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(serene piano music)

(falling rocks)

- Hey, Carson.

- [Carson] Hey.

- Perfect timing.

Can I borrow you for a second?

- Borrow me for what?

- I'm trying to work
out this guard sweep

and I can't do it
without another body.

- Oh, hold on now, is
that, is this one of

those M-M-A things
because if so,

my jaw is advising against it.

- Come on, I can't
do it by myself.

I promise I won't hurt you.

- Again.

- Can you please
just get down here?

- What do I do?

- Okay, all you have to
do is get on my guard.

- No, no, no, no, I'm
not getting in there.

- It's absolutely nothing
sexual about this okay.

This is the most basic position
in Brazilian jiu jitsu.

- It's also the most
basic position in porn.

- Can you please stop playing
and get down here please?

- Alright, alright fine.

- Like this?
- Yes.

- Alright.
- Okay, it looks like I'm at a

disadvantage, but I'm not.

Whoo!

That was good.

- Alright, how did you do that?

- Oh, applied leverage.

- Hmm, great, are we done?

- What is the problem?

- Well, being dominated by a
woman isn't exactly my thing.

- Oh yeah, it's not?

Because there's
definitely one part of you

who seems to think otherwise.

- Can you let me up please?

- What is your deal, man?

You know really seem to have
a lot of control issues.

- Oh and you don't?

(soft piano music)

- What?

- And you do realize
that we just like totally

half assed this exercise right?

- (chuckles) Well, they
said have a meal together.

- No, they said prepare
a meal together.

That's what they said.

- Well, you picked the cuisine.

I called it in.

They delivered it to us, so
technically this is a meal.

- Really, really?
- Yes, I mean what?

- You gonna play me like that
since that's what this is?

Mean after we just had
this long conversation.

We just talked about making
the most of this experience.

- Okay, you know what?
- Hmmm?

- Fine, you're right.

How would you like to make
it better, what should we do?

- I don't know, I mean we
have to try harder, do better.

Sit down, be humble. (laughing)

- I know.

Why don't you tell me something

you don't really
want me to know.

(sighs)

- You don't want to know
everything about me.

Trust me, it's best for
all parties involved

if we just keep me
in present tense.

- You sound like Dallas.

He's so closed off from me

and to a certain
degree I get it.

He wants to leave
his job at the job,

but it's literally killing
him and I just wanna help.

- I figured it out.

- Figured what out?

- You nosy.

- What?

- That's what it is, you
are all up in the video.

- Stop with your nonsense.

- You all on the Facebook
and all up in the Instagram.

- Really, okay,
you're doing a lot.

- All on the Twitter. (laughing)

Since Drea, I bust my ass
everyday to live my past down.

Nowhere, ain't no way in the
world I should be where I am

and I ain't lookin'
back for nobody.

Ain't nuthin' there
for me or anybody else.

- You know what, Connor?

You think I don't
understand but I do.

- Alright then,

you go first then.

- Me?
- Yeah.

- Why I gotta go first?

- 'Cause, ladies first.

I'm a gentleman.

- Okay, you know what, fine.

But we gonna bungee jump,
if I go you gotta go.

- Like I said, "you first."

My lady.

- I don't know what to say.

- You're idea.

Now you don't know what to say.

- I...

I had a ugly habit.

Used to let one of my
regulars beat me up.

He got off on it.

Paid me in coke.

Oh, he tuned me up pretty good.

I can't have children
now because of him.

Sometimes I wonder if Dallas
and I could have a family of,

maybe we'd be okay.

I don't know.

- Yeah, well, don't
trip potato chip.

I ain't tryin' be no
captain save a ho,

or nothin' like that, so you
ain't got to worry about it.

Hey, yo sister Wright.

- [Sawyer] Well damn,

I guess it's five
o'clock somewhere right?

- You need to quit.

- No mind me, get
your drink on baby.

Turn up.

- Boy, I don't have time
for your foolishness.

- You know your eyes
squint a little bit

when you're seriously
trying to make a point?

I actually like it.

- You and I both know
I am not your type.

- Oh, so now you're
speaking for me now too?

Okay, Lady Confucius,
what's my type then?

I'm waiting.

- Oh I'm just surprised that
you even know who Confucius is.

- Wow, Maggie don't
try to act like you

the only one whose ever
cracked open a book.

- Book, you, please.

Maybe a fortune cookie.

- Wow, I can honestly
see that you're

tryin' to piss me off,
but you can't touch me.

I'm cool, so Imma let you be.

Continue to wallow
in your self pity

and whatever you was doin'.

- Physical perfection.

That's your type.

- Yeah, well my
fabulous taste in women

should make my compliment to you

that much more
significant then right?

Wait, was that a smile?

It was, you smilin'?

- Yes, Sawyer, that was a
smile and in your testosterone

filled world that's a green
light, but I'm not that simple.

You can't just sweep
me off my feet with

your looks and your lines, okay?

- Come on, you can let it out.

You ain't gotta hide it.

I see you smilin'

- Okay, wait, wait, wait,
you don't want none of this.

Wait, wait, I don't
wanna hurt you now.

You don't wanna piece of this.

- Piece, oh no baby,

I want the whole enchilada baby.

Come on.

- You not ready.

- Looks like you not ready.

- Look, this might
be an experiment,

but this is not a game, okay.

- Listen,

when I was an amateur
fighter coming up,

I fought this kid in Orlando.

He was a Cuban boy.

You know they breed fantastic
fighters down there.

And it was the last
round in the fight

and I gotta admit,
I was intimidated.

You know, I could see
all his punches coming.

I could see my openness,

but I just didn't
throw anything,

all I could do is cover up.

Before I knew it
the round ended.

I lost that fight,

it's the first and
last fight I ever lost.

You best believe I engaged
myself six months later,

but the point of the story
is my trainer, Sonny,

he wasn't even pissed at me
like I thought he would be.

You know, all he did was
lead me out of the ring,

walk me down a tunnel,
and then he got in my ear

and whispered, "S, just
gotta trust yourself.

"Let your hands go."

Alright.

M, sometimes you just
gotta trust yourself.

Just let your hands go.

Alright.

- Good morning, Poochkins.

- Really?

- A little too much?

- Just a little bit, yeah.

- Oh, yes I guess Pooh
Bear's outta the question?

- Hell yeah.

- (Laughing) My bad, come here.

- I'm all sweaty.

- It's okay.

You're my husband remember?

It's just sweat.

Now, what can I get you?

- You don't have to keep
doing everything for me okay?

I appreciate it though.

- Dallas it's no big deal.

- Well, I'm just saying
it's a bit much, that's all.

- Wow, I don't think
I've ever had anybody

tell me that I
was crowding them.

- Look I'm not tryin'
to make history here,

I'm just tryin'
to be respectful.

- Are we gonna spend this whole
time here being respectful?

- Yes, that's the point right?

We gotta be smart,
it could be worse.

- I'd rather be real.

- With all do respect.

- Oh, that word again.

- Oh you're not being very real,

you're basically playing
house like child.

- Oh, but a cute child, right?

- Stop, see this is what I mean.

This is not a kids game.

Alright, we're strangers
and I'm your husband.

Look, I have a wife
and you ain't her.

- That was real.

So do you just dish it
out or can you take it?

- Take your best shot.

- You forgot how to live,

how to love and be
loved is foreign to you.

You only live inside
yourself and, hmm,

it's lonely if you
don't mind me saying.

And just a little too difficult

for anybody else to
live in there with you.

So there is no wonder why
you came lookin' for me.

Be ready tonight,
eight o'clock sharp.

(mysterious piano music)

(phone buzzing)

- I know I'm a handful, okay.

I'm very strong willed.

Probably a little bit
too confrontational.

And very competitive.

You know, I'm a fighter though.

So I like to be in
control, you know.

Growing up, a lot of people
used to think that I was gay.

Probably because I
used to play football

with the guys and
wrestle with them.

And I beat them too.

And that's pretty much
how I got into jiu jitsu.

My mom stopped tryin'
to make me all girlie

and enrolled me in a class.

You know it's pretty
funny now that

I'm a professional fighter,
I'm a little bit more girlie.

Really, I'm both, but it's
a good thing you know?

'Cause sex sells.

But in real life honestly...

feel like I need a strong man,

but more mentally
than physically.

And he's gotta have
a very gentle hand.

You know, soft touch.

Unless it's not
guys that I'm into.

I've never said that out loud
before this, yeah, mmm-mm.

- Wait, what you say?

- Unless it's not
guys that I'm into.

I've never said that
out loud before this.

- Sincere, can I talk to
you for a second please?

If you don't want
to talk, it's okay.

I'll talk, if you'll
please just listen.

I'm not what I appear to be.

In fact I don't know
what or who I am anymore.

I mean I'm working so
hard tryin' to be dis

big time Wall Street tycoon
and that's not who I am

and I live in fear.

Fear that I'll be
found out, exposed.

I'll back slide into
the only life I know

and I'll die there.

I lashed out at you and
you don't deserve that.

You didn't deserve it
at all and I'm sorry.

(classical music)

(phone ringing)

- Yo, yo mico check one, mico
check two, mic check three.

(laughing) Can ya'll hear me?

Yo, I'm a boxer.

Obviously, boxing is my life.

I got a huge fight coming up.

It's probably the biggest
fight of my career, actually,

but I could walk away from
it all tomorrow if I had to.

I just don't like it
as much as I used to.

It's not my passion.

I just been doing it
for so long, you know,

that's all I know,
it is what it is.

Ya'll wanna know what
my real passion is?

Writing,

yeah.

When I write in my
notebook, that's my escape.

I wanna be a writer.

I'll be a damn good writer too.

You know, I'd attack it
just like I do boxing.

I be all in.

Yeah, ya'll probably
think I'm crazy though.

I'm just sayin', I know that
I'm more than just this.

- [Carson] Hey, do you mind
passing me the lemon pepper?

- [Caroline] Yeah, you got it.

- [Carson] Thank you.

- [Caroline] Let me know when
you're ready for the veggies.

- [Carson] Alright.

- You know I'm kind
of glad the overseers

gave us this project,
it's kind of fun.

- Yeah, sorta helps make
up for the other night.

I think I owe you.

- Oh please, you do not
owe me anything, okay.

But what I do know is
that we make a good team.

- You know I kind of admire
your degree of discipline.

You know, with your art, I
got a lot of respect for that.

- And my effort is actually
one thing that I can control.

Over the years I've been told
I'm not marketable enough.

I'm not pretty enough.

I'm not white enough,

I'm not good enough, whatever.

But they can't tell me
how hard I can work.

So I just make sure
that nobody outworks me.

- Structure and discipline.

- Hard work and dedication baby.

- Yep, and that is
the daily stuff no one

wants to do that needs
focused attention everyday.

- Exactly, man, it's all
about the little things

that lead to the big successes.

- Yep, yep.
- Consistently.

- That's right, that's
what I'm talkin' about.

- (laughs) See, you getting
me all hyped up now.

- You gettin' me hyped up.

Yeah, you get it, we here.

- We right here.

- Gosh, me and Sawyer, we just,

are always in such competition.

- Yeah, but you know, you
guys are both athletes,

so I get it.

- Yeah but it sucks

because I'm so much
further along than he is.

- So, are you attracted to him?

- Where did that come from?

- Well, you know, no matter
how mad I get with Maggie,

I'm always attracted to her.

So I was just wondering
if it was a man thing.

- No, attraction is
not just a man thing.

- So, you're still
attracted to him then?

- [Caroline] Of course.

- Only him?

- Are you trying to ask me
if I'm attracted to you?

- Uh, maybe, or maybe I'm
just thinkin' that, you know,

there might be someone
else that's better for you.

- Isn't that why we're here,
to kind of figure that out?

- It is, but you know
I was just thinkin' if

there was something else
you were ready to share.

- How much are you
ready to share?

- I'm an open book.

- Uh-huh, famous last
words I tell you.

- Alright, this is me
changing the subject.

Watch how I do it.

So you're further
along than he is.

- You're stupid, you know that?

- Do I get an answer?

- That was an actual question?

I thought it was
just a diversion.

Yeah, you know, more name
recognition, more endorsements.

- So the competition means
that you don't submit to him?

- Submit?

- Hey, it was just a question.

- So If I were your wife,
you would need me to submit?

- I'd insist on it.

- And if I refused?

- I'd persuade you.

- You do know that
I'm paid to make

people submit in a cage right?

- Yeah, but this ain't a cage.

- Boy, me submissive?

You would have to
tie me up. (laughing)

- I admit, I was a little
indifferent when you said pizza.

- It's good though, right?

- Mmm-hmm, yeah, I'm diggin' it.

- See, I appreciate that.

My wife, she be trippin' man.

You know she fights with
me about everything.

Your husband be
stressin' you out too?

- Oh my God, yes.

- I really think that's
why they put us together.

- You think?

- Yeah, that's what
we share in common.

Think about it.

- That's not all, owning a
business with each other.

I mean with our spouses.

- You right, I ain't
even think about that.

- We actually have
quite a bit in common.

Here's to us, all simpatico
and shit. (laughing)

- Okay, since we all in
the happy place, you know,

rainbows and unicorn
farts and shit.

- Unicorn farts, really?

- You don't know
about unicorn farts?

They smell like caramel.

You gettin' distracted, I'll
tell you about that later.

Are we good?

- Can we be real in
this happy place?

- What's realer than unicorns?

- Okay, so...

What did you and your wife...

- Caroline.

- Caroline, what
did you and Caroline

decide before you came here?

- As in what, what do you
mean, like boundaries?

- [Maggie] Yeah.

- We decided that
either of us would not

engage physically
with our new spouses.

- Whoa, and you came
at me from day one.

- No, no, it wasn't like
that, explanation time.

Look,

I love my wife, or me and
my wife love each other.

I just don't think that we
like each other that much.

You know, but I like you.

I like you a lot and I know
you like me because I can tell.

Seriously.

I just don't want no
regrets while I'm here.

So I'm playin'
this game full out.

Whatever that means.

And I'm playin' with my heart
because I owe that to myself.

And I didn't know that
before I came here

and I didn't know
that before I met you.

Caroline, whoever
her spouse maybe,

she may be feeling the same way.

I wanted her to play
the game full out too

and then after that we'll
be able to see where we at.

- Is that really
the truth Sawyer?

Or are you just horny?

- (laughing) Yeah, horny,
I'm definitely horny,

but that is also
definitely the truth.

Plus I don't really need
you for the horny part.

- What, oh so you gonna
cheat on both of us, huh?

- Nah, I can have amazing
sex by my damn self.

- [Maggie] You so stupid.

- Sawyer gotta have
it baby, look at me.

- Okay.
- Yeah?

- Okay.
- Yeah?

- Sex is not the way we're
gonna play this game full out.

Truth is, wait, what do
you call it when boxers

are cautious in the first round?

- The feeling out process.

- Okay, my truth then is,

that's me.

I originally thought,

"Why did they put me
with this young boy?

"I mean he's handsome, but I
can't learn anything from him".

I was wrong, in many ways,

you are exactly what
I need right now.

You have...

a light-hearted positive
outlook on everything.

I mean you lookin' so
far down that road,

you don't let the day
by day stress you out.

You make me feel wanted.

And...

I really need that right now.

- So you don't think that
we share that in common?

- Yeah, yeah, but let
me, let me finish.

You also unnerve me by
the way you look at me.

Sometimes I see you, you
don't even know I'm watching.

You are as close to
physical perfection

than anyone needs
to be and I'm not.

But, you make me
feel so beautiful,

desirable and a
little uncomfortable.

It makes me a little angry
that they would dangle

this carrot in front of me
when I'm at my most vulnerable.

- You know your hips be wiggling

when you be cooking eggs right?

- What?

- I think this whole thing
is bullshit personally,

but I'm here so I'll go ahead
and make the best of it.

But...

have I ever killed anybody?

Yeah, yeah I laid this
one cat down one time.

He was the only one
and then I met Diandra

and that was all the excuse
I needed to become a ghost.

Killing someone.

I mean I never
wanted to experience

the way I felt after
that happened again.

It was the worst feeling
I've ever have in my life.

I left because I never wanted
to get used to that feeling.

I was scared.

Scared of what kind of
human being I would become

if I ever stop being scared.

(notification ding)

- I hate secrets and my
family is full of them.

This uncle...

had you sittin' on his lap
and he touches you in places

and it's okay because, you
know, it's our little secret.

Yeah.

My family loves secrets.

I hate secrets.

Hey.

You like?

- Very much.

You went to a lot of effort.

Really smells great,
I'm not used to this.

- Well maybe that's
my job to show you

things that you
might be missing.

- Well this definitely
not the norm for me.

- Not too much I hope.

- No, I'm just not used to
being catered to like this.

It's nice though.

So what about you?

- What about me?

- What are you missing?

- Feeling safe.

(soft piano music)

- I promise you now,

you are safe Diandra.

("Head" by Sly Slim)

* Tired of riding
down a road here *

* Out of money on the journey

(sighs)

* Do without it do without it

* I am not alone you're
not on your own *

* Wishin' something

- Are you just gonna sit there
and stare at me all night?

* 'Till you hear this song

- Carson what are you doing?

* Got a different
love and dead inside *

(guffaws) Okay.

* Lay your head on

* Lay your head on me

* When you're not stronger

* You live without
ain't no without *

* Lay your head on me

- [Caroline] What is this?

* Lay your head on

* Lay your head on me
when you're not stronger *

- I'm gonna need you
to relax, trust me.

- [Caroline] Okay.

What are you doin' now?

- I'm tying your
wrists to the chair.

- What if, what if I
don't want you to do that?

- Make me stop, Caroline.

Submission...

is not about control.

It's about trust.

- [Caroline] What
if I just don't,

- At any time you
say the word we stop.

You are in control.

I can only do what
you allow me to.

You understand?

- Uh-hmm, I promised Sawyer
I wouldn't have sex Carson.

- It's not about sex.

- Its' about submission.

- It's about trust.

(moans)

- Carson.

Shit.

Carson.

("Love or Die" by
Josephine Clarke)

(panting)

(moaning)

* I guess you get
what you believe *

* I hope you get
what I receive *

* But I dig myself right
in to this for you *

* Just when I thought you
went out and blew it *

* Don't tell a lie
look me in me eye *

(door closing)

* I'm ready I'm I'm ready I'm

* So let me make it simple

* Just love or die

* Don't you go
and rip my heart *

* 'Cause I don't wanna
catch your charge *

* Remember how you played that
card and made a fool of me *

* What you do to me

* Can I be prepared for starts

* When you just ripped
my heart apart *

* Love should never
be this hard *

* Why you foolin' me
what you do to me *

* Please don't let me
catch your charge *

* You gonna let me
catch your charge *

* Choose wise roll dice

* Seems like you're
a gambling man *

* I bet your life that you
can't guess what's in my head *

* 'Cause my actions
speak louder than me *

* But you dun' killed this
piece and unleashed the beast *

* Once was lovers
now we're enemies *

* A fool for you

* Don't tell a lie
look me in my eye *

* I'm ready for

* I'm ready I'm I'm ready I'm

* So let me make it simple

* Just love or die

* Don't you go
and rip my heart *

* 'Cause I don't wanna
catch your charge *

* Remember how you played that
card and made a fool of me *

* What you do to me

* Can I be prepared for starts

* When you just ripped
my heart apart *

* Love should never
be this hard *

* Why you foolin' me
what you do to me *

* Please don't let me
catch your charge *

* You gonna let me
catch your charge *