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You can look all over this great big world, you can look down every street,

in every bookstore, on every dance floor, at every girl that meets.

You can drive out to California, and chase down all your dreams.

I know you'll find someone beautiful, but you'll never find...

Great party, huh?

Yeah, it was a fabulous party.

Till the end.

I'm not like a jealous girlfriend or anything, but it was not okay to see you

all over Jeff at the end of the night.

What are you talking about? No, I wasn't. What am I talking about?

Do you even remember the end of the night? Because you were a little drunk.

Of course, I remember everything.

You don't remember anything because Gina and I had to haul your ass home because

you were completely out of it. I didn't eat, okay?

I'm just really worried about you because it's not like you can just have

one or two drinks.

What are you, the fucking cocktail police all of a sudden?

No, but I know about the shit that's going on with you. You know what?

I know that you're under a lot of pressure.

Yeah, and you know what? I don't need any extra pressure from you, okay?

I'm sorry, you know, I had your party and I just, I wanted it to be perfect

for you. I know. I don't know if I could do this right now because I'm more and

more freaked out every day. And I don't want to.

Please.

Please don't go.

Don't leave.

supposed to be at work?

Uh, yeah. Well, about that.

Mm-hmm.

I've been meaning to talk to you about that. Yeah.

Um, you see, the director, he, well, his nephew decided that he wanted to be an

actor.

So, yeah, I'm out.

I've actually been off the production since they moved it to L.A.

Sorry. No, not at all.

You know, well, it just wasn't meant to be.

No, and you need to let it go so it doesn't close you off, so that you're

open for all the other opportunities that are going to present itself.

Right. Well, the worst part about it is I've been lying to Sammy.

You've been lying to all of us.

You've been lying to you.

But especially Sammy.

She's the most amazing woman that I've ever met. I'm telling you, I am... I'm

in love with her.

I am, and I want to have a future with her.

Okay.

Then tell her.

Sit her down.

Be honest with her. Come clean. Own it.

I've been trying to, but we've been arguing over a van, and she

wants to be friends with him, and I can't let her do that. I'm not going to

let him use her. Okay.

He's not to blame for this.

I know that you think that he has changed, but...

I'm telling you, if anything's changed, it's only his game that's just gotten

better. Well, maybe.

I don't know. I've been a little preoccupied lately, I know.

Honey, either way, don't let him keep you from doing what's right.

Oh, God. All right, listen.

If you love her as much as you say you do, then you have to be honest with her

and tell her the truth.

And if she loves you, she will forgive you.

Dear Annie, I'm writing you a letter because I don't have the courage to say

this face to face, even after all we've been through.

First and foremost, it's been an amazing gift to have you in my life, even as

just a friend.

And I know I've hurt you in the past, and I can't tell you how sorry I am,

telling myself that as long as I was honest with you, I wasn't doing anything

wrong. That was unfair.

And I want you to know, no, I need you to know that I was lying to myself and

to you.

Truth is, I was simply terrified to really give all of me to you.

And now I see how happy you are.

And as much as it breaks my heart, I want this for you.

The irony is that I realize it's always been you for me.

And if you were available.

If I finally be able to tell you that I'm ready.

I'm ready to love you.

Oh, you deserve to be loved.

To show you how much every day for the rest of our lives.

For all the times I never said it, I'm saying it now.

You are the best part of me.

And I want to hold you.

And protect you.

And laugh with you.

And honor all that you are.

And I'm sure you're thinking, wow, this is really sad just sitting here.

Along with my thoughts.

I can say I've loved you for a long time.

Probably from the moment I laid eyes on you.

And felt those butterflies your smile gave me.

And now I'm ready to admit all of this to you and to me, but

I know it would be selfish again.

So trust me, as long as you're happy, that's enough for me.

In fact, I'll probably never give this letter to you, but I needed to put it

out there.

Here's a missing piece.

In my puzzle, I miss you so much.

I think I can actually feel my heart break.

Anyway, I love you.

I love you.

I always have and I always will.

I will always be you.

My heart will always belong to you.

Listen, hey, I know you're a private person and all that, but...

Look, I've got a shoulder right here, okay? If you want to lean on it, I'm

just saying I've got a really good ear if you want to... I'm a good listener.

Try it out. Unload. Go ahead.

Hey, come on.

Seriously, I can't stand seeing a girl so sad, especially one as beautiful as

you.

Please. Come on.

I know what I know, all right?

But I'm not receiving any one of those smiles, and I'm telling you, it lights

up the whole room.

I'm going to be fine.

Don't make me resort to drastic measures, because you know I will. You

know I will.

You know I will.

You know I will. Okay, all right, all right, all right. I give up.

Oh, I'm sorry. I got something right here. Let me take care of that. Hold

still.

Hold still.

Van, look, whatever's going on right now with Owen, I love him very much, and I

want to figure out what this is, what's going on.

I'm sorry.

Jamie! Girl, I'm coming, I'm coming. Here.

You all right, darling?

Yeah, I will be.

I have to be.

Anything I can do?

Keep these coming.

Get me my book deal back.

My editor just fucking pulled mine.

Oh, Laura, I'm sorry, baby. I'm so sorry. That's awesome.

Yeah, well, I don't even think that's the worst part.

I think I may be losing Annie.

I know you must be so busy with the curl and everything, and I thank you for

taking some time out. I just... I didn't know who else to call.

Are you kidding me?

Come on, always.

Besides, my dad was driving me nuts.

What?

Don't you be calling the colonel your dad.

How did Laura feel this morning?

Like shit.

We had another argument.

I'm sorry, Annie.

You know, I... I don't know what to do.

Maybe this isn't normal behavior.

Maybe I'm just being a little sensitive or just like a little gun shy after my

relationship with me.

Sorry. No, you won't be.

I hear what you're saying.

You know, maybe, maybe, maybe, just maybe she has a problem. I guess the

bigger question is, what do you want to do about it?

Do you want to stick with her? Do you want to help her, you know, get through

this?

If you can, if she's willing.

I want her to be okay.

Yes, I want to help her get there.

Then talk to her.

Talk to her.

Tell her that you love her and that you want to be with her and stick with her

through all this.

That it's not going to be easy, but you'll get through it.

Together.

I'm scared, Gina.

Sweetie. Sweetie.

I got a car downstairs to take you home.

Come on. You need to get some sleep.

Come on. Let me get you up. Come on. Let me get you up. I know you are.

Come on.

Get your bag, baby.

Oh, come on.

Come on. I'm fine.

Come on.

Good girl. Good girl.

Can you help Mommy?

Can you help Mommy, dude?

Can you?

No kisses.

I didn't think so.

I didn't think so.

I'll go play.

What is going on with you?

Oh, hi.

What are you talking in your sleep all night?

Uh-oh.

What was I saying?

Well, I didn't understand much, but you mentioned your sister and the Grateful

Dead. A little weird.

But, um, I did try to wake you when you started to cry.

I would cry. That's sexy.

Edit moments.

I think I... I've just been kind of out of sorts.

Bam.

I think I'm losing my mind.

You know, that's okay.

It was a full moon last night.

Did I howl, too?

A few times.

I hope it's not a full moon. I hope you're right.

For my sanity's sake.

For your sanity's sake.

I'm familiar with the insane.

I'm not sure that's good.

It's very good.

Your friend's death was an accident.

She had an aneurysm.

I thought you'd like to know.

Hey, baby.

You drink?

Are you kidding me?

Laura, look at you.

I came here because I

wanted to talk to you a little bit.

Really?

You want to talk?

All you want to do is talk.

Fuck, am I supposed to think about my writing and my book when

all you want to do is talk?

You know what? I'm all talked out. Okay, just hang on a second.

Yeah. It's not even about that.

I know about your missed deadlines.

Really?

So how do you know about that? What do you do? Like, you intercepted my calls.

Would you read my emails?

Really?

Have you fucking read my emails?

I was really, really worried about you and I read it. It's fine because I

understand now the kind of pressure that you're under. Really?

You understand?

You understand?

You understand shit.

You know what?

Because I, I've been on the best sellers list for two years now and people, they,

people expect perfection.

And they expect success with every book series. I can't afford a fucking

mistake. Okay?

Laura, no one expects you to be perfect.

You know what?

I expect it.

I am Laura Miller.

The most successful writer.

The most successful series in the world. Do you get it?

I know you want to be the best.

But I thought you wanted me too. I thought you wanted us.