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The producers of this motion picture wish to inform you of the unique nature

of the film that you are about to see.

We will take you on a journey of mystery.

We will reveal to you the secret passions of a woman. A unique woman who

lives her fantasies and dreams her realities.

Or is the reverse true?

You decide.

Together, let us explore what is true and what is anecdotal.

Is it all an illusion in the mind's eye?

Or is it all the ultimate reality?

Alma, the tests have all come back from the lab.

It's as I said.

Doctor, how long do I have?

Now, Alma, it's nothing like that.

With the right medication and a quiet life, you can live for many years.

You'll have to give up your work, of course.

Doctor, that's all I have.

My photography is my life.

No family? No friends?

No. My work has been my life.

It will be too much for you.

You must have a completely quiet existence.

Otherwise, I can do nothing for you.

Will the pain continue?

No. The medication should help.

As long as you don't excite yourself, there will be no pain.

Have you no family, no friends, no one to take care of you?

No. My work has been my life.

There was no time.

Have you somewhere to go? Some quiet place?

I have a house near the water.

It's quiet and secluded.

All my things are there.

My music, my books, my photography.

Then go there.

Is there no one to take care of you?

I need no one.

I'm alone.

What are you doing here? It's all right, Alma.

How do you feel? You resting?

Yes,

I'm resting.

Is there any pain? Are you comfortable?

I'm comfortable.

There's no pain.

No pain at all.

I'm just so tired.

I'm only here to soothe you.

Do you mind?

I'm going to make you come out.

You want to feel me caressing your womb with my cock.

You can feel my cock. Say it.

I'm only here to excite and warm your body, Alma.

Now this way.

I can be very deep inside your vagina this way in this position.

Oh, Alma.

My sweet love, let me show you another way.

On your stomach, spread your legs for me now. Deep, so deep inside.

Move with me, Alma.

Move as I do, that's right. That's good, Alma.

Put your skin soft.

The walls of your womb are caressing me.

Touch me, feel me.

Your muscles clamp down hard on me.

I can thrust deeper and deeper.

My love, you're completely open to me.

I love you, Alma.

I love you.

over again.

I want to hold you to me.

Put your legs way into the air this time.

I'll penetrate you more deeply.

You're getting wetter and wetter.

Oh, God.

You're making me hard.

Soon they'll come.

I'll wait for you, Alma.

Move with me.

Match my thrusts now.

mouth on that. Rub your lips up and down against the skin.

Never been this hard before, Alma. You're my first real love.

Take me deep into your throat, deep.

Caress me with your tongue. That's good.

Feel the hardness of my penis.

It's stiff with semen.

Soon, Alma.

Very soon.

It is on your face. Cherish it. Hold it.

It warms the both of us.

Learn the taste.

It's what you desire.

Our bodies are satisfied.

Now you can sleep more easily.

What are you doing here? This is private property.

Oh, I was just walking along the beach, and I wasn't paying attention to where I

was going.

I'm sorry.

Oh, don't leave.

I'm sorry I was so brusque.

It's just that I live alone here, and I'm not used to seeing people around,

especially this time of year.

It's pretty chilly.

Why don't you come in? I was just having a cup of tea.

All right.

What an unusual name.

I hope you like this tea.

It's my own blend.

It's fine.

What's that music?

You don't like it?

It's depressing.

It should be. It's Gustav Mahler's Kindertotenlieder.

Songs about their children.

Oh, I never could figure out how people could listen to that sort of junk.

That's because you've never been properly introduced to the music. The

earlier you start listening, the more accustomed to it you become and the

easier it is to appreciate.

And if you don't watch it before long, it can become an all-consuming desire to

surround yourself with it.

I don't think there's any danger of that happening to me.

What do you do?

You might say I'm an actress of sorts. On stage?

I've done some stage work, but I'm involved mostly with film.

Are these yours?

Yes, do you like them?

They're beautiful.

I think I've seen them in magazines.

You may have.

I was very successful in my field.

You move very gracefully. You photograph well.

Would you model for me sometime?

I'm here all alone and I've nothing but time on my hands.

Perhaps. You could come back tomorrow if you'd like. We could have some lunch,

then I could take some photographs.

Would you like that?

I'll be busy tomorrow.

Perhaps another day then.

As I said, I have nothing but time.

Yes, another day maybe. I really must be going.

Oh, so soon? You just got here. Would you like some more tea?

No. I must be going.

But I'll be back again. I promise.

Don't bother yourself with anything but yourself.

That's it.

Move to your right. More.

Now turn.

That's it.

The lights are so hot.

Loosen your clothes.

That will make you feel better.

That's it. Now you're getting it.

Lean more on your forward.

That's right.

Move it toward me just a little bit. That's it.

Now, over your shoulder.

Look back over your shoulder.

Good. Now, let's reverse that.

Now, give me some movement in the dress.

You can use your hands and let it fall.

Let the wind take it. That's good.

All right, now move with the rhythm of the music.

That's it, good.

Okay, now move to your left a bit more.

Turn.

Turn away from it. That's it. Turn all the way away. Now, when I say go, turn

toward me. Ready?

Go. Good.

Good. That was one more like that.

Okay, fine.

All right, now eyes down a little lower. Lower your chin.

Don't smile.

All right, now turn the other way.

Don't look into the lens.

That's good.

Hold it there.

this palm prong that's toward me down just a little bit so I can see your face

over it.

That's fine.

Good. Now look back out the window please.

Lovely. Now just one more from this side.

You can let that go now.

And sort of turn your body toward the ocean so I get that bite.

And then look back at me.

One second.

Now

Is there something wrong?

Nothing.

What's the matter?

I'm just a little tired.

You're getting bored, aren't you?

No, I'm just a little tired.

Can I take a break?

Oh, of course, cousin. I am sorry.

Would you like a drink?

That would be fine.

I hope Randy's all right.

You really are quite beautiful.

Am I?

Do you like this music?

It's all right.

This music is my gift to you.

Do you like to watch me?

Yes.

This is my gift to you.

Help me.

Come closer.

How does it feel?

Warm.

Warm.

Now turn towards me.

Turn around.

I want to see all of you.

You have a lovely body.

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So...

Something's wrong.

No, nothing's wrong.

I'm just tired.

I'm still luminous, you know.

Do you love me?

Does it matter?

Well, to me it does.

You're so insecure.

I'm here.

You're here. We're together. But do you love me?

We've made beautiful love.

Must I love you?

Please love me.

I need your love.

You just want to hear the words.

Yes.

Yes, I want to hear the words.

Tell me you love me.

I love you so very much.

My actions aren't enough for you.

You just want to hear the words.

Oh, please don't be harsh with me.

I need you, love.

Oh, I'm so tired.

Well, I'm not tired.

I'm going out.

Oh, please, Cosima. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to offend you.

Don't leave.

and big and hard so I can

Bye.

Gonna make it come.

That's it, lover boy.

Can you feel my pretty lips around you?

You're making me all...

Tell me.

Would you like to feel his cock, too?

Did you ever taste semen, Alma?

Mmm.

Salty. Tastes better than your fucking tea.

Who is that and what is he doing in my house?

This is my friend Arthur.

Do you like him?

Why don't you play some music for him? Maybe the one about the dead babies.

Would you like that, lover boy?

Sure, I'd like that.

Well, if you don't want to play your opera shit for him, I'll just play my

own kind of music.

Why don't you go make some coffee? Would you like some, dear?

No, thank you.

Okay.

Now perhaps you'd be good enough to tell me just what that was all about.

Do I have to?

Yes,

you have to.

This is my house, after all.

I know.

But I thought everything was share and share alike.

So did I.

Come here and kiss me.

No.

Then I'll come and kiss you.

Please don't.

What's the matter? Do you feel as though I've been defiled?

As though I'm not all yours anymore.

I feel as though I've been defiled.

Oh, am I interrupting anything?

You look so cozy.

Do I have to leave?

Oh, we don't want that, do we, darling?

We want you to stay until the end of time, my dear.

Who would know what to do without a man around the house sleeping, my love?

Please ask your friend to leave.

I'll do no such thing.

Did you hear that, lover boy?

Alma wants me to ask you to leave.

Oh, I'm shattered.

I am going upstairs now.

When I come back, I want him out of here. Do you understand?

Now turn around again.

Rub the cheeks of your ass. Oh.

I want to see you rub your ass.

Do it.

Do it for me.

She is just bathing beauty yourself. What are you doing in here? Get out of

here. I told you she was a crusty bitch. Oh, man, look at that tub.

I haven't had a bath in weeks.

Get out of here.

Hey, we were invited in because Steven said we can make ourselves at home

babies. Well, don't make yourselves at home.

Two men at one time.

My, my.

Did you sleep well?

Why didn't you help me?

Help you with what, dear?

Why didn't you help me when you saw what your friends were doing to me in the

tub?

My friends?

Mama, you must be mistaken.

You saw them rape me in the bathtub. You did nothing.

You had a bad dream.

I saw nothing.

It was so real.

You're confused.

Nothing happened.

What time is it? 8.30.

I'm losing track of time.

Do you really want to know?

No, I'm not sure that I do.

Did you get any sleep?

Not much.

After all, I didn't need those little yellow pills to help me along.

Feel like taking some pictures today?

No, I don't think so. How did you know about the pills?

I know about everything, darling.

Everything.

Hello, Alva.

Well, hello, Doctor.

Won't you come in?

Thank you.

I just stopped by to see how you're getting along.

Oh, fine.

What a beautiful place you have.

Thank you. Do you have trouble finding it? A little.

It is a bit secluded.

Of course, if you had a telephone, it'd make things easier.

I don't like telephones.

That's Leapstone, isn't it? Beautiful.

Oh, you've been taking photographs?

Some. Good, good.

What's good, good?

Well, it's just that some people give up on life entirely.

Get the idea that nothing's worthwhile.

I'm glad you're not one of those.

So am I.

I brought something for you.

What is it?

Some new medication.

I don't need it.

Well, you may.

I don't think so.

Is there any pain?

No.

I'm just very tired.

As a matter of fact, doctor, I really am very tired. If you'll excuse me, I'm

going to have to ask you to leave.

Was there anything at all I can get for you?

No, nothing. Just please go.

Of course, I understand.

But if there is anything at all I can do, please call me.

I'm leaving these pills right here on the table.

Please don't hesitate to use them when you need them to make things easier.

Bye, Alma.

Goodbye, Doctor.

Don't hesitate to use them if you feel you need them.

What a fucking... You're a geek.

Dr. Friend's a fucking geek.

Anybody ever tell you that?

How did you get in here?

What makes you think we ever left?

Yeah, we live here now.

Who are you?

We're customers, friends, and your houseguests.

You know that.

No, I don't know any such thing.

Oh, a painkiller.

Little yellow devil.

I like painkillers, don't you?

Boom. Bitch, you mind if I take a few of these?

I promise I won't abuse them.

Coachman was right.

This bitch got no taste in music.

Don't touch that!

Stay away from that!

No!

You're a pig.

Arthur, did you hear that?

The lady says I'm a pig.

Yes, a pig.

A dirty, rotten pig.

Bitch, you hurt my feelings.

Apologize. You better apologize to Max right now.

He's my best friend.

Nobody calls him a pig.

Nobody, except me.

Leave me alone. You hurt my feelings.

my darling why are you letting this happen because i wanted to

i told you it pleases me tell them to leave

tell them to leave my house these are my friends i have lots of friends

don't you want me to have any

You don't want that to happen, do you?

No.

No.

No.

Don't leave.

No.

Now show me your breasts.

No.

Show me your breasts.

Please. Do it.

Now rub them.

Rub them for me.

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So, my dear, did you have a nice walk?

Who are they?

Oh, I've hired some domestics.

After all, things do seem a bit messy around here lately.

And you seem under such a great strain.

So I thought these people would make things a little nicer for you.

I see.

I knew you wouldn't mind.

Would it matter if I did?

No, of course not, my dear.

Now, let me begin by introducing the household staff.

First of all, we have lovely Lottie, who will take care of all the laundry.

And here is Elizabeth, who is very good with cleaning and shopping, etc.

And there is Marie.

She will be your personal maid and wait on you hand and foot.

Do approve?

Good, I knew you would.

I've agreed to pay them all in... that, Selma, so will you please take care of

that? And just think how much nicer things will be from now on from both of

you.

They all come with very good personal references.

Especially Marie.

She's got the best references of them all.

So that's the way it's going to be?

That's the way it's got to be.

I think I'm beginning to understand.

Oh, do you, my dear?

That's wonderful.

Perfectly wonderful.

You resent me.

No, I don't resent you. It's your attitude I hate.

I don't resent your music, your books, your art.

It's not my attitude.

It's something else.

Well, maybe, but we'll discuss that later.

First of all, you should get to know your servants.

After all, they are being paid to take care of your...

Every whim.

Hey bitch, where's the one about the dead babies? The one that kind of glows

on you.

Because you must.

Why are you doing this to me?

Why are you doing this to Michael?

Because you will not learn.

What do I do if I win?

Get to spend a whole night in my bed with my stiff cock up your ass, that's

why.

Listen, you told me you had 30 seconds, and Scythe was fucking... Hey Arthur,

what's this game called?

Shithead, everybody knows what it's called. It's called... Devil, Blind Man,

Fuck.

Fuck off.

You even have to defile my pen.

Are you sure you're taking time?

Yes,

yes. Well, now let's begin.

Pulling down, up, body up. Quick. Come on. Up.

Head back and comfy.

Leg up. Over watching Ted.

Ooh.

Dress up. Let me see this. It looks good.

Feel it. Face. That's nice.

I want you to...

Bend over, this couch.

Move it. Come on, with the gumballs, too, and the foreground.

Bend over.

Pressing for happiness and joy. X, P.

Oh, Max, damn it. You're impossible. You're just sitting there where you take

this and get the clothes up.

That's it.

Lottie, turn over.

Yeah, this gravel is pop.

Pop, yeah, great. Oh, yeah, okay. That's good. I want that.

Okay, I'm sorry. Will you keep shooting, please?

All right,

good.

Everybody, a little more spirit.

I want to see you look happy.

Like you're enjoying yourself.

These pictures are especially for Alma. Smile.

And some tongue and cunt.

Good. Now more movement, everybody.

Smile, Lottie.

Stop going to ruin the picture.

Now you've gone too far You've defiled my house. You've defiled my bed. You've

defiled yourself.

Now you've defiled my lifetime's work. Why, Cosima, why?

You know you really shouldn't get so upset, Alma.

It's not good for you.

Cosima, why are you doing this to me? Because you want me to.

Because you've always wanted to be like I am.

You must learn, my dear.

I don't understand.

I love you.

Why do you want to torture me so?

You must learn who you are. You must live your life.

You cannot perpetually hide behind your camera.

You must be part of life.

Otherwise, you do not live.

Come, join us, Alma.

Join us in the celebration of life.

Please, make them go away.

I love you. I want you.

If you want love...

You must learn to give love.

Otherwise, you can't be part of life.

I think I see.

I think I'm beginning to understand.

Now, show me your cunt.

What did I say?

Yes.

That's very good. You're very obedient.

How are you feeling, Alma?

Tired, Doctor.

Very tired.

Well, that's to be expected.

Is there anything I can do for you, Alma?

Nothing.

Do you have any friends here? Anyone you see?

No.

Well, I really must leave, Alma.

But I'll be nearby.

When you need me.

Goodbye then, Alma. Till later.

Goodbye.

Come, my children.

It's time.

Waiting for us.

Let me lead you to our Alma. She waits for you.

She accepts you.

Join her.

Wake her gently.

Show her the depths of passion and love that she has longed for all her life.

Do you see how she accepts you?

She has been waiting for you.

Feel, Alma.

Feel to the depths of your soul.

Do you want to talk?

Yes.

I know who you are.

Do you?

Yes.

And I know why you were on the beach that day.

Why?

Because I wanted you to be.

I wanted you to come into my house.

My life.

Yes.

You see, I felt I'd missed so much of life.

and there was a little time at first i thought you would be like one of my

models something to admire yes you did but then you became

so much more and i began to realize that it all meant

nothing so you do understand told you that i did

I want to thank you.

Where are you going?

Just downstairs.

Can I get something for you?

No, no thank you.

I'm just very tired.

I think I'll sleep for a while now.

Are you sure there's nothing I can get for you?

I'm sure.

Well then, good night.

I'll be waiting when you're ready for me.

It's time, Alma.

I know.

Are you afraid?

A little.

Don't be.

There's nothing to fear.

Come with me.