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(door unlocking)
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(moaning)
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(moaning)
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(police siren wailing)
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(moaning)
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You want one?
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No, thanks.
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Bartender that neither
drinks nor smokes.
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If I were in Vegas,
I'd have lost money.
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Are you a betting
kind of girl?
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Depends.
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I guess I'm not
your average bear.
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Sensed that about you.
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How's that?
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The way I poured
your Jack and coke?
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No, when you referenced
Baudelaire.
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Not only did you pick
one of my favorite poets,
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but one of my favorite
poems as well.
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That's when I knew
I was gonna fuck you.
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Guess I'm not
your average bear either.
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(door opening)
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(sounds of traffic passing)
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(toilet flushing)
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(door opening)
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You from here?
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Born and raised
in beautiful Van Nuys.
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You from L.A.?
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No, Chicago.
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What brings you out here?
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Mm, let me guess.
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Chicago, big theater town,
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you work at a bar
in Los Angeles...
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Actor.
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No.
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No?
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No.
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Hmm.
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I'd have bet the farm
on that one.
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So you are
a betting kind of girl.
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Depends.
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What do you do?
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I work in the corporate world.
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Sales.
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What company?
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Starbucks.
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What, are you in corporate
headquarters or something?
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No, I work at the Starbucks
on Beverly and Detroit.
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Prefer to do my selling
one person at a time.
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Come in sometime,
I'll buy you a latte.
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Is that what you do?
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What do you mean?
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Well, is that it, or are you
trying to do something else?
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Everyone out here seems to be
trying to do something
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other than what
they're actually doing.
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No.
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I'm just a girl
who works at Starbucks.
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I didn't mean for it
to come off like that.
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Not at all.
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What about you?
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Is it your life's passion
to sling drinks
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at some shithole in Venice?
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Oh, God, yes.
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Oh, I honed that dream down
with my high school counselor.
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We spent hours upon hours
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talking about how to achieve
my impossible dream,
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and...now I've done it.
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I'm gonna go out on a limb here
and I'm gonna guess
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that besides being
an awesome seller of coffee,
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you like to read.
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How did you know that?
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You just have some...
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psychic, creepy superpower.
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When'd you start?
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My mom used to say that...
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when I was born,
I asked the doctor
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for just one more day
to read "The Stranger."
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She still live out here?
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No.
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She passed away
a few years ago.
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I'm sorry.
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Life.
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It's bound to kill you
sooner or later.
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The apartment's great.
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I love old buildings.
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Hardwood.
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Old, yes.
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Great, no.
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Where do you live?
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Hollywood.
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One of those monstrosities
with 40 units.
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Keep telling myself
I'm gonna move,
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but I never get around to it.
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They say it's one
of the top three
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most stressful things in life.
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-What, moving?
-Yeah.
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You know what the number one
fear is of most people?
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Clowns.
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Public speaking.
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Which is psychotic
when you think about it.
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We're more afraid of looking
stupid in front of each other
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than we are of dying?
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I guess we all feel
like we're frauds
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and we'll be found out.
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Frauds?
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Yeah.
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What I mean is, I guess...
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we're all afraid,
and we're walking around
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trying to convince ourselves
and each other that we're not.
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On some fundamental level,
we know this.
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"How are you today?"
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"Good, you?"
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"Oh, great."
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When what's really happening
is my company's cutting back
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and I'm terrified
I might lose my job.
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We can't tell each other
that, right?
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We can't be honest, God forbid.
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I guess we all believe
that we're the only ones
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that feel that way,
so we spend our lives
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pretending that
everything's okay.
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Now you want me to speak
in front of a bunch of people,
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and the terror that
somehow I'll be found out,
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be exposed, suddenly just
slams me in the face,
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you know, it overwhelms me.
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People can be cruel.
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I can understand
not wanting to put ourselves
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at the mercy
of a bunch of retards.
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To expose ourselves
just so others
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can criticize us
and tear us down?
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I do, too.
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But at some point,
you have to ask yourself,
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"Then what's the fuckin' point?"
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I'm afraid to be who I am,
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and I can't walk around
hiding like everyone else.
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Where does that leave me?
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You want a drink?
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I don't drink.
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Right.
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A bartender who neither
drinks nor smokes.
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Water?
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Sure.
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(cabinet door opening)
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(glass rattling)
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(faucet pouring)
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You're very free with your body.
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Am I?
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Yeah.
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Most women are
so self-conscious.
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What you see is what you get.
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I like it.
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(truck beeping)
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Do you do this a lot?
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What?
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This.
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Fuck random girls from the bar.
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No, not really.
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No, huh?
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00:12:00,053 --> 00:12:01,388
No.
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What about you?
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You typically walk into a bar,
seduce a bartender,
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then bring 'em back here
and fuck them?
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Yes.
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-What is this?
-What's what?
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Where is this coming from?
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I thought we were having
a good time here.
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We are.
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I just want to be clear.
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Clear about what?
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About what this is.
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-I'm clear.
-Are you?
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Yes.
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Good.
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'Cause I don't want
any complications.
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Neither do I.
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So we're on the same page.
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Yes.
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Good.
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(dog barking)
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(panting)
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(heavy breathing)
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(panting)
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(sounds of traffic passing)
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(cigarette case closing)
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(lighter clicking)
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Sure do like to smoke, huh?
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I adore it.
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Well, if it makes you happy.
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It can't be that bad.
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00:17:36,756 --> 00:17:40,127
You like Sheryl Crow?
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She rocks.
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"Tuesday Night Music Club"
is one of my favorite albums.
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Second only to
"August and Everything After."
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Counting Crows are
quite possibly my favorite.
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True poets.
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That they are.
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Two Crows.
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Interesting.
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In mythology,
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the crow is meant to be a guide.
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It's God's messenger
leading people to good.
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I don't believe in God.
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Me neither.
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Well, not in a religious one,
at least.
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So you believe in a god?
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I think there's
a universal intelligence.
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I mean, there's so much precise
and immutable law
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in the universe,
it's hard for me to believe
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that something hasn't had
a hand in its creation.
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Sixty-five million years ago,
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a rock from outer space
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smashed into the rock
we currently live on
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and annihilated
most of its species.
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What is so precise about that?
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It's all just random.
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00:19:03,210 --> 00:19:06,479
There's no method
or conscious choice.
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00:19:06,546 --> 00:19:09,382
People's lives
mostly happen to them.
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There's no guiding force
other than the decisions we make
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and there are certainly
no assurances in that.
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It's a crapshoot at best.
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00:19:21,794 --> 00:19:24,297
People have horrible shit
happen to them all the time
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in spite of living right.
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You do everything right,
do all the right things,
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work really hard,
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and still never get
what you want.
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Where the fuck is God in that?
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00:19:35,074 --> 00:19:36,976
What about just being born?
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Abuse, poverty, birth defects.
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Out of the gate, you're screwed.
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Where's the divine planning
in that?
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Are you saying God
does this on purpose?
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Any way you slice that pie,
I don't want a piece,
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fuck you very much.
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00:19:52,959 --> 00:19:54,227
I'll stick with the Jell-O.
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00:19:54,294 --> 00:19:56,028
It's not as tasty,
but it goes down
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a lot fucking smoother.
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Jell-O?
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Look, I'm not saying
I don't question those things.
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I do.
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Pisses me off, too.
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I had a friend once who got
really sick outta nowhere.
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Couldn't figure out what it was.
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Was in the hospital,
in and out of consciousness,
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for over a week.
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I was visiting her.
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She was sleeping,
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and I'm sitting there
looking at her,
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and I'm telling God
to go fuck Himself in my head.
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I mean, I'm literally
cursing God out,
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calling Him
every name in the book.
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You know,
cocksucker, cunt, whore.
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I mean, I was furious
that this was happening to her.
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And all that resentment,
all that rage,
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it finally bottlenecked on me
and I started crying.
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I mean, sobbing.
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And I'm trying to be quiet
so I won't wake her...
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and my...chest burns,
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my throat aches,
my eyes are slits,
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and this whole time,
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I'm calling God a motherfucker.
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I'm muttering it just under
my breath over and over.
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Just, "Motherfucker,
motherfucker, motherfucker."
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I mean, it's almost like
a Buddhist chant at this point.
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Just, "Motherfucker,
motherfucker, motherfucker."
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And I suddenly feel something.
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You know that feeling you have
when someone's staring at you?
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Only it was times ten.
269
00:21:54,781 --> 00:21:58,785
I looked down,
and she's staring up at me.
270
00:22:01,888 --> 00:22:06,759
And she's looking
at me in a way...
271
00:22:06,826 --> 00:22:10,329
I don't think
I could articulate, it's...
272
00:22:10,397 --> 00:22:13,366
her, but it's not her.
273
00:22:14,934 --> 00:22:17,069
It's like...
274
00:22:17,136 --> 00:22:19,071
the purest her.
275
00:22:24,477 --> 00:22:27,113
Like if her soul
suddenly grew eyes.
276
00:22:29,248 --> 00:22:31,183
She says,
277
00:22:31,250 --> 00:22:34,086
"Energy can be neither
created nor destroyed,
278
00:22:34,153 --> 00:22:35,522
just transferred.
279
00:22:35,588 --> 00:22:38,858
This is law.
280
00:22:38,925 --> 00:22:43,730
It is infinite intelligence's
way of proving we are eternal."
281
00:22:50,269 --> 00:22:53,072
And in that moment,
282
00:22:53,139 --> 00:22:54,707
I believed it.
283
00:22:58,110 --> 00:23:00,413
She was so clear.
284
00:23:02,882 --> 00:23:06,786
It was so true in her
that it made it undeniable.
285
00:23:10,823 --> 00:23:15,428
In that moment, I knew something
bigger than me existed,
286
00:23:15,495 --> 00:23:16,963
was real.
287
00:23:24,537 --> 00:23:29,075
That's a beautiful idea,
288
00:23:29,141 --> 00:23:32,479
but I bet most of the time,
you don't believe that.
289
00:23:34,714 --> 00:23:37,817
I lose touch with it
all the time, but...
290
00:23:37,884 --> 00:23:41,654
isn't that the nature
of faith or belief?
291
00:23:41,721 --> 00:23:43,923
It doesn't mean that
I'm not gonna get afraid
292
00:23:43,990 --> 00:23:47,093
or lost or confused, it just
means at the end of the day,
293
00:23:47,159 --> 00:23:50,597
you have that faith
to go back to.
294
00:23:50,663 --> 00:23:53,600
That knowing
that no matter what,
295
00:23:53,666 --> 00:23:56,168
no matter how fucked up
everything seems to be,
296
00:23:56,235 --> 00:23:58,170
things are really okay.
297
00:24:00,239 --> 00:24:02,875
Can you honestly tell me
that most of the time,
298
00:24:02,942 --> 00:24:05,745
you know everything is okay?
299
00:24:22,061 --> 00:24:23,730
Me neither.
300
00:24:30,870 --> 00:24:32,872
What happened to her?
301
00:24:35,908 --> 00:24:37,510
She died.
302
00:24:50,723 --> 00:24:53,626
So you believe in nothing?
303
00:24:53,693 --> 00:24:55,862
I believe that if I want
something to change,
304
00:24:55,928 --> 00:24:58,364
I better get off my ass
and do something.
305
00:24:58,430 --> 00:25:00,032
At least try.
306
00:25:01,734 --> 00:25:03,536
All by yourself?
307
00:25:03,603 --> 00:25:06,005
All by my lonesome.
308
00:25:06,072 --> 00:25:08,908
It's a delusion to think
that we're not alone
309
00:25:08,975 --> 00:25:10,476
and on our own.
310
00:25:10,543 --> 00:25:13,846
There's a limit to what people
are willing to do for you.
311
00:25:13,913 --> 00:25:15,514
They've got their own lives
to untangle.
312
00:25:15,582 --> 00:25:18,851
They can't neglect their own
life to help you better yours.
313
00:25:18,918 --> 00:25:20,887
It's insane to think that.
314
00:25:22,454 --> 00:25:25,057
Do you have any friends?
315
00:25:25,124 --> 00:25:27,560
I have friends, yes.
316
00:25:30,029 --> 00:25:34,066
If you don't believe people
can help each other, why bother?
317
00:25:34,133 --> 00:25:37,336
Or for that matter,
are you even really friends?
318
00:25:37,403 --> 00:25:40,039
Friends rely on each other.
319
00:25:40,106 --> 00:25:42,274
Doesn't sound like you're
capable of having friends,
320
00:25:42,341 --> 00:25:44,376
not really.
321
00:25:44,443 --> 00:25:46,813
Fuck you.
322
00:25:46,879 --> 00:25:49,148
Oh, I'm sorry, I guess
I should just sit here
323
00:25:49,215 --> 00:25:51,283
and keep my mouth shut
and agree with everything
324
00:25:51,350 --> 00:25:53,485
you have to say.
325
00:25:53,552 --> 00:25:55,287
Fuck you!
326
00:25:58,124 --> 00:26:00,559
You're a brat,
you know that?
327
00:26:00,627 --> 00:26:03,362
-Am I?
-Yeah.
328
00:26:03,429 --> 00:26:06,265
You have a real meanness in you.
329
00:26:06,332 --> 00:26:07,834
It's fine if we don't agree
on some things,
330
00:26:07,900 --> 00:26:09,836
but you don't have to be
a bitch about it.
331
00:26:09,902 --> 00:26:11,771
Get the fuck out of my house!
332
00:26:20,747 --> 00:26:22,882
It's fine if we don't agree.
333
00:26:22,949 --> 00:26:25,317
I just don't want you
to be mean to me.
334
00:26:25,384 --> 00:26:27,586
I don't think that's too much
for one fucking person
335
00:26:27,654 --> 00:26:29,488
to ask from another.
336
00:26:29,555 --> 00:26:31,123
Life's hard enough as it is
337
00:26:31,190 --> 00:26:33,826
without people needlessly
making it fuckin' harder.
338
00:26:33,893 --> 00:26:35,762
I mean, is it impossible
for two grown adults
339
00:26:35,828 --> 00:26:37,063
to have a meaningful
conversation
340
00:26:37,129 --> 00:26:38,698
without someone
fucking getting hurt?
341
00:26:38,765 --> 00:26:40,900
What's so difficult about that?
342
00:26:40,967 --> 00:26:42,635
Two people, just expressing
343
00:26:42,702 --> 00:26:44,103
a little bit of truth
with each other
344
00:26:44,170 --> 00:26:45,905
without blood ending up
on the fuckin' walls.
345
00:26:45,972 --> 00:26:48,908
Is that too much
to fucking ask?
346
00:26:51,277 --> 00:26:52,679
(sighs)
347
00:27:06,358 --> 00:27:09,128
I didn't mean to raise
my voice. I'm sorry.
348
00:27:10,596 --> 00:27:12,364
It's okay.
349
00:27:12,431 --> 00:27:14,066
I understand.
350
00:27:26,378 --> 00:27:29,415
I actually had
a really good time with you.
351
00:27:33,385 --> 00:27:36,222
I think you're really
interesting, different.
352
00:27:36,288 --> 00:27:38,791
I like that.
353
00:27:46,465 --> 00:27:48,300
Thank you for having me over.
354
00:28:11,157 --> 00:28:13,893
I'm sorry.
355
00:28:16,495 --> 00:28:18,330
It's okay.
356
00:28:29,776 --> 00:28:32,044
See you at the bar, I guess.
357
00:28:35,181 --> 00:28:36,783
Yeah, sure.
358
00:29:06,578 --> 00:29:08,014
Stay.
359
00:29:12,418 --> 00:29:13,886
Please.
360
00:29:21,593 --> 00:29:24,130
(footsteps approaching)
361
00:29:33,405 --> 00:29:35,107
Do you cook?
362
00:29:43,415 --> 00:29:45,351
Mmm.
363
00:29:45,417 --> 00:29:47,186
Yummy.
364
00:29:47,253 --> 00:29:51,357
Yeah. Scrambled eggs,
dry toast, and tap water.
365
00:29:51,423 --> 00:29:54,460
Breakfast of champions.
366
00:29:54,526 --> 00:29:56,929
Still, I love breakfast.
367
00:29:56,996 --> 00:29:59,932
There's something
hopeful about it.
368
00:29:59,999 --> 00:30:01,767
You know, start of a new day,
369
00:30:01,834 --> 00:30:04,036
nothing horrible
has occurred yet.
370
00:30:04,103 --> 00:30:05,371
A man sits over his eggs
371
00:30:05,437 --> 00:30:08,440
and there's a sense of
possibility in the air.
372
00:30:08,507 --> 00:30:11,777
Maybe today will be
"the day," you know?
373
00:30:11,844 --> 00:30:14,881
-"The day"?
-Yeah.
374
00:30:14,947 --> 00:30:18,584
Maybe today will be
the day that x happens.
375
00:30:18,650 --> 00:30:21,820
For example...
376
00:30:21,888 --> 00:30:24,590
maybe today's the day
I win the lottery.
377
00:30:26,458 --> 00:30:28,594
Maybe today's the day
I get that big promotion
378
00:30:28,660 --> 00:30:30,997
I've been pining for.
379
00:30:31,063 --> 00:30:33,132
Maybe today's the day
I use that ab cruncher
380
00:30:33,199 --> 00:30:35,167
I bought three months ago.
381
00:30:35,234 --> 00:30:37,036
Maybe today's the day
382
00:30:37,103 --> 00:30:39,238
I don't want to claw
my eyes out of my head
383
00:30:39,305 --> 00:30:42,909
every time someone asks
for a vanilla latte.
384
00:30:42,975 --> 00:30:44,210
Well, yes.
385
00:30:44,276 --> 00:30:45,844
Not quite as filled with hope,
386
00:30:45,912 --> 00:30:48,480
but that's the general idea.
387
00:30:48,547 --> 00:30:50,249
Here's to hopin'.
388
00:31:01,393 --> 00:31:03,229
Actually,
389
00:31:03,295 --> 00:31:06,065
breakfast kinda reminds me
of my mother.
390
00:31:08,767 --> 00:31:10,736
Every morning I would...
391
00:31:10,802 --> 00:31:13,239
wake up and go into the kitchen,
392
00:31:13,305 --> 00:31:15,307
and there would be nothing.
393
00:31:16,608 --> 00:31:19,378
My mom usually wouldn't be home.
394
00:31:19,445 --> 00:31:21,380
Not because she was
an early riser
395
00:31:21,447 --> 00:31:24,583
and had to get off to work,
but because she was sleeping
396
00:31:24,650 --> 00:31:27,519
at her
boyfriend-of-the-week's place.
397
00:31:28,955 --> 00:31:31,290
My mom loved the boys,
all right.
398
00:31:34,060 --> 00:31:37,029
So I would...scavenge around
399
00:31:37,096 --> 00:31:40,366
and...eat whatever we had.
400
00:31:42,501 --> 00:31:46,472
One week I ate a can
of peas every day.
401
00:31:46,538 --> 00:31:49,008
Breakfast of champions.
402
00:31:52,945 --> 00:31:56,448
What about you?
403
00:31:56,515 --> 00:31:58,350
I bet you...woke up
404
00:31:58,417 --> 00:32:00,186
to your mom singing
in the kitchen
405
00:32:00,252 --> 00:32:02,154
while she cooked you
pancakes and bacon
406
00:32:02,221 --> 00:32:05,524
and squeezed
the orange juice herself.
407
00:32:09,561 --> 00:32:12,031
Not quite.
408
00:32:12,098 --> 00:32:13,966
But close, though,
409
00:32:14,033 --> 00:32:15,567
only it was my dad,
410
00:32:15,634 --> 00:32:19,905
and he did cook,
thank you very much.
411
00:32:19,972 --> 00:32:23,242
It was my favorite part
of the day.
412
00:32:23,309 --> 00:32:25,444
My dad cookin',
crackin' jokes,
413
00:32:25,511 --> 00:32:26,945
bein' silly.
414
00:32:28,814 --> 00:32:32,251
He always seemed so happy
in the morning.
415
00:32:32,318 --> 00:32:34,320
Where was your mom?
416
00:32:40,326 --> 00:32:42,628
She died when I was six.
417
00:32:45,164 --> 00:32:46,732
I'm sorry.
418
00:32:46,798 --> 00:32:48,234
How?
419
00:32:50,136 --> 00:32:51,537
I'm sorry.
420
00:32:51,603 --> 00:32:53,172
I'm just curious.
421
00:32:53,239 --> 00:32:56,442
You don't have to talk about it
if you don't want to.
422
00:33:01,280 --> 00:33:03,382
My mom was a drunk.
423
00:33:06,452 --> 00:33:08,154
Apparently she'd go
on these benders
424
00:33:08,220 --> 00:33:11,223
for two or three days
at a time, just disappear.
425
00:33:14,926 --> 00:33:17,163
On one of 'em,
she met a man at a bar,
426
00:33:17,229 --> 00:33:20,232
and they decided
to go back to his place.
427
00:33:24,170 --> 00:33:27,306
On the way there, my mother...
428
00:33:27,373 --> 00:33:30,609
she opened the passenger-side
door and just stepped out.
429
00:33:36,582 --> 00:33:39,218
When I was 18,
430
00:33:39,285 --> 00:33:43,322
my father sat me down
and told me all about it.
431
00:33:43,389 --> 00:33:46,525
Said I had a right
to know who she was.
432
00:33:49,928 --> 00:33:53,199
The longer he talked about her,
the more obvious it became
433
00:33:53,265 --> 00:33:55,267
that he still loved her.
434
00:33:56,468 --> 00:33:58,270
In spite of everything
that happened,
435
00:33:58,337 --> 00:34:00,539
he still loved her.
436
00:34:05,677 --> 00:34:07,713
Crazy.
437
00:34:09,748 --> 00:34:12,451
Love isn't logical.
438
00:34:15,020 --> 00:34:17,123
No.
439
00:34:17,189 --> 00:34:19,291
No, I guess it isn't.
440
00:34:22,828 --> 00:34:23,962
Where's your dad?
441
00:34:24,029 --> 00:34:26,932
Is he still in Chicago?
442
00:34:26,998 --> 00:34:28,167
No.
443
00:34:29,235 --> 00:34:32,504
He died about 14 years ago.
444
00:34:32,571 --> 00:34:35,141
Lung cancer.
445
00:34:37,176 --> 00:34:39,278
Jesus Christ.
446
00:34:43,782 --> 00:34:45,717
Life.
447
00:34:45,784 --> 00:34:49,121
Bound to kill you
sooner or later.
448
00:35:01,433 --> 00:35:03,202
(cigarette case closing)
449
00:35:05,437 --> 00:35:07,105
(lighter clicking)
450
00:35:20,252 --> 00:35:22,488
I lied to you before.
451
00:35:24,790 --> 00:35:26,892
My mom's still alive.
452
00:35:29,127 --> 00:35:31,330
She's still in Van Nuys,
453
00:35:31,397 --> 00:35:34,200
but I haven't spoken
to her in years.
454
00:35:36,034 --> 00:35:38,737
She calls from time to time,
455
00:35:38,804 --> 00:35:42,174
tells me how much
she loves me and misses me.
456
00:35:47,846 --> 00:35:50,482
Anyway...
457
00:35:50,549 --> 00:35:52,751
I just thought you should know.
458
00:35:59,591 --> 00:36:01,227
Thank you.
459
00:36:24,015 --> 00:36:25,351
(fork clanks on plate)
460
00:36:43,902 --> 00:36:44,970
(plate thunks on floor)
461
00:37:11,463 --> 00:37:13,999
(heavy breathing)
462
00:38:10,322 --> 00:38:12,858
(heavy breathing)
463
00:38:42,821 --> 00:38:45,357
(moaning)
464
00:38:58,169 --> 00:39:00,706
(groaning)
465
00:39:07,379 --> 00:39:09,681
Come in me.
466
00:39:16,287 --> 00:39:18,824
(panting)
467
00:39:26,498 --> 00:39:29,034
(moaning)
468
00:39:35,541 --> 00:39:38,076
(groaning)
469
00:39:51,289 --> 00:39:53,825
(moaning)
470
00:39:56,895 --> 00:39:59,431
(whimpering)
471
00:40:02,167 --> 00:40:04,703
(panting)
472
00:40:44,710 --> 00:40:46,044
(tearful sniffle)
473
00:40:54,352 --> 00:40:58,757
(door opens, closes forcefully)
474
00:42:07,125 --> 00:42:08,259
(lighter clicks)
475
00:42:13,665 --> 00:42:16,067
Sorry about that.
476
00:42:18,069 --> 00:42:20,839
You have absolutely nothing
to be sorry about.
477
00:42:22,240 --> 00:42:24,643
I haven't cried in...
478
00:42:24,710 --> 00:42:28,614
Jesus, I don't know how long.
479
00:42:28,680 --> 00:42:31,817
All that talk about the past,
I guess.
480
00:42:49,500 --> 00:42:51,670
We barely know each other,
481
00:42:51,737 --> 00:42:55,173
and here I am,
sobbing in your arms.
482
00:42:55,240 --> 00:42:57,709
You probably think
I'm some psycho girl
483
00:42:57,776 --> 00:42:59,811
who's completely unstable.
484
00:43:01,179 --> 00:43:03,782
Well, I thought that
long before you cried.
485
00:43:03,849 --> 00:43:05,817
(Sid chuckles sardonically)
486
00:43:09,187 --> 00:43:11,156
Crying is good.
487
00:43:11,222 --> 00:43:12,891
Oh yeah, Dr. Phil?
488
00:43:12,958 --> 00:43:15,326
When's the last time you cried?
489
00:43:17,796 --> 00:43:19,430
I don't know.
490
00:43:19,497 --> 00:43:23,368
Sure you do, come on.
491
00:43:23,434 --> 00:43:26,104
I don't know, really.
492
00:43:28,139 --> 00:43:29,607
Really?
493
00:43:29,675 --> 00:43:31,276
I just cried
like a fucking six-year-old
494
00:43:31,342 --> 00:43:34,680
and you can't at least tell me
the last time you cried?
495
00:43:37,548 --> 00:43:38,984
Fine.
496
00:43:39,050 --> 00:43:41,086
It was after my wife left me.
497
00:43:44,555 --> 00:43:47,258
You're married?
498
00:43:47,325 --> 00:43:49,094
No.
499
00:43:49,160 --> 00:43:51,529
I was married,
now I'm divorced.
500
00:43:51,596 --> 00:43:54,599
How long?
501
00:43:54,666 --> 00:43:57,468
How long was I married or
how long have I been divorced?
502
00:43:57,535 --> 00:43:59,805
Both.
503
00:43:59,871 --> 00:44:03,174
We've been divorced
for over two years.
504
00:44:03,241 --> 00:44:05,010
Kids?
505
00:44:05,076 --> 00:44:06,144
No.
506
00:44:06,211 --> 00:44:09,681
No kids,
she didn't want them.
507
00:44:09,748 --> 00:44:11,817
At least not with me.
508
00:44:11,883 --> 00:44:14,519
Well, what happened?
509
00:44:14,585 --> 00:44:17,288
Why am I always
fuckin' talkin' about myself?
510
00:44:17,355 --> 00:44:19,457
Why am I always telling you
my dirty little secrets?
511
00:44:19,524 --> 00:44:21,359
How 'bout you tell me something?
512
00:44:21,426 --> 00:44:23,128
Tell me something you never
told someone else before,
513
00:44:23,194 --> 00:44:24,362
how's that?
514
00:44:24,429 --> 00:44:26,331
Something you swore
you'd take to the grave.
515
00:44:26,397 --> 00:44:27,598
I don't have anything like that.
516
00:44:27,665 --> 00:44:28,734
Bullshit.
517
00:44:28,800 --> 00:44:30,268
-Bullshit?
-Yeah.
518
00:44:30,335 --> 00:44:31,536
I'm sure you have
at least two of 'em--
519
00:44:31,602 --> 00:44:33,438
fuck, probably more.
520
00:44:33,504 --> 00:44:36,708
What makes you think that?
521
00:44:36,775 --> 00:44:38,476
'Cause at the end
of the day, Sid,
522
00:44:38,543 --> 00:44:40,678
I get the sneaking suspicion
that you and me
523
00:44:40,746 --> 00:44:42,413
aren't all that different.
524
00:44:45,283 --> 00:44:47,953
I tell you one,
you tell me about your wife.
525
00:44:48,019 --> 00:44:49,287
Ex-wife.
526
00:44:49,354 --> 00:44:50,288
Fine.
527
00:44:50,355 --> 00:44:53,558
Ex-wife. Deal?
528
00:44:53,624 --> 00:44:55,160
Deal.
529
00:44:55,226 --> 00:44:56,561
And you better not
try and bullshit me.
530
00:44:56,627 --> 00:44:57,929
I'll know if you're lying.
531
00:44:57,996 --> 00:44:59,497
I'm not a fucking liar.
532
00:44:59,564 --> 00:45:01,767
Fine, go ahead.
533
00:45:01,833 --> 00:45:04,235
Fine, don't rush me.
534
00:45:04,302 --> 00:45:06,704
-Fine.
-Fine!
535
00:45:20,285 --> 00:45:22,187
(Sid groans)
536
00:45:36,301 --> 00:45:40,071
My dad used to walk me
to school every morning.
537
00:45:40,138 --> 00:45:42,808
And one day, instead of being
woken by the sound of his voice,
538
00:45:42,874 --> 00:45:46,845
I woke to an empty house.
539
00:45:46,912 --> 00:45:49,114
I cried all the way to school,
540
00:45:49,180 --> 00:45:52,217
and I sat there
terrified all day
541
00:45:52,283 --> 00:45:55,020
something had happened to him.
542
00:45:56,187 --> 00:45:57,488
Heh.
543
00:45:59,724 --> 00:46:02,327
I was too afraid
to tell anyone,
544
00:46:02,393 --> 00:46:04,595
'cause for some
fucked-up reason,
545
00:46:04,662 --> 00:46:09,067
I got it in my head
that they would blame me,
546
00:46:09,134 --> 00:46:12,537
that it was somehow my fault.
547
00:46:15,406 --> 00:46:17,008
And I ran,
548
00:46:17,075 --> 00:46:21,179
I ran home after school--
I mean, I fucking sprinted.
549
00:46:23,348 --> 00:46:24,983
I sat on the couch
550
00:46:25,050 --> 00:46:28,086
and I stared at the front door,
551
00:46:28,153 --> 00:46:31,923
hoping he would walk through it,
552
00:46:31,990 --> 00:46:34,826
praying he would walk
through the door
553
00:46:34,893 --> 00:46:38,129
and say, "I'm so sorry,
Beautiful.
554
00:46:38,196 --> 00:46:40,866
I'm so sorry I didn't get
to walk you to school today.
555
00:46:40,932 --> 00:46:42,834
I got called away."
556
00:46:45,203 --> 00:46:47,906
I sat there
until 12:30 at night
557
00:46:47,973 --> 00:46:50,375
when my mom finally stumbled in.
558
00:46:53,044 --> 00:46:54,545
She was usually home by six,
559
00:46:54,612 --> 00:46:57,615
but apparently, she'd gone out
drowning her sorrows
560
00:46:57,682 --> 00:47:00,051
with the girls from work
561
00:47:00,118 --> 00:47:04,622
and looking
for my dad's replacement.
562
00:47:04,689 --> 00:47:08,159
Obviously, I knew none of this
at the time.
563
00:47:10,628 --> 00:47:13,865
I started crying.
564
00:47:13,932 --> 00:47:17,202
Saying, "Daddy's missing!"
565
00:47:21,139 --> 00:47:28,346
And, uh, she looked at me
and simply said,
566
00:47:28,413 --> 00:47:30,448
"Daddy's gone.
567
00:47:30,515 --> 00:47:32,517
He left."
568
00:47:43,194 --> 00:47:45,931
When I finally asked her
569
00:47:45,997 --> 00:47:49,067
if he was ever coming back,
570
00:47:49,134 --> 00:47:53,871
she just looked at me
and shrugged.
571
00:47:59,677 --> 00:48:01,546
So I took that as a maybe.
572
00:48:06,384 --> 00:48:10,088
And every day
for the next two years,
573
00:48:10,155 --> 00:48:12,523
I sat at the window
with a pair of old binoculars
574
00:48:12,590 --> 00:48:14,993
my father had left behind
575
00:48:15,060 --> 00:48:19,164
and I scoured every face
that walked by,
576
00:48:19,230 --> 00:48:22,067
and I looked
into every car that passed,
577
00:48:22,133 --> 00:48:25,770
and I looked as far
as my eyes could see,
578
00:48:25,836 --> 00:48:28,373
searching for him.
579
00:48:31,576 --> 00:48:35,146
Looking to see
if I could find my daddy.
580
00:48:39,150 --> 00:48:42,187
Of course, as you can imagine,
I never did.
581
00:48:49,961 --> 00:48:51,762
There it is.
582
00:48:51,829 --> 00:48:55,800
There's my big, dirty secret
I never told anyone.
583
00:48:55,866 --> 00:48:58,303
Happy?
584
00:48:58,369 --> 00:48:59,704
No.
585
00:49:02,207 --> 00:49:05,043
-Did you ever see him again?
-Nope.
586
00:49:08,113 --> 00:49:10,081
I'm sorry.
587
00:49:10,148 --> 00:49:11,682
Your turn.
588
00:49:11,749 --> 00:49:14,685
Tell me about the missus.
589
00:49:14,752 --> 00:49:16,521
We met three years ago.
590
00:49:16,587 --> 00:49:17,622
Where?
591
00:49:17,688 --> 00:49:19,357
Jesus, what difference
does it make?
592
00:49:19,424 --> 00:49:21,426
Deal's a deal, motherfucker.
593
00:49:21,492 --> 00:49:23,794
I stuck to my end,
now pony up.
594
00:49:23,861 --> 00:49:27,165
We met during rehearsal
for a play.
595
00:49:30,235 --> 00:49:33,771
I lied to you too,
I am an actor.
596
00:49:33,838 --> 00:49:35,573
I knew it.
597
00:49:35,640 --> 00:49:36,874
Why lie?
598
00:49:36,941 --> 00:49:39,410
Because it opens up
the same line of questioning.
599
00:49:39,477 --> 00:49:40,845
"Oh, you're an actor--
have you done anything
600
00:49:40,911 --> 00:49:42,580
I would have seen you in?"
601
00:49:42,647 --> 00:49:44,415
Which is the stupidest
fuckin' question in the world,
602
00:49:44,482 --> 00:49:48,886
because how the fuck do I know
what you've seen?
603
00:49:48,953 --> 00:49:50,555
Then I have to face the truth
that I've been out here
604
00:49:50,621 --> 00:49:54,025
for ten years,
I haven't really done anything.
605
00:49:54,092 --> 00:49:58,463
No TV, no big films, just...
606
00:49:58,529 --> 00:50:00,298
theater, some non-union films,
607
00:50:00,365 --> 00:50:03,634
and lots and lots
of shitty student films.
608
00:50:03,701 --> 00:50:06,871
-So what's wrong with that?
-Because it disgusts me.
609
00:50:06,937 --> 00:50:08,506
I'm disgusted by that, okay?
610
00:50:08,573 --> 00:50:11,376
I'm embarrassed
and ashamed by it, all right?
611
00:50:11,442 --> 00:50:12,610
All right!
612
00:50:17,282 --> 00:50:18,516
So to get back to your question,
613
00:50:18,583 --> 00:50:21,552
we met three years ago
and got married.
614
00:50:21,619 --> 00:50:23,121
For how long?
615
00:50:25,256 --> 00:50:26,924
Eleven months.
616
00:50:26,991 --> 00:50:28,259
Whoa.
617
00:50:28,326 --> 00:50:30,328
-You really stuck it out.
-Hey.
618
00:50:30,395 --> 00:50:32,130
Hey, just 'cause
your dad left you,
619
00:50:32,197 --> 00:50:33,664
don't go fuckin' assumin'
I ran away, okay,
620
00:50:33,731 --> 00:50:35,200
because I didn't!
621
00:50:35,266 --> 00:50:37,268
-She left me, all right?
-All right!
622
00:50:37,335 --> 00:50:38,503
-She left me.
-All right!
623
00:50:38,569 --> 00:50:40,638
She left me!
624
00:50:40,705 --> 00:50:43,308
Okay!
625
00:50:43,374 --> 00:50:45,743
I can't do this, I'm sorry.
626
00:50:45,810 --> 00:50:47,145
What's "this"?
627
00:50:47,212 --> 00:50:48,646
We're just talking.
628
00:50:48,713 --> 00:50:51,015
Yeah, sure.
629
00:50:51,082 --> 00:50:52,583
Oh, I see.
630
00:50:52,650 --> 00:50:55,052
You mean that somewhere
deep down inside,
631
00:50:55,120 --> 00:50:57,155
little old Sid
is just some needy bitch
632
00:50:57,222 --> 00:50:59,056
who wants you
to be her boyfriend.
633
00:50:59,124 --> 00:51:00,591
Look.
634
00:51:02,760 --> 00:51:04,229
I like you.
635
00:51:04,295 --> 00:51:06,464
I really do.
636
00:51:06,531 --> 00:51:08,299
But I just can't be
in something right now.
637
00:51:08,366 --> 00:51:10,435
I just don't want to.
638
00:51:10,501 --> 00:51:12,036
Well, who the fuck
asked you to,
639
00:51:12,103 --> 00:51:14,572
you presumptuous fuck?
640
00:51:14,639 --> 00:51:15,873
I don't want
anything more from you
641
00:51:15,940 --> 00:51:18,176
than a couple of orgasms.
642
00:51:18,243 --> 00:51:20,345
What makes you think
I wanna be with some
643
00:51:20,411 --> 00:51:23,013
40-year-old
fucking bartender anyway?
644
00:51:23,080 --> 00:51:26,817
Don't. Don't be fucking mean.
645
00:51:26,884 --> 00:51:28,486
You know what I think?
646
00:51:28,553 --> 00:51:30,688
I think I was right before.
647
00:51:30,755 --> 00:51:32,723
I think you should go.
648
00:51:36,327 --> 00:51:38,196
Yeah, sure.
649
00:52:35,353 --> 00:52:37,888
That was shitty of me,
I'm sorry.
650
00:52:39,757 --> 00:52:41,259
No biggie.
651
00:52:43,561 --> 00:52:45,696
Yeah, well, I'm sorry.
652
00:52:47,565 --> 00:52:50,368
I think you're great, really.
653
00:52:52,703 --> 00:52:56,474
Most people, 20 minutes in,
I wanna set myself on fire.
654
00:52:57,742 --> 00:52:59,310
You're different.
655
00:53:00,611 --> 00:53:03,714
Glad to hear it. Get out.
656
00:53:10,020 --> 00:53:11,822
No.
657
00:53:13,157 --> 00:53:15,460
I'm sorry?
658
00:53:17,462 --> 00:53:20,197
No, I think I'm gonna stay.
659
00:53:20,265 --> 00:53:23,067
It's really not your fucking
decision to make, now is it?
660
00:53:23,133 --> 00:53:25,336
Get. Out.
661
00:53:27,772 --> 00:53:29,474
Nope.
662
00:53:31,175 --> 00:53:33,278
(clunking shoes off)
663
00:53:41,018 --> 00:53:43,821
Wow.
664
00:53:43,888 --> 00:53:48,393
You are precious.
665
00:53:48,459 --> 00:53:49,560
One minute you're telling me
you don't want
666
00:53:49,627 --> 00:53:50,861
anything to do with me,
and the next,
667
00:53:50,928 --> 00:53:54,865
you're refusing
to leave my house?
668
00:53:54,932 --> 00:53:56,601
That's a very
glass-is-half empty kinda way
669
00:53:56,667 --> 00:54:00,371
of looking at it,
don't you think?
670
00:54:00,438 --> 00:54:02,607
You wanna know what I think?
671
00:54:02,673 --> 00:54:05,643
I'm sure in the next 20 seconds,
I'll have an idea.
672
00:54:07,445 --> 00:54:09,680
I think you have
exactly ten seconds
673
00:54:09,747 --> 00:54:12,350
to put those shoes back on
and get the fuck outta my house
674
00:54:12,417 --> 00:54:15,520
before something bad
happens to you.
675
00:54:17,054 --> 00:54:18,623
Can we just go back
to the part where
676
00:54:18,689 --> 00:54:20,891
all you want from me
are some orgasms?
677
00:54:20,958 --> 00:54:24,094
Because I'm really starting
(inaudible).
678
00:54:24,161 --> 00:54:25,996
Okay, sport, out!
679
00:54:26,063 --> 00:54:27,465
Whoa!
680
00:54:27,532 --> 00:54:29,367
I'm sorry about earlier, I am.
681
00:54:29,434 --> 00:54:32,136
I'm sure you are,
but I'm through with you,
682
00:54:32,202 --> 00:54:34,004
-so out you go.
-Fine.
683
00:54:34,071 --> 00:54:36,341
But look, I didn't mean
what I said, I was upset.
684
00:54:36,407 --> 00:54:38,343
I'm serious,
I'm done with you.
685
00:54:38,409 --> 00:54:40,511
What the fuck, Sid? Come on.
686
00:54:40,578 --> 00:54:43,648
I'm done--me, not you, me!
687
00:54:43,714 --> 00:54:44,849
Fuck!
688
00:54:46,751 --> 00:54:48,386
What the fuck
is wrong with you, huh?
689
00:54:48,453 --> 00:54:50,355
(screams)
690
00:54:54,759 --> 00:54:56,627
Fuck.
691
00:55:00,965 --> 00:55:03,501
(Max cries)
692
00:55:26,323 --> 00:55:30,060
(sounds of passing traffic)
693
00:56:33,057 --> 00:56:35,426
(chair scrapes floor)
694
00:56:40,631 --> 00:56:43,701
You don't have to go
if you don't want to.
695
00:56:43,768 --> 00:56:46,036
(Max laughs ruefully)
696
00:56:53,511 --> 00:56:55,145
I lied to you before
697
00:56:55,212 --> 00:56:59,684
when I told you
I just worked at Starbucks.
698
00:56:59,750 --> 00:57:01,619
I write.
699
00:57:01,686 --> 00:57:03,654
I wanna be a writer.
700
00:57:05,856 --> 00:57:08,893
I don't know why
I'm telling you now.
701
00:57:08,959 --> 00:57:11,629
I guess I thought
you should know.
702
00:57:15,199 --> 00:57:16,834
Why'd you lie?
703
00:57:18,569 --> 00:57:19,904
Same as you.
704
00:57:23,073 --> 00:57:25,910
In all these years,
I've never published
705
00:57:25,976 --> 00:57:28,646
a single thing.
706
00:57:28,713 --> 00:57:30,581
Not one word.
707
00:57:33,651 --> 00:57:35,185
I'm sorry.
708
00:57:35,252 --> 00:57:37,655
I know what that's like.
709
00:57:45,696 --> 00:57:48,699
I'm sorry I freaked out on you.
710
00:57:48,766 --> 00:57:51,001
I didn't mean to hit you.
711
00:57:54,104 --> 00:57:55,940
It's okay.
712
00:57:58,342 --> 00:57:59,744
Stay?
713
00:58:09,319 --> 00:58:11,922
On one condition.
714
00:58:15,225 --> 00:58:17,762
(insects chirring)
715
00:58:32,943 --> 00:58:35,680
(sounds of traffic passing)
716
00:58:41,085 --> 00:58:42,587
It's great.
717
00:58:45,389 --> 00:58:48,559
You don't have to say that.
718
00:58:48,626 --> 00:58:52,229
I'm serious, it's great.
719
00:58:52,296 --> 00:58:54,699
You're a great writer.
720
00:58:58,636 --> 00:59:00,437
Have you submitted it anywhere?
721
00:59:00,504 --> 00:59:02,106
No.
722
00:59:02,172 --> 00:59:04,575
Are you crazy? Why not?
723
00:59:06,711 --> 00:59:09,279
I just can't take another no.
724
00:59:09,346 --> 00:59:11,315
I can't.
725
00:59:23,661 --> 00:59:27,898
-What are you doing?
-Shh!
726
00:59:27,965 --> 00:59:29,800
What's your last name?
727
00:59:29,867 --> 00:59:32,569
-Why?
-Because.
728
00:59:32,637 --> 00:59:33,738
What are you doing?
729
00:59:33,804 --> 00:59:36,440
What's your last name?
730
00:59:36,506 --> 00:59:38,175
-Lemme see.
-No.
731
00:59:39,844 --> 00:59:41,646
Last name, please.
732
00:59:41,712 --> 00:59:43,480
-Do I have to get my bat again?
-If you want,
733
00:59:43,547 --> 00:59:45,082
but it's not gonna stop me.
734
00:59:45,149 --> 00:59:46,751
I'm submitting this
to The New Yorker.
735
00:59:46,817 --> 00:59:49,519
No. Come on!
736
00:59:49,586 --> 00:59:51,956
No, Sid, I'm submitting this.
737
00:59:52,022 --> 00:59:53,290
All right,
this needs to be seen,
738
00:59:53,357 --> 00:59:54,892
other people have
the right to see this.
739
00:59:54,959 --> 00:59:56,260
And when they say no?
740
00:59:56,326 --> 00:59:58,996
Or worse, I hear
absolutely nothing,
741
00:59:59,063 --> 01:00:00,397
what then?
742
01:00:00,464 --> 01:00:02,066
Then we try somewhere else.
743
01:00:02,132 --> 01:00:04,635
"We"?
744
01:00:04,702 --> 01:00:06,937
Yes, we.
745
01:00:07,004 --> 01:00:09,306
I've officially made myself
your agent.
746
01:00:09,373 --> 01:00:10,708
Hey, pal.
747
01:00:10,775 --> 01:00:12,677
Based on what you told me
about your career,
748
01:00:12,743 --> 01:00:14,812
that's like winning
a bag of shit.
749
01:00:16,914 --> 01:00:19,183
That's nice,
that's very nice language.
750
01:00:19,249 --> 01:00:20,951
Thank you.
751
01:00:22,319 --> 01:00:24,755
You know the difference
between you and me?
752
01:00:24,822 --> 01:00:27,557
A vagina?
753
01:00:27,624 --> 01:00:30,961
Yeah...and I haven't given up.
754
01:00:48,578 --> 01:00:50,214
Whilemson.
755
01:00:53,851 --> 01:00:55,185
Spell, please.
756
01:00:58,555 --> 01:01:02,693
W-H-I-L-E-M-S-O-N.
757
01:01:06,330 --> 01:01:08,432
Is Sid short for Sidney?
758
01:01:08,498 --> 01:01:10,735
Siddhartha.
759
01:01:14,972 --> 01:01:17,274
My dad loved books too.
760
01:01:21,378 --> 01:01:23,447
It's a beautiful name.
761
01:01:25,182 --> 01:01:27,384
Thank you.
762
01:01:28,585 --> 01:01:30,420
Email?
763
01:01:32,689 --> 01:01:35,059
sidw@me.com.
764
01:01:46,370 --> 01:01:47,838
Congratulations.
765
01:01:47,905 --> 01:01:49,273
You've just submitted
your short story
766
01:01:49,339 --> 01:01:51,742
to The New Yorker.
767
01:01:55,179 --> 01:01:56,313
Thank you.
768
01:02:06,556 --> 01:02:09,026
You know what's so funny?
769
01:02:11,829 --> 01:02:13,097
When I first started writing,
770
01:02:13,163 --> 01:02:16,133
I was ecstatic about all of it.
771
01:02:19,203 --> 01:02:22,139
The research,
the rewriting,
772
01:02:22,206 --> 01:02:27,211
the long hours,
the confusion.
773
01:02:27,277 --> 01:02:29,046
The times when the characters
started saying things
774
01:02:29,113 --> 01:02:31,281
you never anticipated.
775
01:02:33,683 --> 01:02:37,054
I loved it all.
776
01:02:37,121 --> 01:02:40,557
I even loved the submitting.
777
01:02:40,624 --> 01:02:43,828
The rejection didn't matter,
778
01:02:43,894 --> 01:02:46,964
because I was doing
what I loved to do.
779
01:02:47,031 --> 01:02:50,935
I was doing what I knew
in my heart was right.
780
01:02:51,001 --> 01:02:54,771
I just knew I would win out.
781
01:02:54,839 --> 01:02:57,307
I knew I would publish.
782
01:03:02,046 --> 01:03:08,252
The idea of not
making my living as a writer,
783
01:03:08,318 --> 01:03:13,390
of not getting to share
my stories with the world?
784
01:03:13,457 --> 01:03:15,092
It was ludicrous.
785
01:03:24,668 --> 01:03:26,336
Now...
786
01:03:30,774 --> 01:03:34,678
...four novels,
787
01:03:34,744 --> 01:03:39,483
sixty-two short stories,
788
01:03:39,549 --> 01:03:42,452
two screenplays,
789
01:03:42,519 --> 01:03:47,291
and notebook upon notebook
of poetry later...
790
01:03:51,996 --> 01:03:55,265
the idea of writing...
791
01:04:00,437 --> 01:04:02,772
just the idea of it,
792
01:04:02,839 --> 01:04:04,441
hurts.
793
01:04:12,282 --> 01:04:14,151
Have you ever been to a psychic?
794
01:04:17,955 --> 01:04:19,723
A psychic?
795
01:04:19,789 --> 01:04:21,858
Yeah.
796
01:04:21,926 --> 01:04:24,561
Are you fucking kidding me?
797
01:04:24,628 --> 01:04:27,031
I went to one once,
she totally helped.
798
01:04:27,097 --> 01:04:30,000
-Did she, now?
-Yeah.
799
01:04:32,336 --> 01:04:36,506
It was kinda crazy, creepy,
800
01:04:36,573 --> 01:04:39,409
you know, the way
she was starin' at me,
801
01:04:39,476 --> 01:04:43,813
you know, the intensity of
her eyes, it was unsettling.
802
01:04:43,880 --> 01:04:45,415
Yeah?
803
01:04:45,482 --> 01:04:47,384
Did she tell you you were
gonna be rich and famous
804
01:04:47,451 --> 01:04:50,654
and then rape you
for a hundred bucks?
805
01:04:50,720 --> 01:04:55,225
No, not even close.
806
01:04:55,292 --> 01:04:59,964
She's staring at me
and she finally says,
807
01:05:00,030 --> 01:05:04,068
"You were a dog in a past life."
808
01:05:04,134 --> 01:05:09,239
Seriously, and I say, "Okay,"
and she goes,
809
01:05:09,306 --> 01:05:12,242
"You were hit by a car
and you broke your collarbone."
810
01:05:12,309 --> 01:05:15,512
-Dogs have collarbones?
-Apparently.
811
01:05:15,579 --> 01:05:18,482
And then she says,
"You still have scar tissue
812
01:05:18,548 --> 01:05:21,851
and calcium deposits on it,
to this day."
813
01:05:21,918 --> 01:05:24,054
And you know what?
814
01:05:24,121 --> 01:05:26,890
She was right, I do.
815
01:05:26,957 --> 01:05:28,692
Get the fuck outta here.
816
01:05:28,758 --> 01:05:31,661
Seriously--here.
817
01:05:31,728 --> 01:05:33,230
Look.
818
01:05:38,068 --> 01:05:39,569
(Max snarls like a dog)
819
01:05:39,636 --> 01:05:40,770
(Sid groans)
820
01:05:40,837 --> 01:05:42,072
Cocksucker!
821
01:05:42,139 --> 01:05:44,341
Cocker Spaniel, actually.
822
01:05:44,408 --> 01:05:47,677
(laughing)
823
01:05:47,744 --> 01:05:51,481
(birdsong)
824
01:05:59,689 --> 01:06:01,358
The sun's coming up.
825
01:06:05,329 --> 01:06:07,531
I wanna see you again.
826
01:06:09,866 --> 01:06:12,469
Do you?
827
01:06:12,536 --> 01:06:14,971
Yes.
828
01:06:15,039 --> 01:06:17,041
Why?
829
01:06:17,107 --> 01:06:20,810
Because I like you.
830
01:06:20,877 --> 01:06:24,481
I like you a lot, Siddhartha.
831
01:06:24,548 --> 01:06:30,620
And so we see each other again,
then what?
832
01:06:30,687 --> 01:06:33,623
I don't know.
833
01:06:33,690 --> 01:06:35,859
What?
834
01:06:35,925 --> 01:06:38,995
We start dating?
835
01:06:39,063 --> 01:06:41,165
Are we gonna date?
836
01:06:41,231 --> 01:06:43,500
Maybe, yeah.
837
01:06:48,038 --> 01:06:49,739
What's wrong with that?
838
01:06:49,806 --> 01:06:51,141
I thought you said
you didn't wanna be
839
01:06:51,208 --> 01:06:53,343
in anything right now.
840
01:06:53,410 --> 01:06:55,145
Isn't that what you said?
841
01:06:55,212 --> 01:06:57,614
I changed my mind.
842
01:06:57,681 --> 01:06:59,816
Oh, and how do I know
a few weeks from now
843
01:06:59,883 --> 01:07:01,851
you won't change
your mind again?
844
01:07:01,918 --> 01:07:03,520
How do I know that?
845
01:07:05,889 --> 01:07:07,691
I guess you don't.
846
01:07:07,757 --> 01:07:09,759
Exactly.
847
01:07:09,826 --> 01:07:11,161
Exactly.
848
01:07:27,111 --> 01:07:30,580
I've never felt this way before.
849
01:07:30,647 --> 01:07:32,116
What way?
850
01:07:35,319 --> 01:07:38,822
I've never felt the way
I feel about you before.
851
01:07:42,392 --> 01:07:47,564
I've never just met someone
and felt so drawn, so connected.
852
01:07:57,507 --> 01:07:59,443
If you don't feel the same way,
I understand.
853
01:07:59,509 --> 01:08:01,611
I mean, it's okay, maybe
I'm off base or something.
854
01:08:01,678 --> 01:08:04,781
No.
855
01:08:04,848 --> 01:08:07,751
I feel the same way.
856
01:08:09,553 --> 01:08:11,821
Then this is rare, right?
857
01:08:13,657 --> 01:08:15,725
This is something we shouldn't
just shut the door on,
858
01:08:15,792 --> 01:08:17,327
should we?
859
01:08:20,930 --> 01:08:24,301
What if we're wrong?
860
01:08:24,368 --> 01:08:27,971
What if our feelings are wrong,
861
01:08:28,037 --> 01:08:31,575
or worse, temporary?
862
01:08:33,877 --> 01:08:36,580
Huh? What then?
863
01:08:39,048 --> 01:08:41,251
I don't know, Sid.
864
01:08:43,119 --> 01:08:44,854
I wanna try.
865
01:08:55,465 --> 01:08:56,600
Sid.
866
01:09:06,643 --> 01:09:09,713
I thought you were
a betting kind of girl.
867
01:09:13,217 --> 01:09:14,551
Depends.
868
01:09:24,794 --> 01:09:26,696
Okay.
869
01:09:26,763 --> 01:11:12,035
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