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- Did you see Grandma again
this week?

- Yeah.

- What happened?

Ah, she said she was really worried...

"I've had depression. I know it's
hard, but I had my reasons.

And I was like "I have it too.
Of course I do. Just look at me!"

And she said...

"I know why... You
wish you were a boy."

And I was like "No Grandma!
Of course not!

It's nothing to do with that...

I'm completely comfortable
in my body.

I just want to feel comfortable
being a woman with short hair...

wearing the clothes I do."

She said "no, but don't you
want to have surgery?

Get rid of your breasts?
Don't you hate your body?"

And I was like "no, Grandma.
No way!" And I kept trying...

I kept explaining it to
her for like ages!

Then I just...

- Ya, turn over for me?

- Rá, lie on Yaki's tummy.

- Higher up.

- No, near her chest.
That's it.

- Raise the arm without the tattoo.

- Without the red one!

- Higher, higher.

- I just can't let my hair
grow anymore.

I tried, I swear!

– But when was the first
time you shaved it?

2015. After the sit-ins.
It was around then.

I arrived at the Fernão school sit-in
with it shaved already.

– I shaved mine around the
time of the sit-ins too.

- I met you when you had it short,
but Lana still had it long.

– Lana had that Emo fringe,
that she hates us talking about!

I've never been an Emo in
my life. For fuck's sake!

- But it was an Emo fringe.

It was a fringe! People just say a
fringe is an Emo thing. Come on!

A fringe is just a fringe!

It doesn't mean anything!

- She even turned-off the clippers!

- Really?

- Hey, don't piss her off or
she'll fuck up my hair!

- I'll run trough here!

- Lana, a bit more to the
side. The other side.

Looks nice.

- Thanks.

– Want me to cut yours now?
– Sure.

– After I shaved my
head we broke up.

– We met up as friends...

and he said to me

“Ah, Ananda, I saw you
shaved your head...

just don't become too much of a dyke,
coz I still wanna go out with you, OK?"

Men...

"I never thought about,
like, cumming with you and...

shut the fuck up!", you know?
– You should have said that!

– I used to say to my friends
I was like asexual and shit...

and there was no way
I was a lesbian...

because I'd always been
really feminine.

I didn't think lesbians could
be feminine, ya know?

That's fucked up.

– That's a lot of guys.
– A lot of guys?

– A lot of guys.

– And, like, these guys aren't
gonna take us seriously.

It's the same everywhere.

Say, like, for exemple,
we had a tambourine.

If it was a guy over here playing the
tambourine he'd say "Hey, get in!"

But he just asked for it and
gave it to a guy, ya know?

Didn't even ask if Elis knew
how to play it or anything.

There are no girls participating
in the music itself, ya know.

They just watch...
It's always the same.

He can't even play properly.

Hey, come on! Let's put our
chairs behind them!

– Seriously, come on!
– Oh, do we have to?

– Hey, Bro, can I play the
tambourine with you guys?

– Go for it.

– Cool.

Anyway you're beating
the shit out of it, man!

Today I came to tell you

That in a second
your life will change

When the world goes silent

In silence the body speaks

And heats up the heart

It's easier to feel
The sense of eternity

Let feelings flourish

And they'll make you grow

Let feelings flourish

And they'll make you grow

Going out with the girls I
always felt like a voyeur.

As if I was there, watching...

but not part of what was going on.

So I always thought this
is shit in my head...

that I should stop being such
a drama queen and then...

I felt really lonely, like there
was nobody close to me.

Then I went to the Candomblé house
and things began to get better.

Loneliness is something
that always...

it's one of my biggest
fears in life. To be alone.

I know there's all that about
keeping yourself company.

But at the same time I don't want to
be alone. I don't want to feel lonely.

– But this thing about being
lonely by yourself...

and feeling comfortable with that
is a process that has to happen.

But it's not something you can force.
– Yeah.

– Loneliness isn't solitude, is it?
You have to be OK by yourself.

Loneliness is when you really feel
excluded and alone

and everything around you
makes you feel that way.

When I started working I
was scared coz of my hair.

I'd always had a black power Afro.
I never straightened it.

– And your Mum never wanted
you to straighten it?

– I was lucky because my
Mum was always a militant...

– My mum was never aware of
reclaiming her black identity.

– Yeah, my mum was a
rebel for her time.

She was raised at an
orphanage, you know?

She used to run away to watch
"Os Racionais" in concert.

It was when they first started.

So she grew up with this
positive message.

That we don't have to adhere
to a white aesthetic.

So I was lucky.

When I was younger, I always
wanted to straighten my hair.

But she never let me.

It didn't matter if I begged
or cried or got on my knees.

Lots of white people associate
Afro hair with dirt, you know?

So I used to compulsively
wash it, like every day.

I used to put perfume on my
scalp! Can you believe it?

Seriously! I was afraid people
would think I was dirty.

After I cut my hair and stopped
straightening it, I started...

well, at first it was a shock. I
cried and didn't leave home...

or go to school even.
I didn't want to do anything.

I couldn't look at myself in the
mirror because I felt horrible.

But now... Man... I look
at the pictures from before

it wasn't even straight.
It wouldn't stay straight.

It was just ugly. I'd say,
man... look at this ugly mess.

But today I feel better about
looking at myself in the mirror.

Now I think it's beautiful.
My hair is awesome!

– That happened to me between
4th and 5th grade.

– I used to have it in braids, always.
– Like tied up?

My mum would make two braids
and send me to school.

Then one day my mum
was really sick.

She couldn't get out of bed.
So there was no one to do my hair.

So I had to let it down
and go to school like that.

I'd never been to school with
my hair down until then.

I remember I was
really embarrassed.

I was so ashamed I asked a
teacher to go to class with me...

What if...

I thought of a melody
for the lyrics I wrote.

She comes from the Ocean
She comes from pain

Resistance is a woman,
girl, flower

Breakwater, break the tide

Break the tide, woman

Breakwater, break the tide

Break the tide, woman

– What if we used this as a
base, but we sang two lines?

Two of us sing this and the other
two sing something else?

It comes from within...

Maybe the moment she figures
out what she wants to share...

and what she wants to
be for people...

a whisper, her presence is a scream.

I thought we could say
something like that.

– It was a whisper and
now it's a scream?

– From the inside to the outside,
from a whisper to a scream.

Dressed from the inside out
a whisper becomes a scream

Let's take it from the top, from
"She comes from the Ocean"

She comes from the Ocean
She comes from pain

Resistance is a woman,
girl, flower

She comes from the Ocean
She comes from pain

Resistance is a woman,
girl, flower

Ok so... "dressed from
the inside out..."

Is that it? Is that right?
If not, I'll cross it out.

I read some research that said
that our political protests...

since 2013, left people traumatized.

It is equivalent to Post
Traumatic Stress Disorder.

PTSD...

I have problems with loud
bangs not just fireworks.

Any loud noise that catches
me by surprise.

It always kicks off a reaction, like
I get breathless and stuff.

One of the protests was really
traumatic for Lana and me

it was the cause of my anxiety
and panic attacks and stuff.

It was with the school kids
when we closed-off a street.

And suddenly the police
arrived with stun grenades.

So we ran away and closed-off
another street and then...

The riot police arrived,
with military and others.

Man, there were so many
police that day...

six helicopters in the sky.

They had guns pointing at
us and they'd cut us off.

So they surrounded us at
this narrow street.

– You know those shields?
– The ones the riot police use?

Yeah, they surrounded us and
made a circle. We had to kneel.

Everyone was on the floor
with their hands up.

– All high school kid?
– Yeah.

Then they started throwing
grenades in the middle of the circle.

Lots of grenades

Lana passed out and then
me and about 10 of us...

Get out of the Ocean, my mermaid
And come play by yourself

Get out of the Ocean, my mermaid
Get out of the Ocean

And come play in the sand

Get out of the Ocean, my mermaid
And come play by yourself

– Guys, happy New Year!

– Happy New Year.

– Wow, what a sudden goodbye.

– Hey, not even a hug?

– We're staying here together for
the countdown to midnight.

– What time is it?

I'm going to ask Oxalá
Oxalá is my guide

It was Oxalá who sent you

So much searching
with no answers

So much searching
with no answers

– One minute left!
– One minute!

– ¡Un minuto!
– Put your earphones on.

I've come to open the doors

Love has brought me here

All the hate in this house
turn around and don't look back

I've come to open the doors

Mother nature brought me here

Bless your sons, my God

Bless Earth, Fire, Water and Air

– I think we're going to be lucky,
coz we started off singing, right?

– Lots of luck for us.
Lots of axé.

– I love you all a lot

- I love you too.

– Lots and lots and lots.