All language subtitles for Lost Resort - 1x10_track3_eng

- Welcome, welcome, welcome.

Nearly three weeks ago,

eight strangers flew
to the mystic jungles

of Costa Rica to join
our spiritual retreat.

- It's crazy as hell.

- Our guests have screamed...

- [screams]

- Cried, confessed,

and, yes,
even vomited their way

to getting in touch
with their core trauma

and begin the process
of healing.

- That was [bleep] gnarly.

- The final days
of any retreat

always prove
to be the hardest,

the most dramatic,

and the most rewarding.

Our hours are numbered.

So let's make each one
bloody well count.

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

Last time on "Lost Resort"...

- I see everybody
around me having

all of these
spiritual breakthroughs,

and I don't feel anything.

- I've been through a lot
in my life.

And I'm hoping to learn
to love myself because...

I don't.

- So tell me about this letter.

- This letter...

it's a detailed description
of our childhood.

- Why won't you
read the letter?

- It's my relationship
with my grandmother.

That might be...
a lot to take on.

- Tell her.
You're her husband.

Tell her what
you think and feel.

- I'm not gonna be here

if you have feelings
for somebody else.

- At this point,
I don't see a way

of, like, recovering
from it all.

- Are you saying
that you're done?

- I feel like, yeah.

[dramatic sting]

- No, I got to go.

[solemn piano music]

- Is she okay?

♪ ♪

[tense music]

- Feel Mother Earth
underneath you,

supporting you, darling--
you're being held by her.

On the way to breakfast
this morning,

Thea collapses.

We immediately
called the medic,

who wasn't far,
thank goodness.

Yesterday she called it.

There's definitely
an emotional root to this.

[dramatic sting]

Like a queen.

- Thea had to do something
so [bleep] hard.

It's hard to hurt
someone you love.

But she did it,
and I'm proud of her.

♪ ♪

- What do you think
this could be emotionally?

- I think letting go of...

[chuckles]

Of stuff, yeah.

- Hmm, letting go of what?
- Him.

- Can you be specific?

- The marriage, I guess.
- Yep.

- I'm not having any
second decisions about it.

I think it was, you know,
the right thing to do.

And that doesn't mean
that he's a bad person,

but he's just not
the kind of person

I need to be happy.

[serene acoustic music]

- On the other hand,

this is what you're letting
go of, right?

I want now for you to tell me
what you're calling in.

- Freedom.
- Mm, okay.

- And happiness.
- Mm.

Feel it as you say it, darling.

That's why you're calling in

that true happiness
in yourself.

Such epic work here.

You're so brave.

[inspirational music]

♪ ♪

- [chirps]

- This is our last
healer meeting.

- It's like the eleventh hour,
isn't it?

[chuckles]

- Whirlwind.
- Little sad?

- There's a knowing that people
aren't being like,

"Is it gonna be gnarly again?"
It's like--

- Bracing themselves.
- It's gonna be good.

- Yeah.
- We're gonna be good now.

- It'll be good
to just catch up

on where our guests are at.

- Mm-hmm.
- Let's talk about Thea.

I mean, unfortunately, she
had one of her near seizures.

Luckily, we were there
to catch her,

and the medics were there.

But, emotionally, I think
it's connected to her journey.

- I mean, it's huge for her.

- It's huge.
- This is huge.

She's facing her biggest fear.

- Yes.

- Thea, I admire her courage.

And I hope that
whatever they have to do

to part ways--

and I believe
that they can do that

when they're dealing with the
reality of, you know, divorce.

- She's made the decision.

Let's stand in it,
just give her space,

and just make sure she's okay.
- Yeah.

- Okay, beautiful.
Who else have we got?

- Meco.

- I feel like she's starting
to stand for herself.

- That's what I think...
- Yeah.

- Meco still needs to work on.

- Yes.

- She needs
to be loving herself.

- That was one of her
intentions of being here...

- Yeah.
- Is the self-love.

Today I'm gonna work
with Greg.

There's not one human

that doesn't go through really
upsetting stuff as a kid.

And so I'm gonna sort of say,
"What happened?"

- That's gonna be
an incredible one-to-one.

- Yeah, I mean, it could be
absolutely amazing.

- Yeah.

- I really need to help Greg
remember why he's here.

This is my last opportunity
with him.

And, really, it's up to him.

I can only take him
as far as he's willing to go.

♪ ♪

I'm gonna do a session

with Robin and Christine.

- Wow.

- I think Christine's ready
to have the letter read

that Robin's sister
had sent to her

about what Robin experienced
growing up.

- Mm.
- Mm.

- I think that
will be beautiful

once Christine has had
a chance to read this

and have a bit of compassion
coming for mama.

The letter has the key.

- Just you saying that,
my whole body's like, "Wow."

- Yeah.

- Like, when she
receives the letter

and gets to really understand
who her mother truly is...

- Yeah.

- Rather than her projection
of her mother.

But, like, seeing her mother
as that little girl

who had to go through
all those things.

- Wow.
- Yeah, that's right.

- Christine
and Robin's dynamic

takes center stage
a little bit--

a lot of bit right now.

But I'm not sure
their relationship

can change and grow.

- Thank you
for this last healer

and every healer meeting
we had.

- Yes.
- I know.

- I love you all so much.

- Take a deep breath in.
[all inhale deeply]

Breathe out first.
Exhale.

[all exhale deeply]

Deep breath in.
[all inhale deeply]

[all chanting]

[upbeat pop music]

♪ ♪

- Meco has been skeptical
of our ways.

Yet she's been
incredibly supportive

when other guests
have had victories.

I think Meco is finally ready
for her breakthrough.

So I've scheduled a one-on-one
for her with Oneika.

- We're gonna play around
with a style of yoga

called restorative yoga.

- Never done yoga before, ever.
- Never?

- My reason
for coming here was,

"How can I love myself?"

Like, I didn't grow up
being told I was beautiful.

I didn't grow up being
told anything positive.

And being in foster care,
it's shitty.

So I tend to feel like
I'm not deserving of love

'cause I never really had it.

It's so much easier
to get into it

when not everyone's around.
[chuckles]

- Yes, it is.

- But, like,
if it's a personal thing,

a group thing is not really
gonna get me to come out...

- Yeah.
- Like, with the deep stuff.

- Mm-hmm.

- There have been several times
when she's actively said,

"I'm not doing this.
I don't want to participate."

- I don't have nothing
I'm angry about.

I already know
I'm not doing this, so...

- She's holding back
from her process

of being able to push through

some of the big blocks
that she has.

♪ ♪

I'm gonna guide us
through a meditation.

I want you
to bring some attention

to your giant heart

that is always
turning love out...

[serene music]

To take care of children,
to take care of people,

and to give.

I can feel it
as a giant spotlight

that is shooting out
to the entire world.

And I want you
to turn that light in

and let all of that love
that you sent out go in.

♪ ♪

Love that you deserve,

love that lets us soften...

lets you soften into yourself.

♪ ♪

How's that feel?

♪ ♪

- You don't feel good?
- Mm-mm.

[dramatic music]

I just don't feel it, like...

- You don't have to.
- The love.

Self-love makes me
feel uncomfortable.

A lot of people tell me,
"Oh, you're beautiful.

You're this.
You're that."

But it's just, like...

you don't feel it
unless you feel it.

I don't feel it for myself.

♪ ♪

[tense music]

- You don't feel good?

Tell me what's happening.

- I just don't feel it, like...

- You don't have to.
- The love...

- Let's talk about that.
- For myself, I guess.

- Okay.

- I guess the reason why
I push it out so much

is 'cause I don't feel it
for myself.

- Mm-hmm.

- Growing up in foster care,

I've always had to be
the strong one.

But sometimes being strong
gets tiring.

But when you have no one there
to hold you while you're weak,

being strong
is your only option.

I've been like this
forever, though.

Like, I've always wanted
to, like, self-love myself.

- Mm-hmm.
- I always felt like...

if I was good enough
to be loved

that somebody would've loved me
already by now.

- Mm-hmm.

- That's where it's me.
- Yeah.

- And it's like,
people say they love me,

but do they really?

Do they really get
to the depths

of what makes me who I am?

- Mm-hmm.

Yeah.

- Yeah.

- Come here.

[dramatic piano music]

Come here.

- [sniffles]

[crying]

[sniffles]

- What I can tell you...

is that when you know
that other people love you,

it starts to open us up.

And it's okay that
you don't feel it today.

But it may come,

and you don't have to force it,
and you don't have to push it.

With Meco, I know there's
effort happening there,

and I can see it,
and I can feel it.

So I'm excited to see
how she continues

in that process of learning
what she wants for herself.

You need to take care of you.

- Yeah.

- ♪ Yeah ♪

♪ How many times
can I allow you ♪

♪ To walk all over me? ♪

♪ Walk all over me ♪

♪ ♪

- Hey, beautiful.
- Hello.

- Greg has worked hard
at the retreat,

but we still
haven't gotten past

his self-identified
anger issues.

With very little
time remaining,

I'm going to meet with him
one-on-one

and give him that extra push

because I believe anger
is always masking pain.

We need to get to the core
of Greg's pain

before time runs out.

♪ ♪

I want you to describe to me

how you're feeling
on the inside.

- Nervous.
- Hmm.

- [laughs]
- Hmm.

[ambient music]

- Scared?
- Hmm.

Thank you for your honesty.

I'd like you to revisit

your intention for being here.

And I would invite you
to expand it.

What would you love
to create for yourself?

- A partner.
- Yeah.

Beautiful, yeah.
- [laughs]

Somebody to come home to.
- Yeah.

Beautiful.
- We all do.

- So that's why
we're here, huh?

- Okay.

- That's why you're
at this retreat.

That beautiful,
loving relationship.

That partnership cannot happen

while that hucha is sitting
there, darling, okay?

From these experiences
you've had.

- Okay.

Deep down, I know I have
these emotions in me

that I need to get out for me
to go farther in this journey.

I've been holding
these things in for so long,

I don't even know
who the real Greg is.

- As far back
as you can remember--

You can share with me

how it was for you
as a little one.

[tense music]

♪ ♪

- Um...

When I was nine or ten,

my dad and stepmom

had a baby boy, Blake.
- Hmm.

Blake.

I've come
from the future.

Tell me, little one,
what's happened at home?

- My brother is gone.

♪ ♪

- I'm sorry to hear that.
Where did he go?

- He went with the angels.

[dramatic sting]

- What happened to him,

to your little brother?

♪ ♪

- [sniffles]

♪ ♪

[tense music]

♪ ♪

- What happened to him,
to your little brother?

♪ ♪

- He was murdered...

♪ ♪

By our babysitter...

and strangled.

And she--

she was sentenced to prison
for 12 years, I think.

♪ ♪

- I'm so sorry to hear that.

♪ ♪

Is anybody talking
to you about it

from the family, sweetheart?

♪ ♪

- I don't talk about the death
of my brother.

Even my closest friends
don't know about that.

Our family really
doesn't even talk about it.

And as a child,

I wasn't able to kind of have
closure on that.

- Is there anger in there
about that?

Yeah.
Share with me.

♪ ♪

- I'm mad that it
wasn't explained to me

why these things happen.

I'm mad that they focused
on his death

rather than me living.

- You have a right
to feel that.

That's it.
Keep going.

- I'm mad that I'm not enough
for my parents.

[sobs]

- I've got you.
I've got you.

I've got you. I've got you.
Keep going, keep going.

Yep.
Oh, sweetheart, yep.

You can let go, sweetheart.
Let go now.

Let go.
Let go now.

I've got you.
I've got you.

Keep going.
- [sighs deeply]

Never in my life was I asked
how I was feeling,

not when my brother
was murdered,

not when I came out
to my parents.

I have 32 years of emotion

that I haven't known
how to release.

So anger is the only way

I've known to release that.

Oh.

- Oh, honey.

You have the right
to be heard.

You're a beautiful heart,
sweetheart.

- Talking about these things

and putting them out
in the open,

it feels freeing.

I feel calmer now...

- Yeah.
Good.

- Not as angry.
- Yep.

This is life-changing.
Greg has done incredibly well.

I feel he's had his main win
that he needed.

- How do you do it?

- You showed up.
That's how I did it.

[inspirational music]

♪ ♪

[upbeat guitar music]

♪ ♪

- You go do
the art therapy.

- I will be
right back here...

- Yeah.
- As soon as it's over.

- Okay.
Thank you.

- I wish I could stay with you.
- No, it's all good.

- It's so important
for the guests

to hear that they
have witnessed change

and recognized growth
in their retreat-mates,

which is why we do
this simple yet effective

acknowledging art workshop.

Meco finally let go
with Oneika.

But to the group,
she's still tough as nails.

I'm hoping Meco
can finally hear

how loved she really is.

♪ ♪

- Thea,
we'll check on her later.

But she is here with us
in spirit.

- Mm.

- So we're at the end,

so we thought
that we would give

everybody an opportunity

to reflect and mirror
what they've seen

in terms of changes
with everybody.

Take a brush,
take paint,

and write a word--

affirmational things
that you have seen

come through somebody
as we've been together.

- At this point,
I'm pretty sure that

my body is gonna be
just curse words.

[laughing]

♪ ♪

- This is it.

It can be easy
to go back and think

that this was all some
wild dream that took place.

But this is real.

You went through
this experience,

and who you are right now
is who you are going to be

when that plane touches down.

Remember that you were here.

That can keep you so grounded

in whatever you need to do
going forward.

- Absolutely. Be as creative
as you want to be.

[upbeat music]

- I think you're--
- Actually, don't tell me.

Just write it.
- [laughs]

- So often we equate this word

to only young children.

It's actually one of the most
powerful forces of love.

♪ ♪

- I like that color.

- [laughing]

- "Speaker of truth."

- Aw.
Thank you, Rob.

- Aw.
- Give me a hug.

both:
Mwah.

- Can I write "pure love"
on you?

- Aw.
Yes.

- You are so fierce, Claudia.
- Aw.

- What are you writing?
- "Healer."

- Aw.

Y'all are gonna make me cry.

I felt very honored
that Meco wrote "healer,"

'cause that's what I do
in my real life as a pastor.

And Robin wrote "compassion."

- "Originate, pure, untampered,
a down sister."

[all aw]

- I love you.
Mwah!

- I'm gonna put "passion."

- Okay, mama.

I am just who I am.

But when "clarity"
and "passion" was written,

I'm going, "They see me.

They actually see me
for who I really am."

♪ ♪

- Okay, "heart"
is almost done.

- I'm writing
"psychotic bitch."

[all chuckle]

♪ ♪

Okay, let me write on you now
real quick.

♪ ♪

[indistinct chatter]

- There.
'Cause you're tender and sweet.

- Aw.

- Guys, can I have you
move to the pool?

- Who wrote "sweet" on me?
- I did...

because I realized
she really is sweet.

- [laughing]
- It ain't fake.

- [laughs]

- It's not fake.
- [laughs]

[both smooching]

[laughter]

- I'd like to know
what the king wrote on me.

- [chuckles]

- Is that "bad mama jama"?
- It is.

[laughter]

Like, you are a mom.
You know what I mean?

But at the same time, you know,

you have the courage to, like,

flaunt and just be foxy

and kind of do your thing

without judgment or, you know,

feeling like you shouldn't.
- Yeah.

- You know, so...
- I love that.

Thank you.
[laughter]

- She's like,
"I will take that."

- I will take it and receive
and own that.

- What is this?
Vairrun, you wrote this.

- Black queen.
- Yeah.

Like, I know that you really
embrace your Latino side a lot.

And not that you don't embrace
your Black side,

but I did want to reinforce,
you know,

the Black queen in you.
- Aw.

I didn't get to explain
what that was on him.

The tree represents
because he's strong.

The sun represents the light

that he brings to my life.
[laughs]

- It's a gift.
- That's beautiful.

- It's a gift you're giving
him, being honest.

Go on.
- Oh, wow.

- Oh, wow. Babe!

- Vairrun has been
different for me

because almost
every experience

I have ever had with guys
is always a negative one,

whether they're trying
to use you

or, you know, whatever.

But he's been there for me

and helped me
through this journey.

- That's beautiful.
- That's so sweet.

- That's beautiful.

- I just feel like
Vairrun opened my eyes

to a lot of stuff that, like,
he doesn't realize.

And, like, he's shined light
in my life.

- After those tears came,

I could see
her heart burst open.

It's the most beautiful
transformation that I've seen.

Seeing people
like Meco start to shine

makes it all worth it.

- He's been my light here.

I feel like I wouldn't have

gotten through this
without him.

- Wow. Wow.
- That's really sweet.

- Meco is not really
the emotional type.

She's a beautiful person,
beautiful spirit.

It was good to see her

be able to get past
a lot of her issues

and make it to the end
of the retreat.

And to know that I had
something to do with that,

it makes me happy.

- Now, the last days, y'all
gonna get me to [bleep] cry.

[laughter]

[rock music]

- ♪ When you're walking
through the hurricane ♪

♪ When you're dancing
through the storm ♪

♪ You got to keep the faith,
you got to keep the faith ♪

♪ You got to keep
the faith strong ♪

- This is my last private
session for the retreat.

And I'm working
with Robin and Christine.

I feel really emotional

about even beginning
the session

because I know it's gonna be
very, very powerful.

- Going into this two-on-one,

I'm not entirely sure what
I want to do about the letter.

When it comes
to the mental trauma

that comes with the letter,

I just--I don't know
if I'm ready for that.

[sighs]

♪ ♪

[light music]

- Suffice to say, Robin and
her daughter's relationship

is at a devastating
fracture point.

This one-on-one
is for everything.

[tense music]

Well, here we are.
- Yes.

- Can we create a big picture
for the session?

- Yeah.
- Like, a decision.

Like, what are we deciding?
What would you love?

Would you like
to share, Christine?

- I would like to feel

not only like I'm heard by you,

like, I feel like you're
actually listening to me

when I'm talking to you

- I want you to--

Please, I want you
to get this out.

- She does.
- I'm so ready.

Please.
Don't hold back anything.

- And I'm gonna help you,
Robin,

just create that vacuum
of understanding,

where you allow
everything to land.

This is not a space
for you to then--

- No, no.
- No.

It's for you
to masterfully receive.

- Also because
I'm gonna be feeling

her anger and frustration
and her pain.

- Yeah.
Yeah, that's it.

- So it's great that Chrissie's
here to help all that out.

Anything
that I've said or done...

I want to receive it.

I want you to be able
to get that out

because you and I cannot
move forward.

- Robin.
- Yes.

- You're not listening.

You're just
allowing everything

that she needs to say to you

to land without reacting to it.

Just receiving it.
- Okay.

- Let go of any defenses,
any walls

and just allow truth to flow.

Are you ready to start?
- I'm ready. [sighs]

[dramatic music]

- There has been
a lot of times

where I have not felt
your presence in my life.

I felt forgotten.

I felt alone.

♪ ♪

And I've been there for you

when no one else
has been there for you.

♪ ♪

- That's it, darling.
Go for it, Christine.

- It hurts.
It frickin' hurts.

The negativity, the animosity,

the anger, the resentment
that I hold against you

because of what you've done!

[crying]
I'm just so angry.

- [sobbing]

- This is where you
start to be there,

learn to be there
for your daughter

over you.

- Regardless of what happened

in our childhoods,

that does not define us.

You know that you have
these behaviors

that come from trauma.

But you still allow them
to happen.

You are better than that.

And I'm better than that.

♪ ♪

- What do you regret?
You tell us.

- I regret...
[sniffles]

[grunts softly]

All the time that's passed
when you felt like this.

I regret all the moments
we've missed because of it.

I regret putting you
in the middle

of the family dynamic
with my mother.

- [sobbing]
- Let it in.

Let it ride in.

- I should have never put
those expectations on you...

that you had to choose
between us.

That was so unfair.

♪ ♪

- I just feel heard.
I'm happy.

That's all I really wanted.

- [laughing]
Oh, my God.

- I can't believe
she's actually listening

and she hears me.

I'm so happy.

Miracles do happen.
[laughs]

- So beautiful, ladies.

We're going to move on

to the other part
of the session,

which is almost a bit
of a reversal.

You're going to read the letter

that your aunt sent to you.

- Okay.

- This letter was written

to my daughter
by my stepsister,

who experienced the same things
that I experienced.

- This frickin' scares
the living bejesus out of me.

- The letter is
a detailed description

of our childhood.

And there are things in it
that are horrific.

- Listen to me.
I'm gonna say this.

I want you to know
you come first.

But at the same time,

she still is my grandmother.

- I know.
- And I love her.

- This is just for you
to understand where I've been.

- Okay.
- [sniffles]

- We're here.
We got you.

- Okay.

Oh, God, okay.

"Hello, Christine.

"Let me start by saying
that I wish I had known you

"for the last 24 years.

"I'm writing you
to help you understand

"your mom's past, my past.

"It will be an awakening
to who your grandmother is,

"but I will only pray
you will use this information

"to protect yourself, your
relationship with your mother,

"and heal
from not understanding

"what happened many years ago.

"Your mom, she loves you
and your brother and sisters

more than you will ever know."
[sniffles]

"She has tried to protect you
and, at the same time,

"deal with her own past.

"She is a survivor.

"We endured things together

that no one should ever
have to go through."

"We were all playing
invisible chairs

just like kids do."

"Grandmother called her
a liar."

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

Oh, my God.

Oh, God.
[sniffles]

[sobbing]

Oh, my God.

[sobbing]
Oh, my God.

I'm so sorry.

[emotional music]

I'm so sorry, Mom.
[sobbing]

Oh, my God, so sorry.

[cries]
Like, who does that to a child?

It was really bad.
[sniffles, cries]

I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry, Mom.

I don't think I could ever
have a relationship

with my grandmother after this.

♪ ♪

[continues sobbing]
I'm so sorry.

- Don't worry, sweetheart.
It's okay.

- [bleep], no.
Nah.

- [breathing raggedly]
- I know that I'm not...

- What we see in this session

is that Robin and Christine

agreed to break
the pattern of abuse,

not just what was being mended
between the two women,

but for their ancestral line,

for women all over the planet,
it is uber powerful.

The most powerful session I've
done in a great many years.

- ♪ Gonna get a taste
what the future holds ♪

♪ Falling into place
like a jigsaw ♪

- I'm very grateful
to have her as a mother.

I love her.
[sniffles]

She's crazy, but I love her.
[laughs]

- ♪ Gonna get a taste
what the future holds ♪

♪ Whoa-oh-oh, whoa-oh-oh ♪

♪ Like, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪

♪ ♪

[electronic music]

♪ ♪

- It's the last day.
You're going home.

- [breathing rapidly]

♪ ♪

[upbeat pop music]

- ♪ When it's all ♪

♪ Said and done ♪

[bells ringing]

- It's simple metaphysics.

When you dissolve
heavy energy,

you are then left with
a space to responsibly fill.

Please come on in.

So much hucha has been dumped
by these guys.

And now in tonight's ceremony,

we will show them how
to fill themselves right up

with joy, happiness, and fun.

Welcome, everybody,

to our final...

ceremony,
our final celebration

for what has been

a life-transforming
three weeks.

To be saying, "I am"

and "I will"...

[ambient music]

As great creators
of the rest of our lives.

- The transmutation
of hucha into sami

is what this elemental dance
that we're gonna do

gives us the opportunity
to engage in,

with the partnership
of the elements

and the togetherness
of the community.

And as we close the doors
to this retreat,

we open the doors
to the rest of our lives.

- And like Whitney says,

"I want to dance with somebody
who love me."

- Yes!
[laughter and applause]

[soft music]

- Slowly starting to feel

the energy of water
taking over your body.

I honestly did not expect
this much transformation

this fast with this group.

Allow the body to start

to become liquid.

Liquid body.

We got through,
and we triumphed with love.

And I feel like if everybody

could take this example,

we could live in a much more
harmonious and loving world.

♪ ♪

- The work is already done.

Release and surrender
into divine will,

knowing that we're being led
down the path that we need to.

This retreat has been
massively transformative

and growing for all the guests,

as well as all the healers.

It was just--
that was amazing.

- We will never be here

all together again
as we are now.

[energetic percussive music]

♪ ♪

- Before this retreat,
I didn't really know anything

about alternative medicine.

Being on the retreat really
helped me deal with my anger.

If I wanted
their [bleep] opinion,

I'd come to your [bleep] house
and ask for it!

And what I'm feeling

is nothing
you'll ever experience.

[screaming]

- Leaving this retreat,
I'm very happy to say

I don't really need to seek

my mother's validation
anymore.

I need to be stronger
for myself.

So that's what
I'm gonna focus on.

- I came here with the goal
of loving myself more

and putting myself first.

[emotional music]

- How can we come
into our full presence

and spiritual authority...

- My experiences here
opened me up

to the things
that I needed to change

as far as being closed off.

The mask that I'm
really good at is

the nonchalant,
stone-faced mask.

But I'm eager to get started

on a new life
after this resort.

And I'm definitely
a better man.

[chuckles]

- As these final ether songs
fill the space,

what is spirit calling you
to be accountable for?

- Before I came here,

I didn't want to let it go

that I could've have
biological children.

But I think I can now

move forward to talk
about adoption.

[screaming]

- At ease.

[percussive music]

- My invitation to you is
to drop as deeply as you can

into the center of your being.

- Coming into this retreat,

I had so much anger
towards my mom.

But I am leaving

feeling the closest to my mom

that I have been
in the past eight years.

And I am really
looking forward

to starting
a new chapter with her.

- I realized that having
a big butt is okay.

[laughs]

And with Christine,
never in a million years

would I have dreamed that
moment would come in my life.

I mean, can you see
that I'm like--

[exhales sharply]

[triumphant music]

- This retreat did not turn out
the way I thought it would.

Brandon and I were not able
to connect.

But I learned
from this retreat

to do what I have to do
to be happy.

♪ ♪

[soft music]

- Let the waters move you
to connect...

♪ ♪

To empathize,

and luxuriate
in that connection as if...

The Earth is the best lover
you've ever had.

[percussive music]

And she embraces you

the way that you know
you need to me embraced.

[all exhale deeply]

And you can roll around
in her arms.

[moans]

If it comes out in sounds...

[all moaning]

That's okay.

Imagine that the third chakra

is lighting up with a flame
like a sun.

Now energy is moving
up and down your spine,

out the meridians
of your hands,

down through your feet.

- When they got here,

this was so far
out of their comfort zone.

But now look
at my little chickens.

♪ ♪

[reflective pop music]

♪ ♪

- Bring our hands together.

We're gonna make some noise
to send this off.

[all clapping, thud]

[all shouting]

- Whoo!
- Whoo!

Yeah!

- Yeeh!
- Whoo!

- We are a very
tight-knit family

of love and loyalty,

this I know,
just like the wolves--

the wild, wild wolves

that love each other
and protect each other.

We are now a wolf-pack family.

And so on the count of three,
I want you to howl with me.

Are you with me?
all: Yes.

- Are you ready to howl?
all: Yeah!

- All right.
Let's do it!

[all howling]

[triumphant music]

♪ ♪

[laughs]

[cheers and applause]

[reflective music]

- Unhappy with their lives,

eight strangers decided
to take a risk

and dive into the unknown.

Now they've learned
to powerfully commit

to living the most badass,

most loving version
of their own lives.

I'm so thankful
that my fellow healers,

Atasiea, Oneika,
Benjamin, Acqua,

and my shamanic mentors,

Mama Ruth
and Brother Christian

were able
to open their hearts

and bring their deeply
personal powers and energy

to support our little group.

After releasing
so much hucha on retreat,

my sweet Greg is conscious

that his anger has now
largely dissolved.

Full power, Greg.

- Between my appendix bursting
and coronavirus hitting,

it's not been the easiest road

to kind of getting
back on track.

But I did move to Branson,

which is the entertainment
capital of the world,

to pursue my dreams of acting.

Hi.
I'm Greg Haywood.

Book me at your next party,

and your guests are sure
to have a blast.

- And our beautiful Becca
joyously reports

that she feels the presence
of God again.

Now, that is what this
is all about.

- Within eight hours
of coming home,

I told Will that

I wanted to start
the adoption paperwork.

And he was like, "What?"

[laughing] Like, I don't think
he was expecting that.

He was very excited.

- Claudia,
our force of nature,

bravely and powerfully forgave
her mother,

giving her immeasurable
freedom in her life.

- I have a new love interest
in my life.

He's the entire package.

And, oh, what a package.
[laughing]

- Since the retreat,

our solid rock Vairrun

now prioritizes working
on himself

as he continues his noble
first-responder work

as a firefighter.

Although Vairrun and Meco
decided to continue

as just friends,

Vairrun reports he
is more open than ever

to being vulnerable
for the right person.

- I came back,

and I didn't have that weight
on my shoulders.

I didn't have all of that fear.

When things open back up,

I'll probably get back
on the dating scene.

I'm hoping I have
a little Vairrun

or Veronica running around
in the next five years.

[chuckles]

- Meco actually admitted to me

that she missed being
on the retreat

once she got home.

But she reports that she
in a much happier place now

and continues
to courageously do the work

to truly love herself.

On top of that,
we're stoked to hear

that she's back to modeling
and working on her music.

- Definitely still
a city girl.

The jungle,
you guys had me once.

Enjoy it 'cause you won't
have me again.

In my continuous journey
for self-worth,

I do deserve a seat
at the table.

So here I am.

I've arrived, period.

- How about this?

Christine has just
gotten engaged.

And guess who is walking her
down the aisle.

Her beautiful mama.

- All right, we're about to try
these awesome drinks.

Cheers, Mommy.
- Cheers, baby.

- Since coming back
from Costa Rica,

our relationship has done
a complete 180.

- One of the biggest changes
is that

Christine is now
my business partner

and we work together
every day.

- Finally,
there's our sweet Thea,

who is still working
really hard

to stand for her truth
in her everyday life.

After they returned
from the retreat,

Thea and Brandon
began the process

of amicably ending
their marriage.

Although a difficult process,

Thea is bravely creating
the life that she dreams of.

- When I left Costa Rica,

I was really confident
about my decision.

I was happy, you know.

I was like--
[scoffs]

Like, released from that

depression I had put
on myself.

I learned the lesson,
and I got to keep learning it

until I can master the course.
[chuckles]

- What an incredible privilege

to witness these
beautiful souls

come through so much.

This work is so powerful

because the ripple effects
of healing one person's trauma

spread out far and wide.

And that's my mission--

to heal hearts
and heal our planet.

Now to find my next set
of chickens.

♪ ♪