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[♪ Trivium Klezmer:
Varshaver's Freilach]

[Sofia] 12 years ago,
I picked up a camera

and started to film Roy Gurvitz.

He was the driving force
behind Lost Vagueness,

the festival within the festival

and the invention
which saved Glastonbury.

[man] I knew he was a winner,
you see.

I supported him
right from the word go.

The Lost Vagueness thing
was very good.

[woman] He brought
this incredible element

to the festival,
which was this partying,

this Lost Vagueness and
everything that it brought in

and all the tribes
involved in it.

It was just amazing.

[man 2] It was providing
an excitement

that had to be there.

Without it, Glastonbury
probably would've died.

[man 3] I thought Glastonbury
was quite out there,

and yet someone
within Glastonbury

was running something
even more out there.

[woman 2] There was something
about the chaos that he loved

and stoked and celebrated

and actually that's kind of
one of the things

that made it brilliant.

[woman 3] But it wasn't possible
to carry on like that.

We nearly destroyed ourselves
and each other.

[cheering and applause]

[man] Whoa!

[cheering and applause
continues]

[Sofia] Glastonbury is one of
the most famous festivals

in the world

and now much more
than a music festival.

Roy is one of the people
who helped change this.

[man] We weren't selling the
tickets like we should've done.

It wasn't a sellout situation.

So I thought, "What can I do
to put out something different?"

And Roy was doing
the ballroom dancing

and hiring in
the gowns and stuff.

‐ Hi, Roy.
‐ Hi. How are you doing?

Thank you for allowing us
into your oasis of civilization.

You're welcome.

Ballroom dancing. Why?

Well, it's s just an excuse
to get people dressed up

and have a bit of fun
and have a laugh.

Most of the people that come
in here do want to take part.

Michael, big fan
of ballroom dancing?

Not really, no.

I announced it to the world
and it went everywhere,

Australia, America.

We sold the last of the tickets

because of
the ballroom dancing story.

Extraordinary, wasn't it?

So I really feel
I owe Roy a favor

because of
the ballroom dancing thing.

[woman] Roy's eight and a half
years younger than me.

He got all the love
because he was a baby.

My father had
a really, really bad temper.

When he was in a good mood,
he could be a lot of fun,

he was always singing
and playing games,

but he had a dark side.

This'll give you an idea
of what my father was like.

That's my mum, and you can see
how beautiful she was.

And that was my dad.
Can you see?

With the gold chain,
and very clean,

very smart, very dapper.

Now, I never discussed
politics or religion

ever with my father.

But for some reason, Roy,

this is when he was a lot older,
when he was a teenager,

started arguing about...
I think it was about religion,

and Roy stormed out and said,

"I hope I never see you again
as long as I live."

And that was when he cut himself
off from everybody.

'Cause I never saw him for
20 years. Neither did my mum.

[♪ Adam & The Ants:
Kings Of The Wild Frontier]

[reporter] Every year
they become more visible.

Every summer more and more young
people opt for what they see

as the freedom of life
on the open road.

But what they encounter is
the hostility of local residents

and the attention of the police
who regularly move them on

from sites that
they're occupying illegally.

I'm a county court bailiff.
I'm here from...

[Roy] I did go and try and make
my own way in life,

and I suppose
if home life had been better,

I would've carried on
living at home.

I left at the end of the '70s
and you'd got the miner strike,

the whole traveler thing,
I lived on the road,

there was the squatting thing
going on, Margaret Thatcher.

[Thatcher] I'm only too
delighted to do anything we can

to make life difficult for
such things as hippie convoys.

[Roy] I've been beaten up by
the police, I've been arrested,

thrown out of squats,
had vehicles taken,

do you know what I mean,
this whole sense of

it all just seems really unfair.

Roy was a traveler,
you know, in the '80s,

and he was kind of
a gang leader type.

[woman] Travelers were always
a massive part of the festival.

But from a child's perspective,
'cause I was about 10 or 11,

there were elements of it which
were a little bit unsettling.

[woman] Well, I met Roy,
I'd just gone on the road,

thrown away all my
bricks and mortar existence

and bought a truck
and was just living in that,

and we were coming down
to Glastonbury,

and Roy came
sort of shambling up,

and he hadn't got a vehicle
or anything then

and he wanted to be
my hitchhiker.

She just sort of dropped me off

and threw me out
in the middle of a field

and then left me there
and drove off,

which is kind of, you know,
it's what women do, isn't it?

He'd never been
to Glastonbury before.

But I will say he did manage
to blag us in somehow.

He's quite kind of verbose,
isn't he,

and he's got a lot to say,
he's got a lot of ideas,

and everything's wrong
and all that.

I have memories of just watching
my dad and Roy interact,

and it was, like, mostly funny
and also quite aggressive.

There were times
when I was, like,

"I think he's talking the piss
out of you."

He was kind of troublesome,
but on the other hand

I thought I could deal
with this bloke,

and he became a link for us,

between me
and the travelers, really.

[Emily] Things were really good
for a while

and then there were
all the riots in 1990.

We just wanna go somewhere!

Glastonbury had become...

effectively out of control.

[Emily] There were
Molotov cocktails

being thrown outside the window

and kind of telegraph poles
coming towards us,

and that was really scary
at that point.

I got taken
up to my granny's house,

which was up
at the top of the road,

and all I could see
were ambulances just coming out.

I was, like,
"What's going on down there?"

It felt like
the end of the world.

It had to change
'cause it was fucking horrible.

It was violent,
it was nasty, it was...

Yeah, it was either
gonna die a death

or something major...
major had to happen.

[Melvin] Michael asked me

whether I would come
and help him

sort of restructure
the festival.

And I took on the responsibility

of having
the entertainment license

and... and running the festival,
effectively.

I just started telling people

we need to get
a lot more creative

if we want this to continue,

making it presentable
and changing the look

from being quite crusty
and aggressive,

you know, everyone's wearing
paramilitary clothing.

Wanker.

[man] We had
such a bad reputation.

We were, like, really getting
slagged off everywhere.

Everyone called us crusties.

The fucking press
used to shit on Glastonbury.

It was, like,
mud‐hell crusty city.

[Roy] A few years later
we came up with the idea of

why don't we just wear dicky
bows and tuxedos and ballgowns,

put the men in women's clothes?

And it altered everything.

It made everything
entirely different.

The same people, but suddenly
people were going, "Wow."

And out of that was born
Lost Vagueness.

♪ You're doing me right

♪ It's a perfect night...

I'd been doing bars there

for 10 years before
Lost Vagueness even started,

and I just thought,
yeah, we'll do a cafe

with a...
with a casino behind it.

And it was only half a dozen
of us and a roulette table

and we made it look like there
was a whole casino going on.

Everybody wanted
to get in there.

So the following year we put it
up and we let people in.

And that was a big mistake.

To let people in?
It was packed. Oh, alright.

No, no, no,
you're missing the point.

It worked beautifully
as this illusionary space

that didn't really exist
that people could see.

Once you let them in,
the magic's over, isn't it?

It's like showing someone...

showing someone
how to do a magic trick.

The magic's gone.

But... Well, it was for me,

but it... obviously
it carried on, as you well know.

[♪ C W Stoneking:
Talkin' Lion Blues]

[Sofia] After the success
of the ballroom and the casino,

Lost Vagueness became
the official after‐party

in Glastonbury.

I found them all in various
asylums up and down the country,

asked them if they'd like
to come out for the day

and a lot of them said yes.

Look at the back of that lorry.
Look how well packed it is.

[Sofia] How long
does it take to plan?

I suppose a good six months

of solidly concentrating
on this particular event.

[♪ Louis Jordan:
Knock Me A Kiss]

You've got the to‐do list,
I take it.

‐ I met Roy when I was 17.
‐ Yeah.

That's a fucking long time ago.

[cheering]

♪ I like cake and no mistake

♪ But, baby, if you insist

♪ I'll cut out cake

♪ Just for your sake

♪ Baby, come on
Knock me a kiss...

[Jim] I'd been doing a cabaret
called the Velvet Tip Saloon.

Roy asked us to do a sort of
exotic weird cabaret thing.

It started off just being,
like, a £5 gazebo from Argos

with some fabric
hanging up in it.

People were starting their own
little interesting side projects

which all ended up being the
sum total of Lost Vagueness.

I've got to put together
the guest list,

which is, as usual, enormous,

and help Netty

and then get changed into

a really brilliant costume.

[Netty] The whole night
is about Leila's costume.

‐ [Sofia] Come on, what is...?
‐ No, I can't tell you.

‐ It's in that suitcase.
‐ Oh, Leila.

Just do a baby preview.
We can shut the door, lock it.

I can't, because,
do you know what, it will...

it's so exciting, you're just
gonna peak too early

and the whole rest of the night

will be
a massive disappointment.

[Leila] It's really thrilling
being part of something.

When you sit down
and you talk about your life,

you talk about
the interesting bits,

not, like, I'm really fulfilled,
I'm a mother, you know.

You just say, like, I once did
this ridiculous thing,

listen to this story, you know,

and invariably they're all about
Lost Vagueness.

[♪ Morphine: Honey White]

[Sofia] I was constantly amazed
by Roy's ability to rope in

this incredible array
of creative people

who turned Lost Vagueness from
a small corner of Glastonbury

into a massive subculture
of its own.

[man] I started DJing
in the casino

and Roy said, "I really want
everyone to play classic."

I said, "Well, what about jazz?"

"Let's go with jazz, shall we?"

It was high time
there was an alternative

to rave and repetitive beats.

We were all
sick to death of that.

Lost Vagueness
encouraged me to look back

to what people
were raving to in the '20s.

What were they raving to
in the '30s?

[lively jazz music]

All this really wonderful music
became completely relevant

to the space
and the look and costumes,

and you weren't allowed in there

unless you looked
incredibly theatrical.

I went along and I used to
just kind of sleep

and go into the casino about
five o'clock in the morning.

And I just thought, "This place
needs dancing girls."

[♪ The Can‐Can]

[Marc] That was the start
of the infamous can‐can girls,

the face of Lost Vagueness.

[Michael] People thought
I was crazy dealing with Roy.

All my team said, "Why do you
put up with all that grief?"

and all that sort of thing,
and I said,

"Because he does
a good show, you see."

This is Lost Vagueness,

the field of Roy.

Yeah, they're all done
by folk, really.

It's quite edgy.
It's quite sort of...

‐ Does it feel more... ‐ Roy!

‐ You made it in the end.
‐ How are you?

You're looking very, very smart.
A typical traveler.

He's been dressed up posh
like this. [Laughs]

‐ People, welcome to the casino.
‐ Hello.

That's nice, little pink number.

Have you not got a shirt...
a tie on, young man?

‐ No, I haven't.
‐ Fasten yourself up.

It's a good job you're sexy.
Go on. That's nice.

I met Roy at an exhibition,

and I were just
gobbing off at somebody.

He says,
"You're just what I need."

It's a good laugh, but the mud's
no good in stilettos.

It's a bit of a nightmare.

Somebody said
you could get dressed up

and... I thought that was an
entertaining idea, so here I am.

‐ This is a little big.
‐ [woman] Wear a dress.

Men in dresses are much sexier
than men in suits.

Show me a dress
I could fit into.

‐ There you go.
‐ Ladies and gentlemen...

I didn't exactly expect this.

Where the fuck did you get that?

‐ Let your hair down.
‐ Hair down. Hair down, darling.

Hair down.

Oh, my God.
Now I'm getting styled.

Now look at the camera, baby.

[man] I snogged two blokes
last night,

and as a, you know, bona fide,
confirmed straight guy,

I'm a bit worried

that Lost Vagueness is having
a bit too much influence on me.

All the transsexuals and all
that, it just kind of burst.

‐ The gay scene has arrived.
‐ It's so lovely to see that.

♪ I spent my life exploring

♪ The subtle whoring

♪ That cost too much to be free

♪ Hey, baby
I've been to paradise

♪ But I've never been to me ♪

[Michael] I think it's a bit too
wild, really, it's a bit risky.

It's too naughty,
if you like, you know.

That's what makes it
so exciting, though.

My name is Silas P. Love Truth

and these are my sisters
of perpetual indulgence,

and we are here at the Chapel
of Love and Loathing

in Lost Vagueness,

ready to marry you
in unholy matrimony.

Whoo!

We're trying to have a special
fucking moment here, OK?

Ladies and gentlemen,
it could happen to you.

Love is all around, baby.
Love is all around.

‐ Oh, my God, my pussy! ‐ Meow.

My pussy's returned. Meow!

It's brilliant,
this changing room.

I came in as a dog
and ended up like this.

I think I married someone
in Lost Vagueness.

Not married them. I performed
the ceremony, I think.

‐ In the chapel.
‐ Was it a pantomime horse?

I don't think I married
the pantomime horse.

No, you... Were you not
the pantomime horse?

You didn't want too many people
recognizing you.

Ah, yes, that's right.

At this point in the proceedings

I'm supposed to invite
our friend Keith Allen...

[cheering]

On stage to perform
World In Motion with us.

[cheering]

You didn't mention the horse.

[Melvin] For me, in those
early days of Lost Vagueness,

it was providing an excitement
that had to be there.

You were in a position
where we would have

120,000 people
in the festival generally

and then the music'd finish
at midnight

and pretty much 120,000 people

then wanted to go
to Lost Vagueness.

[♪ One Step Beyond]

♪ Do it again, now

♪ One step beyond

♪ Step, step, step

♪ One step beyond

[indistinct]

♪ Yes, I do

♪ Ooh

♪ One step beyond...

I thought they were
for the parents to wear,

so you couldn't hear
the children.

But, actually,
they are for the children,

so they can't hear the parents,
that's what it is.

[Janis] We didn't know
where he was.

We tried with
the missing persons bureau.

They put things on Ceefax.

And they put something
in The Big Issue,

and the people
from The Big Issue said

three women had phoned up
and said,

"Yes, we know Roy. He's at
Glastonbury." Blah, blah, blah.

I thought, "What am I gonna do,
go into Glastonbury",

I've never been there,
walking round in the mud

"and looking for him,
with thousands of people?"

I thought,
"How would I ever find him?"

Had I known if I would have gone
there and said to anyone,

"Where's Roy, Roy Gurvitz?",
I would've found him.

This is my... This is my friend
Gary "The Dog" Davis.

Hello, everybody.
Are you having a nice day?

He's the... You're the apology
party candidate for Wales.

I certainly am, and I'd like to
apologize for coming from Wales

and living there
for most of my life.

The other thing you need to,

well, not necessarily
apologize for but rectify,

your pink tent's rather baggy.

‐ Is it? ‐ Yeah.

[Sofia] What I loved
about Lost Vagueness

was that every year there were
new worlds to discover,

places where creatives
invited you

to stumble into brilliantly
eccentric universes.

We have exhibits
that go right back

to show how the circus was
in Roman times.

Bonny is a butterfly trainer,
but I'm not a butterfly trainer.

I have, as everybody can,
trained ladybirds,

like you do when you're a child,
ladybirds and woodlice.

But butterfly training
is much more complicated.

Only women
can train butterflies,

and they're best
if they're hand‐reared.

I don't train butterflies now
because it's illegal.

[woman] I have been
to Glastonbury

and I was so struck by the fact

that people were putting
so much love

into making a space
so that I could be comfortable.

Then I met Roy and Roy said,
"I'm going to Glastonbury."

And I was, like, "Well, if you
need a hand, give us a shout."

‐ When was this? ‐ 2002.

[1920s music]

[Debs] There were people
doing things

that I had already
written about,

'cause my work,
when I was at art school,

was about
multi‐room installations

with performers
and audience interactions

and moving through spaces
rather than around objects.

And these guys were doing it
without thinking about it.

[woman] It was
a really amazing time,

because we were all
of a certain age, you know,

in our early 30s and, you know,
I'd do three shows a night

and I'd be, like,
coming on after Madness

and finish playing to, you know,

a room of, like,
2,000 people in the ballroom.

Lost Vagueness
really gave a platform

to expose a lot of edgy
and experimental work

to a more mainstream audience.

[Leila] It was a thing
that appealed to me

and I found it very empowering

and it kind of shocked
my feminist sensibilities

in a... in a good way, you know.

I felt like I was
a really emancipated woman,

and so to see someone
undress on stage,

it was kind of difficult
but then brilliant.

There was, you know,
loads of tattoos,

people were all different sizes,

and piercings
and all that kind of stuff,

and I kind of felt like they're
reclaiming the female form.

[♪ Rachel Grimes: Far Light]

[cheering]

Everyone who's involved in it

feels like a performer
to some extent, so, you know...

from the person
working behind the bar,

to people who are
just in there to,

you know, the people who run it.

We all kind of get
slightly into character.

As soon as start
putting a costume on,

you know,
you're leaving yourself

and that's
a really freeing thing to do.

[German accent] Here in
the Lost Vagueness tent,

we're very nice people
with multi‐bang sexy dick.

It's good times.

I have a toy
which I like to bring

called a Love Tub.

Come and have a look.

‐ Whoo! ‐ [laughter]

They take off all their clothes

and, whoa, look what happens
to my schlong.

It goes crazy for the love and
I have to beat it with a hammer.

Flicky, flicky, flicky.

Wow, I get so hard,
I am electric. It's very nice.

But it's for the people
who work very hard,

like the artists and
the prostitutes who we bring.

So if you want to come
have nice time,

come Lost Vagueness
in the Love Tub.

Strangely liberated.

I've always felt like

there's a sort
of inner bumble bee in me,

and I've always wanted
to do that.

I figured the only place I'd get
away with it was Lost Vagueness.

[♪ Fatboy Slim: Soul Surfing]

♪ With your help turn you on
With your help turn you on

♪ With your help turn you on
With your help turn you on...

[Fatboy Slim] I remember in the
midst of the bumble‐bee night,

having a kind of revelation.

You know, I thought Glastonbury
was quite out there,

and yet someone
within Glastonbury

was running something
even more out there.

[Roy] Oh, no! Get out!
That's not fair.

This is my changing room.

Roy had a French G‐string.

It's a once‐only occurrence.

Timmy, go and look.

Oh, alright, then. Go on, then.

That's as much
as you're gonna get.

You alright?

Good night?

Go away.

I thought you wanted me.
I thought you wanted me so much.

It wasn't like that
in the Jacuzzi.

[Chris] You could go right into
the roots of the anthropology

of what events do for humans

and why there's been
festivals forever.

Sex is at the background
of all of it.

It's kind of
a bit like the night

before the atom bomb fell.

You know the world's
gonna be over tomorrow,

you go down town and you see
the first girl you like and go,

"Look, the world's gonna be over
tomorrow. Let's make love."

That's quite an atmosphere
to create,

not the world's
gonna be over tomorrow

but that kind of, like, abandon.

And maybe the English have been
kept in this hole for so long

that you open up a crack

and everyone goes crazy,
and that's great.

[woman] Do you mind?
I'm getting changed.

[woman 2] This Lost Vagueness,
you know, it's a bit hedonistic.

It gets a bit crazy. We thought
we'd be a bit of an antidote.

You come in to our lovely house,

get treated like you would do
at your granny's.

We've got lots of services
we provide, you know,

do someone's nails or makeup
or trim someone's beard.

The Laundrettas started in 2003.

We were these kind of, like,
really young, feisty feminists

that were, like,
having a massive laugh.

We're just taking the look

of a sort of
archetypal housewife character

and sort of revealing all
those things that as a woman

you weren't really able
to do back then.

[Debs] I remember very clearly,
I said to Roy,

"This is amazing
and I can write about it."

And he went,
"No one's gonna fund us,

bunch of crusty travelers."

"They hate us."
Blah, blah, blah.

And I went,
"I'm willing to give it a go."

We got a couple of grants
and the first one enabled us

to turn it into a company,

increase the quality
of the show,

get some other tours in place,

and the second one was
a business development grant.

Now, thousands of music lovers
are heading to Glastonbury

for this weekend's
sellout festival.

And it seems this year the
hoards of teenagers and students

are being joined by a larger
30‐something contingent.

[reporter] It is the traditional.

Glastonbury experience,

wind, rain and unruly tents.

But this year
there's an alternative.

Glastonbury posh.

The Lost Vagueness Hotel
offers room service, champagne,

hot showers and a caravan.

[reporter] How much
is this costing a night?

‐ 600 pound for this.
‐ [woman] For four of us.

‐ For four of us, yeah.
‐ Good value for money.

The clientele is perhaps
a little older and richer

than the average festival goer,

but this is certainly a sign
of how things are changing.

So this is the diner in 2003.

‐ [Sofia] Who's in that?
‐ Paul, Tash, Dieter.

Timmy in his youthful glow.

Gasmail. Legendary legend.

Joe Rush. So shiny, so handsome.

And then this chapel was
such a huge part of Vagueness

and Vagueness's success,

and then the whole thing
about Kate and Pete

getting married in the chapel

and then that spreading
in the press

and leading to
a lot of attention and stuff.

‐ [Sofia] Yeah, what was that?
‐ I think I might've made it up.

But it got out there

that they were having
a marriage in the chapel,

and then that got in tons
of papers and so forth

and actually
gave the whole thing

a big reputational boost.

[laughter]

[Sofia] After a few years
of success,

Lost Vagueness
ventured beyond Glastonbury,

putting on events
all over the country.

You didn't have to wait for
the festival. It came to you.

Lost Vagueness
was a cultural property

that everyone wanted a piece of.

[Sofia] How do you keep track
of where everything is?

[Roy] Well,
that's the difficulty, see,

'cause at the moment
it's mostly just me

that knows where everything is.

One‐hour call. 50 minutes.

[Chris] Lost Vagueness
would've cost millions

if you started charging
proper money for it,

so even when there was vaguely
proper money on the table,

you still could never
get enough.

It's a miracle, innit?
Look at it. It's great.

[lively jazz music]

‐ Hello. There you are. ‐ Hello.

‐ I'm filming everything.
‐ No way.

Lovely to see you.

Right here. Right here.
Step inside.

This man has the strangest
affliction that you'll ever see.

[Sofia] The nights
at the Coronet

cemented their influence

into mainstream culture

and they delighted
in presenting acts

that would shock and challenge
their expanding audiences.

Now, to be
completely honest with you,

I'm not entirely sure
what's gonna happen now.

We got someone
coming up next for you.

I'm just gonna see
how they're doing.

Oh, they look lovely
and everything's good.

As we welcome, with a certain
amount of trepidation,

the Pain Crew Circus.

[cheering]

[woman] There's a lot
of different ideas,

even in the freak show thing.

The fact that I present myself
in a very feminine way

is kind of my way of saying
I am female,

but I am hardcore

and I can out‐scare most of you

and still wear stilettos.

[cheering]

I like shocking people.

When somebody throws up
or passes out,

you know that they're
not gonna forget that show.

Often afterwards, you know,
they'll come round backstage

and thank you
for doing a really great show.

I mean, you've really
touched a nerve there.

You've really hit home
to somebody.

I come off stage after having
done the splits on broken glass

or been swinging
from meat hooks in my back,

and the first thing
I get asked is.

"Where do you get
your lipstick?"

‐ Seriously? ‐ I'm not joking.

I'm not joking.

I get a lot of support from the
female members of the audience.

They feel a little bit uplifted
to see somebody

not sort of just
flouncing around

and looking petite and demure.

I know that I grew up
in the middle of nowhere,

in the countryside,

and I felt very, very isolated,
and now I've found

so many like‐minded souls
across the globe.

It's pleasant to know
that you're not just weird,

just everyone's different.

It's important
to encourage diversity,

even if it's just for...

just injecting a little bit
of magic into somebody's day,

a little bit
of wonder and delight

and childlike innocence.

You're sort of giving people

a little bit
of their innocence back.

Or taking it away. Hmm.

[laughs]

[cheering]

One of our favorite perverted
acts is banned at Vagueness,

called Mouse.

Is my mum gonna see this?

[Sofia] Uh, if it's on telly.

I'm not gonna say anything else.

I'm not saying anything
about it.

[Sofia laughs]

You can't stop there.

‐ No. ‐ Tell us about Mouse.

No. I'm not saying a thing.

‐ Ask why she was banned. ‐ OK.

[Chris] People were wet.

[laughs]

They needed their costumes
dry‐cleaning.

[laughs]

It's really nice, 'cause
we're still talking about it.

That's what I fucking love
about it.

And everyone
really remembers it,

and we've all, you know, kind of
gone through it together.

But I was in the tech booth,
and I've seen it before,

but she'd only done the anal...
what's it called?

Where you put the water
in your bum and... Enema.

That was her act before.
The enema.

So I was, like,
"Yay! Mouse is coming."

‐ She's developed it.
‐ She's much better at it now.

There's certain things, if
you're doing an enema every day,

it's nearly every day that I do
an enema, that you can't do.

You can't have a lot of bread.
You can't have chili.

Mushy peas are a bit iffy.

And when I went and stood back
with Giz, he was like,

"God, did she just do
what I thought she did"?

And I was, like, "Yeah."

'Cause I thought, you know,
it's Mouse now,

and I didn't see,
but she'd eaten dog food

and then got someone in
the audience and snogged him.

All of that was new.

I'm still doing a dog show,
funny enough.

I was in West Bromwich
last week,

and before that Blackpool,
working for the army,

and they said,
"Get that girl off stage!"

and were very upset
and sent me home and...

Because, well, the sergeant
major was being sick,

and I was only eating dog food.

It's not real dog food.

‐ Or is it? ‐ [Sofia laughs]

It was me and Kirsty,
"Shall we book Mouse?"

"Yeah, let's book Mouse."
Do you know what I mean?

But I think she was meant
to go on on Saturday night

and she was meant to be
a bit earlier,

like, she was our last act,
on Sunday,

which really looked
like a statement.

To the wrong music.
It was drum and bass.

It wasn't meant to be
drum and bass.

It all looked
a bit more hardcore

than it was meant to look.

[man] Yeah.

Immediately, me, Kirsty,

Andy, Jim, Roy,

just went and shut ourself
in the office

as soon as it had come off,

and we were like...

[Sofia] What's important
about shocking people?

[Mouse] I'm not exactly sure,
but that's kind of all I can do.

One person fainted.
One person knocked me out.

She said, "How can you do that
to your own body? Are you mad?"

"What's it all about?
What's the message?"

I said, "There's no message,
and it's my body."

"I can fist my arse if I want."

[cheering]

[Emily] Some of the stuff
that happens down there

is quite off the scale.

Stuff which I'm sure, you know,
we don't know the half of it.

[laughter]

[Sofia] And I love the fact that
you don't know the half of it.

That's the whole point.
We shouldn't.

[Roy] The problem is, right,
is they've gone somewhere

and they didn't like it, right?

Which isn't really the same
as saying,

"Oh, I went there
and it was really poor,

really amateur,
it wasn't done well."

"No one really cared about what
the program..." It's nonsense.

[man] Saying a DJ
is poor quality...

‐ [musical ringtone]
‐ ...is just a real giveaway.

Voicemail box.

Yeah, I mean,
it's subjective, isn't it?

You can't say,
"I didn't like this."

It's pretty obvious
that they've not been

to a Lost Vagueness
event before.

The only thing that's a fact

that I can't disprove
is it was cold,

and for that
we can only apologize, you know.

If they've got a complaint about
that, that's down to the...

It was never advertised
as warm, was it?

[Sofia] The need
to keep money coming in

meant Lost Vagueness
was staging events

that couldn't have been
further away

from their beginnings
in a muddy field.

I was wondering
if the original vision

was becoming compromised.

We went to a party on a boat
outside the design museum.

We thought how well
it was organized.

It was well thought out, quirky.

I'd never heard
of Lost Vagueness then.

I tracked 'em down
and they're here helping us out

with this taster event
that we're doing here,

gonna carry on working with 'em.

Here's to a good
working relationship

for the next 12 months, I hope.

‐ Cheers. And longer.
‐ It could be fun.

And longer. And longer.

Hey!

[man] I thought there'd only be
about 10% dressed up.

And they take it very serious.
It's like a religion almost.

Are you contactable
through Jeremy?

Uh, yeah. Do you want my...

I've got a card.

[laughs]

[classical piano music]

[Sofia] You've been friends
with Roy for years.

[man] Yeah, we've shared
a lot of workshops together.

He's built quite a lot of stuff
for different shows in my life.

He's been there a lot to help,

without needing
massive financial reward,

just for the hell of it.

[Emily] Things had reached
a point with Lost Vagueness

where it's really hard
to turn down offers

to do commercial things.

It certainly
seemed to have leapt

from something that was here

and something
that was experienced

in a kind of completely
out there, free way,

it started appearing
other places

kind of in a more corporate
kind of setting.

[circus‐style music]

[Paka] I still
really embrace things

that for me have a feeling

of depth and roots
and anarchy and misbehavior.

A lot of the earlier stuff
couldn't have happened

if the motivation had been

anything to do
with making money.

Very different from the ethos

of people getting together
in a field

and creating something
that isn't everyday life.

[Chris] For us, as anarchic
people, it struck a great vein

to make money from rich people
or people with a budget,

and to feed that budget
back in to gigs

were the vibe was good,
you know.

So, yeah, it kind of
looked good on paper.

[cheering]

[Roy] If the corporates
had really seen

what Lost Vagueness
actually was,

they wouldn't have wanted it.

What they thought it was

was what the Guardian,

the Glastonbury festival
PR machine,

was saying it was.

And if we'd have gone,
"Oh, yeah, well,"

it's a loads of dropouts
from society,

a load of New Age travelers,

"and we'll come and do
a party for you,"

they'd have run a bloody mile.

There you go.

Oh, that's delicious.

[Roy] If you were wearing a suit
with a bow tie and white shirt,

it's a really memorable,
visible,

really delicious thing
that people would remember.

It is lovely, but I think

that's a little bit
too quirky and hippy‐ish.

Tell you what would be better,
if it was him in a suit

with a little thing
mixing up little martinis

and putting them on trays.

Yeah, but there'll be 20 people,

50 people doing that
on other stalls.

There will be nobody doing that.

‐ Because it's not corporate.
‐ But it's memorable.

But we'll be shooting ourselves
in the foot.

‐ Spending all this money...
‐ I disagree.

For all this work we're doing

and all this money
we're spending,

we need to be aiming
for the very top‐end clients.

‐ And they're not gonna go...
‐ But you can't have oysters.

‐ Who said oysters?
‐ That's high end, isn't it?

Yeah, well, blinis,
or, like, you know...

What's a blini? I don't
even know what a blini is.

What we were giving out
at the Guardian night.

But they're boring. There'll be
20 people doing that.

There'll be 20 people going,
"Oh, have a cocktail."

You're not letting
the argument enter your head.

[Roy] I have let the argument
enter my brain

and I simply disagree.

I'm not saying
you're completely wrong.

You're saying
I'm completely wrong,

I don't know
what I'm talking about,

corporates don't want that,

and that's not
what I'm saying to you.

I'm saying it's interesting
enough to give it a go.

It's something
that people would remember.

One day I get a phone call
from my cousin,

who is my dad's
younger brother's daughter.

Another cousin,

from my dad's older brother's
second marriage, had phoned her,

because his ex‐wife,
who lives in Scotland,

was messing about
on the computer

and put Roy's name into Google
or whatever, you know.

And she said
a whole site came up.

So she immediately
phoned her daughter,

and she phoned me and said,
"I think we've found Roy."

So I phoned the number
and I spoke to him.

Just enough time had gone by,

and I think I knew that
my father was on his way out,

and I just thought,
well, maybe, you know,

maybe it's a good time to get
back in touch, I don't know.

What was the amazing thing
was that I could phone my mum

and say, "I've made contact
with Roy. He's still alive."

Yeah, no, it was just so nice

that she got to be with him
for a bit

before she died.

She never went to Glastonbury,

but we went
to one of the festivals,

and she actually sang.

I think it rained there
as well, didn't it?

‐ I think it did, yeah.
‐ It did, yeah.

Maybe it's just gigs
that you come to.

Maybe we shouldn't come anymore.

And not only that.

We met all his children,
apart from his son.

The three daughters.

But this was all
after my dad had passed away.

Roy never saw my dad again.

[Roy] Taking a few snippets
over a 15‐year period,

when those films were made,
yeah, it all looks lovely.

It's easy to do,
you're not gonna film someone

having an argument, are you?

You'll only pick up the camera

when there's something nice
going on.

[Sofia] Did you wanna be
a different dad to your dad?

[Roy] Very much so, yeah.

And I absolutely believe
that I am.

[Sofia] In what way?

Um, I'm not...
I'm not a demanding parent.

I'm not trying to make them
be anything

that they don't want to be.

I'm not horrible. I don't think
I'm horrible to them.

[woman] Who do you love,
Mommy or Daddy, most?

‐ Daddy. ‐ [gasps]

‐ Well done, Lola.
‐ I didn't expect that.

‐ [Roy] Classic. ‐ [laughter]

Good girl, Lola.

[woman] She usually says,
"Both."

I have to live my life, don't I?

I can't really live...
live any differently than I do,

and... you know,
and that's the example

that I'd like my children
to live their lives by.

I think it's better to live
your life courageously

and have near misses

than to live your life so safely

that it just becomes
a pointless exercise.

[Sofia] Within no time at all,

Lost Vagueness
seemed to be everywhere.

‐ Thank you. ‐ OK, guys. Hiya.

‐ Tickets?
‐ Yeah, we have got tickets.

[Sofia] One night I followed Roy

to the Erotic Review
yearly awards.

Lost Vagueness had been
nominated as best event.

Roy didn't have to think
about why he's doing it.

He knows why he's doing it.
Do you know what I mean?

That's, like... It's his thing.

I don't give a fuck
about events.

I really don't. I hate events.

I'm not gonna go and work
for an event company.

I could leave here and go and
work for some events company

doing a £20 million party
for Philip Green

on a private island.

Like, I'm... That...
That's not what I'm about.

Fuck that, you know.
Someone else can do it.

And they'll feel dirty,
I swear to God,

when they walk away from it,

because there's not that much
money in the fucking world

and you can't watch it
be spunked up the wall

in stuff like that.

[woman]
And cracking straight on,

the next award
is Lost Vagueness.

‐ [cheering]
‐ If they could come up, please.

Goodness gracious. What are you
doing with that, Emma?

‐ Bloody hell.
‐ Where did that come from?

That evidently is what I've won.

What I've won.
What Lost Vagueness has won.

1,256 people,
millions of people,

they're all responsible
for Lost Vagueness winning that.

Anyone that's ever been
to Lost Vagueness,

liked it, voted for it,
been there, worked at it.

Had a good time, there you go,

that is the combination
of all their efforts.

I've been going through this
whole philosophical argument

in the last week of, like,
what I want my life to be,

and that involves Lost Vagueness

and whether I work
for Lost Vagueness or not.

I think if I didn't work
for Lost Vagueness...

And really, you know,
also the question

of whether me and Roy stay
friends is... comes into that.

I'm absolutely positive
that I am integral

and that he appreciates me.

However, I've seen people
be integral

and, you know, be valued,
and I've seen him...

And it's not like he doesn't
value them or appreciate them.

It's that he fucking turns
from loving them to hating them.

In the meantime, I've actually
gone and booked a different tent

because it wasn't available.

[Sofia] After three years
of trying to be a business,

the pressure
was taking its toll.

With the strain of putting on
an event every six weeks

and 500 people to manage,

all the fun seemed to have gone.

I want the tent exactly where
it is on the map that I drew

and that's where I want it.

[Leila] People would call me up
about work

at, like, two o'clock
in the morning.

It was more like being
in a massive gang.

We worked really hard and then
we partied really hard

and then we worked really hard,
and there was no, like,

"Hey, its Tuesday night.
Maybe I should take it easy."

[foreign accent]
We have finished concert now.

We gonna have lovely party
with Frosties. You like?

[Leila] It wasn't possible
to carry on like that.

We displayed that.

[Roy] I can get you a letter

to say that we are guaranteed
this money from Glastonbury,

which the total will be
about £200,000.

Yeah, OK.

[Leila] You know when we were
talking to Jim the other day,

finance is
really difficult for me,

and I know that we're talking

about the money
going up and everything.

But I'm trying to think about
how to make it,

and I did actually think that
I was gonna have a mortgage.

But I've applied for
a management training program,

for people who work
in arts management.

Does that mean you go off
for a year and do that?

It does... Yeah, it does.

But 700 people applied for it
and there's only 10 places.

‐ Yeah, but you'll get it.
‐ No, no, I won't get it.

But I thought
I may as well just see.

‐ When does that start, then?
‐ September.

Right, if I owned
Lost Vagueness,

then I would see it
as my life project.

But I don't own Lost Vagueness,

so my life project
isn't Lost Vagueness.

‐ It's my life.
‐ Right, OK. OK, yeah.

Alright, well,
we need to work out

who's gonna replace you
when you go and do that.

[Sofia] A new company,
IV events, was formed.

I found it difficult to watch
as it began selling its parties

at international trade fairs.

Absolutely, yeah. Obviously
you can only do one thing here.

But if you look at the pictures,

we do everything from one end
of the production

through to the recycling
at the other end.

There you go. There you go.

[man] Hello.

[woman] This is us
smartening up our act.

[man] Are you alright?

[Sofia] The bigger it got,

the more things went wrong,

and as they did,

I saw a different side to Roy

compared with the man
that I knew from Glastonbury.

[Roy] He's promised us it would
all be here by lunchtime.

It's still not here.

These are fucking pieces
of toilet paper

and we're losing our business
for this.

But what am I supposed
to do about it

to make him fucking
get his finger out of his arse

‐ and sort out the problem?
‐ I don't know.

‐ What do we do? ‐ I don't know.

[Jim] He has fucked things up
really badly a few times

by losing the plot with people

that he didn't need
to lose the plot with.

He's put himself and everything
else in jeopardy numerous times.

Arguably, it's his thing to put
in jeopardy, so, you know,

if he fucks it, you know,
we'll all be alright.

If he fucks it up, it's his life
that's gonna be gone,

you know, not ours.

[Sofia] What about kind of
what really drives that.

You know what it is,
I think, Sofia,

it's because he has come
from a background,

I'm not gonna say
too much about it,

but he left home at a very...
quite an early age,

due to difficult circumstances,
and went off to make it.

And I think essentially
the answer you're looking for,

and, of course,
it comes from me and not him,

is that it's an attempt
to prove himself in some way,

to say "This is what I...
I've made good," you know.

I'm not sure who he's trying
to prove himself to,

whether it be his parents,
his family.

♪ You of all people Say you...

[Janis] I was very, very close
to my mum.

I think we all were.

Yeah, I mean,
we did have happy times,

but a lot of the time
it was spoiled.

[Roy] Describe my mum?

Very tolerant.

I don't remember
ever hearing her say no.

Always trying to feed people.

Could never go out
without putting on makeup

and being dressed up.

But I think that was pressure
from my father.

Everything had to be
the way he wanted it to be

rather than
how she wanted it to be.

And he was always
horrible to her.

He was quite a violent man.

[Janis] He was very volatile.

When there were arguments
and he hit me

because I used to shout,
"Leave her alone"

and I used to get really angry,

and my mum would say,
"Be quiet."

He'd tear up her clothes,
he'd smash things

and then he'd storm out.

And we'd say, "Please lock
him out. Don't let him back."

You know, we just had to be
really, really careful.

[♪ Alabama Shakes:
Future People]

[Marc] I think we were
building up to Glastonbury

and I bumped into Roy and he
was sort of having a moan,

said, "Oh, here we go again.
It's all starting up."

And I said, "You know, Roy,
I think you should just stop."

"You know, why are you moaning?"

"If you don't like doing it,

you know, just stop doing it,
if it's too stressful."

He didn't make it easier
for himself

'cause it expanded from
sort of 200 people to 20,000.

Can someone walk over to my
trailer and give Emma a radio?

I just need
to talk to her briefly.

[Emma] Hi, Roy.
I've got a radio.

Hello. I'm...

I've just phoned Melvin and
I said that I've been made aware

that my planes
are over at Trash City

and I'm going over there now
to repossess them.

There was somebody
setting up, um, a bar

in the cockpit of an aeroplane,
a lad called Phil.

I've been doing a cafe
with Lost Vagueness

since the first year.

I started thinking
about getting some aeroplanes

three or four years ago.

When I mentioned it to Roy,
he said,

"Oh, that's a crap idea.
You should do a boat."

Which makes me laugh now.

Phil was either married to
or in a relationship with Debs,

who was working with Roy.

Phil obviously was doing the
diner in Trash City that year,

so I was hearing about it,
but I wasn't going there.

I wasn't going up
to Lost Vagueness then.

I was, like, very much staying
down near the pyramid stage

in my little safety world,
basically.

[Sofia] And why did you
make that choice, then?

Because I would have been too
scared to go to Lost Vagueness,

truth be told, in that year.

There's no doubt
that these are the two cockpits.

They are the two
very same cockpits

that were used outside the diner
at Lost Vagueness in 2005.

‐ There's no doubt about that.
‐ No doubt.

‐ What's in doubt...
‐ They're mine. They are mine.

They're claiming they're theirs,
you don't know,

and I'm not asking you
to judge that.

We agreed upon

that they would not be used
here in this context.

They belong to Lost Vagueness
and that's the end of the story.

‐ [Phil] I've got the receipt.
‐ So have I.

‐ Show us, then.
‐ I don't have to.

I show you a receipt, you grab
it and run off with it,

'cause you'd thieve that the
same as you thieved the planes.

‐ Who's been paying the storage?
‐ Me.

No, you haven't.
Show me the receipt.

Show me a receipt.
I've got receipts.

Show me a receipt.
Show me the receipt.

Hang on. Show me the receipt.

You're showing me the receipt.
Go on.

You see the problem is that
we agreed that these planes

were the planes outside
Lost Vagueness last year

and they will not be
being used here, right?

OK, well, I'll tell you what,
Melvin, you deal with this.

I'm gonna fucking tell
everyone in my area

to fuck off and go home,
including myself.

‐ You've won, Melvin.
‐ I haven't won.

You can have your fake Lost
Vagueness all to your very self.

Shut the field.

I can't shut these
camping fucking fields as well.

Alright. I'll fucking
do it myself, alright?

If that's what you want,
I'll do it myself.

Sorry. This area is now shut.

You can't come back in.
Thank you.

He'll be alright. He's just
angry at the moment, isn't he?

[Sofia] Has he done this before?

What, kicked off?

No, threatened to shut
the whole thing down.

Um, probably,
not that I can remember,

but I don't really take any
of it that seriously, you know.

Maybe he has or maybe he hasn't.

He's a pretty explosive
kind of character.

[Roy] Hello, Michael? Right, OK,
it's to do with these planes.

They are in the middle
of that field.

Melvin is laughing at me,
telling me to fuck off.

So that is now what I'm doing,

but I'm taking all my stuff

and all my friends with me.

So either those planes
get removed or it's all over.

I'll leave it with you,
you know.

I'm already now downing tools,

and I've got a lot of cameras
here already.

Well, the world's press'll
probably be interested

and I dare say so too...

Well, I dare say your punters
will be concerned

because they bought tickets
that include Lost Vagueness

but it won't be here.

OK, alright, yeah.
You ain't got long. Hurry up.

Alright, thank you. Bye‐bye.

Melvin was actually
dead against Roy,

sure, all manner of reasons.

And I was
defending him against...

I said, "I'm doing it anyway",

whether you like it or not,"
sort of thing.

'Cause it's my show,
you know what I mean?

Well, the planes are there.

‐ Why don't you cover them over?
‐ I want them removed.

I want them picked up,
put in a barn.

They can stay there
till the end of the festival.

Yeah, but they won't do it.
You were gonna resolve this.

I tried to resolve it.
We agreed.

We agreed that the planes,
they're in dispute of ownership,

and it was understood
that neither yourself nor Melvin

would judge who owns them.

That would be
for a court to decide.

You cannot have both planes
in that field and this.

It's a simple choice.
One or the other, not both.

One or the other. Simple.

I've got very complex feelings
about Lost Vagueness,

but this isn't the way
to behave,

as a human,
do you know what I mean?

So that's what I think.

I don't think
any of the four people concerned

have behaved particularly well.

I think they've all been pretty
selfish and self‐absorbed

and, you know, creating a lot
of bad feeling between people

who have known and worked with
each other for years and years.

I don't give a fuck
about the fucking aeroplanes.

[Sofia] Did it matter
that they were there?

‐ They? ‐ The planes.

Lost Vagueness was already
an established, safe thing.

Well, it kind of mattered

because there was definitely
more of that to come.

I felt murmurings
that the chapel

wanted to have its independence
and go somewhere else,

and the trailer park wanted
to go somewhere else and...

So all the component parts,
you know, the roller disco...

It was a coup, you know.

It was just
being done autonomously

by Phil and Debs and Melvin.

[Roy] That is mine.
That is mine. That is mine.

The contents of that tent
is mine.

The contents of that tent
is mine.

That tower is mine.

The contents of that is mine,
all the dodgems.

It's all mine. The bar is mine.
It all belongs to me. Yeah?

It's part of my show, Michael,
and they've taken it,

and I'm not gonna allow
the rest of my show

to be picked up by anybody
willy‐nilly who comes in here

and goes "Oh, I'm gonna carry on
working," 'cause they're not.

If I picked up the pyramid
and left it

with a cardboard cutout version
over there

and I opened up
in a field across there

with Glaston Poo Festival, yeah,

I think you'd have
a problem with it.

I can understand
where Roy was coming from on it,

but I think he sort of...

he needed to get over it,
really, and move on.

We valued what he did,
as hard work as he was.

Bloody hell. I mean...

Have you been following Roy
all morning?

‐ [Sofia] Pretty much all day.
‐ So what's it about this time?

The planes in Trash City.
Still about the planes.

What, and Roy thinks he owns
them and they're in Trash City?

‐ So he's canceling it?
‐ They're his, are they?

Who knows? You're his
and I'm his. We're all his.

‐ You've gotta stop filming now.
‐ OK.

[Michael] Can we move
one of the planes?

[Roy] Alright,
we'll have one back here.

We'll split the baby in half.
I want to say which one I want.

‐ [Michael] I'm gonna tell you.
‐ No, you can't.

‐ I'm gonna tell you.
‐ No, I'm gonna tell you.

‐ No, you're not.
‐ [Roy] Then there's no deal.

[Michael] Crazy, you really are.

[Roy] Well, yeah,
maybe I am, maybe I am.

I'm as crazy as you, Michael.

[Melvin] For the sake
of the peace of it,

we would remove almost certainly

the one that Roy
would want removed.

[Roy] I wanna know what I'm
agreeing to. I'm unclear now.

[Melvin] To removal of the bar,
but not down to here.

[Sofia] Do you think,
in hindsight,

it could have been
handled differently?

Everything can always
be handled differently.

I don't think I could've
handled it any differently.

I could have just gone,
"Yeah, help yourself, you know,

here's the bank account, here's
all the trucks, here's..."

"I'll come and work for you,
you know. I'll volunteer."

I could've done that, yeah,
but, actually,

I don't know... I don't really
think anyone on the planet

in their right mind
would've done that.

[Melvin] I'm gonna take it away.

[Roy] I'll get people
working again, right,

but I'm also letting you know

it's purely about,
A, a matter of principle,

and, B, about me trying to save
the existence of this

and not destroy it,

and I feel like
I've been walked over.

I'm sorry, that genuinely
isn't my intention,

because, you know,
I love what you do.

Great. Get on with that
and I'll get on with this.

See you later.

‐ What's happening?
‐ Alright, let's carry on, then.

Let's carry on!

Roy to all listening
on the Lost Vagueness channel.

That's... I think
that's Lost Vagueness one,

Glastonbury Festival nil.

If we can all just ignore
the last half hour

and just carry on.

Sun's shining. It's brilliant.

[man] Cheers for that, you twat.

‐ Yeah, I love you too, Russell.
‐ [radio crackles]

He's lost his mind.

He's got issues that none of us
are responsible for.

These people just work,
they work hard

and they believe in something,
they're happy to play together.

[Leila] It was really hard

to watch all of your friends
be that angry

and see someone be such a dick.

And I think
he was having a breakdown,

like, I think the generous
interpretation of those events

is that he was having
a breakdown.

[♪ Wayne Newton: Danke Schoen]

♪ Danke schoen

♪ Darling, danke schoen

♪ Thank you for
all the joy and pain

♪ Picture show, second balcony

♪ Was the place we'd meet
Second seat

♪ Go Dutch treat You were sweet

♪ Danke schoen

♪ Darling, danke schoen

♪ Save those lies
Darling, don't explain...

Fucking hell.

[Roy] This is it now.
I mean, look.

Another black cloud
on its way over,

dump some more deluge on us.

There is no rest.
Apparently we're wicked.

Must be the case.

Beginning to think the
festival's being run by Satan.

Pretty tired
and quite happy to leave.

‐ [Sofia] Are you? ‐ Yeah, I am.

[man over radio] Roy?

‐ I'm just...
‐ I haven't got any, no.

‐ Pete? Pete? ‐ Yeah?

[Leila] It was really easy
to walk away

from something
which was so dysfunctional,

and I didn't really have
any regrets.

I didn't feel like, "The party's
carrying on without me."

Like, I felt like the party's
gonna end really soon

and it's OK.

Like, everything
was so messed up at the end.

It was on its knees,
you know. It was dying.

[Sofia] What killed it?

I think probably
lack of communication.

I think the unsustainability
of the gigs that came afterwards

were, like, made it so that
it was actually impossible

to pay 500 people to do a gig
on a budget of two grand,

and that added
extra pressure to Roy.

And maybe his response was...
not ideal for some people.

[Sofia] That was the end
of Lost Vagueness,

and I didn't know what to expect

when I found Roy and everyone
else seven years later.

Would he be dreaming up
new ventures,

or would he be living
a quieter life?

[man] Yeah, yeah.

[Roy] We're just a bit too old
for this shit, aren't we?

[both laugh]

[man] Crazy. Your end, Roy.

That's the one.

It was essentially my decision

that I wouldn't be going back
in 2008.

Um, as I recall, I had
discussed that with Michael,

that I said that
I wouldn't be able to come back,

and then he sent me
a letter going,

"Thanks, but we don't
want you to come back."

After 20 years working there,

didn't even get
a carriage clock.

But I did get
a thank‐you letter.

I don't know where it is.

After that, there was
this whole other scene born,

which was all the people
who had worked with Roy

who remained here,

and we had
this whole fresh, new scene,

and we came up
with the name Shangri‐La,

because whenever we'd been
away, my dad would be, like,

"We're back here at Shangri‐La."

He always called it Shangri‐La.

There's gonna be, like,
a main TV studio in the middle,

where all the TV programs
will be getting made.

Shangri‐Hell
International Television.

You won't be able to avoid it
everywhere you go.

[Sofia] Bloody hell.

[Kaye] Kids area we're calling
it, but it's really not.

The baton's been passed to me,

I think 'cause
I've hung in there,

because I really believed in it,

how art can transform people
and change lives.

[man] Get your
Shangri Liar here.

No bullshit in this paper.
Come on, now. It's only a pound.

All proceeds go
to the refugees in Calais.

[Chris] I met these guys
from Torquay.

What they were saying to me was,

this place made them
think out of the box.

That's the legacy,
because how many million people

have been through here
in 25 years

and gone "What? I didn't even
know that existed"?

[man] I'm not sure exactly what
the legacy of Lost Vagueness is,

except that we're still here
in most cases.

There's no doubt that this has
followed on in its footsteps,

with largely
the same core group of people,

with obviously some key people
sadly not there.

[Kaye] The festival's
completely changed,

but it's had to.

I don't know
what Roy would make of it now.

I like to think
that he would get it,

because it is a real
punk attitude behind it

that's the same.

[Sofia] Roy and his gang
created a entire culture

which we see around us today

in cabaret,
performance art and music.

Now all‐night entertainment
and boutique camping

is everywhere.

We met all these
really amazing people

who are now so deeply entrenched
in what the festival is now.

They are part of the fiber
of the whole thing.

So... So we've got Roy
to thank for that, really.

Michael wanted to put
a statue of him up.

[Michael] On the Saturday night,
I go right through the night.

One o'clock, two o'clock,
three o'clock, four,

and finish up
at five o'clock in the morning

when the daylight breaks,

and to see the whole thing,

it really is incredible,
absolutely amazing.

[Sofia] How does that make you
feel? Do you feel proud?

Oh, I feel tired.

[laughs]

[woman] Let's just listen to
the rhythms of our flesh aging

and watch the stars glow,
be your real self.

Show the things
they say you can't show.

Breathe deep
to the boom‐bap of the beat.

Believe what your heart knows,
let the bars flow tight

and love with pure energy.

It's a cold night in London

and I'm screaming at my loved
ones to wake up and love more.

I'm pleading with my loved ones
to wake up and love more.

‐ [cheering]
‐ Take care of each other.

I wanna say one thing. I say it
every time I'm at Glastonbury.

When you see someone
fucked up in the mud,

then you pick them up
and you give 'em some water.

Imagine you could take that
home with you

and actually care about
your fellow humans.

Take it at home.
Do it on the Tube.

Do it on the fucking street.
Do it in fucking Calais.

Take it home. Do it.

Ladies and gentlemen,

the most amazing Kate Tempest
and Kwake Bass!

[Sofia] What's so exciting
about Glastonbury

is the enormous scale
of creative risks.

If Michael Eavis hadn't
have taken a chance on Roy,

there wouldn't have been
a Lost Vagueness.

But who are the mavericks today
and who will be their champion?

[Kaye] Roy was
very cantankerous.

We were all a little bit scared
of him, actually.

But he was
really generous to me,

and his vision was brilliant.

[Debs] It was breaking down
audience‐performer boundaries

that then had so much influence

on Secret Cinema and Shunt
and Punchdrunk

and everything else
that's out there now.

Actually, they were on the cusp
of something enormous,

and it's sad, really,

'cause what Roy created
was extraordinary,

and if he could've
got over that hump

of allowing people
to be inspired by him

rather than fearing them,

I think he would've gone on

and created great things,
really, would be my view.

In a way, though,
isn't Roy kind of being true

to the spirit
of what Lost Vagueness was,

and we've all kind of sold out
a little bit?

You know,
we've all got proper jobs

and we live in houses
and, you know...

There was something about the
anarchy which he's held onto

that we've all
just kind of sacked off.

You know, I definitely have.

[Sofia] What do you think
about that?

I'm alright with it.
I've got central heating.

[Kaye] I've carried on
with Shangri‐La,

but it's meant that I have not
been able to buy a house,

like most people have.

I haven't got any assets.
I haven't got any savings.

I've literally just put my life
into doing this thing

because I think just creating
is the reason that I exist.

[Roy] Lost Vagueness, it was
a bit of a runaway train.

I'm happy that it stopped.

I would probably either be
clinically insane or dead

if it had carried on.

By choice I live on my own now

and I have done for a while,

and I find, you know, it's less
burdensome on women generally

to not have them...
make them try to live with me,

because I don't think... I don't
think it works, you know.

You know, I've had four kids
and four relationships,

all of which, they all feel
better off without me,

so maybe... maybe
there's a message there.

With my youngest daughter,
I think it's somehow easier

because I've had
more time with her.

With my older ones, either
I left or I was thrown out.

I'm much more involved
with the upbringing of Lola.

She stays here every other
weekend and half the holidays,

and she goes off to work
with me.

[Sofia] Can you foresee a day
when you can make peace?

[Michael] No, well,
I've sort of floated it around.

He could bring the chapel back
and just run the chapel,

but I don't think they'd have
him back, that's the thing.

Shame, isn't it, really?

The show goes on,
though, you see.

[Leila] It's been
a really, really long time

and I don't really
know him anymore.

It's hard to kind of feel angry

about someone
who's kind of a stranger.

[Sofia] Do you have
any fond memories of Roy?

Yeah, loads. Loads.
He was a really good friend.

He was, like, I had a break‐up
and he was fiercely protective

and really made sure
that I was OK

and that that person
didn't come near me.

And tried to give me
a car once. It was really nice.

I took it to get an MOT
and they were, like,

the chassis thing
had snapped in half,

so it was totally undriveable.

But, you know,
and he must have known that,

but in his head it was fine,
you know.

It was one of his classic, like,
disastrous vehicles.

And he was funny.
He could be funny.

In a dad way, you know.

[Sofia] It would have to be
in a dad way.

[Roy] I did wanna make
a success of it.

I lived and still do,
effectively,

as a New Age traveler.

And, yeah, at the time I think
I was on a bit of a mission

to get it across that
these disenfranchised people,

quite a lot were drug addicts,
a handful were alcoholics,

but there was a lot that were
much, much better than that.

And those people now

are the ones that are creating
the arts in this country.

And maybe I was on a mission
to prove to myself

that I was better than that.

[♪ Trivium Klezmer:
Varshaver's Freilach]