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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:01,725 --> 00:00:03,105 (LOUD WHOOSH) 2 00:00:03,205 --> 00:00:06,295 SUZIE: Any home should feel safe 3 00:00:06,404 --> 00:00:10,324 and warm and supportive. 4 00:00:11,402 --> 00:00:13,302 EBG. 5 00:00:13,401 --> 00:00:15,621 Everything is home. 6 00:00:15,721 --> 00:00:18,581 REBECCA ON SPEAKER: OK, can you try the top and bottom again, 7 00:00:18,680 --> 00:00:20,180 but even warmer? 8 00:00:20,279 --> 00:00:22,419 Uh, yeah. Sure. 9 00:00:22,519 --> 00:00:23,899 It's just... Yeah. 10 00:00:23,998 --> 00:00:25,998 (CLEARS THROAT) 11 00:00:26,877 --> 00:00:28,877 (CLEARS THROAT) 12 00:00:35,154 --> 00:00:37,434 (SLOWLY) Here at EBG... 13 00:00:38,673 --> 00:00:40,973 ..we don't just take care of your phone. 14 00:00:41,073 --> 00:00:45,913 Now we provide your electricity, heating and gas. 15 00:00:46,911 --> 00:00:50,071 EBG. Everything is home. 16 00:00:51,949 --> 00:00:56,609 Yeah. Have you got any more warm? Like, uh, like, super warm? 17 00:00:56,708 --> 00:00:58,088 (SUZIE CHUCKLES) 18 00:00:58,187 --> 00:01:01,327 Yeah. I mean, I could try. 19 00:01:01,426 --> 00:01:04,466 This is a bit like 'Toast of London' this, isn't it? 20 00:01:05,465 --> 00:01:07,515 -It's like what? -'Toast'. 21 00:01:07,624 --> 00:01:09,044 -What? -'Toast'. 22 00:01:09,144 --> 00:01:10,804 Toast? 23 00:01:10,903 --> 00:01:13,963 'Toast'. You... Don't worry about it. 24 00:01:14,062 --> 00:01:15,642 REBECCA: It's... It's like toast? 25 00:01:15,741 --> 00:01:17,321 DAVE ON SPEAKER: It's a television program. 26 00:01:17,421 --> 00:01:18,321 (SCOFFS) 27 00:01:18,421 --> 00:01:20,721 REBECCA: I don't have time to watch television anymore. 28 00:01:20,820 --> 00:01:22,720 Oh, shit. I forgot to call the school. 29 00:01:22,819 --> 00:01:25,739 -Can you just do one while I'm...? -SUZIE: Yeah. 30 00:01:26,898 --> 00:01:29,998 (SIGHS) OK. So... 31 00:01:30,097 --> 00:01:31,397 SUZIE: I mean, um... 32 00:01:31,496 --> 00:01:33,116 Am I really not warm enough? 33 00:01:33,216 --> 00:01:36,456 I feel like I'm, like...porn panting. 34 00:01:37,454 --> 00:01:39,454 Is... 35 00:01:39,934 --> 00:01:41,514 I mean, is she for real? 36 00:01:41,613 --> 00:01:45,713 Like, I am widely recognised for my warmth. 37 00:01:45,812 --> 00:01:47,352 I mean, I have... 38 00:01:47,451 --> 00:01:52,871 I've won National Television Awards for my warmth. 39 00:01:52,969 --> 00:01:55,549 -DAVE: You're sad. -You know that. I'm sad? 40 00:01:55,649 --> 00:01:58,729 There's a sadness in your voice. 41 00:02:02,486 --> 00:02:05,506 -Oh. Sorry. -OK. 42 00:02:05,605 --> 00:02:07,745 Imagine you're a god. 43 00:02:07,845 --> 00:02:09,215 It's always the same. 44 00:02:09,324 --> 00:02:13,664 The text is "Buy this", the subtext, "And you're never going to die". OK? 45 00:02:13,763 --> 00:02:16,583 -OK. -Do one like that and we can go home. 46 00:02:16,682 --> 00:02:18,582 -OK. -Go. 47 00:02:18,681 --> 00:02:20,681 OK. 48 00:02:21,280 --> 00:02:23,280 Ready? (INHALES DEEPLY) 49 00:02:27,398 --> 00:02:30,698 (WARMLY) Any home should feel safe 50 00:02:30,797 --> 00:02:32,417 and warm 51 00:02:32,517 --> 00:02:34,517 and supportive. 52 00:02:35,356 --> 00:02:37,136 EBG. 53 00:02:37,235 --> 00:02:39,475 Everything's home. 54 00:02:41,074 --> 00:02:43,074 DAVE: There you go. Good. 55 00:02:44,273 --> 00:02:46,273 EBG. 56 00:02:47,432 --> 00:02:49,512 Everything is home... 57 00:02:52,590 --> 00:02:56,950 ..safe, warm, supportive. 58 00:02:58,069 --> 00:03:00,369 -Good? -DAVE: Good. 59 00:03:00,468 --> 00:03:02,468 (INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC) 60 00:03:21,301 --> 00:03:25,341 SUZIE: When I was young, I would run a voiceover in my own head. 61 00:03:26,339 --> 00:03:29,219 I dunno, maybe I'd watched too many 'Wonder Years'. 62 00:03:30,458 --> 00:03:32,898 But it's comforting, a voiceover. 63 00:03:33,897 --> 00:03:35,797 -Who's fucking touched it, then? -KAREN: It wasn't me! 64 00:03:35,896 --> 00:03:37,276 So I have, have I?! 65 00:03:37,376 --> 00:03:38,916 SUZIE: Telling a story about yourself. 66 00:03:39,015 --> 00:03:41,055 Being the main character. 67 00:03:42,054 --> 00:03:44,114 The only way to stay sane 68 00:03:44,214 --> 00:03:46,914 is to string all the shit that happens in your life together 69 00:03:47,013 --> 00:03:48,913 into a story you can live with. 70 00:03:49,012 --> 00:03:51,012 -KAREN: Leave me alone! -PHIL: Don't touch it! 71 00:03:53,411 --> 00:03:55,871 SUZIE: If you can talk about yourself from the future, 72 00:03:55,970 --> 00:03:59,230 you must've processed it, survived. 73 00:03:59,329 --> 00:04:02,489 Nothing can hurt you with a voiceover. 74 00:04:04,967 --> 00:04:09,707 And by imagining I was the main character, I became one. 75 00:04:09,806 --> 00:04:11,346 Things did start happening. 76 00:04:11,445 --> 00:04:13,375 ♪ More every day... ♪ 77 00:04:13,484 --> 00:04:14,904 SUZIE: I was special. 78 00:04:15,004 --> 00:04:17,424 ♪ Daylight, it leads me... ♪ 79 00:04:17,523 --> 00:04:19,503 -MAN: OK, let's go again. -56. Take 3. 80 00:04:19,602 --> 00:04:22,582 ♪ Back your way, falling... ♪ 81 00:04:22,681 --> 00:04:24,861 SUZIE: Everyone was looking at me. 82 00:04:24,961 --> 00:04:29,441 ♪ Into my arms again 83 00:04:30,439 --> 00:04:33,419 ♪ I'll say this 84 00:04:33,518 --> 00:04:36,858 ♪ I miss you more 85 00:04:36,957 --> 00:04:40,517 ♪ My friend. ♪ 86 00:04:43,595 --> 00:04:45,585 (THEME MUSIC) 87 00:04:47,753 --> 00:04:49,753 (GLASS SMASHES) 88 00:04:52,312 --> 00:04:54,312 (CAMERA CLICKS) 89 00:05:05,188 --> 00:05:07,228 SUZIE: The photos are in the papers. 90 00:05:09,266 --> 00:05:14,186 Now I've finally lost my mind, they can legally print me sucking a dick. 91 00:05:15,824 --> 00:05:17,564 Maybe they're right. 92 00:05:17,664 --> 00:05:19,824 Maybe I am insane. 93 00:05:20,823 --> 00:05:22,523 Maybe I'm a monster. 94 00:05:22,622 --> 00:05:24,282 COB: Everything just comes to you, doesn't it? 95 00:05:24,382 --> 00:05:26,282 You want what you want when you want it 96 00:05:26,381 --> 00:05:28,561 and if you don't get exactly that thing, that's it. 97 00:05:28,660 --> 00:05:30,660 You lose your shit. 98 00:05:36,458 --> 00:05:39,438 SUZIE ON VIDEO: Oh, you're going to... Are you gonna film me? 99 00:05:39,537 --> 00:05:42,157 Open the door, mate! Open the door! 100 00:05:42,256 --> 00:05:44,776 Open the door! Ow! 101 00:05:46,295 --> 00:05:48,425 (SOUND OF SUZIE ATTEMPTING TO OPEN THE DOOR) 102 00:05:48,534 --> 00:05:50,434 Open...the...door! 103 00:05:50,533 --> 00:05:53,233 (LOUD WHINING SOUND) 104 00:05:53,332 --> 00:05:55,332 Ooh! 105 00:05:55,891 --> 00:05:57,891 (INHALES AND EXHALES) 106 00:05:58,891 --> 00:05:59,791 Oh! 107 00:05:59,890 --> 00:06:01,590 (BICYCLE BELL RINGS) 108 00:06:01,690 --> 00:06:02,590 (PHONE VIBRATES) 109 00:06:02,689 --> 00:06:04,789 SUZIE: Oh, God. Here's Naomi. 110 00:06:04,889 --> 00:06:06,269 She's going to talk 111 00:06:06,368 --> 00:06:08,868 and totally ignore all the shit that happened between us. 112 00:06:08,967 --> 00:06:10,347 Hello. 113 00:06:10,447 --> 00:06:12,867 Can you believe they blurred the cock? They pixellated his dick. 114 00:06:12,966 --> 00:06:16,426 Dixellated. That's so... It's, like, you think that's offensive? 115 00:06:16,525 --> 00:06:17,895 SUZIE: Here she goes. 116 00:06:18,004 --> 00:06:19,624 NAOMI: It's fucking scandalous. They love it! 117 00:06:19,724 --> 00:06:21,624 They're saying legally they can print it now 118 00:06:21,723 --> 00:06:23,303 because you dragged it into the public arena 119 00:06:23,403 --> 00:06:25,403 with that video of you shouting at that car. 120 00:06:26,402 --> 00:06:30,342 I guess you want me to cancel the hospital visit later? With the kid? 121 00:06:30,440 --> 00:06:34,260 What? No, no, no, no. We can't do that. What if he dies? 122 00:06:34,359 --> 00:06:36,459 Well, he definitely is gonna die, Suze. That's the point. 123 00:06:36,558 --> 00:06:38,738 Yeah, well, join the club. 124 00:06:38,838 --> 00:06:40,898 Sorry, I didn't... I didn't... I didn't mean that. 125 00:06:40,997 --> 00:06:42,137 I'll cancel. 126 00:06:42,237 --> 00:06:45,177 No, no, no, don't cancel it because I'll just feel like a right cunt. 127 00:06:45,276 --> 00:06:47,276 NAOMI: I'll come with you. 128 00:06:49,914 --> 00:06:52,474 Nay, do you...do you think we should have a proper chat? 129 00:06:53,553 --> 00:06:55,613 Yeah. I'm just doing work stuff now. 130 00:06:55,712 --> 00:06:57,452 Don't forget to pick up painkillers. You're due on. 131 00:06:57,552 --> 00:07:00,652 I know it sounds mental, but last month, we were...in sync. 132 00:07:00,751 --> 00:07:04,231 So, we've finally fully...merged. 133 00:07:05,269 --> 00:07:06,649 (INHALES SHARPLY) Oh! 134 00:07:06,749 --> 00:07:07,649 OK. 135 00:07:07,748 --> 00:07:09,408 -See you there, then. -OK. 136 00:07:09,508 --> 00:07:10,928 KAREN: Come in! 137 00:07:11,027 --> 00:07:13,847 SUZIE: My mum used to clean for Naomi's dad. 138 00:07:13,946 --> 00:07:16,166 Naomi's mum was dead. 139 00:07:16,266 --> 00:07:17,646 Go on! Play! 140 00:07:17,745 --> 00:07:19,645 SUZIE: And the house was like a grave. 141 00:07:19,745 --> 00:07:23,395 It was very white and marble, or fake marble. 142 00:07:23,503 --> 00:07:24,403 (VACUUM HUMS) 143 00:07:24,503 --> 00:07:26,643 SUZIE: She lived in a cul-de-sac in Caversham, 144 00:07:26,742 --> 00:07:28,442 but I was from Northcote. 145 00:07:28,542 --> 00:07:31,842 And Caversham was where people with two cars lived. 146 00:07:31,941 --> 00:07:34,721 Anyway, one time, 147 00:07:34,820 --> 00:07:38,800 my mum found all these knickers in the bin with blood on them. 148 00:07:38,898 --> 00:07:40,918 And immediately she was asking questions. 149 00:07:41,018 --> 00:07:43,318 I can't say what it's like to have your wife die, 150 00:07:43,417 --> 00:07:46,437 but...I don't think it'd make you like that. 151 00:07:46,536 --> 00:07:48,076 SUZIE: Always thinking the worst. 152 00:07:48,175 --> 00:07:49,635 Such a cold man. 153 00:07:49,735 --> 00:07:51,105 SUZIE: Particularly about men. 154 00:07:51,214 --> 00:07:53,214 What did you find then? 155 00:07:54,373 --> 00:07:56,433 Private things. 156 00:07:56,533 --> 00:07:58,233 This is a job for you. 157 00:07:58,332 --> 00:08:00,332 SUZIE: So I had a mission. 158 00:08:01,691 --> 00:08:03,691 Do you ever get blood in your knickers? 159 00:08:04,650 --> 00:08:06,650 Why? Do you? 160 00:08:07,769 --> 00:08:10,749 Yeah. That's what a period is. 161 00:08:10,848 --> 00:08:12,788 SUZIE: Naomi had been taking her dead mum's tampons 162 00:08:12,887 --> 00:08:16,347 from the cupboard in the toilet, but she didn't know how to use them. 163 00:08:16,446 --> 00:08:18,546 So she was just putting them in her knickers 164 00:08:18,646 --> 00:08:20,426 like you would a sanitary towel. 165 00:08:20,525 --> 00:08:24,015 So there's blood on her pants, but she doesn't want her dad to see, 166 00:08:24,124 --> 00:08:27,724 so she throws them away in the bin, which is fine. 167 00:08:28,722 --> 00:08:31,442 Until a few months in, when she runs out of knickers. 168 00:08:33,361 --> 00:08:34,741 (CHEERING FROM TV) 169 00:08:34,840 --> 00:08:36,660 She started coming round all the time. 170 00:08:36,760 --> 00:08:37,780 (PHIL ARGUES) 171 00:08:37,879 --> 00:08:40,219 SUZIE: My mum preferred it when there were lots of people around. 172 00:08:40,319 --> 00:08:42,819 -Can I not make a phone call? -I want to ask a question. 173 00:08:42,918 --> 00:08:45,738 PHIL: OK, ask away! Ask who I'm with and where I'm going. 174 00:08:45,837 --> 00:08:47,777 -What I'm doing. -Oh! 175 00:08:47,876 --> 00:08:49,376 (PHIL KEEPS TALKING) 176 00:08:49,476 --> 00:08:51,776 SUZIE: And when everything happened to me... 177 00:08:51,875 --> 00:08:54,885 No, when I...did everything I did... 178 00:08:54,994 --> 00:08:57,094 -(CHEERING FROM TV) -YOUNG SUZIE: ♪ Say this 179 00:08:57,193 --> 00:09:01,893 ♪ I miss you more every day 180 00:09:01,992 --> 00:09:04,612 ♪ Daylight, it leads... ♪ 181 00:09:04,711 --> 00:09:06,731 PHIL: That's my girl! That's my girl! 182 00:09:06,830 --> 00:09:08,210 ♪ Back your way... ♪ 183 00:09:08,310 --> 00:09:09,730 SUZIE: ..Nay was there. 184 00:09:09,829 --> 00:09:10,849 (BOTH LAUGH) 185 00:09:10,949 --> 00:09:13,969 ♪ Falling into my arms... ♪ 186 00:09:14,068 --> 00:09:16,068 SUZIE: Part of it. 187 00:09:16,587 --> 00:09:18,487 -That's the one we changed? -That's the one we changed. 188 00:09:18,586 --> 00:09:20,486 -Are you happy? -Uh, yeah, think so. 189 00:09:20,586 --> 00:09:22,586 MAN: It's all as discussed. 190 00:09:23,545 --> 00:09:25,515 PHIL: Yeah, happy, happy, happy. 191 00:09:25,624 --> 00:09:27,764 Right. Just...just sign. 192 00:09:27,863 --> 00:09:29,763 Let's make you a star. 193 00:09:29,863 --> 00:09:31,723 -MAN: Here we go. -PHIL: That's that one. 194 00:09:31,822 --> 00:09:33,362 NAOMI: Can I see? 195 00:09:33,462 --> 00:09:34,842 Fantastic! 196 00:09:34,941 --> 00:09:36,941 SUZIE: We were in sync. 197 00:09:40,299 --> 00:09:43,759 SONG: ♪ Did you get what you wanted? 198 00:09:43,858 --> 00:09:47,358 ♪ I hope you're happy now... ♪ 199 00:09:47,457 --> 00:09:49,357 SUZIE: Naomi has a lot of theories. 200 00:09:49,456 --> 00:09:51,436 NAOMI: They're short, and it is, honestly, and I'm not 201 00:09:51,536 --> 00:09:53,836 just this saying this 'cause I'm Middle Eastern, it's extraordinary. 202 00:09:53,935 --> 00:09:57,825 SUZIE: She consumes theories like I did food in my 20s. 203 00:09:57,934 --> 00:09:58,834 (NAOMI KEEPS TALKING) 204 00:09:58,933 --> 00:10:00,593 SUZIE: Bingeing on them all 205 00:10:00,693 --> 00:10:02,793 and then me vomming them back up to feel in control. 206 00:10:02,892 --> 00:10:04,892 (VOMITS) 207 00:10:06,171 --> 00:10:08,171 Ahhh. 208 00:10:11,329 --> 00:10:13,329 And it works. 209 00:10:14,448 --> 00:10:16,588 For a while. 210 00:10:16,688 --> 00:10:19,348 -♪ Oh, did I disappoint you... ♪ -(TOILET FLUSHES) 211 00:10:19,447 --> 00:10:22,467 -♪ Or leave you feeling blue? ♪ -(COUGHS) 212 00:10:22,566 --> 00:10:23,946 -NAOMI: Oh, Jesus! -What? 213 00:10:24,045 --> 00:10:26,345 You know you actually look too thin. You do. 214 00:10:26,445 --> 00:10:28,335 Is there such a...such a thing? 215 00:10:28,444 --> 00:10:30,864 But you're not going to be pretty if you keep getting thin. 216 00:10:30,963 --> 00:10:33,543 -OK. -I'm just saying, I'm just saying. 217 00:10:33,642 --> 00:10:36,342 Anyway, anyway, um... 218 00:10:36,441 --> 00:10:40,141 ..I wanted to tell you about, um, that guy, Cob, 219 00:10:40,240 --> 00:10:42,380 'cause I wanted to see him again tonight. 220 00:10:42,479 --> 00:10:44,219 Where are you in your cycle right now? 221 00:10:44,319 --> 00:10:46,099 -My God. Fucking hell. -No, seriously, where are you? 222 00:10:46,198 --> 00:10:48,098 You don't know where you are in your menstrual cycle? 223 00:10:48,198 --> 00:10:50,778 SUZIE: Naomi has this theory that the best time to make a decision 224 00:10:50,877 --> 00:10:54,817 is when you've got PMT, and she calls it the Permanent Mega-Truth. 225 00:10:54,915 --> 00:10:58,245 She says that PMT is the only time you see everything clearly. 226 00:10:58,354 --> 00:11:00,814 Once a month the world is in focus 227 00:11:00,914 --> 00:11:03,814 and the shit you put up with the rest of the time reveals itself. 228 00:11:03,913 --> 00:11:05,973 If you have to have a difficult conversation, 229 00:11:06,072 --> 00:11:09,612 have it just before your period arrives, before you lose your bottle. 230 00:11:09,711 --> 00:11:11,651 Before you're leaking blood and apologies. 231 00:11:11,750 --> 00:11:14,870 SUZIE AND NAOMI: Say the Permanent Mega-Truth. Don't miss your chance. 232 00:11:15,989 --> 00:11:17,889 SUZIE: Not much time left. 233 00:11:17,988 --> 00:11:20,568 I'm intensely PMT. 234 00:11:20,667 --> 00:11:24,087 And considering that, the last 24 hours could've been worse. 235 00:11:24,186 --> 00:11:25,766 (CAR HORN HONKS ON VIDEO) 236 00:11:25,866 --> 00:11:28,606 SUZIE ON VIDEO: Open...the...door! Open... 237 00:11:28,705 --> 00:11:30,695 Yeah, we don't need to, um... 238 00:11:31,504 --> 00:11:35,924 But the fella wants charges of disorderly conduct vandalism. 239 00:11:36,022 --> 00:11:37,042 But minor! 240 00:11:37,142 --> 00:11:40,802 So...we'll clear it up with a simple caution. 241 00:11:40,901 --> 00:11:43,841 WOMAN: Yeah, a caution is just an official warning, 242 00:11:43,940 --> 00:11:45,400 everyone goes on with their lives. 243 00:11:45,499 --> 00:11:48,159 But you do have to admit guilt of the offence. 244 00:11:48,258 --> 00:11:50,758 And then it's just a quick swab. And prints. 245 00:11:50,858 --> 00:11:53,778 Like they do at the airport. Some airports. 246 00:11:54,936 --> 00:11:57,856 WOMAN: Just get your left index finger... 247 00:11:59,095 --> 00:12:00,465 ..and press. 248 00:12:00,574 --> 00:12:02,154 And your thumb. 249 00:12:02,254 --> 00:12:05,474 SUZIE: I can't believe I'm getting fucking prints taken 250 00:12:05,573 --> 00:12:07,893 and he got his dick pixellated! 251 00:12:09,172 --> 00:12:11,172 WOMAN: Great. Just get a swab. 252 00:12:14,570 --> 00:12:16,510 WOMAN: You just scrape the left side of your cheek 253 00:12:16,609 --> 00:12:18,509 and then the right side of your cheek. 254 00:12:18,609 --> 00:12:20,389 SUZIE: I mean, I would murder them all. 255 00:12:20,488 --> 00:12:22,768 (WHISPERS) But now they have my fingerprints. 256 00:12:27,526 --> 00:12:28,546 Hi. 257 00:12:28,645 --> 00:12:32,095 OK, don't worry, it's gonna be fine. He doesn't look... 258 00:12:32,204 --> 00:12:34,064 Well, I mean, he looks like you'd expect. 259 00:12:34,164 --> 00:12:36,344 I can't believe the police cautioned you. 260 00:12:36,443 --> 00:12:37,903 But I'm furious about that... 261 00:12:38,002 --> 00:12:40,702 SUZIE: I hate people who say they hate hospitals. 262 00:12:40,801 --> 00:12:44,981 When something happens to your kid, you don't hate hospitals. 263 00:12:45,080 --> 00:12:47,780 You beg them. You worship them. 264 00:12:47,879 --> 00:12:49,899 NAOMI: They take fingerprints... 265 00:12:49,999 --> 00:12:52,379 SUZIE: When Frank was born, 266 00:12:52,478 --> 00:12:55,178 I thought something had happened to him. 267 00:12:55,277 --> 00:12:59,297 And everyone said, "No, it's fine, it's fine, it's fine. 268 00:12:59,395 --> 00:13:01,055 "You're paranoid." 269 00:13:01,155 --> 00:13:04,225 And then they said he wasn't reacting normally. 270 00:13:05,314 --> 00:13:07,774 And I said, "I know." 271 00:13:07,873 --> 00:13:11,093 And then they told me... 272 00:13:11,192 --> 00:13:12,852 (DOOR SQUEAKS OPEN) 273 00:13:12,951 --> 00:13:17,371 It's nothing you did. It didn't happen during the birth. 274 00:13:17,470 --> 00:13:20,250 It's a chromosomal abnormality 275 00:13:20,349 --> 00:13:23,049 that no-one...no-one could do anything about. 276 00:13:23,148 --> 00:13:25,448 It would have happened at conception. 277 00:13:25,547 --> 00:13:27,547 OK, um... 278 00:13:28,386 --> 00:13:30,846 Right, OK. We'll have an appointment with the audiologist? 279 00:13:30,945 --> 00:13:31,845 DOCTOR: Mm-hm. 280 00:13:31,945 --> 00:13:33,485 SUZIE: And in the following months, 281 00:13:33,585 --> 00:13:36,595 they talked about how high risk the implant procedure was for him, 282 00:13:36,704 --> 00:13:38,784 and that he wasn't a good candidate. 283 00:13:39,783 --> 00:13:42,263 And Cob kept saying it's not that he's ill. 284 00:13:43,661 --> 00:13:45,841 We should be the ones to learn. 285 00:13:45,941 --> 00:13:47,761 He was a happy little boy. 286 00:13:47,860 --> 00:13:49,640 We should wait and see. 287 00:13:49,739 --> 00:13:51,559 And so I listened. 288 00:13:51,659 --> 00:13:54,579 ..how extreme they are, those have to be tested. Doctor... 289 00:13:55,857 --> 00:13:58,637 Nay, don't you think we should talk about what happened? 290 00:13:58,736 --> 00:14:01,476 Uh, yeah. I do. 291 00:14:01,576 --> 00:14:04,116 Let's brunch tomorrow. 292 00:14:04,215 --> 00:14:06,025 It isn't the time for our drama right now. 293 00:14:06,134 --> 00:14:08,234 HEATHER: Have a nice time. Let me know if there's anything... 294 00:14:08,333 --> 00:14:11,073 -OK. Look who's here! -HEATHER: Good to see you. 295 00:14:11,172 --> 00:14:13,072 -Hi! How are you doing? -You beat me to it. 296 00:14:13,172 --> 00:14:16,032 -Good to see you. Really good. -Nice to see you. 297 00:14:16,131 --> 00:14:17,951 -Hi! -Thank you. Come on in! 298 00:14:18,050 --> 00:14:21,850 Alex has been so excited. He's been waiting for you. 299 00:14:23,009 --> 00:14:24,949 -Oh, look! Did you draw that? -ALEX: Yeah. 300 00:14:25,048 --> 00:14:26,548 -Are you serious? -Yeah. 301 00:14:26,647 --> 00:14:28,227 -No way! -It's for you. 302 00:14:28,327 --> 00:14:29,907 SUZIE: You're an amazing artist. 303 00:14:30,006 --> 00:14:30,946 Thank you. 304 00:14:31,046 --> 00:14:34,666 Yeah, I've been drawing pictures. I have a lot about you. 305 00:14:34,765 --> 00:14:37,735 SUZIE: Oh, my goodness me! You're an artist, a proper artist! 306 00:14:37,844 --> 00:14:39,144 ALEX: Thank you. 307 00:14:39,243 --> 00:14:41,243 In fact, I've got, um... 308 00:14:42,083 --> 00:14:43,463 (SUZIE RUMMAGES THROUGH BAG) 309 00:14:43,562 --> 00:14:45,262 I don't know if you're into it... 310 00:14:45,361 --> 00:14:48,461 Well, I know you're into it, but I don't know if you want one of these. 311 00:14:48,560 --> 00:14:49,900 -Oh, I love it! -Really? 312 00:14:50,000 --> 00:14:51,460 -Yes. I really love it. -(LAUGHS) 313 00:14:51,559 --> 00:14:53,059 Oh, look, you've got one right there! 314 00:14:53,159 --> 00:14:55,159 -Yeah. -The Mantis. 315 00:14:55,798 --> 00:14:59,538 Let's have a look. Like, in a sort of collector's item. 316 00:14:59,637 --> 00:15:03,057 SUZIE: Cob says I do this kinda stuff to feel better about myself. 317 00:15:03,156 --> 00:15:04,536 -SUZIE: Yeah, yeah. -ALEX: Yeah. 318 00:15:04,635 --> 00:15:06,015 SUZIE: Who doesn't like the game? 319 00:15:06,115 --> 00:15:07,965 SUZIE: That it's ego masquerading as care. 320 00:15:08,074 --> 00:15:09,574 Which is, you know, whatever... 321 00:15:09,674 --> 00:15:12,774 SUZIE: Maybe. Maybe I am like that. 322 00:15:12,873 --> 00:15:15,293 Maybe I do just want to seem like a good person. 323 00:15:15,392 --> 00:15:16,972 I'll have my coffee in there. 324 00:15:17,071 --> 00:15:20,371 SUZIE: But how is that really different from being a good person? 325 00:15:20,470 --> 00:15:22,470 I mean, ultimately? 326 00:15:23,349 --> 00:15:28,209 He says I'm a bad mother to my own kid and an angel to other people's. 327 00:15:28,308 --> 00:15:31,968 SUZIE: Perfect. Thank you so much. 328 00:15:32,066 --> 00:15:34,846 Wow. I love that. 329 00:15:34,946 --> 00:15:37,286 -No, Mum, of course you're in it! -ALEX: Come on, Mum. 330 00:15:37,385 --> 00:15:38,955 SUZIE: Have you got any brothers or sisters? 331 00:15:39,064 --> 00:15:40,764 Yeah, I have an older brother. 332 00:15:40,864 --> 00:15:42,004 -Have you? -Yeah. 333 00:15:42,103 --> 00:15:43,363 -What's his name? -Jay. 334 00:15:43,463 --> 00:15:45,803 Three, two, one. 335 00:15:45,902 --> 00:15:48,002 ALL: 'Quo Vadis'! 336 00:15:48,101 --> 00:15:50,561 Amazing! Silly faces. 337 00:15:50,661 --> 00:15:52,681 -ALEX: Um... -(CAMERA CLICKS) 338 00:15:52,780 --> 00:15:54,780 NURSE: There we go. 339 00:15:58,978 --> 00:16:01,618 OK, just hold still and I'll just... 340 00:16:04,976 --> 00:16:06,976 There you go. 341 00:16:17,732 --> 00:16:19,352 Roger? 342 00:16:19,451 --> 00:16:23,691 We buried him in the ground. Do you remember? 343 00:16:26,889 --> 00:16:28,889 Yeah. 344 00:16:31,927 --> 00:16:33,427 Well, he's dead, 345 00:16:33,527 --> 00:16:35,527 so he can't be angry now. 346 00:16:40,684 --> 00:16:42,744 Yeah, probably. 347 00:16:42,844 --> 00:16:44,844 You killed him. 348 00:16:46,283 --> 00:16:48,283 Yeah, you did. 349 00:17:01,838 --> 00:17:06,358 Can you tell me what the best and the worst times were? 350 00:17:10,195 --> 00:17:13,045 The best and the worst times? 351 00:17:13,154 --> 00:17:14,734 What? Of life? 352 00:17:14,833 --> 00:17:17,633 What? The show? 353 00:17:25,070 --> 00:17:28,370 Well, this is a personal highlight. 354 00:17:28,469 --> 00:17:30,469 (LAUGHS) 355 00:17:35,707 --> 00:17:37,707 Sweet. 356 00:17:44,104 --> 00:17:46,104 Yeah, that's alright. 357 00:17:47,263 --> 00:17:49,863 It says he's one minute away. 358 00:17:50,862 --> 00:17:52,862 We're still on for tomorrow, right? 359 00:17:53,541 --> 00:17:55,161 I think I'm gonna walk. 360 00:17:55,261 --> 00:17:58,601 -Really? -Yeah, yeah. I've got this app thing. 361 00:17:58,699 --> 00:18:00,699 (MAKES KISSING NOISES) 362 00:18:09,176 --> 00:18:11,796 SUZIE: I'm alive. I'm alive. 363 00:18:11,895 --> 00:18:13,635 -This is my life. -(MUSIC PLAYS OVER EARPHONES) 364 00:18:13,735 --> 00:18:15,425 I can do things. I'm OK. 365 00:18:15,534 --> 00:18:17,674 My child is healthy. 366 00:18:17,773 --> 00:18:19,513 Or at least not dying. 367 00:18:19,613 --> 00:18:22,073 The boy I just left is dying. 368 00:18:22,172 --> 00:18:24,112 I've wasted my life. 369 00:18:24,211 --> 00:18:27,191 This boy has no life and I'm wasting mine. 370 00:18:27,290 --> 00:18:31,150 I'm going to die without a single idea of who I actually am. 371 00:18:31,249 --> 00:18:35,069 Oh, God, I'm going to die! I'm gonna die! 372 00:18:35,168 --> 00:18:37,348 Oh, God. Oh, God. 373 00:18:37,447 --> 00:18:41,067 Now, now, the boy would want me to have a life 374 00:18:41,166 --> 00:18:44,746 and he's not called the boy, he's called Alex, actually, Suzie. 375 00:18:44,845 --> 00:18:46,175 Jesus Christ. 376 00:18:46,284 --> 00:18:47,704 I think. 377 00:18:47,804 --> 00:18:49,584 (MUSIC CONTINUES PLAYING OVER EARPHONES) 378 00:18:49,683 --> 00:18:53,743 SUZIE: Maybe it's just a hormone imbalance hitting a cool change, 379 00:18:53,842 --> 00:18:56,302 but suddenly I know exactly what to do. 380 00:18:56,401 --> 00:18:57,781 (CAR HORN HONKS) 381 00:18:57,880 --> 00:19:00,260 SONG OVER EARPHONES: ♪ Yes, it was childish and you got aggressive 382 00:19:00,360 --> 00:19:02,980 ♪ And I must admit that I was a bit scared 383 00:19:03,079 --> 00:19:06,119 ♪ But it gives me thrills to wind you up 384 00:19:07,837 --> 00:19:10,497 ♪ My fingertips are holding on to... ♪ 385 00:19:10,596 --> 00:19:13,696 SUZIE: I have to use this window while I feel like this, 386 00:19:13,795 --> 00:19:16,365 before my period, to address this. 387 00:19:16,474 --> 00:19:17,854 ♪ But I can't... ♪ 388 00:19:17,954 --> 00:19:19,334 (GROANS) 389 00:19:19,433 --> 00:19:20,813 ♪ Every time we fight... ♪ 390 00:19:20,913 --> 00:19:22,913 (CAR HORN HONKS REPEATEDLY) 391 00:19:29,870 --> 00:19:31,410 (DING!) 392 00:19:31,510 --> 00:19:33,510 (COB EXHALES LOUDLY) 393 00:19:49,944 --> 00:19:52,124 SUZIE: Valerie is nice. 394 00:19:52,223 --> 00:19:53,123 (DOOR SHUTS) 395 00:19:53,223 --> 00:19:54,603 SUZIE: Valerie is the student 396 00:19:54,702 --> 00:19:56,642 I suspect my husband is having an affair with 397 00:19:56,742 --> 00:20:00,222 after I started flirting with her from his phone a couple of weeks ago. 398 00:20:01,220 --> 00:20:03,040 There's joy in her. 399 00:20:03,139 --> 00:20:05,519 If he's going to have an affair, as he's bound to now, 400 00:20:05,619 --> 00:20:07,079 I'd rather be part of it. 401 00:20:07,178 --> 00:20:08,638 (TOILET FLUSHES) 402 00:20:08,738 --> 00:20:10,738 (PUTS PHONE DOWN) 403 00:20:22,813 --> 00:20:24,933 (BREATHES DEEPLY) 404 00:20:27,692 --> 00:20:29,692 (SUZIE CLEARS THROAT) 405 00:20:31,050 --> 00:20:33,350 So what did you wanna talk about? 406 00:20:33,450 --> 00:20:35,450 (INHALES DEEPLY) 407 00:20:37,568 --> 00:20:39,668 Oh, what? 408 00:20:39,768 --> 00:20:41,748 You texted me earlier. 409 00:20:41,847 --> 00:20:44,047 Oh, um... 410 00:20:46,645 --> 00:20:47,945 Listen, um... 411 00:20:48,045 --> 00:20:49,695 Hmm. Weirdest thing happened today. 412 00:20:49,804 --> 00:20:52,544 -Did it? -This student comes into my office. 413 00:20:52,644 --> 00:20:55,904 Um, she's this young, bubbly, sort of normally quite friendly, 414 00:20:56,002 --> 00:20:58,882 like, I know her quite well, she came to France on the study trip. 415 00:20:59,881 --> 00:21:03,061 And she starts, like... (HALF-LAUGHS) 416 00:21:03,160 --> 00:21:05,060 You're going to think I'm making this up. 417 00:21:05,160 --> 00:21:07,100 She sort of sits on the edge of the desk 418 00:21:07,199 --> 00:21:13,499 and...and...and starts touching her own leg like in a bad movie. 419 00:21:13,597 --> 00:21:16,357 And she takes off her jacket and, uh... 420 00:21:17,476 --> 00:21:19,476 (LAUGHS) ..she drops it on the floor like... 421 00:21:22,634 --> 00:21:25,294 And so, obviously, I'm thinking this is some sort of dare. 422 00:21:25,393 --> 00:21:27,413 So I'm aware, like, shit, I'm probably being recorded. 423 00:21:27,512 --> 00:21:32,012 So I just sort of say, "Oh, OK, I'm going to open the door now. 424 00:21:32,111 --> 00:21:33,811 "I hope you're feeling OK." 425 00:21:33,910 --> 00:21:38,470 And then she gets really upset and runs out. 426 00:21:39,668 --> 00:21:41,668 SUZIE: He isn't having an affair. 427 00:21:42,907 --> 00:21:45,087 I mean, #metoo, right? What the fuck is that about? 428 00:21:45,187 --> 00:21:47,007 I'm just going to get a drink. I need... 429 00:21:47,106 --> 00:21:48,966 -What? -I need a drink. 430 00:21:49,065 --> 00:21:51,185 I need to have a drink. I feel stressed. 431 00:21:52,744 --> 00:21:55,104 Listen to any of what I just said? 432 00:22:08,099 --> 00:22:09,439 (COUGHS) 433 00:22:09,539 --> 00:22:12,799 SUZIE: I wonder if this is what it feels like to be going crazy. 434 00:22:12,898 --> 00:22:15,918 Remember this afternoon. It was clear. 435 00:22:16,017 --> 00:22:18,397 Everyone does things like this. 436 00:22:18,496 --> 00:22:22,896 This is normal. This is OK. Just say it. 437 00:22:26,214 --> 00:22:27,394 (GLASS SMASHES) 438 00:22:27,493 --> 00:22:29,573 (FOOTSTEPS APPROACH) 439 00:22:30,652 --> 00:22:32,652 (COB CLEARS THROAT) 440 00:22:33,411 --> 00:22:36,371 SUZIE: Oh, I just broke this bloody... 441 00:22:37,370 --> 00:22:41,110 This floor is stupidly hard. 442 00:22:41,209 --> 00:22:45,549 You know, I was serious about you talking to someone. 443 00:22:45,647 --> 00:22:48,267 Maybe even asking about medication. 444 00:22:48,366 --> 00:22:50,786 I mean, I...I almost feel like everything I've been taking 445 00:22:50,886 --> 00:22:53,086 for the last year should just be transferred over to you. 446 00:22:54,085 --> 00:22:57,835 Yeah, I'm sorry you're taking antidepressants. 447 00:22:59,003 --> 00:23:00,383 I just think... 448 00:23:00,483 --> 00:23:02,483 I just think I'm... 449 00:23:03,681 --> 00:23:06,181 ..I'm stressed about all the school stuff. 450 00:23:06,281 --> 00:23:08,281 (CLEARS THROAT) 451 00:23:08,840 --> 00:23:11,140 You'll see tomorrow. He should be with kids like him, Suzie. 452 00:23:11,239 --> 00:23:14,099 SUZIE: He's always sure he's right. 453 00:23:14,198 --> 00:23:16,198 Yeah, I know. You're right. 454 00:23:18,717 --> 00:23:24,457 I just think that, you know, when he leaves this special school, 455 00:23:24,555 --> 00:23:26,445 the world's not gonna be like that, you know. 456 00:23:26,554 --> 00:23:29,614 The world's gonna be all hearing people 457 00:23:29,713 --> 00:23:31,573 and lip reading and I just...I don't know, 458 00:23:31,672 --> 00:23:34,532 I just don't want that to be abnormal for him. 459 00:23:34,632 --> 00:23:35,972 You don't want him to be abnormal. 460 00:23:36,071 --> 00:23:38,211 He's not abnormal, Suzie. He's deaf. 461 00:23:38,310 --> 00:23:41,130 No. I don't want that to be abnormal for him. 462 00:23:41,229 --> 00:23:43,469 SUZIE: I hate the way he talks to me. 463 00:23:44,748 --> 00:23:46,748 OK. 464 00:23:49,627 --> 00:23:52,187 Are you having an affair with that Valerie girl? 465 00:23:53,785 --> 00:23:56,365 What?! No. What the fuck?! 466 00:23:56,465 --> 00:23:58,955 Because you just... you...you went away together, 467 00:23:59,064 --> 00:24:00,524 and now you're saying all this stuff 468 00:24:00,623 --> 00:24:03,283 about her trying it on with you and... 469 00:24:03,382 --> 00:24:05,622 When did I even call her Valerie? 470 00:24:06,621 --> 00:24:08,681 You...said. 471 00:24:08,781 --> 00:24:10,781 No, I didn't. 472 00:24:11,820 --> 00:24:13,760 Well, then, I think it's quite weird that you didn't. 473 00:24:13,859 --> 00:24:15,859 (COB CHUCKLES) 474 00:24:16,978 --> 00:24:18,518 You're crazy. 475 00:24:18,617 --> 00:24:21,837 SUZIE: I must seem crazy. I feel crazy. Am I crazy? 476 00:24:21,936 --> 00:24:23,996 Don't fucking call me crazy. 477 00:24:24,096 --> 00:24:27,356 You attacked a car. You are objectively crazy. 478 00:24:27,455 --> 00:24:29,465 No, you know what, let me put it this way. 479 00:24:29,574 --> 00:24:34,294 You need to talk to someone. OK? You have no idea who you are. 480 00:24:35,292 --> 00:24:38,292 SUZIE: YOU have no idea who I am. 481 00:24:39,291 --> 00:24:40,671 Yeah, I know. 482 00:24:40,770 --> 00:24:44,150 SUZIE: Because I have to live being whatever you need me to be 483 00:24:44,249 --> 00:24:48,749 so you can feel big and strong and OK. 484 00:24:48,848 --> 00:24:50,628 You're right. 485 00:24:50,727 --> 00:24:53,027 (CLEARS THROAT) You need to face up to what you've done, OK? 486 00:24:53,126 --> 00:24:55,906 Not just to me, but to Frank. 487 00:24:56,005 --> 00:24:56,905 Yeah. 488 00:24:57,005 --> 00:25:01,015 Because those photos will never go away, OK? 489 00:25:01,124 --> 00:25:04,384 His memory of his birthday will never go away. 490 00:25:04,483 --> 00:25:05,383 SUZIE: Mm-hm. 491 00:25:05,482 --> 00:25:07,682 You do... You know that, don't you? 492 00:25:09,361 --> 00:25:12,341 Yeah. I hate that I've caused so much pain. 493 00:25:12,440 --> 00:25:15,820 (SCOFFS) Of course you hate it. Of course you fucking hate it. 494 00:25:15,919 --> 00:25:17,739 It makes you feel bad about yourself. 495 00:25:17,838 --> 00:25:19,218 And that's all you care about, isn't it? 496 00:25:19,318 --> 00:25:20,978 SUZIE: Maybe that is all I care about. 497 00:25:21,077 --> 00:25:22,417 COB: Isn't it? 498 00:25:22,517 --> 00:25:24,297 You feel guilty, OK? 499 00:25:24,396 --> 00:25:25,776 We had this amazing thing 500 00:25:25,876 --> 00:25:28,776 and you pissed all over it in front of the whole fucking world. 501 00:25:28,875 --> 00:25:30,845 SUZIE: It wasn't this amazing thing. 502 00:25:30,954 --> 00:25:32,294 It wasn't. 503 00:25:32,394 --> 00:25:33,734 -No. -(COB CHUCKLES) 504 00:25:33,833 --> 00:25:35,833 No. 505 00:25:36,832 --> 00:25:38,692 You know, I think... 506 00:25:38,792 --> 00:25:42,812 ..what if I'd just carried on, you know? 507 00:25:42,910 --> 00:25:44,770 What if those... it hadn't come out? 508 00:25:44,870 --> 00:25:49,130 I just... I...I think I...I probably wasn't happy. 509 00:25:49,228 --> 00:25:53,288 Suzie, that is just a story you are telling yourself 510 00:25:53,387 --> 00:25:55,007 to excuse all your shittiness. 511 00:25:55,106 --> 00:25:56,486 You can see that, can't you? 512 00:25:56,586 --> 00:25:59,486 -You can... You can hear yourself? -SUZIE: I don't think that's true. 513 00:25:59,585 --> 00:26:01,115 Yeah, I can see that. 514 00:26:01,224 --> 00:26:02,764 SUZIE: That is NOT true. 515 00:26:02,864 --> 00:26:03,804 Maybe, yeah. 516 00:26:03,904 --> 00:26:05,164 SUZIE: No, it isn't! 517 00:26:05,263 --> 00:26:08,483 Thing is, you have to see yourself as this good person, but you're not. 518 00:26:08,582 --> 00:26:10,202 Mmm. Yeah. 519 00:26:10,302 --> 00:26:13,642 You're fucking not. I love you, but... 520 00:26:13,740 --> 00:26:15,740 SUZIE: I don't know what that means. 521 00:26:16,620 --> 00:26:18,240 I love you. 522 00:26:18,339 --> 00:26:23,479 I love you like a member of my family that I hate. 523 00:26:23,577 --> 00:26:26,897 I just think that maybe I've been hiding, you know? I just... 524 00:26:30,855 --> 00:26:34,025 I think that maybe I've spent so much time 525 00:26:34,134 --> 00:26:35,754 living from other people's perspectives 526 00:26:35,853 --> 00:26:37,833 and I think that has to stop. 527 00:26:37,933 --> 00:26:39,553 You know, I think... 528 00:26:39,652 --> 00:26:43,452 I think I don't wanna be in a relationship with you. 529 00:26:44,531 --> 00:26:47,071 But I worry that will ruin your life 530 00:26:47,170 --> 00:26:50,010 and I worry that will ruin Frank's life too. 531 00:26:58,126 --> 00:27:00,126 Mmm. 532 00:27:01,205 --> 00:27:03,205 Well, how kind of you. 533 00:27:04,124 --> 00:27:07,544 How incredibly thoughtful of you, Suzie. 534 00:27:07,643 --> 00:27:09,383 -So it's my fault, is it? -SUZIE: Yes. 535 00:27:09,483 --> 00:27:10,983 -No. -COB: Hmm. 536 00:27:11,082 --> 00:27:13,102 SUZIE: Yeah! 537 00:27:13,201 --> 00:27:16,441 No. No, no, no. No, actually. 538 00:27:22,358 --> 00:27:24,678 The truth is I don't love you, Cob. 539 00:27:29,556 --> 00:27:32,676 But I think that's fair enough considering what you're like. 540 00:27:37,074 --> 00:27:39,854 So after... Let me just get this straight. 541 00:27:39,953 --> 00:27:44,653 After cheating on me in front of the entire world, 542 00:27:44,751 --> 00:27:48,011 and then losing your shit publicly 543 00:27:48,110 --> 00:27:49,810 and then assaulting our child, 544 00:27:49,910 --> 00:27:51,290 you're leaving me! 545 00:27:51,389 --> 00:27:53,449 You're fucking... You're leaving me? 546 00:27:53,548 --> 00:27:56,088 Is that what you're saying? You're fucking leaving me?! 547 00:27:56,188 --> 00:27:58,488 Is that what you're fucking saying?! 548 00:27:58,587 --> 00:28:00,627 SUZIE: No! No, no, no, no, no. 549 00:28:02,066 --> 00:28:03,606 Yeah. 550 00:28:03,705 --> 00:28:05,705 SUZIE: Oh, well done. 551 00:28:13,622 --> 00:28:16,582 It's women who are there for other women. 552 00:28:18,500 --> 00:28:20,940 It's women who are the great loves. 553 00:28:21,939 --> 00:28:23,239 That's what love is. 554 00:28:23,339 --> 00:28:25,339 (DING!) 555 00:28:34,375 --> 00:28:36,715 -Hey. -Hey. 556 00:28:36,815 --> 00:28:38,805 SUZIE: Hey. 557 00:28:40,533 --> 00:28:42,513 My God, such news! 558 00:28:42,613 --> 00:28:45,673 Um, look, I'm...I'm sorry. It goes without saying. 559 00:28:45,772 --> 00:28:47,772 Yeah, it does, doesn't it? 560 00:28:48,611 --> 00:28:50,951 -Yeah, but... -Suz, it's good. Listen. 561 00:28:51,050 --> 00:28:53,470 I'm premenstrual, so we'll talk now 'cause you know my whole theory... 562 00:28:53,569 --> 00:28:55,149 Yes, I know your whole theory. 563 00:28:55,249 --> 00:28:57,069 Um, yesterday with the kid.... 564 00:28:57,168 --> 00:28:58,948 -What kid? -In the hospital? 565 00:28:59,047 --> 00:29:00,667 Oh, fuck, that kid. Sorry. 566 00:29:00,767 --> 00:29:02,747 (LAUGHS) Sorry. I thought you meant your kid. 567 00:29:02,846 --> 00:29:04,426 -Your unborn kid. -No, no, no. 568 00:29:04,526 --> 00:29:08,136 No, that's...that's it. I...I don't actually want a kid. 569 00:29:08,244 --> 00:29:11,344 I've realised I...I just don't want any options taken away from me. 570 00:29:11,443 --> 00:29:13,823 That's different, but I don't want a child. 571 00:29:13,923 --> 00:29:16,143 I just don't want to not have one. 572 00:29:16,242 --> 00:29:18,242 You know? 573 00:29:19,641 --> 00:29:24,061 Really? OK. Well, no, I mean, that's...that's valid. 574 00:29:24,159 --> 00:29:26,859 No, but I don't wanna end up trapped. 575 00:29:26,958 --> 00:29:28,818 -No offence. -WAITRESS: Can I get you anything? 576 00:29:28,918 --> 00:29:31,298 Uh, yeah. Can I have a sparkling water, please? 577 00:29:31,397 --> 00:29:33,897 -(SUZIE CLEARS THROAT) -I'm fine, thanks. 578 00:29:33,996 --> 00:29:36,416 -Um, I just... -(CLEARS THROAT) 579 00:29:36,515 --> 00:29:38,375 I feel like my whole life, I've just... 580 00:29:38,475 --> 00:29:40,765 I've seen everything from other people's points of view 581 00:29:40,874 --> 00:29:43,294 and I've never asked myself, like, what do I want? 582 00:29:43,393 --> 00:29:46,213 I've asked myself what you wanted and I've responded to it. 583 00:29:46,312 --> 00:29:48,312 But... 584 00:29:48,671 --> 00:29:51,651 But that's...that's not giving. That's hiding. You know? 585 00:29:51,750 --> 00:29:53,750 Yeah. 586 00:29:57,709 --> 00:30:00,389 I really, really don't want to be an agent anymore. 587 00:30:01,427 --> 00:30:03,167 I hate it. I'm fucking terrible at it. 588 00:30:03,267 --> 00:30:05,127 Well, you're...you're not terrible at it, but... 589 00:30:05,226 --> 00:30:06,606 NAOMI: No, no. I get it. 590 00:30:06,706 --> 00:30:08,846 I appreciate that must've taken some balls to say. 591 00:30:08,945 --> 00:30:10,435 It's a nightmare for you, I get that. 592 00:30:10,544 --> 00:30:12,124 No. Hang on. That's not what I'm saying. 593 00:30:12,224 --> 00:30:13,644 I'm just saying I'm...I'm happy 594 00:30:13,743 --> 00:30:15,483 that you've, you know, come to this conclusion. 595 00:30:15,583 --> 00:30:17,863 -It's the Permanent Mega-Truth. -Oh, right, yeah. 596 00:30:19,182 --> 00:30:23,222 I...I want to go to Iran for a bit just 'cause I can. 597 00:30:25,060 --> 00:30:27,000 Iran?! 598 00:30:27,099 --> 00:30:28,479 Yeah, Suz. Iran. 599 00:30:28,579 --> 00:30:29,959 Really? 600 00:30:30,058 --> 00:30:31,958 Yeah, I wanna see where my grandmother's buried. 601 00:30:32,058 --> 00:30:34,238 OK, but no. You were like me. You're from Reading. 602 00:30:34,337 --> 00:30:36,337 But I'm not, am I? 603 00:30:37,496 --> 00:30:39,076 OK, great. 604 00:30:39,175 --> 00:30:41,705 OK, well, you don't have to say that. Clearly, you don't mean it. 605 00:30:41,814 --> 00:30:43,814 No. It's... 606 00:30:44,613 --> 00:30:45,953 I'm happy for you. 607 00:30:46,053 --> 00:30:47,433 -Suz... -No, no, no! 608 00:30:47,533 --> 00:30:49,113 OK, I'll be sup... I'll be supportive. 609 00:30:49,212 --> 00:30:53,052 I get it's not ideal, but it's going to be OK. 610 00:30:54,650 --> 00:30:56,390 I know you better than you know yourself. 611 00:30:56,490 --> 00:30:59,110 Ok. Fuck off, Naomi. 612 00:30:59,209 --> 00:31:02,169 I know you better than I know myself. And that's not right, is it? 613 00:31:10,685 --> 00:31:13,715 So, um, I left Cob. 614 00:31:18,283 --> 00:31:21,463 There's this smell in Iran when water hits the hot pavements. 615 00:31:21,562 --> 00:31:23,462 I remember it when we'd go before Mum died. 616 00:31:23,561 --> 00:31:25,501 Are you... You know, what are your other... 617 00:31:25,600 --> 00:31:28,140 What do your other clients have to say about this? 618 00:31:28,239 --> 00:31:30,339 I mean, you're going to move to fucking Iran? 619 00:31:30,439 --> 00:31:32,439 What will you even wear? 620 00:31:33,398 --> 00:31:36,238 They're fine with it. They're really happy for me. 621 00:31:37,237 --> 00:31:39,597 You're the only person I didn't know how to tell. 622 00:31:46,354 --> 00:31:48,354 I love you, Suz. 623 00:31:58,510 --> 00:32:00,970 SUZIE: The truth is adults are arseholes. 624 00:32:01,069 --> 00:32:02,409 -(GRUNTS) -(CAR HORN HONKS) 625 00:32:02,508 --> 00:32:04,548 -(CAR HORN HONKS) -Yes, you! 626 00:32:05,548 --> 00:32:07,688 All out for themselves. 627 00:32:07,787 --> 00:32:11,487 You can love a man, you can love a friend. 628 00:32:11,586 --> 00:32:13,046 "I'm off to Iran." 629 00:32:13,145 --> 00:32:16,435 SUZIE: But I would push every single one of them under a bus for my kid. 630 00:32:16,544 --> 00:32:18,444 Fucking go then. 631 00:32:18,543 --> 00:32:20,543 THAT'S what love is. 632 00:32:25,741 --> 00:32:29,301 Hi. I'm Suzie, Frank's mum. You know my...um, Cob. 633 00:32:31,219 --> 00:32:32,719 Oh, right, yes! Sorry. 634 00:32:32,819 --> 00:32:34,819 I knew... Um, thanks! 635 00:32:36,897 --> 00:32:38,897 (DOOR SHUTS) 636 00:32:39,657 --> 00:32:42,017 Hi! How are you? 637 00:32:43,335 --> 00:32:45,335 Mwah! 638 00:32:47,054 --> 00:32:49,054 (SUZIE LAUGHS) 639 00:32:49,853 --> 00:32:51,853 No, thank you. 640 00:32:53,652 --> 00:32:55,652 (TAP RUNS) 641 00:32:59,090 --> 00:33:01,090 Hmm. 642 00:33:04,249 --> 00:33:07,589 Well, Mummy can't. But it's OK. Yeah. 643 00:33:07,688 --> 00:33:13,468 Just text me if you feel sad or anything happens. Yes? 644 00:33:13,566 --> 00:33:15,566 Yes! (CHUCKLES) 645 00:33:20,683 --> 00:33:22,683 (GENTLE PIANO MUSIC) 646 00:33:25,242 --> 00:33:26,502 (TURNS KEY) 647 00:33:26,601 --> 00:33:27,501 (GROANS) 648 00:33:27,601 --> 00:33:29,721 (MAN TALKING ON RADIO) 649 00:33:35,998 --> 00:33:41,498 MAN ON RADIO: Call us on 0501 6744 833. 650 00:33:41,597 --> 00:33:46,377 SUZIE ON RADIO: Any home should feel safe and warm and supportive. 651 00:33:46,475 --> 00:33:50,125 Here at EBG, we don't just take care of your phone. 652 00:33:50,234 --> 00:33:54,614 Now we provide your electricity, heating and gas. 653 00:33:54,712 --> 00:33:57,972 EBG. Everything's home. 654 00:33:58,071 --> 00:34:00,071 Hmm. (WINCES) 655 00:34:06,109 --> 00:34:08,109 (ENGINE STARTS) 656 00:34:08,748 --> 00:34:10,748 Fuck. 657 00:34:21,504 --> 00:34:22,924 Oh! 658 00:34:23,023 --> 00:34:25,103 (URINATES INTO CUP) 659 00:34:45,216 --> 00:34:47,576 Fuuuuuckkkkkkkkkk! 660 00:34:49,015 --> 00:34:51,985 Fuck! (SOBS SOFTLY) 661 00:34:52,094 --> 00:34:56,634 Hey, I'm just calling to say I'm not collecting Frank. He's staying over. 662 00:34:56,733 --> 00:35:00,673 So can we just get into it later? Just us... 663 00:35:00,771 --> 00:35:03,631 COB: Uh, no, we...we...we don't need to get into it at all, Suz. 664 00:35:03,730 --> 00:35:08,870 Just, while I've got you, um, I just want you to know that 665 00:35:08,969 --> 00:35:12,429 I will never fucking forgive you 666 00:35:12,527 --> 00:35:14,747 and I will make your life 667 00:35:14,847 --> 00:35:17,547 a living hell from now on, forever, OK? 668 00:35:17,646 --> 00:35:19,646 OK. 669 00:35:20,845 --> 00:35:22,835 (PUTS PHONE DOWN) 670 00:35:32,801 --> 00:35:34,821 (JOYOUS MUSIC) 671 00:35:34,920 --> 00:35:38,800 SUZIE: No-one is coming to rescue you. 672 00:35:43,198 --> 00:35:47,158 ♪ If I told a lie 673 00:35:48,476 --> 00:35:51,756 ♪ Oh, and if I made you cry 674 00:35:53,834 --> 00:35:57,354 ♪ When I said goodnight 675 00:35:58,433 --> 00:36:03,973 ♪ I'm sorry from... ♪ 676 00:36:04,071 --> 00:36:06,291 MAN: Excuse me. Excuse me. Uh, sorry. 677 00:36:06,390 --> 00:36:07,690 Can I get a photo? 678 00:36:07,790 --> 00:36:09,770 Uh, no. 679 00:36:09,869 --> 00:36:11,329 -Huh! -No, you can't. 680 00:36:11,429 --> 00:36:13,329 It's alright. We...we can do it ourselves. 681 00:36:13,428 --> 00:36:15,328 -Don't worry about it. It's fine. -We're experts. Right. 682 00:36:15,427 --> 00:36:17,807 -OK, so...it's fine. -Hurry up! 683 00:36:17,906 --> 00:36:19,806 Oh, sorry! No, no, no, I'll do it. 684 00:36:19,906 --> 00:36:21,966 Come here. Of course I'll do it. Sorry. 685 00:36:22,065 --> 00:36:23,645 -OK, thank you! -Sorry. I just... 686 00:36:23,745 --> 00:36:26,355 I'm an idiot. Well, I'm not an idiot. I just misunderstood. 687 00:36:26,464 --> 00:36:28,964 I dunno. Sorry. Just... 688 00:36:29,063 --> 00:36:30,963 Um, that's...that's lovely. 689 00:36:31,062 --> 00:36:32,042 (CAMERA CLICKS) 690 00:36:32,142 --> 00:36:33,642 I'm just gonna take a f... 691 00:36:33,741 --> 00:36:36,161 I'm just gonna take a few so you get a good one. 692 00:36:36,261 --> 00:36:37,361 (CAMERA CLICKS REPEATEDLY) 693 00:36:37,460 --> 00:36:39,880 There you go. There's a few good... good ones there, mate. 694 00:36:39,979 --> 00:36:41,879 -Thanks very much. -Thanks very much. What's your name? 695 00:36:41,979 --> 00:36:43,319 Janet. 696 00:36:43,418 --> 00:36:44,678 -Thank you, Janet. -Yes. 697 00:36:44,778 --> 00:36:46,398 -Goodnight. -It was nice to meet you. 698 00:36:46,497 --> 00:36:47,877 -Have a good one. -'Bye. 699 00:36:47,977 --> 00:36:50,317 Nice to meet you. Oh, where are you off to? 700 00:36:50,416 --> 00:36:52,936 -Uh, we're...we're just off home. -Yeah. 701 00:36:53,935 --> 00:36:55,865 Hey, aren't you the, um... 702 00:36:55,974 --> 00:36:59,794 Aren't...aren't you the...the girl that sang that...that song? 703 00:36:59,893 --> 00:37:01,833 Yes. Yes, I am. 704 00:37:01,932 --> 00:37:03,872 God, how did it go? I...I had it! 705 00:37:03,972 --> 00:37:05,972 -SUZIE: Oh. -Um...I'll... 706 00:37:06,571 --> 00:37:07,871 (SINGS) ♪ I'll say 707 00:37:07,970 --> 00:37:09,350 (MAN JOINS IN) ♪ This 708 00:37:09,450 --> 00:37:11,510 ♪ I miss you more 709 00:37:11,609 --> 00:37:12,509 ♪ My 710 00:37:12,609 --> 00:37:15,269 ♪ Every daylight 711 00:37:15,368 --> 00:37:18,428 ♪ It leads me back your way 712 00:37:18,527 --> 00:37:20,867 ♪ Falling 713 00:37:20,966 --> 00:37:24,626 ♪ Into my arms... ♪ 714 00:37:24,725 --> 00:37:26,025 (SECOND MAN LAUGHS) 715 00:37:26,125 --> 00:37:27,295 ♪ Again 716 00:37:27,404 --> 00:37:30,544 ♪ I'll say this 717 00:37:30,643 --> 00:37:33,903 ♪ I miss you more 718 00:37:34,002 --> 00:37:35,662 ♪ My friend. ♪ 719 00:37:35,761 --> 00:37:37,261 (MEN LAUGH) 720 00:37:37,361 --> 00:37:38,741 -Amazing! -Thank you. 721 00:37:38,841 --> 00:37:41,501 -SUZIE: OK. -See you, lady. 'Bye! Goodnight. 722 00:37:41,600 --> 00:37:43,060 -Uh, 'night. -Amazing. 'Night. 723 00:37:43,159 --> 00:37:45,159 -'Bye! -'Bye! 724 00:37:46,198 --> 00:37:48,058 Can I come home with you? 725 00:37:48,158 --> 00:37:50,158 (LAUGHS) 726 00:37:53,276 --> 00:37:54,936 Not for... Not for long. 727 00:37:55,035 --> 00:37:56,935 I just...I just haven't got anywhere to go 728 00:37:57,035 --> 00:37:59,325 and I...I just need somewhere to be. 729 00:37:59,434 --> 00:38:01,434 (LAUGHS) 730 00:38:01,953 --> 00:38:04,133 -Of course. -Is that alright? 731 00:38:04,232 --> 00:38:07,292 Yeah, yeah. Come on. We can get you something to eat. 732 00:38:07,391 --> 00:38:08,971 -SUZIE: Thank you. -Or wi-fi, if that's useful? 733 00:38:09,071 --> 00:38:10,611 SUZIE: I'd love some wi-fi. Thank you. 734 00:38:10,710 --> 00:38:16,130 SUZIE: Every home should feel safe and warm and supportive. 735 00:38:16,228 --> 00:38:18,408 (GENTLE PIANO MUSIC) 736 00:38:18,508 --> 00:38:20,448 Everywhere is home. 737 00:38:20,547 --> 00:38:23,047 SUZIE: I've just got to work out what to do, really. 738 00:38:23,146 --> 00:38:25,046 Have you got a charger? 739 00:38:25,146 --> 00:38:27,366 -MAN: Not on us. -SUZIE: No, but... 740 00:38:27,465 --> 00:38:29,455 (GENTLE PIANO MUSIC CONTINUES) 54367

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