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Well, I want--

Ma, do you want a fork and spoon? Jevh, do you have one?

I'll use my hands… like a true Filipino.

Ma, do you want a fork and spoon?

- I got one. - I have spoon.

Oh, okay.

- What did you say? - Mag sarap.

It's not mag. Ma sarap.

Worldwide, this morning, growing concern

over a growing health crisis.

What the CDC has called an "inevitable" spread.

The World Health Organization

has just declared that this is a pandemic.

Stay at home.

That is the order tonight.

The city supports all essential workers

who are showing up every day.

Why do you keep calling this "the Chinese virus"?

- 'Cause a lot of people say it's racist. - 'Cause it comes from China.

It's not racist at all. No.

The shortage of N95 respirator face masks.

Pandemic has taken a major toll

on the restaurant industry.

For millions of American families,

plans are changing fast.

About to make a delivery in this sweet ride.

Look at this baby, love riding her around town.

I'm a delivery driver for Tso Delivery.

Wash my hands in between every delivery

that I come back for, I change gloves, everything.

See, this is my last shift before I go home tomorrow morning

for my graduation.

Damn it!

My birthday's coming up.

I'm turning 24 in quarantine.

Celebrating my birthday with my family.

I'm home!

- Hello! - Hello!

Kamu!

Pre-corona, I was always out and about.

My days were punctuated by an event or a meeting

in the evenings.

Yes!

I'm realizing that the last time I hung out with friends

was the last time I'd see them for X amount of months.

It's just so much at one time.

Or release it in different ways

and express it in different ways,

and that can be seen through like mood changes, crying.

Yay!

Many soon to be graduates left campus

without knowing it was their last day of in-person college.

UT announced last month that its signature commencement

will be live streamed, and graduates

can celebrate with family from home.

Packing, cap and gown.

That's all I have.

I don't know how many clothes I need to pack,

or what is even appropriate.

I wasn't gonna come home at first.

I was like, I don't care about my graduation, whatever,

but then I could tell my mom wanted me to go home.

You should come over actually,

and I can have my mom make all those Filipino dishes.

The ones with all the meat in them?

Vegan! We'll make 'em vegan!

- Are you sad? - Yes.

Are you emo?

- Bye. - Bye.

- Call me. - Yes.

You call me.

Love you.

- Love you. - Bye.

My dog, coffee, good to go.

♪ Dear Goddess, give me patience ♪

♪ Tired of trying to explain ♪

♪ I've got zero tolerance ♪

♪ When they fuck with my sacred space ♪

♪ Bar the trolls ♪

♪ You feel ♪

♪ So good to me ♪

♪ You make ♪

♪ Gucci ♪

♪ Might get me some Prada ♪

♪ When you that bitch ♪

♪ They never say nada ♪

♪ I'm number one ♪

♪ New pumas, I got 'em ♪

♪ I got 'em ♪

♪ Lock it up, lock it up ♪

There are a lot of Trump 2020 signs

and Blue Lives Matter signs around the neighborhood.

Ha.

♪ Once upon a time I made myself number one ♪

♪ Now I'm roasting under blazing sun ♪

♪ Riding shotgun ♪

Okay, got my face mask on.

Let's see. Okay.

Come on, Luna.

- Hey, oh! - Hi.

- Hi. - Luna, say hi.

Hi, Mom.

- Hi, baby. - How are you?

- Okay. - Yeah.

Hi!

I can't hug you.

Don't touch me.

These are my parents.

- Congratulations. - Thank you.

Do you have the other stuff that UT sent?

Yeah, it's there on the table.

- The coffee table. - The coffee table?

Let's see.

Ah, yes.

Thanks, UT.

This makes up for everything.

- Hello! - Hello.

Hi.

- Hi, grad. - Hi.

Nice mask.

Matching.

Can you get pretty

and let's take your picture with your stuff later?

I was gonna wear my cap and gown over my swimsuit.

No, wear a nice, something nice.

Update, my sister made me put on makeup and do my hair

- and wear real clothes. - Lauren, put your shoes on!

- They're Birks! - No.

Dad, you can get in there too.

They caught us!

- They caught us! - Oh no!

What is this?

- Congrats, Lauren! - Happy graduation!

Thanks.

You called the cops!

You called the narcs on me!

You're a narc!

- Go! - What do I do?

It's for you, you have to go say hi!

Do I have to say hi to all the cops?

- Wave! - Yeah!

- Hannah brought you wine. - Happy birthday yesterday!

I forgot to tell you!

- Thank you! - Happy graduation!

- Thank you. - Woo!

- Hi. - Lauren!

Love you!

Use your hands!

- How did you call the cops? - We called the cops.

How did you call the police?

Why did you call the police?

- To make it a good parade. - Oh.

My tita's giving everyone mamon who participated in this.

- Thanks for having us! - Yes.

♪ Da, da, da, dun Da, da, da, dun ♪

My mom has eight siblings in Bedford.

So I grew up with like all my cousins and aunts and uncles.

My mom seems to think that social distancing

doesn't apply to family.

My family grew up having family dinners

every Friday night and, like,

my friends growing up were my cousins.

What do you see?

- Describe things. - I see some pasta.

- It's my favorite. - Steaks and noodles

and surprisingly no Filipino food.

- No Filipino food. - Except leche flan.

Mm!

It's my great honor to stand before you today

and welcome you to our 2020 spring commencement ceremony.

Please stand and appreciate this moment.

I might need another one actually.

Are you faking it?

Thank you, Dr. Isenberg.

Congratulations.

♪ Congratulations ♪

♪ Oh, yeah, yeah ♪

And I would like to conclude this message with a…

- What's this, Tita Ning? - Pancit Malabon, my child.

Pancit Malabon.

Did you make it?

- I sure did. - Ooh.

- I'm filming already. - Oh, you are?

I just started filming.

What's the first thing you're gonna do

when all this is over?

Hug you.

Go shopping.

I'm going to the beauty salon, like, you know, mani, pedi.

Massage!

I'm gonna get a massage too.

Yes.

- Massage. - Get a facial.

Ooh.

You're gonna treat yourself.

Yes.

I'm gonna pamper myself.

You know there's gonna be some--

mental effect of people getting in isolation

for a long period of time and not being able

to express their love to their loved ones.

So when you were younger,

did any of you have any like anxiety or fears or--

- Oh, yeah. - We probably, but we don't--

We probably did but we--

We didn't linger on--

We didn't recognize that or, you know,

it's really the culture is, you know, you just grin

and bear it, you know?

- Just repress it. - You don't focus on it.

It's kind of--

It's kind of like just part of living.

Yeah, it's part life.

You just don't really focus on it.

What does "bahala na" mean?

"Bahala na" is what will be, will be.

- Yeah. - Yeah.

Like the COVID thing.

We know it's something--

It's not something you can control so you don't really--

You don't dwell on it.

You don't dwell on it 'cause you can't control it.

- Yeah. - You know, in the Philippines

there's really not much mental health issues there because--

In our generation.

Extended family kind of set up where people

don't really feel isolated

because they're around family most of the time.

So what advice would you give for those of us

that are struggling with mental health issues?

Deal with it.

No, I'm just kidding.

And we're gonna wrap it up.

Exactly what we thought.

I remember being in junior high, I found this book for one

of my school readings and it was about this girl who had,

like, anger issues, had a lot of struggles,

and the solution at the end, like conclusion, she,

like, went to therapy, took up kick boxing

as an outlet and stuff.

And I remember reading this and going to my mom, being like,

"I wanna go to therapy."

And she's like, "No, you don't need it."

And then that was, like, the end of our conversation.

And so, like, that didn't get brought up again until college.

Finally told them, I was like, "Y'all, I'm depressed.

I don't wanna be alive sometimes,

like this is something that I've dealt

with my whole life but I just deal with it, you know?"

I mean, I told my mom that and she gave me a rosary

and she told me that I need to pray more

and to stop watching movies and listening to music that makes me sad.

And I was like, "Okay, Mom, thanks."

And it was like, so I was like, "Okay, don't go to you,

I'll just go to the UT Mental Health Center.

It's fine. You tried."

The way that our family communicates

is not necessarily, it's not great.

In the Philippines, the parents, you know,

it's the parents' words.

Right? You don't answer back.

You don't--

Yeah, what they say, they say.

- You don't scream-- - You don't shout.

Yeah.

So, it's also something new for us when you--

- Answer back. - Talk back.

When you disrespect. Now…

You know, it's for us like you're disrespecting us.

We never did that to our parents.

We never did.

So it's really, you know…

It hurts.

…it's something new for us as well.

So you have to think about that too.

And it's not that we don't want to understand you or--

Or imposing our will on you.

Yeah, or you think we don't accept criticism,

it's how you present it to us.

You know, it's always the titas and then the cousins

and every now and then, it would be nice

- to just have like a-- - Yeah,

just an open conversation.

I wanna say something.

I got laid off from work yesterday.

You did?

- Oh. - Yes.

I didn't wanna say anything

because I didn't wanna ruin the celebration but--

Aw!

- Yeah. - How do you feel?

It's another casualty of COVID.

- Sorry, Mom. - Sorry.

- It's alright. - We love you.

Yeah, I think we're all lucky that we have this family

because we are there for each other

and you can feel the love.

Aw! Virtual hug!

Guys, you're gonna make me cry.

Stop!

Virtual hug!

♪ Can you feel the love tonight ♪

Thank you for letting me interview you.

Also, I'm bisexual and I have a girlfriend.

Go for it!

That wasn't as funny as I thought it would be.

Also, I'm on the honor roll at UT.

Yay!

Lauren!

Before I came home this whole time I

was kind of disapproving of my family

still getting together with each other and like hanging out and socializing

even through this whole pandemic and I'm like,

"We're smarter than this, we should be more responsible,"

but hearing their answers, I finally understand,

like, their reasoning behind it.

We actually communicated for once, like, as a family

and I think it really made our bonds a lot stronger.

Being there with my family to cheer me on, I think,

it was definitely more people were there

than who would've actually attended

my graduation ceremony if it was still going on in person.

Very thankful.

Let's eat.

In Minneapolis tonight, tensions are high as four police officers

have been fired after a man was pinned to the ground and died.

The incident was caught on camera.

The man, identified as George Floyd,

was later pronounced dead at the hospital.

Over the last several days,

we have seen peaceful demonstrations.

Protest over police brutality continued here in Austin.

These protestors are calling for change

and justice after the police killings of George Floyd

in Minneapolis, Michael Ramos, here in Austin,

and many others across the country.

I've been wanting to talk to some like specific people about it,

but I realized the amount of people

that I feel like I should have a conversation with was a lot.

It's such a taboo subject for Filipinos of our generation

and of the older generation and especially for our parents' generation.

In order for a subject to not be taboo in our community,

there always has to be like someone to start that conversation.

Yeah.

I think the norm for, like, our community

- so far has to just-- - Neutral.

Has been to just, like, stay silent and like keep

to your own business about, like, political ideas.

Especially if it's, like, controversial.

And you know, other Filipinos are like so silent about this

as if it doesn't affect them, but it does.

- Hey, ate. - Oh my god, she's so skinny.

- Did you see her eyelashes? - What?

Really?

- Yeah. - Oh my god.

Her bangs are gone.

- Did you eat yet? - No, I was about to eat.

Okay, it's already ten o'clock.

- I know. - Oh, Daddy's here.

Come on Daddy.

Hey.

- Hello. - Hi.

What is that shirt?

Huh?

- What is that shirt? - Oh, Shenanigans shirt.

Okay.

Monica, what are you doing today?

- What do you mean? - Are you home?

- Mm-hmm. - Yeah.

So what's going on?

George Floyd from Minneapolis.

That's so sad.

Yeah.

That's really sad.

Yeah.

But I think in that state--

Murder on video.

In that state, actually, it's always been a big news

about policemen and Black people.

But that sounded like they killed him right

- in front of video. - The video.

That's so sad.

Yeah.

And they did not even have one single remorse.

Yeah.

Did you even see George Floyd, what he was doing?

He was begging.

Yes. I don't wanna, I don't--

So, I mean, that is so sad nobody even did anything.

That's why all the, now they're having all the protests now.

Well, the protest doesn't even have anything to do with it.

They just wanna loot.

Which is wrong, but I don't think everyone is doing that.

I'm sure not everyone is doing that,

and the ones doing that,

they don't even care about what just happened to George Floyd.

Right.

So I was telling Mom earlier that I was interested

in going to a peaceful protest tomorrow, but--

Do a peaceful protest at home.

Just, you know, gather all your friends and tell them,

"Let's go pray online."

Be safe, you know.

Just pray for that man and the best thing is not to go.

Yeah.

Guess where we're going?

Do you need help with that, Mom?

We're at the police department because my mom wants

to drop off these gifts.

Two days after George Floyd was murdered,

my mom made us go to the Bedford Police Department

to give out snacks and, like, thank you letters to them.

I really was conflicted about going, like,

I didn't want to go just because I had this one interaction,

this good interaction with the police doesn't mean

that they're not part, like, they are still part

of this system that is built on oppression.

I could be definitely be doing more

than I'm doing right now and I know that others can as well.

So we're about to go to the protest

that's being hosted by the Austin Justice Coalition.

- Justice and Peace! - Justice and Peace!

- Justice and Peace! - Justice and Peace!

I wanted to ask, like, if you feel any different

about the movement, you know?

To be honest, I really stopped watching the news, Monica.

So I think it's, everybody's lives actually matters.

Yeah, they do.

I think they wanna focus on Black lives because

of how much injustice there's been.

Like, it's there's way too many Black people who have been,

like, killed over nothing.

They're just putting attention

on them specifically right now

because they need it the most right now.

Right.

Everybody has their different perceptions

about when people are saying about All Lives Matter,

I guess, it's how they actually perceive it.

So maybe it's because they really don't feel it,

that they're included in it.

Maybe that's the reason why they have to voice it out

or make sure that people know that they're out there.

If Filipinos were the ones that were enslaved and,

like, after hundreds of years, like, nothing has changed

or like not much has changed and we are also still getting,

you know, we're being discriminated against even

- to this day… - Right.

…I feel like we would also be that angry, wouldn't we, right?

Mm-hmm. Of course.

But then I believe the Philippine culture

is a little different because I think most of us,

by nature I guess, we're kind of, like,

docile or submissive to most things, you know?

Oh, why? Wait, what do you mean?

I believe they just follow whatever is being told.

What's being asked of them.

Instead of them fighting, they stay quiet.

I'm wearing this shirt 'cause I feel like it's appropriate.

I've also asked her to pray for all the Black lives

that were wrongfully taken.

I sent her a list of Black lives that I guess we know of

that have been wrongfully taken.

I asked her to say the names out loud

whenever she's praying the rosary and she says that she has.

And I know a lot of people don't believe

that prayer does anything, but my mom is a devout Catholic,

so if she believes in the power of prayer,

then I'm trying to relate to her in her field.

- Blacks Lives Matter! - Blacks Lives Matter!

Blacks Lives Matter!

I went to a protest again.

Being there versus seeing it on social media

is very different.

I saw a lot of different people there and it's comforting

to know that they all believe in the same thing.

♪ Shouting revolution ♪

♪ Breaking these traditions ♪

♪ Constant evolution ♪

♪ Shifting of positions ♪

♪ Not asking for permissions ♪

♪ Firm in this wisdom ♪

♪ Foothold in the galaxy ♪

♪ Challenging these systems ♪

♪ Shouting revolution ♪

♪ While breaking these traditions ♪

♪ Constant evolution ♪

♪ Is a shifting of positions ♪

♪ What is a witch ♪

♪ Cast a spell on 'em ♪

♪ Journey through the glitch ♪

♪ Tick tock magic carpet ♪

♪ Floating through time ♪

♪ Magnify the Matrix ♪

♪ Balance for the levels ♪

♪ She devil, she angel, she omni, he, she, they ♪

♪ How you look at it ♪

♪ How you, how you look at it ♪

♪ Eyes wise forest mind ♪

♪ Elder is a child on the front line ♪

♪ Lines traced, two faced duality ♪

Max.

Hello.

Hi, Carlo!

Hey, Jenah!

So unlike me, you've been able

to actually go out and go to the protests.

Did it like fuel something in you?

It did and was really inspiring.

Like, this protest was organized by high school students or like--

Wow.

They graduated, so for them to have that strength

and have that like drive to, like,

fight against this injustice was just really powerful

and just made me like want to do more

and just be more attentive to what's going on

in the world and what's going on in the country.

I could donate, I could sign these petitions, but,

like, how much is it really helping like--

Day to day?

- Yeah. - Yeah.

With trying to be mindful about COVID,

it just felt very helpless, being in my room trying

to do something.

I, like, and that's where I'm at pretty much because

on a normal day we'd be able to, you know, go volunteering at least, like actually go

to meetings that were usually held just

for the Black community so that way we can show

that we're actually in support.

Like, how do we show up as a unified force?

Carlo is one of the founding team members of UniPro.

UniPro is short for Pilipino American Unity for Progress Inc.

It is a non profit that

engages Filipino-American youth into advocacy.

I was one of the founding members.

My mother is a nurse.

She was the one to really influence my decision

to go into nursing and it ended up

being the hardest thing that I'll ever do.

I felt like part of me resented my mother

when I had become a nurse.

I listened to everyone else but myself.

I was an ICU nurse for two years

and then Hurricane Harvey came in, flooded my hospital,

and I took it as a wake up call.

I felt like UniPro provided me that rock of support

and another outlet for me to feel

like I'm still doing something and helping people

even when I'm not a nurse.

The team themselves have become, like,

lifelong friends for me.

Once UniPro Texas grew in terms of, like, us doing events

or just like making connections with other communities,

it definitely grew into something, like,

caring about more than just the Filipino community.

Mm-hmm.

Thinking about other minority groups and thinking

of like how else we could, like, be an ally, like you said.

I hadn't been able to go to the protests,

but because George Floyd's funeral was pretty much

in my neighborhood, I was able to go.

- George Floyd. - George Floyd.

That moment that I saw the casket pass by me,

I'm laying my eyes on what people will put in books,

people will write about this moment and, like,

I'm here and feeling the community around him.

Whole families were out there.

All these people that we'd never met

and never will meet because of what had happened to them.

It's just too much.

It's too much injustice.

Protests across this country demanding change

after the death of George Floyd.

Massive crowds gathering again, demanding justice.

Yet as we've seen time and again what began

as peaceful protesting ended up

in a very counterproductive and even criminal place.

Hands up, don't shoot!

Suddenly, the message of "justice for all"

is not only lost, it's obliterated.

Which is going to get more attention?

A group of 35 people standing, chanting names,

singing songs, doing the Cupid Shuffle

as I saw one group of protestors doing,

or five people on the ground bleeding and screaming

and crying and throwing rocks?

Our press is driven by eyeballs and attention and clicks

and advertising and passion

and raising the anxiety of viewers.

It's a platform.

For what?

It's politics.

You don't believe in the Black Lives Matter movement?

It's just a propaganda.

The media, they're so good as isolating news.

They pay more attention to what they want

to pay attention to.

A lot of younger people, they're very emotional.

They respond to their intuitions right away,

not like older people, you know?

I hear news, I go like, "Wait a minute.

How?"

You ask the questions why, how, when, where,

you don't react right away, like, you know?

Mm-hmm.

Remember when you started going to college,

you came home a liberal.

Dad, please!

That's what they do to you guys in school.

- Who? - Yes.

Yes, it is true.

- Okay. - That's how they brainwash people.

I'm not brainwashed.

I mean, I'm--

Well, actually they made you feel comfortable

about what they're saying to you.

Eh!

I do intend to convince my dad and my mom

to understand my side and hopefully support my side

of things, but that's a long game that I'm playing, so.

My family's actually coming up tomorrow

to visit me and we're gonna go on a road trip.

Where is it?

I see a lot of people who

just kind of cut off friends and family who don't agree

with the Black Lives Matter movement, and I don't think I can do that.

- One, two, three! - Pepper!

I love my parents.

♪ All that we share What are hope and despair ♪

What is it?

Lola, what is it?

Dragon fruit.

- Dragon fruit. - Does it taste good?

How does it taste, Lola?

Dragon fruit.

How does it taste?

Fruit!

Please.

How does it taste, Lola?

How does it taste? She asked, Auntie.

Dragon fruit.

Lola!

- Wow. - Wow, I got a point.

Okay. I got toenail clipper.

Toenail clipper. Mom, that's what you drew?

- I mean, that-- - C'mon, it's not bad.

That's a big nail!

That's supposed to be a nail?

No, it's a toe.

You should have drew the whole toe.

There's a window.

- A window? - What?

- President. - I can't see.

Look what I draw.

- President. - Did you draw that?

"Let's make America great again."

Racist man.

Monica!

Overnight, the president

making his position clear, writing, "Any difficulty

and we will assume control but, when the looting starts, the shooting starts."

Everybody back up!

One person shot and killed

at a Black Lives Matter protest in Austin, Texas.

Clashes erupting across the country.

A couple days ago they sent this picture to our family group chat.

In our front yard.

Purely the message.

I stand by it, but the underlying, you know,

from afar that looks like a Donald Trump sign.

Trying to think about how to do my part.

So one of the things that I've been trying to do is trying

to make multiple videos directed at friends

and family who might not really be convinced.

Okay, I'm recording.

Why does it seem like as soon as I press record,

it started lagging a little bit?

Hi, I'm Davidson Corona.

I survived COVID.

George Floyd's death, Breonna Taylor's death,

and everything happening within the Black community

and the larger America, I was just like,

"Well, there goes my ambition."

What are your hopes for this upcoming election?

That people come together and reject the kind of angry divisiveness

that we've seen from this president in his administration.

Err.

Three.

Four.

And we wait.

I haven't been out this entire week as you have seen.

Surprise, surprise.

Negative.

We're already late.

Like classic Filipino time.

Hello.

We're on our way to my parents' house for dinner.

Hi!

- Hi. - Hi, Jevh.

What are you excited about today?

The food.

Sometimes anger rips at me the same way it did my father.

My tongue can seep venom like his.

Sometimes anger rips at me, boiling beneath my stomach

and seething at my temples, making me grind my teeth closer to dust.

And I remember the dust on my dad's fist, the only time he's punched a wall.

And I remember that I am, but I'm also not,

the blood in that fist, the bones in that hand.

But then I remember, my rage is not always bad

and there is still tenderness in the same man who embodies it.

I've learned my rage becomes love, becomes a shift

in the tide, no longer something white hot but stronger and deeper in pull.

I am angry for injustice

because I love harder than the frustration.

I unclench my jaw to speak.

Sometimes love grips me the same way it does my father.

Wow! What are you gonna make?

- Ginataang kingfish. - That sounds really good.

I actually love Ginataan anything.

First, prepare your ingredient before you start cooking.

I know you have concerns since I left nursing.

Is part of it my activism?

Not totally, I don't like activists,

but it's more dangerous to your life.

Mm-hmm.

Your priority is your future, not the problem

of whole world, you know?

The reason that I want to do it is because

that is part of my future.

If nothing changes, how can I live with that?

Mm.

It's the best way you can do, just pray.

What if someone is called from God

to be an activist or to help in that way?

No, God is not saying that you are against any…

I don't know, I have no, I can't answer that question.

- The government is-- - Is manmade.

Yeah, it's manmade and everybody's made--

So only man can change it.

That's what I'm feeling.

- What's it look like? - Look.

So delicious.

Hundreds of thousands

of Texans getting out early to do their civic duty.

With just over 20 days until the election,

check out the long lines we saw outside polling places

in Travis County on the first day of early voting.

Woo!

I am releasing these videos.

I'm about to put it on Facebook and I'm really scared.

I'm pretty sure a lot of people who are voting for Trump

in that community, at least the people I know,

are voting for him because of abortion

and they are very pro-life and just pro-life

is like the priority.

Hopefully hearing a personal account from people

who have been directly affected by this man

will make people think twice in the last few days

before election day.

My family being from Iran was affected by the Muslim or travel ban.

In the fall of 2015, I was taking--

I just didn't lose my dad, I lost my grandma

as well to COVID.

Tons and tons of people.

And it's usually the poor and it's usually immigrants

that get it worse.

I can't deal with four more years of the encouragement of racism.

In the next four years, it is very possible

that Trump could figure out a way to make the lives

of international students more uncomfortable.

Something I'm waiting on--

Since President Trump took office,

he's worked really hard to make life harder for trans people.

First by banning trans people from--

It's important to do something if you can.

If you can vote, vote.

Ah.

So yeah, there's all of that.

There is news tonight about the growing incidents of racist

and often violent attacks against Asian Americans.

The people who still want to say Asians aren't oppressed

or experiencing racism,

then how do you explain 2,120 hate incidents

against Asian Americans reported during the coronavirus?

And if you don't--

Get the fuck out of this world!

Get the fuck out of this state!

Go back to whatever fucking Asian country you belong in.

- Okay, racist. - Little fucking bitch.

Why is it that when it comes to Asian hate,

it's not talked about as much as it should be?

I'm kind of conflicted and, like,

maybe I should move home and be here with them.

I'm sorry, you need to leave.

- Yeah, you need to leave. - That is not appropriate.

- Trump's gonna fuck you. - You need to leave now.

You fucking, you fuckers.

- What's wrong with him? - You need to leave now.

You fucking Asian piece of shit.

- Oh my God! - Right now.

Get out of here.

We told you that it was not a joke and to not brush it off

when Donald Trump started calling it

"the Chinese virus" instead of referring

to it by its scientific name.

- They are valued guests. - Your joke resulted

in hate against us.

I don't know. That's on my mind.

This man, like two, three feet away took his mask off

and spat on her face.

And said, "Go back to China, you don't belong here."

And took off.

In San Antonio, an Asian restaurant was graffiti'd.

In Midland, an Asian-American family was stabbed at a Sam's Club.

The suspect thought the family was Chinese,

infecting people with coronavirus.

We know they're happening in Texas

and they're vastly underreported.

- What time it is? - Eleven p.m., Lola.

- Huh? - Eleven p.m.

So that is a video of my lola who lives in the Philippines

and she's 95 years old, still going strong.

When I saw that Filipino woman who had gotten attacked

in New York for literally doing nothing,

obviously I thought of her.

I cannot even fathom that happening to her.

And that woman was somebody's lola.

Let's keep talking about it.

Keep bringing awareness and don't be a bystander

if you see something.

Here's some homemade ube ice cream that I'm--

I'm so jealous.

Why do you show me this and I can't have none of it?

Rachel is one of my best friends.

- Hello. - Hello.

Hi.

Hold on. Why you keep zooming?

Why do you keep zooming?

I have known her for almost a decade.

We had met each other through PhilSa

and that's the Philippine Student Association at Texas A&M.

She has pretty much been with me through nursing school

and through all of the life changes

that I've been going through since then.

I felt like in PhilSa, y'all all had like mamas

on some other stuff too.

And y'all was scared of y'all mamas too.

When you realized that we also have

to go through microaggressions.

Oh! That was so liberating.

And such a relief because listen, y'all all so angry.

When I say y'all are so angry, like Black folks,

like we're angry, right?

But like, we've been living with our anger for so long.

It's a bedfellow.

Y'all were coming to terms with y'all's hundreds

of years of whatever the F was done to y'all and it was new.

Because it's still happening.

In PhilSa, we still didn't tie in our culture

to like our day to day.

That just wasn't,

it was like kind of a compartmentalized learning.

Seeing how much you identify with your community,

you know, you inspire me.

Made me feel like I could do more.

It is the night before election day.

I've been pretty stressed out for the past couple of weeks.

My parents and the entire Filipino community back home

is very aware of my stance.

We've all spent most of our lives together not having

to face conflict between each other.

I wish we had learned conflict resolution rather than avoidance.

- Mmm. - Did Dad leave?

- Mm-hm. - He left?

Yes.

Oh my gosh.

No, he didn't want anything about politics.

Oh my gosh.

Are you nervous or anything?

To me, you can just vote

to whoever you think gonna be the best leader

for the country but of course everybody has their own opinion about it.

So a lot of praying tonight, Monica, that's gonna be prayers

for our country, you know?

You're gonna pray a lot?

Everybody has to pray a lot.

Mm-hmm.

I mean, it's gonna be very difficult I guess for,

because they both have very different platforms

so I'm just really hoping for the best.

You know?

For the best of the country.

Mm-hmm.

Okay, Mom? Yeah.

- Pray for-- - You pray.

- Okay. - I pray everyday.

- You also have to pray, you know? - I know.

I do.

I mean, it's not only my country, your country too.

Yeah.

The great count is underway across the country right now.

You can imagine over 100 million mail ballots

and early votes this year, it is a tall order.

Well, it's 8:15 right now and I just checked, Biden is up.

Still waiting on Pennsylvania, North Carolina, Georgia.

I'm really nervous.

I don't want another four years of this man.

Texas was blue earlier and now it's not.

We will win this and as far as I'm concerned,

we already have won it.

So my dad just like kept avoiding me.

Think I scared him off and he sent me this picture.

That is him, but that is not actually his body,

that is his head on someone else's body.

And it says "Jesus 2020, vote for love, respect, and kindness."

November 5th and they're still counting the votes.

So I'm about to go to sleep.

A lot of the battleground states are leaning towards red

and I'm really scared I'm gonna wake up to bad news

if we're even gonna have a decision in the morning at all.

So, yeah.

Okay, good night.

Joe Biden takes the lead in Pennsylvania, a major, major development.

Right now, he is ahead by 5,587 votes.

Pennsylvania and Georgia are blue now!

So it's Saturday morning and I just checked the election updates.

Joe Biden has 284 electoral votes, which means he won.

Yes?

Did you talk to Dad already about it or no?

- No, he's playing golf. - Uh-oh.

I guess no riots here.

No protests.

I hope not.

I'm scared that there might be.

Okay.

- I'm gonna eat now. - Okay.

- Bye-bye. - Bye.

Enjoy your celebration.

Bye-bye.

- Bye. - Take care.

Okay, you too.

Bye.

Ah.

- Is that better? - Oh.

I'm reclining. I wonder how far this goes.

Oh my God.

The number of COVID-19 cases is rising.

Hanging our clothes like true Filipinos.

There's a squirrel.

I know plenty of Asian Americans

who feel very unsafe today, including my parents

who live in California.

They have been in their homes for a year because of fear

of getting COVID.

Now there's hope for a vaccine and they're afraid

of going outside because of the huge number

of attacks on Asian American and specifically the elderly.

Many incidents across the country now being reported.

It's a fog of terror quite honestly,

of when people walk out the door, they don't know

if they're gonna get attacked and from where they're gonna get attacked.

If you hear these stories, they're in grocery stores.

They are people walking on the street.

They are people living their daily lives.

Slow down.

Because of various cultural reasons

there's reluctancy to speak out, to be stoic,

to not try to cause trouble.

It feels like if people don't do anything

that they're agreeing with it.

Best memories you have of me.

How talkative you were when you were little.

- Mm-hmm. - And how stubborn.

Until now.

- Stubborn. - That's what I'm saying.

With my community work and seeing me go through this stage

of life, did you ever think I would do something like this?

Did you ever think that I would--

No.

- Does it feel sudden to you? - Yeah.

Is it because of your friends?

Or it's just, I don't know.

When Black Lives Matter happened back in 2015,

I think it was Eric Garner.

I started to wonder what are the things happening

in the government that makes this type

of hate crime happen all the time.

Then it made me wonder about our history as Filipinos

in America and how we've been treated.

Like as an immigrant in the ladder of what America is,

where do you feel like you are?

We still feel a little bit… uh…

What do you call that?

…discriminated.

- I can't breathe! - I can't breathe!

It's been almost six years

since Eric Garner said

that now infamous phrase "I can't breathe"

when he was placed in an illegal choke hold

by an NYPD officer while in police custody.

Is the wind blowing?

I can't breathe!

I can't breathe!

- Louder! - I can't breathe!

Is the wind blowing?

When Eric Garner, when the Black Lives Matter

- first popped up and-- - Yeah.

Already graduated nursing school or was about to graduate.

And I just felt an immense sense of helplessness,

not just like in what I can do for the movement,

but also in my own identity and my own life.

And I think, like, it really was a catalyst for me.

Like, that was my stepping stone because I didn't want

to be walking alongside y'all as a Black community

and not realize what it is that my struggles are.

- Yeah. - And where that--

Because then you don't know where the intersection is.

- Yeah. - You don't know how

we can walk together

if you don't know, like, where you walking from.

It wasn't until I was, like, in nursing,

like I was already working.

I felt complacent in where I was.

Yes, you did, and I was frustrated for you

and like I was, I was very frustrated.

I was very frustrated because I knew you weren't happy.

You, for some reason, had dedicated yourself

to living a life that was already lived.

What does that mean?

You know, like when you decided to actually go through

with nursing?

Yeah.

Like, that life had already been lived,

your mom had already lived that life.

You know, plenty of young Filipino women

who had already lived that life

or were currently living that life.

And this is the same way I look at my own life

and how it adds to the texture, adds to the fabric,

adds to the stories of my community, of my people.

Not that it's taking away anything if I do do that,

there's nothing wrong with that at all.

And it's also a question of, like, what are your gifts?

What are your gifts?

Like, are your gifts better served, like, in this capacity?

Yeah.

Or like how can you best serve your community?

Psalms 8:5.

Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.

Where is the mother?

You're telling me my mother

is not the reflection of God itself?

Since I was young, she taught me

how to pray not in memorization with Hail Mary's

and Our Father's, but in conversation.

From seventh grade to high school, I stopped going to church,

but I found God on my own again

in my navy scrubs and white shoes as a way to cope

with the appointments with death whom I saw on most days.

I started needing Ma again.

Having been a nurse helped me see my mother in a whole new light.

The struggles of an immigrant,

the struggles of someone who's raising us and working full-time.

I have a whole new found respect for my mother.

Nursing checked off all of the boxes

that I thought I would have for my life,

but it just was missing something

that made it fulfilling for me.

Yeah, being vocal.

I'm going more into activism as well.

However, I know also I trust you.

Me and my siblings we're all just like quiet.

- Mm-hmm. - Just say yes to our parents

because that's how the culture is.

But when I came here in America, I understand now

and I'm so happy that you guys can be able

to vent out whatever in your feeling.

- Like when Jevh talks back. - Mm-hmm.

I want it, I want that--

You appreciated it even if it hurt.

It hurts sometimes but it's better that way.

What, you’re just going to let life beat you?

- Yeah. - You can be able to face your problem

or any struggle in life, whether it's because

of the other people or circumstance,

at least I know that you can stand up.

That's the thing I'm so happy about.

They're trying to support me in ways

that are new to them,

like showing up to these events, listening

to my poetry for the first time,

seeing how much I have built a community around me,

and I think that that's all they wanted for me,

that I don't feel lost anymore and that I am able

to move with purpose.

Some tragic news, the deadly shootings

in Atlanta, killing at least eight people.

The accused killer in Georgia told police he shot up three Asian spas

last night because of a quote, "sex addiction."

Six of the eight victims were Asian women.

To me, this is a hate crime,

but I think it's also a crime of misogyny.

An advocacy group reporting

at least 3,800 anti-Asian hate incidents since last March.

A sense of fear and mourning in Houston's Asian communities.

This, after last night's shooting rampage in Georgia.

I mean, the truth is is that you've been screwed over

by the same people I have.

It's true. It's--

I mean, it's a different story but the story's parallel.

I feel helpless, again, but in a different way.

Socioeconomically, I'm still not in a place

where I can, like, actually help yet.

Child, me too.

And that's also bothering me because

like first time around, I was socioeconomically able

to help but not have anything, like, to back it up.

And now it's the other way around and it's frustrating,

like, I wanna have both!

I wanna--

But Jenah, you do though.

You may not have been loud about certain issues,

but you were loud in general about injustice done to anybody.

You never put up with that.

You don't take that.

You rebuke it.

You know?

And the way that you treat my Black body--

Oh, you're gonna make me cry.

I'm serious though.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

The way that you've treated my Black body with care,

with compassion and also hold me accountable,

you know, just as a human being, that is what you do.

You speak up for me when I can't speak up for myself.

And I've seen you do that for other people.

You don't have to have a lot of money to contribute

to this movement.

You don't have to have those resources.

You are the resource.

And when people recognize that they themselves

are the resource, that they are the solution

to the problems that we all have,

that that is something they can contribute

and add instead of taking from it and seeing every person,

every ounce of diversity as an addition,

that's gonna be a huge radical change.

So we're on our way to the rally/vigil

for the Atlanta shooting, and I am riding with Steven.

- Say hi. - Hey, y'all.

Nervous because this is the first time

in a while we'll be around a lot of people.

I mean, as safely as we possibly can.

- Mm-hmm. - But excited

because it's good to see so many people

come together for this.

…for all the cells in your body to be replaced.

Who were we seven years ago?

Who are we now?

Who do we become in seven years?

Seven women, six of Asian descent, each victim

had loved ones, a career, a life.

You know those people.

I know those people who were murdered.

It is incumbent upon us to stand with people

who we demand, rock with us when we are gunned down

by the police, when we face white supremacy.

The official line in the aftermath

of the shooting was that it was about sex and not race.

He visited a massage parlor

that predominantly Asian people work at!

That is a hate crime!

Hi. Good evening, everyone.

My name is Jenah Maravilla.

For the greater part of five years

I have been a community organizer, and this has been one

of the largest events that I have the honor to speak at.

My heart has been heavy this whole week

carrying this tragedy and I know it is the same

for all of you.

If everyone who has a candle, please raise it.

And everyone who has a sign, please raise your signs.

This is a symbol of our voices.

If you look at your neighbors around you,

you will see who stands with you, who stands for you.

I stand with you and I stand for you.

Woo!

I feel all of the people here,

I feel all of the people that came before us,

and I feel the future generations that will come after us.

I want you all, if you're able, to sit down,

look to the left of you, look to the right of you,

look behind you.

Let's think of the families of the victims,

the friends of the victims.

Let's take a moment for silence and I hope

that this moment radicalizes you.

I hope that this moment makes you take a step forward

and a step together in the right direction.

♪ Amazing grace ♪

♪ How sweet the sound ♪

♪ That saved a wretch ♪

♪ Like me ♪

♪ I once was lost ♪

♪ But now I'm found ♪

♪ Was blind but now I see ♪

All right.

The car's packed to leave.

Somehow I ended up bringing up

more stuff than when I got here.

- Bye, Luna. - Bye, Mommy.

Bye, Daddy.

- Bye. - Bye, Lauren.

- Bye. - Drive safe.

I will. You too.

Love y'all.

- Love you. - Okay.

Bye.

Dad, the Champagne!

Oh my God!

That’s enough, daddy.

Okay, that's it, that's it.

Just throw it down, hold on.

No.

- Don't throw that one. - It's just a bed.

- Dad! - Sorry.

Oh my God.

Ooh!

New apartment.

Wow, a skylight.

Chef Jojo in the house.

Your lunch box?

I have created a poem.

"Ode to Kapwa", or "Do Not Weep For Me."

Do not weep for me for I have been loved dearly

When my eyes have closed

When my ashes are swept in the wind

When my heart has been laid to rest

Do not weep for me for I have been loved dearly

Being able to see yourself or being able

to have other people understand what you go

through creates this unspoken bond.

It's a video.

- What? - What?

There is a knowing Of what we share

The bones of who we are That you are me and I am you

And we exist past we

Do not weep for me for I have been loved dearly

How did you know?

We already have a sense of togetherness.

We're all like connected in some way, no matter what.

This has a life beyond you and I

Born by our ancestors and Clasped in our children's hands

So please do not weep for me For I have kapwa

All right, goodbye.

Thank you.

♪ Shouting revolution ♪

♪ Breaking these traditions ♪

♪ Constant evolution ♪

♪ Shifting of positions ♪

♪ Not asking for permissions ♪

♪ Firm in this wisdom ♪

♪ Foothold in the galaxy ♪

♪ Challenging these systems ♪

♪ Shouting revolution ♪

♪ While breaking these traditions ♪

♪ Constant evolution ♪

♪ Is a shifting of positions ♪

♪ I'm not asking for permission ♪

♪ Firm in this wisdom ♪

♪ Foothold in the galaxy ♪

♪ Challenging these systems ♪

♪ Vibrate through reality ♪

♪ Light code the alchemy ♪

♪ Dimensional formality ♪

♪ Rhyme force the health of me ♪

♪ Interactivated into our intuition ♪

♪ Enter captivated time tuned to this position ♪

♪ In through actuated hours in through all these missions ♪

♪ End to active rates ♪

♪ Stars that ascend to all this fission ♪

♪ Shouting revolution ♪

♪ Breaking these traditions ♪

♪ Constant evolution ♪

♪ Shifting of positions ♪

♪ Not asking for permissions ♪

♪ Firm in this wisdom ♪

♪ Foothold in the galaxy ♪

♪ Challenging these systems ♪

♪ Shouting revolution ♪

♪ While breaking these traditions ♪

♪ Constant evolution ♪

♪ Is a shifting of positions ♪

♪ What is a witch Cast a spell on 'em ♪

♪ Journey through the glitch ♪

♪ Dear Jenah ♪

♪ Happy birthday to you ♪

This is my package which I got

for my white elephant.

Oh, they're in a bunch of little boxes.

Are you ready for the reveal?

What's in there?

Oh.

It's a mug with Monica and Basil on it.

Naughty and nice, naughty and nice.

♪ She scream Makibaka ♪

♪ March like the water ♪

♪ Tell me how to scheme on 'em with their own language ♪

♪ Mother tongue took the last flight from Manila ♪

♪ To Coast Salish ♪

♪ I'm a baby roaring I'm a bitch burning ♪

♪ What's a witch learning ♪

♪ Universe teach me ♪

♪ Teach us how to weep free ♪

♪ Weep free ♪

♪ Universe teach me ♪

♪ Teach us how to weep free ♪

♪ Weep free ♪

♪ Challenging these systems ♪

Ah, we're done.

Good job.

- You did a good job. - Thank you.

- Did I do a good job? - Yeah, you were good.

You were all right.