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(male narrator)
In the criminal justice system,

sexually based offenses are
considered especially heinous.

In New York City,

the dedicated detectives
who investigate

these vicious felonies
are members of an elite squad

known as
the Special Victims Unit.

These are their stories.

Good night.

(Cragen)
Good night.

Good morning.

You get your confession?

Nine hours,
guy held out for nine hours.

Well, the desk sergeant
asked me to bring this up.

You want a cup of coffee?

Yeah, and two eggs over easy,
some hash browns

and toast.

Coffee's fine.

"Have you seen this child?

"Missing, March 22nd, 1980.

Jeffrey Ronsen."

Jeffrey Ronsen?

Yeah,
an old missing child flyer

and a photo
of Yankee Clipper Park.

Somebody wrote an "X"
in the right field corner.

Look at this.

"He is here."

(Cragen)
Jeffrey Ronsen was seven
when he disappeared in 1980.

We spent the entire spring
trying to find him.

(Benson)
Wasn't there a guy
you liked for this?

Yeah, Lucas Biggs.

He played ball
in the Independent League.

Liked to pick up little boys

and take 'em home
for extra innings.

The day Jeffrey disappeared,

a dozen witnesses saw him
talking to Biggs.

We just didn't have enough
to make a collar.

I remember Biggs.

He got popped for a
kidnap-murder down in Virginia.

He's on death row, right?

Not for long.

He's slated for
execution next week.

Captain, we have something.

Got a hit off the ground
penetrating radar,

started digging,
found this...

Child's skull,
buried face down.

(Benson)
He's still got on
his baseball jersey.

(Cragen)
It's gotta be Jeffrey.

This is his neighborhood.

He played ball here.

Maybe leading us to the body
was Biggs' way of getting

a stay of execution.

Virginia won't fry him
if our case is active again.

If Biggs is behind this,
he's got help on the outside.

Somebody hand-delivered
that flyer and photo.

Which he coulda sent
to anybody.

Why did he pick you?

These are Jeffrey Ronsen's
dental records.

The two cavities
and the missing baby tooth

match the remains.

How'd he die?

Probably a broken neck.

See the breaks here
in C3 and C4.

[cell phone ringing]

Biggs suffocated
the one boy he killed.

What's up?

Kid started screaming.

He held a hand
over his mouth.

Breaking Jeffrey's neck
doesn't fit his M.O.

I did say probably.

Jeffrey coulda been suffocated

and the vertebrae could've
been broken postmortem

when the body was dumped.

I'll call the Ronsens,
let them know

they'll have the remains
first thing tomorrow.

(Stabler)
Captain, that was Kathy.

She's at the hospital
with Dickie.

They think it's appendicitis.

Go.

(Stabler)
I'll check in with you later.

I'll set up surveillance
at the funeral,

in case our tipster
decides to show.

I'll call the family,

make sure they don't mind
you crashing their wake.

(Benson)
Mr. and Mrs. Ronsen,
I'm so sorry for your loss.

Thank you, Detective.

The guestbook's right here.

Please sign in
before the service.

Thank you.

(man)
She writes her name
and the pen transmits

everything she wrote
to our wireless receiver.

The magic of digital pens.

We just cross-reference the name
with the original case files.

(Morales)
"Ronald Hooper."

(Munch)
Jeffrey's maternal uncle.

Lived in Seattle in 1980.

Tag him "low priority."

(Morales)
"Deacon Brinn."

(Munch)
Lived across the street
from the Ronsens.

Was babysitting Jeffrey
the night he disappeared.

Let him walk home by himself.

Deacon was the last person
to see Jeffrey alive.

(Munch on radio)
Liv, we're gonna
have to interview Deacon

as soon as the service is over.

Copy that.

(Morales)
I got another one.
"Avery Shaw."

Played on
Jeffrey's baseball team.

Week after Jeffrey disappeared,
Avery remembered seeing

Biggs talking to Jeffrey.

(Morales)
Hang on, what's he doing?

He's leaving.

I'll go talk to him.

'Scuse me.

Avery?

Are you all right?

I'm fine.

Do I know you?

I'm Detective Benson.
You left pretty quick.

I couldn't handle
seeing all those people again.

I just wanted to say
good-bye to my best friend.

You played baseball
with Jeffrey Ronsen?

He played short,
I played second.

We got a trophy once
for turning

the most double plays
in the season.

I can remember
when we took that.

Jeffrey yelled at Deacon for
getting his finger in the photo.

Deacon Brinn?

He was like our guardian.

He was older,
so he'd walk us home.

Made sure we looked both ways
before crossing.

Do you think finding
Jeffrey's body will prove

who killed him?

We're looking for evidence.
We're re-interviewing everyone.

Tell me about Lucas Biggs.

He had this huge stash
of baseball cards.

Everybody from Reggie
to Goose to Tekulve and...

He didn't look like a pervert.
He was cool.

So you didn't think
that he'd hurt Jeffrey?

Is that why it took you
so long to go to the police

and tell 'em that you
saw them together that day?

Everybody was blaming
Deacon

for Jeffrey's disappearance.

I didn't want them to blame me.

(Deacon)
Even my parents yelled at me

because I was the last person
to see Jeffrey alive.

I thought it was my fault.

Why were you with
Jeffrey that night?

I had to stay home
and babysit him,

so our folks could
go out to dinner,

like they did every Saturday.

I was 13.
I wanted to go to parties.

I was sick of missing
all the fun.

So I kicked him out of our house
and told him to go home.

That doesn't make what
happened to Jeffrey your fault.

Tell that to the Ronsens.

They haven't spoken to me

or my parents since 1980.

Even though
they were the ones

that let that child molester
Biggs into their home.

How did that happen?

Biggs' girlfriend was
the Ronsens' housekeeper.

That's gotta be how
he found out about Jeffrey.

(Benson)
We got nothing
from the funeral.

No unexpected guests.

No changes
in anyone's statement.

Just a lotta people
pointing the finger at Biggs.

I guess it's time
to talk to the man himself.

I want you on the next flight
to Virginia.

You really think he's gonna talk
after all these years?

Maybe to you.

If he sent the map,
it's an invitation.

(Biggs)
Last time a cop came here,

he tried to pin the death of
a boy from Louisville on me.

Where you from?

New York City.

You're a long way from home.

You must've heard
they're gonna kill me next week.

Nothing like waiting
till the last minute.

You know how many
of your colleagues

tried to get me to admit
that I killed Jeffrey Ronsen?

Twelve.

That'd make you 13.

Could be your lucky number.

Your girlfriend, Vivian...

she used to work
for the Ronsens.

Now tell me, Lucas,
is that a coincidence?

It was the first time I saw him.

I went to pick Viv up from work.

Jeffrey was running
around naked.

Screaming about having
to get in the bathtub.

His hair smelled like
Mr. Bubbles.

Is that why you went
to the ballpark

to lure him away with you?

I never lured him
anywhere.

He wasn't my type.

You sure?

'Cause I think you went back to
the ballpark that night, Lucas.

I think that you kidnapped
Jeffrey Ronsen.

You molested him,
and then you murdered him.

Listen to me carefully.

I never touched
Jeffrey Ronsen.

Then how did you know
where he was buried?

What are you talking about?

Why'd you send me these?

[chuckling]

You think it's funny?

Next Friday, they're gonna
fry me like a piece of bacon.

Why would I send you these now?

So we'd find Jeffrey,
the case stays alive

and so do you.

What you don't understand,
Detective Benson,

is I'm ready to die.

I've made peace with my Lord.

He's forgiven me my sins.

And Jeffrey Ronsen
isn't one of 'em.

Any luck?

Biggs wouldn't give it up.

So I guess he's gonna
take it to his grave.

Jeffrey was seven.

The boy Biggs killed
was older, right?

Yeah, he was 12.

So were the other kids
that Biggs molested.

He likes pubescent boys
not little kids.

Well, maybe Biggs never got
caught with the smaller ones.

Younger the victim,
less likely they are to talk.

Guess who's been drawing
on Biggs' baseball pension

since he's been locked up.

One Vivian Tate.

Jeffrey Ronsen's
old housekeeper.

Biggs' old girlfriend.

She's been living off
of Biggs gravy train

for the last nine years.

The minute he kicks,

she's back
to paying her own way.

That's a good reason
to keep the ex-boyfriend alive.

If Vivian knew where Biggs
buried Jeffrey,

she coulda led you to the body
and Biggs woulda never known.

He stays alive,
the cash keeps coming.

I'll go have a chat with her.

(Vivian)
Biggs can't cash
his pension check,

so I do it for him

and put a little spending money
in his inmate account.

And then you keep
the rest for yourself.

I didn't do nothing wrong.
He owes me.

I lost a good job
on account of him.

No one will hire me.

Because your boyfriend
killed your boss' son.

He didn't kill Jeffrey.

Sure he did.

Just like he killed
that boy in Virginia.

We couldn't prove it until
you led us to Jeffrey's body.

I didn't lead you anywhere.

You sent me this map
to his grave.

Tell me.

What happened?
Guilty conscience get to you?

Have it your way.

Vivian Tate--
What the hell?

You're under arrest
for grand larceny.

I didn't steal anything.

Look, most of that money
went to pay his bills.

He's been in jail
for nine years.

What bills could he have?

Lawyers for his appeal,
his storage locker.

What storage locker?

(Benson)
Oh, my God.

There's gotta be
100 baseball caps in here.

Trophies.

Each one from
a different victim.

(Biggs)
You had no right
to touch those.

They gave 'em to me.

To remember them by.

And I remember them.

Their necks, their shoulders...

their bellies.

Always changing.

Turning from boys into men

right before my eyes.

Shelf six, cap number three,

that little kid
with the cowlick.

From St. Louis.

Shelf two,

cap number four.

Little Mexican boy
from El Paso.

Huh.

They were always there
waiting for me in my room.

Waiting for me...

till I need 'em.

Tell me their names.

Only if I can touch them.

Take him back to his cell.

You know what we do
with old evidence?

We burn it.

Big old incinerator.

Turns all this junk
into ash in a heartbeat.

That--

That hat belongs
to Randy Morgan.

October 17th, 1979.

Macon, Georgia.

I went three for four
that afternoon.

Drove in two runs.

This could be fun.

Do you wanna go on?

Shelf two, cap number three.

Benny Giles.

July 31st, 1984.

Bethesda, Maryland.

I hit a walk-off double
down the left field line.

Shelf six,

cap number three.

Freddy Rule.

June 1st, 1977.
Tampa, Florida.

Larry Jones.
July 12th. Charlotte.

Scott Blevins, September 29th,
Providence.

Charlie Thomas.
January 10th, 1982.

Marcus...

Johnny...

Drew...

Kenny...

Eli...

Bobby...

Jeremy...Johnny...Pete...

Floyd...Joey...Neil...

Patrick...Ethan...Effram...
Zeke...

Alex...Daniel...Lance...
Jeremy...

Eddie.

Riverside Eagles.

Jeffrey Ronsen.

I told you,
I never touched Jeffrey.

Well, then whose hat is it?

March 2nd, 1980.

New York City.

Deacon Brinn.

Deacon Brinn
was interviewed five times

after Jeffrey's disappearance.

He never said a word
about being molested.

Not even after Richmond PD
arrested Biggs.

You think Biggs
is messing with us?

He had no way of knowing
that we'd already ID'd 13 hats.

He gave us right names
on all of them.

So where's Jeffrey's hat?

Maybe he wasn't wearing one.

Then tell me this, Doc.

Why didn't Deacon admit to
Olivia that Biggs molested him?

When you've been lying
to everyone for 25 years,

the lie becomes like a cancer.

It just keeps spreading
until it's outta control.

By now it's bigger than he is.

He lied to his friends.
He lied to his family.

He's been editing himself
his whole life

just to keep up the lie.

That's incredibly isolating.

The secret always stands between
you and the rest of the world.

Seems like giving it up
would set him free.

He doesn't know how.

After 25 years, it's who he is.

Maybe it's not.

Deacon has to be the one
who sent us this photo.

He and Jeffrey were friends.

They were both molested
by Biggs.

I mean, it just makes sense.

(Cragen)
The execution is next week.

Deacon can't stand
the thought of Biggs dying

without confessing
to Jeffrey's murder.

Deacon's been carrying
this secret for 25 years.

How am I gonna get him to talk?

Tell him you already know.

(Benson)
You recognize this hat?

(Deacon)
That's the Riverside Eagles.

That was my baseball team.

Where'd you get that?

We found it
in Biggs' storage locker.

He kept souvenirs of all
the boys that he molested.

You were one of them.

He gave me tips, taught me
how to hit a curveball.

I couldn't believe it
when he invited me to his place.

He treated me
like a grown-up.

We drank beers,

we watched dirty movies.

Then one day he did...

things to me.

He kept telling me that
we weren't doing anything wrong,

but I knew we were.

That's why you sent me
this photo.

How'd you know I sent it?

You just told me.

I should have told
25 years ago.

So do it now.

You're the victim here.

Deacon, you've been swallowing
the truth all these years.

It's time to stop.

I went to Biggs' apartment

the night that
Jeffrey disappeared.

I just needed
somebody to talk to.

I saw him leaving, so
I followed him to the ballpark.

He was carrying a big bag.

I saw him drop
Jeffrey's body in the hole.

Then he saw me.

And he said he'd kill me
if I told.

(Mrs. Ronsen)
So you're convinced

Biggs did it?

(Novak)
Mr. Ronsen, we have a witness
who can help convict

Lucas Biggs
of killing your son.

How long would a trial take?

Well, could take a year,
maybe two.

That's years
of going to court,

talking about what happened,
answering questions.

Years Biggs gets

to spend eating,
breathing, watching TV.

But in the end, at least
you'll have the peace of mind

that comes with knowing that
the man who killed your son

will pay for what he did.

We were out having a nice dinner
while that man murdered our son.

Peace of mind won't be
coming anytime soon.

(Mrs. Ronsen)
We just want this to be over.

Don't stop the execution.

[door opens]

Olivia.

Get your coat.

Engineer called it in.

He thought he saw
something go under the train.

The body was cut in two.

Deacon Brinn.

(Munch)
That's his car over there.

Drove out to middle
of nowhere
[cell phone ringing]

and jumped in front
of the train.
[cell phone ringing]

He wasn't ready to deal
with what Biggs did to him.

He's been burying it
for so long.

He sent you that note because
he wanted the truth to come out.

The truth about Jeffrey.

Not himself.

(Munch)
That was O'Halloran.

He wants us at the lab.

(O'Halloran)
Warner sent over
everything she dug up

with Jeffrey Ronsen's bones.

The cotton clothing's
long gone,

but his baseball jersey
was acrylic.

It's pretty much intact.

The wonders of biodegradation.

But that can't be the reason
why you called us down here.

This is. Found it stuck
on Jeffrey Ronsen's shirt.

(Munch)
What is it?

Bubble gum.

So Jeffrey was chewing
gum when he died.

What's the significance?

Jeffrey wasn't chewing gum.
His killer was.

Jeffrey was found
face down.

Gum's right there on the front
of Jeffrey's shirt.

So the killer spit out his gum

and tossed Jeffrey's body
on top of it.

Not exactly.

Ever notice how kids love
to play with their gum?

My ten-year-old nephew
rolls it between his fingers

and smushes it
before he throws it away.

So did our killer.

Now run that print
through AFIS,

my name would come up
in five seconds flat.

So whose print
is on this gum?

Deacon Brinn.

Deacon killed Jeffrey Ronsen?

It wasn't shame
that drove him to suicide.

It was guilt.

My victim is my perp.

Deacon killed Jeffrey Ronsen,
and he got away with it.

He had a good life,
a wife, and a kid.

There's no way he sent you
a photo of Jeffrey's grave.

I screwed up. I showed him
the photo and the map.

He knew he had to lie about 'em,
so I wouldn't suspect

he'd killed Jeffrey.

But why kill his friend?

He was probably
pretty close to the edge

after Biggs molested him.

Deacon was angry at Biggs,
but he redirected that anger

towards Jeffrey,
the younger version of himself.

It's called identification
with the oppressor.

Did he simply kill Jeffrey
or did he molest him too?

(Munch)
I'll bet he molested him.

The kind of trauma
Deacon suffered

can warp a victim's sexuality.

So Deacon doesn't want
to be the victim anymore.

He becomes the victimizer.

Until someone put
a bullet in him.

I thought he was killed
by a train.

So did I
till I X-rayed the body.

Nine millimeter slug
in his heart.

I put time of death

around 10:00 last night,

two hours before the train
hit him.

Could Deacon have
shot himself?

(Warner)
No residue on his hands.

Whoever killed him,
put him on the tracks

to make it look like a suicide.

Maybe the same person
that led me to Jeffrey's body.

Talk to Deacon's wife.

Find out
where he was last night.

Deacon wasn't home.

(Benson)
Where was he?

I don't know.

Zeke and I went out for pizza.

And I let him play video games
until the place closed.

And what time
did you get home?

It was, um...
just after 10:00.

Did you hear from Deacon
at all that night?

I called his cell phone

when we got back
from the pizza place.

Zeke wouldn't go to bed without
saying good night to his dad.

Was it unusual for Deacon
to be out so late?

We were having problems.

Julia, it's important
that you tell me.

I thought
he was having an affair.

Did you confront him about this?

Six months ago.

He said that nothing
was going on.

He just had some things
he needed to figure out.

He said he needed some space,
so he moved out.

Where to?

His old apartment.

He sublet it
after we got married.

When things got bad
he moved back in.

(Munch)
No picture, no books.

Looks like Deacon
used this place

as nothing but a crash pad.

Then why'd he keep
his desk locked?

A bunch of mail.

Some addressed here.

Some addressed
to the other house.

Love letters?

Hate mail.

"You're gonna pay
for what you did."

Postmarked a month ago.

"Truth time."

Photo of Deacon
and his family.

There's writing on the back.

"Before:
the perfect American family.

The after version
won't be as pretty."

Deacon's stalker knew
about Jeffrey.

Probably sent me
the flyer and the photo,

hoping that we'd collar Deacon.

Stalker knew about Biggs too.

Here's a clipping
about Biggs' execution.

The stalker wrote on it.

"He owned you then,
I own you now."

Deacon said he never told anyone
about the abuse.

So who knew?

Pedophiles like to share
their exploits.

Maybe Biggs bragged to our
stalker about molesting Deacon.

(Benson)
Somebody murdered Deacon Brinn.

Somebody who knew
that you abused him.

I never abused Deacon
or any of the boys.

I loved them.

Your love ruined their lives.

I didn't do anything wrong.

Come on, Lucas,
you know that's not true.

What did I do wrong?

I was born with these feelings.

I don't know why I have them.

They were always there.

It wasn't exactly like
I had a choice.

Neither did the 117 boys
you molested.

I never hurt them.

It never hurt me.

You were abused.

My father left
when I was a baby.

And when I was about nine,

this man moved across
the street.

He was the only one
I could talk to.

He loved me, he cared for me.

And touching me
was how he showed it.

I'm sorry.

[crying]

[crash]

I never meant to hurt the boys.

Lucas.

Deacon Brinn is dead.

And the killer knew
what you did to him.

Just tell me who you told.

No one.

There has to be somebody.

In jail, somebody
who knew you back then.

Somebody who knew
about you and Deacon.

There was a little boy.

He used to follow
Deacon and Jeffrey around.

And Deacon used
to look at him...

the way I looked at boys.

What was his name?

Avery.

His name was Avery.

Go, go, go, go!

Police.

Avery Shaw.

Bedroom's clear.

(Benson)
John, in here.

Photos of Deacon's prom.

His college graduation.

Avery's been obsessed
with Deacon for years.

Look at this.

Deacon's wedding announcement.

(Munch)
Check this out.

A map of Queens

with all these
different routes marked

leading to Deacon's house.

Copies of Jeffrey Ronsen's
missing poster.

Just like the one
he sent me.

Deacon's not the only one
he's obsessed with.

"Special Victim, Special Cop."

(Munch)
Avery's been stalking you too.

Liv, look at this.

Avery's childhood diaries
from 1983

when he was ten.

"I wish I had superpowers
hidden inside me.

"The kind that'd come out
when I need them.

"Like the Hulk.

"I couldn't stop Deacon.

If I was the Hulk..."

"I could have smashed Deacon,
pounded his head

"until blood came out
and he was dead.

"But I'm just me,
and I couldn't do anything

for me or for Jeffrey."

So Avery was there
the night Jeffrey died.

According to Avery's diary,
Jeffrey and Avery

were both at Deacon's house.

Deacon made the boys drink
until they passed out.

Then Deacon raped Avery.

Jeffrey fought back
and Deacon broke his neck.

Avery knew
where Jeffrey was buried

because he saw it happen.

Worse. He made Avery
help him dump the body

and told him that
he was going to jail too

because he was there.

Avery's diaries end at 14.

But until then,
it is all about Deacon.

"I shoulda stopped him.

"I can't wait till
I'm bigger than him.

I wish he were dead."

(Cragen)
Deacon ever rape him again?

Avery avoided Deacon
in any way he could.

Even talks about
killing himself.

Now he's gonna spend the rest
of his life in jail for murder.

If we can find him.

No trace of him
since Deacon's death.

Financials came in.

There's no activity
on his credit cards or ATM.

Well, any flights,
gas receipts, hotels?

Nothing.

But his bank records show
a bunch of big checks

written to a woman
in Manhattan.

$1000 made out to Kimber Faulk,
cashed last week.

Same last month,
same the month before.

Goes back at least a year.

He was paying her off.

Let's find out why.

(Kimber)
This is Theo.

Avery's son.

Is that why
he's sending you money?

Avery started supporting me

the day I found out
I was pregnant.

Same day he left.

Said he couldn't handle
being a dad.

Nice guy.

You don't know Avery.

He's the sweetest man
I've ever known.

We were together for two years.

And the only thing we ever
fought about was having kids.

You wanted them, he didn't.

At least he was honest
about it.

When it came to having children,
Avery didn't just have issues.

He had a subscription.

Someone really screwed
him up when he was a kid.

How often do you talk
to Avery?

We don't talk.
He just sends money.

Avery try to and borrow any?

No.

So this $400 you took
out of the ATM this morning,

that still in your wallet?

I spent it on groceries.

Nothing but formula.

Try again.

(Benson)
You said that you never
talked to Avery.

Why does your phone
show four incoming calls

in the last two days?

(Benson)
All from Avery.

Where's he, Kimber?

I don't know.

Tell us where to find him,

or I'll arrest you
for aiding a fugitive.

What's gonna happen to Theo?

Social Services
will take care of him.

Detectives, let her go.
Please.

She doesn't have anything
to do with this.

Stay back, stand back.

Don't hurt him.

Put your hands on your head.

Now!

I never meant
for this to happen.

(Benson)
Avery Shaw, you're under arrest
for the murder of Deacon Brinn.

You have the right
to remain silent.

Anything you say can
and will be used against you

in a court of law.
I'm sorry.

You have the right
to an attorney...

I killed Deacon.

(Benson)
Because he raped you
when you were seven.

Yeah.

How did you know?

We searched your apartment.

And I read your diaries.

But, Avery, what I don't know

is why you sent these to me.

I thought you'd figure it out.

Arrest Deacon without
involving me.

And then,
you went after Biggs instead.

I couldn't let Deacon
get away with it.

So you shot him?

Yes.

You coulda gone to anybody
in this precinct

with what you knew.

Why me?

I read about you in the papers.

About how you never sleep
when you're on a case.

About how your whole life
is about helping kids.

Same with my partner,
same with any of my colleagues.

You singled me out.

You stalked me for weeks.

Why?

There was just something
about you.

I knew you would understand.

You and me,
we're so alike--
No, we're not alike.

You killed a man.

So have you.

I didn't have a choice.

Neither did I.

I had to stop him
from hurting any more kids.

You did it as payback
for 25 years ago.

No.

I went to Deacon's apartment
to confront him.

And he said he was sorry
for what he did.

But he was lying.

He was still hurting children.

How do you know that?

When I went in there,

he was watching a tape.

And what was on the tape?

Deacon.

With a little boy.

John, call Crime Scene.

Have him meet you and Olivia
at Deacon's, find that tape.

Okay.

If there is one.

Can you arraign Avery tonight?

Why do you care?
He's a murderer.

Because he's also a victim.

Lights and siren,
we might make it.

(woman)
Ms. Conrad,
how does your client plead?

Not guilty.

Guilty, Your Honor.
I did it.

Mr. Shaw, please confer
with your counsel.

I-I know what I'm doing.

I want to plead guilty.

We shoulda checked the VCR.

We're looking for leads
on Deacon's murder,

not America's Skankiest
Home Videos.

(Benson)
Son of a bitch.

Not yet, okay.

Hey, why don't you come up and
sit up on the couch. Come on.

It's more comfortable.
There you go.

(Munch)
He filmed it right here.

Where the hell's the camera?

From the angle of the tape,
it's gotta be right there.

The air vent.

(Deacon)
What do they call it?
Dog fights.

Airplane goes--[whirling noise].

[Deacon laughing]

(Deacon)
Yeah, I think this one...

Okay, we got
a fiber optic camera here.

Connected to a DV recorder

and a motion detector.

Starts recording
whenever the sensor's tripped.

I'd say when someone
walks past the sofa.

And the recorder's wired
to the TV.

Is there a tape in there?
Yup.

Let's see who's Deacon's
last victim was.

What the hell are you doing?

Something I shoulda done
a long time ago.

Don't, don't, don't,
please!

I went to Deacon Brinn's
apartment last week

to see if he was still
the monster I remembered.

(Avery)
You molest your son

like that little boy?

No. No, no.

I would never do that
to my son. I love him.

Like you loved me?

Wait, wait, please,
just hear me out.

All right?

Avery, I never meant
to hurt you.

You gotta believe me.
Look, I did love you.

He kept lying, pretending
like he gave a damn about me.

Just like he did 25 years ago.

Shut up!

I don't want to hear that!

Just tell me why you did it.

'Cause I was so pissed off
at the world

after what Biggs did to me.

He said he raped me
because he was confused,

messed up by the pervert
who molested him.

(Deacon)
Avery, I was drinking
all the time,

I couldn't--
I couldn't tell my parents.

I hurt so bad.

And I just wanted someone else
to hurt as bad as I did.

Why'd you choose me?

You needed a friend.

And I knew you'd never
tell anyone.

And I ask him
how many other boys

he'd abused over the years.

And he said dozens,
maybe hundreds.

Look. You wanna kill me now,
I understand.

But it's just not in you.

It's not who you are.
You can't hurt anybody.

You just can't do it.

And I wanted to kill him
right then and there.

But I knew I couldn't do it
in the apartment,

so I forced him downstairs
into his car.

And I made him drive
to the train tracks.

And I shot him.

Avery didn't shoot Deacon.

[sobbing]

Fast-forward it.

(Benson)
Hold on, stop, stop, stop.

[cell phone ringing]

Hello?

Don't do anything.
I'll be right there.

(Munch)
Where's he going
with that gun?

(O'Halloran)
We dumped the phones.

Only call Deacon
got that night--

(Benson)
Was from his wife.

Julia.

I thought you already
arrested Deacon's killer.

We arrested Avery Shaw.

But he didn't kill
your husband.

Then why did he confess?

He felt guilty for not stopping
Deacon when he had the chance.

All those years of Avery
keeping silent,

Deacon was molesting
other boys.

We found tapes that
he made in his apartment.

Dozens of victims.

I had no idea.

Yes, you did.

This is one of the tapes

that we found.

It's of your son.

I thought there was something
wrong with me.

Deacon wouldn't touch me.

When I found out
that Biggs had molested him,

suddenly it made sense.

And you thought about Zeke.

Zeke loves his dad so much.

And Deacon loved him.

I didn't want to ask,
but I knew that I had to.

When?

At the pizza parlor.

I asked Zeke if daddy
had ever touched him.

He started to cry.
He said he promised not to tell.

So you went home.

You called Deacon.

I told him I was going
to the police.

He said to wait,

that he was coming over.

When he came in, he had a gun.

He threatened to kill me.

Zeke woke up, started crying.

Deacon got distracted.
I grabbed the gun.

I told him I would shoot him
if he came near Zeke.

He said that he was going
to move away.

That he wouldn't bother us
anymore.

He walked out.

I followed him to his car.

I was thinking about
what he did to Zeke.

And I couldn't help myself.

I forced him to drive
to the train tracks.

Then I shot him.

(Avery)
She doesn't deserve
to go to jail.

I should have killed Deacon.

I started all this.
I should have finished it.

Why now?

After all these years,

what made you want
to end it now?

Kimber got pregnant,
and I got scared.

I didn't want to hurt the baby.

Hurt the baby how?

Have you ever been afraid
of what might be inside you?

What do you mean?

I can't help thinking

there's like a switch
inside of me,

waiting to be flipped.

Just like it did in Deacon.

And I'd start hurting kids.

And that's why I left
my son.

You're not a monster, Avery.

How do you know?

Because you didn't shoot Deacon.

Because you love
your son so much

that you were willing
to give him up to protect him.

And the truth is...

you didn't have to.

Go to Daddy.

There you go.

Go to Daddy.

You hear about Biggs?

Prison doc declared him dead
12:01 A.M.

No last words.

I guess he'd left
enough of a legacy.

Yeah.

How's Dickie?

A handful.

He's demanding
cookie dough ice cream

and Jacka 24/7.

Reminds me so much of me,
it's scary.

Didn't know
you were a Jackass fan.

I meant, getting what I want.

According to Kathy,

it's not one of my more
endearing qualities.

Before you had kids, you ever
worry what they'd be like?

All the time, I still do.

At least you and Kathy

know what you're passing on.

Half my genes are drunk

and the other half
are violent and cruel.

Look how great
you turned out.

It's not all
about the genes, Liv.

All you can do
is love your kids.

Good night.

[wolf howling]