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Oh my god!

So do you have a horse?

I will have a horse.

What about her roommate?

I'm going to England, fortunately.

Then it will be a party?

Then it will be a party. I think there will be quite a few.

If I come, everyone will come.

Now?

Are you sure it was your dad?

Yeah, yeah.

It was your dad.

The worst thing is that my dad likes you so much.

But you know it's not possible.

I don't know what to do.

You have to talk to your dad.

Please.

No, no.

I'm going to... I'm going to talk to him.

Do it.

Fuck.

Can you drive me to Erik?

Yes.

Bye. Bye.

Bye.

Thank you very

much.

I'm sorry, but I want to talk to Shasmin.

She's a woman.

I'm sorry, but I want to talk to Shasmin.

She's a woman. I'm sorry, but I want to talk to Shasmin. She's a woman.

I'm sorry, but I want to talk to Shasmin.

What do you want?

I want to go home.

Where are you going?

I don't know.

Thank you.

You'll have to beat me next time, Ibrahim.

Don't think about it. It will happen.

Why aren't you showering?

I forgot to wash my hands.

And you're sitting there looking at Andreas' ass. Are you gay or what?

I hope he's not gay because you killed him.

We'll talk later.

I'm not Bjørn, okay?

You're not Bjørn?

You know what happened to him? What?

The doctor.

Yeah, what the fuck do you think? He's ringing me, like.

And then you come to the doctor too.

You're living a fucking dangerous life.

Yeah, you're living a dangerous life now. Take care of yourself. I'll take

care of myself.

One of your luck.

Are you here?

Don't you have your phone with you?

Do you think you'll call Helle Gård?

No, no.

I'll fix it.

I have to move to the police school in Bodø.

Then we'll fix a job for you, and then...

I'm talking to my aunt.

You have to stop sending me messages from now on.

If anyone in my family sees these messages, I'm done.

What do you mean, done?

Relax. I'm going to stop training. I'm going to start working for my father.

Mansor, you don't know Mansprung. He's going to start driving a taxi for your

father.

Relax, okay?

We'll do this together.

It won't work out.

Understand that.

Don't do anything wrong, Mansor.

Let me talk to my father.

What the hell did you say?

What's wrong with you?

Andreas, this will never work.

Thank you very much.

Racha. Racha?

Baal Mokhasha.

Kimra Kurdusan. Im Show.

What are you doing?

Huh? Stop it!

Where are you going?

Thank you.

Come on, let's go.

This used to be our locker room. This used to be an academy.

There used to be the most beautiful theater here.

Sooner or later, everything will explode.

I grew up here Some of my old

neighbors got evicted

One of the last three places left.

Budapest is like road pyjamas.

Dirty, but it's comfortable.

Sometimes you sound like you're saying goodbye to this city.

Maybe I am.

They were fucking creepy policemen.

Yeah. One of them checked my sister's ID card.

After that, added her on Facebook. Oh, women.

I would be very dangerous if I wasn't a pacifist.

Teach me how to roll.

No.

That was close!

Whoa, whoa.

This must be the worst toilet in Hungary.

Never mind.

You hear the music?

We are not that late.

This is my teacher.

Adam.

Nice to meet you.

Nice to meet you.

Who's my dinner?

They're my exes, and he's my

lover.

He's joking.

We're not.

He's my classmate

Yeah,

she's a one-night stand She didn't get it she

started to harass me text messages I blocked her but now She's

everywhere. I go fucking weird me Well, she's younger than my mom

Yeah, but not as fit.

Come on.

If it's all threatened You know you never will If it's all threatened You

know you never will

You know you never will If it's unfitting You know you never will

If it's unfitting You know you never will

Every day I don't dance It's a wasted day.

Roll me one.

You don't smoke?

Tonight I do.

Thanks.

Do you have a lighter?

I have it.

You know I think we are messed up.

Why?

I mean... Look at all these people fucking around.

No commitment, just... just obsession.

Not me.

We get attached to Tinder profiles.

Yeah.

Later, please.

Nice to thinking of somebody when you hear a

laugh song.

You should leave this city.

You fucked everyone in it.

That's true. Yeah, it's true.

Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, ma'am, but no

I'm sorry, I can't

Fuck you!

Peti... Would you like to eat this with me?

Then she'll let me get you

Okay.

you

Hey, Mami, did you see my party?

Yeah, I'm waiting for someone.

So come on, do you want to join us?

It's okay, I can wait for you outside.

Come on.

Party!

Lisa!

God. um

All right?

Yes.

Yes, Daniel, everything's fine.

What happened to you?

I don't know what to do.

What are you talking about?

I can't control things that happen to me in my life.

I just call myself.

Sometimes I feel that my life is part of one big plan of someone.

Of God?

Maybe.

Where were you until now?

Stan, I met my friends.

Tell me next time, did we bother you?

No, it's fine.

I have to go, come on, come on, come on, come on.

Mom and I noticed that you're a little different lately.

You know you can always talk to us.

Elisha?

Elisha, can you hear me?

Yes, sir.

Elisha, let me ask you a question.

What do you think, Elisha?

Thank you, Rabbi.

Well, how can I explain this to you?

I notice that something is happening to you.

But I don't know where it came from all of a sudden.

May you rest in peace.

It's not acceptable.

Everything can be changed today.

Every night.

Regan.

Elisha?

Where have you been? I already saw you.

What happened?

I was at a party.

There were a lot of people.

Me and the girls... I met

Shamim personally.

It didn't go the way I thought it would.

Just...

Let's sit for a moment.

There's a beautiful proverb that says, man plans and God laughs.

You can't be in control all the time.

You have to trust him sometimes to take you to the right places.

Right, I'll miss you.

I'll miss you.

Morning.

Hi.

It's nice to see you in person finally.

Did you delete everything?

Yeah.

Last time you were outside?

I haven't been outside in four days.

The curtains drawn?

Yeah.

What about your phone?

I sent it to the place you said in the letter.

Priority? Yeah, I did what you said.

Good. Here.

Oh, sorry.

What was that?

My house keys. I forgot I still had them.

You shouldn't have done that.

You're a little nervous.

Yeah, I think so.

It's okay.

People...

Usually haven't done something like this before Usually

It's a joke

Be right back, okay

Wait. Can you stop here?

That's your choice.

Yeah, that's what I want.

You want me to get you one of those little toys, too?

Yeah.

That'd be great, actually.

Do they have the nuggets?

Yeah Fuck

Wow,

thank you. She's beautiful

You like it?

This where you take all the boys?

This is it.

Make yourself at home.

You have to do that now?

I do, yeah, but it should only take a second.

And I'm all yours.

Wait, so this is all for me?

I like this one.

Good, I'm glad.

What's it called?

The weed?

Skullcap or something?

Can you pretend it's yours?

Of course.

You ready?

Can we turn the lights off?

Everything okay?

Yeah.

I think it's time.

Okay.

I think I need to do it now.

It doesn't look so scary does it?

I think it's kind of cute.

All of a sudden, I'm scared.

It happens.

It happens and then... it passes.

Will you play with my hair?

Will you take your gloves off?

I can't.

I really want to feel your hands.

I really can't.

I'm sorry.

Mmm.

I love you

Wow.

Hello. Hi, you alright? Yeah, good thanks, yeah.

Do you want to jump in?

Yeah, yeah, cool.

How's you?

Yeah, good thanks.

Good. So you're a gardener then?

Yeah.

Yeah.

So... What do you want to do?

Drive somewhere? Yeah, yeah.

Sounds good.

So you sneak away from your wife and kids then?

You don't feel guilty about that?

I will do if you talk about it.

Sorry.

How about you?

Oh, I'm actually living with my parents at the moment.

Not for long, it's just... It's not great for bringing people back, you

know.

What? I just feel a bit seedy.

Listen, if you don't fancy... Hey, it's really not that.

I literally got a hard-on as soon as I got in the van.

I'll take you back.

Sorry I wasted your time.

No, no, I haven't.

So you didn't get enough of me yesterday, then?

Obviously not.

No. You, er... No, you seem like a nice guy, that's all.

Hmm. Thanks.

Got you a little something.

You've just been to the pub?

Oh, I've just been for a couple, you know.

Take the edge off.

So where are you taking me tonight then?

I thought we could drive around for a bit, maybe stop somewhere for a

cigarette. What makes you think I smoke?

I could taste it on you yesterday.

Oh, really?

Don't worry.

I quite liked it.

Yeah, I split with my girlfriend about a year ago now.

How come?

It's all getting a bit comfortable, you know.

Everyone's asking us when we're going to get married and have kids, all that.

And there's this.

So nobody knows about you, then.

No.

I don't think people really give a shit about that kind of thing anymore.

I'm not sure you're the best person to be dispensing that sort of advice, are

you, Mr Married Man?

Someone just flashed his lights.

Did he?

Yeah.

No. You brought me to a dogging area.

I cannot believe you brought me dogging on our second date. This is not a

dogging area.

It is. Look, he's flashing his lights.

Oh, my God, this is actually a dogging area.

OK, now, this is actually a dogging area. Can we please leave? That is a

dogging as well. Yeah. Shall we flash back?

No, no.

Shall we?

No. Let's flash it back. Come on. No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. Start the

car. Oh, come on, it'd be funny. Start the engine now. Why? Because what if we

know them?

What do you mean?

No, I don't know any doggers.

Well, you don't know that you know doggers, but you probably do.

Oh, please, do not do this.

He thinks you're flashing the lights.

Oh, thank God. Come on now, go, go, go, go, go.

It's the same time tomorrow?

Well,

I don't mind seeing you again as long as you don't take me there.

We'll see.

Well, I'm not going there again.

I said we'll see. I swear to you I'm not.

All right.

See you later.

so did you always want to be a gardener uh kind of yeah my um my granddad was

gardener he worked for a kind of big estate as a head gardener when i was a

kid he used to teach me all the latin names so you know all the latin names i

know all the latin names well not all of them but most okay um these over here

Carpinus betulus.

Carpinus betulus. What's that in English?

Hornbeam. Hornbeam. I don't even know what hornbeam is, but I like the sound

of it. I like the sound of you.

My hornbeam. My hornbeam.

Exactly.

What's that one?

Pinus sylvestris.

Are you having a laugh?

Pinus sylvestris, yeah.

Okay, so it's penis sylvestris.

Oh, this bush here.

That bush there is Lannissara.

Lannissara? Lannissara, yeah. You're making this up, mate. I am not. So,

you're going to sing me a song.

I'll sing you a song.

I made this up especially for you. Ready? Okay.

Here we go.

Johnny, you're in my body for a day.

Johnny, I can't afford to let you get away.

So soon Please don't forget so soon

Johnny don't forget me ever I said something

that wasn't true

The only people I know who listen to classical music by choice are either old

people or my public school boyfriends.

So, yeah.

That's good.

What are you saying? Wait, are you... Are you a Tory?

You are, aren't you?

Yes, you are.

Back it in.

Stop it.

You actually are, aren't you?

I can't believe I've been kissing a Tory boy.

Oh, my God, it's disgusting.

Get over it. Anyway, it's far worse for me. How is it worse for you?

How is it worse for me? Because I've been kissing a champagne socialist.

OK, you do not know me well enough to be making those sort of claims.

I think I do.

Champagne socialist.

Drive, Tory boy.

Yeah? Really?

Yeah.

I might have to have a drink or two first, but maybe the old.

So what about our wedding?

Morning sits.

The big fuck-off marquee.

Works. Who do you like?

Your parents?

Yeah. Yeah, they love it.

Just gotta wait to meet the right guy before I tell him.

Remember that lady I was telling you about she wants me to design the whole

garden for which is great It's like one of my first designing jobs Hmm

So, um, I thought I could grab a sign to eat

you fancy that Yeah, okay What you like

Well at this time of night the possibilities are endless

I'll find something that's open.

Look, I am okay.

I am. It's just that... I really like you.

And... Well, this whole thing's ridiculous, isn't it?

Because... You're married, and look, I just have to keep reminding myself that

this is as far as it's going to go. It's always just going to be you and me in

your shitty postman van.

I know you assumed that I was and I just didn't say anything.

I'm in a relationship, an open relationship with a guy.

So, you know, we don't just have to do the van thing anymore.

I should have told you sooner.

Yeah.

How long have you been together?

12 years or so.

We get on really well and everything, it's just... You know.

Why don't you just leave him?

I don't know.

I guess because I don't want to break his heart.

Johnny, you're in my body for a

day.

Johnny, I can't afford to let you get

away so soon.

Please don't forget so soon.

Johnny. Don't forget me ever I said something

Truly worth it again

Hello, nice to see you.

Hello. Thank you, Father.

Nice to see you. Thank you very much.

Thank you, Father. Thank you for coming today.

Thank you, Father. My pleasure.

Thank you, Father. Thank you for all the watch. All the watch.

Thank you for last week. Thank you for coming.

Another great time with you. Thank you. Nice to see you.

No.

What's that?

You know the sherry drinker?

I could get you something else.

It's fine Thanks

Come on, humor me.

Most people just want to get on with it.

I think we both need to relax a little, eh?

You're not quite what I expected.

From a rent boy?

It's fine.

It's what I am.

Anyway, you're definitely not what I expected from a priest.

that makes me lightheaded come on another drink nah i couldn't

okay give me first come on

your turn now

come on

yeah down she goes

You poor lad.

You've had worse, I'm sure.

Thanks.

You alright now?

Okay, look.

It's just a bit of sick.

Take a shower.

Get some of my clothes in the bedroom.

I'll join you in there in a bit, alright?

I'm sorry.

Come on, Simon.

What if I get in with you?

We could shower together.

We can get cleaned up. You could get back in the mood.

Look, it... It doesn't have to be a big deal.

No. Maybe some more water?

Look at me!

How old are you?

Simon.

My clothes.

They got sick on them.

Use some of mine.

Bedroom's at the top of the stairs.

How you doing, mate?

Fine.

How old did you think I was, anyway?

19?

20?

Look, that... That back there, that... That wasn't me.

It's like you said.

I've had worse.

Are there many of you?

Your sort of age, I mean.

Yeah, loads.

Didn't you know that?

I've kept my distance.

Until now.

I just wanted one night.

For me.

Are we supposed to be tonight anyway?

I'll stay with my mum.

Sometimes. But not all the time.

We're different people.

She doesn't get me.

Know what I mean?

Oh yeah.

You're nice.

Good morning.

Say good morning to the camera first.

Present yourself. Name, please.

In

1987,

my father bought a camera.

In these images, it's hard not to notice my way.

At

that

time, few people had a camera.

So it was a big event whenever my father showed up with her at school dinners,

family dinners, birthday parties, vacation at the beach.

Being a fag child is dangerous

But what danger are you going to ask me?

The camera was my father's toy, a man's toy.

It records what the man expects from a male child.

I see my effort to omit the camera as proof that I was not interested in it.

The first time I fell in love, I did everything I could so that no one would

notice what was happening.

The movie theater happened because my uncle had a muamba store in a mall in

the center of São Paulo.

My uncle had his gang.

Do you also feel the smell of heterosexuality that comes out of these

images?

Do you also feel, as I did, that mixture of attraction, fear and

impossibility that a threatening meeting of virile men causes in a little faggot

child?

Chulé.

Chulé was part of my uncle's gang.

That night, after dinner, the men decided to take the children to ride a

motorcycle.

The mission was to go around the block with me.

What luck I had!

He gave a first ride on the motorcycle, and as I didn't have the courage to hug

him with force, he turned to me and said, if you don't really grab it, it

will end up falling.

I still feel the red-hot breath of this phrase, said with the assertiveness of

an adult who teaches a child.

He didn't have to have said it that way.

I would have obeyed in any way.

Chulé was the first person in our group who died of AIDS.

He died in 1990 and I followed him from a distance because of the sad

news I heard in adult conversations.

I loved you, Chulé.

I remember that beautiful man of his serious voice, of his clever cliché way,

the sweaty beer smell he had, and I can't stop feeling the presence of the

virus in the first sensual experience I remember.

Ava. Where have you been since I've been waiting for you for three hours?

They laugh. You don't go groove.

Nigerian time, man.

You miss.

Enough lessons.

They ask where you've been.

But come and follow us and enjoy a little bit.

So what about your daughter? How is she doing? Yeah, she's good. She's good.

She's with Anna.

You mean I never marry?

For three years, the village of Tzliyelma and Metzghema has not seen the

light of day.

There were only 33 people in the village.

The city and zoopark were surrounded by a large crowd.

The village was surrounded by a large crowd.

The village was surrounded by a large crowd. The village was surrounded by a

large crowd.

In Galiyev, the beauty of the village of Tskhoveli was the exotic beauty of

Georgia.

In the village of Tskhoveli, the beauty of the village of Tskhoveli was the

exotic beauty of Georgia.

sometimes i feel like you know i don't want to stay no more yeah naturally in a

special disgrace what social disgrace believe me sometimes i feel like i i

don't want i don't want anymore i don't want to continue okay because it comes

that um you feel good sometimes and sometimes you feel bad you know this

life man from the people around you so that is why sometimes when i feel like

giving up

Nobody gives up.

Oh, boy.

Why you don't smoke?

Swim, bitches.

Huh?

Swim?

Swim to where?

Enjoy.

You don't care?

He

cries

sometimes.

I don't know. I don't feel cry.

Why? I've heard he cries.

No, no, no. Sometimes I feel like there's something that hurts from my

belly and it makes me cry.

Why is your red auntie is they bite you?

Is they bleed?

What did the doctor say?

All is fine.

You didn't go again, right?

As if anybody cares about me there. I'm not going to go back there.

I'm working in the club tonight.

I see you.

You, you know?

No, what?

Why zebras they get stripes?

I don't know.

Yeah, I don't know.

Because I know I have seen how they see.

Oh yeah!

They are show walking.

SHOW WALKING!

Captain, see, see them are 99 million.

99 million.

Can I score now?

I don't even know how to score.

I don't even know how to score.

I don't even know how to score.

score score score score score score score

that's

how we play man

Get hold.

Thank you.

Thank you.

I love you.

Thank you.

That's deeply inappropriate.

Are we a

boy

I should say? Isn't that young?

Why are you always hiding from me?

I don't think I'm gay enough to be here.

I happen to know for a fact that that's not true.

I'm not drunk enough then.

Would you wear that shirt at home?

Or do flowers die there?

It's not that bad.

Why don't you invite me then?

Don't you ever get tired of mine?

My bed and my shower and my parents' Netflix account.

Do you?

Charlie, honey, you got a fag?

Aye. Me.

Come on, then.

Back to mine.

Shut up.

No, I'm serious.

Fuck, fuck, fuck.

How did this happen?

She must have been some fucking steaming.

I mean, I could have left, but I didn't want to.

I want a shower.

You can't.

You can't.

You can't. No, you'll kill me.

Just... You can't just stay in town. I can't get you out without anyone seeing.

OK?

Please.

Stupid piece of shit.

Can you at least get me some water? The world's fucking ending in my mouth.

Nick.

Yeah. Yeah, thank you.

Yeah, erm... Will you lie down there?

Where?

Behind the bed.

I'm not hiding behind the bed like fucking Adam Frank.

Please.

Please, just do it.

I look exhausted.

I've been having the paralysis again.

Again?

It's like... like there's a monster sitting on my chest.

I've heard that happening before.

Would you join

me? And Robert, you too?

And a prayer to clear Gemma's head.

Aye. Yeah.

God is watching.

And he's listening.

God, we ask you this day, please, at this difficult time.

Well, good afternoon, Nick.

All right.

It's a shame I'm due off in a minute.

I would have loved to have had a wee chat with you confidentially.

You know you can talk to me about anything, Nick, yeah?

Did something happen to your neck?

Aye.

What happened to your neck?

Nick had a wild night.

Did you wring her back?

No.

Christ. See, every time I see that tattoo, I think I'm going to be sick.

Leave him.

Hey, I'm thirsty too.

Drink it.

No.

Drink it.

What are they shouting about?

They're just having a laugh.

Maybe you could get out here?

I need to pee.

Are you really going to make me piss in a glass?

Why didn't you leave?

You invited me, Nick.

You wanted something different and new.

Well, I hope you're enjoying your trip to the zoo.

Who's the coloured boy?

I can't even when I walk out that fucking door. I'm so sorry.

Mummy took my phone.

Adam, you can have mine, but only if you don't tell Mummy or Daddy that my

friend's here. And don't dismantle it, okay?

Yours is rubbish. Can I have that one?

No. I'm sorry, Adam. You can't have that.

Ah, you always say you didn't, yeah?

Can you speak to your...

Can you see that social worker?

You tell her... Everything's good, son.

Tell her I'm good.

Yeah?

Tell her I'm holy.

God's best pal.

Why the fuck you have to?

Yeah?

Because I can't fucking lose you, yeah? You get that?

Yeah.

That's good, son.

That's good.

You need to know that.

Fuck

off.

Right!

Come here!

No!

You know, if your mother never drank so much with you inside of her, you may not

be such a cheek of a lot of shit.

Dinner! Now!

Through my fucking head in!

Maybe I could smash the window.

I could set the fire alarm off.

Get everyone outside.

Or I... I could get them to take a bath.

I'm not leaving, Nick.

Why won't you go?

I don't want you to see anymore.

It's already a good time, don't be fuckin' angry.

It's already a good time.

It's already alright, man.

I don't know, I'm in a little ditch, isn't it? I don't know what it's like to

be coming over here. It's a good time.

You gotta keep pumping.

There's Luke.

Thank you.