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Thinking about college? It can wait.

He's in shock now that you're off the market.

It's true. Haley's preggers. Brooke!

The Phoenix effect isn't uncommon in cardiac patients.

They grow remorseful, introspective,

sometimes even joyous.

I've decided to run the dealership for Dan. You've given up a lot for Dan.

He doesn't deserve a brother like you.

Actually, he deserves better.

We were two lonely people together.

No one else needs to know.

Hey. don't be a stranger, okay?

You and Haley still married?

Yeah, she hasn't thrown me out yet.

I was thinking we could take the cameras, put them out.

People can take pictures, put them on the wedding wall.

I will not give you my blessing for destroying my son's life.

You're -- and you can trust me on this -- on your own.

I remember the person that you used to be.

Why not just be him again?

Dan: would you ask Lucas to drop by?

I'd really like to see your brother.

* I don't want to be anything

* other than what I've been trying to be lately *

* all I have to do is think of me *

* and I have peace of mind

* I don't want to be anything

* other than what I've been trying to be lately *

* all I have to do is think of me *

* and I have peace of mind

* I'm tired of looking 'round rooms *

* wondering what I gotta do

* or who I'm supposed to be

* I don't want to be anything

* other than me

I think it needs to come down on the left.

No, it's got to come down on the right.

Our left is your right.

Oh. then why are we arguing?

Hey, Nathan, what do you think -- thai, Mexican?

Chinese is always good.

Tim, you just ate. How is it you're still hungry?

I'm not ordering food. I'm ordering strippers.

What?

You got married so fast, i got screwed out of being the best man.

I am not getting screwed out of a bachelor party.

I was gonna be the best man, right?

He's like a dog with a bone, hales.

Let's get him neutered.

It's just a stripper. It's harmless fun.

You know, Tim's right.

See?

Oh! oh!

Yes, but it's more fun when you haven't seen it before.

Nice.

Sorry.

Yeah.

Haley, let the boys have their fun.

Besides, what's good for the goose is even better for you.

They can have their little testosterone fest,

ogle some dial-a-date,

and you get to have a bridal shower

and rake in tons of loot from all the guests.

This is so a fair trade.

Wow. i so don't need loot.

Okay, "sunny hill lodge"?

It's kitschy!

So is this thing.

Oh, no.

No, no.

That is a bridal shower code red! I'm on it.

I'm glad you came, son.

You wanted to see me?

Yes, I did.

I want to do something I should have done a long time ago.

I want to apologize to you...

And to your mother.

I'm sorry, Lucas, for everything.

Karen: Luke, you okay?

I went to go see Dan.

[ Sighs ] I'm not gonna hide from him.

Yeah, I know.

How did it go?

He freaked me out.

What'd he say this time?

That he was sorry.

And the scary part was that... It seemed like he meant it.

Do you want me to talk to him, maybe go see him with you?

No. I'm okay.

I'm just not gonna run from him anymore.

Sometimes you just gotta let it go.

You could have told me about the strippers

instead of just ambushing Haley.

You knew about it.

I knew you were talking about it.

I didn't know you were gonna order them in front of my wife.

Jeez! did you get married or castrated?

[ Sighs ] fine.

You want me to cancel the stripper?

Tell the boys it's off?

No. see?

You're just as excited as I am.

I know you. Whatever.

Whatever? you're telling me this girl

shows up all hot and willing, you wouldn't go there?

Tim, I'm married.

Right.

You keep telling yourself that.

But that ring doesn't erase your past.

Some of us do remember who you used to be.

Ha. lookin' sharp.

Ah, hey.

You settling in okay?

Ohh. typical Dan.

He did everything himself.

Never let anyone help him with the big stuff.

Anything I can do to help?

Yeah, you can come back and work for me, like old times.

What do you say?

I would say thank you, but I don't know.

It might be a little strange

getting a check with Dan's name on it.

No, actually, it feels pretty good.

Well...

The job's yours if you want it. Thanks, Keith.

I'll let you get back to work.

That's exactly what I've been avoiding.

I have to get Dan's signature on these,

and despite my best efforts,

I'm all out of excuses not to.

You guys still having problems?

Um, actually, no.

I don't what drugs they're pumping him full of,

but he's kind of...Polite.

I know what you mean.

I didn't think that we'd ever be able

to put aside our differences

[ telephone rings ] like you and Nathan have,

but who knows?

Maybe they'll keep him medicated.

Dan Scott motors.

Yeah.

Okay, I'll be right there.

I, uh, gotta run.

You know, if you want,

I can take those papers to the hospital.

Are you sure?

Yeah.

No problem.

All right.

I'll see you. Hey.

Need some help?

Nope. just straightening up for your party.

Haley, you don't need to. It's just the guys.

They've seen it like this.

In fact, they made it like this.

Oh, I don't mind.

Besides, if we're gonna have a skanky ho in the place,

at least it should look nice.

I'm kidding.

Sort of. Maybe.

Haley, this bachelor party is more for Tim than it is for me.

He's threatened by the fact that Lucas threw us the reception.

This is just his way of proving he's still my best friend.

Yeah, what's next -- lap dances for world peace?

I'm not getting all tweaked about your shower.

It's a bridal shower, Nathan!

It's gonna be, like, the most boring thing ever.

Your shower is gonna totally kill.

Normally, killing is not good.

No, this time it is. Eyes forward.

What's that for? Don't worry.

Just leave the shower to me.

I'm gonna teach Haley James...Scott --

whoever you are right now -- how to have some serious fun.

Tomorrow night, I'm tutor girl.

Hey.

Oh.

Hi, Karen.

You look fantastic.

It's a whole new you.

Yeah.

Thanks.

So, how are things going at the dealership?

Uh, good, yeah. Yeah.

I think it's, you know, it's gonna be okay.

Well, good.

* I throw it all to you

you know what? I better be getting back.

See you around, huh?

Okay.

* you take it all away

hey.

Good to see you, Lucas.

Uh, Keith needs some signatures from you.

You know, I was thinking --

my doctor's putting me through some cardiovascular rehab.

I thought you might like to join me.

So you want to be workout buddies?

It'd be a good chance to spend some time together,

get to know you.

You had my whole life to do that.

Well, life's given me a second chance.

Maybe you will, too.

Do you think we'd even be having this conversation

if you weren't on the outs with Nathan?

That's not it.

But I understand your trepidation.

I know I haven't exactly given you a lot of reasons

to trust me in the past.

Look, would you do me a favor?

Put a copy of this in the lockbox

in my bottom desk drawer.

There's a key taped underneath the drawer.

Yeah.

Lucas.

You might not trust me...

But I trust you.

My nose is starting to itch.

All right.

[ Laughs ] am I interrupting something?

Hi, Haley. Hi.

This is some weird guy thing I'm never gonna understand, right?

Pretty much.

At least i came to the right place.

Can I talk to you for a second?

Yeah.

Yeah, we gotta go get eggs, anyway.

Let's roll.

Eggs?

What's up?

Um, uh...

Uh... Fergie!

Sorry.

How about you guys roll me down the street

and see if you can hit me on the fly?

Ow!

You know about this whole bachelor-party thing, right?

Haley, look, it's just goofy guy stuff, okay?

I just wish he'd done this goofy guy stuff before we got married.

He would have if you'd gotten married 10 years from now.

Joking. sorry.

Ohh!

Would you just... Look after him?

Tell you what --

I will sacrifice myself and go to the bachelor party

to take care of Nathan.

Oh, you're so heroic.

Thank you.

Hey, yo, check it out.

We got these trash cans set up like bowling pins.

I figure we just gonna roll mouth's squirrelly little ass

right on into them.

[ Thud ]

Fergie: strike!

Oh! i so got next.

The medication will treat the symptoms,

but the best treatment for you now

is a radical lifestyle change.

So we're gonna put you on a physical-therapy regimen,

and you can start that as soon as you're released

the day after tomorrow.

So, what are we talking about, doc -- weights, treadmill?

More like some stretching, short walks.

You have to understand, Dan,

you're looking at a long road back,

and the road is called the rest of your life.

The hospital gave me the name of their best physical therapist.

And there's also a nurse who can move in with you at the beach house.

I want to come home, Deb.

Dude, smell me.

Dude, kiss my ass.

Seriously. I want to smell nice

for the...Talent that's coming over later.

Tim, just say the stripper.

Fine, the stripper.

Which one makes me smell available?

I got "flesh" on this side and this French stuff on this side.

That's not mine.

It was in your bathroom.

Oh, Tim, what are you doing with my perfume?

All right, I am off.

All the important numbers are by the phone --

police, fire, pimps.

Thanks for worrying about us.

I'm not worried about you. Have your fun.

Just remember...

You're married now.

[ Knock on door ] she's here!

Stripper time!

Oh, it's just you.

Not the thrill it used to be, huh?

Hi. hey.

Okay, uh, I left some ones on the counter

in case you don't have any change.

Don't spend it all in one...Place.

What's wrong with dim?

Oh, don't take it personally.

He thought you were the stripper.

We prefer to be called "exotic dancers."

Nice.

[ Knock on door ]

Who the hell are you?

Where's the stripper?

* whatever happened to the old-school beat? *

* you can dress in diamonds...

[ Laughter ]

I cannot believe you rented this for my shower.

Brooke, this is crazy!

And by "crazy," she means "thank you."

Oh, yeah, Brooke, thank you.

I'm -- I'm blown away by all this.

You're welcome.

I think someone feels guilty about the whole pregnancy rumor.

Water under the bridge.

Forget the water. Let's have champagne.

Champagne? how much is that gonna cost?

Who cares? It's on my dad's credit card.

I don't know, you guys.

Last time I drank, I threw up in Dan's lap.

Uh-huh.

* ...You make me wanna...

Give me some.

That's my girl!

All right, a toast to a nice, normal bridal shower.

To nice.

And normal.

* ...You can throw me like a boomerang... *

[ clears throat ]

What's that?

It's just a nice, normal blindfold.

For what?

For the nice, normal guest of honor.

Oh! [ laughs ]

You sure you know this guy?

He works with me at hot & twisted.

Great. even the losers don't know me.

Just read the damn quiz.

"When your boyfriend kisses you, he 'a' --"

what the hell are you reading?

"Cosmogirl."

Keep going.

"When your boyfriend kisses you, he 'a,'

"looks deeply into your eyes,

"'b,' closes his eyes,

"'c,' cradles your head softly,

'd,' unhooks your bra."

It's "d" -- definitely "d" -- you got for the bra.

Tim, you realize you're supposed to be answering as a girl.

I know, and I'd want a boyfriend

who isn't afraid to go up my shirt.

And hopefully someday you'll find him.

Gary: okay, this sucks.

What kind of bachelor party is this?

No booze, no strippers.

I thought you guys had the best parties. Lame!

Dude, my brother's setting up the stripper,

so we ain't gonna be disappointed.

I just hope the stripper's not a guy.

I remember the last time you were on stripper duty.

I wasn't gonna crack this out till later, but what the hell?

Let's set the mood with a little something

from my dad's porno stash.

I was up late one night, and i heard my dad watching this.

The chick in it goes absolutely nuts.

Sweet.

[ Stripper music plays ]

Tim, is that your mom?

Stepmom.

Dude, your mom's a slut.

Stepmom.

What is going on?

[ Giggles ]

What is this?

This is a lingerie fashion show, girlie.

We figured that since you're married now,

you need to wear something a little less conservative

for Nathan -- something a little more...

Slutty.

That's it.

Hit it, girls.

[ Mid-tempo music plays ]

Whoo! look at you! Go, girl!

* go, pretty lady...

Whoo!

* ...Got a weird thing to show you *

* so tell all the boys and girls... *

go, Charlotte! Whoo!

* ...And your mama, too...

I call that "red hot."

You go, girl.

* ...Swing your hands in the air *

* like you don't care

* glide by the people as they start to look... *

okay.

How did you --

after all the money that I've spent in this place,

they owed me a few favors.

Haley, it's your turn now.

Hey. hey.

* I hear you crying...

Want some coffee?

It's not the fancy competition, but...

I love your coffee, Karen. You know that.

So it's not the coffee you're avoiding.

* ...In the darkened hours...

I'm just...

Having a hard time being around you right now.

But before the proposal, we were friends.

Can't we at least try to go back to the way we were then?

I don't think so.

Sometimes it's just... Better to move on,

kind of like you did with Peyton's dad.

I hadn't seen Larry in ages. There was nothing there.

But even if there was, your idea of moving on --

does it mean cutting me out of your life completely?

I don't want to.

* ...I hear you writing...

But I have to.

* ...In the room next-door to mine *

* furious pages, pages fly by the window *

Haley... come on out, hales.

Are you coming out, kitten?

I am not coming out.

If you don't come out, then we're coming in.

Oh!oh! oh!oh!

The schoolgirl look. Wow!

I don't know.

Nathan Scott is going to blow a fuse when he sees you in this.

Guys, there is no way i can pull this off.

No, actually, I'd leave that up to Nathan.

[ Laughter ] especially after our next stop.

Man, I still can't believe you pulled off this keg, dog.

You can thank Brooke and the fake I.D. She made.

Tell the truth -- you get with that or what?

A gentleman never tells.

That's just "mouth" for no.

Oho!

[ Indistinct chatter on police radio ]

Are you seeing what I'm seeing?

What is wrong with the youth of America today?

Time to protect and serve.

Let's go.

[ Up-tempo dance music plays ]

* these women is awfully nice.. *

okay, okay, okay, everybody.

This is a very important moment in our little Haley's life...

The moment when she becomes a woman...

At least according to the state of north Dakota!

It's your very first fake I.D.!

"Trudy Gill."

Oh, I get it -- "Trudy Gill"-- "tutor girl."

[ Brakes squeal ] whoa.

Hey, why are we stopping?

What do you mean, it's going to take an hour

to send somebody out?

Let em explain to you the law of supply and demand --

if I supply the credit card,

I get to demand that you get somebody out here.

Brooke, I can just call Lucas.

No! i already tried. His phone's off.

[ Horn honks ]

Oh, good.

[ Laughs ]

What seems to be the trouble?

It's probably the engine.

Oh, I see exactly what the trouble is.

Great. can you fix it?

Sure, I got a tool that can fix anything.

[ Up-tempo music plays ]

Oh! oh!

I am gonna kill you!

Nice performance, Cameron Diaz.

You too, Gwyneth.

[ Knock on door ] that's got to be the stripper.

Sweet! they're in costume.

Did my brother deliver or what?

We witnessed a keg being brought up to this apartment.

Are you boys of age?

Uh, prime.

Let's see some I.D.

Let's see some hot girl-on-girl.

Ow! damn! These strippers are strong!

Okay, I'll play along, sexy.

Better yet -- forget the keg, arrest the perv.

Ow! you're hurting me.

Does that cost extra?

* let's get it started, ha!

* let's get it started in here

* let's get it started, ha!

* let's get it started in here

* let's get it started, ha!

* let's get it started in here

* let's get it started, ha!

* let's get it started in here

* lose control...

Whoo-hoo!

Whooooo!

[ Indistinct chatter on police radio ]

Officer, there's been a misunderstanding.

He thought you were a stripper.

I can see your thong strap, foxy brown!

[ Yowls ]

[ Guys laugh ]

Never mind.

Yeah, take him.

I've never been so horny!

[ Laughs ]

[ Girls laughing, dance music plays ]

Whoo-hoo!

Hey, it's "girls gone wild."

[ Laughs ]

Haley?

* I think you are really fit

* you're fit, but my gosh, don't you know it *

sorry, we're clos--

oh.

Hey.

Is everything all right? Dan okay?

The doctors are ready to release him.

That's good news.

Yeah.

Let me grab some coffee.

Dan says he wants to come home.

Let me grab some liquor.

I'm confused.

I thought the divorce went through.

Well, technically, no.

Dan had the heart attack before signing the papers --

while signing the papers, actually.

Dan has a team of doctors who are taking care of him.

Who's taking care of you?

Right now, whoever's name is on that bottle.

Maybe the heart attack is a sign.

It's a sign that you've got to stop doing what's best for Dan

and start doing what's best for you.

Maybe it's moving on,

maybe it's trying to put the pieces back together.

But either way, do it because it's right for you.

Hey! whoo!

Come on! Whoa, whoa, whoa.

[ Slurring ] if I wanted a lap dance, I would have stayed home.

No, tonight's gonna be a little different.

I rented out the back room and hired an instructor.

An instructor for what?

Stripping is not just about taking your clothes off.

It's about getting in touch with your own body.

And once you do that,

you're gonna find an inner confidence

that you never had before.

I think you'll be amazed at just how empowering it is.

Clearly.

So...where's Haley?

She's not gonna go for this.

Haley.

Just take it nice and easy.

Show me the pole! Whoa!

Oh!

Whoa!

Oh!

That's gonna leave a Mark.

[ Laughs ]

Look, I know we haven't really taken the training wheels

off this whole brother thing,

but I wanted to ask you something.

I went down to the dealership today...

And...found some pictures.

The ones of you in his desk.

You know about those?

That's part of the reason i hated you all those years.

[ Sighs ]

Well, he said he wants me to help him with his rehab.

What'd you say?

I said I wouldn't be a stand-in Nathan.

Good night, man. Take it easy.

All right, guys.

We should probably go bail Tim out.

Well, looks like we got "timmed" again.

You might as well head out, too, man.

You sure?

Yeah, don't worry about it.

You know what?

Actually, i have something for you.

It's for your new job.

Keith needs some help down at the dealership.

He's a good boss. I figure...

Look, it pays better than what you're making now, right?

[ Laughs ]

Thank you.

Later.

Hey, Lucas.

Look, uh, I understand

if you have to find out about Dan yourself.

Whatever you decide to do,

it's not gonna affect you and me.

He's come between us before.

Let's just not let it happen again.

Thanks, man.

[ Door closes ]

* mirror, mirror, on the wall

* yeah, uh, come on

* you're the finest of them all... *

excuse me, Ms. Davis, but your credit card's been declined.

* ...On the wall

* uh, lookin' good

* you're the finest of them all... *

thank you.

* ...Come on...

[ Beeps ]

Well, then...

Looks like we have a problem.

* ...Uh, come on...

Um...

[ Laughs nervously ]

So, what's your policy on I.O.U.S?

[ Knock on door ]

* ...You're the finest of them all *

* yeah, yeah, uh, come on...

You must be Nathan.

I'm Simone. Sorry I'm late.

Well, no, it's okay.

The party's actually over.

Oh, I don't think so.

The party's just getting started.

[ Mid-tempo music plays ]

Wild night?

Oh, more like a long night.

I hope it's not too late to give you a show.

Oh, thanks, but it's okay.

You sure? I'm already paid for.

No, um, I think I'm -- I'm good.

Or at least you're trying to be.

[ Laughs nervously ]

It's fine. I can call a cab to pick me up.

All right.

In the meantime...

I have an idea about what we can do while we wait.

* I wanna roll...

I do not believe my stupid parents

didn't pay the credit-card bill.

We've got $140 in cash at most.

[ Sighs ] what are we gonna do?

I'm gonna take care of it.

How?

A little negotiation.

You cannot talk your way out of a $1,000 bill.

Don't be silly.

A girl can do anything she puts her mouth to.

Hi. I was wondering if there might be an alternate way

to settle this bill.

[ Chuckles ]

It's a strip club, honey.

Mm-hmm.

How dirty you willing to get?

[ Laughs nervously ]

[ Groans ]

"How dirty are you willing to get?"

Well, I hope this is dirty enough for you.

Haley! [ whistles ]

Here. drink this.

It'll help you with your hangover tomorrow.

[ Gags ] what's in it?

You don't want to know. Drink up.

You sure you guys don't want me to help you wash the dishes?

Absolutely not -- the guest of honor is not doing the dishes.

We're probably gonna be here for a while,

so you should just take that limo home.

I think Mrs. Scott's had a long night.

Mrs. Scott.

[ Laughs ] [ Laughs ]

You guys probably think I'm crazy for getting married.

No!

Maybe a little.

You guys totally have the whole Nick-and-Jessica thing going on,

just without stalkerazzi and chicken-y tuna.

[ Laughs ]

Yeah, well, I guess I can't really help it

if I found the guy I want to be with my first time out.

Isn't that what it's about?

If we're not looking for the one we want to be with forever,

then what are we doing?

Having fun?

Oh, love is fun.

This kind of love is, anyway.

Actually, I'd like to go home to my husband, if you don't mind.

Class dismissed. Thank you.

Whoa.

I'm all right.

Thank you so much for tonight.

You won't be thanking us tomorrow.

Yeah.

Bye.

Bye.

Come on, goldilocks.

Grime is money.

No good!

I thought you'd actually be good at this game.

I was going easy on you before.

I'm about to take the safeties off now, though.

Ooh, I'm shaking.

Funny, people usually call me before the wedding.

So, what's it like -- being married?

I love it.

I mean, Haley, she's great.

Well, she's the one for me.

Even if one's all you get?

Hamilton nails it!

Game over for you, baby.

[ Sighs ]

Driver, take me home to my guy.

* well, I had a dream...

Hey.

Hey, Luke.

What are you doing here so late?

You know, I could ask you that very same thing.

I'm just trying to catch up.

Even though it's Dan Scott motors,

I still want to do well, you know?

What's up?

Well, um...

I wanted to thank you for the job offer.

And tell you that I can't accept it.

Oh.

Okay.

But I offered the job to Nathan.

I hope that's okay.

Well, I know he could use the cash.

And the guidance, too,

like you've always helped me out.

Well, now it's Nathan's turn.

* ...Such a long road...

All right, well, I'll get out of your way.

No, you're fine.

I'm just trying to find those inventory printouts.

How long ago did you call that cab?

It should have been here by now.

Um, I have a confession to make.

I didn't call a cab.

My car is outside.

You're really cute, Nathan.

You're young.

You're athletic.

You suck at video games.

I was paid a lot of money to show you a good time tonight.

If your idea of a good time

is getting your butt kicked by a girl on PlayStation,

I'm fine with that.

But there's also a lot of other things I'd be fine with.

There's a lot of things I'm good at, Nathan.

Keeping a secret is only one of them.

I'll be in the bedroom.

You decide what you want.

I want you.

[ Sighs ] god, I love you.

How was the stripper?

Pretty good...

At "NBA live."

Other than that... I had no interest in her.

I actually had to ask her to leave.

[ Laughs ]

How was the shower?

Um... it was educational.

Uh-huh.

What'd you learn?

Only what I already knew --

you are the one that I want.

Yeah, me too.

Hey, where are you going?

You know how I said tonight was educational?

Honey, you're gonna love the homework.

I was thinking about what Haley said --

you know, how it's all supposed to be for love.

Kind of scary, huh?

Yeah.

You think she's right?

I know she is.

But that's not the part that scares me.

Then what does?

People are gonna disappoint you --

I get that. I kind of expect that.

But I don't know -- what if you wake up one day

and realize that you're the disappointment?

What's on your mind, Brooke?

I was just thinking about...

...how we're gonna pay for this limo.

[ Laughs ]

I spoke to the lawyer about the situation with Nathan and Haley.

He says it's going to be a lot tougher than he thought.

It doesn't look like there's any to invalidate their marriage.

There's nothing we can do?

Legally.

You look surprised.

Why -- because it's something you would say?

No, I was just thinking

that maybe we don't have to take such drastic measures.

Oh, snap out of it, Dan.

Phoenix effect or not, i need some help.

They're teenagers, Deb.

Once the newlywed sex wears off,

they'll realize the only thing keeping this marriage afloat

is a minimum-wage job pushing pretzels with no benefits.

Then money problems will kick in

and they'll start to wonder

why they rushed into the whole thing.

Their marriage will probably self-destruct,

and we won't even have to lift a finger.

And what if it doesn't?

I had a heart attack, Deb...

Not a lobotomy.

[ Jimmy eat world's "kill" plays ]

I thought you had to be at work.

Oh, um...

I'm not gonna take the job at the dealership.

I offered it to Nathan.

He needs it more.

Besides, I'm gonna have my hands full at the café. Café?

Well, seeing as you're gonna be so busy with college and classes,

somebody's got to take care of things at the café, right?

Maybe so.

* funny how I'm nervous still

* I've always been an easy kill... * bye.

Hey, do me a favor --

don't change when you come home from work, okay?

I'm kind of into the whole mechanic thing.

No problem, ma'am.

* ...Chance

* or only one way that it was always meant to be *

* be

* you kill me

* you always know the perfect thing to say... *

come on!

* ...Hey, hey

* I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away *

* so go on, love

* leave while there's still hope for escape *

* gotta take what you can these days *

* there's so much ahead

* so much regret

* I know what you want to say

* I know what you want to say

* I know it, but can't help feeling differently *

* I loved you, and I should have said it *

* tell me, just what has it ever meant? *

* I can't help it, baby...

Deb: I'll be inside.

Those pictures in the lockbox...

Don't change anything.

Don't even think for a second that they do.

* ...I can't fix your mistakes... *

I know I can't change our past, Lucas.

But I'm hoping I can change our future.

* ...How I feel

* feel

* you kill me, you build me up *

* but just to watch me break

* hey, hey

* hey, hey

* I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away *