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Brother to brother
brother to brother
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brother to brother
brother to brother
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brother to brother
brother to brother
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brother to brother
brother to brother
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brother to brother
brother to brother
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brother to brother
brother to brother
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brother to brother
brother to brother
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brother to brother
brother to brother
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brother to brother
brother to brother
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Silence is what I hear
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after the clap of the hand
and "tape me five".
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after...
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what is happening
dude ?
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How are you,
girlfriend?
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Blood!
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When I talk with a girlfriend
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I am more inclined to think
to my last piece
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or the feast of such or such
at She She Club
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only to anger and evil
that I had felt this morning
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when a jeweler refused me
the entrance of his shop
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because I am black and man
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and that we are all
perceived as thieves.
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I'm going to swallow this pain
and will express only anger
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saying "I should have burst
his fucking windows! "
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Part of the anger
will be exorcised
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but the pain, as
we do not give him the floor,
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predominates and accumulates.
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Silence is a way
to smile and support
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a way of not recognizing
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how my life
is lowered every day.
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100% less on all
black men today
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everyday
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100% less on all
black men today
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everyday
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every day, 100% less
on all black men today
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100% on all men
blacks today - every day
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I strive to appear
loud and silent
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I learn to ingest hatred
at a geometric pace
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and silently count
up to 10 ... [Yusef's murder]
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ten thousand ... ten million.
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But as I learned to choke
my cries of anguish [black men]
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I also learned to repress my
exclamations of joy
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[species in danger?]
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what's left is rap.
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Delicate languages
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Silence is
my shield
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(he crushes)
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silence is
my coat
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(he chokes)
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silence is
my sword
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(he cuts in
both ways)
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silence is
the most deadly weapon.
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What a legacy
found in silence?
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how much
lost lives ...
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what future lies
in our silence?
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how many stories
lost ...
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so seductive,
his grip.
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(this silence)
breaks it.
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(our silence)
loosens the tongue
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(Reflects)
let's end the silence, baby
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(together? now?)
together ! now !
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Now that I am at peace
with death
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I took her hand, shook her
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I'm sorry for
his giggles
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mocking me to the stones
too big to pass alone
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now that I lamented
the deaths of men
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loves that I never had,
acts not done,
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polite perversion
pubescent way
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now that I have paid
shades of black, boy,
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fingernail pigments,
queer, gender troublemaker,
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now that I'm crazy,
weird, free, initiate me.
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War paintings on my cheeks
oin me coconut oil
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and sperm,
that I speak in tongues
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twisted so tight
that they entangle my mind.
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Hold my head in my hands,
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bless her, slice her
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draw a cross on it
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the mark of the rite
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initiation to the fight.
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You're good on "black cat"
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your hotline for
the best black numbers.
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You want to connect
to a bangie-boy?
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Press 1.
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For a versatile butch queen,
press 2
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or if you seek to engage yourself body
and mind to a BGA, press 3.
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Do not be shy,
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make a choice
and meet this special man ...
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Good choice.
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Now leave a message,
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you have a minute
after the beep.
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BGA - "Black Gay Activist"
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Thirties, grown, sensitive
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profeminist, looking for the same
for licking envelopes
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distribution of flyers,
streamer manufacturing
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companion of demo
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theorizing through dialogue,
good moments
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and hot sex
and protected.
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Why are we coming back
alone at home?
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Pillows and magazines
in single beds
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we push ourselves to the degree
ultimate for the cause
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if we can not
reap the benefits?
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I do not want to get married
with the movement. And you ?
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Put an end to this silence, baby.
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We could do
a serious revolution, together.
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I was in the S2 bus
in the direction of Silver Spring.
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The bus, most of the way
had been filled
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with the quiet whisper
other passengers.
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Suddenly from the back
the bus,
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a voice rose and shouted
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"You are my dog!"
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"Nan han han!
we are bitches! "
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I turned around,
I looked at the back of the bus:
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there were two brothers
who were bickering!
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"No, you listen to me now"
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"I do not wear lipstick,
you so! "
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"I'm not a bitch!"
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"I fucked you,
you are my dog! "
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that went on without conclusion
until we arrive
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at the crossroads between
the 16th and U street.
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The bus is now
filled with passengers
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and we are approaching the stop,
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I see ten new people
climb on board.
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At the moment when the first person
boarded,
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a shrill and hysterical voice
scream from behind.
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"I am a 45 year old black gay man"
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"who loves, likes
take cocks in her rectum! "
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"I'm not your dog!"
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"Your dog is at home
with your children! "
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We are entering now
in the 5th dimension
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of our sexual consciousness.
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The ride is hard.
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There is no lubricant for that.
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We had heard about
of this new club
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so we decided to
go to a few.
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We arrived early, around 22h.
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We thought that if it was zero
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we could always arrive
at Bella's before midnight.
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We had to wait in the queue
at least 15 minutes.
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Meanwhile, the bouncer,
"Miss Attitude Ann",
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you imagine the type,
faded blond hair.
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the body by Nautilus
the spirit by Mattel.
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"Miss Bitch" is watching us.
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Ten black men arrive
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and they paranoid,
is the place going to rock ...
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we finally arrive at the door
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and Machin says,
with much condescension,
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"You know he
have to pay to get back. "
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I tried to ignore his rudeness
then she threw her arm:
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"I need to see
three pieces of ID. "
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I thought this shit
was over,
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I just went back
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and I watched Miss Ann
right in the eyes.
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"Three pieces of identification?"
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She did not know what
who had hit her!
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We took our money
and we left.
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The next day I filed a complaint
against this rotten box
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at the mayor's office,
to the commission on human rights,
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at the NAACP (National Association for
the advancement of people of color)
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and the democratic club
Alice B. Toklas
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Do not look for tangles
with a snap-diva!
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This is a lesson
basic of "snap"!
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divarettes, listen
this rap of great diva.
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Snaps can be thrown
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and the snaps can be suspended
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to read, to punctuate
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to cut. like a whip!
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So, you have the ...
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domestic snap.
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You have the...
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snap.
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And you have the big diva snap.
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Do not be mistaken.
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Our big divas from snap to duel
will now demonstrate
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the subtleties of the snap
to the beginner divarettes.
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Precision, rhythm,
placement, balance,
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a sophisticated snap
is more than just a sound.
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Repeat!
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precision, placement, balance,
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you have to perfect everything
for a big statement snap!
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You must know that
girls must be
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ambidextrous
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If you can not snape
with both hands, you're done!
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Do you know why we do that?
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Because we can not always
to have our arms free to do that ...
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I had heard my call
at the age of 6.
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We had a word for boys
like me...
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Shabby!
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Shabby!
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Not because I had
sex
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with other boys,
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everyone in the
neighborhood did that.
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Shabby!
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But because
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I did not mind donating
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while other boys were exchanging.
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"You can have my buttocks
if you give me yours "
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"Uh uh, wait a minute,
if I start ... "
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"You're the one who started
the last time"
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"But, I want to be the dad"
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"It's all the time you daddy"
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"But I'll be the daddy"
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"I am the dad."
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Not me.
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I gave it ...
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free.
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Shabby!
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At the age of 11
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we moved to Georgia [USA].
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I climbed
to new knowledge.
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Homo!
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"Do not you know how to kiss?"
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Homo!
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... asked me
my best friend, shocked.
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I did not know what to do
with a girl
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when I lost
to the game of the bottle.
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Homo!
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"I will show you"
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he said,
his brown eyes inviting.
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We practiced kisses
during weeks :
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dry, wet, french [with tongue]
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until his older brother
we insult.
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Homo!
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"What is a homo?" I asked.
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Shabby, fagot, freak!
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I understood.
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We stopped kissing each other.
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My best friend
became my worst enemy.
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Whore of negro!
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At the age of 12,
they sent me
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at Hepzibah College,
on the outskirts of Augusta.
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Whore of negro!
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A graffitti on the wall
greeted me.
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Go home to the Negroes!
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The white hicks hated me ...
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Whore of negro!
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... because I was one
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only two blacks placed in 8A
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the class for the best
and more brilliant of Hepzibah.
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Go home to the Negroes!
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Black people hated me ...
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Uncle Tom!
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... because they thought that
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my status in class
made me carefree
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Uncle Tom!
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because they were silent
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for superiority.
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Uncle Tom!
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I was shy.
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Whore of negro!
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Uncle Tom!
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I was lost
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Whore of negro!
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Uncle Tom!
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Go home to the Negroes!
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I was scared, and I was alone.
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Whore of negro!
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Uncle Tom!
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Shabby, fagot!
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Go home to the Negroes!
freak! shabby!
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fucking negro!
homo! fagot!
261
00:13:33,468 --> 00:13:35,331
Uncle Tom!
Go home to the Negroes!
262
00:13:35,595 --> 00:13:38,036
Forced by identities
263
00:13:38,078 --> 00:13:39,995
I never had
wanted to claim
264
00:13:41,418 --> 00:13:42,123
I ran...
265
00:13:43,560 --> 00:13:45,391
quickly...
266
00:13:45,721 --> 00:13:46,388
eagerly ...
267
00:13:47,422 --> 00:13:49,730
to the bottom of myself ...
268
00:13:50,744 --> 00:13:51,665
where it was still ...
269
00:13:53,843 --> 00:13:54,811
quiet...
270
00:13:56,277 --> 00:13:57,052
sure.
271
00:13:58,829 --> 00:14:00,277
Deception.
272
00:14:21,283 --> 00:14:24,581
A full moon night began
by a rhetorical song ...
273
00:14:24,928 --> 00:14:27,340
"Hey swinger,
what are you doing here? "
274
00:14:27,859 --> 00:14:30,877
Rocks of the city fell
around his jerky steps
275
00:14:31,256 --> 00:14:34,364
a spitting vola
on his uncovered shoulder,
276
00:14:34,711 --> 00:14:37,923
empty bottles exploded
against the edges of garbage cans,
277
00:14:38,049 --> 00:14:41,851
sharp debris
sprang to his throat,
278
00:14:42,222 --> 00:14:44,148
a baton
knocked him out,
279
00:14:44,443 --> 00:14:46,380
his money and his identity card
removed,
280
00:14:46,675 --> 00:14:49,058
his face hacked, disfigured,
281
00:14:50,960 --> 00:14:52,820
left in a pool of blood.
282
00:14:53,842 --> 00:14:56,290
He waited for the police,
the ambulance,
283
00:14:56,740 --> 00:14:58,512
the kindness of brothers
284
00:14:59,079 --> 00:15:02,302
or Jesus, to take
his messages.
285
00:15:16,566 --> 00:15:18,871
A white man came to my rescue,
286
00:15:24,088 --> 00:15:26,585
attractive, with green gray eyes,
287
00:15:28,984 --> 00:15:31,080
a sweet Tennessee complexion.
288
00:15:33,887 --> 00:15:36,777
He seduced me, took me out
of my teenage silence.
289
00:15:39,320 --> 00:15:41,030
He called me "friend".
290
00:15:41,521 --> 00:15:43,917
I fell in love.
291
00:15:45,094 --> 00:15:47,844
We never touched,
never kissed,
292
00:15:48,485 --> 00:15:50,381
but he left his mark.
293
00:15:52,278 --> 00:15:55,395
What a blessing,
his immaculate seduction ...
294
00:15:56,300 --> 00:15:57,455
Feel the rhythm of life,
295
00:15:57,801 --> 00:15:59,787
trust again
to passion ...
296
00:16:00,954 --> 00:16:02,174
what joy.
297
00:16:02,361 --> 00:16:04,596
May it come
of a White
298
00:16:04,606 --> 00:16:06,510
with gray green eyes ...
299
00:16:08,008 --> 00:16:08,943
What a curse.
300
00:16:43,829 --> 00:16:47,019
In California, I was learning
the touch and the taste of the snow.
301
00:16:47,993 --> 00:16:49,283
Crossing whites,
302
00:16:49,320 --> 00:16:52,751
I played
teen dreams, delayed.
303
00:16:53,035 --> 00:16:54,737
Let me touch, let me taste,
let me lick
304
00:16:54,920 --> 00:16:57,538
let me suck it, let me
touch it, let me taste it
305
00:16:57,696 --> 00:16:59,305
let me lick it,
let me suck him
306
00:16:59,729 --> 00:17:01,501
let me touch it,
let me taste it
307
00:17:19,409 --> 00:17:21,903
Maybe from time to time
a brother gave me a look.
308
00:17:21,975 --> 00:17:22,937
I never noticed.
309
00:17:23,054 --> 00:17:26,025
I was immersed in vanilla.
310
00:17:26,856 --> 00:17:32,205
I savored this unique flavor,
deliberately not mine,
311
00:17:33,860 --> 00:17:35,984
I avoided the question "why?"
312
00:17:36,962 --> 00:17:38,763
pretended not to notice
313
00:17:38,805 --> 00:17:42,209
the absence of black images
in this new gay life.
314
00:17:43,166 --> 00:17:46,106
In bookstores, stores
posters, film festivals,
315
00:17:46,233 --> 00:17:48,639
even my own fantasies.
316
00:17:51,751 --> 00:17:54,027
I tried not to notice
the few pictures of blacks
317
00:17:54,072 --> 00:17:55,397
which were the most popular.
318
00:18:10,994 --> 00:18:14,547
Something in me
went wrong.
319
00:18:14,752 --> 00:18:16,475
But I was trying
not to notice.
320
00:18:17,409 --> 00:18:19,154
I was determined to research
321
00:18:19,224 --> 00:18:22,348
from my reflection,
love, affirmation,
322
00:18:22,803 --> 00:18:25,331
in blue, gray, green eyes.
323
00:18:28,473 --> 00:18:31,173
While searching, I discovered
something I did not expect.
324
00:18:31,896 --> 00:18:34,946
Something that decades
of assimilation determined
325
00:18:35,052 --> 00:18:36,482
could not make me invisible:
326
00:18:38,019 --> 00:18:42,217
in this great gay Mecca,
I was an invisible man,
327
00:18:43,303 --> 00:18:45,770
I had no shadow,
no substance,
328
00:18:46,168 --> 00:18:50,183
no place, no story,
no reflection.
329
00:18:51,275 --> 00:18:56,037
I was a stranger, unnoticed
or otherwise, undesirable.
330
00:18:57,011 --> 00:19:01,729
Here as in Hepzibah,
I was a negro, always.
331
00:19:05,917 --> 00:19:10,529
I left the Castro district,
it was no longer my house, my mecca,
332
00:19:11,320 --> 00:19:13,464
and I went looking for
a better place.
333
00:19:18,149 --> 00:19:19,917
I do not know why
334
00:19:22,009 --> 00:19:24,921
but I feel so sad
335
00:19:26,058 --> 00:19:31,304
I can not wait to try
something that I have never had
336
00:19:32,812 --> 00:19:35,366
never had kisses ...
337
00:19:36,343 --> 00:19:39,045
oh, what I missed ...
338
00:19:40,432 --> 00:19:44,391
my lover
where can you be?
339
00:19:47,680 --> 00:19:54,028
The night is cold
and I am so alone
340
00:19:55,247 --> 00:20:02,322
I would give my soul
just for you to be mine
341
00:20:02,952 --> 00:20:09,305
I have a moon above me
but nobody to love me
342
00:20:10,011 --> 00:20:21,895
my lover,
where can you be?
343
00:20:28,267 --> 00:20:35,349
Black is the color
344
00:20:37,600 --> 00:20:42,025
hair of my true love
345
00:20:45,546 --> 00:20:53,582
his sweet face,
wonderful party
346
00:20:54,065 --> 00:20:55,394
Mourning is not a garment,
347
00:20:56,834 --> 00:20:59,844
it's not like a dress,
a wig,
348
00:21:00,875 --> 00:21:04,126
or high heels
of my sister,
349
00:21:05,540 --> 00:21:08,174
it's darker
that the man I love
350
00:21:09,262 --> 00:21:10,708
who, in my fantasies,
351
00:21:10,952 --> 00:21:12,244
come find me
352
00:21:12,866 --> 00:21:16,875
in a silver chariot
six-cylinder.
353
00:21:18,498 --> 00:21:20,714
I walk on the docks
from the seaside
354
00:21:21,599 --> 00:21:24,826
in the high heels of my sister,
355
00:21:25,972 --> 00:21:27,503
dreaming of him,
356
00:21:27,852 --> 00:21:31,327
his name still unknown
to my tongue.
357
00:21:32,707 --> 00:21:34,921
While I'm waiting
my prince,
358
00:21:35,313 --> 00:21:39,994
I ask all the other men,
to pay for my kisses,
359
00:21:41,712 --> 00:21:46,881
I buy makeup for my
lips, stockings for my legs,
360
00:21:47,590 --> 00:21:52,741
my high heels
and my dresses are part of me.
361
00:21:54,069 --> 00:21:58,714
When he comes, I will know
to love his body.
362
00:21:59,863 --> 00:22:03,593
Standing here, on the
docks of the seaside,
363
00:22:04,510 --> 00:22:07,659
I learned to please a man,
364
00:22:09,129 --> 00:22:11,282
he will bring me flowers,
365
00:22:11,995 --> 00:22:16,264
he will bring me silk
and jewels, I know,
366
00:22:17,704 --> 00:22:22,764
while I wait, that I am
the only man who loves me.
367
00:22:23,553 --> 00:22:25,694
They call me "star"
368
00:22:26,661 --> 00:22:30,362
because I'm listening
their dreams and desires,
369
00:22:31,575 --> 00:22:34,070
but the mourning is darker,
370
00:22:35,333 --> 00:22:41,452
it's a wig that does not rest
gently on my head.
371
00:22:43,911 --> 00:22:52,812
So, black is the color
372
00:22:56,544 --> 00:22:59,691
hair of my true love
373
00:23:01,751 --> 00:23:06,352
hair of my true love
374
00:23:08,825 --> 00:23:12,595
of my true love
375
00:23:15,138 --> 00:23:17,522
Abomination!
376
00:23:17,724 --> 00:23:19,615
It's an abomination!
377
00:23:19,889 --> 00:23:24,440
Man must not lie down
with the Man,
378
00:23:24,875 --> 00:23:29,778
because it's an abomination
to his eyes.
379
00:23:29,828 --> 00:23:31,826
They say "we are
in the same political boat ",
380
00:23:32,086 --> 00:23:33,066
"we should be brothers",
381
00:23:33,380 --> 00:23:36,032
but before accepting his kinship
political or otherwise,
382
00:23:36,463 --> 00:23:38,973
what I want to know is:
where is his loyalty?
383
00:23:39,042 --> 00:23:41,363
what kind of model is
a shabby anyway?
384
00:23:41,421 --> 00:23:45,794
there is no place,
there is no corner,
385
00:23:46,154 --> 00:23:50,028
in the church of God, for
perversion!
386
00:23:50,457 --> 00:23:53,792
As a priority, I want to know
when comes the last judgment.
387
00:23:54,057 --> 00:23:55,194
What is it above all?
388
00:23:55,222 --> 00:23:56,399
Black or gay?
389
00:23:57,743 --> 00:23:59,146
Do you know the answer,
390
00:23:59,397 --> 00:24:01,134
the absurdity of this question.
391
00:24:01,415 --> 00:24:03,873
How can you stay
sitting in silence?
392
00:24:04,818 --> 00:24:06,831
How do you choose an eye
rather than another?
393
00:24:06,871 --> 00:24:08,585
that half of the brain
rather than this one?
394
00:24:08,660 --> 00:24:10,976
or to use words
that this brother could understand,
395
00:24:11,098 --> 00:24:14,990
which he considers the most:
his left or right?
396
00:24:15,105 --> 00:24:16,176
Tell him !
397
00:24:18,615 --> 00:24:20,798
Silence is
my shield
398
00:24:21,409 --> 00:24:22,418
(he crushes)
399
00:24:23,685 --> 00:24:27,283
God gave men
a sacred purpose,
400
00:24:27,453 --> 00:24:28,684
yes he did it,
401
00:24:29,082 --> 00:24:31,881
the goal of engendering
the future generations.
402
00:24:32,166 --> 00:24:37,045
But the homosexual
defile his seed!
403
00:24:41,222 --> 00:24:42,986
We need
strong black men
404
00:24:43,077 --> 00:24:44,452
to strengthen the black family.
405
00:24:44,882 --> 00:24:46,439
How a homosexual
does he participate in that?
406
00:24:47,043 --> 00:24:49,127
Is not a fag
that part of the crisis?
407
00:24:49,197 --> 00:24:50,402
A shabby man is a shabby man.
408
00:24:50,621 --> 00:24:52,529
I do not want them
around me or my children,
409
00:24:52,579 --> 00:24:53,309
that's all !
410
00:24:56,905 --> 00:24:59,260
Silence is
my coat
411
00:24:59,533 --> 00:25:00,654
(he chokes)
412
00:25:01,751 --> 00:25:02,571
Do not think
413
00:25:03,044 --> 00:25:06,481
that God does not see
the evil in this world,
414
00:25:07,298 --> 00:25:08,924
he knows !
415
00:25:09,428 --> 00:25:11,158
he is watching !
416
00:25:11,641 --> 00:25:13,692
he punishes !
417
00:25:13,718 --> 00:25:14,902
Yeah man,
like this crap of AIDS,
418
00:25:14,912 --> 00:25:16,023
all the innocent victims, man.
419
00:25:16,624 --> 00:25:18,101
Moms and
babies who die
420
00:25:18,245 --> 00:25:20,646
because of the demons of the drug
and fags.
421
00:25:20,660 --> 00:25:22,547
Fags are not allowed
to watch my ass
422
00:25:22,562 --> 00:25:23,348
while I'm on stage.
423
00:25:29,678 --> 00:25:31,972
that's why I keep moving
while I'm here.
424
00:25:32,765 --> 00:25:34,556
You do not know
where is the section fags,
425
00:25:34,605 --> 00:25:35,755
you have to keep moving,
426
00:25:36,845 --> 00:25:39,942
so that if they see it,
it's fast and you turn around.
427
00:25:40,232 --> 00:25:42,485
That way they can not
watch it too long.
428
00:25:42,959 --> 00:25:45,764
The silence
is my sword
429
00:25:45,771 --> 00:25:48,217
(he cuts in
both ways)
430
00:25:51,122 --> 00:25:54,231
Yes, for the fags
for the girls, yes!
431
00:25:55,317 --> 00:25:56,980
When I say "gamma",
you say "fagot" ...
432
00:25:57,469 --> 00:25:59,769
This is an overview
of our ten greatest talents,
433
00:26:00,286 --> 00:26:02,774
influential people,
the image makers.
434
00:26:03,174 --> 00:26:05,955
Think of the millions
who follow their example.
435
00:26:06,216 --> 00:26:07,075
Homo, homo, homo, homo ...
436
00:26:07,255 --> 00:26:09,076
Nothing is comparable to
437
00:26:09,096 --> 00:26:10,652
a nation of fags
who are you looking for ...
438
00:26:10,777 --> 00:26:14,771
Their jokes, their laughs
form a chorus of contempt.
439
00:26:14,829 --> 00:26:16,731
... cars that
cross the city doing
440
00:26:16,741 --> 00:26:17,996
whoo-whoo
441
00:26:18,343 --> 00:26:21,041
there will be no siren but a
homosexual on the roof doing whoo-whoo.
442
00:26:21,053 --> 00:26:23,685
Every joke levels us
a bit more
443
00:26:23,705 --> 00:26:25,686
and we sit in silence.
444
00:26:25,730 --> 00:26:27,987
Sometimes we join
the laugh
445
00:26:28,094 --> 00:26:30,015
as if basically
we also believed
446
00:26:30,089 --> 00:26:33,054
that we are the weakest
among the weak.
447
00:26:33,928 --> 00:26:37,234
Nobody will buy back your name,
your love, your life,
448
00:26:37,343 --> 00:26:39,438
your humanity, apart from yourself.
449
00:26:40,435 --> 00:26:42,436
Nobody will save you,
otherwise yourselves.
450
00:26:43,497 --> 00:26:44,955
Your silence costs,
451
00:26:45,668 --> 00:26:47,917
your silence is suicide.
452
00:26:49,994 --> 00:26:55,161
From Sodom and Gomorrah
in San Francisco,
453
00:26:58,056 --> 00:26:59,586
we need strong models.
454
00:26:59,596 --> 00:27:01,611
We can not admire gays,
455
00:27:01,623 --> 00:27:03,509
what would that mean
to be a man?
456
00:27:03,857 --> 00:27:06,017
Sodomy is a sin!
457
00:27:06,061 --> 00:27:10,303
and you know that the wages of sin
is death
458
00:27:10,343 --> 00:27:13,287
the wages of sin is death
459
00:27:24,021 --> 00:27:26,480
I know anger
who is in me
460
00:27:27,084 --> 00:27:31,511
as I know the beat of
my heart and the taste of my saliva.
461
00:27:32,507 --> 00:27:35,906
It's easier to be angry
than to hurt.
462
00:27:36,929 --> 00:27:39,061
Anger is what
I do the best.
463
00:27:39,731 --> 00:27:43,954
It's easier to be furious
that to be full of desire,
464
00:27:43,994 --> 00:27:47,258
easier to crucify myself in you
465
00:27:47,636 --> 00:27:51,926
than to challenge the universe
threatening with whiteness,
466
00:27:52,224 --> 00:27:54,700
admitting we are worth
the sentence
467
00:27:54,720 --> 00:27:56,186
to want each other.
468
00:27:58,542 --> 00:27:59,856
I, too, know anger.
469
00:28:00,001 --> 00:28:02,626
My body contains
as much anger as water,
470
00:28:02,733 --> 00:28:05,404
it is the material from which
I built my house.
471
00:28:05,405 --> 00:28:08,318
Blood-red bricks,
who shout in the rain.
472
00:28:08,546 --> 00:28:11,498
It's the face and the posture
that I show to the world.
473
00:28:11,660 --> 00:28:14,152
This is the way,
sometimes the only way
474
00:28:14,162 --> 00:28:16,290
by which I listen.
475
00:28:16,318 --> 00:28:18,768
It's sometimes my way
to show affection.
476
00:28:19,135 --> 00:28:21,846
I am angry because
the treatment I am under
477
00:28:21,857 --> 00:28:23,157
as a black man.
478
00:28:23,238 --> 00:28:25,659
This fiery anger
is hunted down
479
00:28:25,813 --> 00:28:28,961
by manifestations of contempt
and disdain that are thrown at me
480
00:28:28,969 --> 00:28:31,564
by my community
because I'm gay.
481
00:28:31,741 --> 00:28:33,824
I can not go home
as I am.
482
00:28:34,065 --> 00:28:35,055
When I talk about the house,
483
00:28:35,416 --> 00:28:37,767
I mean not only
the family constellation
484
00:28:37,787 --> 00:28:38,733
from which I grew up,
485
00:28:38,917 --> 00:28:40,617
but the set of
the black community.
486
00:28:40,892 --> 00:28:42,890
The black press,
the black church,
487
00:28:43,154 --> 00:28:45,521
black academics,
the black scholars,
488
00:28:45,571 --> 00:28:46,616
and the black left.
489
00:28:46,692 --> 00:28:48,187
Where is my reflection?
490
00:28:48,448 --> 00:28:50,745
I am most often
made invisible,
491
00:28:51,197 --> 00:28:53,086
perceived as a threat
for the family,
492
00:28:53,309 --> 00:28:56,622
or so I'm tolerated if
I remain silent and remain discreet.
493
00:28:56,926 --> 00:28:58,780
I can not go in
at home as I am
494
00:28:58,800 --> 00:29:00,130
and it hurts me deeply.
495
00:29:01,681 --> 00:29:03,089
The other day I was walking on
496
00:29:03,182 --> 00:29:05,263
Spruce Avenue, in the Castro,
Christopher street,
497
00:29:05,303 --> 00:29:06,152
my way to work.
498
00:29:06,532 --> 00:29:09,106
Half a block away,
walking towards me,
499
00:29:09,136 --> 00:29:11,134
there is another gay black man.
500
00:29:11,207 --> 00:29:13,126
We have already seen each other
in clubs.
501
00:29:13,316 --> 00:29:17,471
Side by side at the precise moment
where our eyes should cross,
502
00:29:17,511 --> 00:29:21,075
he studies the details
complex of a building,
503
00:29:21,328 --> 00:29:24,415
I check my white sneakers
to see if there are scratches.
504
00:29:24,605 --> 00:29:26,246
What are we
let's see in the other
505
00:29:26,296 --> 00:29:28,675
which makes us turn away
the eyes so quickly?
506
00:29:28,748 --> 00:29:30,399
We turn away
one another
507
00:29:30,499 --> 00:29:34,092
so as not to see our anger
and our collective sadness?
508
00:29:34,111 --> 00:29:36,849
It's my pain that
I see in your eyes.
509
00:29:37,221 --> 00:29:39,354
Our anger ricochets between us
510
00:29:39,446 --> 00:29:41,055
like the bullets we shoot
511
00:29:41,155 --> 00:29:42,906
in battles that are not
512
00:29:42,926 --> 00:29:44,127
not ours ...
513
00:29:44,161 --> 00:29:46,297
The same angry face
made for security
514
00:29:46,319 --> 00:29:47,440
in the white world
515
00:29:47,509 --> 00:29:49,879
is the same expression
that I bring you.
516
00:29:50,011 --> 00:29:51,782
I am cool and emotionless,
517
00:29:51,812 --> 00:29:53,504
remote from what
I need it most.
518
00:29:53,701 --> 00:29:56,414
It's easier to be furious
that to be full of desire,
519
00:29:56,501 --> 00:29:58,987
easier to crucify myself in you
520
00:29:59,106 --> 00:30:01,684
and maybe easier
to ingest that anger
521
00:30:01,767 --> 00:30:03,582
until it threatens
to consume me,
522
00:30:03,674 --> 00:30:06,521
or to apply a salvo of
substitutes on the wound.
523
00:30:06,701 --> 00:30:09,422
But real anger accepts
few substitutes
524
00:30:09,492 --> 00:30:11,243
and she makes fun of sublimation.
525
00:30:11,323 --> 00:30:14,376
The anger I feel
can not be drowned
526
00:30:14,396 --> 00:30:16,257
in a coke or a glass of alcohol,
527
00:30:16,277 --> 00:30:17,695
it can not be erased
by the dance,
528
00:30:17,749 --> 00:30:19,629
soothed by a white love
529
00:30:19,649 --> 00:30:22,231
or lost in the reflection
of a black lover.
530
00:30:22,251 --> 00:30:23,894
I can not hope
to be engulfed
531
00:30:23,912 --> 00:30:25,657
by the alligators
on my clothes,
532
00:30:25,724 --> 00:30:27,459
I can not either
lose her in therapy.
533
00:30:27,527 --> 00:30:29,115
I can not offer it to Jesus,
534
00:30:29,135 --> 00:30:29,915
Allah or Jah ...
535
00:30:29,935 --> 00:30:31,646
So I have to shape and direct
536
00:30:31,666 --> 00:30:33,968
this fiery freshness
of angry energy,
537
00:30:34,334 --> 00:30:36,359
use it before it uses me.
538
00:30:36,939 --> 00:30:38,440
Unvented anger
becomes pain
539
00:30:38,460 --> 00:30:39,652
tacit, becomes rage
540
00:30:39,672 --> 00:30:41,612
released, becomes violence
cha cha cha
541
00:30:41,771 --> 00:30:43,223
unvented anger
becomes pain
542
00:30:43,244 --> 00:30:44,439
tacit, becomes rage
543
00:30:44,459 --> 00:30:46,156
released, becomes violence
cha cha cha
544
00:30:46,184 --> 00:30:47,776
unvented anger
becomes pain
545
00:30:47,796 --> 00:30:48,947
tacit, becomes rage
546
00:30:48,967 --> 00:30:50,616
released, becomes violence
cha cha cha
547
00:30:50,950 --> 00:30:52,279
unvented anger
becomes pain
548
00:30:52,299 --> 00:30:53,449
tacit becomes rage
549
00:30:53,469 --> 00:30:55,065
liberated becomes violence
cha cha cha
550
00:30:55,090 --> 00:30:56,779
unvented anger
becomes pain
551
00:30:56,802 --> 00:30:57,858
tacit becomes rage
552
00:30:57,882 --> 00:30:59,603
liberated becomes violence
cha cha cha
553
00:30:59,725 --> 00:31:01,174
unvented anger
becomes pain
554
00:31:01,204 --> 00:31:02,355
tacit becomes rage
555
00:31:02,375 --> 00:31:04,720
liberated becomes violence
cha cha cha
556
00:31:08,405 --> 00:31:11,312
In search of myself,
I listen to the beating of my heart.
557
00:31:12,014 --> 00:31:14,972
Stunned rhythms
layers of illusion,
558
00:31:14,983 --> 00:31:16,548
pain, alienation,
559
00:31:16,878 --> 00:31:17,665
of silence.
560
00:31:18,365 --> 00:31:20,536
The rhythm was my salvation.
561
00:31:21,055 --> 00:31:23,891
I was leaving this primitive impulse
drive me.
562
00:31:24,280 --> 00:31:27,601
The broken dreams passed, the loneliness,
563
00:31:27,998 --> 00:31:31,930
identity fragments
to a new place, a house
564
00:31:32,545 --> 00:31:35,741
no peace, harmony
and sun, no
565
00:31:36,776 --> 00:31:37,755
but of truth,
566
00:31:38,578 --> 00:31:41,627
simple, without shame, truth of brazen.
567
00:31:42,560 --> 00:31:43,733
Listening...
568
00:31:44,781 --> 00:31:48,387
when you find yourself
short, do what I do.
569
00:31:48,929 --> 00:31:50,578
Borrow things from the universe.
570
00:31:51,281 --> 00:31:53,070
Take a little shelf.
571
00:31:53,632 --> 00:31:55,218
Take a little more for yourself.
572
00:31:55,222 --> 00:31:56,233
Everything is yours,
573
00:31:56,238 --> 00:31:57,670
What is the problem?
574
00:31:58,352 --> 00:31:59,570
Are you scarred ?
575
00:32:00,691 --> 00:32:02,726
Put yourself
on tip-toes.
576
00:32:03,252 --> 00:32:05,169
Point your chin towards the sun.
577
00:32:05,494 --> 00:32:07,702
Struggle to distant galaxies.
578
00:32:07,875 --> 00:32:09,094
Look over the horizons.
579
00:32:09,700 --> 00:32:10,668
Can not you see?
580
00:32:11,998 --> 00:32:14,751
Win or lose, you pay your dues
for latent fantasies.
581
00:32:14,978 --> 00:32:19,474
So first, reach, shoot,
seize and tear off what is yours ...
582
00:32:20,043 --> 00:32:22,044
of the universe.
583
00:32:26,133 --> 00:32:28,114
Uh uh, a sensitive boy, yeah
584
00:32:28,988 --> 00:32:31,370
... like fighting, punishing me
to be like that.
585
00:32:31,990 --> 00:32:33,347
Nobody said that God existed
586
00:32:33,589 --> 00:32:35,833
or that it was an alternative,
587
00:32:36,312 --> 00:32:38,309
they said, "you want to wear
women's clothes ",
588
00:32:38,484 --> 00:32:40,448
I say "no, I do not want to"
589
00:32:41,464 --> 00:32:43,488
then when I realized that
homosexual wanted to say
590
00:32:43,517 --> 00:32:45,912
that you sleep with men
and that you could wear those of women ...
591
00:32:45,938 --> 00:32:47,220
it's another alternative,
592
00:32:47,302 --> 00:32:49,151
but that's what they
really speak
593
00:32:49,398 --> 00:32:51,877
after that
"go, reevaluate"
594
00:32:52,107 --> 00:32:53,052
You know what I mean ?
595
00:32:53,709 --> 00:32:56,076
You fight
against this ignorance,
596
00:32:56,425 --> 00:32:59,527
what we are really talking about
at the level of the guts
597
00:32:59,627 --> 00:33:02,390
it's men who sleep
with men, and I do that.
598
00:33:03,107 --> 00:33:04,822
Or I hope to do it.
599
00:33:04,866 --> 00:33:06,194
What is very different
what to say
600
00:33:06,720 --> 00:33:09,097
"they do not know
what are they talking about"
601
00:33:10,033 --> 00:33:11,871
I ask them to account on that
602
00:33:11,885 --> 00:33:15,364
when they say "swatter"
they have to explain it
603
00:33:15,540 --> 00:33:17,037
I say "yes, I'm a swinger"
604
00:33:17,158 --> 00:33:18,813
"now what is
does that mean for you? "
605
00:33:18,838 --> 00:33:19,755
that's exactly what I'm saying
606
00:33:20,740 --> 00:33:21,892
"what are you trying
to really say? "
607
00:33:21,910 --> 00:33:24,342
"Says it"
608
00:33:24,362 --> 00:33:25,872
"be pejorative if
you want to be pejorative "
609
00:33:25,892 --> 00:33:27,227
"but do it in a specific way"
610
00:33:28,244 --> 00:33:30,259
we hang out all
611
00:33:30,296 --> 00:33:32,453
our own problems
612
00:33:32,806 --> 00:33:33,878
they are ready to torture us
613
00:33:33,948 --> 00:33:35,049
they do not have to say a word
614
00:33:35,069 --> 00:33:37,379
you decide what you think
what is a swatter
615
00:33:37,400 --> 00:33:38,801
and you torture yourself
616
00:33:39,551 --> 00:33:43,747
you left a word
harm your life
617
00:33:45,054 --> 00:33:46,456
I prefer that it be
who do the work
618
00:33:46,958 --> 00:33:48,465
listening...
619
00:33:49,028 --> 00:33:52,098
basically, Vogue started
in the 70s
620
00:33:52,531 --> 00:33:54,569
ok now the youngest ones,
the youngest queens
621
00:33:54,590 --> 00:33:57,476
what they do is that they
have a fashion house,
622
00:33:58,863 --> 00:34:00,303
what they do is
they go to the ball
623
00:34:00,324 --> 00:34:01,965
and they clash.
624
00:34:03,050 --> 00:34:05,367
You dress in a certain way
according to your house
625
00:34:05,387 --> 00:34:06,923
if you like
the Chanel house,
626
00:34:07,051 --> 00:34:08,369
you dress in Chanel
627
00:34:09,382 --> 00:34:10,640
I've never heard
talk about that.
628
00:34:11,739 --> 00:34:13,539
Yeah, but that's it
they do here in New York.
629
00:34:13,562 --> 00:34:15,183
Yes, in New York but in Washington DC
630
00:34:15,203 --> 00:34:17,154
I never heard of that
631
00:34:17,540 --> 00:34:20,760
you see each state,
every gay community
632
00:34:20,807 --> 00:34:22,077
do different things.
633
00:34:22,278 --> 00:34:24,542
As in your community,
they speak Agua ...
634
00:34:24,579 --> 00:34:25,229
Aga
635
00:34:25,449 --> 00:34:26,320
Aga
636
00:34:28,352 --> 00:34:29,960
still that I find
that cute!
637
00:34:45,691 --> 00:34:50,809
Mother, do you know that
I wander alone at night?
638
00:34:51,745 --> 00:34:54,575
wearing cologne,
tight pants,
639
00:34:54,978 --> 00:34:56,939
gold chains,
640
00:34:57,559 --> 00:34:58,652
looking for men
641
00:34:58,670 --> 00:35:01,681
wishing to return
in the light of candles.
642
00:35:02,817 --> 00:35:04,775
I'm not afraid of these men,
643
00:35:05,223 --> 00:35:09,243
although some are killers
son like me.
644
00:35:10,964 --> 00:35:13,509
I learned that there is no
of mercy
645
00:35:13,539 --> 00:35:14,764
for men of color,
646
00:35:15,412 --> 00:35:18,831
for the sons who love
men, like me.
647
00:35:20,513 --> 00:35:23,645
Do not be ashamed
the way I live.
648
00:35:24,433 --> 00:35:28,282
I chose this tribe of warriors
and outlaws.
649
00:35:29,337 --> 00:35:33,357
Do not think you missed
a maternity test.
650
00:35:34,221 --> 00:35:35,990
My life has borne fruit,
651
00:35:36,323 --> 00:35:39,202
that no woman would
could give me anyway.
652
00:35:40,325 --> 00:35:44,407
If any of these black nights,
wet, with thick lips
653
00:35:44,961 --> 00:35:50,286
while I'm out walking,
I find freedom in this village,
654
00:35:50,886 --> 00:35:53,279
if I can not take it
with my tribe,
655
00:35:53,677 --> 00:35:58,098
I will bring you here and you will not
never notice
656
00:35:58,836 --> 00:36:03,233
the absence of rice
and bridesmaids.
657
00:37:12,741 --> 00:37:16,713
She's ironic, this dance,
my ticket for assimilation,
658
00:37:17,335 --> 00:37:21,427
my way of having fun, then
win the acceptance of whites
659
00:37:21,447 --> 00:37:23,424
(how many of us
have followed this path?
660
00:37:23,449 --> 00:37:26,512
that the same steps are
now my return home.
661
00:37:38,898 --> 00:37:40,134
Anthropology,
662
00:37:40,159 --> 00:37:44,306
the incessant search
of what is absolutely precious.
663
00:38:17,071 --> 00:38:20,096
I am chocolate candy,
a handful of cookies,
664
00:38:20,123 --> 00:38:22,735
the sweets we got you
forbidden to eat.
665
00:38:23,525 --> 00:38:26,127
I am a piece of cake,
a piece of cake,
666
00:38:26,147 --> 00:38:29,047
an ice cream bar
that makes your teeth shudder.
667
00:38:29,048 --> 00:38:31,848
Consider me as
your favorite treat,
668
00:38:31,870 --> 00:38:36,085
a pan of corn kernels
waiting for heat.
669
00:38:39,735 --> 00:38:41,967
By jerking me
I look at the mirror
670
00:38:42,236 --> 00:38:45,432
to see the face
naked lust.
671
00:38:57,146 --> 00:38:59,747
His eyes are screaming against me,
672
00:38:59,897 --> 00:39:04,862
separate coyote
of the nomadic pack.
673
00:39:11,154 --> 00:39:14,573
The love potions
do not solve any mystery,
674
00:39:15,657 --> 00:39:18,804
do not provide any comments
on the unsaid.
675
00:39:19,660 --> 00:39:24,950
Our lives are shaking
between pathos and seduction.
676
00:39:26,063 --> 00:39:29,757
Our inhibitions force us
to be equal.
677
00:39:30,704 --> 00:39:34,608
We swallow potions
black and hard love
678
00:39:34,647 --> 00:39:36,817
from a glass of gold.
679
00:39:37,453 --> 00:39:45,411
A new language is beckoning us
his present, intimate, dialect
680
00:39:45,966 --> 00:39:51,979
through my eyes, concentrated
like pure, naked light,
681
00:39:52,079 --> 00:39:54,681
fixed on you as if by magic ...
682
00:39:55,281 --> 00:39:56,240
clarity.
683
00:39:57,182 --> 00:39:58,851
I see risks,
684
00:39:59,125 --> 00:40:02,716
but there will be no regrets.
685
00:40:03,380 --> 00:40:06,518
Let some people be surprised
some worry,
686
00:40:06,538 --> 00:40:08,389
some accuse.
687
00:40:09,090 --> 00:40:10,566
Let us know,
you and me,
688
00:40:11,005 --> 00:40:15,244
the tenderness that only
we can bear.
689
00:40:20,061 --> 00:40:21,999
"Out of the closet!"
690
00:40:22,655 --> 00:40:24,056
"Out of the closet!"
691
00:40:24,599 --> 00:40:26,100
"Out of the closet!"
692
00:40:37,083 --> 00:40:46,690
Hey boy, can you go out tonight?
693
00:40:47,954 --> 00:40:56,258
Hey boy, can you go out tonight?
694
00:40:59,820 --> 00:41:03,472
I do not know where we'll go
695
00:41:05,324 --> 00:41:09,606
but there is one thing I know
696
00:41:10,744 --> 00:41:18,104
I will be your only and
unique lover tonight
697
00:41:20,217 --> 00:41:24,351
hey baby,
698
00:41:25,444 --> 00:41:29,263
do not be ashamed to say
699
00:41:30,713 --> 00:41:35,248
that you are my darling
700
00:41:35,293 --> 00:41:39,026
and you'll stay
always
701
00:41:41,896 --> 00:41:47,395
so, if you want
good try,
702
00:41:47,808 --> 00:41:52,753
we leave for a walk
or maybe we're going to dance
703
00:41:52,853 --> 00:41:58,177
we will go hand in hand
on the main street,
704
00:41:58,216 --> 00:42:01,314
and on Old Broadway
705
00:42:05,461 --> 00:42:07,233
nobody can say
706
00:42:07,663 --> 00:42:13,431
that we can not love
that way, that's true
707
00:42:13,966 --> 00:42:15,867
then baby
708
00:42:15,887 --> 00:42:18,068
just take my hand,
709
00:42:18,088 --> 00:42:20,440
together we
will keep upright
710
00:42:20,875 --> 00:42:24,416
baby it's you and me
711
00:42:29,134 --> 00:42:35,535
hey baby, I know
that you have pain deep inside you
712
00:42:38,781 --> 00:42:46,630
but if you love me, do not leave
not love to be denied
713
00:42:49,789 --> 00:42:54,333
you have to take
what you need
714
00:42:55,648 --> 00:43:00,223
and now it's agreed
715
00:43:01,195 --> 00:43:06,324
do what's right
do what is right
716
00:43:06,398 --> 00:43:11,501
baby, go out tonight
717
00:43:11,591 --> 00:43:13,639
"we are black black black black
gay gays gay gays! "
718
00:43:13,673 --> 00:43:15,303
"we will not have another way!"
719
00:43:15,323 --> 00:43:17,505
"we are black black black black
gay gays gay gays! "
720
00:43:17,605 --> 00:43:19,095
"we will not have another way!"
721
00:43:19,246 --> 00:43:21,434
"we are black black black black
gay gays gay gays! "
722
00:43:21,457 --> 00:43:23,031
"we will not have another way!"
723
00:43:27,322 --> 00:43:29,120
"homophobia must disappear!"
724
00:43:29,142 --> 00:43:30,687
hey hey
ho ho, "
725
00:43:30,973 --> 00:43:32,767
"homophobia must disappear!"
726
00:43:32,968 --> 00:43:34,444
hey hey
ho ho, "
727
00:43:34,746 --> 00:43:36,576
"homophobia must disappear!"
728
00:43:36,747 --> 00:43:38,268
hey hey
ho ho, "
729
00:43:38,309 --> 00:43:40,225
"homophobia must disappear!"
730
00:43:40,593 --> 00:43:46,123
"shame! shame! shame! shame!"
731
00:43:46,173 --> 00:43:51,015
baby, come walk with me
speak with me
732
00:43:51,135 --> 00:43:53,327
serve me now
love me now
733
00:44:01,814 --> 00:44:05,517
go out tonight
734
00:44:06,304 --> 00:44:11,323
I say, go out tonight
735
00:44:15,895 --> 00:44:18,273
Times are tough, handsome kid,
736
00:44:18,747 --> 00:44:22,315
the seeds cook on the bottom
from the pot,
737
00:44:22,863 --> 00:44:28,301
make love fiercely
on the upholstered sofa.
738
00:44:28,821 --> 00:44:30,844
it can be burned too.
739
00:44:31,187 --> 00:44:34,659
Our hunger will evaporate
like money.
740
00:44:35,205 --> 00:44:37,249
I can feel your desire,
741
00:44:37,264 --> 00:44:40,908
let the pot warm up
with the meal tonight,
742
00:44:41,734 --> 00:44:45,230
so we can not buy
flowers for our table,
743
00:44:45,729 --> 00:44:50,478
our kisses are petals,
our languages caress flowering.
744
00:44:51,088 --> 00:44:55,760
Who dares to tell us
that we are poor and poor?
745
00:44:56,137 --> 00:44:58,405
We keep treasures
that any king
746
00:44:58,417 --> 00:45:00,707
we would envy.
747
00:45:01,568 --> 00:45:03,685
Come on, nice kid,
748
00:45:03,870 --> 00:45:05,771
our souls can not be crushed
749
00:45:05,791 --> 00:45:08,552
like crossing cats
the streets too early.
750
00:45:09,020 --> 00:45:11,875
Let the seeds burn
All night long.
751
00:45:12,775 --> 00:45:16,527
Our chilled water glasses
are full of wine
752
00:45:16,547 --> 00:45:17,747
of our love.
753
00:45:18,079 --> 00:45:21,949
And the black seeds
burned, caviar ...
754
00:45:55,301 --> 00:45:57,125
Holy ghost of my heart
755
00:45:57,403 --> 00:46:01,177
grinding my memory,
hunching my need,
756
00:46:01,624 --> 00:46:04,024
throw your head
like the dinka,
757
00:46:04,357 --> 00:46:07,175
shake your arms
like the massai
758
00:46:07,516 --> 00:46:09,849
a French whore flirting,
759
00:46:09,963 --> 00:46:12,649
licking lips
in front of strangers.
760
00:46:13,712 --> 00:46:17,473
I waited for your light bulb
lights for me,
761
00:46:18,416 --> 00:46:23,987
waiting for love exchange
sting, callous affection
762
00:46:24,474 --> 00:46:27,052
slamming "tape me five"
763
00:46:27,075 --> 00:46:29,621
capable and competent,
764
00:46:29,642 --> 00:46:31,580
indifferent and lonely.
765
00:46:33,124 --> 00:46:35,102
Slowly turn your splendor
766
00:46:35,359 --> 00:46:39,041
for me to breathe
your morning breath.
767
00:46:39,829 --> 00:46:41,345
Wet my pillow,
768
00:46:41,730 --> 00:46:43,489
open your eyelids.
769
00:46:44,932 --> 00:46:46,208
I am a typewriter,
770
00:46:46,432 --> 00:46:49,450
libidinous and selfish and wise,
771
00:46:49,485 --> 00:46:52,030
a sonnet, a beatbox.
772
00:46:53,437 --> 00:46:57,859
Use the following line
in your salty metaphors
773
00:46:57,889 --> 00:47:00,527
and your smoked salmon mood.
774
00:47:01,553 --> 00:47:04,475
Wet me with the next line,
775
00:47:04,666 --> 00:47:09,716
the resounding chorus
men grown in love.
776
00:47:11,828 --> 00:47:12,671
Now, we think
as we are bouncing
777
00:47:13,523 --> 00:47:14,916
now we think
as we are bouncing
778
00:47:16,183 --> 00:47:17,328
now we think
as we are bouncing
779
00:47:18,418 --> 00:47:19,627
now we think
as we are bouncing
780
00:47:20,455 --> 00:47:21,869
now we think
as we are bouncing
781
00:47:22,983 --> 00:47:24,055
now we think
as we are bouncing
782
00:47:24,085 --> 00:47:25,194
now we think
783
00:47:25,338 --> 00:47:26,368
now we think
as we are bouncing
784
00:47:26,387 --> 00:47:27,911
as we are bouncing
785
00:47:27,933 --> 00:47:28,873
now we think
as we are bouncing
786
00:47:28,899 --> 00:47:31,054
this ball could
787
00:47:31,059 --> 00:47:31,411
...
788
00:47:31,432 --> 00:47:32,583
kill us
789
00:47:32,606 --> 00:47:33,681
now we think
as we are bouncing
790
00:47:33,701 --> 00:47:38,099
there could be a
tiny hole
791
00:47:38,119 --> 00:47:40,041
in the condom,
792
00:47:40,966 --> 00:47:42,610
a lethal leak.
793
00:47:43,517 --> 00:47:45,383
We stop kissing each other,
794
00:47:46,179 --> 00:47:49,693
big dark aliens
795
00:47:50,872 --> 00:47:53,018
sucking mustaches,
796
00:47:53,273 --> 00:47:54,786
by putting the lips,
797
00:47:55,722 --> 00:47:57,001
languages,
798
00:47:57,889 --> 00:47:59,590
all over,
799
00:48:00,464 --> 00:48:02,739
we go back to the pictures,
800
00:48:03,280 --> 00:48:04,762
phones
801
00:48:05,431 --> 00:48:06,647
toys,
802
00:48:07,182 --> 00:48:09,618
to recent lovers,
803
00:48:10,084 --> 00:48:11,915
to private lives,
804
00:48:12,535 --> 00:48:13,939
now we think
805
00:48:14,837 --> 00:48:16,440
as we are bouncing
806
00:48:16,988 --> 00:48:19,439
this ball could
807
00:48:19,800 --> 00:48:21,611
this ball could
808
00:48:22,369 --> 00:48:24,417
this ball could
809
00:48:25,047 --> 00:48:26,165
kill us ...
810
00:48:37,145 --> 00:48:41,046
Yet, I listened
the beating of my heart,
811
00:48:41,703 --> 00:48:44,114
let this pulse
primitive lead me
812
00:48:44,755 --> 00:48:46,870
even though lately I have lived
with another rhythm.
813
00:48:47,547 --> 00:48:51,016
At first, I just thought
as time passes
814
00:48:51,528 --> 00:48:56,320
but I discovered a bomb at
retardation in my blood.
815
00:48:58,413 --> 00:49:02,227
Faces, friends, disappear.
816
00:49:05,267 --> 00:49:08,123
I look, I wait,
817
00:49:10,201 --> 00:49:13,812
I look, I wait.
818
00:49:40,292 --> 00:49:44,524
I'm listening and I'm waiting
my own calm implosion.
819
00:49:46,043 --> 00:49:49,574
But while I wait,
old and strong rhythms
820
00:49:49,595 --> 00:49:51,339
resonate in me,
821
00:49:52,147 --> 00:49:56,097
support my spirit,
Silence the clock.
822
00:49:56,249 --> 00:49:57,468
I will not let
no one distract me
823
00:49:57,475 --> 00:50:00,556
I will continue to walk,
to speak,
824
00:50:00,728 --> 00:50:03,039
walking towards the earth
of freedom
825
00:50:03,637 --> 00:50:06,300
I will not leave
Homophobia turn me away
826
00:50:09,407 --> 00:50:12,334
I will not leave
Homophobia turn me away
827
00:50:12,645 --> 00:50:15,192
I will continue to walk,
to speak,
828
00:50:15,365 --> 00:50:17,786
walking towards the earth
of freedom
829
00:50:18,062 --> 00:50:20,964
I will not let
racism distract me
830
00:50:27,067 --> 00:50:29,644
I will continue to walk,
to speak,
831
00:50:29,825 --> 00:50:32,371
walking towards the earth
of freedom
832
00:50:32,527 --> 00:50:35,452
I will not let
no one distract me
833
00:50:45,980 --> 00:50:49,200
No matter what awaits me,
I know at least that.
834
00:50:49,981 --> 00:50:52,083
I was blind
to the beauty of my brother
835
00:50:52,183 --> 00:50:54,779
and now I see mine.
836
00:50:55,385 --> 00:50:56,966
Deaf to conviction
837
00:50:56,986 --> 00:51:00,123
it was worth it
to want to love us,
838
00:51:00,889 --> 00:51:02,452
now, I hear.
839
00:51:03,020 --> 00:51:07,687
I was dumb, tongue bound,
overwhelmed by shadows and silence.
840
00:51:08,245 --> 00:51:16,237
Now I speak, and my
burden is lightened, lifted, free.
841
00:51:18,043 --> 00:51:21,063
Black men who
like black men,
842
00:51:21,476 --> 00:51:25,664
it's the act
révolutonnaire
843
00:51:33,957 --> 00:51:39,316
So many roles you can play
just to stay in the game
844
00:51:42,709 --> 00:51:44,944
will you follow the main rhythm?
845
00:51:45,225 --> 00:51:51,456
or will you dance
on a different rhythm?
846
00:51:52,328 --> 00:51:55,995
mother, father
and daughter or son
847
00:51:56,015 --> 00:51:58,953
they are always a
alone and even ...
848
00:52:00,743 --> 00:52:04,897
then you discover
that you simulated so long
849
00:52:04,918 --> 00:52:08,040
that you do not know your name anymore
850
00:52:10,026 --> 00:52:15,248
after learning
predetermined roles
851
00:52:15,269 --> 00:52:17,835
they created for you
852
00:52:19,242 --> 00:52:27,335
it's time to realize that
you can do what you want
853
00:52:30,043 --> 00:52:33,572
since you were born
you played straight
854
00:52:33,595 --> 00:52:36,878
never went astray
of the standard
855
00:52:39,048 --> 00:52:42,494
now that you're tall
you are looking for goals
856
00:52:42,514 --> 00:52:44,701
that you can consider as yours
857
00:52:47,604 --> 00:52:49,597
Where will you go?
858
00:52:49,693 --> 00:52:53,811
you are puzzled and confused
by what you learned
859
00:52:55,964 --> 00:52:57,924
you could run somewhere
860
00:52:58,360 --> 00:53:02,715
but will you find peace
of the spirit waiting for you there?
861
00:53:05,255 --> 00:53:10,017
after having learned
predetermined roles
862
00:53:10,038 --> 00:53:12,690
they created for you
863
00:53:14,070 --> 00:53:21,022
it's time to realize
that you can do what you want
864
00:53:21,962 --> 00:53:25,352
you can do
what you want
865
00:53:26,177 --> 00:53:29,748
you can do
what you want
866
00:53:30,880 --> 00:53:33,986
and do what you want
867
00:53:34,883 --> 00:53:37,918
you can be who you want to be
868
00:53:39,042 --> 00:53:42,759
you can love who you want to love
869
00:53:43,222 --> 00:53:46,554
you can do what you want
870
00:53:47,667 --> 00:53:51,255
you can do what you want
871
00:53:53,894 --> 00:53:55,029
Brother to brother
brother to brother
872
00:53:55,345 --> 00:53:56,673
brother to brother
brother to brother
873
00:53:57,046 --> 00:53:58,541
Black men who love
black men
874
00:53:58,840 --> 00:54:00,162
a call to action
875
00:54:00,183 --> 00:54:01,510
a call to action
876
00:54:01,799 --> 00:54:03,901
recognition
of responsibility
877
00:54:04,195 --> 00:54:05,921
we take care of
our fellow
878
00:54:05,942 --> 00:54:08,006
when the nights become
cold and silent
879
00:54:08,269 --> 00:54:10,880
nowadays, the nights
are cold-blooded
880
00:54:10,999 --> 00:54:15,015
and silence resonates
of complicity.
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