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How long has this ECG been down?
Well, it was working this morning.

There we go.

What kind of place
are you people running here?

Well, we do the best we can
with what we have, alright?

We weren't able to resuscitate her.
Your wife died.

I'm really very sorry.

Just leave. I can't deal with this
right now.

You can have my kidney.

You can have 'em both, mate,
if it does the trick.

You never stand up for yourself,
and that's why your black arse

has been shoved here
into... gyno... gyno...

Gynaecology.
Pussy ward.

When you should be in cardio.

I thought I saw a loose stitch,
and I said, "Stop. Do not unclamp."

He told me to check it. I let it go,
and I shouldn't have.

So, you're asking me to donate
my kidney to some stranger?

What if someone pulls out?

This is an exercise in trust, Jim.

While you were gone,
your brother had a cardiac arrest.

We tried to revive him,
we did the best we could,

but unfortunately,
we were unsuccessful.

I'm so sorry.

Pet rock?
It's, it's not a pet.

Is it from when you grew up?
Something like that.

Two things birds need to survive -

context and perspective.

But they need to leave the ground
in order to get it.

When an altruistic donor
walks through our doors,

wanting to donate a kidney,

we assume that they're barking mad.

Why would a sane person
allow themselves to be sliced open,

and their insides cauterised,

for the sake of a complete
and utter stranger?

Why?

It's like asking, "Why does
Santa Claus do his thing?

"What does he get in return?"

Apart from the bonny red suit
and the jaunty little black boots,

absolutely nothing.

And everything.

No, I'm not talking about
the wee dram of whisky

left out beside
the slice of wedding cake.

I'm talking about the reward
of knowing that you have given

without expecting anything at all
in return -

no money, no recognition...

...just the knowledge that you have
saved someone's life.

And in the case of kidney donor
chains, many people's lives.

Christ...

...what greater gift is there?

Giving some poor sod more life.

I lost you all at whisky, didn't I?

So, you didn't like
the Santa Claus jokes?

You try getting a laugh
in a discourse on kidney donation.

I thought I did bloody well,
all things considered.

This wasn't your first
speech arrest, was it?

Come on, you've got the keys.

Lucy's got the dinner on the table,
so if you don't mind, driver.

You're not one to freeze
on stage, Berger.

Berger?

Berger...

Berger!

Berger?

Berger...

Berger, can you hear me?
Look at me. Hey.

Hey. You've had a seizure.
Can you see me?

I've got you.
Chad!

Chad, we're gonna get you
to Emergency, OK?

He's OK.
Are you kidding?

We have to get someone
to look at him.

Hey... I... I slipped.
I'm fine, I'm fine.

Give me a hand up. Come on, man.

Chad... Chad, what's going on?

I'm alright, Eli. Thanks.

Get me home.

Frankie... Frankie,
what's happening?

Where are you going?
What's going on?

Frankie, what's going on?
I've got this.

♪ Open my lungs

♪ Move your hands inside my chest

season finale
1x08

♪ Cut me deep

♪ Beneath my skin

♪ I'm ready to fall out

♪ My body's caving in

♪ Hold me down

♪ So that I can feel the heat

♪ Carve me with the sharpest knife

♪ I'm ready for the pain

♪ Oh-oh oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh. ♪

I've recently switched medications.
It's related to that.

I'll go back to the old meds, get
the dosage right. Should be fine.

The meds aren't causing
your aphasia.

The tumour is pressing down
on your frontal lobe.

There is only one option here
that I can see.

I'm not having the operation,
Frankie. Not yet.

Not until I've seen
the Paired Kidney Exchange through.

OK, well, you need to tell
Lucy and your daughter,

because if you have another seizure,
it will scare them,

and they need to know
what is coming.

They know.

I told Lucy last night and...

...and we talked it through
this morning.

I'm sorry. That must have been hell.

Look, I have been where you are.

I had choices and you were able
to guide me to a decision.

You have choices,
so let me help you.

That's why I need you to trust me
that I know what I'm doing.

Hey.

Hey.

So...

We're talking about a brain tumour,
aren't we?

Glioblastoma multiforme, grade 4.

Fuck.

You've been carrying this
on your own?

Well, he wants to keep working.

You can't give him what he wants.

I mean, neither of us can.

I know him.

I know that he would keep working
until his last breath, if he could.

But it's not gonna...
happen like that, is it?

You have to go to Steele.

Actually, you're obliged to.

Everything is always
so black-and-white with you.

It's not that. It's...

Look, he could screw up
with a patient.

He could screw up with a diagnosis.
He could screw up with a medication.

I mean, there's a million ways
you can screw up.

He could crash his car
on the way home tonight.

I've made him agree
that he won't drive.

Any other doctor...

...would they be keeping quiet
at this point?

Jesus Chr...

Frankie, this is why we have
mandatory reporting,

so you and I don't have to...

But Berger is not some alcoholic
in the closet.

Yeah, I know that! Jesus Chri...
I know that!

But he's impaired.

His judgement is impaired!

And if something happens,
you're both done for.

And if... Now that I know, I...
You DON'T know!

You... don't know.

This conversation never happened.

Get him to resign.
Frankie, get him to resign.

You have to!

Shit...

Mr Mendosa.

We are nothing but a bunch
of fuckin' boxes

to tick to you lot, aren't we?

Sam.
Tick consent to operate, to risk.

Tick consent not to sue.

She was my wife.

You can all go to hell.

Hey. What the hell was that?

What...? He... he wants answers.

He wants his wife back.
It's not gonna happen.

That's the best you can do?

It's over. We move on.
Have you?

Why did you throw yourself
under the bus?

At some point, I have to be
accountable to myself.

Who's up next?

Hey. You guys didn't put me
in gyno this time.

Teulla...

...this guy was Uncle Abe's doctor.

Mr Finau, I hear you're
experiencing shortness of breath.

Yeah, um, I drive a bus.

It used to be I could get up
the steps no problem.

But now, not so much.

It takes a while to get
my breath back, you know?

Pretty recent problem, then?
Yeah.

You know, I'm a reasonably fit guy.

You know, I used to play rugby
for the districts...

Yeah, back when
there were still dinosaurs.

Anyway, I've noticed,
for the past couple of months...

...I haven't been
able to do much without, um...

...getting all out of breath.

Too much pizza?

And the chicken nuggets
with the super-sized Slurpee chaser.

You're getting too fat, Dad.

Quit it, girl.

Any chest pain?

Yeah.
Can you show me where?

Here.

Alright, so, how bad's this pain
when you... when it happens?

Imagine 10 being like,

having an operation
without anaesthetic.

Like getting your leg amputated.
OK, Doc.

Maybe a two.

Two.
Yeah.

OK, anything else
we should know?

Um...

Well...

I... I piss a funny colour.

What kind of funny?
Like, pinky-red, pinky-orange?

Blue?

Orangey-pinkish...

Right.

OK.

Well, Dr Patel here
will run some tests

and, we'll see
where we stand, OK?

Or not. If they cut off your legs.

Come on.

Sorry. I just...

If I get nervous, I crack jokes,
like really bad ones...

Run an ECG.
Do a six-minute walk test.

Yes.
Check his pulse, BP.

He's overweight.
Probably doesn't look after himself.

So, it's probably just
a bread-and-butter coronary...

He's gonna arrest, isn't he?
On my watch.

I mean, one brother dying
is like an unfortunate mistake.

But two, that's like homicide.
OK, just...

OK, just make sure
you send off his urine,

check his creatinine levels, and if
they're too high, just alert Renal.

And, Patel...

Get a grip. I know.

Actually, I was gonna say,
get better jokes.

Come on.
Up out of the chairs.

No more sitting on the job now.

I want you all to link hands.

So, Kelly...

...meet Lorraine.

Nice to meet you.
Yeah?

Jim, this is Naza. Naza, Jim.

That's it. Just... just hold hands.
Bedad...

This is Damien.
Come on, boys, don't be shy.

That's it. And where shall I go?

Frankie!

Got donors meeting recipients?
Yeah.

Live donor rates are diving because
people don't know what's possible,

because we're keeping it
under wraps.

Time to spread the word.

This is a good-news story.

Yes, it is, Prof.
You need to be in the photograph.

Where do I go, Tanya?
Get over here, Prof. Come on.

- Over here.
- Next to Kelly.

Alright, everyone, on three,
say, "Cheese."

One, two, three...

Cheese!

And on three...

Yeah, got it.

When you can, jump like a hero!

One, two, three... In the air!

Boom!

Great. Thank you.

You have three theatres booked.

Well, I can't synchronise a series
of operations as complex as this

with anything less.

I have urgent listings
running over two pages.

I have 15 trauma patients
already in breach of category.

I don't give a shit about your KPIs.

Come on, Maggie.
No, don't patronise me!

Right? Now, this is how
it's gonna play.

Now, I'm sorry I don't have
testicles.

Well, there is a rumour.

Well, I have to be, around
here. I have to have big balls.

Congratulations.
You backed the right horse.

They made Cutter head of surgery.

I mean, I...

Do those funny little lines
actually mean something to you?

You see, normal, ECGs
from healthy hearts,

show characteristic shape,

and this one is definitely,
irregular,

which suggests
an underlying problem.

Irregular? My GP picked that up.

I'll just have to speak to my reg
about your results

and see what he has to say.

That sounds like a plan.
You do that.

Also, your, blood results
show high levels of creatinine,

which is abnormal,

so you can expect
a visit from Renal, OK?

Thanks.

Would the
owner of car number KDC279...

Dr Patel?

...please move your car immediately?

It's blocking the ambulance
entrance.

You were there
when Uncle Abe died.

He was a beautiful man.

Him dying left a huge hole
in all of our lives.

Just... don't let my dad
go the same way.

That's the plan.

What are
you doing? What are you doing?

What are you doing here?!

I don't know.
What are YOU doing here?

I'm gonna resign.

OK.
Don't try to talk me out of it.

OK. OK.

How you gonna do it?

What do you mean?
Well, you've gotta tell someone.

Who are you gonna tell? Guess
you're gonna have to tell Steele.

God, no. He scares me.

He's gonna yell at me.
Have you told your reg?

Eli? No. He'll kill me.

I'll just write a letter.
Just email it.

Mid-shift, that's not a good look.

Maybe you should wait
till the end of the day.

I just can't do this anymore,
you know?

I hear you.

But you've got patients, yeah?

Maybe you should go see them,

sort out the resignation
at the end of the day.

We'll get together,
help you draft a letter.

Yeah.

Till then, one foot
in front of the other.

Hello. Is this Medical Records?

Great. I need to chase up
a patient file.

Abraham Finau.

Deceased.

How long will that take?

Great. Yeah, I'll come down
and pick it up.

OK, thanks.

Alright, that's the one.

Dr Berger?

Lorraine, how are we?

Excited, I hope.

As of tomorrow, no more dialysis
ever for young Damien.

Um...

How good will it be to see
the back of this place?

I was just wondering
if we could have a word.

I'm afraid I have to attend to
a patient but, talk to my team.

I'm sure they can sort out
anything that needs sorting out.

What if we decide we no longer

want to take part in
this exchange program?

I'm sorry?

I don't think Damien's ready.

Um, he seemed pretty excited
when we spoke to him this morning.

I asked him how he was feeling
and he said he was pumped.

Does he automatically go back onto
the regular waiting list?

Where is Damien now?

Because he should be here
for this conversation.

Will he lose his place in the line?

Um...

...if your son's having any,
doubts

or has any questions about
part of the process,

he's more than welcome
to come and speak with us,

or the hospital counsellor
or the transplant coordinator.

You appreciate that
with an exchange like this,

there's a lot involved.

So, if he is having any doubts,
he needs to come and speak...

OK, it's just too much, too soon.

OK? And then there's the issue of
compatibility with the donor.

The tests indicate that the donor
is a perfect match for your son.

Well, you say he's a perfect match,

but you won't know
until the operation for sure,

and by then, it will be too late.

We have every reason
to be very confident.

Bedad... I mean, what sort of
a surname is that?

I mean, is that a Muslim name?

Lorraine, internal organs function
exactly the same,

no matter the colour of the skin
or the nationality.

I'm sorry.

I'm just scared.

And he's my only child.

I thought the problem
was my heart.

Now I need a biopsy for my kidney.

It's a precautionary step.

A biopsy is the most accurate way

of determining the state
of your kidneys.

Is it like... a full-on operation?

No, no, nothing like that.

I can do the whole procedure
right here.

Blinder of a headache.

Sorry.

Well, come on. Let's get set up.

Now?

No time like the present.

...21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27,
28, 29, 30...

1, 2...

...3, 4... He's gone.

So, what's your obligation
to them right now?

Go away.
This is Felipe's.

This is Abe's.

Left ventricle off-beat in both ECGs.

Yeah... No, yeah, sorry, mate.
I'm gonna have to call you back.

We're talking, what, HOCM?

Aren't we?

Well done, Sherlock.

Well... Guess you better
tell the patient.

Me? Don't you want to go in there
and take all the credit?

Isn't that what you regs do?

Get here! Alright, come on! Hey!
We'll make a doctor out of you yet!

You got a sec?

Your boss is not OK.

Has something happened?
Well, I don't know what's going on.

But we were about to do
this kidney biopsy

and he just... froze.

Where is he?

1991 World Cup.

Cardiff Arms Park.
Yeah.

God, you smashed us off the park.

What did Lorraine want?

It was cold feet. All sorted.
How are we going here?

Just about to do a biopsy
on my Samoan friend,

and find out what damage
his kidneys have suffered.

Well, maybe today,
I can do this procedure.

No, no. You're not ready yet.

Well, I'll never be ready
if I don't get given a chance.

You have to watch out
for these millennials.

They'll jump in your boots
first chance they get.

It's a teaching hospital,

so why don't YOU teach ME?

No, look.
You're jumping the gun, Frankie.

Everything alright, folks?

God. One, two,
three, four doctors and a nurse.

I'm really in the shit, aren't I?

So, wait a minute. Um...
Can I have a quick word, please?

Sorry. Now.

So, who ordered this test?

I did.
The man is on blood thinners.

You didn't check?

Gonna let her cover for you
too now, hey, boss?

I will deal with this.

Afraid it's gone well beyond that
now.

Hey... You have to trust me.

This is one of those grey moments
where I have to talk to him...

He could have bled out. He could
have... You could have lost him.

I understand that. I understand.
Just leave it... leave it out.

Berger...

Berger saved my life.

I wouldn't be standing here now
if it wasn't for him.

Allow me the time to talk him around.

The world finally caught up
with us, Frankie.

You've had more scans, haven't you?

And?

It's an aggressive little prick.

And what did Arthur Chan say?

Well, what can he say?
He's a brain surgeon, isn't he?

It's... "Let's cut it out."

He... he said...

..."Let's resect as much
of the tumour as we can,

"within a safe zone.

"Then follow up with radio
and chemo."

And then, that way,
I get an extra 12 to 18 months.

Two years, tops.
OK.

Two years... of coming through
these doors...

...feeling as sick as a dog...

...emaciated.

That's not what I call a
'quality of life', Frankie.

I had been planning to go out
in a blaze of glory,

but now I don't know.

If you do nothing,
the blaze of glory option?

Increasing speech problems.

Increasing mobility problems.

Confusion.

Gradually descending into
a comatose state.

Did he give you a time frame?

Three weeks.

Which means I won't see
my unborn child.

OK, so, it sounds like surgery
is the way to go.

But it's not a solution.

Why can't I...?

I thought I would know
what to do when I got here.

Because with a patient,
it's simple, it's clear.

You provide more medical treatment,

weigh up the risks, advise,
medicate.

What am I gonna do?

What... am I going to do?

And I'm... I'm asking you now,

because you've got to be
the doctor here now.

OK. Well, there is a solution,
Berger.

It just depends on the question.

And if the question is, "How do I get
more time with those I love?",

then surgery is the way.

Yeah.

But...
There's always a 'but'.

And we stare that 'but' in the face
and we go ahead anyway.

You stare the 'but' in the face?

Yeah.

You like that?

Yeah, I like that.

Come on.

Come on, let's go. Let's go.

I thought it important

that we took a moment
from our schedules

to acknowledge the very sad news

that our colleague and our friend
Professor Chad Berger

has been diagnosed with
a life-threatening condition.

Professor Berger has elected
to cease working,

with immediate effect.

Our thoughts go out to him
and to his family

through the very testing times
ahead.

This leaves a huge hole
in our hospital

and whilst we look for
a replacement consultant,

I will be liaising closely
with the Nephrology team

to maintain continuity
of patient care.

I'm also seeking the experience and
advice of a consultant nephrologist

to help us continue with tomorrow's
kidney paired exchange.

I think it's too important
for us to stop now.

I'll come back later in the week
to deal with the rest of it.

Do you need a lift?
No. Lucy's picking me up.

Good luck for tomorrow.

Keep me informed of the progress.

I want to know how it all goes.

Will do.

All the best for your operation.

And for godsakes, the pair of you,
get it together, will you?

You've got a lot you can learn
from each other.

Frankie?

Yeah.
Give us a hand.

Well, this is me
exiting, stage left.

Speak to you later, yeah?
Of course.

Yeah.

Right. Hyper...

Hypertrophic obstructive
cardiomyopathy.

OK, so, it's...

It's not, like, from eating
too many pizzas, is it?

Well, I'm sure that doesn't help.

But it's not about
cardiovascular disease.

It's actually something
you were born with.

Inherited?

So...

Your brother, Abe,
had the same thing.

It's what caused his cardiac arrest.

My God. I-I'm...

I'm like a bomb waiting to go off.

Well, now that we know
you have this,

we can look into treatment options
to, you know, control your symptoms

and prevent any further
complications.

Most people with this condition go
on to lead perfectly normal lives.

OK...

What about my kidneys?

Yeah, well, we, reviewed your
situation with the Renal team

and we decided to hold off
on the biopsy.

We'll try rehydrating first,
give it 24 hours,

see where your creatinine levels
are at, go from there.

Right. Right.

Look, why didn't we do this
the first time round?

It's a... long story.

Alright, look, no worries, right?

No needles is fine by me.

The HOC...
..CM.

...M - how'd you figure that out?

Squiggly lines.
Squiggly lines.

No shit?

This guy's great, this guy.

He's got two degrees.

Yes, he does.

Alright. Come on, Sherlock.
Busy day.

Can I do anything to help?

Sure. Why don't you whip up
a vinaigrette for the salad?

I was thinking something
more within my skill range,

like set the table.

I'll get it.

Thank you.

Hey?

He said he can eat and drink
before the operation,

but I thought you had to fast.

You just need a six-hour buffer.

So, maybe just... hide the whisky.

Here you are. Come on in!

Look, I hope I'm not
disturbing anything.

We're just about to have dinner.
You're very welcome to join us.

Frankie's here.
No, no. I can't.

I just... I just wanted to see you

and, um, make sure you're OK.

Well, right now,
everything's just perfect.

Lucy's making a fabulous risotto,

I've just opened an '86 cabernet

and the only thing missing
from our table is you.

Come on. In, out of the cold.

God, you're a dour lot
to have dinner with.

Aren't they?

Come on, who's got a joke?

Alright, then. I'll start.

Why was the mushroom
invited to the party?

Because he was a 'fun-guy'.

Good one, Dad.

Come on, darling.
Help me get dessert.

Yeah, give Mum a hand.

Thank you.

It was delicious, darling.
Thanks, darling.

So, you two... where are we at?

How's it panning out?

It's, it's not really.
No pan action.

No.
Why not?

Come on, Frankie.
He's mildly handsome.

Reasonably fit.

And you've been complaining about
a man drought.

That was in the cone.

And you - what's your excuse?

What's holding back Mr Nader?

Come on, boss.

She's beautiful, she's intelligent.

She's loyal.

And she's got a work ethic
rivalled only by your own.

I tell you, if I was doing one of
those... TV... reality matching shows,

we'd be hearing
wedding bells by now.

That thing in your back pocket...

I know you've got it with you.
You always have.

Get it out. Sh... Let her see it.

It's, um...

...an early start.

Hope it goes well tomorrow.

Sorry.

Eli and his wife worked for
Medecins Sans Frontieres.

Yeah.

She died in an air raid.

And that's his excuse
for not moving on.

What's yours?

OK, so, just pinch your nose for me.

Yeah, and... and close your mouth
and exhale.

Try and pop your ears.

OK. And take one big breath.

And one more time for me, please.

OK.

So, the murmur gets louder
with the Valsalva test,

which suggests to me that there's
potential underlying HOCM.

Does she have what I have?
What Abe had?

Maybe. But it's all unofficial, yeah?

Um, you need to see a GP and book
in some time with a specialist.

But if it is...

...and we didn't pick up on it...

...she could have just been
running around the footy field

with her teammates
and just... dropped.

You saved my life,
you saved my daughter.

Thank you.
No...

Thank you!

You're welcome.
Thank you, Doctor.

I'll, um, come by
before you check out, OK?

You're the man.

Sorry.

I think I kind of
jumped the gun there.

Um, what I'm trying to say is do you
want to go for a drink after work?

I can do a drink.

Good morning, all.

- Hi.
- Good morning, Frankie.

Hi, everyone. Good morning, Naza.

How are you this morning?

I have crispy, clean sheets,
I have TV. I have five-star meal.

Some kind stranger is about to
give me their kidney.

My son's winning at cards.

Today is a most wonderful day.

Everyone had better have fasted
or I'll have their guts for garters.

Carol, where's Dad?

Hasn't checked in yet.

Kelly.
Hey, guys.

I'm almost done.

Another half an hour,
then that's it.

Me and the Clarence
are breaking it off for good.

Clarence?

He's been loyal and everything but
he never wants to go anywhere.

Hey, Kel, we're just trying to
track your dad down.

Right. He's not here yet?

Yeah, but he's probably just
stuck in traffic.

Have you tried calling him?

We did try.
Could you try him for us?

Yeah.

Hi. You've called Jim Reid.

I'm not here at the moment. Um...

But if you leave your name and
your number, I'll get back to you.

Thanks a lot.

Do you know where he could be?

Hey, we'll sort it out.

Yeah.

- Well, who was he donating to?
- Naza.

That doesn't mean the rest of
the exchange can't go on.

That is not how this thing works.

It's better that we save two lives
than none at all.

Yeah, but we still need
Naza's son, Bedad,

to donate his kidney to Damien

in order for Lorraine
to donate to Kelly.

Well, talk to him. Let him know
where things stand.

And no pressure. I really can't see
what else we can do.

And Bedad's mum?
What happens to her?

Try and stay solution-focused,
Dr Bell.

The question you should be asking

is "What can we do to stop this
whole thing from falling over?"

I guess I'll check the database.
Yeah. Good idea.

Hello. Dr Bell speaking.

Frankie - don't ever get
a brain tumour.

You'll never believe

how much this sadistic surgeon
is proposing to charge.

It's like a squillion dollars,

and that's just for doing
something he loves doing -

digging a hole in my skull

and sucking out a creature
from a Ridley Scott wet dream.

Hey, Frankie,
I was joking about the cost.

Shouldn't you be in theatre?

In another hour.

So, how's it all going there?

You can't keep away, can you?

What's wrong?
It's all good.

Frankie...

You don't need to worry.

Someone's got cold feet.

Lorraine.

It's not Lorraine.

Jim.

That poor kid.

Hey, Chad?

The porters are here
to take me to theatre.

OK.

I'll see you as soon as
I finish my shift.

Yeah. Bye, Frankie.

Alright. Time to go, boys.

I'm here, doing all this,
so Mum can get her kidney.

And now you're saying
she won't get one?

Not this round.

But she's still on the list.

There will be other opportunities.

I want a guarantee.

We can't.

Well, then, I'm sorry.

I want to help...

...but my answer's no.

I can't let my mother
take that risk.

We had the chance
of saving two lives here.

Yeah, but what were we
meant to do - lie to him?

Tanya, call surgery.

We need to let them know
we're pulling out.

Chad?

Rupe.

I leave you alone for one minute
and the place is in ruins.

There is another option here,
you know?

Me.

I'm already on the database.

My blood type is O-negative.

I can take Jim's place
and donate to Naza.

We'll have to screen my blood,
of course -

check for antibody resistance.

What about your operation?

Well, Arthur Chan's looking a bit
pissed off, but he'll come round.

And it will happen as soon
as I recover, I promise.

I can't see another way round this.
Can you?

I had you down in my OT
for today's list.

Cutter pulled rank.

We've just been shunted back
two hours.

Did they make a decision about
whether we're going ahead?

Well, that's still pending,
but I suggest you get in contact

with your day care centres,
your mother-in-laws,

your husbands, whoever -
let them know what's going on,

because if we get the green light,
it's gonna be a long day.

See you.

You need to call him.

Who?

Sam Mendosa.

Call him.

Look, I... I know you can't
bring his wife back.

But maybe you can
give Zac his dad back.

I... I might have made a mistake.

I was closing...

...I was asked to check my work...

...my stitching.

I was tired.

I-I'd worked a 14-hour shift. I...

I was certain everything was OK.

I didn't check.

I...

I don't know whether it would have
made a difference, but...

...it... it might have.

I'll never know.

I am so sorry I didn't give your wife
the benefit of my full attention.

And I am...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I'm sorry.

Anybody got any jokes?

Nothing I want Mum to hear.

'Twll tin pob sais'.

It's Welsh for

'All English are arseholes'.

You can use that one, if you want.

Clean it up.

You know you're gonna make it,
don't you, Kelly?

Trust me.

You're gonna get out of this place,

you're gonna leave
and never look back.

You're gonna have a wonderful life.

But... you have to make it happen.

Yeah?

It's gonna be wonderful.

And you know that. I know that you
know you have to make it yourself,

because...

...no other bugger's
gonna do it for you.

And you've learnt that the hard way.

When I was a little boy,

we used to have to, um... sing hymns

in the morning,
in assembly at school.

And they were in Welsh.

I didn't like doing it very much,
but there was this one...

It's called Calon Ian.

And it means Pure Heart.

Good, strong, pure heart.

And...

...and then my father took me

to watch Wales play
at Cardiff Arms Park

for the first time, and...

...the men were singing it,
and... everybody was singing it,

and... and we were all crying,

and I said to my father,
"Why are we crying?"

And he... "We're Welsh."

♪ Nid wy'n gofyn bywyd moethus

♪ Aur y byd na'I berlau man

♪ Gofyn wyf am galon hapus

♪ Calon onest, calon lan

♪ Calon lan yn llawn daioni

♪ Tecach yw na'r lili dlos

♪ Dim ond calon lan all ganu

♪ Canu'r dydd a chanu'r nos

♪ Nid wy'n gofyn bywyd moethus

♪ Aur y byd na'I berlau man

♪ Gofyn wyf am galon hapus

♪ Calon onest, calon lan

♪ Calon lan yn llawn daioni

♪ Tecach yw na'r lili dlos

♪ Dim ond calon lan all ganu

♪ Canu'r dydd a chanu'r nos. ♪

Is, everything good
with the dissection?

He's just got
some hypertension here.

Renal arteries are normal.

It's all good from this end.

Yeah? OK.

How's his blood pressure going?

Still really high.
It's between 180 and 200.

Have you given him pain relief yet?

Yeah.

His blood pressure, it's...
His heart rate's dropping.

He's gone into
a junctional arrhythmia.

Um...

What's going on here, mate?

Come on.

He's blown a pupil.

Shit, I think the tumour's
bleeding into his brain.

Help me close the wound.
We need to get him on the scanner.

Yep.

Dr Chan's next door. You call him.
Tell him you need him in here now.

Hello, Theatre 2?

We need Dr Chan in here, urgently.

Closing up?
Yeah.

Come on, come on.

What happened?

He's developed a Cushing response.
His left pupil's blown.

OK, heart rate's still dropping.

Blood pressure's dropping too, now.

Dammit.

He's blown the other pupil too.

He's had a massive intercranial
haemorrhage from the tumour.

He knew the risks.

But we should get him into Radio
and get a scan.

What's the point? I mean...

It's just...

Monica, Monica...

♪ Today I feel unsure

♪ Something's not quite right

♪ The sky is dark and torn

♪ And I can't stop worrying

♪ It's moving way too fast... ♪

Can you get someone else
to assist? I need to go see Frankie.

We have a kidney for Naza
that needs to be sewn in

and you and Frankie can wait.

♪ Underneath this thunderstorm... ♪

♪ And just when I believe

♪ All is gone and all is dim

♪ Like a winter's cold
welcomed by a warming spring

♪ You blow in like summer breeze

♪ And you say all I can't

♪ You turn me around

♪ And you stop the hurt from ruining

♪ And just when I believe

♪ All is gone and all is dim

♪ Like a winter's cold
welcomed by a warming spring

♪ You blow in like summer breeze

♪ And you say all I can't

♪ You turn me around

♪ And you stop the hurt from ruining

♪ Just when I believe

♪ All is gone and all is dim

♪ Like a winter's cold
welcomed by a warming spring

♪ You blow in like summer breeze

♪ And you say all I can't

♪ You turn me around

♪ And you stop the hurt from ruining

♪ Just when I believe

♪ All is gone and all is dim

♪ Like a winter's cold
welcomed by a warming spring

♪ You blow in like summer breeze

♪ And you say all I can't

♪ You turn me around

♪ And you stop the hurt from ruining

♪ Days and months go by

♪ And then I start to cry

♪ This house that covers me

♪ Starts to fall around my soul

♪ Each stone and brick I see

♪ That shattered under me

♪ Reminds me of the song

♪ Not yet sung or never heard

♪ And just when I believe

♪ All is gone and all is dim

♪ Like a winter's cold
welcomed by a warming spring

♪ You blow in
like summer breeze... ♪

♪ And you say all I can't

♪ You turn me around

♪ And you stop the hurt from ruining

♪ Oh, you blow in
like summer breeze

♪ And you say all I can't

♪ You turn me around

♪ And you stop the hurt from ruining

♪ Ruining me. ♪

How long have you been
sitting there?

Just a little while.

You made it.

Is the Prof out of the theatre yet?

How's he doing?

He's done well.

"Dear Dr Steele,

"I am sorry to say
that despite the fact

"that I passed six years of
medical school with flying colours,

"I'm actually a total fraud."

Frankie, do you think
"fraud" or "impostor"?

Impostor.

"..I'm actually a total impostor.

"And rather than foist myself on
unsuspecting patients any further,

"I must resign midway through
my internship program.

"I am so sorry for any inconvenience
this has caused.

"Yours sincerely, the person
previously known as Dr Tabb Patel."

I'm gonna give it another term.

Are you, now?

Yeah.

♪ Nid wy'n gofyn bywyd moethus

♪ Aur y byd na'I berlau man

♪ Gofyn wyf am galon hapus

♪ Calon onest, calon lan

♪ Calon lan yn llawn daioni

♪ Tecach yw na'r lili dlos

♪ Dim ond calon lan all ganu

♪ Canu'r dydd a chanu'r nos. ♪