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My name is Michael Riccardi.

I'm a loner. I've been alone my whole life.

I have one friend who I tolerate. Growing up I had very little luck with women.

My parents died when I was very young.

Although I don't remember how. I was raised by my aunt.

Fucking horrible woman. But I think it was their death

that piqued my interest in religion.

I'm not religious per se. I believe that there is some truth to all faiths.

But they're not like mine.

God, if you would like to call it that, talks only to me now.

That's why no one else hears him.

He's been with me ever since I was a child.

Only recently did he reveal his plan for me.

I was chosen to be the supreme author of his grand, unaltered word.

And then when the text is written, and the great catharsis of the earth has come and gone,

a new church will be instituted.

With me as its only prophet.

Paramount to the intermediaries of the old and failed faiths.

You would criticize my methods though.

That's the only way to get eyewass to reveal to me the true word.

Well, time to go to work.

Looks like you'll get your chance to judge me.

Bye.

So, what are you doing out here in the cold this time of the night?

Trying to get as far as I can from here as possible.

Oh, a runaway, eh?

Things that bad at home?

My parents don't respect me.

They treat me like I'm a little girl or something.

How old are you?

16, 17?

Something like that?

Oh, great, 15.

No, something like that.

What do you do with some crazy sex maniacs who have sex with underage girls?

Something like that.

My name's Mike, but don't worry, I'm on the level.

Amanda, do you live around here?

Uh, from the Alscar to town.

It's a little bit of a hike from here.

That's cool.

Um, uh...

Maybe, uh, maybe you want to come in and warm up a little bit?

That's awesome.

Alright.

Here we are, home sweet home.

Who lives there?

Some old people.

They hate me, actually, uh, I've never met them.

Do you live alone?

No.

Oh my God, where did you get these paintings?

They're strange.

Well, they should be.

I made them.

You're an artist?

Yeah, how else would I dignify a living like this?

What else do you do?

Oh, well here, take a seat.

I've been, uh, been writing for a few years now.

Oh my God, me too.

I'm actually a photographer.

Oh, have you ever, uh, modeled?

You definitely could.

I thought about it maybe when I got to the city.

Oh, is that, uh, what, your headainer?

Yeah, man, it's a whole different world out there.

Everyone here is just a bunch of haisies.

They just don't get me.

Like, my parents so fucking conservative.

My dad catches me sucking my boyfriend's dick,

and he almost has a heart attack.

I'm like, that's what people do, you know?

I think people should do whatever they want, whenever they want.

Fuck the consequences.

Yeah, I'm down with that.

Well, uh, I'm gonna go make a drink.

Um, you want something?

Yeah, let's get fucked up.

What are you writing?

A book.

Really about what?

Uh, philosophy, I suppose.

Can I use your bathroom?

Yeah, uh, down the hall, second door.

Okay.

What are you doing?

Is this your book?

That's it.

Wow, this is crazy.

What does Fidelis in Ternus mean?

True path.

Holy shit, do you really believe in this?

You ever hear of Alistair Crowley in the Library of Al-Val-Legis?

Um, is that a band?

Here's your drink.

Oh, yeah.

Jesus Christ, what is this, rubbing alcohol?

I'm gonna be so bombed.

Oh, that's okay. You can stay here on my couch.

I have to warn you, uh, I sometimes sleepwalk.

Oh, this might be too strong.

Come on, the stronger the better, I think.

You know, I like to wake up the next day and not remember how, uh, miserable the previous night was.

Oh, you're the brooding artist type.

Yeah. You're, uh, very lucky to have, uh, caring parents.

They don't care about me, they just want to control me.

I never had, uh, caring parents.

I had an aunt that really didn't give two shits about me.

You know, I could have killed myself and, uh, she wouldn't have batted an eye.

That's so sad.

Yeah. Yeah.

All these, uh, rules and restrictions.

They're just here to help protect you.

Protect me? Protect me from what?

Well, if you, uh, if you didn't run out of the house and you, uh, didn't break a rule,

you wouldn't have ever met someone like me.

Stop.

No, no, no, you can't stop me.

You can't stop me because the drug I gave you is taking effect.

Stop.

Please stop.

No, no, no.

Oh, you agreed with me when I said, uh, people should do whatever they want.

Well, I'm gonna do whatever I want.

Okay?

No, no, no, you're not gonna stop me.

You know what you're gonna do?

You're gonna help me finish my book.

Oh, my God.

Now you're gonna meet my roommate.

Come on.

Come on.

Come on.

Come on.

Come on.

Come on.

You like that, huh? You like that, right?

Is that your boyfriend, is it?

Huh?

I don't think so.

I do know.

Like sucking your boyfriend's dick, huh?

I know you do.

Just suck this dick.

I know you do.

I know you do.

Just suck this dick.

Huh?

You wanna suck this dick?

I like that.

I do like that.

I suck this dick.

I suck this dick.

I suck this dick.

I suck this dick.

I suck this dick.

I don't know why, as of late, Iwas hasn't been speaking to me as he always has.

It's become more cryptic.

I see images unlike before and I see numbers, which is also something new.

So far I have two.

40 and 6.

I'm gonna try to cipher them using gematria.

I'm sure there's more to come.

I know there's more to it because the sensation this time was similar to the first time I've had to kill.

A little more complete, but still unfulfilled.

It's like something I can't explain.

A mind orgasm, like my brain actually comes.

You know, almost every culture has had a messianic tale.

Horus, Jesus, Polyneus, you know.

Even the Oriental mythology, there was a primordial man, suspiciously, sounds like the son of man.

And it's either an incredible coincidence or it was a culturally adopted concept.

It's bullshit. Something's been trying to communicate with us time and time again now.

And it's just, you know, over time the truth has been misconstrued.

And you're gonna figure it all out.

Let me ask you this, but I'm really not quite clear on this yet.

What do you believe in?

Believe in life, in the most pistic sense.

Pistic?

Yeah, it's like this. I get...

Theistic gods pick favorites.

Science and nature doesn't.

It's a unification theory.

You know, we're related to each other biologically, to the Earth chemically, and to the universe atomically.

And I think that's beautiful.

It's very flowery, but it won't comfort you on your deathbed.

Mike, I don't think you're comforted now.

If anything, it seems like this search you're on for some kind of cosmic spiritual gnosis...

Torments you.

And it'll probably continue to do so.

Because no one's ever gonna know who's right.

That's why I choose the default.

I decay, my friend.

I'll talk to you later.

Excuse me, I was listening to you guys talk, and, uh...

Is your friend single?

You interested?

Uh-huh.

He's coming over to my place tonight.

Maybe after you clock out, you can come over and we can all get a drink together.

Okay, well, I clock out in 20 minutes.

Sounds perfect.

Can I just get some more coffee?

I got it. I got it.

Okay.

Oh, no stairs!

I don't know how I'm gonna make a telly of stairs.

It's okay. Don't worry about the door.

Don't hit your head on this.

I don't want you to get hurt.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Oh, my God. Is this your place?

Oh, wow. What a shit hole, man.

Oh, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that out loud.

So, when is Jim coming by?

He'll be here, uh, meantime, you have me.

What's the matter?

No, no, it's not you.

It's just, you're so not my type.

Oh. Okay. I guess, uh, you overheard our conversation, man.

Mm-hmm.

So, why, you agree with them or...?

I don't know. It's just...

I don't know how there could be enough proof that there's a God.

What if I could prove to you there's something out there much more bigger than us?

How?

What if I told you God was my roommate?

Well, then I'll make this the place heaven, and if that's the case, I'd rather live in hell.

Okay. I'll be right back.

Stupid fucking bitch.

I'm in my own fucking house.

The fuck is wrong with me?

The fuck is wrong with me?

Wake up.

Wake up.

Wake up.

Wake up.

Wake up.

Wake up.

Wake up.

Wake up.

You hate me. I repulse you.

Well, that's good.

I'm gonna make this a whole lot sweeter.

I'm gonna fuck you up, you tight-willed virgin ass.

Wake up.

Wake up.

Wake up.

Wake up.

Wake up.

Three numbers so far.

Forty, six, and thirty.

Mem, Vav, and Lamed.

Why have you chosen to communicate to me in this manner?

Can't you just tell me?

Like you did before?

Like you always have?

I am going to reveal to you the secret of it all.

What always has been and what always will be.

How many more?

I feel I'm close.

I was?

You still there?

Is it really worth knowing?

Mike? Yeah, Jim, back here.

Why is it with you in painting in the dark?

Helps me find my muse.

Well, morbid. It's a typical modern art.

I'm not sure.

I'm just gonna go and get a little bit of my own.

I'm gonna go and get my own.

I'm gonna go and get my own.

I'm gonna go and get my own.

I'm gonna go and get my own.

I'm gonna go and get my own.

I'm gonna go and get my own.

You are too young to use.

Well, morbid. It's a typical microguardie.

Oh, thanks. Here, read this.

I don't get it. What is it?

Remember I told you there was something out there?

Well, this is it. This is the recitation that I've been receiving.

You're kidding. You're not kidding.

Now, Jim, just read it. How can I have made this up?

Mike, how many people have you shown this to?

This is just rambling madness.

I hear things, I see things, figures, you know?

This is it. They're telling me the truth.

I don't know how to put this tactfully, so I won't.

Have you thought about getting help?

No, I don't need help, Jim. I need you to believe me, okay?

Alright, I need you to be saved, my first disciple.

Mike, you're the one who needs to be saved.

Jim, I showed you this because I trusted you as my friend.

Can I help you?

Maybe. Did you live here?

Yeah.

Oh, hi, I'm Sally. I just moved in upstairs.

Oh, finally, those old bastards kicked it, huh?

Yeah, well, I can't get these keys to work.

Oh, sorry, here.

Like, if you take this key, and then just, uh, you gotta pull up the handle and you drago a little bit.

It should work.

Oh, okay. Well, thank you.

Oh, you're welcome.

What are you reading?

Oh, I'm book by Alster Crowley.

The Library Leages? I love that kind of stuff.

Well, uh, well, hey, uh, you know, whenever you have a free minute, maybe you could come down and have a drink with me.

It's always nice to meet, uh, intelligent people.

Sure, tomorrow.

Tomorrow's good, yeah.

Okay, I'll see you then.

Great.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

That's why I have reason to believe that Crowley is the last and most sincere intermediary.

I mean, the, uh, central mantra of the lemma is just too human to be wrong.

You know a lot about this kind of stuff.

Am I boring you, or do you think I'm insane?

No, you're not. And you're fine. A little eccentric, but...

It's fine.

Oh, my parents died when I was little.

Minded too.

Really?

Mm-hmm. My uncle raised me.

Really?

Well, I'd love to talk about this more, but, um, do you like some more wine?

Yeah, I'd love some.

Great.

Thank you.

Mm-hmm.

There's your drink.

Thank you.

You're very welcome.

You know, I think it's, uh, really funny you brought up your uncle.

So when I was little, I was raised by my aunt, and, uh...

She let me run wild.

She pretty much, uh, let me do whatever I wanted to.

Like this.

Okay.

You know I'm gonna rape you, right?

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

I've got some stuff.

What's the matter, dear?

What do I do about my kids?

I don't know.

I don't know.

I'm going to get some water.

I'm going to get some water.

What?

I'm going to get water.

Okay.

Okay.

Don't stop. Don't stop. I love it. So much.

I've waited so long to find somebody who understood me enough to know what I want.

This is it. Take what is yours because you have every right to.

I love you.

No one's ever said that to me before.

I love you.

I love you.

Here. This is what I've been working on for the past four years now.

A religion?

I believe the voices that I'm hearing in my head are revealing me secrets about the past.

Rules that the humankind should abide by.

Michael, there was no I-WAS.

He was a figment of your imagination. You created a desperation.

You wrote this all on your own.

All that work? All that sacrifice?

It's okay. You can start over again. And this time you're not alone.

Hey, I gotta get to the club. Can I come by later?

Yeah. If I'm asleep, just come in.

Okay.

Alright. Bye.

My whole life I've been searching for a lie.

But I've never been happier to have been proven wrong.

I've discovered the meaning of it all. And that meaning is love. Pure and genuine.

Jim, you son of a bitch, you were right.

Michael?

Michael?

Wow.

You don't exist.

If you exist, then therefore so must I.

Why did you kill her?

We killed her. The same way we killed your parents. No one would ever commit a child. Would they, Michael?

No, you're lying. I had no reason to kill her and I had no reason to kill them.

What about the other three? What was your reasoning for their destruction?

That was different. You led me.

You didn't know the secret of everything. And that's why you killed her too.

Look to the wall, Michael. For the last number has been revealed.

I don't believe you. The only way I'm going to know now is I'm doing it to be with her.