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I PLAY JOEY ON DEGRASSI HIGH.

AND I'M STACIE MISTYSYN, I PLAY CAITLIN.

THE FOLLOWING EPISODE OF DEGRASSI HIGH

IS A DRAMATIC STORY ABOUT SUICIDE.

MOST PEOPLE WHO ATTEMPT SUICIDE DO NOT REALLWANT TO DIE.

IN MOST CASES, THESE PEOPLE

ARE DESPERATELY REACHING OUT FOR HELP.

THERE ARE SIGNS THAT YOU CAN RECOGNIZE

WHEN SOMEONE IS SUICIDAL.

YOU SHOULD TAKE THESE SIGNS SERIOUSLY.

IF THE KIDS IN OUR STORY HAD TAKEN THEIR FRIEND SERIOUSLY

THEY COULD HAVE TALKED TO AN ADULT FOR HELP.

TEENS CAN'T ALWAYS HELP SUICIDAL FRIENDS

BUT THERE ARE HOTLINES, TEACHERS, GUIDANCE COUNSELORS

YOUR PARENTS, YOUR FRIENDS' PARENTS

YOUR DOCTOR AND OTHER ADULTS WHO CAN HELP.

ON THIS EPISODE OF DEGRASSI

THE STUDENT WHO IS SUICIDAL HAS VERY SERIOUS PROBLEMS

BUT HE DOES NOT HAVE TO KILL HIMSELF.

HE SHOULD ASK FOR HELP, BUT HE DOESN'T TALK TO ANYONE

AND HE DOESN'T REALIZE THAT THINGS WILL GET BETTER.

SUICIDE IS A PERMANENT RESPONSE TO A TEMPORARY SITUATION.

EVEN WHEN PEOPLE GET VERY DEPRESSED

SUICIDE IS NOT THE SOLUTION, BUT TALKING TO SOMEONE IS.

IF YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE

OR YOU KNOW SOMEONE WHO IS SUICIDAL

CALL 1-800-448-3000 (TDD 1-800-448-1833).

OR GO TO AN ADULT FOR HELP-- DON'T WAIT.

Alison: WE WON'T HAVE ENOUGH COSTUMES.

Tim: HOW DO YOU LIKE MY HAT?

THAT'S GREAT!

GOOD LUCK.

THANKS.

Nancy on P.A.: Auditions for Showtime are now underway.

Caitlin: I REALLY HOPE I MAKE THIS SHOW.

YOU WILL-- YOUR DANCE IS GREAT.

IT'S ME WHO SHOULD BE WORRIED.

MAYA, YOU'VE GOT A FABULOUS VOICE.

IT'S A GREAT SONG.

CAITLIN.

YOU'RE TRYING OUT FOR THE SHOW?

YEAH.

ME TOO.

WELL... GOOD LUCK.

WHAT IF WE TRIED AGAIN?

PLEASE!

WHY DOES HE KEEP BUGGING ME?

YOU THINK HE'D GIVE UP--

IT'S BEEN A YEAR SINCE YOU LAST WENT OUT.

I WISH HE'D JUST GO AWAY.

( clock rings )

� I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING �

� GOT TO SHAKE THE FEELING �

� I'VE GOT TO FACE A DAY OF SCHOOL �

� WHAT'S TO BE AFRAID OF? �

� I CAN ASK A QUESTION �

� OR MAYBE EVEN BEND THE RULES �

� I'M SEARCHING FOR A PLACE WHERE I'LL FIT IN �

� THERE'S A WAY, IF I LOOK THEN I CAN WIN �

� YEAH, I CAN SEE I'M NOT ALONE �

� I CAN FACE THE UNKNOWN �

� EVERYBODY CAN SUCCEED �

� IN YOURSELF YOU MUST BELIEVE �

� GIVE IT A TRY �

� AT DEGRASSI HIGH. �

CAPTIONING OF THIS PROGRAM IS MADE POSSIBLE

BY THE JOHN D. AND CATHERINE T. MacARTHUR FOUNDATION

THE CORPORATION FOR PUBLIC BROADCASTING

THE CARNEGIE CORPORATION OF NEW YORK

AND PUBLIC TELEVISION VIEWERS.

COME ON, JUST STAND STILL.

SORRY-- ARTHUR'S FUNNY, OKAY?

HI-- SORRY WE'RE LATE.

DON'T WORRY, WE'RE RUNNING BEHIND.

I DON'T THINK WE'LL GET TO YOU UNTIL TOMORROW.

TOMORROW?

OR MAYBE TODAY... YOU CAN TAKE A CHANCE

AND STICK AROUND AND WATCH.

COME ON, LET'S STAY.

OKAY.

Snake: WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?

HI, JOEY.

HI.

ICE MAIDEN.

WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO GET OVER HER?

I GOT OVER HER AGES AGO.

YEAH, RIGHT.

I DID!

HEY, I WASN'T FINISHED.

DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT.

Bronco: LOOKS GREAT TO ME.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

NEXT UP IS "THE DANCING JOCKETTES."

( music to "Dance of the Sugarplum Fairy" )

( laughter )

WHEN AM I ON?

UM, SOON-- I THINK AFTER THESE GUYS.

( laughter )

CAN'T WAIT TILL MY MOTHER COMES

TO SEE THIS ONE.

( music slows and dies )

JUST ONE SECOND.

ALL RIGHT, THAT'S ALL WE NEED TO SEE.

LOOK, I'M SORRY.

WHAT DID YOU DO?

NOTHING-- TRUST ME.

UM, YOU GUYS FIX IT AND WE'LL FIT YOU IN LATER.

NEXT UP IS CLAUDE TANNER.

Joanne: GOOD LUCK.

THIS IS SOMETHING THAT I WROTE MYSELF.

HEY, I THINK WE'RE ON NEXT.

I WANT TO SEE THIS.

IT'S THE ICE MAIDEN'S OLD BOYFRIEND.

AUTUMN LEAVES

DYING LEAVES.

SEASON OF DEATH

WHEN WINDS GROW COLD.

THOUGHTS OF DEATH CREEP IN AS I SLEEP.

I DREAM I'M IN A COFFIN...

( snickering )

...SAFE FROM THE LIGHT, I DON'T WANT TO LIVE...

GIVE HIM A BREAK-- LET HIM DO IT.

I AM NOT AFRAID.

SOOTHING, BLACK AND WARM

SOOTHING, BLACK AND WARM

SAFE FROM THE PAIN

AND SAFE FROM THE FOOLS

SAFE, SOOTHING, BLACK...

EXCUSE ME, CLAUDE?

I HAVEN'T FINISHED.

WE DON'T THINK THAT'S RIGHT FOR THIS SHOW.

WHY NOT?

NO OFFENSE, OKAY?

THE POEM'S GOOD, BUT UH...

IT'S JUST A LITTLE DEPRESSING.

SO? SOME THINGS ARE SERIOUS.

BUT ON TALENT NIGHT PEOPLE WANT TO HAVE FUN.

MAYBE YOU CAN COME BACK TOMORROW

WITH ANOTHER MONOLOGUE.

MAYBE A SONG.

I DO MY MONOLOGUE OR NOTHING.

SORRY.

WHO'S NEXT?

JOEY AND SNAKE.

TYPICAL-- THIS PLACE IS SO STUPID.

YOU'RE ALL A BUNCH OF SHEEP!

BAA.

WHAT A LOSER.

Boy: THAT'S JUST LIKE CLAUDE.

JOEY JEREMIAH

AND ARCHIE SIMPSON.

THAT'S US-- JUST A SECOND.

YOU DON'T CARE!

NOBODY CARES!

WELL, YOU'LL SEE.

CLAUDE, WAIT.

Lucy: YOU'RE ON, GUYS.

CAN WE MOVE THIS ON?

CLAUDE!

WHAT?

I CARE-- I THOUGHT IT WAS GOOD.

LOOK, WE NEVER SEE YOU ANYMORE.

HOW ABOUT COMING OUT WITH US THIS WEEKEND TO SEE A MOVIE?

MMM, NO, THANKS.

I'M REALLY SORRY ABOUT YOUR PARENTS.

HEY, LOTS OF PEOPLE GET DIVORCED.

SO I GUESS YOU'LL STAY WITH YOUR MOM?

HER BOYFRIEND HATES ME.

BUT YOU CAN'T STAY WITH YOUR DAD.

LISTEN, I KNOW YOU'RE JUST TRYING TO BE NICE

BUT I'M FINE.

AND I'VE REALLY GOT TO GO.

ARE YOU SURE YOU'RE OKAY?

DO YOU WANT TO TALK? I'LL LISTEN.

JOANNE, YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE

WHEN EVERYTHING...

YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE

TO BE ME.

SO DON'T BOTHER.

TRY ME!

NO.

( rock music starts )

Joey, Snake: � EVERYBODY GET READY, AND GET INTO GEAR �

� THE DEGRASSI SENSATION �

� THE ONE AND ONLY ZIT REMEDY IS HERE. �

� EVERYBODY WANTS SOMETHING �

� THEY'LL NEVER GIVE UP �

� EVERYBODY WANTS SOMETHING �

� THEY'LL TAKE YOUR MONEY... �

� AND NEVER GIVE UP. �

( music ends )

( scattered applause )

Joey: I SPENT HALF THE NIGHT ON IT

AND I STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND IT.

LOOK, YOU NEED HELP.

WELL, HOW ABOUT...

I'M TOO BUSY, SO... WHY NOT ASK MR. WEBSTER?

WEBFOOT? I CAN'T STAND THE GUY.

HEY, I DON'T THINK YOU HAVE ANY OTHER CHOICE.

I GUESS YOU'RE RIGHT.

Caitlin: I WISH WE GOT TO AUDITION YESTERDAY.

I HARDLY SLEPT ALL NIGHT.

Maya: IF THIS IS SO PAINFUL, WHY DO IT?

NOW THAT I'M BACK HOME

AND MY PARENTS ARE BACK TOGETHER

I'VE DECIDED TO START DOING THINGS

INSTEAD OF JUST TALKING.

I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DANCE.

I JUST WISH I WASN'T SO NERVOUS.

STOP WORRYING.

LIKE MY UNCLE AVRUM SAYS:

"LIFE IS A FLOWER, LET IT UNFOLD."

HI.

EXCUSE ME.

THANK YOU.

Bronco: Good morning, Degrassi.

First the lost and found announcement.

Anyone finding a tutu, please return it.

If you have not yet tried out for Showtime

auditions will be today at lunch.

Thank you.

IT'S FOR YOU.

WOULD YOU PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE?

I'M REALLY TIRED OF YOU HARASSING ME ALL THE TIME.

WE'RE NOT SEEING EACH OTHER ANYMORE.

DON'T WORRY-- I WON'T BOTHER YOU ANYMORE.

GOOD.

I JUST CAME

TO SAY GOOD-BYE.

WHY, WHERE ARE YOU GOING?

( bell rings )

WHAT A CREEP!

DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT.

I CAN'T BELIEVE HIM.

Joey: SO IF YOU'RE NOT TOO BUSY

I'D REALLY APPRECIATE SOME EXTRA HELP.

I'M IMPRESSED, MR. JEREMIAH.

IT TAKES MATURITY TO ASK FOR HELP.

I'LL ARRANGE SOMETHING.

THANKS, MR. WEBSTER.

LISTEN, UM...

HURRY, YOU'LL BE LATE.

I'M NOT GOING ANYMORE.

WHAT HAS THIS PLACE

EVER DONE FOR ME?

YOU'RE GOING TO GET IN TROUBLE.

NO, I WON'T.

( bell rings )

Walfish: OKAY, LET'S GET STARTED.

DID EVERYONE FINISH READING MACBETH?

BUT WAS MACBETH INHERENTLY EVIL?

YES, SPIKE?

I DON'T THINK MACBETH WAS EVIL.

I THINK SHE TALKED HIM INTO IT.

LIKE HE WASN'T RESPONSIBLE FOR HIS OWN ACTIONS?

LUCY, DON'T JUMP IN.

PUT UP YOUR HAND, PLEASE-- YOU WERE SAYING?

SHE'S THE ONE I FEEL SORRY FOR.

SHE DID IT ALL FOR HIM.

Alexa: IT'S NOT LIKE SHE DIDN'T GET ANYTHING OUT OF IT.

ALEXA, HANDS UP FIRST, PLEASE.

YES?

THAT'S ALL I HAD TO SAY.

( laughter )

I'D LIKE TO HEAR FROM SOMEBODY ELSE.

YEAH, SNAKE?

CAN I GO TO THE WASHROOM?

I HAD TOO MUCH TEA FOR BREAKFAST.

AND I WAS EXPECTING A COGENT CONTRIBUTION.

SURE, GO AHEAD.

( tittering )

ALL RIGHT, SETTLE DOWN.

NOW, IF YOU'LL RECALL, IN ACT II, SCENE II...

YOU ALL RIGHT?

JANET, THIS IS A DRAFT OF THE EXAM SCHEDULE...

WE'LL BE DISCUSSING IT AT THE STAFF MEETING TOMORROW...

MR. RADITCH...

MR. RADITCH, COME QUICK.

GET A HOLD OF YOURSELF.

NO, NO, HE'S DEAD.

WHO'S DEAD?

IN THE BOY'S WASHROOM, THERE'S... THERE'S A GUN

AND THERE'S BLOOD EVERYWHERE.

OKAY, ALL RIGHT, JUST TAKE ME TO WHERE HE IS.

TAKE ME TO WHERE HE IS.

JANET, CALL THE POLICE.

( bell rings )

Nancy: Tryouts for Showtime are now resuming in the auditorium.

Thank you.

THIS IS TIM THE TERRIFIC

AND MY ASSISTANT, BARTHOLOMEW BOND

ABOUT TO PERFORM THE MOST PHENOMENAL TRICKS OF ALL TIME.

BARTHOLOMEW, IS THIS AN ORDINARY PIECE OF ROPE?

YES, JUST A NORMAL ROPE.

AND IS THERE ANYTHING HOLDING UP THIS ROPE?

NO STRING IS ATTACHED.

ABRACAZAN, ABRACAZILT, I SHALL TURN THIS STRING INTO A SILK.

OH, BOY.

( applause )

THIS ONE IS FOR THE LOVELY LADIES IN THE AUDIENCE.

( distant police siren )

Bartholomew: A BOUQUET OF FLOWERS.

GREAT, I LOVE SOPHISTICATED HUMOR.

UM, CAITLIN RYAN.

GOOD LUCK.

I'M JUST GOING TO DO A DANCE.

HIT IT.

( lively ragtime music )

SO WHAT'S GOING ON?

Man: I CAN'T TELL YOU ANYTHING.

Raditch: There will be an unscheduled staff meeting immediately...

IT'S MILES TO THE NEXT BATHROOM.

I WONDER WHY THE COPS ARE HERE.

I'LL BET IT'S A DRUG BUST.

DID YOU SEE THAT STRETCHER?

THERE'S AN AMBULANCE OUT FRONT.

MUST BE SERIOUS.

( bell rings )

CAN EVERYONE PLEASE TAKE THEIR SEATS?

CAN I PLEASE HAVE YOUR ATTENTION... EVERYONE?

UNFORTUNATELY, I... I HAVE SOME TRAGIC NEWS.

GUYS, KEEP IT DOWN!

RELAX-- WALFISH WILL BE HERE ANY MINUTE!

I TRIED, SIR.

I'M AFRAID I HAVE SOME VERY UPSETTING NEWS.

A STUDENT HAS DIED...

AND IT LOOKS LIKE HE KILLED HIMSELF.

WHO?

HIS NAME WAS CLAUDE TANNER.

HE WAS IN 12th GRADE.

I KNOW IT'S A SHOCK TO ALL OF YOU...

AND I KNOW THAT SOME OF YOU KNEW HIM.

HE WAS UM...

HE WAS SO UNHAPPY AND SO ANGRY...

AT EVERYBODY.

HIS PARENTS WERE GETTING DIVORCED

AND HIM AND HIS DAD, THEY JUST HATED EACH OTHER.

LOTS OF PEOPLE HAVE PROBLEMS

BUT DON'T KILL THEMSELVES.

Joanne: HE WOULD HAVE GOT OVER IT.

I MEAN, I WAS DEPRESSED LAST YEAR, BUT THINGS PASS.

I SHOULD HAVE DONE SOMETHING.

WHAT COULD YOU HAVE DONE?

WELL, I KNEW SOMETHING WAS WRONG.

I TRIED TO TALK TO HIM, BUT HE WOULDN'T.

I TOLD MISS WALLIA AND SHE TRIED TO TALK TO HIM

BUT HE WOULDN'T LISTEN.

I DON'T SEE WHAT MORE YOU COULD HAVE DONE.

WELL, THERE MUST HAVE BEEN SOMETHING.

IT'S OKAY.

IT'S ALL RIGHT.

YOU CAN'T HELP SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T WANT HELP.

ALL YOU CAN DO IS LOOK FOR WARNING SIGNS AND TRY TO HELP.

ALL OF US FEEL OVERWHELMED SOMETIMES.

MANY PEOPLE THINK ABOUT SUICIDE.

THE DIFFERENCE IS THAT WE DON'T DO IT

BECAUSE ONCE YOU DO, EVERYTHING IS OVER.

I THINK IT'S IMPORTANT WE TALK ABOUT HOW YOU FEEL.

Michelle: WHY DID HE DO IT HERE?

PROBABLY TO MAKE US FEEL BAD.

LUCY!

WELL, IT'S TRUE.

LUCY, WOULD YOU SHARE THAT?

UM... I SAID HE PROBABLY DID IT HERE

JUST TO MAKE US FEEL BAD.

THAT'S REALLY NICE.

I'M SORRY, I KNOW IT SOUNDS INSENSITIVE

BUT I'M MAD AT HIM-- I MEAN, WHAT A JERK.

HOW COULD YOU BE SO CRUEL?

SHE'S RIGHT-- HE HAD TOO MANY PROBLEMS, SO HE KILLS HIMSELF?

HE DOESN'T HAVE TO WORRY ANYMORE.

IT'S US WHO HAVE TO FEEL BAD.

TALK ABOUT SELFISH!

HE'S GOING TO HELL, TOO-- SUICIDE'S A SIN.

EVERYBODY...

EVERYBODY, PLEASE, PLEASE!

THERE'S NO RIGHT WAY TO REACT TO THIS.

WHEN SOMETHING LIKE THIS HAPPENS

PEOPLE HAVE ALL SORTS OF REACTIONS.

LISTEN, WE'RE GOING TO GO HOME EARLY TODAY.

PLEASE TALK ABOUT THIS.

SHARE WAYS TO GET THROUGH THIS ROUGH TIME.

AND IF ANY OF YOU-- IF ANY OF YOU

HAVE PROBLEMS DEALING WITH THIS, PLEASE COME AND TALK TO ME.

WE HAVE TRAINED PEOPLE HERE WHO CAN HELP

AND THERE'S A TRAUMA TEAM THAT'S BEEN ASSIGNED TO THE SCHOOL.

JOY, IT'S OKAY.

Raditch: Attention-- due to the tragedy that has occurred

all remaining classes are canceled.

However, the guidance office will be open

for the rest of the day.

DO YOU WANT TO GO FOR A WALK OR SOMETHING?

YEAH, SURE.

ARE YOU OKAY?

HE TRIED TO TALK TO ME-- I TOLD HIM TO GO AWAY.

SURE, BECAUSE HE WAS BOTHERING YOU.

SO WHY DIDN'T I JUST TALK TO HIM?

YOU BROKE UP WITH HIM OVER A YEAR AGO.

YOU DIDN'T LIKE HIM.

I MIGHT HAVE MADE A DIFFERENCE.

CAITLIN...

CLAUDE DIDN'T KILL HIMSELF

BECAUSE YOU WOULDN'T TALK TO HIM.

HE OBVIOUSLY HAD A LOT OF PROBLEMS.

YEAH, I SUPPOSE.

I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE HE DID THIS.

I MEAN, WHY DIDN'T HE ASK SOMEBODY FOR HELP?

WHO KNOWS?

Bronco: This afternoon's auditions have been canceled.

COULDN'T SOMEONE HAVE STOPPED HIM?

THERE'S NOTHING YOU COULD DO.

YOU GUYS SEEN SNAKE?

UH, NOT SINCE BEFORE LUNCH.

HE HASN'T BEEN HERE ALL AFTERNOON.

SHOULD WE TAKE A COLLECTION FOR FLOWERS?

Girl: WHY DID HE DO IT?

I DON'T KNOW.

POOR GUY JUST WANTED TO DO HIS DUMB MONOLOGUE

AND I WOULDN'T LET HIM.

YOU THINK HE KILLED HIMSELF BECAUSE OF THAT?

DON'T BE RIDICULOUS.

THE GUY WAS OBVIOUSLY MESSED UP.

YOU HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH IT.

SO WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO ABOUT THE SHOW?

CANCEL IT, OF COURSE.

WE CAN'T PUT IT ON NOW.

BUT IT'S NOT FOR TWO WEEKS.

LUCY, IT WOULDN'T BE RIGHT.

BRONCO...

IF WE DON'T PUT IT ON, WHAT WILL PEOPLE THINK?

THAT'S NOT MY PROBLEM.

BUT WE'VE PUT A LOT OF WORK INTO IT.

I'LL BE RIGHT THERE, HONEY.

HI, HONEY.

HI.

BYE, HONEY-- YOUR FATHER'S CAR HAS BROKEN DOWN AGAIN.

DINNER WILL BE A LITTLE LATE.

OKAY.

WHEN DID YOU GET A NEW BOYFRIEND?

I DIDN'T.

THEN YOU'VE GOT A SECRET ADMIRER.

SOMEONE SENT YOU FLOWERS.

TELL ME ABOUT IT WHEN I GET BACK?

YEAH, SURE.

"DEAR CAITLIN, I'M SURE YOU KNOW BY NOW.

"I JUST COULDN'T STAND IT ANYMORE.

"I KNOW YOU DON'T LOVE ME, BUT I LOVE YOU

"AND I FORGIVE YOU FOR HOW YOU TREATED ME.

"GOOD-BYE, CAITLIN.

"WHEREVER I AM, I AM THINKING OF YOU.

"I HOPE YOU THINK OF ME SOMETIMES.

LOVE, CLAUDE."

MR. DAVIS, CAN WE GET THEM STARTED PLEASE?

YES, SIR.

CAN I HAVE YOUR ATTENTION, PLEASE?

THANK YOU.

YOU ALL KNOW WHAT WE'RE HERE FOR.

ARE WE GOING TO HAVE A TALENT SHOW?

WHO'D LIKE TO GO FIRST?

JOANNE?

A HUMAN BEING HAS DIED.

IF WE HAVE THIS SHOW, IT'S LIKE IT DOESN'T MATTER.

BECAUSE OF SOMETHING HORRIBLE

DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO STOP?

NOT EVERYTHING, BUT WE SHOULD BE RESPECTFUL.

I'M UPSET ABOUT WHAT'S HAPPENED, TOO

ESPECIALLY ABOUT THE PEOPLE HE'S HURT BY DOING THIS.

BUT LIFE HAS TO GO ON.

GOOD POINT.

WHAT IS SO IMPORTANT ABOUT A DUMB HIGH SCHOOL TALENT SHOW?

I MEAN, WHAT ABOUT HOW HIS FAMILY FEELS?

THEIR SON HAS DIED

AND HIS SCHOOL GOES AND PUTS FOOTBALL PLAYERS

ON STAGE IN TUTUS?

WHAT'S WRONG WITH A LITTLE LAUGHTER?

I'M SORRY, OKAY?

I DON'T FEEL LIKE LAUGHING.

I KNEW HIM AND HE WAS MY FRIEND.

UM... MAYBE SOMEONE ELSE SHOULD SAY SOMETHING.

SPIKE?

WHAT IF WE DID IT LIKE A BENEFIT?

WE COULD GIVE THE MONEY TO HIS FAMILY

OR TO A CHARITY OF THEIR CHOICE.

All: YEAH, YEAH, THAT'S A GOOD IDEA.

Boy: DO IT, BRONCO.

THAT'S GOOD.

IT'S A NICE WAY TO REMEMBER CLAUDE.

WHY DON'T YOU VOTE?

WHOEVER IS IN FAVOR OF SPIKE'S IDEA

PLEASE RAISE YOUR HAND.

Tim: I DON'T KNOW IF HAVING THE TALENT SHOW IS A GOOD IDEA.

I AGREE WITH LUCY, LAUGHTER IS GOOD.

I'M GLAD WE'RE NOT LETTING THAT CREEP RUIN EVERYTHING.

I HEAR IT'LL BE A CLOSED FUNERAL.

I WOULDN'T HAVE GONE ANYWAY.

I WOULD NEVER GO TO A SUICIDE'S FUNERAL.

HOW COULD ANYONE BE THAT STUPID?

I DIDN'T THINK YOU'D BE SO ANGRY.

HE DESERVES IT.

I'M NOT GOING TO LET WHAT HE DID AFFECT ME.

( bell rings )

HELLO, EVERYBODY.

I HOPE I HAVE ALL YOUR ASSIGNMENTS.

THANK YOU.

I HAVE MY READING CUT OUT FOR ME TONIGHT.

Joey: WELL, WHY CAN'T IT WORK THIS WAY?

Webster: THERE ARE OTHER VARIABLES IN THE QUANTITATIVE RELATION

BETWEEN INDUCED CURRENT AND MAGNETIC FLUX.

I'M SORRY, THAT WENT RIGHT OVER MY HEAD.

YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT VARIABLES?

YEAH, WHAT I'M GOING TO DO, JOEY--

YOU ASKED ME FOR HELP, I'LL SEE YOU GET IT.

I'M GOING TO GO BACK TO SQUARE ONE FOR YOU...

Claude: CAITLIN...

AH, WE'LL FINISH THIS LATER.

YOU CAN START PUTTING YOUR EQUIPMENT AWAY.

AND DON'T FORGET, LAB REPORTS ARE DUE NEXT CLASS.

THEY ARE WORTH 20% OF YOUR TERM GRADE.

AND ON FRIDAY, THERE'S OUR WEE TEST.

( class groans )

YOU'VE KNOWN ALL ALONG IT WAS COMING.

AH, COME ON.

I'D LIKE TO SPEAK TO JOEY AND CAITLIN PLEASE.

HEY, IS JOEY IN THERE?

YEAH, HE'S STILL TALKING TO WEBFOOT.

Webster: CAITLIN, I'M IMPRESSED WITH YOUR WORK SO FAR.

THANKS.

JOEY HAS ASKED FOR HELP BUT I'M A BIT SWAMPED

SO I WAS THINKING YOU COULD HELP PROVIDE HIM

WITH SOME TUTORING.

ME AND HER?

IS THAT A PROBLEM?

AH... NO.

CAITLIN?

I'M... I'M KIND OF BUSY.

I DON'T THINK IT'LL TAKE MUCH TIME

AND I KNOW JOEY WILL APPRECIATE THE ASSISTANCE.

SURE.

EXCELLENT.

I'LL LEAVE IT TO YOU TO SORT IT OUT THEN.

WHEN DO YOU WANT TO GET TOGETHER?

LET'S TALK ABOUT IT TOMORROW, OKAY?

OKAY, TOMORROW'S GOOD.

Sports enthusiasts...

JOEY.

There is a very important lacrosse match this afternoon

at Westbury High.

COULD YOU GIVE THIS TO YOUR MOM FOR ME?

WHAT IS IT?

IT'S THE MONEY THAT I STOLE.

YEAH.

SO, I'D BETTER BE GOING OR I'LL BE LATE FOR WORK.

HOW'S THAT GOING?

I DON'T WANT TO PUMP GAS FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE

BUT IT'S OKAY.

IT'S NICE MAKING SOME MONEY.

YEAH.

HOW'S SNAKE?

I HAVEN'T SEEN HIM AROUND LATELY.

HE'S UM... TAKING SOME TIME OFF.

HE'S SICK.

I... I HEARD THIS RUMOR.

DID HE FIND CLAUDE?

AH...

YEAH.

WHOA.

YOU THINK IT'D BE OKAY IF I CALLED HIM?

I KNOW HE'S MAD AT ME...

NO, I THINK HE'D ACTUALLY LIKE IT.

OKAY.

I'M GOING OVER THERE NOW.

I GOT TO GET TO WORK.

BUT I'LL CALL HIM TONIGHT.

OKAY.

SEE YOU LATER.

YEAH, I'LL SEE YOU.

HI.

HI.

WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE BIKE?

WHAT ISN'T?

BUT I THINK I CAN MAKE IT LAST ANOTHER YEAR.

HEY, LOOK, PEOPLE MISS YOU, MAN.

WHEN ARE YOU COMING BACK?

MAYBE NEXT WEEK.

THE THERAPIST SAYS I SHOULDN'T COME BACK TILL I'M READY.

LOOK, I'M REALLY SORRY

THAT IT WAS YOU THAT HAD TO FIND HIM.

HEY, SOMEONE HAD TO.

YOU KNOW WHAT I REALLY REMEMBER?

ALL THAT BLOOD.

HE WAS JUST LYING THERE.

HALF HIS FACE WAS... WASN'T.

IT WAS SO UGLY.

I THOUGHT A BODY WOULD BE MORE LIKE A PERSON

BUT HE WAS... HE WAS JUST DEAD.

IF I GOT THERE SOONER

MAYBE I COULD HAVE STOPPED HIM.

YOU COULDN'T DO ANYTHING.

AND I GET REALLY MAD SOMETIMES.

HE KNEW SOMEONE HAD TO FIND HIM.

WHY DID HE DO THIS TO ME?

I DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING TO HIM.

SNAKE...

I'M SORRY, OKAY?

IS THERE ANYTHING I COULD DO?

HEY.

HEY, GET OUT OF HERE.

HEY, COME ON.

GET OUT OF HERE.

OH, NO WAY.

HEY, MAN LET GO OF MY HAT.

NO...

NO...

Claude: AUTUMN LEAVES, DYING LEAVES

SEASON OF DEATH

WHEN WINDS GROW COLD

THOUGHTS OF DEATH CREEP IN LIKE SLEEP.

I DREAM I'M IN A COFFIN.

I AM NOT AFRAID.

SOOTHING, BLACK, AND WARM.

FOR YOU...

NO.

FOR YOU...

SOOTHING, BLACK AND WARM.

SAFE FROM THE PAIN

AND SAFE FROM THE FOOLS.

Caitlin: NO.

SAFE, SOOTHING, BLACK...

Caitlin: LEAVE ME ALONE!

I LOVE YOU... DEATH.

NO...

NO.

Nancy: Good morning, Degrassi.

Tickets go on sale today for Showtime.

All proceeds will go towards a program for suicide prevention.

We're hoping that you will come out to see it.

Webster: AND SO IF WE WISH TO MAINTAIN THE LOOP

IN CONSTANT VELOCITY

THIS MAGNETIC FORCE MUST BE BALANCED

BY AN EQUAL FORCE "F" TO THE LEFT.

DO YOU UNDERSTAND ANY OF THIS STUFF?

( bell rings )

I HOPE THAT'S ALL CLEAR

AND THAT YOU'RE LOOKING FORWARD WITH UNABASHED JOY TO THE TEST.

UM... CAITLIN...

LOOK, I REALLY NEED SOME HELP.

I'VE GOT TO PASS THIS TEST.

OKAY, WE'LL MEET AT LUNCH TOMORROW.

WELL, WHAT'S WRONG WITH TODAY?

I'M BUSY.

LOOK, IF YOU DON'T WANT TO HELP ME, JUST SAY SO.

LOOK, I'LL HELP YOU, OKAY?

GREAT, DO YOU WANT TO MEET IN THE RESOURCE CENTER?

NO, YOU CAN'T TALK THERE.

IF I'M HELPING YOU, IT WOULD BE NICE IF WE COULD TALK.

I SUPPOSE YOU COULD COME OVER TO MY PLACE.

YOUR HOUSE?

YEAH, MY PARENTS WON'T MIND.

BESIDES, MOM LIKED YOU.

REALLY?

MEET ME AFTER DINNER.

AROUND 7:00.

GREAT.

THANKS.

ALL RIGHT.

Showtime tickets are going fast.

Drop by the Student Council office

or buy them from Nancy Kramer or Lucy Fernandez.

Also, Student Council elections are coming up.

If you'd like to nominate anyone

please come down to the Student Council office

and fill out a nomination form.

Claude: HI.

I GOT YOU SOMETHING.

HERE.

WHAT IS IT?

IT LOOKS LIKE A BOX.

OPEN IT.

IT'S THE OTHER ONE OF THESE.

IT'S NEVER BEEN WORN.

Caitlin: NO, DON'T.

( knock on door )

HI.

HI, COME IN.

OKAY.

IT'S JUST JOEY, MOM.

JUST JOEY-- GEE, I FEEL SPECIAL.

LOOK, I'M ONLY DOING THIS

BECAUSE MR. WEBSTER ASKED ME TO.

THIS IS NOT MY IDEA OF FUN.

SO I'D APPRECIATE IT

IF YOU KEPT YOUR SNARKY COMMENTS TO YOURSELF.

LIGHTEN UP, I WAS JUST JOKING.

CAN I STILL COME IN?

SEE?

OH, YEAH.

OKAY, THEN THESE TWO CURRENTS

PASSING THROUGH DIFFERENT POINTS LIKE THIS

WILL MAKE A MAGNETIC CIRCULATION THAT'S PROPORTIONAL.

ARE YOU FOLLOWING THIS?

OH, YEAH, YEAH.

THE PROBLEM IS MAKING A MAGNETIC FIELD

THAT'S UNIFORM OVER A REASONABLE VOLUME OF SPACE.

YEAH, SPACE, THAT CAN BE REAL UNREASONABLE.

I LEARNED THAT ON STAR TREK.

YOU HAVEN'T HEARD A WORD I'VE SAID, HAVE YOU?

SURE I HAVE.

WHY DIDN'T YOU ASK QUESTIONS?

I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT QUESTIONS TO ASK.

THEN WHY STUDY?

I WANT TO PASS.

YOU CAN'T PASS IF YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING.

THAT'S WHY I'M HERE.

I CAN'T HELP A NUMB-BRAIN!

THANKS.

YOU'RE WELCOME.

HOW'S IT GOING?

FINE.

THAT WAS YOUR DAD.

HE'S HAVING CAR TROUBLE AGAIN SO I'M GOING TO GO PICK HIM UP.

WILL YOU TWO BE OKAY?

YEAH, SURE.

OKAY, LET'S START AGAIN.

HEY, WHY BOTHER?

I'M A NUMB-BRAIN.

I'M SORRY I SAID THAT.

HEY, DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT.

JOEY, LOOK, I WAS JUST FRUSTRATED.

I THOUGHT WE WERE GETTING SOMEWHERE.

LET'S START AGAIN

AND I'LL TRY AND EXPLAIN THINGS

A LITTLE MORE CLEARLY.

I WANT A HERBAL TEA.

DO YOU WANT ANYTHING?

AH... GOT A BEER?

NO!

IT WAS A JOKE.

CAITLIN, WHY ARE YOU SO SERIOUS?

YOU USED TO HAVE A SENSE OF HUMOR.

DO YOU WANT ANYTHING?

YES, I WOULD LIKE A JUICE.

SO WHAT DO YOU THINK

ABOUT THE TALENT SHOW STILL GOING ON?

I THINK IT'S GREAT, DON'T YOU?

YOU'RE NOT GOING TO DROP OUT, ARE YOU?

I HEARD SOME PEOPLE DID.

NO, ACTUALLY I FEEL PRETTY GOOD ABOUT IT.

I MEAN, LIFE DOES HAVE TO GO ON.

YOU KNEW CLAUDE PRETTY WELL, RIGHT?

YEAH.

DO YOU KNOW WHY HE DID IT?

NO.

HE MUST HAVE BEEN PRETTY MESSED UP.

COULD YOU ACTUALLY IMAGINE PUTTING A GUN TO YOUR HEAD?

DO WE HAVE TO TALK ABOUT THIS?

NO.

SORRY.

SO, UM... HOW'S SNAKE?

HE'S GETTING BETTER.

CLAUDE REALLY MESSED HIM UP.

I MEAN, IT MAKES ME SO MAD...

COULD WE PLEASE TALK ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE?

SORRY.

OF COURSE HE WAS MESSED UP.

YOU DON'T JUST KILL YOURSELF.

THEN WHY DID HE DO IT?

HE COULDN'T STAND IT ANYMORE.

HE TOLD YOU THAT?

I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT.

I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT CLAUDE!

WELL, YOU SAY THAT BUT YOU KEEP BRINGING IT UP.

MAYBE YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT.

CAITLIN?

HE SAID GOOD-BYE TO ME.

I THOUGHT MAYBE HE WAS VISITING RELATIVES OR SOMETHING.

I DIDN'T KNOW HE WAS GOING TO GO SHOOT HIMSELF.

YOU COULDN'T HAVE KNOWN THAT.

AND THEN HE SENT THE FLOWERS AND THE NOTE.

I MEAN, WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO?

I DIDN'T EVEN LIKE HIM.

HE SENT YOU A NOTE?

HE SAID HE LOVED ME.

I DON'T BELIEVE THIS.

I FEEL SO...

I DIDN'T WANT TO HURT HIM.

HE SURE MEANT TO HURT YOU.

CAITLIN, HE WANTED TO HURT EVERYBODY.

HE WANTED US ALL TO BE CRYING AND HAVE A BIG MEMORIAL.

THE GUY WAS A PIG.

NO HE WASN'T, HE LOVED ME.

HE DIDN'T LOVE YOU.

CAITLIN, HE WANTED TO HURT YOU.

NO, HE...

HE WANTED YOU TO FEEL GUILTY.

DON'T GIVE HIM THE SATISFACTION.

HOPE YOU ENJOY THE SHOW.

NICE TO SEE YOU.

HOPE YOU ENJOY THE SHOW.

RIGHT HERE?

OKAY, THANK YOU.

HI, FOLKS.

HEY, GOOD TO SEE YOU.

THERE, YOU'RE DONE.

I CAN'T BELIEVE WE'RE UP FIRST.

DON'T WORRY, YOU'LL DO FINE.

OKAY, GUYS, CLEAR THE STAGE.

( microphone feedback )

( applause and cheering )

THANK YOU.

GOOD EVENING, LADIES AND GENTLEMEN.

FIRST, I'D LIKE TO THANK EVERYBODY FOR COMING.

AS YOU ALL KNOW, THE CIRCUMSTANCES SURROUNDING

THIS EVENING'S SHOW ARE VERY UNUSUAL.

JOANNE RUTHERFORD HAS A FEW WORDS TO SAY

ON BEHALF OF CLAUDE TANNER'S FAMILY.

CLAUDE'S PARENTS WOULD LIKE TO THANK YOU FOR YOUR CONTRIBUTIONS

TO A PROGRAM FOR KIDS WHO FEEL SUICIDAL.

THIS PROGRAM IS TOO LATE TO HELP CLAUDE.

WE TRIED TO GET HIM TO TALK

AND HE WOULDN'T TALK AND WE DON'T KNOW WHY.

HE SHOULD HAVE TALKED.

THIS PROGRAM IS FOR ALL OF US.

IT'S FOR ANY STUDENT WHO FEELS REALLY DEPRESSED

OR WHO FEELS THAT THINGS ARE REALLY ROUGH

AND THEY DON'T KNOW WHERE TO TURN.

EVERYBODY GOES THROUGH BAD TIMES

BUT LIFE IS TOO PRECIOUS TO BE THROWN AWAY.

NO ONE HAS TO KILL THEMSELF.

CLAUDE WAS MY FRIEND

AND I'M REALLY SORRY THAT HE'S MISSING THIS TONIGHT

BECAUSE I THINK THAT IT WOULD HAVE REALLY MADE HIM LAUGH.

AND MAYBE IF HE HAD BEEN ABLE TO LAUGH MORE

HE WOULD STILL BE HERE.

THAT'S ALL I HAVE TO SAY.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH, JOANNE.

AND NOW, THE MOMENT YOU'VE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR.

OUR FIRST ACT COMBINES SOPHISTICATION AND CULTURE

THAT REFLECTS THE DIGNITY OF DEGRASSI.

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, I PRESENT TO YOU THE DANCING JOCKETTES.

( applause and cheering )

( music to "Dance of the Sugarplum Fairy )

THEY'RE IN THE DRESSING ROOM.

GUYS, COME ON, PLEASE, BE QUIET.

HI.

HI.

WHEN ARE YOU ON?

I'M FOURTH.

I'M TERRIFIED.

SO ARE WE-- WE'RE NEXT.

WE? IS SNAKE HERE?

NO, HE WASN'T READY TO COME BACK

BUT WHEELS IS DOING IT WITH ME.

( audience laughter )

COME ON, WE BETTER START GETTING READY.

JOEY.

YEAH?

I JUST WANTED TO THANK YOU FOR LISTENING.

NO PROBLEM.

ANYTIME.

I MEAN IT.

THANKS.

( music stops, audience cheers )

THIS WAS A DRAMATIC STORY ABOUT SUICIDE.

THE ACTOR WHO PLAYS CLAUDE DID NOT REALLY KILL HIMSELF.

BUT SUICIDE IS ON A LOT OF TEENAGERS' MINDS.

WE'VE ALL BEEN IN SITUATIONS THAT FELT HOPELESS

BUT COMMITTING SUICIDE IS IRREVERSIBLE.

WE ALL GET DEPRESSED SOMETIMES, BUT WE CAN GET HELP.

WE CAN COPE WITH OUR PROBLEMS BY TALKING ABOUT THEM

TO OUR FRIENDS, OUR PARENTS

TEACHERS, COUNSELORS, DOCTORS OR CO-WORKERS.

PLEASE, WE URGE YOU

IF YOU'RE FEELING DEPRESSED OR SUICIDAL

YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE ALONE.

TELL AN ADULT OR CALL 1-800-448-3000 (TDD 1-800-448-1833).

DON'T WAIT.

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