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I'm coming!

I can't...

It really hurts.

- What? You can't... What? - Can't breathe. Pull it out.

- What? Are you serious? - Pull it out, yeah.

Okay. On three.

One, two, three.

Good God.

Oh, God! Okay.

Let me see. Talk to me.

Sit me up.

- Sit you up? Okay. - Yeah.

- Help me. - Ready?

I got you.

- It's okay. There. - God.

Okay?

I know, I know.

But stay awake, okay?

Just tell me.

What do you remember happening out there, huh?

What are you saying? What is that, Portuguese?

Is that Portuguese? Who am I?

It's Jason.

Tell me what happened. What do you remember?

- Tree... - That's right, the tree fell on us.

That was bad, wasn't it?

All right. Keep the pressure.

I know, I know, I know.

Come on, green.

Yep, yep. There we go.

Yeah, yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

One more, keep talking.

Okay. Come on, green, green.

Almost there.

Keep your head up. Keep your head up, keep breathing.

Please, Amanda, please.

It's gonna be okay. I need to get you outta here, okay?

You gotta get up.

It's okay. Sorry.

I'm gonna get us out of here.

But how do I...

How do I do this?

Oh, man. How do I...

How do I do this?

I need...

I need...

I need help.

We need help.

Okay. Just lean on me.

Help! Hello?

I'm gonna put you down. Okay?

Anybody?

- Hands up! - All right.

What the fuck?

Did you drive into my house?

No. No, no.

Listen, my friend, she's really badly hurt.

I think she might be dying.

What happened?

A burned-out tree fell on her, and the branch, it hit her in the chest.

Look, it's really bad.

Can you please call an ambulance?

We will not be inviting those motherfuckers into my house.

What?

Okay, then.

Gentle pressure here.

- Gentle. - Yeah.

I'm gonna...

All right. It's okay.

Shit.

It's okay.

It's okay, I got help. Look at me.

Come on. I found help.

I got help.

Okay? Easy going.

Amanda.

Yeah, it's so bad. Look.

Look at this.

Oh, my God. Okay, okay, look...

Out that door, hang a left. First door on the right is the bathroom.

Wash your hands and bring me back those two bags underneath the sink.

Yeah, I've got it.

I'm Laurel, by the way.

I'm Jason. That's Amanda.

Amanda.

Hey, Amanda.

Hi, Amanda.

Stay with me.

Can you hear me?

Stay with me. Stay with me.

You're gonna be okay.

These?

Yeah, yeah.

Now, I'm gonna need you to feel her pulse right here.

- Her pulse? - Use two fingers, yeah,

and if you can still feel it there, her blood pressure is above 90.

I've got it.

Tell me if it starts to weaken or get thready.

And keep her awake.

No matter what.

Yeah.

Hey. Hey, hey.

Hey, hey, look at me.

Why isn't she breathing much?

She punctured a lung and she's bleeding into her chest cavity.

We're gonna need to put a tube in there, expand the lung, and drain out the blood.

Okay. Okay.

Okay, yeah.

Look at me. Look at me.

- Can you see? - Amanda.

Now stay with me.

Stay with me.

I need you to help me hold her down.

Let's go. Let's go. It's okay.

One, two, three.

You gotta hold her down.

Yeah, okay.

I need you to feed that tube in while I pop this in with a clamp. Okay?

- Yeah. - Okay, here we go.

One, two, three.

Go, go, go.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. That's it.

- You okay? - Yeah.

Yeah, okay, you got it. Good, good.

Good job.

You okay? Okay?

One more.

Okay.

Looks good.

My grandfather started this collection.

Mom and Dad added to it considerably for a while.

I thought I might...

I might take up the tradition.

Well, that was an incredibly unpleasant evening.

Yeah.

How's about you tell me what the hell was going on?

I don't entertain.

It's okay.

Thank you.

Listen, I'm really sorry

- about all of this, so-- - Skip that.

Okay.

Are you familiar with quantum mechanics?

- No. - No.

Okay.

All right, how do I say this? The box...

is a gateway to other realities.

That you crashed into my house?

Well, yeah.

I mean... Well, I didn't mean to do that.

I actually don't know how it works exactly.

Well, is there somebody in charge here that I could talk to?

You're gonna have to hear it from me.

I mean, she was in so much pain.

You know, I got her free and I...

I got her back in the box,

- and then-- - And then you came here.

You believe me.

Well, it's all too wild and dumb to be faked.

Could she die?

I'll do whatever I can not to let that happen.

Are you some kind of doctor?

I mean, what... what is this, some kind of hospital?

Oh, well, I was a... a corpsman, and then I was a civilian nurse, yeah.

After all hell broke loose on 5/20,

they needed a place to care for the not critically wounded from the neighborhood.

I had this huge house, a skill set, and they offered equipment.

One thing led to another, so...

5/20?

What is that?

May 20th.

Dirty bomb attack on Chicago.

Almost 20 years ago.

It didn't happen in my world.

Sounds nice.

She's gonna need a lot of rest and to be watched closely,

so we make sure she's not developing an infection.

How long do you think it would be before we're able to travel again?

I don't know.

Weeks.

Weeks?

I really need to get back to my family.

Hi.

Hey.

Where are we?

Where?

I'm not even really sure.

But...

we... we landed in a woman's house.

Luckily, 'cause she knew how to patch you up.

Are you in pain?

- Yeah. - Here.

Thank you.

You gotta rest.

Hi.

How is she?

No fever.

But that looks really inflamed.

Yeah.

What is that?

My friend Pat's a doctor.

He got me some antibiotics and real painkillers.

She woke up before.

- Really? - Yeah.

Just went right back to sleep though.

Hey.

You're doing the right thing.

You did a pretty good job in here.

Yeah, it's the least I could do.

That's true.

I opened this bottle.

Get yourself a glass.

Hey, when I asked you to call an ambulance,

you said that you didn't want those people in here.

Why?

What were the authorities like in your world?

Well, in my world, ambulances are not authorities.

That must be nice.

After the dirty bombs,

there were these revenge-seeking fuckers looking for blood, which I get.

I'm a fighter. I'm... I'm the kind of person who runs at trouble, is trouble.

But I'd spent time in the machine,

and believe it or not, it meant a lot to me.

As a woman, as a member of the Navy, I'm proud.

It doesn't change what I saw when I was deployed.

But...

extremists aside, most people are just people.

So I didn't think turning the other side into dust

was any kind of justice for Chicago, and I wasn't the only one, so...

we did what we were supposed to do.

Protest, march, speak out.

And they did what they do.

Made it all illegal.

Got neighbors reporting on neighbors.

So, no strangers in my house.

We're strangers.

Do I seem happy about it?

I'm gonna lift your head, okay?

We need to keep her fever down.

This should help.

She's so hot.

Hey.

Hey.

Here.

Hey, this is Laurel.

She's been taking care of you.

- Hi. - Hi.

How are you feeling?

It hurts a lot.

I think I can help with that.

Thank you.

Hey.

I made it all the way to the kitchen and back.

Impressive.

Are you in pain?

Mostly tired.

Sit down.

Laurel said my stitches can come out tomorrow.

Yeah, look at this.

I'm gonna be able to wash my hair.

- Thank God. - Fuck you.

And...

I have a bedroom now.

No more couch surfing.

How are you?

- Good. - Hey.

I almost died.

I didn't.

I'm out of the woods.

Look at me.

Go find them.

Look, I've been doing a lot of thinking about what happened to me, to us.

He kidnapped me from my life and put me in his.

Like, my life and my family,

and you, and his life were interchangeable.

Or disposable.

Yeah, exactly.

Yeah.

And I've also been thinking what it would take for someone like me...

Well, I mean actually me,

to become a person like that.

And I want my life and my family back more than anything.

But I can't let it make me into him in the process.

You...

are not disposable.

You're not him.

Hey. I just went and checked in on her.

She's out cold.

I gave her something.

She pushed it too hard today.

How long do you think it's gonna be really?

Two more weeks. She should be able to walk without help, lift light things.

Probably a month before you can take her in the box.

Everything okay?

It was my son's birthday yesterday.

What's his name?

Charlie.

I'm sorry.

What?

Fucking sucks.

Yeah.

- Much better. - Yeah?

Yeah.

- Thank you. - You did good.

High five.

- Okay, better get the light. - Okay.

- Hey, hey. - Surprise.

- We felt bad about ruining the sofa, so... - Yeah.

And I spoke to Pat, and he let me do some extra work for it

and the rug.

You don't like it?

- We can change it, right? - Yeah.

Yeah.

How did you get it in here?

Pat and I carried it in.

You let him in here?

I covered the box.

It's not about the box.

He doesn't come in here.

Never in here!

Hey.

How did you get up there?

I climbed.

You should be more careful.

Easy.

Easy.

What?

You remind me of my grandpa.

Jesus.

People thought he was meaner than he was.

- Good. - Right?

Yeah.

- Thank you. - There we go.

Okay. There.

Thank you.

I'm sorry about the sofa.

Here. You know Pat.

This guy here is Rory.

Complete shithead.

My best friend.

And the love of my life.

We organized a little hospital here together.

We'd both been deployed, so we knew what war looked like.

After they changed the laws,

I begged him to shut the fuck up. It was too dangerous to speak out.

He got quiet for me.

I didn't know I was a coward until then.

Someone turned him in for possession of banned materials.

I never...

ever found out what.

Rory died in a holding cell...

waiting to hear the charges.

So...

I don't let people in my house.

And not ever... never in here.

For all I know, half of these books have been banned by now.

I'm sorry.

We should have asked.

You were being kind, and old Pat there is a good one.

You know, from what I've seen on the TV and the Internet...

things seem pretty peaceful out there.

You sound like Pat.

What if things are better?

What if they are?

It can all change in an instant.

What's fine today gets you killed tomorrow.

You pack the solar battery charger?

Yeah. Tested it this morning.

Coffee for the road.

I wouldn't want you nodding off while you're dimension-hopping.

Can I hug you?

Sure.

Thank you.

You be safe in there, okay?

Here you go.

And help yourself.

I'm Laurel by the way.

Thanks.

Leighton.

It... It broke through the wall.

I don't know, maybe six weeks ago.

So you just live in a house with the box?

Oh, shit. Listen, I will leave.

You don't need to do any of that.

That won't be necessary.

I won't let you hunt them down.

Them? Who's them?

Jason and Amanda.

I know what you did.

I know the whole story.

After they escaped Velocity, you tried to kill them.

Listen, I think you have the wrong guy, okay?

You're Leighton, aren't you?

Right name, wrong version.

You're an asshole.

- Yeah, yeah, yeah. Ha! - What the f...

You know, I know you're cheating. I just haven't figured out how yet.

I thought you Leightons were supposed to be geniuses or something.

It's been a week. You should've figured it out by now.

- Fuck off. - Another hand?

I don't know. I guess that just...

- Fuck off. - Okay, pussy.

That's not what your mom said.

My mother would have destroyed you.

- Clearly. - Go again.

- Obviously. - Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

So, I'm going back in the box tomorrow.

I was thinking, yeah, if it's cool with you,

maybe I could come back from time to time.

What do you think?

Well, this isn't a bed-and-breakfast, especially since you're not paying.

Listen, I can bring you back something cool from another world.

Besides, I was thinking about this like a...

a way-station kind of thing, and you're the perfect proprietor.

How do you figure?

Look at you.

You're a take-life-as-it-comes sort of gal.

And you're wise.

- You mean old. - Knowledgeable.

Old again.

Laurel, you have medical training

and the space to help people,

and clearly you wanna help people no matter how much you wanna pretend.

So?

We agree?

How do you figure?

Come on. I know you love this.

All right.

- Round 52. - Yep.

Okay.

Stop.

Hi.

Okay.

Thank you for these.

So I...

I'm sorry, I have no idea how to talk to people anymore.

You don't have to say anything.

Okay.

I really thought that I was okay to go back in.

You have no idea what I'm talking about.

I think I get the gist.

Yeah?

You traveled, bad things happened.

You stopped, you traveled again,

more bad things.

Yeah.

You're safe here now.

Okay.

How about we do a normal human thing?

How normal?

A walk around the neighborhood.

I'll introduce you to my friend Pat.

He's extremely bland.

I'll tell him you're my cousin Barbara's daughter.

Fifty-six.

Eighty-five.

It's really beautiful.

- Yeah. - Yeah.

Well,

I know you probably don't wanna hear it,

but I think you saved my life.

Come here. Come on.

That's way too much emotion for the middle of the day.

No.

You're a badass bitch.

Well, back at you.

It worked.

Wait. No, something... something's not right.

Laurel, you know us.

Were you impaled by a tree?

Yes.

- Hi. - Hi.

- It's so good to see you. - And you too.

We just need a day off.

- Reset. - Yeah.

Make yourself at home.

- Thank you. Thank you. - Okay.

How are you doing?

Well,

every world that we went to was almost like mine,

but none of them actually mine.

But you're getting closer.

Yes and no.

We have eight ampoules left.

I'm starting to think that the chances of finding home

are getting smaller every day.

You know, I always thought that when... when I met Daniela, my wife...

it was like some kind of miracle, that to find a true match is so rare.

Given that most of us just compromise.

And you didn't?

Because I seem to recall late night chats about you giving up quite a lot.

There is no perfect match.

There are just people who are worth making sacrifices for

and your willingness to do so.

You each make choices over and over.

Hold tight to happiness where you find it.

And...

Bob's your uncle,

perfect match.

But what if I never see them again?

Everything ends.

It's a fact that we somehow...

never see coming.

It'll hurt you more than you can stand.

It'll almost kill you.

And then one day...

it's just a chapter.

There you are.

Before we commence with the evening, I want to update you.

I had eight visitors while you were gone.

Good.

Yeah.

A Blair.

She's the one who did all this, by the way.

- What? - An Alex, a Ryan.

Ryan?

One other Jason and Amanda,

- two solo J... - Wait... What do you...

What so... there's other versions of us?

Well, apparently you made choices in the Corridor.

That's how one of them explained it to me.

- Jason. - And a Leighton.

- A Leighton? - Oh, yeah, Leighton...

It's... He's not... It's not the one that was after you. He... He's...

It's a whole different version.

Anyway,

they all reported that your emotions and thoughts

determine what world you end up in.

This makes sense because we were thinking about you when we were trying to get here.

Enough about that.

I am ordering Indian food,

we're gonna crank some music,

I got a new card game that I'm dying to try,

and if you like...

mushrooms.

Leighton... Dear Leighton told me that shifting perspectives can help.

Oh, my God.

I wanted to be a physicist once.

You are a physicist.

Yeah, but I mean, like a...

"Figures out the secrets of the universe at CERN" type physicist.

Do you...

Do you have CERN here?

The things that make black holes or something?

Yeah. Yeah. That's the one.

Why can't you still be that kind of physicist?

I think that that moment has passed me by.

I always wanted to be a writer.

Yeah?

Well, why don't you... Why wouldn't you do that?

Never had anything interesting to write about.

I mean, maybe you do now.

"The voyage...

of the best ship is a zigzag line of a hundred tacks.

See the line from a sufficient distance

and it will straighten itself to the average tendency.

Your genuine action will explain itself

and will explain your other genuine actions.

Your conformity explains nothing."

- Wow. - Wow.

It means stop seeing the journey you're in as a phase.

Look more broadly. See the bigger picture.

Life takes you here and there, and it can feel all random and tragic, insane.

And then one day it's like,

"Wow.

I was always coming here."

And if you made the choices that brought you here genuinely...

you'll be at peace with where you end up.

I adore you.

Life is long and surprising.

You just love an understatement, don't you?

What did you want to be when you were a kid?

Brave.

I think you did that.

I think we're asking the wrong questions.

Amanda, what do you mean?

We're asking ourselves, "What did you want to do with your life?"

You know, we're looking back.

I think we should...

we should think of what is next.

Looking forward, you know?

So, what do you wanna do next?

Well, before I came into the box,

I wanted to change my relationship with my mother.

I wanted to be better at my job.

I wanted...

What?

I wanted him to love me. He never did.

'Cause he's an idiot.

Yeah, he is.

He never deserved you.

Yeah.

So that's still before. What now?

Yeah. So, now...

after seeing so many realities and possibilities and...

And nearly dying.

Exactly.

All I can think of is...

here, now.

This present moment.

This is what I want.

I want to live in the moment.

Yeah.

I'm just about ready.

Hey.

I thought we were leaving today.

What?

Have a seat.

I looked up the Amanda Lucas of this world.

Yeah.

She never moved to Chicago. She has an entire life in Brazil.

Okay.

She's married.

We have different names.

So...

It's perfect.

I think we both see it.

That my presence has become a distraction.

You have a world that you're looking for.

You have your family that you're looking for.

But I don't have that.

I'm completely alone, except for Laurel.

And you.

You're not even my Jason.

How are you doing?

I miss him.

But I hope he's safe and that he found his family.

Though it's been said Many times, many ways...

Merry Christmas to you

Thank you very much.

So I was thinking, if you wanna travel with me,

you're more than welcome to.

Thank you.

But I'm gonna sort out my life here.

Yeah.

Pat says they could use a psychologist at the hospital.

I just need fake papers.

I know a guy.

I assumed.

Merry Christmas.

Cheers. Saúde.

- Chestnuts roasting on an open fire - Fancy in every single world.

Every single one.

Amazing.

Hey.

Hi.

Are you...

Yeah. Yeah, it's me.

Hey.

- Did you... - Oh, no. No.

I'm sorry.

Yeah.

You know, I went to...

a whole lot of worlds,

and none of them even remotely close to mine.

And now...

That's all that's left.

But I know it doesn't matter because I'm not...

I'm not ever gonna find my way home.

But I do know that you're wrong.

You're wrong.

What do you mean?

It's not 'cause of you.

It's me.

And I... I gotta live with that, you know? I gotta figure that out.

I heard the bell.

Jason?

Jason?

I keep coming back.

Do you think that I could use the upstairs guest room?

Of course.

How long are you staying?

As long as you'll have me.

- Is that a reminder? - Yeah.

Very good.

Finally!

Pat was telling me she steals books from everybody.

And I couldn't tell if he was joking or not.

Okay.

He's sweet.

Jason.

It's beautiful.

It's... it's the star Polaris.

You remember the night with the mushrooms?

Yeah, yeah. Of course.

We were talking about the sailing ships going... tacking this way and that.

And how they seem directionless,

but when they get to the end,

it's like that's where they were always meant to be.

Yeah, I remember.

You've guided me through all this.

Thank you.

Thank you. It's beautiful.

Here.

Good?

Good.

I love it.

Thank you.

Did you just come through?

Wait, Charlie?

Charlie.

How do you know my name?

You're not in any danger.

I'm... I'm Laurel.

I'm sorry, I'm a little excited.

I've... I've never met a Charlie before.

My mom has these videos of us when we were younger.

My favorite is this... one...

My dad is raking this huge pile of leaves

and he just keeps pushing them all around us,

and the two of us are just laughing and laughing

as the pile gets bigger and bigger.

I suspect...

that might just take you where you wanna go.

It's okay.

He's a version of your father who never found his way back to your world.

He was the first person who came through that door.

I called him and told him your story. Part of your story.

Hey, pal.

Can I... Do you mind if I...

Yeah.

Come here.

My boy.

You're my boy.

Sorry.

You know, I... I really thought I'd never see you again.

Laurel said that you left our world.

Where... where'd you end up?

We found a good place.

You know, a super chill world.

I'm studying to be an architect...

Oh, man, that's great.

I'm really proud of you.

Yeah.

And you got friends and you're meeting girls?

- Yes. Yes. Yeah. - Sorry.

And now you're off to find Max, huh?

Yeah, I...

Sometimes, I...

I feel like he's there.

And go to tell him something and...

then I'll remember, you know.

It's crazy.

I mean, it's been 14 years, but I just...

I just wanna know what it's like to have him say something back.

Yeah, I know.

So that's not crazy, is it?

I actually think that's the best use of the box ever.

Listen... You're an adult now. Okay?

You have to own your choices.

Be responsible, so...

Go see Max. If you can.

But promise me that you'll say goodbye and stop looking back.

That's why that box is so dangerous,

because it's tempting you with infinite regret.

But if you let it, you'll see.

Life, it'll take you this way and that way.

It'll toss you around.

It'll knock your teeth in.

But if you choose the genuine real life that you want,

you won't need to look back.

Okay?

Yeah.

Come here.

Good luck.

Yeah.

I love you.

Bye, Dad. Love you.

You okay?

Yeah.

Let's go home.