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NEIL: Cheers, mate, appreciate it. TOM: Anytime, mate.

NEIL AND BETH SIGH Cheers.

You coming home?

Er, no, I'll stay with Ollie. That all right, Neil?

Yeah, course. OK. We'll drive back in the morning.

Thanks for driving us.

CAR DRIVES OFF

Mum, are you all right? Yeah, yeah, I'm fine.

Not gonna be doing Zumba for a while, but I'll live.

Erm... I'm just gonna talk to Jess for a bit about your birthday.

What about it? It's weeks away. Go on.

What a day! Come and give your dad a shoulder massage.

You paying? Yeah, in the food you eat.

DOOR CLOSES

Look, I don't know what you think you know, Jess, but it's...

Don't lie to me.

Don't you dare fucking lie to me. Shh!

My dad, Beth. Look...

You're not happy with your man, so you go after my mum's?

If you try to stay calm and let me explain. No!

You sent pictures.

I can't... You and him - I can't even think about it.

Jess, just... just... just listen to me.

OK, listen. End it.

Fucking end it!

Tell me you're gonna end it, Beth, or I swear to God,

I will go in there, and I will tell your family

what kind of whore you are. "Whore"?

Will you be calling your dad that?

Cos there were two of us in this, and your dad,

he's been... he's been lonely.

No, you don't get to blame this on my mum.

I am not blaming her, but things, they are...

they are complicated. I don't care, I don't care.

Jess... I don't fucking care!

All right? I...

JESS SOBS Beth.

I love Ollie.

And I wanted to be with him forever.

SOBS

You've just ruined everything.

But that is... that is why we lied.

Because we didn't wanna hurt anyone.

I did not wanna hurt you. We did not wanna hurt your mum.

Then don't.

Nobody needs to know.

Oh, Jess, but that...

that is not a secret that you and I can keep.

Yes, yeah, we can.

All right, you've had your... you've had your fling,

and now... and now you're gonna ring him,

and you're gonna tell him it's over.

And don't you dare tell him that I told you.

But it's not a fling, Jess.

It's more than that.

JESS SOBS

SNIFFS

SHE KNOCKS OLLIE: Yeah?

Erm... Jess has gone home.

What? How come?

Er, I think she felt bad for her dad, you know,

being on his own.

What the hell? Er, no. Er... Don't call her.

Cos, erm... I think her mum and dad are going through a bit of a...

a bad time, so...

er, just let her be with him.

You all right?

Yeah, it's just, my... shoulder, you know, but...

I think I'm gonna go to bed.

DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES Hello? Jess?

Hey, I thought you were staying at Ollie's.

No, I changed my mind.

Dad, I wanna go back to the Lakes.

Yeah, first thing. No, now.

I wanna go back and be with Mum and Daisy and Lily.

Jess, I've been driving all day.

I don't care, Dad. I wanna go back. Are you OK?

I wanna go back now, so can we just go, please?

Get your car keys and... and get your shoes on.

Can we just go back? Can we just go? Hey, hey, hey!

What's going on? Has something happened?

I'm pregnant.

Brought you this. Oh, thanks.

HE GROANS

I've a good mind to bill your mate for the Uber.

Oh, shit. I didn't offer Tom any petrol money.

Didn't even think.

HE SIGHS I wouldn't worry about it.

I'm really sorry...

about all this.

Give over.

JESS: Please don't be angry with me. No, I...

No-one's angry.

It's...

Mistakes happen.

But you're still very young, and, erm...

you have your exams.

So we just... we need to figure out what to do next.

I just don't wanna cause any more problems.

You know, with you being ill before,

and now Uncle Paul and Auntie Leah...

I just want us to be happy again as a family.

Well, don't worry about any of that, now. OK?

It's good that you came to us before talking to Ollie.

Now we can decide... well, you can decide what's it is you want to do.

And nobody else needs to know if we don't want them to, OK?

TOM: She can't keep it.

Of course she can't, but we can't tell her that.

She has to decide for herself.

You know, I could get her into the surgery quickly. Tom...

Why the fuck were they not using protection?

I know that. You know that.

But there's no point even thinking about it.

SIGHS

I haven't been present enough.

First, there was the Daisy thing, and now this.

Yeah, actually, what was going on with Daisy?

OK. Erm...

So, Daisy was sending photos of herself,

intimate photos, to that boy.

And the little shit was saying that she was doing things.

Doing what things?

You can imagine. She's 14 years old.

I'm gonna kill that little fuck. She doesn't want that, OK, Tom.

I talked to her. She's really embarrassed.

But we've nipped it in the bud.

I think it's gonna be OK, so you don't have to worry.

Maybe we should tell Neil and Beth about this. No.

Come on. I mean, honestly.

You want them to say, "Yeah, yeah, keep it"?

Cos they will, cos they had children when they were young.

They'll think it's fine. And then what?

Then we're stuck with their families for the rest of our lives.

Absolutely not.

She thinks she's in love with that boy, but she's not.

It's a teenage crush. That's all it is. OK.

Who... She'll have it, where will it live?

Where... Who will look after it? We will.

She'll miss college, she'll miss university - great (!)

She'll fuck her entire life up,

It's ridiculous! I'm not advocating this.

SIGHS

Sorry.

I can't help thinking she's ruined everything.

BIRDSONG

We were using johnnies, I swear. I don't know how it happened.

I don't wanna be a dad. I'm not ready.

Think about me. I'll be a grandad. OLLIE LAUGHS

I think it's gonna be OK.

It's quite the development. Ollie's a mess.

Yeah. He's not the only one.

Tom, I don't... I don't know how to say this, but...

I don't think Jess is pregnant.

I think she's lying. Why?

Because she knows.

She knows about us.

How?

She confronted me...

after the hospital, and...

she found the photos that I sent you. Oh, my God.

Who else knows? It's just... just Jess.

But I told her that we had feelings for each other,

and she was so angry

and accused me of breaking up marriages,

and the next thing is she's telling you she's pregnant.

No, she wouldn't do that.

She wouldn't lie to Hannah or Ollie. She just wouldn't do that.

But she's so hurt.

And she... she's scared.

She hates me, and she's trying to keep her family together,

so she's creating a crisis.

Tom, she saw those photos.

We can't have them find out in this... seedy way.

We have to manage how they learn about this,

and no matter what Jess says, they will find out.

I know it's not what we planned, but we cannot keep it hidden any more.

What am I gonna do? Go back to my wife and say,

"Our daughter's not pregnant, and by the way, I'm leaving you"?

I cannot do this any more.

I am going to tell Neil.

And if you're serious about...

about being with me, then you have to tell Hannah at the same time.

Well, it's what we decided. Yeah.

It's just forced it forward. Yeah.

So, tonight, yeah? Tonight. Yeah.

Daddy, Daddy, I've been chosen to sing in the school show.

That's wonderful, sweetheart.

What you gonna sing?

I can choose, so Mummy thinks either Shake It Off or Firework,

but I want to sing our song.

Your friends might not know that, I'm afraid.

I don't care. You'll know it.

Well, let's think about this, shall we? OK.

I want to practise.

Well, why don't you think about two songs,

and then we can practise them both?

OK, Daddy.

Hey. Hey.

Good day? Yeah, fine.

Where's Jess? Oh, she's not here yet.

I think she's with Ollie.

Hi, Dad.

Hi.

How was school? Usual.

Sorry, dinner is gonna be a while,

I've only just put it on, to be honest.

I had that Zoom, you know, about the October event? Hannah.

Could I have a word? Yeah.

That's on, OK? OK, yeah.

Look, I haven't had a chance

to talk through any options with her yet, but I will.

It's not about Jess. Oh.

CHUCKLES

Hannah, you know that...

you know that you and the children mean everything to me?

Yeah?

And that nothing...

What? Nothing would ever...

What, Tom?

It's just, lately, I...

Lately what?

EXHALES

Lately, I...

EXHALES

I feel like such a crap father.

SIGHS

With... Daisy and now Jess.

I mean, I'm meant to protect them, aren't I?

I mean, what happened with my parents and your parents...

All I wanted to give them... Yeah.

Was a home that felt safe for them and... I know.

One where they felt loved... Tom, they do.

You are a brilliant father, OK?

And if there's been problems, then I am more to blame than you.

No, you're not. I am.

Look, we're good parents. OK?

And we've done our best, and the girls, they know they are loved.

They do. They do.

Oh.

SHE BREATHES DEEPLY It's just a lot.

RINGING TONE

'Hiya, this is Beth. Leave a message.'

DOOR SHUTS

Hi.

You eating with us?

No, it's OK. I was just walking Jess home.

Stay. There's plenty. CORK POPS

If you're sure.

Yeah, of course. All right, thanks.

I sang. We've got it recorded.

Yes, but not a full song.

It was a full song. There were three of us, and we did Little Mix.

Yeah, and they were awful. LAUGHTER

Just because you can't sing.

Didn't you wanna be Elsa in the school show, and they made you Olaf?

Yeah, and you know what, they gave it to Lizzie Doyle.

I remember that. I can't believe you still hold a grudge.

Yeah, let it go.

PHONE BUZZES

INDISTINCT CHATTERING

She's the best singer in the whole wide world.

DOORBELL RINGS I'll get it.

DOORBELL RINGS CONTINUOUSLY

KNOCKING ON DOOR

Where is he? Neil?

Where is he?!

You bastard! Dad, stop! Dad, stop!

What the hell?! I hit you, I go to jail.

I lay one finger on you, that's me inside. Get off him!

TOM GRUNTS, NEIL BREATHES SHAKILY

He's with my Beth. She told me.

Ask him.

Ask him!

Months, it's been going on,

behind our backs, shagging each other!

And now she's saying that they're in love.

No, Hannah, it's not as simple as that, it's... You and Beth?

You and my mum?

Ollie, I can explain. Yeah.

Yeah, so, if you have that baby, its grandparents are at it. Enough!

Get out. I'm sorry, Hannah.

Hannah, can I talk to you? Get out, you!

Can I talk to you? Get out.

Get out, you, now. Right now.

You, go!

She told you, didn't she? Ollie! Hannah...

I'm sorry. You'd have found out. You and that women, you are poison!

Get out of my house!

Look at your wife. This house.

This family!

EXHALES

Ollie, please, you have to talk to me.

Ollie, please!

You have to listen.

You have to listen, you have to talk to me!

Ollie, please.

You knew, didn't you?

I was protecting us. I told her to end it.

Because if they're together, then how could we be?

She's ruined everything.

Me and you and our families

and our whole lives, they're just gone, they're ruined.

So, it's my mum's fault? Hm? W...

So end it, then.

Get rid of the baby, get rid of everything,

because this is... fucked.

Ollie...

there is no baby.

I'm sorry, I was just...

I didn't want them to be together.

SHE SOBS

I'm sorry.

Ollie, Ols... It's over. We're done.

SHE SOBS

Beth, you're scaring me.

Just... Just say whatever it is you wanna say.

I've not been happy...

for a long time.

With myself...

but also... with us.

Right.

Nothing's changed for you, Neil.

Since we were 19.

But I... I have.

I've... I've changed,

and you haven't... you haven't noticed.

HE SCOFFS

Course I have. No.

No, you... you haven't.

OK, so...

I'll notice. I will.

What?

I've met someone.

HE INHALES SHAKILY, HUFFS

What?

Who?

Tom.

Tom?

Tom?

You and Tom?

DOOR OPENS

DOOR CLOSES

SOBBING

Oh, no, Ollie... Get out of the way.

Oh, Ollie, please. How could you?!

I'm sorry.

Ollie. Ollie, no, please.

Please... Please don't do it. No! SOBS

Mum, what's going on?

No, it's fine, sweetheart.

You go... go back to bed.

No, tell me what's happening.

Mum!

Frankie...

What have you done?

Come on.

SIGHS

DISTANT SOBBING

SOBBING

Girls... No.

You do not get to mitigate.

Leave.

Leave.

SIGHS

EXHALES SHAKILY

You leaving?

Yeah, I'll spend the night at Amy's.

And then?

After that?

I told Frankie.

I would have told Ollie, but...

BREATHES DEEPLY

Make you feel good, did it?

Did you hit him?

If you're going, go. Get lost.

If that's what you want...

You have taken me for granted.

Have I? Yeah, you have.

Just go, Beth.

No, you do not want to hear it because you want me as the bad guy,

but you do not look at me, you do not listen to me.

When was the last time that you even gave me a compliment?

Oh, horny, maybe.

Drunk, when you want to get your leg over.

That's crap. I wanted you to notice me.

I wanted you to care about my life, about my feelings.

My best friend died, and where were you the day after?

In the pub. Well, you said you were all right.

My best friend was dead!

And when I had my business, I... I was brilliant at it.

I was making people feel good, and that made me feel good.

And you only cared about yourself,

that I wasn't here to cook the dinner,

and that I wasn't here to look after the kids.

No, that's shite, Beth.

When I had to close it down,

you could barely keep the smile off your face.

It is true, Neil. You just want us like your mum and dad. No.

You just want your little wifey at home.

Oh, just shut up! Just... Or what?!

HE EXHALES

You know, since the day we met,

everything I've done has been for you and the kids.

Yeah, out there grafting, and never once,

Beth, never ONCE played away.

Never close.

Because you were mine.

Since we were 19.

But I am not 19 any more! Just fucking go, Beth.

I can't even look at you.

I am a woman.

And I have things, like, burning inside me.

And I am not gonna to spend the few years that I have left

forcing them to nothing.

Don't... Don't leave.

It's OK.

I will be back.

I love you.

And I will always be your mummy.

I'm sorry.

♪ I'm human Troubled and stubborn... ♪

No.

Neil called me.

It's a no, Beth.

Thanks. Go back to your family and beg.

Beg them to forgive you.

You're not hiding here, and you're not having my sympathy.

♪ You heard the words "I love you"

♪ And you felt safe from harm

♪ And with that trust... ♪ PHONE BUZZES

♪ Without tripping the alarm

♪ We'll stake out our places

♪ And sink into divide

♪ Cos no-one likes confusion

♪ We always pick a side

♪ And as sure as rain Will soak the grass

♪ And all things can't be new

♪ I hurt you

♪ And I love you

♪ Both things will be true. ♪

They hate us.

They really hate us. Yes, they do tonight.

But they're kids.

We'll talk to them. They'll understand.

Was it worth it?

Yes.

I'm sorry I lied.

About the pregnancy.

I was looking online this morning, for, erm...

apartments.

There's quite a few available right now, so...

with sort of three-month contracts and not a great commitment.

I'm being practical.

Well, and romantic, but mainly practical.

You know, Tom, I...

I think we should get our own places, you know,

so the kids have somewhere to stay.

But also... it's a lot of pressure.

Yeah.

Yeah, you're right.

Morning.

EXHALES

Did she come here?

Oh.

Did you undress her on this bed, pretend you were examining her?

Please.

No, I'm genuinely interested, Tom.

Was it the... the thrill of almost being caught?

Hannah.

So, do you love her?

Yeah, I...

Yeah, I think I do, yeah.

You're in love.

With a Zumba teacher. Oh, come on, don't do that.

Presume you took her to the Lakes?

You took her to the place you proposed to me?

Hannah, I never stopped loving you. No?

So, what, you just... you fell in love with her as well?

And now what?

You two ride off into the sunset together?

You have every right to hate me. I don't hate you, Tom.

I loved you. No, you should hate me.

You should absolutely despise me.

I've betrayed us, I've betrayed our family.

But I want you to know I really tried,

I fought against being this man. Oh, well, poor you (!)

I think that you stopped loving me when I got ill.

When it got difficult for me, it got difficult for you. No.

Yeah. Not all at once, but piece by piece.

And I know that, Tom, because I felt it.

Even at my party, that speech you gave,

you couldn't bring yourself to say that you loved me, could you?

Admit it. You became very hard to live with, Hannah.

Or did you not wanna say it because she was there?

Nothing had happened at that point.

Hard to live with, yeah, well, try being me.

I spent the last two years staring at the walls,

imagining the worst possible things that could happen to us, our family,

and unable to turn this off, stuck in my own head,

seeing it again and again.

And you used that against me.

But you know what?

Last night...

when I was alone in our bed, I realised...

I don't need you.

And I'm not scared any more.

Hannah, I... Don't you come near me.

Hey, don't you fucking come near me! You... Stop it!

Oh, God. You think you're in love?

Fuck you.

And I'm gonna make sure

that you spend the rest of your life regretting this.

The house, anything you want,

you better get ready to fight for it.

I've got our girls...

my girls...

and we are gonna be just fine.

SOFTLY: Oh, fuck.

Oh!

BETH BREATHES DEEPLY

I'll give it a year.

Where did you stay?

At a hotel.

With him?

What, you gonna get a place together?

BREATHES DEEPLY

I saw Ollie and Frankie at school.

I told them it was gonna be OK.

SCOFFS

Yeah, well, Ollie blames himself.

Frankie's gone back about ten years, acting like a baby again.

I'll make it right for them. Yeah, how?

I wanna show you something.

SIGHS

Neil.

Our life together.

Beth and Neil.

That's what we had, innit?

All those days.

All those years.

Remember that?

CHUCKLES

Frankie with that pig. Bastard pig.

Remember in Greece when we lost it? No, Neil, God.

All I ever wanted was a happy family.

And...

for a while...

we were.

Course there's happy memories.

You know, there's... there's loads of them.

But that were then...

and this is now.

OK.

But... I look at your face on these photos...

and I love you.

And I look at your face now...

in this room...

your lying, deceitful face...

and I still love you.

You've broken my fucking heart, Beth, but I still want you.

And... I can get past this. I can, Beth.

And I can change. Because...

you're the only woman I've ever loved.

And you're the only woman I'll ever love.

And I'm not...

I'm not asking you now, Beth.

I'm begging you.

Please, please...

I'm begging you, Beth, don't leave me.

I'll be better.

I'll be a good husband. I'll be a good father.

I'll listen to you, I'll look after you,

and you can start another business.

And I... I'll be strong. You won't have to mother me.

But I'm begging you, please, don't leave me for that man.

He doesn't love you a tenth of the way I love you.

And I'm a fucking idiot for letting it get this way.

Just look at us. All those times we shared.

Look at our faces.

We were so happy.

Please, Beth.

Please.

Please. BREATHES SHAKILY

Please.

Please.

CHEERING AND APPLAUSE

PIANO PLAYS INTRO TO 'SOMEONE YOU LOVED'

♪ I'm going under and this time I fear there's no-one to save me

♪ This all or nothing Really got a way of driving me crazy

♪ I need somebody to hear

♪ Somebody to know

♪ Somebody to have

♪ Somebody to hold

♪ It's easy to say

♪ But it's never the same

♪ I guess I kinda liked the way You numbed all the pain

♪ Now the day bleeds into nightfall

♪ And you're not here To get me through it all

♪ I let my guard down

♪ And then you pulled the rug

♪ I was getting kinda used To being someone you loved

♪ I'm going under and this time I fear there's no-one to save me

♪ This all-or-nothing really Got a way of sleeping without you

♪ I need somebody to hear

♪ Somebody to know

♪ Somebody to have

♪ Somebody to hold

♪ It's easy to say

♪ But it's never the same

♪ I guess I kinda liked the way You numbed all the pain

♪ Now the day bleeds into nightfall

♪ And you're not here To get me through it all

♪ I let my guard down

♪ And then you pulled the rug

♪ I was getting kinda used to being Someone you loved

♪ And I tend to close my eyes When it hurts sometimes

♪ I fall into your arms

♪ I'll be safe in your sound Till I come back around

♪ And now the day bleeds Into nightfall

♪ And you're not here To get me through it all

♪ I let my guard down

♪ And then you pulled the rug

♪ I was getting kinda used to being Someone you loved. ♪

CHEERING AND APPLAUSE

EXHALES

Hiya. Hi.

Where've you been?

Er, home.

Home?

Beth...

we had a plan, but everything's gone so quickly.

I...

I think I feel so lost.

I love you, but...

I didn't think I'd...

I didn't think I'd feel this lonely.

Feels like I'm living someone else's life.

And where is your life?

Over there? No.

I mean, I don't know, I...

I want... I want you.

I want them.

SIGHS

Nothing fits.

We gave up everything for each other.

You can't expect every moment to be perfect.

That's not reality.

It's just a fantasy.

And that's what it's been up to now.

A fantasy.

CHUCKLES

♪ If nothing lasts forever

♪ No-one makes it out alive... ♪

INAUDIBLE

♪ I wanna spend our lives together

♪ While we have the time

♪ And if there's no God to meet us

♪ Don't be scared

♪ We'll go back To where we came from... ♪

So, exams over. Yeah.

How do you think it went? All right, considering.

You? Pfff, who cares?

I'm going working for my dad.

Got any plans for the summer?

No, not really. You?

No, not really.

Think Mum might take us away.

Do you remember Blackpool?

When we missed getting off that train.

Yeah.

Do you think that's when it started between them?

Maybe. But...

we can't blame ourselves.

If it weren't then, it would have been some other time.

That was a good day.

Yeah, it was fun.

We should go again some time.

We don't have to tell anyone.

♪ If nothing lasts forever

♪ And no-one makes it out alive... ♪

They say attraction plus an obstacle equals excitement.

But what happens when the obstacle is gone?

What then?

Maybe...

you just have to start all over again.

Sorry to be late for our first date.

I'm not actually that kind of person.

I think it's our second date, officially.

♪ Have no fear

♪ Cos you got me

♪ And I got you

♪ Right here

♪ Right here

♪ Right here

♪ Right here. ♪

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