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♫ My precious, sometimes ♫

♫ I feel so tired ♫

♫ Also, when I'm lonely ♫

♫ My tears will fall ♫

♫ Try my hardest to grow up ♫

♫ I'll keep striving forward even when I'm lost ♫

♫ Being brave in this so-called darkness ♫

♫ Only because I thought ♫

♫ Life is a winding path ♫

♫ That lets us learn ♫

♫ To be fearless ♫

♫ To be fearless ♫

♫ Where are you now ♫

[Go Ahead]♫ Let's go together ♫

[Episode 40]

What are you doing?

As soon as you got here, you've had that look.

I just enjoy talking with her.

I like her so much, so I just invited her home for a meal.

You don't need to give me an explanation.

You can do whatever you want,

but what you do has nothing to do with me.

You won't like whatever I do anyway,

because your heart is with another family.

Think whatever you like,

as long as you stop these boring, bad thoughts. I have a girlfriend.

But I don't like her.

I'm not forcing you to like her.

I've tried.

I just can't like her.

Whoever is fine.

Anyone else is fine. I just can't accept her.

You don't have to accept her.

I hate her!

What's wrong with Ling Xiao?

Nothing.

Something suddenly came up.

Sit. Quickly sit.

Sorry.

I don't even know what you like.

Try them.

Here. Have some tea.

Auntie, don't do so much for me.

I can't drink it anymore.

I feel sorry for you today.

Ling Xiao had argued

a bit with me, then he left immediately.

Did we upset you?

No.

Boys are not like girls.

They are not that intimate when they grow up.

Auntie,

I'm not sure if I think too much.

If I'm wrong, don't get upset with me.

What's wrong? It's okay.

I won't. Go ahead.

Auntie, I think you really like me.

Of course. You are good looking with a good personality.

Who won't like you?

Thank you, Auntie.

I regard Ling Xiao as a younger brother.

Also, I'm jealous of Li Jianjian and him.

They were very intimate since childhood and grew up together.

After so many years, they were able to come together again.

They are also very determined with each other. Isn't it a godsent marriage?

Have some tea. It's getting cold.

Auntie, you probably don't know much about their childhood since you were in Singapore.

Their relationship is really good.

They grew up together. Everyone is jealous.

How do you know about their childhood?

Li Jianjian wrote an article before

that was moved to Weibo by someone. It also became the top search at that time.

All the staff in the hospital have read it.

I will send it to you.

Okay.

Have a look.

I will check it out when I have time.

Auntie, thank you for treating me today.

I won't bother you anymore. I will go back first.

- Sit for a bit longer. - No need.

- See you, Auntie! - Let me walk you out then.

No need, Auntie.

Let Xiao Chengzi walk you out then.

It's okay. No need.

- See you, Auntie. - Okay.

So you've persuaded your parents?

How can I persuade a person like my mom without any achievement?

But I plan to continue fighting,

but I will change the way I fight.

I will influence them with my actions.

But are your parents really getting a divorce?

Yes.

Why did your dad come up with this suddenly?

Aren't they a model couple?

Your mom always praised that your dad was obedient.

My mom also praised that I was obedient.

Now it looks that obedience is not a strength.

Your dad and you are preparing big plans secretly,

but you are not sad at all?

I... am sad,

but I force myself not to think about that.

Although my dad was like an invisible person at home before,

but he is at home after all.

My mom is quite pathetic actually.

My mom told me that

my dad and I were her career.

Now her career is a complete failure.

So to say, women should regard

improving and managing themselves as their lifelong career.

Look! At this critical moment, you can't rely on the obedient husband.

You can't rely on the obedient kid, either.

- I'm back. - You're back.

What did you have for dinner?

Hotpot.

It's convenient for you guys to have hotpot.

Why did she invite Feng Xixi?

Feng Xixi?

When I came home from work and was downstairs,

I saw Ling Xiao take Feng Xixi home.

Ling Xiao's mom treated a housewarming dinner. How many people did she plan to invite?

Why did she invite a female colleague?

What housewarming dinner?

I treated Zheng Shuran and my senior sister to have hotpot together.

So your mother-in-law didn't invite you to the housewarming dinner,

but even invited your husband's female colleague?

How much does she dislike you?

My husband likes me. That's enough!

I can't understand. Why?

Which parents don't hope that their kids can find a partner who they know the background history?

Your husband grew up with your family. How can she...

Were you really annoying when you were a kid?

Probably.

At that time, when Ling Dad moved house,

I gave them a basket of Chinese walnuts.

What's wrong with Chinese walnuts?

She doesn't like Chinese walnuts?

I know this.

Ling Xiao had a sister before. She was a few years younger than him.

When she went out to play cards, she would lock her daughter at home in a room.

That younger sister choked on a Chinese walnut, but the door was locked. Ling Xiao couldn't get out to ask for help without a key,

so the younger sister died in the end.

What? Such a big thing!

This is my first time hearing about this.

But she hates Li Jianjian until now because of the Chinese walnuts.

Is she okay?

I think it's not because of the Chinese walnuts.

It's because Li Jianjian knows all of her shameful history,

including Ling Dad and all the neighbors.

They all knew she caused her daughter to die because she went out to play cards.

After the divorce, she didn't want her son.

When she had an accident after so many years, she only had her son to take care of her.

When she saw Li Jianjian, maybe she felt exposed.

I guess.

According to what you said, from her standpoint,

anyone Ling Xiao chooses to marry will be better than Li Jianjian.

What's your plan now?

I don't have a plan. No plans at all.

In the end, things will mend. I won't struggle.

Let's not struggle, all right?

Okay. I feel relieved if you think this way.

I feel if you two have a strong relationship,

there is no contradiction you can't overcome.

Right! You exert influence on her!

You keep on influencing her!

This is a nice trick.

When you're drinking, you have to eat more vegetables and meat.

Otherwise, it's bad for your stomach.

As a dad,

I'm no use at all.

You don't tell me about things, so I'm very anxious about you.

If you tell me, I'm still not much help.

I'm really not as good as your Li Dad. Just look.

He can make meals,

he can talk reason, and he can chat with all of you so well.

As a dad...

Dad, you don't need to do anything.

With you in front of me, I feel at ease.

Okay. Good.

When I was in Singapore,

my mom did things that were even worse.

There were many times, I wanted to call you

and ask you to bring me back home.

Son,

back then, I had no way to go abroad to see you.

I let you suffer.

I know.

I know that you have a special job and can't leave. I don't blame you.

Dad, it's been a long time since I've dreamed about Yun Yun.

Do you think Yun Yun has forgiven me?

Have I repaid my mom...

all that I owe her?

Ziqiu.

♫ The rain was chased through the window ♫

Why are you here?

I was passing... and thought you probably didn't bring an umbrella.

Oh. It's nothing. I originally was going to take a cab home.

Once you got out of the cab, you'd still get wet.

Then, I'll trouble you.

It's no trouble.

Then, let's go.

♫ It never said, the pattering rain was my answer ♫

♫ If the rain falls heavily ♫

♫ Then just let me become the ocean ♫

Thanks to him,

everything was made brilliant.

The light that shined all around

was a smile.

Beautiful words.

So well-written.

♫ There's no wall that can ♫

♫ stop this sun ♫

♫ If the rain falls heavily ♫

♫ Then I become the ocean ♫

♫ Put on the light you gave, fly one more time ♫

♫ With grown wings ♫

Chengzi.

What?

Has your brother contacted you?

If you care about him, you should treat him better.

That summer, some new neighbors moved in upstairs.

The mother and father fought often.

The boy always sat on the stairs, reading comic books.

My father and I asked him into our house to eat dinner.

Not too long after, his parents got a divorce.

His mother didn't want him. He stayed with his father.

You're still eating? You still have the heart to eat!?

I won't let you eat! I won't let you eat!

When did you put this back together?

Give it to me.

Chen Ting, that's the only photo he has left.

Let the child keep it as a memento, okay?

Are you going to give it to me or not?

- Are you going to give it to me or not? - My god!

You're crazy! You're hitting the child!

Yes, I'm crazy. The one who should have been choked to death with that walnut is me!

Can you stop being like that?!

Why? Why did you give your little sister a walnut to eat?

Can you not bring up walnuts?

Can you do that?

Did I say something wrong?

It was him! He killed her!

Don't say that! Okay?

It was him who killed her!

Auntie!

♫ But we still welcome the future ♫

Auntie, don't you want Ling Xiao?

If you don't want him, give him to me.

I have an older brother now.

He's yours.

That's amazing! I have an older brother.

Here's soup for you.

I already said I'm not eating it!

Don't you want to go back?

You can see them every day.

Can you not be like this?

You can leave and then I can die.

Go!

- Don't answer the phone. - Mom!

- Don't answer the phone. - Don't do this! Mom!

Mom!

It's all my fault. Is that good enough?

It's not your fault. It's all my fault.

What's wrong with hating your mom?

You give your dad all your good feelings.

- You even give them to your neighbors. - They care about me!

Why don't you care about me?

♫ To be fearless ♫

♫ To fly ♫

♫ Where are ♫

[Recent calls] ♫ you now ♫

[Ling Xiao]♫ Let's go ♫

♫ together ♫

[Chen Ting]

Hello. Chen Ting? It's me.

It's not convenient for our son to answer the phone.

Is... he okay?

I just want... to say a few words to him.

Could you please stop pressuring him?

Can't you see what state you've pushed our son into?

He took care of you for so many years.

How could you have the heart to torment him so much?

I'm begging you, treat him better.

Just count it as doing me a favor, okay?

- Brother. Drink milk. It will make your stomach feel better. - Hey.

Last night, it rained heavily. Right?

But not one drop got me wet,

because someone came to pick me up.

Actually, she was just passing by.

Do you feel a little better?

Aren't you curious about who came to pick me up?

We know. It was your mom who picked you up.

It was raining yesterday and your mom was afraid you'd get wet,

so she went to pick you up and brought you back to the front door and then left.

Not a single drop of rain got you wet.

You're stirring me up at this early hour.

You two are always blaming me for keeping things inside, not saying anything.

Today, I'm just sharing my happiness.

Isn't that great?

You really have great timing. Pick the time when we're sick at heart.

Who's knocking so early in the morning?

What's wrong, Chengzi? Hurry, come inside!

Older Brother, Mom is gone.

This is the suicide note she left.

Do you know when she left?

She was watching TV when I went to sleep last night.

She was missing when I got up in the morning.

- What to do, Older Brother?- I will go find her.

Where are you going to look, Older Brother?

Did you call the police?

Stop crying.

Take care of Chengzi. I will go to look for Older Brother.

I will call the police first.

Ling Xiao, my son.

Sorry.

I'm not a qualified mother.

Maybe my existence in your life hurts you the most.

I used selfishness and a fragile love

to kidnap you and ignore your feelings.

Actually for these years, you gave up so much for me.

You suffered so much. I know this.

It's just that I'm too helpless.

I lost my own daughter.

I lost more in the car accident.

My mom,

the one I love,

my health.

I'm so afraid of continually losing. I'm also so afraid of losing you.

I regret not taking you away together at that time.

Even though I was on the brink of collapse and couldn't even take care of myself,

I should have held your hand and faced everything together.

I hated myself for being so fragile,

but I didn't know what the right thing to do was.

I wanted to make it up with the rest of my life,

but the more I did, the more mistakes I made.

Now I know,

I shouldn't use the so-called love to kidnap your will.

When fate tied me up on the wheelchair,

I restricted you to stay with me.

I knew you were suffering and you couldn't fall asleep often, but I lied to myself.

I'm wrong. I'm too selfish.

The reason why I didn't agree with you being together with Li Jianjian

is actually because I'm afraid to face the past.

I want to welcome a new life.

But when I saw that she was together with you,

it was like reminding me that I'd abandoned you before.

I'd hurt you before.

I don't deserve your love.

Yes. I'm not qualified to be your mom.

My love is too selfish.

Now I know,

you never belonged to me.

You should live with your own will.

I sincerely hope

that you will have happiness,

and I should let myself go.

I'm leaving.

Take good care of Chengzi.

Mom loves you.

Please forgive me.

Then forget me.

[Last words written by Chen Ting before her death]

♫ My precious, sometimes ♫

♫ I feel so tired ♫

♫ Also, when I'm lonely ♫

♫ My tears will fall ♫

♫ The taste of growing up ♫

Mom, you're awake.

You drowned.

You got a pulmonary infection. You also need to stay in the hospital for a few days.

Luckily, there were two big brothers.

They went fishing by the sea before the day started. They saved you.

Xiao Chengzi was terrified.

She stayed beside you for one day. She was forced by me to go back to sleep.

She read your letter.

She felt very guilty. She said she had a bad attitude towards you normally,

so you didn't mention her in your letter.

If you think you were wrong,

you should live on to make it up.

If you die,

everything will stop.

Those wrong things,

bad things,

and painful memories will be there forever.

They won't become better.

Can they still become better?

I remember when I was young,

I had scabies on my back. It was really painful.

You said when the suppuration went out,

the wound will become better.

We all will become better.

You see, the weather today is really nice.

♫ Thinking about when we first held hands ♫

♫ You held on tight like I’m all you had ♫

♫ One's getting bigger and one's getting smaller ♫

♫ All those years let us meet in the middle ♫

Coming!

Uncle Ling.

- How is it going? Have you finished packing? - Yes, all done packing.

I'm here to help you take the stuff.

Mom, hurry up! Uncle Ling is already here.

Coming. Check to see if we left anything else here.

Nothing is left.

Then I'll start to move some things downstairs.

Okay.

This... Leave them to me.

- Thank you, Uncle Ling. - Don't worry about it.

- Then I'll go downstairs first. - Okay.

I'm sorry.

I even made you come to help us.

It's nothing.

Here, check one more time. See if you left anything else here.

Nothing is left.

Let's go.

I always wanted to apologize to you.

What's wrong?

You called Ling Xiao the other day and I answered.

I didn't say nice things,

so I made you not think clearly.

It wasn't your problem. I've said it before.

It was my own problem.

Also, after Yun Yun was born,

you needed to take care of two kids by yourself.

I was at the station every day.

At that time, how would I know what PTSD was?

I thought you would getter better after a while.

Actually, for many things, I was to blame.

Sorry.

Don't bring up such unhappy things.

I almost forgot.

It's good to forget.

In the future, we will move to Singapore for good.

Xiao Chengzi likes it there, and so do I.

So, Ling Xiao needs you to take care.

I should do this. I'm his dad.

Right.

Coming.

After you go back, don't just have fun by yourself.

Mom's legs are not good.

You should help her cook food and do the housework.

Also, study hard.

Try to go to a good university.

Auntie Chen Ting, Little Big Bro and I prepared a Xiamen specialty for you. I put it in the trunk.

You can give it to friends when you go back.

Thank you.

You are welcome. It's my pleasure.

I also thank you.

Thank you for taking care of Xiao Chengzi.

It's nothing.

Xiao Chengzi, now you know. Life is hard.

Study hard when you go back home.

We will leave then.

Study hard. Don't only play.

When the new year comes, Jianjian and I will go to Singapore to visit you.

All right.

You should go.

Brother Ziqiu, thank you.

I will miss you.

All right. When you have time, you should come back to play.

I'm going.

Hey, silly girl.

Jianjian,

this time, I really have to let you take care of Ling Xiao.

You guys have to take care of each other.

Don't worry, I promise that I'll make him happy.

Auntie, have a safe trip.

Everyone's been sent home. You now have one hour to do your makeup and clothes.

When you're done, we'll head out.

Oh right! I have to hurry and find Tang Can for makeup; otherwise, we won't have enough time.

Let's go, let's go.

They're really getting married? (T/N: lit. getting a marriage license)

It's too sudden. I have to hurry and prepare red envelopes.

You have to prepare them! If you have money, make it a big one.

If you don't have money, then... borrow some and make it a big one.

You moneygrubber!

Hey, I've spent a lot of my money.

I invited everyone I know to go see your play tomorrow.

Isn't that something?

Don't mention it. I'm already feeling nervous.

What do I do if I don't act well?

When if I get overshadowed by the supporting actors?

What if the audience starts booing me?

I'll get our whole group to start booing back at them.

I love you, baby.

Silly.

Who is it?

Who is it?

- Auntie Jin! - Tang Can.

- Auntie Jin's here? - Xiao Jian.

- You're all at home? - Here, let me help you.

It's heavy.

Let me do it myself.

- Where's Yueliang? - She went out.

Doesn't she not have to go to work today?

She... went out to buy stuff.

I made a lot of delicious food for you all.

This time, there's definitely no shacha sauce. I remembered. Tang Can is allergic, right?

This time I made you all

glutinous peanut balls. You guys like this, right?

Thank you, Auntie! I like to eat these.

So polite.

Look at how messy this house of yours is.

In a bit, I'll clean it up for you.

I don't know how you three will be able to get married.

Auntie, I'll help you.

No need, no need. You keep doing your thing.

Now, we don't have anything to worry about.

This Auntie Jin is still our Auntie Jin who can't stand us.

That's right.

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Dad, hurry up. If you're any slower, the Civil Administration Bureau will close.

Stop rushing me. Soon.

Auntie He Mei bought a suit for Dad. He really cares about his appearance now.

You are very beautiful today.

You are very handsome.

I want a kiss.

Look at this. Is it okay?

Dad, Dad. This is good. Auntie He Mei has a good eye for clothes.

All dressed up like this, I feel a bit awkward.

Why do you feel awkward? It looks good, but the person looks even better.

Dad, you are really very handsome today.

Wow, Dad, a flash wedding?

Have you two even dated for a whole month yet?

How could you call it flash wedding? We first dated over twenty years ago.

All right. Let's hurry.

I've already put the household registration booklet and identity paperwork in my bag.

They're closer to the Civil Administration building, we've got to hurry.

After we get the certificate, we still need to take family photos.

Photos of the whole family will be great.

Hold on. Let me put on a bit more hairspray.

Dad, you're already looking very handsome.

Oh my god.

Go. Let's go.

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You're transferring ownership of your cafe?

Yeah. Although the cafe is starting to make a profit,

but I'm a dessert chef. Right?

I still want to make desserts.

Once I've transferred ownership of the cafe, I still want to open another dessert shop.

At that time, I want to ask Auntie Luo Hong to help me find a location. Is that okay?

Of course, that's okay.

Even in my dreams, I'd never thought there'd be a day

when I'd send off my own mom to get married.

My dad will definitely treat you well.

You also have to treat my dad well.

It'll all be good times from now on.

I wish you both to be happy.

Okay.

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You two... are too far apart.

Hold each other. You're already married. Look, look. Like this.

We can just forget about the hugging—

Forget what? You're the guy, take the lead.

Quickly. Hug each other.

- Let's hug. - Hug.

Lean on each other. Put your hand up. Look into the lens.

Get closer.

Look into the lens.

It's missing something.

What do we do?

Mom!

You're really pretty!

This is good.

Don't stop, don't stop. Don't let go. Tilt your head over.

- My smile is stale now.- Dad.

We're on the second-floor photography studio. Just go upstairs.

That's right.

Not bad.

The traffic was so bad on the way. Sorry, I'm late.

Ling Dad!

Congratulations! Congratulations!

You're finally here. We're just waiting on you for the whole family picture.

That's right.

Y-You two are the ones getting married, why am I in the whole family picture?

Look at how reserved you're pretending to be.

You're already dressed like that, you.

Besides, after Xiao Jian and Ling Xiao get married, we'll be even more of a family.

That's true!

Come, come. Let's take the picture together.

Come quick. Come over.

Stand behind your mom.

Stand properly, everyone.

Okay. Everyone, look over at the camera.

Get ready, we're about to take the photo.

Ready. One. Two.

Three.

♫ Thinking about when we first held hands ♫

♫ You held on tight like I’m all you had ♫

♫ One's getting bigger ♫

♫ And one's getting smaller ♫

♫ All those years let us meet in the middle ♫

♫ Goodnight, goodbye, my children ♫

♫ Perhaps you'll leave here ♫

♫ Perhaps the road home is getting longer and longer ♫

♫ Walk slowly and don't look back ♫

♫ I will keep guard here ♫

♫ Looking at your back view from afar ♫

♫ I'm like the house you used to live in ♫

♫ One day you will find a new life ♫

♫ Just like a leaf ♫

♫ Fluttering to a distant tree branch ♫

♫ All those years seems like yesterday ♫

♫ Goodnight, goodbye, my children ♫

♫ Perhaps you'll leave here ♫

♫ Perhaps the road home is getting longer and longer ♫

♫ Walk slowly and don't be sad ♫

♫ I will keep guard here ♫

♫ and watch you fly far away ♫

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