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[Grey] In third grade, I had to do a project about heroes.

I wanted to choose Indiana Jones, but my mom made me choose Elizabeth Blackwell,

the first woman to earn a medical degree in the United States.

Hi, Son.

What are you doing here?

I wanted to see you.

Well, you did.

Wait, Benson. Can we talk?

No.

You don't get to show up here

and pretend you're anything more than a glorified sperm donor.

[♪ "Float" playing]

[Grey] She was accepted as a joke by men expecting her to fail or drop out.

What are you thinking?

If you think there's anything going on up here right now…

[both chuckling]

♪ Easy solution just keep moving Till you crash the plane ♪

[phone chimes]

Ooh. It's Dr. Webber.

Uh, I have to go, but, um, we should really…

We should really talk about this at some point because,

you know, all of the reasons.

Of course, yeah.

♪ Know I don't wanna hear it But you say it anyway ♪

[Grey] She was ridiculed by her classmates and the locals in town,

but do you think she was scared?

Where were they?

-They were under the seat. -If you put them in the center console,

then maybe you wouldn't be losing them all the time.

Oh, Hilary is almost at the house. I gotta go.

Enjoy study group.

Oh! Um, we're out of milk and blueberries.

Well, I'll pick some up on my way home, whenever that is.

[Grey] Hell yeah, she was scared, but she faced her demons

and did it anyway, graduating at the top of her class.

Who keeps texting you?

Corrie. New birth trauma friend.

Oh! Her husband has box seats with the Mariners.

She said the four of us should go to a game sometime.

I have asked you to go with me at least ten times. You always say no.

Well, that's because you actually wanna watch the game.

[phone buzzes]

I just got paged.

Give me ten minutes to make sure everything's okay?

Sure.

Then you're taking me to sushi.

[♪ song ends]

Hey. Simone said I can move back in. Can I get my old room back?

No.

I already did you a kindness.

Look, I don't wanna pull rank, but it is my aunt's place.

-Anybody know what this is about? -No. [clears throat]

Have you looked outside?

The stars are so bright tonight. [sighs]

What? We can't take a second to appreciate the beauty of the universe?

I had to change because a patient's ostomy bag exploded all over my shirt.

Listen up, people. I just got off the phone with the president

at Parsons General, and she confirmed what we were afraid of:

They're closing their doors at the end of the month.

They have 300 inpatients that need to be divided between us and Seattle Pres.

We've got a few today, but the first big wave is coming tomorrow.

We'll have to prepare all night.

I need you all on the floor.

If you've already hit your hours for the week, come find me.

I thought today couldn't get any worse.

Hey, but those stars, though.

Shut up.

[operator announcing on PA]

[Shepherd] Hey, I'm having a hard time ordering phenytoin in an oral suspension.

It's MRN 87534.

Oh, hey, you on tonight?

No, my poor fellow's getting stuck with this whole Parsons mess.

Lincoln.

It advises counseling, but you've had tramadol before, right?

Yeah, thanks.

Everything all right?

I screwed up a ligament in my knee chasing Luna around on her scooter.

Oof.

Hey, Jo's waiting, so I should…

-See you tomorrow. -Yeah, have a good night.

Hey, Mrs. Shier's ultrasound looked good, but before you pull a JP drain,

you need to confirm the output beforehand with the nurse.

Copy that.

It's an easy mistake to make.

Yeah, no. I don't feel bad.

Uh, you shouldn't. Yeah.

[murmurs]

While I have you, Adams is moving back in.

To the house.

-My house. -Okay.

I know it probably sounds weird, but we're here all the time anyway,

and he needed a place to crash, so I figured why not?

Yeah, I could think of a few reasons.

You two busy? I got a transfer landing in room 3126.

We'll be right over. If you're uncomfortable with this,

-we can talk about it more. -I'm good if you are.

Well, you're 38 weeks, right?

Okay, yeah, then it's probably contractions. How far apart?

-Still sushi? -It's Corrie.

Okay, is your husband home? Can he take you?

Except which place, though? All-you-can-eat or…

I get it. Why don't you text me your address, and I can come check you out?

Of course. Okay.

All right, um, we are heading to Madison Park.

Because Corrie recommended an amazing sushi place there?

Well, her husband isn't home, and he's insisting that she goes to the hospital.

-So we're going there instead. -It'll be quick.

[operator announcing on PA]

[sighs]

I told you to leave.

I know you're angry, but we really need to talk.

Oh, you want to talk? Great. Let's talk about how, when I was four,

and you went to go get ice cream, and you never came back,

did you know that Mom left a place for you at dinner for weeks

thinking you'd come home?

And I told my friends that you were an astronaut

because I was too embarrassed to say that you left us.

I can explain.

-I'm gonna get security. -You don't need to do that.

Do not tell me what to do!

You don't know me!

I'm dying.

[sighs] Just to recap: we're postponing dinner to make a house call

on a woman who's not your patient?

She had a traumatic first pregnancy. She is scared.

Why doesn't she call her OB?

Why don't you go wait in the car?

Because I know you, and as soon as you get in here and start chatting…

-[doorbell rings] -Here in case you need extra hands.

It'll take five minutes. Don't stress her out.

Hey, you made it.

We did. This is my husband Link.

-Hi, thanks for coming all this way. -No problem.

I actually feel a ton better,

but do either of you know anything about olives?

-Like the food? -Yeah.

Do they go bad? I can't tell.

Are you okay?

Yeah, yeah. I was cleaning out the fridge.

Just making room for some bottles.

[breathing heavily] You know, it's like you said, the baby is coming, but not now,

not while I've got a fridge full of expired condiments that need tossing. So…

-Why don't I check you out? -You know what,

that's not necessary, 'cause I'm sure it was just Braxton Hicks, um… [pants]

Do you, uh, think that's one person's full name?

-[gasps, grunts] -Okay. Let's get you inside.

-[panting] Okay, okay, okay. -Inside. Okay.

[Corrie groans]

[Bailey laughing]

[chuckles]

If anyone asks, it wasn't me.

You are so bad.

-Oh, Ben, hi. -Hey.

Meet Hilary, my environmental health partner.

Hilary, this is Ben.

Hey, I'm, uh… I'm her, uh… her life partner.

-[laughs] -[chuckles] Lucky man.

Yeah, so it looks like you two are having a lot of fun.

Oh, no, we're just taking a, um, quick break.

[chuckles] I was just telling Miranda about when I went to Canada

one January without a jacket.

And If you have a minute, it's a real funny story, so--

Oh, no, I got a lot of groceries I need to unload, you know.

-And then, you know, laundry. -Yeah, but I can help with that.

We'll be finished here soon.

No, no, no, no, no, take your time, take your time.

-I wouldn't want to disturb your workflow. -[all chuckle]

-Okay. -Okay.

-[Bailey] All right, where are we? -[Hilary, Bailey chattering]

Trinity Yuzna, 18 years old, restrained driver in an MVC,

-just transferred from Parsons. -[coughing]

Post-op day three from an ex-lap with a liver lac repair.

Latest labs show a white blood cell count of 17,

but the incision site still looks intact. No signs of infection.

Trinity, it looks like you have a fever. How are you feeling?

[cell phone ringing]

Um, well, kind of flu-y. Is that normal after surgery?

Well, I wouldn't say it was normal.

It's not uncommon to have a fever after surgery.

We just want to make sure that there's no infection

that was related to your procedure.

Have you been around anybody that's been sick in the past few weeks?

I live in a dorm. It's a cesspool.

We'll get you a chest X-ray and cultures,

and we'll give you fluids and IV antibiotics.

Let's add amylase, lipase, and urinalysis.

You get all that?

Yeah.

-[phone ringing] -[sighs]

-Sorry. My mom's doing the most. -Probably very worried.

She doesn't know. No, she's next level when I get a cold.

Trust me, I am saving all of us.

Uh… Okay. Well, we'll let you get some rest,

and then we'll come back after we get your results.

[operator announcing on PA]

When were you diagnosed?

Coming up on four years.

I've had every treatment. Nothing's worked.

My only hope is a clinical trial, but I need a bone marrow transplant

from a donor, and so far there's no match.

I'm at peace with it.

I have no sympathy for you.

And I know what it sounds like, but I don't.

And I can't force it.

I understand.

No, if you understood, you would have come back, or sent us money, or called.

-I know. -We had nothing.

Mom had to work two, sometimes three jobs, and you were nowhere.

She got sick and died, and you were nowhere.

If I could go back in time, I'd do everything differently.

[chuckling] Oh.

-Well, that's helpful. -I have a lot of regrets in my life,

but what I did to you and your mother, that's the biggest.

It's all about you, right?

Your feelings, your regrets.

-Coming here was a bad idea. -You think?

I just wanted to see you one more time.

You're my son.

I'm deeply, eternally sorry for what I did to you.

I'll let you get back to work.

[grunts]

Are you dizzy?

Yeah, just dehydrated.

Supposed to have fluids today.

Came here instead.

[groans]

-[sighs] Come on. -Where are we going?

I'm getting you an IV. You can't drive like this.

-You don't have to take care of me. -I'm not. It's a public service.

Come on.

[Wilson] You said your husband's on the way?

Yeah, he's, uh, driving back from a work meeting in Tacoma.

His mom has our son.

Okay, tell him to meet you at Grey Sloan.

You are definitely in labor.

Oh, no, no, no. No, no, I have two more weeks.

I still need to finish potty training my son.

I need to put the sheets on the crib. The-- I-I have time.

You are five centimeters dilated. We can give you a ride.

Well, maybe you measured wrong, 'cause I…

-Are you okay? -Oh, crap. Uh, my water just broke.

Okay, we're going to the hospital.

[gasps]

-What's wrong? -[grunting]

Um…

I don't know, something… something just feels weird down there.

Okay, can I check again?

Yeah, yeah.

Okay.

What's wrong?

-Jo? -The umbilical cord.

It slipped out before the baby's head, which can cut off the baby's blood supply.

Link!

I think we should go to the hospital. I think we sh--

Okay. Don't move, don't move.

I need to keep my hand inside.

What? Why?

I need to keep the head off the cord to save the baby's blood supply.

Link, I need some help in here!

Okay, this is gonna be very uncomfortable, okay?

Ready?

-There we go. -Oh, stop, stop. Please stop.

Okay. Okay, I'm in position.

I can feel the baby's heartbeat through the cord.

I'm going to focus on that. You focus on breathing.

-Oh. You need something? -Call 911.

Tell them we have a woman in labor with a prolapsed cord.

We need to be in an OB OR within 15 minutes.

Okay.

[operator announcing on PA]

-Hey. Hey, hey, where'd you get that? -Olympic floor.

How? I just tried to get up there,

and they were using the elevators to move overflow beds.

Oh, hey. Can one of you set the man in exam two on an IV drip?

-Did your hands stop working? -Where have you been?

Talking to the dirtbag formerly known as my father.

-No. Where is he? -Exam two.

Does everyone who goes missing in your life eventually show up here?

What's his deal?

Apparently he's dying. Stage three multiple myeloma.

-I'm sorry. -How are you doing?

I don't know. It's weird.

When I look at him, it's like I know him, but I don't know him.

I feel that way when I talk to my parents when they're high.

-Can one of you just go help him? -Yeah, yeah, yeah, I got you.

Hey, can you take my consult in bed five?

Sure, if you give me the other half of your protein bar.

Fine. Guess I'll starve.

[operator announcing on PA]

Hey, Webber wants a list of patients we can consolidate

into doubles or triples to make room for the influx.

I will do it.

Did you check in with Trinity?

X-ray's clear, but she got a rash after we started the vanc and cef.

Could be allergic or it could be a vanc infusion reaction.

Did you talk to the nurse about--

I already put a pause on the meds and gave an antihistamine.

No signs of anaphylaxis. And looking into which one's the culprit.

O-Okay. Well, next time you change the plan

with one of my patients, just check with me first.

Oh, you want me to talk with you before making any big decisions?

You got it.

-Dr. Bryant? -Yes?

I get that you're mad at me.

-Oh, I'm not mad. -Oh, you are mad.

What you're not is subtle. I am a second year and you are my intern.

Our personal life cannot get in the way of the work.

Okay, I get it. I'll do better. But I'm not mad.

I'm disappointed that my girlfriend invited her ex to move in

without talking to me about it.

I don't need your permission to get a new roommate, but I did talk--

You don't need my permission to do anything, clearly. I just…

I don't want to be treated like an afterthought.

You are not an afterthought.

Right.

I'm your intern.

Paramedics are here.

Just hold on a little bit longer. It's almost over.

-Can you still feel the heartbeat? -I can.

It's another boy.

[crying] Or at least it will be, if he just holds on.

-He will. Wow. -[paramedic] Where are we going?

Two boys. You're gonna have your hands full.

One of them better like musical theater.

Thank God. G2P1 at 38 weeks with a prolapsed cord.

I've elevated the head off the cord for the last six minutes.

-We need to move. -Right, so we'll transfer her

in a knee-chest position to the gurney.

And remove my hand? Absolutely not.

-Our protocol states-- -Your protocol is wrong.

-Jo-- -I've already got the head off the cord.

If I were in the hospital with this complication, I would ride this bed

all the way to the OR. You have to transfer us both.

If I let go, every second or minute of cord compression

could cause permanent neurological disability or even death.

Okay, we'll transfer them together.

All right, we'll use this sheet.

Grab your sides.

We'll go on my count. Ready?

One, two, three.

[Corrie screams, groaning]

Okay.

You should be out of here soon.

I'm not in a hurry.

I've got three hours in the car after this.

Still live up in Vancouver?

Been there 32 years.

Yeah, I know how long it's been.

I didn't expect any of this to happen the way it did.

-I certainly didn't plan it. -[scoffs]

So you're saying you abandoned your wife and son by accident?

The night I left, I planned to drive off the Ambassador Bridge.

When I got there, I couldn't do it.

So I drove to Canada instead.

Drive off the bridge like…

Mom just said that you were unhappy.

It was more than that.

My first startup went belly up after giving it everything I had for years.

Your mom hated it.

She thought we just played Ping-Pong and Skee-Ball all day.

Wanted me to walk away, grow up.

-Why didn't you? -Because I believed in it.

I thought we'd sell, go public, and you'd be set for life.

Instead, I lost all our money.

I was depressed, ashamed.

I let you down.

Well, if that's it, then why didn't you come back?

You've had successful companies since then.

You think I could have faced you then?

I was a coward, plain and simple.

But rest assured. Karma is a bitch.

Dr. Kwan, Mr. Preston's asking for you.

Go ahead. I'm not going anywhere.

-Thanks for having me. [chuckles] -[giggling] My pleasure.

-We're gonna ace this project. -Yeah.

-Go team. -Go team. [giggles]

-[mocking giggles] Go team. -Ben.

-Hey. [laughs] -[laughing]

-Okay. [giggling] All right. -Thank you.

You know, it's, um… it's funny.

You never mentioned that, uh, Hilary was a man.

I didn't think it was important.

[chuckles] So, you weren't just, uh, hiding the fact that

you were spending the night with an attractive male friend?

-Attractive? He's my classmate. -Yeah.

You don't find Mr. Perfect-Face-With-The- Washboard-Abs handsome?

-Uh, how do you know about his abs? -[scoffs] I can see 'em through his shirt.

How do you know about his abs?

Ben Warren. Are you jealous?

-Nope. -[laughs]

Those pants would disagree.

I am not jealous.

Look, I… [scoffs]

I did drop-off and pick-up, worked a fourteen-hour shift,

and then stopped at the grocery store on the way home.

You said I could lean on you.

Yeah, and I want you to. I leaned on you for years.

Mm-hmm.

I want you to achieve your goals, but that…

that is not what I saw happening tonight.

-We were working on a group project. -Nah, nah, nah, nah.

You were having fun with another man in our kitchen,

while I'm turning down a seat on the board

of the Washington Association of Plastic Surgeons.

You didn't tell me you had the opportunity

to be on a professional board.

Wait, you turned it down? Why? Why would you do that?

Apparently, so you could spend time with Hot Hilary.

[stammers]

-Jo. -I'm still here.

-If this doesn't end well… -It will.

…I'm sorry you're also having to go through this.

Corrie, do not do this.

We need to go now.

Yeah. Her husband's gonna meet us there.

Are you okay? I will follow you the whole way there.

I'm fine. Go to the hospital and find her husband.

-Jo. -Go!

Why aren't we leaving?

[coughing]

-What's going on? -Fever's up to 41.

-When's her next dose of acetaminophen? -Not for another hour.

And the rash is getting worse, even after the antihistamine.

-How are we doing in here? -[coughing]

[Webber] I don't like the sound of that.

Can I take a look?

-How long she had the rash? -Couple of hours.

It started on her face and kind of spread out from there.

Can you open your mouth for me?

Red morbilliform rash and Koplik spots.

What does that tell you?

-You think she has measles? -I have measles?

Looks like you're on your third or fourth day.

-Were you vaccinated? -My mom doesn't believe in it.

We need to page infectious disease and start airborne isolation precautions.

So wait. You guys are gonna give me medicine, right? Is there a cure?

The cure is getting vaccinated before you're exposed.

It's too late for that.

We'll do our best to keep you comfortable,

but the only way to get through measles is to ride it out.

[cell phone ringing]

Is that your mom again? I can talk to her if you want.

No, no, she's the one who got me into this.

Cucumber stars?

Impressive.

Yeah.

Whatever it takes to get her to eat something other than cheese crackers.

I appreciate everything that you're doing for this family, for me

so that I can follow my dreams,

but I don't want it at the expense of your dreams.

I've never done that to you.

You should go get that board position.

[stammers] It's too much of a time commitment.

We'll figure it out.

How? How?

Okay, who-who'll pick up Pru and put away laundry

and pay the bills and make sure that, you know, we have food?

Did you know that today was an early release day?

Mmm?

I was an hour and a half late picking up Pru.

I had to leave work midday.

I had a patient who almost lost a leg, and I wasn't there.

You forgot to pick up our child?

I am saying I'm drowning.

You told me to go back to school.

And if I could go back in time, I would do it again.

But that doesn't mean it isn't hard

or that sometimes I might get, you know, a little resentful,

especially when I have to watch you and your new friend laugh

while I'm cutting cucumbers into tiny stars.

So it's all my fault.

That's not what I'm saying. Oh, where are you going?

It's late. I'm going to bed.

-How are things with Papa Kwan? -He's not a Kwan.

I eventually took my mom's name, but he is biologically my dad. So…

-You're donating bone marrow? -I'm just testing to see if I match.

But you hate that man.

I hate a lot of people I help. It's the job.

You're not his doctor.

Are you trying to convince him to let his dad die?

I'm trying to understand.

You told me you didn't even have a dad.

Now you're going to give him your bone marrow?

I'm taking the high road.

I'd give you bone marrow if you needed it.

This is when you say you'd give me bone marrow if I need--

You wouldn't even give me your protein bar.

Hey, you want the rest?

I'm gonna go give someone an enema.

[operator announcing on PA]

I can't believe I missed measles. It won't happen again.

Well, don't be sorry.

How would you diagnose measles? You've never seen it.

We touched on it in med school. I've seen the textbook pictures.

It's not the same as seeing it in real life.

We eliminated measles in this country years ago.

I had it when I was six.

It's a miserable disease.

I just don't understand.

Some people fear vaccines more than a disease that could kill you.

All I know is one of the worst parts of this job

was watching the parents see their child suffer.

I remember every time I had to do it.

Including from measles.

You think she'll be okay?

I hope so.

Corrie, I know that you want to, but you cannot push.

I can't. [grunting]

I can't do this again.

Yes, you can. I need you to think about the baby.

-How much longer? -[stammers] There's an accident on I-5.

He's looking for a detour.

-[groaning] -BP's tanking.

[rapid beeping]

-She's unconscious. -[Wilson] Bag her.

I can barely reach the baby's head anymore.

-What? -The baby's head is floating up.

-Is that normal? -No. Her uterus just ruptured.

Likely along her previous C-section scar.

Do you have a thoracotomy or an OB kit or anything with a scalpel?

Yeah, yeah. Here. Why?

We're gonna stop this ambulance and perform a crash C-section.

Or at least I am, and you're gonna help me.

Inside the ambulance? No, we're almost there.

If we don't do anything, they'll both be dead within minutes.

Stop the ambulance!

Your electrolytes are back to normal.

Yeah, at least I got that going for me.

You know, stage-three cancer humor.

I got HLA tested for bone marrow compatibility.

I know it's hard for Asian people to find a match in the registry.

I don't know what to say.

-I'm grateful. -Well, don't thank me yet.

Um, it takes about a week to get the results.

-But even just getting the test-- -It was easy.

I'm gonna be up in Vancouver for a conference in about a month.

If there's time…

maybe we can grab a coffee.

I'd like that.

I'm gonna order a urinalysis.

Someone will be by to bring you a sample cup.

Can't see anything. More suction.

-Whoa. It's right there. -Okay. Yep.

I got you, little guy.

Oh, God. I got you. I got you.

-Okay, clamp and scissors. -Yeah.

Okay. Is there a pulse?

I can't hear one. I'm bagging him.

If there's no pulse after 30 seconds, start compressions.

Okay. Get us out of here.

[paramedic 2] You got it.

I'll go check on your labs.

Thank God you convinced me to come here. He already did the swab.

No, I hadn't even made the ask yet.

-Hey, can you-- What? -Shut up.

I was waiting for the right moment, but he did it himself.

Let's just hope he's a good match.

Okay.

-Did he just say… -Yes.

What are you gonna do about it?

Why am I the only one on the hook? You heard him too.

I stay out of family stuff.

I'm never giving you my bone marrow.

Where have you been?

I needed to get some air.

-Trinity needs ice packs to cool her down. -Yeah, well, I can't go back in there, so…

Is this about Adams again? I can't keep doing this, Wes.

-We-- -I'm not vaccinated.

How? We work at a hospital.

I have a genetic immunodeficiency.

CVID.

[♪ "Dancer in the Sky" playing]

How did I not know this?

Easy, I didn't tell you.

Why not?

[sighs] Well, it's, um…

[clears throat] Well, it's not something I like to lead with.

I don't want people thinking of me as sick, you know?

I'm not people.

I'm the person you're dating.

Yeah, and you're also the person that assigns me work.

So, I don't want any special treatment.

You told me I treat you like an afterthought,

but then you didn't tell me this huge piece of your life.

Well, I didn't sleep with CVID six weeks ago.

You knew about me and Lucas?

I do now.

You know, when you told me you weren't sure if the pregnancy was mine,

-I figured he could be a possibility. -You and I were casual.

Yeah, well, we're not now, so what does that mean to me?

Are we that serious if it took a measles patient

for you to tell me you have a chronic illness?

It didn't take a measle… Where are you going?

I have to check on Trinity.

♪ Through heaven and hell ♪

♪ Is there a way back to you? ♪

♪ I was by your side ♪

[siren wailing]

♪ Everything felt right with you ♪

Come on.

♪ Dancer in the sky ♪

♪ Come find me ♪

♪ You know where I hide ♪

♪ It doesn't even matter ♪

♪ It doesn't even matter ♪

♪ Deepest blue of night reminds me ♪

♪ Of all we left behind ♪

♪ It doesn't even matter ♪

♪ It doesn't even matter ♪

♪ Keep on ♪

♪ Keep walking ♪

♪ I'm calling ♪

♪ An arrow in my chest ♪

♪ The only thing that matters Dancer in the sky ♪

♪ Reach between the veil to find me The only thing that matters ♪

[♪ song ends]

[Kwan] I'll look out for the labs and let me know if the pressure drops.

Hi. Can I talk to you?

[sighs] I'm not checking on another diabetic foot for you in the ER.

At some point you have to suck it up and do it.

It's about your dad.

[sighs] I don't want to keep talking about this.

What does it matter if I give him bone marrow?

It's not about that. Well, it's kind of about that.

Look, I overheard him on the phone, and he's conning you.

He came here to see if you would get tested.

-He didn't even ask. -That's what he said.

He was looking for the right time, but then you beat him to it, and--

-You don't know what you're talking about. -I heard it.

[sighs]

I know how it feels. I know that you want your dad to be a good guy--

No, you don't know how I feel. Your parents are nothing like mine.

My dad made a lot of bad choices, but he regrets it.

Your parents don't regret anything.

They're probably high somewhere in a stash house as we speak.

You know what? Do whatever you want.

[♪ indie folk music playing]

I hope you two are very happy together.

[coughing]

Is this any better?

My grandparents have this old trash compactor

that squishes the garbage into these small cubes.

I'm that garbage.

I'm sorry.

Hopefully this is the worst of it.

Yeah.

-[cell phone ringing] -[sighs]

I know you said your mom's a lot, but you should really fill her in.

You don't know her.

-She's clearly worried about you. -No.

No, she's not worried, she's just controlling.

She doesn't trust me to live my own life.

Meanwhile, who decided not to get me vaccinated?

Lot of good her love's doing right now.

I'll say goodbye before I leave. Get some sleep.

-How you feeling? -A lot better. Thanks for hooking me up.

-Literally. -Oh, it's nothing.

It wasn't nothing to me, and thanks again for getting tested. It means a lot.

Yeah, well, don't get your hopes up.

All the results need to come back,

and they might not be good enough for your clinical trials.

True, but my doctor said a child would almost certainly

be a good enough match for its parent.

Did you come back just to get my bone marrow?

I came to see you.

Then why are you talking to your doctor about me?

I was talking more generally.

You could have come back any time in the past 30 years.

-Why now? -I'm dying. Things changed.

But you didn't.

You're exactly the same…

Don't expect to hear from me. We're done.

Benson!

Like you said, karma's a bitch.

[breathing deeply]

Hey, how are you feeling?

Wha…

What happened?

-The baby-- -He's in the NICU with your husband.

They will take you through everything that happened once you get a little more rest,

but for now, just know that they are monitoring him,

and so far everything seems okay.

Because of you.

Hmm.

-What I must have put you through-- -Don't do that.

I'm okay.

I almost gave up…

but your voice…

I never felt alone this time.

I knew you were there.

I'm really glad I was there.

[exhales sharply]

At least now you won't remember me as the woman who faked the nut allergy.

[laughs]

[Corrie chuckles]

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Yeah.

What are you doing?

Well, I was gonna ask you if we could talk,

but I knew you'd say no, so I'm forcing the issue.

-Let's see how that works out for you. -Mm-mmm, mm-mmm, mm-mmm.

Last night was the first time in years that we went to bed angry.

You think I'm angry? I am not angry.

[sighing]

Miranda.

When my marriage to Tucker Jones fell apart,

I tried to pinpoint the exact moment that we started to unravel.

There was a lot to choose from, but the one that stuck out…

well, it didn't feel like anything at the time.

What happened?

Well, I was studying for my boards one night,

and I asked if he would take out the trash

and he said no, he had taken it out the night before and now it was my turn.

And that's the first time I realized that he was keeping score.

And then it only got worse after that.

We have been through so much together, Ben Warren.

I do not want this to be the moment that we look back on and say,

"Ah-ah, that was it. That was the beginning of the end."

Listen. I… I am not keeping score.

I just miss you.

Okay. I…

That's why I was jealous of Hilary.

He got to spend time with you, and I didn't.

I'm trying to lean into our marriage, not out.

Never out.

-But if that changes-- -I will tell you.

But I'm only saying that because I know it's what you need to hear.

Look, I'm not going anywhere.

[sighs]

Wright did recommend a babysitter.

Maybe bring in reinforcements.

I could take that position on the board, and you could keep working with Himothy.

Hilary.

But you see how that could be confusing, right?

I mean, the name is--

-Hey. -Have you been here all night?

Well, I told Webber I'd help him figure out some Parsons transfer logistics, so…

Should I let you work?

No, I'm…

I'm calling it. I'm done.

Did you wanna…

Do you want to talk about what happened?

Actually, no.

[Grey] Therapists often use the metaphor of driving a bus

to help people manage their fear and anxiety.

You are the driver.

Your fear and anxiety are the passengers.

[♪ indie folk music playing]

Morning.

Hmm… Is it?

Did you sleep?

I was with Jo when she got pulled into a complicated delivery.

Prolapsed cord, and crash C-section on an ambulance.

-What? -Mom and baby are okay.

Thank God.

-How's your knee? -My knee?

Your knee. The ligament.

Oh. [scoffs]

Um, it's fine. Better, I think.

I should get home and get some rest.

[Grey] You can't silence your demons.

But that doesn't mean they get a say in where you go.

Hey.

Hey.

If this is gonna work, you need to trust me.

You're not an afterthought.

I just knew there's nothing for you to worry about.

I am not remotely tempted to go back to Lucas.

I want to be with you.

Okay.

And I want you to tell me about your life. You can trust me with that too.

Okay.

Is that all you have to say?

I have to go get hooked up to IVIG.

They're making me stay out of the hospital for 28 days

to see if I get the measles, so…

I'm sorry.

You wanted me to tell you things.

Come here.

You'll be okay.

Yeah.

[Grey] So follow your passion.

Go where you want to go.

Everyone's talking about your big save last night.

Impressive.

Thank you. It was rough.

I never want to do a crash C-section on a rig again.

Well, you won't. You can't do anything like this again.

She and her baby could have died.

I understand, but you're not an OB. Not anymore.

What you did could open us up to all sorts of lawsuits.

You never finished your residency, your last night's work under the auspices--

-I want to come back. -What?

Everything that I went through when the twins were born, it haunts me.

I quit because I was worried I could unravel at anything.

The sound of a monitor, a patient crying out in pain.

But last night when I could have easily fallen apart, I did it.

I saved Corrie and her baby, and I did it knowing

exactly what she was going through because I've gone through it too.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that, um…

maybe this thing that I thought was a weakness is actually a strength.

And if you'll have me, I would like to come back to work.

That's the best news I've heard all day.

It's only 8:00 a.m.

It's been a long night for me too.

[Grey] I can't wait to see where you end up.

[♪ music ends]

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