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♪ I'm comin'

♪ Comin', comin' Comin', comin'... ♪

♪ I'm comin'

♪ Oh, oh, oh...

♪ I'm comin'

♪ Oh...

Thank you, everyone.

Thank you all for being here today

as we gather to remember

and celebrate

the life of someone

who meant so much to so many.

We come together with heavy hearts

but also with gratitude

for the time we shared,

for the memories that we made.

Today is a time to reflect

on a light that touched...

♪ Hear my spirit yellin' crying out ♪

♪ I need some attention

♪ Done had a long time away

♪ From where my heart still stays... ♪

...And while every story

eventually reaches its final chapter,

the love

♪ I'm comin' home

the lives of others.

♪ I'm comin' home...

♪ It's callin' my soul

♪ I'm comin' home

♪ Can't take it away

♪ I've got a vision so strong

♪ Can't take it away

♪ This is where I belong

♪ I'm comin' home

♪ I'm comin' Home ♪

♪ I'm comin' home

♪ I'm comin' Home ♪

♪ I'm comin' home

Major Kendra Williams

confirming arrival at Tail Number 1724

at 1400.

Why is that red?

Looks like a multi-car pile-up.

Yes. Yes, sir, I understand.

Of course.

Of course, I don't expect you to hold the aircraft.

Copy that.

Life Flight?

Must be bad.

I'm never gonna make this flight.

Next one?

It's in a week.

Let me out here.

- You sure? - Yeah.

There's gotta be a hotel around here...

Great. Nothing.

I need an ambulance!

What am I supposed to do?

What's the problem?

The girl in the bathroom's in trouble.

Hello? Hello?

Okay.

Excuse me, can I get through? I'm a nurse.

Hello?

Hi, my name is Kendra.

I'm a nurse.

Can you unlock the door, please?

Go away!

Let me help you.

No one can help me!

Oh!

I want you to stand in front of this door.

Don't let anybody through.

Yeah. Okay.

Okay...

I'm coming in.

Hey.

My name is Kendra.

I'm here to help.

What's your name?

What does it matter?

Can you open the stall door?

Tell me what's going on.

I'm having a baby that nobody wants.

Well, that sucks.

My name is... is Ayla.

That's a pretty name.

It's okay, you're just having a contraction.

Yeah, I know. I'm pregnant, I'm not stupid.

Try taking a gentle inhale, long exhale.

You here 'cause the Slurpee guy was slammed?

Yes, actually.

Sadly, Slurpee guy is not a military trauma nurse.

Lucky for you, right?

Real lucky.

Okay, try with me.

Gentle inhale, long exhale.

No, no, no, no!

Shut up, shut up, I can't!

You can, you can, you can.

Do it with me.

Come on.

Good.

Really good.

Why do you have a bag?

Because I can never stay in one place.

How many weeks are you?

Not enough.

I need a number.

I don't know, like, 35, 36.

And when did your contractions start?

A while ago.

- Are you on any meds? - No.

Allergic to anything?

My mom.

Mind if I touch your belly?

Knock yourself out.

What?

Did your doctor tell you your baby's breech?

- That means... - I know what breech means.

It means he's upside down.

He's coming out butt first unless they can turn him.

Look, I don't wanna have a C-section.

Me neither.

And when did your water break?

A while ago, I don't know, I thought it was pee.

Okay.

Wait, wait, wh-where are you going?

Any update on that ambulance?

The freeway's still blocked.

Tell them we have two critical and we need a Life Flight.

I tried, they said it's in use.

You got a clean tarp?

Yes.

- Pillows? - Sorry, no.

Grab those teddy bears.

Bottled water, scissors, bandages, alcohol,

and a first-aid kit.

Got it. E-Excuse me.

You travel with a first-aid kit?

I told you, you got lucky.

Hey... we got this.

Oh, yeah.

Just you, me, and your stupid first-aid kit?

Okay, I got this.

I've done this plenty of times.

You're just a nurse!

I'm gonna die, and my baby...

Ah! My baby...

My baby's gonna die.

Listen to me, listen, nobody's dying, okay?

You don't seem like a person who gives up, right?

- Uh-huh. - All right,

you and me are gonna get this baby out.

I trust you.

I need you to trust me, okay?

- Okay. - Okay?

Okay.

This is gonna hurt a lot,

- but I'm gonna try to turn him. - Okay.

All right? Ready?

One... two...

You didn't say three!

I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

I know it hurts. I'm sorry, come on.

I can't!

- Yes, you can. - I can't, I can't, I can't!

Yeah, you can. Look at my face.

Let's both breathe. It'll calm us both down.

We can do this.

- Okay. - Give me a count.

Okay, one

two

three... Do it.

Come on, Slurpee Guy, hurry up!

Oh, you got it!

He... He moved, he moved. He moved.

Yes. All right, breathe.

Breathe...

Longer exhale.

We can do this.

- All right? - Okay.

When I tell you to push,

I need you to give me everything you got. Ready?

Yeah.

Okay, now

push!

Okay, stop, stop, stop.

Okay.

How much longer?

I feel him.

- Yeah? - He-He's almost here.

What do you mean "almost"?

Okay, come on. Now.

Ready? Push!

You want me to get Slurpee guy?

Come on, push... damn it.

Yes!

He's crowning!

Okay, one more. One more.

Come on, girl, you got this.

Go.

Wait, wh-why... why isn't he crying?

Okay...

You a doctor?

Military trauma nurse.

That explains why they're both still alive.

Her uterus isn't tightening.

She's still bleeding.

Do you have oxytocin?

We'll get a line in her.

All right, I'll take over.

Let's open up the rig.

Can you shine the penlight in his eyes again?

He should not be working this hard.

What's happening?

We need oxytocin now!

Hurry, hurry, we're losing her.

Stay with me, Ayla. Come on.

- She's crashing. - I can't find the vein.

Just inject the muscle.

Baby's crashing, too.

Help the baby.

Oh, God...

Okay, come on, come on.

She's still bleeding. Come on, let's go.

Great. Let's load 'em.

The baby's oxygen is dropping again.

We need you to come with.

I can't.

It's just one medic and one basic,

and one of us has to drive. Please.

- Okay, all right. - Kendra!

Put it in the front!

All right, let's move.

BP's dropping.

Keep going.

She's still bleeding.

Stay with me.

Come on, contract.

We're still ten minutes out.

35-weeker, respiratory distress.

Two patients, one rig.

Copy.

Be advised,

motor-vehicle accident has us diverting to Radford Hospital.

That's too far!

Tell them no.

There's no neonatal there.

Tell them to page Dr. Maddox.

He'll give us clearance.

Oh, you know him?

No.

Just used to.

Heart rate's dropping again.

We're going to County!

Yes.

That's it, stay with me. Come on.

I got you, Ayla.

Stay with me.

What do we got?

Go ahead, you're up.

Pre-term delivery in the field

with external cephalic version.

Possible placental tear.

Heavy bleeding.

Ten units of oxytocin,

and the baby's oxygen keeps dropping.

Dispatch said you did this in a gas station?

Yes. Well, in the bathroom.

Okay, that's annoying.

Hi, I'm Dr. Bennett.

I'm taking care of your baby, okay?

She looks really young.

Skipped 4th grade.

Probably why Harvard admitted me.

- Okay. - Hey there.

How long since delivery?

30 minutes?

Okay, let's get him more breathing support.

Don't let them take him.

You can stay with him.

Let me call someone for you.

There's no one to call.

- W-Will you stay? - Sure.

Where's Peds?

OB?

Okay, on my count.

One, two, three.

It's a small staff here.

Everyone's working the car crash.

Her uterus still isn't tightening.

I'm a NICU resident, not an OB.

I paged the medical director.

He's both neonatal specialist and OB,

but he's working the trauma.

Well, she's still bleeding.

Somebody needs to give her oxytocin, like, now.

She's right.

Dr. Maddox.

Okay, postpartum hemorrhage protocol.

We need to stop the bleeding.

Two units O-neg,

and let's get her on oxytocin.

We couldn't get a line in earlier.

Kendra?

Hi, Vaughn.

She's still bleeding. Poor uterine tone.

Anything?

Maybe.

We seem to be getting some tone back in her uterus.

Okay, we're getting somewhere.

Veins are back.

Let's get an IV in, now.

I'm not on staff here.

No kidding.

I'm assuming you have credentials,

or I just lost mine,

and so did the paramedics that let you assist.

Trauma, plus OB rotation,

and neonatal-resuscitation certified.

All current.

Good.

It'll help me with Admin that you saved two lives.

Respiration's improving.

I'm sorry about your mom.

I tried to make it back before she passed.

Stuttgart is far.

Camp Lemonnier now.

Even further.

Okay, let's move.

Baby to NICU, Mom to OB.

Good to see you.

You too.

Okay...

Kendra...

No, I don't have coverage until morning.

Okay, do what you can and call me if she changes.

I've been competing for staff since the pandemic.

Trying to secure some traveling nurses, but

we're drowning here.

You manage a lot for a small-town hospital.

I need help.

I'm only here a week.

Then I'll take a week.

Come see what you'd be walking away from.

Is he okay?

We want that.

It's a good cry.

I'm curious about that NRP Cert.

You resuscitate a lot of newborns on deployment?

Local populations mostly.

Evacuation is not an option.

A lot of preemies.

You've run NICU-level codes in tents?

Who has?

Hi, Billy.

I never thought I'd see you again.

What are you doing here?

Kendra's joining us for a few days.

I'm assigning her to NICU and OB.

I'm senior RN here.

I would've appreciated you running that by me.

We're short.

Respiration's climbing. CO2's up.

W-Why's he making that sound?

It just means he's working a little too hard to breathe.

I don't... I don't think I can do this.

Yes, you can.

Remember what you just did?

Because I do.

He's not maintaining oxygen.

We need to intubate.

Could use you.

She's a temp.

She can take the patient back to the maternity ward.

Can you get our mom here back to Maternity?

We'll come find you as soon as he's stabilized.

Okay.

Okay, let's move him.

Sats still dropping.

Okay, let's help him breathe, people.

Tube him and give surfactant.

I'll prep.

Let Kendra. It's her patient.

Dr. Bennett,

have you secured an airway in a pre-term before?

No, just observed.

You wanna take this?

Next one, then.

Okay, little man.

Quick in, quick out.

Heart rate 140

138.

I'm in.

Good color change.

Good breath sounds bilaterally.

Surfactant.

It's working.

Lungs are expanding.

Okay.

We'll let him rest for a bit.

You gave him a fighting chance.

Way to go, everyone.

We good here?

Page me if sats drop.

Billy,

show Kendra around.

Make sure she's up to speed on our moms and our babies.

You didn't answer me about Alex,

about tonight.

The answer is no.

♪ I'm comin'...

♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh... ♪

♪ I'm comin'...

♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh...

♪ I'm comin'...

Hey, do you know where Billy is?

Thought she was showing you around.

Uh... try NICU.

You know

intubating a pre-term for the first time

can be really scary.

You've done it?

Kinda feel like I failed in there.

No, failure is trying to be a hero.

Success is understanding your limitations,

even under stress.

That was really stressful.

Yeah.

Is Alex a patient?

Alex...

Oh, you mean their son.

Dr. Maddox and Billy have a son?

Yeah, they're in the middle of a custody battle.

Hmm. I didn't even know they were married.

Really?

I got the impression that you three go way back.

High school.

We ran track together.

We lost touch.

Wow, talk about tiny town.

Mm-hmm.

He's okay.

You'll get to see him real soon.

How long does he have to stay here?

A few weeks.

When babies are born a little early,

they need some time for their lungs to develop.

You know, I was... I was gonna go to community college.

Had a job lined up and everything.

He deserves better than me.

It's a lot right now.

Maybe not decide today.

Hey, what if I get you a Slurpee?

Would that cheer you up?

No.

Huh?

I like blue.

We used to get one after every soccer game.

You played soccer?

Mm-hmm.

I used to get red right after track practice.

Ugh, that tastes like cough syrup.

It does not.

Okay, it does.

What are you gonna name him?

I'm...

I'm not gonna name him.

Just in case he doesn't make it.

He's gonna make it.

But you don't have to decide right now.

He probably won't hold it against you.

Unless people start calling him "Murray".

Murray?

That's terrible.

I feel sorry for your kids.

What are their names?

I don't have any.

Why not?

I mean

that's kinda personal.

Seriously?

Bitch, you just had your hands,

like, all up inside of my vagina.

If you need me, press that button.

I'm getting a Slurpee.

Red.

Ugh.

I just want to see him.

You can't keep holding our son hostage.

And you need to bring this up at work?

You can't keep doing this.

Hey, Billy.

I was looking for you.

Well, you found me.

You've met this one.

Does he have a name yet?

Those sats look good.

Guess we'll call him "Baby John Doe"

until Mom decides she's a mom.

Gemma was born with critical coarctation of the aorta.

Tough heart defect.

Good thing she was born full term.

When did they place the stent?

Let me guess.

You once had a critical coarctation,

and you fixed it with dental floss

while hanging out of an Army chopper by your teeth.

Toothpicks and gum, actually.

It's not a competition, Billy.

You sure?

You were always competing.

You beat me every time in the 100 and the 200.

The only time we weren't competing

was in our 4x100 relay.

That was the only race I had a chance to win.

That was a long time ago.

Seeing you brings it all back.

You know what?

Read the charts.

Meet me in Room 5. I gotta pee.

What are you doing here?

I told you to meet me in Room 5.

I cannot emphasize this enough...

Especially on bed rest, you've gotta look hot.

You want your partner looking at you

like, "Yeah, that's mine.

She is fine."

Who are you?

Temporary nurse.

But you have, like, credentials?

Oh, plenty.

Kendra could put your leg back on.

I'd rather you give me my abs back.

Worked so hard for those.

Morgan is on strict bed rest.

34 weeks with twins.

Still don't understand how you can't tell

if my girls are fraternal or identical.

How am I supposed to plan their wardrobe?

Admitted after a cervical length drop.

They're jamming their little bodies down there.

Can I take a look at her chart, please?

Are you experiencing any pressure, fluids, bleeding?

Wow. Direct.

I like that.

No, no, and no.

Your blood pressure's better, Morgan.

So can I slip out?

Just for a few hours

for my husband's fundraiser?

Can't exactly remote-charm donors from here.

How would your twins feel

about being born in the high-school gym?

Country club.

And I planned, okay?

They weren't supposed to try to get out for another month.

We need you horizontal.

See?

They're fine.

You're still in bed.

Hey, Gavin.

I hear you're gonna be our mayor

for another four years.

Well, that depends if this one can get her butt out of the bed.

Hi, sweetie.

You brought a change of clothes, right?

The car's out front.

She's not going anywhere.

Wow, Kendra Williams.

Talk about a blast from the past.

I got another patient to take care of.

Why would you schedule mediation

during my surgery block?

You're always working!

What's good for you?

2:00 a.m.? 3:00 a.m.?

Yes, sir. Yes. Mm-hmm. I get it,

and that is the plan.

Hey, little guy.

You like the name Murray?

No?

Me neither.

Bed four!

She was stable.

When was her last echo?

Two hours ago.

What changed?

Nothing.

Sometimes, the baby tells us more than the numbers.

Her lips are pinker than I'd expect.

And her foot is cool to the touch.

It's not oxygenation.

See?

Yeah, blood flow isn't coming right back.

Ductal stent thrombosis.

- Heparin bolus? - Mm-hmm.

Can you page Dr. Maddox?

Better.

Sats are creeping back up.

How did you see that?

I worked in a lot of places with no equipment.

You get good at noticing.

Plus, she didn't look sick enough

for the numbers showing.

What's up?

Uh, sats dropped into the 60s.

Femoral faint.

Cool lower extremities.

Suspect the stent could be partially blocked.

Good catch.

Kendra called it.

Dr. Bennett was on it.

Otherwise, we both would've missed it.

What do we do, Dr. Bennett?

Start heparin bolus... 100 units per kilo.

Draw a gas and lactate.

And we do an Echo.

Good.

Right there.

Diminished blood flow.

We're gonna have to try to flush the clot.

Why didn't you page me?

She's my patient.

Sorry, Kendra was here.

You want to do the flush?

Yes.

Baby's fragile.

Have you done one before?

No, I haven't.

Okay, under my hand.

Gentle.

There it is.

Blood's moving again.

Outstanding teamwork.

♪ I try my best at understanding ♪

♪ But I can't get my head around it ♪

♪ Oh...

Sometimes I wish I'd chosen radiology.

Yeah.

Neonates can be tricky.

Yeah, I think I aged ten years today.

You know, this is the last hospital within 300 miles

with a labor and delivery and neonatal unit.

Some of the equipment was made before I was born.

Okay, so, Harvard Med?

My mom got sick.

She was a nurse here.

I basically grew up in this hospital.

You know, she got me a real stethoscope

for my fifth birthday.

Blood-draw lessons when I was eight.

For real?

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah, she... she was always there for me.

Now it's my turn to be there for her.

Plus, I feel lucky to be working under Dr. Maddox.

My mom died in this hospital.

Cancer.

That's why I'm here.

I didn't make it back in time.

I'm so sorry.

Thank you.

Well, we weren't really that close, so...

That sounds really hard.

At least you get to reconnect with your high-school friends.

Dr. Bennett to Oncology.

Dr. Bennett to Oncology.

I know this is weird.

Weird?

We were friends.

Best friends.

Yeah

we were.

Do you know how many conversations I've had with you

in my head?

How many things I've wanted to say?

Kinda hard to do when you fell off the face of the Earth.

Okay, well, maybe we can have this conversation later.

How much later?

Another 25 years?

All right, you know what?

I'm sorry.

I really am, Billy,

but I can't change the past, okay?

I am just here for a week

to help take care of these babies.

I'm going on my break.

♪ I'm a fighter

♪ I've battled the storm

♪ The spirit is higher

♪ Than ever before...

I'm sorry.

♪ ...Escents of the past, past, past ♪

♪ Turn around my head ♪

♪ Escents of the past, past, past... ♪

We can talk about it now.

Those will kill you.

They stop me from eating potato chips.

I wish cigarettes and potato chips

were good for you.

Tortilla chips and margaritas.

El Charo.

Back booth with the lumpy cushions.

That old waiter who never ID'd us.

We had a good thing going until Coach Reynolds caught us.

I thought for sure he was gonna kick us off the team.

Not you.

You were his golden girl.

All anyone knew

is that you dropped out of high school

to join the Army.

One minute I was at Fort Benning,

and the next thing you know,

I was on a Forward Surgical Team in Ramadi.

- That's insane. - Mm-hmm.

No supplies.

Two surgeons for, like, over 100 people.

I was doing everything.

I'm talking amputations.

So I was right, you can put a leg back on.

I wish.

Took 'em off, mostly.

How'd you graduate?

I got my G.E.D. online.

College, too.

Army trained me.

Before you knew it, I was head Brigade Combat Team Nurse.

How great for you.

And I never left.

Because we didn't go to Nationals.

I lost my scholarship at LSU.

I'm really sorry.

I didn't know.

We had sponsorships, Kendra.

We would've made the Olympic team.

All of it gone because of you.

And you and Vaughn... the perfect couple?

You broke his heart... You ghosted us.

We were a team!

That was my only way outta here.

I don't know what to tell you, okay?

It was a long time ago.

Not for me.

♪ The hush of twilight

♪ Where shadows will play

♪ There's something on the rocks ♪

♪ Reaching for wrenches ♪

♪ Tangled and torn ♪

♪ Unraveling my story now

♪ It's like I've been waiting

♪ For something new

♪ Searching for a parachute ♪

♪ Jump off the deep end

♪ In the dark

♪ I'm searching for my parachute ♪

♪ With every heartbeat

♪ Our love holds

♪ With every heartbeat

♪ Our dreams arrive

♪ We are forever

♪ It's finally clear

♪ You're all I ever needed

♪ It's like I've been waiting

♪ For something new ♪

♪ Searching for a parachute

How's your first day been so far?

I have a really low bar.

Usually a tent with no running water.

Where are you staying?

Uh, my mom's place.

- Ah... - Mm-hmm.

Hey there.

Hi.

Um, can...

Can I touch him?

You sure can.

Little Murray is adorable.

Ugh.

George?

- Mm-mm. - Dallas?

You are giving me the ick.

No? All right, it'll come to you.

He looks so weird with the tube.

It'll come out soon enough.

Here, you wanna hold him?

Uh... okay.

Um, I don't... I just...

- You got it. - Okay.

You ever hear of "kangaroo care"?

What am I'm supposed to do, put him in my pocket?

Sort of.

You hold him skin to skin,

and it helps regulate him.

He knows you're his mama.

They all do.

He's a cute old man.

He sure is.

Can you go check on Morgan?

You're a floater with OB credentials.

I'm lead NICU nurse.

Of course.

- I'll check you later. - Okay.

I'll take him for you.

Hurts there?

Mm-hmm.

That's your stomach getting squeezed.

It's not dangerous.

I'm starting to feel like

I should've left well enough alone.

I feel like crap,

and I look worse.

Bed rest is hard.

It'd be weird if you didn't feel a little...

Buyer's remorse?

Let's see.

See?

Healthy heartbeats.

Hey, babe, I brought you something.

Oh, your blood pressure spiked.

Try taking deep breaths.

So, I just need you to sign a few things, okay?

Morgan, I need you... Look at me.

I need you to slow down your breathing.

- Babe... - Slow exhales.

- Babe... - I need you to leave the room.

Go on.

You can't tell me what to do.

I need some assistance.

I'm talking to you.

Back off, Gavin.

Hey, Gav.

Can you give us a sec so we can check on the babies?

Maybe go to the cafeteria and get something for Morgan?

Hey, babe, how 'bout I grab you one of those scones you like?

You know, the ones with the cranberry?

Anybody else want anything?

There we go.

They're okay?

All good here.

I'll check in on you later.

okay?

Can you do that?

I know this is important,

but you need to pull it together.

What's up with that?

What's up with what?

You and Gavin.

You don't get to swan in here

and tell me how to run things.

Stay in NICU unless I page you.

You're good.

Hey, how are you?

You look good.

You look good.

Okay, shh-shh-shh...

Kendra...

Kendra?

Are you okay?

Yeah. Yeah, I'm good.

I am good...

Uh, I'll...

I'll see you tomorrow.

Okay? I'll see you tomorrow.

Okay.

Sorry, I didn't know anyone was in here.

Do you need me?

Not till your shift.

Kendra.

Grab your stuff.

What?

Well, you can't sleep here,

and you can't sleep at your mom's

because it was sold two years ago.

It's a small town.

The funeral was small but nice.

You must've just missed it.

Uh...

Yeah, I couldn't get leave.

Plus, it's three travel days.

I'm surprised you went.

Well, I, uh...

I kept in touch with your mom.

Just in case.

Just in case?

Nice furniture.

No.

- It's not. - Mm-mm.

Came furnished.

Pretty sure even the walls

were assembled with an Allen wrench.

Is it okay that I'm even here?

It's none of my business, but...

Ask me.

I'll decide if it is.

Billy?

I hear you guys are separated.

Yeah.

I'm sorry.

Come on, I'll show you to the guest room.

It's, uh, through the drawing room,

past the billiards room,

next to the indoor pool.

So, you're a neonatal specialist

and an obstetrician?

That's the perks of a small hospital.

I can do both.

I knew you'd stay.

I work with a lot of families in tribal communities.

They don't always trust the system.

But they trust you.

I made you my special tea.

Ooh.

Truth?

I'm not much of a tea drinker.

Well, if you hate it, I can, uh...

I can add some whiskey.

You'd better not.

If I start drinking tonight, I may never stop.

I noticed you seemed, uh

tense

when you were doing rounds in NICU.

It's different, but not that different from war.

Well, how do you mean?

Just that the outcome is so uncertain.

Yeah.

Even when it's not possible,

I want every single one of them to make it.

Tubing that baby...

Intubations always hit me hard.

One of my medics,

my infantry-battalion medic...

I trained him...

He was in the medical tent when the IEDs hit.

His jaw was gone.

I couldn't get an airway.

Combi tube.

KLTs.

I tried everything.

I did not know what to do,

and he's looking at me, trusting me.

I found his cords.

I don't know how.

They were black and shiny,

and I just aimed, and I prayed,

and I got the tube in,

we put him on the bird,

and I told him he was gonna be okay.

Was he?

I had to tell his wife.

She was in labor.

She still texts me on the baby's birthday.

It was today.

I'm sorry.

I have a lot of those stories.

I usually keep 'em in a box in my head.

I should never take that box out.

Yes, you should.

Well, I should, uh, get to bed.

G'night.

Goodnight.

You were always at the track before anyone else.

You were always late to the blocks.

That's not how I remember it.

I also remember you trying to "help" me

with the hurdles.

I was being a gentleman.

Lies.

Revisionist history.

You were too lazy to pull them out yourself,

so you let me do it,

and then raised them when you needed to practice.

I did that once, and you were all over me.

You know it.

That's when I knew.

Knew what?

How much I liked you.

"You were 5'3" and terrifying.

And that was a turn-on, was it?

Dragging wooden hurdles out by yourself

and telling me to back off?

Hell yeah.

I thought, "This girl's either gonna win everything

or break something trying."

Why'd you quit?

I wanted to focus on the 1 and 200.

I don't mean the hurdles.

Hey, what is this?

A memorial wall for infants who died at the hospital.

Stillborn babies.

Baby Jane and John Does.

Oh...

No, it's really peaceful.

Staff leave flowers sometimes.

Just

it seems like a lot of names.

We had a much higher infant-mortality rate

before, um...

Before you got here?

Dr. Calder was, uh

old-school.

My predecessor.

All right.

I'll catch you later.

Flow looks good.

That's not the problem.

Something's off.

The pressure's set a little high.

Stent's clean.

No obstruction.

Can you handle getting the other's tube out

and put on CPAP?

Of course.

Good catch.

So

how's it compare to a war zone?

Coffee's about the same.

When's the next surgery for the heart baby?

A few weeks.

I really want a good outcome.

Her parents abandoned her.

Oh, God.

That's awful.

Yeah.

I'm glad we have a safe-haven law now.

What's gonna happen to her?

I'll keep her here as long as I can,

and try to get her placed.

I appreciate you covering for Billy.

She would've caught it.

I gotta get going.

You made Vaughn think I missed it.

You did miss it.

We all miss stuff.

Vaughn is still my husband.

You're separated.

We might reconcile.

Did you ever really love Vaughn,

or did you just get with him to get back at me?

Not everything's about you.

Well, I'm glad to hear it.

I'm lying in a hospital bed

carrying your children!

You wanted this, not me!

Gavin, please, don't go!

Hey, what's going on?

Is she okay?

You're gonna be a dad.

Come on. Let's get out of here.

We took the tube out.

Mm.

He looks like a science project.

He looks like a fighter.

What... What's happening?

Apnea.

What does that mean?

It means he forgot to breathe.

CPAP seal is loose.

Do something!

Come on, buddy.

Come on, buddy...

- Come on. - Brady at 90.

Come on.

Hey...

No, hey, hey, he's okay.

No...

No, he was dying.

No, no, he's premature.

It means his lungs and his brain

are still learning how to communicate.

Is that gonna keep happening?

It'll stop once he's big enough.

He just needs some time.

This is too much.

It was already too much.

This is... This is just too much for you.

You must have so many people who care about you.

Tell me who to call.

You wanna hold him?

No.

Ayla, there's someone to see you in your room.

Maybe it's my boyfriend?

Go.

Go, I'll watch him.

I'll bring him here, to see the baby.

No, but I can...

I can find stable housing.

Why are you asking all these questions?

I-I haven't done anything wrong.

And then as you converse, then ask for...

Why is there a social worker with Ayla?

Thank you.

I put in a request.

Why would you do that?

She's not ready to be a mom.

People can step up with support.

What support?

No visitors, no plan.

She hasn't even named the baby.

Just give her a minute.

I've watched this too many times.

It's always the baby that pays.

Wheelchairs to Admitting.

Wheelchairs to Admitting.

I'm really sorry about that social worker.

Maybe it's better that they take him.

Is that what you want?

Look at me.

Do I look like somebody's mother?

You fought for him.

I was there.

I'm not enough.

Don't decide that yet!

I'm sorry.

They're taking him.

It's done.

I don't have a place to live.

Where were you living before?

My parents kicked me out.

What about your boyfriend?

Can you live with him?

He has four roommates.

I can talk to your parents.

You want me to?

And what makes you think they'll listen to you?

Look, you don't have to do this if you can't,

but make a conscious choice about what happens to him.

You're just one more person judging me,

telling me what to do.

I knew he didn't want them.

This can be tough on any marriage.

They're not his.

I mean, they're his.

We had to

use a sperm donor.

He, uh, can't...

He's not...

He had a surgery when he was 11.

Known most of his life that he can't have kids.

I'm going for coffee.

Why'd you steal my pass?

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry, I just, I had to know.

Oh...

Billy...

I did something unforgivable.

So you left your baby there?

And-And you didn't tell him? You didn't tell Vaughn?

I didn't know if he was...

Oh, my God.

He was your boyfriend.

You slept with someone else?

It was just once.

I was drunk.

Gavin?

It's not Gavin's.

He can't have kids.

Morgan told me.

So it was Vaughn's?

I just had to know...

I had to know what happened to her...

To my baby.

Why didn't you tell me?

I didn't tell anyone.

Oh, my God.

What?

What?

Oh, no...

Is there anything I can do?

Don't tell Vaughn. Please?

I won't.

Thank you.

Hey...

What happened?

I can't... I...

Hey, it's okay.

It's okay, you don't have to talk.

It's okay.

♪ I watched a lifetime ♪

♪ We played in my mind with you ♪

♪ With you...

Hey, how are you?

♪ I've been hoping

♪ You will come around again

♪ All those days spent

♪ Dreaming this would never end ♪

♪ You'll fell out of love ♪

♪ But don't know why

♪ I guess our clock was running out of time ♪

♪ Running out of time...

I have to tell you something.

Can it wait?

♪ Nothing ever lasts

♪ I'll take my time to feel the moment ♪

♪ Time is moving fast ♪

♪ I'd give it all to slow the motions ♪

♪ Hope in the balance

♪ All that I need's been here the whole time ♪

♪ Safe in the light

♪ I climbed the peak to feel the sunshine ♪

♪ Ah...

♪ Now I'm flowing like water

♪ Finding new ways to discover ♪

♪ Iridescent in color

♪ I made the choice to recover ♪

♪ Recover

♪ Ah...

♪ Now I'm flowing like water

Why, Kendra?

Why'd you just disappear?

It wasn't about you.

I loved you.

We were 17.

I wasn't confused.

I was.

But not about you.

There's just things you don't know.

Then tell me.

I just wanna look at you first.

T-boned by a pick-up.

Prolonged extrication.

GCS 8.

Hypotensive en route.

Lost fetal tracing twice on Baby A.

It's Morgan.

She must've tried to go to that fundraiser.

BP 70 systolic.

She's crashing.

Kendra, ultrasound.

Okay.

Baby A, bradycardic.

Baby B, same. Both distressed.

Trauma 1.

Now!

Pressure's dropping.

Okay, massive transfusion protocol.

Fetal heart rate's crashing.

We need to get them out. Now.

Kendra, get ready to retract.

You really trust her?

Not now.

Ask her why she ran.

Ask her about your baby.

Uterus open.

Baby A coming.

Taking Baby A.

Okay, second twin

almost out.

She's crashing.

Push blood.

Stay with me, Morgan.

Second twin.

I got her.

Heart rate 60 on Baby A.

Tube her.

Kendra, I need you to get a tube in her.

She can't do it.

A doctor needs to intubate.

No respirations.

Come on, little one.

Chin neutral. Don't chase the tube.

Baby B, Apgar 8.

Tube in.

Kendra, need you here.

Billy, switch.

Two more bags O-neg.

Methergine.

Pressure's improving.

Great work, everyone.

Proud of you.

Let's get them to NICU.

Billy

a quick word.

Tell me I misunderstood.

You didn't.

So, Valentine's Day,

when you didn't show up...

But how did I not...

You would've been seven months by then.

That's when I figured it out.

My periods were irregular because of training.

I thought I was gaining weight.

I was in denial,

and then I panicked.

You delivered here?

My mom figured it out when I went into labor.

She dropped me off.

Told me to never come back, ever.

So you didn't.

You ran.

You know why I stayed here?

Not because it's easy.

This is where my family is,

my people,

and you show up for them.

Well, you never had a single mother

who didn't want you.

You had me.

Why didn't you tell me?

Kendra?

Because I didn't know if you were the father.

Yeah, of course.

Gavin.

I spent 25 years wondering what I did.

That I wasn't enough.

That I'd done something.

That it was

my fault that you left.

It wasn't about you...

Don't.

You decided for me.

I was 17.

I was terrified!

You see all the new mothers here?

You think they aren't terrified?

You never know what you'll do

until you're facing it!

I know what I would've done.

Oh, well, thank God, you're never gonna be

a pregnant teenage girl!

Look, I'm sorry that I left the way that I did,

that I left her,

but I would do it again,

not like that.

I wish I'd made a conscious choice,

but I knew that I wasn't ready to be a mom,

and I don't expect you to understand.

I would've helped you with her.

She died, Vaughn.

We could've buried her

together.

You knew

when we were together last night,

and you didn't tell me.

It was wrong.

All of it.

I'll let Admin know you won't be staying.

Leave the key under the doormat when you go.

Vaughn, please.

Good luck, Kendra.

I-I need to say goodbye to my patients.

Do you?

I thought when things get hard, you disappear.

♪ Only if you knew

♪ Someone in love

♪ Someone who loves you

♪ You could say sorry's done

♪ But it doesn't matter anymore ♪

♪ I'm so done with you

♪ You gotta just throw it all away ♪

♪ You don't wanna run back when it's gone ♪

♪ You've been... ♪

♪ Down on your luck...

They're stable.

Both of them.

They almost died.

I almost died.

But they didn't.

You know what Gavin was most upset about?

His fundraiser was canceled.

What are you gonna do?

Get a lawyer

and divorce him.

Are you gonna be okay

financially?

You thought I was a trophy wife, too,

didn't you?

Uh

yeah.

I started a coffee business.

We're no Starbucks, but...

I did well.

That's what finances Gavin's golf,

and his cars,

and his campaigns.

Well, I owe you a huge apology.

No, you don't.

You have been so kind.

You saved them.

All of you saved my babies.

It was my fault.

Hey, you're here,

and they're here,

and you're gonna be a great mom.

Thank you.

Hey, where's his mother?

Where's Ayla?

She was discharged.

Did she say anything?

Where she was going? When she'd be back?

She said she didn't want him.

Why'd you tell Vaughn like that?

He had to know.

Like that?

Do you have any idea

what you did to all of us?

Yes.

I'm sorry.

I am so sorry

that I blew your shot,

that I blew mine.

I'm sorry that you lost your scholarship.

I'm sorry that I ruined our dream

to compete together at Nationals.

You took my chance to be something.

I am here, Kendra.

Yes, but at least you're somewhere.

You built a whole life here.

You... You had a marriage.

You have a son.

You have the hospital.

You married Vaughn.

You had to know

that he'd never leave his community here.

I know that I hurt you,

but I can't be the reason

for everything that didn't happen after I left.

You're a good nurse, Billy.

Am I?

You can be again.

If that's what you want.

♪ Under this roof we gather ♪

♪ To let you go

♪ You brought us back together ♪

♪ One last chance to steal the show ♪

♪ You drew us in with love ♪

♪ Like moths to an open flame ♪

♪ Somehow this road...

You need someone better than me.

♪ ...Will never be the same again ♪

♪ And I want to believe you're in a better place ♪

I am so sorry.

♪ With no more tears and no more pain... ♪

Forgive me.

♪ I hope I see you in my dreams tonight ♪

♪ Pray you can make me laugh again ♪

Kendra!

I'm sorry.

I shouldn't have told him

done that to you.

I'm giving him a divorce.

Not because of you.

Well

maybe a little because of you.

He and I were never a fit.

It doesn't mean I didn't love him.

Maybe I married him because he was yours,

and you were gone.

- Billy... - Don't.

We can't fix the past, right?

But it made me realize

that keeping Vaughn from his son is not winning,

and of course you'd leave me in the middle of a shift.

Of course you would make it about you.

Take care of yourself.

Hey.

I'm so glad I caught you.

It was great to work with you.

You too.

You're gonna be running this place one day.

Hey, come with me?

It'll just take a minute. I wanna show you something.

I just called a car.

Please?

Five minutes.

♪ I do believe you're in a better place ♪

♪ With no more fear and no more shame ♪

♪ I hope we see you in our dreams tonight ♪

You did that.

Me?

No, I didn't.

You did that.

- Yeah, I did that. - Yeah.

You came back.

My mom found me at the bus station.

Turns out that they've been looking for me...

For us...

The whole time.

I am so glad.

Do you wanna know what his name is?

James.

It's my dad's name.

James.

I love it.

They're gonna help us with him.

They want me to go to college.

"Us"?

They called my boyfriend.

Guess what his name is?

Murray.

No. Funny.

It's James, too.

Thank you.

♪ Come back and make us laugh again ♪

♪ Can you hear it?

♪ I can feel it ♪

♪ It's a new day

♪ In your soul

♪ Oh...

♪ Something in the air

Yes?

I had a baby

when you were head of labor and delivery here.

I don't know how I can help you.

Well, I left her here.

I abandoned her. She died.

Well, we lost a lot of babies. I'm sorry for your loss.

No, please. Please.

I just... I have to know.

I need to know if she died because of me,

because I left her here?

Please?

I... You signed the death certificate.

Maybe you keep files?

You better come in.

Hospital had a flood in the basement.

Everything was moved here.

What did you say the date was?

I didn't.

It's May 23, 2001.

These are confidential files.

Found it.

Ah, I remember, the baby in the bathroom...

Maybe this will allow you to let the past be in the past.

Her heart stopped.

We did everything we could, but we couldn't revive her.

Kendra!

Kendra!

Hang on a second.

I haven't run that fast since...

Nationals.

I thought about what you said.

I'm so sorry, Kendra.

For not understanding what it cost you.

For not seeing how alone you were.

For thinking it was simple.

I left her there.

I'm the one who wasn't there for you.

You didn't know.

I don't mean when we were kids.

I mean back in my office.

I put her in that box in my head, and I just...

I spent the rest of my life trying to make up for it.

You don't have to anymore.

I have a plane to catch.

Can you get it for Friday?

You've got four days left on your shift.

Can you cancel the ride, please?

Let me.

I'm here now.

Please.

Walk you back?

♪ Hear the sound of the choir... ♪

♪ Start to feel real down

♪ It always takes me higher... ♪

♪ Yeah, I know it can be a lonely road ♪

♪ But life still goes

♪ So never stop keeping the faith ♪

♪ Hold on ♪

♪ Oh, yeah

♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh...

♪ There's gonna be a brighter day ♪

♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh...

♪ It won't rain always Always ♪

♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh... ♪

♪ There's gonna be a brighter day ♪

♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh...

♪ We gonna be okay ♪

♪ Okay

♪ You believe what I say here today ♪

♪ Let me hear you say it Yeah ♪