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Tina, when I moved into my current apartment on Konstanzer Straße in 1980,

For the first five years, I didn't notice that there was an illegal gambling club in Patern.

And then, after five years, a body was carried out and then it was closed up.

But you were a waitress at that gaming club back then.

Yes, I worked as a waitress when I had no money and needed to earn some.

and I played when I had money. And then you took over this gambling club and a

Did you turn it into an SM club? Yes. Then we became friends, and then later I had my students.

I brought you with me, I said that as film directors you'll have to suffer a lot, so it would be...

It's good if you learn to suffer with joy. Yes, with a smile. Hello, good day! I'm Lady.

I am Lady McLane. I am a dominatrix.

It is my job to torment, to torture, to beat,

to humiliate, imprison, and abuse

and sometimes a little petting too.

But that happens very rarely.

Many things have happened here in this house.

People cried, people suffered,

People bled, they lost their voices.

And of course, one or two orgasms right at the end, when they exploded.

Yes, and that's my job.

Wow, you all look quite pale all of a sudden.

So still.

I'm actually more interested.

So, I have a very specific question.

I'm somewhat interested in the profession and I wanted to ask what kind of training it is, how one learns it.

Is there a training program?

Yes, of course. Makes sense.

It's very intensive, it lasts for months. It's very complicated because you're doing things that are really dangerous, and you have to learn that.

I saw a person who had suffered a stroke for the first time a few years ago.

Here?

Here, yes, there, a meter further on. I really saw the sphincter muscles open up in the moment of death.

Oh no.

We brought him back.

Yourself?

A colleague who happens to be an intensive care nurse was there. We restrained him.

You have to imagine, the guests aren't lying in bed, they're wearing masks, gags, restraints, incredibly tight things on their bodies.

And now someone feels sick or loses consciousness.

You must untie all the restraints within 20 seconds. You must know exactly where I tied the knot.

Oh, I'm getting goosebumps.

Yes, that's exactly how it is.

And again.

He can handle it.

Why do I have something completely different for you?

To expel the lust.

Yes, look.

I'm not horny.

You're not horny?

Stand by it.

I want that one, I want that one.

You?

Come here, come here.

Ah, look, now you're on a chain.

Tina, would you say you're a sadist? Do you enjoy torturing others?

No. Not at all. That has absolutely nothing to do with my private sexuality.

And yet you worked as a dominatrix for 30 years.

Yes, the 30 years just happened.

And maybe, just maybe, it was also part of it to get back at my parents.

When I told them that, they froze to stone relatively quickly.

My parents' house stood here in the 1950s. Everything has been torn down since then.

And this water will flow over this place today, next year, and perhaps even in 100 years.

which was so dark to me back then.

The dark memories originated from my parents' biography.

My mother in her early 20s, my father in his late 20s, who came from this terrible

Both were highly traumatized after the war, and then they got married.

The first child was made, my brother; the company was founded and

Then came the second child, that was me. It wasn't until nine years later that I could see my little one.

My sister and I think Rosa, my mother didn't want me, she didn't want me, it was her

Too much, and the man was an alcoholic; he drank every night, and that ruined my whole life.

life was shaped by this rejection, this coldness, this cynicism; she was an evil woman.

She was mean to me.

And I've carried that darkness with me my whole life.

I was a baby of the '68 generation.

I was only 14 years old when it all started.

And yet I still secretly took the bus to Kreuzberg.

And that's where I lost my virginity to a later member of the AAF.

And that was, of course, my mother's biggest nightmare.

During my time as a professional dominatrix, I trained more than 30 women.

Some of them have become self-employed and very successful.

This is Sabine. Sabine came to me on Konstanzer Straße in 1986 and wanted to be a dominatrix.

And that's exactly what we did. I taught her everything and she is

She stayed with me for four years. Since I was a nurse, I never had any problems.

with the human body. I knew exactly where I was allowed to touch. It didn't bother me.

Whether someone was fat, thin, or simply whether one looked at any internal aspects.

Back then, I believe that many men had previously inserted a knitting needle into their urethra.

And then it was better that catheters were inserted.

Pain increases our dopamine levels.

And when our body is flooded with dopamine, it can trigger extreme feelings of happiness.

Many people have this; they are then called masochists.

And they simply realized that pain gives them pleasure.

And this is the process that many always want to replicate,

always want to have it again.

And that's why they come to us.

The men had a very strong relationship with their mothers.

So they were locked in the bathroom,

where the mothers' shoes were kept, or things like that.

And also the punishment, the beating of the child's soul.

A child cannot accept being punished.

That's not something a child can have.

And the child transforms it, a daddy loves me,

That's why he hits me.

And during puberty, this is combined with sexuality.

and that person will always, whenever he is beaten,

I think I'm being done something good.

After moving out of home at 18, two weeks before my final exams, with only an Aldi bag,

I swore to myself that I would never set foot in my parents' house again.

It was only after hearing my parents' expression that I learned what freedom and sexuality could actually mean.

Although, or perhaps precisely because, all my first loves were drug addicts, I was completely immune to this temptation.

I smoked weed two or three times, and each time I felt sick, so that was the end of drugs for me.

At 14, 15, 16, 17, sex was really only about getting attention.

I wanted to be loved, I wanted to be admired,

I wanted to be liked.

I didn't get any of that at home, nothing.

And for men, it all happens in bed, there's no other way. Did you enjoy sex?

Was it fun at all? No, it took a very long time before it was fun at all.

I did that. Through my friend Ute, I got a waitressing job at the Hundekehle restaurant. That

At the time, it was one of the trendiest restaurants in West Berlin, frequented by all the celebrities.

Two portions of pumpkin pasta.

Bon appetit.

And did you enjoy it?

May I bring you another espresso or coffee?

An espresso would be good.

Very gladly.

Ute!

Hi Wilfried.

Where is Tina?

Over here.

Tienchen, a visit for you.

Tien-Tienchen!

You can be exciting here, I have a surprise for you, come move over there, today I'm taking you with me.

Really? Yes? Okay, I'm happy, I'll hurry.

But that's when the gambling started, and you became addicted to it.

That's where it all started. I used to hang out at Oliverplatz all the time. It was the heart of the Berlin scene back then, or rather, the West Berlin Charlottenburg scene.

And there, already in the afternoon in the Schalander, the long-haired boys with the gold chains and watches were sitting at the table, at the pub table,

and they gambled with these large bundles of money. And that was absolutely fascinating.

I stood there wide-eyed, finding this life so incredible.

and one of those I was also connected to then did something to me

I took it to the casino in the evening and that's where it happened that I played the game.

That's all I can do, please.

The 6 is black.

I ask you to play the game.

The lady plays 100.

100 for the lady?

So, honey, make something of it. I still have some business to discuss.

That's all I can do, please.

Straight ahead, Mademoiselle.

When you win, it's such a stroke of luck.

It shoots through your whole body.

I was instantly captivated.

Okay Tienchen, I've talked everything through. Can we go?

Oh, why? Just let me! Just a little longer.

They'll be finishing work in five minutes anyway.

Yes, but look, I've already won 300.

Can he play a little longer? Or does the game continue somewhere else?

Where are your clothes? We're leaving now!

No, he doesn't want to.

Tina!

That's all I can do, please.

8 black nothing on the number

to make the game

What do they want here? Man, Tienchen, you're bringing the whole Berlin underworld into our shop!

Don't worry, they'll disappear soon.

Yes, but don't let the boss see it. It's bad for business.

Hello Meinert, hello Mustafa. What can I get you?

How about the 300 marks you owe us from yesterday?

Now we're not going to make a scene here, okay?

If I lose my job, I won't be able to pay you anything back soon.

Don't worry, Tienchen. We'll drink our coffee in peace and quiet, and you still have time to come up with something.

Are you making two coffees?

Yes, of course.

And Ute, can you lend me 300 marks?

300? What? Am I a big shot or something?

Come on, please, how much do you have?

I'll check.

A maximum of 100.

You'll get everything back next week, I promise.

But seeing each other again is always a joy, isn't it?

Thank you, you're a gem.

Okay, here's 100. That's all I can manage today. You'll get the rest tomorrow, I promise.

100, 200, 300.

How?

There you go, there are the 300.

Meinhard, thank you, thank you.

Not worth mentioning, Tienchen.

When do you finish work?

Well, around two o'clock.

I'll pick you up.

Okay, sure.

Well then, see you later.

See you later.

Okay, let's go.

So this is where you live?

Yes.

Oh well.

Yes, please sit down.

I had thought Meinhard was one of the bad boys I liked so much.

But then I saw his apartment and was speechless.

Meinhard's apartment was in the bourgeois Hohenath.

Gelsenkirchen Baroque in Rhine culture.

Everywhere the eye could see.

And there weren't even any doilies missing from the bedside tables.

And that to me, who fancied myself part of the Berlin scene.

I can't remember if we had sex that first night.

But I remember the next morning all the more clearly.

Shit, Tienchen, today is Tuesday.

What's going on? It doesn't matter what day it is.

No, it's not irrelevant.

My parents are coming here on Tuesday at 10 am.

Are you kidding me?

No, really. Come on, get a grip!

Tina, you were with Meinhard for ten years,

even though he was actually too stuffy for you.

Yes, that's certainly true.

But when I met him, I was really feeling very bad.

I had a crappy apartment with a wood-burning stove for heating.

I simply had nothing left, and I had been very ill beforehand.

And he was so stuffy and so friendly, and also very approachable.

He was one of the first people who didn't immediately send me away,

but he wanted me, and that's how it was for me for the following years as well.

I couldn't leave him because I had nothing.

Because of gambling, I was always broke.

Meinhard came from very humble beginnings in Neukölln.

and was quite uneducated.

He owned a small corner pub.

And he lost quite a lot of money playing cards.

And then he sat down and invented a device,

how one could manipulate the distribution of the cards.

And that was, of course, a great advantage for the casino.

With this device, he became a partner in an illegal club and thus a wealthy man.

So, is there still something going on between us today, huh?

Hm? No?

Oh.

Oh, man.

Oh shit.

I need to pee.

Then go.

No, just go.

Take the glass and pee in it, then tip it out the window.

Come on, stop that nonsense. I wasn't serious.

Cheers.

Um, tell me, flush that down the toilet. Stop that crap.

Why? That would be a shame, since he's supposed to be good at it otherwise.

So, you've done that before, right?

Yes.

With Rosi, my ex-wife.

And you didn't have a toilet there, or what?

Well, she...

She wanted it that way.

And then you did it?

I did everything she wanted.

I don't understand.

Yes, Rosi, she was quite the mistress.

And if I didn't do what I wanted, she punished me.

And what did she do to you?

Everything.

Tortured, beaten, imprisoned.

She was very cruel.

Cruel? Did she hurt you?

Yes.

She tormented my nipples terribly.

So?

Yes, only tighter, with pins and clamps.

Should I do that too?

Yes, Tina, I need it that way.

Should I hit you?

Yes.

Should I tie you up?

Yes.

Yes.

Should I torture you?

Yes. Will you be my mistress, Tina?

Yes.

Yes.

Yes.

Yes! Yes!

Yes!

Yes!

Yes!

Yes!

Mistress.

Here I am.

Yes, and now what?

May I kiss your feet?

Mistress, I have prepared something for you in the bedroom.

Ah yes, then let's take a look at that.

A weight for the tail.

Wow, that weighs at least a pound, doesn't it?

Yes, there are two of them.

Will you gag me and leave me lying there?

Yes, I will.

Do you really want to train me properly?

Of course, I will educate and train you.

Do you want to make me your slave?

Yes.

Tell me, what was the sex with Meinhard like for you?

This whole fetish, these toys, this leather, and so on.

That was pretty awful.

These leather masks, this veiled face and this armor and so on, it's repulsive.

That's creepy.

"Repelling" is the wrong word, that's nonsense.

It was creepy.

And why did you continue with Meinhard if these fetish things simply weren't enjoyable for you?

I felt that if I did that, I would fulfill his deepest desires. And with that, I

"I, as a woman, am of course a power" – that's a stupid word – but he wouldn't have left me.

Like all the others before them, who all left me standing up. If I have sex with him

If I do something that makes him happy, then I'll have something that no other woman has, and about

Through this sex I get his love and his attention.

What is the work?

Yes, dirty games make a lot of mess.

Hey, tell me, I'm starting to feel less and less comfortable here in our apartment.

I just can't seem to switch off here.

Yes, I know. But I can't change anything now, because then I'd have to tell my parents.

To say that they are no longer allowed to come is absolutely unacceptable.

I haven't slept in my apartment for months anyway. Maybe...

We were renovating my apartment.

Tienchen! That's the idea!

I love you so much.

Wait a minute.

Wow, Meinhard! It's absolutely beautiful.

Thanks.

Tienchen, will you marry me?

Oh, really? Let's just pretend we're married.

That's enough.

You little worm!

You want to marry me?!

You ugly piece of trash!

I can have anyone I want.

You have to earn that first.

Build a palace for your mistress.

I will, Mistress.

Wow, that looks great, Mucki!

Yes, do you think so?

Yes. Otherwise I wouldn't have said it. Thanks, Mucki. And what are you doing there?

Um, well, I'm sorting the dildos.

Ah, okay. Everything has to be in its proper place.

Exactly.

Yes, I think that's good.

Cheers!

Cheers.

Hm, long time no see.

How are you?

Yes, quite good.

Tell me, do you know what sadomasochism is?

Hmm, that's something like hitting and torturing, right?

Well, you could say that.

And what about this?

Well, Meinhardt is like that.

How?

He'll hit you?

No, he wants to be my slave and I am his mistress.

Yes. That's bizarre. And you're just going along with it, whip and all?

Ute, this is a complete mess. We've turned my old apartment into a torture chamber and

I'm supposed to do something with him now, I don't know what. And you enjoy that? Well, sort of. So, that...

That's really exhausting. He's constantly buying incredibly expensive leather goods, and I don't even know...

What am I supposed to do with all this stuff? It's all so technical.

Yeah, it really doesn't sound that great. But I mean, you love him, right? I mean,

He's actually quite nice.

Yes, he's quite nice, but in the long run it all becomes too much for me.

And he doesn't realize that you can't cope with it?

Well, for him it's like this now: he thinks he's found his mistress and he's no longer interested in anything else.

Hey, can you show me that?

What?

Well, your torture chamber.

We'll see.

Hey, Mopin?

Hi.

So this is your torture chamber?

Yes, I assembled all of that today.

Escape-proof, guaranteed.

Would you like something to drink?

No, thank you.

Please do not touch.

Yes, this is interesting.

Yes, please sit down!

No, thanks. Tell me, what's the cage for, anyway?

Well, if Tintin wants to shop in peace, she just mustn't leave me the key.

Oh, I completely forgot, I have another appointment. Bye you two!

Tintin? – Yes? – I absolutely have to show you something. – Aha, what is it? – It arrived today.

My straitjacket. – Oh, okay. How does that work? – Shall we try it out right now?

No. Um, wait a minute.

Uh.

And...

So.

Mhm.

And yes, close it.

Oh right.

Now these buckles.

Oh, okay.

Complete?

Yes, yes.

Shall we try it out right away?

Yes why not?

So, what do you think? How long can you stand it in there?

Maybe two or three hours.

I have left an envelope for you on the dresser, gentlemen.

1000 marks after the casino will be enough, so now

You are bound and you will feel what it means to be my slave.

Resign yourself to your fate. I will, Mr. Renne. I will bear it.

I'm staying at the casino.

Yes, come by.

Wait a minute

Tina

Yes?

Where is Meinhard?

He doesn't feel like it today.

I play alone

Okay

I have to stop now.

Bye

That's all I can do, please.

Mademoiselle the Seven.

The Seven? I don't believe it.

Wow!

7000. You're welcome.

The 7000?

Wow. I'll give you a little something too.

Thank you very much, ma'am.

And a round on me. Cheers!

You can do it too.

To winning!

Please play the game.

Help Tina!

When I was playing, I simply blocked everything out.

There was only the next mission.

Knowing that Meinhard is lying in a cage, suffering from hypothermia with his limbs clamped down.

And still keep playing?

Although I knew that this could have ended really badly.

Oh God, Meinhart! I'm so sorry! I just lost track of time!

Get out of here calmly, open the door!

Mucki, is everything alright?

Turn off the door!

Yes, damn it! But where are the damn keys?

Shit, I don't have the keys, the door!

Yes, we're about to be free, Mucki.

It's all ok.

Wait, wait.

Open up, Tina.

Yes, I'm already doing it.

Hit it.

Get me out.

Now get me out of here!

Come on, Muggi.

I am so sorry.

Come on, come on.

Come on, stand up straight.

I'll take that thing off you.

Everything's alright, you'll be free soon, you'll be free soon, oh my God, wait, wait, there's an ice shot, I'll help you.

Get lost, Tina, get lost, piss off, piss off, you almost killed me, Tina, get lost!

Muscle?

Every minute he had spent in the cage, I now had to pay for twice.

Relentless. For almost a week.

Because he knew that I had no way to escape his ice-cold anger.

Where else could I have gone? Back to my apartment, which was now a torture chamber?

Hey, Mucki?

Bon appetit.

I'm so sorry I forgot you in the cage the other day.

Excuse me please.

Shouldn't I get us some sparkling wine?

It can't hurt.

I'll get it with something nice.

Tina, tell me, did you find out anything about where Meinhard's preference for S&M came from?

Did he talk about his childhood?

Well, of course he didn't tell us anything voluntarily.

But when we were in the studio having sex, we always drank a lot.

And I gradually found out that his father came back from the war around 1949.

They only had a very small apartment with one room, and if the parents wanted to have sex,

Then they locked this little boy in the closet, in the dark.

And he heard these noises, and it must have been pretty awful.

He then told me that when he was twelve, he got a new apartment, his own room.

And so he immediately began to tie himself up with the belt and lock himself in.

When I happened to be at the Berlin Film Festival, the film by Klaus Tuschen was playing,

I saw Domina, the burden of lust, with the magnificent Lady de Winter, and thought, that's it, I can do that too.

I want to be a dominatrix.

Are you crazy?

You're completely nuts now.

But look, all this stuff in my apartment,

We use it so rarely, it would be a shame to waste it.

And that way I could gain experience and also earn money.

Tina, I told you,

You can start working at our club, at the bar.

You can easily earn 3,000 a month!

But when I'm in a bar, I want to play.

and not stand behind the bar as an extra.

I can't do that! Let me try, please!

Yes, then do what you want!

Muckilein, would you like another coffee?

Thanks.

Look, honey, I'd like to show you something.

I placed an ad.

Energetic lady seeks man willing to educate.

Yes, isn't that great?

Are you crazy, Tina?

Things didn't work out between Meinert and me.

I never knew what to do with him.

Whatever that means is my mistress.

And that's when I thought to myself, if I do something with others, then I'll understand it better and have more ideas.

And that's how it came about that I tried it with the others.

Yes, I'd love to do that with you.

Yes, however, I would need a small subsidy amounting to...

Hello?

However, I would need a small subsidy towards the rent.

Hello?

Hello, this is your mistress.

You responded to my ad.

Yes, we can certainly do that.

Yes, we could definitely try that.

However, your masters don't do this for free.

Oh, yes, wonderful.

Then let's arrange a meeting right away.

For example, Wednesday at 4 p.m., coffee at Wiese?

Yes, good.

Weren't you afraid, I mean, being alone as a woman with strange men?

Well, of course, we first met in public, in a café.

Not right there in the apartment, for God's sake.

There wasn't even an address.

And in the café you sit opposite someone and I just imagined back then,

I can certainly distinguish between a woman-killer and some good boy.

Peter?

Yes, gentlemen. I am Peter.

You wrote to me that you're looking for a man. Have you ever been with a man before?

No, I haven't had any masters yet.

And what do you do for a living? I mean, I've been working at the post office for ten years now.

I had already written to you that I had set up a small apartment for when we meet

If you want to meet, you have to add 100 marks to the rent. If he wants to pay that much, then I can...

It's a shame you don't see me as often as I'd like. You're coming to this address tomorrow at 7 pm.

You ring the doorbell three times. Be on time, or I'll get angry.

And don't forget the 100 marks.

Yes.

Greet the gentlemen, kiss their feet for five minutes, tie them to the wall for five minutes,

Five minutes of arousing and touching his penis, five minutes of complimenting your masters,

20 minutes in a cage without complaining, 20 minutes tied to a bench.

Reward ends.

Oh, hello Peter, come in.

We'll turn left right here. Okay? Come on! Sit down! Would you like something to drink?

Just a little something to lighten the mood.

So then, cheers!

Cheers, ma'am.

Tell me, what are your preferences as a slave?

Is there anything you stand for? Anything special?

What can your mistress do for you?

Okay. Now you will go to the bathroom, undress completely, and wait on your knees for your mistress. Understood?

Yes, Mistress.

Come on, go to the cross. When you get there, stand up. Now. Now.

You will be strapped down. From now on, I decide where you stand and whether you are allowed to move.

Okay, now compliment your mistress. Go on. What? Nothing? Just you wait. It'll come.

That's the first punishment. The sausage nipple clamps. Let's see if you'll give me a compliment now.

You can. Well, try harder. They're so beautiful. Is that all? So, slave, would you like your masters?

Perhaps ask for mercy?

No, Mistress.

I will endure the 50 blows until the end.

They are very kind,

to punish me so severely.

Uh!

Uh!

Uh!

You want to get your hands on the boots again?

We just discussed this, didn't we?

Go back.

You only get the hook, nothing more.

What do you think,

How exhausting is something like that?

And it's not about torturing someone for an hour, but about torturing them in such a way that they enjoy it.

They don't look away for a second. You can't even mentally pick your nose for a moment.

One wrong move, one wrong clamp, one wrong word and his lust is gone to hell.

So, did you like it?

Oh well.

But already.

What? What wasn't so good? Go ahead and tell me.

Then we'll just do it differently next time.

Well, in any case, you can put the money in the box now.

Maybe try the other sparkling wine next time.

Oh, him.

Your mistress will serve it to you as a greeting next time.

No problem.

But now you can really put the money in.

Well then, bye.

Thank you, mistress. Goodbye.

See you next time.

With my first client, I was still very unsure and would have given up my career as a dominatrix.

I probably would have given up soon if my next customer hadn't been Frank.

Hello? Come in.

What is it?

You look even more beautiful than I imagined.

Oh, thank you!

Why don't you just go to my studio?

So, slave. And now you want my fine champagne too?

Yes, Mistress.

... Music ...

And, are you okay?

What do you think, Lady?

That I complain?

Your gags are really something else.

And the straitjacket?

Not bad parents at all.

Well, that makes me happy.

For the household budget.

If I come back in two weeks, will you put clamps on my nipples?

Well, we should be able to manage that.

Back then I only had two or three customers a week.

And such a coal-fired stove needs to be fired up every twelve hours.

Otherwise, the apartment will turn into an ice cave.

And it takes forever for it to get warm again.

Tina, hurry up!

Yes, I'm already here.

And for so long.

Why are you trembling? Are you afraid of your strict mistress?

No, Tina, it's freezing cold here.

Yes.

This cannot continue.

That won't do. That's what's driving me crazy.

It's simply too cold.

Oh my God, there's nothing I can do about that.

Just get yourself a better oven.

This is your place, buy yourself a better oven!

If a few more people were to come...

What does this mean?

Do you have a blanket or something?

Well, let's see.

Customers who are freezing often can't get an erection.

It was clear that this couldn't work.

Hi Mustafa, it's me.

Hey, tell me, mine didn't come home all night.

You wouldn't happen to know where he might be, would you?

Ah, to Augsburg.

Shit.

Okay, thanks for now.

Hey Mucki, what do you look like?

What happened then?

Muscles, were you playing?

Talk to me, Mucky.

How much did you lose? Meinert gambled away his entire fortune in one night.

I think it was 487,000 Deutschmarks. And yet he wasn't really that much of a gambler.

He didn't act at all, he didn't even play Romy. But he was completely drunk in

that night and completely lost control. And then he really was gone.

He went to where the money was stored and put it on the table, and paid.

Because otherwise he would have had to leave Berlin. That's not possible in these circles; you have to pay the price.

After losing his fortune, Meinhard had relinquished his partnership in the

He lost the casino and had to submit to the new bosses.

Without my doctor's support, it was clear that I now had to earn more money.

And for that I needed a professional studio with central heating, so I could serve my clients even in winter.

The premises on Konstanzer Straße were perfect for that.

In the summer of 1985, I decided to throw an opening party in my new studio for all my friends and new customers.

It was a great night, finally I was the star, finally the center of attention, finally something special.

Look, this is Heiko, my hairdresser. And this is his gang. These are all his friends.

Aren't they funny?

Give him the mask, give him that mask!

Well, easy with you.

They don't even know each other anymore.

It just looks perverse.

Are you getting to the verbs?

Did you have another sip, then?

Then just let him fly.

Yeah, that's total crap! And down you go!

Hey, come out of here!

Reinhardt! What are you doing?

Are you crazy?

We're on it for you right away!

My friends, leave me in peace!

What attracts you? Tell yourself they should leave!

What the hell is this? What are all these dead people doing here?

Send them away!

Are you crazy?

Get out! You too! Get out!

You too. Everyone out of here.

Man!

This studio.

The cage.

All these things.

For Meinhard, this was no laughing matter; it was his very core.

And when he saw how my friends made fun of it,

He completely lost it.

I could understand that, but I had never seen him so aggressive before.

And then Sarah came along.

Then I gave up a newspaper drop-off point, looking for slaves.

And then a lady immediately volunteered, and that was Sarah.

Yes, you're Sarah. Come in.

Let's go straight to the studio, shall we?

And, you've already worked as a pianist?

Yes, of course. But only as a side note.

Feel free to take a look around my studio.

The whips and pipe plugs are up front.

There are the gags, there are the handcuffs and leg irons.

And this is the centerpiece of my studio, the cage.

Especially important for your first guest.

Are you good at role-playing games?

Absolutely. Actually, I'm an actress.

Have I ever seen you before? On a stage or in a movie or something?

Well, here in the West I haven't managed to get a foot in the door yet.

I've only been here for a year myself.

Oh, you're from over there? Did you go over the wall or something?

Well, no...

They kicked me out.

How did you get kicked out?

Oh come on, take off your clothes. Your jacket. The guest will be here soon.

Let's talk about something else.

Give me your jewelry.

You can put the collar on now.

Out of despair, because her husband constantly beat her, she attempted suicide.

For this, she was then put in a psychiatric hospital, and her daughter was also taken away and given to her mother-in-law.

Okay.

When she was released, she went to Prenzlauer Berg, drank heavily, and stole things.

and constantly had trouble with the People's Police.

Until they were finally deported.

Ah, you're Theo.

That's good, too.

What do you mean?

Well-behaved. She obeys properly. I can't stand bitchy women.

Maybe you'd like to get to know me first, right?

No, just bring me naked and in handcuffs. Preferably on a leash. Where is the studio?

Okay, that's the way.

That should be enough for an hour, right?

I immediately sensed that this wasn't about pleasure, but about hatred. Pure hatred of women.

I'll take them all out and then I'll stick them up your asshole, you know?

Then all my fists will come out and then you'll come out the top again,

You frantic piece of shit! And then I'll pull you

Your ears will grow long, and then I'll tear you off and you can eat them.

You know, I am your new master, your new enemy,

that I am not just me!

I hate you, you little pig!

Stop! I'm hurting you!

What do you want? What do you mean?

You think so!

I will decide now whether you cry or not.

Little pig!

I put her back in the cage.

That cunt's a bit clumsy. And she stinks. Buy her some deodorant.

But don't worry, McLean, it'll be alright. You just need to train him better.

Oh my God! Sarah, he's gone. It's over. There's nothing more he can do here.

He was so terribly cold, Tina. His eyes, the way he looked at me.

And I really thought he was going to kill me.

It's over. It's time to say it's over.

When that happened with Sarah, the moment I held her in my arms and she cried, I knew the matter was settled.

Whether it was customary or not, no woman should ever again be tortured in Konstanz, in my premises, by a man who paid for it.

That was the first and last time, and that was it.

I never did that again.

So there are so many different, very subtle facets in a game.

The classic role model, the strict woman, the evil woman,

which takes control.

If you punish someone or verbally punish someone

And you say you're the cockroach, you're the scum,

You are the stupidest, most disgusting thing I have ever seen.

But he is fat, overweight, and has a potbelly.

And you say to him, you Hängebach pig, it's over.

The man leaves because you...

Everything else is fiction, is fantasy.

But if you meet him at his core,

Then it's over.

Yes, I knew it!

14, sure.

Hello everyone.

I have something to celebrate again.

Has won.

Tina won!

And that's why I'd like a double whisky now.

She's not getting anything anymore.

What's up?

Look at yourself. Olli's making her water.

What's wrong with you, huh?

"Tell me," says Mustafa's new cunt,

that he should leave me alone.

Did anyone else hear that?

What did the cunt say?

Listen!

Leave me alone!

How was it to say to you,

that I may drink you?

Get out of here!

Let me put it this way,

Let me go, you snatching pig!

I'll call you a taxi,

Go home and sleep off your intoxication.

Hey Meinhard, what's wrong with you?

Why didn't you defend me?

Why aren't you on my side?

We'll talk tomorrow.

I don't want to go at all.

I want to keep playing.

I'm not even finished yet.

Oh, calm down now.

How come?

I did place a bet after all.

Did you still have something there...?

Wait now.

Oh right.

Do you play?

I knew I had gone too far.

That I had behaved badly.

But still, I had the feeling that Meinhard had betrayed me.

That he should have stood by me that night.

Well, it was after he so abruptly put me in the taxi,

I felt completely abandoned.

And I moved out that very night.

I packed my bags, got completely drunk, and moved into the studio.

and then I quickly found an apartment right next to the studio in the building next door.

That was still possible back then.

And we still saw each other on weekends.

We were still officially a couple.

Hi Tina, come in.

Hi, hi, hi.

Nice that you're here.

Wow, after such a long time.

Kathi came to my studio in '98.

Actually, it was when Sabine became self-employed.

It was such a smooth transition.

And Kathi really wanted to become a dominatrix.

I was simply fascinated by the depths of depravity that exist in the human soul.

Well, everything has its limits.

The most important thing is always that safety and health come first.

We never beat anyone unconscious or put a plastic bag over their head.

Safety was always the first priority.

There are also studios where branding is done, and then the mistress's name is cut out somewhere, or something like that.

We've never done that. I have five themed rooms; at the front is the clinic with various treatment options.

A nice doctor's office with various instruments. We have all sorts of things we can do here, from large to small, as you can see.

Yes, depending on what you need.

Anal spreader.

Exactly, for the vibration.

A urethral vibrator.

Yes, exactly.

And that's where we have the different sizes,

from small to very large

or for anal examinations

the different dildos.

Then we have our latex collection here. Again, quite varied, several different suits.

Wow, that's incredible! Let me see. Wow. Exactly. That's a rubber dress for men. Right.

You are so beautiful. Completely covered in rubber, just like me.

I want to touch you and you should touch me in my beautiful rubber skin.

Come on, let's dance a little.

I am your rubber mistress and you are my rubber object.

Did you get it?

It's so cool to be a rubber object.

Don't you love these beautiful balloons we're dancing in?

Yes.

Yes.

If a demand is made, then it's all over.

Thanks.

Thanks.

How did you actually get into this fetish?

How did that happen? Where did something so strange come from?

This develops in childhood. As a child, everyone thinks a balloon is great, and that usually stays with them; for most people, it's not so cool anymore during puberty.

And then there's the other half, who say that a balloon is always something great, a good childhood experience, a great feeling that you want to hold onto.

This is called Luna, Luna fetishism.

More and more people are discovering that such things exist.

They are not alone in being part of a large community.

Something like this, right?

Or here's a maid's dress.

We also have various boots down here.

For the maids.

or wigs.

We have that here too.

and you do completely...

Wow, that's insane!

Exactly, it depends.

This is a paradise!

What one wants to do.

And also the corsets

in various sizes.

Yes.

Do you just always have to be careful then?

that then the maid

It doesn't look any better than the men.

Yes.

So, you want to be my sexy little maid Michaela?

Yes, Mistress. I want to do everything the Mistress demands.

Okay, show yourself then. Turn around.

I want to see if I get turned on by your dirty, small, tight hole.

Okay. Fine, then lie down very slowly on this bike.

Yes, but I have a very narrow hole. You have to be very careful.

We'll see about that.

You're going to get a proper break-in now.

Ouch! Damn it, that hurts. I told you to be careful.

Tell me, what do you think you're doing, defiling your masters like that?

You shit all over me.

Wake up your shit from my costume immediately.

I'm sorry.

It's more like an extension of the hand for penises and nipples.

Yes, okay.

Actually better, right?

Great.

Exactly.

The fall of the Berlin Wall initially brought a lot of new customers, because all the East Germans were curious.

I once had a guy who had written to me beforehand in a letter, saying he really wanted to be handled very roughly.

You ask your mistress for at least 50 lashes on your bare ass.

one and a half pounds of weights on the nipples

and burning ointment on the glans.

Yes, mistress, I beg you, I submit it.

If you kiss my boots, I might reconsider.

Exciting music

What? You didn't thank your mistress for your punishment?

Just you wait. For that, for that insolence, you'll now feel the burning ointment on your penis.

It might take a little while, but then you'll definitely feel that particularly delicious pain.

Oh, that's burning! Take that off!

Oh, burn that!

Oh God!

They're burning!

Oh my god, this is going so fast!

Oh God.

Uh!

Oh God...

Clean yourself up! No joke!

Clean yourself up!

I had never applied the rheumatism ointment directly to my tail before.

But I assumed that Fred knew what he wanted.

So, are you feeling better now?

Well, you've never done that thing with the ointment before, have you?

No. I've never been to a dominatrix. They didn't exist where I came from in the East.

Hmm. I secretly read the West German newspaper. I thought that was how it was supposed to be.

Nonsense! Well, not necessarily. But then let's raise a glass to the shock.

And next time we'll take it a little easier, okay?

Tina, did you play video games every evening?

I mean, this hard-earned money a day as a dominatrix,

Did you always gamble that away?

That's roughly how it would be.

With the few exceptions, when I knew,

So now you really need to pay the rent.

So that's what I've been doing all these years.

That's all I can do, please.

The tragedy was that I was brought to you by Meinhard

still received almost unlimited credit.

Twelve for red.

Almost seven.

Mucki, can you give me another 200?

200, yes.

200 for the lady.

Please play the game.

Yes, and then I lost 30,000 marks in a single night.

I woke up in the morning from being drunk and thought, oh God.

And I knew I had to pay for it.

But I didn't have it, and mine hasn't had it for a long time.

Dina, is everything alright? How are you?

Mustafa, I'm sorry. I don't have your money.

That's not good, Dina. That's not good.

You know my partners won't like hearing this.

I'll sort it out, just like I always have. Only this time it's impossible.

But you will get your money, I promise.

You have until the end of the week, Tino. I can't keep my partners any longer than that.

Shit!

That's when I knew I had no choice anymore. Now I had to swallow all my pride.

I had to ask my little sister for all her savings.

Solidarity has always been important to me. We were often very close, and I never really thought much about money.

I think that also played a role.

But it was clear to me that I would help you.

Money wasn't as important to you as it was to me?

No, money was never important to me, even to the point of great naivety.

But no, it was important to me to help you.

Yes, I knew that Tina could squander it again.

But she needed it and I gave it to her.

I haven't given it much thought.

Please, have a seat.

Yes, thanks.

You want to start therapy. What is the reason?

Well, I recently broke two toes at work.

Yes, I see that.

And now I have to stay home. Without distractions.

Without what distractions can I not work? What do you do for a living? I am a dominatrix, and what do you want from me?

They distract themselves with their work. I go playing very often, how often each day, do you know?

I don't know what to do anymore. Every time I lock up the studio, I go into the casino game.

And he gambled away all my money. I'm completely broke now, I have nothing left, and if I

When I go to play, I also drink. I drink a lot, and I think so too.

that I have to break up with my boyfriend.

I'm not sure, but I need help.

I can try to free you from your gambling addiction,

But I'll tell you right now, it won't be easy.

You absolutely must change your current behavior, and I can help you with that.

I can accompany you. I can help you along this path.

Do you have any further questions regarding our collaboration? No, no, I would like to...

I absolutely must start therapy; I need help.

I will help them

Enjoy your meal! Yes, then dig in!

Thank you, and you really don't want to eat anything?

No thank you, I have no appetite. My heart is heavy. I have started therapy.

Why is that? You're not crazy, are you? Maybe you are.

Sir, we must separate. We must no longer see each other or even speak to each other on the phone.

For at least six months, maybe even longer.

And I want you to go to the clubs and tell everyone that we're not together anymore.

And everyone should know that I'm completely broke. I won't be selling anything at Müdemarkt anymore.

Tina, think about it again. The 30,000 you gambled away was simply too much, I understand.

But to go around telling everyone that she's what's breaking us up?

Come on, think about it again. Tomorrow the world will look completely different.

Which numbers, please?

Tina, come on. Think about it again.

You can't be serious, can you?

But.

Please go to Düsseldorfer Straße 48.

The most important relationship of my life disappeared through the rear window of the taxi.

And then I announced everywhere that I would no longer pay anything.

I'm saying now, no matter what state I'm in, no matter how drunk I am when I ring the doorbell here,

I'm not counting my debts anymore.

You vile, gambling-addicted bums! Assholes!

What do you actually do?

And then they wouldn't let me in anywhere anymore.

That worked perfectly.

I finally called it quits in 2016. I was 62 years old by then, and for most people, I was getting on in years.

Guests were no longer interesting. As I sat there, I was so grateful that everything had turned out well.

Over all these years, no one has been seriously injured or harmed in my presence.

I am grateful to my profession for teaching me to rely absolutely only on myself.

Despite all the financial hardship over many long years, in the end I was never willing to sell my soul.

For all these years, a strange, indefinable code of honor forbade me from truly exploiting the weaknesses of the men I desired.

Meinhard suffered a stroke in the mid-1990s.

He underwent surgery in this hospital and remained in a persistent vegetative state for 15 years, receiving artificial nutrition.

until he finally died of pneumonia.

Oh Meinhard, the moment I entered your room, the very moment I saw your shaved

I saw your skull, which had sunken and deformed from the operation. Your empty eyes, your

sunken cheeks. At that moment I knew you would never come back.

When I saw you lying there in bed, like a living dead man,

I turned on my heel and fled into the hallway.

I cried more than I have in a long time.

How many others died in misery? Truly!

Whether in health or financial misery.

I believe, even if it sounds a bit stuffy now, that my origins were ultimately my lifeline.

The middle-class family and the background of opportunities to seek help at the crucial moment.

And last but not least, the inheritance that saved me.

Although they had disinherited me several times before, I did inherit after my mother's death.

Had I received this money just a few years earlier, I would certainly have gambled it all away.

Within a few nights.

Instead, I suddenly had enough to buy an apartment and no longer have to work.

When I drive out to the golf club in my little car in the morning, with the music on,

I often get tears in my eyes because I think, wow, how lucky you were.

My old friend Ute invited me to go to the golf club with her back then, and I knew

From the very first moment, that's it. It was really tough sport and I'm proud of it.

My golf swing, that I managed to do that. You know that joke, do they still have sex?

Sex or are you already playing golf? So, goodbye sex. Hello golf.

It's so beautiful here. You have nature, the birds, and the bunnies, and you forget everything else around you.

You don't think about the tax office, you don't think about anything at all, only about the next ball you want to hit.

And it's the best thing for the soul that one can imagine.

For many, many years I was really afraid that they would throw me out, that the people here

I can't cope with my past, or rather, with the fact that I was still working back then, and that...

I had to leave at some point and kept that a secret for years, and then a few years ago...

It turned out that everyone knew, and now most people like me and everyone

They know me, I'm the Pink Lady and I play in tournaments. My boyfriend is here now too.

And everything turned out well.

That makes me happy.

I'm longing for you.

I long for your love.

I long long long for you I long for you

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