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You're so cheesy.

I asked Chanel, like, "will you be my girlfriend?

Check yes or no." Of course she checked "yes."

- I want to do this. - I want to do it, too.

- It sounds so soon. - It doesn't scare me.

I don't even care.

I'll wear a t-shirt, "Chanel's bitch."

Like, that's how it is.

Hey, Cori, are you ready to get your order going?

Oh, my goodness, I am so ready.

We've never even spent $2,000 on ourselves,

but we spent it on sperm.

We've got batter!

I like to refer to it as "our future."

- So now we just have to wait for me to ovulate.

Can I get the nonalcoholic champagne?

- Absolutely. - Thank you.

Being sober with everyone drinking

wasn't as fun as I had remembered

most of my dinner parties.

I've been doing makeup for the last 10, 11 years.

Then this last year, I lost my job,

and I was, like, struggling, and then I was broke.

It's been really hard.

I can't take care of me and ,

on everything.

At least start looking for a second job.

Okay, I'm the one cleaning.

Francine, both of you know what I'm doing.

You're calling up some other chick,

telling her that you love her, too,

and that feels like shit, okay?

I really love both of them,

but you can't have everything you want.

Vivian, I love you.

You don't have to say it back. I know.

I got here, and I wanted it to be nice,

and it's not nice already.

Welcome to my crib.

This is my bed, where the magic happens.

Moving to L.A., I was hoping to reconnect with Whitney,

but I haven't spent

any time with Whitney since I've been here.

I got fuckin' left here.

Whitney's just sort of living her life,

and some of the things that she's doing

might be pushing Rachel a little over the edge.

Sara, if you're gonna be sober tomorrow morning,

and tell me I can't use this footage, you're fucked.

Whoo!

Whitney and I had a blow-out fight

right before she goes to San Francisco,

so, you know, I think it's over.

But I can't not have you in my life in some form.

I think we're mutually addicted to one another.

But on the same token,

Sara and I have real emotions for one another,

and I haven't closed that door 100%.

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You're tearing that pepper up

like it's the best thing in the world.

It's my favorite snack.

- I want to eat a piece of it. - Okay.

I just... 'cause you're making it look so good.

- Did you wash it? - Mmm! Yeah, I washed it.

I can't even believe I'm eating this.

- Why? It's delicious. - I don't know.

I don't think... I haven't eaten in days,

and the first thing I'm eating is a raw pepper.

Well, maybe you should eat, 'cause you're starting...

you don't want to become...

you have a lot of head,

so you know what's gonna happen

is you're gonna end up like this.

Like a lollipop?

Your body won't be able to support

the massive hair-head ratio.

There's a lot of brains in this head.

- Brains? - And these dreads.

- I don't know about that. - What?

I thought there were.

What is that supposed to mean?

I don't know. You have a lot of brains in that head.

Why don't you figure that out?

As soon as we get back from San Francisco,

Whitney and Sara's toxic love story began again.

Sara is definitely bringing Whitney down.

It makes me feel sad to see her going down this,

like, rabbit hole.

I don't... I don't know where she's going

or... or what she's doing with herself,

but Whitney can be a really awesome person,

and I feel like she's not showing that,

or maybe she's lost that in herself,

which is totally, awfully sad.

It's disappointing, as a friend, to see

what you pick to be somebody you want to be with.

I think you deserve better.

To me, like, if you have fallen for that,

then, yeah, you are not somebody...

Really, that I... I used to look up to.

Right now maybe... maybe my decisions

aren't the best, but right now

I'm trying to sort out my emotions,

because that's what they are behind them.

There are emotions behind them,

and sometimes, unfortunately,

you can't control emotions.

I know. We've already talked about...

So, t... no, but I'm just saying,

don't fuckin' roll your eyes at me,

because I'm telling you right now,

like, to change the way you view someone

or whatever, based on that,

I think is really shitty.

You know, it's really annoying that you get angry

when I'm trying to be your friend

and just tell you how I feel.

Well, because you're being condescending.

I already said I won't say anything else about it.

I'm not being condescending.

- Yeah, you are. - No, I'm not.

You are making excuses, because you can't see...

She has, I feel like, brainwashed you,

because every time anybody says anything,

you have an excuse for her.

There's no excuse. This is how she is.

And if you choose to love that, fine.

But I just want you to realize, that's how she is.

Kels... do you want to get up,

or do you want to stay in bed?

It's nice outside right now.

Yeah, I'll be right back.

Okay.

Being sober feels really good,

but it has been a struggle.

I am fighting to be in control of my life.

There's something that happens when you get on point

and you get sober and you get focused.

The way that you look at your life changes.

I work at Marc Jacobs right now,

and I'm unhappy,

because I have all these things I want to do,

and I'm just, like, stuck

and not able to do them.

I don't think you should ever get stuck

in something that you're not happy or growing in,

so I'm ready to get my life on a different track

than the last few years.

I've decided that I'm gonna move into an apartment by myself.

In my entire life, I've never been by myself.

I didn't have to spend nights alone

or deal with myself, because for me,

that's a big insecurity.

I've lost my girlfriend,

and Francine doesn't want anything to do with me.

Francine and I have found some closure,

and the closure is we don't get along.

And she should have told me before I moved out here

that it was gonna be miserable,

because she didn't.

She told me it was gonna be nice.

It's cute.

I thought things were going well,

but when I think things are going well,

I don't think that means they really are going well.

I've begun to realize that I need some time alone.

- I'm hungry. - I know. Me too.

Hi, babe, how are you?

- Oh! - Hey, what's up?

- How's it going? - How are you?

Long time no see. Hello, baby.

- Mwah. - Hi, how are you?

My friend Sparks and her girlfriend, Anna, are in town,

and they wanted to go see their other friends,

Whitney and Sara, so we all met up for dinner

at a place called Street.

Oh, my God, I feel so welcome already.

I love it.

- Obviously I knew who Whitney was,

because Cori and I watched the first season

of The Real L Word, and I was really looking forward

to meeting Whitney.

- Gnocchi? - Yeah.

- Like... - Oh, my God.

- Isn't that ridiculous? - Mm-hmm.

It's like flavor bursting in my mouth.

Where'd you guys meet?

We met almost five years ago at Here.

- At Here? - Yeah.

I know.

We met at a lesbian club called "Here."

The early 20s, I definitely partied a lot.

Now that I'm getting older and especially, you know,

being with Kacy, who doesn't really like to go out...

so I've definitely calmed down over the years,

but I still have it in me, you know?

I like to go out and have fun

and get silly and tipsy.

We, like, met eyes, and it was crazy.

It was crazy.

And then she went like this.

- Very... very un-Kacy. - She beckoned you over.

But it worked, clearly.

And I got her number, and I was like,

"look, I got to go back to my friends,

but can I have a kiss?"

- Oh, my God. - I...

It was the most amazing kiss.

It was?

Yeah, it was... it worked well.

And, like... so, after that night,

one of us took a month off to sow her wild oats.

But now, like, I'm done. It's all done.

And so... like, so we're actually married,

like, legally married.

- You are? - Yeah.

We've been married for two years.

- 2 1/2 years. - Yeah.

That's amazing. So what's the next step now?

We're on the track to make the baby.

You're gonna carry it, obviously.

- Obviously. - Clearly.

Cori and Kacy... they're like the perfect couple,

the unicorn couple.

You're like, erk! "Is that real?"

You know, like, the couple that you hear exists,

but you never really see them out.

They're amazing.

You guys are cute.

- Sorry, we'll stop. - No.

There's that "aw" factor, big-time.

And I wonder, like, what is that kind of life like,

to, like, know you're with the person

that you're gonna be with forever?

So what about... so how long have you guys been together?

Are you guys together?

No, actually, like, we've had a very, um...

We've had a very interesting relationship.

Like, we both have very intense feelings.

We're also both very stubborn and used to, like,

you know, being in our own shit,

and so, like, I think that we haven't really

sorted out how to, you know,

be two fishes in the same pond, but we work on it.

Are Sara and Whitney a couple?

I don't know.

Who knows?

It's not necessarily the way Kacy and I are a couple,

but, you know, as long as it works for them...

All these stairs.

When I started dating Chanel two weeks ago,

I found out we have the same birthday,

so I've invited all her family and friends

to a private party that I'm hosting.

- Hello? - Hi, you guys.

Oh!

- And this is... - I'm Saj.

Nice to meet you. I'm Danny.

Nice to meet you, Danny.

Ryan! Oh, hi!

- Y'all enjoying it? - Yeah.

I'ma get, um... hold on.

Can we start with the glasses that's in there?

Huh?

I've just met Natasha,

who helped me get the house for Chanel's party.

And it's perfect.

It's exactly what I wanted for her.

- I'm Saj. - Hi, I'm Shirley.

Shirley, nice to meet you, sweetie.

Aside from this whole party planning,

I'm also meeting all of Chanel's closest friends.

I just hope they still like me at the end of the night.

I was like, "okay. I was like, "yeah."

Well, I'm glad. Honestly, I'm glad.

Chanel and I aren't having sex currently,

but, uh, I'm planning for it,

hoping for it.

The desire to have sex

encourages me to do certain things.

And I just wanted her close for a second,

like I needed her to myself for a while.

Oh, I love this paper.

Right intentions.

I was trying to think of, like,

the perfect gift to get her,

so I bought, like, a journal

that, like, I promised to write in as well.

It's somewhat of a tool where I could learn

to express myself to her a little better

as our relationship grows.

So I decided to write my first journal entry.

"To Chanel.

I never really believed in love,

but for once in my life,

I believe that there is someone

that genuinely cares about me."

Just as I'm writing, I'm just realizing

that these are brand-new emotions,

and that's when it hit me.

Like, I'm in love with Chanel.

"I am certain that love does exist,

and I want every day to feel as great as this one."

So...

I love you.

No, for real.

I don't know.

Like, after two weeks,

we both dropped the "l" word...

The other "l" word.

I feel like all my bodily organs

just kind of go on a break.

I just know it's good.

Oh, my God.

I have to get back to my guests.

You're about to drive me nuts right now.

Shit.

I don't want to share.

Fuck!

Thanks.

Ohh!

- A second is not gonna work. - Shit, just a second!

A second is...

- Not gonna work. - No, stop!

- Let's go! - No!

Let's go, for real.

Wasn't dinner amazing?

Don't lock that.

What?

See, for me, it was like three different stages tonight

of relationships.

There were, like, the married couple

that, like, loves each other.

And then it's like...

hope... I mean, I would hope that they do.

Do you think we're ever gonna be normal?

I would hope so. I mean...

Hmm.

Maybe being normal is overrated.

- Right? - Yeah.

I mean, it would be nice to, like, give a shot

at a healthy relationship with Sara,

but I have trust issues with her.

Since I got back from San Francisco,

I've been hearing that she started seeing this girl Erica.

I don't know what to believe.

Hmm?

Nobody.

I wouldn't do that.

I know.

Because on one sense, it's like, yeah,

sometimes we're perfect for each other.

Sometimes our chemistry is so good.

We have great energy together.

And then it's like she fucks up.

But at this point, like,

I'm willing to open myself up to this.

I walked so much today.

I walked all up and down

Hollywood, Santa Monica, Melrose.

Tired.

I have been looking for a second job,

hitting the pavement, going online,

filling out applications.

I was really proud of you today

that you were, like, out and, like...

- Mm-hmm. -Looking, you know?

I was not in a good place in my head.

- I didn't know that. - Yeah.

I mean, I don't really want to tell you

all the time when I'm, like, down, and stuff,

because you just always just ask me, "stop."

Like, I'm just supposed to snap out of it.

I don't.

It's just when you're like, "this sucks."

Like, when you're just super, like,

really, really negative about it, you know,

I'm just like, you know what?

I don't... no, I don't want to hear it.

But when you're out there, like, trying,

and you're looking, and you were, like,

on your feet, walking around today...

I was.

I'm all looking through all my pant pockets,

- hoping there's change in there. - Baby, that's so sad.

All I have to see is Kelsey's trying.

That's it.

When you find somebody who's genuinely,

like, such a good human being

and has such a good soul, you can work on that.

Trying to fix someone's soul and someone's spirit

is not something I'm interested in doing.

Trying to fix somebody's, like, routine and agenda,

I can do that.

You get up tomorrow, and you go look,

and if you just keep looking and looking

and looking, you're gonna find one.

Yeah.

And then when you find one, I can quit.

Baby, I need you to get rich...

or die trying.

Right?

Take care of me.

The party was supposed to be a night

just for myself, Chanel, her family and friends.

When I said that we needed to sit down

- to plan this... - You never said that.

You never said that, by the way.

But I had no clue Natasha's friends

were gonna, like, just end up showing up...

definitely not a part of the plan.

I was, um...

I was hoping to wrap it up.

Oh, you want to end it now?

Unless you... you're all right? You want to stay?

So at that point, it was Natasha's party.

So, of course, my party's over,

and I'm ready to get out of there.

Natasha, I'm about to roll out.

Do I need to do anything? I'm good?

- Like, clean it right now? - Yeah.

Oh, well, can you have your friends move their stuff,

and then I can make it look like it was.

Or... or we could do this in the morning.

All right.

- We're gonna do it now! - All right, no problem.

I don't have any problem with cleaning the house,

but how am I supposed to clean up

while she's having a party?

It's crazy.

Chanel, you know where my keys are?

They're probably in my...

Get the keys. Let's get out of here.

I had a sense, like, something was kind of fueling with Natasha,

and the night just wasn't gonna end well.

- Go ahead and... - We're gone. Thanks.

- I'll clean up. - I appreciate it.

I appreciate it. Just make sure you're not too out of it.

Get your ass out.

I've been so... I've been so patient with you, Saj.

I've been so patient with you.

- We just met you. - Just leave.

Just leave, just leave.

Get your shit and go right now.

I don't know who the fuck you're screaming at.

Get your shit and go right now.

- You watch yourself. - Right now, go.

- I'm on my way. - Go. I said go.

I'm not even joking. Get the fuck out.

Everything's... no, she's gonna calm down!

She's gonna calm down!

I got them. Let's go.

I don't think it's my job to discipline anyone.

So Natasha didn't know how to act that night.

I just walk away.

- Chanel. Chanel? - Yeah?

I'm not coming back up these stairs.

Get in my car. I'm about to go.

The party I threw is now over.

Anyone I invited must leave now.

I'm about to leave.

Okay, we can go, but don't come at me like that.

I'm about to... 'cause I had a little, gentle conversation...

a minute ago.

It's, like, ten minutes later.

- Baby... - It's ten minutes later.

If I rented a place and it's time to go,

it's time to go.

There's no conversation.

I'm fucking losing it right now.

Just a few minutes ago, Chanel and I

are telling each other we love each other,

and now I'm asking you to leave the party,

and you can't do it.

- Happy Birthday, Saj. - Thank you, babe.

- Happy Birthday. - Thank you very much.

We're gonna clean up after you. Don't worry.

I know you are. That's why I said, "thank you."

If there's anything else that you need, let me know.

Chanel, why aren't you walking?

Thank you, this has been a great...

Oh!

Damn! Now she hit it...

Chanel, shut the fuck up!

I know what I'm doing!

When I first hit the car, like,

I was so ready to get out of there,

I was like, "fuck it. It's a casualty."

But, um, I'm better than that.

Yeah, okay. What's your first name?

I'm about to send it.

I'm sending all that to you right now.

It was such a beautiful night

and, like, ended in a fuckin' mess.

- Is everything okay? - Can we go?

Like, I'm pissed.

Look at this shit! Drive for shit!

I just... I was trying to get my cell. I was trying...

Chanel, you were sitting there.

But see, you was concerned about Shirley.

Natasha, she's about to push me down the fucking stairs!

Nobody was hitting Shirley.

Shirley's man was there with her.

Shirley was "a" okay.

For me, it was a matter of trust.

I feel like she should trust

that I have her best interests in mind,

because I certainly trust

that she has my best interests in mind,

and with that, if I say, "babe, let's go," let's go.

I'm extremely upset with Chanel.

While I want to be in a relationship with you,

if we have one more issue like this, we done.

We done. There's no point.

- Cheers to your new place. - Cheers, baby.

This looks good.

This is not reflective of my painting skills.

- Are you done? - No, I have to...

You just have that little space right there?

That, and then I have to finish, like, the white.

I don't know, it's kind of sloppy in some areas.

It looks really good.

Oh, what have you been up to?

What's up with you and Sara?

I don't know.

I care about her, so I've gone back,

and, like, we've talked about it.

Then I pulled away and shut down.

Like, and then it was, like, the final thing.

Then I was like, uhh!

So, you know, I went back, and I expressed my care for her.

Sometimes I just want to put a leash around you

and be like, "bad doggy, bad!"

Whitney and Sara... they're just not right for each other.

But Whitney just has such a big heart

that once she does welcome someone into her life,

it's rare that she just cuts them off,

even though, like Sara proved,

she'll do you wrong.

I think it's just a toxic relationship.

Like, last week, she saw the girl,

like, at some video shoot.

- Who is she? - Erica.

- Is she fem or butch? - She's butch.

She's like... well, she's like pretty butch.

Like, she's like Sara's type, you know?

She's like me or Hana or whatever, you know?

Uh-huh.

I've said to her, like, "listen,

"if you're gonna see someone else, let me know.

Like, if you're gonna hook up and do whatever, let me know."

She was telling me, like,

she's gonna end it with the girl,

and I'm like, "okay, well, whatever.

I mean, just let me know if you don't."

You have to take her words with a grain of salt,

'cause they're probably not true.

Yeah.

I'm in a state right now where I want to focus

on what I'm doing with my career and with my life.

If I constantly just make it about the girls

and the love life, I'm gonna end up

with a bunch of failed relationships and no career.

I've gotten this meeting with the women at power up,

which is like this lesbian film-making group.

- Claire. - Lisa.

- Lisa, nice to meet you. - President of film production.

Great.

But they also kind of try and encourage

other lesbians who are trying to do something

that creates more awareness of gay life in the media.

I'm really interested to see

what they have to say about my ideas,

because these girls... they know

what the community is gonna support

and what they're not.

And I'm hoping that in some way

we can either work together, or they can...

They can help set me up with the right people to work with.

- This place is really nice. - Thank you.

- You guys all, like, live here or just work here?

- Everybody lives here. - Oh.

No, I'm kidding.

Uh, I'm kidding.

- Welcome to L.A. - Thank you.

- Where'd you come from? - New York.

Okay.

Out here, my goal was to create some kind of lesbian publication,

or... I'm planning on starting with a website

that's, like, fashion, health,

and, like, kind of like a...

Like, upgrade your style kind of thing.

What's your publishing background like?

Not so... not much of a publishing background.

But that's why I want to start with, uh,

like, a website.

So I'm gonna kind of start there.

- I just bought a domain name... - Oh, great.

- Yesterday. - What is it?

- Honestly tell me what you think.

- Okay. - Dirty boudoir.

"Dirty boudoir."

Like, that wouldn't necessarily be the name

of the magazine.

- Do you have other ideas? - I like boudoir.

I was going through, like, anything I could think.

And me and my friends were, like, just listing...

I think you should have something in the title

about gay, like, even if it's, like, lavender boudoir

- or, like... - Gay boudoir?

Uh, kind of like that.

It was so hard, 'cause it's like,

I would come up with these ideas,

- and then they'd be, like, taken. - Right, it's just...

I mean, do you have somebody to set up the website?

Well, that's what I'm kind of struggling with at this moment.

That, and then also, my biggest thing,

I need to get writers,

because I am not the best of a writer.

But I want to be able to do the interviews

and kind of have somebody take what I get

from the interview and write it,

because that's what I want to spend my time doing is just...

'Cause every day, like, I'll just think of something new.

Then I'm like, "you know what? How am I gonna do that or... ?"

Do you have, like, anybody that you've talked to

about how to go about this?

I mean, no, not yet, not out here.

You know, people come to...

This is the tenth time I've heard this.

- What? - Your pitch.

And I want to be the person that does it.

I think it's... you know, it's a fun idea.

The thing is, I just feel like we've seen it before, yeah.

I do think power up could be a great place

for you to intern, if that's something you're interested in.

I mean, that would be amazing.

But, you know, for me, I wouldn't...

I'm not gonna do something...

Like, I'm not gonna go and be your secretary.

Yeah, great. And it was really good to meet you.

Hi, Lou.

Vanessa, you emailed me the sketches,

like, what... how many days ago?

- Saturday. - Saturday? Okay.

I am wanting to start a jewelry line,

because I haven't been doing my makeup

for a little while now,

and that was always my creative outlet.

I mean, anybody who knows me knows I love jewelry.

I love accessories.

But I kind of need somebody that knows what they're doing

to kind of teach me.

So, based on these, we could do...

we could do the boot harness.

- We could do... - The headpiece.

I was wearing these feathered earrings,

and it kind of picked up,

and a lot of people were wearing feathered earrings.

So I was thinking, "let me make 'em."

It started with that... "Let me make the feathered earrings,

and I'll sell them."

Yeah, ooh.

Let's do the... the thinner piece.

- That would be good. - That's pretty.

- Okay. - Yeah, like that.

- Perfect.

- Yay! - Oh, this is better.

- That's better. - Yes.

Being a salesperson is something that I did

when I was in high school, or I was in college.

But this time around, I want to do something

that builds a career.

- That's really... - That's really cute, though.

Yeah. I really like that.

I really like it with the heel.

Okay.

Well, now we know.

All right.

- One down. - We got one.

Can there be, like, theme days?

Like, can we have old-timey day,

where for the entire day, you talk in that voice?

I know. That's what I said. She should do voice-over.

ello, it's the voice of reason here.

Are you listening?

I'm not sure.

I'm thankful that I spoke to Whitney.

I let it out. I... I didn't hold back from her.

And even though Whitney's really preoccupied

right now with Sara,

I still have feelings for her, obviously.

What? Do I look bad?

No, I just wasn't sure if I could see that camel toe situation.

There's no camel toe 'cause I don't have underwear on.

Exactly.

Like, if anything, it really clings to the...

No. No, it doesn't.

- But it makes this feel good. - It looks like

James and the giant peach down there.

Look at this. What is that?

What are you trying to promote, sweetheart?

It's not a camel toe!

You guys!

I hate you so bad right now.

My B.F.F., Lauren, is coming into town,

and I'm gonna go and cut her and her fianc�e's hair

at the Sunset Marquis.

And I just wanted Whitney to come meet my friends.

Thank you. It's... you saved me.

No, you saved me...

- Thanks, honey. - From a hairy mongrel.

So I'm supposed to, like... ohh.

I hope this isn't like a...

a... a hug ahead of time, in case you fuck up my hair.

No, it's not.

So we're at the Sunset Marquis,

and everything's going great.

- I like Whitney. - I like Whitney, too, now.

You know, bitches come and go,

but friends are for real.

I went out to smoke a cigarette,

and when I came back in...

there's a lot of hair going on over here.

I was, like, looking at her, like,

what just happened?

- She's buzzed. - But my best work is drunk.

- Yeah, just le... - Holy fuck, did someone...

It's her blood. It's okay.

- It's her blood? - It's not my blood.

We're good.

No, I saw the blood.

Good God.

Oh, my God.

You should count them.

I know Rachel really well.

- How's it going in here? - Good.

And I know if she's mixed things together.

- What a lame bitch. - Si, mama.

Are you just gonna straddle... ?

When Rachel's under the influence,

she does not see what she's doing.

It's almost like she has this wall up in front of her face,

like, that she doesn't want to admit.

I... I'd like to, but I'm engaged.

No, I would not leave you for an egg sandwich.

Yeah, I'm gonna go ahead and say,

when you cut your finger open and don't acknowledge it,

it's time to stop.

No, don't... yeah, Rachel...

What is that?

Don't do that.

- Oh, wow. - Ow.

No.

Just pull yourself together.

- Okay, I'm sorry. - Get in the zone.

- Yeah, slap me. - Control yourself.

No, harder.

Wait, one more time.

Rachel...

I know, but I'm okay.

- You make me... you always... - I'm not... no, I...

You know what it is? You always make me feel like...

- I don't... - I'm a piece of shit.

- No, I don't. - Like I'm...

No, I don't. I do not.

Come here.

You're bad.

Just one more.

Sweet... but make it sweet.

Make it sweet?

I'm P.Ms.'ing. Come on.

You are...

Would you just hold me like a person?

I do, but I just...

I loved you.

I would do anything for you.

You don't care.

I do!

I do.

It was funny at one point,

but then I started realizing, like,

"it is officially time to go home."

There's a sweet time when you'll be like, "yeah."

I am not... but I feel like right now

you're in a different...

I'm not. I had two drinks.

Yes, I know.

You've said that befor...

Rachel...

Rachel.

I don't care what we do on the field,

our technique has to be good.

I play women's professional football with the L.A. Amazons.

Hit and rip. Hit and rip.

So I'm glad we were hitting today,

because I was really frustrated

over, like, the whole Chanel situation.

It's like our... our first big fight,

and I'm really worried about losing her.

What, last night, why I didn't get any sleep?

Exactly. You hit it right on the head.

Girlfriend troubles.

Well, if you... guess that makes

the making up a lot better.

- It's really starting to hit me

that I might be ruining a relationship

before it even starts, and...

Keep going, keep going!

I just don't want it to be over.

All right.

Shit!

- Did you want to smoke a cigarette?

- Yeah. - Whoop.

Ohh. Guh.

So what happened?

I mean, we went to go meet with her friends

so she could cut their hair,

but, um, I walked back in...

I went out for a minute, and I walked back in,

and it seemed

like she was progressively getting more fucked up.

Uh-huh.

And... it was, like,

blatantly obvious.

And, like, the girls left the room for a minute,

and, like, she definitely made a move on me.

And I was like, "all right, I think you should

"definitely either do this when you're sober,

or when I'm fucked up."

- She got messy? - She got messy.

I think that it's sort of classic Rachel behavior

to bottle everything up

and try to self-medicate

to, like, make it go away.

I think that she just is flirting with the idea of,

"okay, well, if we're just friends,

then we can still kind of hook up."

Yeah.

But she doesn't really know how to get to that moment sober.

Yeah.

So I think she might honestly... hey!

I think she might honestly be...

Trying to get fucked up a little bit

so that she feels like she's breaking her own ice,

- you know? - Yeah. I mean, maybe.

And if so, she...

Did a good job tonight.

- At the wrong time. - Yeah.

Michu...

All the girls in my life are so crazy.

I don't know what to do, michu.

There she is.

- Homes. - Claire.

Hey, babe.

Sorry it took me forever.

Barbara's one of my best buddies from New York.

She's one of my closest, like, gay girlfriends.

So it's just really awesome to have her come out here.

So tomorrow we'll just lay out.

Let's just chill tomorrow.

Today has been a runaround.

So I had this meeting with the girls of power up.

Basically, it's like all these women that are creative,

all help each other out.

And she basically is like, "we want you to, like, intern."

But, like, I don't want to...

Not have an income, you know?

Like, that's just not how... I roll.

You know, I kind of have to get people

who want to help because they want to be a part of this.

It's like, I have to get people on board

that are interesting people,

that are doing interesting things,

that happen to be lesbians.

And let's do it in a sick way.

And, like, that's the thing.

I feel like I want to do the photo shoot

with The Real L Word girls

in, like, white t-shirts, underwear,

little to no makeup, in, like, bed.

I mean, I'm in a position to try.

I'd be a fool if I didn't take it.

My hope is that the other girls

from The Real L Word will generate some attention for my site.

But Francine knew most of the girls on the show

prior to me moving out here.

And I don't know if they're gonna want to help me

in donating their time for my cause.

I would hope that they would be down with it.

And I don't see why not.

I mean, you can get them to actually...

Well, you have to, like, spend some time with them.

Yeah. And I will.

'Cause you better make sure that this website...

I need to get on top of it, because I know I can do it,

but I want to do it right.

- Cheers. - Cheers.

Thanks for hangin' out, man.

Once Cori gets pregnant,

she won't be able to drink or smoke, so we're having

a little last-hurrah party and calling it,

"knockin' 'em back before we're knockin' her up."

- Hello! - Hi!

- This is Adam. - Hi, girls.

We're planning to have, like, a last "Cori's night out."

- And, uh... - 'Cause I like to go out.

We're getting the first round.

- What do you guys want? - Tequila business.

No... what the hell?

We got to get through the whole night.

I like to drink. I like to party.

And... this is gonna be it for, you know,

however long it takes us to conceive.

And then add on nine months to that

and then add on, you know,

forever after that?

You know?

- Cheers. - Cheers.

To motherhood!

- Cheers. - I love you.

I love you, too.

Whoo-whoo!

When Cori goes out,

shots have a tendency to come in twos

and threes and fours and fives.

And there's a tiny, little piece of me

that's worried about whether or not

she is ready for this kid.

Knockin' 'em back before we get knocked up!

Oh!

Okay.

I have these, I guess, alter egos.

Kacy has named them Cookie and Coco.

Cookie is a little cranky.

She's a bit of a diva, and she comes out

when I've had a little bit too much to drink.

Lower! Lower!

But then there's Coco.

I think we've moved to Coco.

Ooh...

Coco really loves Kacy.

So Coco's fun for Kacy, for the most part.

- Watch out! - Hi, Coco.

Here comes Coco, just rearin' to go.

And she gets that look in her eye,

that, like, eye of the tiger.

It was a little scary. I'm not gonna lie.

Oh, Jesus Christ!

We're gonna be parents!

Okay, get it out. I got your hair. You're fine.

Oh, my God, that jaeger was the worst idea ever.

I didn't even get to dance!

We danced, babe.

- You bent everybody over. - I did?

As long as I bent a few people over...

- You did. - Bye, bitches!

I love you so much!

I missed you.

I missed you, too.

It was so weird.

We do need to talk, 'cause, um...

you pissed me off the other night...

Pretty much.

I think we were both equally pissed off.

This is actually the first time

I'm seeing Chanel since the whole birthday fiasco.

It's kind of early on in the relationship

that we're fighting the way that we are,

so I'm pretty nervous.

But, um, I tried really hard to not let, like,

isolated emotions to affect the entire relationship.

So, if I'm angry at that moment,

it's just at that moment.

I had a lot of responsibility in the beginning,

you know, like... to start the tension,

'cause I was being impatient.

I was ready to go.

- I was rushing you. - Mm-hmm.

Um...

And it wasn't fair. Like, it wasn't right.

But, um, the level we got to that night

was just unhealthy.

I just feel like the pressure that we put on each other

with having so much in common

kind of made us have this expectation

of knowing each other right away.

So the little things that I was falling short on

or you were falling short on,

it was irritating us more than it should have.

Like, it was just unhealthy.

And, like, for me...

I never want to see that again.

I guess that happens when you're born on the same day.

A lot of the fundamental character traits are similar.

But I'm more of a runner than Chanel is.

She's more of a fighter.

But I'm a strong believer

that, like, anything great isn't gonna come easy,

so it's definitely worth the work.

So what do we do?

'Cause, like, I don't want to stop...

- I don't want to stop either. - 'Cause, like, that's easy.

I know how to do that. I'm really good at just, like,

"fuck it. I'll stop."

- Never think about it again. - Right.

But I don't want to do that this time.

I think the level of trust we need

to be in a healthy relationship

takes longer than two weeks to grow.

It's crazy because, like,

this relationship, it's uncomfortable,

but comfortable at the same time.

It's uncomfortable because I know it's different

than what I've ever done before.

But the comfort comes from...

Like, the whole experience being, like, rewarding.

You know?

Like, it feels damn good.

But... stop.

I can't help it. I'm so happy.

No, I'm right there with you.

'Cause, I mean, if we're gonna have a real makeup,

we need to make up the proper way.

I mean, what's the proper way to say it...

Like, "take the next step"?

I don't wanna just be like, "I'm ready to fuck."

Like...

but, um...

I'm ready.

It's possible.

- Hi. - Hi.

I'm just dealing with something very odd right now.

Kind of.

No.

No.

I know you're waiting for that, but, no.

It's a long story. It's like...

- I'll tell you when I see you. - Okay, I'll call you later.

Bye.

I don't remember kissing Whitney last night.

But we just had fun.

Like, to me, it's all about fun.

I still gave great haircuts.

And seeing Lauren and Bianca last night was awesome.

- Can I take your car? - No.

No?

- Okay. - Right now?

You're, like, drinking.

I had two sips.

I won't drink anymore.

I'm just saying, like, you're gonna drive...

like, how are you feeling?

Because you seemed, like, a little out of it before.

I'll just wait for Alyssa and Shay to come back.

- I'm saying, like, I'm not opposed to you...

- No, it's okay. - Taking my car sometimes.

It's just, like, I don't know.

Like, you... if you're just...

I mean, I'm not trying to offend you or do whatever.

You know?

No, okay. It's fine.

I'm not offended.

Just take my car.

I don't want to now.

Now you're just making me pressured.

And now... I don't want to talk about it.

I don't want to talk... I really don't...

I can't talk about this right now.

It would be crazy if she took something this morning.

Her eyes look off.

Something's just off with her.

And I don't know what it is.

But it's like... it worries me.

Rachel.

What?

- What's happening? - I'm peeing.

- No, but you're upset. - No, I'm not.

Listen, I'm fine.

- What's wrong? - Nothing!

- Can you open the door? - No!

I'm just gonna come in.

Uh...

Last night you were fuckin'...

shit canned.

I don't know what you're talking about.

Last night...

You were cutting someone's hair,

- and you cut yourself... - Like nothing.

You were cutting...

Literally, blood was trickling down your finger into her hair.

I'm concerned about you, because if I would...

Wish I could show you what I'm seeing back,

because you... your face movements.

Like, you're... the way you're speaking

is concerning to me, I must say.

I'm serious, Rache.

Okay.

- So if we could... - Okay, I get it.

I'm not on anything.

No, I didn't say "on anything," Rachel.

But I'm saying, like, "what is up?"

I'm not fucked up.

I'm not saying you're fucked...

It frustrates me to see that. It really does.

I get pissed off,

because, like, I don't want to see her...

Like, that's just a stupid mistake to make

and so unnecessary.

In my opinion, Whitney can't say shit,

because, uh, downfalls

come in many different, um, ways,

and at this point, nothing Whitney says to me...

Uh, I can take it with a grain of salt,

because you're still, um, you know, fucking with someone

who is a lying, uh, manipulator.

So your judgment is marred.

I'm gonna go pick Sara up from work.

Bye.

But if Sara wanted the car, it would be totally cool.

I'm picking up Sara from work,

giving her a ride home.

It's so funny, our relationship, or lack of.

And by "funny," I mean not funny at all.

I'm questioning now with Sara basically...

You know, if I'm gonna get into a relationship with her,

I want to be able to trust her.

Is she someone I could see myself lasting with?

I don't know what the exact answer is,

um...

Or maybe I do way down deep, and I don't want to admit it.

Sara denies seeing Erica

and says she hasn't seen her in, like, forever,

or she's not really interested in seeing her.

But there is Erica right there!

So what the fuck? Wow.

Wow. Okay.

So...

I'll tell you right now, I...

My question just got answered,

'cause I just saw Erica

right down the street from Sara's salon,

like, walking down that street.

What?

I'm so...

This is hilarious. This couldn't be funnier.

I had a f... you know, the funny thing is,

I had a feeling that that was gonna happen.

And, uh...

and it sure did.

Wow.

I can't even believe it.

- Hi. - Hey.

- Do you want some pizza? - No, I just ate.

He's so funny. We were walking right now.

He's like, "work it, bitch. Work, work, work."

He's like, "who's more feminine? Me.

Who's a girl? You. Bitch."

I'm like, "you are more feminine than me, for sure."

Thanks for coming to get me.

You're welcome.

How's it goin'?

I'm good.

Hey.

Okay, okay.

- Hi. - Hi.

How's your boo, baby?

What boo?

How's Erica?

Why do you say that?

Because I just saw her walk out...

- You did? - Yes.

She walked out... she didn't walk out of my salon.

Where was she?

I don't know. I didn't see her.

- What? - I'm serious.

I just saw her right on the thing.

I swear to God, she was not...

You could have even come into my salon.

I was just hanging out with him, and, um...

You mean to tell me, out of all the places in Los Angeles,

that she just so happened

to be heading out the backdoor area

of where you work

at the exact time you're getting off of work?

She's never been to my salon. She doesn't know where I work.

Yeah, like, it doesn't make sense to me.

- Shampoo... - Are you still seeing her?

No, I haven't seen her.

I mean, I've talked to her. We text and call.

I finally get it.

Sara is just lying to my face.

It's like, now you're, like, bordering into, like,

insulting my intelligence.

Tell me, Sara, what are we gonna do?

Like, I think that you're doing you,

so, like, I feel like I should probably...

Do the same, yeah?

I'm done. I'm over it.

That is a wrap on Sara.

- You know... - So let's just cut our ties.

I'm turned off at this point.

Mm, I mean, no.

That means I'm single as hell.

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