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♪ (MYSTICAL MUSIC PLAYS) ♪

(CLAPS)

KEITH RANIERE: ESP is a methodology

for optimizing or enhancing human experience and behavior.

WOMAN: Some of the questions that the coaches asked

were just so spot on.

If you could have or be anything,

what would that feel like?

Raniere proposed this map of how everything worked.

MAN 2: It was a unified theory to explain

why people do what they do and how to change that.

This is a code to understand myself.

WOMAN 2: It was like, holy shit, I can be the ideal version of myself,

to write my own character.

RANIERE: The deeper the commitment,

the better and clearer life becomes.

BONNIE: Hey, can you talk quick?

MAN 2: Bonnie got there first.

BONNIE PIESSE: If I look at those women, they're all not doing well.

MAN 2: It took me longer.

BONNIE: There's a lot of things I'm starting to see

about the organization.

It's not right.

I feel like my life and body was stolen.

I want to have that life. I want to get it back.

♪

Mark Vicente: Hmm.

(Bonnie Piesse speaking)

(Piesse sighs heavily)

(voice breaking)

♪

♪

♪ Days we were young ♪

♪ We took photographs of everything we could see ♪

♪ We had to run from it ♪

♪ Priest and prophetess ♪

♪ We were nothing we would defy ♪

♪ Oh, invisible skin ♪

♪ Where is the world within ♪

♪ Invincible skin ♪

♪ It's how we all begin ♪

Bonnie Piesse: Okay, so I feel wounded right now.

And I've been trying really hard to turn it around and stay positive,

and, you know, trust that,

that good always wins.

That, that light wins over darkness.

But Keith head-fucked us,

the girls that were in that group, specifically, in a way that...

I don't know that everyone got head-fucked like that.

(voice breaking): So... So that's the daily struggle.

Vicente: Huh.

(Piesse speaking)

-Vicente: Well... -Piesse: But, yeah.

Vicente: Hmm.

(group applauding)

All: ♪ Happy birthday, Vanguard ♪

(indistinct chatter)

Piesse: When I first met Keith,

my gut feeling was like...

Ew! You know, something's a bit gross.

He would kiss you on the lips.

That's just kind of what he did.

And everyone else did it, as well.

But at the same time, I had really enjoyed the five-day

and was very moved and he was the creator of that,

and so I need to like, let go of that,

and just see what's right in front of me,

which is a guy who's saying he wants to help me.

If this guy's created all these things that are helping so many people,

like, who cares about the kissing on the lips thing?

(playing gentle piano music)

Keith Raniere: Mm-hmm.

(Piesse singing vocal exercise)

(Raniere plays low note)

(Piesse singing vocal exercise)

Piesse: Keith said to me, you know, you could be in Simply Human,

the singing group of ESP.

That's when I started spending a lot of time with Allison Mack.

Allison saw Keith as like a guru, a spiritual master,

and she was very committed to the mission.

Allison Mack: If we actually understood compassion,

the world would be a much better place.

Like, not even the world. Like .00 percent.

Three percent of the world. If they could just have

this little dose of love,

everything would change.

Everything.

-Everything. -(applause)

Are you ready for promotions?

(crowd cheering)

Our proctors have met various ethical standards

to qualify to enter into

an independent contractor-ship

on one of our career paths.

-You ready? -Yes.

Nancy Salzman: Bonnie Piesse.

(crowd cheering)

Allison Mack.

(crowd cheering, applauding)

Our new one-stripe full proctors.

(crowd applauding)

Piesse: I was amazed by the EM tech.

(thwacks)

-Ta-da! (chuckles) -Man: Yeah!

Yay! (laughs) Thank you.

-(thwacks) -Ow!

Piesse: Where you break a Pavlovian link

to help a person overcome a limiting belief.

And I wanted to do that right away.

But then you're told that you need to wait till you're a two-stripe coach

to even start learning the tech.

Then you had to go out and practice.

And so I, I practiced two and a half years.

Like, 1,500 EMs to get to two stripe.

I was told that I could earn money

by the time I got to EM one.

And by the time I got there, they said,

"Oh, no, we've changed the standards."

Now you have to pass, like, we're thinking, EM five.

Financially, I was going deeper into debt.

I was kind of just getting by

going to "Star Wars" conventions,

going and playing shows at colleges.

-Thank you so much! -(audience applauding)

It wasn't working.

And Keith kept saying to us,

"Give it a few months and you guys will be earning great money."

But instead, it felt like once I got to proctor,

suddenly I was more obligated to give for free.

And so you're strung along, practicing, practicing, practicing.

Then Keith invited some of us into development teams.

And that's when the workload started to get heavier and heavier.

A typical day during that time would be

-up at five... -(alarm beeping)

shove some breakfast in my body,

run a yoga class, get feedback from Keith,

coach intensives, go and give free EMs.

As a facilitator, you couldn't really get up and even use the bathroom.

I wouldn't have a lunch break.

I would eat on the way in the car.

Meetings, meetings, meetings. I was still trying to uphold

my obligation to being a proctor.

And then drive to Simply Human practice.

-(singing vocal warm-up) -(playing piano)

And then I'd be on the phone practicing EMs

until two or three.

-(alarm buzzing) -Up at five.

So like, we were all running on no sleep.

And even as you're working 23 hours a day,

you're getting feedback of like, "Why aren't you doing more?"

What is comfort? Think about it for a second.

Piesse: It was about productivity,

but it was about pushing through.

Like, we were taught in everything

that to have character you need to, like,

overcome your body feelings.

And you don't need as much rest as you think and, like, it's...

It shows you how strong you are.

Comfort is like an addiction,

and when you find comfort, you try to be more comfortable,

and just everything comfortable

and we don't push our bodies too much,

and comfortable, comfortable, comfortable, right?

The more we indulge in this addiction,

the more we have to lose.

So it feels like tough love.

It feels like you've got these people who care about you,

who are saying, "You need to do this.

"This is all for your own good.

And for the good of the world."

And you're even thankful. You're like, "Thank you for, for pushing me,

and like, trying to help me get through this."

Salzman: So welcome to the world of discomfort.

If you are not uncomfortable, you are not working on anything.

Your life should be a life of discomfort if you want to grow.

If you don't want to grow, hey, sent shit away. Your choice.

Piesse: I found myself, like,

sitting in Clifton Park going, "What are, like--

"How'd I get here?

This is my life now."

And that didn't feel good.

And I was looking around at all these people

that just didn't seem joyful to me.

And I was like, I feel like everyone's being squished.

And I started to see red flags with Allison.

I noticed that she was getting obsessed with her weight.

Like, it started to feel weird.

And I couldn't really put my finger on it.

But it was just like a feeling that I had.

The coaches didn't really deny intuition,

but they led you to believe that your intuition

was just a feeling, just a viscera,

and that you needed to try to fix it.

Like, if you had a normal emotional reaction to something,

they explained that it was just the world controlling you,

and it was something that you needed to overcome and work through.

Raniere: We want to empower people,

particularly the way our will

interfaces with our body, our neurology, our viscera.

And we have these different techniques that help people,

if you will, drive their vehicle better.

Piesse: In exo/eso, we were taught that

just like you can stretch your body,

you can also stretch your emotions and unlock feelings

that are holding back your growth.

They give you exercises where you can literally open up the viscera,

and expand it into, like, joy.

Woman: Find yourself in a comfortable position.

Maybe lay on the ground, and...

just relax your body.

Now transition to the feeling of suffering.

Think back to the last time you suffered.

Just feel that feeling.

(ominous music playing)

Now intensify it.

Bring it up to the most intense

that you can make the suffering.

To 25, up to 50.

Seventy-five. Push a little harder.

All the way up to 100!

One-hundred percent suffering!

Now switch.

(serene music playing)

Bring up this opposite emotion.

What is it for you?

What do you call it?

Now start to intensify that even further.

Bring it all the way up to the 100 of it.

(joyful music playing)

One-hundred percent of the opposite emotion.

What is this?

What do you call it? Have you felt it before?

And now you're going to switch back to suffering.

Go ahead. Switch.

(dark music playing)

Were you able to bring it back up?

And now switch.

How do you feel now that you've stretched,

and explored your internal emotional experience?

(light music playing)

Piesse: And that's great, in a lot of ways.

It feels powerful.

It feels like you can go out

and achieve the things that you want.

And that's in your hands.

But looking back, I can see how that's really misused.

It's a way to get you to ignore your gut feelings.

-(Vicente claps) -(all clap)

Piesse: I had to tread really carefully.

Like I couldn't really say what I thought to Mark.

He was very defensive.

And he'd fight back and say, "You have to stop."

But I couldn't stop.

Vicente: Mm-hmm.

(Piesse speaking)

Vicente: Mm-hmm.

Piesse: Keith used to teach some of us that

on the path to enlightenment,

you'd reach this barren wasteland.

Like, you reach a space of nothing

before you find this ultimate joy.

Raniere: Joy feels like your, your cells are gonna burst apart.

As a matter of fact,

the more pain we feel, the more we feel,

uh, alive in a body.

My body was starting to fall apart.

(alarm beeping)

And I was having blood sugar crashes.

(vocal warm-up warping, distorting)

And I felt like I couldn't breathe

when I was in the classrooms.

And then Mark encouraged me to talk to Keith.

-Piesse: Yep. -Raniere: Well...

-Piesse: Um-hmm. -(Raniere speaking)

-Raniere: You know? -Piesse: Mm-hmm.

(Raniere speaking)

-Piesse: Right. -(Raniere speaking)

Piesse: And it just...

(Piesse sobbing)

-Piesse: No. -(Raniere speaking)

Piesse: Usually, I had just obeyed.

But at that point, my intuition was, like, screaming at me.

It was like, "You have to get out."

♪

Before I left, Allison invited me for a walk.

She was kind of at her skinniest.

She looked like her back bones were sticking out.

But I confronted her and I said, "I think you're sick.

"You're not eating.

"Like, there's a problem, and you need to address it,

and start eating."

And she said, "Well, Keith is measuring my calories.

And he says as long as I'm having my period, I'm fine."

And then she said that she'd made

a lifetime vow to Keith.

And I think she said it was

a vow of devotion.

And she lifted up her shirt and showed me her belly chain.

She said, "And this is to symbolize the vow that I've made."

I certainly didn't understand it.

But I didn't see the darkness in it

that was really there at that point.

(sighs heavily)

(laptop keys clicking)

I reached out to someone who had quit

and who had kind of dropped hints

that they knew what was going on.

And I felt like they knew something that I didn't.

I just said, like,

"Would you trust me enough to tell me what you see?

"'Cause I don't intellectually know what I'm looking at.

I know what I'm feeling."

And she said, "Well,

in a high-control group..."

And I don't even remember the rest of the sentence,

but, like, when I heard high-control group...

It-- I didn't know what it was,

but it just doesn't sound very good.

♪

And I actually asked, "Do you think Keith knows?

Like, maybe we need to tell him."

And she was like, "I think it's deliberately designed that way."

And so I called him and I said, you know, "Here's what I see.

"I see that all your companies are...

"built on abuse, obligation, guilt,

and coercion. I can't support it."

And he said...

"Oh, I think, you know,

"there are some issues that you never worked.

"You seem to have a...

a commitment to being a victim."

Salzman: We have a fight or flight mechanism,

which triggers this thing we call fear.

When we're fearful,

when we're making decisions based on fear,

we are at effect.

It's the lowest state of existence.

As you make your decision based on fear,

now it's not your psyche controlling,

it's the body and the world

controlling your psyche.

Now we have joy. What is joy?

And what's the opposite of joy? We talk about joy and misery.

When someone is miserable,

they feel small.

Misery is constrictive.

It's self-oriented,

and it's destructive.

You know, it's involved with suffering,

self-pity, things along those lines,

or malice.

No.

So, I lost my opportunity

to talk to people freely, because...

I think a lot of people saw it as...

dishonorable and weak that I left.

I feel unsure of myself.

We were taught you need to push through.

It shows you how strong you are.

Like, maybe I really am a bad person

for questioning and being disloyal and leaving.

Maybe I'm the problem.

Piesse (on voicemail): Hi. You've called Bonnie.

Leave a message and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.

(voicemail beeps)

(voicemail disconnects)

Piesse: "Finally, I wish to remain on good terms with the company

and have no ethical or unresolved issues with NXIVM and ESP."

Vicente: Mm-hmm.

(Piesse speaking)

Vicente: Yeah.

Piesse: I finally opened up with a friend.

I just, like, let it all out, and told her everything.

And she said, "You know, you might need to break up with him.

You might need to leave him."

It's so sad that a lot of relationships

go from being great in the beginning,

to there's all this resentment and anger,

and they just seem to get kind of more and more bitter.

This helps you resolve those things, so that you can

make your relationship get better.

This marriage is one of the most successful things in my life.

For certain.

I believe we have a really successful relationship,

and it didn't just happen.

(indicator clicking)

(jet engine roaring)

Piesse (on voicemail): Hi. You've called Bonnie.

Leave a message and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.

(Piesse sobbing)

(whimsical piano music playing)

(camera shutters clicking)

So you want to interview me or something, or... ?

Vicente: Light bulbs out.

(man laughing)

Okay, so you're gonna sit there.

-I'll interview you, and film you? -(laughter)

Vicente: So,

um, Keith, in the time that I spent with you,

it's clear that you have a whole series of ideas

that are really amazing.

Well, first of all,

I, I don't know if the ideas are amazing or not.

I...

My assumption is that I, I have some,

uh, relatively strong ideas,

uh, that I communicate pretty well.

(crowd applauding)

My name is Mark Vicente.

I'm a filmmaker from the apartheid era South Africa.

George Lucas had as his mentor Joseph Campbell,

an American mythologist.

I have as my mentor an American scientist

and philosopher by the name of Keith Raniere.

He asked me a question,

and the question he asked me was,

"What is bravery?"

What does that mean?

Well, there's a dictionary definition.

But in the deepest sense, it means to be able to bear pain.

You know, you look at all the people who

are allegedly enlightened.

All the different gurus, whether it be the Buddha,

the Jesus, or, or Gandhi.

They're not just sitting on a pillow.

They're not just being fed grapes

and doing nothing, you know?

And struggle, there's nothing negative about it.

It's the nature of life.

Vicente: When I first met Keith, he said to me,

"You know, it'd be good if you just moved here

so we could, like, have more of these conversations."

Train conductor: Albany, anybody? Albany?

Vicente: It wasn't really in Albany proper.

It was more north in Clifton Park.

Everybody knew, pretty much, where everybody lived.

So you'd always run into people.

And in between, we're just the civilians.

You know, those people who just live there.

And then at night,

you know, you were expected to go to volleyball.

It was like, you know, midnight to 7:00 a.m.

And around, um, 10:30 or 11,

the A team and Keith Raniere would show up.

-(balls bouncing) -(indistinct chatter)

-(thwacks) -(ball bounces)

Help, help. Help!

Producer: Why volleyball?

I didn't understand volleyball at first.

But it became a big social event.

When intensives were going on,

you could have like 50, 60 people in the bleachers,

basically just watching,

EM-ing each other, whispering to each other, talking,

and then in between games,

everybody would gaggle around him, you know,

and ask him question after question after question,

and we'd stand there for like half an hour sometimes,

cooling down while he was talking,

and then we'd play again.

You know, he was like the rock star.

ESP Member: Is that okay?

(laughing)

(camera shutter clicks)

Vicente: And in the end, it was all about

-seeing him. -...tries to handle the ball.

Vicente: That's what everybody said. It's a chance to see him.

I basically try every day to reach him.

We're gonna-- Let's talk about projects. Let's talk about things.

And it's very frustrating, because he won't respond.

And I go to volleyball, like, three times a week,

and I'm talking to him and say, "When are we gonna start?

When are we gonna start? When are we gonna start?"

And it's like he just--

almost like he forgot.

And so I'm in this state of complete insecurity.

Like, I just uprooted my life.

Six weeks go by.

On my birthday,

seven o'clock in the morning, Keith Raniere calls me.

And he says, "Hey, you wanna take a walk?" I mean...

And I'm like fuckin' ready.

You know, I'm there.

I've got my recorder with me,

I've got a little note pad with me,

and I'm so excited.

He's gonna work with me now.

Vicente: Uh-huh.

Nancy said to me, "You know what?

"It would be great if you'd document Keith now that you're here,

'cause you know how to shoot and everything. Could you document him?"

Mark is trying to film me.

I'll just keep on asking and shooting until someone says no.

Okay. Very cool idea.

-Vicente: You guys ready? -Woman: Mm-hmm.

I started shooting, like, in 2005,

and then a number of people said to me they'd like to learn.

Switch it to "camera."

So I began this program of like teaching people,

you know, how to shoot, how to do sound,

you know, how to edit.

-Cool! -(people laughing)

And it grew to people,

you know, recording with audio,

you had people shooting with video.

And then you had, like, people that were basically

writing down what he said and categorizing it, you know.

It was, it was a whole operation constantly.

Raniere: Good.

And he just said, like, it's important to

document this because, you know, we're talking about

the generations in the future.

Like, at some point in the future,

my hope is this work that we're doing

will end up in universities, will end up in books.

And wouldn't it be wonderful if the world could look back and say,

"Oh, that's what happened."

I take walks with him at like, 2:00 a.m., 3:00 a.m., 4:00 a.m.

And when we're done, I go home and I transcribe the entire thing.

Vicente: Uh-huh.

(Raniere speaking)

-Vicente: Mm-hmm. -(Raniere speaking)

-Vicente: Mm-hmm. -(Raniere speaking)

Vicente: And in that moment, I remember thinking,

this guy fuckin' knows me like nobody has ever known me.

Like, nobody in my family knows me. He knows me.

And I'm astounded,

and I remember going-- I didn't sleep much that night,

and I was writing in journals, and writing about, like,

all these things, and, and how much that it impacted me.

And how much I yearned to be this--

I yearned to be like him.

Raniere: Mm-hmm.

Vicente: Okay.

(Raniere speaking)

Vicente: Right.

-Vicente: Yes. -(Raniere speaking)

Vicente: Mm-hmm.

Vicente: Right.

Vicente: Right.

(Raniere speaking)

Vicente: Right.

(Raniere speaking)

-Vicente: Mm-hmm. - (Raniere speaking)

Vicente: Right.

Vicente: Right.

Vicente: Over time, these ideas evolved into a screenplay

called "Carbon Crimes."

It follows Joe,

an idealistic aide to a powerful Senator.

So, Joe, who's spirited and impulsive.

Wants to prove he's good.

Passionate and hopeful. Struggles with lying.

He meets Erik Einhaert,

a world-renowned scientist, professor, and humanitarian.

-Vicente: Yes. -(Raniere speaking)

(keyboard clacking)

-Vicente: Yep. -(Raniere speaking)

Vicente: Mm-hmm.

Einhaert takes Joe under his wing,

and challenges Joe to question all of his assumptions

about the entire universe.

So he gave me all the ideas.

And part of it was cool, 'cause it was like,

"Oh, now I'm like Nancy."

Like, he's downloading all the ideas to me

and I'm gonna, like, turn this into something, you know.

So she would turn it into modules,

and I was gonna turn this into a movie.

(phone rings)

-Vicente: Mm-hmm. -(Raniere speaking)

Vicente: I'm in heaven.

We're doing an EM in a movie,

which is all I ever wanted to do.

Vicente: I suppose I was like this

very eager student.

So for seven years of my life,

I call him every single day.

(line ringing)

Hello.

-Hi. -Hi!

How's it going there?

(phone ringing)

Correct.

Right. Is that...

Yeah.

Vicente: I felt that there was a closeness.

You know, the highest IQ in the world is telling you

that you're the one.

You're smart enough to get me.

That's... I don't know. It could be pretty intoxicating.

Nancy said to me, "It's extraordinary,

this relationship you have with Keith." And I was like, "Why?"

She says, "'Cause you're his only male friend."

-Raniere: Yeah, yeah. Yeah. -(indistinct chatter)

(woman laughing)

Vicente: I have the Vanguard. I have the Prefect.

-I have Sarah, my business partner. -Namaste.

Vicente: I have all these people that, like,

anytime I need anything, I'll say, "Listen.

Hey, can I talk something through with you?"

They'll say, "Of course you can. Let's go for a walk." You know?

♪ ♪

Actually, let's have everybody stand up for a second.

-(class laughing) -For the first time in my life,

I had the feeling of like,

I am with me, and I love me,

and I remember just being like,

"Oh, my God. This is what self-love is."

This feeling is the thing

every single human being in the world wants.

It's priceless.

(indicator clicking)

(line ringing)

-Vicente: Right. -(Sarah Edmondson speaking)

-You know, like... -(Vicente sighs)

(Vicente laughs)

-Edmondson: Yeah. Yeah. -(Vicente speaking)

Vicente: When Bonnie leaves in 2017,

I'm like, "What the fuck am I gonna do?"

If I took in what she said,

it was, it was pretty horrifying.

Because I'd have to question...

Questioning him

felt like I'd question everything about myself.

And I wanted her just to stop.

Like, "Can we stop? Can we not talk about this right now?

Can we, can we talk about it some other time?"

And she was insistent.

I was like, constantly,

every day, trying to get him to understand.

Putting evidence in front of him,

begging him to listen, begging him to read cult books.

He begged me to not keep pushing him,

and to let him have his own process with it.

But he was still talking to Keith.

And I was like, "Fuck." You know, like, all...

All the work, all the progress that I was...

trying to make with him would then be, like,

flushed down the toilet.

♪ ♪

(Vicente laughing)

(sighs) You know what Bonnie said to me?

Like, "What will it take?" I said, "Data."

(cars honking)

Piesse: Soon after I left,

another person left and came to LA,

and we started talking about everything.

She gave me information about things that she'd seen

that were very concerning.

And she agreed to talk to Mark.

(indicator clicking)

(ominous music playing)

Vicente: Mm-hmm.

(friend speaking)

♪ ♪

Vicente: I'm like, "What the fuck is going on here?"

There's something wrong.

Keith is amazing, but something is fucked up.

Raniere: Mm!

(Vicente speaking)

Vicente: Mm-hmm.

(Raniere speaking)

Vicente: Mm-hmm.

(Raniere speaking)

-Vicente: Mm-hmm. -(Raniere speaking)

-Vicente: Mm-hmm. -(Raniere speaking)

Vicente: Mm-hmm.

Vicente: Yep.

Vicente: Yep.

Vicente: It was very hard,

because you're going up against the leader.

And in this case, a leader who had spent 12 years

working his way into my psyche.

(laughing)

♪ ♪

(shoes squeaking, ball bouncing)

Yep.

-Boom. There you go. Yeah. -Oh, yeah. That felt good.

Right.

Vicente: Um...

Edmondson: Yes, yeah.

Edmondson: I-- I--

(Vicente speaking)

Vicente: You feel like you're going crazy.

He got my best friend to basically spy on me.

Every single thing that I was suspecting him of,

I kept on explaining it away,

like, maybe there's a good reason.

That day I allowed myself

to like question, what if there's not?

(line ringing)

-Raniere: Uh-huh. -(Vicente speaking)

Raniere: Okay.

(Vicente speaking)

Raniere: Mm-hmm.

Raniere: Uh-huh.

Vicente: Mm-hmm.

(Raniere speaking)

♪ ♪

Vicente: He's lying to me.

♪ ♪

Twelve years of spending time with him,

thinking that every single thing that comes out of his mouth

is honest.

♪ ♪

Wait, okay, so that's a lie.

What if it's not the only one?

It was like there was a crack in the dam.

(high-pitched tone)

You collapse in a puddle...

of, of horror and shock.

That's waking up.

It's a very, very deep and disturbing

dark night of the soul.

(crickets chirping)

Piesse: We went for a hike,

and he said to me, "My eyes are open,

and I want you to know that I am loyal to you above them."

And for the first time, he started asking me questions

about what I thought. (sniffles)

Vicente (on voicemail): Hello, this is Mark.

Please leave a message after the beep.

(phone beeps)

Vicente: "Dear Keith, Nancy,

"and members of the executive board,

"as I've expressed in many different ways over the last years,

"I've had strong aspirations

"to return my focus and effort to my career.

"As such, I am resigning from ESP.

"With respect to the centers,

"I will be discussing my transition with Sarah,

"and I will apprise the Greens of which coaches

need to be transferred."

(indistinct chatter)

It was the point of no return.

And I now understand I have to tell Sarah.

Edmondson: Mm-hmm.

(Vicente speaking)

(indistinct chatter in background on Edmondson's line)

(voices fade)

(recorder beeps off)

Vicente: When we switched off the recording,

Sarah tells me that she is in this thing,

that it's called DOS, and then she tells me,

um, "They branded me as well."

And I remember going, something like, "What?

They b-- They did what?"

(phone bloops)

What the fuck?

(ominous music playing)

(music intensifies)

("Hit Me Where It Hurts" by Caroline Polachek playing)

♪ I'm feeling like a butterfly trapped inside a plane ♪

♪ Maybe there's something going on ♪

♪ I'm not insane ♪

♪ If I'm already out of time ♪

♪ Then make it worse ♪

♪ Go on and hit me in the heart ♪

♪ Hit me where it hurts ♪

♪ Go on and hit me in the ♪

♪ Bullseye, dead end, moving target ♪

♪ Carousel, carousel, Baggage, claim it ♪

♪ Promise one day you will hate me ♪

♪ But right now just ride it out ♪

♪ Ride it out, ride it out ♪

♪ Magic carpet, over London ♪

♪ Through the ceiling ♪

♪ Watch you dreaming ♪

♪ Promise one day you will hate me ♪

♪ But right now just ride it out, ride it out ♪

♪ I'm feeling like a butterfly trapped inside a plane ♪

♪ Maybe there's something going on ♪

♪ I'm not insane ♪

♪ If I'm already out of time ♪

♪ Then make it worse ♪

♪ Go on and hit me in the heart ♪

♪ Hit me where it hurts ♪

♪ Go on and hit me in the ♪

♪ Blind spot, Achilles heel... ♪