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(TJ): Previously on Doc.

(Sonya): He'll say all the right things,

he'll, do what needs to be done, he's TJ.

- Did you follow up on what we talked about?

The nightmares? - Yeah.

- I want to have a child.

- We've wasted so much time.

- Your ovarian reserve has become very low.

Gina, your eggs appear to still be viable.

- You started the day with a HIPPA violation.

I wanna know what you're gonna do to turn things around.

- I'm Graham. - Your parents gave what,

20 mil to the hospital?

She's insisting she's ready to work.

She does anything to earn my distrust,

I'll be showing her the door.

- Hmm. Dad, none of these are gonna work.

- Oh, no. - They're all burnt!

No, we need more.

- I've got bad news.

- No! - I know.

- We need at least one good batch.

- I know, I know. - Dad, come on!

- Let me just-- I gotta do a taste test.

- Hazel's gonna be here in like two minutes for our sleepover.

- In like two minutes? - Serious!

- We can just give these burnt ones to Uncle Kenny.

He'll eat anything, right? (chuckling)

(uneasy music)

- Where this Is?

(chuckles)

- What?

(rattling)

Roxy, what-- (breathing rapidly)

Wha-- What's going on?

- Where? Where? Where?

Where! - Where... what?

- Where! Where!

(theme music)

(soft music)

- So, did you find Mr. Right yet?

- Ugh, no. There's way too many to choose from.

- Oh, I like him. What's his CV?

- UCLA undergrad, MBA from Berkely.

- And he brews his own craft beer as a hobby.

Kinda like that.

- Is it me or does this whole thing feel like some icky,

master race sci-fi experiment?

- Well, what's the alternative?

- If Wendy has her way, Marcus.

- Her brother?

- Family lines, generational legacy,

and a dose of guilt since it was supposed to be her egg

to begin with.

- How do you feel about that?

- About the prospect of uncle daddy?

It's a bit fraught.

Too bad you already went there, I'd ask Ben.

- Not if you'd been having the memories

that I'm getting hit with.

- Oh, no. What now?

- It's about the trial.

Apparently, I consulted on it and I remember calling him

and asking him about a problem.

- But, but that was like four years ago.

They must've gone through half a dozen research boards

for approval to even get this far.

- I know, but now I'm wondering

if my brain is back to warning me about something.

- So you don't have enough on your plate

trying to manage 30 interns,

you wanna go on some wild goose chase?

Which violates your whole mantra.

Wait, what-what was it again?

Oh, right. You were going to look forward.

- Right.

- So go then. Into the future, please.

- Okay, I'm going. - Goodbye.

- Hey.

- Hey.

(soft music)

- So this is how it's gonna be now?

(phone buzzing)

- It's Rachel. I gotta take this. That okay?

Did you hear anything yet? (hospital din)

(door closes)

- Hi. I'm Dr. Larsen.

This is Dr. De Silva and Dr. Barker.

- James. My wife, Hillary. This is Roxie.

- Hi. Hi, Roxie. How are you feeling?

- I'm good. - Yeah?

- We don't know what happened.

Uh, it's like she's totally fine now, but she was...

And then they sent us up here

and they wouldn't tell us anything.

- The ER did preliminary labs and imaging,

and everything came back normal.

- Hey there, rockstar. - Uncle Kenny!

- That's my brother, Kenny. - Hi.

- Is Hazel here? - No, sweetie, she's at home.

- Uh, that's her cousin.

We can FaceTime her in a bit, okay?

- So, what's going on here?

- Dr. De Silva?

- We tested Roxie for infections,

vitamin deficiencies, and thyroid function,

all of which came back negative.

Our next step is to perform something called a spinal tap,

which will allow us to collect fluids

surrounding her spinal nerves.

- Oh, my God. - Uh, wait--

uh, it's like a... like a needle in her spine?

- Yeah, it's a very standard, well established procedure.

- Will it hurt?

- No, Roxie will be sedated. You won't feel a thing.

- Okay, so, why do you need to do that?

What exactly are you looking for?

- Dr. Barker?

- Anything that could be

effecting Roxie's nervous system.

Any sign of infection.

- It's the best way for us to get clear answers.

And what we find will determine our next steps.

- I know it sounds really scary--

- Yeah. - ...but we wouldn't

perform any procedure that we didn't think

was absolutely necessary.

(soft music)

Dr. De Silva, set up the LP. - Yes.

- And Dr. Barker, make sure you get all the consents signed

from Mom and Dad.

- Yes, absolutely. Oh, and Dr. Larsen?

I'm sorry, I meant to ask you something earlier,

but I have a family commitment this afternoon,

I was hoping I could... step out for a bit.

- Step out? In the middle of your shift?

- Yeah, it's a-it's a lunch thing honoring my stepmother.

You know, Nina Barker-- It's, uh,

it's kind of a big deal.

- There are protocols for asking for time off.

Clearly, you've known about this for a while.

- Yeah, yeah, that's my bad. I didn't think it was something

I could ask for my first week.

Then I spoke to her this morning, and she um,

she told me how important it was to her, so...

It's right on McAllister. It's...

- You have an hour.

You will finish everything

on your patient list before you go.

- Of course, of course, course.

I'm heading to check on, uh, Mrs. Gamellia's

blood cultures right now.

Thank you so much.

- Well. He seems peppy.

- He is something, that's for sure.

How did it go last night with TJ?

- Honestly, I have no idea. - What do you mean?

- Well, he was great, like I expected.

And then, this morning...

- Oh. Okay, well, he's avoiding.

It's not shocking.

- This is gonna sound strange,

but you've known him for longer than anyone else here.

- Yeah, like, 15 years.

But I have an eight-year blind spot.

- No memories of him during that period?

- No, not really.

What are you asking exactly?

- I don't know. Uh, something's just kind of...

he almost seems detached from the situation.

- Well, he's been through a lot.

I'm sure he has his coping mechanisms.

Maybe just give him some space.

- Right. Thanks.

(soft music)

- And this happened when? - About a week ago.

- Okay, we'll have Dr. Maitra take a look.

Here she is. Dr. Maitra, this is Mason McCanty,

swollen jaw from a bench-pressing injury.

- Barbell slipped outta my hand.

- Temp's at 102,

and the site's warm to the touch.

Looks like an infection.

- Yes, it does.

How much were you benching? - Uh, about 215.

I'm trying to put on some muscle mass, you know?

- Uh-huh.

I'm gonna demarcate

the area around the swelling. (groans)

So we can monitor the site. (grunts)

- What does that mean?

- It means I drew a circle on your face.

- Just making sure the infection doesn't spread.

- Suggested course of action?

- Blood cultures,

and start him on a broad-spectrum IV antibiotic?

- Mm-hmm. - Plus a CT to make sure

the infection hasn't invaded the bone.

- Exactly. - So, we're gonna do tests?

(scoffs) What's that gonna show?

- We need to take a closer look at your injury,

see the extent of the damage.

- Right. Fair, okay.

(soft music)

(machine whirring)

- Mm. Looks like the infection has invaded bone.

- That's not the only thing I'm worried about.

Look at those hairline fractures.

- Yeah, there's dozens of them. - Yeah, and see the pattern?

- I've been reading about this.

It's just hard to believe it,

even when you see it.

- I don't understand.

- This is why he was nervous about us testing him.

He did this to himself.

Intentionally.

(indistinct chatter)

- Hey!

- Aw, hi.

I'm sorry I'm late.

There was a mistake upstairs that I had to fix.

- Oh, always gonna be a reason for Dr. Larsen

to swoop in and save the day. (chuckles)

Can I get you a coffee or something?

- No, I'm fine, thanks.

- I don't know how to...

I'm so sorry about you and Michael.

The, the divorce--

- Oh, that's nothing that you need to worry about, TJ.

Anyway, I want to talk about you.

How's med school?

- It's incredible.

- Has the transition been hard?

- Transition? - From active duty.

- Stateside is definitely less exciting.

But it's all good.

- Well, I am so proud of you.

Finishing college while making Ranger.

- Yup, traded in frats and keg parties

for IEDs and night raids.

- It's quite a feat.

- Feels like I found purpose over there.

And now, with the medicine.

- I better be your first call when residency comes around.

- You gonna save a spot for me? I've got four more years.

- As long as I'm Chief.

(chuckles)

- We'd perform a bone resection to clear the infected tissue

then flush the area with antibiotics.

- Bone resection? That'll leave a scar.

- We can bring in a plastic surgeon--

- If your goal is to clear the infection,

I'm sure there's another way.

- Oh, you started the consult already?

- You weren't here yet, and he wanted to know the plan.

Did you explain to him that this could lead to sepsis?

- Of course.

- Sepsis means it could kill you.

- I get it.

You are not cutting a hole in my face.

- We won't know the extent of the damage

until we go in surgically.

- If you can't figure it out,

I'll do my own research.

- Seriously?

- Please, put the phone down, Mason.

You're not gonna find the solution there.

I'm hesitant to suggest this,

and I don't recommend it

but we could try a stronger round of IV antibiotics

with a needle aspiration and monitor the situation

very closely over the next 12 hours.

- As long as you're not cutting into my face.

- But you need to understand that it could get worse,

and at that point we would need to revisit the surgical option.

(scoffs)

- I'll take my chances.

- You'd better get an informed refusal.

- What's that?

- It means you're ignoring sound medical advice

in favor of a much riskier course.

- So, it protects you?

- That's right, it does.

(scoffs)

- Appreciate the consult, Dr. Coleman.

We'll page you if anything changes.

- A needle aspiration kit? - Please.

- I know this is something

you're not gonna want to talk about,

but are you doing something

to your face to change your appearance?

- I already told you it was the barbell.

Now go get whatever forms you need me to sign.

- Mason, we need to-- - No more talking.

- The truth is, looks is health.

I am going to show you

how to looksmax the real way in 2026,

starting with your jaw.

- Dude, you're gorgeous as you are, what are you doing?

- Uh, this is about a patient.

- Oh, God, one of those incel freaks?

- No idea. But it's, it's...

crazy what these looksmaxxers are doing.

(murmurs) My patient's bone-smashing

to give himself a better jawline.

- Good thing guys like us don't have to worry about that, right?

- Right. Sure.

- Anyway, uh, a friend of mine

bailed on the Twins game tonight,

so I got an extra ticket.

Killer seats, dude, like three rows from the dugout.

You down?

- Yeah, sure. Absolutely.

- Right on.

- The Twins are... baseball, right?

(laughing) - Oh, okay.

Got a lot to teach you. Uh, only thing though.

Uh, I gotta go to this lunch thing today

and I'm kinda behind on some of my patient follow-up.

Can you, uh...

can you do me a solid?

- You mean cover for you?

- Yeah. I mean, otherwise, we'll never make it out

in time tonight, so...

- Um, sure.

Yeah, uh, no problem.

- All right. Sick.

I gotta go do this spinal tap with Larsen right now,

but I'll hit you up with the deets later. All right?

(clicks tongue)

(door opens)

(hospital din) - We're just waiting.

Yeah, it'll take little while longer.

- It's gonna be okay, man.

I'm looking it up.

A spinal tap's not nearly as scary as it sounds.

And this is a great hospital, and these are the best doctors.

All right?

- Insert the needle at a slight upward angle,

aiming towards the umbilicus.

Dr. Barker, what does it mean if the CSF comes out cloudy?

- Meningitis.

- And if it comes up viscous,

Dr. De Silva?

- Cancer.

And yellow fluid indicates a brain bleed.

(tense music)

- It's clear.

- Which means we have no idea what it is.

- You did a procedure on her spine for nothing?

- No, it was necessary,

and it helped us rule out some things,

but we are gonna need to do more tests.

- Does this mean I can't go home?

- Not for a little while, yet, Roxie.

How long has your leg been doing that?

- I don't know.

- Is it from the procedure?

- No, no.

Are you feeling hot at all? - No.

- And she's all caught up on her vaccines?

- Yeah, of course.

- Kids need to be 12 months

before they can get their first dose of MMR.

Was she ever sick before she was able to get those shots?

Measles, mumps, rubella?

- Yeah. She had a fever a few times,

but nothing serious.

She never had a rash or anything like that.

- Measles doesn't always present with a typical rash.

Was she ever around anyone who had it?

- No, of course not.

- We don't know anyone that ever had it.

(Amy): Right.

- Hazel did.

- What?

- Hazel. She, she had the measles.

- When? - She was about two years old.

It was a couple weeks after

that big family reunion at Leech Lake.

- That was before Roxie's first birthday.

- So she gave it to Roxie? - No...

- Oh my God, this is--

You never had Hazel vaccinated?

- No.

- So this could be SSPE.

- S-what? What the hell is that?

- Let's not get ahead of ourselves.

Information is key,

and we just got a little bit more, which is good.

We're just gonna need a little more time.

(hospital din) - I'm sorry, Dr. Larsen.

I wanted to make sure you didn't miss it.

If she had measles as a baby it could've developed into SSPE.

- Of course I didn't miss it.

That's why I was the asking questions

about measles in the first place.

But SSPE is a death sentence.

We don't give that kind of information

unless we are absolutely sure.

- You're right, I'm sorry.

- This isn't the first time you've overstepped

in front of a patient or jumped the gun on a diagnosis.

And if we are going to deliver

news like that, there is a--

I can't understand what you're saying, Michael.

(whoosh)

(hospital din)

- Dr. -Dr. Larsen?

- If we're gonna deliver that kind of news,

there is a way to do it.

- I understand. So what do we do next?

- For now, we're gonna treat SSPE

as a diagnosis of exclusion,

so let's start excluding.

We will test for every other possible illness

and hope that one of them is the answer.

(dramatic music)

(hospital din)

TJ, your shift ended three hours ago.

- Yeah, I'm just catching up.

- If you weren't caught up, I'd know.

- Right, of course.

- You have to be back here at 6:00 AM.

- Yeah. I could just crash in the on-call room.

- Sure, but I need you fresh.

- I am not sleeping much anyway.

- Go home.

Tell Jennifer I said, "You're welcome."

- Oh. Um...

Jen and I broke up.

- Sorry. Are you okay?

- Yeah. I'm fine.

- You told me last week she was moving in.

- She just doesn't get it.

What we need to do to be doctors.

I will go home, be ready for you tomorrow.

Back at it.

- Hey.

You're sure you're okay?

- Yeah. It's all good.

(whoosh)

Yes, I already explained the risks.

The guy needs a psych consult.

- The girl's 11 and we're looking at the possibility

of SSPE, I need those labs now.

Fine. Just get them to me as soon as they're ready.

I'm literally standing by.

- No, no. The name's Gamellia. Francis Gamellia.

Yeah, just calling to check on her blood culture.

- Kyle. What are you doing?

- Oh, I-I-I was, I was just making sure--

- I don't remember asking you to check on my patient.

- Right. Sorry, I should've--

(sighs)

I'm just doing a favor for Graham.

- Graham can handle Graham's work.

I will get the blood culture results.

You get back to your rounds.

(TJ): Yeah, I understand.

- We'll get back to you.

- Well, feel free to call Dr. Maitra, he is her patient.

(phone clatters)

- I hope you're not talking to Dr. Grant that way.

- No, uh, Fox. - Still...

- Yeah. Um, non-compliant patient

really getting under my skin.

- Hey, I haven't had a chance to check in with you.

How are you doing? With everything?

- You mean moving to Surgery? That's going great.

- I mean with Sonya. - Oh. Yeah.

- I mean, it's a lot

so it's understandable if you feel thrown a bit.

- Did Sonya ask you to talk to me?

- No, no, of course not.

- Because it seems like you're pretty involved

in all of this.

- She was scared, TJ. She needed to know

how far along she was. - Yep.

- She saved hearing the heartbeat for you.

- Listen, I don't think this is the place for any of this, so--

- Right. I'm sorry, I--

- I have a few patients to attend to.

Some consults, so...

(door closes)

I know I freaked you out--

- Clearly, you need to talk to somebody.

(text alert chimes)

(dramatic music)

She's negative for anti-NMDA encephalitis.

- So that's good, right?

- It's a process of elimination right now.

The next step would be a cerebral angiogram.

- What's that?

- We put a catheter into the arteries

that feed her brain and inject dye

so we can see what's going on with the vessels inside.

(equipment beeping)

- God, uh...

What are you looking for now?

- This would be to eliminate a possible aneurysm

or abnormal blood vessels,

either of which could be causing this.

- I know that sounds scary,

but either of those would be treatable.

- And if you don't find what you're looking for, then what?

- A brain biopsy,

which is extremely invasive,

so we're putting that off as long as possible.

- What was the thing that your intern said before,

SS something?

- Yeah, I'm sorry about that.

She's only been here a few weeks and, honestly,

she was just trying to impress me.

We're going down much more likely roads right now.

(tense music)

- I did the needle aspiration

and the second dose of amp sulbactam

seems to be working,

but he's still non-compliant to surgery

and absolutely resistant

when it comes to talking about any of this.

- You did the right thing.

Offering him a less invasive solution.

Let's see if it softened him up a bit to wanna talk now.

- Have you ever seen anything like this before?

- Nope.

Hi, Mason. I'm Dr. Walker.

- Another doctor.

- Call it the deluxe package! Can I sit?

(clears throat)

Now, I spoke to Dr. Coleman and Dr. Maitra

and I understand how important it is to not have surgery--

- But you're here to talk me into it anyway.

- Not at all.

But you need to understand,

depending on the circumstances,

the infection itself could cause the scarring

we're all trying to avoid.

The integrity of the tissue under your jaw is important.

It can cause tethering of the skin as it heals,

which can cause asymmetry or even disfigurement.

Which is why we need to know if there's been prior trauma

to this area and what caused it.

And your facial scans clearly show

it wasn't a barbell.

I've seen this done with fists.

Hammers, even ice picks--

- It was a massage gun. Okay?

(sighs heavily)

You take the guard off, and you get more precision.

- And that's to undo years of damage?

From sleeping incorrectly?

Bad posture?

(chuckles) Chewing wrong.

(grunts)

- Yeah. That's, that's exactly right.

The blunt force creates calluses

and when they heal, the jaw squares out.

- Wolff's Law. I'm familiar.

- It's just science.

And face shape is a myth.

- Can I see some of your research?

- Hm.

- It's what you're all looking for.

- Who? - Women like you.

- I hate to break it to you,

but women like me tend to look for...

women like me.

(chuckles)

But I get your point.

- Did you know 80 percent of women

only date the top ten percent of men.

- Sounds like a high bar.

- My last girlfriend?

Total freakin' Becky.

She dumps me.

- Is that when this started? After the break up?

- Started? This is how life is.

When you're attractive, everything's easier.

That's just a fact.

Yeah, I think we're done here.

Uh, thanks for the chat.

(dramatic music)

- Dr. Matos, can I pick your brain for a minute?

- If it can wait an hour. I've got a procedure.

- Please, the patient's 11 years old.

I'm thinking cardio-embolic TIAs.

- There's no vegetation on the valves.

EKG's totally normal, not even arrhythmias.

Plus, head CT is normal.

- We are redoing that right now.

- I'm sorry, Dr. Larsen,

I have a patient waiting for me and you're grasping at straws.

(hospital din)

- CT's negative.

- Hey! SSPE.

That's what you said right?

- There are so many other-- - Just tell me!

Okay? Tell me right now my daughter doesn't have this.

- We can't.

But we really don't know anything for sure.

(Kenny): Hey. Sorry, the line in the cafeteria was bananas.

- Hey! You did this!

- What?

- You killed her!

- James! - Security!

(Kenny): Get off! - Stop, stop! Hey!

- She died? - No!

- Not yet! - Stop, stop!

- Get off me! - Stop it now!

(panting)

- It's fine. - We got this.

- I'm, I'm fine.

- Yeah. You're fine, Kenny! Yeah, you're just fine!

(dramatic music)

- It's kind of a sore subject in the family, you know?

But, I've done my own research.

I've read up on all the issues.

Natural immunity is better than vaccine antibodies.

And these pharmaceutical companies,

they don't want you to know this, but

those vaccines aren't even 100 percent effective.

- No, they're not.

But before the vaccine, the measles killed

two million people a year. That's the point.

Vaccines are highly effective,

and they're also a social contract

that we make to protect the weakest among us.

Our most vulnerable. In this case, our babies.

Hazel probably got it from somebody

who chose not to be vaccinated.

- I get that. I do.

But, when Hazel got sick.

We isolated her.

- I'm sure you did,

but the incubation period

for measles is 14 days.

Hazel would've been contagious

well before she had symptoms.

- But she got better. They both did.

So why is this happening now?

- SSPE can lie dormant for up to 30 years.

- So you're saying my daughter could get this too?

- Yes.

- If this is SSPE,

you're telling me there's nothing that you could do?

- I'm sorry. No.

(hospital din)

Two and a half hours?

- I-I am so sorry.

There was this guy that was giving a speech

that was way too long to honor my stepmom,

and he asked me to say something, and uh...

- I hope you enjoyed it, because that is the last time

I give you the benefit of any doubt.

Go. Change.

Help Nicki collect blood cultures.

- Oh, my stepmom--

she asked me to send her regards.

I mean, you wouldn't remember,

but, uh, you two knew each other pretty well a few years back.

She's a big fan.

(soft music)

- Ugh, don't tell me you're checking on me again.

- We told you this would require constant monitoring.

- I get it, but every 20 minutes?

- It's starting to spread.

- I thought you said it was getting better?

(grunts, groans)

- I feel crepitus. - Call the OR?

- Stat.

- No. I told you I'm not doing surgery.

- Okay, it can't wait any longer, Mason.

The infection's spreading too fast.

- I don't care. Just try something else!

- It is too late, Mason. You have flesh-eating bacteria.

Do you understand? This will kill you.

- I don't believe you.

(agonized groan)

- This is how serious it is.

- Okay. Okay, I'll do it.

Just please, can you bring in a plastic surgeon?

You can do that, right?

(equipment beeping)

(soft music)

- She's negative for Lafora now.

- And she's deteriorating.

We're running out of ideas.

- It feels like it's time to--

(whooshing)

Amy?

Like it's time for the biopsy.

I don't like it, but I...

- High fever, confusion, delirium,

myoclonus, what about toxoplasmosis?

- Do you have a cat?

- What?

- A cat. - No.

- There's a rare infection called toxoplasmosis.

It can come from cat litterboxes.

- Well, she was over at Jocelyn's place last week.

Doesn't she have a cat? - I think so.

- That could be what's causing this.

If it is, it's good news.

- Great. Um, what do we do?

- It's a simple blood test.

We'll make sure the lab rushes the results.

We can have them within the hour.

(exhales)

(hospital din)

- Where's Dr. Coleman?

- Good morning, Dr. Larsen.

I think he's still in the on-call room.

He crashed there last night.

(TJ grunting) - Dr. Coleman, you are--

(panicked grunting)

Oh, my God. TJ!

TJ. Hey, wake up.

Wake up!

(panting)

(grunting)

Hey, it's Amy! It's--

- Oh my God.

(gasps)

(breathing heavily)

(tense music)

(whoosh)

(equipment beeping)

- Ugh, I keep thinking what I could have done differently.

- His denial was too strong, Sonya.

We did what we could.

- Debriding this area of necrotic tissue now.

(equipment beeping)

Dr. Coleman, irrigate here.

I want this field clear before we go any further.

(hissing)

Give me the bone cutters.

- How far does the infection go? - He's gonna lose half his jaw.

(dramatic music)

- The extent of the damage is worse than we anticipated.

But we were able to clear the infection,

which means there won't be any additional tissue loss.

(sniffles)

- What will I look like?

- The advancements in facial reconstruction

have been incredible over the last few years.

- It'll take some time.

But we'll create a treatment plan.

- Time? How much?

- A year. Maybe two.

- Two--two years?! To recover from a surgery?

- It's not just one surgery, Mason.

- How many?

Just tell me the truth.

- It'll likely be dozens.

(exhales shakily)

- I just want to go back to the way I looked before.

(tense music)

(equipment beeping) - Unfortunately,

the toxoplasmosis test came back negative.

- Are you sure?

- We are.

- So now what?

- It's time for the brain biopsy.

- Does that mean you have to...

- Yes. We will take a small bit of brain tissue.

(exhales unsteadily)

- And what will that tell us?

- We have eliminated every possible diagnosis

except for two.

The first is an idiopathic encephalitis,

which would resolve with immunotherapy.

- And the other?

- The SSPE.

- Which will kill her...

Slowly in the most horrible way possible.

- James!

- Sorry.

(echoing)

- I can't understand what you're saying, Michael.

(murmurs)

- This test.

You're presenting it like it's 50-50,

but what is it really?

- If she did have measles as a child,

SSPE is far more likely,

but there's still a chance it's not.

- Oh my God.

Oh my God, oh my God.

(Hillary weeping)

(somber music)

(tearfully): If you'll excuse me for a moment.

(door opens)

- What happened in there?

(tearfully): Nothing. You don't need to talk me off the ledge--

- Well, I'm not here to do that.

- Then go. I'm fine.

- Well, sometimes you seem to forget,

I'm Chief of Medicine.

And one of my residents just ran out

in front of a patient's family.

So you need to tell me what's going on.

- I had a memory of the night Danny died.

(exhales)

And the funeral.

And.. (exhales shakily)

...it's just-- - This is exactly

what I was worried about with you coming back.

- It wouldn't matter, Michael.

These memories could happen anywhere.

- No, Amy. This case is triggering you.

That is what's making these memories come up.

- Well, you're just gonna have to deal with that.

Because I'm not going home

to stare at the wall and wait to heal.

- Right. Right. So we're back to that.

- I am still the best doctor

in this department and everyone knows it!

So what is this?

- I am trying to figure that out myself!

- Well, stop figuring and let me do my job!

(tense music)

(sighs)

- Did I hurt you? - No.

But clearly, you need to talk to somebody.

- I know I freaked you out, but it was just a nightmare.

- This is your life, TJ, okay?

It's not some mission that needs to be accomplished.

- What the hell do you know about my missions?

- You're right. I don't know.

All the more reason for you to get some help.

- I don't need that.

- Look at what's happening to you, TJ.

Everything you are bottling up inside,

it's gonna find a way to come out.

It always does.

- I hear you.

And...

I'll think about it.

- Okay.

Because I really don't want to hear you say,

"It's all good," again.

- I promise.

(whoosh)

(distant chatter)

- This one here? - Yeah.

- Hey, who's doing Roxie Kevel's brain biopsy?

(drill whirring)

(equipment beeping)

(tense music)

(hospital din)

- How is she?

- Uh, the biopsy went well.

No complications and she's stable.

- Thank God.

- We sent the tissues up to the lab.

Results can take up to 24 hours,

but we pushed them hard,

so hopefully we'll hear something in under 12.

- Okay. So now?

- We wait.

- I can't believe my brother.

- Can I speak freely?

Not as a doctor,

just as somebody who's lost a lot in her life.

- Yeah. Yeah, go ahead.

- Family is a gift we're only given once.

Even when they're at their worst.

And especially when they still want the best for us,

we've got try to find a way to hold on to them.

- I can't forgive him.

- So don't. Not yet.

Maybe just let him be there for you.

Because you're gonna need each other.

Trust me on this.

- Yeah. Thanks.

(soft music)

(hospital din) - Hey, man.

Been looking for you.

- Hey! Ready to go? - Uh, yeah.

Uh, I got some bad news, man.

Turns out my buddy is coming to the game tonight,

so I don't have that extra ticket with us.

- Oh. Okay.

- But I did get you your own seat. Few rows back, but...

- Sitting alone?

- I mean, I was trying to get you something closer.

(chuckles)

- Right. Yeah. Uh,

I think I'm just gonna hang back

and get ahead of tomorrow's work.

Thanks anyways.

- Yeah. Sure. Rain check.

- Dr. Barker.

- Catch you tomorrow.

- You know what we've been dealing with today,

with Roxie and her parents.

- Yeah, yeah, pretty rough.

- Yeah. Kyle was on a rough one, too.

And do you know what didn't help me or anyone?

Was your lack of performance.

- Excuse me?

- I checked the specimen logs

from all the patient labs from earlier.

Mrs. Gettleman, Mr. Wright, Ms. Sparr.

Kyle did them all. - Yeah. Yeah, we swapped favors.

- They're not favors. They're assignments.

- Yeah, but when you're on call--

- You weren't on call, you were at a luncheon.

- I'm sorry.

I didn't realize it was a big deal.

- It's all a big deal.

Being a doctor is a big deal.

So, you'll stay late and finish the hand-off list.

- Oh, no, I'm done with my list.

- No. Not just yours. Everyone's.

- You know, I really wish I could.

I'm just taking a few friends to a ball game,

they're already there, I can't text them the tickets.

It's a whole... moving barcode thing.

- Oh. Sorry to interrupt, I didn't realize you were--

I just need a sign-off on Mrs. Gamellia's discharge.

- Mm-hm.

To be continued, Graham.

We'll pick this up in the morning.

(door closes)

(soft music)

(phone ringing)

(Wendy): Hey, Babe.

- I can't choose

the father of our child based on what college he went to

or how chiseled his jawline is.

(Wendy): We're not doing that, Gina.

- Yeah, we pretty much are.

So...

let's go with your brother.

(clicking on phone)

(door opens) (text sent alert)

- Hey.

- I didn't mean to ambush you earlier.

- I know.

- TJ. - Yes?

- Your leg's shaking.

- Oh, um... Yeah, it does that sometimes.

- When? - I don't know exactly.

- Clearly you're stressed.

- I have handled a lot more than this.

- I know you have.

But I know you, and you always have a plan.

And this isn't-- - Improvise, adapt, overcome.

- I'm sure that works in battle.

But you are not in battle right now.

- That was a joke.

- Oh.

I had a memory of us.

And I told you,

you needed to see somebody.

- Oh, yeah, that was um,

that was a few days before your accident.

I had a nightmare in the on-call room.

It was a...

a sleepwalking kind of thing.

- And did you see someone?

- Yeah.

Yeah, I saw a specialist and I sleep great now.

No more nightmares.

I know you're worried about me.

And I appreciate it.

But trust me.

It's all good.

(soft music)

(door opens)

(hospital din)

(distant phone ringing)

Tough day. - Yeah.

- Guess we got our wires crossed a bit.

- Maybe you need some space.

To process this.

- Maybe just for tonight?

Maybe I get some sleep that way.

- Yeah. Sure.

(exhales)

- Dr. Maitra.

(soft music)

- You serious? Have a good night.

Um-it--what time is she going to bed?

(equipment beeping) (door opening)

- I just checked in with the lab.

They're gonna let me know

as soon as they have the results.

Do you mind if I wait with you?

(door opens)

(soft music)

(phone buzzing)

This is Dr. Larsen.

(Lab tech): We got Roxie's results.

I'm sorry.

It's not the news you wanted.

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