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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:02,089 --> 00:00:05,048 Previously on "Station 19"...Andy: There's no way out. I'm trapped. 2 00:00:05,092 --> 00:00:06,310 You're not well. You can't -- Exactly. 3 00:00:06,354 --> 00:00:07,964 That's why I'm gonna save my daughter's life. 4 00:00:08,921 --> 00:00:10,488 Andy: Tía Sandra sent mea birthday card every year 5 00:00:10,532 --> 00:00:12,012 from age 10 to 15. 6 00:00:12,055 --> 00:00:13,535 He kept those from me. 7 00:00:13,578 --> 00:00:15,276 I thought my parentswere happy. 8 00:00:15,319 --> 00:00:17,495 And now I thinkmaybe she killed herself. 9 00:00:17,539 --> 00:00:18,496 Where's my girlfriend? 10 00:00:18,540 --> 00:00:20,411 You have a girlfriend? Sasha! 11 00:00:20,455 --> 00:00:21,934 Actually knew what you were doing. It was pretty hot. 12 00:00:21,978 --> 00:00:22,674 I think you should move out. 13 00:00:22,718 --> 00:00:24,328 [ Laughing ] What? 14 00:00:24,372 --> 00:00:26,330 [ Groaning ]Dr. Shepherd orderedmorphine as needed. 15 00:00:26,374 --> 00:00:27,505 I-I need it! I need it! 16 00:00:27,549 --> 00:00:29,159 Did my mom... 17 00:00:29,203 --> 00:00:31,292 Andy. 18 00:00:31,335 --> 00:00:32,771 [ Gasps ] 19 00:00:36,819 --> 00:00:40,779 [ Breathing heavily ] 20 00:00:43,260 --> 00:00:44,131 Mami? 21 00:00:46,524 --> 00:00:48,091 What are you... 22 00:00:48,135 --> 00:00:50,093 [ Breathing heavily ] 23 00:00:52,356 --> 00:00:53,314 Sandra. 24 00:00:53,357 --> 00:00:54,793 [ Hyperventilating ] 25 00:00:54,837 --> 00:00:56,534 Sandra: Hey. 26 00:00:56,578 --> 00:01:03,802 ♪♪ 27 00:01:03,846 --> 00:01:11,245 ♪♪ 28 00:01:11,288 --> 00:01:12,246 Hey. 29 00:01:14,291 --> 00:01:16,902 How's the eulogy coming? 30 00:01:16,946 --> 00:01:18,948 It's not. [ Chuckles ] 31 00:01:18,991 --> 00:01:21,081 Yeah. 32 00:01:21,124 --> 00:01:23,257 Change of scenery might help. 33 00:01:23,300 --> 00:01:25,650 Come on. It's time for the clapout. 34 00:01:25,694 --> 00:01:27,435 [ Inhales deeply ] 35 00:01:27,478 --> 00:01:28,827 [ Exhales sharply ] 36 00:01:28,871 --> 00:01:37,967 ♪♪ 37 00:01:38,010 --> 00:01:39,838 [ Siren wailing in distance ] 38 00:01:43,190 --> 00:01:45,453 [ Indistinct conversations ] 39 00:01:45,496 --> 00:01:50,632 ♪♪ 40 00:01:50,675 --> 00:01:53,548 Wow, this is unreal. 41 00:01:53,591 --> 00:01:56,246 God, do I miss my wife. 42 00:01:56,290 --> 00:01:57,247 I'm sorry. 43 00:01:57,291 --> 00:01:58,248 Sorry.No, no, it's fine. 44 00:01:58,292 --> 00:01:59,989 Robert and I chose to separate. 45 00:02:00,032 --> 00:02:01,556 You and Miranda did not. 46 00:02:01,599 --> 00:02:03,166 Hey, Roz.Hey. 47 00:02:03,210 --> 00:02:04,167 W-- Hey.Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. 48 00:02:04,211 --> 00:02:05,212 Now, what are you guys doing -- 49 00:02:05,255 --> 00:02:06,604 The boys wanted to see their mom. 50 00:02:06,648 --> 00:02:08,302 Tuck: I know Auntie Roz is only staying with us 51 00:02:08,345 --> 00:02:10,217 while you and Mom are quarantining at work, 52 00:02:10,260 --> 00:02:11,566 but can she --Can she move in with us? 53 00:02:11,609 --> 00:02:13,002 [ Laughter ] 54 00:02:13,045 --> 00:02:14,482 Alright, what did youbribe them with? 55 00:02:14,525 --> 00:02:16,353 What can I say? My auntie games is on point. 56 00:02:16,397 --> 00:02:17,528 [ Andy laughs ]19. 57 00:02:17,572 --> 00:02:18,964 Hey. 58 00:02:19,008 --> 00:02:20,575 Thank you guys for getting upan hour early. 59 00:02:20,618 --> 00:02:22,446 I --It means a lot to me. 60 00:02:22,490 --> 00:02:24,013 Oh, Mom!Miranda! 61 00:02:24,056 --> 00:02:25,710 My boys! 62 00:02:25,754 --> 00:02:27,190 What -- Oh. 63 00:02:27,234 --> 00:02:31,412 Benjamin Warren,you are a sight for sore eyes. 64 00:02:31,455 --> 00:02:34,719 And back and feet. [ Chuckles ] 65 00:02:34,763 --> 00:02:35,981 I miss you. 66 00:02:36,025 --> 00:02:37,200 I miss you. 67 00:02:37,244 --> 00:02:39,768 Oh, Rosalind, thank you. 68 00:02:39,811 --> 00:02:41,378 No, thank you. 69 00:02:41,422 --> 00:02:43,902 -Uh, how we doing on time? -We're about there. 70 00:02:43,946 --> 00:02:45,382 -Thank you, Dr. Bailey. -We love you, Bailey. 71 00:02:45,426 --> 00:02:47,123 -You're the best. -You guys, you guys, it's time. 72 00:02:47,167 --> 00:02:49,430 [ Cheers and applause ] 73 00:02:49,473 --> 00:02:55,175 ♪♪ 74 00:02:55,218 --> 00:03:00,876 ♪♪ 75 00:03:00,919 --> 00:03:03,052 Thank you for all you do! 76 00:03:03,095 --> 00:03:05,097 [ Cheers and applause continue ] 77 00:03:05,141 --> 00:03:07,274 Thanks, Dr. Bailey! 78 00:03:07,317 --> 00:03:08,884 Thank you so much! 79 00:03:08,927 --> 00:03:10,059 We love you guys! 80 00:03:10,102 --> 00:03:11,669 We love you! 81 00:03:11,713 --> 00:03:18,110 ♪♪ 82 00:03:18,154 --> 00:03:19,286 [ Davie's "Roll With Me" plays ] 83 00:03:19,329 --> 00:03:20,983 Wait, you're giving them our toilet paper? 84 00:03:21,026 --> 00:03:22,027 Ourtoilet paper? 85 00:03:23,377 --> 00:03:24,682 You're giving them your toilet paper? 86 00:03:24,726 --> 00:03:26,249 You're never gonna find your own place, are you? 87 00:03:26,293 --> 00:03:27,555 I'm looking. 88 00:03:27,598 --> 00:03:30,210 I am! 89 00:03:30,253 --> 00:03:32,342 ♪ But I'm too madly in love with you ♪ 90 00:03:32,386 --> 00:03:34,823 [ Doorbell rings ] 91 00:03:34,866 --> 00:03:36,085 Oh, hi, honey. 92 00:03:36,128 --> 00:03:37,173 Hi, Mom.Hi, Mom. 93 00:03:37,217 --> 00:03:39,219 Oh, I'm so glad to see you. 94 00:03:39,262 --> 00:03:41,438 Oh, my God. So many groceries. 95 00:03:41,482 --> 00:03:43,832 Vic: I know.Thank you. 96 00:03:43,875 --> 00:03:45,268 Is that toilet paper? 97 00:03:45,312 --> 00:03:48,402 ♪♪ 98 00:03:48,445 --> 00:03:52,536 ♪ So, I'm gonna bet it all on you ♪ 99 00:03:52,580 --> 00:03:55,191 Whoa, whoa, bud, bud. You forgetting something? 100 00:03:55,235 --> 00:03:58,890 He doesn't likewhen we wear the face mask 101 00:03:58,934 --> 00:04:01,850 because he can't read lips. 102 00:04:01,893 --> 00:04:03,460 Yeah, I don't make the rules. 103 00:04:03,504 --> 00:04:05,897 I think it's horse crap,if you ask me. 104 00:04:05,941 --> 00:04:08,204 Yeah, that's what they said about seatbelts at first, too. 105 00:04:08,248 --> 00:04:11,033 [ Chuckles ] Inara, he's here. 106 00:04:11,076 --> 00:04:14,558 ♪ Roll with me, roll with me 107 00:04:14,602 --> 00:04:16,734 ♪ Oh, baby, roll with me 108 00:04:16,778 --> 00:04:19,563 Hi. Hey. Hi. 109 00:04:19,607 --> 00:04:20,738 You need anything? 110 00:04:20,782 --> 00:04:22,697 Just you. 111 00:04:22,740 --> 00:04:26,962 Uh, I mean that we all wishyou could hang out with us. 112 00:04:27,005 --> 00:04:30,226 Marcus is dying to show you his train set. 113 00:04:30,270 --> 00:04:32,315 ♪ Roll with me, roll with me 114 00:04:32,359 --> 00:04:34,361 Why am I signing?I don't know. 115 00:04:34,404 --> 00:04:38,843 ♪ Roll with me, roll with me 116 00:04:38,887 --> 00:04:41,629 ♪ Ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh ♪ 117 00:04:41,672 --> 00:04:43,674 ♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh 118 00:04:43,718 --> 00:04:46,329 ♪ Ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh ♪ 119 00:04:46,373 --> 00:04:47,809 Alright, we're here today 120 00:04:47,852 --> 00:04:50,464 to teach you the basics of wildfire training. 121 00:04:50,507 --> 00:04:53,684 In the case of a wildland fire anywhere on the West Coast, 122 00:04:53,728 --> 00:04:56,470 we call on you to help back up the fire companies. 123 00:04:56,513 --> 00:04:57,906 Questions? Yes? 124 00:04:57,949 --> 00:04:59,908 Yeah, what fire station you work at? 125 00:04:59,951 --> 00:05:03,390 My cousin, he works at, uh, SFD -- What is it? -- 23. 126 00:05:03,433 --> 00:05:05,043 Name's Barnes. 127 00:05:05,087 --> 00:05:06,218 Yeah, he's a good firefighter. 128 00:05:06,262 --> 00:05:07,524 Yeah, you work with him? 129 00:05:07,568 --> 00:05:09,309 We work for a company called Mavis. 130 00:05:09,352 --> 00:05:10,962 It's a private fire company. 131 00:05:11,006 --> 00:05:12,834 [ Chuckles ] The hell does that mean? 132 00:05:12,877 --> 00:05:14,792 Means we get paid more than your cousin. 133 00:05:14,836 --> 00:05:16,925 What it means is that private clientele 134 00:05:16,968 --> 00:05:18,666 hire us to protect their property. 135 00:05:18,709 --> 00:05:20,668 Now, what we're gonna teach you today 136 00:05:20,711 --> 00:05:23,888 is called an anchor, flank, and pinch drill. 137 00:05:23,932 --> 00:05:26,282 It's the most useful tactic you will learn today. 138 00:05:28,937 --> 00:05:31,331 A reminder that the virtual memorial service 139 00:05:31,374 --> 00:05:33,550 for Captain Herrera will take place this afternoon. 140 00:05:33,594 --> 00:05:35,465 I can't believe after all the crap we went through 141 00:05:35,509 --> 00:05:36,988 to get him his Line of Duty funeral, 142 00:05:37,032 --> 00:05:38,903 we have to do it on the frickin' Internet.Agreed. 143 00:05:38,947 --> 00:05:41,036 Tell me again why we can'tjust wait until after lockdown. 144 00:05:41,079 --> 00:05:42,690 I mean,he was cremated anyway. 145 00:05:42,733 --> 00:05:44,648 'Cause we don't know when "after lockdown's" gonna be. 146 00:05:44,692 --> 00:05:46,258 Can't be more thana couple weeks, right? 147 00:05:46,302 --> 00:05:47,782 Yeah, you just keep telling yourself that. 148 00:05:47,825 --> 00:05:49,087 Sorry! Sorry I'm late! 149 00:05:49,131 --> 00:05:50,698 Miller, Miller, you touch it, you clean it. 150 00:05:50,741 --> 00:05:52,221 Thanks for the reminder, Dad. 151 00:05:52,264 --> 00:05:53,396 [ Laughter ] 152 00:05:53,440 --> 00:05:54,615 [ Laughs mockingly ] 153 00:05:54,658 --> 00:05:56,225 Six feet apart. Come on. 154 00:05:56,268 --> 00:05:57,400 Come on. We live together. 155 00:05:57,444 --> 00:05:59,533 Temporarily.Just don't be mad, Dad. 156 00:05:59,576 --> 00:06:02,231 Wow. Okay, look -- look, guys, it's not that hard. 157 00:06:02,274 --> 00:06:03,406 19 is your household, 158 00:06:03,450 --> 00:06:04,668 so you don't have to wear masks in here, 159 00:06:04,712 --> 00:06:06,801 but you do still have to keep your distance. 160 00:06:06,844 --> 00:06:08,280 That is a great segue. 161 00:06:08,324 --> 00:06:10,935 Hughes, when are you gonnaget your crap out of my place? 162 00:06:10,979 --> 00:06:12,633 [ Klaxons sound ] 163 00:06:12,676 --> 00:06:15,462 Dispatch: Aid car requested to Black Ball Hill rest area. 164 00:06:15,505 --> 00:06:16,854 You guys are lucky I'm not your dad, 165 00:06:16,898 --> 00:06:18,378 'cause if I was,you'd show more respect. 166 00:06:20,467 --> 00:06:22,251 Larson, six feet. 167 00:06:22,294 --> 00:06:24,645 Have a good day, Dad! Love you. 168 00:06:24,688 --> 00:06:28,257 So, Sasha offered to staywith me, help out with Pru. 169 00:06:28,300 --> 00:06:30,912 Also known as moving in with you? 170 00:06:30,955 --> 00:06:32,870 No. We are just quarantining together. 171 00:06:32,914 --> 00:06:34,089 That's it. Okay. 172 00:06:34,132 --> 00:06:35,264 [ Siren wailing in distance ][ Chuckles ] 173 00:06:35,307 --> 00:06:37,005 What?No, man, it's your story. 174 00:06:37,048 --> 00:06:37,962 You tell itthe way you want to. 175 00:06:38,006 --> 00:06:39,442 [ Chuckles ] 176 00:06:40,530 --> 00:06:44,708 Herrera, you, um --you need anything today? 177 00:06:44,752 --> 00:06:45,579 All good. 178 00:06:46,928 --> 00:06:48,712 [ Andy breathing heavily] 179 00:06:51,367 --> 00:06:52,934 Don't touch me. 180 00:06:52,977 --> 00:06:54,675 I'm not this -- I'm not this -- 181 00:06:54,718 --> 00:06:56,328 This -- This -- This isn't real. 182 00:06:56,372 --> 00:07:00,202 Andrea, this is real, and I know it's awful. 183 00:07:00,245 --> 00:07:01,290 I didn't want to -- but you kept calling. 184 00:07:01,333 --> 00:07:02,552 No, no.You called and you called 185 00:07:02,596 --> 00:07:04,685 and you said you wanted to know the truth. 186 00:07:04,728 --> 00:07:06,643 Sweetheart. My sweet girl. 187 00:07:06,687 --> 00:07:08,776 This is the truth. 188 00:07:08,819 --> 00:07:11,039 Just hear her out. 189 00:07:11,082 --> 00:07:12,823 Just hear her out, honey. 190 00:07:12,867 --> 00:07:15,086 [ Breathing heavily ] 191 00:07:15,130 --> 00:07:20,875 ♪♪ 192 00:07:20,918 --> 00:07:21,876 [ Door closes ] 193 00:07:21,919 --> 00:07:23,486 I know this is a lot.No. 194 00:07:23,530 --> 00:07:25,270 It's probably too much.No, no, no, no, no. 195 00:07:25,314 --> 00:07:26,837 Andrea! Andrea! 196 00:07:29,971 --> 00:07:31,755 [ Breathing heavily ] 197 00:07:40,938 --> 00:07:42,505 Travis: Ooh. 198 00:07:42,549 --> 00:07:43,680 Oh. 199 00:07:43,724 --> 00:07:46,291 How... 200 00:07:46,335 --> 00:07:48,642 How does one even date during a pandemic? 201 00:07:48,685 --> 00:07:49,773 Same way as before. 202 00:07:49,817 --> 00:07:51,688 You just text each otherfor weeks 203 00:07:51,732 --> 00:07:53,298 until someone stops responding. 204 00:07:53,342 --> 00:07:55,910 This guy's profile just says "snakes." 205 00:07:55,953 --> 00:07:58,260 Oh, do you think that means he's interested in snakes as a hobby, 206 00:07:58,303 --> 00:08:00,958 or is he interested in snake-like men? 207 00:08:01,002 --> 00:08:02,220 Does it matter? 208 00:08:04,135 --> 00:08:05,441 [ Siren chirps ] 209 00:08:05,485 --> 00:08:15,190 ♪♪ 210 00:08:15,233 --> 00:08:16,408 One of you call in a burn? 211 00:08:16,452 --> 00:08:18,367 Yeah. One of us did. 212 00:08:18,410 --> 00:08:20,238 Well, I'm sorry, you shouldn't be messing around with health stuff. 213 00:08:20,282 --> 00:08:21,675 Well, then maybeyou shouldn't have come. 214 00:08:21,718 --> 00:08:23,503 Vic: Did you call us? You hurt? 215 00:08:23,546 --> 00:08:25,548 Uh, no. Billie is. 216 00:08:25,592 --> 00:08:28,638 Okay, can you put your mask onfor me, please? 217 00:08:28,682 --> 00:08:32,337 We broke down on our way back from...my mom's house. 218 00:08:32,381 --> 00:08:33,730 [ Chuckles ] Mom's house, huh? 219 00:08:33,774 --> 00:08:34,731 All of you? 220 00:08:34,775 --> 00:08:36,341 Uh, yeah. 221 00:08:36,385 --> 00:08:38,474 Wouldn't be breaking quarantine to party, would you? 222 00:08:38,518 --> 00:08:39,693 Yeah, your parents knowyou're out here? 223 00:08:39,736 --> 00:08:41,346 Where are your masks?They're in the car. 224 00:08:41,390 --> 00:08:42,913 I mean, you weren't even wearingthem in the car, either. 225 00:08:42,957 --> 00:08:44,785 Well, you know what?We work together, so... 226 00:08:44,828 --> 00:08:46,351 Travis: Yeah. Which makes us a bubble. 227 00:08:46,395 --> 00:08:48,136 What is your name?Uh, Kayden. 228 00:08:48,179 --> 00:08:49,441 It's my car. 229 00:08:49,485 --> 00:08:51,269 Okay. Hey, come here.What happened? 230 00:08:51,313 --> 00:08:53,402 Oh, I thought maybe the car overheated, 231 00:08:53,445 --> 00:08:56,144 so I opened up the radiator cap,and, um... 232 00:08:56,187 --> 00:08:57,580 Ooh. Ouch. Okay. 233 00:08:57,624 --> 00:08:59,495 Well, next time, wait forthe car to cool down first. 234 00:08:59,539 --> 00:09:00,801 What's your name again?Billie. 235 00:09:00,844 --> 00:09:02,542 Billie. Sweet. I'm Vic. 236 00:09:02,585 --> 00:09:03,978 You boys haven't been drinking,have you? 237 00:09:04,021 --> 00:09:05,370 Oh, I'm not a boy. 238 00:09:05,414 --> 00:09:07,677 Billie's nonbinary. 239 00:09:07,721 --> 00:09:09,331 Oh. Got it. Sorry about that. 240 00:09:09,374 --> 00:09:10,593 My bad.I'm Travis. 241 00:09:10,637 --> 00:09:13,117 He/him. Sometimes she. [ Snaps fingers ] 242 00:09:17,992 --> 00:09:20,342 I'm gonna -- Should I -- I'm gonna check the car. 243 00:09:22,823 --> 00:09:25,521 The purpose of the anchor point is to prevent the fire 244 00:09:25,565 --> 00:09:27,610 from burning around the end of the control line, 245 00:09:27,654 --> 00:09:30,570 possibly outflanking the suppression crew, 246 00:09:30,613 --> 00:09:31,745 which is you guys. 247 00:09:31,788 --> 00:09:32,963 Alright? 248 00:09:33,007 --> 00:09:34,617 Good job. 249 00:09:34,661 --> 00:09:36,271 Let's take five. 250 00:09:36,314 --> 00:09:37,751 Stay where I can see you. 251 00:09:40,492 --> 00:09:42,582 I hate this crap. 252 00:09:42,625 --> 00:09:43,931 What? Drills? 253 00:09:43,974 --> 00:09:45,323 No. 254 00:09:45,367 --> 00:09:46,673 Working with criminals. 255 00:09:46,716 --> 00:09:48,762 You know they're human beingswho made mistakes 256 00:09:48,805 --> 00:09:50,851 and now have the opportunityto learn a skill 257 00:09:50,894 --> 00:09:52,461 that will helpthe society they hurt? 258 00:09:52,504 --> 00:09:55,246 Yeah, I guess you would have to look at it that way, huh? 259 00:09:55,290 --> 00:09:56,900 Why would I have tolook at it that way? 260 00:09:56,944 --> 00:09:58,467 Come on, man. 261 00:09:58,510 --> 00:10:00,774 Half these dudes are in here for selling plants, but you -- 262 00:10:00,817 --> 00:10:04,255 you steal Schedule II narcotics off an aid car? 263 00:10:04,299 --> 00:10:05,996 What? You thought I didn't know? 264 00:10:06,040 --> 00:10:07,171 Come on, man. Everybody talks. 265 00:10:07,215 --> 00:10:09,609 And everybody knows. 266 00:10:09,652 --> 00:10:12,350 My only question is, how'd you manage not to get locked up in here? 267 00:10:14,135 --> 00:10:15,353 Nelligan: Are you sure? 268 00:10:15,397 --> 00:10:17,399 Could you do the test just to be sure? 269 00:10:17,442 --> 00:10:20,358 Mr. Nelligan, the COVID testsare in short supply right now, 270 00:10:20,402 --> 00:10:22,143 so we have to limit themto people with symptoms. 271 00:10:22,186 --> 00:10:23,797 You know, I think I feel my throat 272 00:10:23,840 --> 00:10:25,494 closing up just a tiny bit. 273 00:10:25,537 --> 00:10:28,410 [ Chuckles ] Well, then Isuggest you walk three blocks 274 00:10:28,453 --> 00:10:29,803 down the road to Grey-Sloan. 275 00:10:29,846 --> 00:10:32,153 And risk getting it from someone there? 276 00:10:32,196 --> 00:10:35,330 Mr. Nelligan, it's the sameas I told you last week. 277 00:10:35,373 --> 00:10:37,419 The best thing you can dois stay home, 278 00:10:37,462 --> 00:10:39,203 wear a maskif you do go outside, 279 00:10:39,247 --> 00:10:41,162 and stay six feet awayfrom anyone else, okay? 280 00:10:41,205 --> 00:10:42,206 Fine. Fine. 281 00:10:42,250 --> 00:10:43,904 I don't knowwhat I pay taxes for 282 00:10:43,947 --> 00:10:46,384 if I can't get a test during a pandemic. 283 00:10:48,996 --> 00:10:50,693 [ Door closes ] 284 00:10:50,737 --> 00:10:52,260 [ Andy breathing heavily] 285 00:10:52,303 --> 00:10:55,611 Andrea. Andrea. 286 00:10:55,655 --> 00:10:57,047 I'm sorry. 287 00:10:57,091 --> 00:10:58,353 I should have told you -- 288 00:10:58,396 --> 00:10:59,789 That my mother is alive? 289 00:10:59,833 --> 00:11:01,356 That she faked her own death? 290 00:11:01,399 --> 00:11:02,923 That she let me believe -- 291 00:11:02,966 --> 00:11:04,533 Oh, my God, this is --You called me a lot of times. 292 00:11:04,576 --> 00:11:05,621 You said you wanted to talk. 293 00:11:05,665 --> 00:11:07,188 You said your fatherhad lied to you. 294 00:11:07,231 --> 00:11:08,537 You saidyou found my letters. 295 00:11:08,580 --> 00:11:09,843 I thought she had killed herself! 296 00:11:09,886 --> 00:11:12,193 I-I wanted to see you. I-I missed you. 297 00:11:12,236 --> 00:11:14,412 I wanted to know why you left meafter she died, 298 00:11:14,456 --> 00:11:16,023 why I never saw you again, why -- 299 00:11:16,066 --> 00:11:17,241 I missed you,Tía. 300 00:11:17,285 --> 00:11:18,634 I know, but how could I? 301 00:11:18,678 --> 00:11:20,592 How could I see you when --What could I have said? 302 00:11:20,636 --> 00:11:21,681 What could I have saidthat would be true? 303 00:11:21,724 --> 00:11:22,856 Did my dad know? 304 00:11:22,899 --> 00:11:24,901 Did he know she was alive? 305 00:11:24,945 --> 00:11:27,251 That's not my story to tell, Andy. 306 00:11:27,295 --> 00:11:29,210 Your mother is here. 307 00:11:29,253 --> 00:11:30,733 She came a long way to talk -- 308 00:11:30,777 --> 00:11:32,256 She came a long way? 309 00:11:32,300 --> 00:11:33,997 You want me to give her credit? 310 00:11:34,041 --> 00:11:35,259 After 20 years? 311 00:11:35,303 --> 00:11:37,740 After 20 years, she came -- 312 00:11:37,784 --> 00:11:38,741 [ Hyperventilating ] 313 00:11:38,785 --> 00:11:42,527 Andy. Andy, honey. 314 00:11:42,571 --> 00:11:49,970 ♪♪ 315 00:11:50,013 --> 00:11:52,886 Andrea, talk to her. 316 00:11:52,929 --> 00:11:55,671 You deserve to know the whole story, 317 00:11:55,715 --> 00:11:57,629 even if she doesn't deserveto tell it. 318 00:11:57,673 --> 00:12:00,154 ♪♪ 319 00:12:01,982 --> 00:12:04,549 Vic: I dunno, I just feel like I need to vibe with a guy 320 00:12:04,593 --> 00:12:06,508 if I'm gonna risk my life to make out with him. 321 00:12:06,551 --> 00:12:08,031 Who said I was planningon making out? 322 00:12:08,075 --> 00:12:09,293 Oh, so you have zero intention 323 00:12:09,337 --> 00:12:10,642 of actually sleeping with any of these guys? 324 00:12:10,686 --> 00:12:12,775 We will cross that bridge... 325 00:12:12,819 --> 00:12:14,298 when it becomes impossible not to. 326 00:12:14,342 --> 00:12:16,039 [ Laughs ] 327 00:12:16,083 --> 00:12:18,781 Anyway, it's like going to the gym. 328 00:12:18,825 --> 00:12:22,480 You stretch before and then...wipe everything down after. 329 00:12:22,524 --> 00:12:23,481 [ Laughs ] 330 00:12:23,525 --> 00:12:24,874 Speaking of which, actually, 331 00:12:24,918 --> 00:12:27,703 what is going on with Herrera and Sullivan? 332 00:12:27,747 --> 00:12:29,052 Oh, my God. 333 00:12:29,096 --> 00:12:30,793 What? What? Who is it? 334 00:12:30,837 --> 00:12:32,360 Who is it? 335 00:12:32,403 --> 00:12:34,928 Car fire at Black Ball Hill rest area. 336 00:12:34,971 --> 00:12:36,233 That's those kids. 337 00:12:36,277 --> 00:12:37,844 What the hell did they do? 338 00:12:37,887 --> 00:12:40,281 [ Tires screech ] 339 00:12:40,324 --> 00:12:47,157 ♪♪ 340 00:12:47,201 --> 00:12:48,811 [ Billie screams ] 341 00:12:51,205 --> 00:12:52,902 [ Screams ] 342 00:12:52,946 --> 00:12:57,298 ♪♪ 343 00:12:57,341 --> 00:12:59,039 [ Screams ] 344 00:13:05,480 --> 00:13:07,395 [ Klaxons sound ]So, should I do it? 345 00:13:07,438 --> 00:13:08,483 What?Let Sasha quarantine with me. 346 00:13:08,526 --> 00:13:09,658 You mean move in with you? 347 00:13:09,701 --> 00:13:11,225 Look, I have a baby,alright? 348 00:13:11,268 --> 00:13:13,575 I have a whole tiny humanwith a very big cry 349 00:13:13,618 --> 00:13:14,968 and a great many a need, 350 00:13:15,011 --> 00:13:17,709 and it's just the two of uslocked up together, man. 351 00:13:17,753 --> 00:13:20,277 And frankly, firefighting isway easier than childrearing, 352 00:13:20,321 --> 00:13:21,452 and Sasha wants to help. 353 00:13:21,496 --> 00:13:23,411 So, I should justlet her help, right? 354 00:13:23,454 --> 00:13:24,934 Yeah, okay. 355 00:13:24,978 --> 00:13:27,284 But you actually like her, right? 356 00:13:27,328 --> 00:13:29,460 Yeah, sure. Yes, yes. 357 00:13:29,504 --> 00:13:30,897 [ Laughs ]Laughing's not helpful. 358 00:13:30,940 --> 00:13:31,811 That doesn't help. 359 00:13:31,854 --> 00:13:33,377 [ Laughs ] 360 00:13:34,770 --> 00:13:36,467 [ Siren wailing ][ Laughs ] 361 00:13:36,511 --> 00:13:38,078 Hey. We told you to wait for a tow. 362 00:13:38,121 --> 00:13:39,383 He tried to fix it. 363 00:13:39,427 --> 00:13:40,689 He thought he could fix it, and it -- it -- 364 00:13:40,732 --> 00:13:42,256 It blew up? Okay. 365 00:13:42,299 --> 00:13:43,518 Billie, was anyone else hurt?It blew up. 366 00:13:43,561 --> 00:13:45,302 Why did it blow up?!Billie, were they hurt? 367 00:13:45,346 --> 00:13:47,739 They ran. I-I don't know. I don't know. They ran. 368 00:13:47,783 --> 00:13:49,524 Why did they run? [ Sniffs ] 369 00:13:49,567 --> 00:13:52,483 Billie, are you just scared,or are you on something? 370 00:13:52,527 --> 00:13:53,484 Huh? 371 00:13:53,528 --> 00:13:55,138 Billie? Billie! 372 00:13:57,010 --> 00:13:58,794 Ladder 19, this is Aid Car 19. 373 00:13:58,838 --> 00:14:00,056 I have an 18-year-old male 374 00:14:00,100 --> 00:14:02,319 with full thickness burnsfrom a car explosion, 375 00:14:02,363 --> 00:14:04,800 three other teenagers MIA,possibly injured, 376 00:14:04,844 --> 00:14:06,671 possibly high, definitely stupid. 377 00:14:06,715 --> 00:14:08,630 Copy, Hughes. We're four minutes out. 378 00:14:08,673 --> 00:14:10,893 Get the patient in the aid car and ready to go when we arrive. 379 00:14:10,937 --> 00:14:12,634 [ Siren wailing ] 380 00:14:12,677 --> 00:14:15,289 Dispatch,I need four more aid cars 381 00:14:15,332 --> 00:14:17,421 at Black Ball Hill rest area. 382 00:14:19,728 --> 00:14:21,773 Tell me again what my dad said to you 383 00:14:21,817 --> 00:14:24,428 before he went up that ladder. 384 00:14:24,472 --> 00:14:25,821 He said, "Tell Andreaeverything I did --" 385 00:14:25,865 --> 00:14:27,692 "Everything I did, I did because I loved her." 386 00:14:27,736 --> 00:14:28,911 Right? 387 00:14:31,522 --> 00:14:33,307 Are you gonna put itin the eulogy? 388 00:14:35,962 --> 00:14:37,180 Elena:Don't you want to sit? 389 00:14:37,224 --> 00:14:38,529 Did my father beat you? 390 00:14:38,573 --> 00:14:41,619 Did he -- Did he torture you? 391 00:14:41,663 --> 00:14:43,839 Was -- Was he a monster and I just never knew it? 392 00:14:43,883 --> 00:14:47,451 No. I was overwhelmedfrom the minute you were born. 393 00:14:47,495 --> 00:14:49,714 I-I was in over my head.I-I... 394 00:14:49,758 --> 00:14:52,935 I never planned to be a mother,but I loved you. 395 00:14:52,979 --> 00:14:55,242 I-I love you. 396 00:14:55,285 --> 00:14:57,113 I just wanted to fight fires, 397 00:14:57,157 --> 00:14:58,549 and I know that you get that, m'ija. 398 00:14:58,593 --> 00:15:00,073 Can you not call me that? 399 00:15:00,116 --> 00:15:01,639 Papi calls me that. 400 00:15:03,598 --> 00:15:06,993 I got pregnant,and I thought I was wrong. 401 00:15:07,036 --> 00:15:08,646 I was told I was wrong. 402 00:15:08,690 --> 00:15:10,997 I was told that I wouldlove being a mother. 403 00:15:11,040 --> 00:15:13,956 Elena: I was told thatthe minute I held you in my arms 404 00:15:14,000 --> 00:15:16,916 that I would forget about every dream I had before you, 405 00:15:16,959 --> 00:15:17,960 but that didn't happen. 406 00:15:18,004 --> 00:15:21,485 You were born, and I loved you, 407 00:15:21,529 --> 00:15:23,400 but I also resented you, 408 00:15:23,444 --> 00:15:25,881 and I resented your father 409 00:15:25,925 --> 00:15:28,928 for getting to do the one thing we both wanted to do. 410 00:15:28,971 --> 00:15:30,538 I was so depressed. 411 00:15:30,581 --> 00:15:34,455 I became unstable, self-loathing, angry, violent. 412 00:15:34,498 --> 00:15:36,152 And that was a different time. 413 00:15:36,196 --> 00:15:38,328 No one ever talked about mental health back then, 414 00:15:38,372 --> 00:15:39,764 especially not for mothers. 415 00:15:39,808 --> 00:15:42,767 I felt hopeless. I felt like a failure. 416 00:15:42,811 --> 00:15:45,248 I wanted to die because there was no way out. 417 00:15:45,292 --> 00:15:47,729 There was not a way out that wouldn't destroy you. 418 00:15:47,772 --> 00:15:49,687 But I loved you. 419 00:15:49,731 --> 00:15:51,776 I still love you, Andy. 420 00:15:51,820 --> 00:15:53,561 W-Where -- Where did you go? 421 00:15:53,604 --> 00:15:56,390 I went to New York, where my cousins lived. 422 00:15:56,433 --> 00:15:59,393 I fought fires for two years, and then I injured out. 423 00:15:59,436 --> 00:16:01,134 I need you to understand 424 00:16:01,177 --> 00:16:04,398 that this is the biggest shame of my life. 425 00:16:04,441 --> 00:16:07,140 Biggest shame. 426 00:16:07,183 --> 00:16:09,185 But notyour biggest regret. 427 00:16:11,187 --> 00:16:12,580 [ Exhales sharply ] 428 00:16:12,623 --> 00:16:15,844 You... You aren't sorry. 429 00:16:15,887 --> 00:16:17,846 You're not --You're not sorry, are you? 430 00:16:17,889 --> 00:16:19,587 Of course I am.But you -- But you haven't said that. 431 00:16:19,630 --> 00:16:21,067 You've said a lot of thingstonight, 432 00:16:21,110 --> 00:16:22,851 but you haven't said,"I'm sorry for leaving you 433 00:16:22,894 --> 00:16:24,026 and letting you thinkI was dead." 434 00:16:24,070 --> 00:16:25,375 Well, I didn't know -- 435 00:16:25,419 --> 00:16:26,594 You didn't knowthat faking your own death 436 00:16:26,637 --> 00:16:28,030 would make me think you were dead?! 437 00:16:28,074 --> 00:16:30,293 I didn't fake anything, Andrea! 438 00:16:31,729 --> 00:16:34,471 I just left. 439 00:16:34,515 --> 00:16:36,212 Your father did the rest. 440 00:16:37,822 --> 00:16:39,520 [ Siren wailing ] 441 00:16:44,873 --> 00:16:47,093 [ Radio chatter ] 442 00:16:49,486 --> 00:16:52,011 Montgomery, go and search the perimeter. 443 00:16:52,054 --> 00:16:54,143 Hey, we treated a small burn from a radiator cap earlier 444 00:16:54,187 --> 00:16:55,840 and then left them waiting for a tow truck. 445 00:16:55,884 --> 00:16:58,017 They must have poured gas in the radiator. 446 00:16:58,060 --> 00:16:59,583 Let's put water on that -- 447 00:16:59,627 --> 00:17:01,063 [ Fire whooshes ] 448 00:17:01,107 --> 00:17:03,457 [ Wind whistling ] 449 00:17:03,500 --> 00:17:05,111 There it goes! 450 00:17:05,154 --> 00:17:06,808 [ Indistinct shouting ] 451 00:17:06,851 --> 00:17:09,811 Anchor, flank, and pinch! Don't let that fire grow! 452 00:17:09,854 --> 00:17:11,987 Dispatch, we have a car fire that's spread to some trees. 453 00:17:12,031 --> 00:17:14,120 I'm gonna need three more engines. 454 00:17:14,163 --> 00:17:15,904 Knock down that fire, Banks! Come on! 455 00:17:15,947 --> 00:17:18,254 Sully. We're getting called in. 456 00:17:18,298 --> 00:17:19,951 Wildfire?Black Ball Hill. 457 00:17:19,995 --> 00:17:21,518 Hey, yo, can we come? 458 00:17:21,562 --> 00:17:23,694 Nah. This isthe big leagues, Banks. 459 00:17:23,738 --> 00:17:26,001 You stay here and keeppracticing with your toy hoses. 460 00:17:26,045 --> 00:17:27,959 Sullivan: You know, you don't have to mock them. 461 00:17:28,003 --> 00:17:29,613 I know Banks is a pain in the ass, 462 00:17:29,657 --> 00:17:31,006 but he'll be a good firefighter. 463 00:17:31,050 --> 00:17:33,617 Yeah, for Convict Work Crew Number One. 464 00:17:33,661 --> 00:17:36,272 Nothing wrong with that.We rely on these guys. 465 00:17:36,316 --> 00:17:38,144 Then why does the state pay themnext to nothing, huh? 466 00:17:38,187 --> 00:17:39,754 Well, that's just how it is. 467 00:17:39,797 --> 00:17:41,625 It's rehabilitation. 468 00:17:41,669 --> 00:17:44,280 Nah. It's capitalism, Sully. 469 00:17:44,324 --> 00:17:46,065 They're cheap labor while they're here, 470 00:17:46,108 --> 00:17:47,631 but you know damn wellSeattle Fire 471 00:17:47,675 --> 00:17:49,111 ain't gonna hire themwhen they get out. 472 00:17:49,155 --> 00:17:51,766 Hey. That's another thingyou have in common with them. 473 00:17:51,809 --> 00:17:54,725 [ Laughs ] 474 00:17:54,769 --> 00:17:56,858 Warren, grab some brush rolls off of Engine 19 475 00:17:56,901 --> 00:17:58,207 so they can extend the line on the left flank. 476 00:17:58,251 --> 00:17:59,382 Copy.Grabbing brush rolls. 477 00:17:59,426 --> 00:18:01,123 Travis: Captain! [ Grunts ] 478 00:18:01,993 --> 00:18:03,212 Miller, go! 479 00:18:04,692 --> 00:18:05,780 Almost there. 480 00:18:08,174 --> 00:18:09,740 Dispatch, where's that other aid car? 481 00:18:15,833 --> 00:18:18,009 [ Sirens wailing ] 482 00:18:19,533 --> 00:18:21,796 [ Brakes screech ] 483 00:18:21,839 --> 00:18:24,929 Warren, I've got some ember caston my right flank. 484 00:18:24,973 --> 00:18:26,757 I need you to bring a coupleof those brush rolls 485 00:18:26,801 --> 00:18:28,107 and a water thief to the side. 486 00:18:28,150 --> 00:18:29,891 Copy. Go, go, go! 487 00:18:32,763 --> 00:18:34,852 Montgomery, let's go! Let's go! Come on! 488 00:18:34,896 --> 00:18:36,593 This is Billie, 18-year-old NB 489 00:18:36,637 --> 00:18:37,986 with partial thickness burnson both forearms 490 00:18:38,029 --> 00:18:39,335 and smoke inhalation. 491 00:18:39,379 --> 00:18:40,684 I just put them on oxygen. 492 00:18:40,728 --> 00:18:42,599 Hemodynamically stable.No loss of consciousness. 493 00:18:42,643 --> 00:18:45,689 Possible -- probable --drugs involved. 494 00:18:45,733 --> 00:18:47,300 The other two are stillout there somewhere. 495 00:18:47,343 --> 00:18:48,518 19'll find them. 496 00:18:48,562 --> 00:18:55,917 ♪♪ 497 00:18:55,960 --> 00:18:57,745 [ Radio chatter, siren wails ] 498 00:19:00,182 --> 00:19:01,966 This is just wrong. 499 00:19:02,010 --> 00:19:04,230 What? You suddenly grew a conscience? 500 00:19:05,970 --> 00:19:08,016 Fowler, I had an injury on the job, 501 00:19:08,059 --> 00:19:09,974 and I developed an addiction, 502 00:19:10,018 --> 00:19:12,934 which explains why I briefly became someone I didn't like. 503 00:19:12,977 --> 00:19:14,762 Now, you're someone else I don't like. 504 00:19:14,805 --> 00:19:17,330 But as far as I can tell... 505 00:19:17,373 --> 00:19:19,245 you were just born that way. 506 00:19:19,288 --> 00:19:21,986 [ Laughs ] 507 00:19:26,034 --> 00:19:27,035 Ah. 508 00:19:27,078 --> 00:19:28,602 Cheer up, Sully. 509 00:19:28,645 --> 00:19:31,082 Don't call me Sully. 510 00:19:31,126 --> 00:19:33,302 See this big house? 511 00:19:33,346 --> 00:19:35,391 This is why they pay usthe big bucks. 512 00:19:38,873 --> 00:19:40,179 [ Siren wailing ] 513 00:19:40,222 --> 00:19:42,268 Vic: Grey-Sloan, this is Hughes on Aid Car 19. 514 00:19:42,311 --> 00:19:44,487 I have an 18-year-old male with extensive full thickness burns. 515 00:19:44,531 --> 00:19:46,402 TBSA estimate greater than 70%. 516 00:19:46,446 --> 00:19:47,795 Hypotensive and intubated. 517 00:19:47,838 --> 00:19:49,231 Nurse: Hughes, I'm sorry, 518 00:19:49,275 --> 00:19:50,624 but we aren't taking any non-COVID emergencies. 519 00:19:50,667 --> 00:19:51,712 Pressure's dropping! 520 00:19:51,755 --> 00:19:52,930 See, that's not gonna work for me 521 00:19:52,974 --> 00:19:54,367 because I have a barbecued teenager here 522 00:19:54,410 --> 00:19:55,629 and you're the closest burn center. 523 00:19:55,672 --> 00:19:56,978 Very sorry, but --Okay, cool. 524 00:19:57,021 --> 00:19:58,501 See ya soon. Bye. 525 00:19:58,545 --> 00:20:01,287 Pushy! I like it! 526 00:20:01,330 --> 00:20:03,289 Andy: Bishop, I've got a spot fire to my right 527 00:20:03,332 --> 00:20:05,682 about 50 yards outside the burn. 528 00:20:08,294 --> 00:20:09,991 Fowler: Just don'topen the door, babe. 529 00:20:12,863 --> 00:20:14,213 No, no. 530 00:20:14,256 --> 00:20:15,518 He's gonna set it on the porch, 531 00:20:15,562 --> 00:20:17,912 then he'll walk away,then you can go get it. 532 00:20:17,955 --> 00:20:19,435 Andy: That spot is starting to run. 533 00:20:19,479 --> 00:20:21,263 It might hook our location. Warren! 534 00:20:21,307 --> 00:20:22,612 No. No. 535 00:20:22,656 --> 00:20:25,093 No, you do not have to boil itbefore you eat it. 536 00:20:25,136 --> 00:20:26,747 Gibson, I need you over here! 537 00:20:26,790 --> 00:20:28,618 [ Beeping ] 538 00:20:28,662 --> 00:20:33,362 ♪♪ 539 00:20:33,406 --> 00:20:34,450 [ Engine starts ] 540 00:20:34,494 --> 00:20:35,669 The hell? 541 00:20:35,712 --> 00:20:37,236 Sullivan! 542 00:20:37,279 --> 00:20:38,976 Hey! 543 00:20:39,020 --> 00:20:40,326 Cruz, we're gonna need water. 544 00:20:40,369 --> 00:20:42,589 Hand lay a two and a half down to that hydrant. 545 00:20:42,632 --> 00:20:45,287 Dispatch, did you ask for a private company -- 546 00:20:46,593 --> 00:20:47,681 Disregard. 547 00:20:49,770 --> 00:20:51,685 Bishop. 548 00:20:51,728 --> 00:20:52,773 Where do you need me? 549 00:20:52,816 --> 00:20:58,169 ♪♪ 550 00:20:58,213 --> 00:20:59,693 North side. 551 00:20:59,736 --> 00:21:01,347 Lay a hose line around the flankof that spot fire 552 00:21:01,390 --> 00:21:03,305 and pinch it off.Alright. Copy that. 553 00:21:03,349 --> 00:21:11,052 ♪♪ 554 00:21:11,095 --> 00:21:12,575 [ Coughing ] 555 00:21:16,187 --> 00:21:18,625 Captain, I have eyes on one of the other kids. 556 00:21:18,668 --> 00:21:20,279 Maya: Good. Keep working on that fire. 557 00:21:20,322 --> 00:21:22,324 That's the best way to protect him until we can evac. 558 00:21:22,368 --> 00:21:27,590 ♪♪ 559 00:21:27,634 --> 00:21:30,245 My father told me you were very sick. 560 00:21:30,289 --> 00:21:33,944 I always assumed you had someillness that couldn't be cured. 561 00:21:36,425 --> 00:21:38,601 I guess you did.Just not the kind I thought. 562 00:21:38,645 --> 00:21:40,473 You know, when fathers leave their children, 563 00:21:40,516 --> 00:21:42,213 no one blames it on mental illness, 564 00:21:42,257 --> 00:21:43,824 no one calls them monsters. 565 00:21:43,867 --> 00:21:46,174 They just turn to the mother who's left alone 566 00:21:46,217 --> 00:21:47,784 and is expected to do both jobs. 567 00:21:47,828 --> 00:21:49,786 Which is what you didto my dad. 568 00:21:49,830 --> 00:21:51,875 I told you, I was not in the right mind --Well, which one was it? 569 00:21:51,919 --> 00:21:53,355 Were you mentally ill,or were you not? 570 00:21:53,399 --> 00:21:55,357 I don't know. I was depressed. 571 00:21:55,401 --> 00:21:57,098 I was exhausted. 572 00:21:57,141 --> 00:21:59,056 And sometimes suicidal. 573 00:21:59,100 --> 00:22:00,797 I was never diagnosed or medicated -- 574 00:22:00,841 --> 00:22:02,973 You were just happieronce I was out of your life. 575 00:22:03,017 --> 00:22:05,759 No. I was devastated. 576 00:22:05,802 --> 00:22:09,371 And I missed you desperately. 577 00:22:09,415 --> 00:22:12,287 And, yes... 578 00:22:12,331 --> 00:22:14,681 I felt free. 579 00:22:14,724 --> 00:22:17,640 When -- When you left... 580 00:22:17,684 --> 00:22:20,600 did he tell you he was gonnasay you were dead? 581 00:22:20,643 --> 00:22:22,906 No. He asked me, "What am I supposed to tell 582 00:22:22,950 --> 00:22:25,300 a 9-year-old girl about why her mother left her?" 583 00:22:25,344 --> 00:22:28,085 And I said, "I don't know. 584 00:22:28,129 --> 00:22:29,565 Tell her I'm dead." 585 00:22:29,609 --> 00:22:31,393 But I didn't mean it, 586 00:22:31,437 --> 00:22:34,135 just like I didn't mean to leave you that day forever.But you did! 587 00:22:34,178 --> 00:22:36,093 You left. 588 00:22:39,270 --> 00:22:41,708 And my father made the decision 589 00:22:41,751 --> 00:22:43,884 that it would be less painful for me to grieve you 590 00:22:43,927 --> 00:22:47,540 than to know you abandoned me. 591 00:22:47,583 --> 00:22:49,368 [ Conor coughing] 592 00:22:51,326 --> 00:22:52,936 I needa fire shelter here! 593 00:22:52,980 --> 00:22:54,111 Sullivan: I got it! 594 00:22:54,155 --> 00:22:55,461 Robert? 595 00:22:55,504 --> 00:22:56,636 Keep your eyes on the fire, Herrera. 596 00:22:56,679 --> 00:22:57,724 I got it. 597 00:22:57,767 --> 00:22:59,639 [ Coughing ] 598 00:22:59,682 --> 00:23:01,118 You're gonna be okay. 599 00:23:04,992 --> 00:23:08,735 Hold it close to the ground, and do not move no matter what. 600 00:23:08,778 --> 00:23:10,432 You hear me?!Yeah. 601 00:23:10,476 --> 00:23:15,611 ♪♪ 602 00:23:15,655 --> 00:23:20,529 ♪♪ 603 00:23:25,795 --> 00:23:28,102 [ Conor coughing ] 604 00:23:28,145 --> 00:23:30,409 ♪♪ 605 00:23:30,452 --> 00:23:33,063 Herrera, we got this. Go help him. 606 00:23:35,892 --> 00:23:37,677 It's okay. It's okay. 607 00:23:37,720 --> 00:23:40,419 Bishop, I have one male with second-degree burns, 608 00:23:40,462 --> 00:23:41,637 possibly in shock.Maya: Copy. 609 00:23:41,681 --> 00:23:43,291 We have an aid car standing by. 610 00:23:43,334 --> 00:23:44,423 Frankie. Frankie. 611 00:23:44,466 --> 00:23:45,336 Frankie? Frankie, is that your name? 612 00:23:45,380 --> 00:23:46,816 No, no, I'm -- I'm Conor. 613 00:23:46,860 --> 00:23:48,601 Conor, my name is Andy. Where else does it hurt? 614 00:23:48,644 --> 00:23:50,472 I don't -- I don't -- W-We --We just wanted to be together 615 00:23:50,516 --> 00:23:51,778 for one night,you know, one party. 616 00:23:51,821 --> 00:23:53,693 Prom's been canceled.Graduation's been canceled. 617 00:23:53,736 --> 00:23:55,738 Okay.They're mailing usour freaking diplomas! 618 00:23:55,782 --> 00:23:57,305 12 years of school,and we're missing everything! 619 00:23:57,348 --> 00:23:58,480 It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. 620 00:23:58,524 --> 00:23:59,568 Hey, take a deep breath for me. 621 00:23:59,612 --> 00:24:00,830 Okay, what's your name again? 622 00:24:00,874 --> 00:24:03,224 Conor Jaxtimer.Have you found Frankie yet? 623 00:24:03,267 --> 00:24:04,573 Sullivan: Let's get him up. 624 00:24:04,617 --> 00:24:06,314 Bishop, there's another kid out here. 625 00:24:06,357 --> 00:24:07,794 Let's get you up.His name is Frankie. 626 00:24:07,837 --> 00:24:10,492 Come on. Let's go find him. 627 00:24:10,536 --> 00:24:12,451 Gibson, any sign of the fourth kid? 628 00:24:12,494 --> 00:24:14,017 Jack: Not yet. Will update. 629 00:24:14,061 --> 00:24:16,455 [ Siren chirps ][ Conor coughing ] 630 00:24:17,847 --> 00:24:19,066 [ Grunting ]Come on. 631 00:24:20,807 --> 00:24:22,417 Wait, wait, wait. You have to find Frankie. 632 00:24:22,461 --> 00:24:23,549 He's got a bunch of health problems. 633 00:24:23,592 --> 00:24:24,985 He didn't want to come out and party. 634 00:24:25,028 --> 00:24:25,768 I forced him to. 635 00:24:25,812 --> 00:24:26,987 Come on. 636 00:24:27,030 --> 00:24:28,684 Frankie, hey! 637 00:24:28,728 --> 00:24:31,208 Frankie, can you hear me?! 638 00:24:31,252 --> 00:24:33,341 Frankie, I'm here to help you! 639 00:24:33,384 --> 00:24:35,691 [ Weakly ] Help!Frankie! 640 00:24:35,735 --> 00:24:37,911 Frankie, call out if you can hear me. 641 00:24:37,954 --> 00:24:39,565 Help! 642 00:24:43,830 --> 00:24:44,744 I got him! 643 00:24:48,095 --> 00:24:50,140 I was running, and then I tripped. 644 00:24:50,184 --> 00:24:51,620 There was so much smoke.It's okay. 645 00:24:51,664 --> 00:24:52,795 It's okay. I'm gonna help you now. 646 00:24:52,839 --> 00:24:54,014 This is Warren. 647 00:24:54,057 --> 00:24:55,494 I'm gonna need a stretcher and a med bag. 648 00:24:58,061 --> 00:25:00,890 Frankie, have you, uh -- have you had a surgery recently? 649 00:25:00,934 --> 00:25:02,805 Yeah. Am I bleeding? 650 00:25:02,849 --> 00:25:04,764 [ Whimpering ] 651 00:25:04,807 --> 00:25:07,723 Oh, man! My dad's gonna freak out! 652 00:25:10,639 --> 00:25:12,206 Hey, Hughes!We're not taking any -- 653 00:25:12,249 --> 00:25:14,556 No, I know you're not taking any non-COVID cases right now, 654 00:25:14,600 --> 00:25:16,340 but you are taking this teenagerwith full thickness burns 655 00:25:16,384 --> 00:25:17,907 from head to toe from a car explosion. 656 00:25:17,951 --> 00:25:18,865 I intubated him on the scene. 657 00:25:18,908 --> 00:25:20,431 He's hypotensive and tachycardic, 658 00:25:20,475 --> 00:25:21,824 and you are the best, so you are taking him, 659 00:25:21,868 --> 00:25:22,999 because if you send us away, he dies 660 00:25:23,043 --> 00:25:24,784 and that makes you a murderer. 661 00:25:24,827 --> 00:25:25,567 Okay. Okay. 662 00:25:25,611 --> 00:25:27,395 Okay, trauma one. 663 00:25:27,438 --> 00:25:28,962 You were right to bring him here.Yeah, I know that. 664 00:25:29,005 --> 00:25:30,572 Oh, uh, the next kid that comes in, Billie, 665 00:25:30,616 --> 00:25:32,661 make sure no one calls them "he" or "she," okay? 666 00:25:32,705 --> 00:25:35,055 Wait, there's more?Yeah, don't murder any of the burned teenagers, Dr. Hunt! 667 00:25:35,098 --> 00:25:36,317 [ Groans ] 668 00:25:36,360 --> 00:25:37,492 Let's go. 669 00:25:41,235 --> 00:25:43,150 I hate teenagers. 670 00:25:43,193 --> 00:25:45,674 I hated teenagers evenwhen I was a teenager. 671 00:25:45,718 --> 00:25:48,155 'Cause they're so stupid?'Cause they're so stupid. 672 00:25:48,198 --> 00:25:49,939 Yeah, well, their brainsaren't fully formed yet, 673 00:25:49,983 --> 00:25:51,375 so it's not entirelytheir fault. 674 00:25:51,419 --> 00:25:53,595 It's like hating a puppyfor being cute. 675 00:25:53,639 --> 00:25:56,337 You know, they can't helpwhat they are, so... 676 00:25:56,380 --> 00:25:59,383 I hate that they're gonna miss prom and graduation. 677 00:25:59,427 --> 00:26:01,081 High school sucks enough without a pandemic 678 00:26:01,124 --> 00:26:02,604 to take away all the parts that don't suck. 679 00:26:02,648 --> 00:26:03,474 Oh, yeah. 680 00:26:04,911 --> 00:26:06,913 Hey, Vic.Huh? 681 00:26:06,956 --> 00:26:08,784 Whatever happenedto hot doctor lover? 682 00:26:08,828 --> 00:26:11,134 Oh, just doctor, not lover. 683 00:26:11,178 --> 00:26:12,309 Still hot, though. 684 00:26:12,353 --> 00:26:14,181 Yeah. Yeah. 685 00:26:14,224 --> 00:26:16,313 Oh, wait, who did you see on that app? 686 00:26:18,141 --> 00:26:19,621 Wha-- Travis? 687 00:26:19,665 --> 00:26:21,188 I'm gonna disinfect the front. 688 00:26:22,624 --> 00:26:25,758 [ Crying ] I'm not just some dumb kid, I swear. 689 00:26:25,801 --> 00:26:27,281 I was almost valedictorian, 690 00:26:27,324 --> 00:26:29,500 if I hadn't missed so much school for my health stuff. 691 00:26:29,544 --> 00:26:31,764 I hadn't even left the house since we went into lockdown. 692 00:26:31,807 --> 00:26:34,244 I just wanted to see my friends.Frankie. Frankie. 693 00:26:34,288 --> 00:26:36,246 I have a couple of kidsabout your age, 694 00:26:36,290 --> 00:26:37,552 and if one of them was hurt, 695 00:26:37,596 --> 00:26:39,685 even if it was becausethey did something stupid, 696 00:26:39,728 --> 00:26:41,730 all I would want is for themto get better. 697 00:26:41,774 --> 00:26:42,818 Everyone makes mistakes. 698 00:26:42,862 --> 00:26:44,603 [ Gasping ] Okay. 699 00:26:44,646 --> 00:26:46,169 Even valedictorians. 700 00:26:50,347 --> 00:26:51,958 Andy: Captain, we're done mopping up. 701 00:26:52,001 --> 00:26:53,742 We've cold-trailed the entire perimeter. 702 00:26:53,786 --> 00:26:55,614 Maya: Good work, Lieutenant. Let's pack it up. 703 00:26:55,657 --> 00:26:56,789 Vic: Leaving Grey-Sloan. 704 00:26:56,832 --> 00:26:57,746 We still doing Friday Night Lights? 705 00:26:57,790 --> 00:26:58,878 Affirmative. See you there. 706 00:26:58,921 --> 00:27:00,619 Sasha's sexy, funny, and smart, 707 00:27:00,662 --> 00:27:02,403 in addition to being great with Pru. 708 00:27:02,446 --> 00:27:04,753 I'm alone, she's alone. 709 00:27:04,797 --> 00:27:06,973 Having a quarantine buddy that'salso good at changing diapers, 710 00:27:07,016 --> 00:27:08,931 man, it's -- it's a win-win. 711 00:27:08,975 --> 00:27:10,846 [ Laughs ]You laugh again, I'm gonna hit you. 712 00:27:10,890 --> 00:27:13,240 You know that.It's just usually I'm the onein this friendship 713 00:27:13,283 --> 00:27:15,198 making terriblerelationship decisions. 714 00:27:15,242 --> 00:27:16,983 It's fun being on the other side. 715 00:27:17,026 --> 00:27:19,246 So, what, I-I shoulddo it? 716 00:27:19,289 --> 00:27:20,856 [ Chuckling ] I don't know, man.Do you love her? 717 00:27:20,900 --> 00:27:22,249 Love her? [ Chuckles ] 718 00:27:22,292 --> 00:27:23,642 We've only been dating six weeks. 719 00:27:23,685 --> 00:27:25,818 I'm not talking about Sasha. 720 00:27:25,861 --> 00:27:28,429 [ Radio chatter ] 721 00:27:28,472 --> 00:27:30,170 Trying not to. 722 00:27:30,213 --> 00:27:32,346 You know what to do.Do I? 723 00:27:32,389 --> 00:27:33,695 [ Laughs ] 724 00:27:33,739 --> 00:27:35,654 All that laughing, it hurts my feelings, man. 725 00:27:35,697 --> 00:27:37,394 [ Laughing ] Seriously. 726 00:27:37,438 --> 00:27:39,222 I'm laughing, but I'm hurting on the inside. 727 00:27:39,266 --> 00:27:41,616 [ Siren chirps ]Man: Alright, 19, 728 00:27:41,660 --> 00:27:43,618 let's bring some joy to the people. 729 00:27:43,662 --> 00:27:48,536 ♪ It feels like there's no more fight in you ♪ 730 00:27:48,579 --> 00:27:50,494 [ Horn blares ] 731 00:27:50,538 --> 00:27:55,717 ♪ But I see the daylight breaking through ♪ 732 00:27:55,761 --> 00:27:57,763 ♪ Yeah 733 00:27:57,806 --> 00:28:02,071 ♪ When there's no more strength to carry on ♪ 734 00:28:02,115 --> 00:28:04,595 [ Siren wails ] 735 00:28:04,639 --> 00:28:09,992 ♪ I know the storm will soon be gone ♪ 736 00:28:10,036 --> 00:28:16,912 ♪ And someday we'll be on the other side ♪ 737 00:28:16,956 --> 00:28:20,002 ♪ It won't be long 738 00:28:20,046 --> 00:28:23,745 ♪ It won't be long 739 00:28:23,789 --> 00:28:29,708 ♪ Change will come, yeah 740 00:28:29,751 --> 00:28:33,755 ♪ I know that it won't be long 741 00:28:33,799 --> 00:28:37,411 ♪ Yeah, yeah 742 00:28:37,454 --> 00:28:40,762 ♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ A change is gonna come, come, come ♪ 743 00:28:40,806 --> 00:28:44,331 ♪ Yeah 744 00:28:44,374 --> 00:28:47,769 ♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ A change is gonna come, come, come ♪ 745 00:28:47,813 --> 00:28:50,859 ♪ Yeah 746 00:28:50,903 --> 00:28:54,123 ♪ A change is gonna come 747 00:28:54,167 --> 00:28:56,125 [ Chuckles softly ] 748 00:28:56,169 --> 00:28:59,041 He said something else --your dad. 749 00:28:59,085 --> 00:29:01,522 I guess I didn't thinkto mention it before 750 00:29:01,565 --> 00:29:04,743 because I was so worried aboutremembering the other thing. 751 00:29:04,786 --> 00:29:09,835 He said he handpicked us all --all of us at 19. 752 00:29:09,878 --> 00:29:13,447 And he said that [Chuckles] 753 00:29:13,490 --> 00:29:15,144 even though we weren'tall the best recruits 754 00:29:15,188 --> 00:29:18,060 that he saw somethingin all of us 755 00:29:18,104 --> 00:29:19,975 that he knew would workas a family. 756 00:29:20,019 --> 00:29:26,721 ♪♪ 757 00:29:29,942 --> 00:29:34,250 I got my first periodthe day before my 12th birthday. 758 00:29:34,294 --> 00:29:38,864 I thought I had pooped myself. 759 00:29:38,907 --> 00:29:42,998 Ah, no one told me what to expect or when to expect it. 760 00:29:43,042 --> 00:29:44,391 I just woke up one day, 761 00:29:44,434 --> 00:29:46,393 and there was this dark brown stuff 762 00:29:46,436 --> 00:29:48,395 all over the sheets and in my underwear. 763 00:29:48,438 --> 00:29:51,833 I was mortified. 764 00:29:51,877 --> 00:29:53,922 I balled up all the bedding and all my clothes 765 00:29:53,966 --> 00:29:55,881 and shoved them in the washing machine 766 00:29:55,924 --> 00:29:57,839 and poured so much detergent in there 767 00:29:57,883 --> 00:30:01,538 that the machine jammed and overflowed with suds. 768 00:30:03,323 --> 00:30:07,370 Papi came home from a shiftthat morning and yelled so loud. 769 00:30:09,938 --> 00:30:11,853 [ Exhales sharply ] 770 00:30:11,897 --> 00:30:13,986 But then when he realized what happened, he said, 771 00:30:14,029 --> 00:30:17,250 "M'ija, you stay here. 772 00:30:17,293 --> 00:30:20,122 I'm going to the store. 773 00:30:20,166 --> 00:30:22,124 I'll clean this up when I get back." 774 00:30:24,257 --> 00:30:25,432 Ugh. 775 00:30:25,475 --> 00:30:28,261 He came back with [Chuckles] 776 00:30:28,304 --> 00:30:32,700 13 different brands and sizes of pads. 777 00:30:32,743 --> 00:30:35,224 And then he sat me down 778 00:30:35,268 --> 00:30:38,314 and explained what was happening to my body. 779 00:30:40,882 --> 00:30:45,887 He didn't judge me or act disgusted. 780 00:30:45,931 --> 00:30:48,150 But he cried. 781 00:30:48,194 --> 00:30:52,372 He cried through the entire thing. 782 00:30:52,415 --> 00:30:54,461 I always remembered those tears 783 00:30:54,504 --> 00:30:56,680 streaming down his cheeks. 784 00:30:56,724 --> 00:30:59,335 And all this time, I thought he was just sad 785 00:30:59,379 --> 00:31:01,860 that his little girl was growing up. 786 00:31:01,903 --> 00:31:04,253 Until just now. [ Scoffs softly ] 787 00:31:04,297 --> 00:31:08,518 I realized he was crying 788 00:31:08,562 --> 00:31:11,913 because he knew my mother was out there somewhere, 789 00:31:11,957 --> 00:31:15,482 choosing not to be my mother. 790 00:31:21,662 --> 00:31:25,535 He came to get me. [ Sniffles ] 791 00:31:25,579 --> 00:31:28,364 When 9/11 happened. 792 00:31:28,408 --> 00:31:30,932 I guess you were about 12. 793 00:31:30,976 --> 00:31:34,936 He came to New Yorkto help firefighters. 794 00:31:34,980 --> 00:31:37,547 He showed up on my cousin's doorstep one night 795 00:31:37,591 --> 00:31:40,420 covered in white ash,demanding to see me. 796 00:31:42,596 --> 00:31:46,600 He got on his knees, sobbedand begged me to come home. 797 00:31:46,643 --> 00:31:49,603 He said he would take all the blame, 798 00:31:49,646 --> 00:31:52,171 that he just wanted youto have your mother. 799 00:31:54,825 --> 00:31:57,263 I went to New York. I went to go get him. 800 00:31:57,306 --> 00:31:59,656 We -- We came home together. 801 00:31:59,700 --> 00:32:02,964 ♪♪ 802 00:32:03,008 --> 00:32:04,879 I'm sorry. 803 00:32:04,923 --> 00:32:09,014 ♪♪ 804 00:32:09,057 --> 00:32:11,842 I'm -- I'm sorryI was not a good mother. 805 00:32:11,886 --> 00:32:13,192 I'm sorry I couldn't. 806 00:32:13,235 --> 00:32:15,934 I'm -- I'm sorryI caused you so much pain. 807 00:32:15,977 --> 00:32:19,546 Please tell Tía Sandra to call me. 808 00:32:19,589 --> 00:32:22,679 She sent me birthday cards every year of my life. 809 00:32:22,723 --> 00:32:26,640 My dad didn't give them to me, but she tried. 810 00:32:26,683 --> 00:32:28,381 Which you never did. 811 00:32:32,820 --> 00:32:34,169 [ Door slams ] 812 00:32:41,742 --> 00:32:43,048 [ Brakes squeak ] 813 00:32:43,091 --> 00:32:45,659 Sullivan, you are so done! 814 00:32:45,702 --> 00:32:48,140 You better pray the department brings your junkie ass back, 815 00:32:48,183 --> 00:32:49,141 because you are s-- Fowler. 816 00:32:49,184 --> 00:32:50,881 We train convicts. 817 00:32:50,925 --> 00:32:52,318 We use them as free labor, 818 00:32:52,361 --> 00:32:54,276 and then when they get out,we don't give them a job. 819 00:32:54,320 --> 00:32:55,669 You think that's right?I think it is what it is! 820 00:32:55,712 --> 00:32:57,062 And I take the truckdown the hill 821 00:32:57,105 --> 00:32:58,106 and I help put out a wildfire! 822 00:32:58,150 --> 00:32:59,542 You think that's wrong?! 823 00:32:59,586 --> 00:33:01,283 Man, right or wrong is not the point. 824 00:33:01,327 --> 00:33:02,719 I disagree!The point is it gets you fired! 825 00:33:02,763 --> 00:33:04,156 You disagree? 826 00:33:04,199 --> 00:33:05,940 I'm saying right or wrong isthe point. 827 00:33:05,984 --> 00:33:08,290 It's always the point. 828 00:33:08,334 --> 00:33:10,249 [ Scoffs ] 829 00:33:10,292 --> 00:33:12,338 So I'm good with being fired. 830 00:33:12,381 --> 00:33:14,035 [ Bag thuds ] 831 00:33:14,079 --> 00:33:19,214 ♪♪ 832 00:33:19,258 --> 00:33:24,480 ♪♪ 833 00:33:24,524 --> 00:33:26,395 [ Shower running ] 834 00:33:26,439 --> 00:33:27,875 Well, I guess Miller and I aren't friends anymore. 835 00:33:27,918 --> 00:33:29,442 I'm naked! 836 00:33:29,485 --> 00:33:31,400 In three weeks, the entire worldturned upside down. 837 00:33:31,444 --> 00:33:32,575 Miller kicked me out, 838 00:33:32,619 --> 00:33:34,186 and then two days later, a pandemic hit. 839 00:33:34,229 --> 00:33:35,317 My parents aren't working 840 00:33:35,361 --> 00:33:36,797 for the first time in my entire life. 841 00:33:36,840 --> 00:33:38,799 We're about to memorialize our captain on a video chat. 842 00:33:38,842 --> 00:33:41,062 And you saw something crazy on a gay dating app, 843 00:33:41,106 --> 00:33:43,630 and you won't even gossip with me about what it is. 844 00:33:43,673 --> 00:33:45,110 Okay, I need like one thing -- 845 00:33:45,153 --> 00:33:46,981 one thing in my life to be normal right now, 846 00:33:47,025 --> 00:33:49,070 and if it's not you, I don't know what the hell it is. 847 00:33:51,246 --> 00:33:53,205 It was my dad. 848 00:33:53,248 --> 00:33:55,163 I was swiping for gay sex, 849 00:33:55,207 --> 00:33:58,123 and I saw a picture of my dadwith his shirt off, 850 00:33:58,166 --> 00:34:00,125 wearing only chinos and a belt. No. 851 00:34:00,168 --> 00:34:05,217 And his profile said... 852 00:34:05,260 --> 00:34:06,740 "Let mebe your daddy." 853 00:34:11,875 --> 00:34:13,834 Are you sure it was him?I gave him the belt. 854 00:34:13,877 --> 00:34:15,749 You g-- Oh, God! Oh! 855 00:34:15,792 --> 00:34:17,055 It's fine. [ Laughs ] 856 00:34:17,098 --> 00:34:18,186 Okay, you know what?Oh, God! 857 00:34:18,230 --> 00:34:19,448 No, alright, it's fine.Stop! 858 00:34:19,492 --> 00:34:20,449 No, it's fine. No, no, it's fine. 859 00:34:20,493 --> 00:34:21,494 You know what? You're into men. 860 00:34:21,537 --> 00:34:22,843 Great. Awesome. Live your life. 861 00:34:22,886 --> 00:34:26,020 But don't stay marriedto my mom. What? 862 00:34:26,064 --> 00:34:28,109 Yeah. Yeah. 863 00:34:28,153 --> 00:34:30,285 Sure. Yeah. That. 864 00:34:30,329 --> 00:34:34,376 And the lifetime of shame and internalized homophobia 865 00:34:34,420 --> 00:34:36,204 that he inflicted on you, right? 866 00:34:38,772 --> 00:34:39,903 There's also that. 867 00:34:39,947 --> 00:34:41,818 Yeah. 868 00:34:41,862 --> 00:34:43,733 [ Laughs ] 869 00:34:47,346 --> 00:34:48,956 Move in with me. 870 00:34:48,999 --> 00:34:52,220 Not temporarily.Just move in with me. 871 00:34:52,264 --> 00:34:54,396 And let's be the one normalthing in each other's lives. 872 00:34:54,440 --> 00:34:55,658 Yeah? Yeah. 873 00:34:55,702 --> 00:34:56,659 Yeah?! Yeah. 874 00:34:56,703 --> 00:34:57,921 Yeah! Oh, I love you! Yes! 875 00:34:57,965 --> 00:34:59,749 Oh! No, no, Vic! 876 00:34:59,793 --> 00:35:02,665 Oh, you're naked, too!Ohhh, let me be your daddy. 877 00:35:02,709 --> 00:35:03,927 No! What?! Yeah. 878 00:35:03,971 --> 00:35:05,929 Ohh! Ohh! 879 00:35:05,973 --> 00:35:08,932 [ The Rescues' "If We Make It Through the Night" plays ] 880 00:35:08,976 --> 00:35:16,810 ♪♪ 881 00:35:16,853 --> 00:35:20,379 Captain Herrera was the only father figure I had 882 00:35:20,422 --> 00:35:22,946 for any real amount of time. 883 00:35:22,990 --> 00:35:26,863 You know I asked him for advice before I proposed to Andy? 884 00:35:26,907 --> 00:35:30,432 I thought he didn't know.I didn't tell him who. 885 00:35:30,476 --> 00:35:34,393 I just said, "There's this girl,and I love her. 886 00:35:34,436 --> 00:35:36,177 What do I do?" 887 00:35:36,221 --> 00:35:40,790 And he said, "Son, if you think this girl loves you 888 00:35:40,834 --> 00:35:42,923 and you can make her happy, 889 00:35:42,966 --> 00:35:46,448 then do what your heart tells you." 890 00:35:46,492 --> 00:35:49,669 Point is, my heart is stupid, so don't listen to me. 891 00:35:49,712 --> 00:35:51,453 If you think you and Sasha moving in together 892 00:35:51,497 --> 00:35:54,500 is a good idea, then I'm sure it is. 893 00:35:54,543 --> 00:35:57,242 Oh, hey, Miller, uh, I'm moving in with Travis. 894 00:35:57,285 --> 00:35:59,461 So I will come and get my crap tomorrow. 895 00:35:59,505 --> 00:36:01,550 Sorry for taking so long. 896 00:36:01,594 --> 00:36:06,164 ♪ How close we came to sayin' goodbye ♪ 897 00:36:06,207 --> 00:36:07,774 Just do it. [ Laughs ] 898 00:36:07,817 --> 00:36:09,297 Do it. 899 00:36:09,341 --> 00:36:11,038 I'm sorry.It's fine. 900 00:36:11,081 --> 00:36:12,213 That was just too... 901 00:36:12,257 --> 00:36:14,476 It's fine. I need -- 902 00:36:14,520 --> 00:36:16,565 [ Sighs ] 903 00:36:16,609 --> 00:36:19,046 [ Laughs ] 904 00:36:19,089 --> 00:36:21,440 ♪ I will die tryin' 905 00:36:21,483 --> 00:36:23,877 I know what I have to do now. 906 00:36:23,920 --> 00:36:29,361 ♪ If we make it through the night ♪ 907 00:36:32,190 --> 00:36:33,103 Sullivan.Hey. 908 00:36:33,147 --> 00:36:34,583 Hey. 909 00:36:34,627 --> 00:36:36,019 Thanks for the assist today. 910 00:36:36,063 --> 00:36:41,460 Yeah, um, I know I'm notpart of 19 anymore, 911 00:36:41,503 --> 00:36:44,419 but I wantedto be here for Andy. 912 00:36:44,463 --> 00:36:45,725 If that's okay with you. 913 00:36:48,989 --> 00:36:52,122 I hate what you did, and I hate that you did it on my watch. 914 00:36:52,166 --> 00:36:54,212 I hate that you put our 19 family at risk 915 00:36:54,255 --> 00:36:55,561 and the PRT in jeopardy. 916 00:36:55,604 --> 00:36:56,866 And I especially hate 917 00:36:56,910 --> 00:36:59,042 that you may never be a firefighter again, 918 00:36:59,086 --> 00:37:01,306 because you are a good firefighter 919 00:37:01,349 --> 00:37:03,308 and the Department needs you. 920 00:37:03,351 --> 00:37:06,354 I respected you as a mentor, and you let me down. 921 00:37:08,965 --> 00:37:10,663 I let myself down. 922 00:37:12,795 --> 00:37:15,668 And I'm sorry. 923 00:37:15,711 --> 00:37:16,973 For all of it. 924 00:37:19,933 --> 00:37:21,108 Then we're good. 925 00:37:27,245 --> 00:37:28,507 [ Knock on door ] 926 00:37:28,550 --> 00:37:29,725 Come in. 927 00:37:33,076 --> 00:37:35,296 [ Sighs ] 928 00:37:35,340 --> 00:37:37,777 You look sharp. 929 00:37:37,820 --> 00:37:40,736 Thanks...Dad. 930 00:37:40,780 --> 00:37:42,042 [ Both laugh ] 931 00:37:42,085 --> 00:37:43,173 I'm sorry. 932 00:37:43,217 --> 00:37:44,958 Wow! 933 00:37:45,001 --> 00:37:47,221 Gibson made me do it. 934 00:37:47,265 --> 00:37:48,614 That's not cool. 935 00:37:51,269 --> 00:37:54,228 [ Sniffles, sighs ] 936 00:37:54,272 --> 00:37:57,100 You ready? 937 00:37:57,144 --> 00:37:59,015 Yeah. 938 00:37:59,059 --> 00:38:00,539 Yeah. I am. 939 00:38:04,717 --> 00:38:06,762 [ Sighs ] 940 00:38:06,806 --> 00:38:08,982 [ Leah Nobel's "Last One To Know" plays ] 941 00:38:09,025 --> 00:38:14,248 ♪ Don't hide from me 942 00:38:14,292 --> 00:38:17,512 ♪ I wanna be the one you run to ♪ 943 00:38:17,556 --> 00:38:20,298 ♪ Try and disappear 944 00:38:22,430 --> 00:38:25,390 ♪ But I'm the one who really sees you ♪ 945 00:38:25,433 --> 00:38:29,394 ♪ Watch you up on the fence 946 00:38:29,437 --> 00:38:32,397 ♪ When you coming down? 947 00:38:32,440 --> 00:38:37,402 If you're watching this, my dad was probably your hero. 948 00:38:37,445 --> 00:38:40,361 He was mine. 949 00:38:40,405 --> 00:38:43,582 He was a great firefighter 950 00:38:43,625 --> 00:38:46,672 but an even better Captain. 951 00:38:46,715 --> 00:38:49,849 He brought the best out of everyone 952 00:38:49,892 --> 00:38:52,634 by demanding nothing less. 953 00:38:52,678 --> 00:38:56,334 He was a natural leader, 954 00:38:56,377 --> 00:38:59,075 as anyone who's ever worked with him knows. 955 00:38:59,119 --> 00:39:03,776 He built great firefighters, future Captains. 956 00:39:05,734 --> 00:39:08,346 Maybe even future Chiefs. 957 00:39:08,389 --> 00:39:11,827 But beyond that, he was the best father he could be, 958 00:39:11,871 --> 00:39:16,354 and that wasn't easy to do, especially on his own. 959 00:39:16,397 --> 00:39:20,749 My dad was faced with some pretty terrible choices 960 00:39:20,793 --> 00:39:22,795 when I was a kid. 961 00:39:22,838 --> 00:39:25,928 But he did what he thought was best for me at the time. 962 00:39:25,972 --> 00:39:28,322 Every time. 963 00:39:28,366 --> 00:39:32,892 He chose to protect me above all else. 964 00:39:32,935 --> 00:39:38,680 And while he may have made mistakes... 965 00:39:38,724 --> 00:39:41,379 I have no doubt he'd make them all again 966 00:39:41,422 --> 00:39:42,989 if he thought it was best for me. 967 00:39:43,032 --> 00:39:45,121 It wasn't easy growing up without my mom 968 00:39:45,165 --> 00:39:47,559 and without siblings, 969 00:39:47,602 --> 00:39:51,214 but what I've come to realize is my dad did his best 970 00:39:51,258 --> 00:39:52,955 to give me family. 971 00:39:52,999 --> 00:39:55,567 He created a home at Station 19. 972 00:39:55,610 --> 00:39:58,787 And everyone under his roof was his kid. 973 00:39:58,831 --> 00:40:00,876 [ Laughs ] 974 00:40:00,920 --> 00:40:02,922 So he may have spent years 975 00:40:02,965 --> 00:40:05,620 protecting me from pain and burying his own, 976 00:40:05,664 --> 00:40:10,625 but he did his best to give me the gift of a group of people 977 00:40:10,669 --> 00:40:15,456 who I feel closer to than any blood brother or sister. 978 00:40:15,500 --> 00:40:18,677 He did his best. 979 00:40:18,720 --> 00:40:21,331 He did his best by me. 980 00:40:21,375 --> 00:40:23,290 He loved me. 981 00:40:23,333 --> 00:40:25,292 He stayed. 982 00:40:25,335 --> 00:40:28,121 He stayed with me every minute he could 983 00:40:28,164 --> 00:40:32,212 until he had to leave me to save me one last time. 984 00:40:32,255 --> 00:40:34,954 ♪ When you coming down? 985 00:40:37,086 --> 00:40:40,176 ♪ When you coming down? 986 00:40:40,220 --> 00:40:42,875 Oh, my God.I didn't believe you. 987 00:40:42,918 --> 00:40:44,224 I told you you were crazy. 988 00:40:44,267 --> 00:40:46,879 Well, in fairness to you, I was acting crazy. 989 00:40:46,922 --> 00:40:49,577 You okay? 990 00:40:49,621 --> 00:40:52,058 Yes and no. 991 00:40:52,101 --> 00:40:56,715 I guess...knowing the truth is better than wondering. 992 00:40:56,758 --> 00:41:00,153 But again, I'm -- I'm sorry I wasn't here for you. 993 00:41:00,196 --> 00:41:01,589 No, no. 994 00:41:03,461 --> 00:41:06,028 I took morphine when I woke up. 995 00:41:06,072 --> 00:41:10,555 I needed it. But now I'm afraid. 996 00:41:10,598 --> 00:41:14,080 I'm afraid it's gonna make me crave more of it. 997 00:41:14,123 --> 00:41:16,561 I'm afraid I won't be able to control it. 998 00:41:16,604 --> 00:41:19,172 I need to focus on my recovery. 999 00:41:19,215 --> 00:41:22,654 I spoke to Dr. Shepherd, and she suggested I, uh... 1000 00:41:22,697 --> 00:41:24,482 take some space. 1001 00:41:26,571 --> 00:41:28,137 From -- From me? 1002 00:41:28,181 --> 00:41:30,531 It's just 90 days, 1003 00:41:30,575 --> 00:41:32,359 just to get to the meetings, okay, 1004 00:41:32,402 --> 00:41:35,797 just to work the steps and get some solid recovery. 1005 00:41:35,841 --> 00:41:38,974 You're not supposed to make any big life changes 1006 00:41:39,018 --> 00:41:40,280 when you're in early sobriety. 1007 00:41:40,323 --> 00:41:43,022 I knew that, and I-I was barely sober. 1008 00:41:43,065 --> 00:41:45,546 And you -- you were about to lose your dad. 1009 00:41:45,590 --> 00:41:47,983 We had no business getting married. 1010 00:41:49,811 --> 00:41:52,118 So -- So, you regret it? 1011 00:41:52,161 --> 00:41:54,337 [ Chuckles ] No! 1012 00:41:54,381 --> 00:41:57,950 No. And I never will. 1013 00:41:57,993 --> 00:42:01,867 But if I want to stay clean, we need some time apart. 1014 00:42:06,611 --> 00:42:08,351 90 days. 1015 00:42:08,395 --> 00:42:09,788 Yeah. Totally -- 1016 00:42:09,831 --> 00:42:11,529 Totally separated. 1017 00:42:11,572 --> 00:42:14,836 Separated but together, if I want to stay clean. 1018 00:42:14,880 --> 00:42:17,186 And do you? I do. 1019 00:42:17,230 --> 00:42:21,103 I want to live a long, long life 1020 00:42:21,147 --> 00:42:23,149 and love you every minute of it. 1021 00:42:26,892 --> 00:42:30,896 ♪ I can't be the last one to know ♪ 1022 00:42:30,939 --> 00:42:34,464 ♪ I can't be the last one 1023 00:42:34,508 --> 00:42:37,816 ♪ The distance runs deep 1024 00:42:37,859 --> 00:42:40,601 I love you, Dad. 1025 00:42:40,645 --> 00:42:43,430 We all do. 1026 00:42:43,473 --> 00:42:47,608 And if there's one thing I wish I could tell you, 1027 00:42:47,652 --> 00:42:51,569 it's that I am grateful for you, 1028 00:42:51,612 --> 00:42:55,964 because you did your job so well. 1029 00:42:58,619 --> 00:43:03,015 ♪ And I can't be the last one to know ♪ 1030 00:43:03,058 --> 00:43:06,758 ♪ I can't be the last one 1031 00:43:11,066 --> 00:43:13,547 [ Bell tolling ] 1032 00:43:13,591 --> 00:43:16,768 ♪♪ 1033 00:43:16,811 --> 00:43:20,249 ♪♪ 1034 00:43:20,293 --> 00:43:24,558 ♪ When you coming down? 1035 00:43:31,260 --> 00:43:39,617 ♪♪ 1036 00:43:39,660 --> 00:43:47,755 ♪♪ 1037 00:43:47,799 --> 00:43:56,198 ♪♪ 73290

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