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Concerns or anything we can do for you? I do not. All right. Well, just keep up

the good work, Clint. I'm really proud of you. You've really taken to this and

keep going, keep doing what you're doing, and it's only going to get

better. Okay? Thank you, sir. All right.

Good job.

Cody C.

Hat,

Cody.

Hat. Hi, Your Honor.

Hat.

This is Deo. I didn't catch you.

I'm going to put it there. That's fine.

How are you doing? I'm doing great. That's good. How was your weekend?

It was nice. I went to my aunt's house and everything and had family dinner.

Finally, I don't know, got back into my dad's side of the family. I kind of left

there for a while because of, you know, living on drugs and everything. So I

haven't been around them in a long time, but they were really excited to see me.

They're the most people I took from like not literally but like when I went to

jail They'd bomb me out until they found out I was on drugs then they just put

money on my books But they fixed my car for me. They got insurance for me

because I drove here myself today.

Oh Yeah

felt good that's why my

hair is all frizzy because you know windows down country roads I got a spin

Saturday and Sunday with my family.

I got to see my kids and they were really excited and so I did like a

little treasure hunt for my kids for them to find their Easter baskets and I

made them follow the eggs.

My son loved it though. It was awesome.

How you doing Cody?

Good, thanks. That's good.

So today is Cody's first day so let's all make sure that we give him a nice

warm welcome.

Cody, you're standing where a lot of other people have stood before you.

You're the first person, obviously, to be in this spot.

So we welcome you here and look forward to working with you.

So the basic rules are to abstain from drugs and alcohol, attend the court

sessions and appointments, and to submit to your drug and alcohol testing, which

you'll call in for every day.

You follow the rules or we'll intervene.

We treat everyone on a case-by-case basis. There's no rubric.

But back to jail is always an option, and I really don't want that for you,

but sometimes that's the only option we have when things go south.

Does that make sense?

Yes, sir.

Okay.

I'm going to give you a calendar, and with this calendar, what you're going to

do is document your sober support meetings, and you need to bring that to

court with you every single time you come to court.

This program is 18 months approximately and there are three phases that you'll

be progressing through Okay, all right, so we'll see you tomorrow at 1 o'clock

do I take that yes, that's yours. Yeah, you can put that with your gear All

right

Get lost, I get lost in your eyes when you stare at mine. I get lost in the

streets, I don't drink at night.

Werewolf outside, but he don't bite.

I get lost with the voices in my mind.

Why don't I be here before?

New life shining through a crack in the door. Yeah,

yeah, I've been here before.

Seen it in a dream, woke up on the floor.

So why you hating on Kane?

Saying people hate got me stuck in the place Oh, oh, and I'm so stuck in my

ways Waiting for a bullet to get stuck in my face Get away from me, feel the

hate for me Get away from me, feel the hate for me Get away from me, feel the

hate for me Get away from me, feel the hate for me So get lost, get lost

All rise.

You may be seated.

And let's get started.

It's good to see you, Robert.

I'm glad to be here.

How's his book look? Does he have meetings? He's got four online.

Okay.

Because we know he doesn't really have transportation at his mom's. Right.

Well, and see, Greenville, their transit, they've done away with out of

town picking people up, so that kind of made it even more hard now.

Okay. Seems like that's happening everywhere.

How's her book look, Mrs. Seale?

23, and I'm still counting.

26,

27.

28.

And I got another little piece of paper.

29.

Um, I think I got, uh, I got to pay something. I think you do still owe some

fines. Does he have fines? Yes, sir, he does. I think, like, 350 years. Yeah, I

was wondering if I could just pay it next week.

That's up to the judge.

Um, yeah, you can pay it next week. You're working now, so are you able to

put in a little bit on a weekly basis?

Yeah. Yeah. Right. Well, let's let me see. At least you put, you know, show me

some good faith effort next week and have at least something paid on it by

next week. Okay. Yes, sir. All right.

Anything else that we can do for you? Any concerns or anything like that? No,

no, sir.

All right. Just a fan of that tie.

All right. Thanks, Jack. How's your job going?

It's going really well.

I'm adapting to it well.

I'm training on the front end loader.

All right. Actually, I've trained on it. I'm running it by myself.

Doing great. That's exciting.

Yeah, it gives me, it really has helped my self-esteem.

Right. Gives you a feeling of... I could do anything.

Right.

Cody Parsons.

Cody, how you doing today?

Good. That's good.

I understand that there is a bit of a living situation that you have that

needs to be addressed.

Mrs. Steele? Yes, Your Honor. As you well know, the men's shelter and the

homeless shelter are both full right now.

He's in his car.

You know, that's a little too tenuous for us to be satisfied with, so we're

going to be looking into alternatives.

Hopefully something will come up.

open in one of the shelters here soon and miss ceo and the treatment team will

talk to you about that try to get you in a more stable housing situation okay yes

sir i also understand uh that you have some kinship with one jack parsons is

that correct yeah it's my brother back there all right well jack is he's been

up and down in here he does have a heart of gold but you know he's not too far

removed from a positive drug screen it's only about a week

But Mrs. Dio did tell me that you were raised as foster brothers.

So I hope that having both of you in here together will have a positive

impact.

You just get out a couple days ago. Yeah.

Yeah.

You look good.

Me too.

You're free as a bird now.

Something like that.

All I need is dope so I can get paid. My head's set, baby. My T

-240, my blouse, 4K, and my dope. We don't

answer that. We don't answer that.

We don't answer that.

We don't answer that. We don't answer that.

the strength pallets we need a bunch of 26 inches a bunch of 40s right so what i

do see that block there take this come out get to your 26 bring your block to

the 26 line it up or you can do 40 but we're going to start with 26 all right

all right 26.

a bunch of two by fours over here right so grab that come back over here

slide it to about four all the way down 26 inches Get it right each

time. Take your hand.

This side of the blade, bunch of good pressure.

Right? You got to flick that.

If you don't flick that, it's not going to go down.

Yeah.

Simple as that.

Go for it.

Yep. Pressure.

Bunch of pressure.

Fucking amazing.

Scrap pieces.

Scrap in.

You pile up all your cut pieces here, right?

Pretty sure someone will come around and grab them once you've got a bunch piled

up, right?

Fuck you, man. What?

It's just like a bunch of this, a bunch of that. It's a lot of bunches.

You want to fuck a job or not?

Grab my shit.

Now, if you need me, don't. But if you do, I'll be over there by the forklift.

Come on gentlemen.

Yo, yo

All right.

What's your name?

Uh, Cody.

Cody, I'm Anna.

Nice to meet you.

Um, you got another one of those?

Mhm.

It's full service.

Watch this.

You from around here?

Born and raised.

You grew up on a farm or something?

No. I wish.

I'm from Dayton, but my dad, he grew up around here.

He actually was friends with a guy who lost both his arms in a farming

accident.

And then he, the guy just like, learned to do everything with his feet.

He could, like, read.

He could play the guitar.

It's pretty good.

Yeah, he even, like, he got his driver's license and everything.

You never seen him? We've seen him. Sometimes he's going down 70, driving a

horse trailer. He's got both his feet on the wheel.

Relaxed.

You just get used to it after a while, I guess.

It's crazy.

Cool guy.

How do you know here?

Oh.

You see the guy over there making out with that girl?

That's my brother.

How about you?

You see that girl over there?

The one that's making out with your brother?

That's my friend Kim

Sorry about that

Enter your digital access code.

Your test is scheduled for today, April 11th at 1135 AM.

Hey, good morning.

Familiar with these?

Uh, yeah.

Bathroom's at the end of the hall. I'll be right behind you.

This is the long one. This is the short one.

The hat?

Yeah, the hat.

A pile of pizza, not these.

Fuck.

Tia, I see Tia there. Tia, how you doing?

Hi, I'm doing good.

I just started my first day at IV today.

Awesome. Good job, girl.

Some treatment plans, like doing some volunteer work to get my foot in the

door because I'm wanting to go back to school and get my CDCA.

You keep doing what you're doing. We will help you do that, okay?

Thank you. I appreciate that. You've got to be in compliance, though.

You know, you have to follow the program, and if you do that, we've

helped people do that before. We'd be happy to help you do it, too.

Let us know if there's anything else you need, okay?

Jack, come on up.

Jack? Jim says that you failed a drug screen for alcohol.

Is that right, Jim?

That's right, Your Honor.

What happened?

I mean, it was just a couple beers.

Right. Yeah.

I didn't really feel anything.

I didn't cause any problems.

Yet. Huh?

Yet. Hasn't caused any problems yet.

Yeah, but if I... I don't see how.

We have rules for a reason in this program, and you have to comply with

them.

Just because there hasn't been anything that's happened yet doesn't mean that

you're in compliance Do

you

need anything is there anything you can do to help you no, are you sure yeah,

I'm sure Okay. Did you bring in payment for the fines like we talked about last

week?

No, don't have that either why not

I don't have money for it, so.

Right.

Well, if you don't have anything more to say about that, Mrs. Dio will schedule a

hearing on the fines.

And you know the drill.

And you're dismissed.

Cody Parsons?

How's his book look, Mrs. Dio?

Your Honor doesn't have his book with him today.

Where's your book, Cody?

It's in my car.

Is your car here?

No, sir.

Do you need anything? Is there any concerns? Is there anything the court

can do for you?

No, I'm trying.

I just... When you're in this program, Cody...

You have to comply with the rules.

And if you're not, then the court has to sanction your behavior.

So what's it going to be?

We'll be right back.

Have a comfortable living. Thought I'd get tired of winning. Been doing it

since the beginning.

Legs cramping up on the board like I'm missing stretching the seventh inning.

Lord knows that I prayed for this. Been sacrificing my days for this. Done

everything but dug graves for this. So we turning up and it's too late for

this.

Go coast to coast for a day trip.

Booking extra legs that I may skip. Order extra bottles that I may sip. Got

bad habits that I can't kick.

Say the boy going off his rockers. What they do when they can't stop them.

i just be done with the thousands

Hey, man, we need a break, man. Fuck.

Hey.

Hey. Hey, fuck, we need a break, man.

Fuck,

we need a fucking break, man!

Jack!

Wake up, Uncle Monkey.

Wake up, wake up.

Do you wanna have breakfast with me?

Sorry if I scared you.

I just needed a place to crash.

I said I'm sorry, cat.

Let's go get ready.

What?

Get in the kitchen.

Hey, bud.

No. No, no, no, no, no.

No, bud, you're okay. Come on.

You're all right. I didn't fucking do anything.

I didn't do anything.

I'm just going to put the cuffs on you. Why are you here? It hurts you.

I didn't do anything!

Fuck you!

I did not do anything!

Fuck are you here? Fuck are you here?

I didn't do anything!

Fuck you!

I didn't do anything!

I've been hearing from 9 to 9.

How you doing?

You seen Jack?

Well, first I want to talk about you.

Your sister is really concerned about you. Where's Jack?

The sober living house found Jack passed out this morning in the hallway.

This is not his first violation.

So we're going to send him to an intensive treatment center in Greene

County.

They have better tools to work with Jack.

So y'all are just gonna send him away?

We're not sending him away.

He's not going to jail or prison.

He's going to treatment.

He's going to treatment to get better.

And because he's going to treatment, it opens up a room at the sober house.

I don't really want that room.

Why not?

Because I'm fine in my car.

You're clearly not fine in your car. You clearly don't know what you're doing

with us.

I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry if you haven't felt supported or we did something wrong.

You know, but what I am going to tell you is that I'm going to do everything I

can for you and for Jack to help you guys get through this.

So let's go get you a Vivitrol shot this afternoon, and we can figure it out from

there what the next step is.

i'll wait for you in the parking lot i'll get you booked out

Alright,

one, two, three.

Alright, go ahead and rub that in.

I'll check in with you later.

Bye. Bye.

Laundry's in the basement.

You want me to show you? I can anytime you want to.

And man, if you need anything, my door's always open, okay?

There we go.

Cody.

It's Cody. Cody, right?

uh yeah anna from oh the other night oh yeah yeah

oh i i do peer support

uh over at the women's house oh right like another addict they can

talk to when when they need somebody who's been through the program and

everything and yeah that's cool yeah it's nuts people are crazy it's hard

sometimes but I love it.

What's going on here?

I'm moving in here. They got me a room.

Oh, nice.

Okay.

You and Jet?

Not exactly.

Okay.

Well, you need a hand with anything?

I'm good. I think I got it. Thanks, though.

Well, it's good to see you.

I'll see you around, neighbor.

All right, bye.

Bye.

Hey, Cody. We're heading out, buddy.

Is that why they released you?

Hey,

sweetie. How you doing?

you look good you look good great to see you again

My name is Bethany. I'm an addict.

So in our reading that we did, it says we begin to identify our feelings and

verbalize our thoughts and emotions.

It's so crazy because whenever I first got clean, the only emotions that I knew

were the extremes. Either it was really happy, which I was never really happy,

or I was angry.

It took me a long time to even be like, you know what?

This feeling that I'm feeling, this is hurt, shame.

guilt you know what I mean it's all them other feelings because I would just be

on top of the world or down in the dirt you know and that was a beautiful

feeling because I'd be like oh my gosh I'm jealous right now oh my gosh I have

envy I didn't know what envy was until I got into recovery you know there was it

was a beautiful thing and then it said that as we share we see our members

laughing and nodding you know what I mean because everybody's been through

that Everybody sits here. Our stories might not be the same, but they're still

similar. Our feelings are the same. I'm sure we've all had the shame and the

guilt and all them other feelings.

And it's such a good feeling today to be around everybody and know I'm not

different. I'm not a bad person.

I let drugs rule my life, but today I don't have to allow that anymore.

Carrie, I'll call it that.

I did drugs and alcohol for a long time because I didn't want to feel life as

life is, you know.

Today, this program has taught me that it's good for me to feel things because

I don't know how to feel like normal people do.

And with the tables and the recovering addicts here.

have taught me like how to deal with the happiness the sadness the madness the

death the grit the you know the emotions that i never ever wanted to feel and um

i'm great so grateful for these rooms because this is my cure and

so with that it's good day to be clean and i'll pass

I'm Cody, and I'm an addict. Hi, Cody.

I've been addicted to opiates since I was 17, and I'm part of the adult

recovery court program, and so I'm here.

That's a pass.

You mind giving me a hand with this thing?

How much are you going to pay me?

Um, have to be like an IOU situation.

Just hold on to the black part.

Let me sharpen it. Yeah, okay.

Ow!

Are you serious?

Don't do that.

Okay. Yep.

Just put it down here.

Now what?

I would offer to, like, give you driving lessons or something.

But... Or you could just drive me places.

I always wanted a chauffeur.

Sure you want the guy with the crashed car to be your chauffeur?

Well, you know...

Me I always drug test my drivers.

That's the first thing I do. Yeah, I just want to make sure that we're gonna

We're gonna get there in one piece That's that's probably smart

Yeah,

I

gotta go all right

You going to graduation?

Um, yeah, I'm thinking about it.

Uh-huh.

Okay, I'll see you there.

Bye. Bye.

Thanks to Adult Recovery Court, I have learned that I don't need drugs to be

happy.

True happiness comes from building a life that I am proud of, a life that

doesn't revolve around drugs.

Today, I have a job that I am proud of, working with Bayhand Law.

I have my own apartment.

I have reconnected with my family. That connection means more to me than I can

put into words.

I want to thank Judge Bragg and the staff at Adult Recovery Court for their

tough love and support.

You've showed me that I'm capable of...

More than I had ever thought, and they gave me a push I needed when I was

ready to give up.

And to everyone still in the program, just let me say the hardest day in drug

report is still easier than any day on drugs.

Look over here.

My husband was like, I'm like, you borrowed the damn thing.

I told you not to. There's a story of a snake that was sleeping with their owner

just to size them up.

What are those, like, the bow constructors, the big, huge ones?

It wasn't like you, because it was saving lives.

No way.

Take it? Yep.

Easiest thing we've done.

Yeah, there we go.

Sorry.

Pop all those too.

Yeah My

job here is done

Where do you think you're gonna go after us?

Um... I thought about moving to Columbus maybe after. Oh.

Me and Jack always talked about moving there.

Nice to get away.

And a friend of mine from high school has like a bookstore there, so I thought

maybe I could get a job there.

Maybe. I don't know. What about you?

Well, I'm going to be there in the fall, like part-time at least.

I'm going to go back to school.

Oh.

What for?

What? Nothing. I'm going to be a therapist.

you'll be good at that you think yup

that's nice i've been rethinking

it a little bit lately like because it's like

like if everybody here

leaves then like who's gonna be here for the people who can't

I don't know what I'm talking about.

No, it makes sense.

It makes a lot of sense.

You're easy to talk to, I guess.

I can't. I want to.

I'm just really working on moving towards custody and stuff, and, you

know, like, just with my own shit going on. No, I get it. I'm really just

trying, you know, to get involved.

Yeah, sorry.

I'm desperate for a job.

I've been applying for everywhere.

You've been applying for a while.

Yeah, well, this last week especially, and I had two interviews last week. I

got hired at TJ Maxx, but they got to do a background check first, and I'm not

confident in that now.

Right. But they said as long as my background check comes back good, I'm

good to start working there whenever they start up on May 19th.

All right, very good.

Good luck with everything.

Have a good day.

All right.

I'm going to start with the folks on video.

Jack, how are you doing?

Doing good. Thanks for asking. How are they treating you down there at the

Christopher house?

Pushing stuff and, you know, taking it easy.

Shit, I, um, I'm gonna ask, you catch that Reds game last night?

Oh, I sure did.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I mean, shit, uh, part of my, my leg, but, um, dang.

I mean, that was something, huh?

It was something, yeah.

All right, it's good to see you. Take care, okay, Jack?

All right, yeah. Bye, Jack. Bye now.

Trevor, I'm an addict. Hey, Trevor.

I actually was married for a while. And both me and my wife

went down the wrong paths.

Neither one of us could say no.

And we basically fueled each other to continue to do drugs until it got to the

point where I made a decision in my life to get better for my kids. I have three

daughters. I mean, I've been It's been three years now and I still feel bad

when I look at my kids because I think of the time that I didn't have with

them. But I can say that I got full custody of my girls.

And I coached our t-ball team and our softball team and I absolutely

love my girls.

So keep in there guys, keep working hard, okay? Get yourself around good

people.

Good people like you said it's people places and things for sure for sure I

passed I knew Trevor when he was a baby me and his mom were like really really

good friends So sometimes like sitting here I'm embarrassed because you know,

I'm the mom I have kids his age and it's embarrassing for me at this age to be an

addict So when I seen him and I never really knew your story So, but I know

your mom dad are very proud of you and I see all the pictures of all your girls.

So

Congratulations, buddy. Thank you.

You're welcome.

Now I'm here, I'm almost, I'll have my six months next month, so I mean, that's

it. Nice.

Keep coming. Keep coming.

We're going to get my family back, so with that, I pass.

Thanks, Shannon. Love you.

I'm Cody, and I'm an addict.

Cody.

I guess something I've been thinking about,

my mom used to call me Hurricane.

which I never really understood what it meant.

And I guess doing this, I'm starting to see it a

little bit more.

I was the first person to give my brother heroin, my brother Jack, seven

years ago.

He's not my real brother. He's my foster brother, but it was never really like

that. Growing up, it's never really different.

And he and my sister were really close for a while.

I guess they just had personalities that click.

And I was kind of really breaking into her

house a lot, stealing stuff.

And I would use her place to go and shoot up when I didn't have anywhere

else to go.

She kicked me out a lot.

And she found out about Jack using, when she found us in

her bathroom.

I guess we were in pretty bad shape.

And she called an ambulance.

And, sorry.

It wasn't until I came around a little bit later and saw her looking at Jack in

the hospital bed, I kind of realized, you know,

I just never really seen her like that before.

So it made me think. And I think just doing this

and...

Going to meetings and talking about it first time. I've really like seen it in

a different way, you know, so Yeah, I'm just trying to work it out

without a pass

Hey. Hi.

I just wondered if I'd come in to say hi.

You want to try to put that in there?

Like this.

I can eat it.

Hey, you did. Nice.

You ever tried eating it without a spoon?

No. Have you seen that?

Check this out. Ready?

You want to try?

Here you go.

One time when I was little, I got it all over my face. I looked like Casper the

Friendly Ghost.

Yeah.

You don't know who Casper is?

No. You've never seen Casper the Friendly Ghost?

No.

You never showed her that?

Nope.

All right, I think it's bedtime, Miss Harley.

Now that you're all sugared up, perfect time for bed.

Say thank you for all the burgers and all the wood.

Got some good work done?

All right.

I'll see you soon.

I found them the other day.

I think it's like his fifth birthday party or something.

I think you're right.

Have you heard from him?

Mm-hmm.

How's he doing?

Uh, he's good. He says he's...

Back on the path to graduating.

This summer, I think.

He's working at a kitchen down there.

Seems like he likes it.

He asked about you.

He said he tried to call.

What'd you tell him?

I didn't.

I know you and me, um, never really, like...

Maybe you didn't want to hear from me.

But I want to tell you that I'm sorry.

Been going to a lot of these meetings and, um... seeing it all.

A lot of the stuff that happened.

And, um... Yeah, best I can do is take, like, a really

close look at it.

Make sure you know that I'm sorry.

I just don't know what you want me to say.

No, I don't either.

I just wanted to tell you and make sure you knew.

I think that there's just... a lot that I...

cannot understand.

And there's just a lot that I do not know how to forget.

All right, let's see.

That's working.

You've been with us now four months, and, you know, we're kind of looking

back at the calendar.

Doing well, doing your meetings. You know, you're a good example for the new

people coming in.

How do you feel about where you're at in your recovery?

Um, yeah, I think pretty good.

We think so, too.

The judge thinks so.

Matter of fact, he'd like to promote you to phase two.

Really? Yeah, absolutely.

So you need to work on the letter.

Bring it to court on Monday.

Okay.

Thanks.

Okay.

What is it?

I found him in the employee restroom at McKinley's before his shift was about to

start.

He was fentanyl.

An ambulance was called, and they tried to resuscitate him there, and again,

numerous times on the way to the hospital, which is where he passed away.

So sorry for your loss.

Hello? Cody?

I'm so sorry.

Everybody said he was doing so well.

He was.

He was.

I just... I didn't think it was going to end up this way.

You know, one of the things I've learned over the years doing this is that it's

never really anyone's fault.

It's not Jack's fault.

It's not my fault.

Cody, I'm gonna stay on the phone with you as long as you need me to.

I'm writing this letter to begin phase two of adult recovery court.

I'd like to start by thanking the judge, Jim, Eric, Mandy, Gary, Annette,

peer support, and everyone else who has helped me get to this point.

You really care about us and our recovery.

You want us to do better for ourselves and for the people around us, and that

means a lot.

I'd also like to thank the other participants in the program.

for setting a good example for me to follow and support me when I thought

about giving up or I didn't want to be here.

This is a day... Sorry.

This is a day I didn't think I'd get to.

My brother Jack should be standing up here.

I accept that that's not possible.

And that's something I can't change.

But with the support of you all, I have the courage to keep going and to change

the things I can.

In phase two, I will work towards getting my own place and finding a

sponsor.

I will continue to rebuild my trust with people and my family. I hope I can be a

better brother, a better uncle, and a better friend moving forward.

And someone who people can rely on.

This is definitely the hardest thing I've ever done, but I'm grateful to be

here. I'm going to keep working.

Thank you.

I know you worked real hard

at it, Cody, and done a great job here in this phase, and so the court is

promoting you to phase two.

Congratulations. Great job.

Thank you.

Here, we got a little something for you.

Here's your certificate.

Thanks.

See you in a few weeks. Thank you.

Devante.

How you doing, Devante? Doing good. That's good.

How was your weekend?

Um, my weekend was alright.

The kids aren't doing too good.

So much for making mountains out of hills Each time I

use these words they grow so weak they broke on me So much for

unconditionally loved And each time I repeat you're less

likely to forgive me

But if I know one thing It's that this water's deeper than it

looks from here right now So don't be so brave

And don't act so cool You're only afraid of what your fears

will make you do So don't be so brave

So if you jump from where we're standing, don't look down.

Each time I dream, I see you crash into a cloud.

And you lost your balance, but you make the fall your own. And still

you only come so close.

So don't be so brave.

Don't act so cool.

You're only afraid of what your fears will make you do.

So don't be so brave.