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Democally, everything is going phenomenally.

My GPA is up, but professors are happy.

My internship is a formality.

The next steps are clear.

It's just a series of inputs and outputs.

Are you here to ask me anything, Dr. Horses,

I just continue on with my soul assessment.

I'm just listening.

See, you're very good at describing the machine,

but I have yet to hear you describe how the machine feels.

I told you it doesn't feel that's the problem.

No feeling at all.

No more.

No joy for your 4.0 GPA, no anxiety about the future, no desire.

My desires are logical preferences.

I prefer to succeed.

I prefer a clean and orderly environment.

I don't know what that has to do with anything.

It has everything to do with what you're here.

You're not here for a tune-up, you know.

You hear it because you're worried that the machine might be broken.

I'm here for a professional opinion.

And you're going to get one.

You see, you present a class case of the lexmethia

with dissociative traits in simple terms.

You have a profound difficulty identifying,

describing your own emotions.

You exist in a constant state of detachment,

constantly living your life from the outside

as opposed to actually participating in it.

Now, you can work on this.

It's going to take some time.

A lot of time.

Years probably.

Years?

I don't have years to work on that.

I came here for solutions.

Not a fucking life sentence.

You didn't cry.

You parents funeral, did you?

You just stood in the back feeling nothing but a quiet, clinical curiosity.

It's to why everyone else was so emotional.

Now, that night, you went home and you studied the tors of your law class

because that was the next logical step in your daily schedule.

That's not the behavior of a machine, you know.

The machine follows programming.

You, you're hiding from something.

You're afraid of what might happen if that wall ever collapses.

That's why you're really here.

You're right about everything.

The night I left here, I went to try to feel something, anything.

I watched a sad movie.

I listened to music that people said made them cry.

I even went to a bar and kissed a stranger and felt nothing.

It was like kissing a mannequin.

Nothing was there.

The only one who's seen it is you.

I see what you show me.

The rest is just good to take the work.

I can't live like this.

I can't keep going on a ghost of myself and you said it would take years.

I don't have years. I will go insane.

Please, is there a new medication, a new shock treatment, anything?

There is theoretical framework, an experimental protocol.

It's not standard.

It's not studied, it's not approved, it bypasses the conscious mind entirely.

But I have to be honest with you, it's risky.

We'll be navigating uncharted territory and the risk or significant trauma.

It's pretty significant.

I don't care about the risk at all.

I'm already traumatized by my own emptiness.

Please, I'm begging you.

It requires a level of trust and surrender that most people are incapable of.

You would have to completely surrender over to me, complete autonomy over the process

and you would have to continue through it no matter how difficult it is.

Are you okay with this?

There's no backing out.

I'll do it whatever it takes.

If you're serious, this is an agreement.

It expresses consent to all of the protocol and seeds all authority over to me.

It's legally protects me and binds you.

But I must advise you again.

This is the point of the return.

Oh, where do I sign?

Good.

So I'll see you tomorrow, same time, and we'll get a treatment.

I'll see you tomorrow.

All right, we got the camera set.

Are you ready to begin?

Yes.

Let me need to start disrobing.

What?

It's part of the therapy.

I don't know about that.

You agree to it.

It's part of the contract.

Remember, you're giving full authority to me.

No matter how uncomfortable it is,

you do as I say.

Okay.

There it is.

Continue.

All of it?

All of it.

Remember, we're working on your emotional feelings right now.

There it is.

How do you feel?

The same?

The same?

Meaning, nothing?

Nothing.

Maybe a little awkward thing, make it.

That's part of the very first steps of the therapy.

This is part of the...

We're going to be changing this.

In order to get to your emotional feelings,

we need to move through the physical.

What do you mean by physical?

Um, I don't know if that's something I can do.

It's not a matter of you knowing whether or not you can do it.

It's the fact that you're going to do it.

I remember.

This is all being documented.

There are several stages of feeling.

Part of it.

It's pain.

Keep your hand by your side.

Any sensations right now?

Just from my body.

Good.

It means we're starting to feel something.

You want me to feel pain?

To start.

Just do it right there.

Put your hands behind your back.

You're straightening me?

It's through the next part of the process.

Will you let me out?

If we're making process,

stay put.

Moving on to the next sensation.

Pleasure.

Have you seen this before?

Yes.

But you don't use them because you don't feel anything correct.

Correct.

We are going to change that today.

There we go.

It's starting to feel something, right?

Is that what this is?

It's starting to wonder what you're doing.

So it's a curiosity not an actual feeling.

It's this treatment really necessary.

Of course it is.

You sign off on it.

Mm-hmm.

And the expected.

I don't matter of what you expected and expect.

If you matter of what's happening and you're getting feeling a sensation from them.

Interesting.

What do you mean by this?

Any physical sensation?

But we need to eliminate one of the other senses.

Open your mouth.

Mm-hmm.

Once we eliminate several of the senses, it heightens everything else.

Mm-hmm.

I think we're starting to make some progress here.

Mm-hmm.

I'm just trying to move on to the next procedure.

Now that we're starting to feel a little bit more physical in motion.

Get those sensations running through your body.

Mm-hmm.

Yeah.

I think we're ready.

We're going to lose this.

This is going to come in handy in a second.

Drop your knees.

You're not calculating.

I think just reacting and feeling.

We're up in this therapy session to the next level.

Trust me.

This entire therapy is based on trust.

Got relax.

It's all about reaction, emotion, and feeling.

There's no thinking about this.

Mm-hmm.

Do you welcomes natural?

I think you're right.

We're going to break down those walls sooner or later.

You feel like something?

Everything?

It's over moment.

Get in there.

Oh!

I'm in complete control.

And you're doing everything that I tell you to do and follow me on.

Don't think about it.

Just do it.

Mm-hmm.

Gotta bring you out some emotion, didn't you?

Wasn't the death of your mother?

Wasn't her funeral?

Gotta get out some now.

Mm-hmm.

Don't worry about that.

Mm-hmm.

What are you doing?

You're not the question.

You're too real.

I follow.

Don't cover that.

Bein' forward.

Bein' like that.

Remember what we talking about, pain?

You're sick.

Oh!

I like that.

I'm so thankful.

Keep your arms out, stretch, just like that.

Uh-huh.

I started to feel something.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

But, I have so many hands.

Um.

I like.

I love you.

It's uh-huh.

Do you enjoy it?

I like it.

I like it.

Uh-huh.

It feels good.

Give me the sign.

Oh!

Oh, it's...

Oh, it's...

You're doing good, so far.

It's a prize.

You know I get this much feeling out of you, so we're like...

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

It's so warm and you're going...

Yes.

Remember nothing, we're all emotion here.

Show me that you can feel.

Um, oh...

Uh-huh!

I got it.

I feel these stretching members.

Um, uh-huh.

Oh, that's right, keep playing with yourself.

Start experiencing a little bit more.

Oh, oh.

You got to explore yourself.

Oh, oh, oh.

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.

Oh, oh, oh, oh.

Oh, oh, oh.

Oh, be able to see as well as feel.

Oh, oh, oh, oh.

You're giving it to me really good.

Oh, oh, oh.

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.

Good.

By-

Oh, so good.

Oh.

Thank you.

Hold it.

You don't have permission to do it.

You don't have permission.

Yeah, it's a control your emotions.

You have to feel them and control them.

Let it out when I let you.

Yeah, that's something.

Oh my god, yes.

Oh shit.

Yes.

Oh my god, please grab me.

Please let me feel you.

Please, please.

Oh my god, yes.

Oh fuck.

Oh my god, yes.

Oh my god.

Oh.

Oh my god.

Oh my god.

Oh my god.

Oh my god.

I'm feeling so good, yeah

My feelings so good

I was around hitting my hips on you

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh oh subscribe

Like you had to see me, me, me

You had to be, me, me

Oh, oh.

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.

Yes, yes, yes, yes, oh!

You can raise it.

Is that really?

Oh.

Oh, oh.

Oh, oh my god, yes.

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.

.

.

See.

And we're the kind of lovers,

,

How did you get the chance to do that, huh?

I'm so flank.

Huh.

Thanks.

I mean, I'm gonna lose with me.

Uh.

Uh.

Uh.

Uh.

Uh.

Uh.

Uh.

Uh.

Uh.

Uh.

Uh.

I wanna see those perfect tits in my face.

Get up there.

Oh my god.

Oh fuck.

Oh.

Oh.

It's.

It's.

Oh.

Fuck.

Yes.

It's amazing.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh my god.

Oh.

Oh.

Yes.

Oh.

That's her.

Don't hold back.

Yes.

Yes.

Yes.

Oh fuck.

Oh my god.

We stick your hands in the back.

Yeah.

We're feeling your strength for a week.

Oh fuck.

Yes.

Oh.

Oh my god.

I can't do this fucking thing.

Oh my god.

Oh my god.

Oh my god.

Oh,.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh my god.

Oh

Keep riding me just like that just right keep riding just like that

Let's be crazy

Are you feeling right now

Great session

We need to continue this therapy

I have another client coming in a couple minutes. I need to get the fuck out