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"The essential is invisible to the eye."

This phrase comes from

"As if saying goodbye saddens me,"

"it would have been better if we didn't get along."

Are the words said by the fox to the lost star prince.

Um, I have studied the continuance for a long time.

It is about our school's library.

As expected, we cannot deny the deterioration.

Demolition of it has officially been decided.

Even though it's a library with a long history, I'm sorry to say it.

The book collection we have these days,

We will temporarily move the library room within the school.

Um, the demolition will start on May 3rd...

[ Letter of Resignation ]

Mr Shiga. Can I have a moment?

Ah, yes.

I would like to ask you

to be in charge of the organization of the library collection.

What?

Well, you have the qualifications of a librarian.

Weren't you a library committee when you were a student here?

I still remember you were the one who arranged the labels of the huge amount of books.

But, it's been 12 years ago.

There would be someone in the library committee who would help you. It's going to be alright.

Okay? Bye then. I'll leave it to you, okay?

Wait...

[ Original Work - Yoru Sumino ]

[ Script - Tomoko Yoshida ]

[ Takumi Kitamura
Minami Hamabe ]

[ Keiko Kitagawa ]

[ Shun Oguri ]

[ Sho Tsukikawa ]

Quiz: 135.5 of "Sa".

This is Japanese philosophy.

So it's 12 of...

Um...

1.

Japanese philosophy is 121.

Since this is modern, it's .6.

Wow...

It's just like this a long time ago.

Because that is perfect.

I think nobody needed to fix it.

[ Library Classification
Kirioka High School Library Committee ]
I think nobody needed to fix it.

[ Library Classification
Kirioka High School Library Committee ]

I see.
[ Library Classification
Kirioka High School Library Committee ]

[ Library Classification
Kirioka High School Library Committee ]

Thanks.

Huh?

Um, could it be...

That you were the one who sorted out all of these when you were a committee member?

Yeah.

So that's how was it.

Ah. There was also another one.

Although she was an annoying helper.

I told you, it's not there.

Don't get in the way.

[ Kimi no Suizou wo Tabetai
I Want to Eat Your Pancreas
Let Me Eat Your Pancreas ]

I want to eat your pancreas.

Pancreas?

Yeah, yeah. I thought of wanting to eat it.

What's that all of a sudden? Have you suddenly been awakened to cannibalism?

I watched it on TV yesterday.

If someone in the past had a part of their body that wasn't well,

they would eat the corresponding part of another animal.

So if their liver is bad, they eat a liver. If if their stomach is bad, they eat a stomach, huh?

And they believed that their illness will heal because of that.

That's why me too.

You want to eat pancreas too?

That's ridiculous.

You're so frank, since you know my secret.

Even though you don't know what pancreas does.

A pancreas is the coordinator of digestion and energy production.

If there is no pancreas, a person cannot acquire energy and die.

Did you research it?

So you have a little interest in me.

Well...

I never run out of curiosity with a classmate that has a serious illness.

That's not it.

How about me as a person?

I wonder.

Hey, isn't this place amazing?

Hey, except the library committee members, people are forbidden here.

How stingy of you. Am I really that of a bother?

I am not interested in others. It's not about "you".

That way of calling "you" is funny.

I'll try imitating.

What?

It's a waste to not be interested in others.

That's right. Read this and study.

It's mine, but I'll especially lend it to you.

Here.

Me and Sakura Yamauchi's relationships is...

Classmates that never talked to each other.

That's all... Should have been.

Pediatric outpatients, please come to the reception desk.

Disease Coexistence Journal?

"November 29, 2003."

"Starting from today after naming this Disease Coexistence Journal,"

"I thought of writing every day's thoughts. "

"Except for my family, this is a secret to everyone:"

"I will die in a few years."

Pancreas? Die?

That's mine.

It surprised me.

Because she's popular in class.

Why are you here?

I had my appendix out.

Ah. So you were confined here.

You noticed?

Yes, of course. Since you're my classmate.

I don't know anyone. I'm a plain classmate after all.

You think like that, that's why you become one.

Mr Plain Classmate.

How about you?

I had examination in my pancreas. If I don't get it checked up, I will die.

You took a peek in this, didn't you?

Yeah...

She will soon die.

Even though such a serious secret

was found out by the class's most plain classmate,

she was smiling like usual.

From the next day, my daily life began to change.

No. I think it's more precise to say that she started to devastate me.

It's because I don't get involved with anyone

and protect my own place.

I understand that.

Hm? Hey, who did you waved just now?

No one.

What? Who? Who?

What is her motive, I wonder...

She became a candidate member in the library committee.

It has been decided that we were to organize the book classification together.

I won't tell your secret to anyone, so you don't have to inspect me.

I filed for candidacy because it looks fun.

What is this?

The class numbering is a mess. Look carefully at the classification table.

Isn't it alright to make small mistakes?

Doesn't it make you happier when you make an effort in finding it?

Something like treasure hunting.

Is it alright for you spend your few remaining days like these?

Then how should I spend it?

There are stuff like meeting your first love.

Or like go overseas, hitchhike, and decide your resting place.

Same goes for you. Is it alright for you to not do it?

Even if you suddenly die first tomorrow.

Like in an accident.

You know, there's a random attacker recently nearby.

We have the same worth regarding each day.

But well...

If I were to think about what I want to do...

I will be...

...helping you with how little time I have left to live.

What?

Let's meet in front of the station at 11AM, Sunday. See you!

Hey, wait a minute...

You're the one who suggested it, okay?

Stop it, geez.

How admirable of you.

To think you're about to help a sickly girl.

I just don't want to call this off. So? Where are we going?

Tada! We will eat organ meats.

Huh?

Pancreas are called "sweetbreads".

Is this harassment for me knowing your secret?

You don't really think that it would help you cure your illness, right?

Tell me seriously what you're going to do from now on?

Ah, you mean the future?

I don't have anything in mind.

You know, you tell that kind of joke.

Don't you think it would bother me?

I wonder.

But I will not tell you otherwise.

What?

Because when classmates come to know this secret,

they will normally be commotion and draw attention, right?

But then you completely make a straight face.

That's because...

I don't want myself to be seen by the one who is the saddest.

For someone else to cry for them

is barking the wrong tree.

Okay. Let's go!

What?

Welcome. I will guide the one in front of the line.

Excuse me...

Is this a penalty game for refusing your wish?

I wanted to come even before. Kyoko loves sweets, you know.

Ah... do you know Kyoko?

Is she the girl always with you?

Yep. She's my best friend since junior high.

She said that this is a popular place and asked that we should come together.

Is it alright that you didn't come together with her?

Ah. Oh no, she'll get mad.

She might hold a grudge on you.

What? Why me?

Girls are like that.

Best friends are like boyfriends and girlfriends. They get jealous of people getting close to their best friend.

Don't you have a best friend or something?

Why do you ask?

Why? Because I want to know.

Even though you really have no interest in me.

There's no way I would have a best friend.

How about a friend?

I haven't had one ever since.

Then how about a girlfriend?

No way I could have...

At least you had someone you liked?

What happened to the girl you liked?

I only had once...

What kind of person was she?

She's always someone who add honorifics to anything.

Mr Publisher. Ms Clerk. Mr Cartoonist.

She even adds honorifics to food like Ms Sweet Potato.

Well, you see...

That made me think

that I should be respectful to various things.

It's nice compared to what I thought.

Ah, yeah.

She might have been a nice girl.

Not that.

The reason why you came to like her.

Ah...

Did you confessed to her?

No way.

She became the girlfriend of someone who was attractive in class.

I see... No ability to judge a character, huh?

What?

What about you?

I had a boyfriend just before.

I see...

He was popular and it would have been better if we stayed as friends.

Thank you for accompanying me today.

I've even wrote it in the Disease Coexistence Journal.

Please don't write my name.

Got it. Even though I've already written it,

I'm blotting it out.

Then, good night.

Let's get along well like this from now on.

I see.

We are getting along.

Let's go, let's go to "SweePara".

Did you already go to "SweePara"?

Why don't we go to "SweePara"?

I heard that the strawberry cake was the most delicious!

Why you?

What?

Why are you getting close with Sakura? What's your motive?

Huh?

I told you, it's not like that, Kyoko.

Then why did you suddenly became a library committee member?

Why go to a date with the gloomiest one in class?

Because we get along well?

"Get along well"?

Right? Mr Get-Along-Well?

Okay, okay, okay.

That's enough already.

Everyone gets along well with Yamauchi.

He met with her by chance, go out, and drank some tea. Right?

No, no, no, no.

He got angry.

Wait!

I said wait. Why are you angry?

I beg of you.

Please stop getting involved with me.

Like you're getting involved...

Everyone misunderstood.

"Misunderstood"?

Ah. When I told them we "get along well"?

But that's because you're not my boyfriend.

It's a bit different from a friend or best friend.

Is it alright if you don't tell your illness to your best friend?

Yeah.

I think it would be better

if you spend your few remaining time with the friends you cherish

instead of me.

It's alright, it's okay. She's emotional anyway.

If I tell her, I'm sure she'll cry every time we meet.

That won't be fun to spend for both of us, right?

For her. For me.

I want to keep it a secret until the the end.

Will you...

Hm?

Will you really die?

I'll die.

I have been told I have more or less a year.

I've decided to only tell you.

You're probably the only one

who I give my simple everyday life.

The doctor only gives the truth.

Both my parents are desperately trying to fix everyday life.

I'm sure Kyoko will too, when she finds out.

But you're the only one that's different.

I just...

...am not trying to confront you.

Hey, hey.

Don't make such a serious face.

Besides, all of us will die someday.

Come on! Let's meet in heaven!

Hey, Shiga.

Are you dating Sakura Yamauchi?

What?

She sure makes a lot of fuss.

It seems like his boyfriend was snatched away from her.

Hm?

Ah, it's just...

You're the first classmate who called me by my name.

What?

We are not dating.

So you're not. Is it alright to let the gossip remain like that?

I don't mind because it's not true.

How mature.

Want some gum?

No.

Okay.

Kyoko.

Kyoko!

Huh?

What's wrong?

Ah, it's nothing.

[ Kazuharu Miyata
Kyoko Takimoto ]

[ Will you attend?
Will you be absent?]

I found something I want to do. I want to go out on this consecutive holidays!

Is there a place you want to go?

Why did you text all of a sudden?

Because I lost interest.

I don't even know the decimal system. Will you usually classify not exceeding a decimal point?

But isn't it a pity for a book to be lost?

But wouldn't it more fulfilling if the book

if one finds a book like treasure hunting?

Answer me where is the place

you want to go before you die?

I said that, didn't I?

That's one big bag.

The train box lunch is delicious!

Ah! Hey, that one's delicious too.

Gimme.

You should tell me our destination soon or I'll be stumped.

Isn't it more fun if you don't know the destination, right?

But...

This is the first time I lied to my parents.

I said that I'll have an overnight trip with Kyoko.

I see.

Overnight trip?!

Yup. Hold this.

Ta-da!

I've made a list.

Things I want to do before I die.

We will transfer to a bullet train in the next station.

You should prepare.

It's my first time in Kyushu!

Wow! I can smell noodles!

That's just the imprint in the brain. In other words, it's just your imagination.

It sure smells like it! Maybe your nose is deteriorating.

Your train of thought is deteriorating.

My pancreas is the one deteriorating.

Here, thank you for waiting. They're organ meat.

They're internal organs! Internal organs!

Digging in!

Just where is this place you say it's fun?

That's a secret.

Carps! Hey, look, look!

It was far. I'm already exhausted.

Even though you're sick, you just keep eating.

A shrine, a shrine. I have to pray for something.

"I pray her illness will be cured."

Right?

No. That's you, right?

I won't make that kind of prayer now.

Then what?

Probably praying about people I cherish.

To my father, mother, friends, and Mr Get-Along-Well.

I prayed for everyone's long lasting health.

Okay! Let's go draw our fortune slips.

The one that's written about good things is the one that wins, okay?

Fortune slips is something to contest about.

Excellent Luck!

It says that my illness will be healed soon.

Even though it won't be healed anymore.

What about you?

Future good luck, huh?

Okay, the loser's decided!

Ah, it's that.

We'll be staying there?!

No way.

I've decided to use up my saving before I die.

Come on, let's go.

You see, I kinda made a mistake.

Okay.

The room I originally reserved is full.

Ah, I see.

And because it's their mistake,

the room prepared is absolutely better than the original reserved room.

That's fine.

You see.

It's alright that it's only a room we will stay together, right?

What?

Wow! It's big! They said it's the best room.

It even has a living room! Amazing!

Ah! The night view!

Hey, didn't you do it on purpose?

How negative of you.

You must trust your own luck.

I'm not saying that you didn't used an upgrade,

but it's the same room.

So fluffy!

Don't you feel excited that we are going to share the same bed?

Are you stupid?!

I'll sleep here.

What?

Since we finally got a great room, at least try the bed.

Then I'll try lying down there later.

Hey, aren't you happy that you're not going to sleep beside a girl?

That's what lovers do.

I see.

Then I'll go take a bath.

Bath, bath.

Such uprightness. I don't feel guilty at all.

We just get along.

Hey, Mr Get-Along-Well. Can you bring the face washing cream?

What?

It's inside the backpack. A yellow pouch.

Hurry.

Come in.

Huh? What're you drinking?

My first alcoholic drink. This is also one in my list.

I want to try things I can't do as an adult.

Even though you're getting drunk alone.

"Truth or dare".

What?

Don't you know that game?

I will explain how it works.

First, the one with the higher number will be able to win the right to hear out truth or dare.

Okay?

- Well, wait...
- One, two...

Alright, I won.

Truth or dare?

Um...

If you choose "truth", you must definitely answer the question.

If you choose "dare", you have to definitely do what was directed to you.

Truth or dare?

Hm...

Truth.

Then...

Who do you think is the cutest in our class?

What? Just what are you trying to ask?

Hey, hey. Who is it?

I don't judge people by their appearance.

I am hearing out based on appearance!

So who is the cutest?

Um...

I think the girl who is best at mathematics.

Hina?!

So it's not me.

I see~ So that's the type of girl you like.

Enough already.

Truth or dare.

Truth.

If Hina is the cutest, what rank am I?

To put it simply...

since I have a limit on remembering people's faces.

Third.

Wow. It's really very embarrassing.

You're the one who want to know about it.

I didn't know that you're going to answer seriously.

I want to end this as soon as possible.

Let's slowly do this. The night is long after all.

One, two...

What was something that made you the happiest?

What? Are you alright asking just that?

I'll even answer my vital statistics.

Just answer it.

Who is the one you respect?

Geez, what is this? A job interview? Ask more fun questions.

Alright! I won!

Then this time,

I'll give my question and order ahead then choose which you want.

What?

If you choose truth,

give three things that are cute about me.

If you choose dare,

carry me to the bed.

What's with the hand?

I'll lend you a hand so come on and take it.

I told you. Carry me.

Come on. Is piggyback ride better? Or would it be better if it's like a princess' way?

Thank you for carrying me like a princess.

I've been wanting someone to do it for me since I was a child.

Next is the last.

Rock, paper, scissors!

What were the trump cards so far?

Why not? Truth or dare?

Truth.

If I

said that I'm really afraid of dying,

what will you do?

Dare.

That's unfair.

Sleep in the bed too.

Objection and refusal are forbidden.

Hello?

Sakura, where are you right now?

You lied that you'll be staying at my place, right?

I got a call from your mother.

But well, I talked her through it.

Anyway, where are you now? Who are you with?

Hakata.

Together with Mr Get-Along-Well.

What?!

W-what are you talking about? H-Hakata? With him?

Yep.

I'll be sure to explain it to you someday.

That's why even though you don't understand it, I want you to forgive me.

Please, Kyoko.

Okay.

Thank you.

But I have a condition.

What could it be?

That you'll buy me souvenirs. That you'll return safe.

Ah, and also tell him this:

"If you do anything to Sakura, I'll kill you."

Got it.

It seems like Kyoko will kill you.

What the hell?

Please properly explain to her that I'm innocent.

That I'm really innocent.

I'll leave Kyoko to you.

What?

I told you that I had a boyfriend, right?

After he confessed to me,

and even though Kyoko fully recommended that I date him.

He gets angry in small things and is even possessive.

Kyoko has no good eye on guys, you know.

Even though she acts strong,

the truth is she's a weak girl.

I'm worried to leave her alone.

That's why when I die,

I want you to get along with Kyoko.

I'll leave Kyoko to you.

Let's travel again. Maybe on summer next time.

Summer? Sounds good.

Huh? You're awfully honest.

In that case, did you had fun?

Yeah, I had fun.

What? Do you want to get my pancreas?

That's because your rarely honest.

Yeah. I had fun too.

As thanks, once I die, it's alright

if you eat my pancreas.

Huh?

I'll have to decline. In the first place, I'm not sick.

It is said that if someone eats it,

the soul of that person will go on　to that person who eats it.

I want to live

with the people I cherish.

Huh?

He hasn't responded yet.

Hey.

I wonder what would Sakura say.

Hm?

About us.

I wonder if she expected it.

I wonder if she'll give us her blessing?

Of course she will.

She'll say something like you found a good husband.

No, perhaps she might be opposing it.

She even said that I have no good eye for guys.

What the hell is that?

Hey, Shiga.

Why did you throw away your indoor slippers?

What?

I found this at the trash bin in the toilet.

It's still not that dirty.

Thanks. I was worried that I lost it.

I see. Be careful.

Want some gum?

No... but thanks.

She's glaring at you again.

Huh? It's not here.

Did you lose something?

Ah, no.

You've got it tough.

Tell me if something happened. I'm the class chairman after all.

Okay.

Huh? Where's Yamauchi?

Ah, I thought of giving her printouts.

She didn't come.

I guess she won't come.

I have my hunch.

I see, then it's okay.

Bye.

Hello!

Because Kyoko is following me like a bodyguard,

I'll take a leave of absence at the desk, okay?

And in return, you will go to our house today.

"Our house"?

Come in, come in.

Why do I have to come no matter what?

If we talk in school, the rumors will increase, right?

Because you are a classmate who's got the attention.

Okay...

I'll go get some tea so look around the books.

The truth is, looks like I lost the book you lent to me.

My parents aren't around today.

What?

That's why I told you to come.

You have no intention for making me your girlfriend, right?

What's that all of a sudden?

No. Definitely no.

Okay, you pass.

Huh?

There's one last thing I want to do before I die.

I must do something with a guy who's not my boyfriend.

This is a hug.

That's why...

The thing I have to do is from now on.

Kidding!

It's a joke, a joke!

Because you are silent,

it turned into a serious mood.

Stop joking around.

Stop joking around!

What?

It's just a joke.

Hey, let me go.

Hey, let me go!

I'm sorry.

What are you doing?

Your house isn't this place, right?

What are you doing here?

I'm asking why you're in Yamauchi's place?

Why is Sakura with this guy?

Our relationship...

is not like what you think.

Then what is it exactly?!

It's nothing.

Hey, wait! We're not done talking!

She seems...

to hate persistent people.

Her ex-boyfriend seems so.

What do you mean persistent?!

So it was you.

What are you doing?!

Sakura, why are you with the likes of him?

Don't ever...

come close to people I know!

I'll lend you my father's clothes so take a shower.

I'm alright.

More importantly...

I'm sorry...

About before...

Me too.

I'm sorry.

This got dirty.

Yeah.

So the class chairman was your ex-boyfriend.

I wonder if it's alright that I'm with you.

It's just like what he said.

I...

...just met you in the hospital by coincidence and just passed by you.

It would have been better

if someone else who thinks of you more seriously would be...

No.

That's not it.

It's not a coincidence.

We didn't just pass by each other.

We all chose it ourselves that's why we're here.

It's not a coincidence that both of us are in the same class too.

It's also not a coincidence that both of us met in the hospital that day.

It's not even fate.

The choices you made, and the choices I made,

made us meet.

We met

out of our own will.

Good morning.

Kyoko. You'll have your wedding ceremony soon.

Yes.

I'm sorry about this when you're busy.

Ah, no no. We make a living from our flowers.

I have to give my affection every day and take care of them.

Here.

Good morning.

'Morning.

Wait right there, you jinx!

I heard that Sakura is in the hospital because of appendicitis.

What?

Strange things happened to her when she started hanging out with you.

How come she would end up in a hospital when she's healthier than most?

Did you gave her a curse?

Hey, are you listening?

Anyway, there are no good things happening if you're around.

Never come close to her again.

Hey...

What? Geez. Tell me at least if you'll come.

My hair is even a mess!

It's not appendicitis, is it? Are you alright?

I'm alright. It's just an examination hospitalization.

There are only some few abnormalities in the readings.

I'll be discharged around 2 weeks.

That's good to hear.

Do you want notes from class?

The essence of the poem is to shape the emotion.

Like prayers and wishes.

That's why with one phrase,

you could arrange and lay them like you please.

Okay. Thank you.

You're welcome.

Become a teacher.

What?

Because you're good at teaching.

I like it best when I'm alone.

It doesn't fit me when I don't concern myself to others.

But I think I have a good eye on people.

Ah. I think Kyoko will come soon.

What?

It's okay. I want the two of you to get along too.

No, I'm not the prepared.

Hey, try it.

What about?

Practice having a friend.

"Practice"?

"Please be my friend." Now, say it.

No.

I won't let you leave if you don't say it.

Please be my friend.

Louder.

Please become my friend.

You should look in the eyes. There are no feelings.

Please be my friend.

It's not good at all.

That's enough already.

Besides, Kyoko will refuse anyway.

I'll be leaving.

Bye.

Okay.

Ah...

Why are you here?

Well...

Hey, Mr Get-Along-Well.

Where is my father's jersey and underwear you borrowed before?

W-what do you mean borrowed?!

What do you mean underwear?!

So the reason you became a teacher is because Ms Sakura said it.

It makes me laugh.

I was serious when I said it doesn't fit me.

It's been 6 years since I became a teacher. And it's been a year since I moved here.

I really wonder

if it was the right choice.

I still think about it when I go to school.

I wonder if I confront the students properly.

Please don't quit, Mr Shiga.

What?

Ah well... Because...

Ms Sakura will surely be sad.

[ Letter of Resignation ]

She

might be like that but she's more fragile than most.

Stop getting close to her with half-hearted feelings.

You really like her.

Of course.

I...

...didn't...

...have a friend when I was in middle school.

But...

Sakura was the only one who always talked and laughed with me.

If Sakura wasn't there, I would've been alone.

I'm sure even now...

I don't need any more friends than Sakura.

If...

If you hurt her,

I'll never forgive you.

Have you heard? He's like a stalker.

I heard he sneaked at Sakura's hospital bed.

I heard he even stole Sakura's underwear.

Stalker? Everyone's funny.

Hey, do you know why things became like that?

I'm the one who want to know.

That's probably because I'm with you.

That's not it.

That's because you don't talk to everyone.

What?

Because everyone doesn't know you. It's better if you talk to them.

I won't do something that useless.

Once you're gone, I'll just go back being alone.

I'll make everyone forget about me immediately.

You must not die like that.

If everyone knows you properly,

they will understand you.

Don't worry about what happens later.

I don't mind being loved or hated by people.

What is with that self-containment?

For example,

don't you want to know how I think of you?

What?

What do you think I think of you?

I dunno... Isn't it that we get along well?

Wrong.

Then what do you think of me?

I won't tell you.

What?

I think I will write the answer in the Disease Coexistence Journal.

What the hell?

It's alright if you read it after I die.

I'll give the privilege to read it only to you.

Promise me.

Okay.

Don't just say "okay".

I promise.

[ Disease Coexistence Journal ]

"Hiding my illness of my pancreas,"

"there are no findings how long my life expectancy is."

"The patient's disease condition will quietly and calmly break down..."

[ Sakura Yamauchi ]

Hello.

Hey, I'm going to sneak out of the hospital now.

Why don't we go on a trip?

No.

Because I don't want to be a murderer.

It's alright.

I promise that it would be "A dying girl sneaked out of the hospital."

"And died on the way".

Definitely no.

I wanted to see cherry blossoms in full bloom.

Cherry blossoms in full bloom?

What month do you think it is now? They probably would have withered...

I heard that cherry blossoms

pretended to wither and continue blooming.

Pretending to wither,

the truth is the next sprout is immediately sleeping.

They are not really withered.

They are just hiding to surprise everyone.

And when it's the warm season,

they blossom at once.

They say, "Surprise!"

Did something happen?

No way.

You came.

It was somehow strange.

So you found out.

The truth is, my confinement in the hospital was extended.

I see.

Hey.

With just one match,

will you play "Truth or Dare"?

It's better if you ask straight if you want to ask something.

That would take a lot of courage.

The truth is, everyone is a coward.

I will entrust it all with luck.

One, two...

During these times,

I thought that God would support the sick.

What will you do?

A match is a match.

Then...

Truth or dare?

Truth.

Regarding me, what do you think...

No.

What do you think

of being able to live?

What?

Wow. You're serious?

Hm...

It is the ability to communicate with someone at heart.

I guess.

To be recognized by someone.

To be liked.

To be hated.

To be together with someone

and hold hands with.

To be hugged.

Miss each other.

That's what it means "to live".

"I don't know what it means to be alive alone."

"That's right."

Even though liking them but hate them.

Even though happy, but actually depressed.

That ridiculousness

is the proof of "I am alive", I think.

That's why,

I am glad that I am here with you like this.

My everyday life you gave

is my treasure.

I've wanted to go on a trip again.

Why do you sound like there won't be a next time?

Do I sound like that?

You do.

Don't die, okay?

I will die.

Of course I will die. You too.

That's not what I mean.

If my pancreas worsen, of course I will die.

That's not it!

Don't die yet.

You're hiding something, didn't you? You're being obvious.

Your reaction was strange when I asked you if something happened.

Even if I'm like this...

Even if I'm like this, I'm worried about you.

Do you want me to live?

Very much.

I didn't thought that you need me that much.

Let's travel again once you get discharged.

Let's watch cherry blossoms in bloom together.

Okay.

That's why be sure

to be discharged.

Okay.

I wonder what Ms Sakura wanted to hear.

What?

In the truth or dare game.

I don't know.

I really don't know.

It ended

without me knowing.

They said I can be discharged tomorrow.

Discharged?!

Then let's go watch cherry blossoms tomorrow!

Found it.

A famous place where cherry blossoms bloom even if it's not spring.

What?

It seems like it is the best time to see cherry blossoms at Ezo during the first 10 days of June.

This mountain is something.

Hokkaido next after Kyushu, huh? Good work.

Thank you really. It's amazing you know this.

Because photography is my hobby.

What some gum?

Yeah.

What?

It's nothing.

- What is it?
- It's nothing, really.

Is it good?

It's delicious.

[ Hokkaido Superb Viewing Spot ]

1: Meet up at SweePara.

2: Go to Kushiro airport with a plane.

3: While riding the Kanasaki line, eat a crab meal.

I got discharged!

I went home and dressed up

so it took some time.

I am now going to the library

and return the books I borrowed during my stay in the hospital.

I might be a little late.

Congratulations on being discharged.

It seems like you don't mean it.

Praise me more.

But it doesn't come to mind.

Come on, do it.

You're the third cutest in class.

I told you.

Ah, I will feel sick again, you know.

You are strong. Brave.

You love to be alive. Love the world.

Love people. Love yourself.

You're really amazing.

If I have to confess,

I want to be like you.

A person who accepts people.

A person who people accept.

A person who loves people.

A person who people love.

Someone people can touch people's hearts,

that I can feel, "I am alive".

I wonder if I could be like you?

No.

It is not enough to put them into words.

The truth is...

[ I want to eat your pancreas ]

I didn't get a reply since then.

No matter how long I waited.

There might be a heavy rain tomorrow.

Now on our next news.

Today, at around 2PM, at the sidewalk of Kirioka,

a high school student who lives in the city, Ms Sakura Yamauchi,

was stabbed by an edged tool similar to a kitchen knife and died.

According to the investigation, she was lying down

when a man notified 119.

When the police rushed to the scene,

they found Ms Yamauchi who is shedding blood and laying in the ground.

She was transported to the hospital but she was soon confirmed dead.

She got caught in the random attacker incident

that has been troubling the public for a long time.

The culprit who nobody knows

was immediately caught.

I was naive.

With her little remaining life,

I was convinced

that she can completely do it.

I was a fool.

Nobody knows what will happen tomorrow.

That's why these passing day

one must cherish this moment.

That's what she taught me...

I needed one month

to prepare myself.

It's alright if you read it after I die.

I'll give the privilege to read it only to you.

Bid your farewell properly.

Thank you very much for coming today.

Um...

I have something to talk to you.

The truth is...

I knew about her illness.

I was actually afraid

and didn't have the courage to come.

But...

I have to see it no matter what.

The "Disease Coexistence Journal".

So it was you.

"If I die,"

"I want to give this diary to someone."

"He's the only one"

"who knows about the Disease Coexistence Journal", she said.

"Because he's a coward,"

"he might not come to the funeral."

"But I'm sure he'll definitely will come get this."

"That's why I want to give this to him.", she added.

April 12.

A certain someone came to know my secret.

I panicked.

But I pretended that I didn't mind.

And then he also made a normal face.

I was surprised! So surprised!

Is there someone like him?

The truth is, I was curious about him even before.

He was always reading a book.

It seemed like he's restraining and fighting himself.

I want to know more about him.

I became the same library committee member with the classmate who knows my secret.

The class numbering is a mess. Look carefully at the classification table.

To draw his attention, I purposely mistook the classification.

I made a list of things I want to do before I die.

I would like to have an overnight trip with a boy.

I want to eat delicious noodles.

I want to do something that I cannot do

with a boy who's not my boyfriend.

It was really a bad but good day.

I cried by myself a little.

I have always been crying these days.

The truth is, I was really afraid

of the two week examination hospitalization.

I was really afraid and it was unbearable.

Hey.

When I saw his face,

I was so relieved that I felt that I was about to cry.

I panicked and hid it to be misleading.

But I found something I could do after I was hospitalized.

Where is my father's jersey and underwear you borrowed before?

What underwear?!

The truth is, I'm trying to make a certain couple bump to each other.

I want them to get along

but I think it's somehow difficult.

I cannot eat.

My body feels heavy.

At the dead of night,

he sneaked into the hospital.

I gathered my courage

and challenged him with truth or dare,

but I lost.

Even though there is something I wanted to ask him no matter what.

When he left and I was all alone...

I cried.

I cried a whole lot.

I'm going to do my best that I would

live longer each day.

I cannot move today.

It's been days since I've ate.

I had permission to go out for a moment.

It seems like it's the "end".

I will travel again with him for the last time,

as we promised to watch cherry blossoms.

Together with Kyoko, I've wanted us three to travel together someday.

But I'm happy enough.

I could be together with him.

I'm already happy thinking like that.

Alright. I'm leaving the hospital temporarily!

I feel somehow energetic today.

I'm about to see you today.

Take care.

I'm off.

Have fun.

She really was...

I really thank you.

Because of you,

she was able to live the fullest.

Ma'am.

I understand that this is inaccurate...

But I'm sorry.

Is it alright if I cry?

Good morning, Mr Shiga.

'Morning.

Hey!

'Morning.

I will now prepare your change of clothes then.

Okay.

If you please.

It would have been perfect...

What?

Ah, that's the only one that's perfect.

After the 900 series, they're not properly organized.

Ah...

I see, sorry.

Because she was tasked to do that,

she abandoned it halfway.

Even if she did that...

Ah, which reminds me...

Which is it again?

Ah, it's this. This is scribbled with a graffiti.

Isn't it a pity for a book to be lost?

Will you usually classify not exceeding a decimal point?

The class numbering is a mess

953...

953...

Mr Shiga?

Treasure hunting.

What?

Isn't it alright to make small mistakes?

Doesn't it make you happier when you make an effort in finding it?

Something like treasure hunting.

Um, take me to the wedding ceremony at Godaizaka.

Yes, Sir.

That cherry blossom earring is lovely.

Yes. I borrowed it from my best friend.

Yo, Shiga.

You're late.

What?

I'm now going to meet Kyoko in her wedding gown.

My heart is thumping so greatly.

Will you also come?

Since I'm nervous, accompany me.

What?

Want some gum?

I will now be calling the groom then.

Okay.

Come in.

Ah...

Um, I've brought along Shiga.

Come on.

I'm sorry to barge in like this.

I didn't even answer

the invitation I received from you.

I understand it is inappropriate.

It's just that...

there's something I have to tell you no matter what.

I really must tell you about it.

Is this

from Sakura?

Kyoko.

This is my letter when I am dead.

I'm sorry for suddenly surprising you.

I've always kept it a secret from you but...

Because of my illness in my pancreas,

by the time you will receive this from him,

I would probably be in my grave.

Him? It's him.

He's the one you're always glaring, my Mr Get-Along-Well.

Kyoko, let me say this first:

I love you.

That's why I'm truly sorry that I kept

my illness from you.

But just believe in this.

I really loved you that's why I couldn't tell you.

I didn't had the courage to break

the time I am with you.

I really loved the times when I laughed,

get angry, say stupid things,

and cry with you.

Become happy, okay?

Get married with a lovely husband, and give birth to an adorable baby.

Make a happy family more than anybody else.

Thank you, Sakura.

PS:

Become friends with him, okay?

To the guy who you always glare, my Mr Get-Along-Well.

Please be my friend.

Louder.

Please be my friend.

You should look in the eyes. There are no feelings.

I'm sorry that I gave it to you this late.

Umm...

Will you be my friend?

Yes.

Are you alright?

What should I do?

Geez... Why at this time?

Geez..

Idiot.

Dear Haruki Shige.

You finally found this.

You're late! What took you so long!

Haruki.

Can I call you "Haruki"?

I've been wanting to call you that for a long time.

Ah.

Even though the time was short,

I was happy to be with you.

Thank you.

Maybe she wants to get along with you.

What?

That girl...

No, no. I don't know.

Morishita!

See you tomorrow.

See you tomorrow, Kuriyama!

During the time when we played truth or dare in the hospital,

I'm going to tell you what I wanted to hear.

That is

"Why don't you call me by my name?"

That's because you didn't even called me by my name even once.

It was always "You, you, you" from the start.

You're terrible.

But you know,

I realized this when you sneaked into the hospital:

Knowing that I will be gone someday,

not as a "friend" or "boyfriend",

I do not want to be someone special to you.

But I admired you for being like that.

Not being affected by anyone. Just living alone.

A strong Haruki.

Because I'm weak, I get my friends and family

involved with my grief.

But you know,

you are always by yourself.

You're really amazing, Haruki.

That's why please give

that courage to everyone.

Then be in love with someone,

hold her hand, and hug her.

Even though you're gloomy,

dull,

reach out to a lot of people.

For me.

Yes.

Live.

You know, I want to be like you.

I want to live being a part of you.

No.

I must not use such common words.

That's right.

You might hate this but...

Even so, I...

...want to eat your pancreas.

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