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EVE FLETCHER: I'm supposed to write this essay,

where you take a moment where you had

to make a decision, and I'm having the hardest time

trying to find that moment.

♪ (MUSIC PLAYS) ♪

I'm gonna go to a party tomorrow.

I was thinking...

I was gonna go with you to that party.

JANE ROSEN: We are in such a dry period.

I don't want to say my number. Say yours first.

-Three. -Years?

I'm really bad at starting conversation.

I think you are so much better than you think.

-(PHONE VIBRATES) -♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪

BRENDAN FLETCHER: I-- I sorta met this girl.

-Her name's Chloe. -Oh, I hope I get to...

meet her someday. Are you guys... like, dating?

-Nah, just like hanging out. -(CELLPHONE VIBRATES)

She has an autistic brother, so she runs a support group.

-Really? -Mm-hm.

Wait, I'm sorry. Could you say that again? I'm so sorry.

I said she has a support group for kids with siblings

like, um, Jonathan. So--

Have you been-- Have you been to this group?

Yeah, like, sometimes. People are pretty nice, so...

Brendan. Wow.

-(CELLPHONE VIBRATES) -BRENDAN: Yeah.

I should probably go.

-Well, I love you. (CHUCKLES) -Ah.

I'd say clean up your room, but it's yours, so...

It just builds up. It's like when you're--

when you're-- you know, reading and studying

and-- and all that stuff. It's like...

Who has time to fold

-and wipe? -Okay. Any--

I love you so much.

I love you, too.

-Okay. Bye. -All right. Talk to you soon.

Bye.

(SIGHS)

(CELLPHONE VIBRATES)

♪ ("DIVINE HAMMER" BY THE BREEDERS PLAYS) ♪

(SINGING ALONG INCORRECTLY) ♪ I'm just looking for ♪

♪ ...a way around ♪

♪ It disappears this clear ♪

♪ You're the rod, I'm water ♪

♪ I'm just looking for... Hammer ♪

♪ One divine hammer ♪

♪ One divine hammer ♪

(VOCALIZING)

Jane.

-It's over. -What?

The trip, my marriage. Everything.

(SNIFFS) Everything.

(SOBBING)

So, you remember last year,

he had that pinched nerve in his neck.

-Yeah. -And...

he goes to that tacky massage place, Solar Glow.

Right.

But then, his neck got better and he kept going. And...

And so, I just asked him about it.

Oh, no. Okay.

And I really didn't want to.

But I did.

-Okay. -And he just told me.

He told me everything.

W-- What... What did he tell you?

He told me... I mean...

what was going on over there. I mean... (SOBS)

Do I need to...

-Oh, God. Really? -Yeah.

And it wasn't just once.

It was a lot.

Dave...

Can I stay here tonight? I'm...

-I just, like, need to think. -Yeah. Of course, you can.

You don't even have to ask me that.

-Of course, you can. -Mm.

(WEAKLY) I don't know.

-Oh, come here. -(SOBBING) I had a life and everything.

Oh, hush.

(JANE SOBBING)

Should we do something tonight?

I can't tonight. I have a meeting.

Oh. Which group?

Queer Allies.

You can come. Everyone's welcome.

Nah. I gotta write that essay.

Tomorrow?

Tomorrow's insane. I have to cram for two giant tests,

but you can join me if you like.

What do you mean?

I mean, like, you can come study with me.

I have a microwave, so you won't go hungry.

Oh, so this would be in your room?

Yeah. I get too distracted in libraries.

I'll think about it.

-The suspense is killing me. -(BOTH LAUGH)

(DOORBELL RINGS)

-Hey. -EVE FLETCHER: Hey.

I guess she told you.

Yeah. I'm just here to grab a few of her things.

DAVE ROSEN: Okay.

(CELLPHONE VIBRATES)

Did she also tell you

we haven't had sex in over a year?

(CLEARS THROAT) Um...

(DRAWER CLOSES)

We didn't get into the, uh... (CLEARS THROAT)

the details.

A year's a long time, you know.

EVE: Mm.

A person needs to be touched.

I need to be touched.

Is that so wrong?

It doesn't matter what I think.

This is-- This is between you and your wife.

It's just that I was kind of going out of my mind,

and it felt better to...

pay for it than to actually cheat.

(SCOFFS) You-- You don't think that you were cheating?

No.

No. It was... so mechanical.

I didn't... talk to the person.

I didn't even look at her.

It was nothing.

Why did you keep going back?

It felt good.

Hey, Dave.

How does it work?

What?

The massage parlor thing.

I mean, do you just walk in there or do you--

-and just ask for it, or-- -Uh... the guy I work with...

he told me about it.

Guy, Rick, he just said you go in, you ask for Jenny

and you tell her that you want what Rick gets.

It's that easy, huh?

DAVE: Mm-hm. It's that easy.

-"The electoral college... -(LAPTOP KEYS CLICKING)

...is not actually...

a college."

-(GROANS) -(KEYBOARD CLICKS REPEATEDLY)

Fuck. (CLEARS THROAT)

It's just...

I can't... (BELCHES)

(CELLPHONE VIBRATES)

(CELLPHONE CHIMES)

(CELLPHONE CHIMES)

♪ (SOFT MUSIC PLAYS) ♪

(CAMERA CLICKS)

(CAMERA CLICKS)

"It's not..." (GROANS)

(SIGHS)

(GROANS)

Fuck you!

(SIGHS)

Fuck.

♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪

(SIGHS)

-Hey, how'd you sleep? -(SIGHS) I did not.

-EVE: Aw. -Dave called.

You look nice.

Oh, it's just a-- you know.

JANE ROSEN: Made you coffee.

Jane, thank you.

JANE: Oh, my God.

He asked if I wanted to go to dinner tonight.

Like a-- Like a date?

-Yeah, 'cause he's so romantic. -EVE: Ugh.

What did you say?

I mean, I said I gotta think about it.

I don't know. I mean, what should I do?

I mean, that's up to you. What are you-- What are you--

What are you thinking?

Well I mean, it's like I can't go back there and just pretend.

No, you don't have to pretend anything.

I mean, this just happened, Jane.

No, maybe...

Maybe it'd feel good just to...

hear what he has to say?

I mean, I don't know. I don't-- I don't...

I don't know if I can forgive him.

That's the hard part.

You never forgave Ted.

Well, that was different.

Ted didn't give a shit if I forgave him.

You actually have a choice.

(SIGHS)

WOMAN 1: (ON RADIO) It's important that we discuss

both trade and the deficits between our two countries.

WOMAN 2: Yes, well, that leads me to my next question.

Um, I'm wondering,

are you seeing goodwill from the opposing...

(DOOR BELL RINGS)

♪ (MUSIC PLAYS) ♪

-(CAR HORN HONKS) -(GASPS) Oh, shit.

-(SIGHS) -WOMAN 2: (ON RADIO) Senior administration officials

have been in communication

and there is reason to be hopeful that some movement

towards an agreement is likely, in, you know--

in the next, uh, few weeks.

WOMAN 1: Well, I'd be happy to have you back on my show

so we can continue this discussion.

I know we have a lot of...

(SNIFFS)

Are you new?

Uh, no, I'm-- I'm-- work weekends usually.

I'm filling in for Mark.

You know Mark?

Yeah, knew Mark before he went bald.

Mark's not bald. He's just receding a little bit.

When I first started, he had this beautiful head of hair.

Now, he just looks like my uncle.

It's fucking tragic.

-Hey, good morning. -Mm-hm.

Hey,

can you not tell Mark that I was making fun of his hair?

I just really hate it when I'm mean like that.

Yeah.

Bye.

(SINGING) ♪ I want a girl ♪

♪ Just like the girl That married dear old Dad ♪

♪ She was a girl

♪ And the only girl That Daddy ever had ♪

♪ A good old-fashioned girl With heart so true ♪

♪ One who loves nobody else But you ♪

♪ I want a girl ♪

♪ Just like the girl That married dear old Dad ♪

♪ Dear old Dad ♪

ASHLEY: You in college?

-Yeah, Eastern Community. -Hm.

I'm gonna transfer next year.

I'm on leave from Cornell.

It was a lot of pressure.

So now I'm working here, which is weirdly

-also a lot of pressure. -(JULIAN LAUGHS)

It's harder than I thought,

having to be nice to people all day.

(LAUGHS) Yeah, I know.

Hey, at least we get paid, right?

Yes, it was an excellent life decision.

-Everyone's really impressed. -(SNICKERS)

-Hey, um... -(CELLPHONE VIBRATES)

if you ever wanted to hang out sometime.

Just...

(CELLPHONE VIBRATES)

Uh... sorry. What?

Hm? Oh, nothing.

Um... it's cool.

Oh, you look great.

Oh... thank you.

Are you going on a date?

Oh. No, just a-- going to class.

Well, it must be a pretty fun class.

(CHUCKLES)

(DOOR UNLOCKS)

♪ (GENTLE MUSIC PLAYS IN BACKGROUND) ♪

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

(SLURPS)

(SIGHS)

Excuse me, Eve?

-Oh. N-- -I'm just--

I-- I-- I just need to apologize for the way I behaved

at my father's wake.

I mean, you were only ever good to my dad.

I'm sorry.

Oh, it's okay, George. It was a really hard day for everybody.

-I appreciate-- -I was a mess.

(GEORGE SCOFFS)

I still am.

And you were a good friend to him.

Can I make it up to you?

-I-- -Let me buy you a drink, huh?

(LAUGHS) I have to, uh...

I can't tonight, but thank you so much for...

-Okay. -I--

Okay, well, it was good to see you.

Yeah, it was-- Thanks, George.

You look nice.

So do you.

GEORGE: Thanks.

(STAMMERS)

EVE: Thank you.

♪ (MUSIC PLAYS) ♪

(TAPPING ON DOOR)

CHLOE: Come in.

Hey.

Well, well, well. Look who it is.

BRENDAN: I thought you could use some company

and a little caffeine.

Someone's looking very preppy tonight.

I thought I'd mix it up a little bit.

You look good.

So do you.

"You could even say that Linda's beautiful body saved my life,

because if I hadn't stayed at the party

to see if I could get into her pants,

I would have definitely gotten into that car with Donny,

and I would probably be dead today, just like him and Frank.

I did not get lucky with Linda, but I am lucky to be alive."

Hm. Yeah, um... that's very sad, Barry.

Uh, and you're right, we're-- all very lucky to be alive.

But in these turning point essays,

what I'd really like you all to focus on

are moments in your life when you made a conscious choice,

knowing that that decision would permanently change

the shape of your life.

Only then are you truly the author of your own story.

This is my story.

This is my-- This is my story that I authored.

(CHUCKLES)

-No, I was t-- Uh, no. -Seriously.

What?

Study.

♪ But now, you've got nowhere To hide ♪

♪ ("NOTHING BUT A DREAM" BY JESS DELGADO PLAYS) ♪

Study.

-I am. -CHLOE: No you're not.

BRENDAN: I am, though.

It's... You study.

♪ To finally find your way Inside ♪

♪ Enjoy the ride ♪

♪ No regrets ♪

♪ Life is nothing but a dream ♪

♪ Life is nothing but a dream ♪

♪ Covered in blue ♪

♪ Lost in the sound ♪

♪ Hearing the siren song From all shores now... ♪

Fuck.

Doesn't usually...

It's okay.

I can help.

EVE: You wanted... to talk?

I... really like you.

I like you, too.

I've never felt like this before.

What are we doing?

I don't know.

You are so beautiful.

I can't-- I can't-- We can't...

I'm sorry. I'm an asshole.

-I'm-- -No, no, no, no, you're not.

(SIGHS)

♪ (SOMBER MUSIC PLAYS) ♪

(CAR DOOR OPENS)

(CAR DOOR SHUTS)

(BRENDAN MOANS)

Yeah, you like that shit, don't you?

Wait, don't stop, don't stop. Keep going. Keep going.

(SOFTLY) Don't stop.

(BRENDAN MOANS)

(MOANS)

-(CHLOE CHOKING) -(BRENDAN MOANS)

-Fuck yeah. -(CHLOE GRUNTS)

-(CHLOE CHOKING) -(BRENDAN MOANING)

Fucking dirty little slut.

-(MOANING) -(CHLOE CHOKING)

Fuck.

-(CHLOE CHOKING) -(BRENDAN MOANING)

Fu-- (GROANS)

Ah, what the fuck?

You asshole! You were choking me!

-You asshole! -What the fuck? (GROANS)

-No, I wasn't. -Yes, you were.

-BRENDAN: No, I wasn't. -I couldn't breathe, Brendan. What the fuck is wrong with you?

You're fuck-- You were fucking into it.

I wasn't! You didn't even know I was there!

Get the fuck out of my room!

Chloe, I-- I didn't know that. I'm so sorry.

-No, take your shit and go. Get out. -BRENDAN: Please. Chloe. Chloe.

Get the fuck out!

(DOOR SLAMS)

(SOBBING)

♪ ("NOTHING SACRED/ALL THINGS WILD" BY KEVIN MORBY PLAYS) ♪

♪ Bitter garden ♪

♪ Bitter leaf ♪

♪ Bitter earth ♪

♪ Bitter seed ♪

♪ Nothing here is sacred, Dear ♪

♪ All things wild ♪

♪ You're gone now for so long You've grown a child ♪

♪ And when you were young ♪

♪ You used to plead ♪

♪ And when you were young ♪

♪ You used to plead To make me believe ♪

-♪ Nothing sacred ♪ -(SIGHS)

♪ All things wild ♪

♪ Nothing sacred ♪

♪ All things wild ♪

♪ Bitter water ♪

♪ Bitter sea ♪

♪ Bitter dirt ♪

♪ Bitter tea ♪

♪ Everything we do ♪

♪ Is a mess ♪

♪ But, oh, honey ♪

♪ May this mess be blessed ♪

♪ And we were young ♪

♪ We knew everything ♪

♪ And when we were young ♪

♪ We'd claim to sing And kick and scream ♪

♪ All things sacred ♪

♪ Nothing wild ♪

♪ All things sacred ♪

♪ Nothing wild ♪

♪ And when you were young ♪

♪ You used to plead ♪

♪ And when you were young ♪

♪ You used to plead To make me believe ♪

♪ Nothing sacred ♪

♪ All things wild ♪

♪ Nothing sacred ♪

♪ All things wild ♪

♪ Bitter water ♪

♪ Bitter sea ♪

♪ Bitter dirt ♪

♪ Bitter tea ♪

-(PHONE VIBRATES) -Hello?

Hi. Are you busy tonight? I'm having a party.

Sounds like fun.

♪ (MUSIC PLAYS) ♪

College is a big leap and not everyone's ready.

What was I thinking?

Chloe, I am right outside. Please talk to me. Just--

Brendan, Chloe wants you to leave.

This looks so great!

I'm really glad you came.

And don't worry; I'm not gonna kiss you again.

It's your party so I think you can kiss whoever you want.

-CURTIS: All right! -AMANDA OLNEY: Okay!

CURTIS: Yeah!

Whoo!

You have a crush on Eve, don't you?

(EVE BREATHING HEAVILY) Let me get some more wine.

♪ (MUSIC CONTINUES, CONCLUDES) ♪