

because you didn't have to be
the prettiest or the tallest

or the blondest
or the whitest.

You just had to have
fucking confidence.

And she probably would have
gone on to win Miss Universe,

-if it weren't for...
-(camera shutter clicks)

- ...this guy.
-Newsman (on TV):
A beauty pageant coach,

Marcus Cutler was arrested
today

on 18 counts
of child molestation.

That's it. You're done.
No more pageants.
This is sick.

Rue:
Her dreams were dashed
by some random,

50-year-old creep
who didn't molest her,

let alone even meet her.

She refused to eat for a week
out of protest.

Jenni (on TV):
Drama!

Rue: But then she realized
how much she liked
not doing anything.

Maddy would never
say it out loud,

especially not today,
because everybody's
so political,

but she never really had
any desire to have
a career... or job.

She was just interested
in doing what she did,

just, without school
and the other bullshit.

(sighs)

Her mother was an esthetician.

Which is a fancy way
of saying she gave
pedicures to rich people.

And her dad was a drunk,

who was always
pretending to hold jobs
longer than he did.

She quickly realized
that there are two kinds
of people in the world:

people who sit
in the chairs with
their feet in the footbath,

and the people who kneel
in front of the footbath.

She used to sit and study
the women who came in.

She'd pay attention
to what they wore,

what they'd talk about,

and what she realized
was that none of them
actually did anything.

I mean, they may have,
like, children to raise

or homes to decorate,
but at the end of the day,

they literally did nothing.

They literally did...

nothing.

And strangely,
none of them had confidence.

She had had a thing
for Nate for a while,

before he finally
asked her out.

And at first,
he was a gentleman,

like, flowers every day
kind of gentleman.

-And he was smarter
than most guys.
-Nate: Maddy.

- Plus, Nate, like,
really loved her.
-You're so sweet.

I love you.

I love you, too.

Rue:
And she did love Nate.

She loved her relationship
with Nate.

She was also
a really good girlfriend.

Granted, she didn't always
tell the truth.

You're a virgin?

Rue:
Because the truth-truth
is that when she was 14,

on vacation
in Panama City Beach,

she met a guy
who was, like, 40.

Hey. You from around here?

Rue:
Which in retrospect
seems kind of rape-y and weird,

but honestly,
she was the one
in control.

-Yeah.
-Rue: She could tell
by looking in Nate's eyes

-how much it meant to him.
-Like fully?

Maddy:
Yeah.

Rue:
That she was
a hundred percent his.

Nate:
What about, like,
have you ever been fingered?

Only my own.

Rue: Plus,
it's not like anyone can feel
the fucking difference.

(grunting)

Rue:
But that's the thing
with guys like Nate.

(breathing heavily)

Rue:
They don't actually
want a person.

They want something
they can own

and possess.

Like Sharon Stone in Casino.

But the cool thing
about Sharon Stone
in Casino

is that she ran the fuck
over De Niro.

I would fucking kill
for that coat.

Rue:
And she did the same
to Nate.

How much do you think it costs?

Rue:
Seriously, Sharon Stone
in Casino was, like,

Maddy's spirit animal.

She also watched a lot of porn.

Not because it turned her on
or anything, it didn't.

But if you analyzed it
really closely,

there were a ton
of really good secrets.

(moaning, groaning)

(panting)

Rue:
Sometimes, during sex,

she would imagine
she was a ventriloquist

controlling her body--

moving her hips
and arching her back
in just the right way.

She wanted Nate to feel good
about the way he fucked.

Because if you make a guy
feel confident and powerful,

well, they'll do anything.

-That one.
-I got you a present.

Really?

After dinner.
It's in the car.

(water sloshing)

♪ ♪

(breathing heavily)

Oh, my God,
it's perfect!

-I fucking love you.
-I fucking love you, too.

Rue: She did worry about
the whole monogamy thing,
though.

It's not like she ever
cheated-cheated.

But every now and then,
she'd find herself in,
like, a gray area.

I'll do anything
to fuck you.

You're so sweet...
but no.

Rue:
Except for that DJ who said
he opened for Calvin Harris.

And the stockbroker guy
with the family
who lived on Oak Street.

-And hot dude who
ran the roller rink.
-(panting)

-(whirring)
-(Maddy panting)

Rue:
But honestly,
those were all times

when Nate and her
were on a break.

Plus, Nate could be
a real asshole.

And sometimes,
Maddy fantasized
about punching Nate.

But because of who
he was as a person,

she was afraid
he'd hit her back.

Especially because
he was coming to terms
with his sexuality.

You're fucking
dead to me.

Rue:
It's, like, the root
of a lot of violence.

And when she got home
that night,

she felt sick to her stomach...

like enough to throw up.

It wasn't the violence
that scared her.

It was the fact that she knew
no matter what he did,

she'd still love him.

♪ ♪

Rue:
Nothing in the world
comes close to opiates.

A good ES 7.5 Vicodin?
Fuck.

But honestly,
the best thing
I've ever had

is fentanyl.

And there is not a thing
on the planet Earth
that compares to fentanyl.

Except Jules.

Jules is a close second.

Jules, Jules, Jules.

And then you know
what would be better?
Jules and fentanyl.

But I can't do both,
'cause Jules won't have me.

So for now, I'll choose Jules.

♪ ♪

-(knocking)
-(door opens)

-Rue, dinner's ready.
-Okay.

-Are you coming?
-Yeah. No.

Yeah. For-- aah--
For dinner.

-Just, uh, give me a second.
-Okay.

(door closes)

(sighs)

You two have a good time
at the carnival?

-Yeah, it was cool.
-It was all right.

-Rue said you got sick
on the Gravitron.
-I don't want to talk about it.

(laughs)

So...

Jules slept over last night?

Yeah. So?

Leslie:
Are you two
in a relationship?

I mean, yeah, kinda.

It may not matter
what I think, but...

I really like her.

Yeah, me, too.

Baby, just take your time.

You've come a long way.

You're delicate.

-I'm not delicate.
-Yes, you are.

It's fine, Mom.
We, um...

We had a really
long conversation
about everything, and...

we're just gonna
take things really,
really slow.

♪ Okay, I'm Rambo,
I ramshack ♪

♪ I'm next to that cheese
like rattraps ♪

♪ On top of that green
like grass ass ♪

♪ That's over y'all head... ♪

(groans)

Yo. Looks good.

You ready?

Um...

How bad does it hurt?

(mumbling):
It didn't hurt, like, at all.

It's all good.
I've been doing this
for years.

I love you, Rue,

but there's no fucking way
I'm doing that.

-(tattoo gun buzzing)
-(Jules whimpers)

Rue:
I didn't know what happened
the night Jules met Tyler.

I knew it wasn't good,
but I was afraid to pry.

And selfishly,
things had been
going really well.

Show me exactly where
the holdup is.

Rue:
Granted, after the carnival,

-things got really
fucking weird.
-(phone ringing)

Hey, I gotta call you back.

Slow down.

Slow down. What's happened?

(Marsha chattering frantically
on phone)

I'll meet you out front.

♪ ♪

Officer Wilson:
Thank you for coming down,
Mr. Jacobs.

Cal:
Do you want to tell me
what's going on?

Officer Wilson:
Let's talk when we get inside.

♪ ♪

-Marsha: Cal, you okay?
-Yeah. Need a second.

(retches, coughs)

Rue:
Now, what had happened was...

that morning,
Maddy went to school.

(chuckles)
What are you,
the Unabomber?

What are you,
a dominatrix?

-No.
-I didn't mean
for real, bitch.

Obviously.

But seriously,
are you okay?

Yeah. I'm just
on my period.

-Okay. Bye.
-Bye.

Rue: And Maddy's first class
was Intro to Calc in room 202,

which unfortunately
was in the upper left wing
of the school.

Is the air conditioner,
like, not working?

Ms. Donovan:
It's broken. You could always
take off your hoodie.

Rue:
Now, if it was a normal day,

Maddy would have just
taken off her hoodie.

But since Nate choked her,

Maddy woke up
three hours early,

applied more concealer
than a burn victim,

and tried her best to cover up.

(bell ringing)

To compound the problem,

she also suffered
from a drop in serotonin

from the Molly she took
at the carnival, got depressed,

and therefore hadn't had
anything to eat or drink
the entire weekend.

Plus, she actually was
on her period.

Maddy?

Maddy?

(stretcher clattering)

She's in here.

I'm fine. Why is everyone,
like, so dramatic?

Principal Hayes:
Obviously, you've been
through a lot this weekend.

But my real concern
is the bruising on your neck.

There is no bruising
on my neck.

-Mm. Paramedics saw it.
-Yeah, well, they're lying.

Madeleine, look.

I understand that you
may be afraid to talk
about how you got hurt.

But I want you to know
that it is not your fault.

I'm trying to find
a really respectful
way to say this.

But, um,
this doesn't concern you.

It does concern me, Madeleine.

You're 17 years old.

If I suspect that
you're being abused,

I'm mandated by law
to report it.

(mutters):
Fuck.

Was it someone you know?

Was it Nate Jacobs?

All I know is she,
like, knocked over
a giant pot of chili

and, like,
called his mother
the "C" word.

I mean, he did, like,
grab her by the arm.

Yo, straight up?
The chick's crazy.

Do you know why
Nate and Maddy were fighting?

Um, I don't wanna talk
until I get a lawyer.

You're not being charged
with anything.

(pops lips)
Look, Nate's gay.

I'm being serious, Barbara.

No, I'm telling you,
like, Nate's actually gay.

That's why Maddy was upset.

I don't know about the carnival,

but I do know
she smashed some dude
in the pool at McKay's.

Smashed?

That's why he attacked
the new girl.

What new girl?

The one who cut herself.

I have no idea what
you're talking about.

Mr. Jacobs,
would you please
come with me?

-What?
-Come with me.

You wanna tell me
what the problem is?

Don't worry. We will.

(indistinct chatter
on police radio)

What was that about?

-Probably 'cause Nate
tried to kill Maddy.
-What?

Well, 'cause she found
all that gay porn on his phone.

-Who told you that?
-You did.

-When?
-At the carnival.

Okay, Lexi,
never repeat that,

because literally
none of it's true.

(Cassie gasps)

Uh...

Daniel, I-I can't.
I'm sorry.

I just-- I'm--
I'm dating somebody,
and...

I really don't want
to fuck it up.

It's cool. Don't worry.

I just like you.
I kind of thought
you liked me.

I do, I just...

I have a boyfriend.

Please don't say anything.

If I promise
not to say anything,

can we hang out again?

Woman (over projector):
...reproductive health
and your total well being

in all aspects
of reproduction.

For example,
physical, emotional...

(whispers):
Hey. Did you get my texts?

-No.
-Really?

-Well, I sent you
a bunch of texts.
-Didn't get 'em.

Well, it says, like,
delivered on my phone.

Look, I really don't
want to talk about this
right now.

What, are you for real?

Did I, like, do something?

I don't know, Ethan.
Did you?

Rue:
So the night of the carnival,
while fucking Luke Kasten,

Kat had an epiphany.

She was fucking Luke Kasten,

Luke motherfucking Kasten.

(grunting)

And for those
of you who didn't go
to East Highland...

(sighs)
Luke Kasten was a fucking god.

I mean, he graduated years ago
and people still talk about him.

He has the biggest dick
I've ever seen,

and I was looking at him
while he was fucking me.

I could see his face
scrunching up when he was
coming all over my stomach,

and I had this, like,
realization, you know,
like, this epiphany.

That no matter how cool,
or, or sexy

or, or smart
you think a guy is,

they're actually just
fucking pathetic.

It's true, KittenKween.

(Kat laughs)
Oh.

By the way,
if you wanna come,

I put a body harness
on my Amazon wish list.

I'm gonna need you
to buy it for me.

Johnny:
Yes, KittenKween.

-Kat:
Can I be honest with you?
-Johnny: Always.

-Kat:
What I realize is that, like...
-Where are you going?

Kat: ... my whole life,
all I've tried to do
is to take up less space.

To the mall.

Try to hide from guys,
like, who might, like,

whisper to their friend
under their breath
as I walked by.

I've spent my whole life
afraid people were gonna
find out that I was fat.

But honestly,
who gives a shit?

Johnny:
I'm so in awe of you,
KittenKween.

Kat: There's nothing more
powerful than a fat girl
who doesn't give a fuck.

♪ You should see me
in a crown ♪

♪ I'm gonna run
this nothing town ♪

♪ Watch me make 'em bow,
one by, one by, one ♪

♪ One by, one by,
You should see me in a crown ♪

♪ Your silence is
my favorite sound ♪

♪ Watch me make 'em bow,
one by, one by, one ♪

Hey.

-Thought you weren't
from around here.
-I'm not.

I get off work at seven.
You wanna hang out?

♪ One by, one by, one ♪

♪ One by,
one by, one ♪

(whispering):
Why are you suddenly
being so mean?

(woman speaking indistinctly
over projector)

-You don't understand, Mommy.
He didn't do it.
-Then who did?

-It wasn't Nate.
-Maddy, stop lying.

-I'm not lying!
-I am not gonna let
the son of a bitch

attack my daughter
and get away with it.

-Right?
-Absolutely.

-He needs to know
that there are consequences.
-Mom!

-I would like to press charges.
-Well, you're not fucking
pressing charges!

-I am gonna press charges.
-No, you're not pressing--

-This is for your own good!
-No, you're not
pressing charges!

-Principal Hayes:
O-Okay!
-(Maddy sobbing)

I would like to press charges.

-You okay, Mr. Jacobs?
-I'm fine.

Principal Hayes:
Mr. and Mrs. Jacobs,

thanks for getting here
so quickly.

Officer Wilson:
So, it appears that your son
and Miss Perez

had a physical altercation
on Saturday night,

in which he allegedly
strangled her.

-Marsha: What?
-Officer Wilson: There are
multiple eyewitnesses.

Miss Perez has
extensive bruising,

and the family
will be pressing charges.

(gasps)

There must be some
misunderstanding.

This doesn't sound like
something my son would do.

I would like to talk
to the Perez family.

Officer Wilson:
Actually, Mr. Jacobs,

I think it'd be best
to speak to your son

before we take him
to the station.

He's just this way.

♪ ♪

(exhales)

(sighs)

Did you do it?

(softly):
Not really.

Did you admit to it?

No.

Did you do it?

No.

(sighs)
Well, that's good to hear.

Her family's gonna
press charges.

-(whispers): Fuck.
-Hey.

Listen to me.

You need to stay composed.

Don't get angry,
don't make a scene.

You walk out of the school
with your head held high.

Look at me.
Hey, look at me.

What's about
to happen to you...

to me, to our family...

is not gonna be easy.

You walk out first.
I'm right behind you.

Go on.

(door closes)

(whispers):
I love you.

(bell ringing)

-♪ Hee, hee ♪
-♪ Oh! ♪

-♪ Hee, hee ♪
-♪ Oh! ♪

-♪ Hee, hee ♪
-♪ Oh! ♪

-♪ Hee, hee ♪
-♪ Oh! ♪

♪ Ooh, ooh ♪

♪ Ooh, ooh ♪

♪ Ooh, ooh ♪

♪ Hee, hee ♪

(door opens)

Okay, one: what was that about?

Two: Can we talk about
the fact that you fucked
Nate's dad?

Rue, swear to God, like,
on your life that you will
never tell anyone.

-That you fucked Nate's dad.
-I'm serious!

This is like, like,

even if you decide
you hate me one day,

like, you can never
tell anyone.

How would I ever hate you?

That's not the point.
Like...

Seriously, this is some
go-to-your-grave shit.

I promise.

(mutters):
Okay.

Do you think Nate knows?

No. Why would Nate know?

I don't know.
You went up to the chili booth
at the carnival.

Did... he look like he knew?

No, like, literally,
I didn't even notice.

Nate's scary.

The whole fucking family
is scary.

I don't want to have
this conversation.

You know what would be amazing?
If they paid you off

with a bunch of money
and we do a bunch
of really cool shit.

Rue, this isn't a joke.

♪ ♪

Rue:
I don't know why
Jules didn't trust me

or why she'd think
I'd ever hate her.

There's literally
nothing in the world

that Jules could do
to make me upset.
I even told her that.

-Jules: Yeah, right.
-No, for real. It's true.

So, like, do you have
a lot of one-night stands?

Um, define a lot.

Um, like...

-More than five.
-(chuckles) Yeah.

More than ten.

I don't know.

More than 20.

-Rue, why does it matter?
-It's just a question.

Who cares?

Is the sex, like, good?

I don't know. It's, like,
it's not even the point,
you know?

It's more about,
like, everything
that leads up to it.

That's the good part.

I mean, you've had
one-night stands, right?

No.

But you've, like,
hooked up with people

-that you've just met, right?
-Uh, not-- Not like that.
No. No.

Wait. How many people
have you slept with?

Not many.

No, like, what's your number?

Rue:
Ugh, this is
so embarrassing.

♪ ♪

I had my first kiss
at the age of 12

with a boy I didn't
really like, but...

I just wanted
to get it over with.

I gave four hand jobs
in eighth grade,

two blow jobs in ninth,

one of which I was
emotionally coerced into.

I'm literally gonna
tell the entire school
that you sucked my dick,

so you might as well
just suck my dick.

Then there was that time
that Lexi got asked
to the freshman formal

by Tucker Blake
and I tried to teach her
how to French kiss.

Is this, like, really weird
and uncomfortable for you?

Mm, no. Not really.

Okay. Um, I'm gonna
get ready.

Rue:
Also, at 15,

I ate two Xannie bars,
drank a beer, which is
super dangerous,

and lost my virginity.

(moans)

-(exhales) Did you come?
-Yeah.

Word.

You look like
you came hard.

Rue:
All I know is, life is not
a Nicholas Sparks novel.

-That's it?
-Yep. That's-- That's it.

Wait, so, like...
have you ever been in love?

-(splatters)
-Fucking pigs!

Fuck you!

(door buzzes)

Hi, Maddy. I'm Detective Riley.
I understand this is traumatic,

but you're gonna
have to cooperate.

If you literally
step any closer,
I will fight you!

Miss, this is procedure.
I need you to remove
your sweater now,

and if you don't,
we will remove it for you.

Really, bitch? How?

-Maddy: You're fucking crazy!
-Officer Wilson: Calm down.

Take a deep breath.
Take a deep breath.

Come on, Maddy.
We don't want to hurt you.

Get off of me!

-Officer Wilson: Maddy, please.
-Detective Riley: Relax.

-Officer: There we go.
-Detective Riley:
Thanks, guys. I got this.

(snipping)

(sobbing)

(Maddy gasps)

Detective Riley:
I know you're
really upset right now,

-and you don't want
to hear this.
-(camera shutter clicks)

But trust me, when I tell you
that the person that did this...

-(camera shutter clicks)
-...doesn't love you.

(camera shutter clicking)

(indistinct chatter
on police radio)

Nate:
Mm-hmm.

So you grabbed her.

I grabbed her by the arm
to drag her away.
I didn't choke her.

I asked her why
she was acting that way.

Like, I asked her
what she was doing.

I don't want to get her
in any trouble, but she'd
taken a lot of drugs.

What drugs?

I don't want to get
her in trouble.

She's not gonna get
in any trouble.

Molly.

As in MDMA?

Yeah.

But I don't know
if it was pure.

Like, I don't--
I don't do drugs,
so I don't know.

And after that conversation,
was that the last time

you spoke to Miss Perez
that evening?

Yeah.

Her and I don't have
the healthiest relationship.

I know that.

My dad's always telling me
that she's a distraction,
and he's right.

I love her.

You know, I really love her.
No matter...

how crazy she acts,
no matter what she does,
I love her.

It's kind of embarrassing
to admit, but, um...

on the times when
we've broken up,

I know for a fact
that she's been with
other guys.

I don't know, I mean,
it's possible that
that night...

Aah, it doesn't matter.

-Detective:
What were you gonna say?
-It doesn't matter.

I love Maddy.

I'd never do anything
to hurt her.

Rue:
The fallout from Nate's assault
was swift...

Principal Hayes (on phone):
I'm suspending your son until
the investigation is completed.

Cal: Look, that
could take months.

Rue:
...and harsh.

East Highland football team
has a zero tolerance policy.

I'm a survivor of abuse.

It took me ten years
to admit that.

Because the most insidious
symptom of abuse

is the inability to admit
that what you're enduring

is not normal,

not okay, and not love.

Those are the moments
that keep me up at night--

thinking about all the times
that I ignored that,

that voice in my head.

You know, that told me,
"What are you doing?"

Ali:
And what happens in a month?
Six months? A year?

When she moves away
and goes to college?

When she tells you,
she just wants to be friends?

-You mean "if."
-No, Rue. I mean "when."

I mean, I don't know.
We talked about
living together.

Like, if she goes to New York,
I'll just go with her.

-I'll go anywhere she goes.
-I think you're missing
my point, Rue.

Nothing in high school
lasts forever.

You should meet her.

Woman:
Go ahead, Rue.

♪ What the fuck
are we talking for? ♪

Uh...

Hey, everyone. I'm--
I'm Rue and I'm an addict.

All:
Hi, Rue.

Uh...

I guess I just wanted to,
uh, make amends with everyone.

Because most every time
I've shared,

I-- I was lying.

(sighs)
Yeah, every time
I collected a chip,

whether it be 30 days
or 60 days or 90 days,

I was lying.
(chuckles)

Um...

(Rue sighs)

But... I met someone.

And she's helped.

And now I want to stay clean.

And, shit, maybe that's--
Maybe that's me being selfish,

you know, and Ali just
scared the shit out of me.

'Cause he told me that
it wasn't gonna last.
(laughs)

And, fuck, you know what?

Maybe you're right.

But I really, really, really
hope you're wrong.

'Cause, uh, I've been clean
for 13 days.

It's been okay.

Um, I've actually been
really happy.

So, um...

Yeah, I don't know.
I guess that's why I wanted
to come here, and...

tell you guys the truth.

Uh, thank you.

-(applause)
-Thank you.

-Man 1: Welcome back.
-Man 2: Thank you, Rue.

David:
So, is this like a friend thing
with Rue or is it, like...

I don't want
to talk about it.

I was just wondering...

are you two,
like, a thing?

No, we're not a thing.
I don't know
what a thing is.

'Cause I've been thinking,
you know, if it was,

if you two were a thing...

We could all just do, like,
a family thing together.

Maybe go out to dinner
or something.

I don't want
to go to dinner
with you and Rue.

-I'm sorry.
-Why? Because you're
embarrassed of me?

Or is it because
you're a thing?

-You're hilarious.
-Yeah, I know.

Is she still going
to meetings?

That's great.

You're a good influence.

♪ ♪

(phone beeps)

(phone bloops)

(phone bloops)

(grunting)

Rue:
McKay had heard the news
about Nate.

Had a bunch of dick pics
on his phone.

And was, like, what,
sending them to other girls?

No, McKay, it wasn't his dick.
It was other guys' dicks.

I'm confused.
Who told you this?

What dick pics?

The ones you told me about,
on his phone.

I don't know if your
brain is all scrambled

from, like,
all the Molly you take,
but I never said that.

If you spread a lie like that,
I will fucking come for you.

We good?

-Yeah.
-(locker slams)

McKay:
Anyway, look, Cassie,

I'm really sorry about
what happened the other
night at the carnival.

It's okay.

No, I should have
said something to Nate.

It just really hurt
my feelings.

It made me feel like
you weren't proud
to be my boyfriend.

Cass.

Give me a kiss.

I'm proud to be
your boyfriend,
trust me.

I'm sorry, too.

What do you got
to be sorry about?

Trevor:
I love making music.

Yeah, I mean,
but to be honest...
(clears throat)

I don't think I'm,
like, good enough
yet to just do music.

But that's, like, my dream,
you know or whatever.

-What about you?
-What about me?

You look like
you're creative
or something.

Uh, you know?

-Creative. (laughs)
-Yeah.

I don't know. Just, like,
the way you dress and stuff.

I just thought you might be
an artist or something.

Look, if you wanna hook up,
we can hook up.

Um... (chuckles)
I wasn't expecting that.

Really?

Yeah, I was just
making conversation.

I mean, that's my point,
you don't really have to.

♪ Doll, Eskimo, aye! ♪

-♪ BankRollGotit ♪
-♪ I'm so icy... ♪

Rue:
Maddy wasn't doing well.

Over the course
of the last five days,

Maddy has sent Nate
a total of 273 text messages,

none of which he answered.

Plus, everyone in her life
was against her.

(speaking Spanish)

-Who the fuck are
you to judge?
-(Sonia speaking Spanish)

Seriously, Mom,
Dad has slept on the couch
since I was ten years old.

(Sonia speaking Spanish)

I'm not.

I'm just saying
love is a million things.

Sometimes it feels good,
sometimes it doesn't.

The one thing I know
is that Nate loves me
no matter what.

He'd fucking kill for me
and I'd kill for him.

It feels good to know
that there's one person
in this whole fucked-up world

who has my back.

You think I want this?

You live in the same house
and you don't even say
one word to each other.

That's the difference
between me and you.

(speaking Spanish)

Kat, I need to come over,
like, right now.

-Kat (on phone): I'm not home.
-What? Where are you?

-Kat (on phone):
With a... friend.
-Who?

Kat (on phone):
It doesn't really matter.
I'm just, like,

in the middle of something.
Can I call you back later?

Well, can you blow them off,
please? I really need you
right now.

Kat (on phone):
I-- I can't. I gotta go.

-Sorry about that.
-All good.

Um...

So, like...

(sniffs)

(belt unbuckles)

(unzipping)

(moans)

(grunts)
Oh!

(groans)

(grunts)
Shit.

Mmm!

(grunting)

(groans)
Fuck!

(shudders):
Shit.

Fuck.

It was just...

(breathes heavily)

That was really good.

(exhales, chuckles)

(breathes heavily)

Seriously, that was like...

one of the best blow jobs
I've ever had.

(engine starts)

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

-(laughing)
-(indistinct chatter)

♪ Hour past time
and I didn't want to wake up ♪

♪ Eh, eh, oh ♪

♪ All that's fine,
are we headin' back home? ♪

♪ Headin' back home,
headin' back home ♪

♪ Cross that line
and the second we make it ♪

♪ Eh, eh, oh ♪

♪ All come round,
now they sayin' don't go ♪

♪ Sayin' don't go,
sayin' don't go ♪

♪ I'm tired,
still we rockin' all days ♪

♪ Racin' 'gainst time,
think we're neck to neck ♪

♪ Got people
talking that talk ♪

♪ Copy the rhyme
but ain't in their walk ♪

♪ From outside
looks like a circle ♪

♪ From on this side
it seems like a wall ♪

♪ Rough ride, get me through it
some way ♪

♪ Another long flight,
make me earn the pay ♪

One more time, okay?
One more time!

Rue seems really good.

Yeah. She does.

It's 'cause of you,
you know.

-Um, I'm gonna go
to the bathroom.
-Okay.

♪ ♪

I'm so sorry
I'm late.

My landlord is such
a fucking cocksucker. Ugh.

You know that type of person
that, like, just tries to get
under your skin

for, like, no reason?

Whatever. You don't care.
I can breathe.

Oh, my God.
You're actually hot?

Can I, uh...
Would you like
a glass of champagne?

Honey, no.
I don't do alcohol.

You from around here?

I'm from planet Venus, baby.

I'm Minako.

But the boys
call me Mina.

("Fabric" by Cupcakke
plays on phone)

♪ Bitch, you don't know me
so shut the fuck up ♪

♪ Can't walk like Naomi
'cause I got it tucked ♪

♪ It's right on my waist
and it's heavy as fuck ♪

♪ Leave a bitch under
like Harriet Tub' ♪

♪ I caught a whole body
now the block hot ♪

♪ You caught a half a body
like a crop top ♪

♪ If it's in my hair
then it's top notch ♪

♪ Niggas wanna cock-block
Niggas straight squares
like hopscotch ♪

♪ Yeah, it's too late
I'm pulling up
straight to the gate ♪

♪ This what you call on fate ♪

♪ It's only one way
to deal with the hate ♪

♪ Make a nigga disappear
like the period late... ♪

I'm, um...
I just...

-Will you please
stop the music?
-Jeez.

What is up with you?

(music stops)

(sighs)

-You want a popper?
-No.

(scoffs)

Well, then,
what do you want?

I just want to talk
for a little bit.

What do you want
to talk about?

I've just had
a really long week.

-Wife?
-No.

-Kids?
-Yeah.

Mm.

-Boys or girls?
-Boys.

Mm.

Cal:
Do you think this stuff
affects them?

Even if they don't know it?

Minako:
I don't know.

Do you think hiding it
creates the same thing
in them?

Minako:
Honey, I don't know.

Everyone knows who I am.

(sighs)

You know...

I spent my whole life
trying to keep this
part of me separate.

But I feel like it's
poisoned everything.

I thought that

I was doing what was best
for everybody.

And then,
I look at my boys, and...

they have so much anger.

Not just anger...

but rage.

And it scares me.

(inhales)

Cal:
Because... it's too late.

(Minako moans)

It's always gonna be
inside them.

All those problems
you have, baby...

I'm here to fix it.

All that bad energy...

you can give it to me.

I can handle it.

(sighs)

♪ ♪

♪ You're still ♪

♪ The same girl ♪

♪ You always were ♪

♪ You're still ♪

♪ The same girl ♪

♪ You always were ♪

♪ A few more nights ♪

You know, it seems like
we never do this anymore.

Yeah.

♪ A few more holes ♪

♪ In your arm ♪

-You gonna spend the night?
-Uh, I should probably go home.

Okay. Uh, well, is it cool
if I just go with you?

Uh, yeah. Sure.

♪ Still the same girl ♪

(phone buzzing)

-♪ Same sweet smile ♪
-My God.

♪ That you always had ♪

What's up, bro?

Yeah, I'm with her right now.
What's up?

He says can you tell Maddy
to download Signal?

-♪ Same clear voice ♪
-(phone bloops)

-(tires skidding)
-(honking)

(loud honking)

-Woman (in car): Get off
the road, you fucking cunt!
-Fuck you!

♪ The same girl ♪

♪ That I ♪

(phone beeps)

♪ Love ♪

(engine revs)

♪ ♪

-(car alarm chirps)
-♪ You're still ♪

♪ T he same girl ♪

(engine starts)

♪ You always were ♪

♪ Still ♪

♪ The same girl ♪

♪ You always were ♪

♪ With the same sweet smile ♪

♪ That you always had ♪

♪ And the same blue eyes ♪

♪ Like the sun ♪

-♪ And the same clear voice ♪
-Hey, handsome.

♪ That I always ♪

(knocks on door)

♪ Still ♪

♪ The same girl ♪

(sniffles)

♪ That I ♪

♪ Love ♪

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

(wind whistling)

♪ ♪

(wind whistling)

♪ It was just before
the moon hung ♪

♪ Her weary, heavy head in ♪

♪ The gallows
and the graves of ♪

♪ The milky, milky cradle ♪

♪ His tears have turned
to poppies ♪

♪ A shimmer in the midnight ♪

♪ A flower in the twilight ♪

♪ A flower
in the twilight ♪

♪ And our screaming ♪

♪ Is in his screaming ♪

♪ Our screaming ♪

♪ Is in his screaming ♪

♪ Our screaming ♪

♪ In the willow tree ♪

(wind whistling)

RUE BENNETT:
Christopher McKay's father
demanded excellence.

(WHISTLE BLOWS)

Then he got to college
and he realized...

he didn't stand a chance
of going pro.

(WHISTLE BLOWS)

CHRIS MCKAY:
If we go to this party
and you dress like that,

I ain't gon' ever hear
the end of it.

MAN: The whole point of
Halloween is to look attractive.

(LAUGHTER)

MAN 2:
The situation with your son,

a lot of people are talking.

You need a plan.

(PRINTER WHIRRING)

RUE: Every time I feel good,
I think it'll last forever.

But it doesn't.

♪ (TRIP-HOP MUSIC PLAYS) ♪

I was drawn to Maddy
as a character because I knew

she would pull me out
of my comfort zone.

I think Maddy's
always been confident.

Like when she was a little girl,

she was winning pageant
after pageant.

So, I think her confidence is
something that she's always had.

Like I think Maddy definitely
runs Nate.

She definitely gets
what she wants out of him,

but in those moments where
he gets angry and violent

and dark, she just...

she's so weak,
and I think she's in pain.

She's in a toxic,
abusive relationship.

RUE BENNETT: It wasn't
the violence that scared her.

It was the fact that she knew
no matter what he did,

she'd still love him.

She thinks that what Nate
provides for her

and does for her
is 100 times better

than what she's seen her dad do.

Growing up
in a dysfunctional home,

you can end up
in those relationships

because they either seem normal
to you,

or they seem better
than what you've seen at home.

Maddy will do anything
in her power

not to end up like her parents.

She doesn't want that life,
so she's-- she's trying to find

a way out in any way she can
and I think...

that's where the relationship
with Nate comes in.

I think she likes the idea
of it.

So even though
he's hurting her, she just--

she thinks it's better than
what she's grown up watching.

Just saying love
is a million things!

Sometimes, it feels good.
Sometimes, it doesn't.

MOTHER: Trust me when I tell you
that the person that did this

doesn't love you.

I think Maddy feels like
everyone's against her,

and no one understands them.

It feels like the lowest point
of her life,

and even then, she's--
she's still rooting for Nate.

She wants him to figure out
a plan.

She wants him to be okay.

She really feels like
they have this special bond,

but it's-- you know,
it's a dysfunctional young love.

♪ (SOMBER ELECTRONIC MUSIC
PLAYS) ♪

Working with Jacob
was incredible.

I couldn't have asked
for a better scene partner.

Those scenes are really intense,
and you know, it is--

it's acting, but it's physical
and you know,

you're pouring all
of your emotion into this.

I think Maddy's searching for

any bit of love,
any bit of hope.

I think we want love sometimes
so bad,

we stay in these relationships

even when we know
they aren't right.

But she doesn't want to admit
that to herself.

She just wants everybody
to leave her alone,

and she wants it to just be her
and Nate.

♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪