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I'm sick with cystic fibrosis.

They said I have less than 2 years to live.

If I'm lucky.

I'm on a list for a lung transplant but

I don't believe it.

I should be sad.

I'm not. I don't know why.

Maybe I'm in denial.

What do you guys think?

I've never been a fan of crowds.

People make me nervous.

Maybe I overthink everything.

Or I spend too much time judging them.

When I got the news. I understood a lot.

I started seeing the true nature of people.

Mean.

Vicious.

Self destructive.

Who dream of healing the world but do the opposite.

It's confounding to witness it all.

Maybe it's for the best that I won't be a part of that life.

During the 12th century, the Louvre was a fortress.

Its purpose was to protect the city.

Then it transformed... Into this.

Shit, people died

so that people can wait in line for hours.

Look at them.

Today it's mostly known for one famous painting.

She's that big.

Have you seen it?

What a bunch of dumbasses.

Thank you so much. You're the best.

I owe you one.

I have another call.

Marc is calling me.

Keep me posted during the day.

Thanks again.

Hey Marc.

Yeah it's fine. Listen...

I was going to call you.

Something unexpected came up.

I won't be able to come to the office today.

I get that it's a big day but

I have this friend, I told you about her.

She's sick and I have to be there for her.

But it's already taken care of.

Adele is taking my place. She has all the drawings.

She's all ready for the presentation. Don't worry.

No need to yell Marc.

You know how much I love my job.

Fucking asshole.

My friend Estele...

she refuses to accept the truth.

She's always going to find the positive side in everything.

Turning a crappy situation into something wonderful.

I can't stand it anymore.

But thank god she's there.

Everyone is telling me to stay positive.

That as long as I breathe there's hope.

The reality is that I'm going to die.

I want to do this my way.

That's what I want to focus on.

To find a way to leave on my terms.

Without worrying about others.

Hey!

I just got out of the subway.

Were you able to reach her?

No, she's not answering me either.

But I'm on my way home now.

She doesn't want to come out.

Let me know when the package is ready. She wants it shipped as soon as possible.

I'll let you know as soon as it arrives.

Okay... Bye.

Liv?

Hey...

How are you feeling?

Did you see anyone?

Not that I'm aware of.

Did you make sure you weren't followed?

Yes, don't worry.

I just spoke with your publicist.

He says that there are rumours being spread now.

If you want that to stop, then you need to

make a statement as soon as possible.

The longer you wait, the harder

it will be to control the situation.

And I must say I agree with him.

Remind me to ask for your opinion if I want to hear it.

Your record label called.

They are also worried about you.

They haven't stopped calling.

They're... threatening to sue you if you don't continue with your tour.

They said they are losing too much money,

and that you are becoming a financial strain on them.

It is always only about money.

Do not answer if they call.

Make them wait.

Your publicist is trying to handle the situation.

It is hard when he can't actually speak with you.

But that is precisely what I pay you for.

I do not want to hear any excuses.

I have nothing to say.

Just solve the problem or

I'll find someone else who will.

Why don't you just explain to them what's happening?

As soon as you do, they will understand and leave you alone.

What, are you my mother now?

No! So Shut up.

I'll be right back.

She's not listening to me either.

No, if you want her to look good in all of this,

then you have to stir up the media!

Me?

The press does not care about what I have to say!

I have cancelled everything you had on the calendar.

Can you...

Can you just get out of bed already?

It doesn't help to just lie there.

Go take a shower.

And then you'll feel a little better afterwards.

Keep your condescending tone to yourself.

I'm just trying to help you, Liv!

I know you are grieving,

but sometimes it can help to listen to other people.

Vera.

You can help me by leaving me alone.

Hey.

One second.

Hello.

Well, yes, I'd be interested.

When would she want me to start?

I don't recognize myself here.

My family is waiting for me at home but...

here...

in the silence

I can feel it.

Growing inside me.

I'm afraid I will become like you.

It's just...

inevitable.

I accepted that fate.

I don't remember what you look like.

Or how your voice sounds.

For me...

You're a souvenir.

Nothing more.

The last memory I have of you

is not that you left us.

It's the sound of the wind...

crashing on the black ocean front.

I remember like it was yesterday.

Like it's still beating down my heart.

When that wind vanished,

I knew my life

would change.

And nothing would ever be the same again.

I was fragile.

I had to protect myself.

So I built a wall around me.

A fortress

I hid myself.

Just like you.

How are you?

Trying to survive.

You look healthy.

You think so? - Yeah.

Ok, well thanks.

Did they call you?

No, not yet.

What do you want to do while we wait?

I think I'll just go home.

I don't want to see anybody - I knew it.

When have you ever wanted to see people.

I don't know.

I have a surprise for you.

What is it?

- I got us tickets to a concert. - Ah come on.

You have shitty taste in music.

True, but this time I got it right.

You will love it.

You'll come without bitching about it.

It's not like you are giving me a choice.

She's the best friend you could ever ask for.

Honestly, I think she would die for me.

But right now...

I just want her to fuck off.

She refuses to get it.

Let's take a walk.

Yeah sure.

Hi.

No it's fine.

Sorry I didn't call you back.

What? It's just something

just came up with dad.

I'll tell you the details later.

What?

Yeah my back is a little sore.

Yes, I felt her kick earlier.

Listen, I don't know when I'll be back.

Don't wait up for me.

Yes, but I don't know.

What do you want me to say? I don't know.

I'll explain it all to you later.

Don't be like that now. Please.

Anyway, I need to leave now.

Talk later.

Lara!

Tell me about the guy you're dating.

I haven't seen you since?

No.

Well I'm sorry. I couldn't get back to you cause you know...

He's good? - Yeah

He's to be commended.

5 stars - 5 outta 5

You still changed the subject.

Are you doing better?

Of course not

I've been on the waiting list for months

and if I don't get the lung transplant, I'm dead. Is that what you want to hear?

That's why I didn't want to see you.

Everything is so dramatic.

That concert will do you good.

Who are we going to see cause I'm afraid of your taste in music.

That's what we call a surprise.

I hate suprises and you know it.

It sucks to be you then.

I know what she's trying to do.

She thinks that's what I need.

A distraction.

I don't want her pity.

She's trying to fix it but she's making it worse.

You're a gem of a singer

Such a talent but we'll work on it.

Did you tell your parents?

No. Last thing I need is to have them on my ass.

I think it's important that they know.

- It's just more stress - You'll be relieved.

They know just enough. Trust me.

Seriously I'm good.

Ok honey. Don't move.

I'll be right back.

You're good? - Yeah.

Being around a beauty like you...

It's just too much sometimes.

That was lovely.

The tabloids wrote again. Want to hear it?

Is it worth my time?

They know that he died,

and then they wonder... why you have cancelled all your concerts.

They have their theories.

One is that you had an affair that got out of hand.

And that's why you're hiding.

What fucking bullshit!

They're not worth caring about.

I perform if I want to.

It's my decision.

Not a trashy newspaper's decision.

They are probably mostly wondering

how serious your mental breakdown is.

Is that what you all think?

That I'm going crazy?

I didn't say that.

They're talking about the fact that your latest album didn't sell well.

Maybe you're freaking out because of that.

I don't want to hear another word about it.

Maybe you should think about

what you should do now?

You can't lock yourself up in my apartment forever.

I am very glad to help you but really,

I don't see you even making an effort.

How long have you been working for me now?

Three years?

Give or take.

And you think you're in a position

to tell me.

Who I am...

What I should do because

I get to borrow your bed for a little while?

I thought you might want to hear what people are saying.

Stop bullshitting me.

Tell me what you really think.

What I think right now is not important.

Stay!

Not once in my career

have I cared

what other people thought of me.

But you...

You seem incredibly anxious to tell me about it.

Vera.

You have a job because

I am successful at what I do.

Do you understand?

You don't exist without

talented people like me.

Please, stop.

Who do you think you are?

Daddy's little rich girl

who's given an apartment...

You are ruining your career!

I don't think you really understand what's really going on!

You're pushing everyone away!

Not just me.

That your Manager died is horrible.

I know that he was really important to you,

but now you're destroying everything he did for you.

It is disrespectful towards him

and you are destroying your whole fucking life!

You have no right...

You have no right to talk about him!

He was ten times the person

you could ever be.

Don't forget,

I'm the one who's let you hide at my place.

It's not like anyone else cares about you.

You know...

You are just like everyone else.

A fucking user!

I bet...

That right, now

At this very moment...

one those snakes is out there, just waiting

to hear what you have to say about me.

I heard you talking to them before.

What did you say to them?

What did you give them?

Photos?

Videos?

Lies?

Is that the kind of person you are?

A filthy fucking snake?!

You can throw as much crap at me as you like!

Even though you know I've done everything for you.

You are so fucking ungrateful. You don't care about anything.

You have one hour to get your stuff and get out of here.

Did you hear me?

Get out!

For Lara. Open in the church.

So... I've made up my mind.

I'm going to...

Lara.

By receiving this letter,

it means that my life has come to an end.

You've heard about my passing

and you are now mourning my death.

Don't be sad.

I had a life full of experiences and adventures

that could have filled many lifetimes.

The only missing piece in my story was you.

The daughter that I took for granted.

I was never part of your life.

I only heard stories from a distance.

I wanted you to open this letter here.

Because it's where I've chosen your name.

In that church,

sitting on this bench.

Ironically it was

on the day of my father's funeral.

Your mom and I

were debating about it.

But I won for the name LARA.

Your story began here.

This letter is the beginning of our last journey together.

In that package, you will find instructions to follow.

I hope you will join me.

Love.

Your father.

Letter number 2

If you open this letter,

it means that you are open to the idea

of bringing me back into your life.

You have in your possession my remains.

It's my wish for you

to bring them to a special location dear to me.

You have every right to refuse to grant me these wishes

but if you decide to do so,

you must go alone.

I left specific points for you to go to.

Each location comes with a letter

which you will need to read.

When you arrive at the last one,

please release my ashes

and let me be free as I request.

Each place means something to me

and I hope it will mean the same for you.

We never had the chance to know each other.

I chose a way of life you were never proud of.

You couldn't understand my choices,

and I don't blame you.

This is the last chance we have to know each other.

Please accept my request.

If not,

I will respect your decision.

And I look forward to seeing you in the next life.

Maybe you don't remember,

but you always had a fascination with horses

starting at a young age.

I took you out of town every weekend.

Just to watch them run free in the wild.

You never wanted to go home.

Just like them,

you always had that desire to have no boundaries.

That was in you.

Except they stayed true to themselves...

Unlike you.

Maybe I was not present,

but from what I've heard, you've lost who you are.

You've become what you

always feared you would be...

Safe and secure.

You're so lucky to be dead, you asshole.

Fuck.

I can't believe I'm wasting my time with this nonsense.

Can you hear me?

I can't hear you.

I don't get it.

Why won't you talk to me?

Why are you doing this?

I don't understand.

What's going on in your head? Why don't you talk to me?

Just wait a second.

You don't think by talking to me I would maybe understand.

That I could help you - I didn't ask you to come.

That's your answer? - Yes, it is.

Nobody gives a shit.

The neighbor could be dead and you act all concerned.

I appreciate what you do, but it won't change the ending.

Great attitude. - Yep.

You're still alive, you know.

It's not over - Fuck, you're a pain in the ass.

You know. It's hard for me too.

If I'm still here it's because I have hope.

It's far from being over. I'm still hopeful.

Did you know that I never wrote any of my songs?

How can I call it my music

when I haven't even created it?

Now that I know how it ends,

I wish I could change everything.

But... It just happened.

It's not your fault that he died.

He changed his whole life,

to be there for me.

He saw something in me,

and then he decided to take a chance.

I mean, who stands by someone's side for over 30 years,

I took him for granted.

I don't think you understand

how many horrible fights we had.

I put him through hell.

I was obsessed with my career.

I didn't want to listen to his criticism,

what I was doing wrong.

I was convinced I could do everything myself,

I think you should try to be grateful.

For what you had.

And everything he did for you.

I don't know what else you can do.

In the end, he said,

that he was...

ashamed of the person I had become.

He said he had made a mistake,

He thought I would have been stronger.

I deserved it.

It's my...

It's all my fault.

I killed him.

When I saw him in Paris,

the last time I saw him,

he wanted time off to go see his family.

And I almost fired him

And it all ended with him rushing out

He warned me.

He said,

if you are ungrateful to the people around you,

there will be consequences.

And I,

I never listened to what he said...

You know,

I'm thinking about what's important in my life...

You're the only person that matters.

Then I asked myself.

Life gave me a chance and

now she takes it back to give it to someone else?

No. See it as a new beginning.

A way to reinvent yourself.

You and I are alike.

You want to control it all.

But sometimes you just can't.

It's impossible.

You have to accept it.

Yeah it kills me.

Literally.

We'll find a way.

Calm down

Est-ce que je suis propre?

You look pretty good you know.

Wait. You also need to wear a pair.

Come on. What are you doing?

Fuck.

Your summer house is completely surrounded by paparazzi now.

I don't think you should go there.

What are they doing there? They must know that I'm here.

I presume that they went to all the places you might go.

I must get away from here.

There is a place by the sea that he loved.

I want to go there.

I don't think it's a good idea to go on a roadtrip.

Everybody will follow you, and there will be chaos.

I don't care.

Just make it happen.

Please.

Come with me.

It seems like yesterday since I brought you here.

For you, it might feel like years...

For me, I can still hear your laughter

running around on this land.

I know you hate me.

Your mom hated me too.

But she stayed strong for you.

I loved that about her.

Your mother was keeping me posted throughout the years.

I hugged you for the last time near that water.

I left the next morning.

I never saw you again after that.

I had to do it Lara.

What good does it do for you to come back right now?

You are...

A weak man that I refuse to call my father.

You lost that privilege a long time ago.

That morning when you left,

I felt numb.

I felt nothing.

And you didn't even care.

Like you said... You had to leave.

Still...

years after... You are still there.

The worst part of me, is the result of you.

You're still angry at me.

I understand that.

I could imagine your rage or your disbelief in accepting other

people's choices based on values you never understood.

I?

I didn't need to understand anything.

You should have never left in the first place.

How far along are you?

You have no right to ask about my child.

It's a part of us, whether you like it or not.

Are you afraid?

What do you want?

Not being present for you

will be the biggest regret of my life.

To miss out on you.

My greed for pushing the limits of one

being was greater than staying home and missing that chance.

I was needed elsewhere.

I should have been that person who deserved all your attention.

Maybe you're right.

But...

But now...

We are here.

When I learned about your death

I didn't feel anything.

I just knew I didn't care.

Just like you didn't care.

I never knew you when you were alive.

Why should I care now that you're gone?

You have a long road ahead.

You should get going.

- We don't really see anything from here. - Not really.

There you go.

Another catastrophy.

As usual...

Fuck!

This is stupid nonsense.

What the hell for?

That girl didn't deserved to die.

You...

Only you deserved to die.

What's so funny?

That face...

That's what you do.

We are so alike, you and I.

The same temper.

The same feelings inside.

Like a volcano waiting to explode.

You completely forgot what you are capable of.

You are wrong about one thing though.

Oh yeah? What's that?

I saw unlimited potential in you.

You could have done anything.

But I also saw...

I knew you were not strong enough

to really bring it out of yourself.

I was right.

You crumbled and blamed me. Now you blame me for everything

that has gone wrong in your life instead of reshaping that

fire in you and use it for good.

What mark will you leave behind when you are gone?

Don't compare me to you.

Be mad at me,

Yell if you have to.

You're just in denial.

If you were as content as you claim to be...

you would be at home now,

not here with me.

Not everyone has a purpose.

No?

Well if that's the case then you should be in my place.

Not the other way around.

Maybe it's for the best that you were away from me all those years.

The reality is that

You don't want to be home with someone you had a child with by mistake

but you were not going to let go of her.

That goes against your values.

You promised yourself, you would not be like me.

But you're drowning.

No matter how hard you try.

Fuck off!

Then prove me wrong.

I...

I don't have to prove anything to you

I make my own choices. My own decisions.

I am who I am because of me.

Wrong.

You are who you are...

because of the effects

I left on you.

I will do the only thing you could never do.

Something you never could do.

I'll be there for my family

I will be their rock.

Their light...

and their strength.

My daughter...

will be proud of me being her mother.

Now look at my face.

Look at my face!

What does it say now?

That I see through you.

I hate those fucking scooters.

The're so dangerous.

They go on the sidewalk and...

They are tied up. It breaks my heart.

I feel you.

"Stop live organ harvesting practioners in China"

This might not be the best spot to be at peace.

It's kinda of funny tho.

The woman in white is a star.

If I die, I'll come back to haunt you.

Ah yeah? Come on tell me.

When you're busy with your guy...

I'll scratch the walls, shake the bed, lift the drapes

I already have so many ideas.

None of that will happen because when we die, it all goes black.

Sorry. I shouldn't have said that.

Better laugh about it than cry over it.

Hello?

Can you tell me through the phone please.

Ok thanks. Goodbye.

What did they say?

Say something. What did they say?

They have the test results.

I have a new pneumonia. I start a new treatment tomorrow.

What does it mean?

It means that my time just got shorter.

We'll go abroad.

We'll go abroad and look for a new specialist.

What are you doing?

Fuck. Now is not the time to smoke.

Leave me the fuck alone for two seconds.

Just tell me how I can help.

Are you stupid? You can't do anything.

- Calm down, I just want to help. - Well it's not working.

I know it's hard.

You're going to be okay.

You know it's hard? You! Miss perfect!

Who's never been sick a day in her fucking life!

Don't talk to me like that.

Fuck!

Fuck! I didn't want to tell you...

I might have lost my job for you.

But since it's always about you, you didn't even ask me any questions.

Of course it's all my fault. It's easy to blame me right?

Fuck! I can't deal with your shit anymore.

Playing the victim. You're proud, right?

Always the same speech. So many problems.

Life, men, family. Everything is so complicated for you.

Fuck.

It's impossible to help you.

You know why?

Because deep down inside you don't want any help.

Cause you think if I wake up and I just say I want help

that my lung will be magically cured by itself?

Maybe yes.

Do you hear yourself? That's ridiculous!

I'm ridiculous? - Yeah.

I'm the only one that can put up with your bullshit!

Yeah well it's done, so.

Get the fuck out of here.

Fuck! Leave me alone.

I'm so tired of always being perfect.

Always doing the right thing. It's never enough.

I just can't stand it anymore.

Ever since I was young, I was told that I was different.

That I have a strength. A joyful way of reinsuring others.

I stand in front of my best friend...

I would do anything to bring her back to life but

I can't do it.

It makes me sick.

I'm so tired.

I don't want to die.

I don't want to die.

If I lose her...

Ok. Bye.

That seemed like an important call.

Nothing you need to worry about.

Stop pretending.

Are you quitting?

I might be difficult

but I'm not blind.

If you want to leave, I won't hold you back.

By the way, today was the funeral of Adèle

who also died in the accident.

I know.

I sent flowers.

Not a chance in hell I'm going up that mountain.

Fuck.

You're out of your mind.

You must be insane.

No. no. No way.

Not a fucking chance.

I'm out.

I can't believe I'm doing this fucking bullshit.

He loved this view over the city.

Can I say something without you getting angry?

You can try.

I think you're just getting

angrier and more bitter all the time.

And you can insult everyone around you

as much as you please.

But I'm not your enemy, Liv.

I've been offered another assistant job.

But I've decided to stay with you,

Do you know yours was

the first concert I went to?

Like, working for you was my big dream.

But, you know what they say...

You should never meet your heroes.

He said once

That if you get to a point where you feel like you want to give up.

You're either emotionally spent,

the passion is gone, or something.

Or something else...

Something big has happened in your life.

I never asked him.

What do I do if all that happens at once?

You're such a goddamn bitch.

Do you know that?

Did you even hear what I said?

I use people.

That's what I do.

It's the label.

Ignore them.

We can't ignore them forever!

Tell them I'm quitting.

You should really think this through.

They won't take no for an answer.

Let them sue me.

They can't tell me what do anymore

Do whatever you want.

By the way...

You should take that job.

I appreciate you.

I hope you know that.

Thanks.

I've treated you like garbage.

Yeah, but... Don't worry about it.

I can handle you.

I don't think you should quit.

I don't even know where to begin.

Well, why not start

with finishing the tour?

And then...

Leave town!

By yourself.

Without me.

I have to tell the truth.

But the mere thought of being in front of all the media makes me want to vomit.

But you don't have to meet them...

I've got an idea.

What is this location supposed to represent?

You can keep trying

but these letters

won't change how I feel about you.

The love

that you hoped was there...

has disappeared.

I always saw you.

No matter where I was.

I didn't do all of this to change your view of my character.

Only you choose how you want to see me.

I don't have any power over that.

Us... Right now...

is only temporary.

The rest is up to you to figure out.

If those letters can help you

bring you closer to your true self...

Then It worked.

I have so many unanswered questions

that none of your letters will give me the answers I'm looking for.

We don't have enough time to repair that broken bridge of the last 30 years.

I'm trying to fix the most important part...

which is your future.

Try to see through your hatred for me, just for a little while.

And look deeper.

You might find what you are looking for.

I don't need guidance from you.

You had your chance.

Being stubborn is one of the worse qualities a person can have.

It blinds you from seeing clearly.

For fear of

hurting your ego.

You have no idea who I am.

You only see the kid that you remember.

You have no clue of the woman I've become.

Who's waiting for you?

That's right.

No one.

You attack others when you are hurt.

Once you break those walls of fear,

you will hear me clearly.

You are dependent on all the wrong things

Once you open your eyes to the real world of possibility,

Then you might stop hating me.

You'll make sense of all of this.

For a moment, I was convinced that

I was doing the right thing.

That you might be on to something.

That your intentions were truly good.

Enough...

I'm not going to the last location.

I'm going home.

There's nothing stopping you.

You're free to do as you please.

Stop being indecisive.

Stick to your choices.

I love you.

No matter what.

What's going on? - No nothing.

It's Adele.

She's replacing me at work but no one has heard from her.

It's not like her to disappear like that.

I'm sorry for earlier.

We were suposed to do something right?

Yeah...

- Thank you for being there for me. - Of course

Knowing that I should have changed.

Yeah you should have...

You're horrible.

It's not a big deal, but it is what it is.

- Where's the concert? - That's what I'm looking at. Calm down.

It's cancelled.

They are saying it's cancelled.

Does it say why?

LIV's manager just died in a car crash.

Fuck, you had tickets for LIV?

Yeah.

I guess that's it for me today.

Of course not - Yeah I'm done.

It's barely begun.

I just want to go home - No we will find something else to do.

I had other ideas anyway.

- I'll go. It's fine. - No, don't move. I'll be right back.

Is it wrong to think that my karma brought me here?

I'm such a bad person that...

It has to affect others before coming back to affect us?

It's unbelievable.

She won't stop until she's tried everything she could.

I have a feeling she's fighting more than me sometimes.

Oh that's a good idea.

Karaoke.

I'm going home. - Come on.

- Come on! We are going to sing. - I said no.

- Please just stop. Let it go. - It's only down the street.

It's 200 meters. There's a movie theater near by.

We could watch a movie. - Come here.

What should I say?

Precisely what you want.

Let me know when you're ready.

OK.

Some of you have questioned my silence.

Something terrible has happened,

and I wasn't ready to share that with you.

I felt that, I had to do.

What I needed to do.

When I was ready to be myself

without pretending.

As you already know, my manager has...

Died in a car accident in Paris.

And when you're faced with tragedy

your life choices are brought into question.

How you've treated

the people around you, and your near and dear ones.

But I haven't

I haven't hidden away

Not only because I’m not strong enough to deal with his death

but also, because I was...

Afraid.

Afraid to be alone with you.

To be held accountable for the person I've become.

Scared to death!

Of showing you who I've really been,

who I really am.

And what remains now

Is just me.

I'm a fraud.

And I have been one for many years.

So here we are.

The beginning of the end.

Listen to my words.

Open your heart.

Try to understand what I wrote.

I will always be a part of you.

Always.

The only thing I wanted in life

was to have you by my side.

To see,

The woman I would become.

Mature.

Do you get it?

I did well.

I'm not perfect but I'm proud of myself.

My daughter will be amazing.

You'll never have the chance

to hold her close and that...

that kills me.

That's one regret I'll never be

able to make peace with.

No words or letters can ever express

the love, more than the touch of someone...

To be present.

I've tried.

So many times,

I've picked up the phone,

trying to reach out to you.

Each time it became harder.

Each time I felt guilty.

That distance made us grow apart.

Somehow I managed to convince myself.

It's only for the best, that I'm not in her life.

I'm sorry for everything that I did.

It was never my intention to hurt you.

I only wanted the life that I dreamed of for myself.

Losing you was the sacrifice.

It didn't have to be like that.

I know.

I was there waiting.

Every day.

I know. It's all my fault.

Like those waves,

once I'm gone...

I'll be nothing but a faded memory.

I'm going to cancel

the remaining concerts of the tour.

It doesn't feel right to continue.

You all would just...

be forced to sit through

concerts that are painful to watch.

I don't want to do that to you.

I'm not willing to inflict that on you.

So, don't feel sorry for me.

My grief, what I'm feeling...

What I'm feeling doesn't matter,

it's nothing compared to what others have gone through. There are those who have it so much worse.

As a child, I always came here in the middle of the night

The sound of the waves are different from what I remembered.

The tides were somehow,

calmer back then...

gentler.

Promise me something.

Be a good mother.

Give your daughter unconditional love.

You will make mistakes

But...

but never lose sight or

let life restrain you in any way.

Dream and conquer your passions.

You had so much passion in you.

The daughter that I'm looking at

right now is so strong.

You only have one life.

Enjoy it.

Do what makes you happy. If not, get rid of it.

Never be afraid.

Be fearless.

So there we are.

I don't think there's anything else to say.

I'm grateful for everything.

For the souvenir.

For the freedom.

For the stupid shit I did.

Without thinking of the consequences.

Maybe it's not the right attitude, but it's mine.

Judge me all you want. I don't care.

This message is for you.

We've...

never met.

We don't know each other.

We've never talked to each other.

Wherever you may be,

if you ever see this message

I want you to know that I'm sorry.

Forgive me.

For taking him away from you.

You were so little...

You lost your father.

I know I was selfish.

I used him.

But he believed in me.

But that should never

be a reason to leave your daughter.

I loved him.

I respected him.

But I manipulated him

until his life was all about me.

I want you to know that...

even if he wasn't

there for you physically

you were always on his mind.

He took every opportunity

to talk about how fantastic you were

and how wonderful you were.

He missed you.

At the same time, he knew what he was doing.

What would you do?

If they told you

you had a short time left to live.

No matter what we choose. We end up alone.

So with this. I'm saying goodbye.

Maybe we'll see each other in another life.

He was...

a passionate man.

Too much at times.

He never complained.

He knew the life he'd chosen would hurt you.

But he did it anyway.

Hello?

Yes.

I'll be there right away...

Thank you.

If you are mad at him.

Please don't be.

Be mad at me, instead.

It was me.

Who kept him from you.

Every time he wanted time off

It was me who didn’t give it to him.

I've always been a lone wolf.

I still am to this day.

I thought that...

alone means being strong.

I've always...

I've always been jealous of you.

I've been afraid of the power

you had over my life.

So you...

You had something I didn't.

He was your father.

He was my life.

But, I know now...

that he should have been with you.

When you needed him the most.

I wish I could turn back time.

But I can't.

I'm so...

incredibly sorry.

I don't want... That's enough.

I don't want to do more.

Shut it off.

It's enough.

No matter what I do.

Where I am.

I have this void...

A void...

An empty void.

That can't be filled.

That's why I've decided to have her.

In the hopes.

That she will give me purpose.

Don't put that burden on your child.

Find your own purpose in life.

By doing that, you will

teach her to pursue her own purpose.

I'm in your blood too.

We are bound no matter what.

Accept it.

Accept yourself the way you are.

You will be able to give your daughter the love she needs.

You have that urge to escape,

just like I had.

Escape...

to build a new life.

Not because you are afraid.

Because you want to be free.

It's all about balance. I understand now.

Although it never seemed to matter much to me

but I know it matters a lot to you.

Your daughter is going to need that balance.

You are so much more mature than I ever was

I'm proud to say that you are a better person than me, in every way.

The only thing I wanted,

was for you to be part of my life.

Hence the reason why we are here.

One last time.

A lot has been said.

But only one thing you need to know.

I always loved you.

God only knows how much I loved you.

Don't leave me.

Are you ready?

Hey.

Are you OK?

Is the urn ready? - Yes.

Good.

Then we'll pick it up and send it to her.

Thank you for taking care of it.

No problem.

You're paying for three weeks vacation, right?

You'd like that, wouldn't you?

No, but seriously.

Ah, OK. Yeah, right!

I need a vacation too.

I'm leaving now.

Let's forget about the tour.

Yes, good.

Come here. - You've got such long legs!

I'll go find love.

Oh, really?

I really need some.

Am I not enough?