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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:06,965 --> 00:00:08,425 [theme music plays] 2 00:00:10,000 --> 00:00:16,074 Advertise your product or brand here contact www.OpenSubtitles.org today 3 00:00:25,608 --> 00:00:27,902 -[heartbeats] -[siren wails] 4 00:00:36,161 --> 00:00:37,287 [Jess] Somebody help! 5 00:00:37,704 --> 00:00:39,205 Somebody help, please! 6 00:00:40,457 --> 00:00:41,458 [Foundry] Back up! 7 00:00:43,293 --> 00:00:45,545 [indistinct announcement over PA] 8 00:00:47,297 --> 00:00:48,757 [Clay] That was a week ago. 9 00:00:50,258 --> 00:00:51,593 [heart monitor beeps] 10 00:00:54,137 --> 00:00:56,264 He's been in the hospital ever since. 11 00:01:00,560 --> 00:01:01,686 Intensive care. 12 00:01:02,228 --> 00:01:05,148 [Ellman] Your mother called to cancel your Tuesday appointment. 13 00:01:05,231 --> 00:01:07,484 She told me some of what Justin's facing. 14 00:01:08,818 --> 00:01:10,236 Yeah, it's not great. 15 00:01:10,945 --> 00:01:12,363 How does it make you feel? 16 00:01:13,448 --> 00:01:15,366 What the fuck does it matter what I feel? 17 00:01:15,450 --> 00:01:17,285 I think it matters a great deal. 18 00:01:17,744 --> 00:01:19,662 -You know that. -I don't know that! 19 00:01:19,746 --> 00:01:22,916 I don't know anything. We talk and talk, and nothing happens, 20 00:01:22,999 --> 00:01:26,044 and I still feel like I'm gonna spin off the face of the fucking Earth, 21 00:01:26,127 --> 00:01:28,213 then we keep talking, and we don't get anywhere! 22 00:01:28,296 --> 00:01:31,216 You don't think we made any progress these past few months? 23 00:01:31,299 --> 00:01:34,010 No! I just... All of this just seems so... 24 00:01:34,094 --> 00:01:35,845 I don't know! Like selfish! 25 00:01:36,262 --> 00:01:38,431 Talking about feelings... 26 00:01:38,890 --> 00:01:39,849 to you... 27 00:01:40,433 --> 00:01:42,143 when Justin is... is... 28 00:01:45,355 --> 00:01:46,314 is sick. 29 00:01:47,107 --> 00:01:49,400 Because what he's going through is so serious. 30 00:01:50,235 --> 00:01:52,904 And what you're going through seems less important now 31 00:01:52,987 --> 00:01:55,281 because his life hangs in the balance. 32 00:01:56,282 --> 00:01:57,283 Yes. 33 00:01:57,367 --> 00:01:59,077 But in the work we do together, 34 00:01:59,494 --> 00:02:01,412 in trying to help you get well, 35 00:02:02,247 --> 00:02:04,582 doesn't your own life hang in the balance? 36 00:02:06,292 --> 00:02:07,210 [clicks tongue] 37 00:02:09,629 --> 00:02:10,547 [whispers] Yes. 38 00:02:11,506 --> 00:02:12,882 So let's keep working. 39 00:02:15,593 --> 00:02:18,138 Do you wanna tell me how it's been at the hospital? 40 00:02:20,431 --> 00:02:22,684 [woman] Justin has given me permission 41 00:02:22,767 --> 00:02:25,770 to discuss his treatment and diagnosis with you. 42 00:02:27,897 --> 00:02:30,233 I'm afraid I have some difficult news to share. 43 00:02:32,402 --> 00:02:35,029 Justin has tested positive for HIV-1. 44 00:02:35,905 --> 00:02:38,700 And based on his symptoms, we believe... 45 00:02:39,242 --> 00:02:41,244 it has progressed to AIDS. 46 00:02:43,830 --> 00:02:45,456 -That's... -[sniffles] 47 00:02:46,666 --> 00:02:48,251 [Matt] How is that possible? 48 00:02:48,334 --> 00:02:49,460 He... he had the flu. 49 00:02:49,836 --> 00:02:51,171 He's been tired. 50 00:02:51,254 --> 00:02:54,465 Well, HIV has a long period of latency after infection, 51 00:02:54,883 --> 00:02:57,594 which means that Justin may not have shown any symptoms 52 00:02:57,677 --> 00:02:58,803 for some time. 53 00:02:58,887 --> 00:03:03,224 With his IV drug use and extended periods of homelessness, 54 00:03:03,308 --> 00:03:05,643 this would have made him more susceptible 55 00:03:05,727 --> 00:03:07,312 to rapid progression. 56 00:03:07,395 --> 00:03:10,273 And according to his records, he was never tested. 57 00:03:10,356 --> 00:03:12,442 How... how has he never been tested? 58 00:03:12,984 --> 00:03:15,820 We got him the best GP. He had a complete physical. 59 00:03:15,904 --> 00:03:17,864 [doctor] Testing requires patient consent. 60 00:03:17,947 --> 00:03:21,993 It's not uncommon for a young man with a history of IV drug use and sex work 61 00:03:22,076 --> 00:03:23,620 to avoid testing. 62 00:03:23,703 --> 00:03:24,746 Sex work? 63 00:03:27,749 --> 00:03:30,919 Justin never spoke to you about the time he spent homeless? 64 00:03:33,880 --> 00:03:35,715 Not about that part, no. 65 00:03:38,801 --> 00:03:41,971 The pneumocystis pneumonia has an indolent presentation, 66 00:03:42,430 --> 00:03:46,351 which means that the symptoms develop slowly over some weeks, 67 00:03:46,434 --> 00:03:48,519 and there was a late diagnosis... 68 00:03:50,521 --> 00:03:52,982 There is also a neurological infection. 69 00:03:54,859 --> 00:03:58,488 A fungal meningitis that has not advanced quite so far, 70 00:03:59,656 --> 00:04:01,574 but is pervasive. 71 00:04:01,658 --> 00:04:02,867 [heart monitor beeps] 72 00:04:06,162 --> 00:04:06,996 Hey. 73 00:04:08,039 --> 00:04:09,958 -Hey. [chuckles] -[Clay] Um... 74 00:04:10,041 --> 00:04:11,334 How is it today? 75 00:04:11,709 --> 00:04:13,544 [Justin] Uh, it's like yesterday. 76 00:04:13,628 --> 00:04:15,088 Just a little worse. 77 00:04:15,171 --> 00:04:16,339 [Justin chuckles weakly] 78 00:04:17,757 --> 00:04:21,344 Uh, so, there's, like, a lineup of people who'd like to see you, 79 00:04:21,427 --> 00:04:23,805 but I understand if you don't wanna see them. 80 00:04:23,888 --> 00:04:26,307 And I've organized a list and given time limits, and... 81 00:04:26,766 --> 00:04:28,434 [both chuckle] 82 00:04:28,518 --> 00:04:29,686 Of course you have. 83 00:04:29,769 --> 00:04:30,812 [laughs awkwardly] 84 00:04:32,772 --> 00:04:33,898 Yeah, sure. 85 00:04:35,817 --> 00:04:36,734 Bring it on. 86 00:04:38,611 --> 00:04:40,238 I'll send in the first appointment. 87 00:04:53,418 --> 00:04:54,502 [Clay sighs] 88 00:04:56,004 --> 00:04:57,130 [exhales slowly] 89 00:04:58,840 --> 00:05:00,174 Listen, the, uh... 90 00:05:01,467 --> 00:05:05,263 The doctor was talking us through stuff, and, uh... 91 00:05:05,346 --> 00:05:06,180 [Alex] Hey. 92 00:05:07,724 --> 00:05:09,934 -I'm sorry, Charlie made me. -[chuckles] 93 00:05:10,435 --> 00:05:11,519 [laughs wheezily] 94 00:05:12,478 --> 00:05:14,314 Charlie can come in too. 95 00:05:17,191 --> 00:05:19,777 See, I told you he wouldn't mind both of us at once. 96 00:05:20,820 --> 00:05:22,655 -[Alex] I'll put it here. -Uh... 97 00:05:22,739 --> 00:05:25,158 They wouldn't let us bring in any flowers, so... 98 00:05:25,241 --> 00:05:27,702 So, giant bears. Basically, the same thing. 99 00:05:27,785 --> 00:05:28,870 [all laugh] 100 00:05:29,370 --> 00:05:32,206 -[Charlie] His name's Tiger. -[Alex] This is a panda. 101 00:05:32,290 --> 00:05:34,459 -[Justin laughs] Tiger panda. -[Alex] Yeah. 102 00:05:34,542 --> 00:05:35,585 [Justin] I like it. 103 00:05:35,668 --> 00:05:38,755 [Clay] It's like the whole world just shifted out from under our feet. 104 00:05:40,048 --> 00:05:42,300 Like the darkness just closed in. 105 00:05:44,385 --> 00:05:45,386 Prom pictures. 106 00:05:46,262 --> 00:05:47,972 Some good ones of you and Estela. 107 00:05:49,557 --> 00:05:51,142 You should frame one for her. 108 00:05:51,225 --> 00:05:52,310 Oh, wow. 109 00:05:53,144 --> 00:05:54,645 Wow, these are really great. 110 00:05:55,146 --> 00:05:56,147 Hey, thank you. 111 00:05:58,232 --> 00:05:59,442 I know it was Jessica... 112 00:06:01,069 --> 00:06:02,111 who killed Bryce. 113 00:06:03,112 --> 00:06:06,783 And I know Clay and Ani and some group of you framed Monty. 114 00:06:07,575 --> 00:06:09,952 I almost have what I need to go to the police. 115 00:06:10,995 --> 00:06:12,663 But I don't have to include you. 116 00:06:12,747 --> 00:06:13,748 [inhales deeply] 117 00:06:14,123 --> 00:06:15,208 You got it all wrong. 118 00:06:15,541 --> 00:06:17,126 You don't really know anything, 119 00:06:17,210 --> 00:06:20,171 and Jessica and Clay and Ani, 120 00:06:20,254 --> 00:06:21,255 they're my friends. 121 00:06:22,757 --> 00:06:25,426 So anything you do to them, you do to me too. 122 00:06:26,135 --> 00:06:27,470 [tense music plays] 123 00:06:32,433 --> 00:06:33,768 [door opens] 124 00:06:37,355 --> 00:06:38,356 [door closes] 125 00:06:45,822 --> 00:06:47,198 [wind howling] 126 00:06:52,537 --> 00:06:54,122 I think he was ashamed. 127 00:06:55,373 --> 00:06:56,874 That's why he didn't tell you? 128 00:06:58,251 --> 00:07:01,170 I... I wouldn't have, like, judged. 129 00:07:01,254 --> 00:07:02,463 [Jess] It's not that. 130 00:07:03,005 --> 00:07:03,923 It just... 131 00:07:04,882 --> 00:07:06,134 It takes time. 132 00:07:07,385 --> 00:07:08,928 To deal with what is. 133 00:07:10,555 --> 00:07:11,806 [message alert pings] 134 00:07:13,057 --> 00:07:14,392 Zach's downstairs. 135 00:07:14,851 --> 00:07:16,102 He says he can't come in. 136 00:07:17,353 --> 00:07:18,646 Fucking Zach. 137 00:07:25,069 --> 00:07:25,945 Hey. 138 00:07:26,320 --> 00:07:27,321 Hey, what the fuck? 139 00:07:27,947 --> 00:07:30,533 -All right, get upstairs. -I can't, man. I just... 140 00:07:32,034 --> 00:07:33,911 Hospitals. [clears throat, sniffs] 141 00:07:33,995 --> 00:07:35,246 You need to see him. 142 00:07:37,874 --> 00:07:40,251 Man, I watched my dad die in this hospital. 143 00:07:41,461 --> 00:07:42,336 Yeah? 144 00:07:43,921 --> 00:07:47,049 Yeah, me and my dad brought my mom home from this hospital 145 00:07:47,133 --> 00:07:48,843 so she could die in her own bed. 146 00:07:49,218 --> 00:07:50,219 [Zach sniffs] 147 00:07:50,303 --> 00:07:53,806 And you know what? Right now, your best friend is really sick upstairs, 148 00:07:53,890 --> 00:07:54,974 and if you don't go see him, 149 00:07:55,057 --> 00:07:57,894 you are gonna regret this for the rest of your fucking life! 150 00:08:01,230 --> 00:08:02,648 I can't, man. [sniffles] 151 00:08:03,065 --> 00:08:05,693 -I can't. -[Charlie scoffs] 152 00:08:06,110 --> 00:08:09,197 [Clay] Like, prom was actually our last chance at being kids. 153 00:08:10,823 --> 00:08:11,908 Then all of a sudden, 154 00:08:12,742 --> 00:08:13,784 playtime over. 155 00:08:21,083 --> 00:08:22,668 There's no more hiding from it, 156 00:08:23,252 --> 00:08:24,337 what's out there. 157 00:08:28,299 --> 00:08:30,843 Hi. I was really surprised you texted me. 158 00:08:31,928 --> 00:08:33,054 It was me. 159 00:08:37,099 --> 00:08:38,559 I killed Bryce Walker. 160 00:08:44,398 --> 00:08:45,775 -You're lying. -[Alex] No. 161 00:08:46,567 --> 00:08:49,153 I found him on the pier. I was alone. 162 00:08:49,237 --> 00:08:51,197 I tried to help him up. He threatened to hurt Zach. 163 00:08:51,280 --> 00:08:53,241 I shoved him in the river. He drowned. 164 00:08:55,451 --> 00:08:57,328 -Alex. -[Alex] Yeah, so... 165 00:08:58,579 --> 00:09:00,331 that information is yours now. 166 00:09:01,916 --> 00:09:03,167 Do what you want with it. 167 00:09:09,632 --> 00:09:12,343 -[heart monitor beeps] -[ventilator draws in air] 168 00:09:16,556 --> 00:09:17,723 [doctor clears throat] 169 00:09:18,516 --> 00:09:20,518 The ventilator breathes for him. 170 00:09:21,018 --> 00:09:25,690 It keeps his blood oxygenated and helps protect against organ failure. 171 00:09:28,693 --> 00:09:30,403 How long does he have to be on it? 172 00:09:32,446 --> 00:09:33,573 [doctor clears throat] 173 00:09:34,115 --> 00:09:35,116 Uh, honey... 174 00:09:40,121 --> 00:09:42,665 He may never be able to breathe without it again. 175 00:09:46,043 --> 00:09:49,171 So, like, when he gets out of the hospital? 176 00:09:53,718 --> 00:09:56,095 [doctor] The disease in his lungs is quite advanced. 177 00:09:56,178 --> 00:09:59,599 And we're also starting to see advanced neurological symptoms. 178 00:10:01,142 --> 00:10:03,978 The goal is to keep him as comfortable as possible 179 00:10:04,061 --> 00:10:06,939 and manage the symptoms as best as we can. 180 00:10:07,023 --> 00:10:08,983 [panting] 181 00:10:09,984 --> 00:10:11,694 Honey! Clay? 182 00:10:11,777 --> 00:10:14,488 I feel like I just... I need some air. [panting] 183 00:10:14,614 --> 00:10:17,950 -[Matt] Clay! -[Lainie] Does he just need some space? 184 00:10:18,743 --> 00:10:19,994 Should we give him space? 185 00:10:20,453 --> 00:10:22,079 Now? Is that really a good idea? 186 00:10:23,664 --> 00:10:24,832 [Lainie sniffles] 187 00:10:28,127 --> 00:10:29,170 [tense music plays] 188 00:10:29,253 --> 00:10:32,131 Whoa! Clay! Clay, what happened? Is everything OK? 189 00:10:33,049 --> 00:10:34,675 What do you fucking think, Zach? 190 00:10:35,176 --> 00:10:37,637 He's never getting any better! He's fucking dying! 191 00:10:41,349 --> 00:10:42,808 Should we go after him? 192 00:10:43,267 --> 00:10:44,977 [sighs] Jesus, I don't know. 193 00:10:47,104 --> 00:10:48,105 Where'd he go? 194 00:10:48,439 --> 00:10:49,857 Uh, up the street, that way. 195 00:10:49,940 --> 00:10:53,069 -Where's he going? What's down there? -No clue, Mr. Jensen. 196 00:10:56,489 --> 00:10:57,907 [breathing heavily] 197 00:11:00,826 --> 00:11:03,496 [Clay] And we can't stop it. We can't stop it. 198 00:11:03,579 --> 00:11:04,705 We can't. 199 00:11:04,789 --> 00:11:07,667 We're spinning and spinning, and we're about to disappear. 200 00:11:20,971 --> 00:11:22,598 [breathing heavily] 201 00:11:23,599 --> 00:11:25,309 [suspenseful music plays] 202 00:11:59,552 --> 00:12:00,594 [quietly] I, um... 203 00:12:02,513 --> 00:12:03,597 I have a gun. 204 00:12:08,352 --> 00:12:09,937 [yells] I said I have a gun! 205 00:12:10,020 --> 00:12:11,522 [panicked shrieking] 206 00:12:11,605 --> 00:12:13,524 And I'll fucking use it if I have to, 207 00:12:13,607 --> 00:12:15,151 so everybody back the fuck up! 208 00:12:15,234 --> 00:12:17,027 I have a gun. I have a gun! 209 00:12:17,111 --> 00:12:18,529 Clay. [shushes] 210 00:12:18,612 --> 00:12:20,823 [Diaz] Clay, hey. Hey, what's going on here? 211 00:12:20,906 --> 00:12:22,116 I... I have a gun. 212 00:12:22,616 --> 00:12:24,452 All right, well, let's just take a breath here. 213 00:12:24,785 --> 00:12:27,872 Slowly take your hands outta your pockets so no one gets hurt. 214 00:12:27,955 --> 00:12:29,039 People are already hurt! 215 00:12:29,123 --> 00:12:33,294 Nobody pays for the things that happen! No one ever pays! And someone should! 216 00:12:33,961 --> 00:12:35,337 You must hurt so much. 217 00:12:35,713 --> 00:12:38,299 Put the gun down, and we'll talk about it. OK? 218 00:12:42,470 --> 00:12:43,429 Clay? 219 00:12:44,930 --> 00:12:45,890 Clay? 220 00:12:48,267 --> 00:12:49,769 -Clay! -[Diaz] Get down! 221 00:12:49,852 --> 00:12:50,770 Hey, get down! 222 00:12:51,228 --> 00:12:52,521 Clay! What the fuck? 223 00:12:52,605 --> 00:12:54,940 Put your guns down! Guys, put your guns down! 224 00:12:55,024 --> 00:12:56,692 -Guns down, everybody! -[Clay] Tony? 225 00:12:56,776 --> 00:12:58,652 Put your guns down. 226 00:13:00,571 --> 00:13:01,530 Hey, Clay. 227 00:13:02,031 --> 00:13:03,365 Clay, listen to me, buddy. 228 00:13:06,452 --> 00:13:08,621 I know you're going through a lot right now. 229 00:13:09,079 --> 00:13:10,748 I know you've been through a lot. 230 00:13:10,831 --> 00:13:13,292 More than any kid should ever have to deal with. 231 00:13:15,252 --> 00:13:16,295 But listen to me. 232 00:13:18,214 --> 00:13:20,800 Everyone in this room? Every one of those deputies? 233 00:13:20,883 --> 00:13:22,468 Everyone wants the same thing, 234 00:13:23,135 --> 00:13:24,678 and that's for you to be safe. 235 00:13:25,054 --> 00:13:27,014 To stay alive. OK? 236 00:13:29,767 --> 00:13:32,269 Tony... He's your best friend, right? 237 00:13:34,855 --> 00:13:36,357 Tony wants you to be safe. 238 00:13:37,191 --> 00:13:39,109 And that's all that matters right now. 239 00:13:40,736 --> 00:13:43,155 I can't promise that it gets better right away. 240 00:13:44,657 --> 00:13:46,325 But the only chance we have, 241 00:13:47,076 --> 00:13:49,411 the only way things can start to feel better... 242 00:13:50,955 --> 00:13:52,331 is if you give me that gun. 243 00:13:53,791 --> 00:13:54,750 OK? 244 00:13:55,918 --> 00:13:58,003 I promise you, no one will hurt you. 245 00:13:59,088 --> 00:14:00,297 Just give me the gun. 246 00:14:03,634 --> 00:14:04,802 You can talk to me. 247 00:14:07,638 --> 00:14:09,306 [tense music plays] 248 00:14:16,230 --> 00:14:18,440 [Clay breathes shakily] 249 00:14:20,526 --> 00:14:21,527 [sobs quietly] 250 00:14:24,113 --> 00:14:24,947 [Diaz] It's OK. 251 00:14:26,115 --> 00:14:26,991 All right. 252 00:14:28,409 --> 00:14:29,410 [sobs loudly] 253 00:14:31,954 --> 00:14:32,955 [Diaz] All right. 254 00:14:33,706 --> 00:14:35,374 [wailing sobs] 255 00:14:38,377 --> 00:14:40,588 [Ellman] Did you feel that you wanted to die? 256 00:14:40,671 --> 00:14:42,256 [Clay] No, that wasn't it. 257 00:14:44,425 --> 00:14:45,467 I just... 258 00:14:48,178 --> 00:14:49,471 I wanted someone to... 259 00:14:51,015 --> 00:14:52,099 To notice you. 260 00:14:55,352 --> 00:14:56,645 To see you were hurting. 261 00:14:58,647 --> 00:14:59,481 Yeah. 262 00:14:59,857 --> 00:15:01,108 [Diaz] All right, buddy. 263 00:15:03,027 --> 00:15:04,653 [pats Clay] All right, I'm here. 264 00:15:05,696 --> 00:15:06,697 You're safe. 265 00:15:08,324 --> 00:15:10,743 -[Clay] We talked for a while... -[Diaz] It's all right. 266 00:15:10,826 --> 00:15:12,119 ...me and the Sheriff. 267 00:15:13,787 --> 00:15:15,956 He didn't bust me for pulling that stunt. 268 00:15:16,749 --> 00:15:17,791 And it was, like, 269 00:15:19,043 --> 00:15:20,669 almost like he understood. 270 00:15:21,962 --> 00:15:23,255 Understood what? 271 00:15:23,339 --> 00:15:25,591 [Clay] That I was freaking out. And why. 272 00:15:25,674 --> 00:15:29,595 And I realized that all that attention he'd been giving me this spring? 273 00:15:29,678 --> 00:15:33,182 Like, showing up at school and meeting with my parents, 274 00:15:34,308 --> 00:15:35,643 he was worried about me. 275 00:15:37,061 --> 00:15:38,687 And that surprises you. 276 00:15:38,771 --> 00:15:41,023 I mean, he arrested me once. 277 00:15:41,106 --> 00:15:43,734 But in both cases, then and now, 278 00:15:43,817 --> 00:15:45,569 wasn't he just doing his job? 279 00:15:45,653 --> 00:15:49,406 Yeah. And... And I think maybe he's pretty good at his job. 280 00:15:51,492 --> 00:15:52,493 In a... 281 00:15:53,035 --> 00:15:55,079 sneaky, manipulative way. 282 00:15:57,164 --> 00:15:58,082 Like you. 283 00:15:58,499 --> 00:15:59,875 I'll take the compliment. 284 00:16:01,919 --> 00:16:06,048 [Clay] After that, he, um, put me and Tony in a room while he talked to my dad. 285 00:16:06,590 --> 00:16:08,300 Tony had been in a street fight. 286 00:16:09,134 --> 00:16:12,972 I'm not sure if they put me in here to look after you or the other way around. 287 00:16:14,473 --> 00:16:17,267 We haven't been doing that so great for each other lately. 288 00:16:23,273 --> 00:16:24,984 [Ellman] How's Justin doing now? 289 00:16:28,320 --> 00:16:29,321 Not better. 290 00:16:34,660 --> 00:16:38,288 [Clay] There's this thing. I mean, I've been calling it hospital time. 291 00:16:38,872 --> 00:16:40,541 You lose track of days. 292 00:16:40,624 --> 00:16:42,167 It's all one long day. 293 00:16:43,627 --> 00:16:46,505 Time moves so slowly, and then a week has gone by. 294 00:16:53,679 --> 00:16:55,848 And I think it's got everyone messed up. 295 00:16:55,931 --> 00:16:57,224 The waiting. 296 00:16:57,307 --> 00:16:58,350 The not knowing. 297 00:17:00,102 --> 00:17:01,270 Or the knowing. 298 00:17:04,815 --> 00:17:05,983 [Zach groans lightly] 299 00:17:12,322 --> 00:17:14,867 Something tells me you boys aren't here to party. 300 00:17:14,950 --> 00:17:16,076 Oh... OK. 301 00:17:16,618 --> 00:17:20,247 Whoa! Hey, that's a single barrel small batch Corlett. What the fuck? 302 00:17:20,330 --> 00:17:23,042 Fuckin' bourbon, guys. You can't even tell the difference! 303 00:17:23,500 --> 00:17:25,502 There are two more in the car, black. 304 00:17:25,586 --> 00:17:27,880 You're gonna get those in you, and go see Justin. 305 00:17:28,547 --> 00:17:29,715 All right, look, 306 00:17:30,257 --> 00:17:31,467 Mothers Teresa. 307 00:17:32,593 --> 00:17:35,512 Learn to know a lost cause when you see one, like me. 308 00:17:36,513 --> 00:17:37,431 Like Justin. 309 00:17:39,641 --> 00:17:41,143 [sighs] OK, Zach. 310 00:17:42,770 --> 00:17:45,439 Do you remember on the rooftop? The night I kissed you? 311 00:17:45,522 --> 00:17:48,442 -You kissed him? -It was a shit show. I'll explain later. 312 00:17:48,525 --> 00:17:50,527 -But you remember that night? -Yeah. 313 00:17:51,028 --> 00:17:54,156 [Alex] OK. That kiss was embarrassing. It was a disaster. 314 00:17:54,239 --> 00:17:55,532 But right before that, 315 00:17:56,158 --> 00:17:57,242 when I almost fell, 316 00:17:58,035 --> 00:17:59,912 you pulled me back from the ledge. 317 00:17:59,995 --> 00:18:03,165 And I'll never forget the feeling of your hands grabbing me 318 00:18:03,248 --> 00:18:04,500 and keeping me safe. 319 00:18:05,459 --> 00:18:07,294 I needed it. I didn't know it. 320 00:18:08,670 --> 00:18:09,922 And now you need it. 321 00:18:11,048 --> 00:18:12,049 [sighs] 322 00:18:12,758 --> 00:18:15,552 The kiss wasn't a disaster, it was a nice kiss, per se. 323 00:18:15,636 --> 00:18:17,638 -Wait, it was? -Yeah. Yeah. 324 00:18:17,721 --> 00:18:20,974 I don't love Justin, but I love you, and you love him. 325 00:18:21,350 --> 00:18:22,851 So what the fuck, Zach? 326 00:18:24,895 --> 00:18:27,147 ♪ If I showed up ♪ 327 00:18:28,941 --> 00:18:31,860 ♪ In the shape of a storm ♪ 328 00:18:37,491 --> 00:18:40,661 ♪ Would you recognize me? ♪ 329 00:18:43,372 --> 00:18:48,710 ♪ If I knew how I would make myself known... ♪ 330 00:18:55,926 --> 00:18:58,387 [Clay] I guess it's like high school, in its way. 331 00:18:59,763 --> 00:19:02,182 It seems like I was a freshman a decade ago. 332 00:19:02,266 --> 00:19:04,309 But then it seems like yesterday. 333 00:19:10,232 --> 00:19:12,151 I don't know where all that time went. 334 00:19:13,652 --> 00:19:15,195 I don't know what we do now. 335 00:19:19,700 --> 00:19:20,909 [Caleb] Here he is now. 336 00:19:20,993 --> 00:19:22,202 Who are you talking to? 337 00:19:22,286 --> 00:19:23,328 It's, uh... 338 00:19:24,121 --> 00:19:25,164 It's your dad. 339 00:19:29,543 --> 00:19:30,878 Antonio! [chuckles] 340 00:19:33,255 --> 00:19:34,464 How's your friend? 341 00:19:35,799 --> 00:19:37,217 He's not good, papá. 342 00:19:38,385 --> 00:19:40,304 [Arturo] You good to be there for him. 343 00:19:41,513 --> 00:19:42,806 You're a good friend. 344 00:19:44,725 --> 00:19:46,435 That's always important, m'hijo. 345 00:19:47,728 --> 00:19:49,396 I guess... I guess so, yeah. 346 00:19:49,813 --> 00:19:52,357 But you have to think about yourself sometimes. 347 00:19:53,275 --> 00:19:55,402 Caleb told me about the college offer. 348 00:19:56,695 --> 00:19:57,821 He did? 349 00:19:58,488 --> 00:19:59,573 [Arturo] Damn proud of you. 350 00:20:01,658 --> 00:20:02,784 It's time, m'hijo. 351 00:20:03,952 --> 00:20:07,247 It's time you sell the shop and get on with your life. 352 00:20:08,832 --> 00:20:10,542 We can't afford that, papá. 353 00:20:11,543 --> 00:20:12,753 We have work here. 354 00:20:13,420 --> 00:20:14,546 We're gonna be fine. 355 00:20:16,340 --> 00:20:18,175 The shop is your dream. 356 00:20:18,258 --> 00:20:19,426 [Arturo] Listen to me. 357 00:20:19,885 --> 00:20:20,886 That shop... 358 00:20:21,845 --> 00:20:23,388 was never my dream. 359 00:20:26,058 --> 00:20:27,017 You... 360 00:20:28,769 --> 00:20:30,812 You are my dream. 361 00:20:32,189 --> 00:20:33,607 Why do we do everything? 362 00:20:34,024 --> 00:20:36,485 So that you can have a better life than we did. 363 00:20:37,027 --> 00:20:38,820 This is your better life, m'hijo. 364 00:20:39,696 --> 00:20:41,240 Don't fuck up my dream. 365 00:20:45,118 --> 00:20:47,871 [Clay] Ancient history is somehow present tense. 366 00:20:47,955 --> 00:20:50,457 Everything is ending, but nothing is over. 367 00:20:51,416 --> 00:20:55,087 And none of us knows how to make sense of the jumble of things that happened. 368 00:20:59,883 --> 00:21:00,884 I win. 369 00:21:03,887 --> 00:21:05,847 Come on, why the silent treatment? 370 00:21:05,931 --> 00:21:08,100 I'm just here to pay my respects to Justy. 371 00:21:08,183 --> 00:21:09,434 You killed him. 372 00:21:13,021 --> 00:21:14,106 Yeah, I did. 373 00:21:16,942 --> 00:21:19,444 I don't rape Hannah, none of us are here, right? 374 00:21:20,404 --> 00:21:21,822 He doesn't run away. 375 00:21:22,781 --> 00:21:24,449 Doesn't start shooting up. 376 00:21:25,909 --> 00:21:27,286 Letting men fuck him. 377 00:21:27,369 --> 00:21:30,080 How can one person cause so much pain? 378 00:21:30,163 --> 00:21:31,373 Look in the mirror. 379 00:21:31,456 --> 00:21:33,834 -You let me die. -You deserved to die. 380 00:21:34,418 --> 00:21:35,419 Yeah, maybe. 381 00:21:37,421 --> 00:21:38,672 But here we are. 382 00:21:41,258 --> 00:21:42,634 You probably have it too. 383 00:21:44,720 --> 00:21:45,846 Fuck you. 384 00:21:46,471 --> 00:21:48,181 [snickers] Yeah. 385 00:21:48,640 --> 00:21:50,309 -I win. -[Clay] Jess. 386 00:21:53,562 --> 00:21:55,314 Um... he's up. 387 00:21:56,315 --> 00:21:57,691 If you wanna say hey. 388 00:21:58,108 --> 00:22:00,902 He can't say anything back, but he writes, so... 389 00:22:01,486 --> 00:22:03,071 -If... if you want to. -Yeah. 390 00:22:08,493 --> 00:22:11,830 ["Salesman at the Day of the Parade" by Rogue Wave plays] 391 00:22:22,466 --> 00:22:25,177 [Clay] You start to wonder if anything meant anything. 392 00:22:28,138 --> 00:22:30,057 If all we're doing is reacting, 393 00:22:32,976 --> 00:22:35,437 and the reactions don't even make any difference. 394 00:22:39,858 --> 00:22:41,026 I got into Brown. 395 00:22:41,485 --> 00:22:42,652 That crazy interview? 396 00:22:43,487 --> 00:22:44,571 Didn't even matter. 397 00:22:45,197 --> 00:22:48,533 So if nothing fucking matters, like, why bother? 398 00:22:53,080 --> 00:22:54,539 [Foundry] How's Justin doing? 399 00:22:57,667 --> 00:22:59,044 [Clay] He's not any better. 400 00:22:59,920 --> 00:23:01,129 [Foundry] I'm so sorry. 401 00:23:03,340 --> 00:23:06,843 I've lost, in my life, a number of friends... 402 00:23:07,386 --> 00:23:09,805 and one very good friend to that disease. 403 00:23:11,223 --> 00:23:12,265 I'm very sorry. 404 00:23:14,643 --> 00:23:15,477 Thank you. 405 00:23:16,686 --> 00:23:20,065 I'm sure you're not thinking about graduation right now, but... [sighs] 406 00:23:20,148 --> 00:23:23,652 it's my duty to tell you that you have been voted class speaker. 407 00:23:29,116 --> 00:23:29,950 What? 408 00:23:33,745 --> 00:23:34,663 Me? Uh... 409 00:23:35,622 --> 00:23:36,540 How? 410 00:23:37,040 --> 00:23:40,669 Apparently, your classmates think you have something relevant to say to them. 411 00:23:41,628 --> 00:23:45,048 I imagine it might have something to do with your sermon on the car 412 00:23:45,132 --> 00:23:46,883 at the disturbance a few weeks ago. 413 00:23:46,967 --> 00:23:48,218 That's, uh... 414 00:23:48,844 --> 00:23:51,096 [clicks tongue] That wasn't really me. 415 00:23:51,179 --> 00:23:54,433 [Foundry] Then reach out to whoever it was 'cause he's needed on stage June 22nd. 416 00:23:54,516 --> 00:23:56,476 I need to review his speech in advance, 417 00:23:56,560 --> 00:23:59,938 just to ensure it doesn't start any riots, that sorta thing. 418 00:24:00,021 --> 00:24:02,315 [inhales deeply] Congratulations, Clay. 419 00:24:10,240 --> 00:24:12,534 [Clay] It doesn't make any sense. I have nothing to say. 420 00:24:14,161 --> 00:24:16,121 Well, your classmates disagree. 421 00:24:17,372 --> 00:24:19,916 And as someone who's been talking to you for many weeks now, 422 00:24:20,000 --> 00:24:22,544 I think you have a great deal to say. 423 00:24:24,087 --> 00:24:25,297 Who's the signature? 424 00:24:25,380 --> 00:24:27,340 Ah, you probably haven't heard of him. 425 00:24:28,049 --> 00:24:29,176 Lindsey Buckingham. 426 00:24:30,635 --> 00:24:31,887 Fleetwood Mac. 427 00:24:31,970 --> 00:24:33,638 Although I prefer his solo stuff. 428 00:24:34,848 --> 00:24:35,849 I do too. 429 00:24:37,058 --> 00:24:38,351 You think I'm stalling? 430 00:24:38,435 --> 00:24:39,769 [Ellman] Are you stalling? 431 00:24:40,520 --> 00:24:42,522 What kind of bullshit speech can I give? 432 00:24:42,606 --> 00:24:45,901 I can't... I can't get up there and say, like, 433 00:24:46,318 --> 00:24:48,570 "Hope for the future! And the best days are ahead!" 434 00:24:48,653 --> 00:24:49,613 I mean, Jesus! 435 00:24:50,280 --> 00:24:53,241 Justin is lying there in that hospital. 436 00:24:53,325 --> 00:24:55,202 He's never coming out, he's dying, 437 00:24:55,285 --> 00:24:58,371 and I'm supposed to give some speech about the future? 438 00:24:59,122 --> 00:25:00,415 There is no future! 439 00:25:01,249 --> 00:25:05,587 It's hard to think about your own future when Justin's future is so uncertain. 440 00:25:06,546 --> 00:25:09,591 Oh, my God, if you continue on with that fucking calm tone, 441 00:25:09,674 --> 00:25:12,844 I'm gonna lose it. I'm gonna... I'm gonna fucking lose it! 442 00:25:13,303 --> 00:25:14,262 OK. 443 00:25:15,639 --> 00:25:17,599 Now you're just messing with me. [sighs] 444 00:25:17,682 --> 00:25:19,142 No, Clay. I'm not. 445 00:25:19,518 --> 00:25:21,770 Honest, I'm just saying that... 446 00:25:23,522 --> 00:25:24,606 it's OK... 447 00:25:25,273 --> 00:25:27,317 in here... with me... 448 00:25:28,401 --> 00:25:30,111 if you lose it a little bit. 449 00:25:32,572 --> 00:25:33,657 [breathes shakily] 450 00:25:34,950 --> 00:25:35,951 [scoffs] 451 00:25:42,374 --> 00:25:43,667 [sighs] 452 00:25:45,585 --> 00:25:46,503 [sniffles] 453 00:25:48,296 --> 00:25:49,464 [Clay sighs] 454 00:25:49,839 --> 00:25:51,174 Look, to give a speech, 455 00:25:52,717 --> 00:25:55,554 about anything, you have to make some kind of sense. 456 00:25:57,973 --> 00:25:59,307 And nothing makes sense. 457 00:26:01,893 --> 00:26:04,771 -[Clay] And all the pieces are just... -[door opens] 458 00:26:04,854 --> 00:26:06,565 ...scattered all over the floor. 459 00:26:07,357 --> 00:26:09,150 I ran to Monet's. I just... 460 00:26:09,859 --> 00:26:10,860 Hospital coffee. 461 00:26:10,944 --> 00:26:12,028 I couldn't anymore. 462 00:26:12,445 --> 00:26:13,572 Good call. 463 00:26:14,364 --> 00:26:15,407 [sighs] 464 00:26:21,788 --> 00:26:25,041 I keep thinking this'll get easier, and it just gets harder. 465 00:26:26,376 --> 00:26:27,502 Every day of this. 466 00:26:28,211 --> 00:26:31,381 Well, you don't want it to start to feel normal, do you? 467 00:26:32,674 --> 00:26:33,675 No. [chuckles] 468 00:26:35,885 --> 00:26:38,638 [Matt] I remember my grandfather dying when I was 14. 469 00:26:40,515 --> 00:26:42,017 My first experience of it. 470 00:26:44,019 --> 00:26:45,020 And you... 471 00:26:46,313 --> 00:26:48,982 You've looked at death too many times for a young person. 472 00:26:49,065 --> 00:26:50,692 Your generation, it's... 473 00:26:51,192 --> 00:26:52,193 it's not right. 474 00:26:55,447 --> 00:26:57,616 I'm sorry if I scared you the other night. 475 00:26:59,868 --> 00:27:01,745 I won't scare you ever again. 476 00:27:02,537 --> 00:27:03,747 Clay... [Matt chuckles] 477 00:27:04,539 --> 00:27:07,292 ...since the day your mom gave birth, and the doctor put you in my arms, 478 00:27:07,375 --> 00:27:08,543 I've been terrified. 479 00:27:09,377 --> 00:27:10,295 [chuckles] 480 00:27:13,006 --> 00:27:14,257 But we'll get through it. 481 00:27:15,050 --> 00:27:16,718 I keep telling myself that. 482 00:27:17,594 --> 00:27:19,596 [Matt] You know, high school, 483 00:27:20,096 --> 00:27:21,264 it's different today. 484 00:27:21,890 --> 00:27:23,475 But in many ways, not. 485 00:27:24,476 --> 00:27:27,103 High school has always been something to be survived. 486 00:27:28,229 --> 00:27:29,314 But it can be. 487 00:27:30,398 --> 00:27:31,608 I'm living proof. 488 00:27:35,320 --> 00:27:36,237 Yeah. 489 00:27:37,072 --> 00:27:38,990 [Matt] And there's joy too, right? 490 00:27:39,366 --> 00:27:40,575 I hope you've known joy. 491 00:27:43,119 --> 00:27:44,204 [chuckles lightly] 492 00:27:45,330 --> 00:27:46,706 Yeah, I have, Dad. 493 00:27:49,668 --> 00:27:51,044 [sighs heavily] 494 00:27:56,466 --> 00:27:57,759 [Clay] It's not just me. 495 00:27:59,469 --> 00:28:00,679 It's everyone I know. 496 00:28:04,057 --> 00:28:05,141 Hey! 497 00:28:05,225 --> 00:28:06,226 Welcome back. 498 00:28:06,309 --> 00:28:08,895 I'm here to do my service hours. They said you asked for me? 499 00:28:08,978 --> 00:28:10,438 I did. I did. Uh... 500 00:28:11,022 --> 00:28:13,191 You can help me clean out the equipment room 501 00:28:13,274 --> 00:28:14,943 and, uh, update the playbooks. 502 00:28:16,361 --> 00:28:17,779 And I wanna offer you a job. 503 00:28:18,446 --> 00:28:21,032 I heard you're sticking around town next year, 504 00:28:21,991 --> 00:28:24,035 and I want you to coach tight ends. 505 00:28:25,453 --> 00:28:26,329 Me? 506 00:28:27,831 --> 00:28:29,541 -A coach? -[Kerba] Yeah, for sure. 507 00:28:30,250 --> 00:28:31,418 You know the game. 508 00:28:31,876 --> 00:28:33,503 You know how to set an example. 509 00:28:33,920 --> 00:28:35,755 I... I don't know about that. 510 00:28:35,839 --> 00:28:38,633 [Kerba] Eh. I do. Summer coaches' meetings start 511 00:28:38,717 --> 00:28:40,093 day after graduation. 512 00:28:40,176 --> 00:28:41,636 I'ma need you sober, OK? 513 00:28:43,054 --> 00:28:44,472 Yeah, I mean... 514 00:28:45,807 --> 00:28:46,641 for sure. 515 00:28:47,058 --> 00:28:48,560 And I'll need you to graduate. 516 00:28:49,477 --> 00:28:50,687 Can you do that? 517 00:28:52,814 --> 00:28:54,816 Yeah. Yeah, I can do that. 518 00:28:55,650 --> 00:28:57,736 Figured out that it takes effort not to graduate. 519 00:28:57,819 --> 00:28:58,737 Yeah. 520 00:28:59,696 --> 00:29:02,157 All right, uh, let's get to work. 521 00:29:03,950 --> 00:29:06,077 Thank you... for the letter. 522 00:29:09,539 --> 00:29:11,958 I found it in my file in Foundry's office. 523 00:29:12,333 --> 00:29:13,334 I just, um... 524 00:29:13,418 --> 00:29:15,086 [Zach unfolds paper] 525 00:29:15,962 --> 00:29:18,173 "Let me tell you about the Zach Dempsey I know. 526 00:29:18,548 --> 00:29:21,468 One of the finest young men I've had the opportunity to coach. 527 00:29:22,594 --> 00:29:24,179 Zach led our team... 528 00:29:25,096 --> 00:29:27,515 with fortitude and empathy on and off the field." 529 00:29:28,057 --> 00:29:29,058 Yeah. 530 00:29:29,684 --> 00:29:32,061 You know, Foundry asked me why you'd steal that. 531 00:29:32,562 --> 00:29:33,855 Told him I didn't know why. 532 00:29:33,938 --> 00:29:36,149 Because I can't live up to this. 533 00:29:37,192 --> 00:29:40,779 -Everything that you've said. -Of course you can. You already have. 534 00:29:58,671 --> 00:30:00,924 [Clay] I don't know anyone who can turn what's happened 535 00:30:01,007 --> 00:30:02,509 into a neat little story. 536 00:30:06,221 --> 00:30:08,723 [doctor] The brain infection is advancing quickly. 537 00:30:09,808 --> 00:30:13,770 And I'm afraid it might be a good time to take Justin off the ventilator, 538 00:30:14,187 --> 00:30:17,232 at least for a few hours, so he can speak to you, 539 00:30:17,982 --> 00:30:19,025 and you to him. 540 00:30:22,779 --> 00:30:23,863 You... You mean... 541 00:30:23,947 --> 00:30:25,240 [Lainie sobs quietly] 542 00:30:26,241 --> 00:30:27,200 Yeah. 543 00:30:30,537 --> 00:30:32,747 [doctor] As I understand it, Mr. Jensen, 544 00:30:32,831 --> 00:30:35,708 uh, Justin has made you the medical POA, 545 00:30:35,792 --> 00:30:39,963 and he signed a living will with a DNR order. 546 00:30:40,046 --> 00:30:40,880 Yes. 547 00:30:42,257 --> 00:30:44,759 [doctor] The palliative care doctor visited Justin, 548 00:30:44,843 --> 00:30:48,388 and Justin participated in a discussion about his priorities 549 00:30:48,471 --> 00:30:50,473 by writing down his wishes. 550 00:30:50,557 --> 00:30:52,684 ["Half Gate" by Grizzly Bear plays] 551 00:30:52,767 --> 00:30:54,769 [doctor] He would like to be 552 00:30:54,853 --> 00:30:56,604 as comfortable as possible... 553 00:30:56,688 --> 00:31:01,526 ♪ I have nothing left to hear ♪ 554 00:31:04,904 --> 00:31:09,033 ♪ I'm chasing all the words ♪ 555 00:31:10,451 --> 00:31:16,499 ♪ But everything you say I only see ♪ 556 00:31:19,085 --> 00:31:22,463 ♪ But honestly it's fine ♪ 557 00:31:24,716 --> 00:31:31,472 ♪ When I mention how I love you... ♪ 558 00:31:35,810 --> 00:31:36,644 Hi! 559 00:31:39,606 --> 00:31:41,024 Hey. [labored breathing] 560 00:31:50,450 --> 00:31:51,409 [Justin] Jess. 561 00:31:53,828 --> 00:31:54,913 Don't cry. 562 00:31:58,291 --> 00:32:00,126 I'm so sorry. I'm so... 563 00:32:01,961 --> 00:32:03,838 I thought I could be strong. I... 564 00:32:08,468 --> 00:32:09,552 Come here. 565 00:32:12,096 --> 00:32:13,097 Come here. 566 00:32:15,224 --> 00:32:16,851 [Justin breathes wheezily] 567 00:32:20,980 --> 00:32:22,357 [Jess sobs quietly] 568 00:32:26,110 --> 00:32:27,028 [Justin] You're... 569 00:32:27,987 --> 00:32:29,155 so strong. 570 00:32:31,532 --> 00:32:33,409 -[labored breathing] -[sobbing] 571 00:32:34,535 --> 00:32:36,996 You're the best thing that ever happened to me. 572 00:32:40,959 --> 00:32:42,001 [gasping] You're... 573 00:32:42,961 --> 00:32:44,379 out of your mind. 574 00:32:47,924 --> 00:32:49,801 I ruined your fucking life. 575 00:32:52,428 --> 00:32:53,388 No. 576 00:32:54,013 --> 00:32:54,889 No. 577 00:32:57,392 --> 00:32:59,310 You taught me what love is. 578 00:33:07,944 --> 00:33:09,404 -Yeah? -Yeah. 579 00:33:11,155 --> 00:33:12,699 -Yeah? -[chuckles] Yes. 580 00:33:12,782 --> 00:33:15,118 [both laugh] 581 00:33:15,827 --> 00:33:17,495 [laughter turns into sobbing] 582 00:33:17,954 --> 00:33:19,288 [Justin exhales slowly] 583 00:33:20,748 --> 00:33:21,666 OK. 584 00:33:23,001 --> 00:33:24,002 [Jess sniffles] 585 00:33:25,795 --> 00:33:27,130 You always have that. 586 00:33:28,006 --> 00:33:29,215 [Jess whimpers, sobs] 587 00:33:29,298 --> 00:33:30,717 -OK? -OK. 588 00:33:31,092 --> 00:33:32,760 -OK, Jess? -[sobbing] OK. 589 00:33:35,304 --> 00:33:36,180 [sniffles] 590 00:33:36,764 --> 00:33:38,766 -[Justin exhales slowly] -[sniffles] 591 00:33:39,267 --> 00:33:40,518 [Jess whimpers] 592 00:33:40,601 --> 00:33:42,770 ["Half Gate" by Grizzly Bear plays] 593 00:33:45,148 --> 00:33:48,818 ♪ At the end of the line ♪ 594 00:33:51,070 --> 00:33:56,534 ♪ It's as if there's no time at all ♪ 595 00:33:59,370 --> 00:34:03,416 ♪ Nothing left to win ♪ 596 00:34:05,043 --> 00:34:10,757 ♪ Every pleasure burned to the wick ♪ 597 00:34:13,634 --> 00:34:17,055 ♪ Content to be alone ♪ 598 00:34:19,265 --> 00:34:22,852 ♪ A quiet picture drawn ♪ 599 00:34:22,935 --> 00:34:27,607 ♪ Each day before it ends... ♪ 600 00:34:28,649 --> 00:34:30,526 [labored breathing] 601 00:34:40,411 --> 00:34:41,287 Um... 602 00:34:45,041 --> 00:34:47,794 Zach's going to coach at Liberty next year. 603 00:34:48,461 --> 00:34:49,670 Kerba asked him. 604 00:34:52,465 --> 00:34:53,549 That's awesome. 605 00:35:01,265 --> 00:35:04,143 I'm... I'm so sorry, Justin. I don't know how to do this. 606 00:35:04,227 --> 00:35:05,853 [Justin breathes shakily] 607 00:35:05,937 --> 00:35:06,771 Hey. 608 00:35:09,148 --> 00:35:10,441 [chuckles] 609 00:35:12,985 --> 00:35:14,070 You're doing... 610 00:35:14,821 --> 00:35:16,447 You're doing it great. [coughs] 611 00:35:24,247 --> 00:35:25,623 [labored breathing] 612 00:35:33,047 --> 00:35:35,091 Thank you for saving my life. 613 00:35:38,427 --> 00:35:40,054 Like, more times than you know. 614 00:35:44,267 --> 00:35:45,268 [sighs sadly] 615 00:35:47,353 --> 00:35:48,396 I love you. 616 00:35:50,273 --> 00:35:52,817 [labored breathing] 617 00:35:56,404 --> 00:35:57,280 I love... 618 00:35:58,239 --> 00:35:59,782 [groans] I love... 619 00:36:00,533 --> 00:36:01,576 love you... 620 00:36:02,451 --> 00:36:03,911 you too, man. [chuckles] 621 00:36:08,332 --> 00:36:09,917 [gasping breaths] 622 00:36:12,378 --> 00:36:14,046 [sniffles] I'm sorry. 623 00:36:14,714 --> 00:36:15,923 [sniffles] Um... 624 00:36:21,429 --> 00:36:22,555 [sniffles, sighs] 625 00:36:23,431 --> 00:36:24,599 Are you afraid? 626 00:36:28,769 --> 00:36:29,687 Yeah. 627 00:36:34,192 --> 00:36:35,193 I am. 628 00:36:39,113 --> 00:36:40,281 [coughs] 629 00:36:40,823 --> 00:36:42,241 [sobs] 630 00:36:45,244 --> 00:36:46,913 [sniffles, breathes shakily] 631 00:36:52,460 --> 00:36:53,628 Will you hold... 632 00:36:54,003 --> 00:36:55,338 Will you hold my hand... 633 00:36:56,047 --> 00:36:56,923 bro? 634 00:36:57,006 --> 00:36:58,758 [both chuckle, sob] 635 00:36:58,841 --> 00:36:59,675 Yeah. 636 00:37:03,679 --> 00:37:07,225 ["Washing of the Water" plays] ♪ River, river, carry me on ♪ 637 00:37:07,725 --> 00:37:10,978 ♪ Living river, carry me on ♪ 638 00:37:11,646 --> 00:37:14,857 ♪ River, river, carry me on ♪ 639 00:37:15,441 --> 00:37:18,444 ♪ To the place where I come from ♪ 640 00:37:19,237 --> 00:37:22,031 ♪ So deep ♪ 641 00:37:22,657 --> 00:37:24,867 ♪ So wide ♪ 642 00:37:26,285 --> 00:37:29,830 ♪ Will you take me on your back ♪ 643 00:37:30,414 --> 00:37:32,500 ♪ For a ride? ♪ 644 00:37:35,002 --> 00:37:39,590 ♪ If I should fall ♪ 645 00:37:41,884 --> 00:37:47,598 ♪ Would you swallow me deep inside? ♪ 646 00:37:50,643 --> 00:37:55,523 ♪ River, show me how to float ♪ 647 00:37:58,276 --> 00:38:03,447 ♪ I feel like I'm sinking down ♪ 648 00:38:06,325 --> 00:38:12,999 ♪ Thought that I could get along ♪ 649 00:38:13,874 --> 00:38:17,211 ♪ But here in this water ♪ 650 00:38:17,795 --> 00:38:21,048 ♪ My feet won't touch the ground ♪ 651 00:38:22,049 --> 00:38:25,052 ♪ I need something ♪ 652 00:38:25,761 --> 00:38:28,597 ♪ To turn myself around... ♪ 653 00:38:32,810 --> 00:38:36,814 [machine beeps frantically, flatlines] 654 00:38:39,025 --> 00:38:45,531 ♪ ...Away toward the sea ♪ 655 00:38:47,283 --> 00:38:52,163 -♪ River deep ♪ -[door opens] 656 00:38:54,123 --> 00:38:58,794 ♪ Can you lift up and carry me? ♪ 657 00:38:58,878 --> 00:39:00,129 [beeping stops] 658 00:39:01,672 --> 00:39:02,798 [Lainie sobs] 659 00:39:04,091 --> 00:39:08,054 -♪ Oh roll on through the heartland ♪ -[Lainie sniffles] 660 00:39:09,722 --> 00:39:16,687 ♪ Till the sun has left the sky ♪ 661 00:39:18,481 --> 00:39:21,400 ♪ River, oh, river ♪ 662 00:39:22,401 --> 00:39:24,695 ♪ River running deep ♪ 663 00:39:26,197 --> 00:39:28,949 ♪ Bring me something ♪ 664 00:39:29,033 --> 00:39:29,867 [kisses] 665 00:39:29,950 --> 00:39:32,411 ♪ That will let me get to sleep ♪ 666 00:39:32,495 --> 00:39:33,913 [sobs quietly] 667 00:39:33,996 --> 00:39:36,791 ♪ In the washing of the water ♪ 668 00:39:37,708 --> 00:39:40,711 ♪ Will you take it all away? ♪ 669 00:39:42,338 --> 00:39:45,508 ♪ Bring me something ♪ 670 00:39:46,425 --> 00:39:50,513 ♪ To take this pain away ♪ 671 00:39:56,852 --> 00:39:58,062 [Clay] After all that, 672 00:39:58,729 --> 00:40:00,731 after... everything, 673 00:40:01,816 --> 00:40:03,025 this is how it ends. 674 00:40:22,711 --> 00:40:25,965 My mom asked me if I wanted to say something at Justin's funeral. 675 00:40:26,966 --> 00:40:30,553 I wanted to, for him, but I couldn't. 676 00:40:31,429 --> 00:40:32,513 What could I say? 677 00:40:32,972 --> 00:40:34,098 Running theme, huh? 678 00:40:51,282 --> 00:40:52,283 [Tony sighs] 679 00:40:58,873 --> 00:41:00,291 [groans, inhales sharply] 680 00:41:00,374 --> 00:41:02,710 I wish there was something I could say or do. 681 00:41:03,794 --> 00:41:05,004 [sighs] 682 00:41:06,338 --> 00:41:07,256 Yeah. 683 00:41:07,798 --> 00:41:08,841 What is there? 684 00:41:10,843 --> 00:41:12,636 Thank you for wanting to, though. 685 00:41:15,055 --> 00:41:16,724 You always make things better. 686 00:41:17,099 --> 00:41:18,017 [scoffs] 687 00:41:18,434 --> 00:41:20,519 I just show up, man. That's all I do. 688 00:41:21,479 --> 00:41:22,396 Always. 689 00:41:24,899 --> 00:41:26,317 More than I have for you. 690 00:41:28,402 --> 00:41:29,361 No. 691 00:41:30,779 --> 00:41:32,531 No, we show up for each other. 692 00:41:34,700 --> 00:41:36,076 [sighs] 693 00:41:41,624 --> 00:41:43,709 No one gets through this life alone, man. 694 00:41:46,837 --> 00:41:47,755 No. 695 00:41:51,550 --> 00:41:54,094 [inhales deeply, exhales] 696 00:42:07,149 --> 00:42:08,526 [inaudible] 697 00:42:10,277 --> 00:42:11,779 What's he doing here? 698 00:42:11,862 --> 00:42:12,863 I don't know. 699 00:42:14,532 --> 00:42:16,283 I hope he's showing his respects. 700 00:42:19,495 --> 00:42:21,455 [breathes shakily] I don't know if I can do this. 701 00:42:21,539 --> 00:42:23,874 OK, we'll just take it slow. We don't have to sit up front. 702 00:42:23,958 --> 00:42:24,792 No. 703 00:42:26,085 --> 00:42:27,127 No, I don't... 704 00:42:28,754 --> 00:42:32,091 I don't know if I can do any of this anymore. 705 00:42:33,092 --> 00:42:34,593 We're all supposed to just... 706 00:42:35,553 --> 00:42:38,556 keep waking up and putting on our clothes 707 00:42:38,639 --> 00:42:42,309 and carrying on conversations and listening to people 708 00:42:42,393 --> 00:42:44,853 while they talk about how God works in mysterious ways, 709 00:42:44,937 --> 00:42:48,148 and I just don't fucking know if I can do it anymore! 710 00:42:48,232 --> 00:42:51,068 -OK, I think this is the hardest thing... -[sniffles] 711 00:42:51,652 --> 00:42:53,904 ...that anyone could ever go through. 712 00:42:55,197 --> 00:42:58,492 But I also think you are a lot stronger than you realize. 713 00:42:58,909 --> 00:43:00,494 -He made me strong. -No! 714 00:43:00,578 --> 00:43:01,829 You are. 715 00:43:02,788 --> 00:43:04,039 All on your own. 716 00:43:04,790 --> 00:43:07,543 Maybe you made each other stronger, but it's in you. 717 00:43:08,127 --> 00:43:09,211 I've seen it. 718 00:43:10,796 --> 00:43:11,755 [chuckles sadly] 719 00:43:13,173 --> 00:43:14,174 OK. 720 00:43:14,258 --> 00:43:16,760 [inhales shakily, exhales deeply] 721 00:43:19,013 --> 00:43:20,681 [pastor] How did we get here? 722 00:43:20,764 --> 00:43:21,724 Again? 723 00:43:22,975 --> 00:43:24,518 We made a cruel world. 724 00:43:25,352 --> 00:43:28,230 My generation, my parents' generation. 725 00:43:30,024 --> 00:43:31,358 Too little caring. 726 00:43:32,109 --> 00:43:33,861 Too much hate, 727 00:43:33,944 --> 00:43:35,321 anger, and hurt. 728 00:43:36,989 --> 00:43:39,825 We talk a good game about protecting our children, 729 00:43:39,908 --> 00:43:44,038 but we leave too much on the table that might surely save their lives. 730 00:43:45,289 --> 00:43:48,250 Justin Foley died of a disease 731 00:43:48,334 --> 00:43:50,586 that, from its inception, 732 00:43:50,669 --> 00:43:52,880 thrives in silence. 733 00:43:53,797 --> 00:43:56,383 And there are a number of such diseases, 734 00:43:56,467 --> 00:44:01,764 a number of ills that thrive when we are silent about them. 735 00:44:02,765 --> 00:44:05,976 Because we let our fears, our shame, 736 00:44:06,060 --> 00:44:10,439 our twisted moral codes keep us in silence, 737 00:44:10,522 --> 00:44:13,484 as death stalks more children. 738 00:44:13,567 --> 00:44:15,611 I say, enough. 739 00:44:18,280 --> 00:44:19,907 Enough shifting blame. 740 00:44:20,616 --> 00:44:22,201 Enough pointing fingers. 741 00:44:22,743 --> 00:44:26,163 Enough confusing those who report the damage 742 00:44:26,246 --> 00:44:28,290 with those who cause it. 743 00:44:29,875 --> 00:44:33,212 Let us remember Justin for his accomplishments 744 00:44:33,295 --> 00:44:35,798 on the football field and the basketball court. 745 00:44:36,799 --> 00:44:39,176 Let us remember his smile 746 00:44:39,718 --> 00:44:43,013 that I am told melted a hundred hearts. 747 00:44:44,056 --> 00:44:46,600 But let's also remember his death 748 00:44:47,309 --> 00:44:49,645 with sorrow and determination 749 00:44:50,312 --> 00:44:51,814 that spur us... 750 00:44:52,481 --> 00:44:53,565 to action. 751 00:44:56,110 --> 00:44:57,027 Amen. 752 00:45:04,910 --> 00:45:06,036 Um... 753 00:45:07,287 --> 00:45:08,414 I... 754 00:45:10,040 --> 00:45:12,209 I'm not sure I can do this. Uh... 755 00:45:14,002 --> 00:45:14,962 [sighs] 756 00:45:15,421 --> 00:45:16,255 Um... 757 00:45:17,840 --> 00:45:18,674 Uh... 758 00:45:19,341 --> 00:45:20,300 I believe... 759 00:45:20,843 --> 00:45:21,927 [stammering] I believe... 760 00:45:23,971 --> 00:45:27,641 I believe Justin Foley helped save my life. 761 00:45:29,435 --> 00:45:30,644 I didn't like him. 762 00:45:32,146 --> 00:45:33,564 And he didn't like me. 763 00:45:34,148 --> 00:45:35,023 But... 764 00:45:36,150 --> 00:45:37,776 when I needed him, 765 00:45:39,653 --> 00:45:40,738 he helped me. 766 00:45:43,824 --> 00:45:44,658 Um... 767 00:45:45,117 --> 00:45:46,660 Sorry, I'm... [voice catches] 768 00:45:48,662 --> 00:45:49,663 Go. Go get him. 769 00:45:54,001 --> 00:45:55,794 [Clay] Alex tried to say something... 770 00:45:55,878 --> 00:45:57,671 -[Bill] You all right? -Yeah. 771 00:45:57,755 --> 00:45:58,964 OK, let's go sit down. 772 00:45:59,047 --> 00:46:00,674 [Clay] ...as much as he could. 773 00:46:03,552 --> 00:46:06,013 But there's so much none of us could ever say. 774 00:46:09,433 --> 00:46:10,851 Last time I was up here, 775 00:46:12,478 --> 00:46:14,188 I said I was my brother's keeper. 776 00:46:15,397 --> 00:46:16,482 That we all are. 777 00:46:18,317 --> 00:46:20,194 Even though I didn't live up to that. 778 00:46:25,574 --> 00:46:26,867 Justin hated running. 779 00:46:29,661 --> 00:46:32,414 Coach Kerba would make him do a mile, and he would bitch 780 00:46:32,498 --> 00:46:33,957 -and complain... -[chuckles] 781 00:46:34,041 --> 00:46:35,000 ...the whole time. 782 00:46:36,335 --> 00:46:39,588 Coach Kerba would tell him that pain 783 00:46:39,963 --> 00:46:42,424 is the feeling of weakness leaving the body. 784 00:46:46,136 --> 00:46:48,430 But we're all weak, I think. 785 00:46:50,599 --> 00:46:52,226 But we're trying to be stronger. 786 00:46:53,143 --> 00:46:55,771 And the pain that we are feeling today... 787 00:46:57,481 --> 00:46:59,399 is to remind us every day... 788 00:47:02,444 --> 00:47:03,445 to do better. 789 00:47:05,322 --> 00:47:06,406 To be better. 790 00:47:11,954 --> 00:47:16,041 -[Zach] A few of us are going to Monet's. -[Jess] I'm gonna head home, I think. 791 00:47:16,124 --> 00:47:17,334 I'm with my folks. 792 00:47:19,503 --> 00:47:21,004 [mournful music plays] 793 00:47:50,033 --> 00:47:52,578 [Clay] After the funeral, I couldn't move. 794 00:47:53,662 --> 00:47:54,830 Couldn't even stand. 795 00:47:55,330 --> 00:47:56,290 Stuck. 796 00:47:58,250 --> 00:47:59,626 This is my life now. 797 00:48:03,839 --> 00:48:06,717 [footsteps approaching] 798 00:48:09,636 --> 00:48:11,638 [mournful music continues] 799 00:48:38,540 --> 00:48:39,750 [Jess breathes shakily] 800 00:49:04,942 --> 00:49:05,984 Um... Can I... 801 00:49:06,944 --> 00:49:08,654 I just wanted to say... 802 00:49:10,113 --> 00:49:12,032 I think you saved my life too. 803 00:49:13,075 --> 00:49:14,284 More than anyone. 804 00:49:15,285 --> 00:49:16,411 So, thank you. 805 00:49:17,412 --> 00:49:19,623 And I was mean to you when you got back. 806 00:49:19,706 --> 00:49:22,542 I didn't even think about everything you were going through. 807 00:49:23,251 --> 00:49:24,586 But anyway, I'm... 808 00:49:25,337 --> 00:49:26,380 I'm sorry. 809 00:49:26,880 --> 00:49:27,923 And thank you. 810 00:49:31,760 --> 00:49:32,761 Alex. 811 00:49:35,222 --> 00:49:36,223 I'm just... 812 00:49:37,140 --> 00:49:39,434 I'm just really happy to be alive right now. 813 00:49:44,272 --> 00:49:45,190 [Ani] Yeah. 814 00:49:46,274 --> 00:49:47,275 Me too. 815 00:49:54,282 --> 00:49:55,742 [door opens, bell rings] 816 00:50:03,333 --> 00:50:04,292 Can we... 817 00:50:06,503 --> 00:50:07,629 Can we talk? 818 00:50:09,172 --> 00:50:10,048 Yeah. 819 00:50:12,759 --> 00:50:15,012 [Clay] And what if the past follows us everywhere? 820 00:50:18,140 --> 00:50:19,891 What if we can never get away from it? 821 00:50:38,535 --> 00:50:39,661 Can I ask you, 822 00:50:41,246 --> 00:50:42,247 why'd you do it? 823 00:50:47,294 --> 00:50:48,670 Yeah. OK. 824 00:50:51,214 --> 00:50:54,843 Zach had hurt him pretty bad, he'd broken his leg, his arm. 825 00:50:55,218 --> 00:50:58,138 He begged me to help him up, so I did. 826 00:50:59,097 --> 00:51:02,559 And then he started on about how he was gonna ruin Zach's life, 827 00:51:03,101 --> 00:51:04,436 which he already had done. 828 00:51:05,854 --> 00:51:08,065 And he was just spewing all this shit. 829 00:51:08,690 --> 00:51:10,108 And I saw this... 830 00:51:11,068 --> 00:51:12,069 anger. 831 00:51:14,780 --> 00:51:17,240 I didn't see any soul or anything. 832 00:51:17,324 --> 00:51:18,325 I just didn't. 833 00:51:19,034 --> 00:51:24,873 And then I realized that he had ruined everyone I ever loved. 834 00:51:26,374 --> 00:51:27,709 And I got this... 835 00:51:30,212 --> 00:51:32,881 this flash of rage. 836 00:51:33,965 --> 00:51:38,386 Ever since my TBI, I get these flares, like, I go red. 837 00:51:39,638 --> 00:51:41,681 And then I pushed him off the dock. 838 00:51:49,481 --> 00:51:50,774 [Winston inhales sharply] 839 00:51:53,151 --> 00:51:54,486 Are you sorry you did it? 840 00:51:57,114 --> 00:51:58,949 More than I can ever say. 841 00:52:01,868 --> 00:52:03,328 Was Jessica with you? 842 00:52:04,538 --> 00:52:05,872 [tense music plays] 843 00:52:12,379 --> 00:52:14,131 [chuckles lightly] 844 00:52:19,719 --> 00:52:21,805 [sighs] Did you ever really like me? 845 00:52:25,058 --> 00:52:27,060 Yeah. Yes. 846 00:52:29,229 --> 00:52:31,606 You opened up a new world for me. 847 00:52:32,816 --> 00:52:35,569 You helped me figure out stuff about myself. 848 00:52:35,652 --> 00:52:37,154 I loved being with you. 849 00:52:39,281 --> 00:52:40,574 [sighs] 850 00:52:42,284 --> 00:52:43,368 Yeah, me too. 851 00:52:46,705 --> 00:52:47,831 [Winston inhales shakily] 852 00:52:54,462 --> 00:52:55,755 [sighs heavily] 853 00:53:00,135 --> 00:53:01,553 I'm not gonna do anything. 854 00:53:05,265 --> 00:53:06,558 I thought I was... 855 00:53:08,643 --> 00:53:09,644 because... 856 00:53:09,728 --> 00:53:11,021 [inhales, exhales deeply] 857 00:53:11,771 --> 00:53:13,231 ...because I loved Monty. 858 00:53:14,816 --> 00:53:16,109 I knew him somehow. 859 00:53:16,526 --> 00:53:17,569 I swear I did. 860 00:53:22,657 --> 00:53:23,909 But I loved you too. 861 00:53:26,661 --> 00:53:28,246 And I am trying not to... 862 00:53:29,623 --> 00:53:31,124 but I still fucking do. 863 00:53:35,712 --> 00:53:36,713 OK. 864 00:53:38,256 --> 00:53:39,257 Thank you. 865 00:53:41,760 --> 00:53:42,928 Can I hug you? 866 00:53:52,229 --> 00:53:53,438 [Winston sniffles] 867 00:54:23,843 --> 00:54:24,678 All right. 868 00:54:25,053 --> 00:54:29,099 It's done. The sales papers are drawn up. All it needs is a buyer's signature. 869 00:54:29,182 --> 00:54:30,976 Tony, that's great. 870 00:54:31,810 --> 00:54:33,103 -Right? -I don't know! 871 00:54:33,186 --> 00:54:35,480 I... I... I don't know if it's great! 872 00:54:35,563 --> 00:54:37,107 I don't know what to think! 873 00:54:37,190 --> 00:54:38,024 Fuck! 874 00:54:38,108 --> 00:54:41,069 Second thoughts are natural, but this is a solid plan, Tony. 875 00:54:41,152 --> 00:54:42,237 This is safe. 876 00:54:42,320 --> 00:54:45,657 No plan in this fucking world is safe, Caleb. 877 00:54:45,740 --> 00:54:47,784 Safe is not a word I believe in anymore. 878 00:54:47,867 --> 00:54:50,328 [Caleb] OK. OK. But the garage is protected. 879 00:54:50,412 --> 00:54:52,914 This gives you a chance to... to have a life. 880 00:54:53,623 --> 00:54:55,000 What if I like this life? 881 00:54:55,083 --> 00:54:57,294 What if I like this right now? 882 00:54:57,377 --> 00:54:58,628 The garage is protected. 883 00:54:58,712 --> 00:55:01,089 I mean, the buyer doesn't know shit about fixing cars, 884 00:55:01,172 --> 00:55:02,799 but Javi's ready to manage the place. 885 00:55:02,882 --> 00:55:03,883 He does already. 886 00:55:03,967 --> 00:55:06,720 What if one of the businesses takes a dive? 887 00:55:07,053 --> 00:55:09,139 What if it's too much for one person to handle? 888 00:55:09,222 --> 00:55:11,891 Tony, I've lived with you for more than a year. 889 00:55:11,975 --> 00:55:13,810 Nothing's too much for me to handle. 890 00:55:14,686 --> 00:55:15,603 Here. 891 00:55:19,232 --> 00:55:20,775 -Javi and I... -[groans] 892 00:55:22,610 --> 00:55:23,945 ...will take good care. 893 00:55:24,696 --> 00:55:27,073 What if I'm not good enough to stay on the team? 894 00:55:27,157 --> 00:55:29,492 What if I flunk out? I'm no good at school! 895 00:55:29,576 --> 00:55:31,453 You're good at anything you wanna be good at. 896 00:55:31,536 --> 00:55:33,455 Oh, my God. This is so easy for you. 897 00:55:33,538 --> 00:55:36,166 -Why is this so fucking easy for you? -It's not easy! 898 00:55:36,249 --> 00:55:37,625 This is fucking killing me. 899 00:55:38,418 --> 00:55:41,421 But this gives you a chance to live a whole life. 900 00:55:41,504 --> 00:55:43,298 [inhales deeply, exhales] 901 00:55:43,381 --> 00:55:44,924 [shakily] What if I can't do it? 902 00:55:48,303 --> 00:55:50,055 I don't know. What if I'm lonely? 903 00:55:50,722 --> 00:55:52,766 Well, I'm eight hours away by car. 904 00:55:53,725 --> 00:55:55,602 Seven the way that you drive. 905 00:55:55,685 --> 00:55:57,187 [both chuckle] 906 00:55:57,270 --> 00:55:58,730 -[Tony sniffles] -Here. 907 00:56:03,193 --> 00:56:04,736 Oh, fuck. 908 00:56:09,115 --> 00:56:10,158 I'm scared. 909 00:56:11,368 --> 00:56:12,369 I know. 910 00:56:14,037 --> 00:56:15,163 And that's OK. 911 00:56:18,083 --> 00:56:19,209 -OK. -Yeah. 912 00:56:19,626 --> 00:56:20,794 Come here. 913 00:56:20,877 --> 00:56:21,836 It's OK. 914 00:56:26,049 --> 00:56:27,759 -It's OK, Tony. -No. 915 00:56:27,842 --> 00:56:29,803 It's OK to be scared. I'm scared too. 916 00:56:30,553 --> 00:56:33,223 [Clay] What if what's ahead of us is even more terrifying 917 00:56:33,306 --> 00:56:34,849 than what we've been through? 918 00:56:34,933 --> 00:56:35,934 OK. 919 00:56:36,393 --> 00:56:37,811 [breathes deeply] 920 00:56:37,894 --> 00:56:39,270 [keyboard clattering] 921 00:56:44,984 --> 00:56:45,860 You good? 922 00:56:46,277 --> 00:56:49,948 Yeah. I'm good. I'm just finishing up these patrol reports. 923 00:56:50,490 --> 00:56:51,699 [Diaz] I was thinkin'. 924 00:56:52,659 --> 00:56:56,037 I always say that this job is everything to me. 925 00:56:57,205 --> 00:56:58,498 I don't come from much. 926 00:56:59,290 --> 00:57:00,625 I know you don't either. 927 00:57:00,708 --> 00:57:04,754 No, sir. My two boys are the first in my family to go to college. 928 00:57:05,213 --> 00:57:06,464 [Diaz] Same with my kids. 929 00:57:07,424 --> 00:57:10,093 And I say this job is everything, but it's not true. 930 00:57:11,052 --> 00:57:14,556 I live my life for family, for God, for country. 931 00:57:15,014 --> 00:57:16,015 In that order. 932 00:57:16,349 --> 00:57:18,601 And a father's love is a, uh... 933 00:57:19,644 --> 00:57:21,604 fierce and complicated thing. 934 00:57:22,021 --> 00:57:24,399 As I'm sure my daughter Valerie would tell you. 935 00:57:25,567 --> 00:57:26,568 But family... 936 00:57:28,903 --> 00:57:30,071 Family comes first. 937 00:57:31,072 --> 00:57:32,073 Wouldn't you agree? 938 00:57:33,241 --> 00:57:34,242 I do. 939 00:57:35,618 --> 00:57:36,453 Hmm. 940 00:57:37,912 --> 00:57:38,913 [inhales slowly] 941 00:57:38,997 --> 00:57:40,832 The Bryce Walker files, um... 942 00:57:41,583 --> 00:57:43,626 they're going down to permanent storage. 943 00:57:46,671 --> 00:57:48,548 That case is closed for good. 944 00:57:54,804 --> 00:57:55,889 Understood. 945 00:58:00,852 --> 00:58:02,145 Don't work too late, Bill. 946 00:58:05,315 --> 00:58:06,357 [Bill] Hey, Sheriff. 947 00:58:09,569 --> 00:58:10,570 Thank you. 948 00:58:16,910 --> 00:58:17,911 [relieved sigh] 949 00:58:19,370 --> 00:58:20,371 [door closes] 950 00:58:24,209 --> 00:58:26,294 [Clay] How do we get on with our lives? 951 00:58:31,716 --> 00:58:32,759 Hey. 952 00:58:33,760 --> 00:58:35,345 You waited for me. 953 00:58:35,845 --> 00:58:37,305 Of course I waited for you. 954 00:58:39,557 --> 00:58:41,434 Um... Negative. 955 00:58:42,602 --> 00:58:43,520 Good. 956 00:58:44,062 --> 00:58:45,188 Yeah, me too. 957 00:58:46,523 --> 00:58:50,235 Um, thanks for telling me, and coming with me. 958 00:58:50,610 --> 00:58:51,569 Of course. 959 00:58:52,320 --> 00:58:53,446 I wasn't worried. 960 00:58:53,863 --> 00:58:57,784 He'd never do it without protection. He was pretty hardcore on that. 961 00:59:00,245 --> 00:59:02,455 They, uh... They tell you about PrEP? 962 00:59:03,623 --> 00:59:05,375 That seems like a good thing. 963 00:59:05,458 --> 00:59:06,417 Yeah. 964 00:59:06,793 --> 00:59:09,754 Though I don't plan on having sex again, ever, so... 965 00:59:12,423 --> 00:59:13,758 Look, I'm sorry... 966 00:59:15,134 --> 00:59:16,427 about Justin. I... 967 00:59:17,887 --> 00:59:19,597 I know how much you loved him. 968 00:59:21,683 --> 00:59:23,017 How would you know that? 969 00:59:24,561 --> 00:59:25,562 I... 970 00:59:25,645 --> 00:59:27,397 I saw you dance together. 971 00:59:33,111 --> 00:59:33,945 And... 972 00:59:34,696 --> 00:59:35,822 a guy can tell... 973 00:59:36,698 --> 00:59:38,575 when a girl's heart is spoken for. 974 00:59:53,006 --> 00:59:54,132 I'm sorry... 975 00:59:54,549 --> 00:59:55,383 for... 976 00:59:56,134 --> 00:59:58,469 everything I put you through. 977 00:59:59,554 --> 01:00:01,222 I'm done with it. I just... 978 01:00:03,558 --> 01:00:04,892 I couldn't let it go. 979 01:00:07,020 --> 01:00:08,062 I... [breathes shakily] 980 01:00:08,146 --> 01:00:10,690 I miss Monty so much. 981 01:00:12,191 --> 01:00:13,192 But it... 982 01:00:13,901 --> 01:00:16,904 It can't be anything like what you miss Justin. 983 01:00:17,739 --> 01:00:18,740 [Jess sighs] 984 01:00:19,699 --> 01:00:20,658 I don't know. 985 01:00:22,493 --> 01:00:23,745 Missing is missing. 986 01:00:29,917 --> 01:00:31,461 [chuckles lightly] I... 987 01:00:32,629 --> 01:00:37,216 I know it's very much too soon to be saying anything like this, but... 988 01:00:38,217 --> 01:00:41,846 if you ever need someone to miss people with, 989 01:00:41,929 --> 01:00:45,099 I would like to maybe ask you out sometime. 990 01:00:45,808 --> 01:00:47,018 To go out with me. 991 01:00:48,311 --> 01:00:49,270 Again. 992 01:00:49,646 --> 01:00:51,898 But in a new way, sometime. 993 01:00:56,194 --> 01:00:58,696 Maybe I can... Can I start asking in about a month? 994 01:01:00,615 --> 01:01:01,741 Maybe in a month. 995 01:01:04,452 --> 01:01:07,080 [Clay] How do we even imagine starting something new? 996 01:01:09,499 --> 01:01:11,084 You'd think I'd know these answers. 997 01:01:12,335 --> 01:01:14,504 You'd think I'd be good at goodbyes by now. 998 01:01:14,587 --> 01:01:16,297 [tense music plays] 999 01:01:31,396 --> 01:01:33,064 [tense music continues] 1000 01:02:04,470 --> 01:02:05,972 [Clay] Mrs. Baker sent them. 1001 01:02:07,515 --> 01:02:10,226 The court had returned them to her after, like, months, 1002 01:02:10,309 --> 01:02:12,854 and she thought Tony and I should have them. 1003 01:02:13,271 --> 01:02:14,772 That they were never hers. 1004 01:02:15,231 --> 01:02:18,609 That they were something of Hannah that we got, and she never would. 1005 01:02:20,445 --> 01:02:23,448 -[Ellman] What do you think that was? -I don't know. 1006 01:02:24,532 --> 01:02:25,450 Think harder. 1007 01:02:26,409 --> 01:02:27,410 I don't know. 1008 01:02:28,494 --> 01:02:31,330 I think you do. And I think you're being lazy. 1009 01:02:32,874 --> 01:02:34,459 What the hell? Screw you! 1010 01:02:34,542 --> 01:02:35,626 [Ellman] There we go. 1011 01:02:36,169 --> 01:02:39,797 I was worried we'd have Mumbles McGee for the whole session. 1012 01:02:39,881 --> 01:02:40,798 [stutters] 1013 01:02:40,882 --> 01:02:42,800 What the fuck is this? Tough love? 1014 01:02:42,884 --> 01:02:43,968 Some shit like that? 1015 01:02:45,470 --> 01:02:47,972 Why did Hannah's mother send you the tapes? 1016 01:02:49,307 --> 01:02:52,185 Why do you and Tony feel so responsible for Tyler? 1017 01:02:52,268 --> 01:02:55,313 Why did your graffiti say, "Monty was framed"? 1018 01:02:55,396 --> 01:02:56,481 Why do you care? 1019 01:02:56,564 --> 01:02:59,108 -Because I care about you. -You care about a paycheck. 1020 01:02:59,192 --> 01:03:00,693 You think I only care 'cause I'm paid? 1021 01:03:00,777 --> 01:03:02,570 Would you wanna see me if the bill wasn't paid? 1022 01:03:02,653 --> 01:03:03,654 If you needed me. 1023 01:03:03,738 --> 01:03:04,739 Yeah, bullshit! 1024 01:03:07,158 --> 01:03:08,743 What are you really asking, Clay? 1025 01:03:09,494 --> 01:03:13,539 I'm not asking anything, I'm just... I'm fucking fed up! 1026 01:03:13,623 --> 01:03:15,416 Well, good. Why? 1027 01:03:15,500 --> 01:03:18,753 Because! Because none of this fucking matters! OK? 1028 01:03:18,836 --> 01:03:20,630 If Justin is dead, 1029 01:03:21,380 --> 01:03:23,424 then none of the rest of it matters! 1030 01:03:27,220 --> 01:03:28,137 It's... 1031 01:03:29,972 --> 01:03:31,682 [sobs] How could he let it happen? 1032 01:03:31,766 --> 01:03:33,935 How could he let himself get sick like that? 1033 01:03:34,018 --> 01:03:36,646 We... It would've been so easy to save him! 1034 01:03:38,147 --> 01:03:42,318 [Ellman] Maybe deep down, he didn't think he was worth saving or worth loving. 1035 01:03:43,736 --> 01:03:45,530 But Jessica loved him. 1036 01:03:45,613 --> 01:03:47,365 And my... my... my parents did. 1037 01:03:47,740 --> 01:03:48,616 And I did! 1038 01:03:48,699 --> 01:03:51,244 But what if there was some part of him from a long time ago 1039 01:03:51,327 --> 01:03:53,120 that couldn't let himself be loved? 1040 01:03:53,830 --> 01:03:55,623 Couldn't let himself be cared for? 1041 01:03:55,706 --> 01:03:57,959 That makes no sense! 1042 01:03:58,042 --> 01:03:59,043 Really, Clay? 1043 01:03:59,126 --> 01:04:02,922 You can't imagine a kid who keeps secrets from the people who love him most? 1044 01:04:03,005 --> 01:04:05,091 A kid who won't let himself be cared for? 1045 01:04:06,759 --> 01:04:07,844 Fuck you. 1046 01:04:10,471 --> 01:04:11,472 [Clay sighs] 1047 01:04:33,119 --> 01:04:35,955 My Guild Starfire. I love that guitar. 1048 01:04:39,667 --> 01:04:41,085 I grew up here, you know. 1049 01:04:42,837 --> 01:04:43,838 In Evergreen. 1050 01:04:46,382 --> 01:04:48,676 It was the late '60s and early '70s. 1051 01:04:48,759 --> 01:04:51,262 It was a turbulent, difficult time. 1052 01:04:51,929 --> 01:04:54,056 Country was desperately divided. 1053 01:04:54,140 --> 01:04:55,766 Drugs were everywhere. 1054 01:04:56,642 --> 01:04:58,102 I was a troubled kid. 1055 01:04:59,937 --> 01:05:01,731 Yeah, I'm sure you were a hellion. 1056 01:05:02,565 --> 01:05:03,691 I stole a car. 1057 01:05:07,069 --> 01:05:08,779 So I could steal a guitar amp. 1058 01:05:10,364 --> 01:05:11,490 I sniffed glue. 1059 01:05:11,991 --> 01:05:13,159 Dropped acid. 1060 01:05:13,576 --> 01:05:14,660 Smoked dope. 1061 01:05:14,744 --> 01:05:16,078 Occasionally I sold it. 1062 01:05:17,538 --> 01:05:18,372 Shit. 1063 01:05:18,789 --> 01:05:20,791 [Ellman] I was going down a dark road, 1064 01:05:20,875 --> 01:05:24,629 and then a teacher in my high school saw something in me. 1065 01:05:25,546 --> 01:05:26,505 Saw... 1066 01:05:27,798 --> 01:05:28,633 me. 1067 01:05:29,800 --> 01:05:31,761 She believed I had something to offer. 1068 01:05:31,844 --> 01:05:34,055 She was an English teacher. 1069 01:05:34,722 --> 01:05:36,223 She thought I could write. 1070 01:05:36,307 --> 01:05:40,019 And I said something to her very much like what you said to me. 1071 01:05:41,145 --> 01:05:42,730 Nothing makes sense. 1072 01:05:42,813 --> 01:05:44,523 None of the pieces fit together. 1073 01:05:44,899 --> 01:05:46,192 And she said to me... 1074 01:05:47,068 --> 01:05:47,902 "Try." 1075 01:05:49,528 --> 01:05:50,529 She said... 1076 01:05:53,032 --> 01:05:53,950 "Begin." 1077 01:05:57,453 --> 01:05:58,621 So I began. 1078 01:05:59,830 --> 01:06:04,418 And years later I found myself back here, in my home town, 1079 01:06:04,502 --> 01:06:06,170 to help kids like me. 1080 01:06:08,422 --> 01:06:09,423 Like you. 1081 01:06:10,758 --> 01:06:14,595 I can't promise the story has a happy ending, Clay. 1082 01:06:15,346 --> 01:06:16,889 What happens to us, 1083 01:06:17,682 --> 01:06:20,184 it may only have the sense that we make of it. 1084 01:06:22,436 --> 01:06:26,190 But I do know that it's in telling the story... 1085 01:06:27,650 --> 01:06:29,276 that we learn who we are. 1086 01:06:30,236 --> 01:06:32,780 And maybe see who we might become. 1087 01:06:37,994 --> 01:06:38,995 [Clay sniffles] 1088 01:06:48,212 --> 01:06:50,840 [breathes shakily] 1089 01:07:15,031 --> 01:07:16,032 [clicks tongue] 1090 01:07:18,993 --> 01:07:21,120 It starts with Hannah Baker. 1091 01:07:25,916 --> 01:07:27,960 [Bolan] Graduation is that special time, 1092 01:07:28,044 --> 01:07:31,547 not only to celebrate but to acknowledge the hard work 1093 01:07:31,630 --> 01:07:36,635 and the countless sacrifices it took to transform dreams into reality. 1094 01:07:37,053 --> 01:07:39,138 And let's not forget the fortitude 1095 01:07:39,638 --> 01:07:42,016 to carry on in the face of adversity. 1096 01:07:42,683 --> 01:07:44,560 This graduating class 1097 01:07:44,643 --> 01:07:47,021 has shown a special kind of fortitude. 1098 01:07:47,646 --> 01:07:49,023 I admire you all. 1099 01:07:49,106 --> 01:07:50,483 You've been tested 1100 01:07:51,025 --> 01:07:52,443 well beyond the classroom, 1101 01:07:53,277 --> 01:07:54,737 and you have endured. 1102 01:07:55,780 --> 01:07:57,990 Now, you may not believe me. 1103 01:07:58,074 --> 01:07:59,450 Your... [chuckles] 1104 01:07:59,992 --> 01:08:04,789 ...class president and class speaker, in particular, may not believe me. 1105 01:08:05,790 --> 01:08:08,000 But all we have ever wished for, 1106 01:08:08,459 --> 01:08:11,587 myself, the educators here today, 1107 01:08:12,129 --> 01:08:13,255 all of your parents, 1108 01:08:13,339 --> 01:08:15,925 all we have truly wished for 1109 01:08:16,008 --> 01:08:20,304 is to see that you are all happy and healthy and safe. 1110 01:08:20,638 --> 01:08:22,556 This class, in particular, 1111 01:08:23,099 --> 01:08:25,142 has made that hellishly hard. 1112 01:08:25,226 --> 01:08:26,685 [laughter] 1113 01:08:29,480 --> 01:08:31,690 But I have faith in you. [chuckles] 1114 01:08:32,191 --> 01:08:33,359 All of you. 1115 01:08:33,442 --> 01:08:35,694 And I hope that we have taught you well. 1116 01:08:37,029 --> 01:08:38,864 I know you have taught me. 1117 01:08:41,492 --> 01:08:42,535 I'm grateful. 1118 01:08:43,953 --> 01:08:45,287 And I'm proud of you all. 1119 01:08:45,621 --> 01:08:47,790 [cheering, whistling] 1120 01:08:50,251 --> 01:08:51,836 [Jess] Look, here's the thing. 1121 01:08:52,920 --> 01:08:54,713 There should be more of us here. 1122 01:08:57,049 --> 01:09:00,010 And lately, I have been thinking about why they're not here. 1123 01:09:01,345 --> 01:09:04,807 I have a history of causing trouble with my speeches. 1124 01:09:05,724 --> 01:09:08,269 Principal Bolan actually had to approve my speech 1125 01:09:08,352 --> 01:09:10,146 just so I wouldn't make trouble. 1126 01:09:11,856 --> 01:09:13,315 But that was a month ago. 1127 01:09:14,358 --> 01:09:16,527 And my life has changed since then. 1128 01:09:18,904 --> 01:09:22,992 But don't worry, I'm not causing any trouble today. 1129 01:09:25,244 --> 01:09:27,454 Because I just want you to hear me. 1130 01:09:28,789 --> 01:09:31,167 Some of you circulated a petition this year, 1131 01:09:31,250 --> 01:09:33,377 demanding I be removed from office. 1132 01:09:33,919 --> 01:09:35,504 Saying that I was a one-issue president, 1133 01:09:35,588 --> 01:09:38,507 and I had made my point, and I should just shut up. 1134 01:09:38,591 --> 01:09:40,426 Well, no girls signed that petition. 1135 01:09:40,509 --> 01:09:41,802 -[laughter] -So, news, boys, 1136 01:09:42,344 --> 01:09:43,971 our point is far from made. 1137 01:09:44,555 --> 01:09:46,056 And we're not shutting up. 1138 01:09:46,140 --> 01:09:47,474 -Yeah! -[whistling] 1139 01:09:49,643 --> 01:09:51,645 [whooping] 1140 01:09:52,354 --> 01:09:54,773 [Jess] But you are right about one thing: 1141 01:09:55,191 --> 01:09:56,901 I am a one-issue president. 1142 01:09:58,569 --> 01:10:00,279 I'm a one-issue person. 1143 01:10:01,864 --> 01:10:04,491 I spent the last couple of years angry. 1144 01:10:05,576 --> 01:10:06,493 Hurt. 1145 01:10:06,911 --> 01:10:07,912 Scared. 1146 01:10:09,288 --> 01:10:11,081 But I'm not gonna do that anymore. 1147 01:10:12,625 --> 01:10:15,252 I'm gonna focus on my one issue. 1148 01:10:17,254 --> 01:10:18,380 Which is love. 1149 01:10:18,464 --> 01:10:19,924 [laughter, jeering] 1150 01:10:20,299 --> 01:10:23,594 Oh, what? Does talking about love make you embarrassed? 1151 01:10:24,345 --> 01:10:25,679 Is it girly? What? 1152 01:10:26,472 --> 01:10:28,474 Because it's the thing. 1153 01:10:29,475 --> 01:10:31,894 It's the only thing. 1154 01:10:33,479 --> 01:10:34,813 It's easy to hate. 1155 01:10:35,606 --> 01:10:37,066 It's easy to fear. 1156 01:10:37,691 --> 01:10:39,652 It's goddamn hard to love. 1157 01:10:41,028 --> 01:10:42,238 But it's not optional. 1158 01:10:43,364 --> 01:10:44,573 It's essential. 1159 01:10:47,743 --> 01:10:49,203 It's life or death. 1160 01:10:50,663 --> 01:10:51,956 I challenge you. 1161 01:10:52,456 --> 01:10:53,999 Love each other. 1162 01:10:54,083 --> 01:10:55,084 Do it. 1163 01:10:55,167 --> 01:10:56,710 Do it better. 1164 01:10:56,794 --> 01:10:59,088 Now and every day. 1165 01:11:00,130 --> 01:11:01,340 I love you all. 1166 01:11:05,511 --> 01:11:07,346 Oh, and fuck the patriarchy. 1167 01:11:07,763 --> 01:11:09,723 [cheering, whistling] 1168 01:11:09,807 --> 01:11:11,684 [whooping] 1169 01:11:13,519 --> 01:11:14,853 [raucous applause] 1170 01:11:19,400 --> 01:11:21,318 [Clay] It comes down to one question. 1171 01:11:23,362 --> 01:11:25,030 Will you survive high school? 1172 01:11:25,698 --> 01:11:26,699 Will I survive? 1173 01:11:28,409 --> 01:11:30,577 Because I know too many people who didn't. 1174 01:11:44,133 --> 01:11:45,884 In the past two years, 1175 01:11:48,470 --> 01:11:51,432 three people who I loved have died. 1176 01:12:00,107 --> 01:12:02,359 And two... two other people... 1177 01:12:02,443 --> 01:12:04,570 [sniffling] ...who I thought I hated, 1178 01:12:05,195 --> 01:12:06,238 also died. 1179 01:12:08,407 --> 01:12:10,743 But I learned that hate is too simple. 1180 01:12:11,577 --> 01:12:12,536 Jessica's right. 1181 01:12:12,619 --> 01:12:13,704 Hate is easy. 1182 01:12:15,039 --> 01:12:17,791 Love and understanding are harder. 1183 01:12:18,208 --> 01:12:20,753 But they are how we take care of each other, 1184 01:12:21,795 --> 01:12:23,047 how we survive. 1185 01:12:24,590 --> 01:12:25,758 [sniffs] 1186 01:12:31,555 --> 01:12:34,808 My dad loves to tell me stories about when he was in high school. 1187 01:12:36,977 --> 01:12:39,688 The stories usually involve chess club 1188 01:12:39,772 --> 01:12:42,649 and obscure bands with funny haircuts, 1189 01:12:42,733 --> 01:12:45,652 because the '80s were a strange, strange time. 1190 01:12:45,736 --> 01:12:47,279 [laughter] 1191 01:12:49,448 --> 01:12:51,367 But he always gets one thing right. 1192 01:12:55,371 --> 01:12:57,664 He knows high school can hurt. 1193 01:13:01,502 --> 01:13:02,878 That it can be painful. 1194 01:13:03,253 --> 01:13:05,839 That there are days when that's all it is. 1195 01:13:08,300 --> 01:13:11,136 And he once told me that he's living proof... 1196 01:13:12,346 --> 01:13:13,722 you can survive. 1197 01:13:16,392 --> 01:13:17,768 You can get through it. 1198 01:13:19,895 --> 01:13:22,606 He's living proof, and so am I. 1199 01:13:23,607 --> 01:13:25,442 And so are all of you. 1200 01:13:26,735 --> 01:13:27,903 And the thing is, 1201 01:13:27,986 --> 01:13:29,113 for me, 1202 01:13:30,155 --> 01:13:31,782 for us, 1203 01:13:32,908 --> 01:13:35,411 this class, this... this generation, 1204 01:13:37,621 --> 01:13:39,998 high school actually is life or death. 1205 01:13:42,543 --> 01:13:45,838 We show up every day not knowing if this is the day we die. 1206 01:13:46,672 --> 01:13:51,009 If this is the day someone shows up with a gun and tries to kill us all. 1207 01:13:51,760 --> 01:13:53,971 We practice what we'll do if that happens. 1208 01:13:56,140 --> 01:13:57,141 Life or death. 1209 01:14:02,229 --> 01:14:04,189 I suffer from anxiety... 1210 01:14:07,192 --> 01:14:09,069 and, uh, depression. 1211 01:14:09,778 --> 01:14:11,113 But mostly anxiety. 1212 01:14:16,326 --> 01:14:19,538 I sometimes think all of us kids do, in some way. 1213 01:14:21,081 --> 01:14:23,584 And how could we not, with the world the way it is? 1214 01:14:24,585 --> 01:14:27,713 We hear a lot of promises that things will get better. 1215 01:14:28,672 --> 01:14:30,591 And... and, look, maybe they will, 1216 01:14:31,550 --> 01:14:32,593 maybe they won't. 1217 01:14:34,845 --> 01:14:36,680 And what I think I've learned, 1218 01:14:38,098 --> 01:14:39,725 what I wanna say to you... 1219 01:14:42,311 --> 01:14:45,314 is whatever happens, keep moving. 1220 01:14:47,524 --> 01:14:48,609 Get through it. 1221 01:14:50,944 --> 01:14:52,279 Choose to live. 1222 01:14:54,865 --> 01:14:56,825 'Cause even on the worst day, there... 1223 01:14:57,826 --> 01:14:59,578 are people who love you. 1224 01:15:01,205 --> 01:15:05,417 There's new music waiting for you to hear, some... something you haven't seen before 1225 01:15:05,501 --> 01:15:07,753 that will blow your mind in the best way. 1226 01:15:11,381 --> 01:15:12,925 Even on the worst day, 1227 01:15:18,180 --> 01:15:20,140 life is a pretty spectacular thing. 1228 01:15:35,239 --> 01:15:36,198 Thank you. 1229 01:15:38,033 --> 01:15:38,951 Good luck. 1230 01:15:39,284 --> 01:15:40,452 Yeah! 1231 01:15:41,119 --> 01:15:43,789 [cheering, whooping] 1232 01:15:44,540 --> 01:15:45,499 [whistling] 1233 01:15:45,582 --> 01:15:46,875 [whooping] 1234 01:15:47,668 --> 01:15:50,420 ["Unbelievers" by Vampire Weekend plays] 1235 01:15:53,382 --> 01:15:54,925 ♪ Got a little soul ♪ 1236 01:15:55,008 --> 01:15:58,053 ♪ The world is a cold, cold place to be ♪ 1237 01:15:59,846 --> 01:16:01,098 ♪ Want a little warmth ♪ 1238 01:16:01,181 --> 01:16:04,226 ♪ But who's gonna save A little warmth for me? ♪ 1239 01:16:05,143 --> 01:16:10,440 ♪ We know the fire awaits unbelievers All of the sinners the same... ♪ 1240 01:16:13,026 --> 01:16:14,111 -[Jess] Hey! -[Ani] Hey! 1241 01:16:14,194 --> 01:16:17,322 -Where's your mom? -Oh, she had to work. Couldn't leave. 1242 01:16:17,406 --> 01:16:19,616 Then you have to help me endure my relatives. 1243 01:16:19,700 --> 01:16:21,910 My uncle flew in from Milwaukee. 1244 01:16:21,994 --> 01:16:25,581 Dude. No way. You do not like The Descendants. 1245 01:16:25,664 --> 01:16:27,499 Saw their Sacramento show last year! 1246 01:16:27,583 --> 01:16:30,836 You know, I love that the new quarterback is a homo. 1247 01:16:30,919 --> 01:16:33,213 Uh, he identifies as bisexual, actually, 1248 01:16:33,297 --> 01:16:35,215 and I don't think we're supposed to use that word. 1249 01:16:35,299 --> 01:16:37,342 Yeah, we designed the whole thing! 1250 01:16:37,426 --> 01:16:39,845 We like to keep a hand in, even though you're off at Wellesley. 1251 01:16:39,928 --> 01:16:42,514 Oh, my God! This is where I get it from! 1252 01:16:42,598 --> 01:16:46,435 You know, she wrote her new essay about causing riots, stripping naked, 1253 01:16:46,518 --> 01:16:49,104 -um, getting suspended... -Then I got into Berkeley. 1254 01:16:49,187 --> 01:16:50,314 [Tony] Graciella! 1255 01:16:50,981 --> 01:16:52,024 Mi vida! 1256 01:16:52,190 --> 01:16:53,984 -Tonio! -[chuckles] Yes! 1257 01:16:54,568 --> 01:16:56,361 Oh, it's so good to see you! 1258 01:16:56,445 --> 01:16:58,822 -[Graciella] I missed you. -[Tony] I missed you! 1259 01:16:58,905 --> 01:17:00,782 Oh, my God, you're so big. 1260 01:17:00,866 --> 01:17:02,409 -Look at your hair! -Yeah, I know. 1261 01:17:02,492 --> 01:17:04,953 [Ani] Mrs. Walker had some money she wanted to give away, 1262 01:17:05,037 --> 01:17:06,747 so she's endowing HO. 1263 01:17:06,830 --> 01:17:09,541 So, although we will soon be forgotten around here... 1264 01:17:09,625 --> 01:17:10,876 The cause lives on. 1265 01:17:10,959 --> 01:17:12,502 The torch is passed. 1266 01:17:12,586 --> 01:17:13,545 Use it well. 1267 01:17:13,629 --> 01:17:18,008 You guys want me to take over HO? Tyler will be so proud! Can I tell him? 1268 01:17:18,091 --> 01:17:19,092 -'Course! -Sure. 1269 01:17:19,176 --> 01:17:20,218 [Tyler] I was thinking 1270 01:17:20,302 --> 01:17:22,596 maybe we could carpool up in the Bay Area to visit our boos. 1271 01:17:22,679 --> 01:17:24,681 You're coming up for every football game, right? 1272 01:17:24,765 --> 01:17:26,600 Uh... Am I supposed to? 1273 01:17:26,683 --> 01:17:28,518 Yeah. You are. You're the boyfriend. 1274 01:17:29,019 --> 01:17:30,062 Every game? 1275 01:17:30,145 --> 01:17:33,190 Those little short routes are a waste of time! Let him air it out! 1276 01:17:33,273 --> 01:17:36,401 Luke, I love you. You got a great arm, but you haven't been known for your brain. 1277 01:17:36,485 --> 01:17:38,528 -OK? -Offense is boring. 1278 01:17:38,612 --> 01:17:39,696 [Peter] Check it out. 1279 01:17:40,530 --> 01:17:41,615 [Diego] Winston, man! 1280 01:17:42,157 --> 01:17:43,325 Congrats, dude! 1281 01:17:44,451 --> 01:17:45,535 -Thanks. -You finally did it. 1282 01:17:45,619 --> 01:17:47,537 We're gonna hang out this week, right? 1283 01:17:47,621 --> 01:17:49,998 -For sure. -[Diego] Cool. Looking forward to it. 1284 01:17:51,583 --> 01:17:53,627 Look, they hate you until they love you. 1285 01:17:53,710 --> 01:17:54,878 That's all I gotta say. 1286 01:17:55,379 --> 01:17:56,338 I'm Ryan. 1287 01:17:56,713 --> 01:17:58,465 -Winston. -Oh, I know. 1288 01:17:59,174 --> 01:18:01,051 -So... -Always workin' the room. 1289 01:18:01,593 --> 01:18:03,720 -[Ryan] She's an old friend. -Ryan Shaver. 1290 01:18:04,179 --> 01:18:05,222 [Zach] I, uh... 1291 01:18:05,555 --> 01:18:07,224 -It was a late application... -Right. 1292 01:18:07,307 --> 01:18:08,975 ...but I got in off an audition. 1293 01:18:09,393 --> 01:18:11,186 Wait, so you're gonna study music? 1294 01:18:11,687 --> 01:18:12,854 Yeah! 1295 01:18:12,938 --> 01:18:14,815 -That's awesome, Zachy! -It's great! 1296 01:18:14,898 --> 01:18:16,775 And your mom is totally cool with it? 1297 01:18:17,192 --> 01:18:18,819 Well, she thinks it's for violin, 1298 01:18:18,902 --> 01:18:22,114 and it's actually for guitar and voice, but one step at a time. 1299 01:18:22,197 --> 01:18:25,742 -I'm gonna forget I know that last bit. -Probably for the best, yeah. 1300 01:18:25,826 --> 01:18:26,910 Hey, Clay. 1301 01:18:27,411 --> 01:18:29,079 -Congratulations. -Oh, thanks, Dean Foundry. 1302 01:18:29,162 --> 01:18:31,081 Really, no, your speech was wonderful. 1303 01:18:31,957 --> 01:18:34,793 Honestly, it was inspiring, even for an old guy like me. 1304 01:18:35,252 --> 01:18:36,336 -Thank you. -Yeah. 1305 01:18:37,087 --> 01:18:41,007 No, it was really moving. It's a good reminder... [voice fades] 1306 01:18:50,934 --> 01:18:53,270 I gotta do something with my friends for a bit, 1307 01:18:53,353 --> 01:18:55,647 but I'll definitely be back in time for dinner. 1308 01:18:55,731 --> 01:18:58,650 And very soon, I'm gonna be so close to Arizona. 1309 01:18:58,734 --> 01:18:59,609 Like, four hours. 1310 01:18:59,693 --> 01:19:00,569 Maybe three. 1311 01:19:00,652 --> 01:19:02,571 We're so proud of you, kid. You know that, right? 1312 01:19:02,654 --> 01:19:05,365 -Said it about a million times. -And we'll say it a million more. 1313 01:19:05,449 --> 01:19:06,283 Hey, one more. 1314 01:19:06,366 --> 01:19:08,702 -Really embarrass him this time, Mom. -Come on, bring it in. 1315 01:19:09,244 --> 01:19:10,620 [Peter] Yeah! 1316 01:19:10,704 --> 01:19:12,956 I gotta see my friends. I'll be home later. 1317 01:19:13,039 --> 01:19:16,501 -Can we make pozole and sopapillas? -Por supuesto. Of course we can. 1318 01:19:16,585 --> 01:19:17,461 [kisses] 1319 01:19:17,961 --> 01:19:20,672 Teaching you has been an absolute pleasure, Amorowat. 1320 01:19:20,756 --> 01:19:22,549 Oh, thank you, Mr. Wood. That's very kind. 1321 01:19:22,632 --> 01:19:24,926 -It's not often in a teacher's career... -Sorry, we need Ani. 1322 01:19:25,010 --> 01:19:27,095 We've got a robotics emergency. 1323 01:19:27,179 --> 01:19:28,764 Excuse me, Mr. Wood. Thank you. 1324 01:19:28,847 --> 01:19:33,435 I have to go do, um, a totally legal thing with my friends, so... 1325 01:19:33,518 --> 01:19:35,061 -Of course. -[chuckles] Um... 1326 01:19:35,854 --> 01:19:36,855 Thanks, guys. 1327 01:19:37,314 --> 01:19:38,523 Great day, kiddo. 1328 01:19:41,818 --> 01:19:42,819 I, uh... 1329 01:19:44,988 --> 01:19:46,448 Uh, thank you, guys... 1330 01:19:47,115 --> 01:19:48,116 for everything... 1331 01:19:49,034 --> 01:19:49,951 ever. 1332 01:19:51,536 --> 01:19:52,579 I love you. 1333 01:19:55,123 --> 01:19:56,124 [sighs] 1334 01:19:57,459 --> 01:19:58,460 [kisses] 1335 01:19:59,503 --> 01:20:01,505 [sentimental music plays] 1336 01:20:02,506 --> 01:20:05,008 I just wanna take pictures that matter to somebody. 1337 01:20:05,884 --> 01:20:09,137 I'd like to make enough money so that my mum doesn't have to work. 1338 01:20:09,221 --> 01:20:10,096 Yeah. 1339 01:20:10,180 --> 01:20:11,932 I fully plan on being famous. 1340 01:20:12,015 --> 01:20:15,769 Like, not social famous, I mean, so even The New York Times knows who I am. 1341 01:20:17,062 --> 01:20:18,647 I just wanna remember this day. 1342 01:20:19,397 --> 01:20:20,899 Just like this. Right now. 1343 01:20:21,817 --> 01:20:22,734 [Courtney] Yeah. 1344 01:20:40,168 --> 01:20:41,670 [Clay] I just wanna be clear. 1345 01:20:41,753 --> 01:20:44,089 I don't actually see ghosts. 1346 01:20:44,548 --> 01:20:46,049 I just, like... 1347 01:20:47,425 --> 01:20:49,594 imagine people and... 1348 01:20:50,679 --> 01:20:51,972 what I would say to them. 1349 01:20:54,099 --> 01:20:55,141 Yeah, I get it. 1350 01:20:56,518 --> 01:20:58,812 You wrote my paper on magical realism. 1351 01:20:58,895 --> 01:21:00,230 I didn't write your... 1352 01:21:00,313 --> 01:21:01,815 I just helped you write it. 1353 01:21:02,232 --> 01:21:05,193 Yeah, I know. I just like to get you goin'. 1354 01:21:06,236 --> 01:21:07,153 [Clay sighs] 1355 01:21:07,821 --> 01:21:11,575 But what I don't get is why ghost you is hanging out with Bryce? 1356 01:21:11,908 --> 01:21:12,742 Even in my head. 1357 01:21:13,577 --> 01:21:15,328 We loved each other, me and him. 1358 01:21:17,289 --> 01:21:18,415 We were brothers. 1359 01:21:22,711 --> 01:21:24,754 You know, you can love people who did... 1360 01:21:25,547 --> 01:21:26,548 bad shit. 1361 01:21:28,008 --> 01:21:30,302 You can forgive people. 1362 01:21:33,096 --> 01:21:35,223 Even the people who hurt you worst. 1363 01:21:39,311 --> 01:21:40,896 You're talking about Hannah. 1364 01:21:43,148 --> 01:21:46,526 [Justin] When you forgive someone, it's more for you than them. 1365 01:21:52,240 --> 01:21:53,491 How much I hurt... 1366 01:21:54,784 --> 01:21:55,785 with Hannah. 1367 01:21:56,536 --> 01:21:57,454 Always. 1368 01:21:59,039 --> 01:22:00,123 It's my fault. 1369 01:22:00,624 --> 01:22:03,043 I fall in love with girls too fast, 1370 01:22:03,793 --> 01:22:04,920 too hard. 1371 01:22:11,593 --> 01:22:13,261 [sentimental music continues] 1372 01:22:23,188 --> 01:22:24,105 [girl] Clay? 1373 01:22:24,606 --> 01:22:25,857 Are you Clay Jensen? 1374 01:22:26,775 --> 01:22:29,277 [giggles] Oh, my gosh. Sorry, I'm a little nervous. 1375 01:22:29,361 --> 01:22:31,905 You're just like a rock star after that speech. 1376 01:22:32,447 --> 01:22:35,784 Uh, but I go to East County, and I'm going to Brown next year, 1377 01:22:35,867 --> 01:22:37,577 and I heard you are too, 1378 01:22:37,661 --> 01:22:41,164 so I was wondering if maybe you wanted to get, like, a coffee? 1379 01:22:41,247 --> 01:22:42,248 Or some other beverage 1380 01:22:42,332 --> 01:22:45,251 to, like, go over the course catalog and first-year handbook? 1381 01:22:46,127 --> 01:22:47,796 Or is that too dorky? 1382 01:22:49,130 --> 01:22:50,465 Oh... [chuckles] 1383 01:22:51,132 --> 01:22:52,092 I'm Heidi. 1384 01:22:52,968 --> 01:22:53,927 That's... 1385 01:22:54,844 --> 01:22:56,179 That would be very cool. 1386 01:22:56,805 --> 01:22:57,639 Oh! 1387 01:22:57,722 --> 01:22:58,807 [chuckles] Phew! 1388 01:22:58,890 --> 01:22:59,766 [both laugh] 1389 01:22:59,849 --> 01:23:01,935 I was worried that would sound completely nerdy. 1390 01:23:02,018 --> 01:23:03,019 [Zach] Jensen! 1391 01:23:04,229 --> 01:23:05,730 Are we gonna do this? 1392 01:23:05,814 --> 01:23:07,190 Yeah. Uh, yes. 1393 01:23:07,273 --> 01:23:08,566 Um... [clicks tongue, claps] 1394 01:23:08,650 --> 01:23:10,694 I have to go do a... a thing. 1395 01:23:10,777 --> 01:23:11,820 -Mm-hmm. -[Clay] Um... 1396 01:23:12,529 --> 01:23:14,489 -You... you can email me. -OK. 1397 01:23:14,572 --> 01:23:15,740 Yeah, it's, uh... 1398 01:23:15,824 --> 01:23:21,454 It's percyakr2161@gmail.com 1399 01:23:21,538 --> 01:23:22,622 Nice. 1400 01:23:22,706 --> 01:23:23,915 Alien Killer Robots. 1401 01:23:25,500 --> 01:23:26,334 Yes! 1402 01:23:26,459 --> 01:23:27,752 Yeah. [Heidi giggles] 1403 01:23:28,378 --> 01:23:29,587 [Zach] Jensen! 1404 01:23:30,171 --> 01:23:33,091 ["Here Comes a Regular" by the Replacements plays] 1405 01:23:38,555 --> 01:23:41,725 ♪ Well, a person can work up ♪ 1406 01:23:42,350 --> 01:23:45,103 ♪ A mean, mean thirst ♪ 1407 01:23:45,729 --> 01:23:50,692 ♪ After a hard day Of nothin' much at all... ♪ 1408 01:23:54,821 --> 01:23:55,822 [Clay sighs] 1409 01:23:57,699 --> 01:23:59,659 This is where I first listened to my tape. 1410 01:24:04,039 --> 01:24:06,041 And this is where we lay them to rest. 1411 01:24:11,337 --> 01:24:12,422 Rest in peace. 1412 01:24:17,343 --> 01:24:18,344 Come on, people. 1413 01:24:20,555 --> 01:24:22,223 Let's pile on the closure dirt. 1414 01:24:59,260 --> 01:25:01,763 I'm on those tapes. It's my day too. 1415 01:25:02,472 --> 01:25:03,306 No. 1416 01:25:04,390 --> 01:25:05,600 Your day's gone. 1417 01:25:06,351 --> 01:25:07,435 Long gone. 1418 01:25:08,228 --> 01:25:09,729 You need me in this world. 1419 01:25:09,813 --> 01:25:12,690 Otherwise, what would girls like you start riots about? 1420 01:25:12,774 --> 01:25:13,900 Oh, there's plenty. 1421 01:25:13,983 --> 01:25:15,819 Still, I kinda feel like I won. 1422 01:25:17,403 --> 01:25:18,321 You didn't. 1423 01:25:19,322 --> 01:25:21,574 I was looking around today at graduation, 1424 01:25:21,991 --> 01:25:24,744 and I was thinking about how Justin was missing, 1425 01:25:26,079 --> 01:25:27,080 and Hannah. 1426 01:25:29,582 --> 01:25:30,708 But then I thought, 1427 01:25:31,626 --> 01:25:33,628 I love these people. 1428 01:25:34,462 --> 01:25:37,382 Clay Jensen, Zach, and Courtney, 1429 01:25:37,465 --> 01:25:41,052 Ryan freakin' Shaver, for fuck's sake. [chuckles] 1430 01:25:41,427 --> 01:25:44,389 In what kind of world do I love all these kinds of people? 1431 01:25:46,641 --> 01:25:47,892 The world you made. 1432 01:25:49,102 --> 01:25:51,688 We had to love each other at the end of it all. 1433 01:25:53,356 --> 01:25:54,357 You did that. 1434 01:25:55,441 --> 01:25:57,235 So that's something, right? 1435 01:25:58,695 --> 01:25:59,612 Sure. 1436 01:26:06,327 --> 01:26:09,247 ["Take Care" by Beach House plays] 1437 01:26:22,385 --> 01:26:25,471 ♪ Stand beside it ♪ 1438 01:26:25,555 --> 01:26:31,102 ♪ We can't hide the way it makes us glow ♪ 1439 01:26:33,188 --> 01:26:37,066 ♪ It's no good unless it grows ♪ 1440 01:26:37,150 --> 01:26:41,446 ♪ Feeling this burning love of mine... ♪ 1441 01:26:41,529 --> 01:26:44,991 [Clay] For the first time I can remember, the town seemed small. 1442 01:26:45,783 --> 01:26:46,701 Tiny. 1443 01:26:49,037 --> 01:26:53,082 Like I had seen every corner of it I needed to see, as of today. 1444 01:26:57,545 --> 01:26:59,672 All the shit that never would've happened. 1445 01:27:00,423 --> 01:27:02,383 But we would've never been friends. 1446 01:27:03,676 --> 01:27:04,969 We'll always have that. 1447 01:27:06,304 --> 01:27:09,515 If anyone ever needs any help, anytime, anyplace, 1448 01:27:09,599 --> 01:27:11,976 just send a group text, say, "Gordon Lightfoot." 1449 01:27:12,310 --> 01:27:13,811 -Right on. -Wait. What? 1450 01:27:13,895 --> 01:27:14,938 Gordon Lightfoot? 1451 01:27:16,022 --> 01:27:17,941 It's the strangest fucking code word. 1452 01:27:21,945 --> 01:27:26,324 ♪ I'd take care of you ♪ 1453 01:27:28,368 --> 01:27:32,622 ♪ If you'd ask me to ♪ 1454 01:27:41,673 --> 01:27:43,258 [Justin] It was a nice speech. 1455 01:27:49,430 --> 01:27:50,348 Thanks. 1456 01:27:50,974 --> 01:27:55,520 I mean, it was super dark and... a little meandering, but very... 1457 01:27:56,437 --> 01:27:57,397 you. 1458 01:27:58,564 --> 01:27:59,440 [chuckles] 1459 01:28:02,610 --> 01:28:03,611 What's all that? 1460 01:28:06,281 --> 01:28:07,991 Uh, it's just stuff from school. 1461 01:28:08,825 --> 01:28:10,952 They had me clean out your locker today. 1462 01:28:13,121 --> 01:28:14,789 -Both of them. -Oof! 1463 01:28:15,748 --> 01:28:16,833 Sorry about that. 1464 01:28:16,916 --> 01:28:17,750 [Clay] And... 1465 01:28:18,835 --> 01:28:19,961 I found this. 1466 01:28:21,587 --> 01:28:22,797 Your college essay. 1467 01:28:23,256 --> 01:28:24,507 The one that got you in. 1468 01:28:25,425 --> 01:28:26,426 I didn't read it. 1469 01:28:26,801 --> 01:28:27,844 It's personal. 1470 01:28:28,177 --> 01:28:32,098 Dude, I mean, we have literally breathed each other's farts. 1471 01:28:33,558 --> 01:28:35,685 You've walked in on me jerking off 1472 01:28:35,768 --> 01:28:38,896 more times than you even know, and now you draw the line? 1473 01:28:39,397 --> 01:28:40,315 Yeah. 1474 01:28:46,195 --> 01:28:47,822 [clears throat, clicks tongue] 1475 01:28:48,698 --> 01:28:52,285 "I didn't really grow up with much positivity in my life. 1476 01:28:52,368 --> 01:28:55,872 And if I had influences around me, they were definitely bad. 1477 01:28:56,331 --> 01:28:57,957 My mother was a drug addict. 1478 01:28:58,041 --> 01:29:01,544 Her revolving door of boyfriends, mostly drug addicts too. 1479 01:29:02,003 --> 01:29:04,213 I had a best friend I used to look up to, 1480 01:29:04,297 --> 01:29:07,383 but then he hurt people close to me, and now he's dead." 1481 01:29:08,468 --> 01:29:10,219 Jesus, Justin, talk about dark. 1482 01:29:10,636 --> 01:29:12,847 Just... keep going. 1483 01:29:14,140 --> 01:29:15,308 [inhales slowly] 1484 01:29:16,184 --> 01:29:17,727 "There was a time in my life 1485 01:29:17,810 --> 01:29:20,229 I truly had nothing but the clothes on my back 1486 01:29:20,313 --> 01:29:22,565 and the regret for the people I'd hurt. 1487 01:29:23,232 --> 01:29:25,193 And then a person came into my life. 1488 01:29:25,276 --> 01:29:27,111 A person named Clay Jensen." 1489 01:29:29,655 --> 01:29:30,865 You wrote about me? 1490 01:29:31,199 --> 01:29:32,075 They, uh... 1491 01:29:33,201 --> 01:29:36,245 They said to write about a positive influence in your life. 1492 01:29:43,628 --> 01:29:44,712 [sighs] 1493 01:29:45,671 --> 01:29:49,592 "Even when I was puking all over his room, he was there. 1494 01:29:50,009 --> 01:29:51,469 He's always been there, 1495 01:29:51,552 --> 01:29:54,972 which is why even though I've never had a proper family, 1496 01:29:55,515 --> 01:29:57,600 I know what it feels like to have one 1497 01:29:58,226 --> 01:30:00,186 because Clay gave that to me. 1498 01:30:01,354 --> 01:30:02,605 Because he's my... 1499 01:30:10,238 --> 01:30:11,280 He's my..." 1500 01:30:14,117 --> 01:30:15,368 "He's my brother. 1501 01:30:17,120 --> 01:30:19,288 He's my positive influence. 1502 01:30:20,706 --> 01:30:25,795 He's the reason I'm alive and able to write this college essay 1503 01:30:25,878 --> 01:30:27,130 in the first place." 1504 01:30:31,384 --> 01:30:32,635 [choked] I miss you. 1505 01:30:38,057 --> 01:30:39,058 [Clay sobs] 1506 01:30:42,103 --> 01:30:44,564 How am I supposed to do this without you? 1507 01:30:47,358 --> 01:30:48,776 Clay, it's like you said. 1508 01:30:52,613 --> 01:30:53,948 You'll survive. 1509 01:31:08,838 --> 01:31:09,922 You will, you know. 1510 01:31:13,176 --> 01:31:14,135 Survive. 1511 01:31:15,845 --> 01:31:16,721 Yeah. 1512 01:31:18,723 --> 01:31:19,849 I know it now. 1513 01:31:21,058 --> 01:31:22,518 You're out of town next week? 1514 01:31:22,602 --> 01:31:24,937 Yeah, I'm driving with Tony to see his school. 1515 01:31:25,021 --> 01:31:26,272 He's starting summer quarter 1516 01:31:26,355 --> 01:31:29,775 because he's still got some stuff to... make up. 1517 01:31:29,859 --> 01:31:31,235 Um... [clicks tongue] 1518 01:31:31,319 --> 01:31:34,572 But you said we could maybe still FaceTime? 1519 01:31:34,989 --> 01:31:36,991 Sure. Let me know what works. 1520 01:31:37,074 --> 01:31:41,245 I'm back in two weeks for the summer, but then, um... 1521 01:31:41,329 --> 01:31:43,873 We can meet online as you settle into school. 1522 01:31:43,956 --> 01:31:47,668 And then... I'm sure there are resources on campus. 1523 01:31:48,628 --> 01:31:49,629 Yeah. 1524 01:31:49,712 --> 01:31:52,507 Yeah, no, I'm sure. [chuckles lightly, clicks tongue] 1525 01:31:53,090 --> 01:31:53,966 All right. 1526 01:31:54,759 --> 01:31:55,635 See ya. 1527 01:31:56,802 --> 01:31:57,720 See ya. 1528 01:32:06,020 --> 01:32:09,398 ["Half Light II (No Celebration)" by Arcade Fire plays] 1529 01:32:22,995 --> 01:32:26,582 ♪ Now that San Francisco's gone ♪ 1530 01:32:26,999 --> 01:32:30,753 ♪ I guess I'll just pack it in ♪ 1531 01:32:31,462 --> 01:32:35,299 ♪ Wanna wash away my sins ♪ 1532 01:32:35,383 --> 01:32:39,637 ♪ In the presence of my friends ♪ 1533 01:32:53,484 --> 01:32:57,154 ♪ Though we knew this day would come ♪ 1534 01:32:57,613 --> 01:33:01,826 ♪ Still it took us by surprise ♪ 1535 01:33:02,326 --> 01:33:05,830 ♪ In this town where I was born ♪ 1536 01:33:05,913 --> 01:33:10,167 ♪ I now see through a dead man's eyes ♪ 1537 01:33:11,043 --> 01:33:16,966 ♪ One day they will see it's long gone ♪ 1538 01:33:19,552 --> 01:33:25,349 ♪ One day they will see it's long gone ♪ 1539 01:33:28,019 --> 01:33:33,858 ♪ One day they will see it's long gone ♪ 1540 01:33:36,444 --> 01:33:42,325 ♪ One day they will see it's long gone ♪ 1541 01:34:09,560 --> 01:34:10,686 [Clay sighs] 1542 01:34:46,597 --> 01:34:48,599 ["Trouble" by Lindsey Buckingham plays] 1543 01:34:50,351 --> 01:34:52,812 ♪ I should be saying goodnight ♪ 1544 01:34:53,813 --> 01:34:57,608 ♪ I really shouldn't stay anymore... ♪ 1545 01:34:58,651 --> 01:35:02,279 [Clay reads text] 1546 01:35:08,661 --> 01:35:13,624 ♪ I should run on the double ♪ 1547 01:35:19,255 --> 01:35:21,924 -♪ I think I'm in... ♪ -♪ I think I'm in trouble ♪ 1548 01:35:27,513 --> 01:35:30,182 ♪ I think I'm in trouble ♪ 1549 01:35:34,395 --> 01:35:37,064 -♪ I think I'm in... ♪ -♪ I think I'm in trouble ♪ 1550 01:35:44,029 --> 01:35:47,408 ♪ So, come to me, darling And hold me ♪ 1551 01:35:47,491 --> 01:35:50,828 ♪ Let your honey keep you warm ♪ 1552 01:35:51,662 --> 01:35:54,957 ♪ Been so long since I held you ♪ 1553 01:35:55,332 --> 01:35:59,044 ♪ I've forgotten what love is for ♪ 1554 01:36:02,548 --> 01:36:08,012 ♪ I should run on the double ♪ 1555 01:36:12,558 --> 01:36:16,061 -♪ I think I'm in... ♪ -♪ I think I'm in trouble ♪ 1556 01:36:21,859 --> 01:36:24,111 ♪ I think I'm in trouble ♪ 1557 01:36:57,895 --> 01:36:59,688 [man] Well done, Ed. Well done. 1557 01:37:00,305 --> 01:38:00,498 Support us and become VIP member to remove all ads from www.OpenSubtitles.org110838

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