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Işık, are you ready?

I'm counting down from ten.

I can't carry this anymore.

I want to get better.

10... 9...

-I want to get better. -8... 7...

6... 5... 4...

3... 2...1...

I'm starting.

PİRAYE -- Yes

Today is my final show.

For a long time now,

both here and in the therapy room,

I've been trying to share life's burden with you, even if only a little.

Time is cruel.

Don't wait until it's too late for the people you love.

Don't keep your longing for the people you miss bottled up inside.

I wish everyone a family

as healthy, happy, and full of love as mine.

Goodbye.

Chief... I swear, I don't understand what's going on.

Are you seriously going to judge me based on the words of some crazy girl?

Are you serious, Chief?

Damn, Neşe really was a better cop than you.

Before I got to you, I searched everywhere for T.

I tore through every f...king email, message, and call record.

Didn't find a damn thing.

But then I pulled your phone records!

God!

And then you went and

threatened my niece so she wouldn't tell me! Huh?!

Who the f...k do you think you are... -Partner!

threatening my niece, you f...king prick, huh?

Deniz. Deniz.

-Tell me! -Deniz! Let go.

Let go! Let go!

Get that chair.

Sit down.

Damn you!

Aren't you ashamed to still be wearing that ring, you bastard?!

Didn't we throw you a huge wedding two years ago, huh?!

-Chief, I'm going to get divorced. -Shut the f...k up!

Chief, I'm innocent.

I was on duty at the station that night. You can check the records.

We know, idiot! We know.

Look at me, Mehmet.

You have two choices.

Either you resign from the police force,

get the f...k out of here, and go straight to hell.

Or you tell me everything you know about Neşe.

Either one works for me.

Chief... Neşe...

She was obsessively looking for her stepbrother.

What stepbrother?

I didn't fully understand the whole thing, but...

Apparently, there was someone her mother had loved years ago.

His son, or something.

All she cared about was finding that man.

This... this guy had gotten into medical school back then.

But who knows what happened afterward.

She couldn't find any trace of whether he was alive or dead...

That's why she went to Professor Levent.

Apparently, he's a very respected doctor.

She thought he could help her.

What's his name? Tell me his name!

Did she find the guy? Tell me!

She did, Chief.

Zafer Yazgan.

Partner? Partner!

Doctor... Doctor, come here.

Did you see Işık?

No. She hasn't left her room at all.

I swear, I only came because of you, Deniz.

Otherwise, in a situation like this...

It would've been very disrespectful to Professor Levent.

Okay... Look... Doctor...

You're my last resort... I mean...

Were you able to learn anything from Professor Levent?

Neşe...

Did she meet Zafer? Did she find him, huh?

Zafer Yazgan. You know, maybe he has a different surname now.

Maybe he explained something to you.

The answers to your questions aren't with Professor Levent, Deniz.

Neşe didn't ask him for any help.

He doesn't know Zafer Yazgan either.

How?

Mehmet... He was pretty sure.

Maybe Neşe was going to ask for help.

But maybe she never found the right time. Maybe she was hesitant.

No. No.

Look, Seha.

Neşe is stubborn. She's persistent,

and she knows exactly what she wants.

She's not afraid of anyone.

That's how I raised her, Seha. You know that very well.

You know this. You know it better than anyone.

This man is lying.

He's lying. This isn't going to work!

Stop, stop, stop, stop.

What are you doing, brother?

What are you doing?

İrfan told you, "You're never going to get involved with this family again."

Seha...

Işık... Is she okay? How is she?

Did they tell you anything? -She's okay.

But Professor Levent doesn't want her seeing anyone. And he's right.

She had a very severe episode.

Deniz, I think you should stay away for a while too.

Seeing you could trigger another episode.

Why would she get triggered by me? She wouldn't get triggered.

I never did anything to hurt her, doctor.

Brother...

You haven't fallen for this girl, have you?

Don't, Deniz! Don't...

During an episode, a patient's emotions can become extremely intense.

They may suddenly say, feel, or do something that would normally

seem simple but to them, it feels enormous.

It feels like love. It feels like a need. It feels real.

But when the brain chemistry returns to normal, those feelings can disappear.

So what she feels for me...

Is because she's sick... -Because of her illness, Deniz.

The effects of ECT will wear off in a few days,

and the fog in her mind will clear.

So they erased me from her mind, doctor?

They erased me.

As long as she's okay...

As long as she's okay... That's all that matters.

That's all that matters.

Doctor...

Look, Piraye is at home right now.

Işık... Işık isn't exactly doing well either.

Maybe that's why Professor Levent brushed you off.

Maybe he didn't want to tell you. Couldn't it be? It could.

-Deniz! -No, no, look.

If you took her out to dinner... -Deniz!

Will you finally accept the truth?

Işık stopped looking for her father and started messing with your head.

Maybe this situation...

What do you mean? There's no situation.

What situation? What are you talking about?

Tell me, doctor!

The day Neşe died...

The day Neşe died,

before Işık disturbed the crime scene, I examined everything in detail.

I performed the autopsy myself.

You know better than anyone how good I am at my job.

But there wasn't a single trace

that she had been murdered, or that a stranger had entered that house.

So?

You know what that means, Deniz. Neşe wasn't murdered!

She killed herself.

Then what about Buse, huh?

Didn't you say the same drug was found in both their blood? You did.

Weren't both crime scenes staged the same way? They were!

Look, doctor. You know this very well.

Neşe wasn't someone who would do that. You know that very well.

Why? Didn't your sister hang herself?

My sister?

Deniz, why are you looking at me like that? You told me, brother.

You're not okay, Deniz.

Işık hasn't been good for you.

She's turned your brain upside down.

You've fallen so deeply in love that

you completely lost your sense of reason.

Fine. Commissioner İrfan reopened the file so you wouldn't be upset.

But believe me. You won't find anything!

Neşe's case will be closed as a suicide!

Deniz...

Look, we're very good friends.

I'm thinking about what's best for you, brother...

Okay?

Come on, tell me. What happened? You look like hell...

Has Işık gotten worse? What's wrong with her?

-She has bipolar disorder. -What?

Bipolar.

What does that mean? What's wrong with the girl? Just tell me properly.

It's a mental illness, Mom.

Sometimes she's on top of the world. Sometimes she's at rock bottom.

Alıkara...

That's what they call it where we're from.

Because her crimson bleeds into black, and her black into crimson.

She flutters like a pigeon trapped in a cage,

beating her wings until she crashes into the walls...

But don't you ever be angry with her.

She can't help it. She doesn't know any other way.

Like your sister, then... Like my Nur...

Nur.

Who was the first person to love you?

Whose love did you lose first?

Your sister...

Sister.

Your sister is here, Deniz.

Nursabah...

Neşe's killer is there too.

In the first light of dawn.

What are you hiding, Deniz?

What secret did your family have? What are you hiding?

Sister!

Deniz! Deniz!

Sister!

Baran!

Uncle, please don't. I swear, I haven't sinned.

İbrahim is a good man, pure-hearted.

Please let us build a life together, let me be his home, and him be mine.

Let him be a father to my Neşe,

and let me be a mother to his Zafer, Uncle.

The only thing that can come from you is a whore!

You've shamed us, Nursabah!

Take it! Take it!

Don't take it.

Either you do what must be done, or I will.

Don't take it... Sister!

Take it! I said take it!

Sister!

Take it!

Nur, don't leave Neşe!

Nur, don't take it!

I'm telling you, take it!

-Nur! -Take it!

Nur, don't leave Neşe! Nur!

Nur, don't do it!

Okay, okay. Okay.

They killed my sister!

They took my sister's life!

İbrahim.

The tribe took İbrahim's life too, didn't they, Mom?

They killed the man my sister loved, didn't they?

That's a lie! A lie! How could that possibly be?

What widowed woman has a lover?

Mom, tell me the truth.

Do you really think I would let them come and take my daughter away?

Not your uncle, not the tribe,

I'd sacrifice all of Mardin for my children!

I couldn't do it, Mom. I couldn't, Mom!

I couldn't protect Neşe either. I wasn't strong enough.

Listen, Mom. You know Işık, the girl we called sick...

She's been telling me the truth from the very beginning.

She tells me...

It's not what people say that burns you.

It's what they couldn't say, Mom...

The things they forgot, the things they kept inside...

So if there's something, tell me, Mom... Tell me.

But tell me the truth!

İbrahim had a son, didn't he?

Zafer?

How did Zafer even come to your mind?

Where is Zafer?

Do you know anything?

How would I know, son? I...

After we buried your sister, I took you and Neşe and ran.

I came here.

Look at me. Where did you get this idea about Zafer?

Zafer...

Zafer...

Zafer...

I'm sorry, Deniz.

I don't remember exactly what happened the other day.

But I'm sure I did something embarrassing.

I treated everyone terribly.

I don't want you to remember me like this.

Would it be ridiculous to ask you to forgive me for all my lies?

So what she feels for me...

It's because of her illness, Deniz. Because of her illness.

Why are you so hung up on Chief Deniz?

He saved your life after all.

His brother is a mobster.

We can't ignore that, can we?

And then there's Deniz how should I put it...

He carries too much pain on his shoulders.

I'm afraid he'll wear Işık's heart down.

But Seha is an interesting man.

Bro!

Easy, man. Calm down.

What do you mean, we're sneaking into Seha's office? Huh?

Where did that come from?

Damn, man, did you go crazy again? What's going on?

Look, Seha's off today, but he could show up at any moment.

Cameras. Done.

-The door too. -Let's go!

Bro...

There's something I've been meaning to tell you for a long time.

Yeah, tell me.

You know the toxicology reports for Neşe and Buse?

Yeah.

Seha told you the drugs were the same.

But the report says the exact opposite.

At first, it didn't make any sense to me.

I didn't want to tell you I thought you wouldn't believe me, but...

If we find something today, it means this guy has been hiding evidence.

You're telling me this now?

Come on, partner.

Here, my Baran...

Give them to me. My mother gave them to me... Give them to me.

They're mine!

Didn't your sister kill herself?

Zafer.

What's up, beautiful? How are you feeling?

Seha? If Deniz is with you, please don't let him know I called.

No, he's not here right now.

I'm not okay.

I suddenly found myself at the cabin where Buse was found hanging.

I'm in the woods. The hallucinations have started.

If I tell my mother, she'll take me to a clinic.

And if Deniz finds out, he'll tell them too.

You need to come. I need you, Seha.

Işık, stay calm. I'm coming right now... I'm coming.

What do you mean, Zafer Yazgan is Seha?

Why?

Why would he lie to us for years, then?

No, why would he hide it?

Why would he hide it from you?

Why would he hide it from Neşe?

I don't know. I don't know. I don't know!

There's only one thing I know. Just one thing.

Zafer was a strange kid.

He had no friends. Nobody wanted to talk to him.

Okay, yeah, I wasn't his friend either, but...

I never treated him badly. I never did anything to him.

I never hurt him. I didn't do anything, partner.

Nothing.

But that's all I remember.

Then...

Did Seha

kill Neşe?

Yes.

Deniz. Deniz.

Işık!

Are you okay? What are you doing here alone?

How did you find this place? I didn't send you the location!

Buse was found here. I checked the case file.

You weren't assigned to that case as the forensic examiner!

I checked the file, Işık. What's the difference?

This place belongs to you, doesn't it? This is yours, isn't it?

-No. What makes you think that? -"No"?

Işık, you're not well.

You called me here, and now you're interrogating me?

Yes.

You're the stepbrother Neşe was looking for.

You've lied to me twice.

Levent And was my professor at Hacettepe.

Believe me, I was relieved too that the body wasn't his.

The first time, you said, "I was your father's student."

Dr. Levent made me fall in love with Ankara.

The second time, you said, "Your father made me love Ankara."

But Seha is an interesting man.

Why did he stop by today?

He wanted to see how Işık was doing. Apparently, they're quite close.

Funny, we only met today.

But you only met my father today, didn't you?

Your father has been through a traumatic ordeal.

His mind may be playing tricks on him.

Your brain is playing tricks on you. Come on. Let's get out of here.

No.

I'm not going anywhere until you confess.

Then I'll call an ambulance.

Call them.

They'll admit you to a psychiatric clinic, Işık.

They'll discover that your mother has been treating you illegally at home.

Her medical license will be revoked.

I should've known the day you gave me that injection!

You killed Neşe!

Why? You're going to confess... Why?

For the same reason I'm going to kill you.

Piraye? Levent?

Chief, we need to talk. Now!

Deniz... Has Işık called you at all today?

-No. -Our daughter is missing again.

She slipped away again while we weren't looking.

Wait. Wait a minute.

Işık doesn't move unless she has a goal.

Levent, what was the last thing Işık asked you?

What was she trying to talk to you about?

She was after the lead Neşe had been following. Her stepbrother.

Did Neşe ask you for help finding her stepbrother?

Yes. Zafer Yazgan...

Did you find him?

Neşe had gotten pretty close. She had even found his cabin.

Buse was later found in that cabin.

Chief... Send Seha's photos to every unit.

Have him detained on sight.

Don't worry. I'll find your daughter.

What the hell does Seha have to do with this?!

Chief, I'll explain everything.

Neşe!

Işık.

Zafer.

Zafer.

Zafer, what are you doing?

What the hell are you doing?

I need to make another plan for you, Işık And.

Something that will hurt Deniz even more.

Bastard!

Zafer...

F...k! -Brother...

You okay, huh?

Brother, what are you doing here?

What do you mean, what am I doing here?

You sent a location to my private number telling me to come.

What's going on?

Brother... Seha... Seha is Zafer.

Yeah. İbrahim's son.

What do you mean, Zafer? Zafer!

Holy shit!

Brother, what does he want?

-Holy shit! -Brother, what is he trying to do?

Holy shit!

Brother, what is he trying to do?

F...k! Leave me alone.

I've got a son, I've got work to do!

I can't go digging around in this garbage heap of a past.

Brother...

Kendal! -What?

Neşe's killer is Zafer!

Zafer?

Brother, look. Brother.

Işık... Işık is in his hands right now!

We have to deal with Zafer. We have to.

We can't let him do to Işık what he did to Neşe.

Then he better not!

But what the hell does Zafer have to do with this?

I don't know, brother. I didn't send you any location.

Clearly Zafer sent you the location.

Clearly he wants you here.

He wants you here.

He's going to punish our whole family, so spill it, brother.

Tell me what you did to Zafer.

Look, I... I... I can't remember.

There's nothing there. It's completely dark in my head, brother!

I don't know.

Go ahead, blame me for whatever that f...king lunatic did too!

Blame me for that as well!

Kendal, bana bak, bana!

Kendal, look at me. Don't give me that bullshit. Tell me the truth.

What did you do to him?

He's going to hurt Işık. Whatever you did to Seha,

he's going to do the same thing to Işık!

Holy shit!

No... Holy shit.

You don't remember?

Remember what, brother?

What we did?

You really don't remember?

Son, his score is with you! This is between you and him!

I said give them to me! My mother gave them to me.

We were playing marbles, weren't we?

Then Zafer stole my marbles. Then we got into a fight.

You threw Zafer into the well!

No...

I didn't do that. I didn't do that.

Son, you threw that boy in. You did it. Remember!

No!

He fell on his own, brother. He fell on his own, okay?

You were just a kid, Baran.

Kids forget the bad things. They only remember the good.

Ya bak bu Zafer seni kıskanırdı!

Look, Zafer was jealous of you! He was even jealous of Nursabah.

No, no... You...

Baran, let go. Let him fall.

Then you came...

You came.

You said, "If you don't let go, you're not a man!"

You said, "That son of a bitch deserves to die!"

You said, "If you don't let him go, you're not my brother."

You threw Zafer into the well!

-No! -You did!

No! He fell on his own!

Zafer fell into that well because you let go of him! Not me!

You said, "İbrahim is dead. If his son doesn't die too,

Nursabah's blood will go unavenged!"

You said, "That son of a bitch went and snitched on our sister to the tribe."

Didn't you?

I did! I said it!

Zafer was the bad one! He was the one in the wrong!

Didn't that bastard snitch to the tribe

because his own father was running away with our sister?

And then he pinned the whole thing on me?

Some people deserve to die, Chief Deniz!

He was a child too!

Our sister died because of him!

Our sister didn't die because of him, brother!

She died because of the people

who put that rope in her hands so she'd hang herself!

We created a killer because of you.

Me... Me?

Because of me?

You're the righteous, the human one,

and the rest of us, the whole tribe, are animals.

Is that it?

Look at me! Look at my face and see yourself, Baran!

Don't let go...

You were right.

You wanted it, and I did it, brother...

-Baran. -Let's not leave him there!

Baran!

Don't leave me here!

But I couldn't save that kid.

Son...

I couldn't save Neşe either, brother.

I couldn't save Neşe. I didn't make it in time. I couldn't do it, brother.

Son, we were kids.

That son of a bitch had cruelty in his blood. He was a killer.

Do you understand? Does falling into a well make someone a killer?

Look at me, son. Does falling into a well make someone a killer?

My lion. We were kids. Kids. Okay?

Brother... I...

I can't leave Işık in that darkness.

I won't leave her there. -Yeah. Okay.

Brother.

What did I tell you a minute ago? -What?

Whatever you did to Zafer, he's going to do the same thing to Işık, right?

The well. -Holy shit.

Işık.

Işık.

Işık.

Işık.

Brother, she's here.

-There's rope in the car. I'll get it. -Okay.

Işık, can you hear me, sweetheart?

Deniz?

-Brother... -I'm coming. Hang on.

Işık! Işık.

I'm going to get you out of there now, okay, sweetheart?

Okay?

Deniz, help me.

Işık, I'm right here, sweetheart. Okay?

Hang on. I'll get you out in a minute.

Okay, son.

Take this. I'll attach it to the car.

Işık! Listen.

You're going to hear a noise now. Don't be scared, okay?

There's something like a lid here.

We're going to pull it off, okay, sweetheart? I'm right here.

Don't be scared, Işık. -Okay.

Don't be scared, sweetheart. Don't be scared.

Brother.

Okay, brother. Okay. Okay, okay, okay.

Işık, Işık!

Deniz.

Işık. A rope is coming down to you now...

Do you know what I want you to do?

Stay calm, sweetheart. Just breathe.

Calm down.

First, loop the rope tightly around your belt, okay?

Secure it around yourself, sweetheart.

Wrap it. -Okay.

Now grip the rope tightly with your left hand.

Wrap it. -Okay.

Now just hold the other end with your right hand.

-Okay. -Now, don't be scared, okay?

I just need you to trust me, Işık. Okay?

-Okay. -I want you to stay completely calm.

-Okay. -Okay, sweetheart. We're almost there.

Brother...

Hang in there, sweetheart. Hang in there.

Deniz, I'm going to fall. I can't get out.

Sweetheart, I won't let you fall. Come on. Come on, sweetheart.

-Deniz. -Işık, give me your hand, sweetheart.

Deniz.

Hold on. Hold on.

Come on, hang in there. Almost there. -Deniz.

Deniz. I found Neşe's killer.

It's Seha. It's Seha, I'm telling you.

Sweetheart. Sweetheart.

I went out of my mind looking for you.

If I ever let you go now, may my heart wither.

Look at me. That lunatic didn't hurt you, did he?

Deniz.

-Come here, sweetheart. Come on. -Deniz.

I'm so sorry.

I hid my illness from you. I lied to you.

But I knew Neşe had really been murdered.

I did all this both to help you find my father

and to make sure Neşe's case wouldn't be closed as a suicide.

Please forgive me. I... I wanted to help you, too.

We're not talking about this, okay?

That's all behind us now.

If it weren't for you, you know, we wouldn't have figured any of this out.

Your own mind drove you mad. Me, I was already mad.

You're Alıkara, and I'm the mad chief...

We're not all that different, really.

Get well soon, sis-in-law.

But I have to give my brother his due.

We couldn't have saved you without him.

I won't steal his thunder now.

I should get this.

Hello. Yeah!

I was so scared, Deniz. I thought my heart was going to jump out of my chest.

Where are you going, brother?

Son, I've got things to take care of.

I'd better get going before the cops show up.

Thanks, brother.

Take care, champ. Thanks.

I was scared too, you know.

Really scared. But thank God you're okay.

Thank God you're here with me. So, what do we do now?

We're going to the hospital first, okay?

They'll check you out there. All right?

When I was down there at the bottom of the well,

I prayed for the sun to blind my eyes like this, you know?

How are you this beautiful?

Işık.

Deniz, what's happening? Did Seha come?

-Wait, wait. -Is it Seha? He's going to kill us.

Wait, wait. Hold on. Hold on.

Wait--wait. Now run! -What are we going to do?

What are we going to do, Deniz? Tell me, what are we going to do?

-Come with me. -Where are we going?

Get in the car.

What are we going to do, Deniz?

-Işık. -Deniz, what are we going to do?

What are we going to do now?

-Işık, stay calm. -I'm calm. What are we going to do?

Look. You know what we're going to do?

Take this. This is my phone, okay? -Okay.

The password is 4747.

-Deniz. -I'm sorry.

I'll come back, okay? -Deniz, no.

Call Özgür.

Deniz, no, no. You can't go, Deniz. You can't go without me, Deniz.

If I'm not back in fifteen minutes, don't you dare leave this place.

Deniz, Deniz, no, no, no. Deniz, open the door.

-What the hell did you do? -Deniz, I didn't do anything.

-What did you do?! -Deniz, I didn't do anything.

What the hell did this man do to deserve this?

What was his crime, you son of a bitch?

-I told you, I didn't do anything... -What did you want from him?

Why?

Why the hell?

Why?

I called you my brother.

I called you my brother too, Baran. Don't you remember?

Why did you kill Neşe?

Zafer Yazgan.

So you remember who I am, huh?

Then you must remember what you did, too.

You threw me down that well. Then you left me there to die.

I was a kid, damn it. I was a kid too.

And I was a kid who had just lost his sister.

I had all that fire burning inside me.

I was a kid too, damn it! I was a kid too!

You weren't. You weren't.

Not when you killed Neşe...

You weren't when you killed Neşe.

You weren't when you killed Neşe.

I called you brother too.

I lost my father because of you.

I lost my father because of your sister.

What did you do? You threw me down that well.

And then you left me there to die. Must've been hard, wasn't it, Baran?

Yeah. Being betrayed by someone close to you must've been hard, huh?

You want revenge?

You should've killed me.

You should've killed me. You should've killed Kendal.

Why, damn it? Why? Why Neşe? She didn't do anything.

Yeah, damn it. Yeah, she didn't do anything.

Her only crime was being your niece.

If you hadn't loved her so much, I wouldn't have killed her either.

You killed my childhood, damn it.

If your bitch sister hadn't messed with my father's head...

Don't you dare say her name.

Don't you dare say my sister's name.

Don't you dare say my sister's name, damn it.

I was left without a father because of you.

I was left with no one.

If you hadn't snitched on my sister to the tribe,

none of this would've happened.

I spent three days and three nights at the bottom of that well.

I think my leg is broken. Help me.

No one heard me.

-Baran! -No one came for me.

Why? Why? Why? Why?

Why?

How did I not realize you were that crazy kid?

How did I not realize it, huh?

How did I not realize you were that crazy kid?

Why did you become my friend? Why did you become my best friend?

I wanted you to taste betrayal.

I wanted you to understand what it feels like to lose someone you love.

Man, I trusted you. And you went and threw me down that well.

That son of a bitch Kendal told you to do it, and you sent me to my death.

You call me evil.

You're responsible for all the murders, Deniz Baran Dağ.

How could you do that to Neşe?

How could you? How?

Do you want to know, huh? Do you want to know?

When we entered that house that day,

I thought you'd close your eyes and find me.

Deniz.

But you're such an incompetent, broken man that you couldn't do it.

-Shut the hell up. -I'm going to tell you the rest.

Don't tell me.

Shut up.

Thank you so, so much for coming.

Thank you for inviting me.

Neşe invited me to her house.

Shut up. Just kill me. Please, shut up.

-Your house is as cheerful as you are. -sn't it like a miracle?

Yeah.

I'm still in shock.

I'm really wondering how you found out

so much about me.

I'll tell you everything, one thing at a time. Don't stand there. Sit down.

She made harire for me.

Zafer, please. Please, Zafer.

Please, please, please.

I made it with my mother's recipe, and it's from our hometown, too.

I made it for you.

Maybe you've missed it.

I haven't been to Mardin in a long time.

You probably have more memories of it than I do.

I have so many questions. For months.

What happened, what it felt like, for instance.

-She really did look for me... -Shut up... Shut up.

She said she was really happy when she found me.

You and your uncle really love each other.

What about your other uncle? How is he?

My Uncle Kendal... We're actually pretty close, too.

He just disappears sometimes.

He's in prison now. He's inside, but he'll be getting out.

Deniz mentions him in passing, but he doesn't speak very highly of him.

He actually loves him. Don't listen to what he says.

They're brothers, after all. Brothers love each other.

She talked about brotherhood, damn it.

She talked to me about brotherhood. She ripped open all my wounds, Neşe.

Don't. Don't, Zafer. Don't tell me. Don't tell me.

If you'd seen how full of life she was.

I'll bring out the dessert, then.

-I stuck the needle in her neck. -No. No. No, damn it.

Then we said goodbye.

Your killer uncle ruined my life, Neşe.

And your beloved Uncle Deniz didn't exactly help either.

I would've loved to be your brother, too.

But your family doesn't exactly welcome brotherhood.

I told her that neither you nor her Uncle Kendal were

the good people she thought you were.

Hey!

Shut the hell up.

Come on, come on.

I'm coming, Deniz. I'm coming.

Baran, don't let go of me. Pull me up, Baran. Don't let go.

Pull me up. We're old friends, Baran.

We were brothers. We were brothers.

If you let me go, you'll become like me.

You can't live with that feeling, Baran. Don't let me go.

You're not like this. You're not a killer.

Don't let me go.

Baran, please. Baran, don't let me go.

Neşe.

Don't let me go. Baran, pull me up. Don't let go.

Baran, please.

Baran, please.

Baran. Baran.

No.

Baran. Baran, Baran, Baran.

Don't let go, Baran.

Don't let go...

-No. -Baran.

Baran, don't let go. Baran. Baran.

Baran.

-Baran, don't let me go. -No.

No!

Işık.

Işık.

-Dad. -Don't come. Please, Işık. Don't come.

Deniz, what did you do to my father?

Deniz, what did you do? What did you do to my father?

Işık. No. It's not what it looks like. I didn't do anything, Işık.

I didn't get there in time.

Deniz, what did you do? Move. Move!

Move. Dad.

Dad. Dad. Dad.

Dad. Are you okay? Dad?

Deniz, do something. Give him CPR.

Do something, please.

Dad. Dad.

Dad. Come on, Dad, get up.

Please, Dad. Get up. Dad, get up.

Dad, please get up. Get up, Dad.

-Işık. Işık. -Dad!

Dad, no. No. -Işık.

It's too late now. It's over.

-No. No. No. -Yes. Yes.

No... No.

I trusted you. I trusted you.

No.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

Deniz.

No. No.

No. No. No.

This happened because of me.

No.

Deniz, it's because of me.

Because of me. We had just found each other again.

Dad. My dad. No, no.

No, Deniz, do something.

-Işık. Işık. -Do something, please.

Please, do something.

I can't. I wish there were something I could do. Please, Işık.

Please, do something, Deniz. Please.

Deniz... Deniz, please, do something. No, no, no, no.

Işık... I'll never leave you.

No.

Grief isn't about getting used to the absence of someone we've lost.

It's about accepting that

the relationship we built with them will now live only within us.

When we bury someone we love, we don't let go of them.

We take them from the outside world and carry them into our souls.

We keep them in our hearts.

Maybe that's why some losses never truly fade.

They simply cease to be only pain

and become part of who we are.